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starboye Ā· 5 hours ago
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starring: eddie brock x male reader x venom
request: hi!! can i request a eddie brock/venom x male reader smut where eddie finally introduces reader to venom and venom canā€™t help but let all his dirty thoughts about what he wants to do to reader out. iā€™m talking bondage, breeding, ass eating (ikyk his tongue goes crazy)
warnings: smut, monster fucking, freaky!venom, HUGE DICK VENOM, unprotected sex, creampie, ass eating, cum eating, ball and dick cleaning i guess
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as much as eddie did NOT want to introduce you and venom, the pestering was getting a little to much from the both of you so he decided finally it was time, calling you over to his apartment and slowly letting venom come out from his shoulder, a floating head connected to a tendril coming out of your boyfriends back was weird but you've seen weirder.
"y/n meet venom and venom meet y/n" eddie says "pleased to eat you y/n" venom says without mush of a filet, your ass was nice looking and he wanted that "pleased to eat you to venom" you shake one of his tendrils and immediately wipe the sort of slime on your pants.
"i like him, he has a sort of humor" venom says out loud "venom" eddie tries to stop him from starting to embarrass him "don't worry i think you're kinda cool to venom" you say with a laugh "your lips look really nice can i cum on them" he blurts out unexpectedly "well that's enough talking from you v" eddie tries to get venom back inside his body but he takes over instead.
"well i mean if you want to but im not against it" you smile to show off your lips more the symbiote "when eddie told me about you i thought i wasn't going to like you but now that you're here i want to do so many things" he says and eddie already knows what this is going to turn to so he tries to stop him but venom is just to strong, staying in control for just a little longer.
"oh pray tell more" you scoot closer to him "well i want to eat your delicious looking ass, i want to fuck you till you cant think, i want to cum all over your pretty face, and i want to make you my boyfriend" he says all in one breath with a complete smile through it all "well we could do some of those things today" you say getting on his lap.
who would've thought you'd be so open to getting fucked by an alien but hey who am i to judge (you people would let a fox fuck you aka nick wilde but hey i would too) you're quick to start making out with him, his long tongue exploring your mouth and making it's way down your throat, he was surprised to see you had no gag reflex which had his mind running.
eddie watched from inside as you lubed up venom fat cock with your saliva and slide all nineteen inches into you "haha i told you the human could fit me eddie" venom cheers as you bounce up and down on his long shaft, an obvious belly bulge poking out from your stomach and sort of in your chest, but venom still knew you were a puny human so he took it slow with you.
letting you rock your hips back and forth of his cock until he could feel himself cumming, and listening to your moan about how you love venoms' big dick so much had him aching to fill your pretty ass up but the things is, is this safe like symbiotes can cum a lot and like i mean A LOT so like will this hurt you?
meh i guess there's only one way to find out, unloading his pent up cum into your stretched ass that was unable to hold his cum in you for to long before it was spilling out, you looked a little out of it but you were a live so that counts for something "now how about we try that other thing" you ask with a weak grin on your face.
venom flipping you over and shoving his long tongue down your hole to lick the excess cum out while you cleaned` him up down below, lick the cum from his fat balls and making sure his cock was all nice and shiny, eddie just had to watch as you slutted yourself out to the alien but he's not gonna lie he was kinda turned on by it all.
"can we keep him eddie" venom asks still face deep in your ass "id love to stay plus i cant really walk so" you chuckle and for some reason just hearing you laugh made venoms cock throb, he doesn't know why but maybe it's a sign to go again
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spineless-lobster Ā· 24 hours ago
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ALRIGHT LADS MERRY CHRISTMAS ITHACA SAGAā€™S OUT HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS
(Spoilers under cut of course)
1. The Challenge
PENELOPEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! RAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
NOT HER SEEING THE STORM ODY RELEASED AAAAAAAAAAAAA
Iā€™LL BE HERE BUYING YOU TIMEā€¼ļøšŸ”„šŸ’Ŗ
OUGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ANNA ATE THE VOCALS SHE SOUNDS GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!
I KNEW IT!!!!! I KNEW SHEā€™D BE SINGING ā€œWAITINGGGGGā€ I KNEW IT IN MY HEART AND SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!
2. Hold Them Down
WHERE IS HE INDEED!!!!!!!!
