#and thats stupid and dumb. so now to avoid being a FREAK i just keep it all to myself teehee

[vyrion]

i feel like part of why ive been eclipseposting less ( other than the initial obsession fading) is because ive developed such a specific characterization for them in my brain that i dont want to even hear anythign else

[shippingchaii]

How well does Lottie do in Jak's route and what does their endgame look like?

i can actually see this going two ways, a "bad" end, and a "good" end.

despite lottie being naturally resilient and combative, pride and ego often being her enemy, when it matters she knows when to keep quiet. she does what it takes to survive, wether thats being compliant to her captor, or when given the chance; pulling the trigger. besides being unable to stop herself from making snarky remarks and sarcastic comments, she otherwise tries to get on jak's good side.

the first day was a rough one for both of them, lottie first freaking out at him for taking her home, but upon realizing what he was offering, she quickly simmered down. he wasn't out to kill her, at least if she was "good for him" as jak put it. she figured if she listened to what he told her, she'd be in a better position. she knew he'd easily overpower her, over a foot taller and way stronger, so she'd have to avoid getting into a physical fight with him.

she felt almost insulted with the oatmeal, wondering if jak really thought she was stupid enough to poison it. no knives, scissors, or anything resembling a weapon was at her disposal, but a singular box of rat poison was? did he really think she was that dumb? after sitting down with him and handing him his meal, then being forced to eat out of his bowl by jak swapping them, she scoffed. calling him out immediately with a small laugh, letting him know that she knew what he was up to while taking a confident bite. jak was a little surprised by her being so upfront, but he laughed anyway, not really answering back.

after a few days, she was left alone. she wasn't in the cage this time, and he was off to visit his sister. he willingly let her roam free. this had to be another test, right? there was no way he actually left her unattended, so she could just walk out. at least that what she thought. he was probably standing right outside, wasn't he? waiting for her to open that door. but she wasn't going to let that happen.

now this is where the two routes come into play.

if jak wasn't able to make her swoon, she immediately gets to searching the house. she was sure he didn't leave anything just laying around, but she had to be sure. digging through drawers and cabinets, making sure to make sure she put everything back in its place after touching it. if jak came back, she didn't want him thinking she was digging through his belongings. after making her way into his bedroom, digging through his clothing, she found it; his gun. she checked the chamber. full. this was it. he was going to regret disrespecting her and humiliating her like this. shouldn't have left this thing around. revenge was one of her favorite things. impatiently waiting for his return, she sat on his bed. when jak eventually opened that door, he barely had any time to register the bullet that lodged into his skull after one last snarky remark from her.

however, there's a chance he could win her over. a chance she'd to overlook things.

still as sarcastic as ever, lottie would be a lot more compliant with jak. indulging him in his fantasy, being nearly the perfect angel for him. none of it would be for show either, it would being her genuine joy to make him happy. though, she couldn't help herself to be a little fussy sometimes. but they'd be happy together, as insane the situation was. but, after a while.. she'd start feeling that hunger again. that kind of festering she got whenever she truly liked someone. it starts off burning low, but eventually turns into a wildfire. she needed to feed soon, or she'd go crazy.

jak would often bring her things from the outside for good behavior, bringing her practically anything she wanted as long as it didn't help her contact anyone. phones and laptops were out of the question, but anything for inside the house was free reign. she'd start asking for things like rope and handcuffs, under the guise of "playtime". which was fun when they used them, but she knew they'd have a greater purpose. she'd ask for cooking and baking supplies, so that she could make a meal he'd truly love. he had no reason to doubt her intention, right?

after knocking him unconscious, he'd find himself tied in the very things he gifted her. she'd explain the situation to him. a desperate and determined look in her eyes, depraved and carnal. he'd try to escape his restraints, but it was all in vain. she'd still sit in his lap and kiss on him, whenever she took a break from preparing dinner. she'd try to calm him down, they were about to experience something truly bonding. she hoped that he'd finally be the thing that would satisfy her, just as she hoped every other time.

everything was prepared, and it was time. she didn't wanna say goodbye, but she reassured him and to an extent herself, he wasn't actually leaving. he'd be with her for as long as she was alive, and that brought her a joy she couldn't begin to describe. she'd make his death nice and quick, not wanting him to suffer. that wasn't what she was after. he'd be gone for a little bit, but the moment she brought a small bite to her lips, cooked tender, he'd be returning to her. she'd feel him seep inside, and spread throughout her body.

LOL in either case, if he was unable to escape, jak wouldn't make it out alive :P

THE FACT THIS ISNT EVEN A ONESHOT. i jus put way too much into this. im actually insane

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

MONKIE KID SEASON 3 EP 6 TIME BABBYYYY

OH GOSH OH GOSH OHGOSHGSDNAF I READ THE TITLE AND ADRENALINE KICKED IN HOOO BOY BREATHINGI BTREATHE BREATHE BRETHEBABTMA;OWE

K I’ve been avoiding spoilers like the plague and I gotta like, recenter myself here, I am not at all emotionally prepared for this ep THIS IS THE RED SON EP, FINALLY MORE OF MAH BOYYY THE MAAAN IT HEEEE 

OKAY OKAY, FR PRESSING PLAY NOW YUP, I’M TOTALLY CALM HAHAHAHAHAHAHA 

Gosh the intro has no right being this pretty 

First freaking frame and I’m already going bonkers lOOK AT THAT BACKGROUND THO 

 “Dumb Macaque—“ 

Thats it I’ve decided this is my favourite beginning to an episode ever, nothing else competes, than Mei calling Macaque dumb, BEST START 10/10 I’M GRABBING—

I CAN’T EVEN TYPE RN CAUSE I’M STARTING TO THINK ABOUT RED SON N THE DBK FAM AND HOW THEY’RE GONNA SHOW UP MY MIND IS WHIRLING DOING BACKFLIPS I’M SCREAMING SO LOUDLY 

SOBBING

SOBBING AT MEI AND MK

THE 

SANDY

SANDY I’M SOBBING U GUYS HE’S CARRYING THEM I’M CRYING ;A; 

HAVING THE WATER GUY WALK YOU THROUGH A DESERT IS SUCH A BAD IDEA I’M CRYING AND SO CONCENRED PLEASE SOBS CRIES YELLS 

SANDY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

THEY NOOOO

THE CREW

MY GUYS

BELOVEDD

SCERAMS

SCREAMED

SCERAMED

SCREAMED RIGH TTHERE THAT’S A FOOT

THAT

RED

RED SON RED SONRENGBA;FAMW;OF

NOOODLE BOY

NOODHGL;;AWOE

NYOOODLEBOYYY…. 

I’M

THE W

HELP

HEBG;SLDKFM;AWOE

I’M

H

H

HEY

HEYGBSD;FA;WEO

SCREAMIGNSBDAF;AWEMF 

ITS HIM ITS HIM ITS IM HIGMFWE

THE WAY HE SAID THAT HE’S SGBJSFM;AOWFH

GUYS I’M HOLY CRAP 

HIS SCAR 

HIS GLASSES

IT HE

HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL

I’M SOBBIGG WHAT ARE YOU DOING DRIVING AROUND IN THE DESERT AND STUMBLING ACROSS PASSED OUT NYOODLEBOYS BGSDKFM;AWE

NO BUT FR I THOUGHT THEY’D LIKE STUMBLE ACROSS THE HOUSE

NOT RED SON LITERALLY RESCUING THEM FROM CERTAIN DEATH AND TAKING THEM HOME LIKE LOST PUPPIES PLS I’M SOBBINGBSF;LAWMFE 

CRYING LOOK AT HIM

LOOK AT HIM AT THE TABLE

THAT TRANSITION WAS SO GOOD I’M CRYING 

HE REALLY JUST BRINGS THEM INTO HIS HOME AND GETS THEM FOOD AND WATER HUH HE REALLY DID THTA BGNSD;LKAFMAWE 

CRYING AT THE WAY HE’S LOOKING AT THEM RN GB;LSDAFMAW;OE SOBBING FACEDOWN ON THE FLOROBGLDSFMAWE

MK KISSING THE GLASS

“UR WEELLCOMMEEEE BY THE WAAAY.” HINT HINT THANK ME PESANTS 

WHY IS MK ONLY DRINKING WATER N NOT EATINGBGFLKSDFM;AWEF

THAT’S THE FIRST TIME SHE HASN’T CALLED HIM “BOY” 

THANKS RED BOY, YOU DA MAN 

I LOVE MEI SO MUCH GBDSLKFMAWEO SOBBINGGB;FMOAWE

HTEY’RE JSUT RIGHT AT HOME WITH HIM IT’S SO FUNNY HOW RELAXED THEY ARE WITH HIM I’M CRYINGF;AEF 

HE’S EVERYTYING TO MEEEEEE THERE HE ISSSSS ITS RED BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Red Son: I should have left you on that street corner where you were standing 

The Mk crew: BUTCHA DIDN’T— 

GBSDL;KAFMAWE YUP YUP THAT’S MK ALRIGHT, THAT’S HIM, DW RED SON HE DEOS THIS IN MEI’S HOUSE TOO UR NOT SPECIALGBS;DLFMAOGNAWEF

RED SON’S FACE WHEN HE LOOKS AT MK THROUGH THE DOOR

IT HEEEEEEE BG;SLADFM;GH;OIAFMI;AEW SCREAMING CRYING FALLING ON THE FLOOR 

UR NEW CRIP IT TOOOOIIGHHHTTT I’M CRYIGNBFH;LAWFM

IT REALLY IS THO IT LOOKS SO FLY AND EVIL I LOVE THIS FOR HTEM 

NICE ACOUSTICS

ME

ME THO

YEAH

GB;ASLKFMAOWEMFA MK THE TRAPBSDFJM;AOA

SNATCHED

YOINKED 

SAVED

THROWS HIM

INTO 

THE CHAIR

I’M CRYINGDFLJ;AMOIAWFJO;AWMF

THE WAY

THE WAY MEI AND SANDY SWAP SPOTS WHNE EH TROWSN  MK THROUGH THEMGBDSL;KFMAOGHEWF

“YOU THREE AREN’T EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE HERE” 

bruh u brough them into ur house— BGLK;AWMFWAEO HIS PARENTS WHEN ARE THEY GONNA FIND OUT RIGHT HERE?? DBK ?? WHO KNOWS 

OKAY OKAY GONNA KEEP GOING I LOVE RED SON SO MCUH 

I KEEP PUASING TO JUST LOOK AT HIS FACE AND APPRECIATE THE ANIMATION I’M SOBBBBBIINNNGGGG

MAN DOESN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THEY’RE DOING BGSF;MOAIWGMO;AWEIFH 

(they were dying of heatstroke) 

ALSO RED SON IN FULL JAKET LAYERS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DESERTBGSLDF;GHWEOF

YOUR PATHETIC MEANINGLESS LIVES HE’S SO STUPID IL OVE HIM SO MUCH U GUYS HAVE NO IDEA I’M CRYING SOBBING WIALING

MK HAINDING HIM THE CUPPELNHG;HF;OSAIGFMAWOFE

LOOK AT HIM TRY AND BE THREATENING BY BREAKING A CUP OF WATER I LOVEG;LSMN;OAGHWE

YOUR WISH IS OUR DEMAND

I LOVE HIM UR HONOUR 

TAKES OFF HIS GLASSES

OH MY GOODNESS

RED SON WITHOTU GLASSES REAL 

Red Son: what were you doin dying out in the middle of nowhere anyways 

Mei: u are bestie so i will tell u all 

BGLS;KAFM;GHOAWEF CRYINGAFAWE

THE FACT THAT THERE’S LIKE, TWO BIG CHARIS AT EITHER END AND THEN A BUCNH OF SMALL MEANING RED SON ALWAYS SITS ON THE SIDE IN THE SMALL CHAIRS BY HIMSE—DBK

DBK 

GBSD;LFKAOWOEFM DBK ARRVIALGBSD;LKFA;GHAWE

THROGH THE LAVA

WHAT AN ENTERENCE

DRAMA RUNS IN THE FAMILYGB;F;MAOWEF 

HTERE HE ISSSS

 THE MAN

HG;LKSDKFMS;D THEIR FACESSSSSSSSSSS

LOOK AT HIS HAIR 

MKBGSD;LKFM;AOHIAOWMAE MK 

I’m never recovering from that line, never. never ever, i’m gone, i’ve left I’m dead MEI AND MK CALLING HIMTGBJLGBA;LOWIGFAWEMF

WE STILL COOL, RIGHT? 

CRYGINGNLSDMAO;GBOIAFMAWE 

DROPS A LEG ON THE TABLE

I’M SCREAMIGNLFNN;OAFIMWEF 

FOUND THE MEAT ON THE TABLEBG;LSDKMF;OAGHOAWE 

I WAS WONDERING GBS;LKFM;AOGIO;AWFEMWAEF 

RED SON DAMAGE CONTROL TIME DAMAGE CONTROL TIME MAYDAY PARETNS HOME EARLY 

HE REALLY DID BRING HIS FRIENDS OVER TO HANG OUT THINKING HIS PARENTS WOULD BE OUT LONGER I’M CRYINGNSDALFKAFWE 

SANDY’S FACE WHEN LOOKING AT THE LEG  BGBGSK;DFMOAWEF I AM CONCERN 

THEIR FACES WHEN PIF COMES IN 

I’M BGSDLMFANH;AIOWFMAW;OGH;AOWIEF 

SANDY LOOKS SO SAD ;A; 

SANDY DOESN’T HAVE HIS THERAPY CAT ;A; 

WORLDS MOST AWKWARD FAMILY DINNER

WHEN U CAME OVER TO UR FRIENDS HOUSE AND THE PARENTS TAHT DON’T LIKE YOU GET BACK EARLY AND THEY AGRESSIVELY INVITE YOU TO DINNER

IT’S THE FACT THAT THEY  HVEN’T KICKED THEM OUT YET I’M GBS;DLKFMAEW

THE DYNAMIC BETWEEN THE DBK FAM AND THE MK CREW IS EVERYTHING TO ME RN THEY’RE SO GBSD;LKM;HOAWIFMAWFE 

HOW SMALL SANDY LOOKS RN COMPARED TO THEM I’M YELLINGBL;SDMOAWEF 

THE THINLY VEILD THREATS BEGINNNNNN

THIS IS DINNER WITH IN-LAWS BGLS;KMAWOIEF 

THE WATERGBDF;MIGOHOIWEMFAEF

RED SON JUST LETTING THEM KNOW

THEY SEEM ON BETTER TERMS NOW

MK’S HARIGBSDLK;FM;OGHOIEF

MK AND MEI’S HAIR BELOVEDSSSSS 

oh man

MORONIC QUEST BG;LFKMWAOEF

WOW SEVERE 

It’s very interesting to me how when DBK puts his fists on the table he doesn’t even like, shake the table. that was like a calm put down. MAN’S CHILLED OUT?? ALSO I DUNNO I’M JUST GONNA BE THINKING ABOTU THAT FOREVER 

THE EXCHANGE OF LOOKS 

THE SAD LOOKS??? 

HELLO???? 

WHAT A GREAT WAY TO SHOW HOW LITTLE MONKEY KING ACTUALLY TELLS THEMBGSDLK;FN;GHOIEMFOWFE

ALRIGHT LORE TIME GIMME 

“Typical Sun Wukong” YEAH, MONKEYS GOT ISSUES BGKSADFMOAWEJFI 

IT’S SO CHILL THOOOO 

THIS WHOLE THING IS SO CHILLLLLLL 

LIKE, EVEN WHEN THEY’RE LIKE, TENSE, THEY’RE STILL NOT ANGRY AT THE CREW?? THEY’RE ACTUALLY BEING REALLY NICE???? I’M CRYING?? 

“well if you guys know so much why don’t yOU TELL US” 

YEEAAHHH INFO TIMEEEEE 

RED SON??? 

HELLO

FIRST OF ALL SCREAMING CUASE HECK YEAH HE WOULD MAKE A WEAPON THAT OCULD DESTROY THE WHOLE WROLD OF COURSE HE WOULD 

HE LOOKS SUPRISED THOUGH, WHY DOES HE LOOK SO STARTLED WHY DOES HE LOOK SO SBGL;JDSGNM;AGBAWOIEFMNO;AG;AWESCREAMINGFGLKSMFWE

KNOCKED OFF HIS CHAIR 

HE SOUNDS LIKE HE DOESN’T KNOW?????  HELLO????????? 

BABY RED SONNNNNNN FLASHBACK I’M SOBBGIM I’M CRYING I’M ON THE FLORHBGDSLMAOWE

HOOOO

HOOOLLLLLD UP

HOLLLDDD UP OH MY GBSDJ;LKFM;GOIAWEF

OHH OH OHOHGLSDMFSO;GRE

OPHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO

OHOHOH

OH 

OH 

OH 

HECK 

HECKGB;DLSJNOAWE

HECK

THE 

HECK

THE

HECK

SHUT UP THE ANIMATIONNNN

 WOW

W O W 

I’M SCREAMING

FIRE RED SON 

FIRE RED SON

SCREAMIING SO LOUDLY YOU HAV ENO IDEA RN 

FLASHBACK DBK IS A LAD 

HE IS AN ABOSLUTE LAD 

OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY THAT’S

THAT’S A LOT

THAT’S A LOT OT TAKE IN HI 

HI

HOLY CRAP 

JTTW CREW????? 

NEZA??????? 

WU7KONG?????? 

HELOO???????

I’M SCREMAING??? 

IT’S A BABY 

I’M LSOING MY MINDBLKSDANIL;AGEWAFWAE

WHAT

WHAT

“Our bodies were deemed the most likely to survived” WHAT THE CRAP DO YOU MEANNNNNNNNNN 

CRYING????? 

KAY FIRST OF ALL

UM 

THE FACT THAT BODIES DEEMED MOST LIKELY TO SURVIVE AND WUKONG’S ONE HUGE WEAKNESS HAS CONSISTANTLY BEEN FIRE???? 

