#and not only that he KNOWS that Akutagawa still cares about his opinion and he just. doesn't care

[the-music-maniac]

Reading shin soukoku fanfic is a minefield because for every fic that makes me go "aww Dazai and Akutagawa are moving on from their past" and "Dazai's such a little shit, I love him" there's another fic out there that makes me wanna skin Dazai alive and then dump him in salt

[cvntydazai]

bad arguments

how these bsd characters are after a bad argument

pairing; dazai osamu x fem!reader, chuuya nakahara x fem!reader, ryunosuke akutagawa x fem! reader

word count; 916

content warning; unedited, angst, fluff, arguing, miscommunication

a/n; just something random i wrote while taking a break from my dazai fic!

DAZAI OSAMU:

arguing with dazai was exhausting, this man would rather die a painful death than admit he was in the wrong about anything, it was usually why your fights got more out of hand than they ever needed to be. you hated how he tried to deflect from a situation instead of just owning up to his mistakes.

one particularly heated argument had you so riled up you had to leave your apartment, no longer wanting to look your lover in the eye until he was ready to apologize. he didn’t even spare you a glance as you left, a smug expression on his face.

you make your return to your apartment many hours later, it was now nighttime and much too late to be out, especially alone. the first thing your eye catches when you walk through the door is dazai’s fluffy head of hair resting on the couch. you huff, putting your coat up before walking over to the couch.

“are you ready to apol-“ you stop mid-sentence when you realize dazai’s asleep.

he looked uncomfortable, heavy eyebags and his head resting at an awkward angle on the arm rest. you couldn’t help it, a soft coo leaves your lips and it wakes him instantly. those honey eyes were everything but smug this time around.

“my flower, you’re back.” he mumbles, large hands reaching up to caress your face.

“i am..” you say, he smiles.

you continue to stare into his gaze for just a little longer, the silence draping over the two of you like a warm blanket. he knows that what you’re truly waiting for is his apology, he was more than happy to give it to you.

“i’m sorry, for everything. forgive me?” he says at last in his usual supple tone.

of course you forgave him, you always would.

CHUUYA NAKAHARA:

fights with chuuya usually didn’t last long, you two actually pride yourself on your communication when it comes to your relationship. he would never try to hurt you intentionally, you’re the most important person to him and he makes sure you never forget it.

but this one fight had you both out of control. you don’t remember who started it but no one was willing to end it, anything that came out of either of your mouths was only more fuel for the fire. if you were being honest with yourself, it terrified you. it wasn’t chuuya and his capabilities that had you so scared, you knew he would never bring any harm your way, it was the reality that this fight could be the ending to your relationship.

you didn’t want it to end like this, it couldn’t end like this. he was all you had and you would never forgive yourself if this was how it ends. so caught up in your own frightened mind, you didn’t even notice that chuuya quieted down and was staring into your eyes.

“ey, why are you crying?” he didn’t mean for the question to come out as harsh as it did, he was just so taken aback.

when you didn’t reply he really started to worry, his mind no longer focused on whatever you two were bickering about.

“come on doll, please don’t cry. i’m sorry.” his voice only made more salty tears spill from your eyes, in your opinion you didn’t deserve such tenderness.

he wrapped his arms around your frame, his hand on the back of your head and his face buried in your hair. he let you sob your heart out, even if it made his own heart ache. when you finally calmed down you were ready to speak.

“am i still the most important person in the world to you?” he smiled.

“of course you are.”

RYONUSUKE AKUTAGAWA:

you knew your boyfriend wasn’t good at communicating, a part of you had accepted that wholeheartedly. he made his efforts because of how deeply he cared for you and you felt that was enough most of the time. your arguments were mostly about his carelessness when it came to his own personal safety, his nonchalant attitude to your concerns irritated you down to your core.

“if you’re going to act stupid and put yourself in avoidable danger then i’m leaving, i can’t take this.” you misspoke, his eyes widened.

what you truly meant was that you were leaving for a moment to calm down, not leaving him entirely. you could only stare in shock at what nonsense you just spewed from your mouth, guilt weighed down your body, preventing you from taking even one step towards him. it took seeing the fear in his eyes to finally break you free from your mind.

“i’m so sorry, i didn’t mean it like that i swear.” you tried to mend, now wanting nothing more than to put this whole argument behind you.

he let you pull him into a hug, you held his waist tightly to you. when you felt his hand holding the back of your head you breathed a sigh of relief.

“i know you didn’t mean it that way, but it scared me.” you nodded, understanding.

you mumbled a few more apologies and once you both had calmed down you were able to talk about some of your frustrations. it was mostly you talking and him listening, but it felt good knowing he was listening with such care. he promised to be more careful for you, and you promised to watch your wording when you’re upset.

[arsemial]

Hello!! Can I request a slightly mean dom male reader with sub Akutagawa please :)

Take your time!!

This was my first request. I was really happy. Thank you baby <3

seme male reader × sub bottom akutagawa

(Sorry for the spelling mistakes)

First of all, in all the articles I have read so far, Akutugawa has been written as angry, disobedient and rude. But I think this is only valid until you gain his trust. Even though the painful memories he experiences force him to be such a person, he is a kind-hearted person towards his loved ones. No one can deny this.

Honestly, once Akutagawa falls in love with you, his behavior will completely change. Congratulations, you now have a puppy that follows you around and tries to bite when someone tries to approach you.

There is no one in Akutagawa's life who cares about him and tries to protect him, except Gin, and he longs to see the light. Even your smallest cold look will be enough to upset him. But it's not enough to leave you. Even if you are a rude person who breaks his heart or even if you leave him and move on to a new life, he will continue to follow you like a shadow.

I don't care what others think. In my opinion, Akutagawa is a baby who always needs attention. You should praise him. Baby, please praise him non-stop. Then there will be nothing he can't do for you.

He can also endure humiliations. As long as he knows you're not serious, he'll let you have fun with his however you want.

_________

"You again? When will you stop following me everywhere I go? Or are you still obsessed with me? Can't you get over me leaving the port mafia and joining the agency?" The question you asked with a grin was enough to make Akutagawa even more angry.

You waited as Rashomon attacked you once again, knowing it wouldn't be fatal. He was surprised that you waited without doing anything. He withdrew his unanswered attack before it could reach you. There was no need to fight if you weren't going to fight back.

"You're too injured to even fight back. But you still can't shut up."

"Why can't you just get the fuck out of me for once? I can't even die in peace, thanks to you."

You felt your consciousness fade away as Akutagawa approached you. The Guild's sudden raid left you seriously injured. They thought you were alone and attacked you, but they forgot about your ex who always kept following you. This led to the death of everyone there. When it came to protecting the ones he loved, no one could stand against Akutagawa.

"I saved your life. Is this how you respond? You're really rude, Y/N."

"How would you like me to thank you?"

"I will tell you this when I get better"

______________

"Only two months, so you've turned into a disobedient asshole in just two months. I need to re-teach you to obey me, Aku"

Akutagawa whines, involuntarily moving his body closer to yours to leave more marks on his pale skin. The wetness of your tongue and the warmth of your mouth... You grab his nipples and continue to play with them. Completely naked on the bed, he bites his hand to suppress his moans.

You had been apart for two months and your well-behaved baby had tried so hard not to touch himself as you commanded, but now, almost like the first day, his tight hole was enough to drive you both crazy.

he wraps his arms around his neck. He's doing everything he can to pull you closer, like it's even possible.

"Don't try to suppress your moans. I love hearing them, you know that right? I love it when the manager of the port mafia moans like a whore under me. Akutagawa, who trembles with fear in front of everyone, cries so cutely under me" his hole tightens around you. Every word you say brings his closer to hia orgasm.

As your grip on my waist tightened, you started to move with an even harder rhythm. Your beautiful baby was trying so hard to be quiet and you were trying hard to break that silence.

"It's probably the hundredth time we've done this and you're still embarrassed to even moan, good boy." His body tightens as soon as you hear his praises, making you smile.

"Ahh Y/N" his hole is squeezing you

His knuckles turn white as he contracts around the sheets of the bed, his head arching forward as his body thrusts forward with each hard thrust of his cock. "Ahh ahh I'm cumming. Please Y/N, I'm cumming."

