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🟡 Yellow for paris please? np to answer ofc
🟡 Yellow- What is something your OC wants but knows they can never have? How does it feel to never get this specific desire?
oh it hurts so bad but the US court. he never gets his chance, he never gets signed, and as much as he wants it, he knows he's just not as good as the other people waiting to get signed.
when he was in USC, in his third year, just after the championship finals ended, he broke his wrist and had to get surgery that took most of the summer to heal - and he spent even longer in physiotherapy and going easy on it to let it heal properly. it set him back quite a lot, and while he did recover from it and was able to play at a very high standard when he was able to play again, it never healed back to 100%. he's good - he went pro, he plays like his life depends on it, but he'll always have this pain that comes and goes and he feels like it really holds him back from being court.
some of it is psychological; doubt in his own abilities, being hard on himself because of just how good all the people he plays with are - he knows he has a higher chance of making court because he went to USC, but as the years keep going on and he keeps missing out on court, he loses a lot of hope.
every time he has to be subbed out because of his injury it kills him. he hates knowing that an accident that happened in university is going to hold him back from following his dream, and ultimately he never makes it. he plays on different pro teams until he retires, but he never makes the us court. no matter how much he dreams and tries and prays. he'll never be good enough.
#is this angsty?#i feel like all these ocs always make court#and someone wanting it SO BADLY#but having to admit to themselves that they'll never be good enough?#ouch#my ocs
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Since I'm almost done working on em here's my demolition lovers costumes so far!
I started this in like mid/late March I believe
This is my first time doing beading ever, I probably should have started with something smaller or even tested on some scrap but I am nothing if not stupidly ambitious.
I wanna say this is roughly 14hours of work so far, I still want to add more to the dress and possibly make some accessories, we will see what I can get done by Saturday lol
#goin to the helena church Saturday for ghouls day out :]#i had this idea for so long i cant believe im actually doing it#i wanted to talk abt it SO BADLY but i didn't want someone to steal the idea and finish before me lol#i started with the dress and i can absolutely tell so im gonna go back over some parts#id show the side/back of the dress more but i cant close it properly in the back by myself lol#mcr#my chemical romance#demolition lovers#demolition lovers cosplay#my posts
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IMO
i make a lot of very fluffy, sentimental, art~ but i need everyone to know just how much i fucking hate these two (adoringly. with all my heart.)
#arcane#jayce talis#viktor arcane#jayvik#they're both just the worst#and they absolutely deserve each other#which i say lovingly#cuz you don't have to be perfect to be perfect for someone else#jayce is so full of love and just wants to be the goodest good boy so badly that he completely fucks everything up at every turn#and viktor is such a fucking good-hearted~ self-loathing~ reckless asshole with no faith in anybody but him and jayce#it's a wonder that they managed everything they did#probably because they had each other#i mean~ if you're gonna fuck up so bad that you end the world#better also be the only two people who can un-fuck it up#arcane spoilers#in my tags#where i carry on and on~ lol#pidgy drew#digital art#artists on tumblr
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Obsessed with his brain
#read a fic where he had to eat someone in the basement to survive and I am... obsessed#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dale dimmadome#fop dale#idk ask to tag#art#digital art#fanart#blood tw#cannibalism tw#ed tw#In my mind his relationship with Dev is crazy. Because he wants to love Dev so badly but he is just. incapable of it.#and it makes him hate himself#On some level he thought seeing Dev would fix him. That he would feel all those things a dad is instinctively supposed to#and it would prove he wasn't broken. That deep down hes still human. that he's still capable of love just like everyone else#.And then he didnt. and he had no idea how to deal with it#In a way hes kind of scared of Dev. Dev makes him feel so uncomfortable with himself. so he just kind of avoids him.#Which um. thats your son sir you cant do that.#I love dale but he should absolutely not be a father. He is just not built for it
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They make such a nice couple. The king and queen are pretty nice too. Heheheh.
