#and some softness between them

[24-guy]

Wahoo. Car lights update. B)

[s0fter-sin]

nikolai hunting ghost down whenever they're on the same base and plucking him from whatever duties he has to whisk him away somewhere private. he has no authority, nothing more than his reputation as a rogue pilot with a few screws loose, but the way he fearlessly manhandles the ghost has people ducking out of his way anyway

behind a locked door, he offers ghost the choice of either curling up at his feet or sitting pliant in his lap, his full weight against him with his head lax on his shoulder; warm, comfortable, boneless

he then tucks his mask up above his lips and plies him with fruit and sweets; things he'd never buy for himself, indulgences he’d never entertain, wasted on a hollow shell like him

but nikolai? oh, he knows how much he deserves them; these precious moments of peace where the only thing ghost exists for is the next delicious bite

he feeds them to him one by one; thumbing strawberry juice and powdered sugar from his lips, humming in pure pleasure as he sucks it away, and smiles at ghost’s involuntary shivers when he feeds him his favourites. ghost doesn't even know what most of the sweets even are; what they’re made of or even what country nikolai buys them from. he just knows he loves them; loves the chase of nikolai’s fingers on his tongue after each one even more

nikolai always brings plenty for him, always draws it out, wanting these rare breaths of contentment to last for ghost’s sake as much as his own; offering plump bites of tart, homemade treats, letting rich chocolate melt between his fingers so it's soft in his mouth and watches his eyes flutter shut as he savours it

decadence incarnate; slow taught and hard won

ghost licks the dregs from his fingers and suckles them long after they're clean; the thought of an empty mouth so wrong to his sweet-clouded mind. nikolai coos in russian down at him, brushing his fingers through his hair as he holds him close, but he's too far away to take in any of it; the only thing holding him in the present the sugared fingers held gently in his mouth

after all, nikolai's always been his favourite sweet

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Remembrance and Forgetfulness

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[sskk-manifesto]

Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how “ability users” (opposite to “normal people”) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me

[front-facing-pokemon]

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[fisheito]

on one hand, i can make olivine the biggest juiciest bottom where eiden has to top him with climbing gear attached

on the other hand, i could make olivine the equally powerful priestly short king who only reaches eiden's bellybutton but can twirl that boy around his finger like a weighty necklace

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tom & B'Elanna give off closeted gay vibes in that I think if you asked them to describe their ideal woman and man they would respectively describe a swimsuit model (bonus: who's Not Like Other Girls) and the lead in some sort of romantic novel. Nothing even close to a real person. The most generic you can get about straight romantic and sexual attraction.

[andthesunwillalwaysshine]

guess who just watched s7e11 and is not ok that is me me is who

that scene when buffy saves spike is so powerful and so touching, i think this is def in like top 5 most emotional spuffy moments in the whole show</3333333 buffy's gaze at what they've done to him, spike's slow look of realization, the smile of relief (the look of love too and buffy staring right back at him with all the care in the world (and love but...) the touch of confirmation, the arms around the neck/arms around the back walk out </33333

... s7 them are not letting my heart rest one second and even though i strongly have questioned the writers, whoever made sure s7 them happened thank you

[gnawednoble]

i half-believe sending vitale off w varric was viago giving them a way out, if they wanted to take it. i think there's some part of him that still believes being a crow is killing/going to kill vitale. he can't tell them to leave and they can't tell him if they were planning to. the only way out is death.

and going on what already looked like an impossible task? the only way viago will ever believe rook de riva is dead is if you give him their body. that's basically canon. but would he have searched very hard for it, if varric had - at any point - written to say that rook was dead, the body mangled/burned/unrecoverable? if he felt that varric was telling the truth, sure. there's probably an expectation that they don't take reports like that at face value. if he had someone he trusted not to report to any of the others what happened or to not kill rook on sight, if he sent them to look and they discovered rook wasn't dead. but the only two people he trusts like that seems to be teia (who might be willing to let rook go, if viago was asking) and rook themself.

i don't know if viago was expecting them to take the opportunity, but he had to have known he was opening that path for them. and vitale wouldn't have, if they even noticed that it was an option. they only have a few people that they allow themself to care about and viago's one of them.

the team changes that, slowly, but they've known viago for so long... if it occurs to them later that they need to get out - because seeing so much more of the world and being able to help so many people has softened a part of them they buried a long time ago - that connection is what's going to make them hesitate the most.

