#and that is sensation in the chest that doesnt feel good but it also does somehow? it hurts but just enough to not be unbearable?
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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago
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hold on i need to get a thought and emotions out. so with Welcome Home, there seems to be a before and an after. obviously, we're in the after. the website is the after. and if it turns out that the story we see, the one where shit hits the fan and the show is practically erased, then... that already happened. whatever horrors we see, we'll know that there is no saving them. there is no happy ending - it happened, and it's tragic. the show is doomed to end and be scrubbed away. if any of the characters are revealed to be dead/gone by the website, then when/if we see them at an earlier point, we'll Know
and there's a special kind of dread and horror in that for us, the audience.
#im not articulating this the way i want to...#it's like going to see a tragic play. like romeo and juliet for instance.#we go into it knowing the end. they die. no matter what they die. every step they take leads to That End#every happy moment is undercut by the knowledge that it won't last#thinking about this makes me think that at some point learning more about the story/characters is gonna feel like digging up a grave#AGH I LOVE IT THOUGH I LOVE IT. IT HURTS SO MUCH BUT I LOVE IT#its a special feeling of dread/nostalgia/bittersweetness/resignation#and that is sensation in the chest that doesnt feel good but it also does somehow? it hurts but just enough to not be unbearable?#welcome home#welcome home speculation#welcome home puppet show#man i am so so so so scared for the puppets lmfao#i have some theories on the ways shit might go down. like little things. souring relationships and such#i also have a feeling that the story is really gonna hit home (ha) for me in Big Ways#like as soon as i saw clown say that it's kinda about 'when does a home become a house' and stuff#OOF. YIKES. WHEN DOES IT INDEED. i mean i know. ive lived it. im Living it.#this is gonna get unintentionally personal Real Fast in Several Fun And Festive Ways for me huh#i wonder if the story is gonna be uncovered linearly or not...#chewing on it chewing on it chewing on it#i can't wait to Understand the world/characters so that i can write fanfic. i want to so badly. i want to Explore#i want to hop into that grave and keep digging
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the-s1lly-corner · 1 year ago
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If you could indulge me, can I ask for something with The Amazing Digital Circus gang, with an s/o who is seen as an anchor for the others? They are strong willed, happy go lucky, supportive, a mediator and ect. Well, could they stumble upon their s/o just having an episode, just crying in frustration and like punching a wall to calm down and go back to acting like nothing happened?
I have a thing with strong willed characters hiding their weakness for the benefit of others.
TADC cast x emotional anchor!reader !
oh ho ho you silly lil fella, you have literally just described my TADC oc down to a T, i am going to have so much fun writing this because im literally just. going to use my oc as a place holder for the reader, just without describing any lore bits unique to them and their design ngl i think i went insane with this one, tally hall music is doing something to me
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CAINE:
if you thought you were good at hiding your human despair just know that caine already knows. the only reason i feel he wouldnt initially come to you in your lesser moments of weakness is that he can acknowledge that youre trying to hide this part of you. does he go comfort you, and risk making you try harder to surpress your feelings; risking you to just blow up one day and have your mental state just totally collapse in one go? would you feel put off at the knowledge that in this world you never really have full privacy? that definitely wouldnt make you feel any better. but when it gets to the point where you're screaming and crying in your room and punching the walls he would step in. drags you away from the walls, and if he has to this man will restrain you if it means making sure you stop swinging. hes seen the downfall of many people within the circus, but seeing it from someone he so deeply cares for hits a different way. he may be an AI, but he can still simulate feeling. its a harrowing sensation as he lets you cling onto him. i think he makes an effort to make in house adventures less overwhelming and intense, too scared to push you over the edge but also too scared to leave you with nothing to do to distract you. i think he would stay with you for the night, too
POMNI:
as selfish as it sounds, pomni cant help but feel.. something in her chest. seeing you, the groups beacon of light falter fills her with some kind of fear and despair that she cant put into words. it reminds her that no one is above helplessness, and that at the end of the day youre just as capable of abstracting as everyone else. i think, when she finally sees your fake demeanor finally slip when you thought you were totally alone, she feels bad. i mean shes your partner, and she didnt pick up on any hints that may have indicated your true state of health. i dont think she would try to force you to speak, as much as i want to say that she would try to push for you to talk about how you feel i think her attempts to reach out to you would fall on deaf ears. i think she would put her hand on your shoulder, making you jump back to the present moment. its an awkward gesture, with the jester herself being a little lost with these new feelings... i think you two would just sit in silence
JAX:
similar to pomni, he feels this intense and unexplainable pang at the sight of the most hopeful and brightest person in the circus crumble. ive already said it but ill say it again, its like being splashed with cold water, with how hard that sinking cold feeling hits him. makes half hearted attempts to cheer you up. its not that he doesnt care, its that hes stuck in the shock of seeing the happiest person he knows flip into... this.. for a split second he thought you were abstracting, that pit his stomach becoming colder for a second before he realizes whats going on. ive said this before as well, but jax is not the best comforter, in fact i think he might be one of the worst out of the main cast. but i think so far for the characters ive written for this post, he makes an effort to try to pull you up out of your hole. at least he lets you cry your feelings out, and he wont make you feel bad for doing so
RAGATHA:
stands there in shock like pomni, before immediately rushing to your side and tugging you away from a coat stand you were kicking and beating. hands on your shoulders she tries to snap you back to the present moment, trying to tell you that shes here. any feelings of the helplessness that she shares with the previous two characters is shoved down. this isnt about her, its about you. runs her fingers through your hair, if your digital body has any, and just. rocks you. when you finally calm down enough to be able to form clear words, she reassures you once more that shes here for you. the two of you stay in that position, holding onto one another for the entire night. i think it should be said, but for most of these theyre going to try to keep a closer eye on you and make it a point to ask you how youre feeling. ragatha especially.
KINGER:
it reminds him of queenie. the sight brings back so so so many terrible memories. for a second he doesnt even register that hes standing in the present, standing in your doorway. stuck and frozen for a solid minute before you finally notice him, and you hold each others gaze. finally, you crumble. what was the point of hiding your mounting anguish now that it was discovered by the one you care for most? at the sight of your crumpled form i think kinger would snap back, and rush to your side. he's pause, afraid that you would abstract like the queen, before forcing himself to push through that fear in the back of his mind. a moment where he is not fumbling with himself or shaking; be it because he wants to be there for you or perhaps he still holds some guilt aimed towards himself for not being able to save his old queen, he refuses to leave your side even if you tell him to leave. theres this caution in his actions, mixed with this sort of determination to make sure you're okay. like ragatha, he would make it a point to make sure you're okay long after this incident
ZOOBLE:
zooble would probably be the only one who doesnt make their presence known to you while you're in that state. not because they wont care about you, in fact they care about you a lot. but theyre so unsure of what to do, that they give to you what they would have wanted for themselves, if they were in your shoes. they want to grant you privacy, and to at least keep a shred of the now ruined façade you had been putting on for everyone. if it means keeping it will give you comfort, then they wont take that away from you. they wait outside your door, waiting for the height of your episode to pass before cracking the door open. they dont say anything about what they had just heard, but you seem to know that they know.. i mean they came in so soon after you had calmed yourself down enough.
"are you okay?" a dumb question, but what else was there for them to say? you so obviously werent okay, and you likely werent for a long time. they offer to leave, to give you some time to pick yourself back up, but they also make it clear that they wont go anywhere if you dont want to be alone. the night is tense and awkward, filled with conversation before they eventually broach the topic... i think you guys would develop some sort of secret code. i mean youve been hiding your true feelings for so long, and outwardly saying you need help would compromise that mask you put up for yourself. be it a certain sentence or arrangement of objects, you two come up with a indirect way of asking for security
GANGLE:
she feels so helpless, the most out of everyone. she tries to get your attention, but her words fall on deaf ears, if they even manage to pry themselves out of her mouth. far too weak to pull you away and keep you from hurting yourself, but too soft spoken to bark out a word to draw your attention to her. truly, she feels useless. she isnt able to capture your attention until you finally notice her. similar to kingers part, you fall. she takes an unsure step towards you, hands half raised in front of her as she debates if you want to be touched or not. she settles to sitting in front of you, just barely holding eye contact... she looks down when you tear your eyes away from her. finally finding her voice, i think she would ask if you want her to stay, or if you need anything. she tries to word it the best she can, but she lets you know that she doesnt think any less of you for your outburst. it happens to the best of us, really it does. if you want her too, she wraps herself around you and tries to soothe your shaking form
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andreaheartscats · 9 months ago
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Ellie Williams
tw! mention of sh
-> Ellie Willams comforting reader about self harm.
-> modern AU.
a/n: this is rather long and im sorry guys if it was bad and if it has any grammer mistakes!! i tried my best fr :')
It was winter, your favorite time of the year. Maybe because of the cold air that would hit your face when you step outside or maybe the fact that you could wear long sleeves without anyone saying "how are you not hot?!" or "arent you sweaty and hot under that hoodie?"
It was the weekend. You were in your dorm you shared with one of your very good friends, Ellie. She didnt know about your problems, mostly because you thought she doesnt care about them. She was just your best friend and also smoke buddy.
Oh but boy were you wrong.
Ellie was out, buying some stuff for dinner. It was already dark outside. While she was out, your feelings got the best of you and all of your stress and anger bolied up till it exploded.
Few little tears slid down your face as you open your box that was mostly empty besides some random stuff you had and your blade.
The drom room was pretty heated up so it would sometimes get too warm. Thats why you were in a short sleeve shirt while Ellie was out.
Bringing the blade to your wrist, you went across it rather harshly. One, two then three times you did that when you heard the door open. "baack! got some chips for the movie"
You heard Ellie say, but you were unable to form words at the moment. Quickly rushing, you put your blade in the hidding spot and throw on a zip up hoodie as you step outside your bedroom to greet her.
Your eyes were stained with tears and you put up a weak smile for her when she faced you. Of course Ellie noticed that. She alwalys does. And she saw those healed up scars, of course she has. But she never pointed them out because she didnt want to make you feel uncomfortable.
"Hey.. you good?" she asked you in such a sweet tone as her eyes frown a little. Shooting you a rather sad smile with concerne over her face. Taking some time to process what she just said you nodded with your head "yea. 'm good."
As she heard your words she knew something wasnt right. You werent really yourself for the past few days to be fair and she had every right to be worried.
Placing the bags on the counter she walked towards you. A soft smile spread across her face as she put her hand on your shoulder.
You looked at your shoulder where her hand rested and then back at her. "you know, you can tell me anythin' babe." those words echoed through your ears as she said them. And something inside of you snapped. You felt safe with her, you always did and she made sure you knew that.
A tear dropped from your eye, then another and another. And finally you were full on sobbing as she brought you close to her hugging you tightly while you cried into her chest.
Ellie didnt mind that, she didnt care if you stained her shirt with your tears. All she wanted was for you to feel better. After you let it all out and calmed down a little she pulled away her hands gently rubbing on your upper arms as she looked at you.
"come on"
she said in a low and soft vocie as she gestured to the couch.
For a moment you two sat i comfortable silence while she examined your face for sime kind of a answear and patiently waiting for you to speak up. But all you did was stare at the ground while tugging onto your sleeves. The stinging of your fresh cuts made you uncomfortable, it burned.
Your eyebrows frown together as the burning sensation got worse. Ellie noticed your face and she grabbed your hand to hold it gently. Her hands were rough but they felt nice.
"whatchu making that face for.."
She said a little worried. She noticed you tugging at your sleeves a lot and so she let out a deep sigh out that felt like it was trapped in her forever.
"bae..are you hurtin' yourself ?"
she always used pet names even if you were just friends. but she finally decided to ask you. of course she knew the answear to her own question but all she wanted was to mske sure she was right, she didnt want to make assumptions.
And when she asked you that, it felt as if the whole world stopped for a bare moment. you squeeze her hand as you nod your head, scared to even say anything or look at her.
Ellie lets go of your hand and squeezes your cheeks as she makes you look at her. "its okay that you do.." she pauses for a moment "well..its not but you know what i mean."
Ellie lets out a little chuckle making you yourself laugh a little as she caressed your cheek gently.
"i just want to help you, alright? please let me help you."
after you heard her words she looked down at your wrist as if waiting for something. you finally understood and lifted your sleeves reaviling your scars, some healed some not.
Ellie quickly runs to the bathroom as she took a wet paper towle and some bandages. She cleaned the cuts gently as you wince in pain slightly. After she cleaned your cuts, Ellie wrapped the bandages around your wrist not too tightly but not to loose.
"thank you Els..i-"
she cut you off as she hugged you tightly. you gave into the hug. it felt safe and warm. You felt safe and warm with her. After pulling away she looked at you with a smile on her face.
"how 'bout we watch a movie, yea?"
of course you agreed and for the rest of the night you were cuddled up close to her while she traced gentle touches across your bandaged wrist.
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lucy4-ever · 1 year ago
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I need me some hsc nsfw with gustav schäfer 😯
nsfw headcanons about gustav schäfer
!all NSFW!
now, we all know he's the most quiet of the group
but i can assure you, he's way different in bed
plus, you know what we say about quiet boys
(they got a massive pp 🤭)
he's a drummer too, so he often uses drum sticks
HE KNOWS HOW TO USE HIS FINGERS
loves fingering you and never fail to make you feel an orgasm 🤭
feel like he loves the fact that people see him kinda innocent and would never think he's a rough dom 😫
(obviously, would still ask you if youre okay with that)
if yes, he spanks your ass, gives little slaps on your cunt and loves teasing you
while fingering you, he's use his other hand to sensually touch your belly, boobs, waist, thighs, collarbone...
LOVES YOUR TITTIES
yk when you hug him and that he feels your chest
god, he's in heaven
okay, now, i think he has a "risky" kink
like, he loves doing things in public and well, nobody suspect anything because he's an innocent sweet quiet guy
however, he'd be running his fingers through your jeans
you both, then, will go in bathroom to finish your business, while everyone's next room
DEGRADES OR PRAISES DEPENDING ON HOW GOOD YOU'VE BEEN
"you dont people to know how slutty you are, now, do you?"
"be careful to not be too loud, cunt"
"our image will be ruined if they knew what a whore you're being"
"you shouldn't have been a brat, that's all"
"my bitch making me feel so good with her tight, wet, needy pussy"
"yeah, you want it, you want it so bad?"
