#and the cafe always closes at 5 so i wont be doing lates

[rosekasa]

im still thinking about this.

if you ever want to feel stupid, just know that, because i have a crush on the barista at my uni cafe, ive ordered like four cups of green tea in a two hour period, and only just learned that decaf is NOT the default for green tea

[im-not-a-simp-i-swear]

Accidentally walking in on you doing it with someone else

Scenario: you were doing the deed with your favorite boy, no need to beat the bush there. The one difference here is that one of the other brothers catches you two in the act.

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💙LUCIFER

- he was just looking for you to talk about a proyect Diavolo had proposed to him earlier. Failing to find you in your room he suspected you were at Mammon's, there was no need for him to think otherwise. You two always seemed closed, specially lately.

- its was when he walked into the room of his brother and saw said brother's car moving back and forth even though it was parked in place.

- will just stand where he is at for thw next 5 seconds before slowly leaving the room with a very disturbed face

- lucifer has seen many things but this? This... he will take a good while to recover from. Just imagine being a dad and you walk into your kid doing it with their partner, it'd be gross! He has all the right to have that face right now

- goes from being the avatar of pride to the avatar of embarrasment, he is not ok after seeing that, not at all

💛MAMMON

- searching for his partner in crime to test out a new plan of his, you werent in your room however so he had to start searching.

- after some walking around HoL he managed to hear your voice in the library, however it wasnt the typical tone he was used to hearing so much. In fact for a second he feared you were hurt, making him pick up his pace.

- he slammed open the doors only to find you and Satan... playing twister on one of the seats there.

- Satan and you were rightfully pissed yet embarrassed, however the individual who takes the trauma is Mammon! He, like the eldest, will just stand there, horrified for a few seconds, before finally reacting and getting mad at Satan for being this close to you

- watch as the siblings begin to argue over who should be with you and why, maybe while at it you and Satan should at least cover up (or at least you should cause i think Satan would br too pissed to bother)

🧡LEVIATHAN

- a new episode of a show that he's been watching lately finally came out and he must rant his thoughts to you now

- its only when he is heading to your room that he notices something coming from the twin's room. But hey, a little quick peak wont do him harm right? Afterall, Beel and Belphie arent anything but a pair of chill boys :)

- boy was he wrong, in fact he was so wrong about what he thought he'd see that he lets out a short but hearable screech that you get to catch.

- will actually just dissapear into tin air when you and beel turn around to the door, worried about who could be dear anyways

- as Levi runs to hide in his room all kinds of thoughts pass by his mind, fear, embarrasment, jealousy, i think we all know he'd be upset that you didnt end up picking him as your partner but that isnt as important as the horrific view that he had access too

💚SATAN

- he was waiting for you at the main entrance so you two could head to the new cat cafe that was opened recently with Solomon

- seeing you not appearing in time like usual however made him concerned and a bit annoyed, there are cats to pet and live MC you cant juat waste his time like this!

- heading to checking at your room he heard your voice coming from Lucifer's office. Just what did you do to get in trouble? And why was it without him!?

- all previous thoughts are thrown at the window the moment he sees lucifer's naked butt with you going feral of his desk, he actually gags in disgust and runs out just as fast as he walked in

- its enough to catch yours and lucifer's attention to quickly stop and gets dressed.

- anyways, good luck with your cat adventure now cause the vibes wont be good between you and Satan

💖ASMODEUS

- needed your help with a photoshoot of his later today, he just couldnt pick the outfits and if he took any longer then things would just get more complex later on. Come on MC he looks great in almost anything! He cant just choose by himself!!

- he was heading to your room when he sensed a familiar feeling coming from one of his older brother's room. Levi? Funny, he questions just what is he doing or watching and why is he having such a lovely time without him?! He wants to watch, even if its just some honry anime he's cool with it :))

- he opened the door with no shame and his jaw would dropped by what he saw, you on top of Levi in his bedtub following the fashion rules of nature... there being no rules of fashion because nature has no clothes

- being the avatar of lust he started teasing you both for doing the dirty together, he starts to also give critizism on what you two are doing leading to Levi getting angry and yelling at him to get out

- once kicked out of the room however Asmo starts to feel bad, not for pissing off Levi but because he jusy shouldnt have entered like that, to any room, that lustful feeling he felt left the moment you two noticed him enter the room, of course it would get akward

❤BEELZEBUB

-Was showering after quite the training session of today, he was also to busy thinking about what to eat to listen to the wild animal noises going on in his shared bedroom.

- funny enough he kind of just walks in but barely pays attention, like he knows its you two but also just doesnt care. As long as neither you or belphegor are hurt or such then he has no reason to worry.

- he'll say hi to you two and leave his stuff on his bed before leaving afterwards to get back on his own stuff. I know this is a repetive idea but it just makes sense that not a single thought goes through beel's head.

- he kind of works like a kid walking in such a scene thinking his parents are just playing twister only for years later realize the truth, but with the difference that, once again, we wont pay much attention to it anyways

💜BELPHEGOR

- oh the poor boy is about to see some things when planning to ask Asmo for some pillows for a prank him and Satan have been working on.

- instead he has caught you in the most bizarre of positions with the avatar of lust. Im sure we both know just how traumatized the cow boy might be by the sight.

- Asmo will notice, but not stop, instead he'll make you scream his name louder just for funsies and to make belphie more disturbed.

- sleep? Belphie needs no sleep? Avatar of sloth? Naaaaahhh he is the complete oposite now, he is doing just fine being awake and not sleeping. He is quite right now because he is planning on how not to sleep today, not because he is absolutely traumatized but because he just doesnt wanna sleep today🙂 he is good, stop asking and let him be🙂

[simluvbot]

Sunghoon as your boyfriend

a/n: as usual with these bf headcanons, im sorry it was so messy TT also thank you so so much for over 100 followers !! <33

open to read <3

tbh it got to a point where literally everyone but you two knew that you were crushing on each other..

Sunghoon can very oblivious sometimes, and so can you

Sunghoon can very oblivious sometimes, and so can you

tbh it was literally until jake had to spell out to sunghoon how he obviously had a crush on you which is what prompted him to actively make moves on you (lmao)

And, sooner or later, you both ended up dating :D

Sunghoon is be pretty awkward early on in the relationship so it’s just so so precious ):

so every small moment of skinship between you both has butterflies instantly swarming in your stomachs and your cheeks heating up like crazy ):

And sunghoon will think about it for ages in his bed later at nighttime, replaying the moment you took his hand in yours and interlocked your fingers with his

He’d think about how soft your hands felt in his hold and how fuzzy the feeling made him feel, and sunghoon isn’t one to freak out easily but gee the butterflies you made him feel (he will never tell you about that though)

Many late night dates!

I say this for literally every enhypen member but to me this concept just fits so well with all of them

Sunghoon likes going on late night walks with you in private (and safe!) parks where he knows that you two will be completely alone

He loves walking around with you for hours, chatting away about random weird topics and sharing shy eye contact with each other

Or he will also like to lay down on the grass with you, backs on the plush ground and stargazing together 💔

He’ll admire your side profile and smile at your awed expression as you stare up at the stars, thinking about how pretty you look under the moonlight

But then when you turn to face him he’ll look away and pretend he was never looking in the first place🙄

To me sunghoon seems the type to silently appreciate you and the small moments he shares with you.

You could be sitting across from him eating messily while ranting about your day and he’ll simply nod, barely listening and instead watching the way your moth moves and how prettily your lips create shapes as you talk

Or you could be simply doing nothing at all, instead laying on the sofa on your phone and he’ll look up from his own now and then, quietly reflecting and feeling thankful for how you’re in his life

):

In public he is very much the silent observer! but not in a creepy way, it’s all loving of course, especially since hoon has said before that he’s not the best with expressing his words and feelings

So he instead shows his love and appreciation to you through small acts of service and gifts!

It’s small things that he does for you, such as tying your shoelaces for you, pulling you onto his other side when you’re asking along a busy road so he is the one one the road side instead or buying what he knows is your favourite snack to surprise you with!

I think that he will also ask jay for tips on what to cook for you hehe. He likes to surprise you and pls I just see him standing wearing an apron as he tries to follow the recipe jay gave him so he can make you your favourite food for you to eat the next day )):

Many cafe dates!!

Have you seen that picture of him sipping from a drink as he sits at a cafe table?? yeAH WELL

takes you out to his favourite cafes all the time 😁😁

going on the lookout for best cafés on your dates is YOUR THING i see it

Sunghoon honestly treasures you so much and although he doesn’t express it in words often, he really thinks about you a lot ): so many little things remind him of you its ridiculous. 

he’ll see something and go like “oh!” which confuses the other members but its just because he saw something that made him think of you lol

He is comfortable enough with you to be vulnerable in front of you!

At first when you both started dating he was reallyyyy shy since he is an introvert.. but ofc soon the ice boy melted and he eventually became so much more comfy around you :D

so yes park sunghoon does share a lot of his weird thoughts and personality with you lmao

but its just bc he trusts you and knows that you wont judge him ):<

Takes you on ice skating dates where he teaches you how to skate

Will come up with a simple routine with you

I’m gonna cry I’m gonna pass out I can’t take this I’m tearing up TAKE MY PHONE AWAY FROM NE AT THIS

he will come up with ): simple ice skating routines with you ): where he spins you around and holds both your hands steadily as he skates backward and guides you forward, making breathless eye contact while he rests his forehead against yours, smiling softly

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although when you do end up falling he laughs 🙄 he is so rude i stg

but he then helps you back up of course, holding your gloved hands in his softly since they took the most impact of ur fall 

he’ll massage them gently in his, concerned and telling you to be more careful next time and showing you how to regain your balance when you feel yourself slipping.

“aha like you will even need to use that technique anyways y/n because your ice prince will save you from falling.”

sighs. anyways

Whenever he catches you staring at him (which is 99% of the time when you’re with him because well, duh), he will the hELL out of you lmao

He teases you pretty often anyways

“If you’re just going to continue staring at me this whole time then just take a photo instead y/n, it lasts longer you know 😐.”

“I know I’m handsome y/n. Instead of making it so obvious with your googly eyes then don’t be afraid to say it too. I don’t bite 🙂👎.”

Is so proud of himself whenever he gets you flustered at his comments because as much as it embarrasses you, what he says is true </3 and you don’t deny it

But then when YOU tell him how attractive he is in a teasing way it’s HIM that starts blushing LMFAO

“The view is so pretty.” You said, sighing out as you stood next to sunghoon on the top floor balcony.

“Yeah, Seoul is so beautiful.” Your boyfriend commented, nodding as he looked down at the blinking lights from down below.

Frowning, you tilted your head as you stared at him. “Oh, I wasn’t  talking about that.”

Looking up, sunghoon looked at you in confusion. “What do you mean then?”

“I meant the view is so pretty. You’re the view.”

Gets so flustered PLSJDKSJS he looked away from you and ignored you for the next 5 minutes while he tried to compose himself and pretend like he was not affected by what you said

You simply laughed at how red his ears had become and how he ignored your teasing remarks indifferently when he was actually dying inside at what you said

Or other times when you compliment him he will be really smug about it too lmao

He values your opinion, even if it’s something about the new jacket he wore and how it looks nice on him

You bet he will wear that jacket 372837 more files after that and uploaded it on Twitter for engenes too (;

All because you complimented him once

It gets to the point where jay and jungwon tease him about why he is constantly wearing the same thing every day and whether it’s something to do with you LMAO

boy gets so shy 😭😭😭

Sunghoon likes it when you run your hands though his hair ): especially at the back of his head where you tug at his strange gently, especially since his hair is pretty long rn

It’s so soothing to him to feel your nails gently rake through his mullet and massage his scalp, it instantly makes his eyes shut and sleepiness take over.

I feel like sunghoon isn’t that big on cuddles? But when you both sleep together he always pulls you in closer to him subconsciously ):

Head pats from sunghoon ✔️

Kisses with sunghoon!

When you both first started dating you had to initiate everything and he would get so flustered after

But after you had been dating sunghoon for a while and you kiss, he’ll do this thing where he looks at you with lidded eyes and stares at your lips and he kNOWS how good he looks when he does that

Such a tease..

Will cup the back of your neck and bring you in

his hands gently roam around your waist or place themselves onto your back to hold you close to him

Kisses with sunghoon are usually pretty slow and can last a while, so you’re always left feeling breathless when you finally pull apart

Nibbles your lips to tease you hehe

He doesn’t really give you short kisses apart from when he’s feeling bursts of happiness and really excited about something! Or when he wants to thank you

Also Hoon likes to also keep your scrunchie on his wrist if you wear any

Idk, he just likes it [:

Hoon also likes to take many pretty photos with you too, it’s so aesthetic TT

Kisses your forehead whenever he says bye to you on his way to complete his schedule for the day 🥺

Shows Jake and jay pictures of you all the time lol

The 02z definitely don’t miss the blush on his cheeks whenever he tells them about how cute you are 🙄

Sunghoon cutest bf ): he doesn’t reall like to show affection for you in front of other people but when y’all are alone?

