#and jesus was brown but i guess you probably dont wanna think about that

[persimmontartkisses]

Me, in a conversation: What's going on in Gaza is genocide and objectively abhorrent.

Them: Well, ya know the Palestinians *random bullshit justifications for the slaughter of thousands of innocent people*

Me:

[combat-wombatus]

uHm if you do these and if you want to do it I’d love a bnha matchup <3?

• my name is Aubri, I’m bi but prefer MHA boys tbh. I go by she/her, too.

• I’m a very Gryffindor person. (Sorry if you don’t know Harry Potter - 😖)

• I’m a June cancer, and I have ADHD and anxiety. My anxiety can be literally crippling somedays, but it’s gotten better overtime.

• I’m a bit of a class clown and usually just a clown 🤡 but that’s irrelevant. My teachers all hate me but like school-wise I do well so we have a love and mostly hate relationship 🤧

• I’m usually the ‘entertaining’ friend, in elementary the popular kids would invite me to play games with them because, “you’re funny” and it was like the biggest achievement ever 😭👍🏻 then they’d ignore me but that’s another therapy session

• I’m usually made fun of by people for being ‘weird’ and ‘insane’. Like all through elementary everyone thought I’d be a criminal when I grew up JUST BECAUSE I HAD UNDIAGNOSED ADHD - I hate it here 😐🦶🏻

• I’ve always been super into crime stories/true crime (where my anxiety comes from, I’m always worried about a pesky serial killer just killing me. It’s usually being kidnapped tho lmao) so I knew and still know like all these murder facts and sometimes I’d just randomly be like;

“Hey did you know it takes 12 hours and 2 days to dissolve a body in acid?”

or

“If you bury a dead deer over a dead body you buried deep in the ground, when police dogs sniff it and people dig they’ll just think it was the deer and won’t dig any farther.”

• So maybe people had a reason to be scared of me and think I’ll be a criminal someday, i dunno.

• I love love love reading and writing, and also debating. The things I’ve wanted to be when I grow up are basically: Dog shelter worker, actress, FBI agent, politician, and a writer. But usually I just want to do something that makes a positive impact on people. Like i wanted to be an FBI agent to solve crimes for people. I wanted to be a politican so I could actually help a lot of people. The entertainment industry also seemed like a way to make people happy. Idk, but then I decided I couldn’t be a politican at 10 because they were all corrupt and to be one I would have to be too. 😫🤌🏻 we love some good childhood angst

• the only subjects I’ve ever excelled at are ELA and Social Studies aka History, and Math I can’t do to save my life. ELA comes easy for me and I usually don’t have to work that hard and/or get too stressed over it. But I always get the meanest teachers for some reason. For example, one time I did my final essay for like 30% of my grade in 30 minutes the day it was due and I got an A+ 🦟🦗🦟🦗

• Uhhh id describe myself as a pretty loyal friend, I’m a ride or die type of girl. A story from my childhood that summarizes it pretty well is when I was in 2nd grade my friend wet her pants and she didn’t want to go to the nurse for it alone so I peed my pants so I could go with her and she wouldn’t have to be alone. Like, you know, a professional problem solver

• and I have genuinely attacked people for fucking with my friends but don’t snitch pls 🕳🏃‍♀️💨

• But also just anyone, people at my school tend to come to me with their problems for me to either help solve them by reasoning, or just to confront the other person like the bad bleep I am 😈😈

• I also have a huge daydreaming problem, it’s literally maladaptive daydreaming. So paired with my ADHD I don’t get shit done like ever.

• I have really high empathy levels I guess, like I always say hi to everyone I see on the street, especially if they look sad 😔 I’ve done it ever since I was a little kiddo.

• My fashion sense is very much a preppy/alt style. I wear those ripped tights and fishnets, I also have the MOST BIZARRE JEWELRY- like who allowed me to buy the gummy worm glittery earrings, hmmm???????? and those Mary Janes???????

• But I love crew necks and pleated skirts so I always obide by the National “hoes dont get cold” policy 🇺🇸😫🦅

• I wanna move somewhere someday, I don’t want to stay in America for very long

• I can speak Latin, French, and my native language which is English.

• My music taste varies, but my all-time favorite artists who all of their music they’ve ever put out has been my favorites are, Billie Eilish, Melanie Martinez, and Conan Gray.

• I no-joke have a sign in my front yard that says;

In ✍️ this ✍️ house we ✍️ don’t ✍️ worship Jesus ✍️ but instead ✍️ Melanie ✍️ Martinez

• My favorite shows are MHA (duh), The Promised Neverland, and Malcolm in The Middle.

• and I’m not going to tell you what I prefer in a partner, because that ruins the fun 😤

• but I will say I cannot be friends with someone who doesn’t really make me laugh. Like I’m used to doing most of the talking in convos but if you’re just boring I’m sorry it’s nothing personal but no thanks 😐✌🏻

• About my physical appearance, I have fluffy n curly brown hair, but when it’s in the sunlight it looks sort of brown but golden yk?? It’s shoulder length :) I have bleach blonde streaks in the front. I like wearing eyeliner most days, too. I’m pretty average size/ on the skinnier side. Kinda high key inscure abt my body bc I got flat shamed in elementary EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TIDDIES NOW- whatever 😤🙄. I also have crystal type blue eyes, and I do have fairly big eyes. But, like, not weirdly big. A good big. My cheekbones are ALWAYS PRESENT so sometimes I get called a Tim Burton character but it’s cool ig ☠️☠️ oh and I’m kinda short. I’m 5’3, even though my doctor said I’d be 5’7. I feel like I was either tricked by the doctor or someone just stole my destined height while I was asleep. It’s probably cause I didn’t keep an eye out for Selener 👁 😔😔

• I’m a definite night owl, like all of my energy comes at night which really sucks cuz I can’t do much since everyone else is asleep.

• My love language is touch starved so I’ve never figured it out ✌🏻😗🔫

• but I am an attention whore so idk 😏

• I’m a huge introvert with social anxiety. It isn’t as bad as it used to be cuz I used to not be able to like go to restaurants but now I’m much better.

• I’m a huge history person, mostly like sad history LMFAO. Uh but a lot of my hyperfixations have been on history. Some examples are The Roman Empire, Julius Caesar himself, Anne Frank, The Titanic, the Black Plauge, Helen Keller, Marie Curie, Slavery in the US, Joan of Arc, and just a lot more. I always love talking about these things if someone would let me ramble to them but no one ever does 😖 it also got to a point where for all these subjects I’d go to the library and try to find a book on them but usually I’d either have already read it or I’d read it and know all the information.

• I’m super into Greek Mythology, I have 7 books filled with the stories, I’m going to Greece maybe this summer to see it’s history, and named my hamster Aphrodite but we call her Aphie. I also will talk about this forever and ever if you let me.

• My favorite color is yellow, my favorite food is literally nothing I never have an appetite, my favorite planet is Saturn, favorite song is Tag Your It by Melanie Martinez atm but it changes like everyday.

• Music is a huge safe-space for me if I’m feeling down or having a panic attack. It calms me down n is overall my coping mechanism 💃🏻💃🏻

• Biggest fear is spiders, even looking at one gives me a panic attack and I cannot sleep at all for that night, adding to my insomniac ass 🧎🏻‍♂️🏌️‍♀️

• I’m mature for my age, I don’t exactly like hanging around kids my age and I get along better with older crowds.

• i don’t like conventional dates, (I PROMISE IM NOT TRYING TO SOUND ‘QUIRKY’ AHAHA) I kind of like having a best-friend type partner more so dates that aren’t as romantic as like the movies or a fancy restaurant suite me better. My dream date is playing Monopoly on my bedroom floor 🦧

• Also I hate getting gifts. End of story. If someone gets me a gift like awe that’s nice but never again, I’d prefer to get you one. Especially in a romantic partner 😐 i keep a journal of my friends’ interests and hobbies so I can get them the perfect gifts for their bdays and Christmas’s. Been doing this ever since 4th grade.

• Though I don’t have much actual experience with relationships🧍🏻‍♀️

• I’m a huge believer in ‘family isn’t blood, it’s who you make it’ because I have a pretty shitty family life and my childhood has been trash. My friends are my family to me.

• Also if my friends don’t like my romantic partner ✨ GOODBYE ✨. Sorry girlie, bros before hoes 🦨💨

I was going to put more but I’m so so sorry for how LONG AND COMPLICATED THIS IS- idk if this is a autobiography or a matchup at this point 🤦‍♀️ don’t feel pressured to do this and if matchups aren’t open IM SO SO SORRY LMAO uh yeah ilysm 🦎🎂🧃

OMG ASLDFKJHASLKDJH

🥺 i’m so sorry bby but matchups are closed ;-; my 100 follower event was over while ago (i guess i should’ve specified that in the asks i answered LKSAJHFLKJAHDS SORRY IT’S MY BAD) but you sound so cool?? i had a lot of the same hyperfixations interests (heLLO helen keller was badass AF and the roman empire was messed up but still v cool, anne frank was awesome too) i also may or may not have wanted to be a politician when i was younger alskdjfhalkdhj but now i’m just 🧍🏻‍♀️ lost and anyways you’re amazing >.< love u lots and don’t forget to drink water and eat a lil something hehe :p 

[splendidshinobi]

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST 2003 LIVE REACT: EPISODES 6-10

back at it again with the white vans

episode 6: the alchemy exam

alrighty then

um mustang calling edward “ed” is EXTREMELY offputting

ohhhhhhh noooooo not shou tucker

FUCK

im wholly unprepared

them all being in central instead of east is low key jarring like my brain isnt computing it

alexander’s intro is basically the same 

nina bbyyyyy girl u deserved so much better

ed is such a fucking nerd...chemistry club modern au confirmed

god the more tucker talks the more i wanna beat his face in

al pretending to eat by tossing a potato in his armor i-

aww theyre playing in the snow theyre so pure

wonder how long thatll last

“bigger brother” and “little big brother” and ed doesnt even get mad

ed’s birthday party????????

A MELON? ED YOURE SO RUDE

so 03 had ed’s bday instead of elicia’s...CAUSE THEY GOT ELICIA IN THE WOMB

“it’s here!” “the tea?” “the baby!” hughes is a fuck head

ok so now they’re having elicia replace rush valley baby arc

this was winry’s time to shine in fmab i miss her 

if winry isnt here who is gonna birth this baby

oh my god they just realized ed can use alchemy without a circle

no wonder he’s been using circles this whole time

SO ELICIA JUST POPPED OUT????? WHAT

STUFF ALEXANDER IN THE ARMOR AND PRETEND YOURE A TALKING DOG???

“i dont think thats very funny” NO ALPHONSE IT IS NOT

THEY KNEW EXACTLY WHAT THEY WERE DOING WITH THAT ONE I SWEAR TO GOD IN THIS ESSAY I WILL

damn bradley what up homie

im so thrown off by the way theyre doing the exam omg

seriously what the hell is fuhrer bradley’s purpose right now is he even the fuhrer in this i feel like they wouldve mentioned it

oh lord ed is about to impress everyone with his clappy hands

ok so next episode is nina FUCK

episode 7: night of the chimera’s cry

havoc babeeee

im gonna marry him my himbo king

also can RIZA DO SOMETHING PLZ

“huhhhhhhhh nina” ew tucker that was weirdly gross

wonder why

cant do it cant do it

do we think jean kirstein was modeled after jean havoc slightly looks wise

was that purposeful 

ill have to google 

serial killer who only targets women?  it cant be scar...scar drinks respect women juice

barry or slicer bros maybe? um ok

why did we start with liore if they were just gonna hop right back into the past for a huge chunk of episodes idk

assessment day??? oh noodles

AL WHY DID YOU TELL TUCKER TO MAKE ANOTHER TALKING CHIMERA ALPHONSE NO

THE NOISE I EMITTED IM GONNA TAKE A LAP

im gonna FUCKING SCREAM

ed r u writing to winry??? that’s a bit out of character for u good sir

no tucker put that baby down

im gonna fucking SCREAM

aww he burned nina’s picture thats not sus at all

SHESKA!!!!!

wait does the ironblood alchemist know what tucker did to his wife? thats kinda the vibe im getting

SCARRRRRRRR

looking like a pirate too damn

his voice sounds different is that j michael tatum 

apparently not it was dameon clarke in 03 ya learn something new everyday 

ew elicia has a lot of hair for a FUCKING NEWBORN

ed really is such a cynic very suspicious of everyone as he should be really

basque grand knowS SOMETHING

oh jesus oh fuck oh god please do not TOUCH THAT BABY

ed and al snuck back in to the house well u know what its for the best

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

im gonna cry again please god no

FUCKING DIE SHIT HOLE

she’s hurting? oh my god

my sweet angel

ew his eyes!!!!!!! 

