#and like i didn't even know wasted space was even gonna be on it cuz the original mix was nothing like this
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'Cause I don't know when to give up Every part of me is so numb I'm sending messages to the sky 'Cause it's really got me fucked up And I I'm falling down like a landslidе I'm calling on my last lifelinе
Oh no, I've got a hard time letting go So close but is it real or all for show?
#tunes#kingdom of giants#progressive metalcore#yeah this is just a really good direction for this band#still so uniquely KoG but like such a strong evolution to their sound#i dig it#overall very pleased with the ep#i was actually ready to be disappointed because asphalt and bloodworm were so underwhelming to me#like they were good but they weren't like wow KoG did it again y'know#and like i didn't even know wasted space was even gonna be on it cuz the original mix was nothing like this#cuz that one's one of my favorite KoG tracks period#but put together it's really cohesive and well done and i really enjoyed it#i'm really enjoying how bands are putting out albums and eps that feel like they're meant to be listened to whole#like these tracks that naturally flow together and sound better listened to in order than they do individually#instead of just throwing 12 vaguely similar sounding tracks on an album and calling it a day like metalcore sort of has a history of doing#the scene has evolved so much and i'm so here for it#Spotify
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To any of you Stolas stans who may have seen the post that I made-
And still wanna defend this hypocritical, waste of space, horndog, saying that he's just hurt that Blitzo didn't want to come and save him and "his death was on the line" yada yada,
#1
Blitzo wanted to be there for his daughter in a time of need. To be honest with you, I can't blame him for wanting to stick with his family than some imp-dick-obsessed bird with "Blitzy" on his mind all the time and can't even stick with his own family (Octavia).
#2
Stolas was calling Blitzo (Who's life was on the line) and coerced him into this sex deal, and Blitzo felt he had no other choice than to agree in order to end the conversation so he could get outta there alive (Honestly, if I were him though, I would've just hung up the phone and turned it off completely). He called him while he was IN DANGER and Blitzo could've gotten KILLED cuz of him. And before you say, "Stolas probably didn't know he was in danger." Stolas was watching him (or stalking him) through one of his bubbles. So he knew fully well it was terrible timing to call Blitzo, but did it anyway cuz he cares more about getting laid than the well-being of "the love of his life".
I don't care if y'all like Stolas, but if you're gonna stick up for him, consider his own actions first before coming at me.
#helluva boss criticism#helluva boss critique#helluva boss critical#helluva boss#critique#anti helluva boss#anti stolas#anti stolitz#stolas critical#stolas is a terrible character and you can't convince me otherwise#helluva boss stolas#stolas
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I'm back! And gonna talk more about Hickey! (Everyone's shocked i know shh shh shh!)
Gotta talk about the Billy scene!!! First of all, Dr. Goodsir giving up his sweet bedside manner cuz he hates these fuckers is soooooo funny. He's a bitch and i love him SO MUCH!
Second of all, i've seen people saying, one person at least, say it was a mercy killing. And i completely agree!!! I just also wanna talk about it cuz im having fun talking about shit.
So, the way Hickey immediately starts frowning when he sees Billy in the tent. And the way he KEEPS frowning almost the entire conversation. And even giving Goodsir that accusing look. Like it's HIS fault Billy is sick. Or like he's mad that he's telling Billy and himself that he's THAT sick.
But the way he's touches Billy's knee!!! The little gentle squeezes. And the way he puts his hand on Billy's chest when he tells him to be calm. And the way Billy is not being calms because he knows what's coming. He's lost his usefulness and he KNOWS that Hickey is gonna kill him.
But also, the way Hickey smiles at him is like, its not sinister. It looks like he's actually trying to comfort him. And the way he blinks so much. Hickey is upset. He's feeling feelings about Billy dying and he cannot have that. So he smiles, and pushes it down.
And then the way he fucking stomps across the little space to get his knife. It's like you can hear him thinking "he's dying. I can't let that happen. Wont watch it happen. So im just gonna get it over with. I'm just gonna kill him. Easy peasy."
But also like, the look he gives Goodsir when he's killing Billy. The way he just fucking stares and frowns at him. And he only starts frowning when Goodsir really starts fighting him. It's like he's thinking "why is he trying to stop me. Doesn't he understand that this is right? That it's what's best?"
Like he seems genuinely frustrated and confused that Goodsir is trying to stop him. And i think it's because at that point, for Hickey, in his mind, there's no other option or choice. They have to live. Billy is already dying. He can't watch Billy waste away and have feelings about that that make him weak. So Billy has to die. Right now. So that they can live.
It was a mercy killing. But for himself as well. So that he didn't have to watch Billy die. Which is of course in line with his selfish nature. But i still find the way he goes about it and the way he reacts to it, fascinating.
#he's my fascinating little rat man and i could watch him all day#i wanna study himmmmmmm#cornelius hickey#billy gibson#harry goodsir#the terror#mine
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REAL TALK 😭
BRO, CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE F*CK IS GOING ON IN THE TSAMS FANDOM??? 😭
DO SOME OF Y'ALL, ONLY SOME DON'T TWIST MY WORDS OR I'M GONNA TWIST YOU 😀 (/j!!), NOT REMEMBER THAT THIS IS ALL FICTION?? THAT THIS IS NOT REAL, JUST A GOOD SHOW ON A PLATFORM THAT EXISTS ON THE INTERNET??? YES, I'M OBSESSED WITH THIS SHOW BUT, LIKE, I STILL LIKE REALITY, TAKE BREAKS, HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY ESPECIALLY AND JUST LIVE MY LIFE, AND DON'T WANNA WASTE MY LIFE SITTING IN MY ROOM WITHOUT ANY GOOD REASON AND JUST SENDING HATE TO PEOPLE THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW JUST BECAUSE THEY DON'T LIKE SOME ARC OR SOME F*CKING FICTIONAL CHARACTER THAT LITERALLY DOESN'T EXIST?? 😭🙏 DO SOME OF YOU NOT HAVE HOBBIES, LIKE HOW ABOUT LITERALLY COOKING SOME FOOD INSTEAD OF THINKING YOU ARE SOME CHOSEN HERO BUT IN REALITY YOU COOK SO BADLY THAT GORDOM RAMSEY FAINTS AND THE KITCHEN IS ON FIRE??? 😐 CUZ NAH, YOU'RE NOT A HERO BY LITERALLY DAMAGING SOMEONE'S HEALTH, THAT'S SOME FUNKY WORLD CALLED CYBERBULLYING MY CHILDREN WHICH CAN DESTROY LIVES AND LEAD TO DEPRESSION AND NO IT'S NOT AS GIRLY AS TIKTOK MAKES IT SEEM TO BE 😍 Like for example I know I expressed my ✨complicated✨ relationship with Nexus BUT LIKE THE THING IS: I JUST DON'T LIKE HIS PERSONALITY AND DIDN'T SAY TO SOMEONE THEY SHOULD DIE JUST CUZ THEY LIKE HIM! IT'S SUBJECTIVE :'D AND SO SHOULD IT BE! You can express your opinions CUZ FREEDOM, BUT LIKE Y'ALL FREEDOM DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN SEND DEATH THREATS??? 😶 THAT'S WHERE THE FREEDOM STOPS FOR ME, IDC WHAT Y'ALL THINK CUZ FREEDOM IS ONLY GOOD AS LONG AS NO ONE'S HARMED 😭 AND SOME EXPLOIT THIS FREEDOM! SOME OF Y'ALL CAN'T REALIZE THAT THO AND USE IT AS AN EXCUSE 😐 Tbh, I have narcisstic tendencies (Yes I'm a real life anime villain ✨💃 /j) cuz I'm not perfect y'all, I KNOW SHOCKING (Joke :D), BUT SERIOUSLY I'M SHOCKED BY HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE SO ENTITLED LIKE IT'S BLOWING MY MIND AND THROWING IT INTO SPACE???😭 ARE 90% OF THIS FANDOM COCOMELON VIEWERS OR WHY ARE THEY ACTING LIKE INFANTS??? 😭 Cuz as Invisible Davis said that and SPIT THE FACTS AND MADE A DISSTRACK (Damn I AM A RAPPER XD): Y'ALL, WE ARE JUST WATCHING THE SHOW! THEY DON'T OWE US ANYTHING AND VICE VERCA! MIC DROP! WE DON'T KNOW THESE PEOPLE AND CAN'T JUDGE HOW THEY ARE IN REAL LIFE 😭
And different topic, and yes, it may sound harsh, BUT THERE 👏 DOES 👏 NOT 👏 EXIST 👏 A 👏 FRIENDSHIP 👏 BETWEEN 👏 MOST OF US 👏 AND 👏 THE 👏 VAs! And yes, I say most of us because I don't know ALL of you! And yes, the community and the VAs interact with each other, BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN WE ARE HOMIES WTF?? 😭 A FRIENDSHIP INCLUDES THAT BOTH PEOPLE WITHIN MENTIONED FRIENDSHIP KNOW EACH OTHER BUT EVEN IF WE KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT THEM, THEY DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MOST OF US 😭 NO, WE AREN'T BESTIES WITH THEM, AND WE MUST ACCEPT THIS FACT! BECAUSE SOME OF YOU ARE SO PARASOCIAL IT'S INSANE ARE WE IN THE BTS FANDOM??? (/j!)😭 Of course, we should have a healthy relationship or something like that, that's cool, BUT Y'ALL IT'S STILL A RELATIONSHIP BUILT UPON THE TWO ROLES OF CONSUMERS AND PROVIDERS, AND WE ARE THE ONES CONSUMING THE SHOW AND THEY ARE THE ONES PROVIDING THE SHOW 😭 Seriously, LIKE I DON'T SEE THE HUMAN EVOLUTION, I SOMETIMES THINK WE ARE STUCK IN THE STONE AGE AND WE'RE ALL JUST SMALL BABIES FRESH OUT OF THE WOMB WHO PLAY ADULTS😭🙏
LIKE Y'ALL EDUCATION SYSTEM FAILED SOME OF US 😐
But again, IT'S NOT DIRECTED TO ALL OF YOU! Some of y'all are the sweetest people and so nice and I'm sending fist-bumps to y'all, BUT SOME OF Y'ALL SHOULD REALLY LISTEN TO WHAT I JUST SAID 😃✋
#sun and moon show#tsams#the sun and moon show#sams#tsams fandom#tsams confession#tsams hate#tsams controversy
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Caroline:Hey, wyd.
carol I am normally your biggest fan, but respectfully... fuck off!
As she tried to swing her legs off Paige’s lap, Paige’s hands shot out, gently grabbing her legs and keeping them in place.
p is such a lover girl im crying
Caroline wasted no time, her voice direct. “So, is there any news on the Paige front?”
carol do you have a crush on Paige or something cuz b please shut up
“Because, Azzi, you’re not taking this seriously. Everything isn’t just about the ‘amazing’ sex you’re having.”
personally if I was having amazing sex w Paige Bueckers I would make everything about it
“Wait!” Caroline’s voice came quickly, stopping Azzi in her tracks. “I invited Josh here.”
sorry I must've heard you wrong...
Caroline gave her a pointed look. “No, you and Paige are hooking up.”
CAROLINE PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP
Caroline shifted uncomfortably, glancing at the floor. “I already kind of made arrangements���”
is it April first or some shit?
Caroline hesitated, then blurted out, “I already kinda told him you agreed and that you were excited to see him.”
is this bitch homophobic or smth...
Azzi’s eyes widened, and she let out a bitter laugh, bringing her fingers to the bridge of her nose. “What the fuck, Caroline? What is wrong with you?”
my thoughts exactly baby
Paige nodded without hesitation, already standing and tossing her controller on the couch. “Ice, do singles for a while,” she said, barely sparing her roommate a glance as she reached for Azzi’s hand.
she would drop her whole life and career for az
Josh doesn’t bother me.”
okay babe... you tell yourself that!
Ice didn’t look away from the screen, raising a lazy hand in acknowledgment. “Cool. Have fun. Don’t get arrested.”
I love ice sm you guys
Azzi caught her staring and raised an eyebrow, her lips curving into a playful smirk. “You’re really not even gonna try to be subtle about it, are you?”
i LIVE for down bad p
She settled comfortably in between Paige’s legs in the available seat, leaning back, her posture at ease as she claimed the space.
these fucking lesbians man (im a lesbian)
“Azzi I didn’t know you swung for the other team now,”
and I didn't my fist was gonna be swung onto your face but look at where we are now...
