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There is one thing I need and that's Viktor's head on my chest, you know, imagine he came from work all tired and stressed and then reader is there, waiting for him with dinner ready and before sleep she holds him all lovingly and rest his head between her breasts and he just lay there between consciousness and sleepiness, holding and toying with her boobs just because they're squishy and warm 💕
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𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐢 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐬𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐝 (ෆ˙ᵕ˙ෆ)
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The apartment was quiet, bathed in the warm amber glow of the setting sun, casting long shadows across the walls. A gentle breeze filtered through the open window, carrying with it the faint sounds of Piltover’s bustling streets, but here… here, in this little sanctuary you’d built together, it was peaceful.
You stood in the kitchen, carefully ladling hot soup into two ceramic bowls, the comforting aroma of herbs and roasted vegetables filling the air. A fresh loaf of bread, still warm from the oven, sat on the counter, and you’d set the table with care—nothing extravagant, just a soft candle and folded napkins, the kind of touch that made a house feel like a home.
Viktor was late again.
You’d stopped worrying about it, not because you didn’t care, but because this was his rhythm—long hours at the lab, his brilliant mind always burning, pushing the boundaries of science. But no matter how caught up he got in his work, he always came home to you. Always.
As if on cue, the faint, familiar sound of his key turning in the lock reached your ears. You glanced up, wiping your hands on a dish towel, a soft smile already forming. The door creaked open, and there he was—Viktor, framed in the doorway, exhaustion clinging to him like a heavy coat.
His coat was half-off his shoulders, his gait a little slower than usual as he leaned on his cane. The dark circles under his eyes spoke of long hours and little rest, but when his gaze found yours, something in him seemed to loosen.
“You’re home,” you said softly, stepping forward to meet him.
A small, tired smile tugged at the corners of his lips. “I am,” he murmured, voice rough with fatigue, as though the very act of speaking took effort.
You closed the distance between you, hands coming to rest gently on his arms. “Long day?”
He let out a breath that was almost a laugh, though there was no humor in it. “You could say that.”
“Come,” you whispered, guiding him toward the kitchen. “I made dinner. You need to eat.”
For a moment, he looked like he might argue, but the warmth of your touch and the promise of food seemed to sap the fight from him. He allowed himself to be led, sinking into a chair with a soft sigh, leaning his cane against the wall.
You set a bowl of soup in front of him, along with a thick slice of bread, and watched as he ate—slowly, methodically, like someone too tired to fully engage but aware that his body needed the nourishment.
He didn’t say much, but his free hand found yours on the table, his thumb stroking absently over your knuckles, grounding himself with your touch.
When the meal was finished, you cleared the dishes, gently brushing off his mumbled attempts to help. “Go lie down,” you said, pressing a soft kiss to the top of his head. “I’ll be there in a minute.”
Viktor didn’t argue. That, more than anything, told you how drained he was.
By the time you joined him in the bedroom, he was already half-undressed, his shirt discarded on the floor, leaving him in just his trousers. He sat on the edge of the bed, shoulders hunched, elbows resting on his knees, staring down at the floor as though he couldn’t quite summon the energy to move.
Wordlessly, you climbed onto the bed behind him, wrapping your arms around his waist, pressing your cheek against his bare back. His skin was warm, his muscles tense beneath your touch.
“Come here,” you whispered, tugging gently until he let himself be pulled back into your arms, into bed.
He all but collapsed against you, his head finding its natural place—nestled between your breasts, the softness of you cradling him like something sacred. You settled back against the pillows, one arm draped loosely around his shoulders, the other threading through his tousled hair, scratching your nails lightly against his scalp.
A soft, shuddering sigh escaped him, and you felt him melt, the tension bleeding out of his body as he let himself be held.
“Mm…” he murmured, already half-lost to that warm, hazy place between wakefulness and sleep. “You are very soft.”
You smiled, tracing slow circles along his back with your fingertips. “I know.”
His arm came around your waist, pulling you just that fraction closer, and his hand found its familiar place—resting gently over one of your chest, his fingers splayed, warm and absentmindedly toying with the flesh there.
It wasn’t sexual. Not really. It was comfort, a ritual you’d both fallen into without ever really discussing it.
“You do this every time,” you teased softly, your voice a lazy murmur.
“Can you blame me?” His voice was thick with sleep, muffled against your skin. “They are… very pleasant.”
A quiet laugh bubbled up, and you felt the corners of his lips curve into a small, lazy smile against your chest.
“Mm,” he hummed, giving a gentle, idle squeeze, his thumb brushing over your skin in slow, hypnotic circles. “Warm… and soft…”
You could feel him slipping, his body growing heavier, breaths slower.
“You work too hard,” you whispered, pressing a kiss to the top of his head.
A soft sound of agreement rumbled in his chest, but there was no fight in him, not now, not when he was so thoroughly enveloped in you, your warmth, your scent, the steady rise and fall of your breathing.
“You should sleep,” you murmured, your fingers still moving through his hair.
“I am sleeping,” he whispered back, though the smile in his voice betrayed him.
A few more minutes passed like that—quiet, warm, intimate. His hand grew heavier, his touch slowing until it was just the faintest, unconscious brush of his fingers.
“I love you,” he whispered, so softly you almost missed it, like a secret meant only for the space between your heartbeats.
“I love you too,” you whispered back, holding him just a little tighter.
And there, with his head resting on your chest, the sound of your heart in his ear, Viktor finally let the world go.
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Like ‘Em Weird - Steven Grant x reader
Warnings: bri’ish reader, non explicit sex, snogging tf out of Steven, general embarrassment, slight jerk Marc
Words: 4k
Rating: M
Summary: A fast moving relationship halts abruptly when the cute guy you met at a cafe wakes up a completely different person.
or
How you helped Steven figure out his body has multiple tenets, and that he doesn’t mind sharing it it’s you
I haven’t actually finished Moon Knight, so any inconsistencies or straight up false stuff is on me. Other guy isn’t here because I haven’t met him yet
Whipping up 1-5k oneshots while I can't get even ten in on my wip is such a me thing it's not even laughable anymore
Also! I have read a lot about DID and talked with friends who have it, and the portrayal of the reader does not represent kind or correct treatment of people with such issues at all, just wanted to be clear that I as the author know that and this isn’t any sort of handbook
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“You gonna talk to me or just keep staring?”
Steven blinks, immediately feeling his hands and cheeks go hot.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t realize I was staring–!” He quiets as you stand and drag your metal chair the few feet across the cafe patio to his table, plopping into it.
“Hi.” He murmurs, eyes dropping to his lap as he wrings his hands.
”Hey,” You reach your hand over the table, flashing a smile, introducing yourself.
“Steven Grant.” He shakes it, adjusting in his seat.
“No worries, by the way. I never know how to start a conversation either.”
“I am so sorry, really, I hadn’t noticed. I uh, I don’t do that, I swear, I was just sort of spaced out.” He sucks in a breath and lets it out slowly, running a hand through his hair to get it off his face. “I don’t usually see a lot of pretty girls around, not ones that I find pretty– well, I mean there’re plenty of pretty girls, just not as– you just…” he swallows, wishing he could sink far enough into his chair to disappear from the face of the Earth.
“God I wish I could start over.” He says.
“This conversation, or since you started staring?”
“My life at this point.”
“Take as long as you need.” You grin.
“My name’s Steven, I work in a gift shop.”
“At the museum?”
“Yeah,” he nods, sitting up straighter.
“I knew it, I’ve seen you before! I love that place.”
“Ah! Me too! It’s ahm, probably about my favorite place in the world.”
He goes off about something having to do with history, half of which you don’t quite follow, but you listen anyway.
He tells you about several different exhibits from the museum he works at, stuff that isn’t on the little plaques, going on tangents here and there about the origins of popular misconceptions.
“…and that’s just off the top of my head; numerous examples of it.” He takes a sip of his coffee, suddenly seeming to realize something.
“Shit. Im sorry, I’ve been talking entirely too much. You want to tell me about you?”
“No, it’s cool, I get it.” You laugh. “You read a lot.”
“Oh loads, anything that interests me, I love books.”
“Music's my thing.” You say.
“Oh, do you play?”
“Nah, I collect. CDs mostly, vinyl sometimes.” You finish your drink, setting your cup aside.
“I’d love to get into it, but I should be going. Do you wanna get dinner sometime?” You ask.
“Yeah,” he nods and you pull out your phone, handing it to him to put his number in.
“I’m vegan, but anywhere you like is fine though. Saturday work?” He says.
“Saturday’s brilliant.” You click your phone closed when he turns it back to you, tucking it back in your pocket.
“Brilliant.”
“I’ll call you with the place. See ya then.”
“See ya.”
Saturday rolls around, and you get off the bus to a lovely little Indian place with a bounce in your step.
You had double checked thy had plenty of vegan options, spending the last few days trying and failing not to text Steven every half hour.
“Sorry! I got put on inventory again.” Steven huff as he bounds up to you, making you feel a little silly as he’s all dressed up.
“You’re right on time actually. I just came early.”
“Oh, thank goodness.” He says, exhaling heavily and straightening his back.
He holds up a “Um, these are for you.”
“Oh my God.” You smile, taking them from him and turning them over.
“I hate flowers, but that has got to be about the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me.”
“Sorry, I’ll uh, I’ll remember that.”
“Nothing to be sorry about, I appreciate it. Shall we?” You gesture to the restaurant door.
“Oh– Of course,” Steven sidesteps to hold open the door for you, and you both head in.
Seated with your food on the way, you look your date up and down expectantly, to which he sets his drink down and explains.
“I am keeping my mouth sealed unless spoken to. Even if it means I’m staring.” He jokes at the end with a smirk.
“Sure you’re going to be able to stick to that?” You tease, taking a long sip from your mango lassi.
“Sure am. Talk to me.”
So you do.
You tell him all about where your from, your favorite band, the kinds of movies and shows you like, and he chimes in with his own, careful not to dominate the conversation with his preferred topics, which as much as you love the sound of his voice, you’re grateful for.
“You know there’s something special about you maybe.” He says when you’re about finished with your meal. “I feel like I just click with you. Is that weird?”
“No, it’s not weird.” You shake your head, meeting his eyes. “That’s not weird at all.”
You walk with him down the street, hands in your pockets from the slight chill, but keeping close enough your arms are almost touching.
It’s quiet, and it’s a comfortable quiet, but you can’t help but feel nagged at by a lack of something.
You come to an intersection, and Steven turns to you.
“Well, thank you, for going out with me.” You take him in, framed in the streetlight, messy hair and nice clothes, pretty eyes catching the light.
“I hope you have a great rest of your night–”
You push him against the brick wall of the building closest and catch his lips in a kiss, startling him as his hands hover over your shoulders, then your arms, before finding your back and waist, pulling you close.
He kisses back confidently at first, then out of sync, then trying to pull away, saying something muffled.
“Good?” You break the kiss to ask, wetting your lips.
“Yeah. S’prised me’s all.” He says, breathing heavy. “I just wanted to say I think you’re gorgeous.”
You pull him back into it with almost feverish urgency, pushing your tongue past his lips and to the roof of his mouth where you find his and press and move against it roughly, hand finding the back of his head to tilt just enough to have the perfect angle to explore.
You recede to let him breathe and Steven catches a dribble of spit with the back of his hand, looking mortified as he having no where else wipes in on his coat.
You bite your tongue to keep from laughing, wiping his bottom lip with your thumb.
“Sorry,” he mumbles. “Sorry that’s gross, I dunno if I’ve ever been kissed like that, I’ve no idea how,” he wipes his lips again.
“It’s not like movies. Very, very wet.”
“You talk a lot for someone who stares.”
“In the restaurant. Out here I’ve dropped it now. You know I don’t know if I want to be remembered as that guy in your head.”
“Something else, then?”
“I’m cool with gift shop guy.” He says as you give him lighter pecks on the mouth.
“Much better than spaced out Steven.” You giggle, tracing his cheekbone around back to his ear and down his beck, letting your thumb slip under his collar as you press your forehead against his.
“Yeah well, I find it hard to get a good night’s sleep.”
“I’d like to get a good one with you.”
“Hmnn?” His eyes flit to your lips and then back up to yours, bewildered.
“Oh, oh you mean!” He pulls back and gives an enthusiastic nod, a wide smile on his face.
“Hells yeah.”
“I like your apartment,” Steven says under his breath between dizzying kisses in your entryway, watching you alternate between his throat and kissing him with utter fascination, unsure how to keep up or what to do with just how expertly you’re making him fall apart.
“You haven’t seen it yet.”
You pull him by the wrist through your living space, past the couch to your bedroom, where you shut the door and shuck off his jacket.
“Do you have a condom?” He asked before you can devour any attempts he has at talking again with your mouth.
“Yeah, one sec.” You dig around in your nightstand drawer, pulling one out and turning back to give Steven a gentle shove onto the bed, climbing atop him and undoing his buttons with your free hand.
“I can’t believe this is really happening,” Steven says when you finish with his top and strip off your own, tearing the condom open and sitting back on your haunches. “This is unbelievable.”
You grab him by the chin, making his heart skip a beat. “Let’s aim for unforgettable.” You say.
Steven lays on his back, hands on his chest, having finally caught his breath.
“That was lovely.” He says.
“Lovely?” You repeat, stretching your spine, side eying him.
He turns on his elbow you look at you. “Lovely. Amazing. Mind blowing. All of the above.”
“Been awhile?” You chuckle, tracing his collarbone to his shoulder before hooking your arm over it.
“You have no idea.” As lost in your eyes he is, he pulls away to check the time, sitting up.
“I um, I should get back to my apartment,” he moves to get off the bed, and you sit up after him, catching his wrist. “Hey wait. Don’t be ridiculous, stay.”
“No, I uh…” Steven stops himself, not wanting to mess this up. If he told you he had some weird sleep condition, that he literally bolted himself to his bed to sleep every night for fear of missing hours or waking up places he didn’t recognize, he was certain that was the kind of thing that would scare you off.
That look you're giving him, that half lidded, cocksure smile, still topless and not even trying to cover it, it’s convincing enough on its own.
“That’d be just fine. Yeah. Yeah okay.” He relaxes back into the bed and you lean up and kiss him.
“Great.” You murmur, pulling him in and tugging the covers back over you.
Maybe just one night would be fine.
Marc wakes up in an unfamiliar room, with an unfamiliar woman in bed next to him.
You stir, burrowing your face into the pillows before you feel the bed spring back, blinking your eyes open and pulling yourself up just enough to see him retrieving his clothes from the floor.
“Hey, no rush, it’s Sunday, come ‘ere.”
“I’m sorry, you seem nice and all, but I was not supposed to wake up here.”
“What happened to your accent?” You laugh humorlessly, brow knitting.
“Accent? Jesus, I don’t have time for this, I’ve got to be in Madripoor in like two hours, that idiot was supposed to be back at his apartment.”
He gathers up the rest his things as he mutters to himself. “Yeah yeah I know, I can get to the justice after I get back to his apartment and sort things out there. I swear if this is what gets him… yes. Of course I’m grateful. I will handle it.”
“Hey, wait!” You pull a t-shirt and pajama pants on, following him into your living room, but by then he’s already got his shoes on.
He opens and struts right out your front door without another word, slamming it behind him.
Monday afternoon you take your lunch break to head down to he museum, stomping right up and into the corner gift shop, where sure enough, Steven sits twiddling a pen while he reads.
He sets aside both when he sees you, smile falling when he sees your face.
You plant your palms and lean directly over the counter, huffing.
“Hey, you know I really can’t believe I fell for your shy soft boy act, you pull that on everyone? Or was I just ‘special’ enough to catch your attention?”
“What? I– what are you talking about– hey!” He jumps up from his seat as you push back from the counter, folding your arms.
“I mean what on Earth is wrong with you!” You stare him down as he rounds his station to speak with you.
“Hey, whatever I said, I’m sorry? I don’t– I didn’t mean it– will you please tell me what you are talking about?”
“You jerk. Can you go one minute without lying? Rhetorical, because you obviously can, if it’s convenient to getting in my pants. God! I can’t believe I slept with you.”
“You slept with me?!” He exclaims, hunching over as a couple passerbys give him looks, making you roll your eyes. “Holy shit, I thought I dreamt that.” He says mostly to himself, tugging at the hair behind his ear.
You look at him, jittery, wrinkled clothes, chewing at his thumbnail.
“Are you high?” You ask, tilting your head to get a better look at his face, trying to make out if it’s a bruise or just bags under his eyes.
He quickly shakes his head. “No, no-no-no, I-I don’t do pills or anything. I mean, maybe I should, to be honest– but I’ve never done drugs of any kind.”
You throw up your hands. “Why would I believe you after yesterday!”
“Yesterday? Why– What happened yesterday.”
“Unbelievable. You know, you aren’t worth this. Don’t text me anymore.” You turn to the door, but his whirls around you in a panic, blocking you.
