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mmm not to be a solasmancer on main but im thinking about those few days after the Cole debacle if a solavellan Inquisitor encourages him to remain a spirit. just. Solas, watching her fret so much in the aftermath, terrified that she may have taken someone's choice away, worried that she influenced what Cole wanted somehow, watching her sheer relief and unbridled joy after Cole's, free and light and brimming with happy incredulity, "but you didn’t change, didn’t make me change. Thank you". He watches her, and thinks of Mythal. Thinks of devotion, and abuse. Regret. Thinks of Cole, and spirits and Wisdom and Pride- Thinks, wistfully, achingly, "in her hands, I might have been safe".
#i know the fandom (myself included) had already pretty solidly agreed on the Was a Spirit until Mythal made him an Elvhen thing#but having the canon confirmation and the heartbreaking dialog about it really just#makes a lot of Solas' past little moments in dai so much more poignant#i already have SO many emotions about the Spirit Cole path#like the follow up scene makes me cry almost every time and now!??#da:v#datv#da:v spoilers#datv spoilers#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#dragon age veilguard#dragon age veilguard spoilers#solas#solavellan#cole dai#ugh
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year of hell is everything i wish voyager was. resources being scarce. people dying. dire moments that force people to grow closer. intimate human connections based on shared traumatic experience. people literally going through hell thousands of lightyears away from home but finding comfort in the little things they still have. oh captain janeway we're really in it now
#i looove these episodes so much and i almost wish this were its own little miniseries i could follow#because the setup and antagonist are soo compelling. and the characters and performances are amazing#i really really love that moment where tuvok tries to shave and seven comes in and like... Its such an intimate moment of routine disrupted#by the dire situation and Ohhhh. Ohhhh#& also naturally janeway and tuvoks hug is so good it made me bawl a bit.#<- granted this is also because im sick and in bed and i'll cry at anything in the state im in but it counts#voyager liveblog
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SOMETHING JUST HEALED IN ME BECAUSE CHARLEY AND YURI KISSED AND IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND THIS IS GOING TO FUEL ME FOR MONTHS!!!!!!!!
#i was so sure they wouldn't anymore because the episode was almost over#BUT THEY DID AND I'M SO HAPPY I'M GONNA CRY#i'm gonna print out a picture of that kiss and put it on my wall right over my bed#i'm gonna DRAW that kiss#i'm gonna think about this all day tomorrow gosh this is my favorite thing#THANK YOU SCHOOL SPIRITS#now please keep them like that dont give me any shit okay they have to be happy by the end of this season or i will punch you in the throat#lea's random thoughts#charley school spirits#yuri school spirits#charley x yuri#school spirits spoilers#school spirits#like i don't think y'all get how important this kiss was to me#like i know that's maybe not too good being this emotionally dependent on a ship#but like i would have been fine tho still sad if they hadn't kissed#but i know how it is for gay ships especially in shows where the gay character is not the main character#or where the gay ship is not the main ship#so i was expecting to get literally nothing#my hopes were very hight up because school spirits honestly doesn't do a lot of the dumb stuff many other shows do#but i was still scared they were gonna ruin this beautiful ship (and i still am a little bit)#but currently they didn't they actually made something really amazing and so this is making me happy in a way i can't even describe
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Hey now! I’m your step-dad! Please dont be sad! Be! Brave!
Hey now! You’re a strong girl! Fight the whole world! Go! Slay!
You’re enough as you are. I’ll be watching you from the stars.
(Btw! Scary design HEAVILY inspired by this animatic by @topicaltropic that I’ve been watching on loop for like 2 days its soooooo good go check it out!)
#that stupid fucking smash mouth parody almost made me fucking CRY#will and Anthony need to be put down#my daughter#my little sunshine#light of my life#im so sorry baby#if terry doesnt come back me and Anthony are about to have beef#terry marlowe#terri marlowe#terry jr#terry stampler#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dungeons & daddies#normal oak#normal swallows oak garcia#thatsmy fucking daughter#she’s my little baby girl#scary marlowe#terry jr stampler#my art
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Say hello to Kipper! ;u; We just brought her home today.