#homestuck#june egbert#rose lalonde#replyed seer descend and had a lot of thoughts about this moment#and i guess the entirety of how “predestined” the narrative wants grmdrks to be#both in the way the story sets up the 2+2 boy and girl situation#and how rose and junes dynamic early on especially gets explored#only to subvert those expectations by making these two just. Not interested in each other#despite how badly the story wants its game of house to go perfectly its autonomous toys dont want to cooperate#so its just constant moments that are like “haha someone said we should get married but i dont really care about all that if you dont”#whatever. whatever i love june and rose so very badly is all you need to know
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Homesickness is where the heart is
#my art#tea n ink#favourite scene in the entire game#i have SO MUCH respect for the dev for keeping the missing country a complete mystery#like an event only ever comedically referred to as “the incident”#like a horror movie monster you never fully see#i want to know so badly and i hope im NEVER TOLD#the fact you never find out and both the player and siffrin just gotta DEAL WITH THAT#is infinitely more interesting than anything any writer could say was canon#also can i say?#the importance that someone's religion culture food and language has to literally every other character#makes the fact siffrin cannot have that and cannot get it back HURT SO MUCH#AND AND AND#the fact that all of it is so intuitive and familiar to him that he can ALMOST grasp it but never enough to make it hurt less is just *mwah#ISAT#in stars and time#siffrin#isat siffrin#isat#isat fanart#artists on tumblr#isat tea n ink#isat spoilers
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December 19th 2024
No
#for goodness sake someone go set fire to that goat!#I want it to burn so badly#gavle goat#gavlebocken#christmas#the gavle goat stands#gavle goat 2024
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#KlamaricCrumbs PT II
PONEDJELJAK, 10:12
#Skam#Sram#Skam Croatia#Roko Maric#Nora x Roko#SkamRemakesEdit#Sramhr#SramEdit#no slo mo :(#but other than that we're SO back kids#already making eye contact huh? interesting#the parallels with the ‘I like that you’re sitting there looking at me’ will be *chef kiss*#saw someone in the yt comments calling them Noko and I'm begging let's not be this basic pls#I mean it affectionately#SRAM s1#SRAM 1x04#not related to them but#I loved that someone finally fixed the plot hole that is Vilde not caring and sending P Chris away when Eva brings him there#if she wanted so badly to get closer to W and be invited to parties why would she do that#I never understood#anyway well done SRAM!#Klamaric#Klamaric rising#Nora Klarić Šelem
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just...thinking about how zeb was picked up by kanan and hera, two kids (basically), one of whom was also a survivor of genocide, and another whose species has been persecuted, enslaved, etc. repeatedly, and they helped him. zeb, who hadn't seen young people of his own species in so long, and as an older being, he's probably unsure of his place in the galaxy after what happened on Lasan, and having young people trust in him, look up to him, rely on him, that probably made zeb feel so needed and wanted. like, they're experienced and confident, and far wiser and more mature than maybe someone their age ought to be, because of what they've gone through. so he probably doesn't think he can teach them much.
and like zeb knows they're young; but just thinking about when that really hit him, how young they are. and how he probably vowed to look out for them, as much as they look out for him. like, thinking about how much fear he probably had in calling any place home again, after what happened to his last home. but these two young adults gave him a home, a safe place to land; they gave him their friendship and gave him a little found family to call his own after everyone he lost. and he's happy and proud to belong to a family again.
#i so badly want a book or a comic run about when it was just kanan hera and zeb on the crew. i need to know how they met#like when they found zeb he probably was at a really low point and needed someone to be looking out for him. and he found that in them#but then him realizing that they're YOUNG and they need someone looking out for them too and yeah#garazeb orrelios#zeb orrelios#kanan jarrus#hera syndulla#the ghost crew#swr#star wars rebels
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animorphs was like yeah what if you (child soldier) promised your best friend (also a child soldier) that you would save him, and that you would kill him before letting the body-snatching parasites take him. what if you realized that you can't ever do both. you can't save him without the yeerks. you can't kill him because if he dies everyone you've ever known dies.
what if you literally have to cut him open while he screams and pleads for you to stop and kill him. he hates you for saving him. he hates himself for hating you. you hate yourself for doing it, and you hate him for making you choose. all you can do is wash the blood off and go eat dinner with your family. you will wonder if what you did was worth it for the rest of your life.
