#and someone wanting it SO BADLY

[ninyard]

🟡 Yellow for paris please? np to answer ofc

🟡 Yellow- What is something your OC wants but knows they can never have? How does it feel to never get this specific desire?

oh it hurts so bad but the US court. he never gets his chance, he never gets signed, and as much as he wants it, he knows he's just not as good as the other people waiting to get signed.

when he was in USC, in his third year, just after the championship finals ended, he broke his wrist and had to get surgery that took most of the summer to heal - and he spent even longer in physiotherapy and going easy on it to let it heal properly. it set him back quite a lot, and while he did recover from it and was able to play at a very high standard when he was able to play again, it never healed back to 100%. he's good - he went pro, he plays like his life depends on it, but he'll always have this pain that comes and goes and he feels like it really holds him back from being court.

some of it is psychological; doubt in his own abilities, being hard on himself because of just how good all the people he plays with are - he knows he has a higher chance of making court because he went to USC, but as the years keep going on and he keeps missing out on court, he loses a lot of hope.

every time he has to be subbed out because of his injury it kills him. he hates knowing that an accident that happened in university is going to hold him back from following his dream, and ultimately he never makes it. he plays on different pro teams until he retires, but he never makes the us court. no matter how much he dreams and tries and prays. he'll never be good enough.

[mikeyfrickinway]

Since I'm almost done working on em here's my demolition lovers costumes so far!

I started this in like mid/late March I believe

This is my first time doing beading ever, I probably should have started with something smaller or even tested on some scrap but I am nothing if not stupidly ambitious.

I wanna say this is roughly 14hours of work so far, I still want to add more to the dress and possibly make some accessories, we will see what I can get done by Saturday lol

[bunnieswithknives]

Obsessed with his brain

[tea-n-ink]

Homesickness is where the heart is

[myhyperfixationisiforgot]

animorphs was like yeah what if you (child soldier) promised your best friend (also a child soldier) that you would save him, and that you would kill him before letting the body-snatching parasites take him. what if you realized that you can't ever do both. you can't save him without the yeerks. you can't kill him because if he dies everyone you've ever known dies.

what if you literally have to cut him open while he screams and pleads for you to stop and kill him. he hates you for saving him. he hates himself for hating you. you hate yourself for doing it, and you hate him for making you choose. all you can do is wash the blood off and go eat dinner with your family. you will wonder if what you did was worth it for the rest of your life.

[spirk-trek]

S3E19: Requiem for Methuselah ⋆.˚ ✧ · ˚⊹ ·

[bits-and-pieces-of]

She’s his sidekick, he’s her dad, she’s his mentor, he’s her best friend. They’ve known each other for a few days, they’ve spent their whole lives looking for each other, he sees her, she understands him, they’re flawed, they’re perfect, they don’t need anyone, but it’s the two of them choosing each other against the world that betrayed them.

[turtleblogatlast]

Something I like about Leo is that he’s honestly really chill? It’s easy to remember the moments where he’s being obnoxious or excitable but I feel like most of the time he’s incredibly “go with the flow” and has an overall affable demeanor.

[respectthepetty]

Episode five and six of Happy of the End dealt with the aftermath of the death of Keito's Haoran's mother, so this Black Brooder is completely dark now.

He sits in the dark contemplating his life and how much he hates it.

And even though Chihiro brings light to his life (as well as food), Haoran remains dark.

However, Chihiro is the perfect person to lift Haoran out of this darkness because no matter how shitty Chihiro's life is, he continues to be colorful.

His family has disowned him. He gets fired from his job. Yet he is still light.

Kaji, who he considers a friend, is rude to him and belittles his relationship with Haoran, yet he stays light.

And that's why when he gets the slightest indication that Haoran needs his help, he quickly reaches out to him.

He takes Haoran from the dark into the light as they walk around the city from the night into the morning.

He gives him a gift, not only of warmth in his moment of coldness.

But also the gift of color.

And because of this one moment of warmth in Haoran's cold existence, this moment of light in Haoran's dark life, this moment of color in Haoran's black world, he believes he can die now. Is it because he has finally had a moment of joy? Is it because he thinks he will never experience it again?

It isn't clear, which isn't a problem because either way Haoran has settled into the idea that death is a suitable outcome, but Chihiro is more than willing to die right next to him, which is a problem.

Because Haoran doesn't want Chihiro to die. He doesn't want to dim Chihiro's light. He wants Chihiro to live.

And that's what gives Haoran the will to live.