#it's been almost a year since we lost Biscuit#and I didn't think I'd get another gray cat#but this little baby made me cry in the middle of petsmart#kitties#kitten
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this scene lives in my mind rent free because you can tell so clearly kraglin is uncomfortable, which, why wouldn’t he be when his people are under threat of total extermination?

yondu’s trinket obsession isn’t exactly helping, he’s just waiting to get back on the ship.
then yondu immediately goes into mocking the broker, clearly because he doesn’t give two shits about the man’s explanation, but…



my god. he was trying to cheer kraglin up. he knew it would suck being there and knew exactly what made him laugh and forget about The Horrors for a little bit.
#AUHHHH THEY MAKE ME SICK /POS#chat is it gay to mock a guy like an unruly child in order to make your husband forget about the horrors for a second#kragdu#yondu udonta#kraglin obfonteri#im not gonna lie to you this almost made me cry a little. marvel please more of these two. alive. happy. retired and living together.
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shout out to the very distinct feeling of 'oh god i'm going to become at least mildly annoying about this aren't i'. binging ds9 season 1 and i outright giggled at a very small mannerism julian did. got hyped when o'brien showed up. grinned widely at kira just Being There. felt the urge to yell and cheer and scream at the slightest hint of whump. the character dynamics and friendships are beginning to interweave like strings in a tapestry and i almost detonated upon realising this. uh oh.
#listen if you chuck any hint of found family or close friendships into a show ill go rabid#i can feel myself getting attached#i almost yelled and had to pause and take a second to stare at the ceiling#it is 2 in the morning#not equipped for rambling#ds9#star trek ds9#star trek#granted idk if im gonna feel the same soul crushing love for ds9 that i did for tos cause tos is my first love and it aches me to leave kir#however#i love you sisko.#deep space nine#julian bashir#miles o'brien#etcetera etcetera#theyre so SILLY theres so much tomfoolery i uovee themmm#for those interested (hello??) this post spawned because i watched julian tilt back and smile slightly awkwardly but kindly as an alien guy#got in his face and assessed him out of curiosity#and that small acting mannerism coupled with o'brien fucking Being There just made me go insane fsr#the way hes slightly blurred and in the background#theyre all just chilling on this starbase and theyre weaving together and it makes me want to cry a little#IM ON EPISODE FUCKING SIX
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i won't them soooouuu bad look at how cutes they aree
CAVEATS TO MY COMPLAINING lucy & yak is a super cool size inclusive and sustainable slow fashion brand so their prices are high for GOOD REASONS! let me be sad and poor aboput it anyways tho
#almost made this one unrebloggable but wahoo#my art tag#cus i like the little stupod me on there#LISTEN im knitting myself a sweater vest in chocolate coloured cashmerino yarn someone gifted me years ago. HOW GOOD WOULD IT LOOK WITH THI#crying pissing#my bemoanings
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this was so fucked btw. he was specifically going after tribbie and trinnon because trianne had all but exhausted her divine powers and was just a normal little girl at this point. but she was so desperate to save them that she managed to pull out one last burst of power, setting those last few embers of her soul ablaze and functionally killing herself. and she was just so small and so scared like she was losing more and more of her memories of being part of Tribios The Demigod so she probably just barely understood what was happening at this point...... she just wanted to save her sisters and her best friends. what the FUCK
#also tribbie explaining later how much 'see you tomorrow' means to her specifically#the world's greatest prophecy... the ultimate promise. such a small phrase but it's one that everyone pins their hopes and dreams onto#wishing for tomorrow to come and that they will get to be part of it...#but also Tomorrow can be a more distant future. or the afterlife#like it was initially told to her as a 'little' white lie by her mother sure but she doesn't see it that way#there's just a bigger Tomorrow that she has yet to make it to. but she will and her mother and trianne and all the others will wait for her#they'll fulfill their promises in a kinder place#and hopefully when it's time for her to leave too she can rest assured she played her part in securing a brighter future for the living too#UGH#I DON'T KNOW. I'M SO SAD. THIS ALMOST MADE ME CRY SO BAD#hsr spoilers
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I've been watching Hazbin Hotel in prime. Just watched episode 5 and I gotta ask
Why, oh, WHY DON'T I SEE MORE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT "MORE THAN ANYTHING" WHEN TALKING ABOUT THE HAZBIN HOTEL MUSIC???
