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Lily, oh Lily I just loathe you lately...
microfic - jegulily/regulily - 1.7k
It started with a kiss.
One Regulus wasn’t even included in. He wasn’t even there, he didn’t see it, and yet he replays it in his head almost constantly. It’s the first thought he has in the morning, he carries it with him through lunch. White knuckles braced against the table as he stares longing towards the other side of the hall, his ears ringing and he can’t hear anything anyone is trying to say to him. His friends all make comments but he doesn’t notice them. His mind is too loud, thinking of soft skin and eyes that bite. He forgets his notes, it doesn’t matter, they’re not even there. He lays awake at night unable to close his eyes without thinking, thinking, thinking.
He should be thinking about James. He should be obsessively counting his every step. It’s how this whole thing started. James is everything, he hung the moon, and every single star in the night sky. He walks around the halls calling out to everyone by name, his smile hung wide across his face. And yes, Regulus thinks of him. He thinks of his sweat covered skin as he skips off to the locker rooms after practice. He thinks of him drunkenly coming up to him, leaning close to his ear to whisper nonsense. Even if he can’t understand it Regulus clings onto every single word. He thinks of how he looks in the morning, a sight Regulus has only seen a handful of times and yet he cherishes it like it’s the world. He thinks of his hair all messed up, and his eyes wide and soft like an infant. He thinks of him stretching out his exhaustion and the little moment his shirt lifts up to reveal what’s underneath. He thinks and he thinks and he thinks, but he’s not looking over at him. He’s looking at her.
The rumors of James Potter and Lily Evans finally working it out spread like wildfire. It’s embers branching out until there wasn’t a single person who didn’t know about it. Their kiss happened in the middle of the Gryffindor common room, apparently no one was there, but there are always sources. Always whispers. Regulus woke up to a burn to his cheek, and a crackling outside of his window. His friends looked over at him, pity drowning in their eyes, but none of them said anything. None of them knew how. It was Pandora who finally brought him over, holding his hands gently as she broke him the news. He can’t remember his reaction. He just remembers the moment his face dropped, but he wasn’t thinking of him, he was thinking about her.
He never minded Lily Evans before, he barely gave her a second glance. He saw her sometimes in the library, she always sat alone, pushed in the back. Even in the darkest parts of the castle the sunlight always tended to reach her. It covered her and highlighted every freckle on her face. Her eyes were always soft with contemplation, but Regulus didn’t care for her much. He always heard about James’ crush on her, of course he did, but he never cared. He didn’t think it would go anywhere. He thought to himself Lily Evans was as blind as a person can be for rejecting James. He could never understand it. How could she get James to even so much as look at her and not truly understand what that meant. How much other people would die for him to look at them like that. Resentment climbed in his liver, it overwhelmed him. Before it was a scoff at any remark. It was an eye roll at the stupidity of Lily for thinking James would just be there when she realized how daft she was truly being.
Though the only stupid person truly was Regulus, for James was there waiting for when Lily finally opened her eyes. He was there to chase after her, like the tail-end of a shooting star. James ran circles around her, watching her like she was everything, like she was his entire world. He held open every single door for her. He’d make himself bleed for an ounce of her attention, and she never never cared. She never cared before now, but Regulus has been here. He’s been here and Lily just walked the epitome of angel dust to smile and beckon James over to her like he’s a dog on a leash she’s holding.
“Regulus,” Pandora’s voice catches him out of his retched mind.
“What?” Regulus snaps, not taking his eyes off her. Her with her perfect skin. Her with her perfect everything.
“You’re going to drill a hole in her head, you know,” She comments.
Regulus finally releases his gaze, “What are you talking about?”
It’s just the two of them. Barty and Evan ran off somewhere, and Dorcas well she’s always with Marlene now anyway. Pandora looks over at him softly, her eyes filled with pity, “You don’t have to pretend you’re looking at James when it’s just me.”
Regulus furrows his eyebrows, shaking his head, “I’m not just looking at her.”