“I wouldn’t have let you wear something like that when we were together. Not that it’s my business, but, yeah, I’d definitely have said something before you left the house.”
you're right! it's not you business!
“How’d you get Azzi to flip sides?
quick! no one tell him that you don't chose to be gay, you just are. he seems like the type to not believe that
“So,” he started, his voice casual but his words pointed, “you must be pretty good at what you do to get Azzi.”
I mean like yeah but excuse you
“Wouldn’t have come all the way out here if I knew you were a dyke now.”
I audibly gasped at the dinner table sorry what
“she must be crazy in bed now if she’s got you reacting like this. I’d love to try her out again”
ok so I might actually have punched my phone screen...
Without missing a beat, she swung her fist at his jaw, the movement swift before anyone could stop her.
YES BABY YOU DEFEND YOUR GIRL LIKE THAT
Before Paige could respond, Caroline approached hesitantly, guilt etched across her face. "Azzi, I just wanted to say I’m sorry. For everything. For Josh and how—"
please go away mama carol.
Azzi laughed, shaking her head. "You can punch a 6’0 guy twice, but you’re scared of a little alcohol pad? You’re such a baby, Paige."
Paige being a softy is canon and you can't tell me its not
"So… what do I get for behaving today?"
me🧍♀️
Paige swallowed hard, her breath shaky as she finally managed to reply. "Still… average." Her voice cracked slightly, betraying her.
bitch be so fr
*the entire smut scene
OML OML OML I AM SO DOWN BAD FOR BOTH OF THEM I LITERALLY CANT ANYMORE THEYRE SO FINE ALSO I LOVE THAT PAIGE IS FINALLY GETTING SOME ACTION FOR HERSELF
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omg i need you guys to do more of these they’re great 😭
i lowkey hated making caroline the bad guy but it had to be her or nika and i PERSONALLY love nika a little too much for that
thank you 🍉 i needed this 🥺🫶🏼
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Is this a safe space? I got some whining to do.
Not just about the landlady and about how we're gonna be homeless again in a month. No, I got a bone to pick with Dave and I need to vent.
So... how did he fuck up this time, many of you may wonder?
1.) Christmas.
Dave didn't want a turkey or any of the usual Christmas dinner stuff we have. It's literally only the 2nd day a year where we have any of that shit, but he whined about not wanting to do extra work like at Thanksgiving... where he did no work at all. I literally sat in the kitchen with mom for hours. It was hot af, and tiring. In the end, he had to wash a couple plates but that was it. I'm the one who had to go back and forth fetching things, washing and re-washing pots and pans so mom could use them for something new, and stirring shit cuz she couldn't move.
He demanded seafood and stuffed shells for Christmas. Mom told him that shit would be too expensive for people like us. Besides, she would get paid on Dec 22nd, which meant it would be too late to get anything like that as shit would be cleared out. He had the money to get the stuff he wanted early, but decided Food Stamps should pay for most of it first and waited until Christmas Eve. Well, guess what?! Money finally comes in, he waits around, and when he finally goes shopping... there's barely anything left.
He had to buy frozen stuffed shells which were a bit cheaper than making them homemade, but they ended up being disgusting and no one liked the filling which tasted rancid af. So, he left them on the counter for like 10 hours and never touched them. Then bitched cuz no one, not even him, ate them and they sat out all night and had to be thrown out. He managed to get some kind of mini shrimp platter which was basically 28-30 small shrimp around a small container of cocktail sauce. Finally, he had to spend his own actually money to go to some small seafood shop somewhere and get some clams which were expensive as well. We each got like 6 of the world's smallest ass clams ever.
Basically, there was nothing of actual substance for dinner and we all ate mom's pasta salad which was gone in a single sitting.
Then, he wanted pumpkin pie, lemon meringue pie, and some other pie. Mom told him she wasn't making him jack shit cuz he's the only one who likes pumpkin pie in this house, and she made him one just for him at Thanksgiving... and his ass never ate any of it. In fact, he claimed it made him sick(which was him hiding the fact that he'd gotten himself fast food earlier that day, when he knows grease and oil on french fries make him sick). Bethy narked on him wasting money on Thanksgiving Day when we were already making dinner, and he stuck to his claims and ended up leaving that pie to sit in the fridge on the top shelf and never touched it. He got himself fast food a couple days later and... got sick again. And mom was like, "Let me guess... the ice cream made you sick so now you won't need to touch it and the rest of us can have it?" And he threw a fit.
Dave had to buy his precious pie for himself... And refused to fucking read direction so guess what? He left it in too long and burned it. Mom had placed a special order for quick delivery and got the rest of us different pies to share so everyone would get something for dessert. They just ended up being mostly whipped cream and a slight hint of flavor and were lame af tho. I was especially mad cuz she informed everyone of who got what and Dave literally went right behind everyone's backs and took like a quarter of each of the other pies in one sitting and left his burnt as one on the table for days.
2.) Landlady's Possessions
Some may recall me mentioning how in our first 2 weeks here, Dave managed to break the tempered glass stove top and tried to hide it? Well, not only has he not replaced that after finally coming clean about it and claiming it would be and easy replacement to handle, but he also broke the handle to the landlady's washer/dryer set, and the faucet in the bathroom sink which is why we haven't been able to wash our hands there this whole time. We've gotten use the shower to the kitchen sink if cleanliness is truly so important.
Mom ended up having to place the dryer handle the other night. Dave still won't mention the stove top though. He claims he can fix the faucet but won't acknowledge how if he doesn't fix the stove top, he's not getting the last month's rent and security back(which would be about $2,600). The house will NOT be as it was when he moved it because of HIM and that WILL be $2,600 down the drain. So, despite all that bitching, he's doing nothing as per usual.
3.) Waste
He's still wasting food. The first point should have gotten that across pretty well but it goes beyond.
I made pasta 2 nights ago. We had alfredo sauce, and I had some cans of chicken I was hiding away for a just such an occasion to spruce it up, yk? It took like half an hour, but it was done right as they walked in the door at 6 PM. I got mom and I some food, Bethy got her own food, and then we ate.
His ass never ate dinner. In fact, he got on the phone to whoever the fuck to bitch about how tired he was of not getting to eat full meals. Rigatoni in chicken and alfredo sauce was sitting in a massive pot int he kitchen, and his ass wouldn't touch it. Same as usual. There was enough for him but when I went out, he didn't touch it even after hours, so I had to put it away.
He never puts the food away, no matter who makes it. I often go into the kitchen at midnight to find all of dinner left everywhere. Much has gone to waste even because he won't fucking help.
So today, mom was supposed to make stuffed peppers. She got all the shit for it, but Dave suddenly whines and bitches, like he's never had them before and doesn't know how they're made, "What's in them?" Mom explains slowly cuz he's that fucking dumb. "I don't want tomato sauce, I'll get heartburn!" "We've always had them that way, and you've always had heartburn, yet you never complained before." "Well, I don't want it now! I'm fucking tired of tomato sauce!"
We haven't had tomato sauce in over a month cuz he specifically won't buy it unless Bethy is there to put it in the cart. He demands mom uses alfredo sauce in the stuffed peppers instead... and it was awful. I've never needed so much salt in my life. Dave lost the garlic powder so much of the flavor was missing, and rice covered in alfredo sauce is NOT good. I was very displeased. Once again, we do shit to cater to Dave and once again, it ends up being a failure cuz guess what? He didn't fucking eat any. There were enough for everyone to have at least 2 with 2 left over. There are 6 remaining. I ate 2 with extra rice on the side, mom had 1, and Bethy had 1. Dave didn't even eat them... cuz he ended up not liking them even when mom told him it wasn't going to end up well.
All that bitching and forcing us to change how we usually do things, only to not only NOT eat the thing that was made to his specifications, but then he spent the night bitching about being hungry when his ass could make spaghetti and alfredo sauce for himself if he was so desperate for food. We have ground beef and ground turkey. Canned chicken. Mac n' cheese. Different types of soup. He was not starving or going without, he was just lazy. After all that talking, he did nothing at all.
4.) Not reading the lease.
Withholding details of the lease from us and not bothering to read it clearly and now acting like he did nothing wrong the entire time.
~.O.~
The one thing Dave isn't at fault for, is the landlady's behavior.
This house has a separate garage that wasn't part of the lease. She's not having it slightly remodeled, and her ex-husband is adding an electric garage door. He had to come in and check the breaker with his electrician friend and they were mumbling to each other about her plans. She DOESN'T want to move in, she wants to rent out the house and garage together for a higher price.
I'm so mad I am practically fuming.
We're getting hit by everything, and to have this news dumped on us right before Christmas has just soured the holidays entirely. We've already begun packing our things, but we have no plan on where to go and nowhere to even put our stuff again. We have 6 weeks left and I'm just so tired.
[GFM] [Ko-Fi]
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Oh yeah i forgot to say here too cuz i'm more likely to stay at least a little active on here through it since it serves me slightly less rage inducing dickheads that i'll pick a fight with, but something upsetting as happened and i'm definitely not going to be in a good mood for a while so my activity online may go down.
My cat unexpectedly declined rapidly overnight and had to be put down yesterday, i do not always cope with loss well, i've lost a lot of people and animals in my life. We buried her, i helped dig, i dug with my bare hands because i couldn't wield the shovel properly with how fucked my arms are and my entire body started shaking halfway through and is still trembling the day after. I had to look after my parents through this, they cried, i didn't, emotions don't work right in me anymore. I'm giving all this information to paint a clear enough picture as to why i'm not here to be fucked with at the moment. I don't want to deal with stupid fucking twitter discourse that makes me want to punch a wall, i don't want to deal with pathetic cunts who have a problem with some nobody like me and harass me whenever i have anon on here, so as you can imagine considering both of these are fucking constants when im online for some fucking reason, my activity might be spotty.
I loved my cat a lot, she was already nineteen when she turned up outside my door terrified of people, scrounging through the small food waste bin. She looked so starved and feral i thought she was gonna die back then, i spent days slowly working up her trust, sitting by my door talking soft, not making eye contact, just letting her get used to me; i needed to check her condition, needed to know if i could help. She was filthy, flea ridden and starved, her little bald ears burnt and painful. Eventually she trusted me enough to take food, then be touched, and then a week later she was in the house. Two weeks she stayed the first time, kept warm and safe with blankets and food; a toothless, ancient cat i felt sure we were given a few final days respite before she passed. Her owners turned up after those two weeks. Our neighbours two doors down. They took her back, i was not happy. But as soon as they let her outside again she ran right on back to us purring and purring as much as she could, curling right back up in her blankets. After this happened time and time again eventually the neighbours let us keep her, i'm so glad that they did because she began to heal. Her ears cleared up, her fur became soft and silky, she started behaving like a normal cat again; she put a little weight on, never a lot, but enough to not look starved, and she even tried to gain her meow back (she was a silent meower, that she never managed to fix, but she did start to make a little noise).
She was with us for three years past that, or nearly three it wouldve been three next month, and she was the sweetest cat in the world; she didn't often have energy to play, she wasn't the adventurous sort, she just wanted to lie near you and purr. She'd cry and howl if she couldnt find us, she never bit or deliberately scratched, she was an absolute gentle soul. When we moved it was the best thing for her, going to a smaller, easier to navigate house with a lovely safe, enclosed out door space; she got to feel the sun and the dirt again for those last few months, but safely, not as some poor frail animal left outside to fend for herself.
The vet told us her organs had failed when we took her yesterday, that even if she were a younger cat she'd be a candidate for humane euthanasia. There was no coming back from that. It was her time, we knew, the decline she had overnight was a sign she was ready to go; to keep her from saying goodbye would be crueller than letting her go. She was 21, nearly 22. I found fragments of a blue china plate in the dirt we dug for her, i kept it, its so pretty. I made her a bouquet out of tiny wild flowers from the garden. She's buried in her favourite spot. I'm really happy i got to put in the work to give her the life she deserved even if it was only for her last few years.
