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I get a kick out of making post sm3 Peter, the chonic avoider of unpleasant emotions that he is, in some capacity develop a heavily idealized and watered down, stripped of all the most complex and painful parts of himself version of Harry that he has in his head. Either like, making up things Harry would say in situations to feel like heās not gone and just hear in his head or have that version be something he dreams of, etc. Always as a way to avoid having to deal with and work through his unpleasant feelings.
#at one point while writing ftd#I considered having Peter do that intentionally as a lucid dreaming sort of thing#when his relationship with Harry was at its most turbulent#because of the issues with Harry being very changed and Peter coping very poorly with change#and his need to avoid the grief that comes with accepting Harry has in fact been deeply altered by death and itās not just everything going#back to normal#and eventually having an arc of realizing how follow interacting with the dream version of Harry is#because his idealized version is flat. being so filtered means itās shallow by nature#it canāt provide a real emotional connection or depth to him.#itās not a person#and realizing he wants his boy#the real one.#going to see him late at night and having a heart to heart as the sun rises#to sort of nail in that he canāt have a real connection with something that also isnāt real#and slowly getting him to reconcile change from there#harryposting#harry osborn#raimiverse#raimi trilogy#spider man#spiderman#peter parker#corpse harry au#parksborn
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queen of diamonds, upright + reversed š
I've redone this like eighty times, I have to just be done with it now and stop staring at all my mistakes oh no š«
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 8 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 8 spoilers#coming in well after the fact but that's what happens when the art doesn't cooperate#and i just HAD to draw something for vil's ob (re-ob?) because i loved it so much#legit put my hand over my mouth and went āoh!ā when i realized what was happening#i thought it was just going to be an idia thing because. y'know. closing out his character arc from episode 6 and all#so this was like. oh! oh we're going to get ALL the inky boys!!!!!#i wonder if this is why we got a malleus flashback so early...#not to mention everyone's dreams?!#i am braced for 90% of the dreams to be kind of jokey/inconsequential because we have SO many characters to get through#and most of the time will probably be spent on our lads (literally) dropkicking their emotional problems#but i am excited to see everyone regardless!#and also kind of terrified! what on EARTH will floyd be dreaming about. do i want to know.#i do but do i want to.#man. they're probably not going to get back to it but i do wonder what silver's dream was#what was he doing when he was like 'wait a minute' and noped right out of there#lilia: here silver i made dinner :)#silver: oh boy this looks great! ...YOU'RE NOT MY REAL DAD#ouuuagh i'm still deep in the blotsauce guys and i'm loving it#come make snowangels in the ink with me it's great
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ivan and till have their first kiss, an alternate ending š
please look at this comic for context and Part 1!
#suggestive#ivantill#ivan#till#alien stage#alnst#erm. hey guys. i can explain#my feed has been feeding me too much angst ever since the nyc cards so i had to Do Something#some notes as usual. this is what i imagine what mutual ivantill is like#i am a firm believer that when till realizes his feelings for ivan he will pursue those feelings without hesitation#but bc till is a romantic he wants to do it āproperly (thatās why the way he approaches his first kiss seems gentle)#sure on a surface level i would say āIvan just wants to get to it1!1!#but despite his teasing ivan would be a mix of sweet and intense since Till reciprocated his feelings and doesnt have to hold back anymore#a true yearner at heart. bless that boy#they really shouldve been at the clurb š#ctrlzxoo art
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been thinking a lot abt fwb!gojo today.... this is his first time ever doing this kind of a thing btw. i do not think he sleeps around AT ALL. but with you, he just... you start off as very good friends but then it keeps escalating ā you start sitting closer and closer, your thighs always touching as you lounge on the couch. his hands seem to always find your waist in public, your seem to be in his hair more and more. and the thing is... satoru isn't all that good at deciphering his own feelings. he isn't entirely sure what this is; the butterflies in his stomach whenever you laugh at his jokes, the warmth that spreads under his skin whenever he sees you bend over. it's weird. he doesn't know what to do.