“You’re looking at both of them?” Pandora suggests.
“Yeah,” Regulus answers, lies dripping from his mouth.
Pandora smiles, “James walked away five minutes ago.”
Regulus head whips aside to find her right. It’s only Lily, laughing at something one of her friends are telling her. She throws her head back like she’s a little kid. Coated in innocence in a kind of nostalgia not many people can reach towards. Sunlight nips at her face as her nose crinkles in a laugh. Her beauty endless, it’s like a knife to Regulus’ skin. Every perfection he finds in her is a scar on him.
“Regulus?” Pandora calls out again, as if she’s talking to a child. “Is there something you need to tell me?”
“Like what?” Regulus grumbles, looking back down at his plate, trying to fight the pull to look over at her. It’s like he’s under a spell, he’s certain she’s behind it. She wants him to look at her. She wants for all of this. She’s out to get him. He looks up again. She’s still sitting there. Why is she still there? Shouldn’t she be off chasing after James? Shouldn’t she be at his feet beck and call? Shouldn’t she be giving him the world right now? Why is she still just sitting there?
Pandora hums, “Nothing.”
Regulus looks over at her, “What’s your problem?”
“You’re torturing yourself,” Pandora tells him.
Regulus hesitates, he opens his mouth to speak but no words come out. In any other world this would be torture. He’s staring off at the girl who’s got the one thing he’s been begging for his entire life. He’s never wanted something as much as he’s wanted James. Looking over at Lily should be torture. It should kill him. It is. It’s the sweetest kind of torture. It’s a twisted lullaby. It’s a stinging on his cheek.
“Unless,” Pandora starts, “You want to be looking at her.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Regulus says quickly.
Pandora reaches out to grab his hand, “I’m gonna hold your hand while I tell you this.”
“Shut the fuck up,” Regulus tries to cut her off but when Pandora gets something in her mind it’s hard to resist it.
“I did it with James,” Pandora explains quickly. “I’ll do the same now. You’re in love with Lily Evans.”
“I am not in love with Lily Evans,” Regulus argues.
Pandora narrows her eyes, “You’re not?”
“No.”
“Why are you staring at her?” Pandora asks.
“She’s with James,” Regulus answers weakly.
“Why aren’t you watching him then?” Pandora questions. “Do you even know where he is? You used to always know, you used to have his schedule perfect.”
Regulus shrugs, “I’ve gotten busy.”
“Right,” Pandora scoffs. “So you wouldn’t mind if I called her over here.”
“Pan—“
Before he can even finish Pandora is raising her hand. Shouting out across the hall, “Hey, Evans!”
Regulus scrambles for something to hold, to bring Pandora’s hand down and stop her from this, but it doesn’t do any good. Lily’s already looking over, her eyes dazzling in the sun. The rest happens like a dream as she leans over to her friends explaining that she’ll be going. She walks over on clouds and then she’s in front of him. His stomach ties itself together. His mouth opens but nothing comes out.
“Hey,” Lily says, leaning across the bench to put her hands on the table. Her perfume reaches Regulus’ nose and it’s overwhelming, it’s making him slip back, like he’s in an ocean, drowning in all the waves.
“Hi,” Pandora replies.
Both of their gazes go towards him, but Regulus is only looking at her.
Lily smiles with his silence, he wants to kill her. She looks away and he wants to kill her even more, “You still working on that potion?”
“You know it,” Pandora tells her. “It’s close to being done now.”
Regulus doesn’t care what they’re saying. He just watches Lily. He can’t look away. She’s the greatest thing that’s ever existed, and she’s got James Potter wrapped around her finger. Its should be him.
She doesn’t stay long. Before she leaves she looks back over at Regulus, “Goodbye, Regulus.”
“Bye,” he forces out, his tongue resting uncomfortably in his mouth.
She laughs, it’s as soft as fresh daisies and she’s doing him in, “You’re cute,” she says, like it’s nothing, like it’s not eating Regulus whole. “I’ll see you two around.”