tucker is such a fucking failure...like look at the chimera squad and greed’s theatre troupe being the way they are. ugh it really hits how fucking unfair it is 

ed was really about to split them? boy you know better

where is nina going...im hurting

ed really tried to save her in this one

SCAR KILLS NINA IN THE STREETS???????? SIR

thats different

oh snap 

oh FUCK

SCAR WHY DID YOU LEAVE HER BODY LIKE THAT

THE WAY SHE WAS ARRANGED ON THE WALL THAT WAS FUCKED UP

AND THEY FOUND HER LIKE THAT???? AT LEAST IN BROTHERHOOD THEY DIDNT HVE TO SEE HER CORPSE ARE YOU SHITTING ME?

that was fucked.

episode 8: the philosopher’s stone

can yall get ed and al away from nina’s fucking MURAL 

get out of the car mustang

finally jesus christ

roy mustang talking about healthy coping mechanisms dont make me laugh but alright baby boy go off i guess?

im curious about who this goddamn serial killer is though lets turn to that plot thread

r u kidding me

mustang is making ed and al take over tucker’s research?? thats actually wildly messed up

oh tucker was straight executed that’s a choice i guess

tucker and the philosopher’s stone sounds inaccurate but ok

ed please stop being mean to your brother

03 mustang has got me reaching for a fucking baseball bat on GOD

scar and edward having this conversation right now i literally cannot

WINRY yes bitch

BRADLEY WHAT IN TARNATION

JESUS LORRRRRRDDDDDDDDDDDD

alphonse shut your mouthhhhhhhhhhh

im so confused what is bradley up to

“alchemists are not cold blooded murderers?”

i mean

kimblee would beg to differ for one

whos this creepy lady 

her voice sounds familiar

barry’s food shop?

the killer is barry ok got it

IS BARRY DISGUISED AS A WOMAN

I KNEW THAT WAS JERRY JEWELL’S VOICE

WELL I KNEW IT SOUNDED FAMILIAR AT LEAST

WINRY GET OUT OF THE FUCKING TRUCk

has PINAKO TAUGHT YOU NOTHING

ok so i VASTLY prefer suit of armor original manga canon barry

this is such an odd plot what in fuck

um OW the meat cleaver

im so confused this fucking plotline

oh hey alphonse nice of you to show up!

is barry still gonna become a suit of armor later on

it makes NO SENSE to introduce him otherwise 

everytime i see 03 mustang i wanna beat his ass HONESTLY

literally i will shove my foot up his ass

fullmetal here we go

ed thinks he’s so punk rock 

oh great scar’s seen the watch

episode 9: be thou for the people

ed you simp buying winry all this stuff my edwin heart is ascending

SIMP SIMP SIMP

“mr. elric”?? you mean MAJOR ELRIC

to be fair though fuck the military

YOUSWELL??? oh LORD

im gonna need to read a full chronology of this show

 alphonse continues to be a precious angel 

where’s my boy yoki!!!!!

edward you idiot don’t go flaunting your money

woof woof ed

al looks so offended by ed saying they just met

whereas in brotherhood didnt he totally throw ed under the bus??? 

a choice to be sure

ah there he is hello yoki

who’s the chick

shes a lesbian

yoki makes me miss my baby girl mei chang

mei where r u

WAS THIS MILITARY DUDE REALLY ABOUT TO CUT DOWN A CHILD??? oh my god

hawkeye getting a promotion yes bby girl

jesus theyre transferring them to east now OKKKKKAY thats not how it happened it the book but ill take it....just doing it the opposite way i guess

who is lyra who is she

cute some military bribery 

umm lyra what the fuck did you do

lyra is a homunculus im callin it now

they definitely invented/changed up some homunculi in fact im certain they did and shes one of em. gotta be

i feel like 03 wrote ed as much more insensitive towards others than he really is...just a vibe im getting

i know he was faking for the townspeople’s sake but i still get this vibe from other instances 

i mean i cant say its not “canon�� because its 03 canon

anyways what a show off

i cant believe theyre going to east...fuery and breda better be there

ok finally some answers on their ages....ed got his license at 12 like normal and nina and youswell were when he was 12...liore was 15, 

if they didnt flash the ages on the screen id be lost honestly

at least we’re back up to “present day”

episode 10: the phantom thief

ed saying he doesnt wanna see mustang

same

03 mustang is activating my fight or flight and im choosing fight

ed cheating at cards totally checks out

um who the fuck is this woman

what is she wearing

SERIOUSLY WHAT IS THAT CUTOUT MAAM HOW DO YOUR C**CHY LIPS NOT POKE OUT

idk but this is fem!hisoka

“hey shouldnt we talk first” after getting handcuffed??? christ almighty these innuendos

siren??????? siren is probably also a “fake” homunculus

ugh

ok so the nurse is siren

ya aint slick girly

alphonse control your crush

I REFUSE!!!! ALMEI RIGHTS

why is al’s hair so brown in this flashback anywayssss

oh its spelled psiren ope

like she’s literally a batman villain...

oh my god...............the tiddy grab. my son would never

my son is respectful

is this her homunculus tat or just a random alchemy tat

the added plotlines and original content continue to confuse and astound me every single time....

ok but if psiren really was doing this for the hospital she wouldnt be so flashy about it. like thats how you get caught sweet cheeks

girly stop flirting with this child on god im gonna fucking kick you

now shes a nun????????????????

Shes a fucking troll i hate her

im going to kick alphonse into the sun 

oh great now shes a teacher

wow shes a savior. the savior of amestrian venice. greatttttt

ed looking exactly like this emoji on this gondola rn 🧍‍♀️

STOP FLIRTING WITH THE CHILD 

GOD THIS IS SO BATMAN VILLAIN ESQUE

alphonse plzzzzzzzzzz she aint your girl

ok so probably not the last we see of this ding dong con artist

ok so its starting to get muddy. im scared the 03 stans are gonna come after me like i do like it and im having fun watching it but some of the plot and characterization choices are just....odd??? idk i gotta keep going though!! im sorry i just stan arakawa and her work in all her glory!!!

[stellarboystyles]

1. What is you middle name? nichole 2. How old are you? 22 3. When is your birthday? august 29 4. What is your zodiac sign? virgo sun, cancer moon, gemini eising 5. What is your favorite color? yellow 6. What’s your lucky number? i hate numbers 7. Do you have any pets? 2 puppies 8. Where are you from? ohio :/ 9. How tall are you? 5′5 10. What shoe size are you? 7 1/2 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? like 40 LOL 12. What was your last dream about? me & my friends were shooting off fireworks from our window and trees were being incinerated and then i was in my parents bedroom with (they weren’t my parents but they were in dream land i guess???? idk???) and this ed kemper looking dude was trying to attack them 13. What talents do you have? double jointed, and i’m a dancer and i sing pretty well IN MY OPINION DONT COME FOR ME 14. Are you psychic in any way? i feel like i can answer yes...like i feel things deeper than other people do, and i can sense when things are going to happen, like bad things 15. Favorite song? The One by Kodaline 16. Favorite movie? scream 17. Who would be your ideal partner? a tall, lanky boy with curly brown hair, four nipples and tattoos. oh, and he has to love love. 18. Do you want children? Y E S  BITCH im so maternal it isnt even funny 19. Do you want a church wedding? not really 20. Are you religious? i beleive in God, Jesus and all that 100% but i feel that times now are a lot different than when the bible was written. we have evolved so much as a species as far as what’s okay, not okay, right, wrong, etc.  21. Have you ever been to the hospital? god yes too many times 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? nope by my moms threatened to call the cops on me and have me taken away when i was a kid for standing up to her VERBALLY 23. Have you ever met any celebrities?  24. Baths or showers? hot showers...but i love a good bath bomb yanno 25. What color socks are you wearing? blue with cherries on them <3 26. Have you ever been famous? my lips are sealed 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? yes but not for the money or fame 28. What type of music do you like? i range from kodaline...to harry styles...to nevershoutnever...to twenty one pilots...to The Vaccines...The 1975...billie eilish...i can go on  29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? nope 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1 31. What position do you usually sleep in? so many 32. How big is your house? 2 bed 1 bath 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? raisin cinnamon bread with strawberry blackberry jelly on top mmmmmmmmm 34. Have you ever fired a gun? no but i wanna learn 35. Have you ever tried archery? NO BUT THA WOULD BE COOL AF 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? shit??? fuck??? idk 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? more than 25 hours 39. Do you have any scars? yes...a biiiig long one all the way down my left arm and elbow 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? lol no i’m from a small town filled with farm boy and none of them will ever be emotionally developed enough for that shit 41. Are you a good liar? i dont think so 42. Are you a good judge of character? yes 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? yessss 44. Do you have a strong accent?i’m am*rican so no 45. What is your favorite accent? harry styles’ accent 46. What is your personality type? introvert to the public extrovert to the people i trust 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?  48. Can you curl your tongue? yep 49. Are you an innie or an outie? both 50. Left or right handed? riiiiight 51. Are you scared of spiders? YES DONT TOUCH ME GET OUTTA MY HOUSE 52. Favorite food? nachos 53. Favorite foreign food? thai food 54. Are you a clean or messy person? both 55. Most used phrased?  56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? depends...could be 15 minutes, could be 2 hours lol 58. Do you have much of an ego? not really 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? biteee 60. Do you talk to yourself? yea 61. Do you sing to yourself? yes! 62. Are you a good singer? i think so 63. Biggest Fear? bugs 64. Are you a gossip? lol NO 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? both 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? i know the damn song and could sing it rn 68. Favorite school subject? history 69. Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no but i want to so bad 71. What makes you nervous? talking to people but i’ve gotten better 72. Are you scared of the dark? not anymore 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? no 74. Are you ticklish? yes get away from me 75. Have you ever started a rumor? probably, my old self was a dumbass bitch 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? yes i’m a dance teacher and used to teach (: 77. Have you ever drank underage? YEP 78. Have you ever done drugs? no but dude i can’t wait  79. Who was your first real crush? J*st*n B**b*r 80. How many piercings do you have? 2...ears and belly button...am i trash? 81. Can you roll your Rs? NO I”M WHITE AF 82. How fast can you type? idk probably less than average lol 83. How fast can you run? not very lol 84. What color is your hair? brown with highlights 85. What color is your eyes? green on the outside brown on the inside 86. What are you allergic to? literally so many types of medicine that i’m not gonna name over the internet lmao 87. Do you keep a journal? yes 88. What do your parents do? dad is a maintenance manager and mom’s a babysitter (: 89. Do you like your age? yes 90. What makes you angry? when  91. Do you like your own name? yea 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? omg so many okay here is my full list currently:

girls: felicity, isabella, emma, aoife (pronounced eefah) nora, rose, hera, nola, june, reece, ramona, violet, lydia, lola, naomi, amelia, luna, gemma, grace, waverly, melody, genevieve, eloise, cove

boys: arlo, finn, archie, calvin, bowie, judah, sawyer, tate, nico, ocean 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? girlie for sure but i’d love a boy after 94. What are you strengths? i like to believe that i’m kind, respectful and a good person  95. What are your weaknesses? i’m anxious, strong willed and i cry a lot 96. How did you get your name? well the person that gave birth to me gave me my name and when my parents were adopting me they wanted to keep my name 97. Were your ancestors royalty? no idea 98. Do you have any scars? lots, i get hurt a lot lol 99. Color of your bedspread? gray 100. Color of your room? blue

[ventylatte]

15/06/19 - 3:08am

i wanna try replicate my mind yesterday when i was doing the dishes at 10pm because it was really racing lmao

as mentioned prior, dan’s video on his sexuality really made thoughts that already swarm my mind way louder than usual, paired with the empty shelf that’s been left empty in my mindscape that had once been FILLED with a-level knowledge and stress. it’s now home to a bunch of loud questions about my identity, ranging from my nationality, religion, where i belong (maybe i’ll rant about that some other day, but i’ve made it vocal to people before) to my sexuality. i’m not sure if this was a ‘realisation’ of sorts but a couple months ago on a walk home from school, i remember declaring ‘if i was white, i would have probably come out as bisexual a long time ago’

and yeah i still believe that, 100%!

because despite my coconut-exterior that i seem to project (i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i feel devalued), i am brown: i do still have asian-indian parents that wouldn’t be thrilled about their son or daughter claiming they’re gay (i say ‘claiming’ because that’s what it would be to them. i know it. ‘such a typical claim in this weird society. bound to happen, it’s a trend these days’, etc.)

i remember asking my mum what she thought about the lgbt, and if i remember correctly, she didn’t mind it, but didn’t want it in her family or ‘circle’.

now i ain’t criticising my parents. many would, but i really can’t. because they were born in a different generation, in a different time where the lgbt community wasn’t exactly as prominent as it is today.

but good god. one day an advert for that reality tv show, ‘the bi life’ i think its called, popped onto the tv, and my dad was all ‘what the hell is this? … freakshow’ (he muttered)

AND I FELT? HURT? no, ‘hurt’ is a strong word. just a bit… prodded at?

and i still can’t decide the reason. was it because i was wondering where i should draw the line with my dad’s remarks towards the lgbt community? i’ve always had this internal debate with myself about whether i’m sort of ‘silencing’ my dad by taking a stand in issues he doesn’t really believe in (primarily the lgbt community, he’s cool with feminism… to an extent lol). he always has a shout about how people can only say what they’re really thinking behind closed doors. would i be taking this away from him? where can i really draw the line in this whole counter-argument of my parents simply being born in another generation? i mean, sure, they aren’t hurting anyone outside (i really hope), but his comments do affect me.

that’s reason 1 i felt a bit disorientated. society’s a bit mad with labels, and i couldn’t find it in me to label my parents a pair of homophobes. BUT AT THE SAME TIME THERE ARE ADULTS THEIR AGE THAT ARE WAY MORE ACCEPTI- i need to stop before i get trapped in this circular argument that i’ve had 19218839 times with myself before - this is already so much longer than i thought it’d be lmfao.

reason 2? and here’s where i feel fake and dumb. something in me resonates with bisexuality.

