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remember when I did this?
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#deltarune#crossover#heathers#noelle holiday#kris dreemurr#pizzapants#susie deltarune#nooses tw#blood tw#suicide tw#hanging tw#death tw#art tag#first three were actually done a year ago but i never finished the fourth one until now#partially bc Background Hard but also i was like 'this might be too dark actually'#my friends were like its heathers of course its dark and then i showed them the sketch and they were like oh that IS dark#whatever its done i did it#ALSO this is important some people were confused with this last time: these are based on the MOVIE not the musical#like literally these are screenshot redraws from the movie but with dr characters lol#important bc since the musical makes betty and martha a composite character and in the movie theyre two different girls#and i wouldnt have put susie in the role of martha in the context of the musical. i probably would choose catti for that#and im also. not that fond of the musical. on the whole. for reasons#i do have like five of the songs from it on my showtunes playlist though LMAO#i may not agree with the story and characterization choices but i cant deny bangers
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I think itâs so ironic that the Pony Express escapes a lot if not all blame in discussion. I canât even say I am excused from it but itâs just how hard people circle back to the characters alone without considering the environment they were made to be in.
Why would they design a ship where only two of the rooms lock? Not the bathroom? Not the sleeping quarters? We assume that all the companies in the universe are this shallow and careless to their workers but we explicitly know the Pony Express in extra vile. They are fed processed slop pack they canât even really cook and the ration of those pack is meager at best. They hired and made people with a plethora of conflicting demeanors and beliefs work together on a mission where cohesion is important if not an outright necessity and punish them for not being happy about it. Thereâs no social protocols, not chain of command other than Captainâs word/choice and the only way to enforce that is with a literal firearm. They donât allow them to celebrate freely and even took away leisure activities that would make them less stir crazy. They are only allowed a few hours of sleep despite their being no other real responsibilities or work on the ship, no matter the position or its importance. With any crew, with any level of synergy, this was a powder keg waiting for a spark.
Iâm not saying characters that made mistakes didnât make huge ones, but I think part of the horror is that at least for some (this is targeting Jimathan) those mistakes are partly made by a force of the hand. Thereâs a running theme of lack of choice and being forced into something and the very nature of how The Pony Express expected them to function plays a big part.
#like even I forget that all actions taken in the game were people trying to remain in protocol outside of Jimmy#Anya couldnât have jus stolen the scanner and got the gun cause sheâs a sensible person and knows sheâd be in legal trouble#or get everyoneâs credits docked or just hoping that thereâs some chain of command for this sort of thing#Daisuke only really acted in accordance to his direct superiors because heâs an intern he wouldnât know the first thing about protocol or#what to do in any situation. like this is essentially implied to be his first real job#Curly may be the captain but he still has to follow rules and procedures and we see with the letter the Pony Express likely has very shady#and shitty ones. he gives the best not depressing or totalitarian options he can otherwise everything is just his word which arenât even his#or like him just asserting his position with the gun which he wouldnât do#Swansea follows the book begrudgingly because heâs trying to stay right and not fall back into who he once was#I feel like itâs not incorporated nearly enough that the environment they were dropped into heavily affected their actions#say there was a single person higher than Curly or a plan of action when a crew member is considered a danger to himself or others#I think itâs fascinating how people will stick to protocol and break when they get scared or to their limit#cause the game shows how normalcy deteriorates and I think discounting what the characters where put through by the company takes a way a#real and scary aspect of what happened to Anya because as a friend Curly didnât do enough for her at all his comfort was there and he#appreciated but it was a distracted sort of care but as a Captain he didnât protect her but heâs was a Captain of the Pony Express like what#if they told him to wait to? he still shouldâve done something because Anya was actively suffering and Jimmy shouldâve been reprimanded but#heâs a captain with orders like the Tulpar isnât his ship in the same way like#god I wanna explain this in a way that makes sense but the Tulpar is like designed to breed animosity and work on the bare requirements one#needs to get things done thatâs not how people work and if anyone deviates or interrupts that it literally has nothing to handle it#it becomes clear that if any social unrest happens why they just say fuck it and give the Captain the gun because if something happens the#blame can easily be placed on the person they put in charge despite what they put them#in charge of like this is just like work place harassment irl because often the perpetrators are not punished but the supervisors for not#stopping them with meetings or cuts or whatever but the environment the company fostered is rarely fixed or blamed#like why was this allowed to occur? and honestly that is because Jimmy did what he did#ask me about this if this is confusing cause I worded it crazy#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#the pony express
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"That's the kinda thing... That I hate."