“Wait! Wait, please. Look I don’t know what happened the other night, but I assure you that's not me, I’m not like that, I would never say stuff like that, I’d never use you, I like you! I really like you, and I don’t want to never see you again.”
You study his expression, torn between how completely devoid of any sort of dishonesty it looks, paired with how desperate his tone is, and just who you remember walking out of your apartment.
“You’re acting completely different now.” You shake your head, hanging it and letting out a long sigh before looking back up at him, which you immediately regret because he has the saddest puppy eyes you’ve ever seen. “I have to get to work. If you think you can explain to me just what the hell is going on with you, meet me at the park at six thirty, I’ll… I’ll hear you out.”
“Thank you,” he folds his hands, needing to shout after you as you make to leave. “I won’t let you down, I promise!”
You give a dismissive wave as you head out museum's front doors.
“…and that’s all I know, I swear.” You’re seated on a bench in the park. By now the sun has set, and the lights are the only illumination with a cloudy night sky.
“I believe you.” You sigh, letting the leg you’d been sitting on down from the bench to stretch. “How often does this happen?”
“Most nights. I’ve been trying not to sleep because of it.”
You shake your head. “Why the hell haven’t you gone to a doctor?”
“Because I can sort it, it’s fine. You go to a doctor if you're sick, I’m not sick.” He fiddles with his hands, realizing your looking at them he smoothes them down his pants and keeps them on his knees.
“Sleepwalking isn’t sick. It-it’s just like, stress, or something.” Even saying it aloud he didn’t believe it, but what was the alternative? That he was legitimately mad?
“Steven, look at me. You need to get help for this. That's mental. It’s not normal. Tell me you’ll get help.”
“I’ll look into it.” He scratches at his
You frown. “And mean it. You need help.”
“I mean it, I will get help.” He nods when you put a hand over his, pulling him into a side hug.
“Thank God.” You murmur.
Two months later, you and Steven are kind of dating.
Though your relationship had taken a big step back, you still texted and called him frequently. You didn’t feel like you could bring yourself to getting any closer, not when you still didn’t know who you had woken up in bed with.
Today he’s over for tea, on your couch with his hands folded, helping himself to the biscuits you put out.
You come back from putting the water on, stuffing a couple cookies in your mouth before he can eat them all.
“Oh! I erm, I got you a copy of that new CD from that band you like.” Steven digs around in his bag, pulling out a still wrapped album, handing it to you.
“Holy cow.” You scoff as you take it.
It was the newest release from your favorite band, and had been sold out everywhere for more than two weeks.
“I can’t believe you remembered. I’m putting this on right now.” You pop on the stereo, slow rock jams filling the apartment as the water boils and you bring the pot to the table, filling Steven’s cup.
“So how are you doing?” You ask.
“Oh, mostly good. I still haven’t figured him, Marc, out much, but I am sleeping better.”
“You figure out just what ‘he’ is yet.”
“No, still no diagnosis. I’m having trouble finding a therapist I like. I also, you know, not keen on institutionalization.”
“Right. Well I mean so long as he doesn’t decide to go on some break.” You grimace, wondering what the hell he could’ve had been up to in Madripoor of all places, if he’d even been serious.
“Beg your pardon?”
“Never mind.” You give your hand a wave.” I still can’t believe I’m how you found out.”
“Hey now hang on, I knew, I just didn’t know why.” He stands up to be at your height, annoyed.
“Or how, or what.” You give him a look.
“Yeah. But I did know.” He shrugs. “Even though he was trying to keep it from me.”
“Well yeah, probably because you’re the nice one. Marc is a prick.”
“The hell did she just say about me!?” Marc growls, catching his eye in his reflection in your tea kettle.
Steven blinks. “He didn’t like that.”
You draw your brow, frowning. “He can hear me?”
“Apparently? I don’t get most of it myself, I didn’t think he could hear me till like last week.”
You push off the back of the couch. “Tell him to come out here and talk to me right now.”
“Uh, right, sure, yeah. Marc, you heard her.” He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath.
When he opens them again, you slap him across the face.
He cups his cheek, turning to look at you. “Still Steven!”
“Shit– I’m sorry!” You cover your mouth.
“You were going to smack him? But that’s me!”
“I thought– I didn’t think it through, really. Is he not there?”
“I can’t really make him come out, he just kind of does it if I let him.”
“I’m sorry I hit you.” You say.
“No,” he shakes his head. “He totally deserves it. Prick is right on the money.”
“Even so, I shouldn’t have done that.”
“Already better.” He smiles. “Though a kiss wouldn’t hurt…”
You raise a brow and smile, pressing a kiss to his cheek.
You hang out a while longer before heads home, leaving you to think.
“I want to date her too.”
“What?” Steven looks up at his mirror from across the room. “You won’t tell me where you’ve been pissing years of my life away, what you’ve been doing, but now you want to meddle with the one good thing that’s happened to me, after you nearly screwed it all up? That’s rich.”
“I didn’t want much of anything to do with her until I saw the way she slapped you, I mean, that was unexpected.”
“She’s for sure, isn’t she? All the more reason you will not seeing her unless she asks.”
“Let me talk to her or I’ll break up with her.”
“We’re not together…ish. I don’t know, it’s not the simplest.”
“I’ll ghost her. Delete her contacts. You know I will.”
“Alright! Okay, fine. Jesus.”
He picks up his phone. “Don’t you negotiate in anything but threats?” He starts to dial your number, then stops.
“Hang on… you’re jealous, aren’t you?”
“I’m sorry?”
“You're jealous I have a girlfriend and you don’t. And she doesn’t talk nicely about you.”
“I’d stop talking now.”
“Holy shit, that’s hilarious. You act like you think my life is boring, but you envy it.”
Marc glares at him, jaw working.
“I’ll tell you what, I will set you up, but you have to tell me what you’ve been doing, and where you've been taking me.”
“Khonshu’s not gonna like that.”
“Again with bloody Khonshu. You’re flipping bending over backwards for that fool. Figure it out, cause that’s that.”
“Fine.”
“Perfect. Done deal.”
He hits dial. “Hey so uh, Marc wants to meet you. Properly. I’ve told him he needs to apologize.” Marc rolls his eyes but doesn’t say anything. “Right. Yeah. Can you meet me?”
“This… Marc the Merc, the pissy one?” You say, looking him over. You’d met Steven not far from the museum, and held his hand while he relaxed and let Marc take over.
“Yes, it’s me again. Hi.” You meet his eyes, feeling oddly bothered by just how the same they look. It’s Steven, but it’s not.
It’s painfully not him, and yet you can’t put into words how.
“Hey,” you say, not sure what else you’re supposed to.
“Let’s get this part out of the way: I’m sorry I walked out on you. It’s Steven’s fault we were there at all, and I had shit to attend to, but I was less than curt about it.”
“Accepted, if that’s the best I’m going to get.” You nod, and he gestures for you to walk with him, so you do.
“I haven’t been keeping tabs. What’s he been telling you about me?” He says.
“Not a lot. I mean, he barely knows you, and neither do I.”
“There’s not a lot to tell. He’s not supposed to be tangled with my life, but, since he is, I figure we might as well share.”
You stop, and he does too.
“What?” He says. “I’m willing to be more open if you are.”
“What are you talking about? Are you saying you want to get with me?”
“Would you like to?”
He looks you right in the eyes, catching you off guard. Before you can answer he cups your face and kisses you, arm around your lower back, nearly lifting you off the ground.
You pull away, eyes wide, breath ragged, trying to get your brain to catch up with your body, realizing you're right in the street where everyone can see you.
“Too much?” He asks.
“No,” you shake your head. “Just– just surprised me.” It’s quiet for a moment.
“His apartment’s not far,” he finally says. “If you wanna see just how much of a prick I am.”
You stare up at your boyfriend’s apartment ceiling, wondering what the hell you’ve gotten yourself into.
You turn when you hear footsteps coming back to the bed.
“Hi,” he gives you a little wave, holding out a cup of tea.
You sit up on your elbows, slowly taking it. “Steven?” You say tentatively.
“Yep, it’s me.” You stand up, throwing back half the cup and setting it aside, swallowing. “Everything go okay?” He asks.
You nearly knock him over in a hug, burying your face into his shoulder.
“Better than okay,” you say, smiling against his bare skin.
“Really? Oh, Gods, that's a relief.” He wraps his arm around you, pressing his nose to the top of your head.
“Marc was different than I thought.”
“Now we’re even, he said he’d cooperate with me some more, so I think it all works out?”
“I love you. Both of you.”
“Really? It’s not too weird?”
“Hey,” you press a kiss to the bridge of his nose. “I like ‘em weird.”
Even though you had next to no idea what was to come, between you, Steven, and Marc, you were confident you would figure it out.
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Matt's Sunshine
Matt Casey x Severide Sister Reader (Nicknamed Sunshine)
When you and Matt make things exclusive its not long until Kelly finds out about you two then when you're hurt on the job it leads to a lot bigger revelations
Maybe it started as just attraction, just sex. You were absolutely gorgeous and amazing in bed. Matt had known it was wrong, even from the start. He was sleeping with his best friend's little sister. You were ten years younger than him but you knew what you wanted and for some reason it was him.
Facing Kelly and hearing him talk about you was difficult at times.Keeping a straight face when Kelly speculated who you were seeing was even worse. He hadn't realized he was falling for you until he was thinking about you throughout the day, his eyes catching anything with sunflowers on it he passed by in a store.
When he started dreaming about you when he was on shift and not even sexual dreams just you being with him, he knew he was gone for. Not only was he sleeping with his best friend's little sister, he was in love with you. The problem was you hadn't even made it exclusive between you and him and a part of him was worried to push it for fear of losing you. He'd rather have a part of you than none of you.
“Stay, just a little longer Sunshine. Please” you laughed as Matt reached for you, trying to drag you back into his bed. “Matt! You know the CFD cookout is today! I told Herrman I’d help set everything up” he huffed “Five more minutes?”
You shook your head “No sir because five minutes with you ends up with both of us naked and one of us on top of the other one” “We don’t just have sex” he replied, his face scrunched up to the point it was nothing shy of adorable. “I know baby” you soothed, sitting on the side of the bed to place a kiss on his lips. His hands came out to slip under your shirt. He wasn’t trying to take it back off of you or anything he was simply letting his fingers wander across your flesh “So I at least get to spend the day with you?”
You laughed “Yeah in a way. You get to spend the day not touching me or acting like you were wrapped around me last night” he groaned “Don’t remind me. By the way, what are you wearing today?” you grinned “Why, already jealous Casey?” he raised an eyebrow and you laughed “Don’t worry honey. Most other guys go the opposite way when they realize I am Kelly Severide’s little sister. My brother has kind of a reputation”
“Most?” he asked and you shook your head “Matthew it’s kind of cute when you’re jealous” you pressed a kiss to his lips then pulled away, a grin slipping to your face when he followed your lips. “But I really have got to get going” “Fine, I’ll see you at the cookout babygirl”
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You decided on cut off jeans, your Nikes and one of Kelly’s old CFD shirts that read SEVERIDE across it. Seemed suiting enough. Stella had braided your hair back for you like she had hers so you wouldn’t have to fight with it all day. You cut your eyes over to where Kelly and Matt were sitting booths up and had to resist the urge to stare at Matt. “So, how's things with the little boyfriend?” Stella asked and you felt your face warm “For the hundredth time Stel I don’t have a boyfriend” “Uh huh” she replied with a laugh before passing you the stacks of cups in her hand “And I don’t have a husband either. I’ll figure it out eventually. I don’t see the big deal about me and Kelly knowing! He must really like you, that bracelet is pretty and suits you so well”
Your fingers found the bracelet, a smile working its way onto your face and she laughed “See? That right there makes me like him already. You look so happy whenever you think about him. I can handle Kelly if that’s the issue here” you shook your head “It’s not that it’s just..” you were cut off by Kelly calling your name and she groaned then hollered “BAD TIMING BABY!”
You laughed and nodded towards him “I’m gonna go see what he wants” she sighed “Fine but I’m going to keep at it until either I figure it out or you tell me” you shook your head “Firefighter and detective. Multitasker aren’t ya?”
You walked over to Kelly and he threw an arm around your shoulders “Sunshine, tell Casey that the new chic in billing at Med has a thing for him” “Willa?” you asked and he nodded “Yeah, you saw how she was looking at him the other day at Mollys” yeah you had actually. It’d taken every damn thing in your power to not break her jaw considering your job. Matt cut his eyes up at you and held yours for just a second before you shrugged “Yeah, she was eyeing the hell out of him”
“See? Even Sunshine clocked it!” Kelly laughed so you motioned in the vague direction of Stella “Can I go back to my sister in law now and get away from whatever you two have going on?” “Yeah, sorry sweetheart” he laughed and pressed a kiss to the side of your head before you turned and headed back towards Stella and was relieved to see Kiara, Eliza and Kim with her. Maybe she’d lay off the questioning, either way you wouldn’t have to listen to Matt and Kelly talk about the gorgeous chic that was indeed eyeing Matt the other night. He hadn’t made this exclusive, what if he started seeing someone else?
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Matt was watching you walk around with Kiara and Eliza. Stella had drifted off with Kelly and Kim with Adam. He hoped you hadn’t taken Kelly mentioning Willa to heart. He could’ve given a damn less who was eyeing him. He knew who the hell he wanted and it was the woman currently squatting down in front of one of the kids running around the park, helping them tie their shoes.
He’d been solely interested in you since the moment Kelly introduced you. Right or wrong. He only wanted you. He was in love with you, no other woman mattered to him. He watched you as you straightened up and ran a hand over the little boy’s hair and smiled at him, even from a distance he could see the blush darken the kid’s face. Couldn’t exactly blame him.
The kid ran off and you laughed at something Kiara said then he saw you look to your side and a smile slipped onto your face when Kevin Atwater walked up to you. He tried to tell himself it was normal. You and Kiara had been working closely with intelligence the last few weeks, hell you and Jay solely referred to each other as Officer Sunshine and Detective Chuckles.
However when Kevin leaned down to whisper something in your ear and he saw you shove Kevin’s chest playfully he felt anger roll through him. Oh hell no. Kevin Atwater was flirting with his girl in his face. Wait, that wasn’t fair. He hadn’t exactly put a foot forward to try to make this exclusive, had he? He watched for a moment then pulled his phone out and sent you a text, watching you hold a hand up to Kevin before you pulled your phone out.
You were laughing at Kevin teasing you over the bulldog Adam had been afraid of and that you ended up playing with for the better part of half an hour before Voight made you get back to work when your phone chimed. “Hold on Kev” you told him and pulled your phone out to see Matt’s initials and the text read Babygirl we need to talk. Tonight
You looked around and spotted him talking to Platt and Mouch but knew his attention was also on you so you texted back I’ll be at your place around 8
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The moment you knocked on Matt’s door he opened the door and pulled you into his arms, his lips crashing onto yours. You laughed into the kiss, hands slipping up around his neck in an attempt to pull him closer. He broke the kiss after a moment, both of your chests heaving slightly and you grinned up at him “Not that I’m complaining but what was that about?”
He brought one hand up to play with the pieces of hair that had found their way loose from your braid “This thing, between us. It’s important to me. It’s not just sleeping with you. Um it’s exclusive to me..it is for you too?” oh that’s what this was. You grinned “I’m not interested in anything but you Matthew” and he smiled before scooping you up into his arms “Thank god” and turned to walk towards his bedroom.
Matt walked into shift the following day and probably had never been in a brighter mood. You’d been in his arms for hours the night before and he’d woken up to have coffee and breakfast with you which was a rare thing considering one or both of you normally slept through alarms and it resulted in rushing around to get ready.
The moment he walked into the bays Kelly cut his eyes up “What the hell has you in such a good mood?” he shrugged “Found a reason to be happy man” and kept walking inside. He noticed Stella fall in step with him but didn’t think anything of it until he made it inside and headed for the coffee machine. He reached for a mug and cut his eyes back to ask if she wanted a cup. She nodded and he poured her one too.
She took it then eyed him for a second. “What is it Kidd?” he asked and she shook her head “Sun cutting through your storm clouds there Casey?” and he nearly choked on his coffee. She grinned “Nice taste with the bracelet by the way” his eyes widened and she winked at him “I’m not saying anything Sunshine is a grown woman but she is his sister and you are his best friend. You two need to tell him before he finds out on his own”
He nodded and she tapped his shoulder “Nice to see you happy though” and walked off. He pulled his phone out and texted you a two word message Stella knows
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You weren’t nervous per say walking into the loft but you knew if Kelly wasn’t home Stella would be on you and oh god what if she’d told him? You walked in and they were watching tv. Kelly cut his eyes up “There’s some food left for you” you smiled “Thank you”
Stella kissed his cheek “I’m gonna help her” he nodded “Ok baby” she stood and followed you. The moment you were at the stove she eyed you and mouthed “Matt?” you shrugged and she shook her head then opened some wine and offered you a glass before leaning in to whisper “I’m not telling him but you need to” and then headed to sit back down next to Kelly, leaving you to eat at the island and think about what your next step needed to be.