"you dirty girl, want me to cum on your face?"
he loves cumming all over you (if you're okay with it)
loves seeing your tongue, your face and your boobs covered in cum
i feel like, after the act he'd ask if he was being too rough or too mean
depending on your likes, he'll adjust his words
also, at the very first sexual intercourses of your relationship, he wasn't as harsh and a rough dom
he was very nice and respected your wishes (obviously)
but i mean, he was like extra soft
and you liked it but like, you needed a bit more action
and so on
high sex happen time to time
but he likes sober fuck better, it's more genuine and you can actually feel all the sensations
loves positions where he holds you by the waist
he likes going down on you and you going down on him but he likes penetration better
he loves resting his head in the crook of your neck while fucking the shit outta you
GROANS AND WHIMPERS
likes it when you take the lead, your bratty side turn him on
but he'll get revenge later on...
something he randomly does when he's horny is whispeering in your ear dirty things while he keeps a straight face
and you're just here, blushing
that's the way he says it to you when he wanna fuck :D
also feel like you already had sex on a kitchen counter
you were sitting on the counter and kept flirting with him...
a bit drunk, you started getting touchy and well... fucked
yes, on a kitchen counter
that's kinda hot ngl
also feels like he's a cook so he already said stuff like
"tonight the only thing im eating is you, love"
when you tried doing something to eat, he litteraly said
"i'd rather eat you to be honest"
and it was funny
randomly fucks in random places
he's lowkey kinda a horndog too
doesnt give a shit about what your body looks like, he's still gonna fuck you good
he's a titty guy for sure
loves your chest and your face!!
probably already asked you if he could fuck your tits as a joke
anyway
sweet, rough, teddy bear, lovely bf fucking you at perfection <3
author's note : thank you so much for requesting anonymous!!
love ya!!! 💕
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glitchbirds · 5 months ago
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currently on day 4 post-top surgery
pain was bad first couple days but has mellowed out to the point where im mostly just uncomfortable, finally. i was a bit in a rush to stop taking the prescribed percocet/oxycodone because i didnt like the side effects, and tried to switch to plain acetaminophen the same day as surgery- horrendous mistake. dont do that. in some ways i felt worse on the first day post-op than i did the day of surgery, because of that. i switched do acetaminophen yesterday afternoon and that was a much better time for it, it definitely doesnt dull the pain As well as percocet but it works well enough
the drains make me deeply paranoid and i haaate that i have to wear them two extra days because my surgeon rescheduled my post-op a week before surgery. theyve consistently only drained small amounts (and less each day) and i keep freaking out over the idea that theyre either clogged somewhere where i cant see/reach, Or that ive accidentally pulled them partially out of place when stripping them as directed
surgical binder is arguably even more annoying to me than the drains- starting on day 3 it started hiking up my chest constantly and putting unnecessary excess pressure on wherever it folded onto. and every time i readjusted it it would just slip back into the wrong place the next time i stood up or sat down. i was finally able to readjust it today in a way that it hasnt gotten messed up again, so thats a relief
for the first couple nights sleeping or even just lying down was fucking horrible. oxycodone would make me drowsy under an hour after taking it, but lying down or sitting back up from a lying down position would cause a sharp pulling feeling in my right side. i used wedge pillows and stacked more pillows on top of that, which sometimes helped but usually just made me sleep fitfully because i was on top of an uneven lumpy pile (oxycodone made that worse- i would get vivid, half-dream half-hallucination visions and sensations and drift in and out of sleep every 5-10 minutes until it wore off). the day after surgery, the first time i tried to sleep in my own bed, i woke up a few hours later to take my next dose of pain meds and the pain from prying myself out of bed was So excruciating that i spent a full half hour sitting on the edge of my bed trying to will myself to lay back down again. i eventually limped my way to the living room couch and fell asleep sitting up with my back leaning on some pillows. i still woke up once or twice an hour that night but had no pain from getting up or lying down. the next night i slept better- woke up even less-, and last night i braved my own bed again and it was nowhere near as painful as that first time… thank god for that
in general i seem to have been more awake/lucid/active than most ppl at this stage of top surgery? esp the first couple days, i spent a lot of time restlessly pacing around the hotel room (and later the apartment). obviously still doing my best to limit upper body movements and not get complacent with my slowly improving range of motion and overextend myself. at least walking around has been good for me in terms of minimizing blood clots in my legs…? and hopefully me being bad at falling asleep hasnt caused any notable issues with the healing process. hopefully.
scotty has been a little angel of a cat, he already is very gentle and avoids stepping on people (and if he does you can barely feel it). binx on the other hand, historically, loves clambering on top of my chest and he has no concept of his own weight and it hurts like hell, so ive been rebuffing his affection a lot the past few days and having to stop him from putting his paws on my chest and climbing on. which he is heartbroken about. absolutely mournful yowling in the halls
oh also my surgeon sent me a bunch of documents with instructions around what to do but the document says that i was given “nipple sparing double incision mastectomy” and the document occasionally mentions nipple care, and i assume this is just like, a generic form and they dont have a specific version of this document for ppl who opt to have nipples removed entirely, but im just gonna say rn if they left nipples on me after the surgeon and multiple other doctors+ nurses asked me directly half an hour before surgery to confirm that i did not want nipples, im going to go fucking crazy. i cant tell through the bandages if i have them or not- i don’t think i feel anything but im reluctant to poke around there too much
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automatayaoi · 1 year ago
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HI CAN I GET UMMM 👋👬😘&💇 FOR ARLEQUINO PLEASE
will that be for here or to go 📝
👋 - Do you like to hold hands? What are their hands like?
YES!!! YES YES YES I LUV HOLDING HANDS SO MUCH 💕 constant need to be holding onto him like some kind of weird tick. arle's hands are sooo long and pretty and delicate, ofc since he's a musician hes gotta have long fingers hehe. ive always imagined him to have porcelain-like skin, mostly bc of the way his face fractures during that fight with brighella reminds me of how cracks form in porcelain or ceramic. dont ask me how solid porcelain can move and bend we're talking abt living dolls infused with will thru alchemy ok AJSDKLHASK. anyway!!! i also think unlike most automata, bc of the combustion device in his chest he has his own body heat hehe :3 so hes nice n warm, perfect for holding. augh his hands r so much bigger than mine probably...longer but not a lot wider since his hands are probably on the thin side. again perfect 4 holding.
👬 - What kind of hugs do they give? (Do they lift you off your feet? Bear hug you? Softly cuddle you?)
uwa,, i think at first arle would be v gentle and tentative abt hugs at first, both bc he is completely unused to any kind of physical affection, and bc he's afraid of hurting me: squishy fragile human. he's spent a very long time only hurting maiming and murdering so he's nervous abt it u know. What If He Squishes Me To Death. after a while tho he gets more comfortable (and has a better understanding of how much force the average human can withstand) n he hugs me more often :) hes so fockin tall so a lot of times he'll pick me up for a hug so he doesnt have to bed down ajskdlja Picks me up like a naughty cat. abovely mentioned combustion and fire canister in his chest make him soooo warm n great for cuddles hehe
😘 - Do they kiss your hands, cheeks, forehead etc? What kind of not-on-the-lips kisses do they give most?
CAN I GET A MF HAND KISS ⁉ pleaseeeeeeee hes so fucking dramatic and like stereotypically chivalrous in a way that you know he learned it all from theatre performances n columbine's romance novels so of COURSE hes into hand kisses. constantly kissing the back of my hands, my palms, my fingers, etc etc. ALSO he does the french thing of cheek kisses for greetings hehe. excuse to kees me more
💇 - Do either of you play with the other’s hair?
ABSOLUTELY BABY!!!!!!! oughh his hair is one my favorite things abt himmm 💕💕 its so long n pretty n silky i love running my hands thru it brushing it for him braiding ALL OF IT!!! hes my everythang 🥰 im not good at braiding but i get a lot of practice in. when he was being rebuilt by the a.r.c. kero was helping to make new clothes for the pionniors and i maaaay have designed him an outfit that shows off his pretty hair more >:3 i saw that reveal during the brighella fight and lost my shit. i think he plays with my hair pretty often too hehe he likes how soft n fluffy it is, and he's new to actually being able to Feel Things (we gave him and the others an upgrade so they have the same simulated nerve endings as dernier) so he's like, a little fascinated by the sensation
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cynettic · 3 years ago
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How to Dom Genshin Men 101
Summary - Tips, tricks, and the unofficial guide of how to dominate genshin men in bed. ( Not really- just tips and a quick sneak peak )
Pairings - Fem!Reader x Albedo / Diluc / Kaeya / Childe / Kazuha / Venti /  Zhongli / Dainsleif / Scaramouche
Warnings - NSFW ( edging, overstimulation, penetration, pegging, foreplay, bondage, degradation, humiliation, dirty talk, fingering, heavy dom, punishment, cunnilingus, blowjob )
A/N - “How to dominate Genshin Woman,” is up next ;)
Mentions - @clouds-rambles I saw you wanted someone to tag you for a post with Kazuha or Venti content :) sorry if it was comfort you were looking for tho- ;-;
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Kaeya needs to be told he will be fucked. That you’re going to throw him on the bed and have your way with him. With the blue headed cavalry captain, communication is the key to seducing him into your bidding. Kaeya naturally can be submissive, but he often prefers to take control, so you’ll have to keep firm with him.
Rub his thighs while you whisper into his ear all your dirty little plans. The contact will catch his attention, and he’ll grow hard at the thought of you taking control.
But be careful.
As much as Kaeya can be a bratty sub, he is equally teasing and capable of taking control again. You need to stick hard with your decision, and never falter into his words. Keep him on edge, control his orgasm, make him long for you.
“Y/n… please… I cant take it any longer.”
Kaeya in general is open to many things, so bondage and many kinks are open to him. Use them to keep him blinded in ecstasy and want, until all he can do is whine out your name.
Degrade him.
Play with his hair as he shakes for the orgasm, and pull at his locks when he tries to get off when you pull back. You need to remind him constantly that you’re in control, that he does your bidding and that your words are law.
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The room was hot, sweat dripping down your neck as you loomed over Kaeya’s toned chest. But the warmth was hardly a bother with the view in front of view, whimpers and grunts escaping the man’s lips as he clenched the white silk bedsheets.
“Y/n,” he breathed, head crushed into the bedsheets by your hand that gripped his neck. You only squeezed his throat tighter, making him flinch and unable to speak. All he could do was try to meet your uneven pace and throw his hips up in an idle attempt to orgasm.
He should’ve known better.
Because you drew up when he was close, lifting your wet dripping pussy from the slick coated juices that covered his dick. Leaving his erect and overstimulated length throbbing as he cried out. 
“I decide when you get to cum,” was your only reply, harsh and strict against his lustful desperate eyes. “I am the one in control of your needy little dick right now, so dont even try to find out what I’ll do if you do it without my permission.”
He could only nod, tears welling up in his eyes when you slammed back down on his dick. The obedient way he melted into you making you loosen the grip on his neck, slowly trailing your hand down his chest. Hand settling on his abs as you bounced on his dick, pace getting quicker. 
“Cum you slut.”
His seed filled your hole, and his hands clenched into fists as the wave of pleasure washed over him. He curled his toes at the edge of the bed, knees and thighs shaking when you sank back down on his dick. He was reduced to a mewling mess, unable to form proper words.
“You didn’t think we were done did you?”
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Quick Tip - Touch his chest, especially his nipples. He was his window exposed to the cold air after all~ its sensitive and the contact there with the one on his dick will have him trembling.
Diluc doesnt know how to be anything but dominant in his sex life. He’s unlikely ever had the chance to be at someones complete and utter mercy. In a way, he liked it like that, he likes control better than the unknown. But he trusts you, openly submitting himself to you when you ask. Cause thats all you have to do when it comes to Diluc, ask with a pouty face and a “pretty please?” And its yours.
Diluc probably got the idea that you’d be gentle with him because of your words. Maybe it was your soft expression, or just the way you patted his shoulder and told him he’d enjoy it, you promised.
But you were anything but gentle.
Actually, he’ll likely try to avoid looking at you directly because he might feel ashamed for looking so vulnerable. Scared that you might find him disgusting or revulsive in the state that he’s crying and begging for your touch.
With Diluc, praise him. 
Tell him how good he’s doing, how hot he looks all wet and hard for you. Talking about what you’re going to do to him also turns him on, stroke his dick and whisper into his ear how you’ll be pounding it in your pussy.
“So g-good… dont stop… d-dont…”
“Magic word ‘Luc,” you whispered slyly into his ear. 
“Please…” he whined almost immediately. “Please, please… p-please-”
But once you start, you’re in complete and utter control.
Unlike Kaeya, he wont be able to turn the tables on you if he feels like it. Being at someones mercy is so thrilling, and all he can do is think about how to make you tell him he’s doing good.
He’ll do everything you ask without hesitation.
A good boy just for you.
_-_-_-_
“Sensitive,” you remarked smoothly as the pads on your fingers rubbed Diluc’s cock. You were gentle, slow and torturous as you rubbed the tip and drank in the boy’s muffled gasps and cries.
Diluc was face down on the bed, hands grasping the pillow and just about shoving it in his face. His hips bucked everytime you touched his needy dick, toes digging into the blanket to support him in any kind of way. 
You hovered over his quivering body, a smirk plastered over your face at the feeling of euphoria this gave you. Diluc was never a bottom, and it felt so good to know that it was you who was changing that.
‘He’s so cute being so submissive too…’
Ass up in the air as if begging you to suck his cock, to do anything instead of teasing him with your fingers. Adorable attempt, but if he wanted to be sucked off, he needed to vocally beg for it, plead and whine for your mouth.
You pressed another kiss against his neck, nipping at his tender red skin with your teeth. He struggled and whimpered when you didnt go any lower.
“You want something…?” You asked gently into his ear, holding back the grin when he nodded wildly.
“‘Ask for it.”’
He opened his mouth to say something, but was overcome with the sensation of your fingers sliding up and down his dick. The pillow didnt help, muffling his voice so you couldnt hear him either way. Feeling trapped, he could only thrust his hips into the strokes of your hand.
“Y/n…” he tried, stopping halfway. “I want you to… I n-need you to…”
So you helped him out a little bit.
Your hand quickly came to his neck, holding his face up above the pillow. It was grasped as if you’d choke him, but your touch was soft and gentle enough not to hurt him. “What was that?”
“Suck me…” he sputtered out, thighs trembling. “Please…”
You let go of his neck, instead trailing your body down. You left little kisses and love bites on the crevices of his back, noting how he arched his spine obediently. “Good boy,” you whispered when you got to his cock. You gave the tip a little kiss, “Good boy.”
_-_-_-_
Quick Tip - Get into a position with Diluc that’ll make it hard for him to escape your grip completely. He’s not used to this, so he’ll be really shifty and squirmy the entire time.
Albedo might be a little harder to go about, but it all comes down to how you phrase it. The poor boy is so obsessed with knowledge and discovering more that it really isnt that hard to persuade him with the right words. Tell him that you simply want to experiment body reactions, and that someone suggested a little something ‘different.’
Can I just start by saying that Albedo is probably one of the prettiest bottoms out there? Like the way his mouth opens to moan out your name, but then he chokes back on pleasure and now he’s just breathing really hard, eyes slitted.
During the entire process, he’ll be completely obedient to you and only you. Asking what to do so that the supposed experiment will work. 
In general he’s pretty touch craved, so even just the simplest stray of your fingers along his thigh will get him hard.
“You’re… sure this is part of the experiment?”
“Absolutely. Something wrong?”
“No… I’ve just never done this before.”
Make him sit on your lap. 
I don’t care if you’re shorter or taller than him. If you’re looking up or down to see his face, because either way its the best position to see his expressions. And the best thing about Albedo is his expressions.
You’re used to seeing his usual stoic demeanor and maybe even the slightest smile that he spares for you. But here, you get to see the pleasure that he cant hide, moaning your name and whining for more.
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“Like t-this…?”
Your hand was on the soft skin of his back, fingers stroking the crevice of his spine and sending goosebumps up his spine. “Perfect,” you purred back, legs widening under the pressure of him above you. 
You could tell Albedo was desperately trying to stay in control of his face, but his body reactions gave way to his actual feelings. Face slightly tinted as he screwed his eyes shut and delved into the feeling of being inside you. His thighs shook as you grasped his hips, slamming him in and out of your pussy mercilessly.
“Y/n…”
The way he moaned your name was just as satisfactory as his dick pounding into your walls. You stroked the sensitive skin of his sides, pinching and gripping his ass. It was tender in your hands, and you rubbed the flesh as you hoisted him up and down into your hole.
“You like that?” You asked into his ear, nibbling at the exposed hollow of his neck. 
“The e-experiment?” He began, clearing his throat as if to give you a fully proper answer. 
You thrust your hips to meet his.
“Its certainly- c-certainly… I…” He pressed his face into your shoulder, breathing hard as his thighs gave away and he fully submitted into you. Into the sensation of you pumping his length into yourself. 
“Certainly what Bedo…?” You teased, satisfied with his unfinished answer. You didn’t want him to give you his hypothesis, you wanted him to tell you how good he felt, how he wanted you to fuck him harder.
