#and specially if ur an adult what are you doing. these ppl will be making excuses to justify doing this shit

[marciliedonato]

just came to the unfortunate realization there are blogs abt ppl supporting literal inc*st between g/mikey in the year of our lord 2023 and a BUNCH of them at that apperently and i’m afraid some of you are simply just past the point of touching grass doing anything for you....

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

HEY BBG !! so happy u took that break and that ur requests are open nowww

so ive been wanting to tell u abt this dream i had with peter quill (of course i mean..who else) and turn it into a request!

its like after the holiday special and before gotg vol 3 where maybe reader was just cruising around knowhere before these cute lil kiddos come up to reader like "mx. ___, come play with us! we need one more player for our game" and it took them some time to actually convince reader and theyre finally like "alright alright" so they play a game with em

and just so the cliché and cheezy can come in, peter is also just walkin around yk, seeing what ppl doing, and boom 🤯🤯 the skrunkly sees reader playing with the kids

very cute n sweet best dream ive probably ever had, hopefully you can write this soon! I also dearly apologise for coming to you with peter requests only. I only feel comfy requesting things to you 💔

have a great week/end !!

-🪐

HI BBG!! I really hope I did this right, I felt pressure to write it as best as I could for to live up to your dream. also never apologise, I love that I can always rely on you to send in quill requests. and you’re so sweet, again I love that send ideas to me😩 thank you for requesting, hope you like it💌

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play ball

peter quill x gn reader

word count: 409

✧.┊ MASTERLIST

"Can you play with us?" a small, child-like voice asks, interrupting you from your thoughts. 

"Me?" you question, pointing to yourself as you glance around the quiet, empty park.

"Yeah," another kid adds, rolling the ball towards his friend.

"I'm not very good," you say, slowly turning your attention away.

"Please?"

"No one ever wants to play with us," a little girl joins in, frowning at you. 

"Just for a few minutes," one of the children pleads, giving you puppy eyes. 

You had a swarm of kids badgering you to join in with their ball game, and it was only a matter of time before they could wear you down. 

"Alright, alright," you exhale, standing from the bench where you were comfortably seated. "What're we playing anyway?" you ask, looking around at their mischievous faces.

"We can't tell you."

"And why's that?"

"The last time we had an adult, we..." a kid trails off, pausing.

"You what?" you ask, eyes squinting.

"We accidentally hurt him," he said bashfully.

"Hurt him?" 

"Yeah, we threw the ball at him too hard."

"Yeah," another joins in.

"It was an accident, though— we didn't mean it."

"We said 'sorry,'"

You chuckle, shaking your head. "Filling me with great confidence, kids,"

"We won't hurt you,"

—

After a while of playing and following their impossible, make-it-up-as-you-go-along rules, you were tired and in desperate need of a break. So you excuse yourself back to your bench, except now, there's someone in your space. 

"Do you mind if I sit?" you ask, nodding to the empty seat beside the man. 

"Sure, go ahead," he nods, crossing his ankle over his knee. "Those kids tire you out?" he asks, making friendly conversation. 

"Big time," you laugh, holding your side. "And they're not even mine." 

"No, no, I know. I just know from experience," he chuckles, turning to face you. "Last time I played, I got kicked in the nuts."

"You did?" you fail to hide your laugh. "They can pretty rough."

"Tell me about it," he rolls up his sleeve, extending his arm. "Also got bitten."

You look over his forearm to see the outline of a bitemark, a small circle of faint pink that was sure to form into a scar.

"You got bitten? I didn't think I'd consider myself lucky," you chuckle, looking ahead at the kids who are now tackling one another. "Wild little things."

"That they are," he says, smiling at you. "I'm Peter."

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quill taglist: @annielr @spacetalbot @bubblezuku @idontknowwhattohaveasmyuser @queerponcho @selfryed @traiitorjoe

[ca-suffit]

Sam-reid reblogging posts from nalyra and accusing marius haters of having "surface level takes" is rich. She ignores everything about this blog (your blog which I love!) and deems to punish viewers for not being comfortable with a known pedophile rapist in a book. It's blogs like hers which make me glad to my bones that I'm not part of this fandom any longer. I get chills from the absolute hatred radiating from users like her and nalyra and oh the reciepts you posted about formerly Neilcfreak? I felt sick reading how she lashed out at that black fan who tried to explain to her about A03 and its policies. But sam-reid is a special brand of ignorance and cold indifference towards black fans and fans who have problems with certain areas of the books. She looks down on anyone who doesn't love every word of the books. If she's ok with grooming and rape more power to her; but she so arrogantly asserts that the ONLY reason someone might have problems with topics of RAPE AND GROOMING esp through a lens of pedophilia is because of surface level takes?!

Yikes. BIG YIKES. How someone can be so SURFACE LEVEL IGNORANT is frightening.

She seems to think only in fictional world terms because in the real world, rape happens frequently. Grooming happens daily. So for her to assert that the ONLY reason someone might have issues with a character is because of SURFACE LEVEL TAKES speaks volumes of what kind of human being she is.

Marius triggers victims of rape and grooming for very real reasons, as fiction tends to do, as reading tends to do. That's why we read, and that's why fiction affects us so DEEPLY. So while insensitive and callous racists like sam-reid use SURFACE LEVEL reasons to judge us, the rest of us will be over here, avoiding surface level jerks like sam-reid, on your blog as a safe place. ❤

hi and thank u for ur comment<3

Let me repost a link to the neilcfreak / gorrei / rei thing in case anyone needs to know the context, bcuz this is an important thing to know for ppl engaging with her. This just happened in 2023.

Anyway, I'm glad it feels safe here. I'm always happy to talk about this stuff or let ppl vent about it. The books *are* v triggering and most of the fandom will not talk about it, which doesn't help anyone tbh.

I'm gonna answer most of this under a cut bcuz of the topics, but let me clarify some stuff first. Anyone mentioned here is mentioned for a reason. There's been a real increase on complaints about sam-reid lately, so I hope she's rly paying attention and not just thinking everyone is saying this for no reason. Ppl get harmed when u have a big voice in the fandom and u say things like this and turn ppl against others who are more vulnerable than u, especially when it comes to real trauma issues? I'm gonna get into this more under the cut but just to clarify that this isn't some silly thing or personal bitching about someone for no reason. I don't have any thoughts about sam-reid as a person, idk them beyond posts here. But this same attitude is across all of the big fandom ppl and it trickles down to hurting everyone, which is a big reason why this account is even here.