Kelly tried your phone for the sixth time. You still didn’t answer. Fuck, enough of this. Stella would say he was overreacting but Matt would help him hunt you down. He hopped in his truck and headed across town to Matt’s apartment.
He parked in front of the building and headed up. He tried your phone twice more in the elevator and you still didn’t answer. He shook his head as the elevator got to Matt’s floor. He walked off and headed for the familiar apartment and knocked. He heard footsteps that sounded too light then the door opened and he was met with you. Hair down, looking like you’d just rolled out of bed and wearing nothing but one of Matt’s shirts.
“Kelly” you breathed as you both stared at each other. “Babygirl is that the food?” he heard Matt right as the other man walked into the room, wearing just a pair of sweatpants and paled when he saw him standing there “Oh shit” “Babygirl? You son of a bitch!” he made a move towards Matt but you slid to put both hands on his chest “Kel don’t!”
He looked down at you, his little sister. His ten year younger sister, wearing his best friend’s shirt and nothing else. Everything started to click into place. Matt was the mystery guy. All this damn time. “Go get your clothes sunshine” he spoke, voice low in an attempt to not yell at you.
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You hadn’t seen Kelly like this the entire time you’d known him. You’d heard about his temper but this was the first time you’d seen it. “Now or I might kill your boyfriend” he added, eyes boring into Matt. You nodded and moved to head towards the bedroom, Matt reached out for your hand and Kelly’s voice was deadly calm when he said “If you touch my sister I’m going to break your fucking arm”
Matt took a step back, both hands up. You cut your eyes up at him and swallowed hard. So much you wanted to say to him and couldn’t. You dropped your eyes and hurried to the bedroom. You desperately didn’t want Kelly to hurt him.
You had never once gotten dressed as fast as you did in that instance. When you came back out Kelly was still standing just inside the door and Matt was rooted to the spot. You didn’t even look at him as you crossed the floor to Kelly who reached for your arm “Let’s go”
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As soon as you got downstairs you snatched your arm away from Kelly and stormed to his truck “Sunshine” he tried and you shook your head as you slammed the door of his truck. He climbed into the driver’s seat and cut his eyes at you “Just talk to me”
“Just drive us home” you replied and he sighed then pulled out onto the road.
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The moment you flew through the door of the loft Stella spun around with her eyes wide and looked from you to Kelly “What happened?” you dropped your gaze, tears filling your eyes. You’f just lost the man you loved and you were fairly certain you lost your big brother’s love as well. You shook your head and damn near ran to your room, closing the door behind yourself before sliding down it to the floor.
You sent Matt a text that simply read I’m sorry then threw your phone up onto the bed as tears started in earnest.
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“What the actual hell did you do?” Stella asked Kelly, anger in her eyes. He waved a hand towards your room “Matt! She’s been sleeping with Matt” “Ok? She’s grown Kelly!” Stella argued and he sank down onto one of the stools “She’s my little sister. What if she’s a rebound from Gabby? What if he hurts her?”
She walked over to him, putting her hands on his shoulders “I get it, I do but do you want to risk losing her over being over protective? Be there waiting to put her back together if she breaks but allow her to live her life”
“I can’t lose her Stel” he whispered and she nodded “I know Kelly but try talking to her because right now, she’s hurting and probably feeling really alone” he nodded and stood up, walking through the loft to your door. He knocked and when he heard you sniffle it broke his heart “Go away Kel, please” “Sunshine open the door” he pleaded and after a moment the door cracked open and there were you looking up at him, eyes filled with tears “There, see? I’m here and haven't snuck out the window like the teenager you think I am. Who knows maybe Matt will go find Willa now and forget about me? Bet you’d love that” then closed the door in his face.
“I’m sorry” he spoke low, knowing you heard him and knowing it wasn’t enough. “I love you Sunshine” he added before walking away from your door. He barely caught the reply of “Love you Kel” through the sniffles.
I’m sorry how many times had Matt read those two words over the last couple days? He tried to call you, text you. No response. He had a shift today with Kelly and Stella, of course. He had to face them. He didn’t know what to say. Kelly hated him, he’d lost you. What was there left for him?
When he headed into work he spotted Kelly sitting in his recliner with Stella sitting on the arm of it and swallowed hard as he walked past it. He wanted to tell Kelly the truth, you weren’t some damn fling. He was in love with you. You were the most important person on the face of the earth in his eyes but now didn’t seem like the time. “Casey” Kelly greeted and he nodded “Severide”
Stella rolled her eyes “Hey Matt” and turned her eyes back to the book she was reading. At least one member of the Severide household didn’t hate his guts.
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You stared at the numerous texts from Matt ranging from pleas to answer your phone just to him saying he missed you. How were you supposed to talk to him? Kelly was his best friend, they’d known each other for so long and now because of you Kelly wanted to kill him.
Kiara bumped your leg “Put the phone away babe. Voight wants us all to round up for a pre-raid plan” you nodded and followed her into the group around Jay’s truck. Once everyone was told where to go you got into position backing Kim and Kevin. You cut your eyes at Kiara as Hank gave the order “Take it” across the coms and the door of the warehouse was kicked in “CHICAGO PD”
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Matt was trying to avoid Kelly but the other man managed to corner him in the common area “How long have you been fucking my sister?” “Kelly we aren’t doing this here” he tried but damn that temper his best friend carried. “Why not? I want to know because all this time she’s been saying she was staying with friends or whatever but you were fucking here yet not taking her out, not actually dating her” “Look at the way you’re acting” Matt replied and Kelly took a step towards him “Oh so you being a piece of shit and treating my sister like just a fuck is my fault?”
Everyone was giving the two of them a wide berth except for Herrman who’d called for Stella. She came sliding in just as Matt shook his head “Fuck you for talking about her like that Kelly” she saw the moment Kelly got mad enough to swing and grabbed his arm “Don’t” he stared at her for a moment the a call rang out Officer down. Corner of Gwendlyn and Andrews
“Severide!” Boden called out, his phone to his ear as the three of them heard your stats called out.“No no no” Kelly muttered. Stella was the first to snap out of it “I’m going with Brett” she told Boden who nodded “GO” the two women ran to the bays as Boden walked out to Kelly “Son, we need to get to Med”
“Is she dead?” Kelly asked. His little sister, his bright eyed, sarcastic, energetic, beautiful little sister. “No but Voight said it’s serious. She caught two rounds to her lower abdomen. She’s lost a lot of blood Kelly” he nodded slowly, his entire body felt like it was moving too slow. He couldn’t think. What the hell was he supposed to do? You’d barely talked to him since everything happened at Matt’s. You’d told Stella you were afraid he hated you. If something happened to you. Boden’s hand on his shoulder snapped him to reality “Come on Kelly. I’ll drive you” he nodded, following the other man out to his truck. What was he supposed to do if he lost you?
Matt walked Kelly walk out with Boden and it took everything to not crumple to his knees. His Sunshine. He’d never even gotten a chance to tell you he loved you. “Matt” Herrman’s voice was soft when his hand touched Matt’s shoulder “Come on Casey, I’ll drive ya to Med and stay till you find something out” he nodded numbly. He couldn’t lose you. Not you.
The waiting room at Chicago Med was filled with members of the twenty first and fifty one. You were in surgery. Kelly hadn’t even registered to be pissed at Matt. The two were on opposite sides of the waiting room. Kiara sat next to Matt while Stella sat with Kelly, her eyes alone told everyone how bad it was.
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After what felt like hours Will Halstead finally came out. Kelly and Stella were on their feet. They were your family. “She’s awake. Nothing major was hit, while she’ll be out of commission for a couple weeks she’s gonna be ok” Will announced and the waiting room erupted into cheers.
“Can I see her?” Kelly asked and Will grimaced “She asked to see Matt” Kelly and Stella both spun to face him. “Like hell. I’m seeing my sister” Kelly tried but Matt had taken enough. He understood that Kelly loved you but if you wanted him, you were getting him.
He stepped up to Kelly “Tell you what Sev, you can do whatever you feel like you got to do as soon as I make sure the woman I love is ok. She wants to see me, I’m seeing her” Kelly’s mouth fell open in shock so Matt shoved past him “Take me to Sunshine Will”
He could hear Kelly trying to stop him and Stella trying to stop Kelly but it would take all of CPD to keep him from your room and they better bring SWAT.
Will stopped outside of your room and looked between the three of them before opening the door. They all stepped in and your eyes flew up to them. “I asked for Matt”
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You wanted Matt. As soon as you woke up you asked Will for Matt, now Matt, Kelly and Stella were in your room.
“Sunshine?” Kelly sounded so hurt you hadn’t asked for him. You smiled slightly “Kel, I love you so much big brother but I need to talk to Matt and I don’t know if you’re gonna like what I have to say” He looked from you to Matt before shrugging “I just lived over two hours not knowing if I’d see you again. I don’t care sis. You’re alive. We can deal with anything” you felt tears spring to your eyes then looked at Matt “Come here”
He walked over to the bed, hands shaking as he pushed your hair back from your face “Babygirl you scared me so bad. I thought I lost you before I could tell you that I love you. You are everything to me” you leaned into his touch, ignoring everyone else in the room “I thought there for a second I was leaving before I could tell you just how much I love you” and that smile you always loved slipped onto his face “Yeah?” “Yeah” you replied and he leaned in to gently brush his lips against yours.
“You really do love her?” Kelly asked and Matt pulled away from you with a laugh, looking over at your brother who was leaning in the corner with Stella in his arms “Yeah, I do” he looked from Matt to you “I guess I’m ok with it but if you hurt her I’ll kill you” Matt cut his eyes back at you and grinned “If I hurt her I’ll dig my own grave. I told you I’d help you kill anyone that hurt Sunshine”
You groaned and looked at Stella “Why did we fall in love with idiots?” she shrugged “Luck I guess?” you laughed and laid your head over on Matt’s shoulder. Will cleared his throat “I’m gonna leave now. Someone update the waiting room so all the cops and firefighters will clear out. Sunshine if all your tests are clear you’ll be out of here tomorrow”
Once Will left you cut your eyes at Kelly from where you were laying against Matt “Are you sure you’re ok with this?” his eyes were glued to the bandages he could see on you. “Yeah because that call terrified me. I never want you pissed at me over something so stupid again. If you love this idiot I’m not gonna stand in the way” Matt laughed “I promise you Kelly, I’ll take care of your sister” Kelly glared at him for a moment before saying “You better”
You shook your head and curled up further against Matt “I’m going to sleep, getting shot wears you out” “NOT FUNNY” Matt and Kelly both spoke in unison and Stella shrugged “They finally agree on something, your humor sucks Sunshine”
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In which Porky Pig learns not to be a sexist pos to his girlfriend.
THE TIMING OF THIS ASK IS REALLY FUNNY, it was sent right around the time i was pouring through some of the comics (which, when am i not) and i was thinking of this exact PSA while i was reading them. and then this ask came in! maybe this’d be funnier if i answered it in a more timely manner, but yes this PSA cracks me up
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#nothing holds a candle to Daffy ‘I’LL DO THE JOB I’M A WOMAN HATER’ Duck#the phrase ‘squadron woman hater Daffy Duck’ consistently pops into my head and always makes me laugh out loud#anonymous#asks#also my insane discord display name don’t worry about it i like smushing a bunch of inside jokes together#i like how i laugh at Daffy branding himself a woman hater and am like oh silly :) and then Bugs says ‘i know but aren’t they ALL witches#inside’ and i’m like Take That Back.#though the woman hater thing is explicitly meant to be so ober the top and stupid and completely a farce since Daffy immediately gets#seduced after bragging about how he’s immune from that. because he’s a woman hater.
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WTFFF I thought thirteen would be my new girl crush love of my life heart eyes wife you-came-after-twelve-you-must-be-better-than-they're-all-saying bbygirl and then I had to sit down and watch as she told a man who (if he were not a murderer, of course) literally every regeneration before her would've LOVED and FULLY SUPPORTED that "the systems aren't the problem. how people use and exploit the system, that's the problem. people like you" </33333 !?!?
#WHERE IS THAT POST THAT SAID NINE WOULD KILL THIRTEEN FOR BEING A CLASS TRAITOR#WHY WOULD YOU SAY “ERODE PEOPLE'S TRUST IN AUTOMATION” ALL WORRIED AND CONCERNED LIKE THAT???#WHEN DID YOU START LIKING AUTOMATION OVER PEOPLE THINKING AND DOING THINGS FOR THEMSELVES???#AND WHY ARE YOU TRAVELING WITH A COPPER??? WE HATE COPPERS??????#did we FORGET into the dalek?? how about how he treated danny?? god there's so much more I can't even remember off the top of my head#(I understand soldiers are different from cops but c'mon don't even PRETEND twelve would've been any nicer if blue or danny were just COPS)#also a bit off topic bUT MAY I JUST TALK ABOUT ARACHNIDS IN THE UK FOR HALF A GODAMNED SECOND—#I know the companions are usually the ones to do the doctor's dirty work here but like#I just can't see the other doctors NOT having the business man lure the spider for being so fuckin annoying about it#like I was genuinely surprised when they had him do that whole song and dance about not doing it and then he actually just. didn't do it#the doctor LOVES fucking with evil rich business men this is PERFECT. plus why not get back at him for being awful to their companions?#absolutely gobsmacked thirteen let him act like that. I am wrong in thinking that the others would've shut his shit down a LOT quicker??#anyways. I love jodie whittaker and it's just so upsetting to have her doctor do something so wildly off#THIRTEEN PLEASE I HAD SUCH FAITH IN YOUUU I WAS IGNORING THE HATERS AND FOR WHAT#I can SEE the other doctors in her still I can FEEL them they're there she's doing an AMAZING job but. oh my god. what did they make her do#I can't even say she feels ooc as a whole because jodie is bloody brilliant. it's just these... moments. that don't make ANY sense to me...#especially coming off of twelve?? I get the radical personality switch but that belief is a core part of the doctor. or at least I THOUGHT#thirteenth doctor#doctor who#I still love all of you who love her and reading ur posts/fics but I. will not be making any myself. I do not think.
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#not snz#i got ✨ rescued ✨ yesterday after all lmao#no and i fucking told him to go around so he wouldn't have to drive through literal fucking flame#so i figured from the time he said he was gonna come it was gonna take him like at least three hours#my face when he was there in a little over half an hour#when it's about forty minute drive if you speed#like okay just bc the roads are closed and you CAN go as fast as you want doesn't mean you SHOULD#like i was grateful but wtf was that#and just so we're all on the same page here a shit ton of roads are closed even if you go all the way the fuck around#so no getting my parents to come still wasn't an option bc they would've needed some sort of license to give them access#anyway he hugged me immediately upon seeing me and i told him to stop bc I'm gross and covered in dirt and soot and whatnot#this man did not fucking care 🥺#so then he took me to get proper food first and foremost lmao#then we went back to his place bc it was closer and his roommates were once again Not There#rip to them but they both know trades and decided to work anyway bc so many people are paying so much money rn#and i showered for like a fucking hour trying to scrub all the smoke smell off#then he gave me one of his shirts to wear 🥰#and sweatpants with the drawstring so I'd actually be able to tighten them lmao but even still they were too fucking big#then we just hung out on the couch most of the evening#and I'm congested and keep coughing bc my respiratory system wants to die from the smoke#and i was apologizing half the night and he kept being like stfu lmao#he kept kissing the top of my head and rubbing my back like 🥺#also coming as a surprise to no one i am into med play#so you can imagine how i was feeling when he wanted to make sure i wasn't about to keel over#like stop it you're making it intimate and I'm shy about it lmaoo#also i love that both of our go to thing is 'no I'm worried and need to check myself' lmaoooo#anyway so he checked me over and i feel like i was just going 🥺 the whole time ahdkslls#and then he made me tea and just kept a steady flow of hot drinks and snacks going until we went to the bedroom#and I'm so fucking hoarse now and still coughing and sniffling and my entire body hurts bad but he's being so attentive and gentle like 🥺🥺#partner posting
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I kinda want to ask you to write all touch prompts for akk and aye but because that is unreasonable and way too greedy, how about 26, 27 and maybe 33? thank you so so much! And congratulations on your followers!!!!
you know, i'd write them all too if i had the fuckin Time [sobs] thank you very much nonny
26 (kissing the top of their head) + 27 (pulling them closer) + 33 (tasting their smile) from this list for my lil event; right around 1k of height difference & nickname shenanigans and talking around another bigger issue!!!! set in the summer after ourskyy, rated t for 'tall'
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“Hand me that plate, Shortstop.”
Akk does, but not without making sure to splash Aye with the water running off of it. “We’ve been over this." They have, although it's been a while since Aye had first tried it in the tent. "That’s your name.”
With a little yelp, Aye snatches the plate from his hand and sets to drying it with slightly more force than strictly necessary. The water drops stand out against the gray material of his t-shirt. “Why can’t we switch?”