JESUS, my hands TINGLED and my FACE tingled and it’s starting to heat up right now because i never, ever, ever got that in words, let alone WRITING. because that would make it a real, concrete argument. and maybe no i dont think so elina, stop right theeree duedddeee

i dont know.

i dont know.

sigh.

i dont.

know.

referring back to ‘if i was white, i would have probably come out as bisexual a long time ago’, i know that i would have come out as bisexual if i was white because i feel they have way less to consider when doing so. that’s not to assume that all white people have caring, understanding and liberal parents (but let’s face it dude, white parents are more likely to come around to the idea and other ideas in today’s society that rigid, asian parents would not. might just research into that, lol). a white girl can and will marry a girl if they feel like it, and that’s amazing, that’s so good, that’s so cool that they don’t have maybe other questions that halt this process like: - okay but HOW willing am i to marry a woman? - how plausible is a relationship with a girl? cause, ladies and gents and everything in between, these questions are always pinned under ‘what percentage of me would be with a man rather than a woman’ because fucking damn it, weddings are MAN an d WOMAN AND BITCH IF I AM WHAT IM SCARED TO BE WHAT IF MY HEART LEADS ME TO A WOMAN AND NOT A MAN. think of all the disappointment. white families aren’t as extended as asian families - the news would spread like a vicious wildfire. the prospect of bisexuality for an asian person or a person of colour generally is always pinned with this disgusting, self-denying statement that they really don’t want to think:

‘even if i am, there’s like a bigger chance i’ll marry a man so it doesn’t really matter, right?’

that bigger chance will forever stem from these expectations set by their families, i think.

and it’s always that question that makes them think ‘WELL shit i guess i aint then considering i practically negotiated my sexuality: u cant do that rookie, sexuality is SET IN STONE, so there’s no way you’re that sexuality. you’re only saying it because it’s a thing in society to be.’

it’s just why i dont believe in labels in general, and i love dan’s video so much for dedicated a section towards the matter. sexuality to me is fluid. the only thing that kind of makes it concrete are those labels. labels are great for some people: it gives them a name, a sense of normality in such a heteronormative society. but there’s a negative in that no one can simply just. be.

i wanna.

i dont wanna really.

sigh, am i just trying to align myself with society today? this label-filled society where your worth comes from how many labels you have slapped onto your blazer? it’s like those little patches those sporty, intelligent girls got in assemblies for being leader of the netball team or for excelling in ‘resilience’ or whatever that heck that means. those patches, except they have ones for ‘brown’ +1 point! ‘female’ +1 point! ‘sexually-confused’ +1 point! unless u think ur str***ht, in which case -2 points! where was i going with this AGH my brain isn’t being cohesive it’s just spitting shit everywhere.

another thing that makes me deny it all is my friend. let’s call her peach: she’s brown, muslim, pakistani, has very strict parents, but is still happy to identify as ‘gay’ to the world, and that’s amazing. but it sort of makes me wonder why i haven’t done that yet = thus suggesting ‘yeah im not REALLY, i would’ve felt it like she did in year 8, felt more passion for it - and i dont even have parents as strict as hers, so i can’t be!’ but her sexuality has also been generally fluid: she’s dating a guy at the moment, and has practically abandoned labels for the time being. goals lol.

what the fuk am i saying oh my goddddddd i can’t even make sense of it because i feel like im being super insensitive towards white people sigh forget it im going to bed, maybe i’ll string together something that makes bloody SENSE. its 3am egghj.

EDIT: I POSTED THIS ON RREI-CHAN AFHIAFAHIFA it wasn’t up for long, could’ve been so much worse, could’ve been on ryuga-zuki

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THE SIMSELF TAG featuring yours truly and her wonderful assistant, antoinette

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? mia and thats all ur getting out of me

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? oh god we have some embarrassing ones but jordan and jords are nicknames of mine and u might be able to guess the other obvious ones dgjhfdj

3. BIRTHDAY? february 25th babey

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? OH uhh princess diaries by meg cabot probably

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? not to sure about those funky alien dudes but ehh yeah i believe in ghosts

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? i’d say michael morpurgo but that’s probably because his books were shoved down my throat at an early age DKJDFGJ if you can have a favourite poet i can answer this: atticus and lang leav

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? radio one probably!!

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? the purple one. like, starburst? purple. wine gum? purple

9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? being the millenial i am probably Uh...li...litty

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? OH Hm i’d say ocean eyes by billie eilish

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? Hm!

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO?  copycat by billie eilish!!

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? LIE TO ME IS THE UNDER APPRECIATED SERIES OF THE CENTURY

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN? oh uhh i don’t watch films a lot and especially not if i’m feeling?? sad

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? never heard of them

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? OH jesus lets say. being forgotten or making no difference in the world

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? oh Jesus not a lot of these GJFDH over the past mm month or so i’d say i’ve grown a lot as a person in the fact that i have more respect for myself than i used to, and if i have an opinion on something i evaluate it and decide Do People Really Need To Know? (DPRNTK)

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? EASY my weird. defense mechanism thing. i’ve gotten a bit better in my opinion but the reason i’m usually in so much trouble is because as soon as i’m attacked, i act with anger? its some weird defensive wall that i put up and regret later because i’m not really thinking like a rational person. i just see that i’m being attacked and my first thought is to fight back

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? OH cats because i haven’t had one in ages. one of our cats was run over and the other was taken by our neighbours and now he doesn’t even remember us or respond to his name so thats really fun

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? SUMMER because my skin turns olive in the summer and right now. a bitch is pale! also school is so much nicer in the summer... the whole yeargroup feels like much more of a community because we all sit together outside n it’s just overall very fun and makes me nostalgic of year 7

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? bitch u really thought-

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? still in it but. because of a lot of things i was forced to grow up very fast. something i miss is having everyone in the house (my siblings are both a lot older than me so they’re never around) and not having to worry about fitting into certain stereotypes or WASHING MY HAIR!!!!!

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? oh god ok so i have a “best friend” but we don’t. agree on a lot of things and she takes everything i say 100% seriously so even though we’re not close i’d consider this group of boys from my school my best friends. and online ofc i have Many Many good friends which i would name but i dont wanna leave anyone out bc i talk to A Lot of people DGHDFJ

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? blue blue blue

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? blonde babey

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? my brother

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? would say myself but sometimes i’m not even sure i can trust HER

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? i think about people loads because im a lonely romantic so. i’d say Love Interest and i think about myself a whole lot too like who does this bitch think she is

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? all the time i’m looking forward to things bc. not a whole lot happens in my life so if Love Interest looks at me a certain way i’ll look forward to going to school for the next couple weeks FDJGHFDJ

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? i think of the future way too much. she’s a dreamer

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? oh god uhhh i used to cry at in the night garden all the time when it ended bc i hated that iggle piggle sailed away on his boat DJHFD it was probably still my favourite though

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? i had a best friend who moved away after year seven and i feel like i could but. who knows we haven’t seen each other for years

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? sigh i think so like does it count if my tarot deck says not to do something because. i trust those tarot bitches with all my soul if i have one

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? don’t like the dark, i have a fear of holes, can’t sleep without the door open, can’t sleep when i can see in a mirror (fun fact theres a mirror in my room but it’s on a shelf which i can barely see at night like. i can see a glimpse. but knowing it’s there freaks me out so its flipped and has something covering it)

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? oh ummmm in front i guess because 1. i look horrible in photos other people have taken of me 2. technically being in front of it. you can still take selfies and 3. the people i know take pictures from really weird angles

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? we love a bit of vidya games but i love reading poetry because i’m a whore and also i like singing but that doesn’t mean im good at it!

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? UHHH god i really dont read uhh probably lullabies by lang leav

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? romeo and juliet (the blessed one featuring young leo dicaprio)

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? i can play the guitar, the recorder, a bit of the piano

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? GIRAFFES it’s really sad that they’re now endangered. if ur talkin domestic pets i love guinea pigs, cats and (i’ve never had them but rats

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? don’t. this’ll turn into a follow forever and i won’t get any clout bc it’s in such a long post !

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? OH hm. i thought as hard as my tiny brain could about this and i think teleportation would be interesting but if we can choose ANY superpower. is magic one? that’d b pretty wack

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? when i’m walking to school at half 7 in the morning and no one’s there and i can hear the trees lining the field rustling in the wind in the distance. it was rainng this morning and even though my whole ass was exposed from the wind and i was soaking it was really peaceful. also there’s a red kite that’s resident to our school field and i love to stand there in the morning and watch it sometimes

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? feeling included DGJHDJ doesn’t happen a whole lot

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? i play a lot of sports because i’m in school obviously but i’m really good at rugby bc a bitch is Tactical and Nimble. i love hockey and badminton and stuff though

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? i LOVE smoothies and milkshakes and everything ugh. i’d be bold enough to say i love drinks more than i love food. like apple juice orange juice MIXED juice smoothies BROWN BAG MILKSHAKES! BITCH! THE STRAWBERRY ONE IS SO GOOD UGH

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? oh jesus um. 4 years ago

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? fuck yeah brother

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? UGH A LOT OF THINGS like. people biting their nails. people tapping their foot on my chair. people not listening when you’re explaining something THEY needed help with. tapping a pen on a desk or clicking it on and off

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? nop

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? my mother is a vegetarian so i eat a lot of vegetarian meals. sometimes i get really put off meat but like. a bitch is 13 and doesn’t pay for her own meals so she doesn’t really get a say in what she eats

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? always wanted to entertain people and be nationally recognised. take that as u will

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? TOO MANY let’s go... the arcana so i can marry the 1 (one) love of my life dr julian ilyushka devorak... chill in the hanged man’s realm...

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? i don’t worry about a lot not gonna lie to u

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? cheers i’ll drink to that broe

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? if the screeching sound i make to a slight tune counts as singing then. yes

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? not illegally but i’ve had days off sick where i wasn’t sick bc i couldn’t be asked

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? alone

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? somewhere safe

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? yeah i have a dog and a cat but as i said m cat got taken by my neighbours and doesn’t even remember us so sjfhdjg

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? night owl but if i’m rested well enough i love being up early

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? sunsets

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? no a bitch is 13

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? probably headphones bc i can’t lose them and the sound quality is better but i’m not a MONSTER so earphones. also headphones automatically make old people scoff at u and hate u more

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? nah

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? whatever’s poetic enough to be On Brand

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? don’t really have one

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? no

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? the holier than thou attitude Often showcased on simblr by some. familiar faces

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? it doesn’t really make a difference

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? computer science (mainly for the people because right now we’re just making fucking. powerpoints) or english bc of the people again

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? yee a brother and a sister

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? christmas presents and some perfume & a purse for me

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5′4

75. CAN YOU COOK? not well

76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? attention DFJHGSDJ uhh being kind to people who deserve it and hard work paying off

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? patronization, people who believe their opinion is the only opinion and people who cause minor inconveniences for you for no reason

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? more female probably but i prefer guys

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? i say bisexual but no one’s ever been close enough to let me find out

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? party in the UK

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? kyla rosymiel

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? UHHH i really can’t remember i know me and kyla were talking about something and i started crying JGFHDGJ

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? oh god umm probably smii7y but i also really like all his friends like. kryoz etc

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? when i look good FJDHSJD

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? would say tumblr but she’s gone ! right now i’m really feeling zepeto bc It May Be Tracking Me but it lets me take pics with all my online friends and i have some sort of weird following on there SDFHSDJ

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? i don’t think i’ll ever be able to fully confide in them, i really like my dad but there’s elements of him that don’t really float my boat. same with my mum but i’m less close with her

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? probably australian or. is it swiss? might be swiss.