Oughhhhhhhh ayronā€™s voice is making me FEEL things rn he makes it so hard to hate antinous šŸ˜­ (this sentiment will not be held for long)
ā€œHold him down ā€˜til the boy stops shakingā€ ā€œonly the ocean and I will knowā€ okay idk if Iā€™m insane or ovulating or something but like antinous is kind of a freak for telemachus like heā€™s a little too sensual about killing him idkkkkkkk
Okay okay now it is SUPER easy to hate antinous FUCK when heā€™s describing what heā€™ll do to penelope I got chills bro thank god heā€™s dead šŸ˜­
Again I HAVE to reiterate how AMAZING ayronā€™s vocals are in this song HE GIVES SUCH A GREAT PERFORMANCE!!!!!!!
3. Odysseus
Ohohohohooooo daddyā€™s home
The electric guitar thatā€™s how you know youā€™re fucked
ā€œI come back and find my palace desecrated, sacked like Troyā€ THE GASP I LET OUT AT THE NAME DROP!!!!! SICKENING!!!!!!
When he called telemachus ā€œmy boyā€ what if I started crying
ā€œI. Have had. Enough.ā€ CHILLS!!! CHILLS MOTHERFUCKER CHILLS!!!!!! ASKFJKSJFSKHFKSHDKFH WE HAVE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS!!!!!!!!
THE ENSEMBLE SINGING ā€œODYSSEUSā€ IN POLYPHEMUSā€™ TUNE!!!!! HEā€™S THE BOSS NOW BITCHES!!!!!!!
ā€œHeā€™s aiming for the torches!ā€ JUST LIKE SCYLLA!!!!! ODY IS PULLING A SCYLLA!!!!!!!!!
ā€œYou donā€™t think I know my own palace? I built it.ā€ STILL ONE OF THE HARDEST FUCKING LINES IN THE MUSICAL BRO THAT SHIT MAKES ME INSANE!!!!!! INSANEEEEE!!!!!!!!
OPEN ARMS MENTION!!!!!!! We are NOT greeting the world with opens arms lads itā€™s fucking over. I love the way odysseus says ā€œnoā€ without ANY hesitation, heā€™s so tired of this song and dance HEā€™S HAD IT!!!!
TELEMACHUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAY!!!!!!!
I wasnā€™t expecting him to relish in the bloodshed like he does in the odyssey because thatā€™s just not how he is in the musical but itā€™s nice that he at least tried to stop them! You go little wolf!
ā€œWhere is he?ā€ Being used to refer to both odysseus and telemachus is killing me slowly
ā€œMy mercy has long since drowned. It died to bring me home.ā€ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
FUCK DUDE!!!!! THAT WHOLE SECTION IS A FUCKING BANGER JAYā€™S DELIVERY IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE I CAN FEEL THE RAGE IN MY BONES MAN THIS SHIT IS SO FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!
The use of ā€œdrownedā€ is SO CLEARLY a reference to poseidon Iā€™m going to throw up
The screaming. All I hear are screamsā€¦
Fuck dudeā€¦ justā€¦ fuuuuckkkkkk
4. I Canā€™t Help But Wonder
Iā€™ve daydreamed so much about the father-son reunion Iā€™m gonna cry
Ough poor telemachus finally meets his father and he can only worry about if heā€™s worthy enough to live up to odyā€™s legacy. And THE FIRST thing ody does is tell him how strong he is FUCK ME DUDE šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
ā€œUsed to say Iā€™d make the storm clouds cry for youā€ obvious reference to his whole shebang with poseidon
ā€œUsed to say Iā€™d capture the wind and sky for youā€ WINDBAG MENTION!!!!!!!!
ā€œHeld you in my arms prepared to die for youā€ something something I see you draw your final breath, something something get in the water, something somethingā€¦
ā€œMy son, Iā€™m finally home!ā€ THE WAY YOU CAN TELL THEYā€™RE HUGGING HERE BECAUSE OF THE SWELL OF MUSIC ARE YOU KIDDING ME ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW????? OUGHOGOUOGOGOHOHGHHHHHH
THEYā€™RE HARMONIZING IM GOING TO SOB IM GOING TO COMMIT CRIMES!!!!!!!!!
ATHENA!!!!!!!!!