“Do you not have eyes?” Akk takes another bowl out of Aye’s mom’s sink and starts washing it with a little grin. “Grow a bit taller and we can talk.”
He expects Aye to fire back with a water attack of his own, or an insult, so when neither comes he turns to look at his boyfriend in faint surprise. Aye is giving the plate an undeservedly contemplative look, lips pursed. It’s very cute. Akk splashes him again.
“Akk,” snaps Aye, his nose going all scrunched the way it does when he’s actually annoyed.
“Aye,” Akk answers, grin reaching all the way up to his eyes.
Aye stares for a long second, then softens all at once, mouth curving up in turn. He still elbows Akk in retribution before picking up his next dish, though. “So if I was taller than you, we could switch? I could be your Bigfoot.”
“If you were taller than me, I would’ve come up with a different nickname in the first place.”
“But I wouldn’t have,” Aye says decisively. “You’d have been Shortstop to me.”
Akk shoots him a sidelong look, dubious. “It's annoying, so yes, probably. In a hypothetical parallel universe where you’re taller. Why are you suddenly so obsessed with this? Don’t you call me enough things already?”
“Do you not like it, darling?” asks Aye, all coy and playful, and it devolves from there. He doesn’t bring up the height thing again that day.
But apparently he didn’t actually forget, because in the time following that initial conversation Aye starts taking every possible opportunity to be taller than Akk.
It starts small, like Aye insisting Akk sit on the ground while he’s on the couch so he can reach his hair to dry it, calling him Shortstop in a tone of such overdone honeyed affection that all he can do is laugh. Or like Aye crawling into Akk’s lap so he has a height advantage when they kiss, and Akk making sure he doesn't get a chance to use any nickname at all.
Then it escalates, as things frequently do with them. Aye sits on top of the couch backrest at Akk’s house instead of on it, buys a pair of shoes with these ridiculous heel boosts, sits on Akk's desk while Akk writes his admission essays. At one point, very memorably, he gets on a table at a party they’d attended with Kan and refuses to come down until Akk has to drag him.
Akk doesn’t mind as much as he’s pretending he does, which is something he’s found works for them with these things. It makes Aye happy to see him annoyed, so if he gets what he wants and the behavior isn’t actually that annoying, it’s a win for both of them. And it is funny, honestly, and frequently ends with Aye hanging off of him somehow.
Still, though, after nearly two months of their summer together being intermittently marked by Aye’s new favorite running joke, something starts to nibble at the corner of Akk’s mind. It’s late summer now, and they’re running up closer to the thing they’ve barely managed to talk about: Aye’s impending departure, and his own entry into a northern university. And— well. He can’t manage that, but he might be able to manage this.
So the next time Aye makes a point of standing two stairs up in his own home to talk to Akk, he turns and looks up at him and asks, point-blank, “Does it bother you that I’m taller?”
Aye blinks once, twice, then laughs a little. After a second, he seems to realize that Akk is honestly asking and tilts his head with an expression of mild bemusement. “No, baby. I like it, you give great hugs and have great legs. Why?”
Akk makes a sputtering noise and tries not to get derailed thinking about Aye’s feelings about his legs, which he did already know about for— various reasons. Instead, he pointedly jerks his chin at Aye, noticeably needing to tilt his head up to do so.
“I'm just messing with you,” Aye says, reaching a hand out with a little smile. “I thought you knew.”
“I do,” says Akk, and lets Aye take his hand and pull him one step up the stairs. It doesn’t equalize their heights; Aye’s still just a little taller like this. “But... it’s been going on a long time.”
“Yeah, I guess it has,” says Aye a little thoughtfully. “I just like seeing—”
“—My angry face. I know.”
Aye outright giggles at that, gently intertwining his fingers with Akk’s. “If you know, then why are you worrying about it?”
Akk can feel his resolve failing already. He sighs.
“I guess,” says Aye thoughtfully after a moment, “I do also like it when we… switch.” He wiggles his eyebrows and continues talking over Akk’s incoherent noise in response. “So it’s fun for me, to try and turn the little nickname thing on its head. Not that you’re cooperating.”
“You wouldn’t like it if I cooperated,” Akk says, half-sure, and tries mostly unsuccessfully to glare up at Aye.
“Oh, but I do,” Aye says, tugging him even closer by their twined hands and putting his other one on the back of Akk’s neck, pushing his head down enough to press a kiss to the top of it. “Just not right away. I like getting you to admit things."
There's an odd-- hesitation there, a long moment of silence. Akk looks back up, their faces close enough to kiss properly now, and sees Aye looking away from him, eyes big and preoccupied.
“What?” Akk prompts, and when he doesn’t get an answer, adds, “Bigfoot?”
Aye’s gaze snaps back to him, suddenly focused and intent and sparkling, and he grins. “Yeah,” he says, slowly like he’s savoring the confirmation, “That’s nice.”
Akk leans up a little further and kisses that smile, gently and then less so when the fingers on the back of his neck tighten and pull him closer. He leans into it with a sigh and tries not to think about other things Aye might like him to admit, and instead thinks about how — it is nice, sometimes, to be the smaller one.
#the eclipse#akkayan#my fic tag#arbitrary milestone prompts#re: the Something Else looming over their heads in this one: i am setting up for another prompt. i'm not gonna leave that unaddressed#(not like os2 fuckin did >>)#i'm fond of this haha#i think this is my first real attempt to get comfy with akkaye's os2 dynamic in writing#i write them teasing in oowu don't get me wrong. but mine are definitely a bit softer than canon#so.... i tried it out here#what is it like in an established relationship with a person whose primary love language is annoying?#what happens when so much of your communication habits are built on one person Dragging the truth out of the other one?#by waiting or by demanding but Still.#in any case. aye insecurity anons ........ your time will come no worries#all this born from me getting 'kiss on top of the head' as a prompt and the only thing i immediately thought#was that it HAD to be aye kissing the top of akk's head lmao#also on that note. [holds out ficlet] my akkaye switch agenda! here it is! it's hardly an agenda since it's very firmly canon but you know
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My mother confuses the fuck out of me
#i guess she's getting severance checks from her old job?#i mean fuck that's the least they could do after she worked there for 40 years#she only gets 900 a month from my dad's SSI survivor benefits#she went from saying we're struggling financially to suddenly offering to pay for shit i need#that kinda scares me because i think that means she's impulsively spending her savings. which could mean she thinks she's gonna die soon#she's 64 and my dad died at almost 63#like she helped my sister buy my niece a car. it's a 24 year old vehicle and only costed 4k and she paid 2k but 2k is a LOT to us#she said she's been saving my rent money to fix my car for the past couple of months on top of me saving for it#which means we definitely have the money to fix everything by now#but that's not happening all my tires still need to be replaced my ac doesn't work it's making clinking sounds#it stalled while i was driving the other day but turning it off and restarting it fixes it#anyway. the thing is I'm always sus about my mom offering shit.#she likes to hold shit over your head.#I'm very worried that she's gonna fix my car and then use that to control me in some way. because that's how it is every time.#but like.....it's better than not having the help. fuck.#i feel so privileged despite how broke and disabled i am. bc most disabled people dont have this to fall back on#the craziest thing is that the only reason we have this house is bc of my grandparents' inheritance#and neither of them went to college my grandpa was in the army#and my grandma only temporarily worked for jc penney as a bookkeeper#side note my 80 year old grandma was better with computers than most elderly people are today#just from that job? from what i know#when she died my family sold the family house and that's how we put the down payment on this house#which btw only costed 64k in 2012 apparently it's worth 175k now according to zillow#but like. how. i feel like my family being white and christian is the only reason we have all this privilege#i have a headache bye#.bdo
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#god im so sorry for vènting so damn much there is something so wrong with my head right now#every bit of positive attention ive gotten recently or even just attention in general sometimes has made me want to shed my skin#and on top of that there are Things in my head and i am worried it may be ********* but im too frightened to do any sort of research into i#but also hooo boy do i feel like im faking because like jet come on thats a trauma thing. you just kinda got yelled at SHUT UP YOURE FINE#and thats probably the biggest thing fucking me up right now because like im probably wrong but what if im right. dear fuck what then.#ànd also im scared to talk about it with anyone that does experience ********* because i feel so shitty insinuating that i went through#something like that when i know damn well i didnt#like oh wow you had a weird childhood ok jet get fucked everyones got a weird childhood#anyway. i need to like#talk to a stranger with ********* so im not so grossly embarrassed maybe#fuck#also lìke i just wanna stop talking to everyone but i started a zine and i cant abandon that and its upsetting me#like i need to fade into nothingness but i cant right now :/#anyway . desr lord why am i like this. what is inside me. what is going on.#delete later#jet maybe you need to get hit real hard by a car and that will do a hard reset and everything will be ok#vent#ALSO MY PARTNER IS GŔADUATING AND I CANT FUCKING BE THERE.#was litèrally sobbing over that this morning. i am so proud of them and they look so happy but also i cant be there#all i want is to hug them and congŕatulate them in person and give them a big bouquet of flowers but NO.#anyway. UGH.
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i would be a lot normaler if i wasnt constantly painfully touch starved
#text#i have not exprtienced a hug in 53 days and that was for a film thing and not a Real hug. btw i am doing fine mentally#dont worry i didnt know that off the top of my head i had to do math
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i hope that someday i'll be able to write without second-guessing whether or not the thing i'm trying to write is too much
#its literally not even that bad#i just want to eventually post things (hopefully this year tbh) and. idk.#the voice in my head is now going 'is this too much? over the top? should we dial it back?'#like. idk. i'm trying to write a sequence that's an actual nightmare and i'm drawing off of the imagery that shows up in my own#and it's graphic! it's bloody and i'm worrying that it's too unrealistic or too gory or too disturbing (even though it's probably middling-#-in terms of horror)#and like. it's for the terror which has graphic horror elements to it! and im still like. what if it's too much and turns people off#it is a Nightmare it is Supposed to be upsetting why am i worried! (and now im worried that it's just. weak. and not that upsetting at all)#killing the critic in your head is hard and i am not succeeding
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#tw sick parent figure + tw sick parent when i was younger (sick-sick)#seriously don't read this it's just me rambling#i just write it here bc i don't want to bother people by saying the same thing over and over and over#bc it's nothing new to be said. i just need to get it out yet another time#i hope this drowns in all the louis posts so i can just send this into the void 😂#i've been home for less than 24 hours and i already don't want to be here. it already sucks#i guess in a way it's good bc now i can help but it really sucks and idk how to handle everything#and on top of that my therapist continues to be sick so i don't even have someone to talk to about all of this and it just sits in my head#he is already back at the hospital which makes me just remember all the times my mom went in and out of the hospital when i was younger#well good thing here is that they have something that they now can treat even if they don't know it that's actual cause of not#but doesn't help with all my thoughts about how bad shit is and how it reminds me of my mom and how i can't handle any of this#and am instead rambling in some tags in a tumblr post#i wish i could just shut down all the emotions until he's all better and we don't have to worry anymore and everything is fine again#bc this sucks#i don't want to do this anymore#and i'm sure it's barely begun#bc why would it be easily treatable? that would be a miracle and i don't believe in miracles#life sucks and i really wish it didn't#if you’re down here then that’s impressive bc I wouldn’t be able to read this since it’s just a block of text without any real sentences 😂#and yeah this is just me screaming into the void#don't worry about it i'll be fine
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how i manifested my dream life with extremely hard circumstances + how you can too ♡
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Note: this is not my post and it's blushydior's post that everyone been searching for, so i thought why not making it as a post,and blushy if you see this, please don't kill me i know you said that you'll change your post but you disappeared After that.
♡ table of contents:
1. the importance of making this post
2.my take on manifestation + the 3D
3. HOW I DID IT - my journey in 4 phases i went through that include my mindset changes up to the moment i got my desires
4. your new rules & routine from this moment on
5. a note from me!
6. frequently asked questions: separated into topics regarding the 3D, self concept + miscellaneous questions to have you leaving this post stress free.
now let’s get into it. read every bit of this post “ ~ ୨୧ ♡ ·
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I. THE IMPORTANCE OF MAKING THIS POST
i’ve been through it all. you can read my experiences from old life in the “my life before” section of my success story + here, here, here and here. this is my success story on how the law of assumption has changed my life. as you can see from the “how” section of the post, i had purposely left it short, sweet and simple to avoid people complicating the simplicity of the law of assumption. but as time went on, anons and other blogs made me realize that since people do tend to over-complicate the law, the need i felt to make an in-depth post on how i personally manifested through my hard circumstances grew strong.
my blog often highlights topics that pertain to mental health, so i want to make sure those who find themselves in the same situations as i once were feel seen, heard and loved. you are all so powerful, amazing and hold so much potential more than you know. with this post, i hope i am able to help you realize that fact to the best of my abilities.
𝐈𝐈. MY TAKE ON MANIFESTATION + THE 3D
something that you’ll see me say all the time is: “life is a blank canvas.” that’s because it truly is.
remember that you are working with the law of assumption. what you assume to be true, is true. nothing is set in stone unless you say it is. things have meaning only if you assign it one.
you are the sole creator of your life. you are the artist that controls the brush/pen, you control what goes on and off of this very malleable canvas we call life. you don’t have to do anything. therefore,
you don’t have to: affirm 24/7, be specific, word your affirmations correctly, listen to subliminals, ignore the 3D, be positive all the time, meditate, have high vibrations, script, visualize, do sats or lullaby, go into the void, affirm in the present tense, avoid the mirror, etc.
you can literally say a random word like “bonk” and if saying it means you have all your desires or money is constantly filling your bank account, then that’s what will happen!
“but what if my subconscious doesn’t know what it means?” your subconscious mind is literally you. it’s not some stranger separate from you. if you want a scene to play out a certain way on a specific date or a romantic partner with all the most perfect qualities even if you can’t name it all at the top of your head, your subconscious has your back with the details! you have your own back. don’t worry.
YOU DON’T HAVE TO IGNORE THE 3D.
read that again and again and again and again and-if your circumstances are quite literally in your face, how can you turn the other way and ignore it? you could if you wanted but you’ll only be doing more harm and we don’t want that, right?
“so then what do i do?” you KNOW it’s going to change. it’s challenging when you don’t fully believe the law to know it’s going to change, so for a start, tell yourself that this is not the end. why? because the moment you had a desire and claimed it as yours, it has already been set stone in the 4D so the 3D has no choice but to reflect it. this is your movie, you KNOW this is not the end. you are director and star of this movie! you control how it’s going to play out.
𝐈𝐈𝐈. HOW I DID IT - The 4 Phases (more so, 3)
PHASE 1:
i found out about manifestation from tiktok. from there i have tried scripting, law of attraction and had taken a liking into the craft. i tried it all until i found out about the law of assumption, sammy ingram and finally, tumblr.
PHASE 2:
upon finding out about loassumption tumblr, i had learned more and more about the law but as time went on, i had realized i had never really fully tried to apply the law. the idea just didn’t come about to apply it. as many others, i had overconsumed information, always wondering if i was doing it right, questioning the 3D,
so i took a break. upon discharge, i realized many things and decided to spend an extended amount of time alone, away from social media. i’m someone who values alone time as long as if it’s spent wisely.
during this time away from tumblr and sns platforms in general, constantly surrounded by other people’s takes, information, and opinions, i had learned so much about the law of assumption on my own! i went into the law of assumption with a fresh mind, actually applying the knowledge and overtime of affirming and persisting, i ACTUALLY understood the meaning behind “creation is finished. it is done.”
i’m advising you to step away from social media (that on it’s own has negative impacts) and be alone with your thoughts. i know your thoughts haven’t had it’s time to be alone because you’re most likely constantly seeking information to help you. and i don’t blame you. it’s just that, you are always bombarded by thoughts that aren’t your own, you barely give some time to yourself to think for yourself!
and if you can’t help but be on tumblr for other reasons than loassumption, unfollow blogs for the time being, scroll past informational posts to avoid second guessing your application. tell yourself that
YOU ARE DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT!