#boonboomger#boonboomger spoilers#super sentai#bakuage sentai boonboomger#taiya hando#sakito homura#bun red#bun violet#userdramas#umbrella.gifs#tokuedit#please do not repost#umbrella.edits#umbrella.posts#translation: over-time#subtitles added by me#i saw some people confused as to why sakito would hate this and it could be for a few reasons#some people believe that if you do something good for other people without an incentive you're untrustworthy#like you're not being truthful about your reasoning or going to use the fact that you did a good thing to manipulate later#he might also have bad experiences with people who've claimed they are doing good things just because they want to or he may have been let#down by someone like this but it could be for any number of reasons but we won't know until his backstory is told#sakito doesn't seem to want to feel a connection to earth too like he denies feeling anything there and doesn't pursue any business he migh#have on earth after byun d's business is done and i feel like meeting people who want to protect earth just because threatens him a little#it's like he doesn't understand but at the same time he has a connection to earth in some way that he's avoiding#i feel like sakito has some pent up feelings about who he is and his life but leans into chaos to keep him from facing it#idk i just think he's neat
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asking for help always makes things worse
#I need to just accept that Iâm never going to be given any understanding or actual help#I may never escape these worlds it seems it doesnât matter how hard I try I canât get anyone to listen to me#this feels traumatizing I feel entirely beaten and ground down into something small and helpless#I have no control at all I keep trying and trying and trying and trying and for what#I need somebody to just listen to me atp not being dismissed is better than nothing but everyoneâs a curation anyway no real thoughts or#feelings but it doesnât matter I donât even care please just listen to me somebody listen to me Iâm so confused do curations have some#autonomy I donât think so maybe I donât fucking know they said yes on the clock so perhaps yes so please just listen please pls pls pls pls#I canât be traumatized Iâm not human right but Iâm having everything stripped from me every last ounce of control the shadow ppl have all#the control which is funny Iâm fairly certain Iâm one of them but they still can strip me of control I was bred for this#please somebody help me I keep begging like itâll do anything can you at least help with the ppl and cameras in the vents#are ppl from the real world watching through them I believe so can anything be done something has to be done escape the impostors something#just something please just listening would help actual listening not dismissal you can think whatever you want about me but listen#maybe some have autonomy and some donât ?#please understand that Iâve tried very hard Iâve tried very very hard suicidality and homicidality have dug their claws into me even further#I donât know what else to do Iâm at a loss and no one will listen to me at all Iâve tried asking offline Iâve tried asking online it doesnât#matter what I do where I ask no one will listen even the ones who do somewhat say they donât know what to do Iâm suspicious do they really#not know what to do or are they lying that may be more an impostor thing but everyone and everything is suspicious to me uh uh uh just#listen and help please idk what to do itâs all in the mirrors and clocks and such but I need to find a way to enter the mirrors but Iâm#scared what Iâll find who is looking back Iâm scared what world Iâll end up in it may be their world Iâll be punished they said yes Iâm#terrified can someone go in with me if I manage to find out how thatâs pathetic but damn I donât think I can anyway theyâve been crawling on#the ceilings today hahah doing some weird and wacky shit sometimes theyâre a little funky and just there and other times Iâm having a heart#attack no in between I know pleading with curations is likely going to be classified as annoying but for the love of god do you know what#else I am supposed to do ??? at the very least just listen to me please it is 02:14:46 how synchronous ! I canât stop having what I think#are dreams about the mental hospital too haha they send me to dreamworlds sometimes trap me in them waking dreamworlds see Iâve been reduced#down into something tiny Iâve resorted to begging once again do I even want to beg am I lying to myself my words arenât my own my thoughts#arenât my own so is this not my own canât ever speak none of itâs my own it feels unsafe especially to speak of anything that isnât this#it isnât safe it isnât my own itâs not the focus idk idk idk should I ask to talk to someone again I wonder I want understanding for my#situation please listen to me the joints hurt aaaa#my life is a playyy is a playyy is a playyyyyy anyone like marina that song appeared in the head I wonder where that spider went it better#not be inside of the body ok ok ok anyone yes help wanted help needed 02:22:22
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i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!