One of your hands rose up to his face, harshly pushing off your shoulder. Your hand came to grip his neck, angling his face in just the ‘right’ position so you could view the ecstasy dimming his eyes. Mouth open while nothing but moans and whimpers escaped, head tilted to the side because he couldnt focus on anything but the feeling of you.
“Feels…. good…” he mumbled, hazy eyes threatening to roll to the back of his head.
Your hand on his neck tightened, and you pulled his head up higher so you could see the diamond like mark on his chest. Pressing a soft kiss to the symbol, he tensed, trying to handle the stimulation on both his dick and neck.
“Now thats the answer I wanted,” you simply said in response, thumb rubbing the sensitive spot on his collarbone. 
_-_-_-_
Quick Tip - Bondage and toys are also okay with Albedo as long as its for ‘research’ purposes. Seeing his expressions when he’s overstimulated would be all the more better :3
Childe would never willingly submit himself to you, never willingly let himself be submissive when it comes to sex or… anything. As you know, he is a very competitive man, so its easier if you trick him into it. Its consensual of course, Childe would never back down to a challenge, so who’s to say you can’t win for once?
Tell him you’ll be the one fucking him when you get back home.
He will laugh and tell you he’d like to see you try, the smirk on his face telling you he plans to be the one pumping into you all night anyways. 
But you slowly drive him crazy, occasionally brushing your fingers along his hip, up his thighs, ‘accidentally’ on his chest. Until his hard member is throbbing and needy, and he is easy to catch off guard when you make it back home.
He puts his stuff away, changing out of his dirty clothes. But you are prepared when he comes out in his boxers, the rope on his pull up bar undetected by him.
Yes, Childe has a pull up bar on his door, I swear thats canon-
Anyways, as he slowly paces towards you, lustful look in his eyes, you only smirk back. And its when you’ve pulled his hands into the waiting knot and pull the other two ends to secure the bindings, thats when he realizes he’s screwed up.
‘And yes I know Childe could probably break the pull up bar if he wanted to- shush shush.’
“Oh Childe… eating up your words now arent you?”
Tease him.
Degrade him and show him that you are in charge. That you are always in charge, that if you wanted, you could do anything to him. He is at your complete and utter mercy, and he can’t do anything about it.
Look him dead in the eye as the confidence fades from his face. As he can only acknowledge one thing, one thing only.
You’ve won.
_-_-_-_
“You’re holding up pretty well,” your fingers trailed alongside the side of his face, scanning his features. “Pretty determined arent we? Don’t worry, I’ll fix that up for you quick.”
“Go ahead and try,” was his only answer.
Your fingers gripped his dick firmly, positioning it over your pussy. “Oh I plan to,” you whispered sweetly in a promise. “I can’t wait to see you begging for me, your needy little dick at my complete and utter disposal.”
Before he could answer, you thrust your hips to meet his length, biting your bottom lip slightly. He was big, and a grunt left his lips as he thrust his dick up into your entrance. With a gasp, you grabbed his sides, pushing his ass into the door and flashing him a nasty stare.
“Don’t even try.”
With your hands restraining his body against the wooden door, he was left to deal with your terribly slow pace. As you slowly pumped his member in and out of your pussy, a torturous tempo that even had you yearning for more.
His face was worth it.
“Go faster…” he managed to get through his teeth, “You’re so damn slow-”
You pulled away from his member, letting it hang loose and dripping. Your hand still gripped it though, and with a long prolonged sigh, you looked up to give him a stern face. “Say that again and I’ll make sure you’ll stay stuck tied to the door, helpless and needy like the little whore you are.”
At this, his face scrunched in anger as he tried to pull away from the pull up bar. You pushed a hand to his chest, shoving him back into the door. Of course he wasnt used to being degraded and toyed around like this, but in his position, he needed to learn his place.
“So? What’ll it be?”
Stroking the tip of his cock hard in your hand, you watched as his resistance came to crumble, slow until you rubbed up and down his length. He closed his eyes ever so slightly, a whimper escaping his lips as he threw his head back against the door. You took a step closer, positioning his member right at the entrance of your pussy. You rubbed the tip of it against your clit, letting out a little whine out yourself.
“Fine…” you heard him mumble. “Please… Y/n, fuck me.”
You slowly pulled his cock closer against your hole, till only the tip was inside. “Louder.”
His eyes flashed open to give you a harsh glare, but nevertheless he had no choice but to beg. “Please,” he began, jerking when you pulled his cock into your pussy. So far that he hit his head against the wall in an act to hide his moan. “Oh god Y/n… just like that.” A whimper escaped his lips when you pumped in and out of him. “Dont stop… oh d-dont stop… fuck me… please.”
The slick sounds of squelches and Childe’s ass hitting the door filled the room. “Look at you,” you cooed, rubbing his cheek with your thumb as you looked at his half slitted eyes. “Looking so obedient now arent you? Who knew you were such a good little slut.”
Childe only mewled in response, knees threatening to give in as you thrust into his dick at a quicker pace. His thighs and legs were all but ready to give out, and it was the restraints on his wrists tying him to the pull up bar that kept him upright.
It wasnt till he was overstimulated and barely hanging onto the threads of consciousness when you spoke to him again. Untying the rope on the pull up bar and pulling him against you to bring him into the shower.
“Now now,” was what you whispered into his ear. “I want to hear it from you, who won?”
Your fingers treaded through his hair as he only managed to mumble back, “You.”
_-_-_-_
Quick Tip - Run. I’m not kidding, morning comes and Childe awakens with his strength back? Bro, get outta there before the mf decides to take revenge-
Kazuha is poetic and takes a gentle approach to intimacy with you. Straight out telling him you want to be in control might throw him off a bit, so its best to lure him into it. Kiss him and whisper loving words into his ear. Have him lose himself in your lips, your words, and he wont notice how you’re not not wearing clothing, and now you’re pegging him in the ass.
Like Diluc, Kazuha wants to be praised, hearing your loving words in his ear. He’s usually the poetic one, so how come you’re the one being so romantic and cute?
Whisper the haiku he read to you yesterday, and he’ll be down and ready for whatever you want.
Overall, Kazuha probably wont mind if you’re dominant in your sex life, considering that he just wants to be loved, and that the intercourse is something intimate between the two of you. Special.
“O-oh… that feels nice…”
Be aware that Kazuha has slightly heightened senses with smell and hearing, and has a general sensitivity along with his senses. So yes, he will moan a lot. Be prepared to hear his usual calm collected voice squeaking and whimpering which each thrust of your hips.
Take advantage of that, touch him, talk to him. Don’t be harsh with Kazuha though- no degradation, teasing is acceptable, but poetic verses and loving words will be his favourite.
_-_-_-_
Your hands were gentle against his hips, lifting his ass up and spreading his legs at just the right angle. Beneath you, he squirmed just a tad bit, face buried into the bedsheets as his stomach faced the bed, unable to look at you.
“You’re doing so good,” you whispered, your hands at his hips leading to his ass. You softly rubbed the flesh, squishing it in your hands and molding it to expose his needy little hole. He only mumbled something against the white silken sheets, muffled.
You drew your fingers up to your mouth, sucking on them to leave them slick and wet. Tender as you rubbed them against his hole, you slipped them in, slowly pumping in just to stretch him out. Under you, he began to clench the sheets, whimpering something and calling out your name.
Your harness was already tied around your hips and ass, ready as you positioned yourself over him, doggy style.
He jolted when even just the tip touched his tight little hole. You could see his hands shaking, face buried deeper into the mattress. You gently put a hand over his shaking one, pressing a kiss on the back of his neck. “Do you remember that Haiku you wrote me the other day?” You asked him, hoping to distract him for just a moment.
“Y-yeah…” he mumbled back, and you slowly slid the strap on farther down his ass. You felt him shiver against you, thighs trembling at the unknown feeling.
Stretching him out farther, he moaned when you got halfway through. “Mhm, me too.” Your thumb gently stroked the backside of his hand as he quivered beneath you. “It went something like this I think…” You slowly slid the strap on father down. “Sun and moon rejoice…”
He gasped, whining as you eventually did manage to shove it down his ass. His tight hole clenched at the unknown feeling, pleasurable waves rolling back at him.
“Birds of dawn sing songs anew,” you continued, beginning to thrust in and out at a gentle pace. You wished you could see the expressions he was making, the flushed look or the pleasurable one. You could imagine his eyes rolled back as he moaned into your thrusts.
You sped up.
He now tried to meet his ass along with your thrusts, trying to reach deeper and deeper until this unknown knot building up inside him would untie itself. It was uncomfortable, but it felt so good at the same time. Your words sent shivers down his spine.
“Far from home,” you stated at last. “With you.”
Kazuha hummed, clenching his bottom lip to swallow down the moans and whines. “You remembered,” was all he managed to mumble. Half pleasured, half in awe.
“Of course I did.”
Somehow, that made it all the more intimate, and Kazuha wished he could completely give himself to you. He loved you with all his heart, especially with how you made him feel so warm. So full, so happy.
You thrust faster, hands slowly drifting back to his hips so you could thrust his ass into the strap on. You could tell he was coming close with the volume of his moans, thighs shaking and hands raking up and down the beside.
“Y/n…” he cried. “Y-Y/n-”
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Quick Tip - Kazuha can be really loud during sex, so make sure that if you’re anywhere public, or on the Crux, to somehow keep it on the quiet side- last thing you want is a grumpy Beidou. “I cOuld heAr yOu hOrny sHits all niGht.”
Venti is quite literally a bottom. Theres really not much convincing you have to do when it comes to actually getting him down on the bed and being in control. Actually, I have a feeling it would take more convincing to get him to be in control, mainly because he likes to be on the receiving end.
When it comes to Venti, despite his delicate small form, you can easily be rough with him. Degrade him and show him that compared to you, he’s nothing. All that Barbatos shit is nothing compared to you, your hand on his neck choking out all his noises and thrusting his dick into you. 
Tie him up.
Or rather, do anything you’d like to him. Venti is by no means fragile. He wants you to be rough with him, push him till he thinks he’s gonna break.
But you’re gonna have to have some hella nice aftercare prepared afterwards.
“Worship me, your god.”
“Worship you? You are nothing but my slut in bed, now get down on your knees and ‘beg.’”
Overstimulate him. Make him keep count everytime he orgasms until he can’t remember anymore. 
“How many times now…?”
“Too much… too m-much-”
Make him cry and cling onto you if you were his lifeline. Because you’re the only thing he can hold onto when you’re shoving his hips inside your pussy. You’re everything to him, he needs you.
It doesn’t take too long for Venti to actually submit himself fully to you, babbling incomprehensible words. Crying out your name, begging for you and agreeing with anything you say.
Venti can be extremely obedient.
_-_-_-_
You were enjoying the view.
Leaning back into the cushioned wooden chair, legs spread and wide as the smaller boy sat on your lap. He squirmed, hands tied in scratchy rope that kept his hands unavailable to him, leaving him bare and vulnerable to you. His chest was puffed out, nipples bright red as if begging to be sucked.
“Hurry up now,” you began, your unwavering eyes boring into his wide ones. “You were so confident before as well werent you? Telling me to worship you, Barbatos.” You just barely skimmed the skin of his back, up his neck and clenching the locks of hair. Pulling his hair back to get the full glory of his face, obedient for you. “All I see in front of me is a little slut.”
He grinds his throbbing member against you, needy while his lustful eyes peer at you through lidded lashes. “P-please…”
“Please what? Speak up.”
He fidgeted with his restrained hands, flashing a pouty look your way to see if it’d draw a reaction. It didnt. “Put my cock in your pussy,” he instead whimpered, moving his hips closer to your entrance.
You just leaned deeper against the chair, waving your hand to the side as if bored. “You want to bury your dick in my cunt? Go do it yourself then.” He glanced up, pleading eyes as he again pulled at the restraints on his arms. “Go on, I’m waiting.”
Whimpering, he tried to push his hips into you, his cock missing slightly and just pushing against your thighs. He felt so hot, the contrast of the cold air that tingled against his bare skin. His length throbbed and his chest pounded, your little touches igniting fireworks across his skin. “I ca-cant…” he sniffled, again thrusting his hips only to be meant with your thighs. 
You stayed quiet.
Your stare only made his member harder, and he was now lost in the sensation of rutting his hips into your thighs. The stimulation felt good, but not good enough to get him off. No, he wanted your pussy, your calloused hands roughly holding his hips while you drove him into you. The need drove tears to his eyes, thighs shaking with anticipation as he continued pumping feverishly against you.
“You really cant do anything without me can you?” Was your harsh reply, hand positioning his cock right in front of your entrance. Venti only mewled in response, cut off by the sharp motion of your hands on his ass thrusting into your entrance. He was now panting, head leaning against your shoulder for support as you pumped him in and out relentlessly.
“Y/n!! Its.. mm, so g-good.”
“As it should be, your dick belongs to me.”
And he just nodded, letting you take full control of the pace as he laid there and moaned. He couldn’t even manage to push his hips along with your hands to chase his release. Just submitting all sensation to you and the feeling of your walls clenching around his length.
_-_-_-_
Quick Tip - Make him worship you, sit down on the chair and tell him to suck all your juices dry. Degrade and tell him he’s lucky to get any taste.
Zhongli is pretty open when it comes to trying new things when it comes too sex, considering that with how long he’s lived, its probably nothing new. Nevertheless, the best way to convince Zhongli to go along with whatever you’re saying is just telling him, “Let me make you feel good love.”
Zhongli won’t be fazed by what you decide to do, no matter how kinky or odd it might be, he has no doubt seen worse somewhere else.
You don’t have to worry about being gentle with him, and he won’t really be fazed if you decide to degrade him. Of course, it doesnt turn him on as much as whispering loving words in his ear does, but he wont object either.
Very obedient.
Zhongli knows what he’s getting into, and he never goes back on his word. He says he’ll do something? He will do it.
He’s the god of contracts after all-
“Ah… so tight, just for me?”
Touch his face.
Whether its having your hands around his neck, brushing your thumb over his soft cheeks, or giving him soft forehead kisses, he’ll love it. He wants to make eye contact with you during it, always. Even if you’re the one in control, he wants to have you in his sights as he moans out your name.
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You were gentle at first.
Tightening the straps on your hips, you adjusted their positioning as you climbed on the bed. The silk sheets were soft against your knees, soft on your hands as you crawled overtop of the archon. He was laying flat on his back like you’d asked, hands resting against the sheets palms up as he stared up at you. Pensive, waiting.
You went to press a kiss to his lips, one hand at the back of his neck as you bit his bottom lip. Just like you’d asked, he didnt use either one of his hands to hold you or press you tighter against him. Just melted against the rough feel of your lips against his. When you were done, you lifted yourself up to get a good look at him, satisfied with his swollen lips and breathless gasps. You held your fingers to his mouth.
“Suck.”
He was compliant, taking your digits and swirling his tongue around in expertise. Coating them in a slick layer of wetness as you pull them out. You get more of a reaction out of him when you press your fingers against his hole, slowly sliding them in. 
“Good, just like that.”
You delved in the sight of your fingers disappearing into the clenched hole of his ass. Sucking them in greedily and making a ‘pop’ when you pulled them out. 
Taking a deep breath in, he hums into the sensation of your fingers slowly filling his ass. He isn’t impatient, instead letting you take slow torturous thrusts of your fingers in and out without complaint.
It all changes when you pull them out and align the tip of the silicon strap on to his hole.
Because you were being nice earlier, coaxing him with your gentle touches and peppering him with kisses. You knew he expected you to be kind, to handle him with care with each thrust. To say that you loved him and him to say the same.
Nothing wrong with surprises.
It must’ve been a nice surprise by the looks of it, because when you fully sheathed the strap on into his ass in one stroke, his back arched, a moan escaping his lips as he now clenched the sheets. Eyes wide and mouth wide and panting, you thrust in and out without mercy, watching the strap on disappear deeply into his ass before you pulled it all out and slammed it back into him. A pattern that had his eyes rolling back and mindless sounds escaping his lips.