#jay talkin#cw pet death#this is a lot of information to give but i just want people to understand#why i am not social nor fun rn and how much my cat meant to me
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Screaming into the void (tumblr) because I need to vent. Opinions are welcome but I don't think I'm in the wrong and this isn't reddit's AITA, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I love parties, it's a big part of my personality tbh. I got invited to a really cool gay wedding, and I asked my best friend to be my +1 because I felt she needed a break from her everyday life. I told her over a month ago and we've been discussing outfit options and other wedding stuff ever since. So today I asked her what time she was coming to my house to get ready, she said she was gonna get here almost ready at 10 because she needed to go to the hospital to get some pain meds cuz her intestines were acting up, but this is something that she regularly does so everything was fine, apparently.
Her checkup was taking longer than we thought, but she kept insisting she was gonna be on time, even though it was almost 9:30. In the end she didn't get here, we didn't go to the wedding and she didn't even give me the chance to find someone else to go with because she really wanted to go, but I think it was too selfish of her and she could have been honest about how badly she felt, because now not only did I miss an event I was really looking forward to, it also makes me look bad, because I rsvp'd, and deciding who you invite to your wedding is hard, you have to leave some people out, they could have invited someone else and they wasted 2 spaces on their guest list.
I know she's not healthy and it might be mean to be mad at her for that, but she's been like this for years, she knows her body, she knows how long it takes to get all the different problems sorted, this wasn't an "I suddenly felt ill" thing, she had plenty of time to tell me she might not be okay to go. Getting your intestine blocked because it's full of poop takes like 2 weeks, c'mon. She could have even told me earlier today and I might have found someone else to go with.
It's not just my anger talking, right? She was selfish and wrong, wasn't she?
Anyway, I guess I'm gonna drink a bottle of wine and rewatch dbda now.
#rant#personal#This is the first time I ever get mad at her#in 15 years#but I've cut other people out because of shit like this#and she knows it
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blog updates. (long post ahead orz)
oki ! I'm back from my hiatus, had some time to think about things and reassess my current feelings / standing. currently my anxiety levels are pretty low, but I'm going to be talking to my therapist tomorrow about it + asking my doctor if I could go back on an as-needed anxiety medication since its been so bad lately.
right now the biggest anxiety spike I have is over writing this post heheh but I'm feeling okay, doing my best to keep thinking positive thoughts.
I'm definitely not leaving, but I am gonna try to enact some changes going forward. and, well, fight the urge to remake cuz I know its just my flight instinct. I tend to hide from things that stress me out and make me feel bad, and I know that is a shitty coping mechanism. I know I need to do better for myself if I'm going to survive and grow and become a better person who can manage things and be dependable.
anyway, sorry for the word vomit. time for the planned updates.
first, I will be going partially queue based. I've been managing to keep my queue stocked, I hope I'll be able to continue to do so. answered drafts will potentially be put into my queue, depending; I may still post them as I do them. asks will be posted as normal. I will still be posting as normal & occasionally reblogging content as well. in general, I just want to vary what I'm putting into my queue.
next, with the above in mind, if me posting ooc as primary activity is going to be a problem, please unfollow / block me. this has been an issue for some in the past, and while I don't begrudge people their preferences I have always run my blogs in this way. I post a lot of ooc, whether its personal stuff, me discussing meta, or whatever else. if that is a problem then you are encouraged to leave.
I refuse to guilt myself for not being active ic, and I would hope as my roleplay partners & friends folks would respect how I run my blog and value me as a friend & person over what I can provide in terms of ic engagement and content. I feel like a broken record at this point, but I am slow and post a lot of ooc. this isn't new ! I have this stated in multiple places, it should not be a surprise to anyone !
next, another recurring mention is that I am forgetful as fuck. going forward I will be blocking blogs that I have followed and did not follow me back. why ? because every day I see blogs on my dash, look at them, and wonder... have I followed this blog before, or have I just seen them on my dash a lot ? its nothing personal, but I just. don't want to deal with the anxiety of "have I followed this person before, didn't get followed back, unfollowed them cuz they are mutual exclusive, and if I follow them again now are they gonna think I'm being pushy ?"
in this age of mutual exclusivity it just. isn't worth the stress to me. part of why I hate being mutual exclusive, tbh. frankly, I would think it A+ if folks just. blocked me if they didn't want to interact with me / if they are mutual exclusive and don't intend to follow back. I'm learning to cope with it, truly. like. I know I shouldn't assume people block me for a bad reason or cuz I made a bad impression; I frequently state that people should block to curate their space, not just cuz folks are toxic or whatever. I even assure that I block for primarily benign reasons, like this, so why should I jump to conclusions about why people block me ? why should I care ?
next up, speaking of blocking. I recently had a series of experiences that just. left me feeling really shitty. in general, I do my best to be a good, empathetic person. I value transparency and open communication, and if there is a problem I want to resolve it with the best interest of everyone involved. I do my best, truly. but. these experiences have made me realize that I... waste a lot of energy being the best person I can, worrying and working towards conflict resolution while the other party just. does not care, or doesn't respect / value me enough to try for a solution.
for the sake of my mental health and self-esteem... going forward, if I feel like I am being disrespected, or the vibes or off, or I just. don't see anything coming of my attempts... I am not going to keep expending my time or energy. as much as it literally fucking pains me (I mean seriously, I don't want to do this, because I want to give the benefit of the doubt and be a good person, I want to fix problems, not let them lie. I don't want to turn my back on being open for communication and resolution.), I've made the decision to begin (attempting, at least) to block folks who I feel have crossed my boundaries, disrespected me, treated me or others poorly, or have failed to behave in a civil, adult, and mature fashion.
okay, now just a couple brief points:
I'm working on making muse specific ask memes / interaction prompts. I proposed this idea a longass time ago but never did anything with it, but I hope it will help facilitate interactions, provide some inspiration for folks at the very least a starting point. they'll be generic but specific to my muses, and always available.
I will be posting an interest track / permission post, which will be required to interact going forward. kinda like a mains call, but it'll basically just be a like if you're okay with [insert info on how I run my blog] + are okay with my contacting you ooc, sending asks, etc + commenting with whether you're interested in shade or kaey or both. I'll link it in my rules and it'll, hopefully, provide me with the solid verification my silly little anxious brain needs to not feel like a bother.
I will be conducting another inbox + draft clear out; anything deleted from my drafts will be listed in a post with a ping so my partners are aware !
I will be dropping all current inbox, plotting, and shipping calls because, well, I lose track of them so easily... and then I get nervous that its been too long, so yeah. I have a to-do list now tho ! and I hope that will help me keep track of things, DMs specifically, cuz I... know I suck at keeping up with those, especially in regards to plotting and discussions. my sincerest apologies to everyone, I assure you it is not personal and literally just me being forgetful and nervous heheh
all calls will be limited to 2-4 going forward, so I don''t overwhelm myself. some will be first come first serve, others will be at my discretion.
I will be updating / expanding both kaeys lore and shades modern universes, with the intention of eventually moving shade towards becoming fandomless. I love her content for bg3 but as a whole I just. don't feel very good in the bg3 rpc ?? I feel like an outsider and the vibe just. isn't vibing for me like it once did. again, this is something I am working towards, not something that will be changing right away. and when/if it does happen, she will keep her bg3 universes. as far as kaey goes, I'm gong to try to integrate his different universes a big more. uwu; again. maybe this time I will get the puzzle pieces to fit, but we'll see.
working on a new blog for lore development / rp projects. you can preview the proof of concept at puffiary, if you're interested. I'll also be working more on my multi ! myk will potentially be moving to my mutli, or the new project blog, but I'm not certain yet. dunerook will be keeping her own blog, for now.
anyway. those are my thoughts and feelings regarding stuff. sorry for the long ass post, I didn't intend for it to be like this but ya'll also know me. I can't keep things short and simple to save my life lmao
I will be updating my rules with some of this, but in general the vibe ya'll should get from this post is that I am taking steps forward, but I'm going slow. I have plans and intentions to improve stuff. good things are coming, I'm manifesting it now. but. I also just. want to feel safe and comfy again. that is my first priority.
anyway. thanks for reading this whole thing. sending love !!
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yeah, the logic especially makes absolutely 0 sense.
like, army and everything aside, where does she even get those outfits from?
from the very first episode, Catra stands out cuz she isn't wearing anything like the uniform that everyone else is, with the exception of Adora, though her uniform still looks kinda like the cadet one but modified. we could reason that SW gave her that outfit.
but with Catra? there's no in-world reason for it.
you could argue that Nate wanted you to pay attention to Catra in comparison to the other cadets, to show she's more important, writing wise, but her early teens outfit still did that just fine. she was wearing the uniform, but it had a slightly more scrappy look to it.
and, as someone who has a lot of trial and error in character design, there are plenty good designers that know how to still make a character look different, even if they're in similar get-up as everyone else. there's no actual reason for Catra to have a different outfit from the one she had as a younger teen. there just isn't.
as for the other outfits:
where on etheria could either her or Scorpia get fancy outfits? Scorpia, i could justify with her having a lot of money and more leeway, but the show never displays that.
the winter one makes sense, i guess, but even so, the Kingdom of Snows and the Horde didn't seem to have, like, any animosity with each other whatsoever, so why would the Horde be interested in seasonal clothes? Catra obviously isn't above stealing.
Crimson Waste is literally just their normal outfits with a jacket, not sure if you can even consider that a different outfit. this is just for her to look 'cool' and 'badass'.
yeah, i'm gonna think she's so cool in that jacket when she talks like an edgy 12 yr old obsessed with gachatube, early 2010s tumblr, and r/im14andthisisdeep.
s4 outfit, i don't hate it, but it just feels like more fanservice and i don't understand why it looks the way it does. why does she have one sleeve? people made up that it was because of the corruption from s3, but that never happened. it literally never happened.
i know you don't have to be 100% practical when designing a character, i'm honestly just nitpicking because the stans piss me off and i never understand why Catra doesn't wear armor. i mean, we know she has plot armor, but-
the... is it sleepwear? i dunno, but i'm p sure that she wore a similar outfit in the beginning of s4. writing wise, doesn't make sense, but whatever, it's fine, it's just sleepwear.
now her s5 outfit just makes me mad, cuz where the hell did she get it? if you think about it too much, it gives a creepy implication that one of the others somehow found her s4 outfit and kept it ( and knowing stans, they'd likely make it so that Adora found it ). but then you'd have to remember that this is SPOP and Nate is the main writer of it and remember that this is just yet another continuity error ( i think i'm using that term right- ).
i actually hate the space outfits, they're so fucking ugly, get them out of my fucking fa-
people call this the future, but like...
this is Adora's dream. not her seeing the future. and even then, it's a really strange one, cuz it implies a few details that just don't match with what we know?
Glimbow, for one thing. i don't think Adora was rooting for them. i mean, she'd be happy for them, i think, but that woulda come outta left field for her, like it did for the rest of us.
the other thing is Scorpia's party and how she'll 'kill them' if they're late. i feel like this does kinda make sense, but only if Adora still held the image of Scorpia from s1-s4 to the one now. which i think would be giving the writers too much credit.
i don't know why they wrote in that comment, but it doesn't really fit Scorpia. we all know she's not necessarily the most violent person, though she's not the most docile, either, so Bow saying that just never made sense to me.
final thing is people assuming that these 'dream' outfits were ones they'd wear all the time in the future. and, Nate seems to agree, considering that one illustration, that's just kinda silly? i feel like Catra definitely wouldn't look as put together, especially since she's apparently still a child and refuses to get her hair brushed.
at least Adora still acknowledges that she's a brat.
and i'm gonna be so fr, i hate dream Bow's look, why the fuck-
so, yeah, to the surprise of no one, most, if not all, of these outfits don't make in-world sense, yet they exist anyway because Nate decided that a war criminal that runs on ration bars deserves to 'look hot // badass' more than the main fucking protagonist.
this make me a little upset
and the problem is that not only adora never changes her base outfit, every other princess used only 2 other clothes
but they want me to belive the catgirl had a full wardrobe while living in the fucking fright zone where the soldiers only had ration bars to eat
Yeah, that makes no sense what so ever. It also felt weird that throughout the series Adora was still wearing her OG outfit from when she was in the Horde. Like, did she ever think, "Hey, maybe I should change out of the outfit I was wearing when I was in a fascist army? Nah."