Phew, the boy might be an ice prince but whenever he is around you.. let’s say that perhaps you seem to melt him a lil bit (:

[bhumblebih]

Into the Unknown (Bang Chan au)

Genre: angst+fluff

Warnings: I suck at this pls bear the shitty fic i wrote. I just thought i could do something lol

You know how there are days, where you just feel super lazy and don’t feel like doing anything because you’re just so done with everything. With life, with opportunities that you could’ve taken if you had made a different decision in the past. It all comes down to that one butterfly effect that changed it all. This was exactly how Kara felt until a special someone comes into her life.

It all started when she moved away for University. She had chosen to move to a different country for her Bachelors in hopes of finding new, better people to befriend with and also because she wanted a change in her lifestyle. She could’ve gotten into a university of the same worth in her hometown but triggered by the changes caused by some of her decisions, she decides to go to a University where she knew no one, in hopes of finding a new group and ultimately thinking that it’d change her life for the better.

The first semester goes by quickly and she realizes that her friend group is totally different from her and its been very hard to make new friends, so she just sticks with the people that she met on the orientation day. She was totally devastated by the fact that this was, in fact a hasty decision and that it’d have been way better if she had joined the University in her hometown. At least she’d have been able to meet her friends frequently. Deeply depressed by this realization, she continues to live her life like this until she met someone that forced her to think differently. 

Waking up at 7:00 made her regret her decisions even more as she had to take the bus for her to make it on time for her first lecture, which to her dismay was the lecture she hated the most. On her way to the class, she realizes that she forgot that she had lend her book to her groupmate for an assignment they were working on. 

She calls her friend and says “Hey Hyena, the class will start in about 5 minutes. When will you come?” to which her friend, Hyena replies “Hey, I wont be  coming today because I’m sick but don’t worry, I had Chan take it with him so he’ll give it to you as soon as he can so let me know when you get it.” 

The conversation soon ended with Kara telling Hyena to get well soon. Chan and Hyena were neighbors and he is also Hyena’s childhood bestfriend. Kara and Chan never got along. Kara always thought that Chan had a personal vendetta to tease Kara as much as he can. And as for Chan, the fact that someone other than him is getting close to his bestfriend didn’t sit well with him so he just thought he’d do something to scare off the new girl. Thing with Chan is, even though he had other close friends but he was the closest to Hyena because of spending a huge part of his life with her. He experienced most of his firsts with her and vice versa. Also being in different departments made him think that their friendship would fall apart as he had seen his other friends slowly get distant, to the point, they rarely talk or meet now. This kind of stuff scared Chan because he thought of losing friends as a segment of his life falling apart. 

Kara looked at her phone again to see only 5 minutes were left till the lecture started and she was basically losing her shit because she didn’t want to get embarrassed again in front of so many people. Thing with this professor was that he was very serious about teaching and just wanted the students to be attentive and actually gain something good out of this class instead of cramming. But Kara, clouded by the negative thoughts and absolutely regretting her decisions, put no heed to this. Only 2 minutes eft, and Chan was still not here but so was the professor. After 5 minutes, she saw him running towards her with her book in his hand. 

“Hi, sorry about being a bit late. I couldn’t find a spot to park and came as fast as I can” said Chan while breathing heavily. He was actually hoping to mend his relationship with Kara after having a really talk with Hyena about it. Maybe they could be a group of 3 and just enjoy their university life as it is. After all, Chan did believe that everything happens for a reason and maybe Kara coming into their life was a good thing? 

Kara was fuming when Chan finally approached her. She was sure that he did this just to spite her so she’d get embarrassed in front of everybody. Thinking this, she angrily said,  “Don’t ‘Hi’ me! I never thought you’d be so petty to come late just to get me embarrassed. You could’ve just told Hyena that you didn’t want to do this! Next time at least try to come up with a better excuse. Everyone knows that you travel by bus.”  

Chan was dumbstruck by what he heard. He thought that she’d be thanking him for bringing her book and they can finally start off with a fresh start but boy, was he wrong. He had recently bought a bike to travel around because his apartment was kind of far and traveling by bus just seemed like a hassle to him because it took a lot of time to reach his stop. He saw Kara angrily walk away towards her class. He thought maybe he had done something wrong but he just couldn’t understand what it was. Thinking this, he went to the cafeteria to meet his friends.

Kara enters the class and she is relieved to see that the professor hasn’t arrived yet. She sits in the second row, next to her other groupmate, Seungmin. He was a good friend of Kara and they got along pretty well. If anything, Seungmin and Hyena were the only good friends Kara had. She didn’t interact with anyone else enough to be good friends with anyone else. “Wow, its very rare to see the professor come late. I wonder what’s taking him so long?” Kara muttered while opening the book to the topic they were supposed to study today. 

“Yeah but look he just messaged in the group that he would schedule a makeup class for today later this week. Damn! he could’ve messaged earlier so i could sleep a few more hours. I’ve got a practice baseball match for the sports week next month.” Seungmin said sadly. Hearing this, Kara lost all her motivation to study. Could it get any worse?, she thought. 

“That’s stupid. Messaging us last minute that he isn’t going to come. Are we a joke to him?” Kara went on to rant about it. Seeing this, Seungmin smiled to himself. He just thought how cute Kara was being, ranting about all that stuff. He always thought that she is a nice person who thinks too much. He hoped that she’d lose that ‘I’m so done with everything’ look from her face. He always tried his best to cheer up Kara as much as he can. 

“I know its pretty frustrating but isn’t it good in a sense? We can spend some time together since I’ve got nothing else to do. Do you want to go to the cafe?” asked Seugmin hopefully. “Sure. I haven’t had my breakfast yet.” Kara replied, feeling a bit better that at least she wouldn’t have to spend all this free time alone. 

Walking towards the Cafeteria, she laughs at a dad joke Seungmin made when she realizes that she forgot to message Hyena about the book. She quickly messages Hyena and lets her know that she got the book. After a while, they reach the cafeteria and Kara can see from a distance that Chan sat there with his group of friends. She tries to sit as far as she can from their table only to end up finding the only spot lest was beside where Chan sat. 

“Oh god, its been so long since we spend time together. I’m glad professor didn’t come today!” Seungmin exclaimed. “You’re right! It has been long. I really miss the time where we used to chill around and stuff, yknow?” Kara replied.

“Yeah, those were the fun times but anyways I have this practice match later today. Do you want to come watch me play? I heard the buses will go later than usual today because of the upcoming sports week.” Seungmin asked. 

“Oh sure. My introverted self wouldn’t want to interact with anyone else so I’d rather watch you play than sit somewhere alone and have to make weird eye contacts with strangers.” Kara laughed. “That’s amazing then. I can walk you to your bus later as well since I’m planning to go to a gaming zone with Chan later. I’ll be leaving with him.” Seungmin said. “Oh, but the busses would’ve left by then. How do you plan to go to the gaming zone?” Kara asked curiously. She was hoping that it wasn’t what she thought it was. “Oh Hyena didn’t tell you? Chan recently bought a bike which is so cool at least we won’t have to wait for the bus.” Seungmin exclaimed happily. Whereas Kara wanted the ground to swallow her. She was so embarrassed over the fact that she didn’t give him time to explain his part of the story and she outright bashed him about something he wasn’t even wrong about. “That’s nice. And no, she didn’t tell me about it.” Kara said sadly once she realized that she was in the wrong. She made a mental note to apologize to Chan about what she said but deep down she still thought that maybe he did something wrong because in her head, it all seemed too good to be true. For Chan to go out of his way to give her book just didn’t seem true.

Time skip to the practice match

Kara sat in the bleachers waiting for the match to start. She saw Seungmin waving at her from afar and she waved back happily hoping for him to win when suddenly hears a familiar laugh from her right. She looks over and sees Chan screaming “OI FELIX! YOU GOT IT BRO!” to a blonde haired guy who looked embarrassed. Chan sat down next to Kara excitedly until he looked to his left to see Kara looking at him, annoyed by his screaming. Chan wanted to do it again just to annoy her but remembered that he had a talk with Hyena about how he will try to be nicer to Kara and decided not to do it and gave Kara an apologetic look. Seeing this, Kara feels bad and decides that this might be the right time to apologize to him. 

“Hey Chan, I wanted to apologize for being rude to you in the hallway. I didn’t know you had bought a bike until Seungmin told me about it.” Kara said apologetically. This warmed Chan’s heart and made him think that maybe Kara wasn’t as bad as he thought. “It’s okay! It is partly my fault for teasing you so much. Obviously you’d think that. But I really hope we can start over?” Chan asked hoping for her to give him a chance. “No, its my fault too for never making an effort to fix things between us but yes, I’d love to start over.” Kara replied happily. 

After this, they happily rooted for their friends to win and Chan even bought popcorn and drinks for the match. Kara was overwhelmed by the fact how genuine Chan was. He was a carefree guy who deeply cared for his friends. They later exchanged phone numbers because of how much fun they had.

Time skip to a few months later    

One Sunday night, Kara wakes up in the middle of the night with an ache in her heart. The same familiar ache that she got when she missed her old life and regrets making some decisions. She missed her family, her friends, her home and basically everything she could think of. She felt horrible over the fact how she has misjudged her decision of moving somewhere else would resolve her short term problems. Even though the past few months have been amazing, she still missed her hometown. The past few months, she’s been meeting Chan and Hyena everyday where they’d make short trips to the park or the pet cafe near their university or just hang out and chill in the campus somewhere. Her life did get a bit better than before but she just wasn’t in the right headspace at the moment. Kara decides to take a walk to get rid of the ache in her heart. She walks to the park near her apartment and buys chocolate milk on her way. When she reaches the park, she sits on a swing and thinks about how drastically her life changed just from that one decision. Oh, how she wished her life would go as she planned it to be.  

Chan was walking home after a long game of football with his friends. His apartment was close by so he just walked to the football ground. On his way, he passes the park that him, Hyena and Kara sometimes hang out in. He sees someone on the swing sipping a juice or something. He couldn’t see properly because of the dim lights. He thinks that it might be Kara because of the body structure but he wasn’t sure. So to confirm, he messages Kara where she is to which she replies that she was in the park to get some fresh air. Chan had noticed this before as well that Kara frequently goes to the park to get some “fresh air”. He goes over to the swings and sits beside her. Kara looks shocked to see him. She didn’t think he’d show up like that but she doesn’t say anything.

“What’s on your mind?” Chan asks. “It’s nothing. I just came out to drink chocolate milk.” Kara mutters sadly. Hearing this, Chan is sure that something isn’t right. “You know you can talk to me right? I don’t like seeing my friends sad. You can share it with me if you want to. I wont judge.” Chan says genuinely wanting her to open up so he can help her. Kara looks at his eyes and she realizes that he’s being genuine and she feels warmth in her heart knowing that someone is willing to spend their time in making her feel better. She ends up telling him everything. By the end of it, she’s crying and Chan hugs in hopes of calming her down. He knew that she was in pain and wanted to do something about it. “Come on, I have to show you something.” Chan says. Kara looks up at him confused as to why would he randomly say that but nonetheless, stands up and follows him to his bike. 

They travel for about 15 minutes when Chan suddenly stops and makes her close her eyes. He leads her to a high ground where they can see the whole city from above. They sit down near an edge and Kara is too mesmerized to say anything so Chan starts talking. “I know that it can be hard for you to adjust to a new environment. And that whatever you planned didn’t come true but this is life. Its unpredictable. We all have our ups and downs but you know what the best part about it is? Its that its never going to be the same. Things change. Its sad now for you but it wont be the same always. Sometimes you have to let go of the picture of what you thought life would be and learn to find joy in the story you’re living. So don’t worry, you’ve got me and I’ll always be there for you. You’re not alone. And like I always say “Don’t be sad, Bitches need cash”” 

Kara laughs at what he said but deep down what he said touched her heart. It all seemed so genuine and she started to realize that she had to look at life from a different perspective and maybe life wasn’t too bad. But one thing was for sure that the guy sitting beside her has her heart and she doesn’t regret moving here and meeting this pure soul.