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? france and ofc america

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 4

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? with like 2 things skdghsd

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? not really but i believe in a higher power of some sort and a life after death. i believe there’s something out there that is listening but i prefer to think it’s the stars

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OF THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? i find the ocean really ineresting but man will always romanticise space

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? im a 13 year old white girl how ruthless can i be

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? sesame seeds

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? nop but everyone else in my family can

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? nope

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? whenever i realise

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? forest

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? it’s better to ask for forgiveness than permission

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? i lie all the time but i am. SO terrible ASJDFHJ i would love to lie less but it’s so easy to slip into one

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? gryffindor

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? hell yea brother

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? kyla put ambivert so i looked that up and. yeah

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? did when i was younger but i guess tumblr is somewhat of a personal diary

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? depends

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? turn it in most likely

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? “yes, but you should never forget about their past” thanks kyla

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? only monsters aren’t

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? nope

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? i have my ears pierced. WILD i know

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? UGH FUCK DR JULIAN ILYUSHKA DEVORAK!! it’d be illegal for him to marry anyone but me though

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? yep! i have a tattoo on my back. i plan on getting a lot more tattoos in the future, but i don’t want anymore in the near future

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? being outspoken and not. watching things pass by

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? of course

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? nopee

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? oof i really don’t know because of what’s happened to me i don’t know if i could knowing i could never protect them from everything. idk pregnancy seems very nice but once the kid gets annoying thats It for me

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? “i think everyone is smart in their own way” thanks kyla

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? i started laughing once in drama and i pissed myself a lil and i was like ehh thats fine i do that all the time and then i didnt stop pissing and someone was like ‘whats that wet on the floor? they were like mia have u pissed urslef i was like nOSDJF so i had to ask the teacher to leave. u coiuld see the piss down my leg

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? have u SEEN these bags. she’s seen hell 

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOUR CLOTHES? like varying tones of beige and then grey/black

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? of course

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? oh uhhh i feel like maybe when i was younger but i’ve. repressed that memory if i have it

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 13 years young

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? oh jesus something poetic and by atticus probably let’s see

after spending more time searching for a quote than i did on literally this whole tag, i decided on this. and then i realised. it will always be ‘YOU ARE A SAD BOY’

[yoongspd]

yo i’ve been tagged by @orb1tch to do this, tysm dear <3 

it said i should be tagging 20 people sooo im choosing some new and old mutuals for this. if you wanna do this go ahead, and if you don’t want to or already have dont mind this it’s okk !!! hi @syubah, @kimnamtaejin, @mangplushie, @lovehobs, @gukster, @mozartae, @bangpdofficial, @kyut-tea, @jinhits, @yeontaen, @jintroduction, @min-jesus, @justinsgf, @napmon, @bbyjoonbug, @hoshikio, @cypheryg, @dykescult im tagging yall.

last

- drink: water

- call: my mom

- text: my mom lmao

- song u listened to: rn im listening to home by brockhampton

- time u cried: yesterday morning but it wasn’t sad crying

have u ever

- dated someone twice: nope never punch me in the face if i do

- kissed someone & regretted it: no

- been cheated on: yes.

- lost someone special: yes

- been depressed: i haven’t been checked by a doctor but yeap and it comes in waves

- gotten drunk & thrown up: yeap lmao it wasnt a good experience

favorite colors

1. beige

2. white

3. blue

in the last year have u

- made any new friends: yes

- fallen out of love: no

- laughed so hard that u cried: yes !!

- found out someone was talking abt u: i guess yeah but i dont remember but it probably happened

- found out who ur friends were: yep

- kissed someone on ur fb friends list: no

general

- how many ppl from ur fb friends do u know irl: 300+ ?? idk maybe more cb these are usually school people and relatives so it’s a lot

- do u have any pets: no T_______T

- do u want to change ur name: nah

- what did u do for ur birthday last year: we probably ate outside i think and my friends and i went out too

- what were u doing last night at midnight: i was asleep !

- what time did u wake up today: 5:30 am

- what is something u can’t wait for: im pretty patient nowadays, ya know enjoying the present but hmm the first thing on my mind when i force this question wld be living a stable life and giving back to my family

- have u ever talked to a person named tom: yeap and i had a huge crush on him

- something that gets on ur nerves: the philippine government !!! cronies are taking over and pulling my country back in the dumps !!!!

- most visited website: tumblr ??

- hair color: it’s colored medium brown rn but it’s naturally dark brown

- short hair or long hair: short

- do u have a crush on someone: yeap, realizing it yesterday was what made me cry

- what do u like abt urself: my mind probably and how looking back i see ive gotten through so many things already :)

- want any piercings: yeap !!1 but i have sensitive ears so i havent had any since i was 12 :///

- blood type: B

- nicknames: chesca/ches but people close to me irl call me chikay, and my family has these nicknames for me: kay/king/chi

- relationship status: single

- zodiac sign: scorpio

- pronouns: she/her

- fave tv shows: i dont rlly watch tv :(((( but the last ones ive seen were friends and stranger things. i like them but i dont think about them much

- tattoos: nope

- right handed or left handed: right

- ever had surgery: yep. i don’t have an appendix now hnfgjsfgks

- sport: im one of the least athletic people you’ll ever meet but i know some softball because i’ve written a sports article on the championship game for our intramurals lmaoooooooo

- vacation: dream vacation ?? any place w rich culture and history. but if this is asking what i did on vacation aside from staying home, we went to Mactan, Cebu last summer. It was beautiful :)

- trainers: ?? hmm i love wearing them bc theyre comfy and i need them bc my feet easily tire

more general:

- eating: i last ate a breakfast meal at mcdonalds w my roomies

- drinking: water

- i’m about to watch: blue is the warmest color tomorrow (i wasnt planning to watch a film actually but this made me think and aaah ok i need to watch this tomorrow while i have nothing to do)

- waiting for: classes to start

- want: a 4.0 GPA at least once and nothing below 3.5 this college

- get married: when im financially stable

- career: i wanna be a corporate lawyer

which is better:

- hugs or kisses: tight hugs !!!

- lips or eyes: eyes :>

- shorter or taller: a taller boii but if we’re talking about girls hmm a petite smol one wld be so cute (im definitely talking about someone here) :(((((((((((

- older or younger: older

- nice arms or stomach: arms

- hookup or relationship: rn i rlly dont need a relationship so id settle for a hookup if i get needy hhhh

- troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker (bc i am one, not intentionally just bc im A Fool)

have you ever:

- kissed a stranger: no

- drank hard liquor: yeap

- lost glasses: yeap all my glasses except the one im wearing rn and the last one i used bc i broke it

- turned someone down: i didn’t have a chance to

- sex on first date: no

- broken someone’s heart: people said so

- had your heart broken: yes

- been arrested: no

-  cried when someone died: yes

- fallen for a friend: yes :/

do you believe in:

- yourself: now i do !!

- miracles: maybe

- love at first sight: no

- santa claus: no

- kiss on first date: it depends

- angels: yeap

other:

- best friend’s name: june (so like i hardly use the nickname joon when i go hard bc that’s just Weird, man)

- eye colour: brown

- fave movie: kimi no nawa :///// or dead poets society

- fave actor: ... i dont watch films much :( ask me about books instead

[rockformed]

1-100 for that ask thing. Cuz fuck you

JESUS CHRIST WILLim putting this under a read more fuck you too

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

soundcloud!! 

is your room messy or clean?

always messy, last time it was clean was when we first moved in lmao

what color are your eyes?

very dark brown

do you like your name? why?

i do!! cause it means “helper”!! and i love to help vv

what is your relationship status?

single as fuck, ive never been in a relationship ;;

describe your personality in 3 words or less

shy, creative, and passive

what color hair do you have?

natural redhead babeyyyy

what kind of car do you drive? color?

i dont drive ;;

where do you shop?

usually i get my clothes from a place called torrid, they sell plus sized stuff!! but i get all my t-shirts from redbubble and thinkgeek! 

how would you describe your style?

all over the place lmao, messy

favorite social media account

tumblr is m fav just cause the site works the way i think it should, in chronological order 

what size bed do you have?

double

any siblings?

yep!! 2 step brothers, 1 half brother and 1 half sister 

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

a small cabin on a riverside with self-sustainability. i just dont wanna have to worry about stuff and be left to myself in a cute little cabin!!

favorite snapchat filter?

THE TIGER FACEMASK ONE

favorite makeup brand(s)

dont wear makeup :p

how many times a week do you shower?

i uhhhhh try to shower once every day but i have a hard time remembering a lot ;;

favorite tv show?

atm i dont have one, i dont really watch tv! im excited for the return of steven universe tho 

shoe size?

8 womens

how tall are you?

5′3″ last time i checked!!

sandals or sneakers?

SNEAKERS, i hate sandals :(

do you go to the gym?

used to every day, stopped cause we moved away from my gym and i have no way to get there :(

describe your dream date

oh gosh, i dont really know, something chill where i could get to know the person a bit, maybe lunch at a cute airy restaurant vv

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

i have misc change and a 15 dollar red lobster gift card lol

what color socks are you wearing?

im not wearing any!!

how many pillows do you sleep with?

3, and many stuffed animals :3

do you have a job? what do you do?

i do commissions, but i dont have a 9-5 “job” yet

how many friends do you have?

oh gosh, uuummmm 2 really good ones, maybe 7 others?? im probably forgetting ;;

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

when i was 5 i stole a harmonica from a cracker barrel and swore on the bible that the woman at the counter let me have it ;;;;; it haunts me everyday for real

whats your favorite candle scent?

i dont have a specific, but i love sweet scented candles, and holiday ones :p

3 favorite boy names

Ben, Oliver, and Andrew 

3 favorite girl names

Lily, Genevieve, and Lorelei

favorite actor?

Robin Williams %100 forever

favorite actress?

amy adams

who is your celebrity crush?

Chris Pratt i guess??? i dont pay too much attention to that stuff :p

favorite movie?

ever, is wreck it ralph, atm is beauty and the beast (not the remake)

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

i dont read too much anymore, but my favorite book(s) is the Doll People by Ann M. Martin.

money or brains?

brains if by brains you include personality

do you have a nickname? what is it?

a lot of people on here call me Rock, but i dont have a real life nickname!!

how many times have you been to the hospital?

one, when i was born lmao 

top 10 favorite songs

GOD fuck umm, Overwhelming by Jon Bellion, Fiddle and the Drum by Perfect Circle, 24 Karat Magic by Bruno Mars, Ticker Tape by Gorillaz, Separate Ways by Journey, I Believe in a Thing Called Love by The Darkness, Beautiful Girls by Sean Kingston (i know, i know), Kill Your Heroes by AWOLNATION, Clocks by Coldplay, and Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap.

do you take any medications daily?

nope!!

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

soft vv cause i drink so much fuckin water lmao

what is your biggest fear?

uhhh my loved ones dying and not knowing if i’d be okay if they did??

how many kids do you want?

NONE 

whats your go to hair style?

natural i guess, i dont really do up my hair :0

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

ideally, id love one of those micro-houses and to travel the country with my house, but if that doesnt work out id like a shotgun style! 

who is your role model?

Robin Williams, again :p

what was the last compliment you received?

“i love the way you color” was the last one!!

what was the last text you sent?

“my feet are gonna fall the fuck off” sent to my mom sjhdfjhdjfs

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

i didnt grow up believing in santa, my mom always just wrote her name on my presents! 

what is your dream car?

a tucker, even tho thats very VERY unlikely lmao 

opinion on smoking?

dont do it 

do you go to college?

no, but i want to!! 

what is your dream job?

character/concept designer for a film or game studio

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

rural!!

