#and maybe progesterone

[sirnica]

God's weakest solider strikes again.

We went out and she hugged me and I kissed her cheek and played with her hair and we held hands.

And then my blood sugar plummeted and not even cotton candy or a full meal could get it back. I feel like a corpse and I don't know how I got home (we were biking).

I am being both a "cool girl" and a "nice guy" so this will probably end in disaster, but I really wanted to cuddle and watch a movie with her 😭

[avesblues2]

The supplements I'm taking I think are helping I've been feeling really good. The book Healing Endo I've been studying has so much valuable information. I have an appt in two weeks with a new OB recommended by my endo specialist who is going to come up with a protocol for me, probably do some medicated cycles before looking into IVF. 🤞🏼

[musicalsiphonophore]

my uterus hates me so much this month. my period is literally twice as heavy as it usually is on day 2. like wtf

[natjennie]

took my meds yesterday and today. slept like shit. nauseous. starting to notice a connection.

[male2mutt]

i cqnt stop thinking about coming in on like april 2nd at my first job and getting told off by a coworker for not wearing blue for autism awareness motnh n i just said i guess im exempt bein autistic n all and he just went "what? no you arent" yea yr right im not autistic i just pretend to be to pull bitches who collect rocks and bark. [is a bitch who collects rocks and barks]

[godbroccoli]

my birth control is making me feel like i'm off my meds god i hate having feelings i'm such a little bitch

[whentherewerebicycles]

wedding was wonderful but I’m very happy to be curled up in bed with the dogs now listening to the rain and finishing a novel. I give myself full permission to be a hermit all afternoon and then I think I’ll hang out and cook with my sister tonight. tomorrow I get bloodwork done in the morning and then will probably have a busy social day with liz + sam which is good as it’ll prevent me from being glued to my phone waiting for the results. at this point I don’t even know how to feel. I’ve read enough journal articles and forum posts to know that the odds are against me but that there is a small chance I’ll be one of the lucky ones whose body just follows a different course than your average pregnancy. I’m expecting to learn that I’m going to miscarry but obviously hoping against hope that I don’t… and also hoping, in a more clear-eyed realist sort of way, that if it has to happen it’s via miscarriage rather than an ectopic pregnancy, and that the process itself doesn’t take too long (so I can start again this summer instead of having to wait weeks or months). but ah well—I need to settle back into waiting mode, as I probably won’t get the test results back until tuesday morning and can’t change anything or make anything happen by obsessively googling in the meantime.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[jennjnee]

I had a dream about an immediacy ritual that I wanted to write down before I forgot it. It requires two sighted people and an Important Pointed Object, like a neat stick or a cool long rock or a crystal that doesn't mind being dropped. The ritual works like this:

First: the two people decide why the ritual is being performed, whether it's to Find a Solution, Connect with your Surroundings, or to Know each other Better.

Second: whoever has the Important Pointed Object drops it on the ground.

Third: each person sits/stands/otherwise positions themself on either side of the Important Pointed Object.

Fourth: the person for whom the Important Pointed Object points Left looks over the Left shoulder of their ritual partner and finds a question in the environment behind them, whatever catches their attention most deeply. The question can be anything, but it needs to come from what they see in that moment and not any preconceived ideas.

Fifth: the person for whom the Important Pointed Object points Right repeats the question as exactly as they can, then looks over the Right shoulder of their ritual partner and describes in as much detail as they are willing something that catches their attention. There is no need to be constrained to physical details; they can take their description anywhere, like how that thing makes them feel or what it free-associates them into thinking about.

Sixth: the pair may sit in silence to think about how the description answers the question, or they may discuss it aloud and come to a conclusion together, or some combination.

Seventh: once they've finished pondering the pair of exchanges, they may either rotate the Important Pointed Object 180 degrees and repeat the process, or pick up the Important Pointed Object and move on. Either way, the original question has been answered and is to be left behind.

I just dreamt this last night, though it's so simple I'd be shocked if it (or something very similar) doesn't already exist in some form, especially since dreams are reflections of our fragmented waking memories, and I'd love to hear about where it came from if so. If you try this, please let me know how it went!

[queerbeverage]

Love how my libido is either Hold me down and breed me six times while having a vibe on me OR Do not touch me.

Really love that.

/s

[the-silent-hashira]

having PMDD is probably the worst thing i can think of that i have because everything else will be FINE and then i spend a week wondering why reality is so wonky and why i cant sleep and im reminded afab bodies are literally just. fucking SHIT

[fair-and-claire]

2 years hrt today

[fairy-goth-mommy]

Watching movies with excessive blood and injury detail because I'm horny

[animalcuckllective]

I'm on so many medications and hormones it's crazy. My doctors don't want me to stop using birth control because it turns out I don't make enough progesterone. Can't go off any psychiatric meds ever because whenever I do I have a mental crisis. This shit sucks, why can't my body do this the right way?

[windrunner]

Sylvanas hoodie confirmed for Oct 6th... my little treat after two horrific days in a row (apartment inspection which I will be alone in the house for and doctors appointment in which I have to see how I can get the hormones my body refuses to regulate)

[dragons-hoarde]

tag dump heads up it’s a little bit of a mess