#and jamie is still swimming around in my brain all the time
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
wewillbehappyagain · 2 years ago
Text
I think watching ted lasso 3x11 “mom city” permanently altered my brain chemistry. I can’t think of nothing fucking else.
went to a game of american football today (first time ever) with two friends and I had to use all of my willpower to not mention ted lasso all the time. oh, someone cheered for the opposite team? they did that in ted lasso! someone got hurt and had to be helped off the pitch? that happened in ted lasso! they’re substituting a player? guess what; happened in ted lasso!!!! they lost the game? in ted lasso they also lose a game! what are the fucking odds, huh
10 notes · View notes
15-lizards · 2 months ago
Note
i am embarking on writing a modern braime college sports au. they will be swimmers bc i swam for 13 years 2 of them in college so i will have to do comparatively minimal research. once i have something worth sharing I’ll come off anon to share. and i am absolutely using your posts about this type of au as inspo
YES PLEASEEE I literally tried to write that student athlete Brienne x LanistarRoyCo CFO Jamie fic but for all my meager writing skills I’m not very good at writing fic. Should give it another shot tho it lives rent free in my brain
More headcanons for the soul
-Brienne would wear her warmups/athlesiure literally everywhere. She maybe owns one pair of jeans. Not in like an asshole student athlete way who rides their scooter around campus and flexes their gear, that’s Jamie
-when all the boys bleach their hair (do college swimmers still do that or is it solely a high school thing) before shaving it off, Jamie absolutely refuses. Everyone gets mad at him for no team spirit but he doesn’t really gaf
-Jamie has thirty sponsorships and 50k followers on instagram and is verified and all of his posts are curated by a PR person. Brienne has 27 followers 3 posts and has been on private since she made her account
-Brienne is normal about being a student athlete. She does her work and goes to class then practice and doesn’t complain. Only thing that identifies her as part of the swim team is sometimes she wears the jacket. Jamie complains about his workload and sport balance every day bc it’s just so hard being a student athlete those plebeian NARPS just don’t understand (he’s a business major)
-Jamie is constantly ragging on Brienne but every time he sees her cut through the water like a dolphin he has to turn away for his own sanity
-Brienne tries to deny her crush on Jamie bc she feels stupid having a crush on him like everyone else but the first time he gives her his undivided attention in a nice way she has a panic attack
-Their first kiss happens after they get into an argument and Jamie is suddenly realizing how attractive Brienne is when she yells at him and he randomly asks if he can kiss her and she goes against her own judgement and says yes. It’s cute then she comes to her senses and pushes him into the pool hoping he lands on his head 💜
8 notes · View notes
hymemena · 2 years ago
Text
100 Gecs (2023 Album) 10,000 Gecs Sentence Starters
Feel free to change pronouns as necessary, and remember to specify muse for multimuse blogs.
CW: Drug use, drugs, death, religious themes, smoking, mental health, food, sensory problems, guns, weapons, threats, death threats, stalking, murder, abuse, injury, violence, insomnia, cursing
Dumbest Girl Alive
"If you think I'm stupid now, you should see me when I'm high."
"I'm smarter than I look."
"I'm the dumbest girl alive."
"Never ask me what I think."
"Money coming from my eyes."
"I'm so happy I could die!"
"Put emojis on my grave."
"Yeah, I'll fuckin' text you back."
757
"Yeah, I'll never go to Heaven."
"I've been smokin' since eleven."
"I got problems with my spending."
"Doing eight in a thirty."
"I'm never in a hurry."
"Everybody wanna party!"
"Wish that I was more discerning."
"Where's the water?"
"Today I'm feeling pitiful."
"I'm taking things too literal when it was hypothetical."
"Now, I'm whining over nothing."
Hollywood Baby
"What you crying about, Baby?"
"Did you get the payment?"
"We had an arrangement."
"Do you wanna party?"
"So go pitch your fit, no one gives a shit."
"I'm going crazy."
"Do you buckle under pressure?"
"You'll never make it in Hollywood, Baby."
Frog On The Floor
"Where'd he come from?"
"Nobody knows."
"He's been chillin' in the basement for a minute."
"It's time we move into the kitchen."
"Make him feel safe."
"Frog on the floor."
"Hey, yeah, I heard you met my friend the other weekend."
"He got on his front legs and did a keg stand."
"The party got real."
"He was chasing flies around."
"Give him some space, he's still workin' it out."
"He doesn't know what people think about."
"He gets the party jumping."
Doritos & Fritos
"Okay, I went to France."
"I went to Greece to get something to eat."
"I'm hard to please."
"Okay, I saw the beach."
"It's one hundred degrees."
"I'll swim in the ocean."
"The TV's tuned to cable."
"I'm sleeping when I'm able."
"The TV's on so loud it hurts my brain."
"I'm eating burritos."
"Jeez Louise, I'm weak in the knees."
"I'm joining the circus."
"I'm lying to strangers."
"I'm looking for danger!"
Billy Knows Jamie
"-Muse- got a gun."
"-Muse-'s gonna kill me, think I need to run."
"-Muse- is kinda scary when he's lookin' at you."
"Run!"
"I've heard it all before."
"He's like a movie star."
"They say he's so deranged."
"Bought mace to keep me safe."
"It's not enough to stay away."
"He knows my house and he knows my name."
"I'm in the closet scared."
"He's kicking down the door."
One Million Dollars
"One million dollars."
"I'm a marijuana addict."
"Fuck you!"
The Most Wanted Person In The United States
"I turned on the news."
"I turned on the news and it said that I was the number one most wanted person in the United States."
"Yeah, I'm a real killer."
"I just killed -muse- and then I ate his dinner."
"I took his car."
"I took his car and I crashed it in the river."
"I was born in the winter."
"Hot like the summer."
"Don't cry to me."
"Don't cry to me, I'm not your mother."
"Everybody shuts the fuck up when I'm passing."
"I'm laughing 'cause shit's so funny."
"Oh, is it hot like that?"
"Yeah, it's hot like that."
"Don't need to ask me."
I Got My Tooth Removed
"You were tough."
"You were unforgiving."
"Made me cry all the time."
"You were mean, such an asshole."
"I had to say goodbye."
"I don't wanna talk about it ever again."
"My head's like a ton of bricks."
"This dumb bitch still learns new tricks."
"I woke up and was down horrendous."
"I think I need to see a dentist."
"Praying to a fuckin' God I'll never be."
"If it's gonna fix itself, I guess it's just as well."
"It doesn't hurt me every day so I just let it get away."
"I'll deal with it another day."
"I guess that day just never came."
"I don't know what to do."
"My cheek swelled up twice its size."
"Playing Operation with a safety pin."
"Looking up home remedies."
"I'm staring at the ceiling, counting seconds 'til I get to sleep."
"That shit didn't work."
"I promised you, honest, tried my hardest."
mememe
"Back once again."
"You'll never really know."
"You'll never really know anything about me."
"No, you'll never really know anything."
"When we were together I tried to tell you."
"I used to tap dance when I was in choir."
"I broke my arm when my -parent- crashed a go-kart."
"I tried on your lipstick, I thought I looked pretty."
"You're always so busy."
"You're always so busy so you never hear me."
"Do I sound like a joke when I'm talking to you?"
"I take it back."
"You say so many things."
"I'll laugh too fucking hard."
"You probably think I'm so mean."
"I don't even know you."
"I guess it's such an easy game."
"Could you explain it all away?"
"OK, bet, I forget."
"I don't think I'll pretend it's cool."
62 notes · View notes
josiahsterling · 2 years ago
Text
when my time comes / forget the wrong that i've done / help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Tumblr media
TW: DEATH, BLOOD, KNIFE, INJURY, MENTIONS OF DRUG ADDICTION, PAST OVERDOSE
Josiah had gone back inside, feeling a little more level headed. In all, he'd say tonight was a success. The anxiety felt more like it came from the throng of people, not that small part of him that he knew would never quite rewire the same way again. That was something they'd talked about a lot back in rehab. This wasn't a choice he made, it was how his brain worked now. Recovery meant working every day to be the person he wanted to be. The son whose parents didn't worry about leaving alone, the brother that could be there, the uncle that could love that little girl like she was his own. Maybe...maybe the partner someone would want. Someday. That thought was more complicated. Him and Jamie were complicated. Always had been. Jamie was all in, from day one. Threw himself wholeheartedly at a boy who wasn't in the shape to treat anyone gently. And he'd come back to a man still trying to atone. He knew what Jamie wanted. He just...wasn't sure it was what the two of them needed.
That's the thought he's mulling over, absently stirring a Diet Coke, when the lights cut out. The reaction is instant. Total panic. He has to admit, he's spooked too. It's essentially pitch black in here, and with everyone running around, he can't just stay here unless he wants to get trampled. Can't stay. He needs to find...Jamie, Nell, Jesse, Danny, someone. He had to make sure they're okay. The foreboding sense he'd had all night, which up til now he'd chalked up to an unease at the way Jamie was acting, had reared up, and the longer he couldn't find anyone, the worse it got. "Jamie? Jamie!" He's trying to push past people, trying to see if he can make out the taller man in the crowd. "Jesse? Danny? Nell?" He's looking around, trying to find someone. He doesn't know what's happening, and he can't just worry about himself. It's not how he is.
Someone grabs him, and for a second, he thinks it might be one of them, and he doesn't even really care which one it is. Before he can fully turn to try to see them, there's a searing pain in his side. He screams, in surprise, in pain, in shock. He feels like he's moving in slow motion, but whoever's on him now decidedly isn't, and more pain shoots through him as they keep stabbing. He doesn't know how many. Could have been four, could have been forty. He doesn't know. Adrenaline's the only thing keeping him upright, and he tries to run once his head stops swimming, finding his limbs almost too heavy to move. The fabric of his shirt feels hot, sticky, and a feeling of revulsion washes over him when he tastes copper. He doesn't need the lights on to know it's blood. He can feel it seeping through his shirt, running down to his jeans, dripping onto the floor.
He's not actually aware of how far he's managed to get, the pain and the blood loss making him collapse. He just...lays there. He needs to get up. He needs to keep going. He can't lay here and die. He can't.
The house party had been his wake up call. It was some out of town thing, with people he barely knew. But their stuff was always good, so when they'd asked of course he'd said yes. He lost track of how much he was taking, downing a drink when it was handed to him and definitely not turning down the guy who'd been eye fucking him all night when he handed him a couple pills. He's not a lightweight. He'd be fine.
He woke up connected to machines, his mom and dad not even looking at him. When he tried to talk, his throat felt dry, pained. They had looked at him in something between alarm and relief, their eyes red. He didn't know what had happened. The last he remembered, a guy in bright blue eyeliner had flopped onto the couch he was on, putting his head in Josiah's lap. How--
He'd overdosed. On what they couldn't tell him until he remembered what he took or toxicology came back. His heart had stopped. He'd been dead. He felt like a cliche, coming home and realizing only now that this had gone too far, gotten too bad for him to just fix it himself. He had to...He didn't know yet, but he had to do something.
He has a similar thought now, even as his vision goes spotty. He has to do something. He's so close to one year. Three weeks. Twenty-four days, really, but close enough. Twenty-four days, and he's hit his goal. He's so close. Three hundred forty-one days down. Twenty-four to go. Twenty-four. He's so tired. He's cold. Someone's in front of him, and he flinches. Tries to tell them to leave him alone, don't hurt him. Help him. He needs help. He needs his mom.
They're trying to talk to him, trying to press against the wounds. He's vaguely aware of being lifted. His vision is swimming, fading in and out. He doesn't remember dying the first time. If this is what it is, it's...it's warm.
10 notes · View notes
dontfeeltoohot · 2 years ago
Note
If you take whump. Jamie getting hurt on set? Love your writing and happy to see these two on my dash!
Thank you!!! That means a lot!
The boiler room set is dark, even with lights on. There are wires everywhere, the air is smokey, and he's already tripped twice on the damn stairs that they've been running up the past five takes. Millie's been a great sport about it all, hasn't laughed at his clumsiness even though her bright eyes allude to her wanting to. Jamie wants to make a joke about it all, but his headspace needs to stay as dark as the room, he doesn't want to break the intense ache of want that's stirred in his chest as he becomes Peter, ready to massacre an entire laboratory full of people.
The tenth take starts smoothly, they pick up with him crouched, looking up at the girl, giving a tight lipped smile.
"Thank you," he keeps his voice soft and high, the thick American accent rolling off his tongue easily.
Millie nods, wipes the fake blood from her nose, and then the ensemble of guards come bursting through the doors, making them both jump with anticipation.
"Stop!
"Run!"
"Freeze!"
Jamie grabs Millie's hand and they take off, going down the trail designed for them, only breaking their hold on each other when they reach the stairs. The mans thoughts consist of 'run forward' and 'have to escape', his steps and actions coming second nature to him. He enjoys this kind of work, where he gets to lose himself in a character rather than remember what he's supposed to do next.
The second to last step; the same one as the previous times, catches the tip of his shoe. Instead of the small fumble the past trips have been; more embarrassing than anything with his hand hands able to catch his fall, this time there's enough momentum from his running that he doesn't have time to catch himself, doesn't have time to do anything but watch the ground get closer.
The actors skull smacks into the top metal stair, a sickening crack ringing out through all the commotion as other people freeze, as Millie stumbles into the blonde's now prone form, unable to stop herself quickly enough. Crew members are instantly jogging over. Both Ross and Matt run from either side of the set they've been watching from.
Pain explodes throughout Jamie's head, a high pitched whine ringing in his ears as the outside world is muffled, as his vision blurs and his elbow hits the corner of the second stair awkwardly. The pain clings on even as his world greys out for a few seconds, brain somehow feeling like white noise. From one temple to the other, all throughout the back of his head and spreading upwards, a throbbing starts, syncing up with sudden nausea rolling in his stomach.
Trying to move, to sit up and get out of the awkward position he's lying in, something between a whine and a moan slips from his mouth, pain intensifying with every movement. The ringing hasn't stopped, but voices sound closer now, which makes Jamie blink his eyes open. Head angled awkwardly, right cheek still against the metal stairs, he forces himself to move again, this time getting as far as sitting up, his right hand coming up to his head, pressing against it.
"Jamie, you okay?'
"We need to get Kaycee over here."
"Everyone be quiet and back up!"
Everyone talking makes Jamie's head swim, and he drags his fingers down to his eyes, tips of them pressing into his eyelids, head aching enough he lets out a shaky breath and waits a moment before looking back to the directors. They're both crouched down, watching him carefully. Matt's eyes are traveling over him, no doubt looking for blood, and Ross is moving closer, nodding to someone behind him.
"Jamie, can you hear me? Are you alright?"
"F-Fuck," is the only thing the thirty two year old can conjure up, brain still rattling around.
"Did you hit your head?" Ross turns to look at people to the left of Jamie. "Did he hit his head?"
"I think so," Millie's voice is wobbly, her breaths coming hard.
"M'alright," Jamie forces out, sitting up slowly.
Both men reach out for him, steadying him as he leans against the staircase railing. Sitting up has him feeling vaguely dizzy, but Jamie manages to breathe through it, the ringing in his ears dissipating. The actor licks his lips and lets out a shaky breath, sliding a hand down his face.
"Hey, Kaycee's on her way to check you over, just relax alright? You hit your head?"
"Yeah...smacked the fuck out of it," his English accent is creeping back in, adrenaline suddenly leaving him. "Shit..." Jamie adds as an afterthought, hands shaking.
Kaycee, the onsite paramedic shows up half a minute later, looking worried and serious as she starts checking him over and asking him questions he only knows some answers to. Everyone but the directors head out of the doors, wanting to let Kaycee work without interruption or distraction.
5 notes · View notes
kenovele · 2 years ago
Text
Bogs Blog 8
Sunday 1st January 2023
The week between Christmas and New years always seems to be a bit of a blur, days mix into each other, all part of the endless summer period in New Zealand. Every day the weather has been good, we have been blessed with sunshine, blue skies, flat water and a good rotation of friends stopping in to say hi. The beer fridge is constantly restocked, the supply dwindling almost as fast as it can be refilled. The dishwasher is constantly on due to the varying number of people that we have at our lunches and dinners.
Our days are simple. We wake up, check the water to see if it is flat enough to have a ski, if not we have a walk or run with Sparrow, then a big breakfast of fresh fruit and homemade treats. Our mornings are full of simple pleasures, lounging on the deck, bird watching, reading our books, drawing, baking carrot cakes, just taking life at an easier pace. We then break for lunch, another big affair, with plenty of people, the big Christmas ham which is slowly being carved down to the bone. Generally, we make do with what we have, and share it between how ever many mouths seem to be milling around our bach for the day. The biggest number we have had is 14 people, but it is generally 8 or 10 of us, so still a decent amount for our small family. After lunch, the dishwasher gets restacked, and turned on again before we go back to our afternoon’s activities, either water sports, or reading. Then dinner, a game of some sort (much to my chagrin), then bed with our books, repeat. Benoit and I have tried to stay active as much as we can, we go for swims out to the 200m buoy, as well as swimming out there, we take Jamie’s surfboard out to train our shoulders for when we eventually get to the beach and go surfing. We have been foraging for native trees as we slowly build up our collection of seedlings, and although I am not sure if they will grow or not, we are both enjoying the process of finding trees that we like and planting the seedlings/cuttings. We have even taken the kitesurf out once, although the wind wasn’t really good enough, we were both super keen to give it a try. Benoit had enough wind to go down wind, but not enough to go upwind. After I sat on the jetty with the binoculars trying to find him, my neighbour kindly offered to take me out on the boat for a rescue mission. Eventually we scouted him out walking home, apparently he managed to land in a near by bay, fold up the kite and decided to walk back, we picked him up and headed home. Much to my relief.