#cassie sort of wants to die and also wants to be saved and also wants to save someone and wants there to be a right answer so badly#she bounces between ruthlessly killing people and ruthlessly saving people as she tries to find a middle ground#cassie loses just as much of her old self as jake and rachel don't tell me she doesn't#cassie animorphs#ax animorphs#animorphs#cw gore#book 29 the sickness
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alright,,,,,is this newyears gift,,,,,, i dont no. but maybe it's late enough that i'll be able to forget that i drew this 😁😁😁😁 mttpoly doodles. whoever sees this sees this
#triglycercule kist is real i know someone that will be very happy with this#you dont know how badly i wanted to squeeze a horrorkiller on somewhere focusing on horror's spine#horror sane spin still on my mind. underneath that zipped up jacket is a crop top hand made by horror himself ‼️‼️‼️#auagahhhhhbtheyre all so stupid can you tell i didntbknow what to do for kist (but its nice and i think its cute and a little fitting)#did not finish (or start) the killer analysis so idk anything about him fully still#like this is a tad bit more platonic leaning (something i'd put in my fic) but i still like it#because killer's very aware of everything that will go on and dust has a no murder streak#and something something killer doesnt wanna have to deal with the pain that is dust's emotions#dust knows damn well killer doesnt mean to be nice but he's being nice anyway#and in my eyes dust is nice(ish)est of all of them (and respectful too i think) so he says thank you just because#it takes killer like 3 weeks to figure out how to respond to dust's thank you. i am too tired to figure out what he said in return#NOT EVEN THAT TIRED BUT I GOTTA STAY UP FOR THE SAKE OF STAYING UP‼️‼️‼️‼️ gotta wait until 2am...... then untitled2987601111 awakes#i'm seeing people read horrortale or like mtt stuff and i am very happy ✨✨✨ mtt nation is swell and the three pillars of it are smitten#(for each other)#everyone looks so weirdly good in this but whatever. time to post!#untitled29876011111 gets the full edition 😁😁😁😁😁#tricule art#thankfully its the middle of the night so nobody will see this x3#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#murder time trio poly#horrordust#kist#horrorkiller#mtt poly
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i think we can put all the versions of death note and its adaptations into a spectrum based on how much light and L want to kill each other and on one side of the spectrum, it's the death note japanese musical and on the very other side, it's the death note tv drama.
#🍂 arian's shit#death note#lawlight#light yagami#l lawliet#death note musical#death note jdrama#i have been thinking about this and. yeah.#in the japanese musical version of playing his game (into him) it literally says#“i'll choke it out of you with these hands your life”#which is so fucking hardcore#like they both want to kill each other so badly#WITH BARE HANDS.#THEY COULD IF THEY TRIED TO#but in the jdrama it's like. so tame.#they are not into it at all they are probably repulsed by the very idea of it#EVEN IN THE WHOLE BLUE SCENE#light was like “i wanted to be your friend forever 🥺”#and L was like “you were my only friend 🥺”#when light was writing L's name even he was sobbing and everything#i heard someone in tumblr also say that the L vs kira confrontation in the blue warehouse was like a#worried friend confronting their friend about their substance abuse#AND LIKE. YEAH. EXACTLY#actually the musical and tv drama are very opposite adaptations now that i think about it???#on the mikami screentime spectrum there is no mikami at all side#vs heaps and heaps and heaps of mikami screentime where he is responsible for like 40% of the events occuring
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S3E19: Requiem for Methuselah ⋆.˚ ✧ · ˚⊹ ·
#SCREECHING IN THE TAGS#first of all: spock playing the piano#second of all: spock playing an undiscovered waltz so jim can fall in love with a non human woman who doesnt understand emotions#OKAY SURE#like how much more tragic does it get#this is peak repression#the ultimate “gay in love with their best friend” moment#and jim is so charming jusy look at him smiling#he wants to love someone so badly#HE 👊🏼 IS 👊🏼 PLAYING 👊🏼 THE 👊🏼 PIANO 👊🏼#spock#spirk#star trek#star trek the original series#star trek tos#requiem for methuselah#scifi#science fiction#leonard ninoy#william shatner#captain kirk#jim kirk#james t kirk
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She’s his sidekick, he’s her dad, she’s his mentor, he’s her best friend. They’ve known each other for a few days, they’ve spent their whole lives looking for each other, he sees her, she understands him, they’re flawed, they’re perfect, they don’t need anyone, but it’s the two of them choosing each other against the world that betrayed them.