Like I get it, the song before it "Hell's Greatest Dad" Is a bop reminiscent of other music from the era its parodying. I loved it.
BUT why are you only putting clips of that song when this MASTERPIECE comes a few minutes after

I honestly don't even know where to begin with this song. The visuals are beautiful, especially when we get moments like this where you can just see the absolute LOVE this man has for her daughter is so sweet and Heartwarming I just-

The voices are fenomenal but what else can you expect from the broadway talents of Erika Henningsen and Jeremy Jordan.
There is also the whole Symbolism with passing the baton to the next generation and stuff. I- I can't even get into the specifics right now Im too emotional.
But above all else THE LYRICS






ESPECIALLY THAT LAST ONE
"I'M GRATEFUL YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER/FATHER MORE THAN ANYTHING"
DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY?? CAUSE I AM. I AM BAWLING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW.
It's just so fucking beautiful man. Probably the best song I will hear all year. Obviously my favorite from Hazbin.
#Call me Sir Pentious cause Im crying like a baby over here.#WHY HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS GEM FROM ME. THIS ABSOLUTE DIAMOND#I didnt even mention lyrics like “I've been dying to find out who you are. looks like the apple doesnt fall far.”#“You are a part of who I am” “you are the only thing worth fighting for” that just BREAK ME#but oh well#BTW of course I was gonna watch and become obsessed with Hazbin Hotel. I am a theater kid that loves animation. It was like meant for me#could do with a little less obsenities but thats alright its a staple of the show#On another note I almost went insane when I found out lucifer was Jeremy Jordan.#Like its insane how that man always ends up in my obsessions. Newsies. Tangled the series. The Death Note Musical#(Im team L btw in death note but GOD Jeremy's singing made me reconsider for a milisecond in Where's the justice he is just THAT GOOD)#Erika I knew from the mean girls musical which I also deeply enjoy#its Insane the Talent this show brought in. my theater kid heart is ELATED#Last thing is I gotta say I LOVED Lucifer#Like I thought I was gonna hate him because everyone was talking about charlie's daddy issues#I thought he was gonna be neglectful and manipulative#BUT NO. He is a silly (little) father who just loves his daughter but doesnt know how to show it#And had DREAMS and AMBITION and fate in humanity. And he is just such a fun character to follow I had such a riot with this episode#Hazbin Hotel#charlie morningstar#lucifer morningstar#charlotte morningstar
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disco elysium update: i've started day 2, but i'm not particularly enjoying myself at the moment... i don't really know what to do or where to go, i feel like i have painted myself in a corner with failed checks and the only available options are ones i absolutely do not want to do. i find the mechanics confusing and overwhelming and i am feeling very discouraged that maybe if i had understood them better earlier, i would be getting somewhere. i want so badly to enjoy the story but it feels like it's going to take a lot of effort to like, get any of it :(((
HOWEVER i suspect that if i try again on a day i feel less headachey than today, and if i manage to find some kind of breakthrough that doesn't involve becoming a fascist, i will hopefully get back on track and feel a lot better about the game again. hopefully!!!!