[sysig]

Coming in to play! (Patreon)

[buttercup-art]

hey

[haveihitanerve]

Always Jes

Jesper cant remember if his mother eyes were warm, caramel brown, or a soft chocolate brown. He cant remember if her grip was firm yet gentle, or gentle yet firm. He cant remember, and he hates it. He hates it. He hates that hes here, in this shit hole of a city, while shes rotting underneath a cherry tree somewhere. He feels sick. He hates that shes dead. He hates that she died today, years ago. He hates that he cant tell anyone because the last thing he wants is pity. He hates that Kaz hasn't given him a job in a week, which means the only distraction he has today is gambling and drinking. And he hates doing that today. But it cant be helped. He cant think of her. Not today. “Gimme the dice.” he slurs to the dealer. The dealer raises an eyebrow, but he isn't one to deny business, even from one of his own, and hands over the dice. Before Jesper can throw them, a hand lands on his shoulder. He tries to shrug it off, return to his game, but the hand only tightens. “Let go.” he growls, whirling around ready to fight, when he comes face to face with Kaz fucking Brekker. Great. Just who he was trying to avoid. Almost as much as Inej. “lets go.” Kaz growls at him, not allowing him a chance to respond before hes dragging him away. Away from the tables, from the booze, away from all the noise and people, up and up and up the stairs until they arrive at Kaz’s office and he kicks the door open, dragging Jesper by one arm and dropping him on the couch. Theres an impatient tap to Kaz’s steps, but also something that feels frighteningly like concern in the way he looks at Jesper. “Fuck off.” Jesper rasps, trying to get that damned look off his face. “Fuck you.” Kaz responds without missing a beat, and shoves a glass of water in his hands, along with a plate of something Jesper can’t tell what it is. “Eat. Drink. Sober up.” Jesper drops the plate. The glass shatters on the floor a second later. Kaz stills. Looks at him. “Don't wanna.” Jesper murmurs, curling up on the couch, pulling his knees to his chest. He doesn't care that he just disobeyed a direct order from Kaz Brekker. Doesn't care that he ruined his floor. Doesn't care that Kaz has killed people for less. Doesn't care doesn't care doesn't care. Maybe death will be a mercy. Then he can see his Ma. Then she’ll finally tell him how disappointed she is in him. Jesper curls tighter. A shape moves in his periphery and suddenly Kaz is squatted next to him. “Jes.” The word is soft, gentle almost. “Jes.” “leave me alone.” Jesper chokes. Kaz sighs. “Sleep it off Jes. Just- sleep it off. Okay?” “Job. gotta- job tomorrow.” jesper slurs. Kaz sighs again. “Don't worry about that right now. Sleep okay?” “I- don't leave.” Jesper whimpers. He doesn't care that its Kaz. Doesn't care that he sounds pathetic. Doesn't care doesn't care doesn't care. But Kaz just nods. “Okay.” he voice is so soft. Jesper closes his eyes. “Okay Jes. Ill stay. Sleep. Ill be right here.” Jesper nods, cuddling deeper into the couch. His couch. Kaz’s couch. It smells faintly like him. His couch. Jesper feels a light touch, and a blanket is draped across him. “Sleep well Jesper.” Jesper smiles, reaching out blindly. His hand wraps around Kaz’s wrist. He can feel Kaz’s pulse. Feels it elevate. “Thanks Boss.” He slurs. Kaz’s wrist twists, and suddenly Jespers wrist is the one being held. Kaz’s voice is quiet. Soft in a way its never been. Jesper is so drunk. He knows he wont remember this in the morning. And maybe thats why Kaz says it. “Always Jes. Sleep. Ill be right here.” And Jesper doesn't care that he wont remember it in the morning. He sleeps. And feels safe.  

[hanakihan]

Some Chulwoo headcanons because why the fuck not

- both of them don’t really know when they fell in love with each other; it just happened. one moment they’re meeting purely as a hunter and a representative of KHA during one of incidents, next they’re literally living together. but truth be told it happened gradually, the more and more small meetings they had purely because of jinwoo’s (mis)adventures the more they started to learn about other. by time jinchul asked jinwoo to meet gunhee they were on close friendly terms and jinwoo easily knew how jinchul drunk (but not loved) his coffee, while jinchul knew that he and jinwoo share taste in tea. /jinwoo will never admit that his heart skipped a beat at jinchul’s relieved smile when he agreed to meet gunhee, nope. jinchul will absolutely never admit that jinwoo’s showoff in dungeon worked/

- jinwoo had a tendency to randomly appear near jinchul and thus scaring him. he ultimately stopped appearing unannounced after startled jinchul knocked him out several times with his kick or punch.

- jinwoo unironically got scared by jinchul several times after they stated to live together. first time it happened jinwoo got up to drink cocoa only to stumble in dark corridor with sleepwalking jinchul. jinchul has no idea he actually sleep walks and jinwoo doesn’t see any need in telling him so (but he’s not more careful when walking around apartment at night and makes sure his summons keep track on jinchul when it happens).

- jinwoo is one of few people that know that jinchul hates coffee but drinks it to be functional. he once brought jinchul a good cup of coffee as an apology and while jinchul’s face said nothing he saw how man’s lips slightly curved down and he had overall air of displeasure. after that jinwoo makes sure to get jinchul best brands of tea (when fucking up) or herbal tea that helps with sleep or stress relief.