My god odysseus learning ruthlessness and athena learning empathy and then uniting and realizing that, while empathy should always come first, unfortunately the world we live in sometimes we have to use ruthlessness in order to survive. And the best we can do is foster future generations that hopefully will not have to go through the same terrible things we have. Oughā€¦
ā€œThereā€™s this girl I have to seeā€ Iā€™m like 80% this is referencing that cut song where ody asks athena to help him court penelopeā€¦ I hope Iā€™m right because Iā€™ll cry if I am
5. Would You Fall In Love With Me Again
Iā€™m tweaking our rn btw in case you were wondering
The instrumentals are so beautiful I literally CANNOT
The door opening sound effect is so simple but so effective alisjfkshfkshdidjjd
Once again I need to express how much I truly believe the odyssey is a metaphor for ptsd and how it changes a person and the relationships they have
ODYSSEUS SINGING ā€œWAITINGā€ YOU HAVE TO STOP I CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH šŸ˜­
Fuck the chorus is so beautiful I donā€™t even know what to say about it Iā€™m so overwhelmed with emotions. Ough. Justā€¦ odysseus on his knees begging to be loved the way he was, and penelope knowing her answer only if she can really trust the man in front of her. Fuckā€¦ what the hellā€¦
The olive bedā€¦ THE OLIVE BED!!!!!!!!!!
Once again I need to emphasize how ETHEREAL annaā€™s voice is!!!!!!!
THE JUST A MAN INSTRUMENTALS JORGE YOU CANNOT DO THIS TO ME!!!! ITS NOT ALLOWED!!!! YOU CANT FUCKING DO THAT!!!!!!
Theyā€™re harmonizingā€¦ theyā€™re singing ā€œI love youā€ and theyā€™re harmonizingā€¦ I. I need a momentā€¦ I just.. give me a secondā€¦ please can I have some time to myself? I just really need toā€¦ die, I thinkā€¦
The final words of epic being ā€œI love youā€ I am literally going to end my own life ITS SO BEAUTIFUL
This song makes me want to rip out my still-beating heart and eat it bloody and raw. In like a good way!!!
shoutout to the only straight couple ever. I love you odypenā€¦
And thus, our journessey comes to an end. Itā€™s over but itā€™s not over and I think thatā€™s the only comfort I have right now
Now do youā€™ll excuse me Iā€™m going to go lay face down in a creek forever
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allylikethecat Ā· 7 months ago
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Chapters: 15/22 Fandom: The 1975 (Band) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: George Daniel/Matthew Healy Characters: George Daniel, Matthew Healy, Ross Macdonald, Adam Hann, Carly Holt, Jamie Oborne, Charli XCX (Musician) Additional Tags: Equestrian, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Implied/Referenced Drug Addiction, Past Drug Addiction Summary:
ā€œWhy the hell is Matthew Healy riding Carly Hannā€™s horse?!ā€ George exclaimed, flinging open the door to storm into Jamieā€™s office, taking care to make sure the door was shut again behind him. He was surprised Jamie was even out so early, sitting in front of the computer with his reading glasses perched on the end of his nose. ā€œHeā€™s bad fucking news, Matthew Healy?!ā€ George said, shaking his head as he ran his fingers through his close cropped, bleached hair.
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deus-ex-mona Ā· 4 months ago
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i miss herā€¦
#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soonā„¢ļø#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ā€˜ere and since itā€™s still äøƒęœˆā€¦ todayā€™s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? thereā€™s no one true correct belief after all#but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ā€˜are ghosts real?ā€™#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean iā€™ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my familyā€™s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up#a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less#and *ofc* he wasnā€™t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads#anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) heā€™d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost whoā€™d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time#heā€™d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didnā€™t happen that often#my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑åؘ (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc itā€™d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. ā€‹how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know#i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways itā€™s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it butā€”#and so thatā€™s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona#i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this äøƒęœˆ thoughā€¦#b u t !!!!! tomorrowā€™s date on the lunar calendar says itā€™s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! soā€¦ maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream monaā€™s new album ok bye#oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man
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vivanightcity Ā· 2 years ago
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Pre NC nights, with his Bakker scouting group.
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awsydawnarts Ā· 2 years ago
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Okay this one might be a bit of a weird thing to discuss (and will be much less relevant if thereā€™s a time skip on Remnant) but I wanted to talk about Ruby and Oscarā€™s height difference and how much it means to me in light of this recent episode.