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

no >:(

do you have freckles?

lots on my arms, none on my face anymore :p

do you smile for pictures?

yep!! i have a bad sameface problem lmao

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

100+, my phone doesnt tell me an exact number

have you ever peed in the woods?

yep, once when i was younger i got locked out of my house on the way home from school so i had to pee in the woods behind our house and wait for my mom to get home 

do you still watch cartoons?

yeah, its the only thing i really watch lol

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Wendys, but Mcdonalds has better fries

Favorite dipping sauce?

sweet BBQ

what do you wear to bed?

sweatpants and a t-shirt!

have you ever won a spelling bee?

no, but i one a book fair contest once!

what are your hobbies?

drawing, singing, music in general, video games, and seeing how long i can stay up without passing out lmao

can you draw?

i like to think so

do you play an instrument?

flute, but i think ive forgotten how by now

what was the last concert you saw?

i havent seen any, but im going to see one next week!!

tea or coffee?

neither, unless we’re talking sweet tea lmao

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

AMERICA RUNS ON DUNKIN YOU FOOL

do you want to get married?

yes, id like to!! but if the person i end up with doesnt want to im cool with that!

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

im not answering this fkdjgghjdhf

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

depends on the other persons last name and if they wanna change theirs!!

what color looks best on you?

green!

do you miss anyone right now?

yeah, a friend of mine and my dad :(

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

closed and locked lol

do you believe in ghosts?

somewhat

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

when people are rude or self-absorbed ://

last person you called`

my mom

favorite ice cream flavor?

cookie dough!!

regular oreos or golden oreos?

regular (put them in the fridge first, they’re better cold!!)

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

i hate sprinkles :p tastes like paste 

what shirt are you wearing?

a fallout t-shirt!

what is your phone background?

cinderella’s castle, a pick that i took last time i went to magic kingdom!!

are you outgoing or shy?

shy :3c

do you like it when people play with your hair?

yeah!! but only if i know them fkhgdfg

do you like your neighbors?

some of them, our neighbor to our right is really nice but past that we have two trump supporters and on the left we have a couple thats really really mean lmao

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

in the morning!!

have you ever been high?

nope 

have you ever been drunk?

nope 

last thing you ate?

 a subway sandwich!!

favorite lyrics right now

???

summer or winter?

WINTER PLS

day or night?

Day, specifially mornings :o

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

milk!!

favorite month?

december :)

what is your zodiac sign

cancer!!!

who was the last person you cried in front of?

uhhhh my therapist lmao

FUCK YOU WILL THIS TOOK ME AN HOUR

[sunsplatteredfeathers]

Hehehe bold is my friend, italics is me

also, i have more tea between me and the flower crown girl

OMG yas tell me

one min leave you in suspense

how dare you

hahah back so we were out in the field near the bleachers she made flower crowns, I made a braided flower boquet two of our other friends started joking about flower girl and I getting married

OMG OMG OMG Can I be the flower girl?

sure. we need a name for my flower grl tho

oh yeah i didn't even think of that i have no idea uh Rose? Like rose and jack from titanic because you two are lOvErS and because she likes flowers

fine, RoSe Rose said she was too young to be married lol

ooooh she's a free spirit cute

so she gave me her flower crown instead. we were called back inside and i gave her the boquet with the reassurance she wouldnt have to marry me.

oh [my name] it's so romantic i stan i stan SO HARD oh god

yesterday i saw the boquet wilting on the floor of the parking lot nearby. so yk

..... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO [my name] THAT'S HEART BREAKING [my name] UGHHHHHHHHHHH imma whoop her [butt] what's her address?

stop, dont kick her [but] no

*huffs in annoyed gay*

(im using they them for my friend so i dont accidentally ot them) (another different friend) so they started to say something that i guessed was "i have a crush-" and they finished with a male classmate's name and earlier that lunch they had been asking if we knew said classmate's zodiac

teaaaaaa jesus there's so much d r a m a at ur school wait so do you think this person's crush is like good for them or are they an [butthole]

the crsh is nice

that's good i hope you and flower girl figure it out tho

same she's a normal ruler thogh so it probably wont

damnit the world IS SO UNFAIR to bendy rulers like you and me

also, wanna hear about some transphobic [poop]?

not really but sure go ahead

so i said to my class that a male was one of the top results for my name

ok...

and they started saying "are you actually a guy? ewwwwww"

..... HOW FUCKING DARE THEY IT'S NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS IT DOESN'T MATTER AND IT IS FUCKING STUPID

yeah not very happy with them atm

of course not addresses?

no, [her name]

aw mannnnn [my name with extra letters on the end]

no murder allowed

ughhhh who made that rule? what's their address?

my teacher. if my class isnt allowed to morder anyone, you arent either so no

dang that's sad

😖😩😣

also when my friend came out with their crush i said my type was brown hair a little later and glanced at rose so

omg omg OMG [my name] MAYBE THE WEDDING ISN'T DONE FOR JUST YET i still claim rights to flower girldo you think she knows?

none of my friends seem to know so shrug

well i hope things work outtttt

so do iiiii

I had to edit so much cussing out

Rebloging Platy- Read the tags

[justrandomlyfloating]

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag! Thank you @lionheartlouist for tagging me im love u a billion buckets!

LAST [1] drink: uhh..i think it was coke? [2] phone call: my best friend [3] text message: my best friend [4] song you listened to: Castle on the Hill by Ed Sheeran [5] time you cried: uhhh...i think the night before last? [6] dated someone twice: No,no,no,no [7] been cheated on: Yeah fuck [8] kissed someone and regretted it: not to be bitter but i got cheated on even         before i got kissed so  [9] lost someone special: yes many times [10] been depressed: hell yeah its my middle name [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no drinking for me nope

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] ocean blue [13] lavender [14] black IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: Yeah [16] fallen out of love: not in the last year no  [17] laughed until you cried: no,,,,what the fuck is my life??? [18] found out someone was talking about you: Yeah it was funny actually [19] met someone who changed you: yes definitely [20] found out who your true friends are: yeaahh,,still stumbling tbh [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: I DON’T HAVE A FACEBOOK BOOM! [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: read above statement [23] do you have any pets: yep a cat [24] do you want to change your name: Never! [25] what did you do for your last birthday: I went to volunteer at this animal shelter [26] what time did you wake up: 8 am [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: tumblr???????????????? [28] name something you cannot wait for: JULY 21ST BINCHHHHH [29] when was the last time you saw your mother:today morning   [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my tendency to over worry [31] what are you listening to right now: Nothing [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: no?why?this is so random? [33] something that is getting on your nerves: all the hate in this world its so ugh [34] most visited website: klhjhlkhl WHADDA YA THINKK?? [35] elementary: mmm..i was a shy kid but it was alright i guess

[36] high school: well,for the most part it was great but 11th  grade was the shittiest year i have ever had to experience

[37] college: im still waiting to get into one fml [38] hair colour: black  [39] long or short hair: shoulder length what does that qualify as? [40] do you have a crush on someone: nope havent had one for 3 fucking years now [41] what do you like about yourself?: ??????? [42] piercings: ears   [43] blood type: O +ve [44] nickname: well a lot like A LOT  [45] relationship status: SINGLE FOREVER  [46] zodiac sign: pisces!!!! [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show(s): oooh,,,,i love love love stranger things [49] tattoos: not yet but someday YES  [50] right or left handed: right FIRST… [51] surgery: ring finger,,,,,its a long story lmao [52] piercing: the ear piercing when i was a tiny little soul [53] best friend: i think they’d wish to stay anon [54] sport: Lawn Tennis (wtf dee idk  how we are so alike its creepy lmaoo) [55] vacation: i dont remember lol kgfkj [56] pair of trainers: huh? [57] eating: okay i dont have this huge of a fucking memory okay?? [58] drinking: uhh it was beer i think it was horrible i hate [59] i’m about to: go dress shopping for my school reunion actually

[60] listening: absolutely nothing [61] waiting for: my admission to a fucking college fuck my life [62] want: to dieeee ahh..IM KIDDING..I WANT SOME PEACE JESUS [63] get married: idk man,,,,its complicated  [64] career: dont ask me plz just dont YOUR TYPE… [65] hugs or kisses: hugs nice warm hugs :’‘‘( [66] lips or eyes: well kind eyes maybe?? [67] shorter or taller: toll [68] older or younger:  older yepppp yep  [69] romantic or spontaneous: idk idk i have no fucking idea [70] nice arms or nice stomach: dont know dont care [71] sensitive or loud: WHY DO I HAVE ZERO IDEA ABOUT MY TYPE AGHH [72] hook up or relationship: ho ho ho never hooking up man nope [73] troublemaker or hesitant: well...how bout a careful troublemaker?? fuck kill me HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger?: why would i do that [75] drank hard liquor?: noooooooooooo [76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: nope [77] turned someone down?: yeahh..rather passive aggressively  [78] sex on first date?: Are you kidding me? [79] broken someone’s heart?: i hope not? but probably? [80] had your own heart broken?: Yeah man badly that felt like shit [81] been arrested? : no im not that active [82] cried when someone died? : Yes,,,,for embarrassing no of times [83] fallen for a friend: no i have not & i dont want to

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself?: fuck no [85] miracles?: jesus no [86] love at first sight?: not in my case no [87] santa claus? : weeellllll ,,my inner most child wants me write yes SO [88] kiss on the first date?: -------- [89] angels?: mm yeah [90] current best friend’s name: on here i think dee’s becoming my best friend so is bia i love you both [91] eye colour: dark brown [92] favourite movies: i love The Book Thief,,uhh i loved Jane Eyre( the most recent one,,it was SO intense) and Pride?? Ben Schnetzer has my hearttttt

OOOkay,,that was 92 truths about me so now you know that im indecisive and am still trying to figure out what the fuck is this life gkjdglf.Also,im so sorry for swearing this much ok thank.

And i wanna tag @louisankletat , @haztomlins , @maddisondarling , @everyone-is-gay , @bus1pride , @larryiswhatilivefor , @sivancrews , @louislittlefeetsies , @dunhkirk , @daisieslouis , @onelittlepieceofheaven , @16isinlovewith18 , @louisfeatlauren ,,, and am i missing anyone?? well then anyone else who wants to do it consider i tagged you!!

ok bye.

[peanott]

92 Questions

@useless--mind thanks for tagging me bud!! i love doing these even if no one gives a shit

Last:

1. Drink: milk

2. Phone call: with my grandpa

3. Text message: “👀👀👀“

4. Song you listened to: ultra bra - kaunis ja ylpee 

5. Time I cried: cant remember the last time i properly cried (its not even a rare occurrence just doesnt pop into my mind wtf) but my eyes got wet like two hours ago bc my sister sent me silly pics with her baby and was just extraordinarily sweet love her :(

Have You:

 6. Dated someone twice: no

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nope

8. Been cheated on: nah

9. Lost someone special: yeah

10. Been depressed: yes

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: unfortunately................