[imaginegfriend]

gfriend as your girlfriends: [ 🦊 sowon 🦊 ]

g e n r e: f — for fluff

HOW YOU GUYS BEGAN DATING:

you were hanging out with her and the girls at the dorm one night

they had all gotten back from a schedule and you and umji were cooking a meal for everybody bc they were all tired but umji is the only one who would help lol

and sowon runs over to you showing you a picture that she had taken of you from across a table previously on her phone saying “i’m such a good photographer look you look so cute!”

you grabbed her phone and smiled, agreeing with her and sending the photo to yourself. “oh is this from that cafe we went to last weekend? i didn’t know you were taking pictures, creep.” she laughed and slapped you on the arm, “yeah i take almost everybody i know there, it’s the best one around here to go to.”

umji interjected (since she was right there anyways), setting down her cooking utensil with an accusing look on her face, “you never took me there!”

following that, a round of “me either!”s came from the living room and a special comment from sinb: “why do you always take ______ to the good places? is she your favorite or something?”

sowon snatched her phone back with a nervous laugh and a rose color stained on her cheeks, turning around to face everyone else, “shut up! you guys don’t know how to behave and that’s why i never take you to the good places.”

later on, as the mood started to settle and everybody was getting tired from their stomachs being filled to the brim and playing around with each other all night, you were preparing to sleep on the couch as sowon walked in while tying her hair on a bun

“you know you don’t have to sleep on the couch every time, right?” sowon suggested, taking the spare blanket you laid on the couch and beginning to walk back toward her room. “i know the bed isn’t that big but you could at least sleep with me.”

you shrugged and followed her quietly and climbed into her bed directly after she did. both of you were facing one another and she chewed her bottom lip, something obviously on her mind.

“you know how i always buy you those things?” she broke the silence with a whisper as you nodded, suddenly feeling guilty; you never wanted her to, but she always insisteid on you taking her gifts. “like the purses and jewelry and stuff that i always hear you talking about?

“yeah, what about them?” you asked, nervous to hear where she was going with this. she reached for your hand under the covers and your body instantly warmed up.

a shaky sigh left sowon’s lips as she began speaking again, “i’ve just been thinking... and you might not get what i’m trying to say but, maybe you are my favorite. and i know you’re close with all of us, but i was hoping that i was your favorite too?”

she was right; you didn’t get what she was trying to say. of course she was your favorite, you spent most of your time with her; she didn’t see that? “i’m asking you if.. you would want to be with me?” she whispered lower this time, but you still heard her.

 you smiled softly and brought your interlocked hands up to your lips, kissing her knuckles, “well, duh. i was wondering when you were gonna stop fawning over me long enough to ask.”

she tried her hardest to hold her laugh in so she didn’t wake anybody else up as she slapped your arm, just like earlier before pulling you in for a soft, sleepy kiss.

YOUR RELATIONSHIP TOGETHER:

if you’re taller than her, she’s really excited about that because she’s used to being one of the tallest people wherever she goes

when she tries to flirt with you she says “i’m gonna climb you like a tree”

if you’re shorter than her she calls you her little oompa loompa even though you hate it but she thinks its endearing

she even told you to dye your hair green once

and you call her rice krispie because her bones are always snapping, crackling, and popping

she still spoils you like there’s no tomorrow, esp. during a comeback or during awards season because she feels bad that her already minuscule time with you becomes even smaller

she tries to take you on cute, secret dates to low-profile restaurants that have amazing food

but it ends up being less romantic than it is hilarious because she sends her food back 5 times before fully eating it then leaves a rating for it on a napkin

and obviously since she has $$$ but she’s still a scammer she negotiates getting the food for a cheaper price since she had to send it back so many times

since she’s mostly busy during the day, she calls you up late at night to do weird shit like go tandem-bike riding in a park or do an ikea scavenger hunt for your future apartment

“aren’t your old, brittle bones too fragile to be riding bikes sojung?” “okay you’re being really ageist right now so i’ll call you back when you can respect your elders.”

drops hints about wanting to live with you and having a future with you all. the. time.

like she’s always sending you links to sleek apartments for sale with a “👀” attached

she’s used to taking care of everybody else but she loves when you guys are all alone and she’s tired from practice or a schedule and you take care of her for once, cuddling her and running your fingers through her hair

even so, she still catches herself having those moments where she acts like an overbearing mother: “don’t forget to wear a jacket today because if you catch a cold all you’re going to get from me is a hot bowl of ‘i told you so’ noodle soup”

and she would be petty enough to buy alphabet soup and make sure to spell out ‘i told you so’ with the letters

she hates when you hang out with sinb, yuju, and umji for a full day because you always come back to her acting like this

but honestly you could say the same thing about her

she knows she’s sexy but gets super flustered if you tell her that she looks good in something; if she tells you though, and you get flustered, she keeps saying it until you vocally acknowledge how good you look

wont allow you to say you’re cuter than her but she’s allowed to do it whenever she wants

“ugh i look so good today, you could never” “i already did... and twice yesterday”

she always talks about romcoms that you guys watch together on vlive and her face goes like 😧 when people comment stuff like “why are you watching so many romcoms lately are you in love lmao”

then she changes the subject

and one day while they’re at a hotel, yerin walks in their room saying “y/n’s on the phone for yooouuuu” in a teasing voice bc she didn’t know sowon was on vlive

and thats how you guys ended up going public lol but sowon wasn’t upset because even though the members and the company knew, she got tired of lying to everyone else

after this she tries to go everywhere with you to show you off because why wouldn’t she?

the other members refer to you guys as the senior citizen couple because you never want to do anything fun and are homebodies

and you feel bad because you’re the homebody and sowon is the extrovert but you always convince her to stay with you lmao

if you guys are able to spend your anniversaries together, she takes you somewhere in europe for a weekend because she thinks its romantic and obviously she loves the food

and she wants to spend the whole day sightseeing together but STILL wants to be up all night talking to you. halfway through she ends up talking to herself though because you fell asleep lmao

the last day she tries to be extremely romantic to make up for dragging you around the whole time (even though you didnt mind) with breakfast for 2 in bed and a warm bath together with rose petals and stuff in it

if you guys are apart because she’s in a different country or she just can’t see you that day, you guys try to text all day but her heart breaks when she hears how sad your voice is over video chat

when you call some other famous person that you’ll literally never meet in a million years cute she gets jealous. like really jealous

“yeah they’re cute but cute is always going to get demolished next to gorgeous. like they’re cute but they’re not me or anything”

when you meet her family they love you because they say they thought she would never find anybody as crazy as her and she’s like “what do you mean crazy?”

when you guys finally move into an apartment together, she insists on you guys and the members moving the boxes because she wants to prove to you that her bones aren’t weak and fragile

halfway through she’s sitting in the bedroom on the lone mattress ordering a moving team and a some food because she can’t take it anymore

oh yeah you guys finally got to go on that ikea scavenger hunt lol and it’s a relatively cheap store but she managed to pick out the most expensive things in there

almost everyday she wakes up to you about to burn the entire apartment down because “i just wanted to make you breakfast because you’ve been so tired lately”

and she tells you that she’s going to put padlocks on the drawers in the kitchen and the fridge if you can’t manage boiling water without evaporating it on the stove

“i think meonji likes me better than you” “i like you better than me too”

sometimes you guys just stand in the middle of the living room, holding each other and looking into each others eyes and kissing a little

she still gets upset if she sees rice krispies and/or rice krispie treats in the cabinets and she’ll hide them from you

ever since her first fashion show she tries to put together your outfits because she thinks she’s a high fashion mogul now

“we’re just going grocery shopping why do i need to get this dressed up?” “do you want to embarrass me in front of the fashion world? they’re always watching.”

you catch her introducing the products she’s using in the mirror all the time like she’s a beauty guru on youtube

and god forbid she gets a little alcohol in her she’s like sojung 10.0

her hands are everywhere on you and she’s saying stuff to you thats making you go 😧

and those are the times you’re thankful that you have your own place together lmao

“but sojung don’t you think the other girls would want me to watch their fancams too?” “oh i wasn’t aware we were in a polyamorous relationship”

if you guys get into a big argument she’ll impulsively grab a pillow and a blanket from your room and try to sleep on the couch but halfway through the night she climbs in bed with you anyways

“don’t think i’m not still mad at you but this is half my bed too” and then you both apologize in the morning because going to bed mad is the worst thing ever

she almost jokingly doesn’t accept your apology because you tried to make her breakfast again

she’s corny and cute so she got you guys promise rings

“i know i can’t marry you right now but i definitely want to spend the rest of my life with you. if you want to do the same with me.. promise me?”

of course you said yes.

and now she can’t stop taking those pictures where her hand is always in the frame so everybody can see the ring

a/n: okay so i know the first part is kinda like a fic instead of just short or medium length bullet points but i didnt realize that until after i finished so i think i’ll just do the “how you guys began dating” section like that for all the girls

[hyunjin-writes]

friends to lovers!hyungwon

so hyungwon as your best friend

somehow people can’t seem to grasp that concept of hyungwon being other than constantly sleepy

i mean, since all other kids in collage ever see him is when he’s in some oversized sweater, bed hair, books messily stuffed in his bag and just trying to pass his tests and all that

you would expect with his looks hyungwon would try to dress up a little

but lmao no he couldn’t care less

he’d appear to class with swollen face and pjs if he could

which happened once and kihyun, his roommate, swore that would be the last time he’d let anything like that happen.

but anyway, you’re hyungwon’s best friend and you guys met,,,, in a quite funny way to begin with

you both were freshman attending some start of school party or whatever

and you were just at the corner nursing your drink, not really wanting to get drunk and just observing others

it’s not a wild party but people are slowly getting drunker and more flirtier

and it’s just not your thing honestly you would rather stay in your room and binge watch friends or sleep or something

but your roommate dragged you out to this party saying it’s the start of a new chapter of life or whatever and you decided that maybe socializing a little wouldn’t do u any harm

only a few hours later you find yourself ready to head home and watch a movie alone

but just as you were about to dump your drink in the trash and leave

a tall shadow loomed over you and a body blocked your way

you look up to find a guy grinning down bashfully at you and.... is he sleepy???

if it was any guy you would have rolled your eyes because you were really not up to any games that night

but something about the way he bites his lips uncertainly or the way his fingers finddles with the end of his sleeves just made you ???what is he up to

so you look up at him and just raise your brows

“hyungwon” he put out his hand for a handshake and you shrugged, guessing no harm done by shaking his hand and telling him your name as well

only as soon as you tell him your name he starts talking - in a whole different language.

Portuguese

he was rambling on and on about something and if it wasn’t the fact that you actually self studied that language a little before you would have mistook him as drunk rambling

hyungwon: is smartly rambling in Portuguese

you: why are you telling me how the honeys are made in portuguese.

hyungwon: ..... huh?

you could clearly tell that hyungwon himself doesn’t know half of what he’s talking back so you stiffle back a laugh and said: I studied that language before, you know.

hyungwon: ......oh........

you: you memorized that, didn’t you.

hyungwon: w-wha- i- nO! no i- ...............ok maybe i did it was part of a dare from my friends

he pointed to a group of 5 boys sitting on the sofa and a few of them are actually already on the floor laughing their asses out

you laughed before waving at his friends only to look back at him “that was convincing, the way you spoke. I would have believed you know what you’re saying if i didn’t know the language already”

“that’s what i’m trying to go for. my friend dare me to act convincing to prove that im really an acting major, you know”

you asked if he’s an acting major because you’re in the film major and hyungwon just goes: well who knows, maybe one day i’ll act in a movie that you’re directing! he joked

and one thing goes to the other, you and hyungwon just started talking more that night and truth be told, you were actually comfortable with hyungwon

he is attractive, with his height and face and all but something about how witty and humourous he is just kind of makes you forget about you being attractted to him and just end up being more comfortable with him

so the night ended up with him walking you home to your dorm because he insisted so since “it’s late and you shouldn’t be walking alone”

you decline at first but he insisted and you figured his company during the walk wouldn’t do any harm either

and you were right

by the next day, when you see him at the campus’ cafe, you two were practically best friends as he jumps towards you with a wide smile before putting his arm around your shoulder and putting his coffee order under yours and made you pay for it too

well, that was freshman year and now it’s your 3rd year in collage and you’re halfway dying with the constant quizzes and assignments to pass in within said dates.

and being a film major just means more because going out to film for things only to realize that you don’t have enough clips while editing?

cues you banging your head on the table

but somehow having hyungwon as your best friend helps you big time especially when you need subjects to film in your short movie projects

so you and hyungwon hardly share classes together but the two of you would always make time to meet up after classes at the library or campus’ cafe or the auditorium when hyungwon have to practices to do

you were done with your last class for the day when you text hyungwon, asking him where is he since you know his class ends earlier before you today

the two of you knows each others’ class schedule by the back of your hand so there’s an unsaid rule between you two: the one with class ending earlier gets to decide the meet up place for the day

and when hyungwon texted you back with a curt “audi.” you knew that he just got a new project and is staying back for extra practices

so you took a detour to the campus’ cafe to buy two drinks - your chocolate milkshake and his favorite coffee before skipping to the empty auditorium

the auditorium was mostly dark but the few lights around the stage guide you to the front of the stage, only for you to find hyungwon sitting on the front row

but he looked slightly stressed out with his head down and his hands holding his head.