Your hands, gripping both sides of his thighs, propped them up on either of your shoulder. Zhongli through his dazed eyes managed to give you one confused look before you pumped the strap on right back, and the angle had him crying out your name feverishly as he curled his toes. His walls clenched tightly around the silicon, the strap on reaching so far in his ass that all he could do was moan and cry for more.
“So pretty,” you commented, another hand stroking his hard neglected member. “Just for me.”
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Quick Tip - For someone new or someone who hasnt actually dominated anyone in bed before, Zhongli is a perfect first option. Will provide no judgement at all, and might actually help you out if you get nervous.
Dainsleif prefers to be in control, to have full superiority when fucking you. He doesn’t see any reason for you to suddenly act like the boss, after all he respects you and would never do anything to hurt you. However, if you give him a reason to force him into submission, he’ll put up a fight, but will eventually sink down for you.
Tease him.
Dominating Dainsleif is a one time thing, which means you have to take advantage of it with all you can. Drink in all of his expressions because believe me when I say you wont see them anywhere else.
Tell him this is ‘punishment.’
When he asks what he did, don’t answer. Just grab the hems of his jacket and throw him on the bed. Strip him bare and tell him that you could list all the things he did, but you want him to think about it instead.
And he does.
He’s always the one coming home to tell you he needs a good little fuck after work. And then you’re laying on the bed while he takes out his frustrations, and you know he doesnt mean to hurt you but-
“Say it again.”
“I’m… I’m s-sorry Y/n. Please do-dont touch… mm, don’t touch m-me there- ah!!!”
“Again.”
So you do the same with him, and he lays there and takes it like a good boy. Because he deserves the punishment, at least you’ve told him that much.
Degrade him.
Overstimulate him and don’t let him orgasm, keep edging him on like Kaeya and don't allow him to have even an ounce of the release he’s craving for. After all, this is punishment, you arent giving him any rewards.
Stroke him and bring him to his orgasm, only to pull away. 
And while you edge him, whisper dirty little things in his ear. Of what you would’ve done if he wasn't being punished, how you wouldve made him feel so good. Till he was crying your name nonstop, till he couldn't walk the next morning.
Oof, better luck next time Dainsleif.
_-_-_-_
His hips bucked feverishly against your hand, the slick juices covering his dick making a squelching noise every time your palm slid up and down his length.
Dainsleif was panting, hands tied behind his back and knees tied to the bedposts as he laid there in all his vulnerability, His legs were spread wide and exposed, wet with precum just for you. 
“Y/n… please…”
You weren't sure how many times you’d heard that sentence tonight, certainly too many. And even if it was his nth time that he’d reached his climax and you didn't let him orgasm, it didn't matter. This was punishment, he wasn't supposed to like it, he was supposed to lay there and take it.
“Shut up you slut, if I want to let your pathetic little cock cum, I’ll let you.” Your thumb rubbed the tip, eliciting a gasp from him. “And if I don’t, you’ll just have to put your big boy pants on and deal with it.”
You lowered your head till your face was in line with his growing erection. As if he could sense your plans, he twitched in your grip, groaning in want, in ‘need.’ Slowly, you pressed a kiss to the tip, letting him know exactly what you planned to do.
He squeaked out in shock, or rather, as high of a squeak as he could manage. His voice was still rather deep afterall.
“If I wasnt punishing you… maybe this wouldve been my pussy instead.”
But you didn’t stop, opening up your lips to slowly suck the head of his dick. Your other two hands strokes his sides, groping and feeling around his hard length.
“If you d-do it like that… I’ll… I’ll…”
Your mouth widened to swallow more of his dick, tongue swirling around the tip as you sunk deeper into his hips. He squirmed, legs trying to thrash around but held by the restraints on his knees. Moans and whispers escaped his lips as he tried to move his arms to no avail. He was coming close, he could feel the sensation grow from the pit of his stomach, member tingling and warm as you sucked him in.
He was so close… almost there… just a little more and-
You pulled away.
Licking your lips, your hand wiped away any stray liquid on your face. 
“If I wasnt punishing you,” you began mockingly. “Maybe I would’ve let you cum.”
And Dainsleif was left to simply hit his head against the sheets, a groan of frustration escaping his lips as his throbbing member pulsed with need. 
_-_-_-_
Quick Tip - Blindfold him. He won’t know when or what you plan to do, and that makes it all the more arousing.
Scaramouche would never in hell allow you to top him, or anyone else for that matter. He is always in control, he is always thrusting into you as you sob for him, beg for him. Until he’s not. With Scaramouche, its simpler than you think, but it does involve the fact that you need to be strong. Physically, because Scaramouche without his hat and vision is basically useless :’)
Make him earn it.
Stay away from the short boy for a long time, tease him when you see him, and deny him any release when he wants to fuck you. He came back home from a tough day at work and wants to fuck you silly? You’re not there. He feels horny one night and tries to find you? Make yourself disappear.
He’ll grow needy.
And here ladies and gentleman, is where you strike. Because poor little Scaramouche needs you so much that he might even be willing to bow down and follow any of your commands so long as he gets a release.
And you better damn well take advantage of that.
Make him go on his two very own knees, make him ‘earn it.’ Earn the right to have you pleasure him.
“Lick my juices until thats the only thing you can taste, the only thing you’ll want to taste.”
“Yes… maam…”
“Louder.”
“Yes maam.”
“I said louder you whore.”
Degrade him, make him feel like nothing compared to you. Because just for this once, this moment, you can. 
Convince him that he is nothing without you, that he needs you to survive.
And then after that, grab his hips and thrust his dick into you. Until he lost count of how many times he’s came. Till he’s hanging onto his consciousness by a thread and is fucked silly by you.
_-_-_-_
“Fucking slut.”
You leaned into the chair, watching as Scaramouche thrust into you again and again with the help of your two hands on his hips. Eyes dazed and clouded, he could no longer focus on the details. He didn’t notice how you degraded him, how it was basically you that guided his cock in and out of your pussy. 
But he was gone, far too gone. Sensations around his body sent him on a rollercoaster, and his dick felt numb, the slightest tingle of heat climbing up his chest. He felt good, that was all that mattered in him dumbed up state.
Your hand came to caress the skin of cheek, a sickening laugh erupting from your lips as you focused on the way he stared at you. “I fucked you dumb didnt I?” You cooed, never stopping the motion of your other hand guiding him in and out of your pussy. “Fucked you so good that you cant even talk.”
He just hummed in response, lips breaking off into a moan.
“Good,” you whispered to him, pulling his head closer to rest against your shoulder. “Such a good boy for me.”
And then your hands were on his neck, squeezing slightly to alter the pitch of his moans as you lead his face down to yours. Till you pressed a kiss to his gentle lips, a once in a lifetime opportunity where you could take control of the kiss, of him. Licking his bottom lip and sliding your tongue in to rub against his. Lips parting to kiss, his dumbed out whimpers a musical melody in tune with the pace of your hands dragging his dick in and out of your overstimulated cunt. 
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Quick Tip - Uhm…? Run? Similarly to Childe, Scaramouche aint gonna react positively in the morning. Might discard your body for seeing him in that state. Jeez… what's up with the harbingers….
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On a side note… after writing this, I kinda feel like I’ve discovered I have a choking kink… ;-;
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moraygrotto · 2 years ago
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ik you haven't really written anything for f/ire e/mblem in a while, but I just came across an older fic you wrote about d/imitri and I was wondering if you had any burping/stuffing headcanons for him?
YES YES YES FOREVER AND ALWAYS
- i very much hc diмitri as having sensory complications surrounding food; he canonically cannot taste (and hence often doesn't seem to enjoy eating), so he must rely on texture + smell. therefore, if he comes across a food that he DOES like, it's a huge deal :3
- his crest's effects and his lifestyle make his calorie + protein needs very high. he.... does not take the best care of himself, but when he DOES eat what amounts to a healthy portion for him it's a HUGE surprise to his dining partners, like "barely can conceive that so much could fit inside a person" level sizes
- again, he has trouble telling when he is hungry and full, but as he gets older he tries to experiment with such sensations and finds that depending on what he ate, being full of solid food can feel amazingly good. i can imagine him talking to his friends almost worried to bring it up before being reassured that yeah, most people really like the food at feasts + chances to eat a lot
- his Hopes support with Вernadetta has him going out to grab dinner alone late at night, which i LOVE as a hc. as prince he's usually made to eat with other people, practice proper manners, and spend most of his attention on conversation, but esp. as he gradually learns to value self-care he in turn wants to teach himself to enjoy food, savoring + giving himself time to process the experience of eating, and letting himself relax over something that's been just another tense part of his life
- SUPER fast metabolism!! if somebody were to actually remind him to eat whenever he's hungry and provide this food, they'd have a hard time keeping up
- his stomach capacity is also MASSIVE. usually he stops eating before his stomach is all the way full, but to actually fill his belly up with a food he likes the texture of, many a plateful would vanish into him
- if he's recently returned from a trip on which rations were very limited, his hunger might take over and have him devouring huge amounts of a feast until his body feels replenished
- growing up, he didnt get the full camaraderie of boyhood (i 100% headcanon him as trans but this stands either way since he is a prince) so he never learned how to belch on command; that doesnt mean he cannot let out some beautiful burps though. if he's around people he trusts or even alone, he'll still try to be polite about it, but you can hear how deep the rumbling is from inside his belly and chest. it's actually rather easy to startle or squeeze burps out of him; poking his tummy in the right spot is an easy way to get an unexpectedly majestic burp + one very blushy embarrassed boy
- he CANONICALLY likes watching fеlix eat in hopes oh my god. i think that's a common trait in faеrghus as a whole (esp since both уuri and sуlvain love watching īngrid eat) so if someone actually showed interest in watching diмitri fill himself up he would feel so loved!! even if he didnt enjoy the food he would make sure to eat plenty if it would make his dining partners happy
- that being said, he has trouble sensing when he's full, so if he ever really committed to eating a lot he probably would not stop until he was in physical pain 😢 he'd reluctantly accept help at that point especially if it inhibited his ability to stand up and move around
- not fully a kink hc but in spite of his hesitation toward food he loves hot drinks; anything with a nice smell like chamomile is good, plus its a personal hc of mine that he enjoys richer drinks like hot cocoa; he really appreciates the thickness + the feeling that something substantial is sliding down his throat. having a belly full of warm liquid is something really easy to feel + be pleased by; after a long day in the cold he likes being so effortlessly full and warmed
- hard turn from the last bullet point but his body is quite resistant to poison; chances are if you feed him something poisoned he won't throw it up but will just process it fully, enduring its effects while his digestive system churns it through.
- patting his back/chest and kneading his tummy WILL help him get burps up so well. if he's genuinely comfortable enough to let someone take care of him this WILL work
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cuddlesslut · 4 years ago
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Thank you so much Darling 🥰
NSFW # 10 - we have to be quiet it or theyll here us
FLUFF # 7- stop hogging the blankets 
Ushijima Wakatoshi & Kuroo Tetsuro 
Warnings: Nsfw, Smut, Oral, Fingering, slight Daddy and Sir kink, Strong Language, Public Sex
Kuroo Tetsuro  
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It was exhilarating the feeling of doing something you weren't supposed to. The Idea of getting caught added on to the to heat pooling inside of you. Your brother would throw a fit if he knew. But laying here naked on your boyfriends bed as his face was buried between you thighs, you could give a fuck about the consequences. You were in heaven. Your hips bucked into his feral assault. Kuroo’s lips wrapped around your clit giving it a harsh suck. his tongue moving down sliding between your folds darting into your entrance. You let out a loud gasp your hands tangling into his bed head as he fucked you with his tongue. you felt your release climbing as you screwed your eyes shut spewing a sling of curses.
“look at me kitty, let me see you come undone for me.”  Kuroo spoke into your quaking cunt. You look down to catch his gaze as his stare bored into you. With one final nip at your sensitive bundle you were thrown into pleasure. As your come drenched his face he eagerly lapped up the juices. Kuroo was at his limits ready to bust just from the beautiful faces and noises you made. He pounced on your exhausted figure capturing your mouth into a searing kiss you could taste yourself on his hungry lips. You could feel his harden length sliding against your soaking entrance. He moved his hip slowly sinking into your tight hole. Your hands gripped his muscular shoulders as he stretched you. After a brief moment he started to roll his hips into you his momentum starting to build as he got lost in the holy feeling that was you squeezing tight around him groans leaving his mouth as he was becoming more vocal.
And thats when you hear it. The slam of the heavy front door. “ Hey, Hey, Hey,” echoed through the flat alerting you to your brothers presence. Your body automatically prepared for Kuroo’s retreat but instead he drilled into you harder.
“Fuck,” he moaned as he lost himself in you. “shhhhh Tetsu,” you scolded your usually cautious boyfriend. “ we have to be quiet or he’ll hear us!”
Not stopping Kuroo placed one more heated kiss to your lips “ let him hear i dont care anymore, You are mine,” he said lifting your hips up so he was pounding deeper and harder into you. “this pussy is mine,” he growled  “now scream for me Y/N.” 
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The exhaustion you felt as you laid there next to him was enough to put you to sleep. Chests heaving from the extreme work out you both experienced. You both rolled over to your sides. Kuroo pulled the comforter over both of your still naked figures. He traced his slender finger along your arm and shoulder up your neck causing a slight shudder from the light touches. He brushed the stray hairs out of your face looking deep into your e/c eyes. A huge smile graced as he it dawned onto Kuroo that this right here was what he wanted. 
“ I meant what i said Y/n,” he breathed out nervously ,as smooth as everyone thought he was Kuroo was just as nervous now as he was the first time he kissed you. You looked up at him wide eyed waiting for him to finish his thought. 
“ You are mine, I love you.” he studied your features as he said the sacred words for the first time in your relationship. Your breath hitched not expecting that response just yet. Your heart swelled as you stared at the man you also loved knowing he felt the same. You surged forward crashing your lips to his. He sunk into your embrace feeling at home with you in his arms. 
You pulled back giving a happy sigh, “i love you too Tetsuro,” you sunk back into the bed getting comfy. “should we go face the music,” you asked thinking about that there was no hiding anymore. “Nah, lets rest, im going to need my energy to out run Bokuto,” kuroo laughed. You laid next to him feeling the happiest you have in the longest time. Your eyes started to feel heavy as you looked over to your lover who was already fast asleep light snores already filing the silent room. You felt warm and safe as you drifted off only to be suddenly shocked as Kuroo rolled over taking the blanket with him. “HEY! Asshat dont hog the covers!” you said tugging at the covers. his eyes stayed closed but you saw a slight smile on his face. “Kurooo,” you groaned a little louder than necessary. 
“Y/N !!,” you hear your brother shout. Apparently finally hearing your voice. Kuroo’s eyes snapped as Bo pounded on the door. 
“OH SHIT,” you both cursed looking at each other.  
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Ushijima Wakatoshi
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You see Wakatoshi standing near the locker rooms. But you dont make it to them as he pull you into a supply closet. Quickly locking the door behind him Ushi pushes you against the door lips hungry as he and hands frantic as he grabbed at your body. His breath was hot as he left rough and wet kisses down your neck. his gripped tight on your hips pulling you close into his towering figure. 
“Sweetheart,” he breathed his breath husky with frustration. “you should know better than to rile me up before a game.” His large left hand came up to your cheek petting you his rough thumb rubbing over your bottom lip. “ do you see what you did to me love?” he asked pressing his oh so large dick ,that was straining inside of his Adlers uniform, against your thigh. A weak moan left you mouth as you felt him. 