Iā€™d like to start this off by saying that Iā€™m actually (conveniently) Rubyā€™s height. One source is saying 5ā€™4ā€ and ones saying 5ā€™2ā€ and Iā€™m about 5ā€™3ā€, and something Iā€™ve been noticing a lot recently as I accept that Iā€™m done growing and this is my permanent height is that thereā€™s always going to be something that intimidates me about the majority of the population. As much as I want to think that Iā€™m a confident, capable person, it really takes away from your confidence when you have to look way up at someone to have a conversation with them. On top of that, Iā€™ve noticed that 1. People tend to get really close to me when having conversations, much closer than Iā€™d like, possibly because theyā€™re trying to make up for the fact that thereā€™s about a foot between us that wouldnā€™t be there normally, and 2. This is a problem, because a) itā€™s intimidating to have someone larger than me get in my personal space, and b) it just makes me so much more aware of how much taller they are because I have to really lift my head to look at them, only to see them looking down on me.
My point in saying all this? The last few volumes have been really leaning into that with Ruby. This happened a lot in V 7, where Ironwood would be framed as looking down at her, and it really jumped out at me in this last episode with that one shot after Jaune yells at her and sheā€™s left staring up at him with tears in her eyes as he gets up in her personal space.
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This scene to me really highlighted how small Ruby is compared to most of the people around her who are supposed to be equals to her-Jaune, Ironwood, Qrow, Robyn, Clover, any of the ace ops-but not Oscar. Oscar is one of the few characters in the show that Ruby is taller than. And speaking from personal experience? Itā€™s so much more comfortable interacting with people who donā€™t use their size to physically intimidate you (even if thatā€™s not at all their intention).
I know realistically, Oscar is probably going to get taller than her (and when that happens I will find it cute) but right now itā€™s just so incredibly important to me and really serves to (once again) emphasize how good Oscar is for Ruby and how much his very existence supports her and takes stresses away. In a world where ticking time bombs like Ironwood, Jaune, and the ace ops can turn on her and use their size as a weapon, Oscar canā€™t (and wouldnā€™t) do that. Oscar has Rubyā€™s back, and she trusts him in a way that I donā€™t think she trusts anyone else in the show.
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britneyshakespeare Ā· 5 months ago
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idk who needs to hear this but period underwear is a godsend and if you can access and afford it, you should get some. it's way more comfortable and less nasty to deal with than disposable products
#ive been wearing thinx for about a year now#and this one brand i got a five-pack off amazon from called neione(?) for lighter days that can pair w other products if needed#it depends on ur flow and what u get. right? it's annoying to look around and see how many brands on amazon#are like. not actually meant to be worn by themselves to bleed freely in#i don't currently own enough pairs that i never use disposable products at all anymore#but i usually only do like. one day out of my cycle on average#and that day im always like 'ew gross'#it's much more comfortable not to have to worry about it not to mention better for the environment#if u live in the us then they sell thinx at target and ive seen them at cvs too#if u dont wanna buy online#anyway im just sayin!#if uve been thinking about taking the dive and buying period underwear this is your sign#tales from diana#menstruation cw#the only annoying thing is that a lot of brands also cant go into the dryer (including thinx) (that was one of the reasons i got neione)#anyway it's great. i would never switch back to only using disposable products#and im far too much of a wuss to try cups. like far far too much#i just ordered a heavy-flow two-pack from a brand i havent tried before (tiichoo) and theyre boyshorts#bc one of the most annoying things about the heavy-flow thinx isnt that it doesnt absorb enough#but if u sleep in them. depending on your position and gravity. they can still leak (in the bikini cut)#hoping that a boyshort cut will solve that problem#<3
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izzy-b-hands Ā· 6 months ago
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Putting on last year's trans rigs stream from Drawfee before i have to get ready to go out with my mum and her bf today (bc i have the worst feeling in my gut he's gonna make that An Thing for me if given the chance today, aka whenever i eventually need the restroom while we're at Mystic)
#text post#Housemate was amazing and helped me calm down a bit before ae went to work bc my brain woke up in meltdown mode over this tbh#it sucks bc like. im excited to see my mum despite the Everything with that lmao#but im not excited for how her bf has been acting since they got here (and it's been day 1 out of 7 days)#with some outright homophobic comments while Housemate and i hosted them briefly at our house yesterday afternoon#not abt us but like. i mean. u know we're both queer so#doesn't really matter if it's abt us or not it's still fucky and makes me worry abt how he's gonna be today!!