(I posted these screenshots smaller together but they won't save like that so sry they post long like this)

I'd also like to say that monstersinthecosmos runs with the og white woman fandom bullies from before the show aired. The fact that the same usernames show up supporting each other all the time is never surprising tbh.

Anyway TW for trauma, CSA, abuse

Everyone handles trauma differently, so a lot of what I've seen from the fandom over the years is ppl who handle it like this ^^ insisting it's the only "correct" way bcuz they can't look at it any other way, yet or maybe ever. Since Marius is so tied to childhood sexual abuse, it's always made sense bcuz a) a lot of ppl read these books as kids and b) Anne Rice wrote things in a way that romanticizes abuse. If u have never looked at the characters and/or ur own abuse as an adult, then here we are. Everything is fiction, everything is fun, nothing needs to be "real." Bcuz abused kids disconnect from abuse that same way. Some ppl stay there forever.

I'm not shaming that either. U can't dictate how ppl move thru abuse and trauma. We all do what we do. Everyone who comes into the IWTV / VC stories however it happens prbly comes from trauma. It just sucks that Anne Rice inspired such a dogshit view of the world in ppl that a group that's already ripe for infighting (traumatized ppl) gets made worse bcuz she taught everyone to be loud and wrong and then louder and more wrong. Don't ever look at ur own actions, just shout ppl down!!

The reason ppl tend to dislike book ppl is bcuz nothing is ever discussed. There's this simultaneous mindset of "I'm v smart" but also "I'm never gonna talk in depth about anything." Everyone can see this but u can't ever get *them* to see it. Conversations are impossible. Then they constantly talk down on others like this to keep everything hostile. They have to be "right," so playing up as if their perspective is the only true one and acting as if criticism of Anne Rice or the books is "so mean" bcuz of misogyny or ppl lacking media literacy or "don't they know they're all monsters lol" is the only thing they know how to do.

Traumatized ppl don't like to feel stupid, ignored, and dismissed. These big voices don't come from nothing. A lot of the vampires in the books reflect real responses to trauma, both in their personalities and how they move around each other. We also reflect that. I wish ppl could learn from that more. Unfortunately, we're prbly always gonna be in two camps about it. That's why this fandom tends to remain small no matter how big anything gets. Those who want to speak more on these themes and explore abuse tend to leave, or at least leave a lot of public spaces, bcuz these ppl have set up to always take in new recruits and bully ppl in groups. They're a small number of fans tbh, in all reality, they just look bigger bcuz they work together to build that illusion. They don't individually have the strength to get attention on their own so they gather together to reference each other a lot, recommend each other to whoever (which has now extended to cast and crew as well), and get in more spaces. Then they get to feel more "important" and soothe all the childhood trauma of nobody noticing them then, but doesn't everyone notice them now? Except look at what u did to get there. They don't care tho, everyone they've stepped over is just a "hater" or w/e.

This is why it's crucial to examine these characters and then reflect on urself too and ask if maybe ur the fucking villain sometimes. The answer will surprise u!

[vanillahub]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

respond to the prompts out of character!

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have? Obviously, I'm heavily influenced by a set list of characters I personally love, which means I come up with a take/portrayal as I delve deeper into the lore. I tend to have a preference for side characters, rather than protags or lore heavy ones, bc of the freedom I get... BUT at the same time I've had numerous muses that carry a lot of weight in their respective franchises (see: Seto Kaiba, Captain Rex, rival Barry, Richter Belmont and Sea Dragon Kanon just to name a few).

I mainly write as canon characters, I genuinely have little to no interest in making or RPing as an OC. At most, I have 1 OC in two out of the RPCs I'm currently part of. Which explains this huge disparity.

is there anything you don’t like to write? My hard nos are Incest, Adult/minor types of relationships. Bodily fluids/toilet stuff and fetish focused RPs. One-liners and really short replies aren't fun for me, sure, they can be fun for crack/joke interactions. But they won't last long. I really love working and expanding on the source material, so RPs for me really need to have that good plotting to back it up. While I'm totally open for exploring darker/taboo subjects (e.g.: adultery, toxic relationships, etc.), they MUST carry weight on the characters and be handled accordingly.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? GIMME ALL THE WEIRD COMBOS TO INTERACT WITH!!! Characters that never met or barely interacted with one another in canon but, they can interact in our RPs!!! My jam is doing worldbuilding and expanding on the source material!!! I also enjoy writing comedy, fluff, romance, slice-of-life, over-arching stories that connect/get refferenced in other threads.

how do you come up with headcanons? I look for plotholes or anything that was barely touched upon, in the source material, and I go off from it. I try establishing connections or make them clearer, to serve as future reference for me and my RP partners. I also love taking influence from other medias I'm into.

do you write in silence or do you play music? I used to be able to multitask a lot easier in the past. Now, I mainly prefer writing in silence. Only in very rare cases, I may play some kind of lo-fi beat or lounge music.

do you plan your replies or wing them? It depends on the thread in specific! Most of them have been plotted out, so I go off what we have laid out. Only in a few cases I try to wing it.

do you enjoy shipping? YES YES. GIMME. However, due to some bad experiences in the past, I'm really picky with platonic and familial stuff (popular fanons my beloathed).

what’s your alias/name? Vani

age?  27

birthday? 19th of July

favorite color?  Purple, blue, white, red-

favorite song?  Tô de pé - Maneva

last movie you watched?  I genuinely can't remember it LOL. It must have been Saint Seiya: Legend of Sanctuary.

last show you watched?  Saint Seiya Omega

last song you listened to? Discoholic - Disco Soul (Mr. Hoosteen's "Disco's Revenge

favorite food?  Pesto Pasta

favorite season?  Summer

do you have a tumblr best friend? Check these fellas out <3

These ppl know me for the longest time Gen ( @gems-of-lirema ), Simone (@unchcsen ) , Shiba ( @celestiialnotes ), Retto ( @245s ), Bobo ( @roleplayersoul ) and Smeargle ( @ofpokemon ) !! Really special mentions to @radi0activesmile, Val and @mxlik you guys will forever hold a v special place in my heart!!