hyungwon didn’t even noticed you coming in, eventhough you were certain that when the door creaked it was loud enough considering how the auditorium tends to echo

so you put his drink in the cup holder beside his seat before sitting down on the ground, right beside his leg and put a hand on his knee, and he flinches in surprise

“hey, i bought your favorite.” you said and when hyungwon looked up at you, you realize the distress in his eyes and you just become more alert

hyungwon slides down from his seat to join you on the floor before sipping on his coffee

it was quiet for a few second and when he put down his drink, you immediately grabbed his hand, holding them tightly in yours before searching for his eyes

“is everything okay? did you get a new project or something?” fully knowing how hyungwon tend to overwork and stresses himself out whenever there’s a new work given to him

“they’re doing a christmas play....” he started and you nodded as you patiently wait for him to continue “and it’s big this time, you know. like super big.”

your school’s play always tend to go all out for plays and it’s always amazing so when hyungwon said “super big” you just wonder how much more grand will it get?

he probably see the look in your eyes before continuing : there’s gonna be people from Julliard to come and see this play and they’re gonna be giving out scholarships to finish our major there if we get it

and hearing that you just go all !!!!!hyungwon!!!! ohmygo d and you’re gonna get it right!!!!!!

you’re just so goddamn estatic because Julliard is just so!!!!! and with how hyungwon is just so goddamn talented in acting and all you know!!!! that he need to get that scholarship to spread his wings wider and all that you know

hyungwon can’t help but laughs at your excitement before calming you down “oh god relax just because i get the main lead doesn’t mean i’m gonna get it for sure”

you took a sip of your chocolate drink before going “MMMMMM!!!! no but if Madam L gave you the main lead it means the people from Julliard are gonna be considering you, you know since you’re The Main.”

you were talking animatedly about how the people from Julliard are gonna be Blown Away by his talent when they see him

and hyungwon just sit down there in front of you, with this fond smile on his face as he sees how giddy and excited you get

it’s not even you that could be getting the scholarship but yet you’re still so supportive towards him

and he could feel his heart beating wildly and flutter when you beam and grin at him

how could he not realize how adorable you are before this?

i mean,,, you did caught his attention during that freshman party before but after getting close to you he kind of just developed a habit of pushing away or shrugging it off whenever someone said you’re cute or how you two could be a couple since,,, well,,,, you’re his Best Friend.

,,,,but now that he properly think about it...,,,

“come on, let me see those lines.”

“huh?”

“you need someone to help you rehearse your lines with you, right? Well, I’m here so come on let’s get started!”

shaking his head, hyungwon pushed back the thought that maybe you and him could be More than friends to the very back of his mind and showed you his lines

it’s silly, he thought. they wouldn’t feel the same way

if they did they would have showed some signs,,, or so he thought

so you and him would meet up more often to help him read or rehearse his lines

sometimes it would be in his dorm, or at the auditorium whenever it’s empty

but most of the times it’s at the auditorium

so it’s always just the two of you,,,, in the mostly dark auditorium,,,

but it’s not uncomfortable in any way since you often help him out and that you guys are close enough that you trust each other that the other party wont do anything silly,,,

the thing is,,, hyungwon’s the main character and the play he’s playing is,,, of course,,, centers about romance and you,, well,,,

often had to help him by acting out as the female main character

though you act as if it’s no biggie and you’re not affected in any ways since it’s just acting, you said

but your heart always beat a little bit stronger whenever hyungwon reads the romantic lines or when he steps a little bit closer and look deep into your eyes.....

but you push it away, thinking that you probably just got a bit too into your character

yet you can’t deny the attraction you felt towards hyungwon

i mean, you have always acknowledge your best friend as someone that is good looking

and you’re aware that almost half of the student body in the collage would do anything to be in your place, as his best friend and maybe even more,,

at least that’s what they’re speculating as they often see hyungwon’s arm around your shoulder as he walks you to class,

or him waiting infront of your class sometimes and immediately helping you carry your bag,,

you’ve noticed the way others look and you’re aware how much those actions could be seen as a couple thing,,,

but,,, you know better,,

hyungwon is blunt and would often say things on his mind without hesitation

so when people point out that hyungwon might just like you, you just ????i know him lmao he would have said something if he feel that way

yet again, somewhere deep inside you wished that maybe what others has been saying are true and that maybe, just maybe, your best friend feels the same way for you

and that maybe you could have something more then just this friendship...

so like,,, you keep on helping hyungwon with his lines, eventhough your feelings for him are slowly growing bigger and deeper the more often you help him

you couldn’t help it,, not when you see how passionate and determined he is on rehersing for this play and just so,, hardworking it just makes you so??? why is he so goddamn attractive for :(

whenever you reach certain parts where his character and the female character need to do the kiss as the finale,, your heart kind of drops because wow, he’s gonna be kissing in front of so many people and that person won’t be,,, you

but you kept up your front

when hyungwon realized that they’ve reached the part where he’s supposed to do the kiss,,, he got nervous and a bit giddy too because maybe,, just maybe he’d be able to man up and kiss you,, and confess right after

eventhough it’s not the most ideal way to confess but

throughout the time of you helping him out it just made him realize his true feelings towards you

how you’re so supportive and caring towards his passion and work eventhough you’re not gonna get any benefit from this

how hard you help him practice and read his lines eventhough you have had a full day of classes and you could probably just ditch him to go to sleep but noooo

you stayed until late hours to help him practice

you even came to the rehersals and sit among the empty seats so that you could point out things that maybe he could improve

,,,,the amount of time the thought of wanting to pull you into a hug and smother you with kisses for being so supportive towards him crossed his mind was Countless.

and yet he had to hold himself back every. single. time. because that’s not what best friends do.

so when you and him finally practice the lines for the kissing part, you thought that hyungwon was being in character when you see how nervous he is,, but little did you know

when he pulls you in and closer towards him, you could feel your heart beating wildly when you see his eyes cast down towards your lips

thinking that maybe this is it, maybe you’re gonna have your kiss with him, you close your eyes out of both anticipation and fear

seeing you closing your eyes, hyungwon let out a small smile as he softly run his thumb on your cheek before cupping your cheeks and leans in,,,,

only to stop short when he realize how this is not how he really wants to tell you his true feelings

he wants it to be romantic, to be,,, you know,,, ideal because after all you’ve done for him, he wants his way of confessing to be remembered eventhough you might reject him and his feelings

so he lets out a sigh before bumping his forehead with yours and mutter out “why did you close your eyes for, nerd”

slowly, you open your eyes and you laugh, quite bitterly and mostly towards yourself for expecting that hyungwon might kiss you,,,

pushing away and covering up your thoughts, you playfully glare at hyungwon as he walks away to drink his water

“i was scared that you might kiss me for real, you ass”

“i wouldn’t do that lmao”

you: *gasps and pretend to be offtended* whats that supposed to mean!!!

but eitherway, both you and hyungwon pretended that the almost kiss didn’t happen

and while hyungwon tries to figure out the perfect time and way to properly confess to you, you’re left with thinking that you’re sure hyungwon doesn’t like you Like That

and that maybe you should move on and just get over with your feelings for hyungwon....

but anyways, soon it was d-day for the play and hyungwon’s nervous for the play, but you’re nervous too for him,,

since this is gonna be his Big Break if everything goes well for him and he gets that Julliard scholarship

though you’re gonna miss him if he really gets it and leave, but you know how much this scholarship means to him

so when you go backstage half and hour before the show start, a big flower bouquet in your hands as you look around for hyungwon,

wanting to wish him luck and telling that no matter what happens he’s still gonna be A Star to you,

hyungwon spots you first before you sees him and when he sees you standing there,

the flowers in your arm and looking cuddly with your scarf wrapped around your neck to keep you warm,

hyungwon couldn’t stop himself as he stalks up towards you, holding you by the shoulders and turn you towards him

when you felt pressures on your shoulder, you were close to screaming but when you see hyungwon, you immediately beamed at him

you were about to wish him luck when he suddenly cups your cheeks and just,,,,

kiss you

right there and then

among the busy bustling backstage

you were too caught offguard by the kiss that you didn’t even get the chance to close your eyes when he had already pull away

maybe it’s the nerves speaking but hyungwon mutter out an “i love you”

you blink up at him and as if he just woke up from a dream, his hands immediately drop down from your shoulder and he takes one step back, eyes wide as if he’s scared he’d mess up even more

“i’m so sorry i shouldn’t hav-”

he couldn’t even finish his sentence when you grab him down by the collar and kiss him back,

in which it takes him a while to realize whats going on but when he does,,,

well,,, you can guess the rest,,,

yes, you went back to your seat beside kihyun with rosy cheeks and a smile just never leaving your face

kihyun: omg what took you so long the show is about to st- ,,, ohmygod what happened to you??

you: blushes and just shush him to focus on the play

throughout the play you can’t help but feel your heart flutter wildly when hyungwon steps on the stage

seeing the way he plays his character so damn well and just gets almost everyone in the hall hooked with his acting

it’s not like you’re being biased, but you can clearly tell that the scholarship is his

it would be rigged if it’s not

by the time the play ends, almost everyone in the hall stands up to give him a standing ovation

you immediately ran backstage and as soon as hyungwon spots you

he opens his arm wide and you crashes into his arms immediately

“i’m so so so proud of you!! you did amazing tonight even if you don’t get that scholarship do know that you got my heart and-”

yes,,, hyungwon shuts you up by kissing you again,,

and everyone that’s lurking around backstage notices the two of you and they just,, whoops and whistle

(kihyun, somewhere in the corner of the backstage: took them a while. i was ready to just yell at them to confess any second.)

but at that moment, the two of you were just so caught up with the moment and the feeling of being in each others’ arms, you could hardly care

your first date with hyungwon was the night right after the play, your hands holding his as the two of your walk through the cold winter night to get some hot chocolates.

dating hyungwon,,, is like having nothing much changed from your previous friendship with his

only this time having more kisses and clingy hugs in between

you having to threaten him with no kisses whenever he refuses to let you go when you have classes to attend to

“hyungwon i have classes to go to”

“skip it and spend the morning cuddling with me”

“...sounds tempting but you see, i kind of need to ace this class”

he would get all shy and whiny whenever he sees you wearing his hoodie or sweater when you hang around his dorm

“oh you don’t like it? i can take if off-”

“no no no no” as he pulls you onto the couch and cuddles you

you pinching his cheeks out of nowhere when he speaks

“!!! what was that for!!!”

“i’ve always wanted to do that”

having silly rap battles with him when you go out on karaokes with him and the rest of the boys

jooheon: suddenly my career as a soundcloud rapper is being threathened.

dealing with him dozing off at certain times,,

but like he’s cute when he does that eventhough it’s lowkey annoying sometimes

you caught him singing once and ever since that you always bugged him to sing for you more

always avoids doing it because “go ask kihyun to sing for you instead he sings way better!!!”

“why would i even do that when you’re my boyfriend,,, not kihyun,,,”

his heart melts at that and he ended up singing for you softly when you’re cuddling later that day

suddenly speaking some random foreign language towards you

“Eu te amo muito.”

“...what does that mean.”

“i’m confessing your love in portuguese i thought you learned that language before??”

“...oh lmao that. i lied i only know ‘Olá’ ,,,,”

“AND I LIVED FOR 3 YEARS BEING YOUR BEST FRIEND AND NOW BOYFRIEND THINKING THAT YOU KNOW PORTUGUESE? I FEEL SO SCAMME-”

[leeeovitate]

April 22,2020 3:23AM: It was not intended but this ended up becoming my high school memoir.

I sifted through my old journals. I have been obsessed with notebooks and pens back then, maybe a little bit until now. You see I wanted to be an artist. At least 5 of them were filled with songs and rubbish from cover to cover.I remember the first song I wrote way back in 2007 or 2008. It was called “Putting Traces” and the first I ever played was for my grandmother on her birthday. I played a video of it I recorded with my sister at her dinner party. I don’t think she appreciated it or maybe it just wasn’t any good but she was polite about it. It was called “Thank you for everything”. My first songs notebook was a tinee tiny one with the Eiffel Tower in black on the cover and silver on every page. Then I got obsessed with buying every journal that looks cute or has music related designs or the ones with London and Paris or other European countries that I would love to visit. Then I bought every pen to my liking and spent my lunch money on paperbacks. I was basically a resident at National Bookstore or the stationery section of every mall. I scanned them all tonight, those journals. I forgot about some songs but when I read the line it comes like a flashback to me. That is why I kept writing. It immortalizes the moment. When I play that song, I feel like the emotions turn into concrete and I could go back when I want to feel it again. I was so sure of myself in the songs I wrote before. I knew what I wanted and that was to make music. Maybe I had that dream of being magically sent a record deal. I wanted to have a world tour before 18 but the world was never in my favor. I remember setting a deadline and counting down like Lena did on Beautiful Chaos. I think I also set it on 100 days but nothing happened.