I know that New Years is generally a time for reflection, and resolutions, but honestly, after last night, my brain can only really cope with recounting what we did and I am doing my best to not repeat myself and use a few different words out of my vocabulary. So last night. Ouch, it hurts my head just thinking about it to be honest, but at the same time it was wonderful. Mum and Dad headed over to their good friend’s house for dinner and left Gran and Deeda, Jo and Nico (my aunt and uncle), Jamie and Holly and myself and Benoit at home for the evening. The eight of us headed over to our neighbour’s house for dinner. Each year one of our neighbours puts on a big pig on the spit for the New Year’s Eve dinner, all we have to do is confirm our attendance, and they put on the food. It is a nice way to be a bit social with the Tarawera community as well as have a good dinner before the night of drinking commences. Dinner was lovely, the roasted pig was delicious, and they made enough to feed an army. Afterwards we headed back to our lawn for the New Year count down. We all set ourselves up on the lawn to enjoy the last of the sunshine before we headed back up onto the deck as the winds picked up and it was significantly colder than normal. It was a chilly night so before long we were all covered in blankets and waiting for the New Year to hurry up and arrive. The fireworks, thankfully, were early this year, because there are so many grandchildren, it was decided that the fireworks this year would go off at 9.15pm. Amazingly, as the fireworks were about to go off, the wind died off and we were mesmerised by the beautiful display. Honestly it is a sight to behold. For 30 minutes we had our eyes to the sky as it erupted above us. It is a pretty incredibly display and I am so pleased that I finally got to share it with Benoit. The display is a commercial one, so very impressive, you feel that reverberations right into your soul of the big fireworks shake the deck as they shoot up into the air, it really is a full body experience. The vibrations you feel in your chest as they explode. The smell of explosives. The explosion of colour in the eyes. There is something significant of the New Year fireworks at the lake and it was nice to be able to see them again. This way of bringing in the New Year has been a tradition for me ever since I was young and it was good to do it again and even better, to be able to share it with Benoit. After the early fireworks, Gran and Deeda went to bed. Mum and Dad came home from their friend’s house and we all stayed up together. We got the music going and all danced on the deck. After counting down into the New Year, we all hugged and had bubbles before going for a midnight swim. A good way to refresh and hopefully wash off a bit of the hangover awaiting us in a few hours’ time.
It has been a big year for us, full of adventures, changes, and projects, and 2023 is bound to be more of the same. Not surprisingly for those who know me, but we have a list, full of exciting goals that we have for our year ahead, and although we won’t be able to share them in person with you, I do hope to be able to share our progress with you through our blogs. All our love, Kate and Bog xxx
1 note · View note
novelconcepts · 3 years ago
Note
i think always about the scene where dani and flora were about to escape the manor before viola showed up, and flora asks where are they going dani said “i don’t know” or something. do you think that if they succeed to leave the house dani would’ve tried to reach jamie? after all they in theory had a date in the pub, so in theory dani knew the little flat above the pub…
It's complete luck, Dani will think later. True idiot luck, nothing more--maybe the first lucky thing to happen in the last hour. Absolutely, they shouldn’t find the village at all. Absolutely, they shouldn’t have managed it: a grown woman with no car, no idea where she’s going, and an eight year old girl sobbing against her shoulder as she runs. They should wind up lost in the dark, staggering desperately in a circle, maybe turning right back up where they started. 
Utter luck, that the adrenaline holds out, that the darkness doesn’t swallow them whole, that she finds herself stumbling through the door of a ramshackle little pub with Flora. Shouldn’t happen. Some tiny part of her wonders if this isn’t the magic of Bly, extending far beyond the reach of that house. Some tiny part of her thinks, If it can reach this far, what’s stopping them from doing the same?
“Hey,” the old man behind the bar snaps. “You can’t bring her in here!”
“Please.” Her head is pounding. Her throat is raw. Screaming hoarsely into a gag will do that to a person. “Please, I’m looking for--for Jamie...”
She trails off, realization striking: she doesn’t even know Jamie’s last name. A woman she somehow feels she’s known forever, a woman she is painfully certain she is already growing to love in ways Eddie couldn’t have pulled out of her with an infinite lifetime, and she doesn’t know her last name. It would be hysterically funny, if she could remember what laughter tasted like. 
More good luck, sweeping in like a thunderstorm: the old man is nodding, though he still looks uneasy at the sight of Flora’s puffy red eyes. At the sight, too, of Dani’s rubbed-raw mouth. They must look awful, a pair of ghosts in their own right, crashing into the easy calm of his night. 
“She know you’re comin’?” he asks gruffly, and Dani shakes her head. “But she knows you.”
He’s looking at Flora, and Dani wonders if the small-town awareness Owen has spoken of with such irritation extends to the Wingrave children. Probably. Probably everyone in town knows the miserable story of two orphans left to cope in that big old haunted house. 
“She knows,” Dani says, when it becomes clear Flora is incapable of her usual boisterous chatter. “Please. Can you call her?”
He makes a face, his hand straying to the black plastic handset behind his head. “Fine, but if you’re lyin’, it’s only fair I warn you she's got a temper--”
Dani lowers Flora onto a stool, leans her weight against the bar, presses a hand to her head. This is insane, she tells the spooling pressure in her chest where air does not seem willing to flow. This is insane, to think there are ghosts pulling at the Wingrave children’s strings, pulling at Miles even now.
Miles. She left him. She left Miles, Rebecca Jessel’s warm voice still ringing in her ears. It’s too late. Too late. Too--
“Dani?” Jamie’s voice, just behind her. She can’t bring herself to lift her head and look. It’d be so much sweeter to remember her last image of Jamie instead, the last glimpse of normalcy drunk greedily in with no knowledge of what would come next. There will be other nights. Promise. Jamie’s hands curled around her own. Jamie’s kiss pressed to her lips with uncharacteristic euphoria. Jamie had giggled, and Dani had felt ten feet tall, the luckiest woman in the world, the richest--
“Flora.” Jamie is bending, a hand pressed to Flora’s face, smoothing back the sweaty mess of her hair. “What’s going on? Where’s Miles? What are you--”
Flora makes a hitching sound, and Dani imagines trying to explain it--not to Jamie, who believes her so readily even when there’s no reason, but to Henry. Henry Wingrave, trusting her with his brother’s children. Henry Wingrave, who she’ll have to face and say, Sir, I did my best, but you never warned me about the ghosts--
“C’mon.” Jamie’s uttered that word once before, an incontrovertible command. Last night, taking Dani’s hand in the kitchen, leading her out to take in flowers and stories. She doesn’t quite do it the same way now--her hand brushes the small of Dani’s back instead of her fingers, urging her gently along--but Dani can hear that same calm charge in her voice. It’s as though Jamie understands something has broken, and has chosen stability in answer to the too-big horror strangling Dani’s ability to explain. 
She lets herself be propelled through the pub, through a door at the back, up a flight of stairs. Somewhere at the back of her mind, she’s loosely aware that it shouldn’t be this way--that she should have visited Jamie’s flat for the first time on Jamie’s schedule, in Jamie’s truck, with Jamie grinning at her over a beer. But, then, what about tonight has gone to plan? What about tonight has been right?
“Sit,” Jamie says, urging her visitors toward a lumpy couch at the center of the small room. She looks calm, though Dani suspects it’s the kind of calm that might at any moment crack open. “Talk.”
An invitation, more than a demand. Dani buries her head in her hands.
“It’s crazy. It’s crazy.”
“You ran here in the dark,” Jamie says. “You ran here in the dark with Flora. Wouldn’t have done that if it wasn’t bad.”
Shouldn’t have done it at all. Should have called Jamie--run through the house in search of Hannah--done any number of things that wasn’t a flat sprint over unfamiliar ground into town. Should have kept her head. 
“Miles,” she says, and almost shatters right there. Her head is a land mine, pulsing warning. Her chest aches. Jamie is kneeling on the floor, she realizes, her hands busy at Flora’s face, her hands, searching for sign of damage. Dani inhales. “She’s--she’s okay. Rebecca made sure of it.”
Jamie looks up sharply. “What?”
Dani knows what she looks like, what she must sound like: a rumpled, ragged mess spouting dead women’s names like she has any right to them. Still, Jamie isn’t staring at her like she’s crazy. She’s watching with guarded eyes, her hands--satisfied that Flora is, physically, unharmed--moving to Dani. 
“What about Rebecca?”
“She let us go.” Jamie’s thumb is pressing very gently to her jaw, tilting her head to give the lamplight room to spill over her skin. She hears a breath catch, hears Jamie make a tiny, wounded sound at the sight of the skin rubbed red around Dani’s mouth. “She told me to take her and run.”
And I shouldn’t have. I’ve never listened to ghosts before. Why start now?
“Rebecca,” Jamie repeats. Her hand slips behind Dani’s head, gently inspecting; she finds the knot soon enough, Dani’s telltale gasp of pain pulling something taut behind her eyes. “Fuck, Dani, what--”
“Peter.” Flora’s voice is very small, a shock of unexpected color amidst Jamie’s usual palette. “Peter said we were helping.”
The calm in Jamie does not just break at those words; it erupts, her entire body revolutionized by her sudden rage. She’s got a temper, the old man had said, and Dani’s seen notes of it--at the rose bushes, hoisting a shotgun in the dark--but never quite like this. She stands abruptly straight, her shoulders pulling back, her expression livid. 
“What,” she says, “do you mean, helping?”
It spills out in a chaotic rush--Flora, mostly, explaining through hiccups. Dani supplements where she can, as if she understands any of it. As if she hasn’t, in some part of her throbbing brain, wondered all this time if the evening wasn’t a hallucination born of her concussion. 
“He hit you,” Jamie says. Not a question. “Tied you up. In the attic. And he took Miles.”
Those are, Dani thinks wearily, the bullet points. “He said they were trapped. That the house would wear them away. Rebecca wouldn’t...”
“'Course not,” Jamie says hotly. “’Course she wouldn’t. Fucking Quint.”
Dani blinks up at her. Her vision is gray around the edges, she realizes. Can’t be a good sign. She shivers. “You believe us?”
A little of the rage melts out of Jamie at this--her eyes softening just a bit, her fingers uncurling from a fist. She almost smiles. “You two? Best people I fuckin’ know, why wouldn’t I believe you?”
“Because it’s crazy,” Dani says hollowly. “It’s crazy, but--” But that little boy had stood wrong, with Peter pulling his strings. That sweet, lovely little boy had gone hard around the mouth, had gone steely at the shoulders, had held himself like a man three times his age and thirty times more capable of cruelty. 
“I believe you,” Jamie says simply. She gives Dani’s shoulder a squeeze, Flora’s hair a gentle ruffle. “I believe you.”
The flat is quiet after that, for a while. Wrung out, Flora is dozing against the arm of the couch before she seems to know it. Jamie gestures for Dani to stand, the pair of them gently shifting Flora until she is resting comfortably on a throw pillow. She breathes like she’s still preparing a scream, like she is still ready to charge back into that house after her brother, even as Jamie drapes a blanket over her small frame. 
She leads Dani to the bathroom, then, sets her down on the toilet seat. Her hands are steady as ever, gentle as she administers a warm cloth to Dani’s scraped skin--cleaning around her mouth, around wrists that have been chafed nearly bloody--and a bundle of ice to the back of Dani’s head. Dani chases a handful of aspirin with cool water and tries to look as though the whole world isn’t swimming away from her. 
“It’s bad,” she says. “It’s so bad, Jamie. I couldn’t do anything.”
Jamie makes a soft sound of acknowledgment. Dani’s wrist is upturned in her hand, her fingers skimming lightly across rope burn. Dani barely feels it. 
“What if--” She doesn’t want to give it voice. Doesn’t want to admit it’s even possible. Isn’t there something to be said for the power of belief, unpredictability shaped by human faith? “What if he really is gone for good? How do I explain that? How do I live with that?”
Jamie raises her eyes. “Not gonna have to find out.”
Dani frowns. “What do you mean?”
“I mean.” She turns, drops the wet cloth in the sink, clicks the cap back onto the bottle of pills. “Didn’t let Quint get away with this shite in life. Don’t think for a fuckin’ moment I’d let him do it now.”
Dani shakes her head. “It’s too late--Rebecca said--”
“Love Rebecca.” Her voice is strangled when she says this, as though Jamie is speaking through the entire last year of grief at once. “Loved Rebecca, sister I never had. But she didn’t know everything. Christ, even just getting wound up with him--she makes mistakes, too.”
“But--”
“Dani.” Jamie takes her face between steady hands. Even just this easy proximity, the sweep of her breath not far from Dani’s own, settles something Dani thinks has been screaming most of her life. “I promise. Whatever we have to do--whatever it takes--we’ll fix this.”
“We’ll fix a ghost,” Dani says flatly. Jamie smiles, leaning in until her forehead knocks lightly against Dani’s own. 
“We’ll fix Miles. Kid’s been through too much already. I’ll be damned before I let Quint have him.”
It’s just as insane a thing to say as the rest of the night. Jamie doesn’t know--can’t know--how to make this right. Jamie is just one woman, though maybe the best person Dani’s ever been fortunate enough to find. Jamie can’t turn back time. 
Still. She almost forgets that, watching her make phone calls--to Owen, and to the house, where it rings and rings and Hannah never picks up. She almost forgets that Jamie is not a superhero, as she presses the ice pack to Dani’s head with one hand and says into the receiver, “Quint, yeah. Dunno how. Does it matter?”
She almost forgets that they are not superheroes when Owen knocks on the door. That they are only an au pair, a gardener, a cook, and a little girl. That they are no match for whatever the house has become over the years. She almost forgets. 
Because the set of Owen’s mouth is uncompromising for the first time since she’s met him. Because Flora, refreshed from her nap and no longer tilting toward tears, is grim in the seat beside him. Because, thigh warm against her own in the backseat, Jamie is holding her hand like it’s never crossed her mind to let go. 
They are not superheroes. They are not prepared for the ghosts of Bly Manor. They don’t know where Hannah is, how Rebecca is holding on, what Quint will do in Miles’ body. They don’t know anything at all. 
But they are going back. Because some stories need changing. Because some tragedies cannot be simply accepted. Because Peter Quint deserves to be put in his place, and Miles Wingrave deserves a life of freedom, and whatever’s gone wrong at the great, good place--their home--can be set right. Dani can feel that, way down beneath the headache and the fear. It can be, even if she doesn’t yet know how.
You, she thinks, looking from Owen at the wheel, Flora seatbelted carefully in, Jamie running a thumb over her knuckles. Me, she thinks, watching her own battered face in the rearview mirror. Us, she thinks, remembering the dinner table earlier that night, Hannah’s smile, the music of their mingled laughter. 
This can be fixed. Somehow. It must be.
“Right,” she says in a voice much stronger than she expects as they pull up the long drive. “Step one: find Miles.”
161 notes · View notes
septnautical · 4 years ago
Text
High pitched laughter echoed down the hall and was accompanied by the loud clang of running feet on the steel tiles.
“Hurry Skye! Before they see!” A mischievous voice whispered in restrained glee. Another giggle followed as two small bodies rounded the corner then hid behind the coffee machine in the lounge area. The first voice shushed the other figure who stifled laughter and hid against their shoulder. Once it was quiet there was a beat of silence before another presence rushed in, gasping for breath. “K-Kids! C’mon this isn’t funny!” An older male with ebony hair that fell over his eye exclaimed anxiously, “Your mom doesn’t want you over here!” The hidden figures didn’t dare move or make a sound. The older boy sighed and pushed his hair out of his face, before fidgeting with his arm that seemed to glint in the light. “God, Stacy is gonna kill me…” He then hurries down the rest of the hall- trying to see if he can still catch sight of them. Once the coast is clear, two small heads pop out of their hiding space. The older one, a boy with brunette hair, grins from ear to ear then whoops victoriously.. “Yes! See I told you we could lose him!” He giggled as he pulled his little sister out of their hiding spot. She pushed her bright blonde hair out of her eyes then smiled excitedly at her brother. She clapped and then spun around in glee. The boy laughed then looked around the lounge with curiosity. “I dunno why mom and Sharper were so worried about us being over here! It looks the same as the other side… same boring lounges and machines-” Then, he pauses as another sound echoes down the hall in front of them. He cocks his head then turns to his sister. “Do you hear that?” She repeats his gesture and listens, then nods enthusiastically, her eyes sparkling. The boy grins then grabs her hand and leads her down the hall, “Let’s go see what it is! It sounds like singing!” They sneak down the hall carefully- trying not to give themselves away to their purser. But, to them it felt like an epic spy mission, and they loved every second of it. As they neared the mysterious sound, they realized they had ventured towards another large clearing- a hallway made completely out of glass so they could see the ocean outside. They marveled at the sight of the ocean going out as far as the eye could see. The creatures swimming in the distance and the plant life swaying in the currents. But, what truly caught their eye was the source of the sound. A man with a long blue tail speckled with bright blue spots was circling  the open ocean by the base, his long wing like fins trailing behind him gracefully. He was twirling and singing- his voice mesmerizing and melodic. And, singing alongside him were two rabbit rays, seemingly dancing around him. The kids come to the glass to watch, entranced by the performance. They had only seen the hybrids once- and they seemed so scary! But this one… he’s just singing and swimming. He looks like he could even be nice! After a while, the merman seems to sense something and turns around only to meet the eyes of the two curious little humans. His face flushes, embarrassed now that he knows he was being watched. The rabbit rays stop their dance and bump into the mer’s side, as if trying to get him to start up again. He shushes them and pets their heads before swimming up to the glass.