PHASE 3:
when it was time to apply the law, i simplified it. you choose what you desire, you affirm from your desire and persist. okay! got it. so that’s what i did. i affirmed whenever i thought about my desire, i kept saying that it is done! so in phase 2, i mentioned how i realized how creation was ACTUALLY done, right? before deciding to apply the law, i kept seeing posts saying that but i didn’t really fully understand it until the realization hit me during my time away from social media. (see? i love alone time. solitude is my bff) — here’s my breakdown for you:
once you decide a desire is yours to claim, THE SECOND you affirm that, in your head, imagination, your 4D, it is ALREADY yours. therefore, it has no choice to become physical reality. (this is why your subconscious only needs to hear things once in order for it to conform!)
it will always be yours for as long as you sustain that assumption (persist), it is yours! no matter what.
this is the meaning of “it is done.” it’s like telling a chef what dish you want, once they know what you want, they’ve got you covered. except that this chef is you. you know the details of your desire, you declare it’s going to conform instantly so why are you worrying? there is no need to worry.
informational post on the 4D + 3D here:
❝ If you judge after appearances, you will continue to be enslaved by the evidence of your senses. To break this hypnotic spell of the senses you are told, "Go within and shut the door,” The door of the senses must be tightly shut before your new claim can be honored .Instead of fighting against the evidence of the senses you claim yourself to be that which you desire to be. As your attention is placed on this claim, the doors of the senses automatically close against your former master (that which you were conscious of being). As you become lost in the feeling of being (that which you are now claiming to be true of yourself) the doors of the senses once more open, revealing your world to be the perfect expression of that which you are conscious of being. ❞
i kept time away from social media and being persistent really helped me be aware of my thoughts.
persistence has helped me:
be aware of thoughts that i wouldn’t have been able to catch before. for example, i was declaring that i have all of my desires and creation was done, but i found myself affirming “okay but where is it?” — this made me realize i was questioning my desires in my 3D even though i knew it was done in the 4D. (you don’t have to do this, you can imply your 3D conforms fast with whatever affs)
flip and interrupt my intrusive thoughts faster and faster the more i persisted. i hated my intrusive thoughts so much. like it was so annoying and hurtful. it was filled with replaying past scenarios that happened to me, things i wished had played out differently, just people who absolutely did not deserve the right to be occupying my mind and space! so i was grateful to learn that with persistence, i started to have less and less of those.
(see!! mental diet, persistence!! <3 this is how habits form and strengthen duhh. remember not to abandon common sense for the law)
AND THEN, PHASE 4:
i had entered sabbath, the state of the wish fulfilled, calm and relaxation that my desire has already manifested and there wasn’t nothing left for me to do other than persist. after so much persisting and saturating my mind with my affirmations, i reached being peace with my desires. i’m really glad i persisted. see how after persistence of assumptions, though false, will harden into fact? see how even your affirmations would feel “fake” at first but will soon feel natural to you? this means that i wasn’t questioning where it was, how long it was taking, etc. but this doesn’t mean i was ignoring my 3D. i saw it all but i knew it was going to change BECAUSE i felt peace in my inevitable desires.
then, i received my desires.
❝ I couldn’t possibly be worried about anything if I really believe that imagining creates reality. ❞
❝ When I speak of feeling I do not mean emotion, but acceptance of the fact that the desire is fulfilled. Feeling grateful, fulfilled, or thankful, it is easy to say, “Thank You,” “Isn’t it wonderful!” or “It is finished.” When you get into the state of thankfulness, you can either awaken knowing it is done, or fall asleep in the feeling of the wish fulfilled. ❞
𝐈𝐕. YOUR NEW RULES & ROUTINE
☆┆YOUR 3 NEW RULES ARE:
1, you have all your desires:
i have all of my desires.
creation is finished. it is done.
2. you manifest quickly and easily:
manifesting is always so easy and instant for me.
i always manifest within 2 days or less, the 3D conforms instantly.
the 3D instantly reflect my 4D.
the physical reality instantly reflects my 4D/imaginative reality.
3. you are okay because nothing can stop you from getting the inevitable:
everything is going to be okay because creation is done.
i am always aware of my thoughts. nothing can stop/get in the way of my desires.
no amount of intrusive thoughts, events and opinions of others have the power to stop my manifestations.
✉️: choose one affirmation from each list or make one of your own that makes you feel comfortable.
☆┆ROUTINE:
affirm on loop as an act of saturating your mind whenever you think of your desire until you feel satisfied,
in the morning, after you wake up: saturate your mind with affs.
read the manifesting vaunt below everyday (whenever you feel like it) — read it over and over again until you feel confident then go about your day!!
at night, before you sleep, affirm this:
“i kept all my thoughts in check today. i didn’t waver once. my mind is completely saturated with the new story.”
optional tip: if you want to saturate your mind even more as a start, you can set reminders with sticky notes around your space, have affs on your phone lock screen or wear a bracelet.
✉️ NOTE: soon enough, your mind will be saturated and you won’t need to do this anymore. this is just a start for those who battle intrusive thoughts!
let yourself feel any emotions that may come up because of your hard circumstances then once it’s out of your system, affirm your rules, especially rule #3!
do not consume any loassumption information if you know it will only cause you to second guess your ability. if you have the urge to ask a blog a question, try to make sense of what they will say and answer it yourself.
in times of doubt, remember that life is a blank canvas. your desire is set in stone, so your only task is to persist.
REASSURANCE VAUNT
creation is ACTUALLY finished. it is done. the second i claimed my desires as mine, it has already manifested itself in the 4D so it has no choice to present itself in the 3D! all i have to do is affirm and persist. i always have unwavering faith in my manifesting abilities and the law. i never fail. i am successful at every single thing i do. manifesting is so effortless. no amount of doubt, worry, fear, anxiety, intrusive thoughts or events can ever, and i mean EVER stop my manifestations. why? because i said so. this is MY life. i make the rules. so if i say i manifest easily, the 3D conforms instantly and that i have all of my desires, then it is a FACT. i’m literally unstoppable. everything i want is inevitable. my only task is to persist, sit back and relax as the 3D reflects my 4D. it all happens so fast, but what else do you expect from a master manifester like me?
SOMETHING TO NOTE:
most of the time, people think affirming on loop is saying it like a robot but what you don’t realize is that you’re affirming as if you’re reading a book. it’s not filled with enthusiasm but it’s not exactly monotone either. stop overthinking it. it’s like the voice you’re reading this post with. correct?
again, soon enough, your affirmations will feel natural and you won’t feel the need to affirm constantly. the routine above was given for those who battle intrusive thoughts, making your affirmations dominate to the point where you don’t waver.
QUOTES on STATES:
❝ I paid thirty dollars for my first suit. Today a suit will cost me $200.00, but regardless of the cost, when the suit is new I am aware of it. But let me wear it long enough for it to feel natural and I will no longer be conscious of it. The same is true for a state. You may desire the state of fame. If you will think you are famous and remain conscious of the state long enough to make it natural, as the thoughts flow from you they become a natural part of your body of beliefs, and the world will proclaim your fame. ❞
❝ I urge you to use your own wonderful creative power and deliberately move into the state of your choice. Make it now by occupying the state long enough so that it feels natural. Haven’t you had a suit of clothes that felt so new you were conscious of them every moment? I know when I bought my first suit I walked down Fifth Avenue thinking everyone I passed knew my suit was new. People passing paid no attention to me, but I was so aware, so conscious of my new suit. That’s exactly that happens when you move into a new state. If the state of affluence is new, you think everyone knows it, but no one knows or cares whether you are rich or poor, so walk in the state until it becomes natural. The moment the feeling is natural, wealth is yours! ❞
𝐕. ENDING NOTE
i love you. read that again. you can do it. read that again. i am so so so so proud of you. read that again! you are so strong, you have SOO much potential and power. it’s time for you to tap into it, angel. stop making excuses. stop telling yourself you can’t do it. stop the nonsense! you’ve dealt with your hard circumstances long enough, it’s time for you to turn to the person who can make that change (you) and make it happen. i’m really sorry you have to go through what you did. you certainly do not deserve the unkind treatment. give yourself a hug and tell yourself that this. is. it. you’re going to make the change. you know it and i do too. it’s possible. nothing is impossible for the person who believes! keep the faith in yourself. nothing can stop you.
it’s like those movies where the mc finds out they hold so much power. they doubt it because of the life they’ve had so far but once they give it a shot, they become the most powerful hero ever. you are that hero!!!
i love you and i am, again, giving you the biggestttt hug ever.
now, with that being said, @blushydior will no longer be taking asks regarding this topic. i’ve cleared most of the questions that could ever arise. you don’t need my guidance anymore after this post! im seeing you off now. i love you. stay safe. know that you’re loved and hold the power to change your life.
— kisses from bambi ٩(��ᗜˋ*)و ♡
ps. make sure you clicked the words that have links! <3 (the links are missing)
𝐕𝐈. FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTIONS
Something you wish you could’ve told yourself before you manifested it all to make things easier for anyone struggling:
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.
you guys are beating yourself up for something so simple. take a step back and realize that. you’re already dealing with such hard circumstances, so why are you literally degrading yourself for something so within your power and reach? tell yourself everything is going to be okay. you’re always doing your best. you deserve the WORLD.
I could write a whole novel, combine all the posts on tumblr teaching the law of assumption, and every helpful ask out there but at the end of the day, YOU are the only person who could change your life. YOU make the call. turn every doubtful question to a positive one, when in doubt, turn inwards toward the 4D and know that it is real. it is done the second you affirmed it so.
SPEND TIME ALONE.
i can NOT stress this enough. i didn’t include the details of my time alone in phase 2 for nothing. you’ll see that you can answer your own questions. you’ll catch the thoughts you missed because you have always been so adamant on getting answers to questions you already knew. take a deep breathe and stay firm.
SEE WHAT’LL HAPPEN IF YOU DON’T GIVE UP.
What did you affirm to get your dream life?
basically my affirmations i gave above and these. all i used were blanket affirmations.
What does persisting mean to you? What does persisting really feel like? Is it just like a mental diet? or what?
“persisting is sticking to what you want / the end no matter what you’re shown, told, and what you experience + picking yourself up after letting any negative emotions & thoughts pass by.” — blushydior from this ask here (sadly the link is missing:()
+ keeping your thoughts in line of the same category. to word this in a different way, i can affirm so many affirmations just as long as they mean the same thing to me!
“it also is a mental diet. we’re always persisting in something. it’s just a matter of what you’re persisting in. you either persist in your desire or negative/non-beneficial thought 24/7.”
“in your post about how you changed your life, you said you just affirmed and persisted. but from your other posts it seems like you read neville goddard books. so did you just affirm or did you do imaginal acts too? i get confused when people say “just affirm and persist” cause neville never said that.” (original ask here) (note from Eli: the link is missing).
“yes, i read his books and sometimes i would do imaginal acts but i would only do that bc it helped me get by my circumstances, yk? like if i was overwhelmed i would just daydream lol. its like how i read books to escape to another world. but i would say, affirming and persisting was what i focused more on.
i just used what worked for me and used his quotes as a reminder of the power of man. i didn’t want to bound myself to one’s teaching constantly worrying if im doing it “right” or not so instead, i went back to his quotes that consisted of telling me to persist, look inwards, finding confirmation in my imagination, etc whenever i needed a pick me up.
but correct me if i’m wrong, i’m pretty sure many of the success stories he shared consisted of people simply decreeing their desires and feeling the wish fulfilled simply by repetition and acceptance of their assumption.”
What is saturating your mind?
read about it here (the link is missing, but Basically it is repeating an affirmation every minute or hour until you feel fulfilled)
Do we have to believe our affirmations? Did you ever doubt the law in the process?
no, i did not believe my affirmations and YES of course i doubted the law but i kept persisting either way because what could i lose? and here i am.
Did you just affirm, persist, maintain a mental diet and that’s it? No SATS, going to the void, lullaby, repeating affirmations? Did you just got it sleep?
just affirming and persisting. sure, the occasional lullaby, i usually affirmed for 10 seconds max before i gave up. i couldn’t sleep without imagining some romantic scenario LOL #bambiexposed
How to deal with manipulation and narcissism?
remind yourself that you’re in advantage because you know about the law of assumption. life is a dream, you can literally have whatever you want just by affirming. if you know that, why allow yourself succumb to other people’s thoughts and beliefs? i couldn’t allow other people’s thoughts ruin my chance of living my dream life. the thought of it alone gave me the worst feeling.
How did you tackle the feelings of having no hope? + After being in the victim state for so long what did you do to get yourself out and actually stay out?
i persisted on loop whenever i doubted the law. i reminded myself that it doesn’t hurt to just be quiet, affirm and persist to live my dream life. just do it. you gain nothing from turning back to your old habits. see what’ll happen if you don’t give up. ❝ Do you always turn to your imagination and, no matter what happens, do you remain faithful to the state imagined? If you do, you have passed the test. But if every little rumor, doubt, or fear can move you around like a pawn on a chessboard, then you are not keeping the faith! ❞ ❝ Objects seem so independent of our perception of them that we incline to forget that they owe their origin to imagination.❞
What was the timeframe of when you got your desires?
about a week after deciding to be strict with self discipline, mind you, i was dealing with hard circumstances and intrusive thoughts for years. within this time span, i had entered sabbath so i immediately got my desires.
How did you kept a positive mindset when it looked like there was no movement?
refer back to phase 3
What was your affirming routine?
AT FIRST, when i started to get sick of overconsumption and not getting my desires, i knew my mind wasn’t saturated/my desires were not my dominant thoughts. so, i decided to be strict with myself. i reminded myself with pieces of paper in my room that said: ❝ PERSIST. new story only!❞ ❝ AFFIRM!❞
❝ 1.) the 3D conforms instantly.
2.) AFFIRM THE DESIRED
3.) BE LOT.❞
and taped them on the wall infront of my bed & one on my door so i can see it before i head out.
i didn’t need them anymore after a few days. (phase 3 & 4)
What did you do on all the days you woke up and things were still the same?
stop affirming that you don’t see results. i flipped the thought of “nothing’s changed.” to “i am in my desired reality, it is done.” and so on. be stern and remind yourself that you are in control. don’t fall prey to the 3D. turn inwards, find confirmation in the 4D. read quotes above.
How did you not react to the 3D?
i allowed myself to be angry. if i wanted to cry, i did. if i wanted to vent, i did. i ranted my feelings out in my head, aloud or in a journal then proceeded to go back to the new story after i cooled down.
But isn’t ranting “not letting the old story die out?”
you and i could rant until our minds are cleared, just as long as you flip my thoughts, you are on the right track. i ranted for 2% of my 24 hour days. the other 98% i was persisting in the fact that creation was done. as “time” went on, it began to feel more natural and i felt more at ease. i held onto that feeling because i knew this was when i would get my desires and i did. letting out and actually feeling your feelings is important. you’re not a robot.
Did you script how your life would be?
no.
(.𖥔 ݁ note from Eli: here's her post about her life before and After she changed it with LOA, anyway i wanted to make it in a post since the Google document can't let you make a copie of it and plus you can't take screenshots which René didn't allow)
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Ithadel listened silently to the interplay, dark eyes watchful and brow creased into a faint, concerned frown.
He resisted the urge to point out that exposure to cold weather didn’t cause colds, at least not in that way; resisted, too, the urge to reach out and press the back of his fingers to Tesni’s forehead. She did sound faintly hoarse, now. If he were in his true form, even his dysfunctional excuse for life-sense would make the gesture more useful to him than to any human.
But it would be inappropriate in these circumstances, useless with his human guise active, and a pointless exercise in any case. Whether Tesni were just tired or truly ill, rest and warmth were the best things for her.
As for her living situation… Meredith’s concern was catching, particularly with Tesni’s clear tension and unease. But if Tesni’s parents were as absentee as it sounded like they might be, then once again it wasn’t anything that could be resolved immediately. Tesni was safe tonight, among people who clearly cared for her. Ithadel resolved to keep an eye out as well as he could, both on her health tonight and for signs of trouble in the future, but… for now, there wasn’t much else to be done.
Ithadel drew a breath and straightened as Meredith addressed him. “Ah. That… yes. Thank you. I’m – sorry to intrude, but… I’m grateful for your hospitality. There’s nothing to apologize for.” He noted with faint surprise that she was right. Even his cotton jeans were dry. He kept losing time, and it seemed to be adding up more quickly than he’d realized.
Changing could wait, though, even if he was already missing the warmth of the blanket he’d discarded. If he was lucky, the pins and needles plaguing his arm might die down with a bit more time. With a final searching glance at Tesni, Ithadel finally stepped away and made his way to the table.
It was a relief to sit again. He set aside the tea, selected a tuna sandwich, and tore off a piece of crust to nibble on in the hopes that starting slow would convince his stomach that eating was an acceptable proposition after all.
“I can only imagine the work a storm adds.” He nodded briefly towards the ceiling. “Is the beacon a flame, then? Or does it have its own generator?” One way or another, it was surely designed to weather storms, and as far as he could remember Meredith hadn’t rushed off to tend it when the power had failed.
It was a kind question, and Tesni couldn’t dodge it entirely. She blinked the bleariness from her vision and offered Ithadel a soft smile. “Tired.” An honest answer, even if it wasn’t the whole truth. Her mouth had gone dry, her throat scratchy, and soreness had threaded itself through her muscles. A cold hollowness ached in her stomach as well.
Her tiredness consumed most of her attention, though, which could prove troublesome since she needed to stay awake long enough to sneak back to the sea once everyone else had drifted off to sleep. She couldn’t afford to fall asleep herself.
Meredith, who couldn’t help overhearing, frowned in concern and rested a half-eaten jam sandwich back on her plate. “Hope you didn’t catch a cold from being out in that nasty storm. I could make you some soup instead, or a fresh mug of tea, or…?” Her voice trailed off as Tesni shook her head. The lightkeeper faltered before she went on, more tentative. “Your, ah, parents… are they home? Or… traveling again?”