so, when one night you inch closer with your hand on his thigh, he lets you. he welcomes you with open arms. you ask whether it's okay or not and he lets out a shaky yes, his cheeks burning with something new, his eyes low and heavy as he stares at your lips. you feel so good on top of him, your body flushes to his and he thinks about how perfect this is. how much he likes it. the night is like a wet dream for him, something he's always dreamed off but when you leave the bed and hop into the shower without giving him a kiss, he doesn't even know what the weight on his heart means. where it comes from. he doesn't ponder over it for too long though as you step outside the bathroom in a shirt way too big, his shirt. he watches you get dressed and hums when you joke about his bed hair. he thinks you look gorgeous. he doesn't ask for you to stay ā if this is what you want, to leave without the desire to continue your adventures from the last night, then so be it. satoru wants you to be happy. you tell him it was good and that you'd like to, perhaps, do it again and he can taste you on his tongue when he says that he feels the same. satoru will take every crumb you'll give him with a smile on his face. he won't complain and he won't ask for more, not yet at least. for now, he'll be completely and utterly at your mercy, a lapdog for you to play with whenever you so desire to do. a selfless kind of love.
#this might not be everybody's satoru i realize#but idk i think he's a lonely boy who doesn't know how to deal with his feelings#he really does like you and he wants your attention#he wants your love#he just . doesn't know how to ask for it#idk ok this is also wordvomit#but yeah sad little meow meow satoru who just wants to do everything and anything for you#he's kind of a knight in this#selfless type of love yk#even got the dog motif in lmao#okok i'm sleepy so idk if any of this even makes sense just bear with me yeah#(the bear is very calm and friendly please relax)#mickey is daydreaming#angel boy#gojo x reader
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merlin told arthur his favorite color was the color of the sky during sunset when it shifted into a deep violet. arthur gets a tunic made in that exact shade. its the best thing merlin owns. arthur was hoping that would mean heād wear it almost everyday but merlin almost never wears it. the only time he does wear it is when royals come to visit (which isnāt all that often). arthur āsubtlyā asks about it and merlin is like āitās the best thing i own. iām not gonna dirty it mucking out the stables or serving rowdy knights wine while they splatter food on itā and arthur is like āwhy not wear it when nobles come to visit? look at least a little presentable for themā (cough nice save). merlin doesnāt see the point in it bc nobles donāt care about him at best, view him as less than human at worst.
arthur really just wants to see his boyfriend servant in the tunic he had made for him (bonus points for sending a message that merlin is his. not that merlin seems to notice. man is too much of an idiot). merlin wants to preserve his favorite tunic and gift from his boyfriend king.
#arthur absolutely checks him out every time he walks out in it#every ten seconds hes looking away from his guests and staring at merlin#merlin only realizes about half the time#that hes staring. not that heās checking him out.#arthur noticed the few nobles staring at merlin like a hot piece of ass#he keeps merlin in his chambers with a list of chores to complete#it keeps him busy until the visiting noble is gone#arthur desperately wants merlin to wear the damn tunic to get the nobles to back off#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#THAT FUCKING PURPLE TUNIC LIVES IN MY HEAD RENT FREE#WHAT WAS THE REASON#i hc merlins favorite color is purple bc out in ealdor he was surroubded by green brown and beige#with the occasional red from the blood of livestock#but when the sun went down after a long day and he and will lay out in the field behind his moms house#heād see the rich violet of the sky and fall in love#but since yknow peasant boy he can only afford red and blue clothing so thats what he gets#hc#head canon#headcanon#fanfic#fanfiction#fic idea
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FLUFFY GUY HAS MADE HIS FIRST ORBIT OF THE SUN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEPLER! ššš«