Just goes to show who's the creator's favorite, I guess...
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A Party On A Sleepless Night // Mithra SSR Card Story
CHAPTER 1
(Akira’s room)
Everyone in the manor was long asleep. The only ones awake were Mithra, who was sprawled on my bed, and I, tightly holding his hand and concentrating with all my might.
Akira: “Here goes—!”
Mithra: “.....”
Akira: "Well, how is it? Do you feel any sleepier?"
Mithra: "No, quite the opposite, actually."
Akira: "Ah... I’m sorry..."
My shoulders slumped in dismay. I was unsuccessful in putting Mithra to sleep tonight as well.
Akira: ("I try so hard, but my powers don't seem to be working very well...")
Mithra: "Aren't you being too negligent? Please take this more seriously."
Akira: "I am... I really am, but..."
Mithra: "Oh well. I used to quite like nighttime before, you know. Now it just makes me crummy."
The deep shadow cast upon his evergreen eyes in a frightful glare, and the sharp tone of his voice make it clear how irritated he is.
Mithra: "It’s really depressing being the only one who’s awake every night. No matter if I go to the bar or out for a walk, I'm always by myself."
Akira: “Yeah, I get that... (I would like to at least help him have a better time at night if that‘s how things are...)”
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(The next day)
(Mithra’s room)
Mithra: “A pyjama party?”
Akira: “Yep. I remember you saying you wanted to have one when we were at that mansion in the North... And, since I couldn't help you these past few days, I thought it would be a nice change of pace if we tried it out. Besides, I want to see you have some fun.”
Mithra: “What did I get myself into... And? What do you do at these pyjama parties?”
Akira: “Eat snacks while chatting, play board games...”
Mithra: “Games...?”
Akira: “That’s right. I’ve already prepared some light snacks, so if you could change into something more comfortable...”
Mithra: “Is this really going to help me? I'll have you know I’m at my wit's end because of this sleeplessness. If this ends up being another disappointment, things are going to get ugly.”
Akira: “W-While I can't guarantee it will work, I’m gonna do my best...!”
Mithra: “Here goes nothing... <Arthim>“
Upon chanting his spell, Mithra’s clothes revamped into the ones he wore at the Northern mansion. Then, he chanted one more time.
Bradley: “Gah! What the—”
Akira: “Bradley!”
Bradley: “Mithra, ya damn bastard! What the hell do ya want now?”
Mithra: “Starting now, we will have a pyjama party. I thought it would only be fitting if we had more people, so I called you here.”
CHAPTER 2
Bradley: “A pyjama party? Wouldn't those southern punks been a better pick fer that?”
Mithra: “Are you serious? What would I do if those kids got themselves into danger because I didn't let them get enough sleep?”
Bradley: “Well arentcha noble. But like, whyddya even care? Is there somethin' yer keepin' under wraps, or...?”
Akira: “N-Now, now...! For starters, how about we play a game? You know, to get to know each other better...”
Bradley: “Play your damn games yourself. I don't even wanna be here, even less get chummy with this guy.”
Mithra: “You said it. What do you say we have at each other instead?”
Akira: “(I can't believe this is the only thing you’re willing to agree on...!) I-I’ve already asked Nero to help me prepare plenty of things, you know. Like meat! Lots and lots of meat.”
Mithra and Bradley: “.....”
Bradley: “..... Tch, fine. Only ‘cuz I don’t wanna waste food.”
Mithra: “Hand that meat over then, come on.”
Now that the mood had become more party-like, I took out the board games I had brought with me. With Rutile’s help, we made a Sugoroku written in both my language and the language of this world.
Mithra: “What’s that?”
Akira: “It’s a board game called Sugoroku. You throw a dice and move your piece the number of spaces according to the digit on the dice until you reach the goal.”
Mithra: “There’s something written on the board... ‘Your friends are having a wedding ceremony. Pay thirty thousand yen to continue.’...?”
Bradley: “There’s somethin’ over here too. ‘Your cat has picked up some money. You receive ten thousand yen.’. The hell, it's all just money.”
Akira: “The game is modelled after the lives of the people from my world, kind of... After reaching the finish line, the person with the most amount of money wins.”
Bradley: “So all you gotta do is make bank? Well, wouldn't hurt to try it out I s’ppose.”
Mithra: “Now wait just a moment. What is this ‘marriage’ thing? You’ve got some nerve forcing me into promises such as this.”
Akira: “No one’s actually getting married, it's just within the game...”
Mithra: “This here, too. ‘You buy a cat as a pet.’. Why would I want such a weakling for a pet? Can’t I have something more ferocious like a dragon or a monster? That would be way more convenient.”
Akira: “It can even be the devil if you’d like, it’s only for the game...!”
Each time we began, I had to re-explain the words and peculiarities of my world. And just then...
Bradley: “Next, lessee... Promotion bonus, huh. Sage, gimme a hundred thousand yen.”
Akira: “Wow, Bradley, you’re headed straight for the top, aren’t you.”
Being well-versed when it comes to riches, Bradley immediately got the hang of the game and wasted no time advancing across the board.
Mithra: “Purchase brand items for fifty thousand yen...? But I have no money left to do that.”
Mithra, on the other hand, still unfamiliar with the rules, was now unemployed and in debt.
CHAPTER 3
The situation showed no improvement even after we ended the first round, which only served to sour Mithra’s mood further.
Mithra: “Here, I’m finished.”
Sprawled on the floor, displeased and exasperated, he rolled the dice. Thereupon, it landed in the most unexpected spot.
Akira: “Y-You fell on the Hanamaru*!”
Bradley: “The hell’s that?”
Akira: “It’s a space that allows players to make a turnaround in the game. Mithra, that’s amazing! You’re pretty much an oil magnate now!”
Mithra and Bradley: “Oil... Magnate?”
Akira: “In my world, that's someone who represents wealth, so to say... With that, all of your debts are gone, and you also get a large amount of money.”
Mithra: “How large? Is it more than Bradley’s?”
Akira: “You get one trillion yen. But, since the bank doesn't have that much, you get a card with that sum.”
Bradley: “The hell!? Anyone would be able to win with this! Who thought putting such a thing at the end of the game was a good idea?!”
Akira: “You never know what life has in store for you, and hope dies last, so...”
Mithra: “I’d say that was to be expected.”
Bradley: “Ya bastard... For someone who just got out of Debt Limbo, you sure are cocky.”
Mithra: “Say what you will, but I quite literally own the world now.”
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(The next day)
(Dining room)
We stayed up playing after that and, in the end, called it a day only after dawn had broken.
Akira: (”No matter how many times we started over, Mithra was the only one to land on the holy oil magnate space for the entire night...”)
As I waddled into the dining room for a rather late meal, I saw Mithra and Bradley already eating together.
Mithra: “Bradley, be a dear and go bring the tea over. Yours truly can't be bothered to do that.”
Bradley: “Don’t get delusional just ’cuz you won some damn game, ya bastard.”
Next to Bradley, who was stuffing his face with bread, Mithra crosses his long legs and snorts haughtily.
Mithra: “You want to be me so bad it makes you look stupid.” *
Bradley: “Oh yeah? I’m definitely not lettin’ ya be an oil magnate next time, so bask in it while ya still can.”
In the end, I couldn't help Mithra fall asleep. However, compared to how on edge he was the past few days, he appeared to be in a much better mood now.
Akira: “..... Seems like the pyjama party was a success.”
Wizard’s Grand Turnaround // Card Episode Story
(Dining room)
Akira: “Thank you for trying out the board game from last time, Mithra.”
Mithra: “Ah, do you mean the one that's supposed to embody the lives your people? I must say it was rather bland.”
Akira: “Bland? Do you mean the rules of the game?”
Mithra: “No, the human life. How do you spend your lives without killing and getting killed?”
Akira: “I-I’m pretty sure that's just a Northern thing... Speaking of, what do you say we make a game about the lives of wizards this time around? I’m sure we’ll end up with plenty of interesting spaces if everyone joins in.”
Mithra: “That doesn't sound so bad. You should definitely add a turnaround space at the endgame, though. Landing on one feels pretty good.”
Akira: “Ahaha, alright, alright. But what would be deemed a table-turning event in this world?”
Mithra: “Taking down the moon, obviously.”
Akira: “Ah-...! (Typically, he’s not one to act like a Sage’s wizard, so I’m surprised he’s actually put thought into it...) You have a point! Then, we’ll make it ‘Defeat the <Great Calamity>’. Once the game’s done, let’s play together with everyone else, shall we?"
Raws were provided by @_Zeotrope_, thank you so much!
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*Hanamaru is a flower circle symbol equivalent to the gold star for awarding achievements; 💮.
*I took some liberties with this line because that's what my mind told me on prima vista. What Mithra actually says is “I’m the only one to ever achieve something like this.”
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Midnight adventures
Matsukawa Issei x f.reader
WARNING: Angst to fluff, Slowburn, friends to lovers, mutual pining, kinda long and decent amount of cursing cuz I have no shame. Both reader and Matsun are kind of dumb.
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You loved him, you really did, even though he sometimes drove you out of your mind and made you want to bash his head against the wall. And he knew that. He knew what kind of effect he had on you and he was amused by it. He knew just to push the right buttons, he knew how to rile you up.
You were like an open book to him, so of course he knew you had a crush on him from the start, and you knew that he was aware of your feelings. At first, you were reluctant and refused to admit having the slightest feelings for him, but after some time you accepted the fact and realized that at some point you made your feelings seem obvious. Well, he was your first actual crush, and you were inexperienced.
Your friends would also tease you a lot and at some point, they locked you two together so you could finally confess. It was after their match against shiratorizawa in the third year. That was the day you had your first kiss with him, honestly, you didn't know what happened that night, one moment you were arguing with him because he wanted to leave the team, you were basically yelling how amazing player and teammate he was and the next second you were kissing each other. You expected that after he would confess to you, but he never did. He acted with you like the kiss never happened and that really broke you.
Maybe that is why after all these years you decided to move away, both literally and emotionally. You spent all your high school years waiting for him, waiting for him to make a move, but before you knew it you graduated. You finished school not even holding hands with another boy because you thought he felt the same, you thought that maybe you could be together? But now you realized that it was all load of bullshit. Why did you have to go so far for a person who didn't care about you that much? Why did you have to hold back when he never said no to all the attention he got from girls? You knew that they meant nothing to him and that he only saw them as one-time flings but it still really hurt you. Did you even mean something to him?
You felt mad at yourself, you wasted all these years swooning over someone who didn't return your feelings. But the thing that angered you the most was that you still weren't over him. Your heart would still flutter like crazy whenever you saw him and as much as you hated it he looked better and better every time. You also hated the fact that you couldn't blame him for all this pain, you couldn't tell that you were heartbroken because he didn't love you, that wasn't much of a reason. You were the silly one here. Why were you even surprised? He knew you for years as friends. He probably only saw you as a friend and considered the kiss as a mistake.
To be honest, he never did anything wrong, he always treated you warmly, and with respect, he liked to piss you off but he never really crossed the line, you couldn't blame him for not loving you. You guys kissed like one time, he probably regretted it and didn't want to hurt your feelings that's why he never brought it up after that. He gave you space. He didn't tell you in your face that he didn't return your feelings, he never broke your heart, you were just the silly one, clinging tightly to that miserable string of hope. You were the weak one for falling for him. It would have been better if he screwed up, if he told you that he could never look at you romantically, maybe it would make you feel a little better, your heart would break but you would get over it? But no destiny said that he had to be perfect.
When you moved away to University you promised yourself that you would start everything from the fresh page, you would work on yourself and no longer be that helpless girl who couldn't even get over her crush. You spent months working on your self-confidence and other issues, you spent countless time getting yourself into shape. Let's say you worked on yourself pretty hard. And it paid off, you had finished university and were about to start your dream job, you had gotten an offer many would dream of, you did everything you wanted, you even got in a few relationships, you should have been satisfied right? Then why didn't feel so? Why was there a feeling of emptiness inside your soul and why was no one able to fill it? It made you furious, after all these years, how could you not move on? Why did you Think about Matsukawa when you kissed other men? Why did you keep comparing everyone to him? What did he even do to deserve a permanent place in your heart? Your heart still kept beating like crazy and it's been what? years? you were in your twenties already, you needed to move on!