I’M CRYING

OVER THE FACT THAT HE DOESN’T EVEN TRY TO CATCH THE RING

HE JUST LETS IT HIT THE GROUND AND GOES TO CATCH HIS SON I’M SOBBING

DAD DBK EVERYONE I’M CRYINGBSALFKAWMEF 

WHY DOES WUKONG LOOK AT HIM LIKE THAT WHY IS HE LOOKING AT THEM LIKE THAT SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I’M LOSING MY ACTUAL MIND RIGHT NOW MY SANITY IS SLIPPING AWAY OH MY GODSBG;LSDAKFMAWOEFH 

RED SON HAD NO IDEA

MANS LOOKING MORE SHOCKED AND ENAMOURED THAN THE REST OF THEM AS DBK TELLS THIS STORY 

THAT THING

THAT FRAME

WITH THE

RED SON

N HIS LI’LL FIRE

AND THEN MEI

RIGHT BEHIND IT

WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SYA MONKIE KID

WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY HUH 

I’M SCREAMING 

THE

THE WAY MK PULLS RED SON INTO THE GROUP I’M SOBBING 

HE’S TRYING TO PEP TALK EM 

RIGHT UNDER HIS NOSE THE WHOLE ITME ARE YOU KIDDING ME ARE YOU KIDDING ME ARE YOU KIDDING ME GBASD;LKFM;OGHAIEWFMO 

THAT THEY

THE BAKING SHOWGSDLA;FMAWOE

THEY’RE SO SUTPID I’M BGSL;KAMAW THEY THEM I’M HITTING HT FLOOR FLIPPING TABLES SCREAMIGNASDFLJ;GAIJWEFEW UI’M CRYING YEAH JUST PUT ULTIMATE POWER AND USE IT AS A NOSE RING, POWER MOVE HONESTLY 

THE FACT THEY FOUND IT INSTANTLY IS ENDING ME HOW DID THEY KNOWSBDNL;KFMA;OGNAWEF 

ARE THEY JUST DRAWN TO THE PWOER?? HEKCINGGSDB;JFAWEF

MEI THO PLS WHAT’S GOING ON WITH MEI I SWEAR IF SHE SNATCHES IT I’M GONNA LOSE MY FREAKING MIND  

THEY BOTH SAW THAT

RED GREEN AND BLUE CALLED IT

BUT SHUT UP THEY BOTH SAW IT

EVERY TIEM SOMEONE TOUCHES HER I SWEAR 

WHY CAN THEY SEE THIS WHAT DOES THIS MEAN 

I DON’T WANNA BE RIGHT GO BACK GO BACK 

NO

NO NONO SOBBING

NOOOOOOOOO

SCREAMING

I’M

WHAT DO YOU MEAN 

THE WAY THEY BOTH SAW IT 

AND WERE BOTH STARTLED AND EVEN AFRAID OF IT

THIS IS THE SECOND TIME MEI HAS SEEN THIS 

MEI GETTING CONSUMED BY THE FIRE OF SAMADHI REAL I GUESS HUH WOW THAT’S ONE THEORY I DIDN’T WNAT TO BE CRORECT BUT HERE WE ARE 

Okay so I got like, swirling nonsense in my head trying to tie them together n all these theories i can’t even begin to brain correctly rn i’m screaming too loudly thanks oh my gods the animation of the fire shut up shut up shut up 

they’re not even gonna address this. 

they’re not even gonna bring it up 

they’re not gonna bring it up 

they’re gonna just not bring it up YOU BOTH SAW THAT AND YOU’RE JUST GONNA BREEZE PAST IT I’M LOSING MY FREAKNG MIND Y’ALL I’M BITING EVERYHI9NG IN SIGHT I’M BREKING THE WALL I’M FLIPPING TABLES AND SCREAMIGNSD;HIOAWEFMOAWEF

I KEEP TRYING TO PLAY THE NEXT PART BUT I CAN’T EVEN MOVE ON FROM THIS IT’S TOO FREAKING INTENSE MY BRIAN IS WHIRLING HOW DO I TALK ABOUT MK MAKING THE SLEEPOVER “IT’S GETTING DARK OUT PLS INVITE US TO STAY” WHEN I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOTU MEI ON FREAKIGN FIRE 

SANDY SUPPORTINGBFD;LKSMA;FOWEF 

THEY JUST HAPPEN TO HAVE THREE SPARE BEDS 

THE WAY MK’S UNDER THE COVERS 

MEI’S PLUSHIE

RED SON HAIR DOWN RED SON PYJAMAS I’M GOING FERAL I’M BTING THIS LOOK AT HIM HE’S GB;SDLJN;AGHAEIWFJAW;OEF NO GLASSES HAIR DOWN RED SON REAL I’M YELLING;SAB;LJAGWOEFH;AEOIFAWMEF 

I’M FINE

“Will that be ALL then.” 

“Its a bit cold—“ 

I’M CRYIGNSDGA;HLFMFAWEF 

GEE THAT’D BE SWELL

THAT’D BE SWELL FRIEND

I’M CRYINGABHFAL;WE

HOW DO YOU SAY NO TO THAT

HJE WAS BEING SARCASTIC HOW DO YOU SAY NO TO THAT LOOK AT HIM 

RED SON CLUTCHING HIS CHESTBG;LKSADMGSGHIOWAEFMAWE

HE’S SO

HE’S SO 

GSDFKMAIWE;OF

EVERYTHING

MK IS EVERYTHING

“THANK UUU” 

HE’S JUST SO LOVELY YOU GUYS I’M CRYING

RED SON’S ROCK MUSIC AND  SLAMMING THE DOORBG;LKMF;OAFHOIAWEF

AIGHT HEIST TIME

TIME TO STEAL A NOSE RING 

WHAT DO YO9U MEAN LIKE THE JERK HE ISSSGBSD;LKFM;AWOE

MONKEY KING PROBABLY HAS HIS STASHED SOMEWHERE MK PLEASEBGL;KASM;FOWEF 

THE FACT MEI CALLS RED SON RED BOY AND MR. MK MONKIE KID MONKEY MAN IS EVERYTHING TO ME 

STOP THE PICTURE OF SLEEPING DBK IN A ONSIE 

I’M DYJINGBDSFL;KAMWOEF 

THEY’RE STRAIGHT UP GONNA STEAL FROM THE FAMILY THAT LET THEM STAY AND NOT DIE OUT IN THE DESERT HUH GSD;LKFM;GAOWIEFMAWE 

Mk’s artistic rendition of how this is gonna go down is one of the most beautiful things i’ve ever seen 

SOUNDS LIKE A GOOD PLAN MK 

FLAWLESS

AND THERE THEY GO

A YES THE TRAPS 

LOOK THEM GO

I SEE THEY FOUND RED SON’S WORK SHOP GB;SDLKMFN;AOHG;AIOWFMWAEOF 

I’M CRYINGBGL;KSDMFOAWEF 

You think Red Son keeps building things all the time cause he feels like there’s something missing so he keeps trying to build it /hj 

GB;ALWEFM;WOEF OKAY ANYWAYY MOVING ON 

MEI READY TO KICK THE BUCKET

SANDY YOU CAN’T FIT

SANDY SANDY NO GB;SLDAKMAOWFE 

SUNGLASSES 

BG;LASKMFAWOEIFMW

HE ACTUALLY GOT THE WARM MILK AND THE BLANKET

HE GOT THE WARM MILK AND THE BLANKET FOR MK I’M CRYING BGLJKM;OA;HOIAEMF

HOW COULD U SAY NO TO THAT FACE I’M RIGHT

RED SON IS SWEET ACTUALLY AND VERY HOSPITABLE I’M CRYINGBFG;LAMWAWHOEF 

I THINK IT’ D BE REALLY FUNNY IF THEY TOLD HIM THEY JUST WANTED TO APPECIATE HIS INVENTIONS OS HE LETS THEM IN AND THEN THEY STEAL ITBGLK;SMA;AOWEF

GUYS PLEASE 

DID YOU JUST PUNCH THE POOR GUY IN THE FACE??? 

MEI?????? 

MEI PLEASE HE WAS GETTING MK WARM MILK AND A BLANKET WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO HIMGBSDJ;LKFM;OHQOWDFWE

STRAIGHT UP KNOCKED THE MAN OUT I’M CRYINGBSDF;LKFMA;OWEFIMAFE 

we’re not gonna comment on the dbk frame thanks moving on— G;LKAEMWF 

MK WHY ARE YOU DOING THISGNSLKDFMA;OAMWEF

BUTT ROPE

BRUHHH

HE REALLY JUST RIPPED IT OUT

MK NG;LKSDAFM;OG;AOIMFWAFE

OH NOOOGBSDL;FMAWOE

COME ON MAN YOU HAVE TRANSFORMATIONSNGSDLKFMAWEOF

CAGUTH 

WHATS THE PLAN HERE BRO 

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 

THEIR FRIENDSHIP IS EVERYTHIGN TO ME 

NGSAL;DKFMAWEO MEIG;LSKMFAOWEF

LOOK AT 

HEY 

WHAT

WHAAATTTT

SHE REALLY JUST PULLED AN MK 

SHE REALLY CAN JUST DO THAT HUH 

MEI REALLY DOES JUST WATCH SOMEBODY DO IT AND THEN IMMEDEATELY COPY THEM HUH 

DBK BGSDLK;FMAWOEF

 HE LOOKS WEIRD WITHOUT HIS NOSE RING HE LOOKS WEIRD BG;SLDKFMAWOE 

Pif hair down 

nice 

THE FACT THEY KEEP SAYING “Monkey king has doomed us all” 

WE GOT A “perhaps” THIS TIME THOUGH WE GOT A PERHAPS 

ALSO MY GOSH POOR RED SON. THE MAN RESCUES THEM, INVITES THEM INTO HIS HOME, GIVES THEM FOOD, BEDS, WARM MILK N BLANKETS AND THEY KNOCK HIM OUT AND STEAL HIS CAR BGSLK;DFM;JIOAGHAWIEOF 

Is that Mei’s plushie? MEI YOU LOST YOUR PLUSHIE 

HE’S LAYING FLAT ON THE FLOOR AND MEI FORGOT HER PLUSHY 

also just appreciating the workshop rn 

AH HE DOES GET A FLASHBACK O FTHE VISON CALLED IT CALLED IT BG;SDMNF;OAIWMFEW 

 HOLY CRAP 

WELL THEY DID IT 

THE WAY THAT MEI STARES AT IT 

I AM UNBELIEVABLY CONCERNED

IS SHE JUST DRAWN TO IT??? 

WHY??? 

IS SHE ONE OF THEM???

I’M SCREAMING??? 

DEAR GOSH 

DID SHE JUST LAUCNH MK INTO THE—

YEEEAAAHHHHHHHHH

YYYEEAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

PLEASE PLEASEPLASE

OH MY GODS I DIDN’T REALIZED HOW MUCH I MISSED THE OHTER HALF O F THE CREW I’M GONNA START SOBBING 

NO CONCERN FOR THE MAN WHO JUST SLAMMED INTO THE WINDSHIELD FROM TANG

PIGSY’S CONCERNED

NOT TANG BGLSD;KMF;AOWEF 

MO PIGSY 

TANGY

LEGOOOOOO

AND NO REUNION HE’S RIGHT BACK TO MEDITATING

AND THE FACT PIGSY’S PASSED OUT ON THE BED TELLS ME HE’S BEEN DRIVING THE ENTIRE TIME WHICH I’M CHOSING TO HAVE MEAN TANG AMND MONKEY KING CANNOT DRIVE THANKS BG;JLKSAMFNOBGOAIWFMOWAE I MEAN WE KNOW TANG CAN’T DRIVE BUT BGLKAD;SFM;OAWEFM 

I WANTED A HUG BUT THAT’S OKAY 

THE WAY SHE KEEPS STARING AT IT 

AARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAGHSFSDLAHHHGGRARRGTGRRRGGRGRGGDJSFKAJSHDFLKJHAW;EFM;OAWEF

MAN YEAH STARING AT IT MAKES SENSE CONSIDERING THAT WHOLE SITUATION OF THE VISIONS OF WHATEVER THE HECK THAT IS OF HER BEING CONSUMED BY THE FIRE AND SOME KINDA CREATURE VIBE YEAH NOT CONCERNING AT ALL MEI YOU IDIOT TELL SOMEBODY 

we love the fact that literally no one in this show communicates. 

EVERYTHING WOULD BE SOLVED WITHIN THRITY SECONDS IF EVEYRONE JUST SLAPPED DOWN ON THE TABLE AND SAID HERES WHAT I KNOW BUT NOOO 

MK NO COMUNICATATE

MONKEY KING NO COMUNICATE

SANDY NO COMUNCIATE

TANG NO COMUNCIATE

PIGSY NO COMUNCIATE

MACAQUE NO COMUNCIATE

THEY’RE ALL IDIOTSGBSLA;JKFM;OAGHOAWEF

Okay only thing I didn’t like about this episode was the fact that we didn’t get any monkey king dialogue at the end. had everyone talk but him it feels really empty that way just a “oH hi kid, you’re back!” woulda been great but it jsut feels like there’s a big something missing from that ending cause we didn’t get anything from him for me but WOW

OKAY SO THAT’S A WHOLE LOT TO UNPACK DEAR GOSH I’M REELING 

I’M 

WHAT DO I EVEN DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS 

MEI 

RED SON

I’M SOBBING WE GOT RED SON CONTENT FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE SES 2 SPECIAL I MISS HIM ALREADY 

I’M SO HAPPY THO CAUSE THERE WAS ONE MORE CLIP OF RED SON IN THE TRAILER THAT WASN’T IN THIS EP WHICH MEANS HE SHOWS UP AGAIN IN ANOTHER EPISODE I’M SO FREAKING H APPY I’M GONNA SOB 

WOW I GOTTA FIGURE OUT HOW I’M GONNA RECOVER FROM THAT GODSPEED FAREWELL I’M DEAD AND SOBBINGBSDF;LJAMWOEF 

[myheelsdontmatchmysweatpants]

Red lily and kirishima?

Alrighty! I am SO SORRY for taking so long but here is Red Lily (Passion) and Kirishima! And as always!

18+ MINORS DNI

Warnings: oral! (fem & male receiving), use of recording equipment, "sir", drinking, Denki/Jirou and Baku/Deku, uhhhh i think thats it.

Cam!BoyKiri & Fem!Reader

W/C - 5.7K

“Ahhh ahhhh, mmfff.” Covering your mouth with your hand you try your best to muffle the sounds of your moans however, your partner does not approve.

His large calloused hand grabs your wrist and pins it to your side, slapping your thigh to get your attention. As you drag your blurry eyes to the man between your legs you are once again captivated by the sight. How could you not be, when such a gorgeous giant man is tongue fucking you dumb.

He lifts his head up for a moment, licking cum from his lips and not sounding the least bit winded even though he has been shoving his face in your pussy for what feels like an hour.

“I told you princess,” he slowly dips three fingers into your cunt “how can anyone learn when you aren’t telling them what feels good?” he raises a scarred eyebrow and winks at you before dropping his head back down and resuming his feast.

“Mmmm o-okay Red Ri- Riot.”

*****

When you hear the front door to your apartment slam you know your time has come.

“Y/N! Get your ass out here now!”

As much as you want to avoid this fight you know that if you ignore your roommate Jirou she will just use that ridiculously expensive sound system she has and point it right at your door. You groan as you get up and trudge to your door, easing it open and peeking around it to see her standing at the edge of the hallway. “Nice to see you back babes.” You pull the door open all the way and step out of your room but not any closer “How was your night?”

“How was my night? HOW WAS MY NIGHT?!”

You flinch at the sheer volume of her voice and slide a wry smile on your face. “Was Denki not as good as you thought he would be?”

Jirou throws her hands up and scoffs. “Ya know, I would be a lot less upset if I didn’t have to wake up at THREE IN THE MORNING when Mineta came back to their apartment SOBBING!”

You try to hold in your laugh, unsuccessfully, so while you clutch your chest to try and calm the wheezing Jirous face gets red with anger. “I’m - I’m sorry but he fucking cried? Please tell me you got a picture, or a video.”

“Of course I fucking did but that is beside the point!” You see a hint of a smile on her face but it quickly disappears. “I thought you were gonna handle him for me until today?”

“Did you not get your nut? I gave you five hours ya prude.”

“Of course we had sex you inconsiderate butt munch. But it was quickly overshadowed when Mineta busted into the room without knocking and got a bloody nose when he saw me in bed with Denki.” She pinches the bridge of her nose and closes her eyes. “It was disgusting, the little freak couldn’t decide whether to drool over me or cry over what you said to him, so he did both.”

You’re hunched over laughing with your hands on your knees but one look at your friend's face sobers you up and you walk over to hug her. “I’m sorry, that must have been really uncomfortable.”

She wraps her arms around you and nods. “It really fuckin was, but Denki got up and threw him out of the room so that was satisfying to watch.”

“Was Denki satisfying to fuck?”

Jirou tenses up and pulls away from you. “Changing the subject isn’t gonna make me forgive you.”

“I know, but telling me about the amazing sex you had will make you forget about it.” She glares at the shit eating grin on your face then huffs out a laugh.

“Fine, but you're buying breakfast.”

“Deal! Now,” you wrap an arm around her shoulder and lead her to the living room, “please tell me he started out with foreplay.”

*****

“The idiot got a fuckin nosebleed?”

Denki nods his head, wincing as a large hand claps his back.

“That’s such a bummer dude!” Kirishima looks at him in pity, “but at least you finally got together with Jirou right? You guys gonna hang out again?”

“I wouldn’t want to.” Bakugou laughs over his very large glass of orange juice.

Denki drops his head on the table in defeat while Kirishima looks over at Bakugou with disappointment. “Dude, if you're not gonna say anything nice then don’t say anything at all.”

Bakugou slams his cup back on the table, the juice sloshing in the cup but not spilling over the edge. “When have I ever said anything nice?!”

Kirishima sighs heavily and shakes his head before turning back to his sullen friend. “Why was Mineta crying in the first place?”

Denki's voice is muffled by the table. “Apparently Jirous' friend Y/N said something really mean to him.”

Bakugou laughs, “Wish I could have been there to see it.”

*****

You had been at the club for almost an hour already, still sipping on the same drink and watching Jirou from the corner of your eye. You knew this was a good place to suggest a casual meet up with the guy she liked.

A two story building with a bar on the first floor and a lounge on the second. The second floor lounge was sparsely decorated and boasted a large open fireplace in the middle and various couches and chairs scattered throughout the rest of the space.

As you sit with your back to the bar you radiate a sense of aloof boredom, just enough of a resting bitch face to keep people from being too chummy but not enough for people to outright avoid you.

She looks like she's having fun, that’s all that matters.

“So how long have you and Jirou known each other?”

Shit, I forgot he was next to me.