#from wee little bean to giant fuzzy honse#i cant believe my baby boy has grown up so fast š#i am so so glad i ended up with him. i didnt even have a lot in mind besides 'i want a boy collie' but he's so absurdly gd charming#he genuinely is friends with everyone. cats dogs people kids. impossible not to love#the first day i brought him home he was in the yard exploring and i said 'yay good boy whos a good boy' etc#and i just suddenly started sobbing bc i hadnt said those words in so long and i didnt realize until then when the last time i'd said them#and he just kind of looked at me like. :) 'hi im babey :)'#and that was when it was really like. yeah actually i think i am going to be ok#love you buddy ā¤ļø here's to a lifetime of adventures together#pls stop peeing in my house
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Rick Grimes in The Ones Who Live | 1x04 - What We
#*CASH REGISTER NOISE* *DOGS BARKING* *GLASS BREAKING*#Rick Grimes#towl spoilers#The Ones Who Live#*#rg#excuse me but The Noseā¢#his face when he realized she said children#let him cuddle his baby boy#I CANNOT#HOW DOES HE KEEP GETTING MORE ATTRACTIVE WHAT KIND OF WITCHCRAFT IS THIS#what's in your water out in the cotswolds man#all those fuzzies#stab me with an entire home depot aisle of rakes#I SAID#F U Z Z I E S#i never win i am winning#bless all the lines on your face#they beautiful and sacred#if you don't want to nuzzle into that beard i don't trust you tbh#im putting you on a watchlist#nice rack rick
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hey i dont go here but jayce's speech about viktor in s2e9 isn't him saying 'u should never have tried to heal yourself, you were perfect the way u were x3' it was him saying that viktor's physical health never made him any less beautiful, never made him any less important, never made him any LESS, period. he wasn't saying viktor didn't need to pursue a cure for his ills like come on his motivation to invent hextech was to help people. to cure disease. viktor's first and foremost among them.
he said what he said because it was the thing viktor craved to hear most in his life, and that is why those were the words that punched through his defences even as the machine herald: jayce loved him wholly and unconditionally, healthy or ill, good or bad, human or inhuman. he would always be loved just the same.
#jayvik#arcane#like i said i dont go here but u cant slander my boy or that moment i wont stand for it#and yes as someone who is chronically ill i would know if it was ableist LOL (yes yes media is subjective but come the fuck on ppl i beg)#viktor's reaction to seeing inside jayce's mind really cinches it#he had fully given up on ever being loved in that way#romantic or platonic or some secret third thing whatever he had written it ALL off#so he is visibly shaken when he realizes that jayce LOVES (capital italicized underlined bold font) him and everything he is and ever was#jayce's love for viktor literally saves the entire world (also ekko W)#anyway if u wanted my onion i would say viktor didn't allow himself to consciously love jayce in return until that moment#like his need to have jayce be near him and work with him and approve of his actions even AFTER he loses his humanity is very telling#but i do think a lot of that was sort of his subconscious acting out deeply repressed desires#then when jayce confesses he finally understands (it was always about them)#anyway idk when we'll see another relationship like this in media again!!! holy shit!!!!!!!!!!
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SQH prompt since you asked for one in the tags of that one post.
SQH and SQQ on their cart journey to get the sun moon dew mushroom seeds!
Thanks for the suggestion! I love their stupid little roadtrip together xD although this quickly became less about me figuring out SQH's hair/robes and more about me figuring out how in the world to draw a horse drawn carriage... SQQ needs to use his sword more just so I can avoid this
#poor ZZL is being bullied...#svsss#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#cumplane#zhuzhi lang#sqh#sqq#zzl#...i gave zzl the same braids i did in his his human form but i'm realizing there's a critical lack of hands for braid them with#i would love to know how zzl's first few days with limbs went that must have been fun#is there a fic about that? poor snake boy needs to figure out not just opposable thumbs but also LEGS god help him#my art#though speaking of being bullied i was rereading zzl's snake descriptions again and sqq's āDonāt panic. | want to go fishing.ā KILLED me#dude BLOWS ZZL OUT OF THE WATER WITH A TALISMAN BOMB#what a fucking day this snake is having - significantly funnier once you realise he's not a random snake monster mook#zzl gets thrown in the air like a dead fish by his cousin's bizarre crush before he ever meets lbh himself
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Tender.