"Already? It's still early though. Or has my little baby missed me so much that my slightest touch makes him come" You giggle and pull back to reveal the tears that are constantly flowing down your cheeks.

"Please, please, please..." he continues to beg as her tremors increase with each second. The moment when Akutagawa is most submissive is when he comes closest to orgasm, and you know very well how to use it.

"I asked you a question, Ryu. Answer me." He swallows as your hands move towards his stomach, tenderly caressing the lines of his slim waist.

" Yes, I did, damn it! Y/N, I really missed you. No one can fuck me like you. No one can make me like this except you. " You smile, running your fingers through Akutagawa's hair and pulling back hard, causing him to let out a high-pitched mewl.

"That's right, stupid whore, now you don't cum until I cum, you understand, right? " When your hard gaze meets his, he nods, afraid of disappointing you.

"No - no no no, I can't stand it" he shouts, amidst his desperate screams, as he accelerates his hips.

" You can do it, Ryu. My submissive baby obeys his master," Akutagawa's willpower slowly wanes as one hand curls towards his neglected cock. When he starts to speed up his hand based on the timing of his strokes, he scratches his back hard enough to make it bleed. The simultaneous stimulation was too much for Akutagawa.

"Y/N it hurts please, please, I can't, stop! Ahhh!" When he started squirting between your fingers, he was squeezing himself so hard that you couldn't hold back. He didn't care how loud your voice was as you came inside him and he came down on his belly.

While he finally calmed down a bit, he didn't know if what he was doing was disobedience or not. He looked at you with fear. It was a relief for him to see his compassionate expression instead of the harsh gaze he had been encountering for a long time.

You reached up to his lips and pulled him into a deep kiss. He wasn't the only one who missed it.

"Do you want to be my boyfriend again, Ryu?"

[akutasoda]

Can you please do chuuya, Dazai, atsushi, akutugawa, sigma, and fyodor with a reader that has a personality and an ability like Jingliu?

icey love

synopsis - from the ice of your ability to your natural mystery, you always intrigued them

includes - atsushi, dazai, chuuya, akutagawa, fyodor, sigma

warnings - gn!reader, fluff?, slight angst - mention of betrayal, wc - 1.1k

atsushi nakajima ★↷

↪when he first met you he thought you were really cool. he admired the confidence you carried yourself with although he wasn't that keen on how cold you could be. but did really admire you.

↪he also really admired your swordsmanship. he found it so elegant and weirdly beautiful. but he wasn't that much of a fan for your actual ability. it was more the repercussions of your ability that he didn't really like as should anyone be around you when you use your ability, it would harm them.

↪he knew you had no control but it did little to help him not dislike it. but he still really did look up to your skills regardless. although he would never ask you directly, but one part of him really wanted you to teach him.

↪and even when he became aware of your past it did little of his perception at the moment. learning that your old position now considered you a traitor did shock him but he was willing to overlook it.

↪that was you then, and he had his own judgement on you now. and you very obviously had changed and as long as you never did such to him, why should he care.

osamu dazai ★↷

↪initially, he found you very fun. he enjoyed the mustery that surrounded you the moment you stepped into the agency and thus taking interest. spending alot of time with you wether you wanted him there or not.

↪and so it became natural that he got used to your cold, straightforward self. he also enjoyed your more philosophical takes on situations as he found any or your perceptions interesting.

↪and so it was only a matter of time until he learnt that you were branded as a traitor elsewhere. he found that some what relatable for similar reasons. bit he cared little as he could clearly tell that you had little intention to repeat and it was in the past afterall.

↪he also found intrest in your swordsmanship and skills in battle. the ice combined with your elegance with the sword provided quite the spectacle in his opinion. he wasn't aware of the little side effect as his ability cancelled it out.

↪but when he found out, he didn't know wether to be intrigued or scared. but he settled for intrigued. afterall everything you did made him more and more curious about you.

chuuya nakahara ★↷

↪from the moment you arrived at the port mafia he couldn't help but feel slightly off. everytime he looked or even thought about you he felt an unease that he thought was ridiculous. just because he couldn't read you shouldn't mean he has to feel cautious around you.

↪but maybe he should've left it as what it was. one of the first things he ever found out about you was your previous branding as a traitor. this shook your initial relationship with him as it meant he was less likely to trust you any further. but then he learnt that maybe you did change.

↪even if only a little bit. but then when he finally got closer to you would he adjust to your straightforwardness. and just your whole personality still made him feel unease but it lessened by the days he spent with you.

↪eventually one thing he could say he loved completely was your fighting skills. he admired the dedication to your swordsmanship and how well you utilized it with your actual ability. he always felt indifferent about the little side effect however.

↪and eventually he came to understand you on some level. even feeling like he could trust you more and more.

ryunosuke akutagawa ★↷

↪just like every new member of the mafia, when he first saw you he couldn't care less. if anything he saw you as someone who would be arrogant and annoying to be around.

↪but somehow he let you get slightly closer to him. he actually enjoyed how straightforward you were and how cold you could be as it matched his own personality quite well. but he still felt like ypu weren't telling him everything - you never really told anyone everything regardless.

↪he was also indifferent to your skills. from your actual ability to your skills with a sword, he didn't really care. sure it was sort of admirably but to him it was nothing more. and he never was a fan of the little side effects.

↪he began to trust you less when he learnt of your previous betrayal. but that quickly went away as he figured that if you were going to repeat that you would've done so by now.

fyodor dostoevsky ★↷

↪originally, he couldn't care less on who you are or why you were here. sure he felt a bit of intrigue on telling you probably had quite the few mystery's about you but that was about it. nothing really piqued his interest.

↪and if anything learning you were previously a traitor did seemingly nothing. initially he found it slightly interesting but quickly came to distrust you more because of this factor.

↪but his curiosity was soon repeaked when he found out more about your cold nature and rather philosophical views and conversations. and he did quite appreciate how straightforward you were - it made you more tolerable he would say.

↪and his curiosity peaked upon your ability. or more specifically the side effect. an effect that caused you to harm all those around you without trying truly did interest him. he found it despicable yet why was he so intrigued by it?

sigma ★↷

↪like everyone else, he didn't trust you at first and it took him ages to build up trust with you. he was slightly scared off you, if he said he wasn't he would be lying. but he did get over that very quickly and instead just became wary.

↪the opportunity to build trust with you feel further apart upon learning your name ahd been branded as a traitor in a past time. if you had done it once, what was stopping you from doing it again? so he did stay away from you alot.

↪however after a very long time he came to give you a chance. afterall it seemed you changed slightly and you were weirdly nice. weirdly in the way that you showed your emotions in weird ways, but he took it anyway.

↪he did admire your sword skills. your ability not so much as he did dislike it, ability and side effect. but your swordsmanship was very impresive and rather elegant in his words.

[mncxbe]

Hi please could you write some comfort for aku? i need it after this episode 😭😭

Yes get it I literally bawled my eyes out all evening after watching that episode. Like I knew it was gonna happen but still😭😭 Ok so enjoy♡♡ it's a bit angsty at the beginning but bear with me. it gets better

00:01☆

𝑨𝒌𝒖𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒘𝒂 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓

𝑮𝒆𝒏𝒓𝒆: comfort♡/ angst

𝑾𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔: soft Aku

The bruises on Akutagawa's body have already turned purple by the time he got back to the headquarters. But he didn't care about the cuts and marks that now adorned his pale skin, nor about the fact that he almost lost his life in battle; all that mattered was that he came victorious in a fight against one of the most powerful ability users in Yokohama.

Despite the sense of pride he felt as he was leaving the fight scene, anxiety rooted itself in his mind and soul. Because he knew you weren't going to be happy with his current dishevelled state.

But why would he care about your opinion? After all you were... what? A colleague, a friend maybe, someone he occasionally went on missions with? The boundaries of your relationship were not clearly set; even so, Akutagawa knew you cared about him and although he failed to admit it, he cared deeply about you too.

The mafioso could make out your figure under a streetlamp; you were sitting on the stairs in front of the building, hunched over a book. The light of the lamp pole fell upon your frame, enveloping you in a golden mist.

Upon hearing his footsteps your head slowly turned in his direction.

"You're back" you stated in a plain tone as you closed your book and rose to your feet.

"Yea. I just have to write the report and then I'll leave for the night."