Tumblr media
  He smiles awkwardly and tries to wave, “Uh- Hi there! I… didn’t know I had an audience…” “You sing really pretty!” The boy pipes up and the merman laughs, messing with his hair. “Oh! Thank you! I guess it’s… in my dna you know? These guys are the natural singers-” He pets the rabbit rays again who have come up to his side to observe the children as well. “Oh cool! I didn’t know rabbit rays could sing!” The boy exclaims, excitedly, “Or that you could pet them! Are they nice? What’s their names? And your name!” The rabbit ray mer blinks at the rapid fire questions then laughs, “Well- their cries sound kinda like singing so i just try to sing along! Rabbit rays tend to keep to themselves… but they’re very gentle. Other fish don’t bother them because their skin is poisonous-” He then blinks again and chuckles to himself. 
“Oh and- I’m Chase!” He then points to the rabbit ray on his side, who seems to favor one side as it swims, one of its fins seeming smaller. “And this is Bunny- and this is Grayson,” He points to the other rabbit ray who spins then lets out a cry like a sung greeting. Bunny seems to shy her way behind Chase’s back but peeks back out to look at the kids.
The girl laughs and jumps up at the rabbit rays, her eyes sparkling in amazement. The boy presses more up against the glass and then exclaims, “No way! My middle name is Grayson!” Chase cocks his head in confusion, “Middle… Name? Why do you have more than one name?” The boy makes a face as he thinks of this, “.... i don’t know why- but that’s what my mom calls me! Conner Grayson Brody- that’s me!” He then puts a hand on his sister’s head and messes with her hair. “And this is my little sister, Skye London Brody!” The girl grins through her messed up bangs and waves at Chase. Chase waves back and smiles, “Well then- Nice to meet you Conner Grayson Brody and Skye London Br-” “You don’t have to say our whole names!” Conner laughs, “Just Conner and Skye is good!” “Oh- okay! Nice to meet you- Conner and Skye.” The merman smiles then swims down to be more at their level, looking at them curiously. “...you two are quite small for whitesuits… are you still growing?” The two look at each other then giggle, “I guess so!” Conner replies, “We’re just kids- so it’s gonna be a while until we’re as big as the adults!” “I see…” Chase comments and then smiles at them fondly, “...You two remind me of my brothers when they were very small… when I first met them they were all so tiny… I was always the biggest- now they’re all as big as me!” He laughs, “Maybe one day you two will be big like us too!” Conner’s eyes grow big as he gasps and presses up against the glass, “Could we get cool tails like you too??” Chase balks at this then thinks, “I dunno- Maybe! I dunno if humans can grow tails like us… seems like it could be possible though!” The kids gasp and dance at this, excited. “We never get to swim! I wanna swim all day long and see all of the ocean!” Conner exclaims, zipping around the room with his arms outstretched. Skye jumps up and claps. Then, a female robotic sounding voice pipes up from where she is saying, “Me too! Me too!” Chase chuckles as he watches them, “Why can’t you go swimming now? Isn’t that what white suits are born to do?” The two kids stop and then look at each other. Conner messes with his suit under a big poofy sweater and looks down. “Mom says we can’t stay in the water long if we ever have to go- she says it's too dangerous. Even though- she goes out all the time…” He grumbles and kicks his foot- which seems to clang metalically against the steel tile below. 
“Why does she get to and you can’t?” Chase asks. “I know it’s cuz of my stupid leg-” Conner grunts- then lifts up his suit leg a bit more so Chase can see. He didn’t know why he didn’t notice it earlier. Conner’s lower leg is all silver and made of metal. There’s a small ball joint at the end of his calf that attaches to a foot shaped metal piece. “Mom says I can’t swim well with this… and i can’t swim with only one leg either.” He sighs then points to his sister. “And Skye is too little… and Mama says her brain doesn’t work very well so that’d make it hard to swim. Or call for help if we need it- since Skye has to use her PDA.” The merman tilts his head like a confused animal, “Use her PDA? To talk?” Skye jumps up then pulls her PDA out of her jacket. She quickly pokes around on the surface then looks up at Chase with a bright smile as her PDA speaks with a robotic female voice. “Hi- I am Skye!” She giggles then types out, “I like your blue. You sing good!” Chase seems amazed and he swims to be closer to Skye, smiling from ear to ear. “T-That’s- that’s amazing! Oh Skye, you need to meet my brother Jamie! He can’t talk well either- maybe you can teach him how to do that!” The kids look at each other in wonder then back at Chase with excitement. “Really? Your brother is like my sister??” Conner breathes. “Well- he had an accident when he was little- I dunno if his… brain doesn’t work like you said- which seems weird to me! Skye seems just fine- just like my brother!” Conner scratches his head, “Mmmm mama calls it something else too- she uses lots of fancy words cuz she’s a doctor. I think… it’s called.. A...au-tis-m? But yeah Skye seems just fine to me too! She just likes things a certain way and doesn’t like loud noises and needs help to speak!” Skye nods and then spins around as if to say, ‘See I’m all good!’ Chase smiles warmly and nods along, “Yeah.. I know all my brothers need help here and there… so it doesn’t seem bad to me~.” He looks at the horizon line then back to the kids, ‘It’s still light out, if you two wanted I could take you to go see Jameson!” “Really?” Conner gasps excitedly. “Yeah! I could also teach you some cool tricks to swim better- I taught Bunny to swim even with her wing.” The rabbit ray in question seems to recognize her name and she swims in front of the kids and lifts up her damaged wing to show her swimming just fine. The kids exchange a look then grin and nod, taking off their outer clothes to get to their wet suits underneath. “Mom shouldn’t mind if we have a grown up with us who can swim!” Conner exclaims, looking super giddy. Skye straps her pda to her hip then jumps up and down. Chase giggles at their excitement then swims to where a hatch to the outside is. “Here! We can be super quick-” “HEY! STOP RIGHT THERE!” A shrill female voice suddenly rings from the hall. And before the kids can blink they’re being scooped up and/or dragged away from the door by a panting frazzled looking blonde woman. The black haired boy from earlier is hiding behind the doorway, watching with worried eyes. “W-what the hell were you two thinking?!” The lady screeches, adjusting her hold on them and looking at them sternly. “You cannot go out into the ocean alone!” “But Mama! We weren’t going alone! Mr. Chase was gonna take us!” Conner whined as he pointed outside towards the merman. The mother turned to the window and glared burning hot daggers at Chase. There’s a moment of confusion lingering in her gaze, like she might be trying to place him… like she’s seen him before. But, the anger comes back tenfold soon enough. “You-!” She spat, charging towards the window and pointing at the merman threateningly, “Just what were you trying to do?! Were you trying to drown my children?!”
“What? N-No I would never-!” Chase tried to argue. “Well then are you stupid? Are you blind?! My son has a metal leg! He can’t swim! And my daughter is only six! They were just in a ship crash!” The mother seethes, holding Skye’s head against her neck. The girl is shaking slightly and cupping her hands over her ears. “I- I…!” The rabbit ray mer tries to explain himself but the mother hears nothing of it. “You- you hybrids need to stay away from us! If i see you talking to my children again, I’ll be forced to do something drastic! Understood?” Chase backs away from the glass and shrinks in on himself. He nods timidly. The mother glares at him one last time before snorting and starting to walk away, one hand stroking and trying to comfort Skye, the other dragging a distressed Conner behind her. The boy turns to look at Chase with tearful eyes. It breaks Chase’s heart. He presses back up against the window and tries to smile at him, waving goodbye. Conner chokes on a sob but tries to smile and wave back. Skye peeks her head up and waves tiny little fingers at Chase. Then, the hall falls silent again. Chase sighs and lets himself sink into the sand below. Grayson and Bunny come up and nuzzle up against him, breathing bubbles into his hair and singing soft sad melodies. Chase looks up towards the base and tries not to cry. He has a good feeling though… those humans were nothing like the white suits he’s known before. And he has the feeling they’ll definitely meet again.
53 notes · View notes
zackcollins · 3 years ago
Text
i can’t sleep without you || penny oleksiak
Tumblr media
Author’s Note: Look... She’s the Canadian record holder for most medals at the Summer Olympics. My brain decided that warranted a little piece of writing. I hope I did it and her justice because she truly is an icon. Both for the sport of swimming and for the Oleksiak family. GIF credit to maljic!
Warnings: I don’t think there’s anything! Feel free to let me know if anything should be warned about though. I’ll gladly add a warning for you.
Word Count: 1.5k+
Title: Sleep Without You by Brett Young
Additional: The reader should be gender-neutral. They’re implied to be a swimmer, so I did the best I could. Anyways! I hope everyone enjoys this! Feedback is always welcomed!!
You were humming along to the music filtering through your headphones. On the tray in front of you, you were tapping a pencil against your crossword book. You only had a few words filled in and it was driving you bonkers not being able to figure out some of them. Shifting your attention from the music to the crossword puzzle, you scanned the clues again to see if there were any easy ones that you missed.
 5 Down: Layman’s oesophagus
 Bopping your head along to the music, you smiled as you wrote ‘throat’ in the appropriate squares. You were grateful that you had found at least one easy clue. Filling out a few more answers that you had somehow missed, you tapped his pencil against the book a second time when you reached a stalemate at one of the remaining clues.
 13 Across: Town at Eighth Mile of Boston Marathon
 You paused your music, slid your headphones around your neck, turning to your best friend, Penny, beside you. You put the crossword book on the tray in front of her, pointing at the clue.
 “You’re a trove of useless knowledge,” You said, “do you know the answer to that?”
Instead of answering, Penny grabbed the pencil and wrote Natick across the correct squares. Smiling, you slid the crossword book back in front of yourself. Penny handed you the pencil, turning back to the movie she was watching on the seat display; it looked like Finding Nemo or Finding Dory if you were to guess.
 “Thanks, Penny,” you said, punching her playfully in the shoulder.
 Humming, Penny smiled without looking away from her movie. “You’re welcome, babe.”
 Leaning over, Penny checked her shoulder against yours. Your mouth went dry, face heating up both from the contact and the fact that Penny had called you what she had called you. Despite yourself, your traitorous body felt gooey and fuzzy. You quickly slid your headphones on, restarting the music. The last thing you needed was Penny to figure out how you felt.
 For the rest of the flight to Calgary, you tried to focus on your crossword puzzle and the music you were listening to. You tried not to focus on the lingering gooey and fuzzy feelings the shoulder check and pet name from Penny had caused. Keyword: tried. Even with your music blasted as loud as was safe, you could still hear Penny laughing along to the movie. Every time Penny laughed, the gooey and fuzzy feelings bubbled back up deep within your gut.
 When the plane finally landed about an hour later and everyone was disembarking, you kept to yourself. You knew your face was burning as bright as the morning sun after everything that had happened. The last thing you needed was someone to question you about it.
 Thankfully, the bus ride to the hotel was without incident. You were also able to finish your crossword. Seeing as Penny was the last person you wanted to interact with right now, you went to Maggie for help. Maggie was concerned as to why you weren't asking Penny because she knew the two of you did everything together but she ultimately helped you when you said that Penny just wanted to rest after the long flight. Though, you were fairly certain you saw Maggie give you a sideways glance once or twice as she was giving you the answers to some of the clues. You couldn't be sure if it was because she didn't believe your story about Penny, or because she thought you were an idiot for not knowing the answers. Either way, you kept quiet and thanked her when the crossword was finished.
 When everyone was assigned their rooms, you and Penny were paired together to the surprise of absolutely no one. Penny was talking to you about ways to refine your butterfly stroke when you put the keycard in the door. Walking into the room, you both froze as you dropped your suitcases beside each other.
 Looking at each other after a moment, Penny cursed while you ran your hand down your face and around to the back of your neck, sighing.
 “One bed,” you said, swallowing thickly. “There must’ve been a mix-up with the room assignments.”
 Penny sighed, turning to you. “I’m alright with it as long as you are.”
 You noticed something strange beyond the surface of Penny’s eyes; it looked like hope.
 Feeling yourself short circuit, you nodded quickly. “Yeah, it’s fine.” Your words felt heavy, nervous. If Penny noticed, she didn’t acknowledge it.
 Motioning to the bathroom, Penny began unzipping her suitcase. “I’m gonna take a quick shower. It helps me sleep.”
 Feeling your mouth go dry for the second time that night, you nodded. You had seen Penny after a shower plenty of times; this time though, this time felt personal. Intimate. You would be sharing a bed, something that you had dreamt about for a while.
 As Penny went to shower, you changed into your pyjamas. Swallowing thickly, you wanted to kick himself for packing nothing more than a pair of loose boxers and a skin-tight undershirt to wear to bed. Normally, that would be sufficient; you always had your bed. Today though, some power that existed made it happenstance that you would share a bed with the woman you had a lunar-sized crush on. In other words, loose boxers and a skin-tight undershirt felt insufficient.
 When the bathroom door opened and Penny emerged wearing only sleep shorts and a sports bra, you felt less psychotic for wearing what you were wearing. Shimmying over toward the window, you allowed room for Penny on the side of the nightstand. Penny hummed in appreciation, slipping under the covers. Flicking on the lamp, she rolled over to face you.
 “I hope you don’t mind that the lamp is on,” she said, motioning behind her. “Leaving a light on helps me sleep more soundly.”
 You could see a blush rising on Penny’s face. Smiling softly, you slid under the cover and fluffed your pillow to get comfortable.
 “No,” you said, “I don’t mind.”
 You felt your heartstrings tug in different directions when Penny lit up with a genuine smile.
 “Night, babe,” Penny yawned, closing her eyes. A few moments later, Penny’s breathing evened out.
 “Night, Penny,” you mumbled, rolling over. You closed your eyes, drifting off to sleep after a few minutes. Your mind was transfixed on the fact that Penny had called you a pet name again.
 In the morning, you felt warm. Too warm. Your first thought was that you had a fever. You grumbled and shifted around, trying to get comfortable in your newfound heat. That caused another grumble that you decidedly did not utter.
 “Stay still, babe,” Penny mumbled, “cuddling you is no fun if you move.”
 You sprung up as if you were on fire, looking down at Penny. Penny grumbled leaning on her elbow to look at you.
 “Everything okay?” she asked, sounding concerned.
 You swallowed, nodding haphazardly. “I’m sorry for invading your space like that.”
 Penny ran a hand along your bicep. You shivered, leaning into the touch.
 “You didn’t invade anything. I would’ve stopped you if I didn’t like it,” Penny paused.
 “You mean...” the cogs started to turn in your head.
 Nodding, Penny smiled. “Yes. I have feelings for you. Have had feelings for you for a long time.”
 Sitting up properly, Penny cupped your face. On instinct, you brought your hands to Penny's ribcage. Shivering at the contact, Penny leaned in and ghosted her lips over yours. You felt your lips tremble at the feather-light sensation. You leaned in to chase the feeling, lips making contact with Penny's.
 You kissed each other for a moment, pulling back when you nibbled on Penny's lower lip. Penny looked blissed and content when you looked into her eyes. She caught you staring and smirked.
 Ducking your head, you placed it on Penny’s shoulder. Grabbing your chin, Penny pulled your head up. Looking into Penny's eyes, you could see nothing but tenderness and care staring back at you.
 “You have pretty eyes,” you blurted.
 Penny's face turned a soft shade of pink as she leaned in, kissing you. The kiss was soft, sweet, and the most meaningful kiss you had ever experienced. Unlike the kisses you had had with people in the past, this kiss with Penny felt like it mattered in the grand scheme of things. It felt right.
 Laying down to cuddle some more before practice, you heard one of the phones vibrate on the nightstand. It was Penny's phone that had vibrated but when you went to give it to her, she had already fallen back asleep. You looked at the phone screen and saw that the notification was a text from her brother, Jamie. You knew what Penny's password was because she had trusted you with it ages ago. Sighing, you entered the 6 digits and opened up the text thread to see what Jamie had wanted this early in the morning.
After reading the message, you placed Penny's phone on the nightstand. You kissed her on the forehead before curling around her and drifting off to sleep. The only thing on your mind was that you were grateful that Penny had a brother like Jamie.
 To: Coin
From: Giraffe
You're welcome for getting you two a room with one bed. All it cost me was a signed jersey. Now, it better have worked or else I'm flying up to Calgary myself to get you two fools together. Do you understand?
30 notes · View notes
wiypt-writes · 4 years ago
Text
Stark Spangled Forever
Tumblr media
One Shot: More Cushin’ For the Pushin’
Summary: Steve is starting to see the effects of the serum depleting. Can Katie convince him that, well, she doesn’t give a shit?!
Warnings: Bad language and a heap of smut! (NSFW, no under 18s.)
Pairing: Steve Rogers x OFC Katie Rogers (Stark)
A/N- So you all got @sweater-daddiesdumbdork​ to thank for this…. and yes, this is utter head cannon about the serum but, indulge me!! 
If you are currently reading Stark Spangled Banner for the first time as it reposts, then this contains MAJOR spoilers and you might want to wait until you’ve finished before you start Stark Spangled Forever.
Disclaimer: This is a pure work of fiction and classified as 18+. Please respect this and do not read if you are underage. I do not own any characters in this series bar Katie Stark and the other OCs. By reading beyond this point you understand and accept the terms of this disclaimer.
Stark Spangled Forever Masterlist // Main Masterlist
Tumblr media
“Sweetheart…” Steve sighed, gently catching Katie’s hand as it snaked over his belly under his Henley. She stilled and looked at him, her eyes narrowing slightly as he shook his head “I’m not feeling it tonight, I’m really tired.”
