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the masters program I was going for has been canceled
#i am beside myself#this was the perfect program#i was so excited#and the process has been so difficult#i just sent in my visa application and paid all their stupid fucking fees and then they tell me this#and recommend switching to TESOL. THE ONE PROGRAM I WAS COMPLETELY DISINTERESTED IN.#god im both miserable and furious#and i get this news in the parking lot before i go into work. hell.
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DPx DC Au: Might as well be brothers. Young Justice hears about a regional hero disappearing, and while they've never met the guy, Red Robin's contacts say that Ra's is hunting him for afterlife/immortality related reasons.
Tim drake hates the annoying white uniform he's wearing but breaking into this place is crucial to his 24 hour plan to rescue Phantom. He'd never even heard of the guy until a week ago when Pru came to him with info that Ra's was looking into Midwest Real Estate, and then Tim stumbled down the rabbit hole of Ghost conspiracy theories until he saw an article demanding that local officials speak on the hero's absence of 10 days. 10 days was short enough that Tim might find a sign of life and well, another federal agency being hacked by Red Robin is nothing new.
So now, he's walking down the halls with these stupid fucking glasses and this stupid fucking suit while Kon listens from the comfort of the surveillance van. He takes a turn and sees the track suits that the illegally detained inmates are wearing, and pivoting the plan, makes his way to a locker room to get one and get changed. It does take him an extra second and he considers that this might bite him- but Tim knows the place inside and out. He's scoured all their data, and sue him for being cocky, but he has a literal alien ready to tear the place apart waiting for his heart rate to jump above 80 bpm. which is a pretty low heart rate all things considered.
Tim gets exactly where he's meant to go, and waits only a few minutes before he see's the science team extract Phantom from the high security room.
Phantom doesn't make it clear if he notices Tim, but he's basically being dragged by the couple, so Tim decides to beat them to their destination. The experimental wing had shown up in their reported data not long after they made it extremely obvious that they had Phantom in their data output.
Tim's already in the room when he starts to notice that it's not exactly a room... more like a mechanical space. The way the corners curl in the room make it almost tube like... Portal like.
Phantom is thrown in and Tim grabs him the second the scientists leave, but the kill switch key Tim made to get them out isn't working for this door like it did all the others.
"Not... Not a door."
"We're in some sort of device aren't we? Something of their own design that the government isn't aware they're funding?"
"Portal. You've gotta get out, even if you get caught, you gotta get out now."
Tim's comm comes alive in his ear, its Kon responding to Tim's heart rate rising- and Tim is hesitant to call him in but ultimately tells him to start flying over for extraction.
Then the portal goes off, and while he feels pain, he doesn't feel different. Bright light subsiding, Kon's arms around him with a confused voice, and lots of lasers being fired his way... Tim wakes up to see a much younger Phantom looking at him from the other side of the young justice couch.
Kon, Bart and Cassie are all fighting at a white board that's been wheeled in but Tim can only yawn and blink his way into consciousness enough to give a shit.
Black haired and blue eyed, button nosed with large ears, a wry thin lipped smile... Tim realizes that Phantom looks incredibly similar to his younger self. And then Tim looks at his much smaller hands and realizes that he probably looks a lot more similar to his younger self than normal.
Taking in the scenery once more, the white board is divided on the traits Tim has to the children sitting left and right on the couch. Kon didn't know who was who. That meant that maybe... the government didn't either.
Phantom turns out to be a pretty chill dude despite all the trauma, and he's incredibly prepared to both fuck with Ra's and the government in their newly found childhood twin-ship.
One of the twins is scarier than the other, and despite Danny literally haunting them, its always Tim.
(Okay now its some one else's turn :D )
#dcxdp#dpxdc#dc x dp#dp x dc#danny phantom#dc crossover#dp crossover#long post#dc universe#tim drake#red robin#twin au#or lol they just look very similar because little kid features are difficult#deaged au#wait until the bats arrive and are equally unhelpful in determining the correct twin#danny and tim silently agreeing that its for the better plot if they don't make it obvious who is who#danny has shit to process about being phantom and just wants to be a kid about things for a lil while#tim can function with any disguise and his whole family will take so long to figure out he's been deaged bc his reports come in on time#kon feels so guilty about not knowing who is who#kon grabbed them both in his panic and in the scuffle of the explosion and the lasers being shot out totally mixed them up
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Things that are so much fun: matching lingerie, dresses that swish, butts, colourful petticoats.
Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me
#Getting dressed- a process!#Dressing up has been so difficult lately but it's getting easier again! It's such a wonderful feeling!! so pleased with my look yesterday 🥰#satans knitwear#White lace lingerie#cheeky#My gif to you#Ootd#vintage style#Vintage vibes#retro fashion#uk girl#alt pinup#pinup girl#British Retro
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jones the robot (+ alt versions)
#so this illustration was kept uncolored for a while since i was not up to rendering it. then saw a challenge where u mix a random palette->#together and put your device on grayscale mode then paint using those colors based on value#i tried doing that and what came out was hideous i still had to tweak the hues and apply filters to be less of an eyestrain#my art process just keeps getting weirder and weirder and i kind of like it that way but it's also really difficult to stay consistent#OK enough rambling. love this show lots#robot jones#draws#on another note i am opening commissions soon.. my financial situation has not been looking great for me
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here’s the thing: i want attention
here’s the other thing: if i am perceived in any way i will violently explode like a poorly maintained home brewery kit
#i fear I must once again up my antidepressants#NINE MONTHS out of work 🙃🙃🙃#i have once again been ghosted with one foot into the interview process#an interview process my best friend moved heaven and earth for and for which i am more than qualified#so really what is the fucking point#ruby has Not shit yet and getting a semi urgent but not emergency vet appt is proving Extremely Difficult#also there’s roaches
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Bucket Hat Shenanigans
Video taken by itbcait on tiktok
#sleep token#song: take me back to Eden#i love how iii gets the crowd going. leaves. comes back with The Hat. then plops it down on vessel while he's singing.#he's so funny#I Adore Him#(please for the love of everything let this post)#((this clip. has been. so difficult to post it keeps glitching. it fucked my accounts processing over for like an hour.))#(((pplleeaassee)))#also vessel giving up on trying to keep it on and throwing it down. lmao
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Absolutely gutted about switchraft shutting down in December, I don’t know what to do with myself. It was such a meaningful, beautiful, fabulous to play game that I played constantly to help with my anxiety and cheer me up. It was the best match 3 game I’ve ever played, the gameplay was wonderful. I’m going to try and finish the story before it shuts down but I feel like I’m mourning Lovestruck all over again. It’s going to leave such a big hole in my life and I’m destroyed I only have less than two months left with it.
If anyone knows of a Switchcraft discord or wants to be friends and chat about it, feel free to lmk because the fandom feels so small and it’s hard to mourn alone 💔
#switchcraft#wooga#wooga games#switchcraft wooga#genuinely I’ve been crying all night since I found out#this is going to be a long difficult process for me emotionally#im going to miss it so much#also life has been so so. hard lately#that this feels like it’s come at just the right time to gut me#I feel like shit
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This might sound attention seeking so I'm sorry if it does, it is not my intention, I am just looking for a distraction.
Since my anxiety is actively trying to kill me, I'd really appreciate some asks or something
The more bizarre the question, the better, but I'll take things for my wips or ocs
Just anything to distract me from the fact I feel rather miserable lately
*i get sappy in the tags*
#i have been absolutely going through it for a long ass time now#and i sincerely appreciate everyone who has stayed and supported me/my work#i am so awful at really expressing it but i do not know where i would be without the support im getting from some of yall#yall are so patient with me even though i am constantly complaining and just avoiding working on certain wips because im stuck#im having a health problem that is making me seriously reconsider if i should go back to school in january#and its added a layer of stress to the already stressful process of enrolling in college#i have so many things i still need to get done for going back soon but my health may end up not allowing me to go back in january#its absolutely terrifying still not having a definite on whats going to happen come the new year#and its made engaging on here difficult#its made writing difficult#its made honestly just existing difficult but that i can cope with#i really appreciate everyone that has stopped by and taken time to hang out on my blog with me#it really does mean so much to me and i really wish i could get these personal things figured out sooner#so i can give back to yall for what youve done for me#certified snootles moment
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Love jaydick and how they love each other.
They'll never have joy over a joined kill...
Jason will take pride in doing the right thing.
While Dick will suffer the misery of doing what needs to be done.
Dick loves Jason in spite of his violence. He acknowledges his lack of understanding of Jason's need to enact such form of justice, and he wouldn't necessary join Jason in his methods. But Dick's love for Jason is so strong he is willing to tolerate, for Jason only.
#jaydick#would this breed bitterness in their love?#maybe but surely not enough to break them apart#jason has his fair share of concessions for dick's sake#do i think tolerance is a great base for fictional love?#maybe but jaydick's love is that of a realistic basis jason and dick have been through so much to be away and close to each other#life worked against them with bruce in between them and their very interesting dynamic#loving each other is a conscious choice put into practice#jason love dick from the beginning while dick learnt to slowly accept his love and give some of his own back to jason#it' hard to put everything between them behind but they do it's a difficult process and they do their best with it#we have our own love in our life and tolerance. real selfless tolerance of another is such a great testament of love in my opinion#dick doesn't hang this over jason's head just like jason doesn't hang his many concessions (far more than dick) over dick's#they learnt from past experiences that this line of behaviour won't get them nowhere#so yeah#they decided to love each other despite everything&everyone#which is a damn hard thing to do if you are them lol
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My cosplays got shouted out on a podcast
#🥹😭#I cryyy#cosplay updates#I was feeling really down and unmotivated today#idk the third life crisis has been bad lately#the void has been calling you know#just stuck as shit but then some random people I met were like that shit's cool#bruh what#I'm just some dirt bag#now I have to listen to it which is gonna be a challenge because you know audio processing is difficult#randomly reminded that my audio processing issues are so bad that I actually have hearing aids (that I no longer use)
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looking back i have healed and improved emotionally and just overall SOOOOOO much in the past couple years
#really really grateful i was given a chance to keep living#and a chance to grow and start over where so many people can’t bc of death by overdose :/#I’m really proud of myself too. I’ve done a lot of work on myself and I’ve actively participated in my recovery#i go to a WONDERFUL therapist regularly i have a great psychiatrist both of which helped me so much with staying clean from fentanyl#but i know that i deserve most of the credit in that situation bc I’m the one who chose to change and waited and got horribly ill#I’m the one who decided i was going to stay sober and not turn back to that shit#I’m the one who has done the internal work#I’m the one who has 827 days off that shit#they have been a wonderful part of my support system throughout this process and i know it would be very different without them#but this was something i did when it was SO difficult and I’ll never stop being proud of myself for that.