High school is the best years of my life. I remember one of my friends borrowing my songs journal and told me all my titles sounded nice. I have one friend who writes fiction, legit ones and we would talk after class until our fetch arrives and then we’d talk more on the telephone when we get home. I don’t have that in medschool. One time, our teacher made us do a school project. It was to write to a novel incorporating our topics on math class. Epic, I know. I planned it out alright, written everything with a plot but I never finished it and ended up rushing for the deadline. I won’t ever forget that. I loved doing it so much. My fiction writer friend, she ended up writing a sequel for the story she submitted as a math project. Then I also read some of the stories my classmates made. I felt surrounded by talented people and it felt really good. Then in English class, junior year we were required to have a green journal and have at least 3 entries per week. It could be a diary entry, poem, essay, sketch, whatever you like. We also had drama class. I remember saying the lines “The cat sat on the mat.... etc” with different emotions. I freaking nailed it. I loved it so much. The we were also asked to advertise a specific product we made up by pairs. Ours was a perfume and I played a fairy. The nicknamed me “Mama Fairy Tree Rapunzel Country Girl”. I had really long hair and used to braid it. Then I played guitar singing country songs. We also assigned ourselves to greek mythology characters, mine was Gaea. I was also quite tall back then and they say my limbs were long so I was like a tree with roots to the earth and that is where they all came from. We had to write a play for our final project. I was “musical director” and I was not good at my job but I freaking enjoyed it so much.

The senior year we had lit classics and we just have the best teacher on mythology and poetry. Wont ever forget him reprimanding me for reading “statue” wrong. Freshman year, we have 2-hour PE classes and the last hour was spent however we wanted. We would play and sometimes we would just sit around our teacher’s cassette player singing along to our favorite songs while the wind is blowing at the topmost floor of our high school building. Oh what I would do to go back. There was a time when I chose a ribbon as prop for gymnastics practical exam and danced to Avril Lavigne’s “Freak Out Let It Go”. I hated individual stage work but it was something we all had to do and my high school crowd were not mean. I used to choreograph dance routines, unbelievable if you see me now but yes, I remember when I did that. I would do it all over again. I have that one friend, the least I expected of all, who got into kpop. It was epic.

When we are feeling lost, our CLE teacher taugh us to open the bible at a random page and read those two sheets spread open. Whatever we have bothering us, God’s answer are within those pages and it is up to us how to interpret it. I think it also became a project like we were meant to do it everyday for a month or something. She collected money for a journal but it was never delivered though. I have no idea what happened. We also made a promise to meet in March 2020 or 2021 as a class but I think everyone forgot about it or are just too busy, these days. In high school, we made so many films too. Man it was great. You probably could already tell how much I enjoy acting and the I have this friend who is a really awesome video editor.

We also had the best advance chemistry and advance physics teachers. One time at the physics lab, I was busy reading my some Paulo Coehlo I did not notice that I got called in class. That was epic. My teacher threatened to confiscate my book, thank God she didnt. My only argument was “This is not a pocket book, Ms. Violeta.” Our statistics teacher, freshman year who entered the congregation of nuns kept saying “K” in class. It was really funny, my friend and I tallied the number of times she said it until we ran out of scratch paper. Would you believe that the highest grade I got in high school was in Geometry and the lowest I got was in Calculus? Lol I turned in an unfinished Calculus final exam because my tummy was upset but my teacher won’t accept it. I could not tell him what I was feeling at the time so I shaded the letter C in every item and I kind of flunked the exam. I was not that frustrated though. I was never the grade conscious type.

There is this cafe we frequented back then, It was called “Book Latte” and we got membership cards so we could rent books and chill in secluded spots. The place was really fancy but not that wide. Pizza Hut on the same mall became “our spot” with someone I used to consider one of my best friends. One of our friend’s became our go to for schoolworks and shooting videos or movie marathon. In math class again we had to do a song adaptation with video. We did a remix but Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade will always remind me of that. It goes “because tonight will be the night that I will study math over again don’t make me change my mind”. There was a competition in relation to Buwan ng Wika or our Foundation day every august. For the first 2 years of high school it was song adaptation and for the juniors and seniors it was song composition. For the first year, we did Awit Ng Kabataan by Rivermaya and my author/video editor friend wrote the lyrics. I think we skipped on sophomore year. I was not yet comfortable with exposing my songwriting in general at the time. I struggle with confidence issues until now. They assigned me for our junior year. I did it on guitar and piano. I had piano lessons when I was 9 but I did not appreciate it until years after. Our Environmental Science teacher who used to be in a band helped us out abit and they were rushing with the deadline for the song, I kind of backed off. My clubmate did it instead. Senior year, Had the song done early and we got first place. I was truly grateful.

I joined Guitaristas club freshman year. We were assigned into tutor-tutee. I was a tutee of course. I was assigned to someone who was like the great guitar player who was in a band and I was crushing on. He was so nice and he taught me guitar. I wonder if he still remembers me though. I don’t think he’ll recognize when we see eachother on the street. The the club changed it’s name to Tokata club and I spent two years there. We once played Back to December as a band on family day. The guy on drums is someone I was crushing on. I nicknamed him Orange because he told us about Battaglia delle Aranche, not sure if I remember that correctly. The past years I hated waking up early. Most often I’m late for class that they made me class monitor for like 2 years or so. I hated staying at home and I would wake up early. Some days I get to school at about sunrise and he would be there too. That was how we became really good friends and I became close to his younger brother too. My senior year, Speakers zone. It was a new club and it was accidentally not included in our new club ballot sheets. I think they accidentally printed out the old ones from last year. Our english teacher told us about it and only like 7 or 8 of us joined. All from our class. Every monday morning, we had to do a news report after flag ceremony. We were assigned sports new, weather, current affairs, celebrity, etc. It scared the shit out of me, stage fright and shit. I wanted to get over that so I forced myself to audition for our Literary Musical contest, newscasting category and got picked but I lost. I talk really fast and my nerves get the best of me. I was so scared, I wanted to chicken out minutes before the contest. I wanted to walk away from the stage instead of towards it.

We also had monthly trips and my favorite was doing grocery shopping the afternoon before with my groupmates. We assigned to prepare meals and took turns to cook. We went to islands, camps and other educational sites. It was so fun. Although I could not bloody swim and some days I feel sad because of being away from home. I missed 2 trips and forever hating my parents for it. I know they were just concerned but I missed out on alot. It was heartbreaking. I think it was because on our first trip, we climbed a mountain and stayed at a beach and I asked my parents to come over because my chest was aching but turns out I just needed rest. I don’t think I went home with them though or maybe I did, I kind of forgot. I stayed and missed the team building activities but I got to watch the games. Second trip, I missed. They talked about ghost soldiers and stuff. Third trip, we had to swim from one island to another which I couldn’t so I used a canoe, sort of. My mom accompanied us that time, she helped out with cooking and some other things. We stayed for 2 nights and one of my friend’s mom visited us too. Fourth trip, I think it’s that another one I missed. One time, we thought we discovered dinosaur remains, yeah our imagination were that wild. Some of us went fishing and the rest of us stayed at the Marine Biology site. We played ins and one of us tripped on a huge rock which was shaped like a dinosaur’s head. Then we started digging and then we talked about the islands around us making up stories about it. That night, we all slept at the rooftop and had a shadow show. Then we saw shooting stars. One unforgettable experience I had was getting lost in the mountains and getting help from NPAs because they freaking had rifles. It was raining and should have be frightening but at the time, it was more fun than scary and they brought us safe and sound to our campsite. I had a nightmare that night but I loved literally sleeping beneath the stars. I forgot how many trip we went to in total but I am thankful for each and every single one of them

It is funny how I went from a kid with all the big dreams to who I am today.

[lizzz-xo]

Rape.

I’m not telling this story for pity. or to make anyone look at me differently.  God knows how much I dislike people pitying me and attention... But i’m telling this story for me... so if you read it, please don’t act any different.

Three weeks after me and my ex boyfriend broke up, he somehow found his way back to me. I guess the grass wasn’t greener on the other side.

“I want us back.” He said. 

You already left so don’t you dare come back.  I was an emotional wreck after i received this call.. .So I called the only other male I could count on besides my father and my brothers.. He was always there to listen to me vent about my relationship with my ex.  I trusted him.. When I called him he was at work. He told me he would call me later. We worked in the same facility except he was a lifeguard, and I was a barista inside the cafe. He would come to my job for coffee and breakfast and I would always give him my discount, because I had his back like that...

.. I thought he had mine too..

It was 9:55 when my phone rang. It was him. He told me he had just gotten off of work and he was by my house, if i wanted to meet up and talk.. It was 5 minutes to my curfew. Theres no way I could go out  this late. He told me we could only talk for 5 minutes. Hesitating, but i left anyway. it was summer who cares.  

If i knew what would’ve happened that night, I would’ve stayed home...

Once i got into his car, I suddenly did not want to talk about anything anymore. the vibe was off. Something had been weird....“I thought you wanted to talk?”  He said.

Nevermind, I don’t feel like it anymore. I need alcohol I said jokingly.. He goes into his trunk and takes out a bottle of fireball. We started passing the bottle back and forth. He speeds off and goes to dunkin donuts. He gets a black coffee. How he always drinks it.. 

When he got back in the car, I was already tipsy..  He asked if i wanted to go somewhere and let him play with my pussy. He always flirted but i never took anything serious. He was much older and engaged, I laughed nervously and said haha yeah whatever, The next thing I know hes driving past my house. Taking me to this dark side street cars don’t really pass on.  I looked over and he had already started touching himself... His fiance called him a couple times but he let the phone ring. 

Could this really be happening? it felt like a movie scene. 

I asked him to stop. He ignored me, continued going. and next thing I know he was using his free hand to touch me. I tried pushing it away a couple times. But he kept going..

“Lets just get in the backseat.” No. I’m not having sex. He begged and pleaded, until he realized I wasnt budging. He decided to just deal with it. instead he reaches over my body and begins to press the button to lower the passenger seat. 

He climbs on top of me. and  begins kissing me. no no no no this is wrong, this is wrong. you’re engaged. I said so many times. But my words meant nothing. 

 I can’t just put it in your too tight, he impatiently looks for a condom.. and doesn’t find one. Come on lets just do it. 

no. im not having sex. 

okay then lets just do it through your pants.. before I can do anything, he begins thrusting into me with my pants still on.. 

no no no  this has gone too far now. this is too much. too soon. too fast. too wrong. 

 But I couldn't move, I couldn't run, where would I go? Who could I call?  It was like i froze.

No. I said as sternly  as I could.  stop. I don’t want to do this. Take me home. 

he gets off of me in defeat. “are you sure?” 

 Yes, take me home. 

I got out the car and when i went home, I was stunned. Walking in like a zombie, like what the fuck just happened to me Like everything felt different.Like I was not the same person I left as. I went straight to sleep. 

The next morning, I woke up to a text to him.  “ sorry for attacking you last night, I’ll explain later. Coffee was good ;)”   He tells me that. “ my fiance and I  got into an argument last night I had feelings for you and I just couldn't help myself.Nothing was holding me back anymore. 

“Its ok.”

But it wasnt.  I tried telling my close friends what happened but couldn't muster up the courage to say the whole story.  “He took advantage of you” These words repeated in my head over and over again, and haunted me..

I knew it but I refused to believe it. It wasnt his fault I said, I was flirting too. 

“You were raped.”

Raped? Rape?! me? raped?  Rape was something I never thought I could've happened to me Rape was something I heard about in movies, in TV shows. Other girls, but not me. But because of him... It was me. It was part of my identity. And that night changed my life forever.

 Being in a car with another male was the scariest thing for me now. What used to be normal. Even if it was my brothers or my dad, what if they decided to attack me?  I was attacked by someone who I  trusted. Who’s to say it wont happen again? I panicked in cars when guys got too close, I cried whenever guys tried to pull moves on me in a car for a while.. Because it always brought me back to that night.

And i hated black coffee. I used to be able to drink my coffee black with no problem. The smell of black coffee lingered around me that night. The smell on his breath.. 

,, I wonder how different my life would be now If I would've stayed home that night...