(Simon Riley Ć Reader)
He closes the door behind, as a pair of hands reach out to touch his shoulders, before they softly tug on the top of his attire. A sigh leaves his lips when you peel the heavy layer off him, freeing him from the stuffy suit.
You smile at him as he loosens his tie, and you hold out your hand to take it.
He watches you as you fold his suit, and set it down on the stool. Leaving it there to be laundered in the morning.
It's a sight he never thought he'd see, and the one he never got used to.
He wonders if Price ever thought the same.
"Never thought you'd settle down, Captain."
He saw his friend grinned, and his eyes crinkled with amusement.
"Never thought you'd bring someone either, Simon." He chuckled before he patted his back, "A beautiful one, too."
He quietly smiled, while his eyes searched for his lover unconsciously.
Lover.
What an easy word to say, for a tangled mess it left behind.
"Ohā¦" He heard his friend sighed, as he saw the bride bow down to let a tiny, curious hand touch the mantilla. "Look at her. What I won't do to see her smile."
He let out a snort when he saw his friend softened at the sight of her. Captivated. And tender-struck.
He'd call him mad, if he wasn't affected by it.
Just a little shift of his gaze, he found himself staring at a serene faceāthat is yours. His heart thrummed when you smiled at the little boy, who shyly hid from the bride behind you and his mother.
A sight that'd plague him for a lifetime.
He blinked, as her voice called him to the present.
"You've been quiet for a while now." She mused, "What's on your mind?"
He looks at her, and notes the way you press your lips together, waiting. "Nothing." Is all he said.
You didn't press it further, and he didn't know if it's alright to keep it that way. You knew that it was a lie, you both knew that, but you didn't show it. You understood him, and he yet again took advantage of it.
You give him a small smile, before you turn to the mirror.
That's when his silence falters.
He knew you didn't turn your back on him, and that you only looked away to unclasp your necklace. But his body tenses up, and compels itself to move towards her.
You're at a halt when his hands pull you into him all of the sudden, while his face is buried in the curve of your nape. "I love you." You heard him whisper, and for a moment, you almost thought he bit his tongue from stating further.
"I know." You murmured against his hair, as you stroked his cheek tenderly.
"I didn't deserve it." He spoke in a low toneāa tone that's reserved for confession.
"It's not your place to judge." You replied to him.
"I didn't love you the way you needed."
"You did. A million times in fact."
"I took your love for granted." His voice trembled when he spoke, "I took advantage of your kindness, and I made you think that you love me, even whenā"
"Simon."
He didn't resist it when you took his hands into yours, as you stared into his eyes.
"I didn't love you against my will, I chose this myself." You told him, "You never forced me into this. If anything, I should be blamed for it, because I want you."
You give his hand a squeeze as an assurance.
"You're enough for me, Simon."
His eyes widen, before they soften up by your touch. He reaches up to hold your hand, and presses them against his face.
"You're too good for me." He said as he kissed you palm.
"Learn to live with it." You chuckled, "Because I'm not going anywhere."
"I wouldn't dream of it."
He recites the same promise, as he presses his lips against your finger. A kiss, that'll someday be replaced when he's on his knee.