#i think pentiment worked for my particular game brain a lot better#having to fiddle with stats stresses me out so much#i did look at the clipboard until i fainted so that was great#i haven't removed the corpse yet. turns out i need to internalize a thought and my thought cabinet was full#because i didn't know what the thought cabinet was and that it could get full and how i could unlock more space and it almost made me cry#BUT i have. unlocked a new thought space now and i will hopefully get to remove that corpse sometime soon and HOPEFULLY that gets me anywhe#so i don't just. run back and forth for hours achieving nothing at all!!!!!!#apologies to everyone who has been very excited for me to enjoy the game. i was enjoying it until i ran out of leads to follow#im a little bit worried it might not like. do for me what it's done for others. but im still early in#and i think. today was just not a good videogame day#i play disco following 2 rules. 1) don't be afraid to be cringe. 2) always listen to kim
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i'm gonna be the one insufferable bastard on this earth that liked everhood 2, huh
#my posts#everhood 2#everhood 2 spoilers#if i get right down to it. what did i want from this game?#well i wanted more BANGER music. i wanted to be overwhelmed and surprised and lost and to feel shrimp emotions on existential scale#did i get these things? well... yeah! i did actually! were they worth anything less in that moment for how it ended?#it was real to me in that moment. i remember these feelings. i remember them warmly. those little aliens destroyed me i tried so hard#and the world where i got the green weapon had me making the crying cat meme face#i burst out fucking laughing many times#they happened and they were real then so why not now?#and honestly what COULD you do with the narrative at that point? anything less than fundamentally radical would ring hollow#like you could do a traditional plot that functions correctly and moves characters along arcs. but is that REALLY what you wanted?#in EVERHOOD? In everhood. you wanted a normal plot structure. in everhood?#and what else could you have even done that wasnt in essence rehashing everhood 1? i think i liked it better than where it was ALMOST going#it felt like a fever dream to play. like watching alice in wonderland. shit just happens man. these stories are rare#we've made the euthanasia rollercoaster into a fractal. spiral tighter run faster reach higher yearn forever.#fall into the kaleidoscope and grab your popcorn to watch the infinite combinations of static on the screen#you were there. you felt things. you can draw anything out of nothing. you can send everything back to nothing. for the love of god make ar#any art. any quality. just something that was real to you in that moment and in so doing forever. if someone tells you youre doing it wrong#then you should explode with your mind and in your art and LAUGH#apathy's a tragedy and boredom is a crime anything and everything all of the time#(its fine to dislike it i just found it fascinating in a way which is often more interesting than ''good''.)#(i live for the intersection of absurdity and meaning)#also i felt closer to the companions in this game than EH 1 since you spent more time in them#also cmon we got time with the sexiest character in the foreign gnome universe. the pandering one for a CERTAIN demographic. w big assets.#THATS RIGHT IM TALKIN ABOUT IRVINE BAYBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!#you thought i was gonna say someone else? well tough shit. youre wrong.#anyway my main quibble with this game really was the english translation needed more time to cook for real
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"I told you I would always come for you. Why didn't you wait for me?" "Well, you were dead." "Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while." "I will doubt again." "There will never be a need."
True love! a bit ineffable, wouldn't you say?
I think that Good Omens is similar to The Princess Bride in that both are full of humor and maybe don't take themselves too seriously, but are also full of love <3
Happy Valentine's Day! Have a little silliness and a smooch!
more princess omens
#I DID IT#IT'S ALMOST 1AM BUT I FINISHED IT#pls say nice things only i'm not overly confident in this one#ESPECIALLY the first page#asjfldjf#also i kinda hate this formatting on tumblr but idk how to make it better#figured i'd make the kiss the big pic#ik westley and buttercup dont cry during their reunion#however it has always made me the softest i've ever been#and so i made these two cry like i want to when i watch it#just a little though#good omens#good omens fanart#princess omens#the princess bride#aziraphale#crowley#aziracrow#ineffable spouses#sara does art#as usual i changed the dialogue a bit so it's more ~them#srsly how does buttercup not cry when reunited with her presumed to be dead true love#obv i love the humor of her pushing him down the hill just to roll after him#but tbh i would've been screaming/crying/etc a lot more#anyway#happy valentine's day#<3#yelling as i hit post!