Then I'm always chatting with Ama ( @gwiazdowe ), who genuinely is one of the best ppl I've met!! Honestly, I couldn't feel anymore happier to have met you! Can't forget urs truly Mica, who lives rent-free in my walls LOL. Lea ( @todefendlife ) and Mars own my house smfh.

And also special shout out to folks I've met more recently, but still deserve a place here: @shouxryuuxha / @wayfaringstrangxr / @eternalstarlights / @triko-the-fluffy-artist <3 Love u guys!

TAGGED BY: @mayxthexforce TYSM <3333

TAGGING: Anyone wanting to do this!! Just say I tagged you <3 !

[rinhaler]

Yo! im back again. I saw ppl really liked the step daddy gojo and uncle nanamin camgirl au idea, and now i raise you: pornstar au!

set of porn videos with uncle nanamin and stepdaddy gojo that evolve into videos featuring guest stars like toji or geto or choso (and, curiously enough, sukuna) Till eventually theres a christmas special where they gangbang you. (or “stuff your stockings” as they call it here. yeah its as cheesy as one might expect with gojo lol)

The videos leading up to it have different ‘plots’, such as:

-sneaking out against gojo’s orders to go out with your friends late at night. After all, youre an adult, he cant tell you what to do. While yall are out on the streets literally every car looks like your stepdaddy’s car which makes you on edge the entire time. Until you actually see gojo pass by you guys, and uncle nanami is sitting in the car next to him. they both stare at you as they pass by (picture that zoolander meme but nervewracking and kinda exciting?)

long story short, gojo texts you to get your ass back home. You do as he says, and him and nanami punish you as they see fit

-Gojo rearranging your guts later during the day when you decide to get all dolled up and wear a cute but revealing outfit when the other men come over for bbq. Whatever you were planning worked, because you saw them eyeing you the whole time. Unfortunately for you, this didnt go unnoticed by gojo 👀

-wearing an excuse of a string bikini and standing over nanami, whos sunbathing on the recliner chair, asking him if he can pretty please help rub some sunscreen on your back (spoiler: it wasnt just your back that he ended up “””putting sunscreen”” on)

-this specific plot has been on my mind since 2020, but attending online lectures while getting plowed/eaten out, and having to hold back from moaning when youre unmuted. When you are muted, however, youre making all sorts of pretty noises. could be nanami or gojo

-hanging out with megumi and fucking his dad somehow without him noticing. Like toji eating you out while ur bent over the counter. Megumi walks in, but he cant see whats going on bc ur behind the counter. Toji, however, doesnt stop. If anything he starts doing MORE, teasing the fuck out of you knowing you cant make any noises.

Megumi asks if you’ve seen his dad, you choke out a “N-no, maybe hes in thehhh the backyard” He gives you a weird look, says okay, and then leaves the kitchen. the SECOND you hear the back door shut you let out a stream of moans for toji, whos very pleased by this whole ordeal

-This one is just straight up asking toji and geto to tag team you. And they do so, gladly. They take pictures, too

Theres definitely more but thats all i can think of at the moment. This was a super long ask, but i think you’ll enjoy it.

toodles! :))

-🐚🩷🍬

omg sorry I took forever to answer this one I had NO idea where to start but you ate as always I love all of these. My favourite (unbiased for daddy toji ofc) the kitchen one with him EEEEEP the thought of having to try so hard to be quiet until he's out of ear shot HNNNGGGGGNGNGNGNNGNG hrrrruddhudfhusddhummmmmmmm brain is short circuiting I'm gonna d i e

these are all so good though omg you churned these ideas OUT u should write if u have a writing blog :P

[cogbreath]

whats your stance on proshipping or some taboo fetishes since necrophilia tends to be part of it iirc

i find proship stuff to be really fucking annoying like theres the ppl who think tht ppl disliking their underage / incest fanfic is akin to like book burning . nd like i hate the "dont like dont read" mentality bexause its just acting like u get special treatment/ are immune from any criticism of the things ur writing.

as far as like tabboo fetishes yall know how i feel abt raceplay in particular but my stance on the ones tht u hear abt in a lot of discourse like ageplay incest roleplay its well. i dont like it. the reality of the situations tht r being roleplayed r common forms of abuse which brings me to the point that like, how tabboo is this stuff really? i can't stop ppl from anything they do and ultimately it IS ethical when its two adults doing that sort of thing consensually and willingly but id appreciate if the ppl who r into those things were also into thinking abt it on a deeper level .

basically same as before with that we cant stop ppl from doing these things its futile and pointless . the best option is honestly to not engage if its something triggering or upsetting to you. i get why ppl wanna speak their mind but its not worth it, it just takes a toll on yourself imo. its a brick wall situation in many cases.

but i feel theres a lotta ppl who r into those things who just enjoy making others uncomfortable with it or pretend they r superrr sexually progressive by virtue of being into it , the former is outright shitty behaviour, the latter is just honestly untrue

but i wish ppl would remember tht society by default enables and allows the reality behind those fetishes so its rlly not this final frontier of sex positivity/acceptance many ppl think it is when u get down to it

[nervosims]

tagged by the lovely @annieshowell !!! ily <3

feel free to skip this one out if u wanna (especially if you've already done it lmao)! but these questions are pretty cute.

are you named after anyone? yes! one of my grandparents. it's a family tradition of ours lmao

when was the last time you cried? i'd say almost a year ago? i really don't cry lmao.

do you have kids? nope! i barely even feed myself, if i had to feed an infant it'd be whisked away from me lmao. i'm a VERY irresponsible adult

do you use sarcasm a lot? yes! it's my main source of humour (other than being fucking absurd). but sometimes it gets lost on me (autism, my beloved). british ppl need to be sarcastic, i'm convinced they inject the tea leaves with it.

what sports do you play/have you played? i used to do dance (when i was, like, 10). then i did netball. loved rugby. judo for a bit (yellow belt). but now i do jiu jitsu (white belt, my ass is not serious)

what’s the first thing you notice about other people? their face and their voice. i will absolutely forget ur name, but if i see/hear u in a crowd i'll know it's u

eye colour? deep brown.

scary movies or happy endings? i love the macabre, so scary movies. my favourite type of fiction is when the characters are miserable.

any special talents? i used to make a fuckton of art. so i have a bunch of really cool shit i'm proud of. i deleted my art account, but i still hold it pretty fondly.

where were you born? west africa.