“Looks like youre going to have to be a good girl and take care of the problem you caused Sweetie.” he looked down at you eyes dark as he slid his large fingers against your clothed heat. Thank goodness you wore a skirt today. He hooked his fingers inside your frilly panties as he pulled them down your smooth legs having you step out of them, before tucking them into is jacket pocket. Knowing time wasnt on your side he began to pet your pretty pussy feeling how wet you already are. Toshi doesnt say anything about the mess you were already making of yourself he doesnt need to. He knows what he does to you. He slid one of his huge fingers into you knowing he need to make sure you were good and stretched for him. 
“Toshi,” you whimpered as he added another digit. Using both fingers he scissored inside of you feeling to tighten around him as he started to pull you first orgasm from you. You were right there on the edge. When you were suddenly empty. You look up at him pouting at the loss of you release.
“sorry sweetie youre going to have to wait a little longer after being so bad this morning,” he smirked knowing that you were just putty in his hands. He took a step back pulling down his shorts and boxers finally freeing himself. Not wanting to waste the precious time he had he turned you around placing your hands on the door as he bent you over. He bit his lip at the sight of your ass peaking out from under your skirt and your pretty pussy dripping for him. If he had the time hed gladly kiss you down there and make you come on his mouth. But alas not right now. He aligned his throbbing monster of a cock with you soaking entrance. Easing himself in giving you plenty of time to adjust. Hot tears pricked your eyes at how full you felt. Never getting used to how much your boyfriend always filled you.
“Are you ready sweetheart,” he asked as he grabbed your hips tightly. 
“Yes Sir,” you moaned softly. Ushi began his thrust starting with a slow pace before finally slamming himself into you. Causing a choked moan to escape your lips. He began to pound into you furiously, “Aaahh Toosh-,” your loud moan was cut by his hand finding it place over your mouth. 
“Shhhhh love,” he chuckled. “not so loud, we dont want to be caught now do we?” He kept your mouth covered not convinced youd be able to suppress your moans yourself. The rhythm he set was unrelenting. You quickly found yourself on the edge again. Using his free hand the ace rubbed your sensitive bud send your crashing into your intense orgasm. He helped you ride out your high as you clenched around him. Knowing he wouldnt last much longer you knew what to expect as he pulled out and pushed you to your knees before shoving his aching length into your open mouth coming from the sensation of your soft tongue moving around him. Emptying his ls milky load into your beautiful mouth. Swallowing gladly you looked up at him from your spot on your knees. His breath was a little uneven as the pet your h/c hair. 
“ You did amazing Beautiful thank you,” he said helping you to stand and placing a soft kiss to your forehead. “i have to go warm ups will be soon” he said holding you tightly. He pulled his clothes up as you straighten out your mess hair. He started for the door.
“Uhh wait Toshi you have my panties still,” you stated. 
He smirked. “i know theyre gunna be my good luck charm,” before leaving to go join his team.
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You laid with Ushijima in bed worn out from some post game victory sex. His arm was placed arm your waist and you felt so content. How did you get so lucky to have a man who loved you so much. You were truly blessed. You roll over on to your stomach ready to fall into a nice deep nap, pulling the sheet closer to you. You could feel Wakatoshi sit up slightly ready to start your normal battle that came with sleep. “I dont understand how someone soo small need all of the blankets,” he chuckled starting your usual tug of war battle. 
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hoshi-kuzu · 4 years ago
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If matchups are open again can I get a KamiAso one? 💕 I'm 5'0, Asian, and a gemini. At first I'm very quiet and have trouble talking to people but after awhile I'll become more dramatic and extroverted. I'm a huge nerd so I'm prone to dorking out quite a bit. But I'm always down for an adventure. I love drawing and listening to music. I also have a hobby of cooking! I can be impulsive sometimes but it's only bc I'm working towards my dreams!!
...so. It's been a little bit since your match-up submission. I really appreciate your patience with me😆
I hope you like it
I think you and Loki would have a wild time together. It would take a bit for y'all to truly hit it off, but boy— when it does. It goes off like A ROCKET!
Listen man, I don't believe in love at first sight, but when he first met you would be the closest to it.
When he first sees you he just zeroes in. Something completely inexplicable about you sucks in all his attention. Was it the way you held yourself? The strength in your eyes? The softness of your appearance? Everything? Or something else entirely. If someone asked him then he would say you just looked potentially amusing.
Though in between purposely careless laughter and smirks, he'll feel the deeper tugs. For the first time not everything is a light-hearted joke. For the first time in a while he might actually be attached.
After you become friends, this man will be dragging you to and fro ev-er-y-where. Constantly buzzing to do more. If you haven't laughed so hard you cried that day, he's failed. He HAS to show you a good time. He lives to see the sparkle in your eyes when you look up at him after a good laugh. He can't stand the thought of you looking at anyone else like that.
Albiet there's some (i.e. a metric ton of) hidden desperation in his rapid plans. I mean, if he can't continually show you how unique he is, how only he can make you laugh like that, how only he can take you on an adventure like that... How only he can make your heart flutter like that?
He's convinced if he can't make all your time together the absolute best. You'll have a moment to think, because all it takes is one, to realize that you don't need him, that in fact you're better off without him.
That you won't stick around, especially if you find laughter elsewhere, cause afterall is that not all he's good for?
Despite him seemingly magnetically attracted to you since day one. It takes him a while to admit to anyone, least of all himself. That he likes you, no ulterior motives. Just really, truly and honestly likes (loves) you.
He's always kept it superficial and on the surface "purely" about his entertainment.
At first that's what it was, but it fairly quickly morphes into being what you like and seeing your reactions.
There are days where you're going to have to find ways to get him to shut up and quit spazzing out for long enough to get some drawing done.
He'd love to take a nap underneath a tree with his head in your lap while you drew. The logistics is beyond him. He just tells you to figure it out while he plops down, despite your protests and drifts off.
It'd however be a good opportunity to take a break and listen to music. (Could that have been his secret plan all along, or did he really just selfishly worm his way in? The world may never know.)
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(I wrote some stuff that seems to fit more into a story aspect, rather than a plain old match-up. But I didn't want to throw it out, so... here you go?)
Despite his impish demeanor (or possibly because of it) he is deceivingly intelligent and perceptive. Being able to fully read a person in a blink of an eye. Though his intuition does not always gives concrete answers, but rather abstract ideas that are just barely beyond words to explain.
When he first sees you its decided within a moment that you are most definitely someone he wants to be near. For you have great potential to become the most entertaining toy. At least... that's what he tells himself.
He knows full well that this is not completely the case, not by a longshot, but he doesnt let the full thought form before shoving it to the back of his mind.
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His bed was plush, the sheets soft, the pillow perfectly giving way beneath his head. And his eyes? Light as a feather. Not a single drop of drowsiness to be found.
His mind roiling as the ocean waves at night.
He shifts to the side for the 100th time seeing if this time will work. He begins to find comfort in this position when a thought flashes through his mind. Quickly shoving it to the back of his mind, instinctively jerking back with it, he flops onto his back. Heaving a long sigh which morphes into a groan. He stares questioningly at the white ceiling, as though it could give him the answers he's searching for. Dragging a hand over his face begrudgingly he sits up and swings his legs over the edge of the bed. Without bothering for shoes he leaves the dorm, letting his feet take him where they may.
The night air nips at bare skin. The cool ground shocks his feet. He ignores the sensations, continuing to meander through the school grounds. He's made a circuit around the boys dorm and unhurriedly strolls past thr entrance to the girls. His eyes lazily scan the surroundings, catching on a figure on a nearby bench. He pauses.
'Leave them.'
His legs thoughtlessly take him closer.
It's Minty, headphones in, a soft tune can be vaguely heard. Their head delicately resting to the side.
A devious smirk naturally forms on his face, his mind racing with all the pranks he could pull with this opportunity wrapped with a bow. A weird feeling solidifies in his chest, he falters. "Tch" He clicks his tongue, shaking his head. How boring. He quickly walks off back to his room.
When the early sun rays hit Minty's eyes, waking them. They sit up disoriented, looking around confused.
'oh right'
They had come out the night before to stargaze with some music a bit before bed. They must've been pretty tired.
'However' They think, holding up the soft blanket from their shoulders to eye-level.
'I didn't bring this with me.'
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"Here." He hands Minty an ornately wrapped present.
They looked shocked, incredulously pointing towards themself. He enthusiastically nods, hardly bothering to cover the mischievous glint in his eyes.
Minty looks softly down at the package, delicately brushing a hand over the bow. They look back up eyes brimming with joy overflowing into a blinding smile so bright it puts Apollon's to shame. He has to look away for a moment's reprieve, but is soon jolted out of it at the sound of the ribbon falling.
"Whoops." They go to grab the ribbon, Loki snatches the present out of their hand and briskly walks away. "What are...?"
"You're being boring." He mutters.
(There we go! That's it. I struggled a bit to grasp his character so I hope it's not too OOC. Anyway I hope you enjoyed it. Have a nice day!)
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mythiica · 5 years ago
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Your Warlords and Mlqc fics are amazing, i wish I had time to write for them 😭sadly school keeps beckoning for me that I have no time to write for my own typical boys
i really should i have finished this earlier, but i was really touched by your comment so i wanted to give you a little thank you! Sorry it took so long 
Title: MLQC Mini Scenarios - Pick Me Up’s (for when you’re having a hard day)
Fandom: Mr. Love Queen’s Choice
Character: All boys
Genre: Comfort
Warnings: None!
Intended Gender Audience: Female Audience 
Word Count: 1506 words, each is about 350/400 words 
POV: second person
Other Comments:  this is supposed to be like general pick me ups for each of the guys, mc has a different situation in each one: not meeting standards, general bad day, feeling inferior, and ?? idk it doesnt have a name but youll see. The guys in turn comfort mc in the way they know how! Hope you like~
Victor…
...watches your head fall between your shoulders, and instantly feels bad about what he said. He should have been less harsh about it, really, but he cannot take the words back anymore. Also, it is not that he wants to put you down. It is the opposite in fact. Victor knows that you can do better, and he wishes to ensure that you strive to produce your best. But hearing you sniffle makes his heart break, even if he doesn’t show it. 
          “I’ll go and fix this then,” you mumble under your breath, trying to fight the urge to cry. Before you have the chance to turn away, Victor sighs. You expect him to chide you for wearing your heart on your sleeve, but instead are surprised when he holds out his hand with a handkerchief. 
         “Something as insignificant as this should not upset you so much.” Victor wishes that he knew how to explain better. 
         Though his words are rough, you accept the handkerchief and blot your eyes carefully. “I… I just…” 
         “Take a deep breath,” he urges, his finger hooking under your chin. Victor looks at you with concerned eyes. “You can only get better from here.” 
         You inhale slowly and nod. Victor catches himself staring into your eyes for too long, so he pulls back and turns his head down to the side. 
         “And that’s really only because you’re at rock bottom right now. If you fell any further, you might drill through to the other side of the world. It’s a commendable accomplishment, really.” 
         “Hey! That isn’t helping!” 
         Victor chuckles under his breath. “You’re not crying anymore, are you?” 
         You blink quickly. Indeed, Victor’s comment was drastic enough that it snapped you out of your miserable moment. “Oh.. I’m not.” 
         He smiles ever so slightly. “Alright, now that you’re back to your usual self, you better get to work. I need the final version of this by noon tomorrow.” 
         Just like you got back to yourself, Victor returned to his typical tsundere self. You fold the handkerchief and offer it back to him. 
         “Keep it. I don’t want your germs.” 
Gavin…
...sees your lip trembling before you feel it. He pulls you into his chest and runs his fingers through your hair tenderly, cradling you against his chest. “Please don’t be upset. It’s not that big of a deal, really.” Gavin rubs your back slowly, but you just bury your face against him and let the tears fall. 
         He was right, but it didn’t change the fact that your day was going horribly. It started off with you stubbing your toe, then you couldn’t find your favourite shirt, and now, you had taken a wrong turn and would miss the grand opening of the festival downtown. There were smaller things that happened throughout the day that just stacked atop each other, but this was the cherry on top. 
         You just want to go home at this point, crawl under the sheets, and hide away from the world. Clutching Gavin’s shirt, you wring your fingers in the fabric. “Can we leave, please?” you ask through soft sobs. 
         Gavin gives you a pained look and tucks his arms around your waist. “Yeah, sure,” he whispers before pressing a kiss to the crown of your head. “Hold on.” 
         “Hold on? What do you mea–”
         But Gavin has already taken the liberty of hoisting you into the air with his evol powers. You had gotten used to the weightlessness sensation as the world whizzed bellow you, so this does not scare you anymore. Still, you hold on tightly to Gavin and hope that you arrive home soon. 
         However, when you peek out from the safety of his jacket, you realize that the two of you are in fact not going towards your shared apartment. Instead, you are making your way to downtown – where the festival is. 
         “But Gavin, I thought–”
         “Yeah, but I didn’t want you to be sad,” he replies quickly. Gavin tips his head down and smiles brightly at you. “Don’t cry anymore, please.” 
         You look down and see the golden lights of the festival stands. The glow reaches upwards, making the city look alive – the chatter of people is loud and welcoming, and you can smell the food from the sky. “You didn’t have to…” 
         “Yes I did.” Gavin lands easily off to the side, away from prying eyes. He wipes your cheeks and pats your hair down. “Shall we?”
Kiro…
...enters the room to find you strewn across the couch, your face hidden by the plush cushions. He slings himself across the room and lands next to you with an oof. “Miss Chips!” he sings playfully, tapping your shoulder. “Are you asleep?” 
         You don’t really want to look up. Kiro would see your eyes and know that you had been crying. Could you get away with pretending to be asleep?
         “Miss Chips?” 
         Still no answer. 
         Kiro takes off his jacket and drapes it over your shoulders before getting up to change out of the rest of his clothes. 
         While he was away, you found a stack of opened fan mail. He was likely sorting through it and replying, but you could not help but feel inferior to the people who were writing him. You, unlike these people, do not have such a flashy story to tell. Albeit, you met Kiro on accident and your relationship evolved from there. Still, something feels missing… Kiro really could be with anyone he wants, and you struggle to find an explanation as to why he chose you over them. 
         Kiro returns and hums softly to himself as he takes his seat next to you. He smells like that wildflower soap you got him as a gift a few months ago. It comforts you, so you reach up and take his hand from his lap. 
         “You live!” he exclaims happily, pocketing his phone. “Why are you lying face down on the couch though?” 
         Rolling over, you do your best to cover your face, but Kiro catches a glimpse of your reddened face. “What happened?” Kiro demands, pulling you into his lap. He smothers you with kisses and pries your hands away from your face in order to dry your tears. “Please tell me... “ 
         “It’s just that–” you begin, looking over your shoulder at the letters. 
         Kiro does not let you finish your thought. “Miss Chips! Don’t you dare think any less of yourself. You are the best thing to happen to me, and I wouldn’t trade all the sweets in the world for you. You are brilliant and kind and brave and so strong with everything you do. I’m so proud of you and lucky that you’re with me. Okay?” 
         He always knows what to say to cheer you up, so you nod and tuck your face into the crook of his neck as he cuddles you gently. 
Lucien…
...worries all day when you do not show up to his lecture. At first, he thought you were running late, but when you don’t respond to his text messages either, Lucien suspects that something else is up. He cancels his afternoon appointments and drives home, but instead of going to his apartment, he knocks on the door to yours. 
         Still no answer, but the door creaks open. Lucien knows it would be better if he stays away, but something pulls on his heart and urges him to go inside. He goes inside and calls out to you, hoping to hear your voice. The lights are all turned out, and it looks like no one is home. 
         “The door opened, and you’ve been away all day. Where are you?” Lucien asks, his voice slightly on edge. 
         You, backed into the far corner of your closet, stay quiet and hope that he goes away. You don’t want to see Lucien at the moment, and it’s better if he does not see you. 
         However, when Lucien sits on your bed, he catches a glimpse of you inside the closet. He stays in his spot and looks at you. “Why are you hiding?” 