This was an excuse Tesni had given the last time Meredith had asked about her parents’ whereabouts. It still weighed heavily in the selkie’s throat. She swallowed and nodded. “Traveling again.”
Meredith hummed, her brow creased. “Ah, alright. Just… didn’t want them to worry.” She glanced at Megan, as though trying to communicate something unspoken, but Megan was absorbed in tracing her finger along a pattern in the countertop as she chewed another bite of sandwich. Meredith sighed and focused on Tesni again. “You can sleep in Megan’s room tonight, upstairs. We’ve got another mattress and blankets. And you can borrow some clothes from me for pajamas while I clean the blood from your lovely dress. Megan can fetch those for you as well when she brings you upstairs.”
Tesni tensed instantly. Deep-rooted instincts begged the selkie to refuse, to hold onto her dress as though it were her life itself (it was, in a way). The stains didn’t bother her; they didn’t need cleaning. The blood would wash away as soon as she returned to the sea and the dress melted back into seal skin.
But… Tesni knew Meredith meant no harm. She was being kind. If Tesni refused her offer, it would seem ungrateful, and it might confuse the Cadigans, and she might lose their trust. And if she waited any longer to reply, they might question her, and—
“Okay,” murmured Tesni.
Meredith smiled. “Hopefully you’ll be feeling right as rain by tomorrow.” Turning to Ithadel, she continued. “For you, we’ve got a spare bedroom over there.” She nodded toward a closed door in the hearth room. “We keep spare clothing on hand for anyone who needs it. There’s some in the drawers in there that might fit you, if you’d like. Your clothing ought to be dry now, but it might still feel nice to get something a bit warmer on.” Her smile turned apologetic. “Sorry I didn’t offer sooner. Always get a bit mixed up in storms. So much work to be done, you know.”
#thread: you look cold#hearthtales#(no worries at all! I am... even slower at the moment myself ahaha. Thank you for your own patience in turn <3)#(ahhhhh gotta love the dramatic irony. Meredith is trying v hard to be helpful; if only she knew...)#(ffff poor Tesni though. Losing her pelt is the LAST thing she needs right now!)#(on a different front I’ve been weighing what will be the tipping point in my head. I don’t think we’re anywhere near there yet?)#(but Ithadel has almost certainly worked with selkies at least a time or two before unless they’re vanishingly rare in your setting)#(and if he gets a close enough look at her dress + puts various observations together he’ll probably eventually draw the right conclusions)#(on the other hand there have been distractions galore; they haven’t actually been interacting that long and most things have been subtle;)#(And Ithadel certainly isn’t thinking at the top of his game right now xD)#Ithadel#Meredith#Tesni#Megan#Delwyn#rp
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Here's every version of the letter the Inquisitor gets from their LI plus Varric (which didn't make me cry at all)
If your Inky didn't romance anyone:
Inquisitor, Greetings from miserable, rainy Minrathous! (Don't tell Dorian I called it that.) The rotten weather here is making me nostalgic for Skyhold. The mountains were freezing, but at least the air didn't smell like wet garbage. We'll have to get in another game of Wicked Grace, soon. Harding picked up the trail again. I'd tell you not to worry, but I know how useless that is. Instead, I'll just say: I've got a great team on this. Neve could stare down the Maker, and wait until you meet Rook. He's/She's/They're a natural: Smart, resourceful, completely unpredictable. You'd like him/her/them, as long as you don't try to beat him/her/them at cards. Chuckles'll never know what hit him. I'll write again once we have something solid for you. Drinks at the Hanged Man are on me when this is over. Take care of yourself. Varric
Blackwall:
My love, You have summoned me to Minrathous, and I will answer your call, as soon as responsibilities here in the South allow. I have missed being by your side. Will these troubles be the last we face? The world seems always to conspire, through duty or disaster, to pull you away from me. I do not resent it. You are dedicated to purposes far larger and more significant than myself. I hope you do not think me a fool for hoping that one day, your only concern will be the color you wish our walls to be painted, or the flowers we will plant beside our gate. I'm partial to carnations. Yours always, Thom
Cassandra:
My love, We are no strangers to duty, or the separation it demands of us. You head for Tevinter, and though I want to go with you, there is work we both must do. I will not falter in the tasks that wait before me and I pray my actions, in whatever measure they can, will keep you safe. The others see only confidence in my resolve, but you have always known more than mere appearance. I confess to you, and you alone, that I am afraid. I'm afraid of what may happen, that Thedas will face such turmoil as it did before. I know not what awaits us. Yet even in the face of uncertainty, there are two things I cannot doubt and never will. The first is that our paths are never separated long. That I will find you at my side when I need you, as you will find me at yours. I will play my part in this and follow as soon as I can. The second thing I never doubt is you. Whatever lies before you, trust yourself. Trust your heart as I trust it. It will not lead you astray. Yours, Cassandra
Cullen:
The top of the letter has been punctured by small, sharp teeth, leaving most of a beloved name and a few sentences chewed to read. I fear the puppy started on this letter shortly after I did. I'd start over, but I must send this tonight if it's to reach you. Matters are settled here and I make for Tevinter as soon as possible. I almost believed chaos might spare us this time. I can't say I wished to see Minrathous before now, but I am eager to see you. I long to see your face and know that you are all right. You are I've There's I wish I was better at putting into writing all that's in my mind. For now, simply know that I love you. It is the most cherished constant of my life. The days ahead will not be easy. I know there's much you carry, more than many realize. But whatever you must face, you will not meet it alone. You have my sword, my counsel, my - I could write this list forever when all I mean to say is this - Whatever you need of me, I am yours. Cullen
Dorian:
Amatus, I'm writing. Again. Yes, the sending crystals still work and yes, you'll be in Minrathous in a few short weeks. But a letter, written in blind longing, is real. It can be touched, and it can be held, when ink and paper must substitute for your skin on mine and my breath in your ear. I used to scoff at frequent declarations of affection. Trite, I thought. Save them for rare and precious moments. But time and love are no longer things I care to squander, especially not as we race again toward calamity. And so, in each of these fleeting, ephemeral seconds, I will tell you that I love you. Whether penned or spoken, or conveyed by glance or action, I love you. In this moment, and in all the moments to come, for as long as they do, I love you. I will find you soon. Yours, Dorian
Iron Bull
Hey, Kadan, Not the first time we've marched toward different battles. I know you're keeping the crap from catching fire up in Tevinter. Wish I could be there, but I'll make sure there's a world for you to come back to when you're done dealing with crazy vints and stupid Antaam and whatever other crap Solas kicked up. (Shit, the Antaam. Remember when I was worried what would happen if I went tal-vashoth? That right there!) I know you're gonna be careful, and you've got Morrigan there. Just take care of yourself. If anything happens to you, I'm going to have to take Krem and the Chargers and stomp across all of Tevinter to come get you. It'll be a whole thing, and you know it'll upset Dorian. Being apart from you made me realize something else. I spent so long being whatever the Ben-Hassrath wanted me to be. An investigator. An agent. A mercenary sending reports. These past years, since the Inquisition ended, I've been able to just be what I want to be. And what I really want to be is yours. I like the person I am when I'm with you. So come back safe. Love, The signature appears to be a stylized rendering of the Iron Bull's head.
Josephine:
My Dearest Lord/Lady, I have spoken to friends in Minrathous. They offer us their hospitality, not to mention shelter from the worst intrigues of the Archon's Palace. While you're well acquainted with the roving eyes of grand courts, please take care. Tevinter's regard can be the oldest and cruelest of them all. The family writes the weather back home is beautiful. I do miss our quiet times together. There is a question I've wanted to ask you for so long. I would like to pretend I have been busy, or it was not the proper time. But, if I am being honest, I only waited because I have been afraid of choosing a poor moment. Please, let me make a promise to you here. When we return to Antiva, I will ask you, on the steps of the estate, if you will do me a great honor. And I dream you will say yes. Always yours, Josephine Postscript: I cannot believe it nearly slipped my mind. Yvette and Lord Otranto send their best wishes, and hope to see us back home in time to welcome their third child.
Sera:
(An artistically doodled journal page presumably from the Inquisitor's partner, Sera.) Keep this as close as I need you. (A drawing of a pile of flowers, with lines like it's moving, an arrow pointing to it labeled "us.") - North again, Mini-wrathus still stuck up its own pucker. - Magiturds are scared of us. They don't even know. - We work with Maevaris, right? She's wow. - So many Friends! Jennies in all the walls! - We kill him this time. He took from us twice! (A drawing of a cracked egg scribbled out, with "can't even joke" in letters that tore the page.) - Still thinking of you sideways. - Never mind the Dalish, here's the Veil Jumpers! Tempest-kin! (A drawing of a tall, shorthaired elf (Sera?) and Irelin brandishing two fingers, backflipping as a tree explodes in runes.) - The memory thing makes my head spin. If that Rook doesn't take it, throw it out. - Tell Morrigan ppbbth! for me. - I'll also tell her ppbbth! She knows why. - Tell them to Stripe. Him. Up. I wanted more books. (More heavy scribbles that tear.) - You meet; I'll keep you safe. Then I'm your time off, and you're my time on. (The last section has different colored inks, like Sera has returned to it several times.) New naked names: -Sweet-tits (scribbled out) -Bestest (scribbled out) -Loverly (scribbled out) -Lovey (scribbled out) -My-for-always-and-ever - name's not too long, time's too short. -But "Sweet-tits," though (scribbled out)
Solas:
Vhenan, I do not know if you will see these words. My ritual is ready and will soon be set in motion. Perhaps when you read this the world will be as it once was, and you will see why all I did was necessary. I cannot ask your forgiveness, but I hope you come to understand. That night in Crestwood, when I shared the truth about your vallaslin... you do not know how close I came to breaking. I could have shared the truth, or even put my plans aside and simply stayed with you as Solas... as I wanted. I regret the pain I caused you. What I feel for you will never change. The note is unsigned, but the handwriting is Solas'.
#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard#datv#veilguard#solas#sera dragon age#josephine montilyet#the iron bull#dorian pavus#cullen rutherford#cassandra pentaghast#blackwall#thom rainier#cassandra allegra portia calogera filomena pentaghast#the inquisitor#veilguard spoilers#I haven't seen a post with them all together yet so here we go#long post
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FILLING IN | BAKUGOU x READER ˖˚˳⊹
summary: A production assistant for an erotic arts studio, you think you've seen every ridiculous plot line under the sun. But not even porn tropes can compare to the absurd reality you find yourself in when the on-screen talent drops out, and you're asked to fill in opposite the studio's number one star Bakugou Katsuki. contents: The classic oh-no-the-porn-talent-has-gone-missing-let's-sub-a-rando-in trope, no quirks au, pornstar Bakugou, soft dom Bakugou, gn + afab reader, unrequited-requited crush, slight bondage, descriptions of afab genitalia, nipple sucking, cunnilingus, piv sex, pet names used: angel and sweetheart, porn with surprise feelings, 18+, 8.2k words notes: This is my Bakugou x Reader commitment for @ficsforgaza, and I am sorry it is late enough to also count for Valentine's Day (but also Happy Valentine's Day!!) Additionally, a special thank you to my angel princess @ofmermaidstories for handing me the nerd + pornstar combo when I was worried about Bakugou's characterization. I think this is the only way I could have ever written a pornstar Bakugou that felt right to me. Love you, Mermie.
The studio was churning in chaos by the time you arrived.
The first sign that things weren’t right was Komori, one of your fellow production assistants, propped against the wall outside. Her cellphone was pressed against her ear, and she looked nervous, her foot tapping a thousand miles a minute. She had a thumbnail pressed to her mouth and was chewing steadily through the nail like a rabbit through a lettuce leaf.
You didn’t want to disturb her, so you buzzed inside the studio, only to find the hallways filled with an equally nervous energy. Yaoyorozu, one of the production managers, hovered in the doorway of a dressing room. She looked to be arguing with someone, her normally sweet expression pinched in profile. A small circle of people took up the hallway behind her, shifting apprehensively.
A shrill voice filtered out of the dressing room as you tried to wedge yourself by. “I said I’m not doing it. We’re getting married and we agreed I wouldn’t do this anymore.”
“Bibimi—” Yaoyorozu started.
“Effective immediately. Find someone else,” Bibimi’s voice replied.
You stopped in your tracks, blinking as you turned back to the doorway, peering over Sato’s shoulder.
Bibimi Kenranzaki was one of the studio’s top actresses, the very performer scheduled to shoot the production you were working on this afternoon. The shoot was a Valentine’s Day special, and had already been delayed at Bibimi’s request several times. If you’d understood Yaoyorozu’s previous concerns correctly, today was the last possible day to shoot it with enough time for it to make it through editing to post on Valentine’s.
This was not good.
“Bibimi, of course we would never force you to do something you did not consent to,” Yaoyorozu said patiently. “But you can see how having delayed this shoot many times already puts us in danger of not delivering on our commitments.”
You heard a dismissive snort issue from the room, and peered over one of Yaoyorozu’s slender shoulders. Bibimi lounged across one of the waiting room couches, arms crossed over her chest. An enormous diamond ring you’d never seen before glinted from one of her fingers, clearly the source of today’s change of heart.
Oh, production was not going to be happy.
You winced as you ducked out from behind Yaoyorozu, heading back down the hall to stuff your things into one of the vacant lockers. It was a struggle to fit everything in as today you’d come directly from a lecture—two textbooks the size and weight of cinderblocks choking up all the space in your bag. You would have thought that, considering that a wide swath of the production staff were college students—including several of the performers themselves—the studio would have had a better set up. But it was often a fight to the death to even find an open locker amongst the many other bookbags, and an equally Sisyphean struggle to get the door shut on the tiny cubbies.
Once you finally managed to finagle the door shut on your backpack, you made a beeline for the supply room. Typically, your first task of any shoot was acquisition of about a million pounds of baby wipes and lube, though you wondered if they would be needed today, given the scene with Bibimi you’d just witnessed.
You checked the film schedule posted in the staff entry to find the allotted set room. Then you made your way down the twisting maze halls carpeted with ancient olefin to the set for You Cumplete Me, the obnoxious working title Kaminari had come up with for this particular Valentine’s Day project.
The room was set up like some generic apartment, a large bed with a wire-framed headboard dominating the majority of the space. A cherry wood nightstand cluttered with fake knick knacks stood diligently at the bedside, and two fake windows with their curtains drawn shut overlooked the whole affair, red dressings fluttering slightly in the breeze from a fan.
Most of the production staff was already inside the room, the cameramen and director huddled together in the corner, whispering nervously. You spotted Mina, the wardrobe coordinator and makeup artist, fussing with her phone in the other corner, her various products and brushes spread out across a plastic folding table, looking put out.
“You know if we’re going to be able to sub anyone in for Bibimi?” you asked as you approached her, flopping down in one of the chairs set up at her makeshift dressing table. You arrayed your armful of lube and plastic packs of wipes at the corner so as not to disturb her arrangement.
Mina’s eyes flicked up to yours and she grinned, the upturn of her mouth accented with perfectly-applied hot pink lipstick.
“Komori’s called like ten other actresses so far and can’t get anyone,” Mina answered. “And Shiozaki and Kendo are in-studio but both just got off another shoot so we contractually can’t use them. I think Yaomomo is ready to start shaking people down.”
You winced. Yaoyorozu never lost her cool, but the pressure must be mounting. You knew marketing materials had already been put out on the studio’s website, specifically promising the return of the studio’s highest-grossing star—Bakugou Katsuki—opposite Bibimi.
While Bibimi might be the highest paid actress, Bakugou was the real draw of UA Productions. UA churned out projects that were largely targeted towards less traditional markets—largely women—porn that was often of higher production value, higher quality scripting, and careful coordination showcasing enthusiasm and consent. It also subsequently employed more than its fair share of beautiful men.
And Bakugou Katsuki crowned that pile of performers. Though foul-mouthed and often irascible, he was undeniably breathtaking to behold, both on screen and in person. He was the typical blend of tall, strong, and well-muscled that most UA actors were. But he moved with a singular precision and intention that drove fans wild, and came equipped with bed-rumpled blond hair, mile-long lashes, a surly, pouty mouth, and a facial symmetry that Euclid himself would have wept over.
He was also nearing the end of his doctoral and would not be filming for much longer, you were given to understand. So the studio stood to lose a significant amount of audience trust and money, should this production fall through.
As if on cue, Bakugou Katsuki himself stomped through the doorway. The expression on his face told you he was already well-aware of what was happening with Bibimi, and he was getting annoyed with the hold up. He set a direct line for you and Mina, mouth twisted in dissatisfaction.
Your ears promptly went hot, the way they always did when Bakugou was in your line of vision.