what are your hobbies? gaming! deffo the sims. but i do love botw (the only zelda game i've ever played lmao).

do you have any pets? nope! same reason i don't have kids tbh. though, i'd love a cat. they seem a bit more low maintenance.

how tall are you? i think 5'6? i had a growth spurt when i turned 20 and i haven't measured my height in over a decade so i just guess.

fave subject in school? bro i hate school. i'm just in education for vibes. (but yes it was english,,, i'm illiterate now tho lmao)

dream job? i do not dream of labour <3

@pixelasher @simstationdance @fdicaprio @dustinbroke @glorianasims @moyokeansimblr @strangextown @quigsilver @applerosesapling @budgieflitter @alanna-goth @that-strangetown-kid @clouseplayssims @jules-cant-build @profesionalpartyguest

[rrxnjun]

ok. i was gonna reply to ur comment but it got a bit too long of a rant HAHAHHA sorry😭

but girl i will never stop raving about ur fics istg like something about the way you write and your characters always seem to hit home for me like i always seem to connect with your characters. you make their emotions and the scenarios they're in so vivid and raw and IBFIWRFO i eat it up😭😭😭

i never used to like reading angst but you execute it so well that i'll literally love it when you do it (e.g. fics like two people, when nobody's watching, potential) IDK MAN it physically hurts my heart I FEEL THE EMOTIONS OF THE CHARACTERS MAN IDK

when nobody's watching: when the reader's looking at renjun thru the years from her perspective when the reader wants to reach out, I WANT TO REACH OUT LIKESJFGOWRG WHEN RENJUN SMASHES THE BOTTLE AT THE PARTY YK????

two people: the way you describe jeno and y/n's suffocating one way relationship, I UNDERSTAND THE READER!!! jeno is perfect, he tries to fix the relationship but IT JUST DOESNT WORK THAT WAY the relationship was way over before he tried to fix it and ITS SO REAL!!!! the inner turmoil the reader went thru and the slow changing feels for mark WAS JUST- UGH *chefs kiss

potential: man. where do i even start with this fic. it's a storyline that i never knew i needed to read in my life. like bar u don't understand, potential had me in despair for the next 4 days. i can understand chenle's pain, y/n's confusion, their complicated love for each other. i don't think words can describe how special this story is to me.

this.... became a lot longer than i anticipated and IM SORRY FOR RAMBLING ON ABOUT THE SAME THREE FICS OVER AND OVER OSBFOWRGO but seriously tho, i genuinely love everything you put out, keep up the hard work💗

(i think this is the longest ask i've ever sent lol)

i treat writing as my therapy session so maybe thats why the characters are always so raw- NO but omg this is such an honor bc i really focus more on the characters than the plot i think and i really try to develop them really well and stuff and i focus a lot on the feelings and emotions so >:((( i am so happy that you like that about my writing !!!

the paradox is that i HATE reading angst. like if its in a long fic where its mixed up i dont mind and i think its important to have angstier parts in a long fic too but if its a drabble and its angsty i just won't read it LMAOOO

when nobody's watching was such a spontaneous fic istg i wrote it in what. two days? at uni LMAO. i got the idea when i was like,, watching this guy from afar and then i realised i ALWAYS DO THIS like i always have those silly crushes on ppl and never tell them bc im scared but i care so deeply for ppl that dont even know i exist 😭😭😭 but also i find that i used to change myself a lot to fit into social circles and even tho uni was really lonely for me at first that i kinda let go of that the same way renjun did so it was definitely cathartic to write :,)

honestly to this day idk how i even managed to write two people. like i think its the only fic i have thats about adult mature ppl LMAO all my other fics are like college aus and shit. like where did all of that pain and angst even come from ???? but i am so glad u liked it, i didnt expect ppl to enjoy that kind of fic >:((

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON POTENTIAL why are my best fics always the most spontaneous. its literally like in my top 5 fav fics ive ever written so i am insanely happy that you like it sm !!! <33 chenle's character in this fic is insanely personal to me also :,) the readers and his dynamic is also one of my favs ive ever written,, idk idk theres just something about this fic...

i am really honored to recieve this in my inbox its so sweet of you and i definitely appreciate it a LOT hope you dont mind me rambling about the fics i just enjoy talking about my writing :,)

[matoitech]

i dont think a lot of ppl will Get what im trying to say exactly when i talk abt that but the tldr is how Smart someone is or how u think they r or whatever shouldnt be attached to like respect to u. ableism towards autistic characters isnt bad ‘bcuz theyre actually smart’ its bad bcuz ableism is bad no matter what. very important u know that when it comes to Real People too. and ur doing like disability activism fails by shoving out disabled ppl who u think make You personally look bad bcuz YOU got good grades u werent like those weird dumb special ed kids and u cant comprehend us like. existing as adults around you and desperately needing support and respect and autonomy on a level that u will never personally grasp bcuz you love talking abt how much ur not like us and how unrelatable and scary and gross we r 2 u

[onmymasa22]

U know what im doing? Im making a decision to the next decision. Thats it. Thats all i can do. One decision to the next. I decided to go to art school. It brought me great friemds and learning about myself and growth. Enoah brought me passion for old people with special needs. I dated guys, i stopped dating guys. Just one decision to the next. I just go with it. Thats my theory. I cant jusge ur decisions, so stop judging mine.

Just make a decision to the next decision.

Do things that way.

Stop being so ypughe. Ur hurting, its obvious. But what if fhe ppl around u were hurting just like u. What majes u think u were the only one who was hurting. Everyone is hurting, maybe more than u, maybe less than u. Ur nor the judge tho. U have no idea ehats going on in other pples lives. But u deserve kindness wnd they

Ill be like a real person in the world. Have an apartment i can live in year round. Be apart of everything. Do everything.

Why is it that when u have adhd, growing up ur way more mature than everyone ur age, and yet when u grow up, ur way less mature than everyone ur age...

Really cute story on how my parents met before actually meeting:

My mom went to Neve Jerusalem in the early 80s. She saw an article for the "brother school" to Neve, Ohr Sameach in 1983 and kept it. Exactly 10 years later, she was set up with my dad, they fell madly in love in three dates, and got married. When my mom moved her crap from New York City to Chicago, my father opened a box and saw this article and picture. He showed it to my mom and was like "look!" She was like "oh my gosh, those are guys from Ohr Sameach, do you know any of them?" My dad was shocked and he said "that's me in the middle!" So yah, my mom held onto a photo of my dad ten years before they met in real life... crazy.