You put on your customer service smile and turn to the man next to you, Denki’s friend Mineta. “We’ve known each other since grade school, our parents both work in the music industry.”

“So you’ve known each other through like, high school and stuff?” You try your best to ignore the creepy glint in his eyes and cover your cup with your hand.

“Like I said, we’ve known each other since grade school so yes. We went to high school together.”

“So have you like…. Seen each other naked?”

You cringe when the creepy little brat looks up at you. “Excuse me?”

“Well you know, I’ve heard that umm statistically speaking women have seen other women naked more times than men.”

“Mhm, yeah we did.” You down the rest of your drink and before you set the glass on the bar top another one is being slid over to you by the bartender. You roll your eyes at the pity on their face and tip them. “Thanks Midoriya.”

“Anything for my favorite patron.”

“Only cause I tip well.”

He laughs, his emerald eyes shining. “That and your invigorating conversational skills.” Before you can throw a witty retort back Mineta is asking another thinly veiled offensive question and you are back to entertaining him.

Jirou and Denki leave the bar around ten thirty so he can show her his ‘book collection’ . You laugh, telling Jirou to use protection when reading.

For the next couple of hours you take Mineta to a couple of more bars downtown, ones where you know all the bartenders. He continued asking inappropriate questions that were always followed by an excuse as to why they were actually harmless.

You had just arrived at your favorite billiard bar when you decided to ask your own.

“So you’ve had sex right?”

Mineta chokes on his vodka and redbull, “Fuck yeah I have, lots of sex. You look like you have too.” You ignore the last comment and casually sip your water.

“What do you do for foreplay?”

He laughs and you raise an eyebrow. “Foreplay? I just put it in, pussys get wet eventually and if not, that’s what lube’s for.”

You’re silent for a minute, not fully believing that he just actually said that. “I’m sorry?”

“Foreplay takes too long, I satisfy plenty without it.” He smirks at you, placing one of his hands on your thigh. Taking a deep breath you slap his hand off you and put your chin in your hand, glaring at him.

“Have you asked your partners if they were satisfied?” You hold one hand up, signaling air quotations around the word partners.

“No?”

Taking a minute to have another drink of water you turn to him fully. “Then I doubt you have satisfied them at all. Foreplay takes too long? This is why people need to take a class on how to please their partner. You don’t look like you could satisfy yourself with your own hand much less satisfy another human being.” You wave goodbye to the bartender, and grab your purse. “The only satisfying thing about you is that you are as stupid as you look. Don’t worry about your drink, I put it on my tab. Do me a favor and search ‘how to sexually please a woman’ on wikihow, maybe you’ll learn something.”

*****

Somehow you are invited to hangout when Jirou meets up with Denki again.

They are meeting at the same lounge but he is bringing two of his friends so you are tagging along. You made Jirou swear on her sound board that Mineta was not one of those friends.

You both get to the bar first, grabbing a spot with two couches. Midoriya brings your usual and takes Jirous' order, winking when you hand him your card to start a tab.

You’re drinking and chatting when Denki walks in, excitedly waving to you both and walking over to give Jirou a hug. “Hey ladies! These are my buddies,” He turns to the side to introduce them and you choke.

“Looks like someone already knows me.” The tall beefy redhead has a sideways smile and your face goes red. “I go by Kirishima when I’m not working,” he holds out a hand to Jirou to shake and leans down to kiss the back of yours. “But feel free to call me Red if it pleases you.”

The other friend scoffs at you both and walks off to the bar, a sadistic smile on his face when Midoriya looks at him with wide eyes. “The angry one is Bakugo, don’t mind him.”

Denki is trying his best to hold in his laughter while whispering to Jirou, you can guess what he is telling her by the way her mouth drops open and she whips her head over to you.

The guys head to the bar and you try your best to be one with the couch when your friend sits next to you with a smile on her face. “So that’s what you're doing on Saturday nights.”

“Please just kill me now.”

“Oh no, you’re not getting out of this one babe.”

“I’m fucking lonely okay?”

She puts her hands up. “Hey I’m not judging, it’s perfectly natural to watch camboys.”

“And like I say at the end of every stream,” Kirishima walks up and sits on the armrest of the couch next to you. “I always appreciate your patronage.”

“I have never been more embarrassed in my life.” You finish your drink and try to signal Midoriya for another but he is talking to Bakugou, a flirty smile on his face and a hand on his forearm.

“They’ve known each other for a while.” You look up at the man next to you, Denki and Jirou caught up in their own flirty banter.

“Midoriya and your friend? I’ve never seen him here though.”

“They both are convinced the other doesn’t like them.”

You look back over at the two talking. “Are they fucking blind?”

Kirishima laughs, it’s a deep rumble that makes the hairs on the back of your neck stand up and a shiver go up your spine. “Yeah, they are. Denki and I tried to talk to Bakugou about it once but he’s a little hard headed.”

You giggle when Kirishima knocks on his head with his fist. “Yeah he looks like the stubborn type.”

Your companions have moved to the other couch so Kirishima moves to sit next to you. “Hey uh,” he looks down at his drink, a shy look on his face and a hand rubbing the back of his neck. “I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable.”

You hurriedly wave your hands in front of you, “Oh no! Please don’t worry about it.” clearing your throat you fidget with the hem of your shirt. “I was just a little flustered, never imagined I would meet you in person.”

He laughs again, and you decide that the sound is more attractive than any you have heard during his streams. “Disappointed?”

“I wouldn’t say that.” You smile when he looks back at you. “Why? You worried Mr. Red Riot?”

He smiles, the sharp points of his teeth looking much more dangerous in real life, you wonder what it would take to get him to bite you. “I wouldn’t say that.”

Hours passed by in a blur, you and Kirishima talked about everything and anything. Denki and Jirou would sometimes join in on your conversation or vice versa. Even the grumpy one came back when Midoriya had to help customers. Eventually Jirou and Denki left together, Bakugou went back to the bar and stayed saying something about ‘stupid Deku’.

When you were both alone you and Kirishima sat in companionable silence for a bit before he offered to take you home. Since you both had been drinking he orders a ride service and while you both wait you check your phone. “Well that’s just rude.”

“Something wrong?”

Shoving your phone back in your purse, you sigh. “The love birds went to my apartment to avoid the pervert.”

Kirishima chuckles, “You talkin about Mineta?”

“Ugh, yeah.”

“I heard you made him cry.”

You grimace, “All I did was tell him some harsh truths, not my fault he can’t take criticism. Besides,” you put your hands on your hips and look up at the man with a scowl on your face. “He deserved it, every bit of it.”

The car arrives and he opens the door for you, “I’m gonna need to hear that story, want to go to my place? Bakugou said he was…. sleeping, somewhere else tonight.”

You hesitate to answer for a moment, not wanting him to assume anything was gonna happen but from the look on his face and the tone of his voice you knew he wasn’t expecting anything. “I would love to.”

The ride to his apartment is quiet, not wanting to inadvertently offend the driver with your story you save it for later. When you arrive Kirishima helps you out of the car and thanks the driver before placing his large hand on the small of your back, guiding you to the front door. You almost stumble, very aware of the size of his hand compared to your body.

It’s so warm

He unlocks the door and you head inside, Kirishima turning on lights while calling back to you. “Feel free to make yourself at home. If you want, I can start heating up water for tea.”

You take off your shoes and place your purse on the table next to the door, grabbing your phone and following his voice. “That sounds good to me, could you tell me where the-”

“Restroom is the second door on the right, Bakugou is a neat freak so it’s spotless, don't worry.”

You head to the restroom, controlling the urge to open the other doors on your way. After taking care of yourself you shoot a quick text to your roommate letting her know where you are and to text you when her and Denki are done ‘reading’.

You get to the kitchen and sit at the table, telling Kirishima about your interaction with Mineta. By the time you are done the tea is steeping in front of you both and he is wiping tears of laughter from his eyes.

“Ya know, I was gonna make it a point to beat that idiot for what he said but your response was so perfect I would just be kicking a man while he’s down.”

You stand up, giggling and bow a couple of times. “Thank you, thank you. I’ll be here all week.”

When you sit back down, Kirishima has his hand on his chin, a look of contemplation on his face. “A class on how to please their partners huh?”

“I don’t know, I’ve been with quite a few guys who had the same mentality as that idiot. Would be nice if someone could teach them what foreplay is.”

“Like a lecture? Or do you mean a live example?”

You shrug your shoulders. “What would a textbook do? Might as well have someone record a tutorial, the recipient would just need to say what feels good out loud.”

“That’s a good idea, most of those people watch porn anyway, might as well make it informative.”

You look over at Kirishima and blush at his smoldering gaze. “Umm, yeah that’s what I was thinking too.”

“Mind if I ask you a personal question?”

Your heartbeat picks up, “Go ahead.”

The smile that appears on his face is down right predatorial. “How vocal are you with your partners?”

*****

You were nervous sure, but so fucking ready. Kirishima had set all of his recording stuff up in his room, after making sure you were 100% comfortable with it, and made sure to let you know that you can stop at any point in time.

“I’m not doing this live stream. Don’t want you caring about what my viewers are thinking if you wanna stop.”

You’re standing off to the side with your arms wrapped around yourself, chewing your lips. “Thank you, that actually makes me feel a lot better.”

After moving stuff around, Kirishima looks over at you in concern. “Are you really okay with this?”

“I’m fine.” he raises a scarred eyebrow, “I promise! I think I'll be less nervous once we get started.”

Kirishima raises both eyebrows and slowly smiles. “Eager are we?”

“Are you kidding me? If you were to grab me by the throat, force my mouth open and spit in it I would say thank you sir.” your face goes red when you realize what you just said. “I-I mean you’re fuckin hot and….. Easy to talk to, and….”

He walks up to you, rubbing his hands up and down your arms. “It’s alright! Not like I haven't had someone tell me that before.” You huff out a laugh. “I mean not to my face but it was cute coming from you.”

You groan in embarrassment, then Kirishima grabs your hand and guides you towards a chair in view of the camera and your heartbeat picks up. He gently grabs your chin and tilts your face up, moving closer till you can feel his breath on your lips. “Can I kiss you?”

“Please”

He closes the distance, pressing his lips softly against yours as you lay your hands on his chest. The kiss is sweet until you feel his tongue swipe against the seam of your lips and whimper. He growls, sitting down on the chair and pulling you on top of him before cupping your face and kissing you again, biting your bottom lip and thrusting his tongue into your mouth when you gasp at the sweet pain.

Pulling back Kirishima coos at the look on your face. “Did you like when I bit you?”

“Mhm” you nod your head, licking your bottom lip. “Do it more… please.”

“Of course princess.”

You shiver at the name. “Oh god please keep calling me that too.”

Placing his hands on your hips, Kirishima kisses your lips again, biting your lip then kissing down your jaw to your ear. “Anything else princess?”

“T-touch me.”

“Where would you like me to touch you?”

You moan as he kisses down your neck, biting just hard enough to not break the skin. “Anywhere… everywhere.”

He chuckles darkly, slowly dragging his hands from your hips up your sides. You squirm in his lap and drape your arms on his shoulders.

“You’re so soft.” he nips then licks your shoulder. “I would never get tired of touching you.”

Huffing with impatience you grab his wrists and bring his hands up to your breasts. He stops just shy of palming them. “You know, if you wanted me to touch you here you should have been more specific.”

You arch your back pushing your breasts out. Your nipples are hard, visible through the thin material of your top. “Don’t be gentle, I like it rough.”

Kirishima answers by grabbing your breasts softly while lowering his head to bite your nipples. Your hands drag up the back of his neck to grab his hair as you cry out in broken mewls.

He alternates between biting and sucking on your nipples rolling and pinching the other one between his fingers. When he pulls away you take your shirt off, he reaches behind you and unclasps your bra, which follows your shirt to the floor.

You sit up a bit on his lap and help him remove his shirt before you cup his face and kiss him. It’s messy and ravenous, you whimper when his teeth scrape against your lips.

When he pulls away again he goes right back to playing with your nipples.

He feels you buck in his lap and looks up at you. “You gonna cum princess? Just from me playing with your nipples?”

You nod your head. “Yes, please don’t stop. M’so close.”

Kirishima grins, pushing both of your breasts together and managing to get both nipples in his mouth. Lathing his tongue over both before nibbling on them, paying attention to your breathing and the shallow rocking of your hips. When your breathing gets quicker and your hips stutter he sucks them hard and you cum moaning loudly.

He massages your breast while you come down from your high, kissing along your collarbone.

“Can we lay down?”

“Of course. Hold on to me.” Kirishima kisses the tops of your breasts and picks you up walking over to the bed and gently laying you down atop it. “I wanna see all of you,” he grabs the waist of your pants, “I’m gonna take these off okay?”

“Only if I can see you too.” you answer with a smirk.

“You will, but I have a woman to satisfy first.” He pulls your pants off, taking your panties with them and pushes your thighs apart.

He lays down between your legs and slides them over his shoulders, you clutch the sheets in your fists. When you make eye contact you think you might cum that second, seeing a man you had touched yourself to countless times in between your legs was driving you crazy. Kirishima winks, then looks down at your already soaked pussy. “Thank you for the meal.”

He goes straight for your clit, swirling his tongue around it and moaning at the taste. When you cross your legs behind his head and press him harder against your cunt he ruts into the mattress.

“Oh - oh god….m’gonna cum.” Your eyes roll back. “I-I don’t wanna cum yet….. Please.”

Kirishima takes his mouth off your clit as soon as the words are out of your mouth. Kissing the insides of your thighs when you uncross your legs. “I’m sorry princess, was that too much?”

You struggle to get the words out, panting from trying to hold back your orgasm. “A little yeah….It felt amazing but I like….. too amazing.” You look down at him again, “Maybe a little slower? Feel free to use your fingers too.”

“Want me to tell you when you can cum?”

You groan, the heat in your core getting hotter just from his words. “Fuck….. yes please.”

He chuckles, giving one of your thighs a playful bite before moving one of his hands up and sticking one of his fingers in his mouth. You can’t help but shiver when he pulls it out and it’s glistening with spit.

He brings it to your pussy, dragging the tip through your moist folds. “I was taught to never play with my food...” he slowly pushes his thick rough finger into your hole, “but for you I can make an exception.”

“You’re gonna kill me.”

By the time he is done sucking out your soul he lets you cum only 3 times. You had gone from actively voicing your pleasure to tiredly trying to hold them in until he argued against it.

“Fuck, you’re so sexy.” Kirishima sits up, not bothering to wipe his face of your slick. When you wince while stretching your sore legs out he starts rubbing them down.

You moan at the feeling of his large warm hands working out the tense muscles. “Holy shit, I might cum just from you massaging me. Feels so goooooood.” After a few minutes of basking in the orgasmic afterglow you sit up, placing your hands on his chest and kiss him softly. “You’re turn big guy.”

“I thought this was about you princess.” He smiles at you, all teeth and shiny lips.

You push him till he steps off the bed, “This is about satisfying ‘partners’. You are also my partner so you also need to be satisfied.” You slide off the bed and get on your knees in front of him. “Would you like to give me commands?” You see his cock throb in his pants.

“As fun as that sounds, I want to see what you do without them.”

Your smile is feline, lifting your hands to his stomach and dragging them back down by your nails. He moans and throws his head back. “F-fuck.”

You lick your lips as you unbutton his pants, not one for being patient you tug them off as soon as the zipper is down. Your mouth starts watering at the sight of his cock, the sound of it hitting his stomach echoing in your brain. You cup his balls, weighing them in your hand and kissing each one.

Kirishima thinks his heart might stop in his chest. Dragging a finger from his shaft to the head, you watch mesmerized as it twitches at the small movement. You smear the drop of pre resting on the head of his dick, then lick it off. Humming at the taste you swirl your tongue around, softly squeezing his balls while you do so.

When you close your lips around him and suck, Kirishima shivers and places one of his hands on your head. You lift up with a pop and look up at him through your lashes. “Feel free to be rough with me, pull my hair or hold my head if you want.” His lashes flutter at your words. “What did you say to me earlier?” You mockingly tap his cock in contemplation. “Oh yes! Thank you for the meal.”

Sticking out your tongue you flatten it against him and lick every inch of his cock, all 7 of them. You’re gonna need every advantage to fully deep throat him and with his girth a sore jaw is the least of your worries. When you're done, saliva has coated your lips and Kirishima has an almost too tight grip on your hair.

You waste no time, going down on him little by little; giving your throat time to relax and take all of his cock. By the time you manage to get far enough to feel his groomed pubic hair on your nose both of you are breathing heavily.

You can feel his thighs tensing under your hand, his balls moving with every breath. You are tempted to touch yourself but refrain, although you can feel the slick dripping down your thighs; this is about him.

You keep your head still for a moment, enjoying the feel of him in your throat. When you hum, the vibrations caress his cock and he pushes your head impossibly closer to him until you push back. Although you were enjoying yourself, you can’t help but gag and cough a little when you pull your mouth off of him.

“As much as I enjoy this sight,” Kirishima lets go of your hair and reaches down to pick you up, pleasing you on the bed again. “I want to fuck you so bad…”

Your mouth drops open, you can’t help it. When have you ever experienced a man, a very attractive inside and out man, expressing his desire to you.

“Is that a no?” Kirishima Backs up a step, worried that he had crossed a line.

“Oh no! I’m sorry….I just..” you grab his hands and pull him closer to you. “I never imagined I’d hear someone say that without assuming I would say yes.”

You sit up, getting on your knees at the edge of the bed and grabbing his face, pulling him into a kiss. As you slowly back up he crawls on the bed to follow you, never breaking the kiss until finally you are laying down with him over you.

You whimper as you feel the head of his cock drag through your wet folds a few times before pushing into you. He goes slowly, almost cumming at the feeling of your gummy walls squeezing his cock with every inch.

You both moan when he is fully seated inside, his heavy balls resting on your ass and pelvis pressed against yours. His cock twitches inside you, the head pressing against your deepest parts and you come undone. Kirishima breaks the kiss and looks down at you with a slight smug look on his handsome face. “That good huh?”

“Oh shut up and fuck me already.” You look at him with blurry eyes and a smile on your face.”

He pulls out halfway then ruts back into you, pulling another moan out of your mouth. “Like that?” He pulls out again, this time slowly until just the head is inside before slowly pushing back in. “Or is that better?”

“Either, both just please keep going.” You drag your nails down his back and he starts moving inside you, starting out with shallow thrusts.

“Fuck, you feel so good princess.”