You’d unfortunately had something of a crush on him from the minute you’d become a production assistant at UA, your third year of college. Funds were tight and your masters program loomed large in front of you, its meager stipend like a slap in the face. You’d needed something else flexible, and you’d found UA through the friend of a friend—its proximity to the university, and ever changing schedule of ongoing productions offering the perfect amount of flexibility for your situation.
Bakugou had been there that first day as Yaoyorozu gave you the tour, too. He’d been tucked up on the couch of the waiting room as you passed through, blonde hair rumpled, someone’s lip gloss still smeared at the corner of his jaw. He looked like a soft, relaxed mess—clothes askew like he’d pulled them back on after a shoot and immediately migrated to the couch—though his scarlet eyes tracked intently across the page of an enormous engineering text spread across his thighs. His long fingers twirled a pen absently, tapping against a notebook peeking out from just under the textbook, headphones jammed over his ears.
He did not look up as you made your way inside, but your stomach had flared to life with a sudden flutter of butterflies. You were startled by the pretty set of his mouth, the long lashes that swept over his cheeks as he read, the flex of those long, beautiful fingers on his pen. You had never seen a person so perfect in real life, and the effect was dumbing.
“That’s Bakugou, one of our performers,” Yaoyorozu had told you, leading you through the room. She did not stop to introduce you. “He’s working on a PhD in chemical engineering, and performs once every couple of months for us. He’s—erm—not quite friendly, so we’ll skip the introduction today.”
You’d followed her, nodding obediently, leaving Bakugou behind. You’d dutifully concluded your tour and signed all the paperwork, and met several other members of the staff. It was only when you’d been released from your onboarding obligations that you saw Bakugou again, as you ran out into the parking lot to start your car.
It was raining out, a torrential downpour much worse than when you’d arrived that came down in thick, pelting sheets. Visibility was bad enough that you almost missed the tuft of blonde hair across the parking lot, ducking under the awning of the nearby bus stop.
You knew the route headed back towards your university, and subsequently your apartment, and it dawned on you that Bakugou’s would most likely be attaining his cited PhD at your same college. You felt your mouth twist, impressed. PhD tracks were notoriously difficult to attain at Musutafu University—no wonder Bakugou needed a job that was, for lack of better phrasing, quick and dirty. He probably was drowning in post-grad labs and dissertation materials.
The memory of those long fingers tapping at the edge of his text suddenly flickered again in your brain, and something possessed you as you started up your engine. Before you knew what you were doing, you had pulled your car around into the bus stop bay, leaning out to call out to him.
“Hey—Bakugou, right?” you said, watching as scarlet eyes found yours, narrowing suspiciously. His pretty mouth lifted in an immediate, reflexive snarl, and those broad shoulders squared off, like he was getting ready for trouble.
You cut in, quickly explaining yourself when you realized he had no context for the rando hanging out of their car window at him. “I’m Yaoyorozu’s new production staff. Just joined today. Are you headed towards Musutafu U and do you want a ride?”
A blonde eyebrow lifted. “You’re with UA?” he asked. His voice was a kind of low growl, not unlike the thunder suddenly echoing overhead, and the sound shot through you like a bolt of lightning.
“I—yeah. Just signed the paperwork this afternoon.”
Several spatters of rain dampened your cheeks where you had your head poked out of the window, and Bakugou’s eyes tracked them closely as he leaned in. “Then let’s get one thing straight right off the bat—I don’t fuck coworkers off the clock.”
You recoiled, horrified at the conclusion he’d immediately brought himself to. “No! That’s not what I—I didn’t mean like—! I just thought because it’s raining out, you might want—”
“I want you to fuck right off, is what I want,” Bakugou said, crossing his arms over his chest. He made a show of leaning back against the glass wall of the bus stop, its interior papered over with moldering ads. It was a clear dismissal.
You blinked at him stupidly for a moment, mind reeling that your gesture had been received so poorly. But then you realized he hadn’t seen you, in your trek through the staff room during your afternoon tour. You’d only just seen him, and you hadn’t spoken to him besides. Despite your immediate interest in and respect for him, he knew nothing about you.
And he was a pornstar, come to think of it. He probably had had a fair number of creeps proposition him out of the blue. Enough that he was suspicious now, as you might have been, were you in his position.
Your cheeks heated, suddenly ashamed. You nodded, gritting your teeth as you ducked back inside your car.
“Right, fucking off, as requested,” you said, turning your blinker on to move back out into the road. “Sorry to scare you. See you, um—see you at work sometime.”
“Oi—I ain’t fuckin’ scared,” you heard him growl, but then you were turning back out into the street. You rolled your window back up as you sped up, resisting the urge to look back at Bakugou in the rearview.
What a humiliating first impression that had been.
You'd fretted about it for another week before your first official day at UA, and for several weeks more when you didn’t immediately run into Bakugou. When you’d finally met him properly, however, Bakugou acted like he’d never even seen you before in his life, and you somewhat gratefully followed his lead. He treated you like anyone else, with the same kind of universal severity he turned on the other production staff. You discovered very quickly that he was impatient, brusque, no-nonsense. He stalked onto every set with all the latent energy of a nuclear missile strike, and never softened until after the shoot was over.
His general attitude, and your humiliating first encounter should have been enough to turn you off of him. But the occasional glimpse of him after a shoot—rumpled, relaxed, open in a way he normally wasn’t, in the way that you'd first seen him—was unfortunately enough to keep those initial butterflies aflutter.
The fact that he was smart—and annoyingly adept in the bedroom, considering the number of reshoots his costars often needed after they accidently came too early—did not help matters.
“Where the fuck is Yaoyorozu?” he demanded of you and Mina, as he approached you in the set room now.
You met his scarlet gaze, holding very still under his regard.
“She was negotiating with Bibimi just now when I came in,” you told him, cheeks heating as his eyes flicked over you. He had a very direct way of evaluating people, and rarely missed a detail. You hoped your makeup wasn’t smudged from where you’d had your head propped up in your hand, valiantly resisting falling asleep in your earlier lecture.
“Bibimi’s a waste of fuckin’ time,” Bakugou growled.
You rolled your eyes. He couldn’t very well act opposite his own hand, so someone was going to have to fill in.
“Well Mina says we’re not having luck finding anyone else either so Bibimi is your best bet,” you told him.
Bakugou looked down his perfect nose at you. “Anyone in this damn studio could do better than she does.”
You felt your eyebrows raise. Bibimi was popular with a variety of audiences for her exaggeratedly dollish features—you doubted just anyone could fill in for her and look as good. You said as much to Bakugou, and he scoffed.
“‘S not about looking good, it’s about showing that you’re feeling good,” he said plainly, igniting a wave of fire across your cheeks. The flames worsened when he crossed his arms over his chest and you had occasion to notice he was in nothing but a workout tank, his bare biceps flexing enticingly in the studio lighting.
You were thankfully spared from having to form a coherent response by Yaoyorozu stepping into the room. She was tailed by Komori, and wore a troubled expression. She waved an elegant hand that encompassed both your camp in the corner and the directors on the other side of the room.
“Bibimi is unfortunately out. And we cannot use Shiozaki or Kendo. I am afraid we may have to call off the shoot this afternoon,” she said.
“So get someone else in,” Bakugou said, with his usual brisk directness. He turned to face her. You caught the whiff of something light and clean on him as he did so, laundry detergent and recently-applied shampoo.
Yaoyorozu fixed him with an expectant look. “We’ve unfortunately worked our way through the roster of available performers. Unless you know someone else?”
Bakugou stared back at her evenly, arching a blonde brow. “There’re a bunch of extras already here, aren’t there?”
A little shock went through you. Extras. As in the…people in the room right now? Did he really mean the production staff?
Yaoyorozu blinked, apparently taken aback. Then her gaze slid thoughtfully between Komori, Mina, and you. Another little thrill raced through you, like you’d suddenly missed a step. Surely they both could not actually be considering that.
“I’m a hoe but I’m a loyal hoe,” Mina said from next to you, immediately putting up a rosy palm. “Eiji is my one and only, sorry babes.”
Yaoyorozu nodded. “Of course, I would not expect you to violate any commitments you already had to a significant other.”
“I am also seeing someone,” Komori volunteered, a shy little blush sweeping across her cheeks. You smiled a bit at her obvious regard for whoever it was—until you sensed a dozen pairs of eyes suddenly turning to you.
Your stomach dropped—less of a missed step then and more of a sudden push off a cliff.
Worst of all was the pair of scarlet eyes suddenly burning with undue regard in your direction. You stared straight at Yaoyorozu, unable to meet Bakugou’s gaze. You still felt like you might burn up under his scrutiny, like an ant under a magnifying glass.
“I—uh—” you said dumbly, floundering for the right set of words to explain yourself. “Uhh.”
“You seeing anybody?” Bakugou prodded, prompting a fresh wave of heat to your cheeks.
“Well—no—”
“You clean?” he asked.
Your face burned hotter. “Yes, if you must know—-but uh—”
“Then what?” he prompted.
“Is it that easy for you? To just switch partners like that?” you asked. You weren’t exactly a blushing virgin but you still had only slept with partners you had cared for. Bakugou had worked with you for years and never signaled anything beyond dismissal and semi-professionalism—so it wasn’t like he had that same level of interest in you, despite your enormous crush on him. How could he just switch, just like that?
Bakugou uncrossed his arms to settle his hands on slim hips instead, and he gave you another evaluating once over. “Something the matter with you?” he asked. You noticed he did not ask if you thought something was the matter with him. You wondered if your crush on him was that apparent.
“No,” you said defensively. “Just—I don’t know that I’d be any good on camera.”
“You’ve been in videos before,” Mina pointed out, tugging playfully on your belt loop. “You were in Bibimi’s Christmas special a couple years ago.”
“That was different,” you said, staring at her. “I was her evil coworker who sent her running into Tetsutetsu’s muscular arms. I didn’t have to get naked.”
“We can give you time to get prepared,” Yaoyorozu promised kindly. “If you wanted to um, clean up or trim—”
“It’s not that!” you said quickly, waving your arms. Your ears burned. “I just mean I would be shy.”
Bakugou watched you silently for another long moment, his full mouth pursed in thought. His gaze dragged down your body and then back up to your face, and you felt it like a physical touch.
“Then if you forgot you were on camera?” he asked, a rasp in his tone.
You blinked at him dumbly. “If I—forgot?”
“If I made you forget,” he said, flashing a sharp smirk. The arrogance looked so good on him, zinging through your veins like an electric current. Your cheeks and ears flared even hotter, until you thought you might actually be emitting smoke from them.
You tried to form words but seemed to have trouble shaping the proper ones with your tongue, making a series of choking noises before you managed. “There is no way you could—you’re not that good.”
Something hot flared to life behind Bakugou’s eyes, and his smirk curled even sharper. “We’ll see about that.”
“What if Bakugou helps you get over your nerves, and we just try it and see how you do.” Yaoyorozu prompted gently. “Is that something you would be willing to do? Of course we won’t pressure you.”
Your gaze jerked back to her as you startled. For just a second you’d sort of forgotten there was anyone in the room but Bakugou.
“I sort of doubt—but if you really need—I mean I could—try…” you fumbled out.
Yaoyorozu nodded gratefully, looking pleased again. “Alright, then let’s at least try it. Mina please find proper costuming and help get Y/N ready. I will draw up a short contract with the same terms we promise all our on camera talent for you to look over when you’re done.”
You nodded, a little dazed. Had you really just agreed to—?
But then Mina was laughing, grabbing you by the elbow and drawing you out of the room. She marched you towards the back of the studio building where she’d amassed a respectable wardrobe, racks upon racks of clothes. “Alright, this is going to be so fun! I love dressing new talent! It’s always fun to work out what’s going to work with your coloring and style on screen.”
The mention of you doing anything on screen had all the blood draining from your veins, but Mina didn’t seem to mind. She kept up a stream of happy, easy chatter as she pecked around in the racks like a chicken hunting a grasshopper. Eventually she emerged with a robe in a deep pink, slippery and silky and glistening faintly under the overheads.
“Okay so you’re supposed to be a loving couple celebrating your anniversary and looking for ways to spice things up,” she said. “So you’ll be waiting for him to come home, looking delicious in this little slip of a thing. He can unwrap you like a V-Day present!”
Her callback to the plot of the shoot suddenly made you realize there were way more things involved in the project than just being pawed at on screen—and you did not know any of Bibimi’s lines. How the hell were you supposed to deliver any kind of performance?
“Don’t worry about it, I assure you the gears are already churning in Momo’s big brain,” Mina said when you asked as much. She peeled you out of your sweater and jeans, and ushered you into the robe. Cheeks burning, you let her look you over to make sure you were properly groomed for the camera.
Then before you could get cold feet, she bundled you up and shepherded you back into the set room and set to work on you with her various pots of paint and ointments. She worked a couple things into your hair, applied something glossy and sticky to your mouth, and adjusted the fit of your robe to her liking until she pronounced you ready.
Yaoyorozu was already leaning over you by the time Mina released you, laying out a packet of sheets in front of you. She detailed the terms to you in the professional, clipped tone you’d heard her conduct business in before, and soon enough you were penning in your own name in a shaky hand. The strokes looked almost foreign on the page, and you felt a little more than lightheaded thinking about what you’d just signed yourself into.
“So—what am I supposed to do about Bibimi’s lines?” you asked, your voice coming out kind of dry and crackly.
“We’re going to improvise,” Yaoyorozu said. “Bakugou will guide you. Try to respond as best you can to what he says, along the framework of being a couple celebrating their anniversary. It’s most important to capture your intimacy, however, so we can always come back and reshoot any dialog as needed after. You can call him Katsuki, there are no aliases for this shoot.”
You nodded, feeling even more nervous now that all the prerequisites had been completed.
That left Komori waiting for you. She was apparently assuming the duties you’d abandoned by becoming the star of this absurd alternate dimension. She led you over to what had been meant to be Bibimi’s starting mark on the bed and helped you spread your pink robe out enticingly. You almost laughed as you helped her, feeling foolish and distinctly unsexy for the deliberateness of it all.
There was nothing less romantic than half a dozen other people in the room with you, cameras and hot lights trained on you like you were an escaped convict under a helicopter floodlight. You got the impression that it was going to be a monumental task to work up the nerve to even loosen the tie on your robe, nevermind remove it.
Except then Bakugou walked in.
He’d changed, sometime in the half hour or so Mina had had you in her clutches. He prowled into the room in a dark charcoal suit, the consummate businessman home from his generic businessman job.
He looked unfairly good in it too—the close cut of it highlighted how his broad shoulders slashed inwards into a trim waist, and his pants showcased the flex of a strong, hard thigh. He’d acquired a chunky wristwatch in a dark metal, and it glinted dully under the overhead lights.
He looked sleek and dangerous, even though you’d just seen him stomping around in sweatpants not thirty minutes prior. You felt your breath escape you in a whoosh, your heartbeat kicking up as he prowled closer.
“I’m home, angel,” he said, a smoky rasp curling on the end of his voice. Despite the pet name, he sounded enough like his usual self that you almost answered him in turn.
You vaguely remembered you were obliged to playact with him, and you summoned up your nerve. “Hi, Katsuki,” you said. You hoped your voice did not sound too shaky. “Happy Anniversary.”
Bakugou’s scarlet eyes dipped down to your robe, fastening to the spot where it gaped open suggestively over one thigh. Your skin buzzed like a hive of bees was trapped beneath it.
“This my present?” he asked, stalking closer. He snagged the tie of your robe in his long fingers, toying with it speculatively.
“It should be easy to open,” you joked, then almost cringed.
Sexy. You were supposed to be sexy, not goofy as hell. And what happened when he really did try to open it?
A small amount of panic crept up your spine again, seeping into your veins. You did not feel ready to be naked before all of the eyes in this room, nevermind the roving gaze of the internet. What had you been thinking, signing up for this?
Your hand came up defensively to tug the robe tie back out of Bakugou’s hand, only for it to be captured too. Bakugou tugged you up and to him, and your face broke out in another sweeping wave of flame as you felt the hard planes of him against you. He was so warm, and smelled so good up close and you could not even begin to know what to do or where to put your hands—
Before you could ask him what the heck he was doing, however, he brought your captured hand to his mouth. You almost leapt out of your skin when you felt the gentle press of his lips on the inside of your wrist, the careful flicker of a tongue. Those scarlet eyes slid over you knowingly, near enough that you could see tiny flecks of deep purple in them.
His other hand came up to take your chin, his thumb stroking over the side of your jaw. The feeling made you shiver slightly, and it must have been clearly visible because the corner of Bakugou's mouth lifted into a smirk against your wrist. Your heart hammered against your ribcage, every inch of your skin thrilling with the feeling of your longtime crush doing something this to you.
“Think I’m gonna enjoying opening you alright,” Bakugou intoned.
You struggled to remember what he was talking about, giving up almost immediately as his mouth trailed along the inside of your arm. It traced up and up and up, until he was hovering dangerously close to your face. His fingers tightened on your chin, tilting your face up to his.