#doesn't help that he really wanted to go to Italy with her instead this summer#(despite the passive aggressive complaints from him & mum to a degree abt how expensive it was for them to come out here)#(we're ignoring the fact that a European trip would be even more expensive lmao tho i do think if they want to/can afford it they should go)#like. the Vibe from him has just been that he'll be Just Polite Enough but that he didn't want to be here#and he doesn't expect to have any fun and it's like#dude i am Trying. i and Housemate have looked up stuff to do that includes things he likes (like guns and historical weapons)#we tried making comments abt that yesterday like hey u might like this but if there's anything u have in mind already#and he was just. whatever idc but then made comments that made it clear he's not excited for anything else#like museums or the beach for sea glass hunting or the bird sanctuary or even the zoo#and all have places to rest/sit plus restrooms and food so I don't think it's a worry abt facilities thing for him#i think he's just fed up that I'm still involved in my mum's life since i moved and like#yes there's a detangling of the umbilical cord i and my past therapist were trying to eventually get my mum to cut#since cutting it myself in any attempt has had her metaphorically taping it back together#but like. it's not entirely on me here. I'm trying to set boundaries and make sure she's giving him more attention than me since he's w/her#more than i am now#i know he's upset when she helps me financially too (i offer to pay her back but she always refuses it) bc she took me aside yesterday#to give me some cash for the time with them for souvenirs/fun stuff i might not buy otherwise bc im trying to be mindful of money#aka still waiting on money my fkn job should have already paid me like. a week or more ago now#he makes her happy so even if he hates me i still care abt his frustrating ass#and i do want him to have as much fun as he can while still relaxing during the trip out here#but i feel like im gonna have to physically shake him by the shoulders screaming this before he listens#and even if he listens he probably won't believe me#sorry for the tag essay the edible hasn't kicked in yet can u guys tell lmao
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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover Ā· 2 years ago
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writing poetry sometimes feels like you gotta cut yourself open to express it idk smear all your organs all over the page and hope somebody else reads something beautiful. is that like divination the way it's expressed in various places and things? I dunno. poetry never slides off your skin like water off a duck's back. it's from within I think. sometimes you have to tear yourself apart to get at the words and sometimes it just wells up from within and gushes out. always from somewhere deep inside. sometimes it's difficult and horrible and painful but the alternative would be worse. sometimes it's from sheer joy that must overflow into words. I think that's beautiful personally. skin splitting from joy. it happens, I think, to us all at some point. or maybe I'm just a creature of extremes. maybe that online test I did because a friend recommended it is true. it said my symptoms were high. I don't know. maybe it is true, maybe it's not. I read a book once where there was a character named Nathan Hill-and-Dale, and while I'm not nearly as extreme as he was portrayed, in my extremes, I know I'm a fairly volatile person. funny, for most people who see me IRL seem to think that I'm fairly calm. nope, I'm a volcano. watch out, even when I'm apparently calm I might blow up one way or the other. one of my residents' family members said today that I was young and bubbly and she was glad to see it because happiness is the prerogative of the young. a part of me wished I told her. I have actively tried to kill myself once; I have come extremely close to the same actions countless times including yesterday; I would sooner hurt myself than others; if I had my own choice I would simply starve. of course I didn't tell her. sometimes I think I'll never get better. at this point I would consider it a very high chance that I will either die by suicide or end up in hospital following an attempt. not now, of course. but despite my fierce love for my course it has stress associated with it and I think that it's very likely that no psych help on earth would fix my mental health enough for that not to be an option mentally in this short time. I think it's possible to recover from all of the things I struggle with. God help me, I hope it is. the real question is whether I will survive long enough to recover from them. and the answer? I know not. I was reminded of a past interaction with the boy today, where he called my name - I turned - his grandfather, a photographer, was waiting to see if he could get a decent photo, for we were at a church conference and he was trying to get photos everywhere. they were laughing. I could not help but laugh. that memory is tainted now, for he would not look at me now, let alone try to pull such a stunt again. I don't blame him. I don't blame anyone for it. I wonder what would happen if I blocked all my friends on discord; who would seek me out? part of me hopes people would, another part hopes they would not. sometimes I just want to be left alone to curl up and die. it would be easier. so much easier than living, and living, and living. I tried writing poetry just now. it felt like trying to cut myself open, I couldn't get the words out. it only made me feel rather wild. I'm desperate for change, for something. something. what is that something? I don't know. did you know I'm a sadist? I would not in a public place express the thoughts that led me to that conclusion. but I am. I wish I wasn't. there's an obvious solution to that. quick, and easy. so easy. too easy. I tried writing poetry, and then instead of writing anything coherent, I wrote this.