Akutagawa cursed himself for how weak his voice sounded. With a blank expression on your face, your eyes scanned his body; lingering on the deep cut on his cheek and the crimson patches on the sleeves of his blouse.

"Everyone left already. You can turn in your report tomorrow, now you're coming to my place"

"But I don't need to-" he tried to protest but you quickly cut him off with a swift motion of your hand.

"You're not in any position to object." you said codly, voice laced with seething anger.

Without waiting for his reply, you hailed a cab and as soon as the yellow car pulled over you yanked the back seat door open and motioned him to get inside.

The ride back to your apartment was marked by a heavy silence. He didn't dare utter a word, opting to spare you quick, fearful glances. It was obvious that you were enraged, but your anger was of a cold nature; the unspoken words stinging like an ice burn.

The tension between the two of you kept growing as you nimbly made your way up the flight of stairs that led to your condo; but as soon as the door shut behind you, your cold facade crumbled.

"You idiot how could you put yourself in danger like that? You could've died." you screamed, throwing your hands up in a desperate gesture.

"Don't worry, ok?" he replied in attempt to ease your mind "All it matters is that I defeted him and-"

"No, Akutagawa it's not just about surviving fights. You need to be more careful. Why do you even accept such dangerous missions?"

"You don't get it, Y/N. These are all trials. If I manage to triumph over the enemy Dazai will surely deem me worthy. My life won't be lived in vain."

Although he spoke those words in the most gentle voice possible, the truth behind them shattered your heart. Pearly tears began to cloud your vision as you spoke in a harsh voice.

"Did it ever occur to you that maybe Dazai is just using you? You're putting your life on the line for someone who doesn't even care about you. And your reckless actions don't only affect you, you know?" By this point your whole body was trembling but your fierce gaze still held his as you continued talking:

"They affect the people who actually care about you. You're hurting us, Ryu. You're hurting me."

Akutagawa wasn't an affectionate person; you knew that very well. That's why the moment you felt his arms wrap tightly around you, your body froze.

"Shhh" he said in a hushed voice, gently caressing your back "I'm here now, so don't cry."

Akutagawa himself was surprised by his soft-hearted behaviour. Normally when people spoke badly about his former mentor he'd lash out, but when you said those things all he felt was... guilt? Pressing you closer to his chest, he held you until you managed to regain your breath.

When you eventually pulled away, his dark coat was stained with your tears. You wiped your running nose with the back of your hand, earning the smile from your colleague.

"Look, Y/N" he began gingerly, taking one of your soft hands in his "All I can do well is fight. I was born and raised a weapon and this is what I love doing, it's my purpose in life. You cannot ask me to give up on that."

His gaze softened as he heard your breath hitch again. Giving your hand a reassuring squeeze, he continued talking.

"But for the first time in my life I'm driven not only by the need to prove myself to Dazai. I fight for you too. And so no matter what, I'll come back to you. I swear."

A soft smile rose to your lips upon hearing his confession, your eyes glimmering with hope.

"You promise, Ryu?" you asked in a mellow voice as you took a step towards him; he was now mere inches away from you.

Suddenly, Akutagawa became aware of the closeness between your bodies and attempted to retreat, but your arms hurriedly snaked around his neck to keep him in place. As your gaze traced along the fine features of his face you could see his cheeks turn a dark shade of pink.

"Are you perhaps blushing, Ryu?" you giggled, playfully raising a brow.

Your friend shifted closer to you; his lithe fingers digging into the plush of your hips as he pressed your frame flush against his. His sudden, daring actions caused a blush to spread across your face too.

"Who's blushing now, huh?" he huffed, bringing his lips close impossibly close to the shell of your ear. "And not to mention that you got so worked up about me dying that you cried. So don't start teasing me when you're no better. Ok dear?"

As he uttered those words in his usual, low voice a wave of heat washed over your body and you shuddered lightly. Your reaction didn't go unnoticed, his lips curling into a smirk.

"You look pretty when you're flustered" he babbled out before meeting your gaze again. "But really now, I hope you know I meant every word I said to you. And I know that may not be enough to ease your mind. After all actions speak louder than words, so I'll prove you"

"You don't have to prove me anything, Ryu" you replied in a reassuring tone "Just keep your promise, ok? And let me patch you up, you look terrible"

With a warm smile on his face, Akutagawa leaned slightly forward, his forehead pressing against yours; a pledge of devotion to you.

"Okay. But let's stay like this a bit longer" he whispered as he closed his eyes, relishing your presence and the brand new feeling that was blooming in his heart.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Very assorted - and probably disorganized - thoughts on Akutagawa's immediate reaction on the night Dazai left the pm, since it's taken a pretty delineate shape in my mind for some time now.

I didn't use to have many strong opinions on how Akutagawa acted when Dazai left (although “unknown” uses as a concept of its own. Akutagawa disappearing, and no one knows where he was or what he did– until he comes back, but as a different man). That is up until recently, when I found this fic that described Chuuya storming to Akutagawa's place and all but threatening him to come to work the day after, and for all the days to come– and thus, urged him not kill himself. And I didn't think much about it initially, yet the scene slowly, unconsciously got ingrained in the bsd canon I have in my mind. And although one could fairly think Chuuya was spiraling in his own depressive episode that night, I feel like it's feasible to believe he'd still look out for Akutagawa. Not because Chuuya cared about Akutagawa in particular (at that point of the story, I genuinely think he didn't experience any strong feeling of any kind for Akutagawa, much less had a general good impression of him), but simply because that's what Chuuya does: he looks out for his own. He's perceptive enough to grasp that Akutagawa was but a kid at serious risk in that moment, and he's compassionate enough to go out of his way to help him, even though they barely knew each other, even though Chuuya himself was hurting like crazy that night (and perhaps even because that's simply what he does to cope with great distress and impending grief: keeps himself busy, tries to think of others before himself).

And there was, indeed, a very real chance Akutagawa was going to kill himself that night. Maybe he wouldn't, for Gin; but I'm not even sure. Dazai was the man who told Akutagawa he would have found a reason to live in the mafia, and now he's gone, the man who himself had seemingly become his reason to live; what's left for him in life anymore, what's the point of going on?– is probably what he must have wondered.

In my mind, the Akutagawas only have had two houses since they joined the pm. The first one was a small but comfortable, nice apartment that was assigned to them by the pm right after they joined, their first proper house. The second, a bigger, more comfortable penthouse, they had to move in after Ryuunosuke completely destroyed their first one on the night Dazai left– caught up in that kind of uncontrollable rage that only comes from inhuman pain. That night, Ryuunosuke got home blind and out of reason. He asked Gin to go away, and when she refused to, he pushed her out of the house with his ability, despite having always refrained from touching her with it, despite having always paid careful attention to never use his ability near or on her. And as soon as she was out of range he started destroying everything with and without his ability, until he could see nothing but red, everywhere. And once he destroyed everything, once the only thing left to destroy was himself, he cowered in a dark angle and howled, covered in blood, unable to speak, hideous and inhuman, nothing but a rabid dog. And his scream echoed the one he released the night he met Dazai for the first time; and if that day he had experienced his first emotion, now he was feeling a second new, deeply painful one. Maybe that's when Chuuya had come in, and told him he was not allowed to kill himself; maybe Gin had called Hirotsu, and Hirotsu had called Chuuya, and Chuuya stormed in, and ordered him to come to work tomorrow. Because Chuuya is smart; because he knows that orders are something familiar for Akutagawa, something that can help ground him; because he knows Dazai is not worth killing oneself over. And Akutagawa didn't kill himself that night, and he kept hurting for a long time, but eh. Eventually, he'll be okay.

[sickficideas]

omg maybelle u mentioned you’ve read beast… do u have any thoughts/headcanons about the relationship between oda and aku in beast… whether in the context of sickness or not i am so desperate for beast oda crumbs you have no IDEAAAAA AHHHH ive imagined that beast aku’s chronic condition is quieter but more consistent than canon aku’s (which seems to be pretty severe, but only when it flares up? idk. maybe this is a dichotomy i made up in my head) and so i like to think oda is similarly quietly but consistently checking on aku all the time, making sure he’s not exerting himself too much, just kinda sitting with him and physically observing him and watching out for him… AHHH THATS HIS SON !!!