#call of duty#cod#cod mw2#ghost cod#ghost x reader#simon riley x reader#fluff#crying because I wanted to write him but I donāt have a feeling for him. but he's such an interesting character#it's like a torture when you want to write it but you don't want to but then you want to#anyway#boy got panicked when he saw his friend get married#and realized he wants a family of his own too#like#ok bestie........ she'll probably say yes. have some courage
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kacchan really is so funny for being like BUT WHAT ABOUT BAKUDEKU CANON when he finds out izuku is quirkless
#bakudeku#bkdk#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha leaks#he really is like WHAT ABOUT US#WHAT ABOUT EVERYTHING WE BEEN THROUGH#izuku is such a Gabriella too he DO be running away from his feelings every chance he gets#what about US IZUKU WHAT ABOUT OUR MARRIAGE#WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS MANGA IF WE ARENT MARRIED#and Izuku is like oh no my baby is on too many painkillers hahaha heās not proposing to me right now thatās silly#if he was proposing that would mean he loved me and I canāt accept that reality Iām too much of a burden#I canāt think of myself long enough to realize I am valued#two months ago Izuku was like :) Iām so blessed kacchan talks to me almost normally#how is he supposed to process he was just proposed to by that same boy#like heās also just gone through almost losing him heās probably like Iām lucky heās alive and breathing near me#and kacchanās like I LOVE YOU I WANT YOU FOREVER#Izuku is overwhelmed ok give him some slack
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i feel like some people forget pen has been pining after colin for three seasons. twenty episodes of home girl being love sick over this man, colin just needed to catch up. to realize him looking for pen in every ballroom, only feeling comfortably seen by his best friend, is something more. thatās why there is no slow burn. those twenty episodes have been the slow burn!
#hate to be one of those hoes to be like āin the bookā#butttt colin states several times that he didnāt realize his feelings / how strong they were until he kissed her#and opened his damn eyes#looked at her and realized wow sheās fucking amazing and iāve always had her iām dumb for not seeing it before#also saw some ppl say they feel like they donāt know him like the other boys#which babeā¦he has no purpose except traveling#and iām sure that will come into play in part two#him wanting a purpose etc etc#STOP COMPLAINING AND COMPARING EVERY SEASON TO HAPPEN OR COME TO S2#ok bye thanks#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#polin#here laur goes again..
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King and Joker
The bats were confused when Joker announced he gained a companion. His partner (or sidekick) is strong and has too many powers but looks sad. They tried to ask him if something was wrong but he remained silent. Joker liked to call him "The King", but he insisted that he was only "Phantom". The clown didn't care and continue with the nickname.
"King Phantom" tends to ignore when civilians are evacuated, feign ignorance when someone tries to escape, and has offered the bats bandages and medicine a couple of times. But when The Joker is present he becomes completely desperate and aggressive, as if he is fighting for something.
On the other hand, Joker got a completely new weapon, it was a green sphere that produced lightning but Phantom winced every time he saw him use it. On one occasion Tim swore he heard him whisper "Ellie".
Danny was scared, Ellie was unstable and anything he did could be fatal. When he arrived in Gotham looking for her missing core he didn't expect to find it in the hands of a clown. The clown realized that he had something to bribe him (although he didn't know how important it was) and began to order him around.
Danny hated it, he held back most of the time because he was fighting humans, not revealing many of his powers. And he would have killed the clown a thousand times if it weren't dangerous for Ellie. Joker would never break away from the core by saying it was "good luck", and would lock it in a ghost-proof cell, which is probably where he found it originally. The halfa just wanted his the girl back.
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dpxdc#Joker is not an idiot#he realized the sphere was important for the boy#and started bribing him with it#He found the core on an glowing cell inside a warehouse#and he took it thinking it was radioactive#it was not but it included a powerful meta searching for it#and he took advantage of that#The bats are confused#Phantom acts different depending if the clown is there or no#How Ellie ended on a warehouse in Gotham is up to you#Joker thinks the core is a weapon#he doesn't understand why Phantom wants it#but he is not giving it back#Phantom as Joker sidekick#his new name is The King#but he still preferred Phantom#he gave up with the Joker calling him something different tho#Ellie is healing inside her core#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc crossover#the joker#dani phantom#the king
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Stepbrother Eddie who just wanted to protect his innocent little brother and thought that no one would ever deserve his baby.
Heād chase off Steveās new boyfriends and return home with bloody knucklesāa result of his wrathābecause how dare they lay their dirty hands on Steve?
Every day, when Steve came back from school, heād check Steveās pretty cunt to make sure the omega hadn't let some random alphas take his virginity.
If it required him to use his tongue and fingers for a thorough inspection, then no one would be the wiser. And if he knotted Steveās cute ass once or twice every time before he fell asleep with a purring omega in his arms, then it was a little secret between him and his baby.