- their first ‘kiss’ was absolutely not romantic. it happened after jinwoo’s awakening as monarch, angry and worried jinchul marched to jinwoo (while himself being barely allowed out of bed and having his hand in a brace) and grabbed him by hospital garb and just kept angry breathing because no words came out. man eventually gave up trying to say anything and just tiredly placed his head on jinwoo’s shoulder, jinwoo in return kissed his messy hair as a sort of comfort because he also has no words. they sat silently like that until both fell asleep in the most awkward pose.

- after that jinwoo actually found out that he likes to kiss jinchul’s hair because it’s just so fluffy and smells like citrus. first time he tried to do that after they both got out from hospital he was greeted by gel in jinchul’s hair and spent long time spitting it out.

- jicnhul accidentally found out that jinwoo is in fact a big lazy cat. he likes to be petted and scratched and has an awful tendency to lean on jinchul. he also doesn’t know what ‘personal space’ means.

- both of them are so tired and overworked they barely have time for proper meetings outside work. they even rarely spend time in each other’s apartments, but when it happens it’s usually one or both of them crashing on bed to just sleep. when things become more stable they actually buy a shared apartment because managing two separate ones is a pain.

- both of them are not morning persons, but jinchul handles it slightly better due to his working schedule. he’s still sleepy and tired but he can collect himself to get ready and even cook something easy for him and jinwoo who takes longer to get up. it’s completely reverse when jinchul knows he doesn’t need to get up early, man can sleep until lunch if someone won’t wake him up. one time it was so bad jinwoo wasn’t able to wake him up until his carried this blanket burrito to kitchen and woke him up with smell of food.

- both of them are fashion disasters, so it’s usually girls helping them out or pick casual wear. even jinwoo was actually scandalized to learn jinchul has almost to none casual wear. after girls dragged them through every cloth store jinwoo actually didn’t recognize jinchul in casual wear until jinah lost it and laughed. and then jinchul had no idea why people kept staring at him while jinwoo was annoyed people do stare at him.

- usually it’s jinchul offering jinwoo psychological comfort when jinwoo starts to fear he’s losing himself and his humanity. jinwoo can openly talk about his fears and jinchul just silently embraces him this whole time offering all the comfort he can provide. in rare instances jinchul is having a mental breakdown from work jinwoo is the one to take the burn of it, of yelling and swearing and broken furniture. he’s never angry at jinchul for that, instead offering comfort and peace when jinchul calms down and starts to regret it.

- their first actual kiss was really accidental. jinwoo leaned too much to see papers better while jinchul explained, and when jinchul turned his head jinwoo was too close so they ended up touching lips. it was really awkward because it was right in front of KHA members and gunhee.

- jinwoo knows jinchul is a really strong hunter but there’s still that irrational fear of having jinchul in a dungeon. he’s extremely happy that jinchul’s job rarely involves actual raids but when it happens he makes sure to have beru or igris to accompany him just in case.

- jinwoo never understood how exactly his animal summons ended up loving jinchul more than him. even worse is that out of them all only kamish can give any answer but dragon just huffs and proceeds to nap in jinchul’s arms like a big domestic cat after he learned how to shrunk himself. jinwoo labeled him a traitor.

- both of them try their best to not have secrets from each other. both are also self sacrificial idiots. they really try their best.

- jinchul was actually afraid of properly meeting jinwoo’s family because jinchul himself is an orphan that managed to snatch the heir of family. jinchul isn’t a coward but closer they got to door the more he wanted to run away. in the end he was warmly welcomed into family with no issues whatsoever.

- jinwoo had a crisis when he realized he actually likes when jinchul commands him. be in in daily life or in bed. especially in bed he’s more than happy to be a service top because jinchul is too tired to do anything himself.

- after sleepwalk scare fiasco jinwoo developed sleeping octopus tendencies to keep man in bed at nights. this backfired because jinchul has problems to untangle himself at mornings.

- jinchul tried to keep his relationship a secret, turns out everyone knew long time ago and placed several bets. needles to say jinchul almost murdered entire KHA stuff until betrayal from gunhee crit hit him. his own boss and father figure was the one to initiate bets. jinwoo knew but did nothing because it’s just hilarious.

- surprisingly enough they did get married, but jinwoo being jinwoo (disaster) did it any other way but not classic one. he found wedding rings in one of dungeons with insanely good stats and shared buffs. proceeded to give one to jinchul (without checking that it’s wedding rings). got them married by some outwordly weird ass way. they still have no idea how exactly it works and what more needs to be done. jicnhul theorizes they’re stuck together for life.

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: THE CITADEL (PART 2)

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Maj. Kaidan Alenko With: Councilor Donnel Udina, Councilor Tevos, Councilor Laiel Sparatus, Cmdr. Armando-Owen Bailey, and Kai Leng And a Special Guest Appearance by: The Illusive Man But sometimes the way a thing goes down does matter, Sophie. Later- when you have to live with yourself. Knowing that you acted with integrity- then it matters. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

[crowleys-bentley-and-plants]

And so now everytime i see a black lily i think of you