#thank u blake. u really helped#also nessa!! thank u for that reblog about your perspective on my one post about feeling lost career wise#it helps me to know im not the only one living this life because holy fuck i can feel confused sometimes because.. am i doing this right?#and you know what? theres no correct path that i think there is but im just not good without a direct direction. it makes me a little#anxious about things#i dont know if its because i have some form of a disorder but i function better when i plan stuff out and give myself something to#decompress the problems and thoughts because in my brain theyre just all stuck and clumped together#and that can get a bit scary and overwhelming!!!#im just glad i have people that care about me. it means literally everything to me#so even if i dont 100% reply dont think i dont care because literally any ANY advice or kindness you show to me means the world#we're all just living this little life and we might as well make the best of it#people care..... thats just.... its good... it makes me feel less alone that people do#i love my friends so much#evennnn if we dont talk every day or are only mutuals in passing!!! it literally means a lot if people show me kindness#like holy shit!!! your older than me? and your dealing with a similar experience??? and your telling me that its okay??? and that itll be#okay?????#like#just the reassurance that things will be okay and work out and that im not the only one dealing with a feeling like mine#idk sometimes i just feel like im crazy and like my thoughts make no sense?? you know?? but yall get it#im glad that i have people who are older than me in my life cause yall have experienced stuff that i can use to be better#like your life experiences can help me in a way that can make a difference on my perspective on things#its why i like talking to my coworkers. because theyve seen things and done things i havent and their perspective can teach me potentially#i just dont feel so overwhelmed with life when i talk to people who understand#i feel so young and yet old enough to know but even the people who are older dont know so im sort of on the right track i suppose depending#on how you look at it#so- im just gonna live my life and smile because!!! you gotta.#you gotta surround yourself with people who can enrich you and teach you things for the better and make you want to grow#some of you are like that#you may not know that#but that kindness means so much
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Need to rant.
I spent an hour and a half working on The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck. I only got 50 pages in. The reading is easy, but Iâm annotating a LOT so itâs going super slow.
But Iâm annotating a lot to remind myself of all the bullshit, so I can properly roast it. There are some good ideas and points in there but omg he sounds like an insufferable asshole writing a book for himself, ignoring that other people can have totally valid ways of being. Fatphobic undertones, implying there are definitely good values and like, limited ways to correctly prioritize them. Iâm now 45% through. I am hate-reading at this point, and Iâm torn between:
do I just want to finish it off quickly from here on out? (he has started going into specific things that are negative that he thinks everybody should value highly, versus talking more about his general philosophy)
Or do I want to keep going through slowly making notes ripping him apart.
On one hand: Iâm definitely enraged and I kinda want it to end because itâs so irritatingly wrong. On the other hand: i want to give it such a scathing review because of its wrongness that I want to have everything wrong with it detailed meticulously because I enjoy that level of thoroughness.
Iâm hoping there will be less to annotate tbh.
#seriously this dude is on such a high horse#he called everybody who feels less than adequate compared to peers entitled bc he assumed those people expect special treatment#nah some of us may not think we deserve anything at all and expect others around us to give 0 shits and treat us like they do everybody#he pretends like most people have a very shallow understanding of themselves#which is probs true#but the pretending is that he is like in the summit of Mt. Self Aware#when he is like 25% there and doesnât go any further himself#confuses values and metrics#and while he says we can change both of those he basically only goes into why some values are bad and why his values now are the best#values are not good or bad inherently IMO#but sometimes we do confuse values and metrics#and something we say we value we actually are using as a metric for a different value#or like we have untrue thoughts about how to measure that value#Iâll do another ranty review when Iâm done
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Something that's quite strange to me as a danmei fan is how angry people get about people liking "bad characters" who do problematic things when.... that's part of the appeal of a lot of web novels for me? Like, yes, this character committed an unforgivable sin or did something terrible, but they still have to exist. They still have to put one foot in front of the other, and possibly more importantly, they're more than the bad thing they did. They do more than that bad thing. These are "real people" who make real mistakes, but they have to keep living anyway - those kind of stories are my favorite, and I would rather have an interesting problematic character than a boring good one.