In the end, Eddie was the one who took Steveās virginity because no one could protect his omega better than him.
#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#omega verse#omega steve harrington#alpha eddie munson#manipulative steve harrington#possessive eddie munson#every time steve got a new boyfriend eddie'd see red and become feral#steve has a huge crush on his stepbrother but he didn't realize what it really was until eddie knotted his ass for the first time#steve wanted to make sure eddie's feelings for him was real so he kept introducing eddie to his 'boyfriends'#and eddie had played right into his hands š¤#eddie called steve 'bambi' btw#'cause steve used to be a clumsy little boy with big doe eyes and soft long legs#he still is tbh#sionewritesatmidnight
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Senior Year Au
Former Rat Grinders all spend the rest of Junior year and all of summer break in therapy, both individually and as a group. It's a lot of work, but they're coming back together in the aftermath in a healthier more sustainable way. (The empty places among them leave them feeling a mix of complicated emotions.)
Mary Ann still maintains her relationship (???) with Gorgug. (They're not asking many questions because Mary Ann gives few answers.) Lucy is good friends now with The Bad Kids, but Kristen especially. Even Ruben is on decent terms for the most part.
Ivy and Oisin had it much harder. They don't remember everything, but they remember enough to make the weight of it heavy on their shoulders, Oisin especially for the large part he and his magic had played.
Ivy had never been one to blatantly apologize. She's always been a bit catty, though never like that before. Still, before the school year ends she (very politely) asks Mazey for a moment of her time.
Mazey, a much kinder person, agrees and they step aside somewhere a little more private. (For however brief a time it was, Mazey did feel what the rage from that shatter star felt like. It's a large factor in her giving Ivy this chance.)
Ivy, as much as it visibly pained her to say the actual word sorry initially, does genuinely apologize. She's blut about it, and doesn't shy away in the least from the acknowledgement of how fucked up the things she said were.
They talk for a bit, and while it's hard to imagine they may ever be friends, both girls leave the conversation feeling closure on the topic.
Mazey ends up talking to Fabian about it, so of course the Bad Kids know.
Oisin talks briefly with Fabian Seacaster one day, extending an apology for the damages to him home, and passes along information so Oisin can ensure financial compensation is had.
The apology to Fabian is appreciated, but talking about it later the Bad Kids hone in on the fact that Oisin hasn't spoken to Adaine even once, to apologize for the taunt he's sent her or for-
Adaine abruptly says she doesn't want to talk about it, and ignores the fact that he exists entirely.
Oisin doesn't talk to them once the rest of Junior Year, even tho the rest of his team does. The Bad Kids think him a coward, and while Oisin would agree with them, the Rat Grinders look at each other with tight lips.
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Oisin struggles greatly with his actions. He had been, essentially, Kipperlily's right hand. His magic had allowed Kipperlily access into, and away from, the Bad Kids Last Stand where she had killed Buddy. (They do not know where he is, but they've sworn to each other to find him.) His magic had laid the trap in Seacaster Manor, his summoning calling the Nightmare King Storm and his relatives who swarmed a house-boat filled with innocents.
Jawbone does help them get an actual accredited therapist, which is something Oisin feels great relief about, as it makes it easier to talk about some aspects of his time under the shatter-star.
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Like the fact that prior to all this, he did have a very genuine crush on Adaine Abernant.
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How couldn't he? She was beautiful yes, stunningly so, but more importantly she was smarter than a whip and a phenomenal wizard, unafraid to get her hands dirty. Even as short, scrawny dragonborn with glasses that felt too big for his snout at the time, he'd held the girl in very high esteem.
Oh he'd never ever dare to talk to her, for all that his friends may have once tried to encourage it during freshman year. He'd known even then that the elven girl was far out of his league.
While he wasn't a true dragon, Oisin's family had strong blood ties still, and the bleed over was still strong. Strength was important to them, and fighting the other was the first step in courtships between Dragons for a large variety of reasons. He'd been so scrawny, and a untested young wizard to boot, that he couldn't fathom ever being strong enough to match up to a girl like her. He's certainly endured enough scrutiny for his lack of battle prowess at home.