And then he bent his head, and crushed his mouth to yours.
Immediately, everything else disappeared.
Kissing Bakugou was three thousand zillion times hotter than you could have ever even imagined. You’d sort of imagined that with an attitude like his, he would be all power and impatience. And the power was there, but leashed, somehow. His mouth was hot and shockingly sweet on yours, and his fingers cupped your face to his, holding you there like he planned to kiss you for hours yet.
Your head was spinning by the time he let your mouth free, and the dip of his blonde lashes as he looked you over was extraordinarily self-satisfied.
His hand on your chin went to your robe instead, pulling the collar wide so that he could lower his mouth inside instead, kissing over your throat. You seized fistfuls of his suit, clinging to him, as he mapped a hot path across your shoulder and collarbone, one of his hands coming up to up your chest.
You heard yourself let out a soft hiss as his thumb pressed over your nipple through the silky fabric. Bakugou sucked a careful bruise into the side of your neck as he did it again, letting out a barely audible snort when you jerked in his hold, unconsciously arching into his hand.
“So sensitive for me, angel,” he drawled as his other hand came up to carefully pinch your other nipple.
You heard yourself make a small, choked off noise like a whine, and you could feel Bakugou’s lips pull into an answering smirk against your throat. You didn’t think you had been quite this responsive to a partner before—but something about the careful, purposeful way he was touching you had your blood running quicker in your veins.
Bakugou’s thumbs traced slow, deliberate circles over your nipples with just the right amount of pressure to make you groan. He teased you again and again as his mouth traced higher on your neck.
Within minutes you were panting, a slow, syrupy pleasure dripping down into your core.
Bakugou tugged your robe wider, then bent his head. You felt the tickle of his hair against your collarbone, softer than you would have thought, as his mouth closed over the point of one nipple. The draw of his mouth had you arching up into him immediately, pleasure zinging through your veins.
“Oh my god,” you said, seizing a fistful of that blonde hair.
Bakugou’s tongue teased at the nipple, and you writhed in his hold. Then he did the same to your other one, and you thought you might die. He hadn’t even touched you yet and you already wanted to crawl out of your skin with impatience.
“Katsuki—please,” you heard yourself say, almost distantly. “Katsuki—oh!”
“Please what, angel?” he said into the skin of your chest, before laying his mouth back over your nipple and giving a sweet suck.
“Oh my god—please!” you said, stupidly. Not an answer to his question but you’d forgotten how to string words together, your brain-to-mouth connection running on autopilot.
“Gonna have to be more specific, sweetheart,” Bakugou said, and you heard the relish in it. Your face burned, and you yanked his hair a little more firmly. He just groaned, and then sucked you a little harder.
“Touch me! Please—Katsuki,” you panted out, hips flexing unconsciously with the pull of your nipple.
“Thought this was my gift, angel. I can’t enjoy it how I want?” he asked.
You considered his words muzzily, having no idea what he was talking about. Gift? What gift was he talking about?
Bakugou’s scarlet eyes flicked up to yours, and something in your expression must have told him you had no idea what he was on about. His mouth pulled up into a self-satisfied grin, and he leaned up to kiss you again.
You flattened yourself out against his chest, all but velcroing yourself to him. You wanted to feel every inch of that hard body against you, wanted to climb as far into him as you could. Something gratifyingly hard pressed against your stomach as you kissed him, and he grunted, locking you to him with a muscled arm across your back.
“Want me to touch you, angel?” he asked.
You nodded. A smile played across his lips.
“Get on the bed for me then, sweetheart.”
It took a minute for you to process but then you were scrambling to obey, scrabbling your way onto the bed, turning and watching as Bakugou stepped nearer.
He shed his jacket as he approached, yanking off his tie too and flinging it somewhere behind him. Then he crawled over you, his fingers seizing the ties of your robe as he did. He pulled it open gently, then yanked a little harder until the silk tie slid free.
His eyes picked over it speculatively, then flashed back up to you. A look of intent interest settled over his features.
“You ever been tied up before, angel?” he asked.
You shook your head, even as it swam with the implication. Your skin prickled, somehow growing even hotter. He didn’t mean to…?
“You gonna let me?” he asked.
You rather thought you would let him do anything he wanted with you. The question was barely out of his mouth before you were nodding hurriedly. A shocked laugh punched out of him, and he gathered up your wrists, scooting you backwards until they pressed against the headboard.
He looped the silk around your wrists, gathering it into a series of complicated knots. He moved with a purpose and precision, his movements sure and practiced. You tested the give of the ties when he sat back on his haunches, finding that they held firm, even when you put a little more muscle into it.
Bakugou’s gaze blazed over you, hot like coals. His eyes traced over your body, spread out under him now, your silk robe pooling at either side of you in a pink puddle.
He bent his head and kissed you again, until you were fuzzy with the feeling once more. Then he worked his way downwards, softly biting your shoulder, licking over one nipple, pressing deep kisses into your belly and then indent of your left hip.
A shock of pleasure raced through you when you realized where he was going with this, and you let out an involuntarily little gasp as he hooked your thighs over his broad shoulders.
“Katsuki,” you began, though you had no idea what you meant to follow it up with. Bakugou didn’t wait for you to finish, ducking his head and licking a hot stripe up the cleft of you.
Immediately you arched, thighs flexing under his hands. Your face heated when he laughed again, but any embarrassment was instantly forgotten when he licked over you again, slower and more deliberate this time.
“Oh my god,” you said again, biting off into a groan when his tongue dipped deeper between your folds, flicking up over your clit.
“Yeah, angel?” Bakugou asked, his voice a heady rasp. “You like that?” He layered another open mouthed kiss over you, slow and thorough, until you were arching up into his mouth again.
It would have been evident to anyone on earth how much you liked it from the noises you made, the way you kicked and squirmed with the movement of his mouth. He sucked your clit gently into his mouth, then laved over it firmly as he pressed his fingers to you, the pads of his index and middle slowly sinking into you.
Your eyes almost rolled to the back of your head when he gave another slow suck, the feeling almost too much. His fingers pressed deeper into you, easily slipping in with how comically wet you were for him. The gentle suction of his mouth made everything a million times better, everything a million times worse, as he carefully curled his fingers within you. He seemed to immediately find a spot within you that felt like he was touching your clit from the other side too, and the feeling was immediately far too much.
“Holy shit,” you heard yourself say, cutting off into an honest to god whine when his tongue swirled around your clit, just as he teased a finger along you from the inside too. “Katsuki—oh! Katsuki please! Please oh my god oh my god.”
Bakugou’s ministrations grew a fraction firmer, and you heard him groan too as he kissed you messily.
“So fucking hot for me, sweetheart. So sweet,” he said, then sucked again, a tiny bit harder this time. His fingers stroked you from the inside, a firm, deliberate rhythm that had you turning your face and muffling a keen into the meat of your arm.
Your hips flexed against his face, wild and uncontrolled, wanting less, more, not enough, too much, oh my god—
“Katsuki!” you cried, as you suddenly hit the crest of your pleasure. Your wrists pulled against their bonds, and the feeling of helpless restraint suddenly made everything feel a thousand times more intense. Every single nerve ending in your body felt like it was on fire, so that even the air of the room seemed too harsh on your skin. You screamed as you rode out your pleasure against Bakugou’s face.
He worked you through it diligently, licking and sucking until you collapsed back to the mattress, panting like you’d just run a marathon.
“Good, angel?” Bakugou asked.
You nodded breathlessly, turning your face to his when he crawled up your body to kiss you again. The taste of yourself on him was both embarrassing and thrilling, but Bakugou didn’t give you much leeway to consider it, kissing you into a stupid, pliant little puddle against the mattress.
You could feel him hard and hot against your hip as he did so, but he didn’t make any move to get inside you yet. Instead, his hands moved over you, slowly teasing you from satiation back into want. His fingers played with your nipples again, pinching them softly and rolling them. It felt like he'd rigged up some kind of wire, leading from your nipples right to your core, that lit the pilot flame of your interest again.
A couple minutes of diligent teasing, and easy, unhurried kisses had you wiggling under him again soon enough. It was only then, when you realized you were unconsciously rocking your hips against Bakugou’s, that he finally sat back to shuck off his shirt and pants.
He was so unfairly beautiful, bared in the bright light of the room. You’d known he was gorgeous, of course, but up close he was something else entirely. He was chiseled with thick muscle, his chest and arms hard and glowing faintly with perspiration. The light and the shadows of the room played over the divots of his muscles with a deliberate care, like he was a painting instead of a man, highlighting him in loving shades. A set of perfect abs trailed down into the hard jut of hip bones over his pelvis, and his cock was just as upsettingly gorgeous as the rest of him. It was thick and full and flush with his arousal, and he wasted no time crawling back between your thighs.
“You ready for me, sweetheart?” he asked. His voice had gone even more gravelly than usual, and it plucked at your core like a string.
“Please, Katsuki,” you said, your voice embarrassingly breathy. You couldn’t help yourself though, couldn’t be ashamed with the easy way your thighs fell apart for him. Your ankles hooked across his back, trying to pull him closer still.
He groaned and surged up over you to grab a condom off the nightstand. He quickly rolled it onto himself in one practiced movement, before immediately pressing himself into you.
He sank in mortifyingly easily, you already half out of your mind with want. He didn’t seem to mind, though—you heard the soft, sibilant hiss of his own pleasure as he filled you, and your robe tugged the skin of your shoulder as he fisted a hand in it, just beside your head.
“Been dying to fuck you, angel,” he said. “Thinking about how hot and tight and sweet you would be for me. Been thinking about it nonstop.”
You made a vague noise of agreement, moving your hips with his as he drew back and pressed inside of you again. The slide of him inside you was mind-numbingly good, the pressure against your stomach as he pressed back in almost sparking stars in your vision. The flex of his abs between your thighs as he found his pace was almost immediately too much for you, and you had to turn your face away. You tilted your face up to his, watching him as he watched you.
Bakugou seemed to read your expression easily, finding the angle and pace you liked incredibly quickly. He slid an arm under the small of your back to angle your hips up into him, yanking you up like you were nothing, and the show of easy strength had your toes flexing and curling against his back.
He kissed you again, catching the sounds of your pleasure in his mouth as he rocked into you. You moved against him, hips bucking, delirious with the feeling of him. Eventually he freed his arm from under you, pressing his thumb to your slit again with deadly precision.
“Oh fuck,” you moaned into his mouth, legs tightening on him as he played with your clit. The almost-too-gentle sensation of his thumb on your clit, coupled with the relentless drive of him inside you had your vision sparking and greying at the edges. His face swam in front of yours, and all of your limbs began to feel shivery, almost too weak to lift yourself into him the way you needed, to rock against him and find relief from the friction.
Bakugou continued to tease at you, carefully pinching and petting. His hips drove into you tirelessly, slapping the bottoms of your thighs, as you strained in your silk bonds, wanting to grab him, pull him even harder into you.
“Katsuki, please please please,” you heard yourself begging. You felt him smile against your mouth, tasted his reply more than heard it.
“You want me to let you cum, angel?” he asked, doing something with his fingers that made your breath catch in your lungs.
“Unhh, yes—please!” you cried, desperation coming over you in a white haze.
You had never—never—been so desperate for anything in your entire life. You didn’t know how Bakugou was doing it, why his touch felt like so much more than anything else you’d ever felt in your life. If he didn’t let you cum you were certain you were going to die, right here and right now.
“You gonna scream for me, sweetheart?” Bakugou asked, his voice raspier than you’d ever heard it. He grit the words out, like he too was on the edge of his own climax, barely staving it off.
“Anything, I will do anything,” you babbled senselessly. “Yes—going to scream for you—Katsuki!”
Bakugou’s gaze was hotter than you’d ever seen it, scarlet eyes clouded with pleasure, glowing like banked coals. “Then you can come for me, angel. Come on, sweetheart.”
“Oh!” you cried in answer, your feet planting themselves on the bed to jut your hips up hard. Bakugou’s thumb pressed hard against your clit, then, firm and merciless, and he fucked into you harder, his pace growing faster, furious.
Your second orgasm hit you like a truck, snapping your spine into alignment, locking all your limbs up as if in rigor mortis.
“Katsuki!” you wailed as you writhed against him, clenching and fluttering around him as you sobbed.
“Oh fuck,” you heard him say, and his hips stuttered. You realized he was coming too, fucking into you sloppily and disjointedly as he rode out his own pleasure. You arched and spasmed with him, clawing uselessly at the silk that bound you, twisting in blissful agony.
When you finally came back to yourself you found yourself slumped on the bed, Bakugou’s weight pinning you down into the mattress. His chest was slicked to yours with sweat, and you could feel the rapid rise and fall of it against you as he caught his breath.
“That good, angel?” he asked, his voice heady with satisfaction.
You nodded, absently turning your face back up to his for a kiss. He granted it, kissing you almost possessively. He looked soft and rumpled, just the way you'd always liked him, and something in you purred with satisfaction at finally getting to have him like this for you.
Gradually, you became aware of other sounds in the room as you came down from your high. Quiet murmuring and the sounds of shuffling met your ears, the shutter click of a camera lens slicing through the atmosphere like a knife.
A sudden shock raced through you when you realized you and Bakugou were not alone—and you were on the set of a porn film, half a dozen eyes glued to you just over one of Bakugou’s thick shoulders.
A porn film. You had been shooting a porn film!
“And cut!” you heard the director’s voice ring out, like a bucket of water dumped over your head.
You tensed up beneath Bakugou, mind racing. Holy shit, he had actually managed to make you forget, exactly the way he'd promised.
You could tell Bakugou was thinking the same thing as he went to untie you, looking extremely satisfied with himself.
“Told you, angel,” he said, flashing something of a feral grin. You hated how good the self-conceit looked on him.
You went to draw your wrists back to yourself as he let them free. But Bakugou caught them instead, carefully massaging the skin there as if to make sure things were circulating properly. It was a startling note of unexpected care, as was the way he drew your robe closed around you again against the sudden chill of the room.
You found yourself saying wonderingly, “Wow. It was just that easy for you to switch partners like that.”
The thought somehow stung, even though you’d known going into this what you were getting yourself into. Somehow, the latent care and intention with which Bakugou had fucked you had addled your brain, made you think your connection had been something more. He had felt like he had feelings, beyond those mimed for the camera.
But here was evidence to the contrary, plain and simple. There literally was a camera.
Except then Bakugou looked down at you, a frown marring his pouty mouth. “Well yeah. ‘Course it was gonna be that easy when it’s you we’re talking about.”
You blinked at him, not understanding what he was saying. “Uh. When it’s—me?”
A crease came in between Bakugou’s blonde brows. “I said it, didn’t I? While we were fucking? Wanted to fuck you for a long time. Of course it was easy.”
Your stomach dropped, like a rug had just been yanked out from beneath you. “You—have? What? Since when?” you demanded.
Bakugou leveled you with an unimpressed stare. “Since the second time we met,” he said, and your mind flashed back to the way he’d seemed not to recognize you, that second time you'd spoken to him. “Once I realized you did work for UA and weren’t actually a little fucking creep trying to lure me into your car.”
You felt your eyebrows shoot towards your hairline. “Then—? For years? You cannot be serious. You never acted like we were anything other than coworkers!”
Bakugou scoffed. “We fucking were coworkers. And I told you, I don’t fuck coworkers off the clock.”
You blinked again, startled by the level of professionalism couched in the crassess of his statement. It made sense, you supposed, for a pornstar of Bakugou’s caliber to have put boundaries like that in place. Probably everyone in the world would just be dying for a shot at him.
“Wow,” you said, almost to yourself. You didn’t know what to do with this new information, wondered how it was going to be possible to behave professionally with Bakugou at all going forward. It was probably obvious to him how big your crush on him was, given that he’d known all along he could make you forget you were on camera. Given the way you reacted to him embarrassingly easily.
Except then Bakugou leaned forward, putting his face startlingly close to yours. “Emphasis on were, since this is my last shoot,” he said.
You stared at him, wondering if you were interpreting the implication correctly. There was no way he meant—?
“Uhhhh, meaning what, exactly?” you prompted, heart beating just a little bit quicker despite yourself.
Bakugou’s mouth turned up into a gorgeous smirk, and he ducked his head even closer, voice going softer.
“Meaning you’re going to get dressed and I’m going to take us to get something to eat,” he said, fingers playing at the edge of your robe. “And then you’re going to give me that ride home in your car after all. And we are going to do this all over again.”
Flames erupted across your face, sweeping across your cheeks. And you were up out of the bed before you even realized what you were doing, catching yourself on the bedside table as you stumbled.
Bakugou’s laugh chased out of the set room as you raced towards the wardrobe again. But you couldn’t find it in yourself to care, this time.
Not when your heart felt like it was going to beat right out of your chest. You smothered a smile as you ran down the hallway.
Much like Bakugou had just done to you—it looked like your hopes and dreams were finally lining themselves up and filling themselves in.
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