You mewl in pleasure, coming undone again at his words.

“That’s it baby, cum on my cock.” Kirishima picks up his pace, drunk on the face and noises you make when cumming. When he grabs one of your legs and pushes it into your chest your mouth opens in a silent scream, your body running towards that cliff one more time.

“Ah, ah, ah, hold that one in.”

Your eyes snap open, Kirishima lifts his head up from the side of your face and looks at you. “Don’t cum again till I say so.”

You whimper but nod your head, using all of your willpower to deny your orgasm. “Yes, Sir.” You said the words as a joke but Kirishima's hips stutter and he groans.

“Say it again.”

You have just enough left over energy to smirk. “I said, yes. Sir.”

He swears, changing the angle of his hips and pounding into you with reckless abandon. You're seeing stars and losing your mental grip on holding your orgasm back. Both Kirishima and you don’t know how much longer you can last. Not wanting to wait any longer you decide to make him give in first.

“Please Sir, can I cum?” tears are slowly dripping from your eyes, the pleasure building dangerously but at your words you can feel his cock twitch inside you. “I wanna cum on your cock, please sir. Cum with me, wanna feel it.”

You are both at your wits end. “Your princess wants to cum with you sir please!”

Kirishima cums first, moaning with every hot rope of cum that coats your insides. The twitching of his cock and broken moans that fall from his mouth tip you over the edge soon after.

Kirishima just barely manages to catch himself before collapsing on top of you, slowly pulling out and flopping over to the side.

You both lay there in silence, catching your breath. You finally realize that cum is leaking out and manage to sit up and walk to the bathroom. After cleaning yourself up and going back to the bedroom you see that Kirishima has put some sweatpants on and is turning off his recording equipment.

“Well shit.”

He looks up at you in confusion.

You laugh awkwardly while a slight blush dusts your cheeks. “I… kinda forgot we were recording that.”

*****

Many years later…..

“I can’t believe Scarlet is in high school already.” Eijirou, your husband, walks out of the bathroom, freshly showered.

You're sitting on a bench in front of the window, reading a book. Already dressed since you had to take your daughter to school for her first day. “I hope it's not too terrible, I hated high school.”

“Aww babe,” He walks up to you kissing the top of your head. “It can’t be that terrible.”

You huff out a laugh and look at him incredulously. “Are you kidding me? Kids are fucking terrible, teenagers are worse. They try their best to find anything to make fun of you.”

Later that day

The front door to your home opens and slams shut and the sound of someone running up the stairs follows. You walk out of the kitchen confused, looking toward where your daughter has run to her room then at the front door when your husband walks in. His face is beet red, eyes watering just slightly.

“What the hell happened?”

“I HATE BOTH OF YOU!” Scarlet screams down the stairs then slams her bedroom door shut, muffled sounds of crying worrying you further.

“Turns out teenagers are very horrible…. And so are we.” Eijirous face is filled with guilt and you walk over to cup his face.

“What happened honey?”

He turns his face away from you and sighs heavily. “Turns out some of the fathers recognized you when you dropped her off at school.”

“No.”

“And some of the moms recognized me when I picked her up.”

“Oh god.”

“One of them called me Red Riot.”

@eyebagsbutglam @doinmybesthere @patchworkpuzzle @sendhelpimstupid

[babysizedfics]

Poor roman :( but that being said I am heka interested in 5

remus humiliates roman in front of jamal (but jamal is a sweetheart)

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TWs: swearing, emotional humiliation, arguing, remus is generally pretty mean in this - not "unsympathetic" but his behaviour is not ok, brief alcohol mention but it isnt a main feature

first some background info on remus and ro:

roman and remus' friend groups actually run parallel to each other by pure councidence in that theyre the same age and are both in the local queer scene

usually they only run into each other on nights out and avoid each other like the plague... until one of romans friends and one of remus' friends become a very serious couple and the friendship groups merge

remus tends to hang it over romans head whenever they argue or remus just feels like teasing him that he could so so easily spill romans secret littlespace to all his friends

and while roman claims to not care he also really doesnt want that to happen, especially the specific things remus threatens to reveal (namely him calling his cgs mommy and daddy, and his fear of the dark - which remus knows are romans biggest embarrassments)

and remus never USUALLY actually follows through on his threats, he loves to freak roman out but he doesnt mean to be intentionslly cruel.

but one night theyve had an argument recently and remus is out to hurt roman and finally follows through on his threat to reveal romans secrets. in front of jamal

((the actual incident below the cut))

all the friends are walking back from a night out, and remus hangs back from the group to talk to jamal. roman is just glaring at remus and not saying anything and holding jamals hand tightly. remus hasnt embarrassed him too bad so far, just asking jamal questions and referring to roman as his "baby brother" which is so annoying, but the thing is roman can tell hes building up to something

then suddenly remus smirks when he sees a completely pitch black side street thats theyre about to pass by, and he calls out to everyone "hey guys, there's a 24/7 mcdonalds through here and its a shortcut to the bus stop" and everyones like WOO mcdonalds and redirects to go down the side street

and romans heart pounds watching the friends all filter down the street without a second thought, theres no streetlights down there, theres light on the other side quite far away, but before that its SO DARK. and he freezes in place and jamal is tugged back by it and looks back at him. "babe, come on"

romans starting to feel shaky and he literally cant move his feet. his eyes flick between the street and remus' sadistic cocky smirk.

"whats wrong baby bro? you stuck or something?" remus leers with that stupid stupid smirk

and roman HATES him so so much

"ro, what's the matter?" jamal asks

"i- um," roman stutters, trying to keep his voice from shaking too much at the sight of his friends just having DISAPPEARED into the darkness - how are they okay with that?? "i- im not hungry"

"okay well i am, and remus said it was a shortcut anyway so-"

"i-i -- no i can't"

seraphina, romans best friend, looks back and notices whats happening and quickly jogs over (knowing roman is scared of the dark) "hey roma, it's okay we dont have to go down there" she soothes

jamal is supportive but he doesnt get it. he thinks roman is scared of criminals or smth. "i promise theres no one bad down there, hun. and i'll be right next to you the whole time, i'll protect you" and he smiles and tugs romans hand to pull him towards the side street

romans eyes quickly tear up and he panics and rambles "nononono dont please please i cant i cant" in a broken voice and plants his feet firmly on the ground, paralysed with fear

remus starts cackling "ohhhhh thats right~" as if he just remembered. "my baby brother's terrified of the dark, isn't he?"

"f*ck off, re" sera barks, standing between the twins, protective of roman

"wait, are you?" jamal asks sounding surprised. roman doesnt let himself look at him, too busy watching remus warily and knowing thats not all he has planned to embarrass roman

remus goes on, shouting out to jamal over sera's head "he's petrified!" he confirms sounding delighted. "yknow that massive blackout last summer? he cried like a baby. literally sobbing for his daddy patton to make it go away"

theres a brief silence because no, sera and jamal didnt expect remus to refer to patton as romans daddy - they both know roman calls him dad but this is a surprise.

and that one second of silence drags on for ages for roman, all he can hear is his heart pounding in his ears and remus' obnoxious laughter

he is shaking, frozen in shock rather than fear now. for all of remus' teasing threats at home, he didnt expect remus to actually do it. hes devastated and humiliated that remus told to his best friend and especially his BOYFRIEND of all ppl

and honestly he's not even thinking about the pitch black side street right now because the streetlights on the main road are blurred by tears welling in his eyes anyway

"why dont you just leave him alone!" sera hisses furiously after her mild shock

then jamal bounces back rlly stern to remus "yeah i already know about that! roman told me and it was HIS choice to tell me"

roman stares at him in disbelief but jamal is too busy staring daggers at remus to notice

remus looks suddenly offended and frowns. hes clearly hurt that the others dont think its funny "jeez youre both such bores. im just having some fun"

"youre demented if you think thats fun" seraphina growls and shoves remus away towards the sidestreet. remus rolls his eyes and runs ahead to join the others who are all oblivious to that coversation, howling with drunken laughter in the pitch black and jumping out and scaring each other

"f*cking prick" jamal calls after remus, seething

sera quickly throws a concerned look to roman "you okay?"

roman just swallows thickly and looks between seraphina and where he saw remus join the others in the pitch black. his stomach churns at the idea of remus telling more people. "i-is he gonna--"

"im on it" sera nods and starts turning around "i wont let him tell anyone else, roma, promise" then she runs ahead to keep an eye on remus and to give him and jamal some privacy

after a moment jamal turns back to roman looking so worried and holds his hands and asks very gently "babe, can you tell me how youre feeling?"

and roman is teary but he whispers "i - you stuck up for me"

jamal looks suddenly sad and cups romans cheek "of course i did"

"but you said i told you about it. i- i didnt tell you that i-" roman gulps after his voice wobbles "i didnt tell you about it"

and jamal smiles sadly and goes "i know babe... im sorry, i just didnt wanna give him any more power. it seemed like he's held that over you for a while"

suddenly the tears in romans eyes overspill and he doesnt really know why but he can't stop them

jama gasps a little "oh roman, its ok" and just pulls him into a tight hug

roman clings and sniffles, glad that he can hide his tears from his boyfriend even if it is in his neck.

and jamal just strokes his back and whispers "its ok baby, its ok" **

they talk about it quietly as they take the longer, well-lit route instead. roman admits he would never have told jamal abt his fear on his own - and the reason he's been avoiding staying overnight at jamals apartment is bc the one time he did he got so scared of the dark that he couldnt sleep and was just anxious all night but wouldnt wake jamal to tell him

after jamal finds out hes like baby why didnt u tell me its okay and comforts him about it not being embarrassing or childish. then:

"so you do actually want to stay at mine, its just because its so dark that you didnt?"

roman nods shyly "yeah... im sorry i know its a dumb fear i just-"

"its not dumb ro. i meant to say if it works for you, we could leave the hall light on and the door open. its not like i live with anyone who can walk in."

roman blinks "wait you - really? it wont make it hard for you to sleep?"

jamal smiles softly "no hun, honestly i could sleep anywhere. i fell asleep in the middle of the day in the staffroom just last month"

roman laughs, so so so relieved

"so... maybe next time you come over for dinner you could stay the night, yeah?" jamal says with a smile and a blush. he wraps his arm around romans waist and pulls him in, hip to hip

roman bites his lip and blushes. after a moment he suggests shyly "im free tonight..."

and jamal smiles so big, stops walking and puts his arm up to romans chest to stop him too then angles romans jaw down to kiss him

in the near future jamal promises to buy a plain nightlight and always leaves it on for roman when he stays overnight from then on

**side note: roman could never stand anyone calling him baby before because he felt infantilised at school becaus of his undiagnosed adhd. so he sees it as a derogatory name more than anything. but when jamal says it roman feels so warm and respected because he knows jamal would never mean it in that way. so jamal has "baby" rights basically

[jazajas]

okay so i finished love, victor a while ago and i saw some other reviews and thoughts about it here so now i've got a pretty good list on my thoughts and feelings.

tl;dr: it has some issues, yes, but im gonna hold out and hope it gets better later on because the same thing happened with the first few eps, i wasn't that into it but then it got good, and nothing is ever great with the first season, because at that point we're getting used to those characters.

⚠️caution: spoilers ahead (im on mobile, i cant get an under-the-cut)⚠️

1. while a leah on the offbeat movie would have been amazing movie sequel (even tho i havent read the book yet, im just here for the wlw content) i am kind of glad we got this instead. mostly because I've seen book series where one movie was good, so they decide to do the rest, turn out bad (hunger games? divergent? percy jackson? the hobbit?) because so much was cut from the book-to-first movie writing, that other scenes wouldn't make sense to future movies if they had those in while cutting others. however, i am sad that i didn't get to make the choice of deciding whether what was cut was wrong etc. about future movies, but i'll take what i can get.

2. LGBTQ+ POC as a lead! that's amazing! as a ace/bi lantina that's close to home (it also is great that victor's from texas and so is ya gorl) and even then it's a mixed latinx family! i think pilar mentioned that at least the grandmother left Colombia and i saw the Puerto Rican flag in victor's room. also the salazar's are definitely from small town texas, even without knowing the name. (church barbeques, the use of the words "such a diverse city" in regards to atlanta)

3. a lack of actual lgbtq+ main storylines (so far) is kind of sad for a show like this. i was getting serious bi/pan vibes (as a lot of other people) from victor from the beginning, and when it was implied that victor was actually gay (while great, not shaming) as it has been brought to my attention, there was a lot of looking at a lot of straight relationship problems (please let us know more about benji)- edit 6/18: upon further consideration, it very much is a show about questioning your sexuality, I'm speaking about the other straight relationship issues, not mia and Victor's, its just the first season.

4. let us talk about cheating for a sec. never okay, in any circumstance. i feel sorry for mia that she saw victor making out with benji and the fact that he was doing any of that in the first place. victor made a choice to lie about the espresso machine and then kissed benji at the hotel and then when benji was fighting with derek, basically confessed his love and mistakes, then proceeded to makeout with benji after he broke up with derek, he built that grave and now he must lie in it. i get having feelings for a guy when you are in a relationship with a girl, and not accepting yourself enough to end that relationship but you really want it to work so you can be "normal". really, he should have told mia after he got back from the trip tho. i get being in highschool and doing stupid stuff and making dumb decisions, but for a show aimed at teens i think we should also remind said teens to make good choices even if we have to lose some realism within the character choices.

4. pilar and her decisions based off her brother pissed me off. because i honestly think that if she'd kept her mouth shut about what she knew or confronted victor about it in the first place we could have avoided a LOT of mess. did she not learn from snooping around her mother's business about her relationships that going behind a person's back doesnt end well? i did, however, like the pilar/felix friendship and was really kind of hoping that they'd get together during their coffee hangout (although now im glad that didn't happen) because they had a deeper understanding of each other. same with wendy/felix, although they do seem to much alike to work out in the long run but i still feel bad for wendy.

5. i don't know how i feel about lake and andrew, as people separate from each other. both seem to be the way they are from their upbringing (not confirmed why andrew is such an ass, but if his comment about his dad is anything to go by i bet it's got something to do with attention) but andrew seems to be less, idk, superficial? like he turned down mia because he didn't want to be a rebound, he didn't out victor, he actually stood up to early teasing the other dudes in the lockerroom were doing at victor (with teasing of his own obviously but that interaction had him on my nice list until much later). lake? lake. i honestly don't have an opinion of her? not really. i mean after hanging out with pilar i was hoping felix wouldn't go back to lake. is her name laken? i feel like her full name is laken. but they also played the "im only like this because my mom is really superficial about stuff and i do like the geeky nice guy but appearances" to "actually screw the norms im gonna makeout with him infront of the whole student body". i honestly thought she was gonna be bi because she kept hitting on mia when she was helping set up for her "date" and "big night" and there was one point where i saw her face fall at something mia said in relation to her and idk i was hoping she'd be bi (i figured early on that victor/mia wasnt gonna work and was like "oh mia/lake would be cute" but now idk.

6. okay on to the "big night", i have one word. NO. i didn't like the peer pressure into having sex. i agreed with felix when he said "your body your choice" but im also disappointed that victor made out with mia and when lake was talking to felix after victor left he didn't try to stand up for victor.

7. on to age gaps because i hadn't really thought of this at first. we'll start with benji/derek: WHAT GRADE IS BENJI?! because that determines my thoughts. if he's a sophomore that meant that he and Derek started dating benji's freshman year and thats eugh, don't do that, don't care if its a gay couple that shouldn't be happening because the maturity of the two characters is DRASTICALLY different (this is also a reason i am not a fan of cmbyn) but that would explain why they were so rocky. hoping the event at the gay bar was open to anyone not just for drinking, but not liking that fact that not one of the adults with victor were like: hey, this is a 16 year old, that's kind of wack when that dude was hitting on victor. that made me question some stuff. although i figure it might be making up for the lack of a gay bar scene in love, simon. but even then, in svthsa it's a restaurant with a bar that some people go to just to drink at, it wasn't just a bar, simon could be there but should NOT have accepted drinks from college kids, not matter how attractive.

8. i loved how bram and simon and their friends helped victor out though. i like how bram was like: hey i know my friends are a lot so here's a gay basketball league becaue there's no one way to be gay. i like how Simon talked about needing help himself just to help victor and how he said his friends were cool with it because it's a community. i like of justin(?) mentioned how being what his parents wanted was putting on a mask and pretending, not him doing drag. my favorite lines from that ep are: "and before you ask my pronouns are they/them/theirs" "'they're all gay? even that guy? he's like [insert really tall number]' 'yeah. you should see him in heels'" "or in simon's case: really unathletic" "and also because bram said that if i wore [the jean jacket] one more time he'd burn it". also katya was there. and the group hug too!

9. the back hand homophobia in relation to family is sad, but realistic and i sincerely hope his parents are kind enough not to be too harsh on victor because of it. anything they say that isn't positive or supportive of victor is bad but i hope they realize that there is more to him than that and that they can come to terms with it because it's not always that hard to be a part of that community and super religious. i am biromantic and catholic. and while there are some things i wont agree on my mom with, i know that it's more of a strike against God for kicking out gay kids from families than it is to be gay, because those parents were given trust by GOD to love those kids no matter what, and be good parents. so in the end, the parents are wrong and harmful and in the case of christians against jesus's teachings to love everyone.

10. this is fan speculation but dont think simon/bram are going through a rough patch? i honestly think it'd be a little cruel to the characters to have on of their actors be producing but then not have that relationship stay. and while it's not set in stone and obviously things happen in the real world, we have no proof script wise about there being a rift. all we have are bad photoshopped ig photos and scenes where two characters are never standing next to each other probably beccaue schedules never link up correctly for minor characters. who knows, maybe nick robinson was filming for a movie where is does have an even more major role than victor's gay guru in a series about victor so his filming time was around that. im gonna keep hope that things are okay.