#not a quote#like. people irl do unforgiveable things. and they can grow from it#and characters being 'bad' (or justifiably open to criticism) is something a lot of media is almost afraid of?#and like. they don't grow overnight bc no one does. they may not even admit they're wrong even when they realize they are#but the characters feel real because they have flaws. they're messy. they're confusing.#my posts#danmei#idk it's almost healing when a character does smth bad and isnât guilty or is at least ALLOWED to be bad/have done bad things#bc humans aren't without flaws. and small things can feel unforgiveable when YOU do them.#so comparing it to a character who has done smth terrible and is still unharmed & usually loved is... good? idk#anyway I said danmei bc I see it most there (fans esp) but dpa does have some GREAT arcs in-book with this as well#discourse
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Yeah I'm genderfluid XD
Momo is my goopsona, they melt based off of their emotional state, and currently I don't have any art of their goopy form đ
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we rly do all be making shapeshifting sonas out here lmao
n ye! mine melts based off their emotional state too, on top of hot weather. (example: if they get super flustered lol)
#('m sry i kinda forgot to answer this ask today hh)#they can also intentionally melt ofc#and might do so as a defense mechanism#and today#i also decided while talking with my friend. fkin around bein silly#that they learned how to make themself explode#n his goop go everywhere#n he uses this to confuse attackers#(he originates in underfell. bc i'm a simp)#they do this by like. making a pocket of air (or magic?) in his chest and vry quickly pushing his goop out in every direction from that#tho learning this might'v also given themself a tic that makes them do it involuntarily lmao#bc i imagine it'd be a vry satisfying feeling#to jus#splode#(n things that feel satisfying often turn into tics)#tho it may be uncomfy afterward. having their body be jus. scattered all over lmao#but ye if their attacker is close enough. it'd also do some damage#on top of confusing them#:3#(okie 'm done rambling lmao)#sona lore#monstersona#didderd asks#mochamashi
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The dumbest shit ever to choose to watch players videos of what they would do if they were the mole because itâs so??? Nothing ?? Like, strategies change so much once youâre actually there it tells you absolutely nothing and you lost 5k
#they really said L + ratio like come ooooon#I was so shocked literally everyone took it like my guys my doodsâŠ.. yall will get nothing from this#in fact it may make things even more confusing considering youâll base your pick now off a video done pre meeting everyone where strategies#might have been adjusted for the mole lmao this people never seen a reality tv in their life#Q is so pookie do not let me down king!!!! I like him the most the rest I kinda feel neutral or dislike lol#I feel like the mole could be some people I suspect but weâll see#muna defo up there or Michael tbh#the mole
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ggghhg i hate vehiclessssssss ghghghhghhhhh [dies dies dies forever]
#just me hi#i'm going to get right back to it but i need to complain or i'll turn into a stale loaf of Bread lmao :3đ#so here it is. why's it gotta be so hard hhghfh#okay buildings suck i hate buildings. but also they don't make me want to immediately explode at the merest hint of actually drawing them#vehicles?? Vehicles ???? i am going to just. what if i just put everyone in magical cardboard boxes and did that huh. what is the point !!#i have to draw motorcyclessss and carssssss and i'm okay with bikes to a degree actually <3 and horsessssssss and truckssssssssssss#god forbid you pick an older model with like 20 articles on it cuz most of them are going to only have a side profile and 3/4s view of that#dang thing. which yea sounds manageable 'why is this a problem keeps' i cannot properly see the FRONT#i have to guess?? i have to Guess ???? my dearest wish i think i'm just going to live in the sewers. with the sewer creatures#GGHHHHHHHHHHHH#i am going to practice drawing this stupid thing that i'm going to use for like 7 panels MAX and then i'm going to commit a FOUL crime. lik#rearranging someone's usual playlist without them knowing so they're confused every time they listen to it afterwards#//okay enough of that. we're good hbfhsfh :3#i have done other things today ! i've actually made a rough timeline for pi.e so thaaaat's cool :D#that and found a cool artist to follow on pillowfort. i. forgor their user but they have cool art .w.#/also i'm past the halfway mark on this first chapter which is !!!