You were back in the city to celebrate your friends' victory over his rivals. Oikawa being the flashy person he is decided to throw the biggest party possible and now here you were. You knew you would meet him here, he was his friend as much as you after all, but you didn't expect it to hurt this much. As you said time really had done its job on him, he looked more mature now, he was slightly taller and definitely more muscular, he decided to grow his hair too, you always knew that he would look amazing with slightly longer hair, he had also gotten a few tattoos that were seen through his rolled-up black shirt. Man, did it suit him, the shirt was a bit tight fit and it really complimented his muscular form. The tattoos looked amazing on him and were these rings he was wearing? And piercings! And he had his nails painted black, Really life? He looked like your dream man, thank you very much for nothing!
You knew you would run into him today and you tried to look your best, you knew it was silly but you felt like showing off, but after seeing him you felt kind of self-conscious. You wondered if your dress was a good choice, you chose it as it hugged your curves perfectly and really complimented them but now you were wondering if it was too much. Was your hair alright? You hoped it didn't get frizzy. Oh god, why was everyone staring at you? Your lipstick didn't smudge, right? Even though you were having a war inside your head it simply washed away in an instant as you saw the face of your best friend who was grinning like crazy. You quickly headed to her and engulfed them in a tight hug. God, you missed themso much! You felt lucky just by having them in your life, and they really helped you get through with your issues,they were with you every step of the way and you couldn't be more thankful. If it wasn't for them and your friends you doubted you would be standing here right now. Even though you still felt self-conscious sometimes like now overall you were a pretty confident person who radiated power. Even when you felt weak you managed to look powerful. Maybe this was your resting bitch face? You didn't know. You felt thankful that he didn't notice you he was too busy talking with some woman, typical.
"I missed you so much! Can't believe I'm seeing you after all this time. I really missed you all. And meeting on an occasion like this we just have to celebrate our reunion, I knew Oikawa would beat their asses someday," you grinned proudly. "Okay, I'm getting carried away, I really missed you tho. We have to catch on, let's ditch your them later and have some fun!" You ranted as you occasionally squeezed your best friend who kept chuckling.
"Now now Y/N-chan, you just came back don't go stealing my friends from me!" Oikawa came out of nowhere and snatched your best friend away from you, you pouted but chuckled in the end.
"Can't make promises Flattykawa. And in my defense, I knew them longer." You teased and made a face at him, Oikawa fake gasped and clutched his heart a smile never leaving his face. You missed this idiot and his dramatic shenanigans so bad.
"Again with a nickname! Y/F/N-chan she's being mean!" Your friend only chuckled at Oikawa's childlike behavior and patted his hand.
"She has a point tho." Your friend teased along.
"Betrayed by you too! What else should I expect today?" He whined, you only chuckled and opened your arms.
"I really missed you, you dork! I'm really proud of you," you said sweetly, Oikawa immediately hugged you, you smiled at the familiar warmth, Oikawa has been like an annoying brother to you, you weren't used to not hearing his constant whining and antics even after all these years living apart from them.
"I really missed you too! Nothing's the same without you!" You smiled at Oikawa's warm comment. You were glad they missed you the same way you missed them. You really tried to visit as frequently as you could but it was hard when all of you were covered in work. Out of all third years, Hanamaki and Matsukawa stayed in Japan, you and others left the country for Universities. You felt really emotional, it had been such a long time without them...
"Look at her, hugging Oikawa and Y/f/n-chan first, don't mind me I'm just gonna stand here until you decide to acknowledge me. I thought we had something special Y/n, you're breaking my heart here." You heard a deep voice behind you, you smiled and turned back smirking.
"I would say she has her priorities set right? I mean it's me you are talking about,"Oikawa boasted, Your friend giggled.
"Missed you too Hiro," you grinned as you playfully hit his shoulder then hugged him. It was good to be home.
"Where's my grizzly bear?" You asked as you searched the crowd for the angry spiky head.
"He's at the bar probably, Oikawa managed to talk his ears out already, he left a minute ago saying "I'm not drunk enough for this shit!" I'm sure he will be happy to see you." Makki smiled and wrapped his hand around your shoulder you smiled and leaned in on his touch. You had missed this so much!
You spent most of the evening chatting with people and having a nice time. Oikawa for sure knew how to throw a party, you even danced with some charming men. You felt uneasy tho, you and Matsukawa made eye contact a few times but none of you even moved to say something, you just smiled at each other awkwardly. Over the night you noticed how many girls approached him, well it wasn't surprising, he was a good looking young man, but you couldn't help but feel a tinge of annoyance on the inside. In the end, you tried your best to be your charming self. You talked to many different men and even danced with more of them, moving your hips passionately along the music. But you felt bored in the end. None of them were interesting, they didn't have a fire you wanted. How long were you going to be like this? Wasn't there someone who could I don't know sweep you off your feet?
Suddenly you felt overwhelmed, the alcohol was starting to kick in and you swayed your hips with a bit more passion, your best friend was next to you, Oikawa had left you two alone to have your time.
"You haven't talked to him right?" As always, Your friend guessed what was bothering you in a second.
"No, and I'm not planning on doing so. If he didn't think I were at least a little bit important than the girls he was talking to then I'm not going to interfere. I have self-respect. He didn't even bother to say hi." You rolled your eyes and chugged another shot, the alcohol mildly burned your throat but you were used to the feeling. You just felt like dancing and maybe even washing your worries away. You wanted to have fun, and you had a reason too, your friend won a gold medal and defeated his rivals! You decided to go and do another shot, getting near the bar, you noticed a familiar spiky head, you smiled and got closer finally sitting next to the buff man.
"Is this seat taken handsome?" You asked seductively, Iwaizumi's shoulders tensed for a second but he relaxed as soon as he saw your grinning face.
"Y/N!" He greeted you with a smile and got up, you were quick to wrap your hand around him.
"Good to see you, daddy." You grinned teasingly, Iwaizumi flushed immediately. You had a habit of teasing him, you often called him daddy because of his aggressive yes, but caring demeanor, and you really enjoyed it when he got flustered. Truth be told you were probably the only person who got away with teasing him without getting punched or kicked.
"God, when will you stop with the dumb nickname? People are going to get a very wrong idea, it's embarrassing," he grumbled and pointed to the bartender by his eyes, who was looking at you from time to time sneakily, he heard you and was shocked, you smirked and gave him a wink, making the boy blush harder. You smiled, as you eyed the boy he was definitely cute.
"I will stop when you won't have an adorable reaction like this," you teased, Iwaizumi only scoffed, but he didn't look mad.
"It's awfully early for you to start drinking, did Oikawa really talk your ears out?" You chuckled, Iwaizumi scoffed again but he looked amused.
"Unfortunately for me yes, I swear to God he never stops talking." You chuckled, it was such an Oikawa thing to do.
"Yeah, I'm glad Oikawa won, I'm sorry for your team but he did work really hard for it and really deserved it." You smiled fondly after noticing Oikawa dancing with your best friend over some cheezy song which probably he had chosen.
"Yeah, I'm glad too. You should have seen him tho, the all smug Oikawa crying nonstop like a baby after he realized he had won, well of course after they left the court, he was like Iwa-chan I did it!" Iwaizumi mimicked Oikawa's crying voice, you giggled. It sounded like Oikawa, "Don't laugh, who do you think had to stop him from crying? "Iwaizumi shuddered as you had a hard time holding your laughter. You had such a good time, you didn't even notice a pair of dark brown eyes observing your giggling form.
"Now all I can see is Oikawa clinging to you like a koala and crying his eyes out." Iwaizumi only looked at you with an unamused face, making you raise your hands in defeat, the deadly aura didn't go unnoticed by you. Iwaizumi rarely lost his cool around you, but it didn't mean you were immune to his rage. "I'm only kidding, Iwa baby, please don't get mad at me." You lightly pouted as you made puppy dog eyes at him, he only sighed and took another sip from his drink, you smiled and ordered a drink, you visibly relaxed, you didn't feel on edge anymore.
You talked for a while, but unfortunately for you, Iwaizumi had to leave, apparently drunk Oikawa was somewhere causing some trouble. You found it suspicious that was too much even for Oikawa but you didn't question it. Iwaiizumi only grumbled in annoyance and left, being used to all this stuff. You, on the other hand, Made small talk with the cute bartender, he was really good looking and surprisingly very charming and smooth. You were quite drunk already and you were feeling needy, so now here you were making out with him in some empty hallway. He was a good kisser, but you still didn't feel any spark. You wanted to feel the same tingling sensation as the one you felt when you had your first kiss with Issei. The situation was not at all romantic as you said, Oikawa and others locked you in the lockers, to make up after you had a little fight. You bickered at each other for a while, well it was you who was really arguing, you were really mad at him because he was bringing himself down and planned on leaving the team, and you were trying to get to his scull how amazing he actually was and soon your lips were against each other and it felt like the most magical feeling in the whole world. You had never felt anything like that when you kissed others and today was no exception, unfortunately for you. You tried to take the lead in the kiss maybe to make it feel more enjoyable for you but before you could even try, a hand made the man separate from you. You opened your eyes to see Issei, who didn't have a very pleased expression.
"I have business with Y/N, so I don't know, get lost?" Issei said without any emotion. You looked at him dumbfounded. He didn't even bother saying hi earlier, what business would he have with you? The boy, Souma was it? Looked at you two before speaking.
"Dude what the hell we were busy!" He groaned as he glared at Issei, who didn't seem really fazed.
"Do I really look like I care?" Matsukawa asked plainly, You took the chance to straighten up.
"Listen here you little..." Souma stopped before he would go on, as he felt chills run down his spine under Matsukawa's cold glare. You sighed and straightened up.
"I guess it's pretty important, I will contact you later ok?" You asked sweetly, but you both knew you weren't going to contact him. You didn't even have his number and you hadn't given him yours. Souma grumbled and left leaving you with Issei.
As soon as he left you were quick to smack Issei's arm. "Dude, what the fuck?" He only looked at you, grabbed your arm, and led you through the hallway. "What's with the cockblocking? He didn't seem too bad."
"I didn't like him." He said like it was the most obvious thing. It made you feel mad.
"Oh sorry, next time I will choose someone you might like, for future references what type of boys are you into?" You snarled lightly. You wanted to break free from his grasp but it was too strong. Soon your back made contact with the cold wall, and you were caged between Issei's strong arms. You tried to protest but before you could even say a word his lips were on you. You didn't know how to act, your whole body went stiff but after a second you felt your body relaxing.
"God, you're beautiful." He said as he kissed you again, his big hands snaking around your waist. You were speechless, you didn't really realize what was going on. But your body felt like it was on fire. His lips kept brushing against yours just perfectly, your skin was burning hot under his touch. Your heart was beating like crazy, you only managed to whimper against him and he took this as a chance to deepen the kiss. You tried to keep up but it was physically impossible. His kiss was deep and passionate, kind of possessive too. You could feel all his lust through it. You moaned lightly, unable to control yourself. You put your hands on his chest, you could even feel his strong yet fast heartbeat, you pushed lightly, Issei took the hint and leaned back. He stared at you, admiring your beautiful form, you looked so pretty all flustered and breathless, he had wanted to do this for such a long time, for the whole night you had basically been teasing him and his patience was running thin.
"What came over you. I..." You didn't know what to say, you were so confused.
"Do you remember our random sneak outs in highschool?" How could you forget, you just lived for the tiny adventures you, Makki and he used to have at three am. Sometimes when Hiro didn't feel like coming, you would go with him instead. Eating ice cream or random junk food at three am on your special spot, you lived for it. Sometimes you didn't even talk for a whole night but still felt so comfortable. Your chest tightened again at the memory. But why bring it up now? This didn't explain all the raging questions you had.
You nodded your head quietly, looking at him through glossy eyes. "I do. Why?" Your voice was so weak it made you cringe. You didn't know, what was this about? Why bring it up now.
"Would you go on an adventure with me? I know it's Oikawa's special day, but Y/N I... We both know that we need to talk." You looked up at him with wide eyes, you had never seen him like this, he looked so serious and desperate too? Despite feeling all furious and all you nodded and let him lead you through the crowd and to his car.