Something i wish i couldve told younger me: thanks to your adhd, right now u are way more mature than kids ur age, ur spending so much energy on just trying to be normal and not bother anyone, so having friends is difficult. When you become an adult, though, u will be way less mature than people ur age. And that isnt an insult. Once you know and accept who u r, you will be just a sequin of a girl. You will forever be young in your heart and mind. And that will attract the best people and the best experiences. So for now, know it can be hard, but u will live an extraordinary life.

I just wanted to tell u, u asked me what changed from the forst year to right then at the end of the third year. And i have a better answer now. At the end of the first year, our teacher meir applefeld gave us an assignment to draw.

Hi, sorry this might be a megillah, but i just need to get it all out. At the end of this past year, shai azulai spoke to us. He asked us to do a drawing and i finished quickly and so he came over and talked to me for a few minutes till others finished. He asked me what i felt my first year vs how i fekt now. I didnt really know what to answer other than that in the first year, everything was new. At the end of this past year, i dont know why, but ive become obsessed with painting trees. Rachel keeny gave us a watercolor class and i had a hard time in the etching class with dalia, and i was emotional and started painting lines and then just started painting trees from my mind with black ink. I remember in the first year, u asked us to make a landscape. It felt impossible. I thought- ask me to draw an apple that i have infront of me, awesome, a table, fine. But ask me to draw something from my mind, to completely make it up? I had no idea how, and i was scared of my own mind. But two years later, its not as scary. So this painting waited two years. I think i just wasnt ready. I needed more time to bake. But now, im a day or two from finishing

I feel sad. I feel like the whole world is spreading negative energy. I feel negative myself

Maybe today ill just paint trees.

Cuz thats wyat ill do when im sad.

Ill paint trees.

If you're crying today, you are not alone.

If you're saddned today, you are not alone.

If you feel numb to the pain today, you are not alone.

If you feel relief today that these people aren't suffering anymore, you are not alone.

If you're going to a funeral, you are not alone.

If it's too much for you to be at a funeral and you just need to hug yourself today, you are not alone.

If today your life goes on pause and you are having trouble doing anything, you are not alone.

If you smile and laugh and live your best life today because you need to, you are not alone.

[wasflypaw]

I'm in the mood to open up about shit that's been bothering me today so like.

Hi I'm 21

I Am An Adult

I am an adult that uhhhhh doesnt know how to function like one though. I didnt have very much of a childhood (neglectful mother 😔) n I was taken away at the age of 12

I have special needs/learning disabilities that nobody really... Helped me with. Alongside diagnosed severe anxiety and also selective mutism meaning I was shit at learning, terrified to do Anything, And also was completely nonverbal

I'd get stressed and bite/scratch myself in classes and its safe to say the teachers didnt know what to do LMAO

I failed most of my classes. I went to college (sixth form) and that was also too hard to understand. Failed those. Seriously my anxiety was debilitating one of my classes was Photography and I was too scared to take photos

I'd get yelled at a Lot if I failed to do something which made the anxiety Worse and I'm not joking I came home Every Single Day with the anxiety that I'd be randomly shouted at for something I didnt know I did. Fun. Never learned how to deal w my anxiety

Not Only That but since I didnt know what a hyperfixation was back then or that I was even autistic my interests had taken over my life and they were all i could think about in school. Since that stuff is never taught i never learned how to deal w hyperfixations

I got sent to a special needs college thing that was Supposed to help me learn things like cooking and tidying up and going out by myself n interacting w people. But once again they didnt know how to help me and I was taken out bc they just kinda had me sit in a corner on the internet all day lol

I find politics hard to understand and also maths and geography

I legit dunno how to cook and I learned how to tie a knot a few months ago (...I'd been avoiding it) I never learned how to stop stimming or deal w my hyperfixations

I found out what stimming was at like 19 and I'm like Oh Shit it's Not normal to sit and make weird noises and rapidly flap my hands around??

I have a legal guardian

It doesn't help I'm also very... not grown. I was born Way Too Small. I didnt grow taller than 5'0. People seem to think I'm 12 a lot

That's why I'm so proud of all my analysis recently - I'm still not sure how to word things sometimes and my hyperfixation tends to take over my life and have me post repeatedly on one topic but still,,,,

There are analysis posts on here that I find hard to read and understand like if they use huuuge words and stuff (that's why u shouldnt say stuff like "ppl are too dumb to understand my analysis/ppl who dont understand this lack critical thinking/my takes are too nuanced for you" in ur posts. Dont insult intelligence) I also still dont know Maths i just. Cannot. I think I might have Dyscalculia

I've kinda. Self-taught myself stuff like my art and my vocabulary since I spend all day every day in the house on my phone. I've learned by myself how to tone down hyperfixations and step away if something makes me too uncomfortable and stuff

That's why I tend to look up to the ppl I follow and get really happy when any of them approve or find my posts cool lmao i have my own opinions but I'm scared they're wrong a lot

I admit I get very passionate sometimes but I genuinely enjoy analysing the DSMP - this is also why I dislike direct arguments / why I block on sight if I see an uncomfortable take or why I delete posts if I find out OP is a minor bc. I'd feel like a fool sat here arguing w kids over MC roleplay AJDJFK .. also cause I have a lot of followers and I wouldnt want anyone dogpiling them

I think my age might tie in to why I'm so sympathetic towards c!Tommy and have 0 sympathy for c!Dream. And why I Will say "he's a kid" bc when I was 16-17 I certainly thought I was mature but I really,, wasnt. There's still so much room to grow. And c!Dream is My Age. "c!Dream is a young adult he's still young!" Bitch I barely know how to function and I know right from wrong I have zero sympathy for that man

I dont have a job since I just. Cant get one. I draw cats and sometimes get like £15 out of it sometimes. I'm just Here and Vibing. I literally just exist. I cant leave the house while its sunny bc I'm allergic to sunscreen

I still find it way more comfortable to hang out around ppl my age rather than anyone below say... 18 because I'm Still an adult regardless of my struggles (sorry to any of my mutuals who are minors this is probably why I dont interact w you much ajdjrk)