11. that being said: we need more mainstream wlw content, because someone said it earlier and it really does seem to be catering to straight girls. i'll admit i did freak out when benji played call me maybe which is something i associated with him and victor but then kissed a guy because who wouldn't? we get that serenade and sweetness and then it'a ripped from us. but i did mellow out. if i flipped later it was because victor was making dumb decisions and i had to give myself a moment of compsure before i continued.

in the end, i'd say that there is a lot of growth this series needs to go through, but i also know that some people just aren't going to like it and i get that. but i also know that sometimes the best of stories have rocky starts, nothing is ever perfect from the beginning. and besides, further seasons are on hold until we figure out this covid thing, which means that you bet they're gonna be looking at our feedback. they saw what we thought before, they can do it again

i really did like it but we need more ACTUAL lgbtq+ relationship stuff from this series and better decisions on what we are teaching the younger generations, as well as what we want to focus on and realism within characters. i'm giving it an 8/10, because there is always room for growth and i really hope we get better things out of this than what we have been given in season 2.

edit: someone mentioned it really seeming like it was meant for Disney+ and i felt that. also to anyone who reaches the tags agter reading ALL OF THIS: i am sorry

[rainingspellforlove]

shouldn’t have

hi im back with another fic >< but it’s eunhae’s uwu. read this while listening to raining spell for love to experience more angst ;;-;; enjoy my first eunhae’s  fic and my first angst fic! 

listen to raining spell for love : 

https://open.spotify.com/track/7j4r8X575ZnyWk0jkukNp7?si=irOj7OmgRFynzGCaL754dg

It's been so wrong. Hyukjae always feels it so wrong. But he did loving him. He's already falling deep. But now it cant be anymore. This is impossible. He shouldn’t have loved him from the start. He knew he's always been wrong for having this feeling. He knew  it will  break himself someday. He knew he will be in this state of the worst heartbreak ever. But how can he (un)love this angel? He had already fallen. Fallen for him too deep.The fact he's been in love for his one and only best friend is already hurting. The one who's been always with him from his early days until now.   But now, he's shattered. 

Hyukjae and donghae still been friends till now. 20 years old friendship. They had been known each other since their middle school days. it’s been so long. They went through a lot till today. They overcome all of their problems together and they depend on each other a lot. Everyone will say they have their unique friendship. They always been so close and too many things that only of them understand. They’re just too close. They had many similarities in their own way. People said that it’s too much similarities for them to have and their chemistry is so unbelievably amazing. It’s like they are naturally meant for each other. Just like a pair of shoes. 

It’s so natural and a common thing to say they always crash at each other’s houses. That was before eunhyuk moved back to the dorm. back then donghae always comes to eunhyuk’s apartment almost everyday. and vice versa. but it mostly donghae who asked to come or donghae just comes to eunhyuk’s without notice. They always been like this. Donghae who likes skinships a lot while eunhyuk just lets donghae do whatever to him. Maybe some people will think that their moments are just fanservice but thats just how they are. they’re just being the way they are. 

They always rely on each other a lot actually. They almost didnt keep a secret between each other. they knew each other too well more than any other members. They even knew each other’s individual schedule or events. like who who will eunhyuk meet after this, or what will donghae do tomorrow, those kind of stuffs. every lil things they did, they always knew for each other. they are just unbelievably close. 

But who knows, one of them is really falling. It’s too much for him to receive these affections alone. He always keeps it cool but deep inside he might explode. It's already long enough for hyukjae to love him since then. The way he keeps hiding his feelings for himself. Not telling anyone about it. Imagine hiding this stupid feeling alone for the closest person  in this fucking world. He did suffering for himself. He always keeps it for himself. He didnt want to ruin this freaking long friendship just because of this dumb feeling. Donghae loves skinships so much. Like soooo much. He always touchs hyukjae unconsciously. At first, hyukjae always gets used to it when donghae did sudden hugs or held his hand. He already gets used to it. it’s been 20 years ofcourse he must get used to it. Donghae is indeed a clingy person so he always clings into hyukjae unconsciously like a habit. That’s a problem actually. Hyukjae actually didnt mind it at all when donghae being such a clingy ass but sometimes he cant handle that. 

Actually there’s one time he cant handle it. That time when they did a comeback for D&E, they did a blueroom live. Then they talked about their nicknames for each other. When they talked abt donghae’s nickname “haeknojam” then donghae starts to kiss hyukjae’s hand suddenly while laughing like an idiot  and he did it twice! in a fucking live broadcast. Hyukjae always keeps his cool and just lets donghae did it. he just said “Aniyoo” for times responding to donghae. That time actually, his heart almost explode. He thought why he did these in a live broadcast. and why did he kiss hyukjae’s hand?  hyukjae still cant figure it why he did it. that time after filming, donghae just acts like nothing happened. but hyukjae deep inside was flustered as hell but of course he acts like usual. Being playful and stuffs. Donghae just being himself too, being random and stuffs. Donghae always like this. It’s just hyukjae who’s been dazed and confused all the time. That time hyukjae tried so hard to calm his self down by jumping and dancing all the time. When donghae comes to ask,

“Hyukjae-ya, why are you practicing at this time, our schedule just ended right?”

“O-Oh i just wanna get myself sweaty,, i feel like my body stiffen, so yeah i keep practicing”

“Yeokshi uri d&e leader. dont push yourself too hard. promise me you will rest after this, okay?” he handed hyukjae a towel and  circling it into his neck while then keep wiping his sweat in hyukjae’s cheeks with that towel

“u-uhm of course. thanks”

“youre welcome always, my E oppa~~ chat me when you arrive at the dorm okay? lets go home” replied him while smiling 

“okay i will...”  

then donghae went to the car and went home. hyukjae feels his knees are gone then he sat on the floor.

“why he keeps confusing me...... sigh”

day after day of their promotions went well. At the end of the promotions, donghae was not like his usual self. It’s not he completely different person but he’s less clingy. and he often checks his phone and sometimes smiling while looking at his phone. Hyukjae thought maybe donghae looked at some funny things on his insta but thats just weird because he’s being too often looking at the phone. then he often picks up his phone outside it’s like he hides something from hyukjae. It’s not usual for him to do that. He always picks up his calls in front of hyukjae but not right now. It’s been weeks he did that, but actually hyukjae didnt care at all. Maybe he had something that is really his privacy. so he didnt think about it too much. But, day by day passed and it’s been 1 month already. He still being like that. When hyukjae came to his apartment, actually donghae asked him to come but donghae keeps being on the phone.  It’s not the real hyukjae if  he hadnt been curious. He was curious as hell. At first he keeps resisting himself not to be curious but maybe he cant after all. When hyukjae prepared the food he bought for donghae, donghae suddenly put his phone and went to shower. Hyukjae hesitated at first but he didnt care so he went quick to the table and looked at donghae’s phone. He enters the passwords (actually he knew it because donghae already told him when they went to a drive together, donghae cant open the phone because he focused on driving so he asked hyukjae to reply his mother’s message) and checked his kakao and insta. then he found one person other than him and his family in his pinned chats in his kakao. Then he opened the messages. 

Hyukjae never been so speechless before, it’s the first time. It turned out that person is donghae’s lover. He looked at those sweet messages and actually this saturday is their 3 months. they talked about how they can meet at saturday. it’s not just how his heart breaks in pieces. the fact he didnt tell him about it at all. and it’s been 3 months. how... hyukjae thought maybe if donghae told him, he can be prepared at anytime... 

“i thought we keep no secrets... but this is actually my fault too. i did have secret. so i deserved this.”

“but it hurts like hell what the fuck....” then hyukjae put donghae’s phone back to its place.  and tears keep falling without hyukjae realized himself. then he took his bag and left the food prepared for donghae. He left the house and cried on the way to the dorm. Hyukjae left a message to donghae via kakao.

Donghae who came out the bathroom after showering, becomes flustered. 

“Hyukjae ya, how’s the food is it good?”

no answer,,

“Hyukjae, where-” 

then he got notif from hyukjae 

“sorry i left first, i have something to do. I already prepared the tteokbokki. Have a good meal”

Donghae was so confused but he ate the tteokbokki anyway. he still didnt feel something strange..

few days after that, super junior have a schedule together for an interview. It’s so obvious that hyukjae tried so hard to avoid donghae at all cost. He distants himself from donghae and avoid donghae’s affections. He tries to keep it cool and still jokes around to the members. but he only avoids donghae. when donghae tries to talk to hyukjae after the interview ends, hyukjae keeps telling him he must go home. then donghae holds hyukjae’s hand

“Lee hyukjae, whats wrong with you? you’re obviously avoiding me? did i do something wrong?”

“N-no at all. you’re just touching me too much.”

“but i always did these to you,and you’re okay with that”

“yes but right now it’s not. okay good bye i must go right now. let go”

“just tell me why... please...”

“you didnt need to know”

then hyukjae pulls his hand harder and finally donghae let him go. donghae becomes frustrated himself. 

Leeteuk who saw this on the back feels there’s something wrong with these two... 

Hyukjae becomes so distant from donghae day by day, but no one notices it. it’s just donghae who feels something wrong but hyukjae will never tell him why. the members didnt feel it weird either because the atmosphere while being together as full members still feel lively. It didnt sound wrong at all. but only leeteuk who feels something weird. leeteuk who sees them quietly when in a dressing room, donghae didnt talk to hyukjae at all. hyukjae too, he didnt intend to talk to donghae at all. hyukjae always talks to kyuhyun or yesung in their leisure time. and donghae who hangs out with siwon all the time. it feels natural. but it feels weird too. then leeteuk asks donghae to come outside...

“Hey whats wrong?” leeteuk asks

“Me? im fine? why hyung asks that?”

“hyukjae. seems like you both not in a good terms recently”

“oh that. i dont know either” 

“ask him then what you did wrong”

“i have. but he said i didnt need to know?! he’s weird as fuck. how can i know what i did wrong while he’s being childish like that”

“hmmm, maybe you hide something and he did feeling betrayed or stuff? it may happen. those things always happen right for us”

“ah... maybe i know.....” 

then donghae rushed to hyukjae. 

“we need to talk”

“there’s nothing to talk about”

“hyukjae please.” 

“let me go”

“lee hyukjae... please”

“fine. i’ll give you 5 minutes”

“you saw my phone right?”

“thats- yeah i didnt mean to but yes i saw that you actually had a lover”

“thats why you’re mad?”

“yes? ofcourse? i feel betrayed you didnt tell me at all. i thought we’re close enough to tell about those kinda stuffs” (actually there’s not the only reason donghaeya.....)

“im about to tell you that night actually.. sorry for not telling you, im afraid that youre uncomfortable with this... pls forgive me okay”

“i-im okay for those kinda stuffs. im happy for u bro actually. but it’s just i feel sad you didnt tell me..”

“ so you forgive me?”

“hm maybe?” hyukjae still feels uncomfortable with this, its like he didnt want to see this fucking handsome angelic face in front of him anymore

then donghae becomes so happy and hugs him rightaway. hyukjae quickly tries to let go of him. 

“alright alright, let me go. lets just go home okay” donghae smiled happily after he heard he already been forgiven. but hyukjae still pretending. he pretends that it’s all okay for donghae for having a lover. but he’s not okay at all.

hyukjae forgives him but he cant face him actually and pretends to be fine all the time. everytime he meets donghae, he just feels uncomfortable. it didnt feel the same. hyukjae cant see him the same as before. hyukjae still keeps his cool and lets donghae did his skinships to him freely but deeply inside he is hurting. one day, he went to the building’s rooftop to get some fresh air in the middle of their schedule. Leeteuk suddenly comes to him.

“hyukjae ya....”

“oh whats wrong hyung?”

leeteuk doesnt say a word but immediately hugs him and pats his hair.

“i know it’s been hard”

hyukjae is flustered why he did this...

“hard? what do you mean hyung? hahaha”

“you loved him, am i right?”

“him?”

“eish stop pretending to be fine. i knew you two fights few days ago then you told him it was because he didnt tell you about his lover, it’s not the only reason right?”

“so you knew......”

“jtub told me that donghae already had a lover, donghae didnt tell me at first haha then he admitted it himself after then.”

“oh right.”

“what will you do then after this?”

“i dont know.. i cant keep pretending all the time. it hurts me to see his face it’s like i wanna punch him”

“even you loved him you want to punch him? lol”

“yes i hate that idiot smile of his until i want to-”

“kiss him so bad?”

“HYUNG”

“okay okay hahaha im kidding”

“but... sometimes i think of that too but ofcourse i wont do it” 

“he kissed your hand in a live broadcast why wont you?”

“no way i would kiss him first. its just me who had this feeling. he never feel the same, he just likes to play with me. its confusing”

then hyukjae silents for a bit

“hyung.. is it okay for me to go for a while? i kinda want to distract myself for  a while”

“its okay hyukjaeya. i respect all of your decisions as long as youre happy with it”

“ehm, it hurts so much seeing him these days. he keeps calling with his lover while there is me there in his house. thats fucking hurts. i cant do this anymore hyung. it’s like i wanna punch him for real. i hate having this feeling from the start.. i-i- *sobs*” hyukjae cried in leeteuk’s embraces. he cried so hard that time. 

“shussh shussh it’s okay hyukjae.. it’s a natural thing for us to fall in love. it’s not our fault to fall in love in the first place.”

“heuk- heuk- but i hate feeling this way. i hate myself” hyukjae still sobbing

after crying for so long, leeteuk’s shirt becomes so wet then leeteuk just laughs

“how can you hide those red eyes hahaha”

“right..... i dont know......”

“here i bring sunglasses lol just go home after this okay, so the members wont be suspicious haha”

“thank you so much hyung.... youre the best” 

“nah its always been my job to babysit all of you. so where would you go?”

“Japan. Maybe next week”

“okay, take care hyukjae. i will call you then”

then one day, hyukjae comes to his usual bar to hang out with donghae. but he comes alone. he feels like he wants to drink until he passed out for the last time before he goes to japan. then there’s jtub (donghae’s friend who is a composer too) who hangs out alone too. 

“Oh hyukjae, you come. Alone? where’s donghae?”

“nah i just feel like drinking alone”

“why?”

“i dont know i just want it”

then hyukjae really drinks a lot like A LOT. jtub tries to stop him but hyukjae insists he must drink more

“stop it or you will pass out here”

“i ddont fckin caree.. it issss m-my pplaaan annywway tto ssleep hhere until tomorrowww”

hyukjae lost it. he really lost it. he’s blabbering random sentences just now

“why.. wwhy sshould i llove that iddiot, i wanna kick hhis fckin handsome fface riight nnow,,,,, bastaard hhow you come to pplay wwith myy ffeelingg llike this,, itt hurtts sso mmuch i hhate yyou” then he sobs

“argghhhhhhh my head’‘ss sppinning” 

jtub didnt know who he was talking about but right now he needs to call someone to bring this idiot to come home

“hyukjae you need to come home.. i’ll call donghae”

“NOO DDONT CCALL THHAT BASTTARD” he tried to take jtub’s phone but it failed because he cant control himself because of the alcohol

“ah... so he’s heartbroken....... eish i didnt know that hyukjae is falling for his best friend.. eish let them finish this problem themselves i should back out”

“nno ddont him ppleasse, or i will kick hhis fucckin facce when hhe comess llater” then he sobs and passed out in the long table near the barista

few minutes later, donghae comes in a rush. 

“donghae ya here!” jtub calls

“oh my, what did you feed him huh?!?”

“wow slow man, he’s drinking and paying those bottles himself you know, i tried to stop him but he insisted to drink it until morning.”

“why’s he like this... he never been like this before...”

“you didnt know? why’s he like this? really?”

“uhm no, why? do you know?”

“try to figure it yourself then, its your problems anyway.”

“so he’s like this , because of me?!”

“spoiler : yes”

“oh man, why... okay then i’ll be going first” 

donghae tries to wake up hyukjae but still didnt get a respon. 

“Hyukjae-ya lets go home”

“ehmmm i want to sleep here”

“but it closes soon. you must go home. let me take you home eung?”

then hyukjae wakes up and see donghae  who’s ready to pick him up

“oh it’s lee donghae!” 

“yep it’s me. lets go home okay?”

“the way i wanna kick your face but i didnt have the strength right now, i’ll just kick you tomorrow”

“pardon? what?” donghae flustered and shocked

“right? it’s on you bro lol” jtub said

“okay okay lets just go home” donghae took hyukjae in his shoulders and caught him by the waist. then they both go to hyukjae’s dorm with donghae’s car

hyukjae falls asleep in the car. and keeps talkin in his sleep a bit

“lee donghae you bastard”

donghae is surprised and turns his head to passenger’s seat. 

“The fuck?!” 

then hyukjae sleeps again

“why’s he like this and why me?”

they finally arrived at hyukjae’s dorm and kyuhyun didnt come home so it’s just the two of them there. donghae hardly brings hyukjae to his room in his druk state. 

“im glad that you’re this tiny,  i can bring you home easily”

then donghae puts hyukjae to the bed and takes off his jacket, socks, and shoes. he wipes hyukjae’s forehead too with wet towel too.. hyukjae wakes up suddenly.

“stop being so kind to me” he stops donghae’s hand from wiping his forehead

“huh? why? im your closest friend it’s my job to take care of you idiot”

“i can take care of myself well. just go” hyukjae turns his head to the left side and puts the blanket covering his whole body. 

“why do you like this?”

“its not ur business”

“hyukjae ya... tell me whats wrong”

“Us. we cant be like this”

“why? you’re my closest friend-”

“We’re not supposed to be like this donghae ya. we must not”

hyukjae wakes up and turns into donghae. 

“We.... cant be like this donghaeya... we cant be....” hyukjae starts to cry

“hyukjae... why cant we... “

“why are you crying.. dont cry...“ donghae said again while carressing hyukjae’s tears with his thumb

“ *sobs* we- cant- be- like this... we just cant.....” hyukjae is still sobbing while talking

“tell me why, what should i do to stop you from crying please dont cry it hurts seeing you cry like this” donghae said softly 

“you.” 

“me? why?”

hyukjae still crying and doesnt want to answer.. 

“hyukjae tell me... please.. i dont wanna see you cry...”

hyukjae then holds donghae’s hand in his cheeks...

he looked at donghae’s eyes with those falling tears.. 

“you deserved to hate me forever.” 

hyukjae leaned in to donghae’s face and pressed a soft kiss into his lips. 

hyukjae pulls out and donghae is flustered and confused...

“h-hyukjae w-why-”

“leave me right now”

“b-but you have to tell-”

“leave or our friendship ends. leave please”

“hyukjae-ya.... “

“PLEASE LEAVE. *sobs* please...”

then donghae gets up from the bed and leaves hyukjae alone...

that’s it. that’s the end. hyukjae’s first love comes to an end. that angel is finally gone.... 

hyukjae cries in his bed so hard... the worst feeling ever. he hates himself more than anyone else. but he must end it. he must end this stupid feeling. the overflowing feelings he had for his best friend for years. he will stop loving him no matter what. 

