#and my headache is killing me
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pebiejeebies Ā· 1 year ago
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Soo I wanna talk about my (possibly) chronic illness, because Iā€™m so tired of this.
My reason to self diagnose: I have to self diagnose, my dad doesnā€™t believe in ā€œdisorders and disabilities (specifically ones like chronic illness, he normalized it in such a horrific way, it made me feel like I was an odd one out when I realized how healthy everyone else is)ā€ *please donā€™t hate him, we donā€™t have money for much things anyways, itā€™s fine*
If you hate self diagnosis, just leave and spare both of us,
For now I wanna talk about what makes me feel like I have chronic illness, and that is literally being sick, Iā€™ll be generally talking about everything painful/tiring that has been affecting me for over a year now..
TW: Mentions self harm/hate, gore, of gag/spit/vomit, dizziness, unease, etc. if you are sensitive to this topic please read at your own risk,,
Letā€™s start, so lately ive been accidentally swallowing mucus, all day, all night, to the point I have to breathe from my mouth, which COMPLETELY destroys my smell and taste. Especially when I get the common cold..
Barely any mucus comes from my nose, itā€™s almost ALWAYS my throat and saliva, to the point I started to think my saliva and mucus have been completely combined now. Like.. literally.
my breath always stinks, minty tastes really sucks and I hate toothpaste, I hate the mint and the texture, Iā€™ve tried some things like these little bottles of meds for the cold, but they NEVER worked.
I almost always have a headache, my heartbeat has went from my normal 60/70bpm to 90/120 min/max.. and I always get voice changes, sometimes too deep, sometimes too high, and sometimes I lose my voice.
AND YOU KNOW WHATS FUNNY?! I LOVE SINGING. ITS LITERALLY MY SPECIALTY, MY ONLY TALENT THAT I CAN DO WITHOUT ABANDONING IT LIKE THE REST OF MY FAILED TALENTS, AND IT FUCKING SUCKS SO MUCH WHEN MY VOICE CHANGES.
Iā€™m sorry.
back to my point, when I cry, I feel like my mucus explodes from everywhere, my throat, nose, eyes, and when I blow my nose too hard it hurts my ears for a while.
Iā€™m so tired, I can barely run, I donā€™t wanna say I have asthma, but maybe Iā€™m just not energetic and lazy.. or something.. and I CANT. I repeat.. I CANT. SLEEP.
Itā€™s almost physically impossible (unless I stay up for too long to the point I slowly faint to sleep, which has been normal now for me)
did I mention my constipation? (Maybe this isnā€™t related, Iā€™m just curious what makes someone chronically ill, especially since Iā€™ve had constipation for around a year now)
I canā€™t sleep, smell, sing, cry (I hate crying so much, itā€™s become so terrifying and horrible) laugh, (cause all the mucus chokes me and makes me gag and almost vomit.
oh how I wish I could just rip out my throat and replace my nose and throat for a working one. How I wish I could breathe normally, to smell, to sing properly, to walk properly without my legs hurting or straining, to laugh and cry without choking and gagging, spitting mucus in the bathroom for what seems like 30 minutes, to think properly without a headache, to feel NORMAL again. Itā€™s been a year or two now. Cant I just feel like a normal person again?
God why do I turn everything into a fucking vent.
Edit: does this mean I am chronically ill?
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lovelooksgudonu Ā· 2 months ago
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quick Vi doodle, i have no excuse idk how to draw her tattoos
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turrondeluxe Ā· 1 year ago
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psychojetcocktail Ā· 2 months ago
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He is literally me
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notsosecretlyalesbian Ā· 2 years ago
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"At a time when my life felt scattered and incomplete, the fantasy world of The Parent Trap, and the warm and maternal presence of Chessy, provided me with a dream of gluing the pieces of it together. The film, though not explicitly queer, still provides a sort of utopia of queer acceptance, connection and love.Ā [...] Some days I still think that maybe all I need is a hug from Lisa Ann Walter and I will be all right." - Michael Elias (x)
Lisa Ann Walter as Chessy in The Parent Trap (1998)
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conchiferrous Ā· 1 year ago
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enies lobby
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ttvck Ā· 10 days ago
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ok. all i could manage today. falls over
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redthemarten Ā· 2 months ago
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This was fun!
(also don't get me wrong, electro characters are super OK. It's just that somehow I don't feel like there's one that quite does it for me yet, you know;;; it felt wrong to put just anyone along my other #1s)
Template from here <3
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k1tty5 Ā· 2 months ago
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eeueueuggh
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nell0-0 Ā· 3 months ago
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Some people really shouldn't be allowed to drive. Someone hit me with the car from behind so back to feeling shitty I go (so tired of this istg)
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tevintersnakes Ā· 5 months ago
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[ 7/100 Melee ] [ 1 STR ] 16 Strikes.
Congratulations Mr. Sallow for your promotion to the top of Dr. Antyllus' shit list! He promises to study up on this bloodthirst thing you've recommended and come back in 30 more levels.
Here's a short drabble.
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pastellguts Ā· 10 months ago
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haven't drawn lesbians lately. I hope you'll forgive me lesbians
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bacchuschucklefuck Ā· 6 months ago
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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chakotaybodypillow Ā· 3 months ago
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Was trying to figure out some of the prodigy time traveling by visualizing itā€¦.
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and realized I sounded familiarā€¦..
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It was only a matter of time before I turned into this crazy bastard
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fiveredlights Ā· 4 months ago
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Is there a lil sneak peek of Old Habits Die Screaming you could share with us? I so can't wait for the next chapter!
you may have a little sneak peek šŸ«¶
ā€œYou thought about me?ā€ Max asks quietly.
He pushes himself off where heā€™s been resting on Maxā€™s chest, the warm summer air filling the gaps where he used to be. Daniel watches as the corner of Maxā€™s lips pull down, brows furrowing, before he manoeuvres Max to lay on top of him, his head resting in between the crook of Danielā€™s neck and shoulder.
A tiny, miniscule part of his brain is screaming at him to run, probably planted from the years of scars grown from overattachment. His teeth burrow under the skin of everyone heā€™s ever loved before theyā€™re ripped out by his own hand.
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yeonbam Ā· 10 days ago
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