List Three Favorite Colors:

12. violet

13. baby blue

14. orange mayb

In The Last Year Have You:

15. Made new friends: ive got closer with a few people so kinda? 

16. Fallen out of love: wtf is this love ya keep talkin bout

17. Laughed until you cried: yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: hahaha yeah 

19. Met someone who changed you: nah

20. Found out who your friends are: in a way? ive not been thinking about this profoundly at all but the way ive perceived some people has strengthened for better and worse which led into new relationship dynamics

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: not on the lips 

General:

22. How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: vast majority

23. Do you want to change your name: noo im used to it but at the same time it sometimes hits me that its ACTUALLY my name (its not even anything special i just have confusing thoughts) so it does keep me on my toes and wont get bored of it 

24. What did you do for your last birthday: I CANT REMEMBER lmao ok i dont think we celebrated it on my actual birthday at all bc it wasnt practical that way but i had my sisters over the day before

25. What time did you wake up: 7am cause i hate myseldf

26. What were you doing last night at midnight: drinking water at my friends so id sober up bc im a fucking idiot pls slap me thrice dont hate me 

27. Name something you can’t wait for: get used to the new school i go to in two days (yea i havent even started yet but i can feel the bricks im shitting for the next month or so)

28. When was the last time you saw your mom: an hour ago?

29. What is the one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wanna be able to enjoy living my life properly and take more risks without worrying all the time  

30. What are you listening to right now: partners in crime part three by the internet

31. Have you talked to a person named Tom: no?

32. Most visited website(s): twitter tumblr youtube how generic

Lost Questions:

33. Mole(s): i have three moles (on my temple, under eye, above eyebrow) that form a triangle i was so ecstatic when i discovered this like two years ago

34. Marks: what kind of?? i mean i have stretch marks one from vaccination but thats it i think

35. Childhood dream: either a fashion designer or a housewife lmao

36. Hair color: mYsTiC vIoLeT according to the hair dye idk its hard to describe a dark mix of brown n purple (and red?)

37. Do you have a crush on someone: no

38. What do you like about yourself: that im quite tolerant and considerate of others, how self-aware i am cause thats the only thing that will keep me sane, i can be funny and not take things that seriously but still have extensive opinions and  thoughts on everything

39. Piercings: both ears x2

40. Blood type: a(+ i think) 

41. Nicknames: vertsi or however you wanna twist it its fine i love it

42. Relationship Status: singley

43. Zodiac Sign: taurus

44. Pronouns: she/her

45. Favorite TV shows: oitnb, lie to me, htgawm, skins, drag race, the get down, black mirror

46. Tattoos: none

47. Right or Left hand: right

48. Surgery: none

49. Hair Dyed A Different Color: ye different variations of brown and purple

50. Vacation: last one was to budapest about three years ago

51. Pair Of Trainers: i stole a pair from my mum idk theyre black and pink or some shit

More Generals:

52. Eating: last time? a croissant 

53. Drinking: nothing rn 

54. I’m about to: finish this and then go to sleep

55. Waiting for: a pleasant surprise 

56. Want: a proper social life

57. Get married: idk i loved my sisters wedding but i wouldnt consider marriage a necessity from a romantic point of view. if i ever get married its probably for the legal stuff and the ceremony will be low-budget and simple 

58. Career: probably gonna do something with psychology or languages

Which Is Better:

59. Hugs or Kisses: hugs ?whats a kiss?

60. Lips or eyes: eyes

61. Short or tall: idc!!! ok im kind of intimidated by tall people i feel like they could crush me in a heartbeat but maybe that adds into my excitement  

62. Older or younger: older for now at least

63. Nice arms or nice stomach: great the two body parts that barely hold any meaning to me good choice 

64. Sensitive or loud: im personally both (ok we gotta debate on the loud part with some people) but i think i value someone that is more likely to understand my own sensitivity so i guess sensitive it is

65. Hook up or relationship: relationship

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker sounds disgusting but i guess that since they would push my hesitant ass to do some stretching out of my comfort zone

Have You Ever:

67. Kissed a stranger: no

68. Had hard liquor: yes

69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no

70. Turned someone down: kind of 

71. Sex on first date: no

72. Broken someone’s heart: naah

73. Had my heart broken: nope

74. Been arrested: no

75. Cried when someone died: yes

76. Fallen For a Friend: fgjhjh kinda... got over it fast tho cause it was impossible

Do You Believe In:

77. Yourself: No I Do Not Exist We Are Collectively Hallucinating Me 

78. Miracles: not really

79. Love at first sight: i believe you can sense if a person is compatible with you BUT ITS NOT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT YOU ARE JUST A PERCEPTIVE PERSON 

80. Santa Clause: obvs my Dad

81. Kiss on the first date: i dont think it has anything to do with belief if it feels right at that moment then do it 

82. Angels: um? havent you seen the axe commercial :/ 

83. Aliens: yes!!

Other Random Things:

84. Current Best Friend’s name: mira

85. Eye color: blue and grey or some shit

86. Favorite Movie: black swan

87. Hold an object dear to you: my phone love being a #relatable millennial 

88. Favorite Ice Cream Flavour: vanilla or lemon

89. Least favorite thing: when my clothes fall under my bed and then im too scared to dig them out 

90. Name one thing you could change about the world: no social injustice

91. Current Song stuck in your head: i know by fiona apple

92. Favorite Childhood show: powerpuff girls? idk i liked most of the shows from my childhood

jesus christ sorry this is a hot mess made by  someone who tries to function at 2am using their second language @nuddy-pants do this xx

[whenismuna]

all?

1. Name: stephanie, steph, stoof, mistake

2. Birthplace: iowa bye

3. Ancestry: german and swedish aka whitest of the whites

4. Zodiac Sign: aries :)

5. Biggest fear: lmao being alone and losing trust in the people i care about most haha

6. Strength/Weakness: nothing/everything

7. Worst habit: breathing

8. Favorite holiday: halloween

9. Ever been in a car crash: almost

10. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher: lol who hasnt

11. What do you do as soon as you walk in the house: fill up my water and take off my pants

12. Age at first kiss: 17

13. When did you fall in love for the first time: 17

14. Who Is Your Longest Friend & How Long: michelle, the loml, 10 1/2 years :’)

15. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: dont die maybe

16. What were you doing at midnight last night: listening to after laughter

17. When was the last time you laughed hard: this morning talking to michelle

18. Who was the last person that told you they love you: michelle :’)

19. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up yesterday morning: how am i supposed to know bye

20. Where did you go for your first date and who was it with: very first date was a double-date with my then-friend and our then-boyfriends and we saw that movie with justin timberlake about time?

21. Who’s wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen: my moms :)

22. Who did you see in concert first: weird al in like 4th grade

23. Who was your favorite teacher: SARAH JACKSON MY MOTHER I LOVE HER THE REAL LOML

24. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day: michelle

25. Who do you think about most: michelle or carly rae jepsen

26. Is your ideal occupation? doing anything with animal husbandry/rehabilitation

27. Beer, wine, or liquor? liquor 100%

28. Favourite restaurant? old sammy t’s or maybe legume

29. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? ben and jerrys americone dream

30. McDonlads or Burger King? neither?

31. Fantasy dinner guest(s)? crj, griffin mcelroy, rachel carson

32. Have you ever been drunk? When was the last time? yee like january wtf

33. What is the most embarrassing thing you have done drunk? lmao i sent michelle a bunch of snaps once crying about how much i love dogs

34. Wonder Woman or Cat Woman? wonder woman

35. How many pets do you have? none but i wanna get a kenyan sand boa so bad :(

36. What would be the first thing you bought if you won the lottery? an education

37. When was the first time you smoked? like july?

38. Who last sent you a text? delaney

39. Who did you last send a text to? delaney

40. What 4 things would you take to a desert island? rope, a knife, a lighter, and plastic wrap

41. Name the 3 most important people in your life? michelle delaney and nay

42. Favorite song? rn probably fake happy tbh

43. Favorite movie? always hsm bye

44. When did you last cuddle someone? last night :)

45. When did you last have sex? tuesday

46. If you woke up tomorrow with no fear, what would you do first? so much oh my god

47. What was your biggest worry five years ago, do you still feel the same about it at this minute? i mean this time five years ago i was getting ready to go to camp for the first time so i was probably worried about people liking me and like some of my best friends are from camp so obviously thats not a fear anymore

48. If you could change one law of your country, what would it be? just one?

49. What relationships have ended? But you can’t let go? literally none

50. Where would you take a road trip? everywhere

51. How do Mondays feel for you? time isnt real. i havent known what day it is for the past month

52. If you could spend ten minutes with your ‘hero’ alive or dead what would you ask them? “hi rachel yeah a) are u gay, b) will you marry me?”

53. Do your practice ‘self love’ or ‘self loathing’? love in theory but loathing in practice

54. What’s your greatest achievement to date? beating a game of solitaire in 25 seconds

55. What scares you about your future? literally everything

56. Why does pizza come in a square box? idk?

57. What would happen if you knew you could not fail? id already have my dream job tbh

58. How does it feel to be photographed? if its on my terms, very nice, otherwise no

59. If you could erase an event from your mind, which one would you choose? all of middle school

60. Do you want your children (if you have any) to be ‘just like you’? trick question, i dont want kids

61. Do you stand for what you believe in or are you pleasing others? im the most non-confrontational person i know but if it really gets to morals i will absolutely stand for what i believe in

62. If money were no concern, what would you do for the rest of your life? travel

63. What are you thankful for, this moment? my friends

64. Do you have same sex fantasies? im gay?

65. If you have had sex in a public place, where? nope

66. Have you ever cried during/after sex? nope

67. Who is the oldest person you’ve had sex with? 25

68. Who is the youngest person you’ve had sex with? 19

69. Would you rather be in a relationship with a totally submissive partner or a totally dominant partner? dom bye

70. How tall are you? 5′10 bye

71. How much do you weigh? lmao i dont even know. i havent weighed myself in so long like i dont care lowkey

72. What color is your hair naturally? brown

73. What size jeans do you wear? umm???? 10??? 12????? idk

74. What is your favorite color to wear? black

75. Do you have any piercings? no :(

76. Do you have any tattoos? no :(

77. Do you care how other people see you? sometimes

78. Do you like sports? eh

79. How do you feel about age differences in relationships? it depends. as long as its not a huge age gap its fine idk

80. How do you feel about race differences in relationships? why would that matter?

81. Do you believe in karma or fate? both? more karma though

82. Do you keep a journal? i used to

83. Describe the last dream you remember: i was at delaneys house and her and her mom were showing me around the house and i was sobbing

84. Describe your favorite dream: see above

85. Where are some places you would like to visit? everywhere

86. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend? harry styles, handsome ghost, misterwives

87. What music do you listen to when you are happy? it depends? mostly carly rae jepsen tho lbr

88. What music do you listen to when you are mad? mostly folie a deux or vices or something

89. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles

90. What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed? oh yikes becherovka

91. What are your favorite alcoholic beverages? anything fruity

92. Do you smoke cigarettes or cigars? What about marijuana? nope

93. Who is your number 1 friend and why is he or she there? MICHELLE!!!!! we are soulmates and tbh i swear we were friends in a past life and when we met we knew because we were instantly best friends and i trust her with my life and tbh i could write a 10 page paper on why i love her and why shes my best friend bc wow a+ what a gal i love her so much and she will always be my #1. i am michelle trash #1

94. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member? nope

95. Is there anyone of your friends that you would ever consider having sex with? yeah probably

96. Would you ever have sex in the shower or the bath? nope

97. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex? im gay

98. Do you think your last ex still wants to be with you? lmao tbh who cares im so over that and like lowkey if she sees this i dont really care bc like so much happened and also i have agf now so it doesnt even matter?

99. Ever wondered what it would be like dating the same gender as you? IM GAY

100. What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual people? I AM GAY

101. How often do you brush your teeth? depends on if im in a depressive episode or not, but usually at least twice a day

102. How often do you shower?  When was the last time you had a shower? depends on if im in a depressive episode or not but usually every day, and i showered yesterday

103. How often do you shave your legs? lmao like once a week maybe, that also depends on seasons and stuff

104. Political affiliation? liberal 100% like?

105. Opinion on abortion? jesus christ i dont care like im not boutta stop yall

106. Opinion on immigrants/ immigration reform? we need reform bc people need help and we cant just let them die yknow?

107. Should prostitution be legalized? oh god this is lowkey a super loaded question like theres a lot that would go into this holy shit

108. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? literally what does even mean

109. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? good question

110. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? just one?

111. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? being at camp

112. Would you break the law to save a loved one? it depends? but probably?

113. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? probably france? idk i just always liked it?

114. Why are you the person you are? jesus i wish i knew

115. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? id like to think so?

116. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? misunderstandings 

117. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? so many things

118. Were you happy when you woke up today? i mean i got to facetime michelle so

119. What’s a fact about the last person who text messaged you? shes such a good friend and i miss her and i cant wait to hopefully see her in august bc wow its been almost 2 years since we saw each other and i cry every day

120. Want someone back in your life? my grandpa tbh

121. What are you excited for? a lot actually for once

122. Are you scared to fall in love? absolutely terrified 

123. When is your next road trip? um i guess june because im going to pennsylvania?

124. What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? listened to harrys album

125. Do you like to cuddle? yeS

126. Have you ever kissed more than one person in 24 hours? nope

127. Plans for tomorrow? i have no clue

128. Do you care too much/not at all/just enough? probably too much

129. How is life going for you right now? um id say pretty good. definitely better than it was at this point last year

130. If you were offered a shot of whiskey right this second, would you accept? maybe? idk

131. This time last year, can you remember who you liked? haha yeah lol

132. Could you stay in the same relationship for over a year? i have before so... yes.

133. If you could have one super power what would it be? idk man

134. Background on your cell phone? my dog :’(

135. What are you thinking about right this second? after laughter and how sad/relatable it is ://////

136. Last book you read? How was it? um i still havent finished it but oil and honey and its so good i love bill mckibben so much

137. What is the last thing you bought? halsey tickets :’)

138. Do you live with your parents? yea

139. Have you ever been caught sneaking out? theres really no “sneaking out” of my house anymore bc my dad trusts me to not fuck up?