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i'm saying it. i don't think joly would work in a hospital. i think his medical career would be informed by his politics + radicalisation and his + his friends regular drug use, he would be outraged at how the medical industry handles drug users, also at the medical industrial complex in general, so he would find a reputable community led harm reduction organisation to work for 🫶🏻
#joly#it also works because the idea that modern les amis wouldn't all have a million jobs and volunteer roles in community organising#and you know... do direct community action to support people... instead of just little hypothetical meetings where they debate hypothetical#problems....#that idea is so bullshit and i know it's written by people who only have indoor people problems and don't realise most radicals actually do#things... but still it annoys me#and he would hate working in a hospital#not that the harm reduction work wouldn't be stressful and high intensity too but he would rather it for the love of community#also it wouldn't be hard because as a disabled person he would already be radicalised against doctors and medical industry in general#les amis#les mis#mine#i realise as a disabled drug using cane user i could#write joly really really well#the best joly scene is in world ain't ready where in one scene he's so excited for the battle of the bands dancing around yelling and stuff#then they pick him up and he's like 'tonight is a sitting night' URGH that's so real it almost made me cry#anyway joly feelings good morning
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I sent an angst ask about ace’s love language and i feel so bad after 2x15… heres some quick ace love
- ace is very ticklish and will often instinctively shield his belly if anyone gets too close
- ace will complain about you messing up his hair but he actually loves when someone plays with it. it soothes him
- ace got caught singing in the shower once and never again
- if you get close enough to ace to cuddle him, you’ll know he really trusts you if he ends up falling asleep
I love ace markey he still didnt do it in my heart trust guys trust
-🧡 (choosing a sign off because i love this blog- i also sent the insomniac charles and charwhit spanish ask)
:)
#I think all us Ace fans need this right now#these are so cute they almost made me stop crying haha.#nah but seriously thanks for these they made me feel a little better#drdt#drdt spoilers#ace markey#fluffy drdt headcanons
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Deep Cover: Initial Thoughts
Okay, this one is a lot to look at , especially given how relatively little is actually said. Still, I think I'm starting to make sense of it, so here's my analysis that I've figured out so far.
I'll be using @/oehale on Twitter's translation of Kotoko's voice drama Yonah. As usual, I'll be bolding my general topics/thoughts and moving forwards with that. Let's get started!
Kotoko sees herself as the new warden.
The most obvious comparison here is the mimicking of UNDERCOVER. Kotoko, like the original UNDERCOVER, has lyrics that start with "UNDER" and are followed by talking about the other prisoners. She also basically says as much to Es; they're working together now. They should work together to make the "right" Milgram.
It's pretty obvious that our little innocent deal with Kotoko has gone straight to her head. She now sees herself as part of the authority of the prison, and believes it's her role to give out the proper punishment for guilty verdicts. However...
Kotoko believes everyone in the prison (other than her) should be guilty.
This is pretty obvious based on those previously mentioned "UNDER" lines. They're all very critical. Notably, the ones that most clearly indicate this-- towards the end of the song-- only include the innocent prisoners, but she's made it pretty clear that she agrees the earlier guilties should have also been guilty.
“UNDER” Doltish “001 Parasite” “UNDER” Obscene “002 Slut” “UNDER” Incessant “004 Phony Queen” “UNDER” Doomed “005 Dissection Pawn” “UNDER” Concealing “007 Deceiver” “UNDER” Inept “011 Guard”
Even Es, the "inept guard," gets to face Kotoko's judgment! That line is interesting in conversation with the audio drama, which focuses on Kotoko calling Es weak because they've grown to like and have sympathy for the prisoners. Kotoko has come to view Es, someone who is willing to forgive the guilty (in her perception) prisoners, as being guilty as well for not condemning them.
(Also, 011? Are you implying that something will happen after the tenth? Am I right about a Trial 4 in which we'll vote on Es??)
Notably, for Kotoko, wanting everyone to be voted guilty basically means that she wants everyone else to die. In the intro to the second Trial, Kotoko said that she wouldn't go as easy next time, and Mahiru already nearly died this time around.