Haoran isn't living for himself anymore because he isn't alone anymore.

He still has the darkness.

But he doesn't seem to be afraid of the light the way he was before. He tells Chihiro he likes him. He tells Kaji they are boyfriends.

He cries because he realizes he has something to lose, but that also means he has something worth keeping.

So even though his darkness pops up when he argues with Chihiro because he hasn't revealed his past,

Once Chihiro appears next to him in his confrontation with Maya, that color reemerges.

And he finally bares his soul and body to Chihiro and tells Chihiro how truly dark his past was.

And a shift happens.

For the first time since Haoran was a child, he is light.

Even as he is forced to run away from Maya again, he has someone to run with him. Even though his world is still dark, he sees the light.

So it's no surprise that Maya decides the easiest way to bring Haoran back into the darkness is to kill the light.

[nil-elk]

I desire women carnally, and that's okay. I want to kiss, bite, and eat women. I want to consume and be consumed. And that's okay.

[bikananjarrus]

just...thinking about how zeb was picked up by kanan and hera, two kids (basically), one of whom was also a survivor of genocide, and another whose species has been persecuted, enslaved, etc. repeatedly, and they helped him. zeb, who hadn't seen young people of his own species in so long, and as an older being, he's probably unsure of his place in the galaxy after what happened on Lasan, and having young people trust in him, look up to him, rely on him, that probably made zeb feel so needed and wanted. like, they're experienced and confident, and far wiser and more mature than maybe someone their age ought to be, because of what they've gone through. so he probably doesn't think he can teach them much.

and like zeb knows they're young; but just thinking about when that really hit him, how young they are. and how he probably vowed to look out for them, as much as they look out for him. like, thinking about how much fear he probably had in calling any place home again, after what happened to his last home. but these two young adults gave him a home, a safe place to land; they gave him their friendship and gave him a little found family to call his own after everyone he lost. and he's happy and proud to belong to a family again.

[kaptain-pastel]

oh nick,, you don’t know what your future holds

[minimafioso]

More Old Beast doodles but this time add Chuuya's clone who did NOT die, was raised by Rimbaud and Verlaine, and finds his pitiful 'true' self wasting away and losing his mind imprisoned by the gov't

[sunb0ts]

something that always gets me about klavier is that he is so clearly just like. friendly. he cares so much and he cares too much. he's one to tease simultaneously but he so clearly just like. loves and loves and loves, even when it puts him in harm's way, he likes people and he likes being around people enough to be desperate for it and for friendship like. ough

[ninyard]

he will never ever ever admit it out loud but sometimes neil feels a sort-of sadness/regret/nostalgia about who he could've been if he'd grown up in the ravens/in his father's business. when he disregards his abuse, and the way his parents treated him, he dreams about it a lot. he blames his mother sometimes because yes, sure, he would be in a dangerous business, but it was secure insofar as his father was trusted and reputable. mary caused so much added fear and paranoia and danger for neil by running. it was his father's business, one he was very good at. it was the purpose laid out for nathaniel from birth.

if neil had always been his fathers apprentice, if he’d been perfect court from the start, how much better of a player would he be, having been a raven? what kind of a person would he be? would he have turned into someone like riko, or someone like kevin? could he have stopped riko from breaking kevins hand? could he have saved jean from his abuse, or would he have been apart of it? that's the part that's difficult - if he'd grown up in his father's world, he would've grown up into his father. and neil does not like that side of himself. he does not like that he has the capacity for evil. he's scared of what he is capable of, sometimes, remembering what he inherited from his dad. so would he like to say he would've been different, that he wouldn't've participated in rikos bullshit? yes. can he? no. because he does not know what kind of a person he would've become if he'd grown up under his fathers wing. he's glad that didn't happen, of course, but he does still feel something everytime he thinks about how things would've worked out if he'd followed the path his father intended to put him on.

[vaguely-concerned]

Merrill banters I am thinking about all the time always 24/7

merrill truly will incessantly worry she's stupid and missing the point all the time and then take you out with the most beautifully worded and compassionate breakdown of the thematic spine of DA2 you've ever heard. no actually daisy I think you're the only one getting the point here slowly but surely

especially this one, actually: (also why I could see how bioware would bring merrill into DA:D on solas' side, but also I really really don't want them to because her arc is just -- it's just incredible and I don't want them to mess with it lol)

'I don't think people are cleansed by fire'. people make mistakes and you have to believe in them anyway. yeah basically that's the thesis of dragon age huh