Katie sat up from where she’d been tucked under his arm as they sat on the sofa and flicked her pony tail back over her shoulder. “Alright. I’m gonna go up.”
“Honey…” he began to protest but she stopped him.
“Stevie, its fine. You said you’re tired so...” she gave him a smile that didn’t reach her eyes “I’ll see you upstairs.”
She curled her legs out from underneath her and stood up, padding from the room making sure to keep her face straight as she left. As she climbed the stairs, that horrible cold feeling washed over her from head to toe as she blinked back tears. Tears she felt pathetic for. This wasn’t a big issue…she got tired sometimes and pushed Steve away. Granted, that had happened like 4 times in the entire time she had been with him, but still…
Despite her self-reassurances, deep down she couldn’t help that little stab of insecurity in her brain. Steve had been acting off for the past 5 days. They’d had no fun of that nature whatsoever. Whilst his affection in general hadn’t particularly waned she’d noticed he wasn’t as handsy as he normally was and he hadn’t tried anything with her of that nature at all. He’d even taken to wearing a t-shirt in bed, which was basically unheard of, and it was almost as if he didn’t even want accidental skin contact with her.
Katie had brushed it off as him merely being tired. She knew he’d been reading through a lot of papers from his students, the first semester of the year was ramping up meaning Emmy was asking for his help too.  Jamie was also excelling at his baseball which was taking up Steve’s entire Saturdays as he took him to practice, assuming the proud dad role from the side-lines, Rori was attention demanding as ever and Harry was teething....
So yeah, this was totally down to Steve being tired. Nothing else.
At all.
Nothing to do with him going off her.
Nope.
Katie took a quick glance in the mirror, her hands smoothing over her hips and stomach which had taken a battering from 3 children, before she shook her head and headed into the bathroom.
Whatever…
Downstairs Steve was cursing himself. There was no mistaking the flicker of hurt that he’d seen in Katie’s eyes when he had pushed her away. He hadn’t meant to be so abrupt but he had been grappling with something internally for a few days now that he didn’t particularly know how to deal with. He ran his hands over his face before he stood up and turned off the TV. He let Lucky out for a pee before he made sure the doors were locked and headed up the stairs. He looked in on all his kid in turn, knocking lightly on Emmy’s door as she was home for the weekend,  and when she told him to come in he poked his head round finding her led in the dark, her face illuminated by her phone.
“Going to bed Em.” he said gently “Don’t be on that all night.”
“Yes dad.” she rolled her eyes and he arched an eyebrow at her. 
“You might be 20 but less of the cheek.” he teased as she flashed him a smile.
“Love you pops.” she grinned cheekily.
He snorted “You too, sleep well.”
With that he shut the door and headed into the bedroom. Katie was in the en-suite, he could hear the tap running. Taking a deep breath he moved to stand in front of the mirror, gently casting his eyes over his reflection. At first glance he didn’t look that different but hitching his top up slightly he glanced at his torso, and there was no mistaking it. The definition in his abs had definitely decreased and the hard plane of muscle seemed to be giving way to something less toned.
The door to the bathroom opened and he let go of the hem of his top, just a little bit too late and Katie paused, looking at him.
“Everything ok?” she frowned.
“Yeah.” he nodded, brushing her concern off. “I’m going for a shower.”
He headed to door of their bathroom, and then she spoke softly, her voice cracking and her words made him stop in his tracks.
“Stevie, you’re scaring me.” she said gently and he turned to face her. The utter hurt on her face made him want to die, as she blinked and looked down at the floor .“Why are you pushing me away all of a sudden? We haven’t had sex in 5 days now. Don’t you…” she trailed off, not looking up, her words catching in her throat as she struggled to voice the question she was petrified of hearing the answer do “Do you not want to or something? I know I’m not what I used to be Steve, but…”
Steve felt his chest contract as he looked at his wife, his heart breaking that she could even think that he didn’t find her attractive. He hadn’t up until then given a second thought as to how his actions could be making her feel as insecure as he was and right now he hated himself for that.
“No, honey…it’s not that. God, it’s nothing, like that, at all.“
“Then is it someone else?” she cut him off quietly, raising her head to look at him, her eyes swimming with tears.
“What?” he looked at her, utterly stunned.
She swallowed, “I asked if there was someone else.” she held his gaze
“Jesus, fuck, no!” he shook his head, appalled at the mere mention of such a thing “Of course not.”
“So it is me.”
“Katie…stop…” He stepped forward and took both her hands in his “You’re beautiful. I swear this isn’t you-“
“Oh, don’t you dare give me the this isn’t you, it’s me line or I swear to God…” Katie glared up at him and he gave an exasperated groan.
“Honey, I swear…this has nothing to do with you.” he tried to assure her, pulling her in closer and wrapping his arms around him but it didn’t work.
“Then what is it?” Katie whispered into his chest and he pulled back to look at her, his hands cradling her face “Baby, talk to me.”
With a loud sigh he moved away, sinking onto the foot of the bed, He reached out, his hands on her hips and he pulled her in between his legs so she was stood looking down at him, her hand resting on his shoulders.
“I noticed a few things recently.” he said, his head looking down at the carpet. “About me…” he glanced up “You know how Bruce ran all those tests on me after I came back after those 15 years?”
“Yeah.”
“Well he said then that the serum wasn’t infallible. And that over time it would most likely work itself out of my system. But the older I got the faster that would happen.”
“I know Steve.” Katie frowned, “We went through all this.”
“Well I guess I just wasn’t prepared for how fast that was gonna happen, that’s all.”
“What do you mean?” she pressed “Are you sick?”
“No.” he shook his head “Nothing like that. Just…” he shook his head and snorted “God this sounds so vain but I guess I’ve gotten that used to looking in the mirror and seeing myself in such good shape, spotting that I’m changing…well, it was a bit of a shock and I was worried…”
“About what?” “That you might not…” “Oh, Stevie…” Katie blinked “That’s what this is about? Your stomach?”
“You noticed?”
“Well, yeah.” she shrugged, her hands rubbing his shoulders “I’m your wife…it hasn’t happened all of a sudden, it’s…” He groaned “I knew you’d seen…”
“Yeah, and I don’t care!” she sighed, shaking her head “Soldier,I know as much as anyone how hard it is coping with changes to your body.  And so do you, it must have been a shock when you actually had the serum in the first place…”
“It’s not just the muscles.” he sighed, waving a hand to his beard. “This is going grey, my hair is too. My knees were ever so slightly aching after my run the other day…”
“Ok, first off…this…” she reached down, her nails scraping through his beard “This is hot. There’s a reason Brooke calls you the silver fox… and why half your students write that they want to do very rude things to you on twitter, which by the way really grosses Emmy out…”  Steve chuckled a little, his hands sliding up the back of Katie’s thighs as she cocked her head and looked down at him. “And as for the rest of it, so what if you’re going a little...soft...around the edges.” “Soft?” he looked up at her, a small smile curling at the edge of his mouth.
“Well, it’s not like you’ve gone fat Steve.” Katie shrugged, “But whatever, the point is you’re hot and you still turn me the fuck on, maybe even more so now than when you were that pristine, fresh faced Brooklyn boy I first met in that Boxing Gym all those years ago.”
He looked at her, studying her expression as she cupped his face in her hands, keeping his gaze on her.
“And don’t tell me you don’t believe me because if you do that means you’ve been a big, fat liar about the fact you tell me that you find me even more sexy now than before we had kids.” she arched an eyebrow and he snorted a she moved to straddle him where he was perched on the end of the bed, her knees falling either side of his thighs.
“You’re the man I wake up to every morning, the man that kisses me fucking senseless, the man that’s helping me raise our children, the man who can still bring me straight to me knees with a single look my way.” she smiled.
“A single look?” he quipped.
“Yes, and you know it.”
He shook his head before he sighed, his hands resting on her hips. “I guess I’m just worried that one day…it’s all gonna be gone and…” “Remember what you said to me when I had Jamie?” Katie cut him off “When I was struggling with how I looked and to try and make me understand you asked me how I’d feel about you if we woke up one morning and the serum effects had all gone?”
She held his gaze before she continued “I told you then that it wouldn’t change a thing about how I felt about you. Did you believe me?”
Steve was silent for a second before he nodded “Of course I believed you, Doll..”
“So why on Earth would you suddenly think any of that has changed?” she looked at him “Serum effects or no serum effects… I don’t give a fuck Steve, you’re mine.”
Steve believed her, of course he did. He knew all this was in his head, but fuck if it wasn’t hard to let it take over, thinking back to being that little kid from Brooklyn that no one gave a second glance to.
“I got one word for you baby.” Katie said softly, her hands gripping at the hem of his Henley “Dumbasses.”
And jesus, suddenly he was catapulted back to that moment some 15 years or so ago on their first date,
“Well, personally, I think all those girls that picked Bucky over you were dubmasses. I’ve seen the photos of you before all this happened…” she raised her free hand and held out her index finger, and gestured up and down his torso “You were sweet”
He chuckled and took a drink of his beer “You know I heard that a lot…you’re really sweet and all but…“
“Like I said…”she leaned back in her chair slightly, “Dumbasses”
He shook his head as he peeked up at her, “Fucking hell I swear to God you can read my mind at times.”
“Nope…”she said, pulling his top up “I just know you. Now take this off.”
He arched an eyebrow but didn’t protest, instead he held his arms up so she could pull his henley over his head before she pushed him back, making him lay flat. He easily shifted them both, so they were a little further up the bed as her fingertips gently traced down his biceps.
“I love how you can wrap me in these, keep anything and everything from hurting me.” she looked at him, her eyes locked onto his as she started shifting slightly, her hands continued down his forearms before her fingers found his, lacing them together. “How your hands can be so gentle and soft yet also hard when I need them to be, how they’d kill for me, for any of us.”  she raised his left hand to her mouth and brushed her lips over his platinum wedding band “A soldier, a man made for fighting yet who’s  been nothing but gentle and loving with me and the kids…” she moved his hands to both her hips before she leaned down and pressed her lips to his, before she pulled back and smiled at him as she started sliding down his chest, peppering kisses down his sternum, the kisses punctuated by her words “my husband, my best friend, my lover, my baby daddy….”
Steve’s breath hitched a little as she moved downwards, lips gliding over his treasure trail and she peeked back up at him with those lust blown pupils and bit her bottom lip “You know how good this makes me feel, when you press against me over and over when you’re making me yours.”
She moved back so her hips were once more straddling his and Steve flexed underneath her. All that rubbing and brushing against him with every move she made had gotten him hard as fuck.  He was aching for her.
Feeling him she looked at him, grinning. “And there’s certainly nothing soft about that.”
Steve let out a little chuckle and he couldn’t help but relax and enjoy right where they were at that moment. “You might have had a hand in that.”
Katie grinned. She loved having that kind of power over him, it was a fucking turn on.
“I’ll have a hand in your pants in a minute Soldier.”
“A minute seems an awfully long time to wait…” he said, pushing up against her again as she let out a soft sigh at the feel of him.
“Another reason I love you.” she smirked “Because I know you’re gonna leave me seeing stars within the next half hour. 10 minutes if we’re skipping foreplay.”
“Is this not the foreplay Doll?” he asked, his hands gripping her hips, fingers brushing the strip of skin just above her sleep shorts where her top had ridden up slightly, and he groaned inwardly as he saw her nipples were hard, peeking at him though the soft material of her cami.
“We can call it that if you want…” she said, rolling her hips, grinding against him again.
“You’re killing me sweetheart.” he groaned.
She rolled her hips against his again, splaying her hands on his chest “Nope, I can’t feel a shred of weakness underneath me…” “Ok…” Steve said, and with a swift movement he flipped her over so he was underneath him drawing a startled gasp from her which merged into that adorable, dirty little giggle he knew and loved “I’m done talking now.”
“Good.” She said, fisting her hand in the chain round his neck she dragged him down for a fierce, demanding kiss before she pulled back and looked at him “Fuck me like you own me, Cap.”
Her words fired something in his belly and he let out the growl that had been bubbling in his throat. His lips pressed to hers as if his life depended on it, his hands reached down and grabbed the straps of her top, pulling down harshly, the sound of ripping fabric filling the room.
Katie pulled back and looked at him “Did you seriously just do that? Again?”
“Look, sweetheart.” he glanced at her “You told me to fuck you like I owned you. I’m trying. So shut up.”
Whatever quick response Katie had been thinking up died in her throat as with a quick movement Steve grabbed her hips and flipped her over, once more drawing that dirty little giggle that he loved so much from her throat. His fingers gently traced a line down from her neck to the base of her spine before he gripped at the flesh over her hipbones and pulled her upwards so she was presented in front of him. Taking more care this time, he slid her shorts down, before he shimmied out of his sweats, his fingers tracing the inside of her thigh, bending over, his lips following their path. As he got to the top of her inside thigh, his kisses became gentle bites and then without warning he inserted 2 fingers inside her.
“Fuck…” Katie stuttered, her hips bucking backwards. Steve’s fingers started to move, gently, then harder, his mouth kissing all around the top of her thighs as she moved back and forth, fucking herself on his hand. He watched her for a minute or so, his fingers curling and pushing…and then they stopped. Katie whimpered, and Steve smirked as he bent over, nipping at her neck.
“You know I love you, right?” he said softly, his mouth caressing her pulse point as she rolled her head back, his hand slid up to her throat holding her face still as he kissed her, hard.
“Yeah, I love you too Solider” Katie panted into his kiss.
His fingers danced over the soft skin of her outside thighs and both his hands pulled her backwards as he pushed straight into her, making her cry out softly at the depth.
His rhythm was slow at first, hands on her hips before he quickened, the depth of this angle driving Katie wild. She writhed and moaned as he filled her, brushing against that spot inside her and she couldn’t get enough of him, her face buried into the pillow, pelvis pushed back against him as he thrust in deeply, again and again.
“You’re all mine…” he said hoarsely as he leaned forward, his chest pressing into her back as his teeth grazed her ear, biting down softly, “There’ll never be anyone else, never baby girl.”
His voice was punctuated by his grunts as he thrust into his wife again and again, his fingers tightening on her skin, knowing full well he’d probably leave bruises but not giving a shred of care. And neither did she, the more people that saw those marks, the better, the signs she was his for the world to see…it drove her wild with passion and lust and she couldn’t help but rock back against him, begging him to push deeper, drive her to the edge and back again, which he was more than happy to do.
“Say you believe me…” Steve all but growled as he thrust into her fiercely, his hand tightening slightly around her throat causing her to grab at the sheets in her hand “Say you believe me that there’s no one who comes close…”
“I believe you…” Katie cried out loudly, her voice punctuated by desperate moans as she tilted her head back as he continued nipping at her neck, pounding into her. “No one else.”
She was lost, lost in the sensation of her soldier fucking her senseless, just like she had asked him to. Those hands that she loved, that were normally so soft and gentle with her were now gripping at her hips, curling into her soft skin, pulling her back with each thrust. His lips, the ones she was so used to whispering soft nothing into her ear, or placing gentle kisses to her neck were biting and sucking at her throat as if his life depended on it, praising her, telling her what a pretty girl, amazing momma and beautiful wife she was. Coupled with the consistent pounding between her legs she was lost in an utter whirl of love and lust and she could feel the coil in her belly beginning to tighten as Steve maintained his pace, not once relenting.
Steve could read the signs well enough by now to know she was close. Moving one hand he slid it down between her legs, stroking at her clit drawing a loud gasp from her lips as she bucked back onto him, her legs trembling.
“Stevie… I’m gonna…”
“Come on doll…” he said gently into her ear “Come for me…”
“Oh, God…”  her voice was low, soft, as her words became nothing but a babble of noises as she lost control, her body shaking as she cried out, the world tipping on its axis completely as she became completely unaware of anything other than the sensation between her legs as she came, hard, pulsing and tightening down around him.
Steve felt it, he always did, and he continued to drive into her, fucking her through it before he realised he wanted to see her, wanted those green eyes he knew and loved locked onto his, so with a quick pull back he moved out of her and flipped her over again onto her back before she could even think about what he was doing. With a grunt he buried himself into her again, propping himself up on his elbows, his hands cupping her face as his lips crashed onto hers for a dirty, sloppy kiss that was all mouth and tongue.
He reached down, grabbing at her knee, slinging it over her shoulder as he rutted into her, driving hard, over and over, the dirty noise of wetness filled the room, skin hitting skin as he picked up the pace driving and seeking his own release. Katie’s hands gripped at his back, her nails digging into his shoulders as he thrust again and again, her eyes locked onto his. His pupils were blown with desire, those baby blues she knew and loved had darkened to a steel grey and knowing that after 15 years and a lifetime of ups and downs that she could still elicit this effect on him was enough to blow her mind. She loved this man, with every single inch of her body, and always would.
Steve dropped his head, his hips not once faltering as his mouth nipped at her chest, sucking, biting, the bruises forming almost instantly but he couldn’t give a fuck. This woman was his, no one else’s, and in turn he wanted her to realise that. He needed her to understand that there wasn’t a single person on this fucking planet, hell, the universe that would ever make him feel like this. As his lips moved to that spot on her neck he dropped her leg down and felt her breath hitch again and she let out a soft wail, her hips bucking upwards as she wrapped her legs around him, heels digging into his ass.
“I got you baby…” he whispered, his voice punctuated by his own pants “Come on, give it to me…” With a gasp, her head titled back, eyes fluttered shut as her hands gripped at his strong arms and she came again which was enough to send him catapulting off the edge right behind her. Her legs grew tighter around his slim hips, gripping at him, pulling him closer as he stuttered, groaned and then pitched forward, his torso slick with sweat as he lay still, face pressed into her neck, surrendering to the utter bliss that consumed him.