I'm always so ashamed of this fact like yeah I'm a 21 year old yeah my hobby and also hyperfixation is talking about Minecraft YouTubers bc I dont have a job 😭

I'm the shining example of "these disorders are usually spotted early in kids! - but what if you literally Never help them and just let them grow like that lol"

[gncmaya]

yo dude. yknow trans ppl think u can be any gender u want with any reason u want, right? like u can just be a woman bc it’s what feels best out of all the options, or bc u know most ppl will assume ur a woman based on how u look & just want to go along w that. u dont have to b a radfem to think that

yo. yknow there's more to being a radfem than just not agreeing with trans ppl, right? I didn't go into that much detail bc I was mainly just venting, but you seemed to have missed the part of my post where I said I also agreed with the other aspects of radical feminism. @radicallyaligned's pinned post is a great introduction if you are unaware of them. I had been frustrated with many of the positions of liberal/mainstream feminism long before I started looking into radfem theory. I'm not a radfem because they're the only ones affirming my special gender feels the mean trans people don't like uwu, if that's what you think. I'm a radfem because it's a political ideology, of which being gender critical is only one facet, that I believe in.

But besides that, you still missed the point. I'm not a woman because "it's what feels best" or anything else; it's a neutral fact about my physical reality of being a member of the female sex. I don't have a gender. I don't believe in the concept. Telling me that I can be any gender I want is like telling me to pick which church I want to attend and completely ignoring the very crucial fact that I am an atheist.

I appreciate you coming to talk to me in what I assume is good faith instead of just insulting me, so I'll ask you this question, also in good faith: what does it mean to be a woman?

I have searched and searched for a definition other than "adult human female" that wasn't either circular or drenched in regressive, sexist stereotypes and have yet to find one. After all, how can I call myself a woman if I don't actually know what one is? Maybe you know what it means, I'd genuinely love to hear it. How would you explain what a woman is to, say, an alien completely unfamiliar with the concept of gender? How would you explain the difference between women and men and nonbinary people? Saying something like "a woman is anyone who identifies as a woman" makes the word meaningless as it fails to actually define the word. I hope I don't have to explain why definitions that rely on sexist stereotypes (eg "women are nurturing and empathetic/men are confident and leaders" or "women are aligned with femininity/men are aligned with masculinity") won't work and shouldn't be used.

This leaves identifying as a woman because it's personally what makes that person comfortable/feels right somehow. Except the problem with this definition is that there's no analysis of why someone "feels" like one word or another. It completely ignores the fact that, unlike that alien I previously asked you to explain gender to, human beings do have background knowledge on gender and identity and gender roles and sexism etc. They have a lot of it, most of it is subconscious, and they have been learning it since birth. This focus on the individual doing what feels best for them with no class or societal analysis creates huge problems and is an issue that exists throughout liberal feminism (eg makeup/shaving/the beauty industry in general not being criticized because it makes some women feel good so what's the harm?). Which means that without any concrete or consistent definition of words like "woman" and "man," sexist stereotypes, unconscious biases, and internalized misogyny are the only things people have to determine their feelings about these words, whether they realize it or not.

So I ask again: what does it mean to be a woman? How can anyone truly determine if they "feel like a woman" if no one can actually say what a woman is?

[hello-yue-here]

Yuetara, zukka, and maiko

yuetara

ship

1) its not one of my main ships. i dont rlly read fanfic for them but if i see a cute fanart of them ill enjoy it and i think i first started shipping it because of good fanarts for them.

2) i like yuetara because of how similar they are. theyre both women from the water tribe. they both understand the misogyny that they have faced. and they both said f sexism im gonna be a strong woman. i also love the tui and la parallel. moon spirit and ocean spirit parallel COME ON. YUE IS THE MOON. KATARA IS THE MOST POWERFUL WATERBENDER. THEY ARE THE OCEAN AND THE MOON. the push and pull they could give eachother. that dynamic ftw.

3) i guess if i didnt like something about this ship would be the fact that if i read a fic or see a fanart w yuetara then than means in that particular au i wont get any yuekka and yuekka is probably my second favorite ship. but then again if i get yuetara than i could get a plethora of other sokka ships to go with it so my sadness disappears in like two seconds. gosh shipping is hard sometimes until you remember ‘hey i have like fifty different universes in my head. all ur ships can coexist in ur brain olivia’ other than that i really see no downsides to this ship. maybe i wish it had more content. maybe if it had more content id ship it a lot more but its not one of the more popular ships so the content is kinda few n far between on my feed.

zukka:

SHIPPP

1) my boys. my babies. my loves. i watched this show for the first time when it came out on netflix and when it ended i really didnt ship anything other than kataang. i came onto tumblr to find fun atla content and one of the very first things i saw under the atla tag was zukka content. i was like oh? whats this? zukka? interesting... i was intrigued so i found a list of fic recs and i fell in love with the ship. the rest is history. its probably my number one ship because it was my very first ship here and im nostalgic

2) oh boy there is so much i like about this ship. i relate to a shit ton of characters in atla. but sokka and zuko may be the ones i relate to most. i relate to sokka because i tend to feel second best a lot to my friends. i try to stay positive but things rarely go the way i plan or hope for them too and while im happy for my friends and their achievements i oftentimes find myself thinking why cant that be me? and i see this a lot in sokka especially in sokkas master. i dont feel special a lot and idk seeing sokka feel the same way and then realizing he is special kinda helped me realize that im special too. on the flipside i relate to zuko because i have wild anger issues and difficulty dealing w my emotions a lot as well. i get broody and short tempered and insecure very often and i tend to push people away and i refuse to ask for help (the amount of teachers and adults and therapists who have told me its okay to ask for help ur not any weaker because of it is astounding. do i listen to them? .....im working on it.) and i saw a shit ton of this in zuko. book one and two zuko rarely asks for help as seen in the blue spirit and zuko alone and he pushes away uncle so many times and even when the gaang iffers to help him in i think its the chase he tells them to leave. when he finally has his redemption and joins the gaang and lets them kinda become a better person i was so happy. i want that for myself yk. seeing him finally win the agni kai and overcome his family that always told him he was nothing was such a win. my sister and i get along but when we were children we were very much like zuko and azula. it was extremely competitive all the time and there was so much toxicity and sibling drama to a concerning extent. we get along great now which im very happy about but yeah their sibling relationship hit a lil too on the nose for me. seeing as i relate to these character so much and want them ti be happy i want to live vicariously through them so seeing them together is amazing for me to project into them. i love projecting onto fictional characters and with them i can project onto BOTH so its a winwin. plus so many zukka fics are so well written and heartwarming and heartbreaking and emotional and fluffy anf UGH the talent here us astounding.