(sincerely the most normal oda fan of all time @s2reason-living smiley face emoji hiiii !!! i am going to be in your inbox ALL the time now. prepare yourself)

@s2reason-living you are welcome in my ask box ANY TIMEEE with these beautiful thoughts of yours...BEEEEAST!!!!! BEAST!!! RAHHHH I ALLLways have thoughts about Beast

I Really love the idea of Oda silently observing Akutagawa from a distance and only intervening when he needs to...he wants to give him space to learn how to navigate his life on his own with the help of the people he's surrounded by...Oda tries to gently remind him when he's skipped meals accidently or when he's exerting himself too much physically (since we know certain Rashomon forms do heavily impact BSD Akutagawa physically, I think Beast Akutagawa has a much healthier constitution than his counterpart but he's not quite at a normal level...Oda does make a comment in Beast about Akutagawa's lack of phsyical strength), but Akutagawa has such a hard time asking for help when he's injured or sick because he's never had the option to really rest and be taken care of before...Kunikida is hard on him about it but Oda has to remind him that it's a mindset Akutagawa has created out of the way he used to live and to be kinder to him....Akutagawa has such a deep respect for Oda in Beast that he doesn't have for anyone else and I think he holds his opinion very highly and tries not to disappoint him, and he's always stuck between "Should I tell him I'm sick/injured or should I push forward so that they'll think I'm stronger than I used to be"🥺

And I'm SO TORN about Beast Akutagawa's lung situation because part of me is like he doesn't have it but he does still occasionally cough and cover his mouth in Beast but very very rarely...so I like to imagine it's more of a chronic condition because of his sickly constitution added with growing up in extreme poverty, than something terminal like BSD Akutagawa's (or maybe it is terminal and just not as progressed....who knows) but anyways this is something Oda has picked up on and is very concerned about and regularly asking Yosano to help him keep an eye out on his condition

I also really love the concept of Oda repeatedly asking Akutagawa to watch his children when he's out of town lol and I have this little idea in my head that he has a bad fever one time while he's watching them but he refuses to back down and tries anyway...Oda comes back and finds Akutagawa super out of it, curled up and shivering in one of the bunk beds and the older kids are like help what can we do for him😭😭😭😭 Akutagawa coming in and out of it, totally delirious and mistaking some of the kids for friends he lost in the slums (fun fact many of Odas kids share very similar names to Akutagawa's dead friends...Sakura/Sayaka, Katsume/Katsumi, Yuu/Yuji, Shinji/Shinya)...working himself up to the point of tears and not being able to breathe and Oda comforting him and staying with him until he's more himself im gonna lose it

I'm so sorry this was so long I love beast Akutagawa I could talk about him all day all night please send me more

[jounosparticles]

say, have you ever wondered on the backstories of the hunting dogs? We have basic guesses and answers to some of the guild, and alot of the port mafia and all of the agency but we have no idea for the hunting dogs other than fukuchi and tachidarling. Especially Tecchou and Jouno like what if they had a double black kind arc

this ask made me giggle a bit because i literally got the same question right before you which i talked about each individual character here !!!

however i didn’t look into how tecchou and jouno’s backstories where they meet each other would be so ill do that here!

tecchou and jouno

- they 100% make a great team for their line of work. tecchou is great at offensive combat and jouno is good at subtly and secretly getting close to enemies. they contrast each other very well

- due to this i think from the start they got put on a lot of missions together!

- i assume tecchou has been in the hunting dogs longer than jouno has

- jouno still hasn’t gotten used to tecchou’s antics after so long, i imagine he was much more irritable at the start.

- however jouno only explains why he "hates" tecchou in chapter 61, six years after they met assuming tecchou has been here the whole time. this makes me think jouno was easily irritated but tried to remain composed

- this does make me wonder what exactly was his breaking point. was it just the foods or does he do other things that prove his "soul has no artistry”?

- anyways. jouno was probably annoyed from the start. maybe he didn’t express it as much at first since he wants to keep the job? we know he shoots a lot of internal jabs at people. id LOVE to see a chapter of him meeting everyone and what he’s thinking

- tecchou probably didn’t mind jouno at all from the start. he clearly cares a lot about him by this point. i’d like to assume he just always liked jouno and their working together brought them closer

- their work habits probably clashed for a while.

- regardless of all this they likely were amazing together when in combat and were paired together from the start

- we seen how effortlessly they took down the agency (until chuuya saved them), clearly they worked together to the point where they are confident in each others abilities

- also little headcanon but i like to imagine tecchou helped train jouno in his swordsmanship. hehe suegiku brainrot always and forever

- fukuchi probably teamed them up.

- i feel jouno probably got into friendly-teasing once they got comfortable around each other. the "i hate you the most" bit in ch61 was an example of that

- no team of people that genuinely hate each other work that well together. note how akutagawa and atsushi had a moment of connection too before they fought together the first time, you can’t work well with someone you don’t get and despise.

- of course i only put emphasis on that above on jouno’s behalf. tecchou never appeared to dislike him

- i like to think tecchou very quickly seen through jouno’s tough exterior. he seen that jouno was a good person under the way he acts, and keeps that opinion to himself. i think he gets jouno better than anyone else on the team because of this

[popopretty]

Hi, how is your day? I want to ask you about Dazai's character and its developments in the series, and what do you think of him? Do you think he's smarter than fyodor? Thank you for the answer in advance... And in the end, I would like to thank you for your hard work and your wonderful style of writing. it is relly special ..

Hi, thanks for the message. I am glad u like what I do (I don’t really “write”, just “translate”, though).

I’m quite bad at expressing my opinions. I normally do not give much thought to things until I am asked about it. So u may find it my answer all over the place because I haven’t had it arranged in my head, it’s more like pulling out old notes from a rusty drawer. So I’m sorry about it in advanced. And this is all my personal opinion, so you don’t have to agree with me.

Dazai is a complicated and interesting character for me. He is smart, too smart that it brings him misery. People say ignorance is bliss, right? Then Dazai must be the most unfortunate guy on earth. Even Asagiri once described him as someone who has lived for 2000 years. I, with the brain of a normal person, can’t bring myself to imagine how boring life would be for him, knowing things too well. Some might say that he was being overdramatic when he was young, and that he’d regret having all those thoughts when he gets older. But I personally don’t think so. I think the pain and agony he felt was real, then or now. Just that in the past, he hadn’t met people who would surprise him, or go beyond his calculations, he lived on thinking humans were ugly, sinful and stupid and didn’t understand why they should be saved. His head must have been overwhelmed with thoughts that no one would ever be able to understand, and no one would even try to understand. That is why he was always lonely, and suicidal. I don’t think he really wanted to die, he just couldn’t find what to live for.

The thing I like about Dazai’s character is that he fundamentally didn’t change, even with all the so-called character developments. He was still the smart, and sad and lonely guy that he used to be. But he have met people who made him want to try living, peope who gave him a purpose and people who genuinely cared about him. And those are things that even his genius brain couldn’t have predicted. From a fifteen year old who believed nothing was worth living for, he has become able to tell Kyouka that everyone deserves a second chance in life, to Fyodor that it is okay even if we are all sinfully stupid, and admit that no matter how well him and Fyodor can foresee things, the fate of the world is not decided by them, but the imperfect human beings that are fighting for what they deem precious out there. I doubt Dazai will ever get rid of his suicidal thoughts, or loneliness, but at least he has things he wants to protect, and it gives him the motivation to live on. We haven’t seen him talking about dying for no reasons for so long. Now he only lets himself get hurt, or take risky action for the greater sake (BEAST is not counted cuz that is a totally different universe), and I think it is a good sign in his character development.

I forgot to write about his relationship with Akutagawa and Atsushi. Basically, I don’t think Dazai was a good mentor. Someone who hardly experienced failure is not likely to become a good mentor. He treated Akutagawa badly in the past because all he could see was that the weak could not survive in the harsh world and there was no saving for them. But the meeting with Oda has changed his way of thinking. He now sees orphans and the weak as those he has to protect, that’s why the way he treated Atsushi is very different from that of Akutagawa. He is still not the best mentor, but he is better now.