"I will text him, he might get worried. But what should I say? Where are we even going? We're in Tokyo, don't tell me we're going to Miyagi!" You asked as you sat down in his car, you were confused, all this stuff was confusing you.
"No, I don't plan to take you to Miyagi, I was thinking of ordering a shit ton of junk food via drive-in and then taking you to the place I found earlier. Don't worry I'm sure you will like it." Issei assured you as he got in his car, started the engine, and started driving.
"Are you really trying to get on my good side via food? I'm really mad it's not going to be that easy." You furrowed your eyebrows, Issei huffed a laugh.
"Maybe I am? We both know that you will sell your soul to satan for a bag of doritos! If I keep your mouth busy while I tell you something at least I won't have to worry about you biting my head off," Issei pointed out like it was the most obvious argument while smirking proudly, you scoffed.
"I will hit you so hard after you stop the car, I'm not doing it now because I value my life. And besides, it's not about whether or not I will like the place. It can be next to a strip bar or some abandoned place, what's important is that you will say and you know that." You said as a matter of fact and turned away from him, looking through the window.
"I know." He sighed after a second, the atmosphere was heavy, opposite of what you were used to. You started liking Mattsun because things were easy with him and that it was full adventures, but now... You had to calculate everything you said, how you moved, how you looked at him, and stuff. When did it become so painful to be in the same space as him? And the stuff he wanted to tell you terrified you. What if he admitted that he never saw you seriously? That he only felt desire for you at some doing and nothing else. You didn't even know what made him act up today, did he have at least the slightest feelings for you or did he just found desirable in that tight dress? Maybe he just didn't like the face another man tried to take you away. Either way, anxiety was eating you from the inside. Your heart kept beating rapidly and your fingers actually hurt from playing too hard with them.
You were so lost in your thoughts you didn't even notice how he ordered and got the food. You only came back to reality only when he opened your door gently took your hand in his big one. "We're here." He helped you get out of it. The cold air immediately hit you, making you shiver slightly. "Here take this." He said as he put his jacket on your shoulders, it was so big you were basically swimming in it but on the contrary, it was really warm and soft and it smelled like him! Just perfect, you immediately snuggled in. Mattsun then took the food package from the backseat. He quickly locked the car and led you through again. You were now in front of a big clearly abandoned building, you hesitated for a second and tightened your grip around his hand, Issei looked at you, carefully examining your face."Are you feeling scared? I promise it's a safe place, I have been here. You still like exploring weird buildings like this right?" He teased lightly, squeezing back your hand. You only pouted.
"I do like exploring buildings like this, but when I said abandoned building I was joking you know that right? I like these kinds of places but not in dresses like this and especially not in high heels. I like being prepared to run from my life if there's a huge creep or some sort of monster, I don't know! And I haven't done something like that for such a long time, and we're not in Miyagi too, everything's new here!" You said as a matter of fact while playing with your hair, Issei only chuckled. You felt nervous. Before you could even comprehend what was happening Issei had already picked you over his shoulder. You felt like a sack of potatoes.
"Oh my god, Matsun what are you doing? Put me down!" You tried squirming away at the same time you clutched his shirt too afraid to fall. He started laughing, you felt vibrations through his back, you couldn't help but smile, you liked when he laughed.
"No way, I like carrying you and I have the best view too so no way princess."You could tell he was grinning while looking at your ass and it made you mumble in annoyance. You gasped when he spanked your bottom lightly, you smacked his back in response. "Do you like the view?"
"Shut up!" You whined, which made him chuckle harder. "Put me down, my dress is short!" You started wiggling again, but he had a death grip on you. You could feel the blood rushing to your face and at this point, you were not sure if it was from embarrassment, just having your head low and blood rushing to your head or just anger.
After a minute of him walking and you admiring his ass, he finally put you down. You looked around, the building was empty, there was no furniture and some of the walls were covered in graffiti. Other than that you enjoyed the place, it had a certain vibe to it. You wandered for a second, exploring the room. When you turned around you didn't see him, you walked around and eventually came out on the huge veranda. The sight made you gasp, Issei had laid the blankets on the floor and taken out the food, it looked so cozy! There were some pillows too. It was just like a little picnic, the dim streetlights also shone nicely with some fairy lights there and there and the sight in front of you of the night city was magnificent. Everything looked so simple yet so perfect.
"Okay, stop or I might have to actually marry you." You pointed at everything dramatically, you couldn't contain your smile. Everything looked like the pics you have seen on social media or in the movies. Issei smiled at you softly, you looked so cute all excited like that. His jacket really suited you too, you looked so perfect.
"I knew you would like this. I'm glad you actually agreed to come." He smiled and patted space next to him, you sighed and sat carefully, holding down your dress, it was short at it was you didn't want it to slide up too much.
"You knew I wouldn't refuse such tempting request, didn't you? I always liked our little adventures," you smiled fondly, recalling sweet high school memories.
You spent few minutes in silence watching the city, eating there and there, but it wasn't uncomfortable like before, your anxiety had calmed down a little too. You just sat there and enjoyed the moment. You didn't even notice when he took your hand but you didn't bother to take it back. You wished you could stay like this forever but you also knew it was wrong. You had to ask the question, even if hearing it could destroy you. You both knew that.
"Matsu, why did you kiss me earlier? I'm trying to understand what's going on between us but now I'm especially confused. Why did you do it? I thought you didn't like me," You were talking quietly, but in reality, it was really hard for you to contain your sea of emotions. Issei tightened his grip on your delicate fingers, neither of you bothered to look at each other in the eyes. He took a deep breath and started talking quietly.
"I don't know myself. I thought I had let go of you, I thought I was over you, but when I saw you again all feelings came crashing down on me again. You looked so breathtaking, I fell in love with you all over again. So pretty and all dolled up and this dress. God this dress, hugs you so perfectly on all the places I want to touch, I actually feel jealous of it. I want to rip it off and have you all to myself and never let go. I don't want to let go now that I tasted your lips again." He spoke lowly, his voice was raspy and it sent chills down your spine. " You are the most beautiful person here you know that right? You are probably the most beautiful person in the whole city, I think even in whole Japan or better the world!" Matsun kept going on and on setting your heart ablaze. You were mad, but at the same time, you were so at ease and felt so at comfort. It was like your mind and heart were battling each other and you had no idea which would win.
"I'm still really mad at you." You grumbled against his chest, Issei hummed and wrapped his hands tighter around your waist.
"I know and you have every right to." Issei hummed and pecked your hair, he then grabbed your chin lightly and made you look at him. "I'm really sorry Y/N, all I have been doing is to cause you pain. It was never my intention. I love you, god, I love you so much! I know you will be better without me. You can find so many who are way better than I am and would treat you like you really deserve. And I thought I came around with the fact that I wouldn't be the one to have you in the end. I always knew that. That's why I never made any kind of move on you. When you entered the party you looked like a different person. You were the most beautiful person I have ever met, you looked so confident and comfortable in your own skin and most of all you looked so happy! I didn't want to come to you and ruin it. I felt so proud too, you achieved so many things! God, you don't know how proud I am to even know you!" Matsun kept going on and on, you haven't even heard him talk this much in a row, he was always a man of few words. He looked so desperate too, and the way his voice broke, killed you too. You had known him for years but you still never had seen him like this. Honestly, You had no idea what to do. You wanted to yell at him and comfort him at the same time. You tightened your grip around his hand, your knuckles were starting to whiten but you didn't care. You wanted for him to know you were listening, that you were there.
"Matsun, I..." You tried to start but he interrupted you.
"Please let me finish." The tone of his broken voice immediately made you shut up. "I know it was my own choice to let you go, and I really thought I was fine with that but when I saw you... When I saw you something like snapped in me. I tried to take my mind away, I kept talking to this women to keep my mind off of you, but how can I pay any attention to these peasants when a literal goddess has taken over my heart? And when I saw you kissing that asshole I almost went feral! I would have murdered him if I had a chance. He was touching the one I basically find sacred so disrespectfully, I almost lost my mind. Then I got you to myself I couldn't help but kiss you. Your lips always look so welcoming I couldn't help myself. And I want to do it again and again. I don't ever want to let go. I miss you like crazy! I don't know if I can be apart from you again. I... God, I sound so pathetic, I don't even understand what's happening with me. I covered this place with blankets and stuff you love because I hoped you would come to another adventure with me. Funny thing is that I wasn't even planning on asking, I don't know how we ended up here. I thought I would end up coming here all alone, wallowing myself in self-pity again. I know I don't deserve it, and I know that everything's my fault and my fault only and I would understand if you don't want to have anything to do with me, but could you give me another chance? I don't think I can last any more minute without you. I miss you so much it actually hurts."
Matsukawa looked at you with pleading eyes, and before you could even comprehend what was happening, you were getting in his lap and were kissing him like there was no tomorrow. He was startled for a second, he clearly didn't expect you to have a reaction like this but he wasn't against it at all. In fact, in a second, he was the one taking the lead and deepening the kiss. His hands digging in your hair while you slid yours through his hair. He would have continued doing so before you leaned back and broke the kiss. He looked at you half dazed. You were quick to bring him back to his senses when you harshly smacked his head.
"That hurts!" He complained, which made you more fueled up and now you punched his shoulder.
"That's the point of hitting! I want it to hurt you asshole!" You yelled. "You know you're a huge fucking idiot right? What's with this bullshit about not being worthy to be next to me? If I didn't think your ass was worthy I wouldn't have fallen in love with you! My taste in men may not be that great but I'm not stupid! I appreciate that you're thinking about my happiness or whatever, even though it's totally uncalled for, and thank me for not beating your ass further! But I get to decide what's good for me and what's not. To your surprise genius, that comes to dating too! I get to decide whom I want to date and fall in love with and in this case, it happens to be you, fuck it always has been you! I had some partners but I didn't love any of them, cause your caterpillar brow ass has managed and captured my heart, I always come to compare them to you, and guess what they're not you! God, you can be so stupid for someone who is supposed to be smart! I'm really disappointed Matsun and mad too! I want to beat your ass even further! God, how did you even manage to come up with this bullshit? I swear to god!" You kept grumbling while messing with Issei who looked like he was still in shock, his cheeks were dusted pink and you couldn't help but squeal on the inside from how cute you found it. You made Issei blush! That was an achievement for sure and such an adorable one too! But you couldn't back down now, you felt actually mad that he had such dumb thoughts like this, but on the other hand, you found it very endearing and cute. He was trying to protect you! And by the looks of it, he was hurting just as much as you. But the fact remained the same, he loved you. Your dream came true, he shared the same feelings! You felt so happy, you wanted to kiss his face till your lips fell off.
"You know you don't have to straight ass roast me right?" Issei tried to look offended but he was having a hard time hiding his grin, you smiled and pinched his cheek making him roll his eyes.
"Oh baby, I'm not even started. What did you think I was going to forget everything? And don't be mislead Makki can't even come close to me when it comes to teasing. You're in for a ride sweetheart, teasing is only just begging, maybe if you find a few ways to shut me up, and you know what I mean, I could keep quiet for a while, you could atone for your stupid ass mistakes with many kisses for starters. I don't know Matsu get creative. The point is you're stuck with me and you can't even run from me now you got it? No more bullshit like I don't deserve you and stuff like that," You said as slowly and as seductively as you could having your face close to his and occasionally brushing your lips against his. Still being in his lap gave you the perfect leverage and you just loved the way he was tightly holding your hips, to keep your bodies close. You felt complete after such a long time...
The hurt and all the emotions didn't wash away immediately obviously, you knew that your wounds would take time to heal, but now at least you knew Issei would be next to you through the journey and that was enough. You knew that now, that you had talked things through, maybe yelled from your side but still, you knew that you could overcome many things together. You just needed to voice your thoughts out.
"Wasn't even planning on it baby," he growled while he closed the distance between your lips again making you squeal a little. Yup, you just loved your little midnight adventures.
God, I can't believe I actually wrote over 6500+words. No wonder my eyes hurt like a bitch lol. Anyway, I really hope you will like it. If you have any kind of feedback please notify me. I'll gladly take some healthy criticism. I really want to improve my writing and I promise I will do my best. This is a firts work I have ever published on tumblr and I really hope you will like it^^
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Birthday Smash -
Rating: 18+, Mature
Pairing : Timeskip! Birthday boy Kuroo x female reader.
