I had a breakdown this morning. A breakdown I haven’t had in a long time. And I kept trying to fight it because it felt like I was going backwards in my recovery. But the more I did that, the worse it felt. I actually began to question whether I could even keep trying.
And then I let myself feel it. I told myself that it’s okay if things aren’t okay right now. And things, somehow, began to feel okay. Like even if they aren’t okay right now, they will be. And this will pass. Admitting to myself that I wasn’t okay was key to me being able to realize that I would be okay.
It helped. And it showed me my progress. My progress was there in the way I reached out for help. In the way I bounced back and overcame it. My progress was not undone by the fact it happened.
I don’t know. I think the point of this is to say that your progress doesn’t come undone when things get hard. And that it’s okay to feel things. It’s okay to break. And it’s okay to not be okay. You’re still going to get through this.
I HAVE STRUGGLED SO MUCH WITH SECTIONING, i watched videos on hairstyles before and the EASE that everybody can just CLEANLY section hair PERFECTLY is basically some form of magic to me. i don't undersTAND
but i might look into it some more because that probably would be helpful
y’all just— thinking about how excited Stanley must have been to host the twins— Alex says he smokes cigars but he doesn’t smoke once in the show— has a beer gut but he only drinks sodas in front of the kids— doesn’t swear when they’re around which must have taken INCREDIBLE effort— Stanley Pines, known crook, buying pancake mix at the supermarket and many bottles of syrup— learning to cook basic healthy meals and burning so many of them before he gets it right— buying new sheets, new mattresses— avoiding bunk beds because it reminds him of Ford— looking at the attic room he made wondering “is this enough will they like me”— trying to act aloof at the bus stop so he doesn’t betray the fact that he was there hours early— watching them goof around and thinking of New Jersey beaches— then the first night they’re there, he watches them debate running away and only stay because Mabel shook a magic 8 ball. That must have kept him awake all night.
I wish we had more female characters like Eleanor Shellstrop. One of the most unlikable people you've ever met. Read a Buzzfeed article on most rude things you can do on a daily basis and decided to use that as a list of goals. Makes everyone's day worse just by being there. Dropped a margarita mix on the ground and tried to pick it up, only to get hit by a row of shopping carts which pushed her into the road where she was hit by a boner pill delivery truck, killing her instantly. Cannot keep a romantic partner despite being bisexual. Had a terrible childhood but will die before she gets therapy. Best employee at a scam company. Just the worst but also can't help but root for her to improve.
Absolute loser. Girl-failure. Bad at almost everything. Literally perfect female character.