About Fyodor, I don’t think he is smarter than Fyodor. They must be on the same level of wits. Dazai actually can act more human when he is around people like him, so having Fyodor as an opponent can actually be very entertaining to him. Even if Dazai is going to win the final battle, I don’t think it is because Dazai is smarter. He is just backed up by more people in the “somewhat beautiful” side.

[well-dressed-sewer-rat]

bsd hc dump except they’re all either thoughtful ideas of actions/opinions they would do/have or the stupidest things you’ve ever read!!

no these are not in any order :) enjoy

alongside his whole cleanse-the-world-of-sin thing, fyodor’s secondary life goal is to learn as many string instruments as he can, own at least one of each, and dedicate an entire room to them. the only other one that knows is sigma, and they’re… honestly not even surprised

kunikida can speak spanish well enough to have an everyday conversation with someone, but he’s not totally fluent (i also like to think he’s very fascinated by the different dialects and knows a ton of variations of certain phrases)

because of this, dazai has committed exactly 5 spanish words to memory. all of them are insults. he uses them on chuuya sometimes thinking he doesnt understand (alas, he’s close to fluent and often returns these tiny insults with entire vulgar speeches in spanish)

while we’re on the topic of languages, sigma is completely fluent in both japanese and russian. fyodor and gogol (both non-native japanese speakers) are pretty good with the speech and pronunciation part, but they have a hard time reading and writing kanji, so they’ll often go and use sigma as a walking google translate

kyouka likes rock music! atsushi found her with headphones on once, asked if he could hear, and immediately got blasted to the other side of the room by mcr

atsushi, however, likes actual rocks. he has a little collection on the windowsill by his desk in the agency <33

the black lizard have game nights together once a month. higuchi caught them all heading to hirotsu’s place together and asked what they were doing, and when they told her, she immediately asked to join. a few months after she started tagging along, akutagawa was soon dragged into it as well. this is how they found out akutagawa is a huge rage-quitter (hirotsu has had to buy three new game tables since)

louisa and poe occasionally go out for coffee together. not on dates or anything, just to sit in each other’s quiet company and get work done together alongside delicious beverages. one time while the guild was still assembled, lucy asked louisa if she wanted a certain kind of coffee (she was practicing so she could eventually land her current job), and poe answered with her exact order before she did

during the dark era, dazai jokingly made a set of those neon loom friendship bracelets for oda, ango, and himself. today, ango still has his and oda’s, which he managed to save. it’s one of, if not the only remaining physical object that could ever prove oda’s existence.

anyway, back to the happy stuff- gogol and sigma are huge reptile nerds, especially lizards! gogol caught one once, and they spent hours playing around with it. fyodor passive-aggressively stared at them from across the room while reading a book on rats the whole time.

despite this, sigma can’t stand snakes. anything else scaley is cool, just not snakes- they do find most spiders adorable, though. gogol, on the other hand, is the complete opposite; he loves snakes and will burn the entire sky casino down if a single spider comes within a 2 mile range of it.

50% of mori’s obsession with elise comes from… y’all know what… but the other 50% is from his love for fashion and need for a model. apparently, he decided elise was the perfect candidate, and spoils her rotten trying to find her an outfit that not only he believes is stylish, but she finds agreeable as well (so far, he’s had no success)

one of steinbeck’s sisters is a professional hairdresser, so he knows a lot about hair care. as soon as he saw the state of lovecraft’s hair, he decided he absolutely would not have this and proceeded to spend the next three hours thoroughly detangling and cleansing it. other than steinbeck himself, louisa was the only one who got to touch it before lovecraft immediately jumped into the ocean again (she said it was perhaps the softest thing she’d ever felt with her own two hands. poe is secretly dying to feel it too someday)

ranpo often takes kenji, atsushi, and occasionally tanizaki out with him on snack shopping sprees! they all usually get addressed as “young boys”, despite only one of the three actually being a child- unless tanizaki comes along, in which case he is usually assumed to be the oldest in charge of the group.

ok that’s all my stupid tiny hands can type for now. please rb with some of your own hcs if you like, i lovelovelove seeing other people’s ideas on these stupid little guys

[giggly-squiggily]

Break Him Down (Bungo Stray Dogs)

First Shin Soukoku fic whoop whoop! Heyo everyone! I've been loving BSD as of late, and these two- THESE TWO. They have stolen my heart and soul and I felt a mighty need to write them! I hope you like it!

Summary: Atsushi discovers an interesting fact about his stubborn boyfriend. He doesn't exploit it though- not yet at least.

Akutagawa was- for lack of a better term, a pain in the ass.

Stoic, aloof, no mincing of his words whenever he felt the need to share an unsolicited opinion about Atsushi’s way of doing things- you’d think the weretiger would absolutely despise the other with his entire heart.

And for a brief moment when they first met- he did.

Of course, all things change overtime.

“Let me check.”

“I don’t need your help!”

Okay- maybe not all things. Atsushi pinched the bridge of his nose at his boyfriend’s stubborn refusal. They were paired off on a task Dazai “personally selected them for”- in other words was too lazy to do himself- which ended on a rough note. One unexpected enemy later and Akutagawa had been injured. 

Atsushi had gotten them away, knocking out their opponent with a solid chop to the skull, but the damage to Akutagawa- both to his body and his pride- was still there.

“Would you please let me take care of it? It’s a long walk back home- it’ll feel better if you let me clean it up first.” Atsushi reasoned with him, taking a step forward. “Plus if that wound gets infected, we’re gonna be in a lot more trouble then we are now.”

“I’ll be fine- this is nothing.” Akutagawa straightened, only to wince and shrink inward once more, gritting his teeth. “I-I’ll be fine until the-eehn!” Turning only hurt more as he sucked in a breath, hands shaking from the stinging pain.

Atsushi waited, crossing his arms over his chest. Just one more moment and…

“Fine.” Akutagawa turned back to him, grunting from the effort. “Please…take care of it, weretiger?”

“Thank you.” Atsushi smiled as he reached for the first aid kit. “Come here, Aku.”

~~~

“Good news, it’s not so bad.” Atsushi told him, sitting before Akutagawa’s bare back. Across his pale skin a purplish bruise bloomed- spreading like a blob of watercolor on a page. The actual wound was barely a scrape- a thin line of red cutting across the bruise. Considering how hard Akutagawa hit the wall, Atsushi was sure there’d be more damage. “Bad news is- this bruise is a ugly one.”

“Like I said, it’s nothing.” Akutagawa tsked softly, even when he winced from the gentle pressure applied.

“Acting tough even when it hurts.” Atsushi mused, flinching with him as he pressed the bandage over the scrape. They’d have to wait until they got back to ice it- at least now it’s clean. “There.”

“Mm.” Akutagawa reached for his overcoat. “Thank you-”

“Hang on.” Atsushi stopped him, hands moving to his sides. “I gotta make sure nothing’s broken.”

“I assure you, nothing is- ack! Watch your hands, they’re cold!”

“So sensitive.” Atsushi teased, earning a glare. Ignoring it, he went about, gently feeling the other’s ribs one by one. So far, so good. He moved upward to his shoulders-

“Eh!” Akutagawa flinced. Atsushi panicked.

“Sorry! Sorry- did that hurt?” Was it broken?

“It’s not- it’s fine.” Akutagawa cut in. “Don’t worry about it.”

“You keep telling me that, but you’re clearly not.” Atsushi growled, his frustration starting to touch his voice. “Tell me the truth- if you’re in pain there, I need to know!”

“I…” Akutagawa began before growing quiet in thought. When he looked away again, his voice sounded strained. “It didn’t hurt, it just felt…strange.”

“Strange?” Atsushi asked, confused. He got no reply, but Atsushi could see the beginnings of a blush creeping up the brunette’s neck the longer the silence drained on. Interesting. “Oh, you mean-”

“Don’t.” Akutagawa growled. “Don’t you dare say it.”

Atsushi squeezed his lips shut, trying not to smile. Ah, how could he forget about that? “There’s nothing wrong with being a little ti-”

“Weretiger.” Akutagawa's glare intensified, Rashomon starting to poke through his back. “I’m warning you.”

Atsushi held up his hands, reaching out and gathering up his clothes. “Okay, okay. Come on- let’s get you dressed.”

He’d have to remember this little tidbit of information for later.