3) what do i not like about the ship? again the list is long. oops. mainly the toxic shippers. there are so many toxic zukka stans that sometimes make it hard for me to enjoy this ship but hey! thats what the block button is for:) i despise how often people infantilize zuko and completely ruin his character for the sake of making him a soft weak lil boy who needs protecting. thats just not zuko for me. and ive seen many many accounts even state that this kind of portrayal of zuko is rooted in racist stereotypes about asian men (now i am white so i personally have never experiences racism but i feel the need to bring that up because it is wrong and attention needs to be brought to it because a lot of poc fans have criticised this) and the same for sokka. some ppl rlly skew his character and make him a big strong brute and hypermasculine and once again poc fans have said that this take is rooted in racist stereotypes. again! these are just my opinions! this is my favorite ship! but i think its important to acknowledge some of the bad parts of our ships as well and be critical where criticism is needed :))

maiko

ship

1) I LOVE MAIKO. “i dont hate you” “i dont hate you too” BRUH. my little heart just burst into flames. im sorry guys but maiko is so cute. they hate everything except eachother. BRUH that is one of the cutest tropes. i shipped them the moment i saw them together onscreen and i was so happy when zukos face lit up in the finale when mai came back.

2) “i hate everything but i have a soft spot for you” TAKE MY MONEY I AM A SUCKER FOR THIS. they are so cute together. like zuko is rarely happy in a majority of atla but mai makes him happy and i- 🥺🥺 HE DESERVES IT. and mai is always so supportive of him. when hes stressing out about the war meeting she tries her best to comfort him. and zuko cares about her too. he may not be the best at showing it but oh my god hes TRYING HIS BEST. i think its a very accurate portrayal of teenage relationships because they arent perfect and they do fight but like,, every teenage relationship does that. and even after everything and how he left her in the fire nation she still had his back at boiling rock. she still risked her life against azula to save his butt.

3) the thing i hate about maiko isnt even about maiko. its about antis who think mai is toxic and that zuko deserves better. that has got to be the worst take ive ever heard. they had a fight in ember island. that is NORMAL. they are teenagers. they are not perfect. but underneath all the rough edges and things they need to work out they still care about eachother so freaking much. i genuinelt believe that neither of them would do anything to intentionally hurt the other and i think thats what matters the most. if anything mai is the best girlfriend in the entire world because zuko fucked up like,, quite a few times. he got rlly jealous and dumped her thru a letter and ppl always say that mai was toxic for being mad at him for those two things. umm she had every right to be mad at him for both of those. and while zuko is allowed to feel his emotions and be angry sometimes as well sometimes he needs to think things thru and realize that hey maybe some if this jealousy is unfounded. BUT EVEN THEN. HE RESPECTED HER FEELINGS AND DIDNT TOUCH HER WHEN SHE SAID DONT TOUCH ME. HE RESPECTED HER. so i hate toxic maiko takes because they are literally so wrong in my opinion.

again all of these are just my opinions!! feel free to agree or disagree but please be respectful!! i will respect whatever u think as well because this is all just for fun :)

[evilplumpie]

tagged by @euphcme

1. why did you choose your url?

Evil pie is my randomly assigned username in two dots and but it was taken on tumblr and plum plus pie is plumpie and that's a cool sounding word basically AI and verbal stimming chose my url.

2. any side blogs?

@legendofsideblog stuff that i like that other people made that is not the stuff I like that other people made that is on this blog

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

2011 FUCK

4. do you have a queue tag?

no I don't understand what the point of them is, so much work

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

made a doctor who blog with my bff. branched out with my own tumblr and poured my real personality and face on there. this is my shiny new Adult Blog.

6. why did you choose your icon?

love their love

7. why did you choose your header?

I didn't too much commitment

8. what's your post with the most notes?

a post begging people to explain jokes.

9. how many mutuals do you have?

I don't know the number but every mutual is special and unique to me. And when you change ur url or icon you become a completely new special and unique mutual. I grieve your old blog assuming you deleted it or blocked me.

10. how many followers do you have?

1 small wedding

11. how many ppl do you follow?

401. A big chunk are from my old account.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

been on tumblr since 2011 so yeah

13. how many times do you use tumblr a day?

morning scroll, evening scroll. way more during flares.

14. have you ever had a fight with another blog?

I don't have the object permanence skills required for that

15. how do you feel about need to rb posts?

I ignore. if they make you feel better go for it. For me, those posts would be performative and not particularly impactful.

16. do you like tag games?

I guess??? I get horrifically anxious tagging people but I love getting tagged

17. do you like ask games?

yet another thing i love for other people

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

honestly I have a couple

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

every single one

20. tags:

@kidneyprescott @333angelbaby @thedeadd0ll @marmermoon @bi-panic-at-the-disco lmk if you don't want to be tagged ever again

[harry-sussex]

1 I don’t think you must have loved harry as much as you say you do if you’d rather have him keep quiet and go back to a place where he has now directly told the public he was unhappy in and where it was some of the worst years of his life. He BEEN saying it and you just don’t want to listen because you’re attached to this image of the brf you have in ur head lol. It’s not a perfect family and they used harry as a scapegoat since he was born. Due to his good nature and to the fact that he’s

2 the good guy we know him to be he tried to stay and make it work but when his family backstabbed him and his new wife he’s more than entitled to walk away. Like seriously. And realize what kind of person William is please because it’s getting weird. Harry doesnt have to do anything for William and Kate specially since they are grown adults who benefited and instigated some of the hate against meghan.

3 I’m glad harry is safe and happy now and I don’t get how you can talk about him like this now just because he’s bursting your fairytale ideas? But ur a fan? Alright sure. This is a real family and not a family out of a storybook. If you like him only when hes playing jester in that palace but cant like and respect him now for healing himself and correcting all the lies those ppl told about him then simply drop henry if he no longer fits into the delusions. I am proud of him.