“Thankyou for making me feel loved although actually it’s just me who feel that way... im happy... thankyou...” then he’s still crying for so long in the middle of the night

meanwhile donghae is feeling so flustered and mad. he didnt know why he’s mad. the fact his best friend cried because of him.. hyukjae’s eyes that told him everything. hyukjae’s puppy eyes that only shines everytime suddenly covered by the rain. the hard rain that falls because of him. he never knew. he never realized.. he didnt want to believe it. but it’s just feel so real. his tears falls in his cheek when hyukjae kissed him... he never feels the saddest kiss ever... it hurts so much. he didnt knoe either why it hurts so much. it feels like hyukjae will leave him for real... he cant imagine how his life would be without hyukjae.. it will never be the same.. 

donghae still feels confused.... he didnt know what to do after this... or tomorrow, or days after this.... he just didnt know what to do... 

the next day, hyukjae is already in the airport waiting for boarding to Tokyo. his eyes are completely red becuase of crying that night before.  He decides to go there to heal and repair himself. he just needs time alone for a while. he didnt know when he will be back to work as super junior. he’s already takin care of all of these with the company, and the company said yes. it’s up to him when will he decide to come back.... 

“hyukjae-ya, already at the airport?”

“eung hyung, there’s still 15 minutes before boarding”

“okay then, take care hyukjae... and one thing what if he asked me where you go?”

“hm, dont tell him hyung, just say that i want to spend my time alone.”

“fine i’ll do that. eish that insensitive bastard haha i’ll kick his face for you someday”

“nah hyung just let him be it’s my fault anyway for loving him in the first place. it’s never been his fault”

“aigu my precious dongsaeng already grown up”

“eish hyung your precious dongsaeng here is 34 years old”

“youre still a big baby to me anyway..”

“thankyou hyung. i’ll call you often when im in tokyo”

“yes sir!” 

“oh its time for boarding, im off hyung, bye bye!!”

“okay take care hyukjae ya, have a proper meals okay?”

“of courseee goodbye hyung”

hyukjae finally ends his phone call with leeteuk and walks in to the plane. finally he made up his mind and try to heal himself first.. he’s afraid that this feeling disrupt his works with him. so he must repair himself more to become a better person.. 

meanwhile donghae who didnt know anything at all,,

he worked out like crazy... he’s already working out since morning. and it’s already evening. he worked out and worked out.. he did everything in the gym. he’s like a mad person right now. he didnt pick up the calls from everyone.. even his lover too.. 

the instructors there feels worried because it’s not usual for donghae to act like this. then the instructors try to call jtub, donghae’s friend who’s been at the same gym with him. 

actually jtub is very busy right now so he cant go there to save that idiot friend from overworking his body. then jtub called leeteuk because leeteuk already said to him if donghae acts weird, he’s free to call him. 

leeteuk comes to donghae’s usual gym rightaway after finishing his schedule. 

“eomma ya. it’s already 7pm. and he’s been working out since 7 am?!?”asks him to the one of the instructors

“yes sir. he’s been like this since morning. we’re too scared to disturb him because he seems not in his right mind”

leeteuk walks in slowly to donghae. 

“donghae ya”

donghae still wont listen he still in his threadmill

“lee donghae please come down.”

“come on donghae you never been like this, you never disobeyed my orders. come on donghae please stop this. you makes yourself sick”

donghae finally stops the threadmill and come down. 

he falls rightaway in the floor. 

“donghae-ya are you okay? hey? donghaeya?”

“hyung... it’s my fault...” after that, donghae lost his consciousness

Donghae wakes up in his house with leeteuk who waits for him.

“Oh are you okay? do you hurt yourself?”

“no-no im okay hyung..” 

“eish why did you work out like that? you know it can kill you. what if i didnt come? who will take care of you? oh my god this kid. how old are you huh? youre fuckin 34 please grow up” leeteuk keeps nagging while wipes donghae’s forehead 

“sorry hyung...” 

“promise me you wont do this again oh god”

donghae just nods... then he suddenly remembers something

“i need to meet hyukjae.. i need-”

“stop he wont meet you”

“even he doesnt want to, i keep going to meet him”

“what would you say then? ask him for an apologize for something you didnt realize?”

“hyung... so you knew..”

“of course. just stop it. you wont ever meet him right now. you just cant”

“no hyung i must-”

“he’s leaving. he’s not in south korea.”

“what..... are you serious?”

“yes”

“where did he go? i can go right now”

“no you cant, just let him alone donghae ya. okay? please listen to me, he’s hurting. you never knew how he feels. because you never feels it. what do you want to say to him? anything that you would say, it wont heal him. because it’s on you. you’re the source of his broken state. he will overcome this someday. just wait okay?”

“but.... it hurts so much.. i dont know it just hurts so much seeing him cry.. seeing him so weak like that night. i really want to embrace him but he keep pushing me off, he keeps crying and crying.... his trembling voice when he tried to talk to me hurts me so much... he’s never showing this side of him for these time being.. i just didnt know what to do... it hurts so much seeing him in that state, i want to see him so fuckin much... i just- ” then he cant say anymore.. he’s loss at speech... he’s crying... 

“hyung... why im late to realize this.... why..... he’s already left what should i do.... im fuckin stupid... im so fucking dumb......” 

donghae cries in leeteuk’s shoulder.. leeteuk cant say anything... he just pats donghae’s back softly.. “just wait for him okay.... he’ll be okay..”

donghae still cant figure out why he’s also breaking.... he just feels that his heart is shattered knowing these situations at once.. 

confused, flustered, and mad. he’s mad at himself... 

“how can i never realize  in these time being?” 

part 1 end 

[vieverdeen]

Thoughts on 8x03. I need to vent.

WARNING: this contains dark! Dany, crumbs of Jonsa i guess, anti sanarion, anti jonerys, anti daenerys, anti tyrion, anti d&d, basically anti everything, and lots and lots and lots of complaining. LOTS. And bitching. I hated 8x03. If you liked it, I suggest you keep scrolling. Please keep scrolling. I don't want any heat, dont want to offend anybody, I just so BADLY need to vent.

Also, i post in the Jonsa tag, because that's my main fandom and where i feel safe.

ALSO SPOILERS!

This episode was an epitome of disappointment. I can't even. All this bragging how it was going to beat BotB and Hardhome, even freakin HELMS DEEP (the audacity) and ZERO payoff. I'll try to be as brief as possible(I probably won't be).

1. Whover was the mastermid behind this battleplan should hang. What the actual fuck. What the f*ck was the deal with stationing all The Unsullied and Dothraki OUTSIDE?! I mean i get it - there's limited space at Winterfell, and those are huge armies. But later, when it all goes to hell with the Dothraki and so on, and Dadvos screams "man the walls!" there are so few people actually inside, that could man the walls! I mean, the defenders should form a freaking wall themselves, to push down as many wights as possible! And they weren't even in position, on the battlements!

2. The charge was fucking idiotic. I really don't get it - was it a rash decision of the Dothraki, inspired by Mel lighting their arakhs, that they were like "yeah, why not, let's roll", without any order? Or was it an ACTUAL plan for them to charge the AotD, without anybody knowing Mel would show up and do what she did, with regular weapons, not even Valyrian steel or dragon glass?! I mean, did they WANT to give the NK more meat for his army? THE STUPIDITY

3. What was the deal with Arya during the battle? All of the sudden she's inside the castle, terrified, walks into the library and hides from one(!) wight - seeing as in the beginning she wasn't aware there were more. The whole library scene was exhausting to watch, and not because of the suspence, but again, because of the stupidity of it. It felt out of nowhere and pointless. And damn, I remember all of the speculation when the trailer came out- why is Arya so terrified, what is she running from? Is it Rickon or whatnot? Nope. No surprises here. Just regular whights, just like the ones she was going all assasin-mode on a minute ago.

3. Jon, Daenerice and their lizards. I mean, could they have been any more useless?! Dani burns some wights in the beginning and thats it. The most frustrating part was, that they haven't even once used the goddamn dragons to fry Viserion. Not once! There was some hands-on dragon combat but that was it. At various moments I wanted the NK to win, seriously. When they flew above the clouds and Viserion disappeared, i half expected the nephew and his aunt to sing "A whole new world" together and fly away. Wouldn't have made a difference.

4. I will give them one thing, the part with Dany falling off of Drogon and him abandoning her was satisfying. Shame that Jorah ex Machina was soo predicrable (glad it wasn't Jon though). Also, I will say, that Jorahs death was the one scene I actually liked, it brought me back to season 1 and I felt for Daenerys for a moment.

5. The crypts. I mean, the way Tyrion has been made by the show to be the Most Moral Man in the Universe, with his magical, genius mind has become unbearable. I wanted to smack him, seriously. Of course YOU should be out there Tyrion, YOU might notice something others won't. Sansa put him in his place, but I would prefer it if she remaind cold towards him, like in the first episode, just beacuse the amount of sanarion being pushed down our throats was making me gag. Saying they would never have worked because of Dani? Sansa love, you dont have to be polite. It would never have worked because Sansa did not love him, wasn't attracted to him, was forced to marry him as a child, because he's a father-killing, whore-mongering alcoholic. I was SO scared they would actually kiss in that scene when they were hiding. I was about to puke. Seriously, Sophie has an amazing chemistry with nearly everyone and clearly it was visible in this scene, but for the love of God I could not bear it.

6. Missandei and her "if it werent for the Dragon Queen we'd all be dead". I need someone to step up ASAP and make it clear that if it werent for Dani and her dumbass advisors the NK WOULDNT HAVE A F*CKING DRAGON!!! And the Wall still would be standing! Why don't these things matter? Like at all?? Why?! D&D just dont give a fuck.

7. Bran. The Three-Eyed Raven. All those seasons, the impossible journey, the sacrifice of Hodor, Jojen, Meera, Summer, all the 8-year build up for the AotD to end like... this. No resolution, no answers, no explanation. And Bran does nothing. It was so underwhelming. Every single fanfic I've read was better than this. He just warged into some ravens and went for a flight. Coolcoolcool.

8. The final scene, with the music and everything was, much like the rest of the episode, exhausting. The pacing was all over the place, either too slow or too fast. It sure was nice of the NK to give Theon and Bran some extra time so they could look at each other meaningfully, with Bran taking his sweet time to assure Theon that his character arc has been completed and he's most welcome to die for him now. The NK was actually a big softie on the inside, truly. Applies also for the never-ending look he exchanged with Bran before actually trying to kill him.

Till the last moment I was hoping that Bran would pull something out. That he couldn't have been THIS useless. Anything, I would have even taken time travel, anything. But GoT has stopped shocking and surprising a looong time ago, and we got Arya instead. I guess she's so awesome now, kinda like a supernatural being, that the only sign of her coming is a light breeze moving one's hair. I don't quite get when did she actually learn to fly/jump so high, maybe at some point in Braavos, between washing dead bodies and fighting with sticks? (okay, here's a rabbit hole to avoid - Aryas plot since sason 6, when suddenly she becomes a worrior able to best Brienne in combat). I would really like Arya killing the NK, if it was done and executed better, with a decent build-up and all of that. Not like this. It was so fucking easy it hurt.

9. Jon was useless. Useless I tell you. Dani being useless was sorta satisfying, as I'm anti dany, but Jon has been obsessed with the AotD and the NK for too many seasons now. I guess I should be thankful that at no point the line "i thought i lost you" has been uttered.

10. When the episode ended, me and my sister were like, "damn, dani has actually lost all her armies. game over for her." I mean she lost all of the Dothraki, almost all of the Unsullied? But God, did we underestimate Dumb&Dumber's dumbness! OF COURSE in the promo Dani still has an army and is ready to go to war with Cersei. OF COURSE. Fuck logic, fuck the facts, fuck the plot. Things havent been making any sense for a while now, so why bother at the end?

11. One more thing about Ghost - i love this boy with all my heart, and that's why it pisses me off so much that after SEASONS of neglecting him and favouring the lizards, the writers bring him back for some meaningless cameos, without Jon interacting with him ONCE. The discrespect! Seriously, at this point Ghost should just switch owners. Jon better stay with his pet reptalian.

Sidenote: I won't even go into no Jonsa goodbye scene. No goodbye-scene for Jon with any of the Starks. Coolcoolcool.

There is more, I'm sure, but I cant remember and I'm too tired. I dont even know what I expected. Maybe because the 2 first episodes were decent I was hoping for something remotely good. But D&D reminded me that no one can dissapoint like they can.

[choisgirls]

RFA boys + V with MC being a teacher and all that comes with it. Like, for older kids a specialized knowledge about a certain subject and knowing teen stuff, and with little kids being up on all the latest "kid" things and always looking at (cont)

(Cont) toys and picture books and singing silly songs. And of course, the grading and lesson planning and kids who give problems and stress that comes on top of that. But she really really loves being a teacher and won’t give it up.

(Combined because ofsimilarity!!)

A/N: These requestsare so pure and I enjoy them so much but ive never seen how a teacher preparesfor anything so i went based on what a few things teacher friends/my dad told me and howi interact with my siblings and stuff ;A; ~Admin 404

*YOOSUNG:

           -The two of you act like such kidsyourselves, but he absolutely loves it, you teach younger children and he cansee how soft and sweet you are to them!

           -He actually enjoys some of the coolkid gadgets you check out for your class

           -That cool robo-dog toy? He wantsone now

           -ACTUALLY JEALOUS WHEN YOU GET ITFOR YOUR KIDS INSTEAD BUT PLAYS IT OFF LIKE IT’S NO BIG DEAL

           -He’s actually sat in on a fewclasses of yours his butt actually fits in the little kid chairs

           -The little tikes love him to death!They like to tease him about dating you

           - though they all think he’s akid too just in a higher grade ;A;

           -But sometimes kids can get rowdy,and he knows this

           -When you come home stressed out,from kids misbehaving, he’s always there to lighten the mood! Tells you storiesfrom when he was a kid, full of silly sound effects, and he’s even borrowedpicture books from his mum to show you childhood pictures! It embarrasses himsometimes, but he knows that you enjoy the imaginations children have so itcan’t hurt to tell you, right?

           - also lowkey shows up aroundsnack time when he visits because he freaking loVES THE JUICE BOXES AND COOKIESMC CAN HE HAVE SOME TOO

*ZEN:

           -He knows how difficult teaching canbe, his parents were teachers

           -SUPER. HYPED. When he found outthat you’re a HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA TEACHER come on y'all i saw the chance so itook it

           -You actually went to school!!!! Foracting!!! That’s amazing! He’s a natural so he didn’t have to

           -He tries to come to your class atleast once a week to give the students some tips (since he’s in the field andsemi-famous and all)

           -IF YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE THAT YOULEARN FROM YOUR FANCY-DANCY SCHOOL, HE’D LIKE TO HEAR IT MC

           -He dropped out of school and hadbad experience with teachers so he was actually really iffy about your job atfirst

           -But the first time he watched youshine because of your passion for helping these teens, he knew you belonged inthis career

           -But when you come home from a longday of teens being….well….teens, he feels so bad

           -He was a rebellious teen so hethinks he can help talk to them about listening and respecting everything youtry to do for them he kept them for two class periods one day lecturing themabout how much respect you deserve and the kids all literally cried and huggedyou at the end of it jfc zen what did you sAY TO THEM

           -Always there to wipe away yourtears, whether they be of joy or sadness, when your class puts on plays. You’reproud of your students but he’s always 10x more proud of you because heY MC YOUDID THAT, LOOK

*JAEHEE:

           -YOU’RE A HIGH SCHOOL LITERATURETEACH MC? THATS DOPE COME TALK NERDY TO ME

           -She thinks it’s so cool because!!!!The two of you can both really appreciate literature

           -It’s like a personal little bookclub between the two of you, always talking about themes and deeper meanings

           -Not to mention she lives for thedrama you over hear in your classroom come on we all live for gossip everynow and then dont judge me or jaehee and you can teach her all of theyounger lingo which she uses to understand a few of the interns at work

           -When you’ve been up for hourstrying to grade papers, she’s always there to help with them

           -Mainly because she wants to avoidyou bashing your head against the table because they’re all writing the samethings over and over again

           -If she comes across something she’sunsure about in her readings you’re the first person she asks

           -Love love loves helping you pickwhich books your students are going to analyze next

           -Not to mention!!! You always haveall the newest books in almost any genre because of your job and!!! She alwayshas something new to read!!!!

           -If your day was rough though, she’sgot coffee at the ready for you, the two of you are going to sit down and justrant about anything and everything that happened because hey kids can bestupid, she’s not gonna tell on you for pointing out the obvious

*JUMIN:

           -He finds it absolutely adorablewhen you come home covered in paint, glitter, marker, you name it

           -Calls you his masterpiece what asap

           -Not used to being around kids buthe visits your kids as often as possible

           -HE’S SO CUTE WHEN HE’S HELPING THEKIDS FINGER PAINT OH MY GOD

           - they paint kitty whiskers onhis face sometimes and you’ve never seen him smile bigger

           -They once asked him to build atower out of blocks with them and he took over the entire project, made areplica of the C&R building

           -When the two of you are at home,though, he refuses to admit he enjoys it there with the kids. Complains aboutpaint on his white shirt, why are kids to loud, they’re so energetic what theheck, etc etc

           -Always buying cool new toys andcraft things for your classroom- he knows how teachers are paid and he justwants to help out. For you. Not for the kids. its totally for the kids dontlet him fool you

           -He never really knows how tocomfort you if you come home from a hard day with your class, so he usuallysits with your head resting against him. He listens to you rant abouteverything that happened, running his hand through your hair to let you knowhe’s listening.

           -Never ONCE has he asked you to quityour job. He thinks teachers are important and should be treasured, and he seeshow happy the kids make you every day- he could never ask you to give that up buthey mc if you ever wants kids of your own, he’s got you, wink wonk

*SAEYOUNG:

           -Teacher? lmao what’s that noteveryone is a freaking genius saeyoung shUT UP

           -MC CAN I COME BY SOME TIME ANDLEARN I PROMISE I’LL BE A GOOD STUDENT saeyoung dont do that

           -You were a high school computerscience teacher, and hello MC i could be of service saeyoung pls

           -He came in as a guest speaker oneday and none of the students could keep up with what he was saying??? What’sall of this?? Mr. Choi can you please dumb down the lesson???