Word count: 1.5 k
Warning's: Smut, Birthday sex, Thigh riding, face riding, blow job ( could be considered as bit of somnophilia but I'm not sure, everything is consentual tho), established relationship, the reader is on top but Kuroo still doms.
You gazed at your wrist one more time before pushing the key card into the overpriced hotel suite your boyfriend was staying at. It was quarter to twelve, just fifteen minutes until his birthday. Even though you both were at the point of your relationship where you didn't have to make grand gestures for every occasion, you wanted to help him relax atleast on his special day.
Entering with a soft click, not wanting to be found out, you looked around the place, it was oddly romantic, the bedroom was seperate from the living space, most of the furniture having classy beige themes, beside the main couch, there was a little round table lined with scented candles. Atleast now you knew this place wasn't Kuroo's pick, although his company was the one providing for his lodgings, you still expected more of a business casual look but you didn't have time to complain considering you still had a surprise to pull off.
The last time you called Kuroo today was just after dinner, so if he wasn't working right now, he would most likely be either taking a bath or on his way to bed and both of the options gave you a good opportunity to ambush him. Putting your stuff on the nearby chair, you tiptoed your way into the bedroom to see your tired boyfriend stretched out in the huge king sized bed on the riser with two steps leading up to it.
His toned body peeking out from beneath his disheveled bathrobe ,indicating he just came from his bath. The large fluffy pillows, crisp white sheets and the light coming from the floor to ceiling windows next to the bed gave the room a picturesque view. He seemed half asleep, so you approached him carefully, now that you got a closer look you realised he wasn't wearing any underpants. You were going to wake him up anyway and the opportunity to make it the best wake up call just presented itself, dangling right in front of you, so it was in your best interest to grab it.
He was lying on his back, a position he only started to use after the two of you began dating, so that you could cuddle a little before sleeping. You crawled on the opposite side of the bed, slowly making you way towards his exposed legs, deciding it's best to just kneel beside him than over him. You pushed the last piece of the bathrobe covering his cock aside and started giving his tip small kitten licks. You wondered if would freak out, thinking you're some random women or maybe he wouldn't even wake up, thinking he's dreaming because let's face it, Kuroo can be a dork sometimes despite his natural cunning.
His previously soft member started to swell by the time you grabbed his shaft, stroking it gently. You didn't want him to wake up just yet, atleast not until he was throbbing in your mouth, his sleepy face just on the verge of cumming was a sight you wanted to see, but it's physically difficult for anyone to keep sleeping when they have someone mouth on their crotch so his legs soon started twitching. You lifted your head to check his face but his eyes were still closed, boy were gonna get teased like hell after he wakes up. You could imagine him saying stuff like," hooooo~ y/n chan.... If you were that thirsty for me that you could've just asked for my cum when I was awake." With that shit eating grin of his. He's nothing if not explicit with his teasings but that's wasn't enough to stop you from milking him till he was dry.
You picked up your pace, taking more of his cock in your mouth, using one of your other hand to massage his balls, you were doing if hard enough that it wouldn't surprise you if he woke up but there was no movement from his side. You kept on your ministrations until you felt him twitch in your mouth, he was close, you thought about stopping since you expected him to wake up before cumming but just as you were about to pull yourself up, you felt a hand on top of your head gently grabbing your hair.
"...what's wrong babe?.... aren't you gonna finish", his voice was a bit groggy as he propped himself on his elbows, staring at your cum smeared face, his hard cock still halfway in your mouth. The jerk must've been awake for a while now if he's able to talk so smoothly right of the bat or worst yet, wasn't asleep at all. It was annoying how he could keep a cool front all the time.
You squeezed his balls, hoping to get a reaction out of him but he kept on giving you his signature toothy grin. You started sucking on his tip while your hand pumped his shaft, knowing he was on the verge of cumming. He bucked his hips slightly, finally letting that string of moans you were waiting to hear. You pulled him out with a pop, focusing solely on stroking him, harder and harder untill he came all over his stomach and inner thighs.
"Haaa....that was mean y/n chan.....I thought you were really thirsty with the way you jumped on me in my sleep", he said grabbing you by your hair once again, giving his hold a slight pull untill your face was in front of him," but here you are wasting it all". There it was, his dirty mouth you are so used to and his lust filled bedroom eyes urging you make a comeback of your own.
" You knew I'd come didn't you", giving him a stink eye you were hoping he'd fess up. It all made sense, from the oddly huge and romantic suite to his overly sexy getup, he was luring you in all along waiting for his 'surprise'.
" I just knew you wanted to please you hardworking boyfriend~", you had to roll your eyes at that, but he was right about you wanting to please him. He kissed you softly, knowing full well that your night was just beginning. You quickly pulled the skirt of your dress up reveling your uncovered pussy, Kuroo raised an eyebrow at that.
" Well I am a woman on a mission you know", with a smirk you shifted until your wet nether lips were hovering just above his thick muscular thighs. You kissed him again, hard, as he grabbed your hips to pull you on his thigh. The feeling of your sloppy cunt against him made his thigh clench in anticipation, you began rubbing your pussy the sturdy surface he provided. Your movements brought pressure on the soft nub of your cunt, which sent shivers across your body, causing it to heat up.
He pulled his face back, you looked so cute to him, enjoying yourself so much on just his thighs, he had to be an ass, " so y/n, where's my present.....", His tone was joking but you wanted to shut him up for good this time, not wasting another second, you pushed him down the bed roughly and a few seconds later your cunt was straddling his face.
"Here it is.....your 'present' honey~", you cooed sarcastically above him as you braced yourself on the headboard.
" Is this what you meant when you say you'd take me to an all you can eat buffet, cuz if it is, then it's cringey", he said with a laugh, complaining halfheartedly, he grabbed your thighs to position himself, taking a moment to admire your puffed up pussy drenched in your juices. " Spread yourself for me babe, I atleast deserve a good view", something about his talkative nature in bed made you nervous no matter how many times to have fuck. You did as you were told, bringing two of your fingers near your pussy, you spread your glistening lips to until your entire cunt was in display.
With a hum and his typical "good girl", Kuroo went straight for your clit, not touching any other part until you were overstimulated. He gave your sex a long lick, twirling his tongue around your entrance as his hands kept massaging your inner thighs. Your voice begain cracking form his ministrations and It wasn't soon before you felt your orgasm approach, his movements were steady, relentless in their teasing. Your clit was throbbing and your pussy kept on getting wetter until you were certain your juices were dripping down your boyfriend's face which he devoured with a hum. You arched your back pushing yourself further down his face and moaning uncontrollably as your hips bucked to match Kuroo's rhythmic actions.
You came with a loud moan, calling his name till your orgasm passed. You lied in top of him as you both panted to catch your breaths. Turning around, you saw his bedside clock, reveling its way past 12. But the disappointed was overwritten with the blissful afterglow so you just settled for staring lovingly at his sweat slicked, cum smeared face.
"Ready for round two", his voice regained its challenging tone but this time all you could feel was gentle adoration towards your tricky faced boyfriend. With all its ups and downs you keep yourself connected to each other in so many ways, you had to show your appreciation somehow. You took his face in your hands, rubbing soft circles across his cheeks as you leaned in,
"Happy birthday my love".
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Sorry sorry and sorry for responding too late.
I refer S/O as They/their
Request by @thewinterflagforever .
Engie. (Inspired by this post made by @snoozyhooter )
If they had free time, Engie would propose to do a picnic. He doesn't want something too boring or simple but also, exaggerated. He'd offer to make the food, and look for the best place to eat, surely chooses one where they can see almost everything. He doesn't hesitate to bring his guitar to sing them some songs.
They have to stay in the base? No worries! That won't stop them. Both can be working in the garage and keep talking about how their day was while they are doing their business. This man loves helping his S/O and spend time with them.
"Hey hon." "Yes?". They looked at him and smiled, he was with his arms open, waiting for a cuddle. Engie being a extrovert person and even touchable, the hug is something different and important for him, only for the people who really he cares about and one of them is his S/O. Prefers face-to-face to see their face.
Sniper.
He will take his S/O to a place where the sun is the protagonist, why? 'cuz he loves seeing how the sun is falling and giving permission to the night. Near his camper, they would prepare a campfire, to cook something and just, talk about how their day was. Like Engie, he prefers easy plans without exaggerating.
If they have to work, Sniper will be watching that no enemies approaches to the base and his mate doing their job, and at the same time, protect him from spies. They both would be in a room, only for Sniper, but he'd invite his S/O. It'd be more silence but that doesn't mean they're unsure, just on the alert.
Being honest, Sniper is not a big fan of cuddles (excepting his parents). He's like a 'suprise hugger', because no one will never know when he's gonna do that. S/O is surprised when they feel arms around them from behind and, a head resting on their shoulder. Then a soft voice near their ear "Don't know how much i love ya."
Demo.
Does his S/O love party? Hope so 'cause this man does! They would spend the evening going to bars or nightclub; Dancing and drinking. However, if there is a quite place, like a beach with few people or none, they would sit and talk about everything and, i mean, everything.
Nothing keep him away from fun, with a few bottles bought and the only thing left to do is to have the party in any part of the base. Second option? When he makes bombs, he has to see if they really explode, what could be better than throwing some to the opposing team? Without doubts, he'd ask his S/O to come, they are the one who gives him more entertainment.
Demo'd hug them every 5 mins if he could, he wraps his arms around their waist, warmly towars him, looking each other. He loves seeing their face. God, he said once "I got a manky eye, i'm a black Scottish cyclops drunk!", what he did to deserve them? What did they see in him good? S/O would respond his questions and he'd happily listen.
Scout.
A walk through the nearest town or city is enough. Holding hands, they go to look at the things there; they buy sweets (or buckets of chicken), go to the shops or even play in the park. If there's a funfair nearby, Scout will do the 'puppy-dog eyes' so he can go and suggest paying for both, the first traction would be... well, the tunnel of love.
Near base, he has an area where he can do whatever he wants, mainly sport, they can pass the evening practicing and challenging each other or, sitting on the grass and letting nature be the protagonist, Scout'd bring what is needed to draw and be happy to tell about his comics!
Sideway hug. At first nervous, unsecure, he prefers to start with an arm around S/O's neck and get them close to him 'discreetly', "it's getting cold, yeah?" just give him a second before he decides to completly cuddle them and hides his face on their shoulder.
Heavy.
When his family moved to U.S.A, near him, he'd like to pay them a visit and more with his S/O. Yes, it may sounds boring but he really cares that they know his love perfectly and is sure his mother will love them. Clearly they'll have some privacy at some point, "This is for you, со́лнышко" he'd use it that moment to give them 13 flowers, all possible colors except yellow and 3 kisses each cheek. A tradition for someone he would give even his heart.
If they have to stay in the base for any attack, Heavy would be reading a book while his S/O is relaxing by his side doing something else, even teaching them some russian words if they're interested o translating the story. Another option would be Heavy cleaning his weapons while he shows them and yes, even he likes to brag about it.
Bear man? Bear hugs! He does everything he can to put his arms around them, carefully, like a shield. Wants to make them feel protected, nothing is gonna hurt em, not in Heavy's watch. He doesn't forget the soft kiss on their head.
Pyro.
Well, the name already say it, they (Pyro) would be trying to burn everything they can all the evening and proudly show it to their S/O. They would be holding hands and going everywhere without wasting time, until Pyro saw the sun and decided to stop moving, he sat down and rest their head on S/O's shoulder, completly in silence.
Sleepover. Being inside of the base isn't gonna prevent them to have fun, with a lot of food, fluffly toys and makeup, it's enough to stay in their room for all the evening. Pyro would paint the nails of their love while they're talking how their day was and eating all the candies. Later they go to Medic because stomache.
A tight, strong, loving, breath taking embrace, a way to say how much they love their partner. A bear hug but a bit different, applying a powerful pressure, and making S/O immobile. Luckly not enough to hurt them and just for a few seconds.
Medic.
"Look, schatz! We can use its organs for—" "Oh, don't you dare! I swear - No!". Wasting all his time in his laboratory, makes him a bit umconfortable staying outside, but he'd accept if it's S/O, a walk near base. Ngl he adores talking about himself about the progress he's doing, the ideas he has or what Archimedes did, he laughs and then... He apologizes, but his love assures they won't never get bored listening to him. Only got scared when he saw a roadkill and started to approaching.