I used to cry every time I told this story. This was the first time I didn’t. If you’re wondering what happened after, Him and I did not stay friends. He told me he would tell her what happened that night, but he never did...   I wanted to fuck with his head so I texted him I miss  you. Which sent him into an angry rage and got him in trouble with his fiance. After getting him back, we stopped talking. Sometimes I think about telling her, sending her a message on Facebook. But I don’t have  the courage to ruin her life. She has this fantasy about the man she is in love with, and I would hate to be the person to tell her the truth... 

They got married. He has a child on the way.

 It’s a girl.

 I pray that babygirl never goes through what I went through with her father.  That bastard doesn’t deserve to be happy. but he is.

and i’m here. still broken, and trying to smile. 

[askingexorcists]

Play with me nii-san

For the anon who requested Amaimon fluff, I wrote this last year and uploaded it on two fanfic sites, I haven't actually read this since I uploaded it so it’s probably full of errors but idc. Also this is cute brother fluff, not a lemon, so dw anyone can read it. Also didn’t edit out the authors notes from fan fiction because I'm so lazy so ignore those.

Amaimon and Mephisto one shot cause they’re cute af, also lets pretend Behemoth didn't die cause he's cute af too and didn't deserve it <3

Amaimon sat in his brothers office with his face pressed against the glass of the large window, he stared out into the city lights mentally begging for the rain to stop. It had been raining a lot lately, Amaimon didn't like the rain, it meant he had to stay in and not go explore the place his elder brother loved so much. He tapped his fingers lightly against the glass, boredom overtaking his body.

Mephisto sat looking over academy papers, lately they'd been piling up on his desk. Since Satan attacked Assiah a lot needed rebuilding, everything was mostly finished now but it meant he had mountains of paperwork. He wished for silence, it wasn't the rain so much that distracted him - in fact he liked the sound it made - but the sound his younger brother was making annoyed him.

“Amaimon, can you stop that?” Mephisto said crisply

The younger demon king didn't pay attention to his brother, still pressed up against the window tapping his claws away. Mephisto looked up this time, letting out a stressed out sigh when he saw his brother at the window.

“AMAIMON. Can you stop that, its not just annoying but you'll also scratch up my window with those damn claws! Come away from the window!”

This time Amaimon heard the time king loud and clear, he obeyed and pulled himself away from the glass to find his face cold and numb from the previous contact.

“Sorry aniki, i wont do it anymore.” Amaimon sat down on the skinny chair next to his brothers desk “Aniki, i’m bored.”

Mephisto looked up once again from his paperwork, his younger brother being bored was never a good thing.

“How about very quietly, play with your familiar.” He watched as Amaimon pulled out some candy from his pocket and shoved it in his mouth.

“He’s sleeping.” Amaimon whined, his mouth full of candy. He looked over at the hobgoblin who was on his back, lying on a fluffy purple rug.

“Don’t speak with your mouth full!”

The younger swallowed the candy quickly before replying,“Sorry aniki, i will not do it anymore.” His hand reached back inside his pocket and pulled out a box of pocky. A single claw sliced open the packaging and he pulled one out and bit one end off. He held the box over to his brother. Mephisto pulled out a stick before turning back to his work.

“Nii-san, play with me.”

Mephisto laughed lightly, his ototo hasn't changed much since he was a small child.

“Brother, why do you laugh?” A confused earth king asked.

“Nothing Amaimon, I can’t play i have paperwork to attend too.” His bitter tone confused Amaimon even more.

“You never play with me anymore, since you left Gehenna we never see each other anymore.” Mephisto looked at his younger brother, emotionless as always but he knew that he was saddened. “Alright then, I’ll play.” 
 “YAYYYYY!”  Amaimon squealed, clapping his hands together and leaning over his brothers desk.

“What do you wish to play, ototo?” Mephisto questioned, leaning away from his brother who was getting a little bit too close for his liking.

The younger sibling thought for a moment, sitting back down in the chair, spinning around until he thought of an idea. Suddenly, he jumped up.

“Can we play with your dolls?” The younger had always looked at his elder brothers dolls, he knew he collected them yet he had no idea why a professional and mature man like Mephisto would have so many. He figured since he kept buying them all the time, that they must be pretty fun.

“Those are NOT dolls, Amaimon those are my anime figures. Some very rare and expensive…do.not.touch.them.” Amaimon agreed before looking emotionally drained again. “How about we play some more video games, you can try beat me and loose again whilst we think of something better.”

The earth king agreed and the demon brothers sat in front of Mephisto’s large TV with controllers in their hands, Amaimon had strict instructions to not eat anymore of his brothers controllers. He sat randomly pressing buttons on the controller trying to defeat his brother, but it seemed no matter what buttons, what order, what ever he did he could not beat Mephisto.

The time king laughed loudly, grinning as he won again. It was quite unfair as Amaimon was new to video games, and fairly new to Assiah where he’d had a lot of time to master video games.

After loosing the eighth time, Amaimon gave up. “Nii-san, play with me, i mean actually play with me - not virtually beat me.”

Mephisto sighed, smirking at the frustration in his siblings eyes, Amaimon hated loosing. “Very well then, what would you like to do?”

“Hide and seek, just like we used to back in fathers castle when we were kids. This time we can make it more interesting, lets have the whole of true cross town as our hiding places.”

The purple haired demon thought back to when he and his brother would play hide and seek back in Gehenna, he remembers his other younger brothers joining in too. His elder brother, Lucifer, even played sometimes - although that was very rare. He remembers once, farther even joined in, of course he won. It had been 5 hours they spent looking for him, they eventually had to get the servants to help as well. To this day no one actually knows where he hid…

“Okay then, ill count, you go hide.” Amaimon hopped up and instantly made a dash for the exit “BUT.” He stopped still listening to his brother “There will be no hiding in student dorms, classrooms, or anywhere near the students, alright?”

“Yes brother, i understand.”

The earth king hurried out of his brothers office via window, and ran out into the city. Cold, wet drips ran down his face. Brushing the rain drops away with the back of his hand, he decided to not care of the rain, and quickly find a hiding place.

‘Brother is the king of time, i guess that means he can probably count quickly’

Not being able to stand in this heavy shower any longer; the demon king decided to hide somewhere dry. Now a good distance away from his brothers office, he began to look for a place where he thought his nii-san wouldn't be able to find him. He found a a small cafe that was closed, he wondered to the back alley around from it and hid behind a large skip. It wasn't his first of choices, but he thought that his brother wouldn't think of looking here. Gagging at the smell of rotting food, the earth king put a hand over his nose attempting to shield it from the putrid smell. Coal tars fluttered, awkwardly through the air, they floated around Amaimon and he blew some away muttering something under his breath.

After about four and half minutes Mephisto was standing on top of the rubbish bin.

“Your turn.” Amaimon stood, thankful he didn't have to stay in this revolting place any longer. He began counting as his brother disappeared from sight.

499, 500

Turning around and taking in his sightings, he set off to search for his big brother.

Put yourself into his shoes, what would nii-san do?

Mephisto wasn’t an idiot so his brother knew he wouldn't hide somewhere stupid, like behind another object just how he had. The king of time was a gentlemen, and wouldn't hide somewhere disgusting like his younger brother. Amaimon quickly searched true cross, excluding the parts his nii-san had forbidden.

The green haired demon set foot in the city park, not many people were here as it was still raining quite heavily. In the middle of the park there was a largish tent, much resembling a circus tent. Curiosity twirling his feet forward, he entered the tent. Inside there was quite a large group of people and a lot of dogs.

“Okay, thank you ladies and gentlemen for attending! I hope you enjoyed the dog show, congratulations again to our winner, please have a safe journey home.” Shouted the host of the show.

People went over to the line of dogs and collected theirs before leaving, amongst the pile of canines Amaimon recognised one. He bent down, immediately being licked and pounced on by over-friendly dogs. He scooped a small white terrier into his arms; he was facing the other way and seemed to be trying to avoid contact.

“Nii-san?” He turned the dog around to see the kind of familiar but not so similar dog form face of his older brother. “I found you!” The earth king exclaimed ecstatically.

“It took you a while, i had time to win a dog show you know.” Mephisto sneered, glancing towards a first place trophy and a large juicy bone on the ground near to where he was standing.

Once they were out of sight from human eye, Mephisto turned back into his normal form. The demon kings played a few more turns each, until they agreed this was the last round.

Amaimon ran off to hide, but he just kept running. His brother had always found him so easily, even when they were children Mephisto could always seek his younger brother without even trying. Deciding it was bad enough Mephisto beat him at video games, and at all those other rounds, he decided this time, the last round..he would win!

After counting rather quickly, Mephisto turned around to go seek his brother. His ototo was so predictable, hiding behind objects, hiding near or in candy stores, hiding in grassy areas where he could use his power help increase his chances of winning. Firstly, he checked the candy stores, but he didn't think that Amaimon would hide in the same place again, he knew that stash in his brothers pocket would be gone by now for sure. Next, Mephisto looked in open grassy spaces with lots of nature - and lots of elements Amaimon could of taken advantage of. His little brother was not to be found. After searching ever ‘Amaimon easy’ hiding places he sighed, seeing that it would be harder to find the younger demon then he imagined.

He looked up every street, every back alley, every corner, everywhere… it was now quite late into the evening so most places would be closed now so he couldn't hide in there. His brother even double checked some places, just to make sure.

The elder king felt sick, his stomach swirled inside and his head felt wobbly as he realised what he would have to do. Give up, and loose. Loose. Mephisto hated loosing, anyone hated loosing but Mephisto despised loosing. He went inside the mall, which was closing late, and sat down at a smoothie stall with a purchased berry mix in his hand.

His hands shaking with hesitation, he pulled out his phone and sent a text to Amaimon, who he’d recently bought a mobile phone for.

congratulations ototo, you win. I’m at the smoothie place in the mall, come meet me now.

Five minutes had passed and his smoothie cup was empty and so was his messages.

Amaimon, answer me.

Mephisto’s thoughts were all tangled inside his mind, he knew his ototo’s phone was fully charged, he always nagged him about remembering to charge it. He knew that Amaimon had gotten the text, so why wasn't he answering? Worry started chewing on his sides as he got up from his chair, and started to search the mall. Charging through every shop and not buying anything seemed oddly suspicious but he ignored the stares and whispers and kept searching for his brother.

He’d searched the whole mall and closing time was in half a hour, he searched everywhere else and he couldn't find Amaimon. For the 5th time he called his office to see if Amaimon had returned but there wasn't any sign of him there. Frantically, the time king asked the information desk lady if she’d seen a green, pointy haired man with odd ripped clothing and red pointy boots walking around. Of course, at first she laughed thinking a man of such an odd description could be real, but once she looked up and saw the strangely dressed man in a white cape and top hat she thought it might be his even crazier friend. However, she hadn't seen anyone of that description but promised to keep an eye out.

Alone and worried, Mephisto sat down on a bench near a shop window. He sent his brother several more texts and even called but came down to the decision that Amaimon’s phone was turned off. Awkwardly, he sat slouching slightly, his pale skin becoming much, much paler. He could feel his expression change along with his mood.

His gaze looked up to the shop window, he blinked a few times starring at the mannequin in disbelief.

Wow, i really do miss ototo…that mannequin looks just like him!

Looking back down at the ground, silently waiting for his phone to ring with news of Amaimon’s whereabouts. When he looked back up at the shop window, the mannequin was gone. Before he could react he felt a hand on his shoulder.

“Aniue, whats wrong? You look sad.”

Mephisto shot up, leaning around to face his younger brother.

“Amaimon! Where have you been?I searched for you everywhere?”

“I was hiding in that shop, as a mannequin.” He replied calmly in his usual, dry tone.

Mephisto looked at what his younger sibling was wearing, noting he was wearing a mannequins display clothes over his own.

“Well done, Amaimon, king of earth.” All the worried emotions inside of Mephisto disintegrated as he could see his brother in front of him. Amaimon had pulled of the clothes he borrowed, and turned to face Mephisto.

“So whats wrong? You looked upset before.” His face was curious and some what sympathetic, or at least sympathetic in a i-hardly-change-my-expression kinda way.

Suddenly, Mephisto flung his arms tightly around the earth king, hugging him tight.

Amaimon gasped, shocked by his brothers actions. Last time he received a hug of his brother he was just a child who fell over and scraped his knee. He hugged his brother back repeatedly asking why, what, when, how, if he was ok, feeling alright. Once the elder demon let go he looked into his brothers eyes, admitting his fear.

“I..I know its really stupid of me considering your the king of earth, a demon, son of satan…but i was worried about you ototo. I looked in all the places you'd usually hide and i looked everywhere else i could!” There he was, the great king of time and space, worried over a demon, not just any demon, the son of satan. He knew extremely well that Amaimon could handle himself being over 1000 years old and quite strong, but he pushed it onto his brotherly instincts.