           -By the end of class though,everyone (including him) were just drawing stupid pictures on MS paint sigh

           -He’s actually really excited thatyou teach computers to teenagers!! Computers are great, MC!!! You can teachthem to hack! no saeyoung thats not what i do, thats you

           -Sometimes he’ll play dumb and askyou for help with his computer just to hear your teacher voice (it doesnt workoften because you KNOW he knows what’s wrong)

           -“MC, you can be the teacherand I’ll play the naughty student *eyebrow wiggle*” he walks in with aplaid skirt and knee high socks what a fucking doRK

           -There are days that the kids justdon’t listen and do whatever they want, and it frustrates you to no end. Someof them were wrestling and broke a monitor once, and you had to call Saeyoung,break down and cry on your lunch break. He’s always there at the end of the daywith blanket forts and HBC to get you away from all electronics even for alittle while

           -The next day though, he hacks intoall the computers in your classroom and scares the students into payingattention because what person doesn’t freak out when someone starts listingtheir personal information on their screen???

*V:

           -High school dance teacher?

           -Are you his soulmate MC becauseit’s really feeling like it

           -He’s a dancer himself! (though hedoesnt practice it often)

           -So he always offers to be yourpartner on days you’re teaching couple’s dances!

           -He can tell how much effort andpassion you put into helping these kids learn the art

           -You absolutely radiate warmth andexcitement if your class holds a recital

           -HE’S ALWAYS THERE TO TAKE ACTIONSHOTS OF YOU AND THE CLASS BECAUSE WOW MC

           -But kids will be kids, which meanssometimes there are attitudes thrown around

           -Some days you feel as if you get norespect, and they do whatever they want to do, and it breaks not only yourheart but your spirit as well and he will not stand for it

           -He’s very good at lecturing, andseeming nice with a threatening undertone. So when he catches something likethis happening, you can bet he’s in front of the class, pouring his heart outabout how much respect you deserve for all of your hard work and they shape upreal quick every time this happens. So he kisses you on the forehead and letsyou keep teaching

*SAERAN:

           -You work with little kids all day?

           -Why would you wanna do that toyourself jfc

           -You’re always looking at cute, kidcrafts and he kind of wants to try them but he’ll never tell you that

           -Very very afraid to visit yourclass because? He’s scary, he doesn’t want the little kids to be afraid of him

           -But they WEREN’T. AT ALL. He couldfeel his heart melting at how much they actually liked him like holy crap MC iwanna come visit every day

           -HE FINALLY GETS TO TRY THOSE LITTLEKID CRAFTS WITH NO SHAME, YES, SCORE

           -The two of you are the power teamat story time, everyone is completely enthralled with the story, voices, andhow you act them out

           -When you first told him that youwere a teacher for little kids, it made complete sense to him. You’re so sweetand kind and patient and bubbly and it just cliCKED WOW MC YOU ARE A TEACHER

           -But kids have tantrums, and shortattention spans, and they’re very stubborn, so if you have a rough day, youactually have to calm him down instead saeran you cant threaten the childrenits okay im just tired ill be fine

           -The two of you have naps on thoserough days, he’ll rub your shoulders to help you relax, and he actually goesout of his way to look up things for your lesson plan the next day!

[roommateofmyimagination-blog]

Chapter 3: No explaintion

✗ Adrian  ✗

Aldi’s sucked so much. Mostly because Val was being a little shit and made me stick with him to help pick out the groceries. I made him switch places with me and i took the control of the cart and pushed it along behind val as he darted back and forth between the isles and grabbed things to make for dinner and to just stock up on food for the dorm.

“Are you going to grab anything?” He asked, putting some veggies in the cart then looked up at me.

“For what?” I asked, leaning my forearms on the cart and hunching over.

“Dinner or snacks for yourself.” He stood up and checked his list, “you can have imput on whats for dinner.”

“Im not a picky eater, so i dont care what you cook.” I pushed along behind him as he went down the isle and turned to go to the next.

“Are you not gonna get something to munch on either?” he looked over his shoulder at me.

“I’m not a muncher either. I pretty much only eat whats given to me.” I paused, “unless im high. Then yeah i get the munchies and i eat a lot. Ate a whole pizza on my own one time.”

“Uh…” he paused and eyed me up and down. “Well no getting high in the dorm.”

“Didn’t plan to. Im not getting my ass expelled for dumb shit like lighting up in a dorm.”  I pushed the cart forward and waited for Val to gather all his things and put them in the cart. We finished up at Aldi’s and went to the register to pay.

When we got outside Val walked ahead to get to his car and open the back up to put the groceries in, He grabbed all the lighter softer things while i tossed in the more sturdy things and he put his load ontop of mine. Val went to the drivers side and started the car as i went and put the cart back. Taking the quarter out that we used to use the cart. When i got back to the car, i jumped in and closed the door. I turned to look at Val who was giving me an angry cat stare, eyeing me down until i put my seatbelt on and he started to drive.

“I dont mind cooking dinner and what not as long as you help sometimes.” he said as we made our way to the next place.

“I can cook, if you want or i can do all the cleaning.” I slumped in the seat and fiddled with my phone in my lap.

“Have some imput too, i would like to know what you like as well.” he smiled, looking at me very quickly then back at the road.

“Like i said, I’m not picky, i dont have a favorite food.” i looked over at him. Val made a sour look and pouted his lips with his brows close together and was mumbling something. “I like italian.” i mumbled quietly.

“You do?! Thats good to know!” he smiled widely and sat up straight in his seat.

I smiled and laughed softly. We made it to wegman’s and got out of the car. I waited beside the back of the car for Val to get out and walk with me. We grabbed our cart and went in. “Don’t worry about the price alright. Grab whatever the fuck you want.” I said, leaning on the cart again.

“Really? But this stuff gets expensive fast.” He looked at me with his brow raised.

“Dont worry about, just grab what you want.” I gently pushed the cart into his thigh so he’d start walking.

Which he did do. Val walked along the fruits and veggies eyeing them down and grabbing what looked the best and freshest.  “You sure about this?” he said as he put a bag of something in the cart.

“Ask one more time and imma run you the fuck over with this buggy.” I snarled at him. Somewhat serious and somewhat playful. Val yelped playfully and skipped himself ahead of me, giggling lightly and grabbing more things. We eventually got everything we needed and headed to the check out. Val was eyeing the pad that had the price racking up with his brows knitted together.

“Move Cupcake.” I put my hands on his hips and moved him away from the keypad and pulled out my wallet.

“You dont have to pay!” he said in protest, puffing his cheeks.

“Im going to pay.” I pulled out my debit card and waited until i could swip, and did when the lady told me i could and typed in my pin.

“This was my idea and im cooking, so i should pay.” he started pounding his little fists into my arm.

“You bought the shit at aldi’s.” I looked down at him from the corner of my eye. “So i’ll by the shit here. I dont mind.” I grabbed the bags and put them back in the cart and took the receipt from the lady. And went for the door to leave.

Val followed after me with angry little stomps. “Thats a lot of money to spend though, I dont want you to have to do that.” he huffed and opened the back of the car.

“I come from a rich family. Shit like this is nothing.” I put all the bags in the car where they wouldnt get squished and put my hand on the trunk door and closed it. “Plus i have a side job that pays well, so dont sweat your frosting off, Red.” i put the cart back and went to the passenger door. “Now get your ass in that seat and lets go to walmart.” I hopped in and closed the door. Val was mumbling something as he got in his seat and turned the car on.

“You’re cute when you’re mad.” I smirked.

“I am not!” He blushed red and started to put it in reverse and head the way to walmart.

Walmart seemed like hell, as usual, as we walked down the crowded isles and grabbed the things we needed or wanted to help decorate and accessories for the dorm.We bought a bunch of new kitchen utensils,  extra storage spaces, bathroom things, and various posters to decorate the walls. We stopped by the fabric department for fall to look at and buy some things to play around with.

“Do you need any art supplies?” He asked. Putting his hand on the side of the cart and walking beside me.

“Art stuff, nah i already grabbed that stuff before i moved in.” i moved away from the cart and let val push. His back brushed up against my chest as he got in front of me. I could smell his shampoo again and it smelled as equally sweet this time as it did the last. I felt myself leaning in closer to his hair but caught myself and started to back up.

“What about photo stuff?” he asked barely looking over his shoulder at me as he pushed the cart and avoided small children.

“Walmart wouldn’t have what i need.” I mumbled behind him, stiffing my hands in my pockets.

“What?” he said turning around again.

Sighing. I leaned in closer to him, “i said-” val cut me off with his yelling.

“HERMEGAWD” he shouted and jumped, flinching away from me as i pulled away from him. “Why are you so close?!” his face was blushing red.

“You said what, i assumed you couldnt hear me so i got closer.” I clicked my tongue, “keep walkin, people are starin at us like we’re freaks.”

“I couldnt hear you because you mumble and you’re behind me.” he pouted, mumbling lightly “Speak up so i can hear you.”

“Whaaaat?!” i shouted, kinda sorta, spoke loudly. Thats better.

“Oh never mind. But did you need photo stuff here?” He asked looking back at me with a slightly sour face.

“Nah, i’ll have to order them offline. Dont think Walmart sells backdrops and what not.” i scratched my head, and flipped my hair to rest on my shoulder.

“Oh, i could probably make you a backdrop for you and be waaay cheaper.” val said proudly, standing on his toes for a moment before getting back down on his feet.

“Then ill by the shit to make it when i need it and do something in return for you.” I moved behind Val to make room for people walking by as we grabbed a few things to decorate the dorm.

“No problem!” he said and moved away from the cart to look at some posters. “Want a cheesy motivational poster?” he had a stupid cat grin on his face as he looked back at me.

“If its motivational why not.” then i thought about it, “None of that ‘Keep calm and carry on’ bullshit, aight?” I eyed him down.

“Of course not!” he said almost purring and grabbed a rolled up poster and put it in the basket. “Oh look!” he showed me a panel “its got a camera on it!!” it was a retro looking poster with an old model camera on it that said ‘smile!’

I stared at it for awhile, looked at val then back at the poster. “Toss it in.”

“yaaay! “ val cheered and tossed in the poster. “They dont have many fashion ones…Oh!” he found another one he liked, well he had found several he liked and tossed em in. “okay that should be enough! We can get more later.”

“More? We planning to decorate all the walls??” I looked in at all the shit piling up.

“No….but we can!” he laughed softly.

“Well, how about i print you some off before we go buying more.” I rubbed my head again.

“You make posters?” He tilted his head walking closer to me.

“No not really, but i know how to use photoshop and make shit look nice….” i paused, “Well, i can make my shit look nice.”

“So you design as well?” he sounded really excited.

“Well i photo edi-” i was cut off by a new voice.

“Valentine?” this new voice said, stepping closer to us. It was a boy around the same height as val. He had soft wavyish brown hair and soft purple eyes with a beauty mark just under his eye.

“Oh?” val turned then got stupid excited. “Karim!” he practically skipped towards the other boy and hugged him.

“Its nice to see you!” He said and hugged Val back. “Whos youre friend there?” he turned his head from Val to me.

“Oh thats Adrian. He’s my new dorm mate.”  val waved his hand for me to come over.

Sighing, i grabbed the cart behind me and walked over to them. “Yo.” I stuck my hand out, and he grabbed it. “I’m Adrian howell.”

“Hello.” he smiled “My name is Karim and this is…” he turned around, still holding my hand. “Oh...Oops.”

“Did you leave Aj?” Val turned his head looking the same way as Karim.

“I might have.” he tapped his lip and let go of my hand. “Oh! No there he is.” He perked up and waved his hand in the air.

A taller, much much taller guy walked up to us. He had short redish brown hair, very muscular and had what looked like tiger stripe tattoos on his arms and neck. “Kari, dont be ditching me like that. Youre small as fuck and hard to find.”

“Sorry hon.” Karim walked up to him and gave him a hug. The new guy placed his arm around Karims’s shoulders. “This is Austin.” he smiled jestering a free hand at the new guy.

“Sup Val.” He said smiling and nodding at val, who do the same in return with a happy smile. He extended his hand to me, “You can call me Aj if you want.”

I took his hand in mine. “Sup, names Adrian.”  i gripped his hand then let go.

“You Val’s new roommate?” he asked, dropping his free hand beside him.

“I thought you liked being in a single room?” Karim looked over to val.

“Yeaah i kinda did. Put i ended up getting a roommate this year.” He smiled scratching his head sheepishly. “But so far, only two days in. I like Adrian.”

“You be good to this pipsqueak ok?” Aj looked at me, eying me up and down. “Hurt him or be an ass, imma hurt you.”

“What the fuck why?” I was getting pissed. “Why do you care?”

Karim stood more in front of Aj, “We were Valentine’s neighbors last year. We got close to him. Well me more so than Aj.”

“I still care since he’s one of Karim’s friends.” Aj kept eyeing me down.

“Whatever, im not gonna hurt the kid unless he needs it.” I shrugged leaning against the cart.

“Where did you guys move to anyways?” Val broke then tension, looking a bit nervouse a fight was gonna start in a walmart.

“We got a place off campus that we’re renting out.” Aj spoke up, Still fucking eyeing me up then turned to Val. “We decided to live off campus now so we can do our own things.” he had a cocky smirk on his face.

“You should come and visit us some!” Karim chirped up. “Aj has this adorable orange tabby who lives with us now.”

“Oh! Is he friendly?” Val seemed really interested in this cat.

“He’s not that sweet.” Aj chuckled lightly, “More of a grumpy thing, but he’s chill enough.”

“When he’s trying not to eat my little bird.” Karim looked peeved as he mumbled.

“Hey, you’re the one that got a bird.” Aj started to mess with Karim’s hair.

Shooing him off and getting away from his hold, “But you and Adrian should visit us for dinner some times.” He grabbed Val’s hands, “you still have my number right?”

“I do!” Val held onto Karim’s hands in return. “Ill shoot you a text when we’re all settled in on the new semester.”

“Great!” Karim smiled and let go of Val’s hands. “But we should be going, we came here on a quick trip.” he went up to Aj again. “It was nice seeing you!” He waved before pushing Aj in a new direction.

“Later.” Aj lifted up his hand in a peace sign and turned around to walk beside Karim.

After they were gone, Valentine turned back to me and smiled, “Sorry didnt think i’d see them here.”

“Small world aint it.” i sighed, “Aj dude seems like a chill asshole.”

“He’s a bit rough, but he means well.” Val grabbed the cart. “Lets go my steed! We’re done here.” Val marched off with the cart towards the registers.

I stuffed my hands in my pockets and followed after him. We split the price for all the shit we got and lugged it out into the car for the third time, Finally going back to the dorms. It took a few trips to get all the bags up to the third floor but we did it and didnt break any bones or bags or items on the way up. We divided all the stuff between us and started opening things and placing them where they needed to be. I let Val deal with all the kitchen stuff while i dealt with mostly getting the posters up along the walls and getting them to stay there. Once we finished we both slumped onto our respectable beds and laid down for a moment. I rolled over to look at the window beside my bed to see the little bat body of Demyan on the other side, Sighing i got up off the bed.

“Imma go out.” i grabbed my things and put them in my pockets.

“For how long?” Val asked, perking up from is bed.

“Dunno.” i shrugged and opened the door.

“Dont be out too long.” I shouted as i was leaving.

Before closing the door. “No promises.” i poked my head back in then shut the door behind me. I was out of the dorm building and saw demyan circling around outside waiting for me. Getting closer to where he was, he dived down and landed on my shoulder. “No one saw you right?” I whispered.

“Of course not. I am not as reckless as you.” he poked at my cheek with his little claws. “Now you will be training some today with my associate.” he stopped his poking. “Oh why you are at it, go somewhere secret.” he said.

“What for?” I did as he said and went into an alley way, away from the eyes of anyone who could see in if they wanted.

Demyan hopped off my shoulder and poofed into his human form. “Show me your chain.”

“Whhhy?” I raised my brow at him, suspicious of what he wanted to do. Last time he saw my hips, he fuckin bit me. We’re not doing that again.

“Do not question what i tell you, pup.” He sounded pissed. “Show me or i will get forceful like the first time.”

“Ok ok, chill out dude.” I sighed and lifted up my shirt and lowered my pants a bit to show the chain with the little charm exposed.

“Close your eyes.” is all he said as he stared at me with his amber eyes.

“Why?” I asked suspiciously, eyeing him.

Demyan stood there, with the most blank and pissed off look on his face. He crossed his arms over his chest and leaned his head to the side a bit, his hair shifting his hair to lay more across his face eyes standing out more behind his almost pitch black hair. He opened his mouth in a hiss, showing off his pointed slightly longer than normal canine fangs.

“Fiiine, dont fuckin hiss at me.” I growled back at him. Closing my eyes,

“Keep them closed, until told other wise.” Demyan said low, sounded like he was closer too me then he was a seconded ago.

I had no idea what was going on but something felt strange, and off….and really weird. Why was i feeling the wind on my chest and other random areas? I felt like someone did something to my body but i couldnt tell exactly what it was, but something was different. “Demyan?” I asked, raising a brow but still having my eyes closed.

“Open em up cadet!” A new male voice spoke up.

I opened my eyes, “who the fuck are you?” I stepped back, hitting the wall to see a random ass dude in front of me.

He had a cocky smirk on his lips, with crazy wild hair with icy cold piercing blue eyes.I couldnt tell if they were fake, but he had wolf ears and a tail too. He had on what looked like a full length body suit that had fur around the collar and sleeves of the outfit, it had various tears in it like he had gotten attacked, his boots had fur around the top of them as well and the toe part looked like large dog feet with claws on them

“Well aren’t you somethin, dressed in all leather with a lacy mask?” He said in a low growl.

“Excuse me?” I said, stepping closer to him, then looked down at my body.

Oh my god, he was right. I was in a fullbody suit too that was all leather. It had mesh part where leather wasnt. I felt my face to feel a lace mask with leather rimming to it. I went up and felt my head. Oh shit, are my ears pointed? I grabbed onto the tips of my ears. Yep they’re pointed. I felt the sides of my head. Ok shaved side is still there, other side just feels like its pulled back and clipped. I grabbed the end of my hair and looked at the color. Oh ok well my hair is fuckin black now, not the worse change but not something im a fan of. Looking over to the new guy with a pissed look. “Anything else on me new i cant see yet?”

He chuckled, sounded more like a growl. “Dunno your real eye color, but your eyes are bright red.”

“Oh fuckin hell.” I sighed dropping my head. “How bright?”

“Brighty damn bright dude.” He responded.