So no, Oisin hadn't thought that he would ever be a good match for such a girl, but he could hoard tender feelings about her in his chest, and nobody could do or say anything about it. At most he would endure some playful teasing at the time but he'd always reassure his friends it was alright.
"Not every unrequited love is bitter." Oisin told them once, smiling softly as he pulled his eyes away from where Adaine was walking to join her friends for lunch further out in the quad. "Statistically, high school romances don't work out. This is just...an equation that doesn't result in a positive answer. No use being angry at the numbers, the math won't change." He says.
Lucy had frowned, "Life isn't a math question Oisin."
"Yes it is," Oisin's responded, "it's just one of the unsolvable ones." His grin turned into a yelp when Ivy had dragged him down to try to noogie him, and they had all laughed and left the topic alone.
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When he had first been raged out, he hadn't felt bitter. He felt strong and powerful and didn't need the distractions. But when Adaine had spotted him at the party to talk, after he'd grown tall and bulked out from the hours pumping iron to burn off the excess anger-
She only noticed him when he'd already been on his way to hell. That's when he started feeling bitter.
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Oisin has so many complicated emotions and guilts eating away at him. He desperately wants to apologize to Adaine Abernant, to lay his heart bare so she may deliver his due judgement and strike true.
But more than anything, he needs to sort himself out first. He would not risk apologizing, not when his heart still ached, not when anyone could possibly notice and decide his apology was motivated by selfish wants instead of true remorse.
So Oisin does not speak to any of them the rest of that year or over the summer, even as the others will tag along with Lucy and Mary Ann sometimes to join the Bad Kids for an afternoon. He goes to therapy, reads self books, and painstakingly does his best to bleed the love for Adaine Abernant out of his heart. He knew the statistics when he fell in love, he'd have to do this one day or another.
Finally, first day of Senior Year, Oisin follows his party to where the remaining Bad Kids are.
He's spotted immediately, he knows because Riz Gukgak goes tense and starts furiously whispering, the Bad Kids exchange hushed words Oisin is too far to hear, but Adaine Abernant meets his gaze for a long moment.
Then she turns and leaves.
Oisin isn't surprised, but he does watch her leave for perhaps longer than he should have, before quickening his steps to catch up with the others.
The Bad Kids, as alright as they are with the others, glare at Oisin. Ivy beside him is tense, but bumping his tail against the back of her calves is his way of telling her this is alright.
He gives brief apologies, for the storm and those of his family who had attacked them all on his request.
Then, he quietly asks them to pass on a message to Adaine.
"I would like to apologize to her but-" He clears his throat under the pressure of the glares he's receiving. "If she doesn't want to hear it I understand completely."
Oisin doesn't give much time for a response, dipping his head and giving a quick goodbye as he prepared to go find his locker before classes.
"Oisin-" Lucy calls as he starts stepping away from the group.
"It's alright," Oisin murmers, thinking back to a warm fall day in the quad during freshman year. "I already knew the outcome of this equation."
"Life's not a fucking math problem, love." Ivy says, arms crossed defensively. Nobody else talks, and Oisin can feel the glares of the Bad Kids burning into his scales.
"Yes it is," he reminds them. "It's just a messy, unsolvable one." Oisin's smile is soft and tired. It is the smile of a man who's been resigned to his fate his whole life.
He'd always knew he'd never been or would ever be worth even a moment of the beautiful, amazing Elven Oracle's time.
He'd run the math, and it was no use being mad at numbers that wouldn't change.
Oisin turned and left.
#inkblade#adaine x oisin#adaine abernant#oisin hakinvar#poor boy has a long journey ahead of him#i do think he'll get to apologize one day but its a far longer road until the day he realizes he might have been wrong in his calculations#cause his unrequited love isn't a lost cause just yet#the bad kids have MANY questions but also dont want the dragon boy anywhere near adaine#dimension 20#d20#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#fhjy spoilers
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