140. Have you ever met a celebrity? tyler joseph oh my god aleX CAPLOW WOW

141. What are you like when you’re drunk? im super laughy. im a typical drunk girl like idc

142. What are you like when you’re high? chill idk

143. Do you want children? not really

144. Do you want a church wedding? idk probably not tbh

145. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2 but i have 4 that i lay on my bed?

146. Have you ever been scuba diving? yeah i wanna go again and get certified tbh

147. Who was your first real crush? yikEs

148. What are you allergic to? nothing i am perfect, evolution did me well

149. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? nope

150. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? neither

151. How did you get your name? my mom chose it 20 minutes before i was born

152. Name one thing about your body you love? my eyes/eyebrows :)

153. What is your biggest goal in life? be happy and have a job that i love

154. Do you still have feelings for your ex? nope

155. Do you think aliens are real? absolutely

156. What age did you start drinking? 15? 16? 17? i dont know

157. What do you think of President Obama? overall good

158. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? i sure hope so?

159. Describe your dream girl/guy? my gf :)

160. Story of your first kiss? lmao nop

161. Story of the first time you made out with someone? lmAO NOPE

162. Story of the first time you had sex? FUCK NOP

163. When did you first have sex? 18 bye

164. First time you gave/ received oral sex? 18 jesus

165. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to? nope but im gonna have to soon kill me i want to die

167. Favorite fictional character (movie, book, tv show)? cosima niehaus

168. How many followers do you have on tumblr? What about twitter/ instagram? 500 something idk? twitter like 200 something and insta 200 something too? idk im not really on insta anymore?

169. Are you friend with your parents on Facebook? who isnt?

170. First time you thought you were in love? When did you realize that you weren’t actually in love with that person? haha lol wow what a mistake jahahahaha

171. Do you talk to yourself? constantly

172. How old will you be on your next birthday? 20 what the fuck

173. How did you meet the last person you kissed? we were in public speaking together rip

174. Do you have any hickies? yea

175. Turn ons? girls

176. Turn offs? boys

177. What qualities did you get from your mom? all of my bad qualities

178. What qualities did you get from your dad? also all of my bad qualities

179. How many siblings do you have? 2 older brothers

180. Have you ever taken anyone’s virginity? nope

[johnfruanthonykiedisfanfics]

Nobody weird like me- Chapter 11

I still looked with disbelief at her.

“ Ione this is bullshit!” I said pushing her away. 

She looked at me with her mouth open.

“What the fuck Anthony? I offer you a threesome and you refuse it?” Ione yelled.

I was about to get in, when I turned around again looking at her.

“ Its not about the threesome, its about the fact that you wanna do it, just that I prove you, that I have no feelings for Mary! This is ridiculous .”

“ Ah fuck you Anthony!” she yelled, when I slammed the door.

I searched for Mary. There she was, sitting on the couch wit Flea, smoking pot and laughing. Look at that creature, I thought to myself.

“Anthonyyy!” Flea yelled, when I walked over giving him a high five. 

She looked at me, her brown eyes glowing. I grabbed the joint out of her hand, took a deep puff and leaned on to her. Blowing the smoke right into her mouth.

Mary looked dazzled at me, totally high. She simply smiled and only sighed

“Wow!”

Flea laughed out loud and said

“Man that is too much sexual tension in here for my high mind!” 

I pulled Mary up and said

“Lets get out of here!”

“But w..where? I am still working. Pete will fire me, if he sees me like this!” she said giggling

“Oh he won't notice it, lets just take a walk to my car!” I said

Walking out, I looked around if we can sneak out. I decided to walk out of the front, cause Ione would find us at the back door. Holding her by the hand, we rushed out. Then that guy Pete appeared.

“Wait a moment Mar, where you think you're going? “ he said standing in front of us.

“Well, we were about to..”

I interrupted her telling him, that I needed some cigarettes. Pete looked suspicious at us, He didn't believe a word but he said

“ Fine, whatever. As long as you do your work later Mar. Remember I am not paying you only for drinking and stuff!”

We finally got rid of him, arriving at my Camero. She sat on the hood, pulling out   her cigarettes. I watched her as she lit one.

“Want some Tony?” she asked, offering me one.

“Sure!” I said, as I sat next to her.

She laid down stretching, exposing her beautiful belly,

“ Soo, what was that about in the dressing room?”

I laughed

“Didn`t you like it Mary?” I asked her, while supporting my head on my elbow.

“Maybe!” she said

That girl drove me crazy, she had this attitude which made me want her even more. I still admired her body, licking my lips. I finally pulled her towards me, gently grabbing her hips. 

“All day long now, you drive me nuts with you attitude!” I said, as she was biting her lip.

“Well, then what are you waiting for, Tony?!”

That was it, I kissed her so passionate and rough, like I haven't kissed a girl in ages. Our tongues intertwined. My hand running up her breasts, when I felt something, that seemed like a nipple piercing.

“Damn, what we have here?” I said, my mouth getting watery.

“Oh you mean my piercing? she asked me playfully.

“Let me see it!” I said

What she did now, she casually pulled her shirt up, exposing her bare breasts, showing me her piercing. I was baffled, she officially got me hooked now. I pulled her onto my lap, running my finger over her hard nipple. 

“Did it hurt?” I whispered

“ No it was okay, actually!” she said

“You are indeed weird aren't you?” I asked her still admiring it.

Now she pushed me down, I grabbed her cute ass in her tight jeans.

“You have no idea Tony!” she whispered, now biting my ear lobe. Pulling my ponytail, while smirking at me. I could feel myself slowly getting hard, she probably noticing it. Her hand slipping down to my crotch, groping it. I know was breathing harder.

“Do you like that?” she asked cocky

“Fuck yes!” I moaned

She then got off me.

“ I need to go back now, Pete is waiting.

Astonished I looked at her, trying to hide my hard on.

“Wow Girl, you really can tease!” I said standing up. 

“You know, we can continue this in my hotel room later!” I suggested

She laughed.

“Oh like one of your groupies Tony? No no, I will expect you at my home later!”

I gasped

“Really? oh wow, ok then girl, see you later I guess!” I searched for my keys as she walked over to me, pushing me against the car door. She put a note into the front pocket of my pants. So kinky that I lost my shit.

“See you later Tony!” she whispered, while walking off.

Marys POV

Meanwhile in the club, I started cleaning up, when a very excited Ivy came up to me.

“Mary you coming to the Aftershow party in their hotel?” she asked, pulling at my shirt.

“I don't know Ivy, I need to finish my job here first!” I said, while lifting a beer case.

“Oh come on, you need to please! Pleaseee” she begged me

“It depends when I am finished here ok? Don't worry Ivy!”

She jumped when John called her.

“Okay see you there Marybear!” 

“Stop calling me like that!” I said laughing

It took me two hours to clean everything up, with Pete being a pain in the ass.

“Good job Mar!” he said, clapping on my shoulder.

“I told you, I do my job Pete!” I said as I grabbed my leather jacket and backpack.

“Yeah yeah, here is your money! see you next time” he said

“Bye!” I said, waving with my money.

Of course the bus didn't come. Damn I thought, now I have to take a cab. When  a black Camero appeared. It was Tony.

“You need an escort Miss?” he said grinning

“Sure Mister Kiedis!” I said playfully as I got into the car.

“What are you doing here? and why are you not at the party?” I asked curious

“Uh we still can go there Mary! I thought it would be appropriate to wait for a lady!”

“Oh well-behaved of you Toni!” 

We finally arrived at my apartment. Anthony stepped in and looked around.

“Sorry for the mess, but thats who I am!” I said throwing my jacket on the floor.

He laughed.

“Wow I love it, you really live like a true rock chic.” he said while holding up the empty Jack Daniels bottle. 

“Yeah yeah I know, I am a mess!” I said rolling my eyes

He made himself comfortable, his eyes catcht my record collection. 

“Wow really impressive collection!” he said.

“Oh Tony, stop the smalltalk!” as I sat on his lap. I started kissing him really unrestrained, biting his lips in between.

He couldn't say a word now, only pushing me closer to his chest. While he was grabbing my butt, I moved my hips back and forth, slowly. 

“God damn Girl!” he slightly whispered. Squeezing my butt harder.

I could feel how he liked being controlled by me, but now he threw me on my back. 

“My turn little weirdo!” he smirked, pulling my shirt off. Staring at my pierced nipple. Letting his tongue sliding over it, while he unzipped my jeans. 

“Take your shirt off!” I commanded him. 

He took it off, throwing it on the ground. Now I pulled at his ponytail undoing it. The  long hair fell on his shoulders, I slightly moaned.

“Jesus!” I sighed looking at him

He leaned down to me again, now sucking at my neck, while his hand slide down into my jeans.

“Ohh i see you're damn ready for me, Mary!” he whispered, smiling kinky.

I grabbed his crotch, feeling his hard on.

“Well, you as well Tony!” I said, biting my lip.

He pulled my jeans off, now working his hand over my panties. Pushing his fingers inside me, first one, then two. I gasped for air, while he sucked even harder at my neck. I couldn't resist so I pushed him on the other end of the couch, unzipping his pants and pulling them off. Exposing his Calvin´s with his massive hard on. I started giving him head, sucking and licking his member so hard. I could hear him moaning and groaning and when I deep throated, he lost his shit. 

“ God damn Mary...Fuck!”

I could feel how he was really close to cum, so I stopped and he laid me on my back. He now pushed himself into me, fucking me really hard and rough. I then squeezing his butt. We both came within minutes, collapsing into each others arms. I grabbed for my cigarettes on the coffee table and handed him one. While smoking he looked at me and said

“ This was worth the tease Mary!” 

“Yeah? “ I asked kinky, he then laughed

“Dont ruin it now with your attitude Girl!” 

“But I got you with my attitude!” I said playfully

He sighed

“Yes indeed, you got me hooked!” he answered, going through my messy pixie.

[thatfangirlingdepressedkid]

i was tagged by an anon so like here u go

LAST:

1. drink: water

2. phone call: ummmmmmmmm who uses phones anymore?

3. text message: a human

4. song listened to: Death of a Bachelor by Panic! At The Disco

5. time i cried: the question is: when am i not crying?

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated somebody twice: nope

7. been cheated on: nah

8. kissed someone and regretted it: no

9. lost someone special: mmhm this weekend actually

10. been depressed: constantly

11. gotten drunk and puked: im a minor so...yes

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. ugh black isnt a colour...ummmm...very very very dark blue

13. GAY COLOURS LITERALLY ANYTHING GAY

14. very very very dark grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: shoutout to my tumblr fam! oml did i just say fam. fml

16. fallen out of love: i guess so :)

17. laughed until you cried: yeah cause inside jokes ahhhhhhhh

18. found out someone was gossiping about you: ALL👏 THE👏FUCKING👏TIME LIKE SERIOUSLY GET A LIFE

19. met somebody who changed you: yup :) a couple people actually

20. find out who your true friends are: i think so? but i mean...bpd so...i guess we will never know

21. kissed somebody on your facebook list: facebook is for old people

HOW MANY/MUCH:

22. facebook friends do you have in real life: get over it facebook is so 2007

23. pets: ive had 7 fish...ive given up all hope

24. want to change name: idk maybe on my dysphoric days but not constantly

WHAT:

25. did i get for my last birthday: a phone + data and a trip to Toronto for dance as far as i know

26. time i woke up: ummmmmmm ever heard of insomnia?