Steve gently kissed Katie’s neck, breathing deeply. That had been intense and felt like it had risen from his very toes. His mind was still caught in that post-coital fog of bliss, and his body felt like it was light, floating even, but as Katie shifted underneath him, her lips gently pressing to his temple, he realised he wasn’t floating, nor was he light. He went to move, to roll off her but she caught him immediately, her hands flying to his arms as she looked at her.
“Don’t” she whispered.
“Honey I’ll crush…” “No, you won’t” she shook her head, “Relax, please soldier just…”
Steve licked his lips, and gently dropped back onto his elbow, pressing a little more of his weight on top of her. Katie sighed, her forehead resting on his collar bone, face nuzzling into his chest, her hands softly gliding up his back. Despite his worry, Steve felt himself relax into his wife as he held her in his arms. Katie sighed contently.
“Feels so nice, just lay here…” she said softly, pressing a kiss to his chest. “You always pull away far too fast.”
Steve took a deep breath “I don’t mean to Doll, I just know I’m way bigger and…” “Steve…” Katie moved her hand so she raised a single finger to his lips, shushing him “Stop.” After a moment or so of tensing up he allowed himself to relax completely, her hands dancing up his spine and he gave a soft hum of contentment as she pressed a kiss to his jawline and he felt her lips curl into a smile against his beard.
“What?” he asked softly, moving so he looked down at her.
“Nothing, just I love you.” she said honestly, her eyes locking onto his. “Forever.” Steve chuckled as he pressed his lips to hers “Good, because I’m not going anywhere.”
“Glad to hear it.” Katie smiled, brushing a hand through his hair “And for the record…I’m all about more cushin’ for the pushin’”
At that Steve let out a loud laugh as she giggled along with him, his mouth once more claiming hers
“Looks like I am too, baby girl.”
After another minute or so, Steve finally relented and moved, his softening cock pulling out as he rolled over onto his back, giving a sigh.
“You ok?” he asked.
“Yeah, course…I could use a drink though.” Katie smiled.
Steve leaned over, pressed a kiss to her mouth before he moved, located his boxers and after a promise of being back soon he headed out onto the landing.
Emmy emerged from her room at the same time, leaning on her doorframe as she shot him a look “You two are disgusting.”
“What?” he blinked, standing still as he looked at her.
“Seriously…you need to soundproof your room! I mean how would you feel if you heard me and Pete?” “I better not hear you and Pete.” he shot back, hands falling to his hips as he fixed his eldest with a glare.
She shrugged before she looked him up and down, and rolled her eyes “Fuck, I’m glad Brooke isn’t here…I’m sick of her telling me you’re a snack…”
With that she turned back into her room, shutting the door behind her. Steve stood still, looking at the now closed doorframe before he grinned to himself.
“Rogers, you still got it.” he laughed softly, before he bounded down the stairs to grab a bottle of water.
75 notes · View notes
jamiemackenziefraser · 4 years ago
Text
All That Was Fair 
Chapter 15: The Woman of Balnain
Tumblr media
Summary: Jamie finally sits down with a certain book.
Read on AO3
Read chp 15 on tumblr below the cut
Previous, masterlist, next
They spent the afternoon in lazy bliss. Together, they’d gone into the kitchen where Jamie had shown her how to whip up a burrito. Although most of it clearly went over her head, she had such a good time that she asked to make something else directly after he finished eating. 
After a brief explanation on how humans get full after eating, he gave in and offered to show her how to make cookies. 
Jamie felt distantly like his life had turned into a romcom as they baked cookies together. When Claire bumped him teasingly on the side, he grabbed a handful of flour and chucked it straight at Claire. Her mouth fell open in mock dismay before an impish gleam shone in her eye. Jamie learned that afternoon the true reason the word “impish” had originated to describe the fair folk. 
Claire was mischievous and exuberant in her retaliations. Handful after handful of baking supplies had been lobbed in his direction, shoved down his clothing, mussed into his hair, and even discreetly snuck into his pockets when he was later occupied with sticking the baking sheets of cookies in the oven. Long after their initial food fight had ended, Claire continued their little game. 
Later that afternoon while they sat together on the couch (the faerie’s legs draped over his, Jamie’s hands shoved under his own legs in order to keep from caressing her soft skin that was right there), Claire had produced a handful of oats from nowhere and shoved them down his collar. He’d flung her legs off, grabbed her waist, and threw her over his shoulder without a second thought as she squealed and thrashed. Stalking to the kitchen like a caveman with his prize draped over him, he unceremoniously plopped her down and then dumped an entire bowl of excess flour over her head. 
“I give up,” she screeched, smacking blindly at his chest with her flour-caked face still screwed up, puffs of powder exploding from her lips. 
“Promise? No more surprise attacks when I let down my guard?” he asked guardedly, trying to keep his grin out of his voice. 
“You have my word,” she promised. She gave him a grave, floury nod. 
Feeling quite magnanimous now that he’d won, Jamie grabbed a dishtowel, wet it, and then approached Claire. 
He cupped the back of her head, feeling her curls tangling between his fingers, and gently wiped the flour from her face. Once her eyelids had been cleaned, she opened them and stared up at him with a soft look. His bones felt like they had been turned to water to be receiving such a look, and he struggled to focus on the task at hand as he tenderly dabbed at the spots of flour still left on her face. She stayed quiet, just looking at him and allowing him to clean up the mess he’d made. 
How he loved her. 
When the moment finally broke, their gazes tearing apart, Jamie inspected her hair. 
“No way I’m gettin’ this out of these curls. Do ye want a shower, a nighean?” 
“I would never say no to a shower,” she beamed. 
So, he’d graciously turned it on for her and then explained that he was going to get some work done. Leaving her to it knowing full well that she’d be in there for a long time, he headed for his office. 
But it wasn’t work he had in mind. 
There was another matter tickling at his brain. One he’d been itching at for far too long. He’d barely had time to breathe, let alone sit down and address it, until just this minute. 
He needed to read the book that the eccentric bookstore owner had shoved into his hands.
Unsure how to explain the strange interaction to Claire and disinclined to possibly worry her over nothing, Jamie still hadn’t mentioned anything about it. He’d been waiting to read it until he had a moment alone. 
Settling into his office chair, Jamie stared down at the cover of the mysterious book. He was motionless for a few seconds, feeling a strange uneasiness. 
The title was The Woman of Balnain. It was short, perhaps a novella, and the description on the back said that it was about a time-traveling lass. Why would the mysterious Geillis give this to him? 
He was just about to start into reading, but as he opened the book, several sheets of paper suddenly fluttered out and onto his lap. Warily, he picked them up, turning them over to see what appeared to be hastily scrawled notes. 
The words at the top made him draw a sharp breath. 
“The Standing Stones of Craigh na Dun.”
The following notes seemed like a jumble to Jamie, the words swimming together in his mind in his haste to take them all in. He began to read so fast that several times he had to pause and reread. Geillis— at least he assumed that she was the author of these notes— wrote about planes of reality, magnetic fields, magical properties of the standing stones...
And below that was another section that was entitled “traveling.” 
Gemstones. One could travel from this plane to another— through the stones— by use of gemstones. According to this, only some people (or fae, he supposed) could travel. But those who could had discovered that gemstones ensured their safety.  
His hand was shaking so hard that he dropped the papers entirely. He brought his trembling hands up to bury his face into them. The gravity of the situation sat heavy on his shoulders as the realization descended. 
If this was true, he’d just been handed the way to get Claire back home. 
*
What followed was perhaps an hour of frantic, mind-bending sorting of thoughts. He read and re-read over and over, trying to ensure that he truly had understood the implications of the document. But no matter how many times he reviewed the words on the page, the meaning was clear: If Claire had a gemstone, she could safely use the stones to return to her plane. To her people and her life. Away from him. 
But then he spiraled into doubt. How did he know he could trust this mysterious Geillis and her instructions? But as much as he wanted to deny it— to dismiss the entry as garbage and all thoughts of Claire leaving along with it— he couldn’t ignore the feeling in his wame that this was the truth any more than he could refute the fact that Claire deserved a shot at returning home. Besides, something about Geillis had seemed odd… mystical perhaps. Not in the same way Claire did, but he certainly believed that whoever (or whatever) the bookkeeper was, she knew a hell of a lot more about this stuff than he did. And she’d known about Claire. So in the end, while he wasn’t certain that she was a friend per se, he thought it likely she was at least an ally— and he believed what was written on the page was the truth. 
Once Jamie had addressed comprehension and credibility, he moved on to his sorrow. 
Grief over the thought of losing Claire. 
He was no longer lying to himself about the extent of his feelings. He was in love with her, plain and simple. Infatuated, enamored— all those things— but it went deeper than that. She’d walked her way straight into his heart and burrowed in there as sure as she did when she nestled against him in his bed. And now that she’d filled that empty space in his life, he couldn’t even imagine going back to the hollow loneliness of existence without her. 
Every part of him longed not to tell her. He could crumple up the page and throw it away, or better yet, he could burn it up without a trace, and she’d be none the wiser. 
But his mind swirled with images, memories eating at him that he couldn’t quite ignore. Claire crying against him only a few days ago, weeping for all she’s lost. Her trepidation as she’d faced the terrifying unknown of the city. The sheen of tears in her eyes that she’d fought back as she admitted Jenny had made her scared… 
As he thought about all she’d been through since being ripped from her home, he knew that taking away the chance to return would be unfair. He wanted to be selfish— God, help him, he burned with it…
But he loved her enough to let her go. 
A tear leaked out of the corner of his eye— scalding as it dripped down his cheek. He sat motionless in his office chair, his hand squeezing his opposite arm so tightly that the nails made deep red indents in his flesh, but he knew what he had to do. 
He’d tell her. 
Decision made, Jamie stood from his desk. His feet felt like they were encased with lead, and he was light-headed, as if all that thinking and agonizing had sucked his brain out with a straw. As horrible as he felt, he was resolved, and he made his way sluggishly downstairs. 
The scene in the living room nearly shattered that decision. 
Claire was asleep on his couch, all curled up and shoulders hunched under the fuzzy throw blanket she had clutched around her. Her bonny pink lips were parted just slightly and tiny whooshes of air tickled a single curl that had fallen over her face. 
He ached to see her like this for the rest of his life. 
Just as he was about to turn on his heel and leave her to her rest (this was not the time for such a heavy revelation), she stirred. His stubborn feet anchored him in place as he watched her shift, head lifting a bit, and her eyes blinked open. 
“Hi, Jamie,” she breathed sleepily. 
While giving him a fond but drowsy smile, her head nestled back down onto the throw pillow. She looked up at him with eyes that always reminded him of a fawn’s. 
“Havin’ a wee rest?” He asked tenderly. 
“Yes,” she breathed. She glanced him up and down appraisingly and then said, “maybe you should too. You seem tired.” 
Jamie was tired. He felt like he’d been put through a meat grinder several times over. Still, he knew there was no way he’d actually sleep even if he could tear his eyes away from her long enough to close them. 
But if Claire wanted a nap, and was hinting for him to join him, who was he to deny her?
He indulged his selfish desires for a moment and approached the couch so he could bend down and run a hand over Claire’s hair. 
She smiled drowsily and leaned into his touch. Her eyes blinked slowly as she gazed up at him. 
God, she was beautiful. 
“Let’s go upstairs, mo nighean donn,” he suggested quietly. 
His sleepy faerie did not seem inclined to get up. Her eyes had fallen closed again, but her hand blindly reached out for him. She caught his cheek, her fingers tracing over the stubble on his jaw. 
Then, suddenly, her eyes popped open. 
“Are you alright, Jamie?” she asked, her whisky gaze swimming with concern. 
Her abruptness startled him, but he quickly snapped himself out of it and put on his brave face. 
“I’m fine, Sassenach. Do ye want to stay on the couch or go up to bed?” he softly asked. 
Her brows furrowed, disbelieving, but she firmly answered, “with you.” 
He felt bad that he’d upset her but couldn’t seem to drag himself out of the cloud of depression that had wrapped around him the moment he’d decided to take her home. 
But he’d have this one last time with her, and he wouldn’t ruin it with dark thoughts. 
“Alright. Let’s go, mo nighean donn.” 
She sat up, eyes fixed on him all the while, and then took his hand. The way she was looking at him, soft and searching, made his heart skip a few beats. He hardened himself to the overwhelming desire to pour out his heart to her, lay all the cards on the table, and beg her to stay. But he knew in his bones that this wasn’t the time. 
Her thumb was tracing lightly over his knuckles, patient as he struggled inside himself. 
A part of him wanted to bury his face in her neck and let her stroke his hair— she would do it, he knew. All it would take was him to make the motion, take the comfort from her. 
But that wouldn’t be fair. If she saw his distress, she would feel guilty about leaving him. He loved her too much to put that burden on her. 
His puir heart was breaking, but he managed to wrap it up in a thin layer of composure, scoop up his scrambled thoughts, and put himself back together. He gave her a brave smile, feigning nonchalance. 
Breaking the silence, he said, “let’s go, mo calman geal.” 
He took her upstairs by the hand. She was still sleepy, but not inclined to let that stop her from caring for him— even if she had no idea what was going on. He could feel her hovering anxiously by his side, trying to figure out what was wrong. 
As they sat down on the bed, Claire tried to tug him down to cuddle with her, but he shook his head. Settling against the headboard instead, he guided her down to lay her head in his lap. 
He wanted to watch her. Just this one last time. 
Sleepy as she was, but probably even more so because she wanted to do whatever was best for him, she complied. She snuggled down into his lap and settled herself so she was comfortable. 
As he carded his fingers through her hair in gentle strokes, Claire began to relax. It wasn’t long before she drifted back into sleep. The lines on her face smoothed, and she seemed to melt into him impossibly further. 
His hands still moving soothingly against her, Jamie returned to his thoughts. A terrible weight rested on his shoulders as he came to a realization. 
He wouldn’t be strong enough to tell her here— in his home that had become their home (at least he felt that it was theirs)— and still manage to make the drive to the stones. It was selfish to keep this from her, but he simply wouldn’t be able do it. There were limits to his goodness, and he prayed God would forgive him for this one. 
So, with his mind made up, a plan began to form. 
He would tell her tomorrow that they were going for a hike. They’d drive out to the stones, and he would explain once they got there. His Grandfather’s ruby ring laid on his dresser— that would be what he’d give her to ensure safe passage. And then… then, she’d go home. 
And that was that. 
This was his last night with her. 
He looked down and studied her face for a long time, trying to memorize every tiny detail. He knew it would be the remembrance of her that would warm him on the cold, lonely days that would surely follow. He traced her face reverently, first with his eyes, and then as his selfish, breaking heart took over, with soft touches of his fingertips. 
All that was left was to pray that tomorrow he would have the strength to send her away.
***
A/n: I believe now is the time for me to hide 😳
Next
56 notes · View notes
nriacc · 3 years ago
Note
Do you think the lads ever found out about wheels sleeping with Harry styles and the song?
Also this might just be me but I think Alexa definitely messaged wheels after the twitter ordeal and cleared the air
Really want them to be friends
Aahhahahah soooo I have a vision in mind of most of them sitting together in Wheels flat and they find out about Harry which I probably won't write about fully but I'll do the extra scene just after this... Butttt, yesss I do think Alexa and Wheels are friends, I don’t think she'd hold anything against Alexa at all and they'd have had to got on for the years that Alex was with her anyway so I do think they are friendly! And yeahhhh Alexa would have probably messaged her after seeing the twitter stuff asking if she was okay and saying that she's there if she needs her. Alexa probably wouldn't be too surprised at hearing that Wheels has feelings for Alex (Because she'd off seen the news/magazine stuff in 2014 anyway andddd I think Alex may have mentioned when they saw each other in New York that him and Wheels were close) so yeah I think that they would definitely clear the air and that those two are friends anyway.
Righttttt, now as for everyone finding out about Harry....
*okay so picture this just after the uk arctic monkeys tour that they have just gone on. Monkeys are round at Wheels' flat and Adam and Bestie are there too. Wheels is talking about wanting to go and do something but she's unsure about it.*
Wheels: So yeah, I don't really know
Adam: Well, you know what grandma always says... You gotta swim before you drown
Wheels *Smiling at the memories of her and Adam being told that all the time when they were younger*
Bestie *gasps and jaw drops* : WHAT
Adam *confused*: What are you looking so shocked about?
Wheels *sitting beside Alex and she quietly whispers*: oh no
Alex: whats up?
Wheels *just shakes her head and listens to Bestie and Adam, praying that Bestie doesn't figure it out*
Bestie: What does your grandma say?
Adam *still confused as to why its a big deal*: That we should swim before we drown?
Bestie *looks at wheels and shouts*: OH MY FUCKING GOD
Wheels: dont
Bestie *shouting and standing up to pace around*: OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Matt: What is up with her?
Wheels *playing dumb*: don’t know
Bestie: YOU LUCKY FUCKING BITCH. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I. HATE. YOU!
Jamie: Y/N please explain why she's having a mental breakdown right now
Wheels *sheepishly*: I think she's just figured out who Mr NDA was from Jamaica.
Bestie: HOW DIDN’T I FIGURE IT OUT. I MADE YOU WATCH THE FUCKING ALBUM DOCUMENTARY WITH ME. AND HE WROTE THE ALBUM IN JAMAICA. THERES A FUCKING SECTION ABOUT YOU IN THAT DOCUMENTARY AND YOU SAID NOTHING. OH MY FUCKING GOD Y/N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nick: can you just tell us please
Wheels *to Alex*: please remember this was two years ago
Alex: Who was it?