So ridiculous, isn’t it ridiculous They’re still here, still here, it grates me
This also definitely seems pretty "get everyone else out of here (kill them)" to me, especially given that it's shown after Kotoko smashes all the pieces representing the innocent prisoners as well.
The guilty ones were already broken earlier into the MV:
Futa's and Mahiru's were broken first; they've already been "broken" in the sense that they've been attacked. The other guilty prisoners go next, as they're Kotoko's next targets. Then, finally, the rest of the originally innocent prisoners, who Kotoko hopes will be voted guilty sooner rather than later.
This is also a small note, but I find it interesting that the line "I want a reason for judgment execution, I want it" was initially translated as "I need a good reason to give justice" in the Trial 2 Song Preview. The specific reference to execution was added/wasn't emphasized in the original version. I don't know what the "correct" direct translation is, but I always stand by the fact that if the translators chose to translate something in a certain way, it's intentional.
(Side note, but I wonder if UNDERCOVER's change in official lyrics to include all of the prisoners' Trial 1 song titles happened when they decided to mimic it in Deep Cover, which also includes the Trial 1 song titles. Could be a reason for the change in translation.)
And, uh... that's all I got. That I'm confident about, anyways. I still have other thoughts, though, so rather than me having bolded claims as section titles, I'm just gonna have, like... categories.
The Girl
You.
We've seen her before, in HARROW:
So, she's the one Kotoko rescued from this guy, right? That's what this seems to be telling us. However, there are a couple of important details to consider.
Where's her hat?
What about the girl in the white dress?
What about the girl in the pink shirt?
I'll get back to 1 in a bit.
The girl with the white dress in question only appears shortly in HARROW, and as far as I can tell, not at all in Deep Cover:
It could technically be the same girl, I guess, given that we can't see her face. However, then there's the pink shirt girl:
There's also still this thing from HARROW:
In my original HARROW theory, I theorized that the guy abducted Kotoko (the girl in the pink shirt), but the girl in the white dress distracted him/sacrificed herself long enough for Kotoko to get away. The memorial/potentially a police notification?/whatever the sign with the flowers is belongs to the white dress girl. Kotoko then later tracks down the guy who did it, when he's abducting the girl in orange. Kotoko then kills him.
Honestly, I think that this still tracks. We didn't really get anything else about the memorial, the girl in white or the girl in pink in this MV-- or the guy she killed, for that matter-- so there aren't any conflicts. I'll be moving forward assuming that that's true.
So, then, back to the orange girl. She isn't wearing the hat Kotoko gave her when we see her getting dragged off. What does that mean?
Establishing the Timeline
It seems most likely to me that most of Deep Cover happens after HARROW's murder. That's not just because the opening shot of Deep Cover looks like the end of HARROW. There's a lot more going into that.
First off, there's the girl. I initially thought that she might be Kotoko's sister, given the apparent familiarity Kotoko seems to show to her, rubbing her head in the park scene. However, once I remembered my initial theory, there are only really two possible interpretations I can think of for her involvement with the man Kotoko kills.
Either
She isn't at all related to Kotoko, and they "met" when Kotoko rescued her by killing the man, OR
She IS Kotoko's sister, in which case Kotoko probably used her as bait to lure out the guy in order to follow him back to his warehouse and kill him.
The second one was my initial read, but after looking at it longer, I think the first one makes more sense on the whole. If I'm right that the first thing that happens in the Deep Cover MV is the murder, that means that the park scene happens after it.
This isn't hard evidence or anything, but notably, the hat the girl has says "LUCKY" on it. If she's lucky, it probably means that she's lucky that she survived the situation with the man. It wouldn't be luck if she was planted there by Kotoko; it would only be luck if she happened to be the victim who's abduction lined up with Kotoko's rescue mission.
The park scene is still a little confusing to me if they were strangers, though. After all, Kotoko pretty pointedly ignores the girl at 2:06 to 2:19ish, and as far as I can tell, nothing major happened between the park and then.
There are three main explanations I can think of.