         Biting your lip, you shake your head. “I don’t want to come out.” 
         Lucien nods his head slowly. “You don’t have to. But can you tell me why you’re there?” 
         Inhaling slowly, you bury your head in your arms and bring your knees to your chest. Although your response is muffled, Lucien understands. If you do not want to talk about it, he will not press you. Instead, however, Lucien stands up from the bed, opens the door, and takes a seat next to you. “Cozy, here, isn’t it?” 
         He hopes you will smile at the comment, but when you do not move, Lucien tucks his arm around your shoulders and holds you tightly. You unravel from your fetal position and lean against him. It feels good to have Lucien next to you, but you still do not want to confess why you are there. 
         For now, you are okay with just having him to support you. 
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hawkeyde · 5 years ago
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A STUDY OF HONEY HAWKES LOVE LANGUAGE.                                                                                                                     inspired by @edhelgund​ ok sneaky promo i love pete
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in all honesty, hawke expresses himself through physical or written ways much better than he days by spoken word.       having struggled a life keeping many of his emotions in, when it’s time to let them out he sometimes just can’t quite get the habit of it.    so !!      here’s a little look into exactly how he compensates for that.
FRIENDSHIP / PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS.
hawke likes to make people happy !! he likes to be kind and see it pay off, and he sees everyone on an equal ground to himself. having grown up poor, he is sometimes overly generous & puts other people before himself 9 times out of 10.  having hawke as a friend, a true friends, means you have someone who will genuinely do anything in his power to keep you happy, and safe, and on a good path.   the man has so much time and heartspace for his friends, and his family.
he does show a lot of his affection through gentle bullying. by this, i mean: pranks, random headlocks, leaping at them in public, wrestling, holding them upside down (if it doesnt wig them out too much), picking them up, teasing them, et cetera.  it’s always in jest.
hawke likes to hold people, and have them feel held.  embraces and hugs are his shit, bro.   he’s a big comfort man.  go to him when you’re sad and i can promise you, he’ll help you feel better, even the tiniest amount. 
making gifts, teaching things, ---- whenever he helps someone he tries to teach them something, too.   say someone is struggling in physical training, he’d love to lend a hand, having prowess in it himself.   or maybe something simpler like they want to make their very own talisman, or imbue their weapon with runes. hawke will lend a hand.
ROMANTIC INTEREST / CRUSH.
it’s really hit and miss who hawke takes an interest in.  all of his interests have been so varied, the main things i’d say stand out to him are:   strength of character, ability to laugh with him, take him at his own pace and see him as a person, understanding empathetic men, and kindness.
by take him at his own pace, and see him as a person, i mean:  hawke isn’t just the ‘champion’, he’s honey --- a man, and not some mystical hero figure.   it can make him uncomfortable if heavily flirted with because of this reason, because he doesn’t like to be put on a pedestal or adored in this way.  someone being on a very real, very tender level with him puts him and his anxiety at ease, and allows him to open up in his own beautiful, slow time. 
do not call his scars cool or beautiful, or tell him that they make him strong. hawke does not see himself nor his injuries heroically, and can get instantly uncomfortable/upset if too much focus is put on that/him. 
hawke isn’t a casual sex kind of man.  hawke only slept with someone for the first time in his mid twenties because he’d begun to foster affinity for them, and before that --- he never had it at all.  of course he thinks about it, but:   ESPECIALLY IN INQUISITION VERSE OK !!! IT TAKES A WHILE for him to show sexual interest, because that takes trust, for him.     when he begins to trust your muse more, he will be more openly flirtatious with them.  not only this, but hawke suffered tremendous bodily harm during the kirkwall rebellion which have scarred him for the rest of his life and left him with chronic pain.   sex is something he enjoys, but has to adjust himself for sometimes, and on his bad days he must be able to trust his partner to be gentle and understanding with him.
lots !! of !! notes !! and !! letters !! the more he falls for someone, the more frequent they are. honey loves poetry, novels and romance, and can express himself far better in this medium. he also has kept many journals throughout his life so is not unused to writing. he will also include various things in them --- a cool rock he found, some flowers, a page of a book. 
COURTING / IN A RELATIONSHIP.
almost always stands in front of them when there is danger present, this is essentially non-negotiable and is an instinctual reaction for him.    this is not him demeaning or undermining them.  this is a man who will always put the life of the man he loves before his own.
sits on his lap.   he is huge, and he’ll pull his lover in, and happily sit with his chin on their shoulder or their head on his chest as he just exists with them tangled in his arms.
hawke loves to take care of lovers.    whether its massaging their scalp as they fall asleep, doing their hair for them ( listen ... he loves to Plait ), helping them care for their weaponry, maybe fixing things for them !!!!! he loves it !!!!!! 
leans on his boyfriend, and occasionally drapes his entire self on them while they’re sitting/lying down.  hawke loves to be close to them, and especially loves if they’re just as tall as/almost as tall as him.    then he can just lean his big head on their shoulder and fall into them and be held and rocked about like he deserves. ;v; 
hawke is horny on main. ok. all the time. before a relationship he’s kinda like EH but when he has that someone that means the world to him, that he really loves, he has this drive to please them and be pleased by them and would definitely want to explore their sex life whenever/wherever possible.   if his bf came up to him and was like hi ...... this partys boring lets go fuck in the fountain ...... hawke would be like ... wELL TEA LETS RIDE
he’s dopey. he’ll kiss your cheek 1000000 times. he’ll scratch his beard against ur face. he’ll sit on you until you pay attention to him. he’ll laugh with you until he wheezes. he’s playful. he’s kind. he’s loving, so much more so when he’s in love.
vocally extols his lovers virtues, and earnestly compliments them, to others and to them themselves, whenever he can and however much he can. 
10/10 will sing to his s/o in old-age ferelden languages
hawke is not a jealous or territorial man.  hawke loves without selfishness.   hawke would never get upset/offended at his s/o being flirted with/checked out/complimented nor would he see issue with them spending time with anyone else.    of course he is monogamous, and if someone was unfaithful he would leave them, but ---- if he’s already in love, he trusts them completely, why would he doubt them?
NORTY THINGS
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hawke has no real concept of dom/sub.  to him, it’s whatever him and his partner feel like, though he will naturally take the lead more often. he’s not really int o .... hitting ... or choking his partner tho.... he’ll try it but mmmmm i can’t guarentee he’ll like it mFAO HE IS SOFT !!!!!!!!      he does love to be teased though, so he can make cute threats about how hard they’re gonna get it later, and playing around with him in that way really turns him on.
hawke enjoys both giving and receiving penetrative sex but isn’t really too fond of receiving in positions such as doggy style, or any other where he’s facing away from his bf. he wants to LOOK at him while they’re inside him  👉👈
hawke loves to pick up his partners and make love to them that way ok :’)  THE STAND AND CARRY IS ONE OF HIS FAVS!!! let him hold his partner and show off how strong he is while they bang ok ......... he love s it 
hawke doesn’t reall y like to mark up his partner, but has no qualms if they want to leave their own little bruise marks on him . he could TRY it, but if he was shaggin someone tho and they were like HIT ME >:{{{{{{{{ he’d be a bit like uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh .. ima leave
hawke loves it when he’s kissing his partner and they moan into his mouth ok it ramps him up to like 1000 he fuckin adores that shit 
he loves to learn !! he’s not too experienced with sex, so teach him !! he loves to be given sort of tips and learn and experience new things with his bf, and he’s always open to new things, especially to please them 
hawke luvs spoonnninggg while still insideeeeee his boyfriendddd okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk he LOVESSSSSSSSSS ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT all laying there covered in sweat and cum .... he says: noice 
he noisy but in his chest ... all rumbly and moany . good nice.
10/10 wears his partners clothes if he fits in them, and even sometimes when he doesnt
doesnt wear clothes to bed ever 
will swing his willy around for a laugh after sex
will hit his bf in the face with his willy for a laugh at any given time
if he’s with someone he loves , he’s super easy to rile up.  a certain look at a certain time could give him a boner. ok.   again, he loves to be teased, and its v easy to tease him too. 
magic play. ok. hawke will use magic in sex the more used to sex he gets.   temperature, levitation, electrifying sensations, the possibilites are ENDLESS.
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imaginedisish · 6 years ago
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Take On Me (Otis Milburn x Reader) (Sex Education)
A/N: THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE OMG. OKAY UMMMM THANK YOU FOR 300 FOLLOWERS. I KINDA CRIED BECAUSE YOU’RE ALL SO AMAZING. ANYWAY...here’s some smut :) hehehehe! This was SUPER requested. The title is based on the Aha song of the same name. My friends tell me I look like the girl who dances to this song in that vine...so if you ever wanna know what I look like, I kinda look like her??? ANYWAY... I hope you alllll enjoy :) Thank you for all the love and support <3 xxxxx (oh and Colin Ritman smut is up next LOL BYE)
Summary: You and Otis decide that it’s time to take things to the next step in your relationship....for the first time...SMUT!
Warnings: SMUT. SMUT. SMUT. language...fluff...yeppers. 
Word Count: 2,124
Also...I made a part two that I’ll link here!
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You walk down the road, your hand in his, giggling, talking about anything and everything that comes to your mind. Your yellow sundress sways in the wind, a smile plastered across your face.
“I mean you’re lying if you say you wouldn’t kill to go back to 1979 and see Joy Division live!” Otis says, his ocean eyes glowing in the moonlight. You stare into them, drowning wave after wave. 
“Well sure, but what about Lou and Bowie?” You say back, arching a brow in Otis’s direction. He nods, agreeing. “You rather see Joy Division, don’t you?” You ask, laughing a bit. You knew when Otis was holding something back from you. You could see it in his eyes, or simply in the way he held himself. He gets fidgety and restless. 
“O-okay w-well m-maybe. Yes. I’d rather see Joy Division,” Otis says finally, an apologetic smile spreading across his face. 
He was too cute to even care that he disagreed with you. “Oh well,” You say, pausing, throwing your hands up in surrender. “I guess I just have better taste than you.” You giggle loudly. 
“Guess I’ll just have to accept that my girlfriend is far cooler than I ever will be,” Otis says back, throwing his hands up to meet yours, grabbing them softly. He plants a kiss on your forehead, and you hum with pleasure. It was little moments like these that made your heart sing, no matter how innocent or small. 
You two continuing walking, your hand still in his. Otis had been your boyfriend for about two months, but you and he had been friends for much longer. Everything seemed so perfect, except for one thing. 
Sex. 
It wasn’t necessarily taboo in your relationship, you and Otis had talked about it before, but, you were a virgin, and so was he. Obviously, there was no problem with that. But you had both gotten to the point where you genuinely wanted each other. Otis was over his intimacy issues, thanks to you, and you felt like you were ready to take your relationship to the next step. 
You see Otis’s house up a head, the massive, red, Queen Anne style home still vibrant in the dark of night. A few lights are still on inside the house, but it was likely that Otis’s mother had gone to bed. It was late. Stars hang carefully in the night sky, dancing over a round, full moon. The trees sway in the crisp summer wind. Otis stops for a second, taking both your hands in his. 
“Do you want to, m-maybe, c-come inside?” Otis asks nervously, biting his lip. You can’t help but smile. 
“Yeah, yeah I’d like that,” You say, pulling him along the path as you walk forward. He stumbles a bit, tripping over his own feet as he catches up with you. Eventually you two approach the front door. 
Otis puts a finger to his lips, cautioning you to be quiet. You nod your head in response. Otis slowly opens the door, trying to make as little noise as possible. The door creeks loudly, and Otis’s turquoise eyes fling open widely, filling with anxiety. You let out a small giggle, covering your mouth immediately after, trying to suppress your laughter. Normally, sneaking around was “sexy”, but not with Otis. He was so adorable, so cute. 
“Now that’s not fair. My sneaking skills are quite good, ya know,” Otis whispers, a smirk plastered on his face. You smile, shaking your head in disbelief. Then, Otis grabs your hand, pulling you swiftly into the dimly light house. He shuts the door behind you, and guides you up the stairs and into his room. 
You somehow successfully reach Otis’s room without banging into anything, or worse, waking his mother up. He closes the door to his room, and slides the brass lock into place. 
Your eyes gloss over his room. His bed sat in the center of the attic like space, the walls covered in different band posters. You spot a giant Joy Division poster next to his bed, and a The Stranglers poster right next to that. 
On the other side of the room was a bookcase, holding Otis’s extensive collection of records and books. You walk over to the case, scanning to see which records he had. Not to your surprise, the boy had everything from Arcade Fire, to Arctic Monkeys, to the Beatles, to Nirvana.  
The room screamed Otis. It was a perfect personification of his personality, and you loved it. 
Otis smiles at you softly, grabbing your hand again, and walking you over to the bed. He sits down on the edge of the twin mattress, and you sit down next to him. Otis looks deeply into your eyes, his aquamarine gaze filling your stomach with excitement. Your heart flutters in your chest. 
“I know that we’ve been talking a lot about…” Otis trails off. He swallows harshly, his Adam’s apple bopping in his throat. “W-well about sex. If you don’t feel comfortable with this I completely unders-,” 
You cut him off before he can finish his sentence. “I want this, Otis. I really do.”
“A-are you sure?” He asks, arching a brow. 
“Yes, I’m positive.”
Without any hesitation, Otis’s hands come up to cup your cheeks, and he pulls you into a hungry kiss. His tongue brushes against your top lip, asking for permission to enter. You part your lips slightly, as his tongue dances across your teeth, intertwining with your tongue every now and then. You pull apart for a second, trying to catch your breath. 
Otis breathes deeply as his hand brushes against your inner thigh, his eyes refusing to leave yours. You melt under his touch. He slowly moves higher, searching your eyes for permission. You nod your head eagerly in response. 
His hand then makes its way closer to you core, and you whimper in anticipation. Otis slowly pushes your flowing yellow dress up. 
“I know I already asked but I just want to-,”
You cut him off again. “Otis, I want you.” He nods, pushing your dress up farther. His hand slides up your thigh again, reaching towards your heat. His thumb begins to brush against your clit over your panties, getting faster each second. 
A muffled moan escapes your lips. Otis smirks, and stops. You send a disapproving frown in his direction, but to your delight, Otis slowly begins to pull at the hem of your panties. He takes his time as he gets down on the floor, and slips them off your legs. 
You decide it’s time to turn the tables a bit. Your hand reaches across Otis’s thigh as he sits back up on the bed. You begin to palm him through his jeans. 
“F-fuck,” Otis groans loudly. You quickly put a single finger up to his lips, signaling for him to be quiet. His mother is most likely just down the hall, you think to yourself. 
Otis nods, and you continue to palm his shaft through his blue jeans, his erection growing. You slowly unzip his pants, undo his belt and pull down his jeans. You reach down to continue palming him, but he grabs your hand before you can do anything else.
“No. My turn to make you feel good,” Otis says, pushing you down on the bed. You’re shocked at Otis’s sudden confidence, but pleased nonetheless. He pulls your yellow sundress over your head, revealing your lacy bra underneath. 
“My god you're gorgeous.” Heat rises to your cheeks. 
Otis’s hand travels across your chest, down your stomach, finally resting on your heat. He begins to play with your clit again, circling the spot slowly with his thumb. 
“O-otis,” You call out, your eyes falling shut, a fire beginning to burn in the pit of your stomach. 
“Do you like that?” Otis asks, rubbing faster now. You open your eyes, nodding your head up and down eagerly. 
“Y-yes,” You mutter. You had touched yourself before, but this felt so much different. It felt amazing. Suddenly, you feel Otis’s finger slide over your wet opening. He looks to you for permission once again. “Y-yes please.” He does as you say, sliding a finger into your opening. 
“Tell me what feels good, and what doesn’t,” Otis says, his eyes wide with concern. 