Wheels *shakes her head, not being able to bring herself to say it*
Bestie: YOU SAID HE REMINDED YOU OF HOME AND YOU REALLY WERE OH SO FAR FROM HOME BECAUSE YOU WERE IN FUCKING JAMAICA SHAGGING HIS BRAINS OUT
Wheels *sinking further and further into the settee*
Bestie: HE LIED IN HIS SONG ABOUT YOU THOUGH HES MET YOU MORE THAN ONCE! CONSIDERING HE HUGGED YOU ON NATIONAL TELEVISION Y/N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wheels *fully hiding at this point* : Please stop
Bestie *to Alex*: DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN SHE TOLD US HER PRAISE KINK FORMED?!?!?!??!?!??!!!!
Alex *from context he can guess*: Jamaica?
Bestie: YES JAMAICA BECAUSE HE WAS CALLING YOU A GOOD GIRL WASNT HE Y/N!!!! HE TOLD YOU THAT YOU FELT SO GOOD!!! WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE THE LUCKIEST BITCH IN THE ACTUAL WORLD I ACTUALLY HATE YOUR FUCKING GUTS. YOU LOSE YOUR VIRGINITY TO ALEX TURNER *looks to Alex* don’t get any ideas, thats gross
Alex *mumbling*: swear you wanted a threesome at one point
Bestie *ignoring Alex's comment and looking back to Wheels*: THEN YOU FUCK AND DATE MATTY HEALY THEN YOU GO BACK BETWEEN THE TWO ALL THE TIME. WHICH IS FAIR BECAUSE THEY FUCKED WITH YOUR EMOTIONS... BUT, WHAT YOU DON’T HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO TO ME, IS TO FUCK HARRY FUCKING STYLES IN JAMAICA AND HE CALLED YOU A GOOD GIRL AND TOLD YOU THAT YOU FELT SO GOOD. AND THEN HE WROTE A SONG ABOUT YOU AND DISGUISED IT AS IF YOU WERE FROM AMERICA!! YOU DISGUSTINGLY SEXY BITCH!!!!! I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU. I NEED A LIE DOWN. IM INDIRECT SEXUAL PARTNERS WITH HARRY STYLES. I NEED A REST. SEE YOU ALL IN TWO TO FIVE WORKING DAYS. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!
Wheels *is suffocating herself into the pillow she's hiding in*
Everyone *completely lost for words and shocked*
Matt *starts a low chuckle and doesn't stop laughing until everyone in the room but wheels is looking at him curiously*: I told you all she's the cradle snatcher of the group
Wheels *launches the pillow at him, hitting him square in the face*
6 notes · View notes
what-is-your-plan-today · 4 years ago
Text
Stark Spangled Kinks: More Cushin’ For The Pushin’
Tumblr media
Summary: Steve is starting to see the effects of the serum depleting. Can Katie convince him that, well, she doesn’t give a shit?!
Warnings: Bad language and a heap of smut! (NSFW, no under 18s.)
Pairing: Steve Rogers x OFC Katie Rogers (Stark)
A/N- So you all got @sweater-daddiesdumbdork​ to thank for this.... and yes, this is utter head cannon about the serum but, indulge me!!
Tumblr media
February 2028
“Sweetheart…” Steve sighed, gently catching Katie’s hand as it snaked over his belly under his Henley. She stilled and looked at him, her eyes narrowing slightly as he shook his head “I’m not feeling it tonight, I’m really tired.”
Katie sat up from where she’d been tucked under his arm as they sat on the sofa and flicked her pony tail back over her shoulder. “Alright. I’m gonna go up.”
“Honey…” he began to protest but she stopped him.
“Stevie, its fine. You said you’re tired so...” she gave him a smile that didn’t reach her eyes “I’ll see you upstairs.”
She curled her legs out from underneath her and stood up, padding from the room making sure to keep her face straight as she left. As she climbed the stairs, that horrible cold feeling washed over her from head to toe as she blinked back tears. Tears she felt pathetic for. This wasn’t a big issue…she got tired sometimes and pushed Steve away. Granted, that had happened like 4 times in the entire time she had been with him, but still…
Despite her self-reassurances, deep down she couldn’t help that little stab of insecurity in her brain. Steve had been acting off for the past 5 days. They’d had no fun of that nature whatsoever. Whilst his affection in general hadn’t particularly waned she’d noticed he wasn’t as handsy as he normally was and he hadn’t tried anything with her of that nature at all. He’d even taken to wearing a t-shirt in bed, which was basically unheard of, and it was almost as if he didn’t even want accidental skin contact with her.
Katie had brushed it off as him merely being tired. She knew he’d been reading through a lot of papers from his students, the first semester of the year was ramping up meaning Emmy was asking for his help too.  Jamie was also excelling at his baseball which was taking up Steve’s entire Saturdays as he took him to practice, assuming the proud dad role from the side-lines, Rori was attention demanding as ever and Harry was teething....
So yeah, this was totally down to Steve being tired. Nothing else.
At all.
Nothing to do with him going off her.
Nope.
Katie took a quick glance in the mirror, her hands smoothing over her hips and stomach which had taken a battering from 3 children, before she shook her head and headed into the bathroom.
Whatever…
Downstairs Steve was cursing himself. There was no mistaking the flicker of hurt that he’d seen in Katie’s eyes when he had pushed her away. He hadn’t meant to be so abrupt but he had been grappling with something internally for a few days now that he didn’t particularly know how to deal with. He ran his hands over his face before he stood up and turned off the TV. He let Lucky out for a pee before he made sure the doors were locked and headed up the stairs. He looked in on all his kid in turn, knocking lightly on Emmy’s door as she was home for the weekend,  and when she told him to come in he poked his head round finding her led in the dark, her face illuminated by her phone.
“Going to bed Em.” he said gently “Don’t be on that all night.”
“Yes dad.” she rolled her eyes and he arched an eyebrow at her.
“You might be 20 but less of the cheek.” he teased as she flashed him a smile.
“Love you pops.” she grinned cheekily.
He snorted “You too, sleep well.”
With that he shut the door and headed into the bedroom. Katie was in the en-suite, he could hear the tap running. Taking a deep breath he moved to stand in front of the mirror, gently casting his eyes over his reflection. At first glance he didn’t look that different but hitching his top up slightly he glanced at his torso, and there was no mistaking it. The definition in his abs had definitely decreased and the hard plane of muscle seemed to be giving way to something less toned.
The door to the bathroom opened and he let go of the hem of his top, just a little bit too late and Katie paused, looking at him.
“Everything ok?” she frowned.
“Yeah.” he nodded, brushing her concern off. “I’m going for a shower.”
He headed to door of their bathroom, and then she spoke softly, her voice cracking and her words made him stop in his tracks.
“Stevie, you’re scaring me.” she said gently and he turned to face her. The utter hurt on her face made him want to die, as she blinked and looked down at the floor .“Why are you pushing me away all of a sudden? We haven’t had sex in 5 days now. Don’t you…” she trailed off, not looking up, her words catching in her throat as she struggled to voice the question she was petrified of hearing the answer do “Do you not want to or something? I know I’m not what I used to be Steve, but…”
Steve felt his chest contract as he looked at his wife, his heart breaking that she could even think that he didn’t find her attractive. He hadn’t up until then given a second thought as to how his actions could be making her feel as insecure as he was and right now he hated himself for that.
“No, honey…it’s not that. God, it’s nothing, like that, at all.“
“Then is it someone else?” she cut him off quietly, raising her head to look at him, her eyes swimming with tears.
“What?” he looked at her, utterly stunned.
She swallowed, “I asked if there was someone else.” she held his gaze
“Jesus, fuck, no!” he shook his head, appalled at the mere mention of such a thing “Of course not.”
“So it is me.”
“Katie…stop…” He stepped forward and took both her hands in his “You’re beautiful. I swear this isn’t you-“
“Oh, don’t you dare give me the this isn’t you, it’s me line or I swear to God…” Katie glared up at him and he gave an exasperated groan.
“Honey, I swear…this has nothing to do with you.” he tried to assure her, pulling her in closer and wrapping his arms around him but it didn’t work.
“Then what is it?” Katie whispered into his chest and he pulled back to look at her, his hands cradling her face “Baby, talk to me.”
With a loud sigh he moved away, sinking onto the foot of the bed, He reached out, his hands on her hips and he pulled her in between his legs so she was stood looking down at him, her hand resting on his shoulders.
“I noticed a few things recently.” he said, his head looking down at the carpet. “About me…” he glanced up “You know how Bruce ran all those tests on me after I came back after those 15 years?”
“Yeah.”
“Well he said then that the serum wasn’t infallible. And that over time it would most likely work itself out of my system. But the older I got the faster that would happen.”
“I know Steve.” Katie frowned, “We went through all this.”
“Well I guess I just wasn’t prepared for how fast that was gonna happen, that’s all.”
“What do you mean?” she pressed “Are you sick?”
“No.” he shook his head “Nothing like that. Just…” he shook his head and snorted “God this sounds so vain but I guess I’ve gotten that used to looking in the mirror and seeing myself in such good shape, spotting that I’m changing…well, it was a bit of a shock and I was worried…”
“About what?” “That you might not…” “Oh, Stevie…” Katie blinked “That’s what this is about? Your stomach?”
“You noticed?”
“Well, yeah.” she shrugged, her hands rubbing his shoulders “I’m your wife…it hasn’t happened all of a sudden, it’s…” He groaned “I knew you’d seen…”
“Yeah, and I don’t care!” she sighed, shaking her head “Soldier,I know as much as anyone how hard it is coping with changes to your body.  And so do you, it must have been a shock when you actually had the serum in the first place…”
“It’s not just the muscles.” he sighed, waving a hand to his beard. “This is going grey, my hair is too. My knees were ever so slightly aching after my run the other day…”
“Ok, first off…this…” she reached down, her nails scraping through his beard “This is hot. There’s a reason Brooke calls you the silver fox… and why half your students write that they want to do very rude things to you on twitter, which by the way really grosses Emmy out…”  Steve chuckled a little, his hands sliding up the back of Katie’s thighs as she cocked her head and looked down at him. “And as for the rest of it, so what if you’re going a little...soft...around the edges.” “Soft?” he looked up at her, a small smile curling at the edge of his mouth.
“Well, it’s not like you’ve gone fat Steve.” Katie shrugged, “But whatever, the point is you’re hot and you still turn me the fuck on, maybe even more so now than when you were that pristine, fresh faced Brooklyn boy I first met in that Boxing Gym all those years ago.”
He looked at her, studying her expression as she cupped his face in her hands, keeping his gaze on her.
“And don’t tell me you don’t believe me because if you do that means you’ve been a big, fat liar about the fact you tell me that you find me even more sexy now than before we had kids.” she arched an eyebrow and he snorted a she moved to straddle him where he was perched on the end of the bed, her knees falling either side of his thighs.
“You’re the man I wake up to every morning, the man that kisses me fucking senseless, the man that’s helping me raise our children, the man who can still bring me straight to me knees with a single look my way.” she smiled.
“A single look?” he quipped.
“Yes, and you know it.”
He shook his head before he sighed, his hands resting on her hips. “I guess I’m just worried that one day…it’s all gonna be gone and…” “Remember what you said to me when I had Jamie?” Katie cut him off “When I was struggling with how I looked and to try and make me understand you asked me how I’d feel about you if we woke up one morning and the serum effects had all gone?”
She held his gaze before she continued “I told you then that it wouldn’t change a thing about how I felt about you. Did you believe me?”
Steve was silent for a second before he nodded “Of course I believed you, Doll..”
“So why on Earth would you suddenly think any of that has changed?” she looked at him “Serum effects or no serum effects… I don’t give a fuck Steve, you’re mine.”
Steve believed her, of course he did. He knew all this was in his head, but fuck if it wasn’t hard to let it take over, thinking back to being that little kid from Brooklyn that no one gave a second glance to.
“I got one word for you baby.” Katie said softly, her hands gripping at the hem of his Henley “Dumbasses.”
And jesus, suddenly he was catapulted back to that moment some 15 years or so ago on their first date,
“Well, personally, I think all those girls that picked Bucky over you were dubmasses. I’ve seen the photos of you before all this happened…” she raised her free hand and held out her index finger, and gestured up and down his torso “You were sweet”
He chuckled and took a drink of his beer “You know I heard that a lot…you’re really sweet and all but…“
“Like I said…”she leaned back in her chair slightly, “Dumbasses”
He shook his head as he peeked up at her, “Fucking hell I swear to God you can read my mind at times.”
“Nope…”she said, pulling his top up “I just know you. Now take this off.”
He arched an eyebrow but didn’t protest, instead he held his arms up so she could pull his henley over his head before she pushed him back, making him lay flat. He easily shifted them both, so they were a little further up the bed as her fingertips gently traced down his biceps.
“I love how you can wrap me in these, keep anything and everything from hurting me.” she looked at him, her eyes locked onto his as she started shifting slightly, her hands continued down his forearms before her fingers found his, lacing them together. “How your hands can be so gentle and soft yet also hard when I need them to be, how they’d kill for me, for any of us.”  she raised his left hand to her mouth and brushed her lips over his platinum wedding band “A soldier, a man made for fighting yet who’s  been nothing but gentle and loving with me and the kids…” she moved his hands to both her hips before she leaned down and pressed her lips to his, before she pulled back and smiled at him as she started sliding down his chest, peppering kisses down his sternum, the kisses punctuated by her words “my husband, my best friend, my lover, my baby daddy….”
Steve’s breath hitched a little as she moved downwards, lips gliding over his treasure trail and she peeked back up at him with those lust blown pupils and bit her bottom lip “You know how good this makes me feel, when you press against me over and over when you’re making me yours.”
She moved back so her hips were once more straddling his and Steve flexed underneath her. All that rubbing and brushing against him with every move she made had gotten him hard as fuck.  He was aching for her.
Feeling him she looked at him, grinning. “And there’s certainly nothing soft about that.”
Steve let out a little chuckle and he couldn’t help but relax and enjoy right where they were at that moment. “You might have had a hand in that.”
Katie grinned. She loved having that kind of power over him, it was a fucking turn on.
“I’ll have a hand in your pants in a minute Soldier.”
“A minute seems an awfully long time to wait…” he said, pushing up against her again as she let out a soft sigh at the feel of him.
“Another reason I love you.” she smirked “Because I know you’re gonna leave me seeing stars within the next half hour. 10 minutes if we’re skipping foreplay.”
“Is this not the foreplay Doll?” he asked, his hands gripping her hips, fingers brushing the strip of skin just above her sleep shorts where her top had ridden up slightly, and he groaned inwardly as he saw her nipples were hard, peeking at him though the soft material of her cami.
“We can call it that if you want…” she said, rolling her hips, grinding against him again.
“You’re killing me sweetheart.” he groaned.
She rolled her hips against his again, splaying her hands on his chest “Nope, I can’t feel a shred of weakness underneath me…” “Ok…” Steve said, and with a swift movement he flipped her over so he was underneath him drawing a startled gasp from her which merged into that adorable, dirty little giggle he knew and loved “I’m done talking now.”
“Good.” She said, fisting her hand in the chain round his neck she dragged him down for a fierce, demanding kiss before she pulled back and looked at him “Fuck me like you own me, Cap.”
Her words fired something in his belly and he let out the growl that had been bubbling in his throat. His lips pressed to hers as if his life depended on it, his hands reached down and grabbed the straps of her top, pulling down harshly, the sound of ripping fabric filling the room.
Katie pulled back and looked at him “Did you seriously just do that? Again?”
“Look, sweetheart.” he glanced at her “You told me to fuck you like I owned you. I’m trying. So shut up.”
Whatever quick response Katie had been thinking up died in her throat as with a quick movement Steve grabbed her hips and flipped her over, once more drawing that dirty little giggle that he loved so much from her throat. His fingers gently traced a line down from her neck to the base of her spine before he gripped at the flesh over her hipbones and pulled her upwards so she was presented in front of him. Taking more care this time, he slid her shorts down, before he shimmied out of his sweats, his fingers tracing the inside of her thigh, bending over, his lips following their path. As he got to the top of her inside thigh, his kisses became gentle bites and then without warning he inserted 2 fingers inside her.
“Fuck…” Katie stuttered, her hips bucking backwards. Steve’s fingers started to move, gently, then harder, his mouth kissing all around the top of her thighs as she moved back and forth, fucking herself on his hand. He watched her for a minute or so, his fingers curling and pushing…and then they stopped. Katie whimpered, and Steve smirked as he bent over, nipping at her neck.
“You know I love you, right?” he said softly, his mouth caressing her pulse point as she rolled her head back, his hand slid up to her throat holding her face still as he kissed her, hard.
“Yeah, I love you too Solider” Katie panted into his kiss.
His fingers danced over the soft skin of her outside thighs and both his hands pulled her backwards as he pushed straight into her, making her cry out softly at the depth.
His rhythm was slow at first, hands on her hips before he quickened, the depth of this angle driving Katie wild. She writhed and moaned as he filled her, brushing against that spot inside her and she couldn’t get enough of him, her face buried into the pillow, pelvis pushed back against him as he thrust in deeply, again and again.
“You’re all mine…” he said hoarsely as he leaned forward, his chest pressing into her back as his teeth grazed her ear, biting down softly, “There’ll never be anyone else, never baby girl.”
His voice was punctuated by his grunts as he thrust into his wife again and again, his fingers tightening on her skin, knowing full well he’d probably leave bruises but not giving a shred of care. And neither did she, the more people that saw those marks, the better, the signs she was his for the world to see…it drove her wild with passion and lust and she couldn’t help but rock back against him, begging him to push deeper, drive her to the edge and back again, which he was more than happy to do.