“Oh my god i have cupcake’s hair color as my fuckin eyes.” I turned around and punched the wall. “Demyan!” i yelled turning back around to the new guy. “Where the fuck are you!?”

“Yer buddy aint here right now.” the new guy said. “Well he’s around but for right now its you and me.”

“And who the fuck might you be, mangy puppy?” I asked, giving him a nasty look.

“Hey now vampire, we’re buddies like this. And imma be your teacher.” he leaned in closer to me. “So i’d watch that dirty little mouth.”

“Im not a fuckin vampire.” I grabbed onto the guys furry collar. “What happened to me?”

“You made a contract with demyan, yeah?” he asked, and i nodded in response. “Well then ya got bat powers along with being kinda vampire like.” he shoved me off.

“So what are you, whos your friend?” i looked him up and down.

“Im not gonna tell ya him specifically. But.” he paused and smirked again. “He’s made me into a werewolf in a sense.”

“Werewolf?” I asked.

“Yep.” He replied.

“Like, wolf man?” i questioned again.

“Only kind. Ya know, were and wolf.” He crossed his arms.

“Do you howl?” i asked a third time.

“Dunno, do you appear invisible in mirrors?” he asked in return.

“Dunno, havent tried yet.” i answered.

“Then we’re settled.” He said and uncrossed his arms walking away from me. “So lets get started.” he hunched over, wagging his tail.

“With what?” I asked, backing up.

“This.” He growled and ran at me like he wanted to tackle me.

“Woah!” I shouted and jumped out of the way to the side. Stumbling lightly on my feet but gaining my balance again.

“Ay look, he does the jump thing you bats do.” He laughed and looked up at something.

“Huh?” I looked up to where he was looking. Seeing to bodies up on a ledge watching us.

“Ah so he can get away if needed.” Demyan said, beside unknown dude. “That is good to know.”

“Seem’s kind of stupid if yuo ask me.” the new guy beside demyan said.

“No no, he is not that dumb.” Demyan chuckled, “He learns fast, if you use force.”

“Lycaon.” the new guy said, looking at the guy across from me. “Dont kill him, but do what you were told.”

“You know i’d kill em.” The kid, Lycan, said shrugging. “Why not get Tsuyoi or Pendragon do it?”  Lycaon complained loudly.

“Why are you such a pain.” the random dude up top sighed. While Demyan chuckled lightly.

“Wait wait, hold up.” I shouted to get their attention. “Who’s T-tsu-yo-e and Pendragon? Why’s your name Lycaon?”

Demyan poofed into his bat form to fly down to me, then poofed back into human. “Lycaon is the young man beside you. He’s the human partener to Fenris up there.” He pointed to the man who was previously above us to who was now beside Lycaon. “Tsuyoi and Pendragon are others similar to you and Lycaon.” he smiled wickedly. “Those names are the names they picked to be their villain names. You will need one as well.”

“Do i need to pick right now?” I asked. “Why do i look like a BDSM master?”

“You do not have to pick now, and the outfit.” He sighed, crossing one arm and resting his other elbow in the palm of his hand and rested his cheek into his other hand, “That i do not know, they are random.” He eyed me up and down, “Honestly, this is one of the most tasteful ones i have seen. My last partner, her outfit….it was quite…..skimpy.”

“Last partner? Did they die?” I asked, kind of concerned.

Lycaon and Fenris laughed behind us. Demyan shot them a glance and they shut up. “No my pup, they do not die. Her chain was broken from me, thus she lost her memories of me and all that happened. Leaving me partnerless and that is how i came to find you.”

“So if i break this belt you-” Demyan covered my mouth as i spoke.

“No” he smiled, “you can not break the chain yourself.” he let go of my mouth, “Only a hero can break it or myself.”

“So im stuck with for however long that is?” I groaned.

“Yes, yes you are my pup.” He smiled wickedly. “Fenris, do you think Tsuyoi or Pendragon would be a better partner for….him than Lycaon?”

“Lycaon has no control. So Tsuyoi or Pendragon would possibly be a better partner than my child. Here.” Fenris spoke. He had fluffy washed out brown hair with gray mixed in that came to his shoulders in a little ponytail. He looked older than Demyan but i have no clue if that means anything from where they are from. Fenris wore shades of gray and brown for his clothing, like his hair. His pants were puffy like Demyan but they went all the way down to his ankles where he wore black slip on shoes. He wore an open vest like shirt that exposed his stomach with a sash or wrap around his waist similar to Demyan as well. Although he had a scarf around his neck that dropped on his shoulders. He had the same wolf ears and tail like Lycaon but his ears were decorated with piercings.

“Then will you get in contact with Kenaz?” Demyan asked looking at Fenris.

“Ugh, that annoying Feline?” Fenris groaned. Scratching his head. “New plan. You get in touch with Kenaz, ill talk to Ryaikum.”

“You detest Kenaz that much, Fenris?” Demyan laughed lightly, holding his hand up to his lips.

“Yes, yes i do. That feline is annoying.” Fenris growled.

“Fine, i will talk to Kenaz then. Just make sure you get in touch with Ryaikum.” Demyan turned to me, “No pup, let us get back to where we belong.”

“Wait, So i dont get to train tonight?” I asked, looking at Demyan with a pissed off look.

Demyan stared at me shocked. Then turned his body to where I was openly seeing Lycaon. “Be my guest if you wish to lose a limb...or two.”

Looking at Demyan to Lycaon, i sighed in defeat. “Nah, im good, i dont wanna fight a mut.”

“Who you callin a mutt?” Lycaon came stomping towards me growling low.

“Im talkin about you puppy.” I smirked, exposing my fangs at him. “Who else here smells like dog?”

Lycaon got close enough to me that our faces were inches away from each other. “I dont care if you’re demyan’s partner. Ill take you out you flyin rat.”

“Flying rat?” I stood up straight, pissed off, “You’re pissin off the wrong dude you stray.”

“Oh and what are you going to do?” He titled his head, giving me a cocky smirk. “You don’t know what the fuck your doing here, and youve yet to even bond with demyan.” He stood up straight and eyed me down. “So what are you going to do, Weakling?”

I felt a low growl start forming in my chest, as my face twisted into sour face.I clenched my fists and cocked it back ready to punch Lycaon in the face.

“Pup.” Demyan said behind me, holding my wrist back. “Do not get to angry.”

“And why the fuck not?” I looked back and growled at him. Demyan had a oddly satisfied look on his face.

“Save that rage for another day, okay?” He whispered in my ear.

Fenris grabbed Lycaon by his furry collar and pulled him down, still holding onto him. “Get in touch with me when you desire us and our time again.” fenris spoke then turned around and dragged Lycaon off. Who was shouting in protest.

Demyan held onto me until they were out of sight. Then let me go. “Let us return as well.” he said and started to walk off.

“You going to explain?” I stood in my spot, not looking at demyan.

“Hm?” is all he said as i heard him turn to face me.

“Are you goin to explain to me what the fuck is going on?” I clenched my fists again, my shoulders shaking.

“Adrian.” he said as he took a step closer to me.

“You always fuckin do this!” I shouted, finally turning to face him. “You do this fuckin shit then you dont fuckin explain anything!” I walked up closer to him, hands still in a fist. “When are you going to stop fuckin making me a damn play thing?!” i got right up in his face. Demyan stood there, looking at me with wide amber eyes. His shoulders pushed slightly back. “You want a bond with me right?” I asked, then raised my voice again, “then start with talking to me! I cant get close to you if I CANT FUCKIN TRUST YOU!” i felt my face heat up and my palms start to sting from my nails digging into my palm.

Demyan’s shoulders lightened up and a soft smile formed on his lips, “I picked a good partner.”

“Huh!?” I raised my brow at him, still pissed.

“I will explain, another time.” He put his hands on my shoulders, “you are right. I must trust you as well as let you trust me.”

“Explain it right now.” I grabbed onto his arm.

“Shh, pup.” He hushed me. “It is late. Let me explain another time.” he let go of my shoulders. “Now close your eyes again.”

I gave him a nasty look, “Why?”

“We start with trust, Adrian. I will not hurt you.” he put a hand on my head, “Do as i say, pup.”

I closed my eyes for him. I felt that weird change happen to my body like the first time, I opened one eye and looked down. My clothes were back to normal. So i opened my other eye and looked at Demyan. “Will you show me how to transform?”

“Eventually.” he said and turned around. “Now, go back to your dorm. I will be out longer.”

“Doing what?” i asked, stepping up to him.

“Getting my dinner.” he looked over to me with a smile on his face.

“You dont eat people right?” I asked, looking concerned.

He chuckled loudly, “no. I only feed on animals, like a normal vampire bat. In my bat from, so i will not kill the animal.”

“Alright.” I eyed him up and down then walked ahead of him. “Dont get caught coming back inside.”

“I will not.” he said softly. “Good night, Adrian.”

“Whatever.” I stuffed my hands in my pockets and left. Walking back to our building and up the stairs and to our door. I pulled my keys out and unlocked it, opening the door quietly. The lights were out, val must have be sleeping. I stepped in quietly and closed the door gently, taking my boots off and leaving them by the door. I tiptoed in and went to my bed, flopping down in a T pose. I didn’t even bother taking my clothes off or bother getting into bed. I just laid on the bed and waited until i passed out.

[thelamephotographers-blog]

Double S

Alright. 

This is my first rant. It's currently midnight where I live. You ready for this stupidness? I don't think you're ready for this lameness. I mean.. dumb.

This is the original. This is the person who made me decide, "hey.. lets make a frikkin blog to vent all my frustrations with complete strangers on".

I often find things eating at me. When I upset people, I just want to fix it. My fault, or not.. I just want to make things right.

I am a young photographer. I looked up to Double S for the longest time! She inspired me as an artist. While I was in high school, I heard of her for the first time.. and ugh! She was wonderful. She was everything I aspired to be in the fine art portraiture industry, and more..

Now. Lets skip five years forward.

I messaged double S.. ugh. I just wanted to be a local photographers friend! I wanted to collab so hard. I wanted tips.. I wanted knowledge.. I just wanted a new friend who had the same passion and style as me. I was new to the area as far as photography went.

In my head... it worked out great.

Now.. Double S had ignored me numerous time. Hey.. thats okay. I understand! This lady is practically a photography GOD to me at this time. She's just... ugh. Serious goals man.

One day, I see Double S post a status. She posts Pinterest images in the comments of said status.. Its an outdoor boudoir. These images were inspiring! They were beautiful, and I NEEEEEEDED to be apart of this! I comment, going outside of my tiny bubble knowing I could be rejected. I say, "I would LOVE to be apart of this!"

Fast forward a bit.. and Double S and I decided to collaborate on this shoot. We chose two models! We were styling it, talking to the models.. and she took the business side over. Thats fine! I got say in it!  I helped choose outfits, and models, AND props...That was fine by me. She can totally have the contact with our models. I was just excited to meet her! This woman who went viral. This one all my friends had their senior photos done by in high school. I assumed, great. We have the contracts signed with an understanding of everything! All is well. There was miscommunication since the beginning.

Long story short... the day comes. I opened up to this photographer, she opened up to me.. It seemed a little weird however, she didn't have many friends in the industry. I was amazed at all this drama she knew about! I fed into it. I am so guilty. I listened, and was surprised. I could not believe the words she was telling me about these other photographers! Now.. at this point, I got Leary. I fed into it. She ranted, I ranted.. I listened. Dumb, Dummy dummy dumb dumb!  (I won't go into detail, due to privacy reasons).  However, we talked back and forth like friends. Joking about situations, people.. you know. Friend things. She had mentioned how she ignored my messages, and then one day saw my page and said "wow. She's actually pretty good." (This was the first and only nice thing she said about me) She told me she left so many groups, because it upset her seeing these people and how they made her feel bad about her own work. Okay, I totally understand. I wanted to relate with her. We had a convo about a local photographer who steals clients from others  (thats a whole different story... lets call her Nacho) after she told me about a few photographers who copy her ideas and steal her ideas... and this photographer (nacho) , to the T copies me, (we are talking outfits, location, and the exact spot and pose I did!) and others. Double S had talked about certain things this photographer does to copy her too! Wow.. I am so glad she understands me. I just needed to vent a little. It hurt me, being in a small town.. these things made me original.. and they weren't original after these things happened. She understood me! Wow!

Day of the photoshoot comes. It goes great. I pose a model, she fixes it. She poses a model, I fix it. It went pretty good. She made fun of me during the shoot, but eh. I don't take things seriously! I even brought my blanket for warmth, and ended up using it during the shoot. I took it as fun teasing! It was a little negative, but hey.. that could just be her personality, right!? Thats fine. I can deal!

Now, short time goes by. I believe around 3 days. Her and I talked super often, laughing about things, making fun of silly things.. It was like we were super close. I talked to her, explaining "Wow, I cannot wait to learn more. Shooting with you has already taught me more on posing the woman body!" Ugh.. I talked her up. I just continuously told her how amazing she was! I am HUGE on raising others up!

So, I ask double S.. "Will you second shoot for me?" It goes fine. My new light set wouldn't  work, she had a speed light.. ugh, thank heavens! Saved my butt. I am so glad the second photographer I hired (yes, hired. Keep that in mind) had a backup source.

Couple days go by. We edit a couple boudoir images, and Double S messages me. She was freaking out! Her images were out of focus! Her darn lens. I felt so bad. She asks if she can edit one of mine or something to post along with a few other messages, and I just volunteered.. "Girl. I don't care! I can do six or three doesn't matter, I was gonna edit extras because I love them hahahaha Girl don't stress"

So, I do. I deliver them. Okay, awesome.

I edit our second model. I post them. Okay, whatever..

I get a message. This models husband didn't like the ones I posted of her! Crap. He was fine with the ones double S posted. So, our model asked if she could pay me since I couldn't use mine. I did not even know where to begin.. so I agreed. I said, Sure. Just pay half of what the session would cost if you want since I cannot use the images of you for my port like originally planned.

Well. that was the wrong answer. I let double S know about it all.. and she got livid.

Crap. I did something seriously wrong apparently. I told her, hey.. you can have the money! She offered, I just figured it was good business practice. Nope. She was angry. She wouldn't chill out. She wouldn't let it go. I tried so hard, begging her to let me know what I could do to make it right. I just let her be mad at me, continue to make petty remarks until I finally was over it. I. BEGGED. HER. I pleaded. I kissed her butt. I didn't realize I did something bad. I asked advice.. every CLOSE friend of mind (again didn't mention the situation or names), agreed I did what I should have.. Yet.. I was just worried about upsetting her. She told me, she doesn't understand why this model would pay me, not her.. blablabla..

Now.. she kept making remarks saying it was her shoot, she should be paid if anything.. she did it all. She posed. She styled. Her idea.. I was like, WHOA. Absolutely not. That.. that was NOT true, and I told her every single thing I came up with. Now. After being ripped into, I had enough.. She made me feel like crap. She ripped me a new one.. I mean. Harsh.

I messaged a local photographer. He was friends with tons of people in the area! My friend T told me about him, saying he is super nice if I want to collaborate with a chill person.

I message him. I had messaged him in the past about random things! Trying to make new friends in the area I had moved back to.

The message read as following.

"Hey! I have a question. I'm working hard on modeling the female body this new year, I was wondering if there is a resource you prefer? I was working with/learning with another photographer but long story short, it didn't workout or we could steal T and do some fun stuff LOL

He replied:

Oh no, sorry things didn't work out!

so are you talking about posing? Or modeling in general?"

Thats it. It was great! No drama, no names, no obvious conflicts.. Him and I talked on and off for a couple weeks...

and then I start seeing more statuses from double T.

So, I made a blog post.. because I fed into it. I felt like I needed to fight back, since I knew she was talking badly about me. Statuses, etc.

My post basically said I collabed with another photographer after seeing these amazing Pinterest images she found.

Whoops, bad thing to say..

That escalated. Maybe that was bad of me.. I don't know. It was petty, but I felt the need to defend myself.. which, does NOT make it okay.

She made a huge post.. I get on Facebook. Guess what face I see? The second model. She took her out behind my back, doing another boudoir shoot of her. She posted this photo, and ripped into me in the post. I mean.. wow. No names, but obviously about me. She talked badly on my style, bad about my posing, bad about everything.. ugh. It was awful. I was so sad. I blocked her after messaging her, because I was so upset! I couldn't believe she did that. She admitted to it being about me.

Then, she proceeded to tell me how I have no idea who I am messing with, nobody cares about me, and she knows I've been talking bad about her.. WHAT!!?!?!?!?!?!?!? NO WAY! I had not said a single word about her. She tells me nobody cares, and blablabla.

She acted completely innocent. Eventually, I just said one thing. "I don't understand why you have to be such a mean human." I was so done.. I couldn't believe how nasty her words were. Letting me know how irrelevant I was, and how nobody cares and nobody would ever copy me.

She calls me. We hash it out, that was the end of it... or so I thought. Turns out.. this other photographer was the one she said I talked bad about her too. She pretended she heard about it from other people, which I mean.. was obviously not true. It was rough. Turns out, those two were talking about me behind my back. She didn't go into much detail.

Well. I hadn't talked to her. She talked bad about me to this photographer, and hey.. it bothered me. Should it have? No. She bullied me, and scared me into thinking she could Ruin me.. all for what? What did I do? Exist?

We stop talking. The last thing I heard from her, was her asking if I lost a lens cap.

I see her at the store, avoiding eye contact.

I made the decision.. that hey. If she wants to talk bad about me, good on her.. but I won't give her a reason. If somebody believes her.. then they aren't worth convincing.

I get on Facebook yesterday. Turns out, she blocked me. I can only assume it was due to the encounter at the store, or because I posted a status looking for a second shooter when she used to be mine.

Truth is? It hurt me. I still cannot believe something so silly arose. I begged and begged. I didn't want her destroying my name.. I was so nice. I let her rip into me. I did. Multiple times, before finally standing up for myself..

Truth is? I am a people pleaser. I begged her. Literally, begged her. I begged her to let me know what I could do, or what I should have done. In the end.. those people will always find a reason to not like you. Count on that. I did things wrong, but you know what.. those people? Will always find a way and a reason to hate you.

I learned a lesson. You DO NOT need to please everybody. Sometimes, people will hurt you in order to heal themselves. Let them. Learn YOUR lesson, move on.

Is it dumb drama? Absolutely. Is it something that eats at me? Sure is. Is it silly? absolutely.