~~~

~A few weeks later~

~~~

“I’m home!” Atsushi announced as he kicked off his shoes, entering his apartment. “I swear, Dazai finds the most creative ways to get out of doing paperwork- you know what he told me today?”

No response came. When Atsushi walked into the main sitting room, he found his boyfriend lying face down on the couch, headphones in and eyes closed. The sight made him pause with a smile. So he did like his little gift.

“Akuuuuuuu~” He whispered, creeping over before gently lying across the other man’s back. If Akutagawa noticed, he didn’t show it, still lost in the song. Atsushi could make out a few lyrics beyond the heavy metal music. “Pay attention to meeee~ I’m home!”

Nothing. Either he was too quiet or Akutagawa was intentionally ignoring him. “Aku!” He reached out, lightly pulling on a strand of hair.

One gray eye cracked open, meeting his gaze. A ghost of a smile touched his lips before he closed it again, getting comfy.

Oh. So he was ignoring him.

This motherfu-

“Oh, okay. So that’s how you wanna be, huh?” Atsushi felt his eye twitch as he glared down at the other. “Fine then.” He reached out, placing his hands on his boyfriend’s ribs. “Wanna ignore me? Ignore this!” He dug in and-

Nothing. Akutagawa barely reacted.

“No fair! You can’t go gargoyle on me like that!” The weretiger squawked in shock, starting to pout. Damn this stubborn ass and his ability to turn off his ticklishness! Below him, Akutagawa seemed smug; further fueling the gray haired man’s frustration.

And determination.

Sitting back, he tapped his hands against his boyfriend’s shoulders in thought. Where should he try to get a reaction? He supposed he could shove his hands into the freezer and press them into Aku’s ears? That certainly worked in the past. Or maybe-

Below him, Akutagawa tensed suddenly. His mouth seemed to thin, and his brows furrowed. Looking down, Atsushi realized his hand was on the same spot his boyfriend got hurt all those weeks ago.

“Oh, sorry-” Wait. The wound was gone. As was the bruise. All that was left was…

Atsushi started to smile. Keeping his attention on the other, he reached up and gently clawed at the spot between Akutagawa’s shoulder blades. 

“Eh! W-Weretiger!” The brunette all but yanked his headphones down, glaring at the other sharply.

“Hehe, can’t ignore me now, can ya?” Atsushi teased, lightly clawing at him again. Once again, the brunette yelped and jolted, straining against the touch. “Looks like I found another tickle spot~”

“I told you not to say tha-Aht!” Akutagawa sucked in a breath sharply at another gentle touch, arching some away from the hand. “Would you cut that ou-!” The second scratch shut him up, this one closer to the curve of his shoulder blade.

“What’s wrong? Does it tickle?” Atsushi asked, continuing to gently claw at his boyfriend’s back with slow, gentle traces. “Does it tickle when I trace here? What about this?” He pinched gently against the bony part of his back- the action making Akutagawa’s eyes widen momentarily before shoving his face into the couch. A blush started creeping up his neck, pink staining the pale skin. His body shook with each touch, all the way down to where his white knuckled-hands gripped the couch cushion. “My my- can’t handle it?”

“W-Weretiger!” Akutagawa hissed, twitching beneath the other. He reached back to swat at the hand tracing his back, but he could barely reach. Instead he went to grab Atsushi’s knee.

“Hehehy! Ah ah ah!” Atsushi squirmed his leg out of reach, wiggling a finger into Akutagawa’s armpit. “Don’t you dare! I’m tickling you!”

“Dohohon’t say thahahhat! Ahehahahha! Wheheheheretiger!” The dam broke- Akutagawa shoved his arm down in a vain attempt to block him out. Giggles bubbled over his wobbly lips, partially muffled by the couch cushion. “Gehehehhet ohohoohout!”

“Get out? But it’s my apartment!” Atsushi dropped his hands to Akutagawa's upper ribs, massaging the spot with enough pressure to get him laughing properly. “First you ignore me, and now you’re trying to kick me out of my own home? What are you trying to say, Aku? Don’t you love me?”

“Yohohohoohu knhoohohohow whahahhahat I meahahhahhan’t! Ahehahahhaa, Wehehehheretihihiihihiger stohoohohohhp ihihihihiihit!” Akutagawa was properly squirming now, twisting this way and that as Atsushi’s fingers danced along his skin. Breathy huffs of laughter slowly began to grow into proper guffaws as he tried grabbing his boyfriend’s hands, just barely missing his wrists every time. “I hahahahhhahte ihiihihiiihiht!”

“Sure you do.” The weretiger giggled, reaching completely around him so he could claw at the other’s belly. “That’s why you haven’t tried pushing me away or using Rashomon to stop me! If anything, I think you like this!” Atsushi buried his nose between his shoulder blades, grinning when he felt the other arch with a faint squeak. “Admit it, you love when I tickle you, Aku~”

“Wehehehehhehheheheretiihiiihihihihihiger, shuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhsh!” Akutagawa all but whined, feet kicking against the couch. His face felt like it was on fire, burning more everytime Atsushi said that dreadful word. “Dooohohohohohn’t sahahahhahay ihiiihihihihihit!”

“Hm, you know? I don’t think you’ve said my name in a while.” Atsushi mused as he brought his hands back to the other’s ribs, wiggling between them like one plays a piano. “It’s always ‘Weretiger’. I want you to say my name! Say Atsushi! If you do, I’ll stop tickling you.”

A way out! An easy one too. Anyone would take it.

But alas- Akutagawa had his pride.

“Nohohohohohoo wahhahahahhahay! Yohohoohoohu stohoohohohhop fihiihihiihrst!” He cackled, finally grasping his boyfriend’s wrists. “Thehhehehehheere!”

“That stubborn pride. I love it, but at the same time, it really drives me crazy.” Atsushi almost sounded sad, shaking his head loosely. “Whatever- at least I know how to drive you crazy too.” With that, he shoved his face into the other’s back, nuzzling him through the thin cloth.

“WHEHEHHRETIIHIHIIHGER!” Akutagawa all but shrieked, his squirms increasing and his laughter booming. “DOHOHOOHOHN’T! NOHOHOHOHOOHT THEHEHHEHEHERE!” His lungs were starting to hurt, and his vision was getting misty. Still- Atsushi was determined to make him break. He could resist! He was a Port Mafia member! This? A little ti-a little sensitivity? This was nothing! He’d been through far, far worse tortures in his life. He would be fine-

“Not gonna break? Okay!” Atsushi seemed to lift off. Then-

Oh dear god no-

“PFFFFFFT!” He released by far what felt like the biggest raspberry against his shoulder blades. Even with the fabric layer of protection, it tickled like crazy! Akutagawa’s laughter tittered into silence as more and more raspberries came down on his worst spot.

Finally, finally- he gave in.

“AHAHAHHAHAHTSUSHIHIHIHI PLEHAHAHAHAHSE!” He cried when he got his voice back, Rashomon shooting out to gather the other and lift him off. Atsushi squeaked in surprise, suspended mid air by the various red tentacles.

“Hehe, got you to say my name.” Atsushi laughed nervously, watching the other cough some as he turned onto his back, glaring daggers. Slowly, he was lowered back down, returning to his previous position on top of Akutagawa. “Hehe, you good?”

“Yohohou…suck.” Akutagawa huffed, earning a snort from boyfriend. Too tired to fight anymore, he reached up and flicked the other’s nose, smirking when Atsushi whined in response. “You're lucky I don’t get you back right here and now.”

“Oo, scary~” Atsushi mock shivered, laying down properly and tucking his head against the other’s chest. “Good luck on that. I know all your weaknesses now.”

“Tch, brat.” Akutagawa rolled his eyes, reaching up and running a hand through his hair. “Welcome home by the way.”

“Oh? Oh, thank you!” Atsushi sounded pleased. Sitting up, he scooted closer, pressing a gentle kiss to the other’s red cheek.

“Oi, you missed.” Akutagawa narrowed his eyes, fighting down a laugh when Atsushi looked away.

“Nope! You ignored me when I got home, so no proper kisses for you…” His voice trailed off when Akutagawa took his chin in his hands, guiding him back gently.

“Forgive me. I was enjoying that song you showed me.” He ran his thumb along Atsushi’s lip, feeling smug at the blossoming blush on his cheeks. “The Bad Things one.”

“Knew you’d like it.” Atsushi grinned. “Fine, I suppose you can have a real kiss then.” He leaned in, capturing his boyfriend’s lips on his own. Warmth spread throughout Akutagawa’s body, making his toes curl and sending pleasant tingles throughout his nerves. When they pulled away, they were equally flushed, slightly breathless.

“Ehehe! We’re such dorks.” Atsushi laughed, returning to his comfy position beneath Akutagawa’s chin. “I love us though.”

“As do I.” Akutagawa ran a hand over his back gently, his heart still racing a mile a minute. He was sure Atsushi’s heart was doing the same thing. “Tell me about your day.”

They spent the rest of the evening chatting about their respective days.

Thanks for reading!

[bsdtakanenohana]

My Opinion on Every Single Bungou Stray Dogs Ship