“Say you believe me…” Steve all but growled as he thrust into her fiercely, his hand tightening slightly around her throat causing her to grab at the sheets in her hand “Say you believe me that there’s no one who comes close…”
“I believe you…” Katie cried out loudly, her voice punctuated by desperate moans as she tilted her head back as he continued nipping at her neck, pounding into her. “No one else.”
She was lost, lost in the sensation of her soldier fucking her senseless, just like she had asked him to. Those hands that she loved, that were normally so soft and gentle with her were now gripping at her hips, curling into her soft skin, pulling her back with each thrust. His lips, the ones she was so used to whispering soft nothing into her ear, or placing gentle kisses to her neck were biting and sucking at her throat as if his life depended on it, praising her, telling her what a pretty girl, amazing momma and beautiful wife she was. Coupled with the consistent pounding between her legs she was lost in an utter whirl of love and lust and she could feel the coil in her belly beginning to tighten as Steve maintained his pace, not once relenting.
Steve could read the signs well enough by now to know she was close. Moving one hand he slid it down between her legs, stroking at her clit drawing a loud gasp from her lips as she bucked back onto him, her legs trembling.
“Stevie… I’m gonna…”
“Come on doll…” he said gently into her ear “Come for me…”
“Oh, God…”  her voice was low, soft, as her words became nothing but a babble of noises as she lost control, her body shaking as she cried out, the world tipping on its axis completely as she became completely unaware of anything other than the sensation between her legs as she came, hard, pulsing and tightening down around him.
Steve felt it, he always did, and he continued to drive into her, fucking her through it before he realised he wanted to see her, wanted those green eyes he knew and loved locked onto his, so with a quick pull back he moved out of her and flipped her over again onto her back before she could even think about what he was doing. With a grunt he buried himself into her again, propping himself up on his elbows, his hands cupping her face as his lips crashed onto hers for a dirty, sloppy kiss that was all mouth and tongue.
He reached down, grabbing at her knee, slinging it over her shoulder as he rutted into her, driving hard, over and over, the dirty noise of wetness filled the room, skin hitting skin as he picked up the pace driving and seeking his own release. Katie’s hands gripped at his back, her nails digging into his shoulders as he thrust again and again, her eyes locked onto his. His pupils were blown with desire, those baby blues she knew and loved had darkened to a steel grey and knowing that after 15 years and a lifetime of ups and downs that she could still elicit this effect on him was enough to blow her mind. She loved this man, with every single inch of her body, and always would.
Steve dropped his head, his hips not once faltering as his mouth nipped at her chest, sucking, biting, the bruises forming almost instantly but he couldn’t give a fuck. This woman was his, no one else’s, and in turn he wanted her to realise that. He needed her to understand that there wasn’t a single person on this fucking planet, hell, the universe that would ever make him feel like this. As his lips moved to that spot on her neck he dropped her leg down and felt her breath hitch again and she let out a soft wail, her hips bucking upwards as she wrapped her legs around him, heels digging into his ass.
“I got you baby…” he whispered, his voice punctuated by his own pants “Come on, give it to me…” With a gasp, her head titled back, eyes fluttered shut as her hands gripped at his strong arms and she came again which was enough to send him catapulting off the edge right behind her. Her legs grew tighter around his slim hips, gripping at him, pulling him closer as he stuttered, groaned and then pitched forward, his torso slick with sweat as he lay still, face pressed into her neck, surrendering to the utter bliss that consumed him.
Steve gently kissed Katie’s neck, breathing deeply. That had been intense and felt like it had risen from his very toes. His mind was still caught in that post-coital fog of bliss, and his body felt like it was light, floating even, but as Katie shifted underneath him, her lips gently pressing to his temple, he realised he wasn’t floating, nor was he light. He went to move, to roll off her but she caught him immediately, her hands flying to his arms as she looked at her.
“Don’t” she whispered.
“Honey I’ll crush…” “No, you won’t” she shook her head, “Relax, please soldier just…”
Steve licked his lips, and gently dropped back onto his elbow, pressing a little more of his weight on top of her. Katie sighed, her forehead resting on his collar bone, face nuzzling into his chest, her hands softly gliding up his back. Despite his worry, Steve felt himself relax into his wife as he held her in his arms. Katie sighed contently.
“Feels so nice, just lay here…” she said softly, pressing a kiss to his chest. “You always pull away far too fast.”
Steve took a deep breath “I don’t mean to Doll, I just know I’m way bigger and…” “Steve…” Katie moved her hand so she raised a single finger to his lips, shushing him “Stop.” After a moment or so of tensing up he allowed himself to relax completely, her hands dancing up his spine and he gave a soft hum of contentment as she pressed a kiss to his jawline and he felt her lips curl into a smile against his beard.
“What?” he asked softly, moving so he looked down at her.
“Nothing, just I love you.” she said honestly, her eyes locking onto his. “Forever.” Steve chuckled as he pressed his lips to hers “Good, because I’m not going anywhere.”
“Glad to hear it.” Katie smiled, brushing a hand through his hair “And for the record…I’m all about more cushin’ for the pushin’”
At that Steve let out a loud laugh as she giggled along with him, his mouth once more claiming hers
“Looks like I am too, baby girl.”
After another minute or so, Steve finally relented and moved, his softening cock pulling out as he rolled over onto his back, giving a sigh.
“You ok?” he asked.
“Yeah, course…I could use a drink though.” Katie smiled.
Steve leaned over, pressed a kiss to her mouth before he moved, located his boxers and after a promise of being back soon he headed out onto the landing.
Emmy emerged from her room at the same time, leaning on her doorframe as she shot him a look “You two are disgusting.”
“What?” he blinked, standing still as he looked at her.
“Seriously…you need to soundproof your room! I mean how would you feel if you heard me and Pete?” “I better not hear you and Pete.” he shot back, hands falling to his hips as he fixed his eldest with a glare.
She shrugged before she looked him up and down, and rolled her eyes “Fuck, I’m glad Brooke isn’t here…I’m sick of her telling me you’re a snack…”
With that she turned back into her room, shutting the door behind her. Steve stood still, looking at the now closed doorframe before he grinned to himself.
“Rogers, you still got it.” he laughed softly, before he bounded down the stairs to grab a bottle of water.
147 notes · View notes
coeurdastronaute · 4 years ago
Text
The Story, Ch. 4
Previously on The Story
The sun finally disappeared for the first time in weeks. Defiantly it tried to shine through the thin layer of clouds that blew in from the northeast, burning them off, or at least doing its best. The air had a stiff breeze to it, pushing around the oppressive humidity, as if it could help, when really it just smeared it into the wound. 
Dani stood in the kitchen and sipped a glass of water in the quiet that seemed to come after lunch had dispersed. Off to their own devices, the children could be heard occasionally, playing or arguing or running with heavy feet down the halls. 
For just a moment, Dani allowed herself one instant to look out at the clouds and wonder if this was some kind of religion, the unrelenting hope and belief in the inevitable, the near satisfaction of it actually happening, the eager waiting, the small sample of euphoria, the fulfilment of a promise. There was a mild intoxication in the lust of it, the build up. 
Longingly, Dani leaned against the lip of the sink and followed the heaviness of the clouds as they moved along, teasing and taunting, plump with rain for another city or ocean or country. 
From across the way, she watched the gardener emerge from behind the old, ivy-laced wall, and for some reason she sunk a little deeper into her relaxed pose. She took a larger gulp from her glass. 
The well-worn overalls hung on one strap, the leg on one side rolled up a little bit, while the shirt beneath had been cut up to accommodate the season, the holes for the arm dipping low enough to expose ribs, and high enough to show that line of deltoid. All too suddenly, Jamie dropped her supplies she’d been carrying and began digging through them. 
It did nothing to wake Dani from the dream she’d been having, nor did it do anything to untangle itself from the sudden fervor the au pair suddenly had for rain. Instead, the fanaticism for the passing clouds was applied to the streak of sweat down Jamie’s arm, cutting through the dirt there and dripping off at a pointed elbow. 
She wasn’t tall, she wasn’t large or imposing, but Jamie had a sense of space and she took it up with her confidence. Dani liked to watch her move because she moved with purpose. The cut in her arm, in her bicep, it existed for a reason. The litheness, the wallowness of her bones and curves, they were a result of bending and reaching and stretching, of molding and making and living. 
Somewhat aware of the unabashed lurking, Dani looked around the kitchen, straining for noises or footsteps or anyone, really, to catch her in the act. That was how she knew it wasn’t right, though she wasn’t sure how. 
There was a moment that Dani leaned forward, a little closer to the window, clutched her glass a little tighter in her hands. She watched as Jamie began reaching up toward the top of the wall, tying back some of the vines.  
Similar to the buzzing, vibrating, humming feeling she remembered from the pond, that twisting and warmth deep in her stomach, the lightness and tightness, all at once in her chest, Dani felt it all again gradually descend upon her. She did everything to avoid looking at Jamie at the lake, and she thought she had, but still, she remembered the shape of her belly button and the notch of her spine, the dip in her shoulders and the mold of her knees. 
Now, too, Dani found herself remembering it all in flashes that made it difficult to breathe, in a way that made her thirst for rain. 
A crash from upstairs pulled the au pair from her indoctrination quickly. She nearly jumped out of her skin at the noise before going off in search of whatever maybe the children could have caused this time. 
XXXXXXXXXX
With an upward glance, the gardener wiped the sweat on her chest and her forehead as the afternoon waned toward evening despite the consistent heat that sizzled. All was quiet around, the children in the house or on the other side of the grounds, the bugs sick of humming and buzzing for the day, taking off early to find some rest. 
Prepared to wrap up for the day, Jamie surveyed the work of the day, the trellis repair and the trimming back of overzealous summer buds. It was hard but honest work and she enjoyed that moment of accomplishment. 
Once more, she looked around to assure herself that not tiny eyes would catch her in the act, or worse yet, that Hannah wouldn’t catch her again, and she dug a cigarette out of the pack in her pocket. With a little less motivation that her previous day, Jamie gathered her tools and wondered how to stick around without sticking around, or rather, how to say good night to the au pair. 
For the past few days, Jamie had been nearly floating on the memories of the pond swim that kept them up and talking until nearly sunrise. She dissected every moment of her time with Dani, hoping to figure something out, but never could come to any concrete answers. The au pair was far too elusive and perhaps unwilling to give enough to jump to any conclusions. But all the same, the gardener enjoyed spending time with her, and she couldn’t remember the last time she simply enjoyed existing. It was too hard to talk to most people; she tripped over her word and thoughts and ended up quietly listening and not listening. 
Now, she knew what Dani’s favorite smell was. 
But there was really no reason for anything else for her inside the house other than to say her goodnight and be on her way. Still, she mulled and smoked, circling her tools before looking back towards the front door. 
Like a streak, the newly familiar blonde appeared, zipping through the door, and around the corner, disappeared in an instant, too fast on her own feet for any good. But there was more power and speed to this movement than before, and Jamie rubbed out her cigarette before grabbing her tools and deciding on taking the long way back around. 
The shape of the au pair appeared on the other side of a planter, half hunkered, back expanding quickly as she tried to find a way to breathe. Jamie slowed her walk so as not to fully interrupt something like that. It felt like waking a sleep walker, and she’d always been inclined to believe in the magic of it. Dani’s shoulders shook slightly as she tried to straighten her spine. She curled up slightly before forcing herself back up again. As harrowing as it was, Jamie cleared her throat and jostled the bucket in her hand, making the au pair jump slightly at the intrusion. It was a clumsy way to wake someone, but she didn’t know of another. The gasping breaths seized immediately, but the face didn’t turn to look at her.
The gravel crunched beneath the bucket as she placed it and her tools on the ground, a peace offering, an armistice line. 
“So, uh,” the gardener squinted toward the sun and shoved her hands in her back pocket. “What did the little monsters do?” 
“No, it’s… um--” 
“I know it’s frowned upon, to wallop a child, but I’m not one to rely on my reputation. A bit more tarnish couldn’t hurt it.” 
Dani didn’t move, just kept looking straight away, unwilling to do anything but hold her breath. Defeated, Jamie kicked at the gravel slightly, swinging her leg and puffing out her cheeks as she searched for something in the deepest parts of her brain to earn a sound or look from the au pair. 
“Plants are much easier. I find it’s not as taboo to murder a gaggle of heliotropes for not behaving. My discipline is harsh, I bet. But if you need some child rearing advice, I’m around.”
As much as she hadn’t meant to, Dani laughed, a relieved, genuine chuckle at the absurdity of the gardener, and Jamie inhaled it too quickly. 
“There we are,” she smiled to herself, victorious as all. “It’s not so bad. You’re hardly the first. I’ve cried… goodness, daily. Hourly, even, since working here. Helps to keep the evergreens so effervescent. If you’ve ever marvelled at my lustrous plentitude, I promise it’s from my own deep, deep well of inconsolable tears.” 
The au pair finally turned, much of her body still hidden behind the planter, but her eyes, the red-rimmed and puffy eyes glittered in the haze of the summer. Jamie swallowed slightly at the site and offered a smaller smile. Dani smiled at her, somewhere between relieved and burdened, unable to decide which was worse. 
“You’re doing great,” Jamie offered quickly, her feet betraying her and taking a step forward, naturally drawn to fix the problem. “You’re doing great.” 
“Thank you,” Dani nodded before looking away to wipe her eyes. 
“Alright,” she took a deep breath before picking up her tools. “Chin up, Poppins.” 
The best she had, the girl effectively returned to something short of sad, Jamie decided it was time for the quickest escape imaginable, and though she controlled her steps, she refused to turn around. 
XXXXXXXXX
The garden on the eastern side of the house was a continual work in progress. The gardener spent a portion of nearly every part of her day working on the roses and bushes, tenderly turning the area into a perfect oasis of blooming buds. It was her favorite part of the entire manor and grounds, it was her oasis. The tall brick wall was flanked by even taller pines, casting heavy branches like a ceiling over the edges. 
To say that there was an absolute explosion when the garden was massacred, would have been an outright lie. It was apocalyptic. The nanny wasn’t sure she’d ever seen someone who was simultaneously full of loss and wrath, but Jamie stood there, shaking, vibrating with a kind of rage that surpassed any kind of mortal feelings. At first, Dani was certain it was going to be quiet, that Jamie was swallowing it completely. But it wasn’t quiet. She marched across the garden, fist full of decapitated roses, petals in her wake, and began yelling. 
It took ten minutes before she tired herself out and Dani was able to calm her down. It took a few more hours for her to round up the culprits. 
“How are they doing?” Dani called as she helped direct the clean up efforts across the garden. 
“Looks alright to me,” Jamie nodded. “Don’t forget the mulch.” 
“Got it,” she smiled, helping Flora pick a few things. 
Even though she wanted to be mad, Jamie struggled with the fact that Dani looked very cute with a scuff of dirt across her forehead. She didn’t enjoy that her anger was so quickly quelled by a pretty girl. That didn’t seem fair. She should be able to hold onto all of that rage for a little while longer, in her own opinion, not lose it because a girl smiled at her. 
“She’s really putting them through their paces,” Hannah observed over the rim of her glass. “They should be playing.” 
“Have to learn about consequences,” Jamie shrugged. “A little hard labor is good for a growing kid.” 
“She’s tough on them. But maybe you’re right. They can be a little bit of a handful from time to time.” 
“You should know better than anyone. You clean up after them all day. Owen cooks for them. I make sure they don’t get lost in the woods. They need a little bit of structure.” 
“They’re working hard. I just want them to play,” Hannah sighed and swirled her drink around against the heat.
Jamie put her foot up on the edge of the chair and dug in her shirt pocket to pull out the pack of cigarettes. She let her eyes slowly drift back to the nanny who stood, hands on her hips as she looked down at the pile of debris the kids accumulated. She gave some orders, directing them around the yard. 
“What did I miss?” Owen asked as he took a seat between the two women. “How are the delinquents doing?” 
“They’re doing well,” Hannah smiled. 
“Hannah wants them to frolick and return to the glens, unfettered by their impetuous choices, free to roam the world causing chaos.”
Owen gave the housekeeper a look who just shrugged, not bothering to admit that it was almost the truth. 
“I don’t think that’s much of an option with the warden overseeing their parole.” 
Jamie chuckled and drifted back to the au pair. She didn’t catch Dani’s eyes, nor did she even earn a passing thought. But they were friends, she would venture. They were people who occasionally chatted in the evening, and they were people who had coffee every morning together in the green house, even if it tasted terrible. She drank it all anyway dutifully if it meant ten uninterrupted minutes with the au pair, though she’d never admit it. 
“What’s that?” she murmured, snuffing out the cigarette butt and looking over as Owen topped off her drink, missing half of their conversation already. 
“What do you think of the American?” 
“She’s wonderful with the kids. I think she’s doing a splendid job.” 
“Bit private isn’t she?” 
“You must have talked with her a bit more,” Hannah pressed. “I’ve seen you two skulking about, lingering in hallways, giggling.” 
“You make us sound like school girls, Hannah. Shame on you gossiping and such.” 
“Curious about the other person who lives in the same building is all. What do you think of her?” 
Jamie looked once more, this time meeting Dani’s quick glance and gulping slightly. They held the look for longer than expected, and Jamie remembered the feeling of cold water and Dani’s smile as she held her nose and jumped into the pond. She remembered the smell of their skin in the back of her truck as they dried off in stiff old blankets and stared at the stars, the grass and the water leaving the earth behind on their joints. 