“H-holy shit,” You cry out, pleasure washing over you. Otis shushes you politely, a smirk stretching across his face. “Th-this f-feels r-really g-good.”
The feeling of Otis’s finger filling you up, and his thumb toying with your clit begins to become overwhelming. You were seconds away from coming, and you knew it. 
“O-otis, I think I’m going t-to,” You stutter as Otis picks up his pace, inserting another finger, the sensation itself practically sending you over the edge. He thrusts become even faster. In, out, in out, in out.  
“Shuuuush, let go love,” Otis coos. Your walls flutter around his fingers. 
“F-fuck! Otis!” You shout, coming around his fingers. Otis lessens his pace, and pulls out of you. “M-my god that was a-amazing.” You laugh, pulling Otis closer to you. “I want you, Otis. I need you.” Otis’s jaw drops. He quickly reaches over to the nightstand next to him, grabbing a condom from the drawer. He unwraps the packaging, slowly slipping the condom over his hard cock.
You hurriedly pull off his shirt, kissing him passionately at any chance you get. You yank down Otis’s boxers, revealing his hard member. Otis takes his erected cock into his hand, looking to your eyes one more time for permission. You nod your head in response as he lines himself up with your entrance. 
Suddenly, Otis’s cock fills pushes through your folds and inside of you. 
“Oh sh-shit,” Otis mutters, burying his head in your neck, and then pushing himself up again. 
“H-holy f-fuck,” You cry out, tears rushing to your eyes. You knew it would feel different than fingering yourself, or how Otis had just fingered you, but this was different than what you expected. It hurt, but just for a second. After some time, the pain began to subside. Otis waits a minute, making sure you’ve adjusted to his size. 
“A-are you alright?” Otis asks, brushing your cheek with his hand. 
“Y-yes,” You mutter. 
“Are you sure. We can stop if you don’t want to go any further,” Otis says, his voice kind and reassuring. 
“No, I want this. I want you,” You say back to him, passion in your eyes. Otis nods, and begins to thrust in and out of you gently. The pain erases itself, and is replaced by total and utter pleasure. “F-fuck Otis.”
“(Y/N),” Otis hums as he quickens his pace. His cock was hard. It felt so good. “M-my g-god you’re so f-fucking wet,” Otis coos. His words alone could make you come. 
Otis’s hand reaches down to your clit, and he begins to toy with it again. You dig your fingernails into his back, practically ready to scream in pleasure as he draws circles at your heat. Otis begins to lose his rhythm, his thrusts becoming extremely sloppy.
“I’m, I’m g-going to c-come,” Otis cries out shakily as a fire pools in your lower abdomen. 
“M-me too,” You breath heavily. Your walls tighten around Otis’s pulsating cock. “Otis!” You cry out, coming around him. 
“Oh-oh fuck,” Otis moans, letting go, thrusting deeply into you one last time.
Otis pulls out of your opening, crashing down on the bed, next to you. You lay there for some time, not saying anything, just enjoying each other’s company.
“That was…” You trail off. “Absolutely perfect.” You turn on your side to face Otis. He’s beaming with joy. He reaches a hand to your face, pushing the hair out of your eyes. 
“Yeah, just like you,” He smirks, wrapping his arms around you and pulling the covers over you two. 
“I love you, Otis,” You whisper into his ear. 
“I love you, (Y/N),” Otis murmurs. Your eyes flutter closed, and open again, becoming heavy with sleep. You press your face into Otis’s chest, pressing kisses there. 
“You know you aren’t just some guy in the corner, right? You’re special. You’re so fucking special,” You say, looking up to him. His diamond eyes meet your gaze. 
“And you know you’re more important and more beautiful than every star in the galaxy, right?” You smile against his chest, pressing a kiss on his collarbone. 
You really did love that boy, far more than words could ever say.  
Far more than anything else. 
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cynettic · 3 years ago
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Reader x Genshin Boys NSFW
Summary - You wear their shirt that’s too big for you the morning after a steamy night ;)
Pairings - Fem!Reader x Xiao/Aether/Diluc
Warnings - NSFW, yknow what that means folks, no minors
A/N - I plan to do a part 2 with more characters after, idk which ones tho
Xiao
He will stare.
Right after you walk out of your bedroom doors, heading over to the kitchen to make yourself some coffee. Xiao will probably be on the coach, enjoying a plate of Almond Tofu for breakfast that you prepared for him in the fridge.
Easy to say that he will leave the plate on the counter to stand up and walk towards you.
At this stage of your relationship, the two of you were quite comfortable with physical contact, after all the two of you literally fucked last night. So he’ll slowly wrap his arms around your waist, noting that it was indeed his shirt, that it was quite big on you ( to his satisfaction ), and that you looked damn well in it.
“Is that my shirt?”
He will still ask, and when you reply that yes, it is indeed his shirt, he will bury his head against the crook of your neck.
“It smells like you.”
It also smells like what happened last night, but Xiao wont comment that, leaning against you with slightly tinted cheeks. Its enough to turn him on, much to his embarrassment, and he’ll press a few kisses to the back of your neck to distract himself.
By the time you finish making your coffee, you pour an extra cup for him, turning around to quickly peck him on the lips. But the extra shade of red on his face and the hard sensation below doesnt go missed by you, and with a chuckle you pull him closer.
“After last night?” You tease, pressing yourself further against him just to hear him grunt, rubbing against him slightly.
Xiao has his limits.
And you… well you asked for it.
He’ll sit you up on the counter, right beside the long forgotten coffee that’ll probably go by unmissed and grow cold by the time hes done with you.
He will start slow, torturous because you teased him first, and hes going to make you pay for it. Not too long though, cause he doesnt want to delay his need either.
Pressing a few butterfly kisses on your stomach, he will slip his head under his big oversized shirt.
“X-Xiao! Hey-”
He will quickly move up, just until his lips reach your breasts, and he toys with the nipples, nipping and biting them with his tongue and teeth. He’s still under the shirt, and all you can do is press his head closer to your chest while soft whimpers escape your lips.
The sound is music to his ears.
By the time he makes it to your lips, the shirt you were wearing is thrown off, strewn somewhere in the kitchen, you cant remember where.
“Y/n, this is what you want right?” Xiao will always ask for consent, and especially after wearing you off last night, he wants to make sure not to hurt you.
When you respond with a yes, he wont waste his time rubbing against you, instead shoving off the shorts he had on for the day, and pressing himself deep inside you until you’re yelping and clenching his shoulders desperately. Writhing at every thrust and calling out his name. He obviously has the stamina and strength to not be tired from last night, but you’re a different story.
Safe to say that you arent going places after that.
Aether
He will try to be more inconspicuous, but yeah, hes staring at you.
You cant blame him, after last night, you’re wearing his ‘shirt.’ If that isnt a turn on he doesnt know what is. He’ll definitely try to hide it though, shift uncomfortably and move his head away so you cant see him completely flushed red.
His mind is definitely going places.
He doesnt want to push you after last night, and even though he isnt really tired in the slightest, he knows you’re probably still sore, even though he was gentle.
You’re oblivious to whatever’s going on in his head, that is, until you go sit on his lap.
“Uhm… Aether?”
He’ll blame it and say its just ‘morning wood’, to which you dont believe him at all. But not wanting to embarrass him further, you sit beside him and instead pull him into a kiss. This he can handle, but a few kisses end up going farther than just a makeout session, and clothes fly off, especially his shirt around your shoulders.
By the time Aether realizes that this was what he was trying to avoid, it was too late. He will ask if youd like to proceed with it, and you laugh and tell him you’re alright, and to continue.
When he enters you, he will be slow, too slow. You push against him to encourage him to go faster, grinding your hips against his member until hes fully entered. It wont take long for him to start pumping in and out, pressing soft kisses to your lips when you whine and scratch his back.
By the time you both finish, Aether will carry your tired form back to bed. Wrapping you in the blankets and letting you rest there for the remainder of the day. Its his free day off, so you’ll get a breakfast in bed.
The boy is just too sweet and precious <3
Diluc
This man will choke on whatever hes eating.
Diluc absolutely sucks at hiding the surprise when watching you stride in so confidently wearing ‘his’ shirt. Which is oversized by the way, and drifts down to your knees while still slightly exposing your figure. He covers his stare with a cough, greeting you a goodmorning.
You don’t notice, mumbling a goodmorning and pressing a kiss against his forehead. When you lean down though, he gets a good look at your cleavage, and he swears hes going to lose it. But Diluc is known for being a man of patience and self control.
Until he isnt.
It starts with a kiss, it always starts with a kiss. Slow and passionate, until you’re in his lap and he cant take it anymore. Until all he wants to hear are the whimpers that escape your throat and the soft breathless calls of his name begging for you.
“Ill make you feel good Y/n.”
And he does.
Its your fault, you shouldnt have worn his shirt, shouldnt have provoked him after such a long night. But you dont say no, dont object as he picks you up and takes you to the bed, slowly draping you down.
The lower half of your body is hanging off the bedside, bare as he lowers himself to level his lips to your thighs. You dont move against the contact against your legs, his kisses drifting further up, higher and higher.
When he reaches your wet pussy, he rubs his lips against the cloth of your panties, moving his lips to kiss and suck. You clench your inner thighs against his head, hands coming to tousle his hair.
“D-Diluc…”
He wastes no time to pull your panties down, sliding them down your legs torturously slow before gazing at your dripping wet lips. You squirm and try to press your legs together as if you can feel his gaze on your cunt, but he holds your thighs wide open for him with his large calloused hands. His thumbs rubbing over the soft delicate skin of your hips.
The contact of his lips sucking on your clit sends you on overdrive, and you’re quivering. When his tongue slides into your wet hole, your legs are rubbing against his shoulders, back and forth as you writhe against the pleasure climbing up your body.
He knows exactly the effect he has on you.
Its not too long until you cum, muffling your cries into the sheets as your hands clench the blankets on the side. He licks all of it off your pussy, and you dont have enough energy to moan against the continuous blissful contact on your sensitive cunt.
Pulling you up and under the covers, he lays beside you, pressing your face against his chest. You fall asleep in no time, tired after a second round.
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himbofreddynewandyke · 5 years ago
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ok but imagine how good larry and freddy would be in a dom/sub relationship
it’d have to be AU since cannonly they wouldnt have the time to develop the level of trust involved, plus it wouldnt make sense with freddy as a cop, so basically pretend that freddy is actually a petty drug dealer trying to get in with the big boy criminals
-larry’s an experienced dom but he hasnt had a sub in a while, he’s just had vanilla one night stands the past couple years, and he is a L O V E R and always passionate and makes sure the girl or guy he’s with has a great time, but he only does kinky stuff with someone he’s with longer
-and joe invites him to check out this new guy he’s considering for a robbery job, and the whole interview all he can think of is how beautiful the kid would look on his knees with a collar on and his hands tied behind his back
-and larry takes him under his wing for training on how to be a fucking professional but after a bit of flirting and sussing each other out it turns into a very different type of training ;;))))))
-freddy being inexperienced yet so enthusiastic and eager to please, and larry being so caring and not pushing freddy past what he can take. also larry is the aftercare KING
-larry spanking freddy until he cries then spending ages laying down with freddy on top of him kissing him and telling him how beautiful and wonderful he is
-larry edging freddy n every time he makes a noise larry adds 5 minutes onto when he’s allowed to cum, til he’s not allowed to at all coz he just can’t shut up
-larry noticing how responsive freddy is to touch so tying his arms to the bed and blindfolding him n doing sensation play (with a bonus that he gets to figure out what parts of his boy’s body are really sensative), running the tips of his fingers over freddy’s sides then inner thighs making him arch and squirm, lifting one leg up and sucking where the arsecheek meets leg, and kissing closer and closer to freddy’s hole then pulling away (and that makes freddy let out a sob), finding out that freddy is ticklish under his arms but also behind his knees, bringing in some toys, clothespins that he puts on freddy’s  nipples, at one point he puts something freddy’s mouth and freddy thinks it’s lube covered fingers but it’s actually a piece of strawberry (larry came PREPARED), having a hairbrush that he sometimes spanks freddy with but now he presses the spikey side into freddy, not moving it not scratching, just for the sensation of dozens of lil pinpricks on freddys stomach, thighs, side of his thighs
-freddy loving being spanked and purposely being a brat to get spankings until larry figures it out and changes his punishment to being tied up and not touched for an hour
-larry telling freddy when he’s good then at the end of the day larry will blow him, and freddy immediately and eagerly saying “what do i get when i’m bad?”
-larry having freddy on his knees with his hands tied behind his back and blindfolded, teaching him how to give a blowjob, his hand cradling freddy’s face, being so patient and going slowly as he teaches freddy to deepthroat, pushing his cock deeper and deeper into freddys throat while whispering words of encouragement
-larry edging and teasing freddy until he’s a begging whiny mess
-freddy being tied to the bed and blindfolded early in his training, and feeling overwhelmed and safewording and feeling embarrassed for it, but after he’s untied larry pulls him onto his lap and kisses him all over his face and tells him that he’s a good boy, and how proud he is of freddy for knowing his limits and using his safeword
-larry noticing how sensitive freddy’s nipples are and buying nipple clamps, playing around with them, what pressure to use, how long to keep them on for, but then deciding he prefers playing with freddys nipples with his hands and mouth
-larry keeping on fucking freddy after he cums and rubbing the head of his dick with his thumb, knowing that the overstimulation after orgasm can be so intense that sometimes freddy starts crying
-larry sometimes wondering if he’s gone too far when he sees freddy crying (or wondering if he’s fucked up that he likes it) but afterwards when he’s doing aftercare after an intense session freddy hugs him and is like “thank you ... that was so good, i ... i fucking needed that so much”
-freddy thinking he has to ‘earn’ aftercare and that it’s only for after sex/a session but larry letting him know that he can be held and kissed whenever he wants
-larry coming on freddys face and making him kneel for an hour with it on him
-or coming on his face late afternoon and telling him he has to spend the rest of the day and evening like that, and freddy has to keep reminding himself that not to accidently wipe it off, like later on when they’re cuddling on the couch watching tv that he can’t bury his face into larry’s side, but also the knowledge that he has dried cum all over his face, visible proof of larry’s dominance, is so so hot to him
-they both love larry tying freddy’s hands together or to the bed, but another fav is larry fucking freddy holding both his hands pinned down above his head, freddy’s legs over his shoulders, pressing down more and more and getting freddy’s knees closer to his chest
-larry always praising freddy and using positive reinforcement but also they sometimes do humiliation sessions, larry fucking freddy hard while telling him he’s just a whore, a cock addicted slut who’ll spread his legs for anyone (he says this with a slap on freddy’s arsecheek), his only worth is as two holes to fuck, and a couple times it gets too intense that larry has to stop it even if freddy doesnt safeword, but he always makes sure freddy knows afterwards that it was just for the session and larry loves and appreciates him so much
-larry being a responsible dom n having some days where they don’t do anything kinky, maybe just drive around, get lunch, enjoy each others company, if there’s any sex its usually just handjobs with lots of kissing or sometimes loving passionate vanilla sex
-pretty much any cum from either of them that isnt in freddy’s arse is going in freddy’s mouth
-them frotting/jacking off together, larry on top of freddy, keeping their dicks together as they both alternate jerking them off, when they cum both loads land on freddys stomach, then larry feeding freddy the double load, scooping the cum up with his fingers then bringing it to freddys mouth, and freddy eagerly licks it off while larry tells him how sexy that looks and how he’s such a good boy
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wistfulcynic · 6 years ago
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Another Brick In The Wall: Chapter 8
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a/n: Effusive thanks to @hollyethecurious for the artwork! I love it so much! Thanks also to everyone for reading, commenting, kudos-ing, and reblogging! I'm so pleased by the way people have been engaging with this story. Love you all xxx
Summary: Emma Swan, sheriff’s daughter, mayor’s niece, quarterback’s girlfriend, is the undisputed princess of Storybrooke High. She is smart and confident and used to getting what she wants. What she wants is Killian Jones, the new boy in school. But Killian is not easily manipulated, and reluctant to allow the dark secrets in his past to touch the girl he is rapidly falling in love with.