The first one is that the girl tried to stop her. Like, maybe she thought it was really cool when Kotoko rescued her, but when she realized Kotoko went to go threaten/possibly kill someone who, like, stole something from a business or something, she thought that was too much. This is pretty much entirely based upon the fact that the "Tell me why you tell me stop" lyric lines up suspiciously well with the change in the girl's expression from happiness to surprise, and then eventually what looks like fear.
The second one is that Kotoko is distracted at that point. In the park, we see Kotoko still looking at her phone, presumably looking for more wrongdoers. She spends time with the girl while simultaneously working, so it's no bother to her to spend time with the girl. However, when the girl tries to greet her later, she's in work mode. After passing the girl, we see Kotoko marching on forward with smoke (?) around her. It's very dramatic and she looks very threatening. It's even possible that she's doing a werewolf transformation type of thing there. If Kotoko has her sights set on a target, she might be more unwilling to waste time talking to the girl. This would signify that the people she rescues are irrelevant to her; her focus is on punishing wrongdoers, not checking in on saved would-be-victims.
The third one is that the park actually happened after the thing on the street, but given that she's already wearing the hat on the street scene, which she first wears in the park, that doesn't make a lot of sense.
I think the second option makes the most sense, so it's what I'll be going with.
So, the timeline looks like this:
Kotoko, as a child, is abducted by that one guy. She wears a pink shirt in the flashback. The girl in the white dress intercepts and allows Kotoko to escape. Years later, after becoming a vigilante, Kotoko tracks down the same guy and kills him, rescuing the orange outfit girl in the process.
The orange outfit girl finds Kotoko in the park and either receives or shows Kotoko the hat she got. Kotoko, while still looking at information for her next target, entertains her because she isn't actively busy.
The girl tries to approach Kotoko on the street. However, Kotoko is heading after her next target, and there's no time to lose. The expression of intensity and general coldness Kotoko gives off intimidates the girl, and Kotoko proceeds with her plans.
So, that's how Kotoko's murder works, right? There's absolutely nothing else related to time that could drive me insane!
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Becoming a Lunatic (The Moon Phases)
Okay, Kotoko's a werewolf, she attacks on the full moon, we all get it. Except... goddamn it, there's more moon than just the full moon.
As far as I can tell, there are three moon phases that are shown across HARROW and Deep Cover. The first one I'm talking about is the full moon.
The Full Moon
The wolf zone occurrence of the full moon in HARROW lines up with when she kills the guy, which makes sense. In Deep Cover, it's preceding the time where she smashes all of the remaining innocent prisoners. That hasn't happened yet.
Because moon cycles happen repeatedly, I think it's okay to say that the full moon happened in the past, when Kotoko killed the guy, and in the future, where Kotoko hopes to kill the other prisoners. It's even possible there's a full moon we didn't see when Kotoko attacked Mahiru and Futa.
Like, that's probably just a spotlight, but it definitely COULD be moonlight. Either way, we don't see the sky, so it at least isn't conclusively NOT a full moon then.
So, full moon = violence. What else?
The Waning Crescent
Disclaimer I know nothing about moons. I am working off of this chart from timeanddate.com. If it's wrong blame them, I can't find a better chart anywhere on the internet.
Notably, the waning crescent is what the moon is for pretty much all of HARROW, except the quick appearance of the full moon at the end. There are clearly visible shots of it around 1 minute and 2 minutes in.
I don't really know what specifically waning crescent is supposed to mean here. Google says that it's about change and reflection, but spoilers, that's what it also told me about the third moon phase that shows up, so I don't know how much stock to really put into that.
I think the most obvious (?) symbolism of it is that it's right before the new moon, when the light isn't shining at all. If I had to take a stab at what the new moon represented, I'd say it's times in which Kotoko is powerless. She's powerless when she's looking for information before the first murder, she's powerless when looking at her crossed out board (more on that later), and she's powerless now-- when we're going to vote. She can't give out justice without our help. This is the last part before we give our verdict on her, so as she's looking around at the other prisoners, innocent and guilty alike, she's preparing to be able to do nothing. She hopes she'll get back to that full moon and exact justice on the other prisoners, but that's only hypothetical for now.