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mainfaggot Ā· 9 months ago
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i just had cute small talk w a white gay barista but im afraid i came off as arrogant
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loverboybrightsideghost Ā· 1 year ago
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i hope the new superman is soooo good that it reintroduces superman back to the world on a big-ish scale and gives everyone a good story and gives back some good classic characters to truly love and that the music is great and that it reminds everyone (everyone) what superman is really about
#truth justice and the american w- [gets shot with a kryptonite bullet] no iā€™m jk#but i just remembered that itā€™s called superman LEGACY bc itā€™s gonna focus on both of his parentsā€¦. IM SO EXCITED#immigrant superman on the big screen for real mr gunn donā€™t fucking blow this for us#give us a kind wonderful complex superman#and please let this movie kick any dudebro who tries to claim superman as a paragon of (toxic) masculinity directly in the nuts#AND ANY DUDEBRO OR PERSON AT ALL WHO THINKS SUPERMAN HAS TO LOOK GRITTY OR DARK OR QUE LOS CHONES NO SON REALƍSTICOS O WHATEVER THE FUCK#GIVE HIM HIS RED CHONES GIVE HIM HIS SILLY LITTLE MY MOM MADE IT FOR ME SUIT#LET HIM BE RIDICULOUS LET HIM BE SILLY#HEā€™S A SUPERHERO FOR CHRISTS SAKE HEā€™S THEEEEE SUPERHERO#SUPERHEROS ARE INHERENTLY SILLY!!!!!!#let the whimsy into your soul you will be happier for it!!!!!!!!!!!#bluebird.txt#anyways i am absolutely asking for like way too much from this movie#and i donā€™t expect much from it as of right now#but itā€™s far away enough that i can hope and be excited without worrying too much if itā€™s gonna do my boy justice#so#yeah#new clark kent and lois lane dropped :]]]]]]#also can we get a jimmy olsen can we PLEASE GET A JIMMY OLSEN#now the question is whoā€™s gonna play jimmy (PKEASE LET THERE BE A JIMMY WE HAVE BEEN DEPRIVED OF LIVE ACTION JIMMY FOR TOO LONG!!!)#and whoā€™s gonna play perry white and THE KENTS WHOā€™S GONNA PLAY THE KENTS!!!!!!!#superman#david corenswet all my hopes and dreams are riding on you no pressure though /hj
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arielluva Ā· 2 years ago
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does anyone have advice for getting into stardew valley because i have tried. multiple times. to get into this game and actually play it because i DO like it!!! i have gotten sucked in a few times, but i never make it too far :( i feel like i just get overwhelmed by everything that you could do and seeing other people be so far ahead in their own saves that i just. idk. feel discouraged? i know the answer to this is probably to just play the game and do whatever because if its my first save it doesn't really matter what happens but still
also i think another part of it is just not knowing everything i should do right off the bat like i would with any other game i enjoy playing like fantasy life but i guess thats a given since i haven't played much of it
most rational thought: "i don't know everything about this game and what to do how am i supposed to play this good... :( at least in fantasy life i know what to do :((" (i have had fantasy life for like 8 years so of course i know what to do)
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scarletcomet Ā· 2 years ago
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today and yesterday have been a bit better than any days have been in a long time (since this current depressive episode started). i still frequently have suicidal thoughts, but they are less constant than they have been. iā€™ve been able to get some schoolwork done, which is a huge improvement. i know this is all good, but i feel kind of weird about it. i want to feel better because feeling really shitty sucks. however, i think because i really want to kill myself, i donā€™t want to get better. i really just want to die, so i donā€™t want to be able to take care of myself and do things.
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pizzapizzadickz Ā· 2 years ago
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I often times find myself wondering when interacting with people "am I doing this right?'"
It used to be even more often, I probably was really anxious about it back then. Now... not so much? I still find myself worrying a bit. And especially trying to find the correct "answer" or action to say or do. But. It's not really by any fault of my own. It's just what's expected of me in social situations doesn't always come naturally. So I'm awkward. But idk. While I'll always probably try to find the right answer for things, I'm a bit less worried than I used to be. And I suppose that's something good in a way.