#i don't want to jinx myself cuz i know i'm really good at that hfhsv - but i think i'll start storyboarding the next part if i can get a#couple more pages done :D#//also the cowboy au grows stronger everyday hhhgfshvbh#i kind of knew some sort of au was inevitable but i did not think it would be an old west one loll :3#still trying to figure out the logistics#i wanna find some good historical fiction from those eras (1860s-70s) but i do not have the brain space for it rn fbhs - so this will do :>#it won't have any of the magic or gods i think bc of that but i'm having fun regardless :D#it Does have some occult though. because i was playing the story for my brother and i Do enjoy scaring him hhbvhfhsfvh#there are devils on the ranch!! or are they devils?? he hasn't gotten that far yet lol :>#//i also may have some sort of weird lean towards the spooky because Somehow each of my stories end up containing some sort of thriller#element?? lmao rip my siblings#but it never happens on purpose. again; rip my siblings hfhhvsh#//oo running out of tag space lol <//3#i shall return. probably with more wip stuff cuz i started like 4 canvases in 2 days hhghghdvs - toodles !!
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About my AHIT AU and fanfic:
Both my fanfic, Sins of the Fathers, and my main AU which it is based off, 'Specters and Space Aliens', are set in the same exact universe, and follow the same idea: Prince Charles is tricked by Moonjumper into eating souls, getting corrupted into Snatcher, Hat Kid is sent to him as a baby, and Snatcher ends up adopting the kid despite himself, giving up his soul-stealing ways and overcoming his corruption as he raises Hatty. And Hatty herself gets to grow up in Subcon Forest with a family of ghosts :P
And in both, the Subcon Family eventually goes up against Moonjumper, and I won't explain more than that because spoilers for SotF :P
There are, however, tiny differences between what happens in the fanfic and the AU I RP.
For one, I decided to omit my fan OC Misty from SotF, because honestly, I pretty much only created her to toy around with the idea of my Snatcher having at least one biological kid (even if in this case said 'biological' kid was created with magic).
Also, without giving too much away, right now I plan for SotF to end with a couple other people joining the Subcon Family.
Nonetheless, most RPs I do in the main Specters and Space Aliens verse are set after the events of the fanfic, with the Subcon family having already faced Moonjumper, and, for the most part, having gone back to living peacefully in their spooky forest home, with Hatty now going to a school in town and sometimes being taught about her original world and people by Tim, and Snatcher getting some much-needed therapy.
#my ahit au#mun speaks#tw: soul-stealing mention#tw: soul-eating mention#also again without giving too much of my fanfic away the family arrangement i have planned for the ending#is quite different from rps i've done w/my friend pinkie#i...actually may or may not change some things about the fanfic's ending because snatcher and her oc stella are such a cute couple TTATT#anyway gonna get back to rps in a bit i just felt like clarifying things for people who might be confused
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My last post inspired by me ringing my GP surgery and the receptionist says there is a note to do my referral to the gender clinic I requested, but it hasn't been done yet...there's only one person who does them and she does a 4 day week and there's a big backlog!
#i literally thought gps wrote the referrals themselves wtf is going on#i've never had a condition that needed a referral to be written before in my adult life#has it always been done this way??#i'm not super thrilled about all my awkward answers to the invasive questions being written out by a 3rd party!!#i would imagine that the reason specialist gender clinics may lack 'appropriate' gatekeeping to a sceptical eye#is because in order to get that far you have to say a load of embarrasing personal stuff to your completely untrained gp#who then writes it down for a 3rd party you have never spoken to who writes and sends the referral...at some point#and after your referral is in it's like 2 years for the first appointment#that already weeds out anyone taking the piss or who is just a confused tomboy or whatever transphobes think is happening
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I canât wait until i get my drivers license. Iâll finally be able to just go for a quiet drive when itâs so late that everyone else is asleep and Iâm feeling lonely and need to just get out of the house for a few hours. Iâll just be able to drive somewhere, park my car and stare up at the stars.