#nimona#nimona 2023#nimona netflix#ballister boldheart#queer relationships#you can���t box them into one type of relationship#because they both defy everything that they were told to be#found family means ‘this person/these people are Home’#regardless of the specifics of each relationship#or how those relationships change over time!#god I love them so much#(I’m mad projecting bc I want to be someone’s sidekick so badly)
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Something I like about Leo is that he’s honestly really chill? It’s easy to remember the moments where he’s being obnoxious or excitable but I feel like most of the time he’s incredibly “go with the flow” and has an overall affable demeanor.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#Genuinely speaking I feel like said demeanor is incredibly useful for when he has to charm and/or persuade people into listening to him#I have a whole post talking about Leo’s charm and how he consistently gets people to hear him out even if he’s annoyed or upset them#like they’ll still listen to what he has to say in full#his charisma stat is real and utilized quite often in this series I swear he’s not just a loser cringeboy all the time 😭#if he wants to persuade and/or charm then he honestly sooo often does#me listing the 400th reason why Leo grows up to be the worlds best ninja and a good 365 of those reasons are Leo’s various subterfuge skill#Like most episodes where he’s not the main focus (and even many where he is)#he’s a voice of reason who notices things quickly and is often the one taking point to talk down situations#something interesting I found between Leo and Mikey is that#Mikey tells people what they need to hear#Leo tells people what they want to hear#not only out of his own agenda either#when bullhop was wrecking their home leo was the one that negotiated to make the situation go smoother#even if he would have rather bullhop left#meanwhile Mikey is the one who bluntly tells things as it is#small character moment that means a lot to me#Mikey is an honest boy who is upfront about his feelings#Leo prefers to let people make their own decisions he wants them to through steering the convo in that direction#but he is easily cowed by guilt#regardless leo is a people person - he knows how to talk to them and how to manipulate/persuade#and I like that his bros know this and often push him forward to do the talking if they wanna charm someone into doing what they want#I think Leo’s hope speeches are also an example of this - he’s saying what people really want to hear (and often it’s ALSO what they NEED)#the further the series goes on the higher Leo’s inner stress rises and he just keeps that chill aura anyway#there’s a reason!!! he wanted to go to a SPA so badly!!#literally the first thing he does when he gets in is rest#no joke meditation would do him good? like- it’s a Leo thing and I genuinely think rise leo would be no different here
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Okay I know I'm the most biased person about dadmare, but you can't honestly tell me that if Cross started to mention the way xgaster treated him and his brother as children - the way an adult bullied and belittled and abused them - that it wouldn't make Nightmare see red
#UTDR#UTMV#Dadmare#Like the call is coming from inside the house again!!#Nightmare trying to be detached and collected to prove he doesn't have a familial attachment to his henchmen#And then he hears that Cross was treated badly by adults as a child and he's instantly like ''I'll kill him myself''#I just#Okay#Wick very nicely talked to me about Cross and dadmare yesterday and I'm still whipping it around like a dog with a new toy#LIKE I just think it could be a little healing for both of them#For Cross to get someone in an authoritative role who praises and appreciates him and refuses to treat him like that#And for Nightmare it must be at least a little rewarding to see someone who went through hell as a child and do everything you can to make#-them comfortable and tell them it wasn't their fault#Like I'm sure he still has stuff from his incident to process and maybe sharing it with Cross could do that#Obviously it's not 1 to 1 on what they went through but it might be similar enough to be cathartic#I don't know I just want to see them get along#I want Cross to have a father figure that would tear the multiverse in half to save him#I want Nightmare to learn to love and show it#I want 16 days off work in a row so I can lie in bed and go insane about this
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