#normal#oh. i dont have to be like this. i can do something different#who the fuck am i really.#diary#personal#i honeslty didnt even think this would turn out to be positive. like. i thought its be a bit more down.#but idk. despite knowing im probably doing a lot of things wrong. im still a bit happier this way.#its been a long while since ive just done things that are more true to myself and now worried about the consequences. so its kinda nice#idk. obviously in places like work i mask much more. but at a coffee shop. or talking with friends. or even alone in my bedroom -#i do it much less. i used to be so self-conscious. i wouldn't even dance alone in my room. its strange to think thats -#just how much pressure society exibits. its impressive really. id try not to do things incase it wasnt#i think in a way the internet really saved me from a lot of that. yeah it probably exasperated some of my problems but it also helps too?#i can find communities and learn about things i love even if i dont participate.#i suppose its nice just knowing#and thats opened up a lot of avenues for me. like. knowing i dont need to be in a relationship. that i can collect stuffed toys.#that i can be obsessed with something stupid. just. a lot of small things like that? it sorta takes off that huge pressure to conform.#idk. i used to be so fixated on conforming and participating. and my mom quite litterally taught me to.#she always used to tell me about how when she had to move around she had to make consessions like that.#or how she didnt like it either just talking with the girls or whatever. so i sorta just thought of it all as normal.#so i just tried more and more and more to press myself into a mold without ever really caring what i liked. or thought#like. i knew what i wanted. but that wasnt right. so i id just. cut off bits n peices of myself.#i remember being oh so frustrated thinking and its so odd to think of now.#because now i just am. and even when im sad im happy. its peaceful really.#really though. being able to label things. and figure out stuff about myself and psychology and everything was amazing#im really glad ive both changed so much - yet really not at all at the same time#i still like the same things i did when i was 6. im still exactly the same at my core tbh.#but im much different from who i was in my teens. to me it really feels like just accepting who i always was.#and like. letting myself be who i was and am. i am me and thats sorta that?#idk. im just philosophizing myself yet again. but i also really enoys doing that XD
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yoshistory Ā· 3 months ago
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im literally so tired but i dont know if i can sleep right now
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phagodyke Ā· 4 months ago
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I love to talk but I rly do feel like we have to be talking for a minimum of 8 hours straight before I feel like I can even begin to rly broach things on my mind or that have been bothering me a lot that I actually want to talk abt without being vague or deflecting or omitting or lying and if the conversation takes a break at any point it resets back to 0 and its still nice regardless but.
#we're all just desperately chasing each other around for a semblance of connection in this cold bleak world#but unfortunately due to the relentless crushing pressures of capitalism we also have to work so no time for that#man. sorry just frustrated n miserable now. wish i was capable of feeling close to other ppl wish i could give other ppl that connection#but instead we're just ships in the night passing by or whatever#and i have to settle with not rly being known or wanted or important in other ppls lives and its forever. btw#bc even if ppl do think they know me or do want me around or i am important to them in some way.. the specific torture labyrinth i call#home is constructed in the most elegant and precise way that im incapable of believing them to be sincere anyway#so thats all on me! if I tried harder and made more of an effort to communicate with or trust ppl i wouldnt feel this way!#but i dont so better luck in the next life i guess! this is why i dont think abt this shit bc it makes me want to kms#whats even the point man#dont even worry abt me im fine just need to fucking vent bc i dont have time to allow myself to feel anything bc i have plans tmr#so i need to go to bed early. and ill just try my best to keep distracted forever so ill never need to face how pathetically desperate#i am for any kind of emotional intimacy whatsoever and also physical contact but im not normal enough to fulfil any of my own needs#yeah well. its my life that i have to live and im the one making it this way. digging my grave and lying in it innit#its fine tho bc they make repressed fictional characters that i can project onto instead of confronting any of my issues#so ill just be here in my labyrinth doing that. while everyone else gets to see sunlight and grass and whatever#im just so tired i dont want to do this i want to pretend i dont care and dont need it and maybe itll become true. its too much for me#let me know when they need me to pilot the jaeger and drift with someone and thru our mindmelding i can finally achieve intimacy and trust#well anyway. that was embarrassing. hope it works out for everyone else#hope my flatmate gets her ideal life w our other old flatmates and finds a convenient way of discarding me from that like they want#except im going to make it as difficult as possible for as long as i can for them to get rid of me bc im selfish and want what i want so.#my obligate parasite ass. or whatever. im going to throw up if i keep thinking so thats a good place to stop and go to sleep probably#.vent#dont interact im being stupid as fuck and dont care just leave me alone thanks
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