Let's talk about that board really quickly. This is how it looks in the middle of Deep Cover, when the crescent shows up:
This is how it looks at both the beginning and end of HARROW:
This is another reason to believe that Deep Cover happens after the end of HARROW. After all, it'd be hard to un-black out the papers, and given that they're hanging in basically the same positions, it'd be surprising if they were replaced papers. So, that means that Kotoko blacks out her information sometime after she successfully kills the guy.
The scene with the blacked out board is immediately followed by the final moon phase, and then by the girl in orange in the park.
The Third Quarter Moon
The crescent moon on top of the board directly fades into this third quarter moon. This made sense to me until I saw the arrow on the moon phase chart telling me to read it counterclockwise. Then I was confused.
Because the third quarter moon happens immediately before the waning crescent, I think that this moon shift is meant to serve as a time rewind. The scene with the girl in the park (and therefore also, the girl on the street) happens before the scene with the blacked out board. This supports the idea that Kotoko ignored the girl because she was taking out a target; after that scene, all her targets are gone, so Kotoko can cross out the information about them on her wall.
This also checks out with the stuff with the girl in the park and on the street happening after Kotoko kills the guy, given that the third quarter moon comes a little bit after the full moon.
There's no occurrence of the third quarter moon in HARROW. However, it does actually show up one other time in Deep Cover.
At 2:28, the moon shows up in third quarter again, then transitioning to a pink full moon. I'd assume that this shift backwards in the moon cycle, as it did earlier, signifies turning back in time. However, the pink full moon refers to Kotoko killing all of the remaining Milgram prisoners, an event that's already in the future. What happens after the hypothetical future scenario of Kotoko killing everyone?
The answer is, Kotoko collapsing in the wreckage of the destruction she caused. She's in her warden outfit, so it's consistent. The scratch marks probably indicate that this is immediately after she turns back from being a werewolf, in the hypothetical pink full moon.
This indicates that, somewhere in her mind, Kotoko realizes that she might suffer from killing everyone else, collapsing under the weight. It does seem like Kotoko understands that being the one true savior is difficult.
K: I know it well. It's so hard to hold the responsibility of a guard all alone. I've also felt this way. You are such a kind person. You can't stand the prison changing with the power of your choices. So you need someone to be with. Leave all of the dirty work to me.
Even if she wants to present herself as someone who's crushed her own weakness, she still has to worry. The lyrics of the chorus are begging Es to give her her next target. If she doesn't have people to target, she doesn't have purpose. Her board is all blacked out; the guilty prisoners will be crushed. Once all that's said and done... what else is she going to do?
Conclusion
Anyways, that's my best shot at understanding this MV. It is... confusing. The main things I still don't understand across the two MVs are the many wolves with purple glowing eyes in HARROW and what the hell the pieces that represent the other prisoners in Deep Cover are. If they're not chess, then what are they???
oh wait lmao i forgot
VERDICT: GUILTY
We already knew this one.
I can't tell Kotoko that it's right to kill the rest of the prisoners, and she really needs to be restrained. I don't know exactly what the damage is gonna be to Kotoko's mental state, but for the safety of everyone else, I kinda have to. She makes fair points about us verbally torturing prisoners not being that different from physically harming them, but... we're at the very least not shooting to kill?? Like, if you kill them, there's no hope at redeeming them. That's what we're trying to do, even if the tactics Milgram gives us are less than ideal.
Anyways, tell me your thoughts and if any of this made sense! Happy end of Trial 2!
#milgram#ミルグラム#admin venus#kotoko yuzuriha#milgram theory#long post#5:43 am hell yeah#normal things#this mv did NOT make sense to me the first time that i watched it#like at all#the moon phases almost made me cry /srs#but i think i figured it out by the end!!#kotoko is such an interesting little creature#i want to study her#which i guess is what this post is doing lol#i should go to sleep
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