“I’m sorry for causing you to worry aniue, i just wanted to beat you.”

“Why?” He knew his brother hated loosing but why was he so desperate to beat him?

“Your so good; at everything! Your a higher rank then me, your stronger then me, you play games like hide and seek better, you play video games better, your so perfect at anything i’m ok at.”

“Brother, your great at a lot of things, don’t think your a failure.” Mephisto’s hand sat on Amazons shoulder, he smiled at his little brother trying to make him feel better.

“I never said i felt like a failure…” The earth king protested, seeming a little hurt by the comment.

The elder laughed, and escorted his ototo out of the mall and he called for his limo to pick them up.

“Lets watch a movie tonight, ototo.” Mephisto said cheerfully as he sat in the limo looking at his brother who was stuffing his face with candy from the food table in the limo. Amaimon nodded, remembering not to speak when his mouth was full.

Not long later, the demon brothers sat in loose fitting pyjamas in front of the large tv once again. The younger demon was allowed to pick a movie to watch from his brothers huge collection. They sat under a blanket, eating everything edible in sight. Talking, watching, laughing together, just like before Mephisto left Gehenna.

Before the movie could finish, Mephisto peered down at his little brother, who’d fallen asleep on his shoulder. Smiling at the sight, he grabbed the remote and turned of the movie. Amaimon hadn’t fallen asleep on him since he was a baby. The elder demon king missed his brother, and even the rest of his family sometimes, yet assiah was too good of an opportunity to miss out on. He loves this world and its many weird and wonderful things. Everything to the food, to the culture, to the places. His heart had a sudden nagging, it was then he realised how much he really had missed his brother. Carefully lifting his sleeping brother, he carried him to the spare room he was using before tucking him tightly, but comfortably under the covers. He flickered off the light and made away to the exit.

“Goodnight ototo.” Whispered Mephisto.

“Gh-ni nii-san.” Replied a half a sleep Amaimon.

The purple haired demon king tiptoed silently to his own room before quitting all previous plans of staying up and doing his brought home paperwork, and tucked himself into bed.

Ok, that was kinda ooc and badly written but i love Amaimon and Mephisto i had to write it! It didn't go where i originally intended it to but still reviews on your thoughts would mean the world to me as this is my first blue exorcist/anime fan fiction…and my first fan fiction in about 2 yearsish. If you could recommend some cute Amaimon/Mephisto stories that aren't lemons then place comment/message me them. This story will be posted on both fanfiction.net and archive of our own sites.

[adventureswithrosemary]

Buenos Aires - Argentina

Day 1 - Sunday: Landed at Ezeiza Airport, got scammed into buying a taxi for double the price outside the gate. Checked into our home away from homes and grabbed some Parilla (BBQ): Tough beef, blood sausage, kidney, and intestines. Tried to explore but the place was deserted on a Sunday afternoon. Airbnb seemed strange, run down and cold. After lunch I went back to Airbnb to take a nap and prep to tomorrows work day.

Day 2 - Monday: First work day in Buenos Aires. We met a whole bunch of folks that work on the Clover integration project. Got a rough breakdown of how taxes work here and how Clover is going to need to solve some very Argentina specific problems. Went out to lunch with the guys. Everyone seems to be operating at a slower pace here. Lunch ended up being 3 hours because service was so slow. Worked past 7PM and went to grab dinner with Mark at Cabana Las Lilas. Shared a bottle of wine, and enjoyed a filet steak. Appetizers were delicious. Steak was not bad. Walked off the wine and saw the Women’s Bridge. Go home to do it all over again. Day 3 - Tuesday: Internet is so god damn slow here. The wifi drops sometimes, the VPN is slow so testing on Dev7 is impossible. Went to lunch with the guys, everyone is so hospitable and nice. We went to a sandwich place next door. The language barrier is hard. Mark is having a better time including himself in conversation and getting around than I am. I feel handicapped to have to rely on him to translate things. Data is slow so I can barely translate things for myself and service is spotty. Went to checkout China Town for dinner. Beef noodle soup was bomb but Mark got his debit card eaten by an ATM machine. Went to a Cafe to chill. Go home and do it all over again.

Day 4 - Wednesday:

Push a few diffs, do some code reviews. Code reviews are awful to read. Fernando, our only web guy working from Mexico has horrible coding practices, and doesn’t seem to care much about what he produces. Unit tests barely test anything. Met up with my baby at Sheraton, and walked her to the Airbnb. Grabbed lunch with the guys again, at a buffet style place across the street. Time flies by and it’s 6PM. We headed to The Kilkenny bar with the guys to try out Fernet. Fernet tastes a little but like Jager with coke. Lucy joined us at the bar, she thought everyone was chill and surprisingly good looking. For dinner we went to Vico, a bar where the wine is on tap. The food was amazing, the wine on tab was fun, and the company the best. Exploring is always funner when Baby is around. Go home and do it all over again.

Day 5 - Thursday: I am so tired, sleeping 6 hours a day is finally starting to catch up to my body. I also learned that Mark is also very agreeable. Although he’s agreeable, he doesn’t mean it. He doesn’t always say what he means. Today is our Airbnb cooking experience. It was so nice to be welcomed into someone’s home where we eat food and drink wine and speak English! I didn’t realize how much of a difference it made until now. The empanadas turned out really delicious and it was simple to make. The folks were all really friendly and also spoke english. We all gathered around chatted about South American culture over wine and a large charcuterie plate. To top the night off, we had homemade flan.

Day 6 - Friday: Grabbed lunch with Lucy at another buffet style place. Apparently there is a line to get your food wrapped, and another to pay. The line to pay also splits up into pay with cash and pay with card. Folks here aren’t very patient with foreigners that don’t speak Spanish. If you don’t understand, they’ll just repeat what they said a little more aggressively. For lunch we wanted to checkout the nature reserve. We walked to the edge of the park and it was time to head back. For dinner we had iLatina, our first fine dining experience here in Buenos Aires. We got the food and wine pairing meal. I like all the plates and the wine pairings. The food wasn’t very complex, but the experience was fun. After dinner, we met up with Mark’s friend Jeremy. He showed us what it’s like to live like a bachelor in this City and all the bars to hit up in Palermo. We stayed out til 3am.

Day 7 - Saturday:

Today we went to La Boca. It was a very touristy area with lots of colorful buildings and souvenir shops but it was still fun to look at. We tried Havanna for the first time and they have this one drink where they put dulce de leche in it. Super sweet but not bad. After exploring La Boca, it took us half an hour for our Uber to take us out of the city to Tigre. He didn’t have enough gas for the trip and apparently La Boca doesn’t have a lot of gas stations so they were all packed. At Tigre we had a mediocre lunch at a random place. Tigre was wonderful. It’s like an arts and crafts farmers market. Here we each picked out our Mate cups and straws. When it started to rain, we went home. He had a late lunch so we didn’t bother with dinner when we got back to from our Uber. We did explore a near by grocery store though to stock up on water and snacks if we got hungry. Later in the night, we got hungry. We thought we could find food but ended up finding a speakeasy bar instead. Mark was wearing gym shorts. Going to a bar was the last thing on our minds. We came back from the bar around 3AM again still hungry and just a little bit tipsy. 

Day 8 - Sunday:

Self exploration day. Lucy and I got into an argument this morning because should wouldn’t wake up when I tried to wake her. We left the house still upset and went to get pizza in Recoleta. Lunch was so awkward because I was crying and neither of us were speaking and the waitress knew something was wrong but didn’t want to butt in. Our waitress was super nice. We left and walked to the cemetery. The cemetery was interesting to walk through. It’s a little bit unsettling to see the coffins just chilling in the tombs like that. I still think it’s worth it to check it out. Outside the cemetery there were a lot of kiosks opened up for tourists to buy craft goods. We browsed around headed our way to a fairground festival little did we know that the festival was closed today due to weather. Lucy later found out by going to their Facebook page after we’d already Uber’ed there. No tourists in sight, we were the only ones. On top of that we were pale and Chinese so we stuck out like a sore thumb. Everyone stared and it made me feel uncomfortable so we Uber’ed back. We ended up walking around the neighborhood where we lived instead. It’s so different during the day, the streets were really bustling. We picked up 5 more Mate cups on the way home for our friends and family. Later than night we met up with Mark at El Mirasol, the steak house that he went to the first night. It wasn’t good. It was dry and bland. Sorry Mark, but we don’t love the steak as much as you do.

Day 9 - Monday:

Yesterday we went to visit our first Clover merchant: Abuela Goye, a chocolate and gelato shop. The little shop was super busy so we didn’t really get a chance to talk to the merchant very much. Their gelato was insanely sweet. For lunch we hopped over to the shop next to Abuela Goye and grabbed some arepas. It’s basically this toasty sandwich thing thats super crunchy on the outside. The filling itself was too try but the sauce was really good. Both Lucy and I didn’t finish ours. Mark didn’t want to join us for dinner because he didn’t want Asian food so we wont to Bao’s Kitchen. The lady that served us spoke three different languages. My guess is that she was fluent in all three but anyways, we took the opportunity and ordered a shit ton of food. 5 different dishes between the two of us and a glass of wine. Bao’s Kitchen was just okay but Lucy enjoyed the comfort of Asian food.

Day 10 - Tuesday:

We finally went to Dada Bistro. It was only supposed to be me, Mark, and Lucy because it was going to be Lucy’s last meal with us but the guys seemed to really want to join us for lunch. Dada Bistro has met my expectations. I really enjoyed Dada Bistro. At the end of the meal, we got a complimentary shot of vodka made with flower and ginger. It was surprisingly sweet and not strong at all. In the evening I left Mark at the office and went to send Lucy off. I was sad to see her go because is was my home. When she left, I sat alone in the kitchen, commenting on code reviews and eating soggy pizza.

I feel like my short term memory is starting to get worse and worse. Sometimes I wonder how I even function day to day.

[illumi-nnaughtyy]

answer all the questions of the last thread u reblogged

1. describe your idea of a perfect date.

hmmm I’ve always thought camping would be a really fun date, like sitting by the fire and looking at the stars and stuff. But since its about to be Christmas my dream date atm would be going to look at Christmas lights or watching Christmas movies or something super cute and festive.

2. whats your “type”I honestly don’t really have a type.

I’m just attracted to people who are kind, like the type of person to smile at strangers, hold the door open for someone, and compliment a stranger jut because. That’s something that I personally try my hardest to always do, so when someone is the same I typically gravitate towards them.

3. do you want kids?

YESSS I LOVE KIDS

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?

I definitely want to adopt, but I also want to experience pregnancy so I’d like to have biological children as well.

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been on

I’ve actually never been on an actual date before. Like I’ve hung out with people I liked and dated, but no one has ever asked me out on a date before.

6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)

haven’t had sex sooooo

7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?

Honestly both but more so a night time gay bc I stay up really late

8. opinion on nap dates?

I 100% support nap dates they’re adorable

9. opinion on brown eyes?

I think they’re super pretty especially in the sunlight or up close. My friend Izzy had brown eyes and hated them but I always thought they were beautiful. Plus my best friend Morgan has brown eyes and they’re gorgeous on her soooo.

10. dog gay or cat gay?

Both but if I had to pick…probably dog gay

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?

ehhh it depends on what kind bc they hella freak me out

12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone

First, if you treat staff at places like shit, bc they’re just trying to make minimum wage and live their life so if you treat them bad its a huge turn off. Also if you make fun of me or belittle me bc you think its cute and flirtatious. My ex did that shit and I fucking hated it. Also if you don’t listen when I’m talking and blow off how I feel ughhh that shit drives me insane.

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?

I thought that all lesbians dressed like boys and cut all their hair off. That’s why I didn’t think I was gay for a long time, because I thought in order to be gay I had to want to dress like that. however, I now know that someone’s sexuality has nothing to do with their personal style. I can still like to dress “girly” and be gay.

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self

I would tell myself that God doesn’t hate me for liking girls, and that I need to stop shitting on myself for something I cant help. Id also tell myself to be careful who you trust with such a huge secret about yourself. Also to not settle for any girl that gives you attention, because you deserve someone who treats you the way you deserve.

15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?

nope I'm a lesbian sooooo

16. who is an ex you regret?

definitely Vic considering she dumped me over text and then announced her undying love for my best friend. So vic if youre reading this (and I know you are… go fuck yourself :)

17. night club gay or cafe gay?

100000000% café gay

18. who is one person you would “go straight” for

Cole Sprouse for sure

19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?

book gay bc I’m also a nerdy gay

20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)

definitely Sanvers…but wayhaught is a close second

21. favourite gay youtuberlil bev obviously

22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?

noooooo I don’t have the guts to ask anyone so

23. have you ever been in love?