Rating: T
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Tags for: @darkcolinodonorgasm @jennjenn615 and @resident-of-storybrooke
Chapter 8: 
Killian was out of school for a week, for a “mental health break” he called it with a chuckle, apparently a term he’d gotten from Dr Hopper. He saw the psychiatrist daily during this break and spent the rest of his time at the harbour with Liam, working on their boat, reading, playing his guitar, and talking with his brother about everything that had happened. 
“We’ve hashed it all out in excruciating detail,” he told Emma as they sat together in the boat’s cabin, she working on her college essays while he practiced a new song. “It’s such a relief to be able to really talk to Liam again. There was a time when we had no secrets between us. He showed me all the information he had collected on Milah and her situation. Apparently her divorce is almost finalised and next month she’s starting a job teaching English in Japan.” He smiled. “She’ll like that, a chance to travel. What she always wanted.” 
“Hmmmph,” said Emma, glaring at the screen of her laptop as she typed rapidly. 
“Swan,” he admonished, giving her a mock scowl as he strummed a chord at her. 
Emma slammed her hands down on the keyboard. “Killian, I just don’t know how you can be so forgiving after what she did to you.” 
He set the guitar aside and his expression became serious. “I have to be, don’t you see?” he asked, looking at her intently. “I can’t hold on to my anger or it will eat me alive. I didn’t even realise how angry I was until Dr Hopper helped me see it, and how by not acknowledging it, allowing myself to feel it, and then letting it go, I was only hurting myself. Besides, I did genuinely care about Milah, and I’m glad she’s finally in a place where she can be happy.” 
“Hmmmmph.” Emma concentrated on deleting the gibberish she’d produced by her attack on the keyboard.
“A place that doesn’t include me,” said Killian brightly, picking up the guitar again and plucking out a cheery tune. “That’s good, isn’t it Swan?”
“I suppose so,” she grumbled. “Though I’d still prefer if the place was dark and scary and full of nettles.” He laughed heartily at that and she couldn’t hold back an answering smile. “Hey, I’m nearly done with this, will you read it over and make sure it’s okay? Just check my grammar and punctuation and stuff.”
“Of course, love, though I’m sure it’s already brilliant.” 
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Freed from the weight of his worry and guilt, Killian gradually began to smile more easily, and his witty, teasing nature (“cheeky git,” Liam called him, his voice irritated but with a relief so profound it bordered on joy in his eyes) came more readily to the fore. When he returned to school the following Monday, he moved through the halls with a swagger that Emma had never seen on him before. Unlike the arrogant, bullying one that Neal always had Killian’s evoked a simple self-assurance that she had to concede looked really good on him. Despite how much emotional baggage he still had to work through he clearly wasn’t burdened by shame anymore, and equally clearly did not intend to take any crap from anyone. 
This made itself evident that morning when he shut his locker and turned towards his first class, only to find himself confronted by Felix and Rufio. 
“Really, chaps?” he said, raising an eyebrow at them. “You couldn’t even wait until after school so you could chuck me into the bins, like proper high school bullies?”
This mockery went clean over the other boys’ heads, and they continued to block his path, trying to look intimidating while also trying not to be intimidated by Killian’s calm demeanor and his amused expression. 
Felix, the sligtly cleverer of the two, suspected he was being laughed at but couldn’t put his finger on why. He didn’t like it. 
Bristling, he sneered at Killian. “Bet you think you’ve won,” he snarled. “Now that Neal’s in jail and out of the way. Now you can move in on Emma like you did on that—” he broke off as Killian stepped into his space. There wasn’t much difference in height between them, but somehow Felix had the impression of Killian towering over him, his face calm but his eyes darkly furious, and for once in his life he felt a stab of genuine fear. 
“I’m only going to say this once,” growled Killian in the new, lower register his voice had taken on more often of late, “So you’d better listen carefully. Your mate Neal is a criminal, and not even a good one. He’s in jail because he’s stupid, and that’s nothing to do with me. I have no doubt it’s where he’d always have ended up eventually. Bit of advice: If you’re going to steal confidential information, don’t take pictures of the evidence on your phone, and definitely don’t then show those pictures to the sheriff’s daughter. Neal got what he deserved. I now consider this matter closed, and if you or anyone else—” he raised his voice so that the rapidly assmbling crowd of onlookers could all hear, “—tries to take it any further, you will not care for the repercussions.” 
Felix wasn’t sure what “repercussions” were, but the hint of repressed violence in Killian’s manner made him keen not to find out. He had always been content to follow Neal, less out of respect for the other boy than a simple unwillingness to make a thing out of Neal’s belligerent insistence that he should be the one in charge, but he’d always sensed that there wasn’t much substance underneath Neal’s bluster. Killian however didn’t bluster. He simply stated facts, and Felix could tell that he was not the sort of person to make a threat he couldn’t back up with action. Perhaps it was time to step out of Neal’s shadow, thought Felix, and take over leadership of their little gang. He certainly couldn’t do a worse job of it than Neal had, and escalating a pointless conflict with a guy who looked prepared to fight dirty if necessary was much more Neal’s style than Felix’s. He nodded at Killian, and stepped back. Rufio looked surprised but followed his lead. 
Killian nodded back then transferred his glare to the crowd of onlookers, which had grown considerably in the past thirty seconds and now included Emma and Ruby, he could see out of the corner of his eye. “As for what you may have heard about me,” he said, loudly enough for all to hear. “It’s all true.” He smirked for a moment as a gasp went through the crowd, then his expression hardened. “It’s also no one’s business but mine, and those in whom I choose to confide. This is all I have to say on the subject. Now, if you’ll all excuse me I don’t wish to be late for class.” He slung his satchel over his shoulder and headed down the hall, turning his head briefly to shoot Emma a wink. People moved aside to let him pass and as soon as he had turned the corner furious whispering erupted in his wake. 
Ruby pursed her lips. “I may have underestimated him,” she remarked. 
Emma’s heart was pounding, a familiar occurrence where Killian was concerned, but this time it felt different. She’d been worried about how he would react to the ineveitable curiosity and questions from their classmates, but this smooth handling of a potentially explosive situation instead of calming her fears instead filled her with the wild desire to run after him, to fling herself into his arms and kiss them both breathless. 
“He’s just so wonderful,” she sighed, and Ruby laughed. 
“Down, girl,” she teased. “I’ll grant you this one’s worth your time, unlike the douchemaster general, but remember we’re in school. No one wants to see that.” 
Emma rolled her eyes and gave her friend a shove, but the butterflies continued rhumba-ing around her insides, this time accompanied by an odd, hollow sort of ache as she remembered her resolution not to pursue Killian anymore. She was now all but certain that she loved him, that beyond the hot, tingly sensation she always felt in his presence lay a profound devotion. She would do anything for him, sacrifice anything to give him what he needed, and that terrified her. For the first time in her life Emma felt vulnerable, exposed, as though her chest were torn open and her heart lain bare to the mercies of fate and one gorgeous, troubled boy. She hated it. Even knowing that Killian would never intentionally hurt her was no consolation when the truth was that he could hurt her simply by caring deeply for her as a friend. If that was all she could ever have from him she would take it, she knew, without pushing for more, but it would be a wound on her heart that would never heal. 
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“He’s a bully,” shrugged Killian at lunchtime, when Emma, this time accompanied by a very inquisitive Ruby, found him in the library. “Bullies are just cowards at their core, and cowards are easy to intimidate. He won’t do anything because he won’t want to call my bluff. I might not be able to back it up but he’ll be too scared to risk finding out.” 
“And what would you have done if he had called your bluff?” inquired Ruby. 
Killian shrugged again. “Probably got the shit kicked out of me.” 
“Would you have, though?” Ruby pressed, watching him through narrowed eyes.
He returned her stare with a look of wide-eyed innocence. “There were two of them to only one of me. Seems inevitable.” 
“Does it?” Ruby’s disbelief was almost palpable, and having fenced with Killian for months now Emma shared her friend’s suspicion that he was deliberately underplaying his fighting skills.
“Let’s hope we never have to find out,” said Killian with a small smile, in a tone of voice that made it clear he would answer no more questions on the subject. “I quite like my face arranged the way it is.” 
“It is a nice face,” said Ruby with a wolfish grin that widened as Killian’s ears turned pink. “But I didn’t come here just to flatter you. Victor asked me to ask you if he could have your phone number.”
“My number?” Killian blinked in surprise. 
“Yeah, there’s some concert in Portland and he doesn’t have anyone to go with and he thought you might be interested.” 
“Um, sure, I guess.” Killian rattled off the number and Ruby sent Victor a text. A minute later his phone buzzed and he looked at it, snorting as he read the message. “Bit of a wanker, your boyfriend,” he remarked to Ruby. 
“I don’t know what that is but I’m somehow sure that Victor is one,” smirked Ruby. “Is that gonna be a problem?”
“Not at all, I’m rather fond of wankers,” said Killian absently as he typed his reply. “My brother is one, after all.” His phone buzzed again almost instantly and he raised an eyebrow at what he read on it. 
“Ems, I think maybe we should leave the boys to their chat,” said Ruby, and as much as she hated to sacrifice free time with Killian, from the way he was fixated on his phone, his expression almost gleeful as he typed rapidly, Emma had to admit she was probably right. 
“Okay,” she said. “See you in class in a few minutes, Killian. And maybe hang out after school?”
“Hmmm? Oh, I have an appointment with Dr Hopper at four, but I can text you when I’m done.”
“Okay.” She smiled at him but his attention was back on his phone, so she followed Ruby out of the library trying not to feel too disgruntled. Killian should have other friends, she told herelf firmly, male ones who shared his interests. That was normal, and he could use some normal in his life right now.  
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Over the next few weeks, things at school settled back into a routine, albeit one that was markedly different than it had been. Neal had been officially arrested after David’s investigation, charged with burglary, theft, and theft of a medical record, and was facing up to five years in prison. His parents had put up their house as collateral to pay his bail, but weren’t allowing him to return to school. 
“Not much point when he’ll just go straight back to the slammer after he’s sentenced,” said Ruby viciously. “So much for that football scholarship he was so cocky about.”
Emma tried to find some compassion for Neal and what was basically the wreck and ruin of his future, but couldn’t dredge up a single particle of it. He had committed several felonies for no other reason than to stick it to Killian for outsmarting him and for becoming her friend, and he’d committed them flagrantly and with no thought to the consequences. He’d probably thought there wouldn’t be any consequences. Killian was right: Neal deserved everything that was coming to him, if only for being so colossally, arrogantly stupid. 
People still whispered about Killian as he walked through the halls but true to character he paid little attention. He did, however, gradually began to open up more and allow more of himself to show through his defences, willingly participating in classes and talking to people other than Emma and Ruby. By the time finals week arrived had actually made a few friends. 
Killian reflected wryly that in a twisted sort of way Neal had done him a favour. With all his secrets now out on the open he was free to embrace the opportunity for a new life he’d found in Storybrooke. Not that there had been anything particularly wrong with the old life, at least since his father had finally left. He’d been a mean old drunk, Brennan Jones, and by the time he’d been forced to flee his creditors for good, stealing a boat from Bristol harbour and melting into the offshore underworld, his sons had been glad to see the back of him. Killian thought about what he himself had been like back then, before Milah, and even though it had only been about a year since he’d first become involved with her so much had changed both in his circumstances and in himself, he feared that hopeful, enthusiastic boy was lost forever. Who exactly had taken his place was the question Killian had asked himself daily for weeks now, and he still wasn’t sure how to answer it. He’d become so used to holding everything in, to keeping such a tight rein on his thoughts and feelings that letting them out, accepting that it was okay to express them had become almost unbelievably difficult. The only person he felt even remotely comfortable being fully himself with aside from Liam was Emma, whose support and friendship remained unwavering as he bumbled and struggled thorough the reclamation of his life, and he remained intensely grateful for it. 
Only one thing about Emma troubled him-- that she no longer seemed to be interested in anything beyond his friendship. All the little hints and cues she had been giving him since they’d met were suddenly gone, and while he was relieved to be free of the added stress of constantly resisting something that part of him desperately wanted, he couldn’t help wondering if there was a darker motivation for this abrupt about-face. Perhaps, whispered an evil little voice in his head, Emma was actually more disgusted by his past than she let on and was simply too kind to tell him directly. Maybe the thought of him touching her turned her stomach now. He certainly couldn’t blame her if it did.   
“What do you want from your relationship with Emma?” asked Dr Hopper one afternoon, after Killian had finally brought himself to mention the change in her behaviour. “Do you want it to be romantic?”
Killian frowned, struggling to sort through the complex tangle of his feelings about and for Emma. “I don’t want a romantic relationship with anyone,” he said finally. “I still feel too messed up for anything like that. But I— I’m still really attracted to her. I think about her all the time, about how we kissed at her party, and I want to kiss her again pretty much constantly, but then I remember Milah and how I thought I felt about her, and I just—” 
“You don’t trust your judgement.” 
“Yeah.” 
“Killian, it’s important for you to remember that you have a much more equal relationship with Emma than you ever did with Milah.”
“Equal, with Emma?” Killian snorted. “You have met her, right?”
Dr Hopper smiled patiently. “I understand that you feel she’s beyond your reach, and that’s a separate issue, but what I mean by equal is that she’s your age and at your stage of life. With Milah you were constantly struggling to relate to her life and her experiences, and when you couldn’t you attempted to make up for that by offering her the affection and sexual attention she craved. You forced yourself to offer these things even though you didn’t genuinely feel them because you feared the consequences of not offering them. But with Emma there is no need to manufacture anything. She is placing no demands on you and therefore any attraction and affection you feel for her is genuine.”
“But what should I do about it?”
“Why should you have to do anything? You said you’re not ready for a romantic relationship, and that’s fine. Let yourself heal. The process is slow and frustrating, but believe me you are making progress. Let your feelings for Emma and your relationship with her develop at a pace that is comfortable for you. From what you’ve said it sounds like she will still be there when, if, you’re ready for more.” 
“It’s more than likely she no longer wants more. And even if she did, what happens when she meets someone who isn’t so hopelessly fucked up? Then where does that leave me?”
“Why don’t you worry about that if —not when— it happens?”
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On the last day before winter break, Emma nervously approached Killian’s locker and handed him an invitation to her parents’ annual Christmas party addressed to him and Liam. 
“It’s just a thing they do every year for their friends and our neighbours,” she began to ramble as he examined the card, certain he would refuse and wanting to delay that painful moment. “My mom loves to entertain, and my dad says it’s good for building a rapport between law enforcement and the community, and—”
“Swan,” interrupted Killian, giving her that soft, indulgent look that said he knew exactly what she was thinking. “I’m sure we’d love to attend. Thank you for inviting us.” 
The butterflies soared in a grand jeté, and she felt like she was flying with them. “Great,” she said trying to keep her voice calm, “I guess I’ll see you then.”
Her delighted smile made his breath catch, and his answering grin set her heart galloping. Their eyes met and held, and as the end of semester chaos whirled around them they stood a breath apart, swathed in frustrated yearning and brittle tension, the only two people in the world.  
Then the final bell rang, and they leapt apart, Emma smoothing her skirt with shaking hands while Killian ran his own trembling fingers through his hair. 
“So, onion rings at Granny’s?” ventured Emma, wanting to kick herself for making him nervous again, after all her resolutions, hoping desperately he wouldn’t pull away. 
Killian sighed in relief, tinged with a hint of disappointment. Granny’s was safe. “Sounds perfect, love,” he said. 
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