He needs an assistant while he's working, an excuse he often uses when he wants to spend time with his love, and it works. Loves seeing Archimedes rubbing his head against their check and will whisper "Why you...?", because he also doesn't know what he did to deserve someone like them. Likes to observe how the sunlight creates different perspectives on their beauty while they're talking.
Another nonfan hugger, he usually does it unconsciously and when he's very happy, jokes aside, he's really strong, enough to lift his partner with his arms around their waist and leaning against his body. When he realized it he didn't help but blush.
Spy.
A hot air balloon trip? Spa? A meal at the best restaurant and hotel in town? Going to a concert or theatre? He just looks for anything to surprise his amour, he likes the exaggeration and extravagance of dating, to show that he's determined to use his time and attention for them. He has already prepared everything that will be done during the afternoon until nightfall. However, he'll change plans if they have another idea, he'll try to please them.
In his private room, S/O is free to do whatever they want, read a book? Look at the fireplace? Take a nap? Talk? Go ahead. "Mi casa es tu casa" he's say with a smile, he's not that talkative but with them, he's confident to do that until someone have to stop. By the way, did you know Spy is good at giving massages?
Being someone who stabs from behind, doing back hugs, means a lot, he doesn't like giving 'em but trusting his loved one, wants to say that they're safe and protected by him. He hides the head and give a quick kiss on the back of the neck.
Soldier.
"See those submerged logs over there? That is The Beatles! Do not stop running!" "Okay...—wait what!?". He's able to sum up a 1600 hour tour in just one afternoon, holding their hand and with a big smile, he will show them everything he knows and be proud of that. Has anything caught his love's eye? Don't worry! He'll get it for them, if they're happy, he's happy too! Everything gangsta until there's is a neck snap.
In his "secret" space, he'd love to show them how good he is teaching the students (Ignoring that they are decapitated heads), and may sounds weird, he would be able to talk quietly when there is a debate or a talk. He will be happy to teach rocket jump if S/O is interested and any moment, he'd let them see a beautiful place where they can watch how the sun falls.
A bear hugger too. When he's joyful, when he won a match or because he wants, his S/O will be the first one to know it. He will put his arms around their waist and bring him closer to his body, placing his face on their chest. Don't miss this opportunity and respond him in the same way! His cuddles are gold.
Masterlist.
If there is any mistake, please, correct me.
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Tobi x Kay x L -Grey Violet
A/N: Kay is by @tinyslasher i made this cuz she simps for both of them
Song Inspiration: Dark Horse by Katy Perry
This plays on the stripping scene with Tobi
Warning: Smut, Threesome, Strip Clubs, Alcohol, Double Penetration, Spit Roasting, Choking
Word Count: 1.6K
"I've never been to a club, are you sure I'm gonna enjoy it?" Kay looked at Gantz and pointed at the door behind the bouncer.
Gantz nodded "well it'll be a waste of an invitation if we didn't come" she looked at them with suspicion "i guess so..." Kay holds them close as they talked to the bouncer. "Graffiti and Baby Blue?" the bouncer asked "yea, we even got VIP tickets to see him" the bouncer moved away and opened the door.
They walked in and the tone had change significantly from the quiet allyway to the loud strip club. The club was dark with purple ambient lighting and LEDs being the only light source, one of the walls were filled with ornate graffiti painted in glow in the dark paint that Gantz has been commissioned to make.
A girl in revealing clothes walked up to them holding a clip board "oh i recognize you! Cmon I'll show you your seats"
They followed her too a large sofa with a table in the middle there sat a familiar figure of a lanky man with a television on his head, L. He was wearing what he normally wears, a dress shirt, a tie, dress pants, loafers, and gloves. He looked like an average office worker if not for the helmet.
"Gantz? He invited you here too?" he tilted his head, Gantz nodded and sat on the couch, putting their feet on the table. "Kay, why don't you sit with us?" he patted the space between him and them, Kay walked up to him and did as he told.
Fog started to come from the stage as the music changed, "and next up...Prince Jester!" the DJ cheered on. Loud footsteps came from the fog as the performers silhouette came into view.
Tobi came out of the fog and grabbed the pole "are you ready?!" the crowd cheered on with him.
Tobi lip synched to the song and walked around the pole slightly nodding to the beat, he climbed up the pole with confidence and spun around and ending with him letting himself dangle with his feet and looking back at the crowd, his arms flowed perfectly while he picked up some money given by the guests.
He went on his knees in the middle of the stage walk way, he dramatically falls backwards with his hands on his forehead and chest.
One of the girls he worked with handed him a shot and he drank it instantly "thank you dear" he nodded to her. He stood up and placed his hand on his chest and cheek, tracing it down to his stomach then crotch as he went on his knees once again now he layed the top half of his body on the stage floor while keeping his ass up like a cat. He crawled to the edge, grabbing dollar bills and putting it between the band of his pants and underwear.
The song ended as he stood up, he looks at the crowd with a smile and continues waving as he walks back behind the stage "thank you for tonight darling!"
Kay watched the show and now is a blushing and flustered mess, while Gantz continues drinking like usual and L looking unimpressed.
Tobi walked up to the table, placing his hands on top of the surface and looks at them "so how's it goin'? All good?"
"yeah good enough, love the bartender, this shit's amazing" Gantz picked up a cup and gave it to him. Tobi smiled "thank you!"
He looks at L and scoffed "I'm surprised you even came, you boring fuck" L rolled his eyes and took a shot.
Tobi sighed and sat oh his lap and started playing with his tie "so you what do you want to do?" L tilted his head and looks at him with a smug, "i was thinking of having some private time with the boss of this place" he grabs one of his tails and rubbed the bottom part it.
Tobi groaned, annoyed "ugh fine..." L looked at Kay and raised an eyebrow "do you want to join? It's your first time coming here anyway and i don't think Tobi minds at all" Tobi nodded and smilled "yup i don't mind, Gantz do you wanna join along or?"
"with my coworkers? No"
Tobi shrugged "if you say so then" Kay looked at both of them flustered "i uh...Sure!" she covered her face and leaned herself closer to Gantz.
Tobi stood up and grabbed both of their hands, leading them into one of the private rooms.
He opened the door and walked in, Kay looked around the room amazed, there was a bed, a couch, some alcohol, and even some toys, all in the cloak of darkness with the only light source was the purple lights imbedded under the bed and behind the walls, it looked expensive and the fact that she got this for free was a blessing.
L took off his helmet and grabbed her from behind and placed her on his lap as he gets comfortable on the couch. Her legs were spread open for them "do you want us to start slowly or get to the point?"
"please start slowly, I've never really done something like this" both nodded and agree and looked at Kay.
L slowly undressed her, pulling her top above her head along with her bra off. Tobi placed himself between their legs and pulled her pants off.
Tobi used his thumb to spread the lips of her clothed sex and licked it. Kay whimpered and shivered while L groped and palmed her breasts, pinching her nipples ever so slowly.
She closed her mouth with her hand while the other was on the back of Tobi's head.
L moved his hand down and pushed her panties to the side, letting Tobi to suck her clit even more. "Tobi please calm down" she grabbed his hair but he didn't stop and he continued, making sure to lick her velvet walls and drink up all of her, not wasting a single drop.
"wait no! I'm gonna-" she came, arching her back and leaning her back against L. Tobi rosed up and wipes his face and licked his lips "thanks for the drink princess"
Kay bit her lip and moaned, her breath heavy. L picked her up and laid her down on the bed. Tobi sat between her legs and pulled down his pants, letting length to spring out. He slowly jacked it off and rubbed it against her pussy.
L grabbed her jaw and unbuckled his pants, tapping his cock on her mouth before both of them thrusts into her at the same time.
She moaned around L's cock as Tobi pistons into her "hey you should help out L there, you can't just lay here and let me fuck you" L tilted and shook his head. He thrusts into her mouth, the tip of his cock hitting the back of her throat.
Kay wrapped her legs around Tobi and grabbed L's thighs, trying to balance herself, she gagged and whimpered but it came out muffled. Without warning L came into her mouth which made her teared up and choked. "L she totally loves that! Keep fucking her mouth! She's tightening around me" Tobi smiled and chuckled. L pulled out and rubbed his cock in front of her, letting the few last spurts hit her face.
Tobi pulled out and let his cum drip out of her which made him smiled. L pulled her on his lap and inserts himself into her back door. She slightly jumped at the sudden fullness and rubbed herself against him. Tobi continued to fuck her used hole "i didn't know you can take both of us at the same time! Bet Gantz trained you well huh? Then you're going to love the final show"
L grabbed her hips and moved her up and down quickly, Kay closed her mouth with her hand and tilts her head back "Oh god L, calm down!" he simply shook his head and continued. Both came again while Kay simply getting more frustrated, they were too quick, not even letting her cum.
"time for the final show! Are you excited?" Tobi clapped his hand and grinned, Kay looked at him and nodded.
L picked her up and let's her hover above his cock. He grabbed her neck using his arm choking while he lowers her down ever so slightly. Tobi grabbed her thighs and lined himself up.
Kay went wide eyed and shook her head "wait both of you can't fit! Wait a sto-" both Tobi and L inserts themselves into her, stretching her out unlike she can imagine. Kay's eyes rolled to the back of her head and gritted her teeth.
Tobi smashed his lips against her, holding and cupping her breasts, enjoying the sounds she's making "you're so cute" he muttered. L tighten his choke hold and his pace starting to get messy, he muffled his moans in her hair and muttered her name over and over again. Kay's back arched and she came her breathing slowly getting heavy. Both pulled out after they came and sat her up.
"Are you ok there?" L rubbed her thighs slowly "yea, yea I'm alright" she muttered.
Both laughed, Tobi climbed off the bed and grabbed an ice pack, tossing it to L, he pressed it onto her lower stomach and kissed her ear "sleep here ok? We can take care of the rest" Tobi nodded and dressed himself up "i have to go back to work, bye!" he waved and left.
"shh...Stay with me for a sec, Gantz will carry you home if you can't, but for now let's just cuddle huh?"
"hmm? Yea sure" Kay yawned and fell asleep cuddling into L's chest, he smiled and hugged her closer
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Jan 13 Arc de triomph-pot, dogs, wheeled vehicles.
So. Future Monica gonna take over again. I was trying to go to the intercambio at space cowboy that takes place every Thurs. Except that one apparently. Total waste of a metro ride. I walked back and it was FAR. (My theory is the more I walk places, the more likely I am to know my way around. So far: no luck. I mostly will end up somewhere and, to quote teen Titans "oh, I l know where we are, we're at the place I didn't know where we were before." With no clue how I got there. There's Avery lovely park that I swear is a repeat of Setas de Sevilla. No matter which way I go or come from, I end up there. It is a nice park to be fair. I ended up there yesterday trying to get to SaFa library. I heard one person call sagrada familia SaFa once, and I'm going with it. Cuz I'm lazy)
Wow, huge tangent. Sorry.
So, Space cowboy was closed. the nearest metro stop was at arc de triomf. So I went back and wandered around there a bit. Pretty sure that's in El Born, which internet says is one of the hipper areas, along with the gothic district, which is close. I don't know, neighborhoods are important here, but I'm still learning. But the above is a pretty apt description of arc de triomf on a Thursday at like 8 or 9. From the arc there's a long plaza? Paved area or path for people to gather and walk around. I can't think of the word. But there were lots of people and lots of pot, even through my N95 mask. The smell got so strong I eventually had to leave. So lots of people sitting around, a band or two playing. The other group were dog owners playing fetch and exercising their dogs. Lots of dogs. This is a pretty dog friendly city with tons of parks, some with dog parks specifically. Oh well. Maybe if I move back next time? Hind sight 20/20, I wish I would have waited a few days for Mouse to get better. In the end it wouldn't have mattered since Laura was sick. Oh well. It definitely has its pluses, like having to find 2 apartments now. And it's much easier to travel. I just have to actually do that now. But still.
Sorry for the rambling. I really hope at one point these posts will get more stream lined and not just random musings of a scattered mind.
Cheers for now!
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