I thought I was…but no I have not

24. have you ever been heartbroken?

yes too many times to count

25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someone

idk man I’m still trying to figure that one out

26. favourite lgb musician/band

Hayley Kiyoko is my lesbian queen soooooo

27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gays

Its okay to be confused, just don’t suppress your feelings. Things do get better and it wont always feel so heavy on your soul. You’ll grow up, get freedom and things will be easier. You’ll find your people and you’ll be loved no matter what and you’ll look back and remember all those years you never thought you’d find happiness. So hang in there it gets better.

28. are you out? if so how did you come out

I’m out to everyone except my family. I told almost everyone through text bc I was too scared to do it in person

29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have

ummm…. honestly they’ve all been pretty chill

30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexuality

Okay so this is about to be long. First, I know what you’re going through because I’m in that situation right now. My number one piece of advice is don’t come out if it’ll put your life in danger or put you in a abusive situation. What I did was tell people I knew would be supportive, that way when my parents kick me out and disown me I have somewhere to stay. I’m waiting until I am able to support myself without help from my family before I tell them because I’d be homeless and broke if I told them now.

[lil-stingyy]

I always break the rules for the guy i hate.

first time it happened was the night before prom.  everyone’s busy for the upcoming event while i’m stuck on a dress shop with my parents, waiting for my gown to be made.

he asked people on the group if they want to go eat somewhere, but everyone’s busy sending out their pics with their tuxedos and gowns. 

i wish to go but i know my mom won’t let me. why do you have to go somewhere if you’re with your parents that have enough money to buy you anything? so, i decided to stay. 

but that shitty human messaged me (pm), 

“wanna go eat?”

“with whom?” -me trying to be awesome

“idk. Ask the others.”

“Okay whatever”

“So, you’re going?”

“Okay.”

“yes, that’s cool. cafe norma?”

“yeah.”

so that happened. i asked my mom permission to go and she was hesitant. it took a lot of minutes explaining, although i told her there’s about 5 of us going. but she gave up on the end and made me go.

so i’m on the cafe, i’ve been there for too long so i ordered some foods already. it was soooooo fucking long. so i asked him where on earth is he.

and he said he’s already there, but it was a small cafe where is he?!

And here it goes- he asked

“where are you?”

“cafe norma, you idiot!”

“but i’m already here waiting for you.”

“I’m here inside you’ll absolutely see me i’m close at the entrance.”

“Okay, got I got it. hahahahahahaha”

“what the f?”

“I’m on the other branch.”

Holy cat mother of kittens. that freaking happened. but he went after me and ordered dinner. i ate mine, he ate his. we spent the night talking about non sense and taking embarrassing pictures of each other. he insisted to pay the bill but i already paid mine (I wish i didnt. haha)

And he brought me to the dress shop and went home immediately.

this happend on the prom- off topic but i want to remember it so it’s here.

My gay make up artist friend got a lot of costumers that day, being me, i asked to be the last one. being the last one, i came to the prom late. that’s why i’m not one of the prom queen nominees. hahahah char. just kidding. i don’t want to be one.

so when i get to the hotel, everyone’s busy taking pics of themselves while i’ve just made it. 

i saw him, on a red suit. he looks really handsome that night. (heart eyes) And me, being tired without doing anything just sat there and felt akward in my purple gown. he came to me and told me i look gorgeous. he knelt and jokingly-or not, asked me, “will you marry me?” awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww and i jokingly-or not, said: “Yes!” hahaha that’s so funny.

we spent the night amazingly with our other mates. he is actually crowned as the prom king. hihihihi

but as the dance started, i got lost with all the guys i danced with and got to him. hahahaha we slow danced as we sing “grow old with you” together. hahahaha. the night went wild and so as the musics playing. we held hands dancing together on cake by the ocean and other party music, ignoring the girls who wants to dance with him.hahahahhahaha

so next-

we moved up from 10th grade. sad part. it was summer. we haven’t seen each other for a long time but we talked. 

it’s a high school alumni of our former school. my parents graduated there so i decided to go with them because i know there’ll be a lot of food. while i was enjoying eating, he messaged me, “could you give me a hand?” - which is one of the question i usually avoid. but to him i can’t say no. so i asked him what’s the problem.

he told me there’s a creepy girl that’s messaging him. it’s not technically creepy, but i find it kind of improper since the girl is like, ‘hey idol’, ‘i like you so much’, ‘i’ll wait for you no matter what happens’.- like seriously, where;s your self respect gurrl? why would you message a guy like that? or maybe, i just hated her.

so, i ask him what can i do about it, and he told me he wanted me to act as his significant other to keep the gurrl at bay. and yes, i was shocked, because no, i’m not going to. no way! no i wont!

but i also wanted to.

that day, he said he’s going to the alumni also since his parents are also there. how joyous am i. before he go, he sent me a pic, with a caption, “do you like me?” and my  heart did a marathon. and because i’m a useless piece of living trash, i replied with “eew”. 

.

yes i did.

and he’s just like: *messi, 

okay. so that’s over, 

he came over to the school, and met me. yay!

we were together for a couple of minutes when we decided to go to a different place. so we went to another cafe nearby. 

so we talked, he ate, while i watch him since i’m really fully fed by my mom’s batchmates.

he’s begging me to message the gurrl. so i checked her out. i found out that she’s a student of my father. well damn, i can’t pretend to be his ‘significant someone’ since, that gurrl will probably recognize me as a daughter of his teacher. and what? he’s going to tell dad? no way. i still want to go to school and finish my studies. i still want to travel the world and marry him. because if my parents knew that i like him, they’ll probably kill me.

so i told him that i can’t.

he hates it but he said it’s gonna be fine. we talked a lot more and we decided to go to another cafe. haha wow. cool. and when it got late, we decide to get home and he brought me to the terminal. i want to kiss him, but because i’m a living piece of trash- nothing.

he just told me that he convinceed the gurrl that he really has a gf and that’s me. and sent her some pics of me. 

okay

that’s just that. 

[ab3lle]

2016 update! (part three) (last one)

August, 2016

I got an offer from ums. that time i was checking thru sms. 

“Tahniah, anda di tawarkan ke Universiti Malaysia Sabah, kos HC13.”

What the hell is hc13 and i was actually expecting something related w food. (yeap science again just for the sake of ibu) eg: food tech, nutritionist, blabla. but it was actually an e-commerce. and never once in my life i heard about e-commerce. i did a lot of research. i asked everyone what is e-commerce. i checked the job oppurtinity. i was reluctant at first. bcs i told my friend, i mmg want to further at sabah but i wont go if got a nonsense course. i was really clueless that time. but my dad really support me. he asked me that it was ok. just go w the flow. thats it. i finally accept the offer. went for the orientation. and was really close to jiji since then.

September, 2016

I fall in love w the beauty of labuan. people at labuan started to address me as bella/belle instead of nab. so whenever i heard someone call me ‘nab’ at labuan, i feel weird. basically, whenever i am at labuan, its alright to call me bella/belle. anw like ji and tia, they still stick to nab instead bella/belle. i also went hiking too for the very first time in my life. at bukit kubong. 148 above the sea. one of the highest places at labuan. (besides umskal building) i also starts to experience celebrating hari raya aidiladha at labuan. at first in the morning after solat sunat hari raya, we went to one of the lecturer’s house which basically she’s also once a umskal student, to have some celebration at her house. we gather w the seniors from second, third and fourth year w from both faculty, (fki and fkal). i started w taekwondo again but mehhhh. it was only lasts for a day. bcs i stopped for a while and i forgot almost everything. so sad. plus my stamina pun out. so i decided to quit. (does it sounds like i’m giving up?)

October, 2016

Ghost house to gain some money for umskal got talent event. went inside to experience it but i was really scared tho i kenal every one yg jadi hantu. theres one day i went wall climbing and i cant go any higher bcs i am too heavy (gotta admit that) and teman ji and tia played futsal at night. a productive day i can say. its also the month i started to feel like i fall for my crush when i randomly record him make a cendol. (sorry, ex-crush) like, out of nowhere. but think back, i think i fall for him earlier when i first met him at klia. used to like him. used. sewa kereta at friday for 2 hours just for the sake of nasi kerabu at kedai ganu w ji and tia lol. and oh, fki family day. i was reluctant to go at first which i didnt sign up my name at first. ended up, someone said to me, “kau tak pergi fki family day, kau siap belle bila aku jumpa kau” and i terus muncul tetiba at the bus stop, that morning. hehhh. also, umskal got talent was held on october. had some problems when kertas undi tak cukup, so kak tyka and i, run naik atas level 3 to print a new one. i freaking run. i think i lost about 2.1kg that night. that was on semi final. its actually good to have some activity to do at night besides sleep. like i usually do. during the final, which was held 2 weeks after, it was good. had some problems too. tired, but satisfied. it was my first event that i joined, and it was good. i started to drive back since i left it about a year+ not driving. yeah i dont have problem in driving except not being able to drive properly, bad in guessing the distance between the car that i drove and the car behind me, took hours to park the car, and the list goes on. at the end of october, went to kk city during the mid sem break. it was my first time reached there. i went w jiji, and her friend, hamir came all the way from johor bahru. the planning was upside down i can say lol. from the hotel, food, transportation, shopping, all messed up. sokay we learnt from experience hahaha.

November, 2016

Took class photo. yeah class photo. i was lazy at first but just bcs my friend, she put such efforts to coax me and join the class photo, so i came all the way from cafe to menara. had mandarin midterm at menara. i thought i’ve done my best, but the results came out makes me feels like mehhhhh. struggling w e-commerce 3k words assignment, which i thought should be handed on 10th November but end up the lecturer said it supposed to be handed on the 10th weeks of lecture. me being me, me and last minutes works are really like a best friend. best friend for ever till jannah. told myself should change to a better me but meh. lets hope i’ll change one day. bought a new sneakers when i lost one pair of my freaking new shoes. tipulah if i said i didnt sad. but mybe not my rezeki kot. big thing happened on november i think was, tamu gadang event. from protocol to urusetia. tired but i really like the experiences. during the graduate run, i was supposedly get ready by 4am, ended up i woke up late and i was there at 4.30am or is it 5am. i really have problem when it comes to wake up early in the morning. big, problem. and i just realize the pokestop at umskal suddenly went missing. i was really sad that time. no kidding. went to palm beach resort after find some things for sispa booth. main buai while enjoying the scenery there. really makes me fall in love w nature, beach, and labuan.

December, 2016

Karkomkal event. since i joined sispa, i will join karkomkal for 3 semesters. bcs sispa is actually badan beruniform and have to take till my third semester. means what? on the next sem, others are enjoying wake up late, and i’ll be rushing on saturday morning for sispa lecture lol. indian cultural night, we (me, ji, and tia) didnt take part in that event bcs we are lazy already. and accidentally wore red, some color w them. what a coincidence. had titas presentation too on december w the most 1 malaysia group ever. 1 chinese, 1 sarawakian, 2 malays, and 2 indians. its good to get the chance to mix w all the races especially when you are out from yr zone. also, our programming group project. took us about 1 night to do it, and about less than 2 days to find and fix error and we did it. and i really thought that ‘class’ wont be came out during final but then, paapppp! 35marks. trust me i didnt revise about ‘class’. anw, we received a compliment from our tutor! goodjob mates xoxo. tak sia sia i skip ugt family day just bcs i had to stick on the screen to find the error on my group project lol. basically last class for every subject. bcs final is approaching that time. and last but not least, my 2016 ended w sispa final exam.

My 2016 update finally comes to the end. the last 5 months in 2016 basically were my first semester of degree journey. remember when i said i badly want to further in IT related? i really grateful when i didnt give up for matrics, my result was just passed, and i didnt get what my parents wants but god put me nicely in what i deserve. hence, e-commerce. tho at first idk a thing about e-commerce, but day by day, i realize it flows in me since i was small. god plans is always great. i might merungut all the time but i know everything happens for reasons and great thing will finally come. you just have to wait and have faith in allah.

And i am really sorry bcs it took me a month to do this update. but believe me, i was actually very sad, when a friend of mine, suddenly was not my friend anymore, those great time i used to have are now tinggal memories, it saddens me. really. every pictures have its own story. and i realize how people change, day by day, month by month, year by year. even myself. and i am happy for everyone, especially my friends. prayers are all goes to them. take care my lovely friends. still friend or not, still contact or have lost contact, thanks for making my life memorable. thanks bcs you used to be there. i wish you to have a better life. and those who are still w you, or w us, treasure them. bcs we dont know till when they will stick to us. till then. :)

P/s: no pictures on this post update bcs even theres no picture in this, its too long already. no. actually bcs i have problem in transferring pictures from my phone to pc. anyio.