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#minor health rant ok i'm sorry it's just. i've been debilitatingly ill on and off for this entire last year and it hasn't once let up#and i've had to deal with uni and grades and assignments and adjusting to living on my own for the first time#all while having an autoimmune disease that went undiagnosed for the first six months i was at uni.#and i've only just started to process how difficult this last year really was bc when i was in the thick of it#i just told myself i had to keep going. i had to get through it. and i DID i got through this entire year#and i did my exams and my labs and my assignments and i joined a sports club and a choir#and i balanced all of these things whilst i was actively iron deficient and malnourished and recovering from pneumonia#not to mention the literal Chronic Fatigue and Malnutrition Disease i didn't even know i HAD#AND YET. AND. YET. my family has turned this into a joke#i'm not even allowed to be that upset about it. they still expect great things from me bc that is who i am that is who i have ALWAYS been#and i don't know who i am anymore!! i don't know what i can do!! i spent ten months so sick i could barely function and i still DID IT.#it's no good telling me they're proud of how resilient i am!!! i don't want to have to be resilient i want to be WELL#i don't want to be told how strong i am i want the simple comfort of being allowed to REST#i don't know how many more times i have to remind them that i have an actual CHRONIC INCURABLE DISEASE before they listen to me#ANYWAY. complaining over lolol i'm sure i'll be fine!! haha#it's not like i'm ever NOT fine lmaoo#ok everyone back to scheduled posting. realness over !!#🙏🙏
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and, the other day someone had scattered roses all over the beach (i drew the chevrons)
#all the love to all of you#this has been such an odd and difficult month im still not processing#im not sure when/if its gonna sink in#i love him and i think id be a different person today without him#and i know so many people feel the same so thats that
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it's kinda crazy how little time it's felt like there's been since 2020. it's like immeasurable to me to think of how much has happened between then and now
#being personal on main lol but i went through a really extensive period of trauma and abuse from 2019-2021#getting out of it and living my life since then has been an incredible blessing#but its crazy how your brain processes trauma. i find it so difficult to move on from things now#like ive had my current job nearly 3 years and its been pretty terrible recently#but its kind of all ive known since escaping my situation so i feel like its been a lifeline. one thats definitely extended its stay lol#i wish it was easier to talk about the effects of trauma with my friends and close coworkers.#not the actual trauma itself but the aftershocks#my brain is an entirely different organism than it was in 2019 before all of it#just musing thoughts into the void bc ive been pretty depressed lately and im trying to get out of it. its been better by day but damn#thx for reading if u did. makes it all feel a little less lonely#<333
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Me: I would like to be rereferred to this service if you still have a psychologist. If there is no psychologist please don't refer me, I don't want to have to go through the assessment process again otherwise.
Them: okay :) the wait will be eighteen weeks for an assessment appointment :)
Me: okay, that's a little frustrating so in the meantime I will reach out to another service as the wait is so long and then maybe the assessment will be helpful
Them, after several weeks: oh we see you have reached out to another service so do not need our help. Also we lied there is no psychologist and we are not a mental health service. Bye.
#why didn't you just. tell me there was no psychologist. a question that i asked very clearly in my first email.#i am going to SCREAM.#so if i want another assessment i will have to go back on the waiting list again despite waiting for almost three months already.#that's if they would even bother to refer me again#i understand rescources are limited but idk I've had so many fucking phone calls about nothing how hard would it be to ring me.#no. just an email to my gp that i was fortunate enough to be cced on.#and now i have to face the process of having to try and get some kind of help through my gp again#I'm just trying to process my frustrations. today has been a difficult day.
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Your only comments on someone's plate should be "oh, what's that?" or "that looks delicious!" that's that that's literally it, no one has the right to ruin someone's meal saying shit like "hmm, you should watch your carbs :/"
Like shut up. shut up. dont project your insecurities on my food. I'm hot & sexy & you bet your ass ill be eating these carbs. Fuck off.
#food m/#diet culture#i dont call them 'carbs' mom i call them 'food'#also i have a TON of sensory processing issues bc autism so eating has always been something SO difficult to me#so you see me. actually happy about the plate i made. and you try to make me feel bad about it???#fuck you im eating this garlic bread now just to spite you
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