Part Three- Het Ships III

Let’s see if I rank any ship above a five or below a negative two and a half. Let’s see if y’all are serving any good food or truly stank ish.

Part One & Two

Fukuharu/ Yukichi Fukuzawa x Kirako Haruno: This is how I’m finding out Haruno is not her given name and it’s Kirako. Lol. Is she also underage like Naomi? I mean even if she’s above age she’s still young enough to be his daughter so ick. Also Fukuzawa always struck me as the “married to his job” type. -1/10

Fukuchi Protection Duo: Yukichi Fukuzawa x Teruko Okura: Whoever was shipping this has definitely stopped after the age reveal LMAO. -2/10

Shippers be like “she was looking at Fukuzawa here”

Fyoagatha/ Fyodor Dostoyevsky x Agatha Christie: I had always heard that people shipped this, but I never saw any of it myself. But one day a few months ago I stumbled upon a post on here with a ton of fanart by different artists saved like a collage. So there’s definitely more shippers than what it seems. Unlike the Shibusawa x Agatha ship, this one makes a little more sense since The Order of the Clocktower was against what Shibusawa was doing and saw him as a threat, whereas Fyodor has things going on in different countries and has different sorts of “allies” and works with people to use them, it makes sense if he would try to get involved with the people in the Order, if only to use them. 2/10

Hawmitch/ Nathaniel Hawthorne x Margaret Mitchell: I don’t care about Hawthorne but I do want to see more of Margaret now that she’s healed and we still have more potential for a Guild subplot. Even though I don’t care much for the characters, this is the only ship so far where both (?) members have feelings for each other. (Even if there was a bit of a tsundere trope going on.) Who am I to stand in their way? I’ll give them a six just for that. 6/10

Of course it’s going to end tragically for them though, the romances in both the novels their abilities are named after don’t end happily.

Higuzai/ Ichiyo Higuchi x Osamu Dazai: Eh. But props to Higuchi for freaking Dazai out with that phrase “your blood is blacker than anyone in Yokohama’s. Port Mafia black” (paraphrasing), that definitely hit a soft spot that not many people can get at. And he didn’t do/say anything in retaliation! Interesting. 2/10

Slay (just a girlfailure trying to have a girlboss arc)

Kajisano/ Kaji Motojirou x Akiko Yosano: Ew. The lemon guy annoys the hell outta me. Yosano doesn’t like him either✋🏽 0/10

Katagin/ Katai Tayama x Gin Akutagawa: She already rejected him. Not that rejection or dislike stops this fandom 🙄 0/10

Real

Kenlise/ Kenji Miyazawa x Elise: What in tarnation? That’s exactly my first thought when reading that this is a ship. I’m live reacting. Just, how? Shouldn’t this be on the character x object section since Elise is an ability not a person? 0/10

Kunicott/ Doppo Kunikida x Louisa May Alcott: This list is making me wonder if some of these more random ships I haven’t heard of before are from the Japanese fandom. I’ve heard they have more pairings than the English speaking fandom. I don’t think these two would be bad as a couple. I’m interested in this dynamic. Maybe one day they’ll interact, I’d like to see more of Louisa. 3/10

Kunisaki/ Doppo Kunikida x Nobuko Sasaki: In all honesty, I don’t know how I feel about them as a ship. I know there’s theories he’s actually the Azure Messenger, which means they were a couple at one point. But I doubt it. However, I’ve only seen the butchered adaptation of this, I haven’t read the light novel. So my rating is subject to change. 3/10

Kunisano/ Doppo Kunikida x Akiko Yosano: I made my mom watch the anime with me last year and afterwards when I asked her about ships she said she wants them to be together. When I told her “no one ships this” she was shocked. Gave a whole mini rant about why they’d be good together. And tbh I can see it. But not too much. I do want them to interact more. Everything on AO3 about them was poly ships or a/b/o, so I can’t even turn to fanon for more details 😞 3.5/10

He’s sweatin’ 💀

[ciaossu-imagines]

akutagawa ryunosuke + 💖 still from the misc ask meme

Oh, this was a really good one! I had fun writing this, even if it is rather short, and I instantly knew the answer I wanted to give and all the words just came pouring out right. That’s a feeling that, as any writer can tell you, is just both miraculous and one of the world’s best feelings. Thanks so much for sending in the ask and letting me have that feeling! I appreciate you so much 😊

How and how often do they try to impress their partner(s)? How and how often do their partner(s) impress them?

A large part of Akutagawa is that he really is someone who is very motivated by, and anxious for, outside approval. We see it all throughout the canon storyline, especially in regards to Dazai but also with others. He thrives off of outside approval, he’s so hungry for it that it’s as if he’s a starving beast – he becomes ambitious, becomes primally driven to obtain more and more of that approval.

I really do think that that need for someone else’s approval definitely extends to any partner Akutagawa takes. I think it’s a large part of why, I feel, despite the obvious love Higuchi holds for him and his obvious respect and regard for her, there’s just no real chemistry and click to them. She already holds too much admiration for him right from the get-go and Akutagawa…he needs to have someone who supports him, yes, but he also kind of needs a partner who keeps him hungry for that admiration from them. He needs someone who makes him feel driven to seek more and more of their approval and their favour, because there is such a large part of him that feels that that is necessary to a relationship. He’s had such a warped view of what qualifies as ‘stable’ or ‘devoted’ relationships due to meeting Dazai and due to his life within that Mafia that he really does hold the belief that he needs to always be working at gaining someone’s approval, needs to always be upping their expectations of him, needs to constantly be gaining their admiration and needs to stay desperately hungry and driven to get even so much as a compliment every now and then. It is by no means a healthy view, but Akutagawa is honestly not a very healthy individual, either in body or in mind, and he really doesn’t even know where to begin fixing that, if he ever got it in mind to, though his mind is definitely not in the place of ‘let’s fix all my trama and unhealthy, codependent bonding’.

On top of everything I’ve already mentioned, I really do believe that Akutagawa is just someone who really would enjoy impressing his partner. He adores making them smile or making them happy. He’s also a terribly jealous man, and he feels like, by working so hard to impress them continually, he’ll always keep their eyes on him and so they can never be tempted by another person.

We also see, canonically, that when Akutagawa does have a high opinion of someone, if Akutagawa genuinely likes and cares about a person, he’s pretty quick to put them up on a kind of pedestal (ie: Dazai). Obviously, if Akutagawa is in a relationship with someone, it’s because they’ve proven that they’re not only worthy of his respect, but that they’re someone so amazing that he just couldn’t deny his feelings towards them any longer. He will have the bad tendency of putting his partner up on a pedestal. He will defend them to the death �� nothing they do is wrong. They’re always impressing him. Everything they do is the right thing. He constantly finds himself admiring them, and while that’s a lovely thing, and good in small doses, it can put a lot of pressure on his partner to live up to this dream version he has going of them.

[chuuyanakaahara]

1, 2 & 10?

1. the character everyone gets wrong

dazai & chuuya are too obvious. you know my thoughts on atsushi's characterization in fanon vs canon. so i'm going to say kunikida because i rarely see anyone other than kunikida ride-or-dies get his character right, at his core. kunikida is not a goody-two-shoes, and he's not just an accessory to dazai's employment at the ada. he claims to be an idealist but he often recognizes that his ideals are not attainable and is willing to bend them; they also follow his own ideals, not any ideal set by law or authority.

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

look man i don't talk about nsfw on this blog, like, ever, but i will say. i don't think akutagawa is topping anyone. it's not happening. his autonomy is a big part of his character - in the way that he wants to garner dazai's approval, in the way that he chokes on it at every turn because he doesn't follow instructions because while his insolence was beaten into him quite literally, he still views himself as above other people; as both their servant and their knight, unable to give up ground because he's given enough; he will trust atsushi enough to put his life in atsushi's hands (see: cannibalism arc) but he will not trust him enough to be vulnerable because he believes he only deserves pain because hellhounds do not need vulnerability or comfort. all in all: i think atsushi tops in that relationship (if not aku occasionally power-bottoming) and it goes from like, really rough and heavy to something a lot softer when akutagawa is able to open up more.