“A touch too pretty to be a nanny, I reckon.”
“Owen?” 
“Oh, I um, I don’t know that I’ve thought of her, erhm, that way,” he cleared his throat and eagerly drank from his glass as Jamie turned it around to him. 
“You’ve seemed to have made your mind up about her,” Hannah decided, reading Jamie’s face and the little bit of pink in her cheeks. “And you never do that.” 
“Jury’s still out. I give her another month before she’s running for the hills from those little brats and this bloody place.” 
“I don’t know. I think she’s taken to it.” 
“Can’t count on someone like her to stick.” 
“Why’s that?” the housekeeper prodded, noticing another quick glance between the gardener and the au pair. 
“She’s too good,” Jamie explained, neither sad, neither conflicted, neither happy at the news, but merely presenting a fact. “Too alive to wallow away at Bly Manor.” 
“It’s not like that’s what we’re doing,” Owen scoffed. “We’re young and hot.” 
“Speak for yourself, darling.” 
Jamie didn’t argue, but looked down at the slow drip of condensation on her glass and felt the sinking deja vu feeling that haunted her from time to time. They were all running from something, hiding behind the walls of the manor, only they didn’t see it that way. Jamie wasn’t running anymore, but she’d been defeated and relegated to such, she thought. Dani wasn’t there yet. 
“She is full of life,” Hannah nodded, almost quietly. “It’s oddly contagious, if that’s the right word for it.” 
“Something like that,” Jamie agreed, wiping away the moisture on her cup on the edge of her pants before taking another sip. 
“Is your brother still coming next week? You should invite Dani with us to the show,” Owen decided for her. 
“No way she’d want to go to some backwoods hoot and holler that my mangy brother is doing,” Jamie scoffed this time, shaking her head at the notion. 
“I think it’s high time she saw some Bly culture up close and personal.” 
“She does need to get out, love. You know how tiring it is to live here non-stop,” Hannah agreed. “Invite her. Take the pretty girl dancing.” 
“I didn’t mean pretty like-- I was just observing--” the gardener stopped trying to find the word because it wasn’t coming and Hannah had given her the look that said it was hopeless. “I’m sure she doesn’t want to come.” 
“We’ll see about that.” 
“Dani! Dani!” Owen began to call out, waving his hand until Jamie made him stop, prepared to threaten him within an inch of his own life. 
“I’ll ask her tomorrow,” Jamie promised, hissing the words. “I’ve got to go,” she stood up abruptly. “And see about the… there was that squeaky hinge in the pantry.” 
Before Dani could make it over, the gardener was off, retreating and not looking back over her shoulder once at the scene. Hannah just smiled at Owen and wiggled her eyebrows. 
“I told you. That’s five quid.” 
“She never said she liked her,” he taunted back. 
“You must not be fluent in Jamie, but if you were, you’d know that ‘squeaky hinges’ was code for ‘help, the pretty blonde American is coming over and I don’t know how to be a human and speak with her because she’s so pretty’,” Hannah explained. 
“I’ll pay up if she invites her,” he retorted. “And not a moment sooner. I have my doubts about this flirting you allegedly have seen.” 
“You’re blind, love.” 
“Just blinded by you.” 
“Oh, shush,” the housekeeper fluttered away the comment with a wave of her hand though she smiled to herself. “Jamie is smitten, and you know I’m right.” 
“But is Dani?”
“The five quid question, isn’t it?” 
“Mmmm,” they both hummed together as they watched the gardener disappear completely into the house. 
NEXT
30 notes · View notes
scapegrace74-blog · 4 years ago
Text
Gratitude
A/N  When we last saw Jamie and Claire, they’d crashed, burned (somewhat literally) and declared their mutual interest in each other in their individual ways.   Whither now, our pair?
All other parts of the Metric Universe are available on my AO3 page.
The song by Big Red Machine (another guest artist!) that inspired the title is here.
June 1, 2018, Costa Coffee, Whitechapel, London, England
“It feels like ye might be avoiding me, Sassenach.”
It occurred to her that Jamie knew her schedule and habits to an uncomfortable degree for him to be at her favourite coffee shop at exactly the point in her shift when she could no longer resist the siren call of caffeine.
Since the fire in their building and Jamie’s subsequent profession of love, they’d been living under separate roofs.  Claire was sleeping on the couch at the home of one of her fellow medical students, and Jamie was bunking down with his uncle.  Their flat had escaped the flames, suffering only smoke damage, but it would be at least eight weeks before the building was declared structurally sound and they could move back in.
Heading to the counter, Claire purchased her usual extra-large oat milk cortado with a fruited teacake, then added a flat black with raw sugar for Jamie.  Settling across from him, she slid his coffee across the tiny table before splitting her teacake and balancing half on his saucer.  He nodded his thanks, but was otherwise silent, waiting her out.
“I don’t know how to do this,” she began, surprising them both with the frankness of her opening salvo.  It helped, she found, to be paying undue attention to stirring her coffee as she spoke.
“That doesna sound like ye, mo nighean donn.   Why don’t ye tell me what part is vexin’ ye, an’ we can see if we canna bash our brains t’gether til we come up wi’ a plan, aye?”
She knew what he was doing.  Cleverly depersonalizing their situation so that she could approach it like any other problem.  Part of her resented his easy manipulation, grounded as it was in how well he knew her.  But there was a secret part of her that thrilled at the emotional intimacy.  To be seen, truly seen, in all her messy complexity, was a novel experience.  Jamie knew the architecture of her heart, all its dark corners and blind hallways.  He must have recognized something worthy, to be willing to so patiently coax her away from her solitude.
Plus, she’d spent the last year training him to leave the toilet seat down.  That wasn’t the sort of work you just walked away from.
“It’s... god, where do I start?  It’s having no idea what it means to be in a healthy adult relationship.  And the crippling fear that if I fuck this up, it’ll ruin our friendship, which is so important to me, Jamie.  I don’t think you have any idea...  Plus our living situation...”
“We arenna livin’ t’gether for the moment, Sassenach,” Jamie interrupted.  He had leaned forward across the table as she stammered through her recitation, and his curls had flopped across his brow in that boyish way they had.  Her chest tightened, torn between affection and blind terror.
“No.  That’s true.”
“With yer permission, I’d like tae make a suggestion.”  At her cautious nod, Jamie continued.  “For the next two months, we willna be roommates.  I’d like tae... court ye...”
“Court me?!” Claire blurted out.  “What, like in a Jane Austen novel?”  She couldn’t help but smile at Jamie as he blushed, but he continued undeterred.
“Aye, like that.  Ye’re used tae havin’ all the answers, Sassenach, but this isna one of yer wee tests tha’ ye can study for.  We’re gonna have tae wing it, and see where it takes us.  But I promise ye, I willna play ye false and I willna walk away.  Will ye at least give this thing between us a chance?  If it doesna work, we can go back tae livin’ t’gether as friends, no questions asked.”
At some point during his speech, their hands had met across the table.  She could feel Jamie’s trembling through his fingertips.  He was scared too, but he was being brave because he felt it was worth the risk.  How could she dare to do otherwise?
“Alright,” she conceded, and his smile warmed her face like sunshine.  “What do you propose, then?  Shall I don my best parlour gown and set out the petit fours, Master Fraser?”
“Och, I dinna mean tae be makin’ me call me master quite yet, Sassenach,” he teased, delighting in her blush.  “I’ll be at yer door t’morrow.  Three sharp.  Wear somethin’ comfortable an’ bring a jumper for after dark.”
Finishing his teacake in three large bites, Jamie hopped up from his seat and brushed the crumbs from his jeans.  With a mischievous grin and a cock-eyed wink, he raised her hand to his mouth and kissed her knuckles.
“Until tomorrow then, milady.”
Jesus Christ, what had she just done?
***
To her relief, Jamie showed up at Joe’s front door in his usual jeans and Henley, not a frock coat and jodhpurs  He wasn’t even carrying flowers.  Joe tried to buttonhole him with talk of the previous night’s football match, but after a few minutes of polite chitchat Jamie ushered Claire out the door, joking that he’d have her home before curfew.
She wasn’t quite sure what to make of his behaviour.  The Jamie she knew had always been charming, when he wasn’t busy putting his foot in his mouth.  Now she marveled at his apparent ease as they descended the steps into the Tube.
Heading west on the District Line, thoughts continued to assail her.  Was he always this self-confident on a date?  How often did he go out with other women, anyway?  She’d assumed she knew everything there was to know about Jamie, but maybe she was wrong.  Before Frank, her last date had been back in nursing school, and a VHS player and copious cheap beer had been involved.  Despite the over-zealous air conditioning in their train, her palms began to sweat.
“Ye needn’t be afraid of me, Claire,” Jamie’s soft burr interrupted her quiet panic attack.  “I’m no’ going tae suddenly turn into some man ye dinna recognize, just because I’m tryin’ tae romance ye a wee bit.”
Once again, with only a few words Jamie had peeled away her layers of confusion and doubt to strike at the core of what was bothering her.  She forced herself to take a deep breath and immediately recognized Jamie’s scent; a blend of laundry detergent, his vetiver bar soap, and a touch of chlorine left over from the morning’s swim.  It set her at ease.  He hadn’t worn cologne.  His left boot had a frayed lace that had needed changing since March.  His cuticles were as inexplicably perfectly formed as always.  He was her Jamie, and she could trust him to behave in accordance with what she already knew of him, even in this uncharted territory.
“So, where exactly are we going?” she asked after the crackling announcement for St. James Park had died away.
“Would it ease yer mind a wee bit, tae ken?”
“Maybe a wee bit,” she confessed.
“Well, then, how can I refuse?  Have ye e’er been tae the Chelsea Physic Garden, Sassenach?”
***
As it turned out, by some grievous oversight she hadn’t.  Wedged between a high brick wall and the Thames was a three hundred and fifty year old urban oasis, filled with plants that could either treat your ailments or kill you.  Naturally, she was enchanted.  Jamie followed her between the beds and down the shaded lanes of pea gravel, a soft smile held between his lips.
When the garden closed, they walked along the Embankment and over the Thames at Chelsea Bridge, stopping to watch the sun set over the murky water.  A food truck beckoned with its aroma of chips and burgers, which they ate on a nearby bench, going back for extra napkins when their choice in toppings proved especially messy.
It was the least romantic meal she’d ever eaten, and she was soothed and smitten in equal measure.
Washing grease from his hands in a drinking fountain, Jamie turned to her in the half-light.
“Now, I have a verra important question of ye, Sassenach, and how ye answer will determine the future course of our evening t’gether.”
Here it was, she balked.  The hook at the end of the line. The sour amongst so much sweetness.  She shouldn’t have expected...
“Are ye,” Jamie continued, unaware of her inner monologue, “afraid of heights?”
... no different than any other man, with his...
“Am I what?” she blurted, once her brain caught up with her ears.
“Afraid of heights?  An’ a bit of a scamper up some scaffolding?”
Jamie was pointing over her shoulder.  She peered into the night, but all she could make out was the hulking shadow of the derelict Battersea Power Station.
***
It was a convoluted story, but the outline went something like this: the massive coal-fired station, with its four spire-like chimneys, was slated for redevelopment.  Jamie had taken part in an onsite review of the location by the London Fire Service, and had befriended a representative of the developer.  Somehow, this friend had granted Jamie access to the site, which is how Claire now found herself over fifty metres above the ground, climbing a seemingly endless series of metal steps, with her curls trying to escape the confines of a workman’s hard hat.
“You really know how to show a girl a good time, Jamie Fraser,” she grumbled as they came to a landing made out of scaffolding.   Above them, a white chimney ascended into the dome of the sky.
“Ye canna say I dinna take yer breath away, Sassenach,” he teased.
She was about to retort when they stepped around the base of the chimney tower, and all words failed her.
Rolled out far below their feet, the Thames was a black carpet reflecting millions of pinpoint gems skyward, broken by belts of light where it was traversed by a bridge.  Beyond the eastern bend in the river, the City glowed with its eternal hum.  The colossal space taken up by the station was a palpable presence behind their backs.
“It reminds me of yer Uncle Lamb’s saying, about makin’ our present out of the bones of our past.  Twasn’t the original plan, but here she stands, still vital and strong, being remade anew.  An’ a beautiful vision fer all tha’.”
She wasn’t convinced that Jamie was talking about the power station.  
A cool breeze blew off the river, and she shivered.  A jacket still warm with body heat immediately covered her shoulders.   They stood side by side in silence, just taking in the view.
When their hands bumped, it seemed the most natural thing in the world to thread her fingers with his own.
“You’ve set the bar impossibly high for any future dates, you know,” she commented eventually.
“Ye’re only sayin’ that because ye dinna ken what I have planned next.”  His grin was impossibly smug, and she fought the urge to kiss it right off his beautiful mouth.  He must have read the impulse in her eyes, because his face was slowly approaching her own, eyes a volatile mix of hope and trepidation.
Her own eyes fluttered closed in anticipation.  Just as their lips should have been meeting, their was a ductile crunch, and their heads bounced apart with comedic timing.  Their hard helmets had collided.  Jamie swore softly beneath his breath, but Claire couldn’t stop giggling.
“Oh, thank god.  It is you.  I was beginning to wonder.”
***
It was late when they finally exited the Tube, but Jamie insisted on accompanying Claire all the way to the Abernathy’s front door.  She handed him back his leather jacket, feeling suddenly awkward in the brightly lit hall.  The date had been magical, far beyond her wildest expectations, and it felt strange to return to the prosaic reality of their lives.
“Thank you for a wonderful time, Jamie.”
“Twas my pleasure, Sassenach.   I’ve missed ye, these past few weeks.  And I really hope... well, you’ll tell me if you want to do somethin’ like this again, aye?”  His hand went to the back of his neck in a gesture she knew well.  Bless the man, he had no idea the effect he had on her.  It was well past time to let him know.
“I’d love that.  Truly.  I’ve got final exams to study for, but maybe sometime next week?”
"Well then,” he replied, clearly delighted with her response.  “I should let ye get some sleep.  Good luck on yer exams, Sassenach.   And thank ye, fer bein’ willing tae give this a chance.  Twas a day I’ll ne’er forget.”
He began to walk away.
“Jamie!”  He turned around.
“Aye?”
Walking forward to the beat of her pounding heart, she halted when their bellies were practically touching.  Lifting up on tiptoe, she pressed into his mouth.  Time slowed to a syrupy drip as their lips met for the first time.  His rough exhale was the only sound in the cocoon of sensation that enveloped them.  It felt like she was falling through an endless cloud. Too soon, she had to pull away to capture her breath, and the spell was broken.  Judging by his moonstruck expression, Jamie had been equally affected.  She smiled when she realized his arms were still held aloft, like he was trying to hold on to the memory of their kiss.
“Goodnight, James Alexander Malcolm Mackenzie Fraser,” she purred before she disappeared from his sight.
51 notes · View notes
kellykadesperate · 4 years ago
Text
emmerdale is always just like on in my house at 7 so i’ve been watching bits and pieces this week and have some thoughts:
cain and moira and that damn sunset was one of the most beautiful scenes (visually lol) i’ve seen in emmerdale and i like how it was so quiet and like farmy and cute 
today’s stuff with cain and her felt frustrating but also very cain like?? he was never going to cry and confess his undying love for her and i think it made sense for him to wake up and be like oooooh all the bad will i have for her is still swimming around in my brain then?? it’s rare that feelings of betrayal really really last in soaps so i like how this happened over a year ago now and yet it’s still very heavily felt between them. showing them working themselves back to a good point would be way more interesting then it being fixed over night 
the charity stuff for me is like dire and i think a lot of people agree on that front. it’s just bad. whilst it’s in her to be selfish and not a good mother and yada ya i sort of hate how it’s being spun that vanessa was the one person to make her better. not only because she was very much a together person in previous relationships (jai comes to mind!!) but also because it just makes her/vanessa seem really unhealthy. i liked how chas was able to be someone telling her she’s wrong because it was necessary, especially when she said she was nothing without vanessa because that wasn’t romantic or sweet, just really really sad lol
i have ... no idea why they decided to have tracy crying and screaming and everyone losing their minds over nate’s sentencing only for them to suspend it? what ... where is the drama or the pay off or even the care to show him/tracy initally react to the news? tracy just came in and was like oh yeah ... suspended sentence surprise!! the fact that they did not even get like a quiet little moment where she told him how happy she was or some soppy stuff just says it all about how much depth they’ve put in their relationship 
the belle stuff was ... stuff. like i like the fact that they are highlighting how her mental illness is something that can never go away but again like ... the actual pay off of something going on for months was just so ... nothing? i actually thought she was going to confess to running over moira, have her not serve prison time because she was clearly not of sound mind and them deal with jamie another way but hey hoooooooo
also jamie is like hilarious. i feel like they are trying to give him depth like with his conversation with dawn where he realised he was doing a Bad Thing by calling will and that whole set up and that’s fine to show him as not just a good guy. but. they steer him way towards being a pantomime villain at times which just beats all the potential nuance out of him. they could have had him really change his mindset on life/relationships over the whole millie paternity scare and show him meaner from then but instead they had him have the affair with belle and then ... run over moira and ... be mean? idk it just did not feel as true as it could have considering things that have happened to him since last year 
oh and the gabby stuff is just odd
on the whole though it just feels like stories are being written with like no real thought paid to how they end/develop and how satisfying that is for the audience? nate’s suspended sentence comes to mind, as well as whatever that chas/paddy resolution was and the revelation that aaron bullied someone at school
but yeah 10 sins are removed for that sunset scene 
16 notes · View notes