27. doing at midnight: probably on tumblr while watching netflix sometimes talking to friends

28. something you cannot wait for: death

29. last time i saw my mom: 45 mins ago

30. something you wish you could change about your life: being alive

31. listening to right now: grey’s anatomy cause OML THAT SHOW IS BOMB, jesus did i just say bomb...kill me

32. something that gets on your nerves: homophobes

33. talked to a person named Tom: idfk probably ive met a lot of people through acting im almost positive that i had a producer named tom when i was like 6

34. most visited website: TUMBLR. but netflix and youtube comes a close second...not really but like i use them a lot

35. elementary school: i went to 2 and was homeschooled for some reasons but like only briefly

36. high school: im in high school? only been to 1 but homeschooling might happen probs not but maybe

37. college: probably will be dead by then...BUT...if i am unfortunately alive, ill be in LA idk what ill be doing but ill be in LA or NYC but probs LA

38. hair color: dark brown looks black in the light kinda red and brown and black UGH WORDS u need to see it to understand what im saying

39. long or short hair: TOO LONG. TOO FUCKING LONG

40. crush: a cool human

41. do you like about yourself: i am filled with self hatred. there is no room for ‘liking myself’ what are u talking about

42. piercings: nope no nah nuh uh not happening not today boo boo not today FEMALE DYSPHORIA IM SORRY

43. blood type: you would think i knew cause ive done too many blood tests to count but nope still clueless as fuck cause IM A MINOR FUCK YOU MOM

44. nickname: M, some people call me Mandy but if u call me Mandy ur dead to me

45. relationship status: taken? wow thats weird to say

46. zodiac: Pisces

47. pronouns: she/her? he/him? they/them? EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN? depends on the day i guess...or whatever im feeling? still kinda confused LEAVE ME ALONE OKAY

48. favorite show: grey’s anatomy currently but pretty little liars comes really close

49. tattoos: WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT

50. right or left handed: ambidextrous get on my level

FIRST:

51. surgery: there has been too many i cant even remember my first

52. piercing: ugh refer to 42 ^^^

53. best friend: a couple of them? no names mentioned u know who u fucking are

54. sport: dance, ugh dance, love dance but like love hate, ummmm im really fucking athletic so like everything?

55. vacation: THAILAND U TAKE ME TO THAILAND U ARE OFFICALLY MY BEST FRIEND ALSO LA TAKE ME TO LA PLEASE I LOVE U FOREVER

56. pair of shoes: adidas cause i get them for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

RIGHT NOW:

57. eating: newsflash im anorexic

58. drinking: nothing? water i guess?

59. im about to: UMMMMMMMMMMMMM

60. listening to: LA Devotee by Panic! at the Disco

61. waiting for: death? thats not original...ummmmmmm summer i guess? no summer = stress ummmmmm fuck it death im waiting for fucking death. refer to my blog to understand WHY IM SUICIDAL

62. want to see: my hw finished on my table

63. want to get married: idk i guess so? probs will be dead :)

64. career: acting i think but dance is an option i mean im already in the business and working actively so why not continue? idk if i actually wanna pursue it tho

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. hugs/kisses: depends on the person ;)

66. lips/eyes: ^^^ but usually eyes cause eyes are pretty

67. shorter/taller: people are cute no matter what

68. younger/older: does it matter? “age is just a number”

69. romantic/spontaneous: romantic but i wouldnt know im making an educated guess

70. nice arms/nice stomach: nice humans

71. sensitive/loud: sensitive

72. hook up/relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker/hesitant: hesitant i think?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. kissed a stranger: nope

75. drank hard liquor: fuck yes gets u drunk fast

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: dont wear them...yet....we’ll see (see what i did there) (and there again) I AM AN AWFUL PERSON

77. turned someone down: yes quite often actually idk why it just happens?

78. canoodling on first date: first of all, ive never been on a date. second, im a virgin. third, WHY CANT U JUST SAY SEX? LIKE ITS NOT A BAD THING TO SAY WE ARE ON TUMBLR WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT...okay im done now sorry

79. broken someones heart: oops

80. had your own heart broken: mmhm all the fucking time idk why it just happens, i just realized how many times ive said that

81: been arrested: nah

82: cried when someone died: MMHM ALL FUCKING WEEKEND

83: fallen for a friend: who hasn’t like lesbihonest (sorry im just really gay)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: of course not who do u think ur talking to

85. miracles: i hope so?

86. love at first sight: ummmmm i think so? i really hope so but idk

87. Santa Clause: no but ummm idk but like no but like maybe but like no

88. kiss on first date: yeah

89. angels: i want to believe that i believe in angels but after everything that has happened to me idfk

OTHER:

90. current best friends name: fucking classified bitch leave me alone

91. eye color: hazel

92. favorite movie: anything disney cause im a disney freak ummmm The Imitation Game cause gay ummm OMG PRIDE GREAT MOVIE also love Tomboy cause it made me cry uggggh coming out ahhhhhhh tears ahhhhh

i tag everyone that reads this cause im too lazy

U BETTER DO THIS TAG ITS ACTUALLY A GOOD TAG SO LIKE

[cacowhistle]

ive been tagged for a thing by @fanghoul101 (aka most beautiful girl on the planet fight me) so ig?? ill do it

- Most Recent -

Drink: water, probably Phone call: my dad?? i think?? Text: to my mom, she was calling me downstairs lmao Song you listened to: defying gravity from wicked Time you cried: idk?? last time i remember actively crying was when i watched jacksepticeye’s playthrough of the last guardian lmao

- Have You Ever -

Dated someone twice: like one person twice? no Been cheated on: nope Kissed someone and regretted it: dont think so Lost someone special: as far as i can remember, no? i have a bad memory so like anything before 9 years old is like p damn hazy Been depressed: on occasion.  Been drunk and thrown up: no List 3 favorite colors: dark orangey-red, brown, green

- In The Last Year, Have You -

Made a new friend: ye Fallen out of love: nope Laughed until you cried: like a few days ago i did lmao Met someone who changed you: yes Found out who your true friends are: ive known that for a while Found out someone was talking about you: nope Has sex on the first date: no thank you how about never  Kissed anyone on your FB list: don’t have FB, so no

- Extras -

How many people from your FB list do you know IRL: don’t have FB Do you have any pets: small doggo who’s an idiot but i love him anyways (brussels griffon mixed with like an affenpinscher or smth) and then there’s the cat who i rarely see i think shes a cryptid except shes an ASSHOLE

Do you want to change your name: nope, i like my name thank u very much

What did you do for your birthday: went to alaska 

What time did you wake up today: jesus christ idk like five?? What were you doing last night at midnight: sleeping Name something you can’t wait for: valentine’s day, also probably this afternoon bc we might go sledding Last time you saw your mom: this morning What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nothing Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope, dont think i have What’s getting on your nerves right now: im p content right now Blood Type: i dont know?? Nickname: dont really have one Relationship Status: in a v gay and good relationship >:D Pronouns: She/Her Long or short hair: longish, want it to be longer Height: im not sure but definitely taller than 5′ 4″ Do you have a crush on someone: i have the most wonderful gf :) What do you like about yourself: im a very good writer and i pride myself in that Right or left handed: right First surgery: had to get ear tubes so that was fun. First Best Friend: good question, i dont have an answer bc i cant remember First sport you joined: soccer when i was like three but i remember none of it. First Vacation: i dont know?? first one i remember is disneyland when i was like three - Right Now -

Eating: nothin, i just had some toast tho Drinking: nothin I’m about to: do pretty much nothing. maybe try rping with somebody (dunno who) Listening to: jacksepticeye scream over games Kids: idk how i feel about kids tbh. id be ok with adoption. preferably an older child, like 11-12 Get Married: things might change but theres a v lovely girl who i wouldnt mind spending the rest of my life with Career: writing. i wanna be an author.

- Which Is Better -

Lips or eyes: eyes are more expressive (and prettier) Hugs or Kisses: both are good Taller or shorter: dont really care?? altho all my friends are shorter than me lmao Older or Younger: younger Romantic or spontaneous: romantic Sensitive or loud: sensitive Hookup or relationship: relationship Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

- Have You Ever -

Kissed a stranger: no Glasses/contacts: ye Broke someone’s heart: no Turned someone down: dont think so Cried when someone died: i dont think theres really anybody in my life whos died so far. or if they did, i was a lot younger. i cant remember Fallen for a friend: yeeeeees

- Do You Believe In -

Yourself: ye sure Miracles: i guess?? Love at first sight: not really Heaven: sure why not. not religious tho Kissing on the first date: if a person’s comfortable with it then sure?? idk idrc

ok who should i tag

gonna tag the SQUAD

@sensitiveguardian @wearethecrystalgays @succmet @snaw-me-up @ryuud3us 

[val-kill-queers-club]

92 Questions Tag Tagged by @batorschlusspanik Answer the questions and DO IT IF YOU WANNA. 
 THE LAST: 1. Drink: Peach Snapple 2. Phone call: I called my…person at midnight the other night and told him I loved him for the first time.
 3. Text message: My sister, wishing me happy birthday this morning. 
 4. Song you listened to: “Home” by Jeff Williams feat. Casey Lee Williams, although “Far Away Boys” by Flogging Molly just came on.
 5. Time you cried: Jesus I don’t know?? There were a few happy tears and jittery shakes after the aforementioned conversation I had on the phone with my nugget the other night, if that counts?

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: yep, @marco 
 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah, every experience I’ve had has taught me something. It was all worth it to learn. 8. Been cheated on: Nope
 9. Lost someone special: Haven’t we all??

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Neon orange
 13. Bright blue
 14. Soft, grassy green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: collegeee
 16. Fallen out of love: I don’t know if it was love after all
 17. Laughed until you cried: I do this hella
 18. Found out someone was talking about you: dude haters always hate, fuck em
 19. Met someone who changed you: HELLA
 20. Found out who your friends are: somewhat, yeah
 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yuh, at least one

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most??
 23. Where is 23?? 24. Do you want to change your name: Sometimes??? I’ve always been a bit lowkey hatin’ on my name
 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: went to the beach with my family…like have for the last 19 years now, to the day.
 26. What time did you wake up: idk my cousin fuckin’ footed me in the head and I moved, if that counts 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: thinking about my nugget 
 28. Name something you can’t wait for: next week, when I go up to New York to visit my love noodle
 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like three goddamn minutes ago get out Michelle
 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: TAKE AWAY MY ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION PLS THANKS 31. What are you listening right now: A fucking loudass air conditioner
 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: aye me grandpa’s name is tom, he’s downstairs rn
 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my entire fucking FAMILY ahfofkjfkdlv
 34. Most visited Website: the facebooks probs

LOST QUESTIONS 35. Mole/s: idk I have freckles n shit all over I’m not counting them fuckers
 36. Mark/s: a freckle over my left upper lip and a dent in my head from where I hit it on a coffee table as a beeb 37. Childhood dream: being a pro horseback rider or working for the parks service (STILL TRYING OMG THX) 
 38. Haircolour: dirty blonde
 39. Long or short hair: shortish? I’m growing it out.
 40. Do you have a crush on someone: yeah my nugget
 41. What do you like about yourself: HA like no things
 42. Piercings: just two in the ol’ ears
 43. Bloodtype: AB positive I think? 
 44. Nickname: Lexi, Comrade L-Kerch, Bolshie, Lex
 45. Relationship status: undeclared but very there
 46. Zodiac: Cancer but I’m more like a Leo
 47. Pronouns: she/her
 48. Favourite TV Show: Christ idk, House of Cards? The X-Files? Doctor Who for nostalgia? The Office? 
 49. Tattoos: yee, bull moose tatt on the inside of my left wrist
 50. Right or left hand: leftie
 51. Surgery: nah
 52. Hair dyed in different color: blue, green, purple, bleach blonde, red
 53. Sport: ah fuck that, horseback riding I guess
 55. Vacation: reenactinggggg
 56. Pair of trainers: CONVERSE EVERY DAAAY

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: birthday toast
 58. Drinking: Snapple lmao
 59. I’m about to: go and face my family and their touchy feely birthday wishes
 61. Waiting for: motivation pls
 62. Want: a great love to last a lifetime
 63. Get married: if I do, I want it to be this fucker 64. Career: NPS or college prof, something with history

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: kisses
 66. Lips or eyes: I love looking at mouths but probably eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller
 68. Older or younger: older
 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: A good personality
 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive and loud, aka me
 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship
 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant but them impulsive troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: nah
 75. Drank hard liquor: nah
 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah one time I got so excited it was snowing out I got out of bed and stepped on them and snapped them in half
 77. Turned someone down: yah
 78. Sex in the first date: maaaybe? 79. Broken someone’s heart: yeah like 1000 people and I feel shit about all of them
 80. Had your heart broken: yeh
 81. Been arrested: nah
 82. Cried when someone died: I don’t do that. 83. Fallen for a friend: yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: HEH 
 85. Miracles: yea
 86. Love at first sight: nah
 87. Santa Claus: FUCK YEAH DONT TAKE SANTA FROM ME OKAY IM AN ADULT THATS ALL I HAVE
 88. Kiss on the first date: why the fuck not
 89. Angels: nah

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Jackson, Marco, Andrew, Laurel 91. Eyecolour: brown 
 92. Favorite movie: Pleasantville or The Great Gatsby