10. worst part of fanon

have you ever tried to talk to a skk-endgame only-shipper and/or a majority of fanon's opinion on mori? it's like trying to slow-dance with a cactus. you know my opinion on mori and i do not care that he is an easy scapegoat because if mori was the villain that most people portrayed him to be - remember, he is an antagonist, but not a villain like he's portrayed - then a majority of bsd canon would not exist. remember that mori's regrets define his character; he is not without heart. and asagiri would not write a highly respected author of japanese literature with a close relationship with the author akiko yosano as a pedophile who s/a'ed her. that would be, like, really fucked-up, man. sometimes series context is important.

[ ask is from this ask game ]

[sepiamestus]

I like ranpo and yosano's backstory I really do but like I hate too many others things (spoilers obviously)

Like I said previously, mind control. And by extension the book. A trope I cannot stand for the life of me is mind control. I think it lacks good motive and is just an awful excuse to get characters to do things they wouldn't do. Again just my opinion but I hate it.

Because the agency are like screwed at the start I just hate seeing nothing but bad things happen. I know the hunting dogs are meant to be like overpowered and a challenge but like I hate it. Also why do they always fucking target kenji in the beginning he's just a child

With where the manga is up to I haven't read anything because the characters that are relevant are characters I do not care about individually. That includes the prison section.

Again haven't caught up so I don't know the specifics, but the fact Fukuchi has killed god knows how many people to prevent this 'war' in the future THAT ISN'T REAL? THAT FYODOR MADE UP? I don't know how he was told or whatever but to go to that degree⁉️⁉️ oh my god I hate him

Sorry to be a hater in your inbox 😔😔😔

no no you've got some points! I like mind control in the like. Brainwashing sense, like as in a person's still in control of their brain but theyve been forcibly conditioned, so the vampire arc (while i appreciate the aesthetic) was a bit disappointing- although i could never bring myself to hate it because it gave us

💞💞💞

I do agree that the villains in that arc are disappointing though. I like some of the characters- Teruko's really cool. I like sigma and nikolai a lot. The other hunting dogs are ehhhh. I don't really care about them that much.

But THIS MAN

THIS MOTHER FUCKER.

Is the most annoying ass villain ever. not in the sense that i hate him because hes evil (although i DO because he killed my beautiful wife akutagawa even if he got better) but because i hate his dumbass time traveling swords that keeps rewinding the arc. Also i feel like we're supposed to get attached to him in such a short period of time and i??? I dont??? Think it worked?? Like when he dies im sad because fukuzawa is sad but not because he died. If we'd had longer to stew on their relationship maybe it wouldve been sad. But we only have like 1 arc and i dont care ab him. Die

Anyways yeah ur always welcome to be a hater in my inbox i will always join in <3 love andlight

[kanra-nox]

Dazai Osamu - an amazing character with a terrible mis-characterization

(all based on anime)

I have a bone to pick with so many people in this fandom.

Dazai Osamu is one of the most interesting characters I have ever seen in anime. And just like any other great character, he couldn’t dodge the way his fans are treating his character.

Dazai Osamu is based on the real author Dazai Osamu who was born back in 1908, meaning this author (his views, opinions, etc.) are considered to be problematic. Just like the character Dazai. Because he is problematic.

Let’s start with something that so many people forget (or just bluntly ignore): The abused became an abuser. Dazai was an abuser - so many people tend to forget that he, in fact, abused Akutagawa. Almost all the flashbacks of Dazai and Akutagawa we see, Dazai is beating Akutagawa up. And for anyone saying oh, well, it’s the Mafia!!, fuck you. Dazai was abusive, end of story. Yes, he became a good mentor to Atsushi, but he still fucked up a perfectly good child. And later, Akutagawa became an abuser, too (but that’s a different topic). Dazai wasn’t a quirky, strong child. He was fucked up - and he still is. Dazai knew only violence, and bloodshed.

And so many people use this as an excuse for all the horrible things he has done. Yes, Dazai was abused by Mori, but it is not an excuse to manipulate, gaslight and abuse others. It is an explanation. There is a big difference between those two. Dazai continued the abuse cycle.

I would like to dive a little bit into his suicidal tendencies - because many people will say oh i am so quirky, i kin Dazai because i want to off myself, hehe. You’re not seeing the bigger picture! He wants to kill himself, but he knows that he can’t. Because if he killed himself, he would lose. Dazai would lose the internal fight with himself. Dazai could easily kill himself - even without any pain, and yet he doesn’t. That’s the thing.

To continue, we have to deal with yet another hard pill to swallow - Dazai has sociopathic tendencies (I do not want to diagnose him with an antisocial personality disorder, that’s why I am talking only about tendencies). Dazai, throughout his Mafia days, showed no regard for right or wrong (example, shooting people without a reason) and ignored the feelings of others (Chuuya joining the Mafia against his own will is a great example - Dazai didn’t care how Chuuya felt about losing everything and joining the organization he despised). Yet another symptom is rather known (yet, people think it is quirky) - Dazai is a notorious liar. He mainly lies to manipulate others to gain something for himself. Another great example of sociopathic tendencies is failing at fulfilling work responsibilities. I feel like this is a well-known thing - Kunikida would always say that Dazai never does his work and all of it falls on Kunikida.

I would love to talk a bit more about Dazai showing no regard for right or wrong, because I know people will try to call me out on this. But he joined ADA! He is actually a good person! You absolute fool, the only reason Dazai did it, is because Oda asked him to. Oda asked him to join the side that does good and helps others. Because Oda, unlike Dazai, was actually a good person. Dazai couldn't care less - he wanted to fulfill his friend’s dying wish.

Dazai doesn’t care about good or bad - but he did care about Oda.

Another thing people are misunderstanding are Dazai’s trust issues. Yes, Dazai has trouble trusting others, but it is not because Ango betrayed the Port Mafia like many people believe - no, that is untrue. If you had paid any attention (but you clearly had not), you would’ve noticed that Dazai never trusted Ango. The only person Dazai ever trusted was Oda (I am a Soukoku stan myself, do NOT kill me over this, I will talk about this in a different essay). Dazai doubted Ango’s loyalty to the Port Mafia from the beginning, because Dazai’s trust issues started way before that. Dazai has difficulty trusting others, and that is why he cannot form normal, healthy relationships.

Yes, it seems like people are forgetting this, too. Dazai is unable to form healthy relationships with those around him. When it came to Akutagawa, Dazai was an abuser. His relationship with Chuuya is too complicated to talk about in this essay, but it is safe to say it’s not the healthiest relationship in anime. And for anyone saying: but you said that Dazai became a good mentor for Atsushi!!, shut up. Dazai still takes advantage of Atsushi. Same with Kunikida. Dazai is unable to have healthy relationships - he was abused, neglected, you name it. (And before anyone says that I think that abused people are horrible, it is not true. But if you continue the abuse cycle, that is a very different story.)

Does this mean you can’t pity him for it? Absolutely not. Because it is sad - all the things Dazai went through were tough and shaped him into who he is today. But that person is fucked up. That person is flawed and did horrible things in the past (and present). Because just because you switch sides, it doesn’t automatically make you a good person.

Is Dazai doing good things? Yes. Is he a good person? Fuck no.

You can pity him. You can hate Mori and blame him for everything. But it is still not an excuse.

The main point is that Dazai is an amazing character. He doesn’t hide behind this wall created by good deeds. He doesn’t try to convince others he is a good person. He is a fucked up, flawed, manipulative man who had a horrible past. And that’s what makes him such a great character. Not the mischaracterization, but the canon version of Dazai.