I’m not entirely sure how you could possibly suggest that I didn’t love Harry as much as I thought I did (still do). I mean, I got on a plane by myself and flew 3,500 miles one way to go to his wedding. Bet you’re new around here so you didn’t know that, though. I’m proud of him for doing what’s right for him - even if I hate what it came to, which I did, do, and will forever. I can be proud and also criticize the way he went about it, the way he continues to go about it. You should be able to do the same.

I look at Harry from a nuanced and complicated point of view. He is no saint. He is not above being wrong. Not entirely sure how you could come here, believe every tabloid ever written about William, Kate, Charles, HM, etc. and simultaneously say that he’s been used as a scapegoat, that he’s been backstabbed, that he spent his whole life playing jester in a palace - tabloid fodder in and of itself. You either believe it all or you don’t. The tabloids are the tabloids and if you’re going to assume that they’re all incorrect attacks on your fave then you have to assume that they’re all incorrect attacks on your least fave. You have to believe that Harry’s escaped the tower while believing that William desperately tried to help and protect his only brother and bring Meghan into the family. You have to believe that Harry has insulted/disrespected the Queen and abandoned Sentebale and the children he vowed to support forever and was jealous of his nephews and niece and also believe that William cheated on Kate with Rose, that he’s the kind of person you think he is. You have to believe either that Harry is the person you think he is and William is not or believe that Harry is not the person you think he is and William is. The tabloids you yourself are quoting in this message are your only source - you can’t deem them credible and false in the same breath. You can’t pick which tabloid fodder to believe based on whether or not it makes your fave look good. It’s all the same bullshit across the board, and you have to realize that. Otherwise, you kind of sound like an idiot, which is what’s going on in this message.

You say that I see him as a caricature, that I see him as a pawn in a game that I thought I controlled, that I do not believe he is a human being with thoughts and feelings and perception and nuance. And yet here you are, putting him on a pedestal that no real human being deserves, because real people are flawed and wonderful and cruel and kind and everything in between - Harry included. I see him as a person - same as you and me, even with the title and the money and the influence and the power. I see him as best as I can for what he is, flawed and wonderful and cruel and kind. You’re the one that views him as a caricature, one-dimensional and infallible and blameless, the same way that you see William and Kate as caricatures, one-dimensional and ruthless and unredeemable.

My words - especially my criticisms - prove that I see him - and the rest of them - as complicated, multi-faced and multi-dimensional, who are neither fully perfect nor fully imperfect, who have pros and cons to their person the way that you and I do. Being able to recognize that he is flawed, multi-dimensional, a real human being is the best and only way to prove that you care about him, that you want him to be happy and safe and comfortable in his life, whatever it looks like. Putting Harry on this infallible pedestal and tossing the rest of them to the side, like he’s a damsel in distress, Cinderella-type tortured hero taking his life back while the rest of the family are Cruella de Ville, the evil stepmother is turning the very real lives of Prince Harry and the British Royal Family into nothing but a sitcom, a cartoon, a Disney movie. Nothing but a story for children. Nothing but a set of characters. This point of view does him a disservice. He deserves better from his fans, his admirers, from you. He is a human being, and he deserves better.

He’s no damsel in distress and the family is no evil trap keeping him hostage until his knight in shining armor broke him free. That rhetoric pigeonholes them all into caricatures. You can’t do that and then accuse me of doing so while I’ve been doing the opposite and have since the very first day I posted on this blog more than seven years ago. You’re not making any sense - every word of the message you just sent me is a contradiction in and of itself. Like I said earlier, doing so makes you sound like an idiot.

[assmuncher]

How would the boys react to mika/mc being a kpop idol and doing a adult stage?

disclaimer : i’ve never listened to kpop or know what an adult stage is so i will pretend and hope it is similar to being an western celebrity such as nicki minaj because stan nicki ! for each boy i will add a celebrity and kind of base it off if the s/o was them but like not them but like their music but not the celebrity just the career and songs yk?

<3

<3

james- (UR NICKI MINAJ)

he thinks your a apple bees 3am karaoke singer at first. you get him front row tickets to your show and when you start busting down he is shOOKETH. first off he is appalled by the vulgar lyrics when “only” comes on. who is wayne? who is drake? why would you let them eat your ass like a cupcake? he’s also amazed that thousands of people are at the stadium cheering you on. he knew you were special but like not cult leader special. he appreciates the clever word play and metaphors you incorporate into your songs. his favorite is “still i rise”.  also your breath control when you preform flawless--- he was screaaaaming sis -  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KouHQ1SykIU 

erik- (UR DOJA CAT)

you gave him flashbacks to the demon cat girl he flirted with in the abyssal plains for his mommy. when go to town or juicy starts playing he start twerking and shit too! bust down thicc boy! he loves how confident you are when you preform and your range. ur a boss bitch and know how to run stuff and he likes you and your confidence :) he is shook, his terms of music is like piano and harpsichord. you really just introduced him to something new. he loves your outfits and offers to design new stage outfits just for you :) -  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9dEVHuVuDSc

sam- (UR ARIANA GRANDE)

you know that scene in the diary of the Wimpey kid where rodrick is crying while that lil girl singing? yeah thats sam. when 34 + 35 comes on hes like :OO and when thank u next comes on hes like who r these ppl. he thinks you sing like an angel and even tho he is a little emo bitch he will not stop streaming POV. he is jus sitting there in shock. where did his wig go? he loves you but hates the dudes staring at ur cheeks  👁�� 👁️ - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FflfOb4BWCU THE TALENT, thE LIP GLOSS, HE LOVES IT ALL

matthew- (UR MELANIE MARTINEZ)

he really vibe with your aesthetic! crybaby hit hard... a little too far,, anyways he really fucks with the entire decor and vibes you give and loves your songs. his favorite is the bakery and cake. he loves your outfits and your voice. he thinks you’re a goddess on earth. he starts screaming alphabet boy when it come on. -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWuuRfjfR4A he also makes you cute stuffed animals of pastel bunnies and cats.

damien- (UR CUPCAKKE)

so he is so proud of you but almost shit himself at the concert.. when “discounts” comes on he is stunned. he wants to know where you grew up and if your ok. he also wants to know how you make your songs. when duck duck goose comes on though.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qrc9eLHNWs yes he’s the dude screaming the lyrics in the back. the next day he brings you a cupcake plushie (stolen from matthew probably). “i thoUGHT I CAME BUT I PEED ON THE DICK”