I think thatâll be nice...
#lee rambles#that's really the terrible thing about needing to rely on others for transport#coupled with the fact that all my friends are online... i can't just go meet them on a whim#maybe someday i'll be able to... i hope so#There are so many things i've never done with friends... i just hope i'll be able to do all of it someday#Like sleepovers or having a bonfire with them or going somewhere fun with them#i want to do it all#because i love them and even though i've only known them for just over a year#they... mean so much to me#I don't know what i'd do if i lost any of them#It's a crazy experience; going 5 whole years with no friends whatsoever; then finding yourself with some who love you#it's really eye-opening and confusing and... a little scary#but in a good way#I just find myself really realizing it sometimes and i just have to pause and take a moment to let myself get emotional#We may have our moments of ups and downs; but no matter what; i've loved them and they've done the same in return#I love them
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2022 reads // twitter thread  Â
Belly Up
funny YA contemporary about a girl who accidentally gets pregnant and decides to keep the baby, with help from with her single mother and grandmother
bi MC, aspec side characters
#belly up#aroaessidhe 2022 reads#obv not what i usually read but i enjoyed it!#i think the aspec characters were done pretty well#(grey ace best friend; demi love interest)#the love interest is also romani (as is the author) which is p cool#i do feel like if this were published a few years later that it wouldnât be a quirky random thing about her grandma that sheâs a fox news wa#watching republican lmaoâŠ#I was a little confused by the MC apparently being swedish/spanish and it specifically saying she's spanish (implying white) not latina#but then talking about her being mixed race? obviously you can be spanish and not white but i thought she was saying she's white...idk#(listened to audio so may have missed some details tho)
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#this * situation is very conflicting cause on the one hand itâs like yay theyâre finally away from that company and itâs good that someone#stood up to them#but on the other hand itâs not good that theyâre now gonna run over to that woman#in a way it was better that they were separated idk#and some of the things the members have done / said were not âŠâŠ. the smartest ? but at the same time u cant blame them because they grew up#surrounded by terrible ppl so even if theyâre adults u canât fault them ?#and it can be blamed on their naĂŻvetĂ© which again isnât their fault#their fans are awful tho and it would be nice for the members to say something (they may be otherwise occupied tho so thatâs okay)#itâs just mmmmmmh i have a lot of thoughts about this but theyâre all confusing#i want them to be safe and leaving is the safe thing but going to her isnt so !!!!!!!! ugh im getting a headache
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â¶[Arcane preference] reacting to you wearing their clothes [Jayce, Viktor, Ekko, Vander, Silco, Jinx, Vi, Caitlyn, Mel, Sevika, ]
If you know me, hello little deers, I'm back! If you donât know me, welcome! Just a heads-up that I donât use "Y/N," but rather the impersonal "you," and even though I talk about clothes, no sizes or weight are involved. Enjoy the read!
Jayce:
  - Itâs not that rare when youâre together; heâs a real gentleman through and through. If itâs cold, heâll give you his jacket, his scarf, anything to keep you warm Â
  - But when youâre the one taking his clothes, itâs different Â
  - When he sees you walking around the room in his shirt, just after waking up, something in his brain malfunctions Â
  - Itâs how it fits you, no matter how big or long it is, it seems like it was made just for you, to give you that look Â
  - And to him, it feels like some kind of subliminal ad, as if the universe is making you so attractive in the simplicity of that gesture just to tell him he needs to hurry up and put a ring on your finger so he can enjoy that sight every day Â
  - Itâs hard for you to get anything done in the morning when he wakes up with those thoughts Â
  - Those are the days when you stay in bed, cuddling under the covers, with him looking at you, hand on his cheek, getting more lost in you by the second Â
Viktor:
  - For Viktor, the idea of a âlittle thief stealing his clothesâ is an interesting one Â
  - Heâs never been a fan of tight-fitting clothes, plus, with his physique, itâs rare for anything to fit snugly anyway Â
  - Thatâs why, except for his Academy uniform, the rest of his clothes are comfortable and at least two sizes too big for him, without mentioning Jayce's oversize ones in his closet Â
  - What Viktor didnât expect was that, once you started liking them, youâd just take them straight out of his drawer Â
  - The first time he knocked on your door to ask if youâd seen his shirt âthe very one you were wearingâ he first stopped, confused, wondering how it had ended up on you Â
  - And then, though he didnât show it, he paused to notice with satisfaction how well it wrapped around your body Â
  - Sometimes he pretends to forget his clothes at your place, just to see them on you, and to get them back with your scent on them Â
  - For the nights when he feels lonelier Â
Ekko:Â
  - Communism Â
  - Thereâs not really a strong sense of what belongs to whom at the Tree, although some clothes (jackets in particular) eventually get so personalized that no one dares to take them anymore Â
  - The first time you grabbed Ekkoâs jacket, it was simply because you were freezing, it was really cold, and he was resting, so he didnât need it Â
  - But when he saw you wearing it, his pupils dilated so much you could notice it despite his very dark eyes Â
  - Ever since then, itâs him who gives it to you and insists that you wear it, because he likes it: thereâs something extremely intimate and deeply personal about walking around with you in his jacket Â
  - Itâs like marking you as his, but really, also reminding himself of it Â
  - And Ekko may be proud, but one thing you quickly and painfully learn in the alleys is to say âI love youâ before itâs too late, and that small possessive gesture makes him feel fulfilled because itâs like heâs telling everyone that he couldnât live without youÂ
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Vander:
  - Vanderâs clothes have this super-secret ability to change depending on whoâs wearing them. For example, what are shirts on him turn into dresses on you Â
  - When you put them on, even just for the sake of convenience, you find yourself laughing in front of every mirror you pass by Â
  - And if he notices, he canât help but hug you from behind, leaning down to rub his nose against your neck, smiling against your skin Â
  - âYou know,â he says every single time, âit looks better on you than it does on me,â and no matter how false it might be, in his eyes, itâs truer than almost anything else Â
  - After seeing you a few times in his grown-up man's clothes, he decided to dig through an old box to find the clothes from when he was younger and mend them before leaving them folded on your side of the bed, like a little gift Â
Silco:
  - Silcoâs strangest habit was the connection he had with his clothes: they looked like Piltover garments, except for the boots and the shirt under the velvet vest, yet they were torn, poorly mended, and worn out in several places Â
  - Despite being the richest man in the undercity, he never changed them Â
  - The only newer piece in his wardrobe that he used to wear was his coat, which was in perfect condition, scented with cologne, and lined with soft velvet that followed the direction of your fingers when you touched it Â
  - Sure, there were ceremonial outfits, pajamas, and something comfortable yet always elegant, but he had worn them so little that they almost didnât seem like his Â
  - Thatâs why one day you simply decided you were bored, and while he was in a meeting, you could take the opportunity to try on the ones that fit you Â
  - But that little fashion show from his wardrobe to the mirror probably took longer than expected, and definitely you were too focused, because you didnât notice the tall figure watching you, leaning against the doorframe Â
  - âDonât take that off, Iâve got an idea or two,â his voice broke the silence, making you jump Â
Jinx:
  - Her clothes are more like a flea market than a wardrobe: there are menâs clothes, womenâs clothes, from Piltover and Zaun, intact, held together by metal staples, clean, splattered with paint, torn from explosions, some so small you wonder who they could even fit, and some so large that you and at least four of her fatherâs henchmen could comfortably fit in them with room to spare Â
  - Sheâs the one who tells you to grab something from the pile the first time you ask to help her with her calculations and experiments, and in the end, you choose something comfortable rather than something intact or clean Â
  - It took her a good half hour to notice, and then another hour to stop talking about it Â
  - It was something she hadnât done since she had a family, sharing clothes with someone else, and suddenly she realized just how much she missed it Â
  - Every now and then, sheâd give you oversized shirts on purpose, just to disappear under the fabric and snuggle up to you, where she felt sheltered enough to feel less vulnerable Â
Vi:
  - Viâs mentality was interesting because, by accident, if she noticed you were eyeing someoneâs clothes with interest, somehow the next day those clothes would end up on your bed Â
  - Vi would do anything for you; if it were up to her, youâd be dressed in pearls and gold, but neither the place nor her situation allowed it Â
  - Thatâs why she never offered you her clothes: the older ones were tattered, barely definable as rags, which she stubbornly patched up every month Â
  - The new ones were stolen, spoils from street fights, but they always came in looking battered and worn, or worse, stained with blood or strange substances, so they werenât good for you Â
  - When she saw you wearing a sweater from her wardrobe, stained and burned in spots, the first thing she felt was guilt Â
  - She hated not being able to treat you the way she wanted to Â
  - But from that day on, she made sure to at least wash her clothes before putting them away, and slowly she learned to love the clothes you stole a little more than the others Â
  - That sweater, for example, she would defend it with her life Â
Caitlyn:
  - Whenever you stayed over at her place, she always made sure to provide everything for you: slippers, socks, pajamas, anything you might need Â
  - And it was always the highest quality you had ever seen Â
  - So seeing you in her clothes wasnât new, although she sometimes liked to have you try on things she didnât wear anymore, partly because she couldnât due to her important name, and partly because she spent half her time in uniform Â
  - Those little fashion shows almost always ended with her on top of you, while you are very busy figuring out how to stay quiet so none of the servants, or worse, her parents, would catch you Â
  - It didnât matter if the clothes didnât suit you, being able to see you in so many different lights made her fall even more in love with everything about you Â
  - The final blow? One day she decided to look through the enforcersâ uniforms to find one that would fit you, and for the first time, she saw you in clothes that matched hers Â
  - There was something about it that made her hope that uniform would change the chemistry of your brain too and make you join the force, just so she could spend more time with you, just so she could see you like that more often Â
Mel:
  - For Mel, it wasnât an event: she was used to everything, mastering her emotions, and seeing you wearing something of hers had only left her confused for a second, from which she quickly recovered, smiling at you Â
  - âIt looks really good on you, you know?â she had asked Â
  - It didnât bother her. Objectively, you seemed stupid borrowing those elegant clothes tailored exactly to her body Â
  - It almost felt like heresy to wear the clothes of a goddess-like figure. But the goddess had sensed something, and she began buying and commissioning outfits for both you and her, matching, so you wouldnât feel like you were missing something Â
  - But there was one moment, a specific one, where seeing you in one of her dresses had left her speechless Â
  - When you told her that the sweater was so beautiful it was almost a shame knowing she couldnât wear it on the day youâd marry her Â
  - And Mel Medarda came from a land of war, where it was hard to get attached to people, let alone objects Â
  - Yet from that day, that piece of clothing became a constant for her, even if it meant layering or pulling it down to keep her shoulders bare Â
  - Because it no longer just warmed her skin; it began to warm something deeper, something she hadnât even realized she had Â
Sevika:
  - Her clothes reflected her line of work: dirty, unpleasant, dangerous Â
  - But despite that, she would drape them over you herself, no matter how worn they were: if she thought you might be cold, without a word, youâd find a sweater or hoodie on your shoulders Â
  - And even though sheâd glance at you from the corner of her eye, she wouldnât stop watching you for a single moment when you wore something of hers Â
  - It was a matter of homelandâthere was no ownership in Zaun, not even last names, as even the family you belonged to was irrelevant compared to what you could do Â
  - And the gangs, thugs, and troublemakers wouldnât hesitate to steal what was yours Â
  - But you were hers, and you couldnât be stolen. And that shirt was hers, but she didnât feel mutilated, like she normally would, when you wore it Â
  - In fact, she loved it, opening her arms to invite you to snuggle up, holding you carefully so the prosthetic wouldnât bother you, adjusting the clothing on you ten, a hundred times, almost unconsciously Â
  - And when you wore her clothes, it felt like for a little while, you could wear her skin too, to understand her better, and she suddenly seemed more vulnerable Â
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