Then she’s gone again. Walking down the hall, her hair blowing behind her like a fucking magazine ad. There can’t be someone that perfect. She’s just a person. She’s nobody. She’s the one James wants. She won his heart over. She’s the one lying beside him. And all Regulus wants is to lie when she lies. Lily Evans is poison and it’s slowly driving Regulus mad. She’s everywhere, like a call of the wind. He’s nothing worshipping at her feet, it makes him uneasy.
“So,” Pandora breaks the echoing silence. “Not in love.”
Regulus swallows thickly, his eyes still stuck in the last place she was, even if she’s moved on, “Not in love,” he forces out.
The ache is endless, and bullets line his skin. A scar for every beauty, for which Lily Evans has infinite.
#anyway while i'm logged in.... enjoy a draft#i was listening to lacy#and ive had this idea in my head for months#every time i listen to lacy i think of them#so idk#i thought i'd write it down#it's not long enough to go on ao3#it's really nothing#just an idea#so here you go#jegulily#regulily#tagging both because it's mainly just regulily#but#regulus wouldn't be in love with lily if it weren't for james#it only works when they're all together#anyway#yeah that's all#regulus black#lily evans#jegulily fic#regulily fic#microfic#alright#bye again#maybe#idk#in a weird mood :/
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you are the sun and i am just the planets
spinning around you
spinning around you
#frosti draws#sonadow#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sth#super sonic#super shadow#i finally got this idea ive had in my head for the past few months outta there
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new game+
#kingdom hearts#kh#kh missing link#khml#kh ephemer#kh skuld#ephemer#skuld#keykid#skulmerayer#sou (keykid)#stray (keykid)#<- future note: i didnt have a design for stray at this point so i just used sou's design instead#the values on this thing absolutely killed me. hopefully its fine#anyway ive had this idea bouncing around in my head for Months#i started it on sept 20. i never have wips last that long#a whole month!!!!!!#can khml just drop already Let Me Play#myart
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so why didn't you stop me? why didn't you stop me
#ive had this idea in my head for literal months and i finally had the time to finish it#happy birthday to me this is the first thing i finished drawing at age 21#he is so so so beloved to me i think i could write forever about the gormogon arc and its implications and the wasted potential that it had#but thats for another day#zack addy#bones#bones tv#bones 2005#bones 3x15#fanart#bones art#bones fanart#my art#bones tv fanart
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Every little thought you bear might lead to severe consequences you will come to regret.
#my art#honkai star rail#hsr#jiaoqiu#hahahahahahahahhahaha#ive had this idea in my head for months#blood tw
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group therapy session with the worst people you've met (yourself)
#ive had this idea brewing for over a month i think#and i started drawing the comic dec 30th#it took me a bit#but this idea wouldnt leave my head#matt murdock#mattea murdock#matt murderdock#daredevil noir#batt burdock#daredevil#my art#click for quality prolly bc tumblr killed it#dd therapy au
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yuo know how people say toxoplasmosis rewires your brain to make you more fond of cats or whatever. do you think this image has that kind of effect on people. if i showed this to someone who didnt like reigen do you think theres a chance they would suddenly become enamored with him. its working on me and i already like his ass
#arataka.jpeg#reigen arataka#mp100#shitpost#<- joking around disclaimer. do not take this post seriously disclaimer. i am tired and dumb disclaimer.#et cetera. ive had this post idea in my head for like two months now i need to shake it out lest i go insane#anyways he looks so polite. he looks like how my dog looks at me before throwing up on my pillow
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I have missed two days of my drawtober thingy to finish this. I have no regrets.
#ugh this is way sloppier than I would have liked#but ive been meaning to finish it for a WHILE and I dont see a lot of free drawing time on my hands this upcoming week#ANYWAY#jaime would really just have it easier if I hit him with a bus huh#jaime reyes#khaji da#blue beetle#Ive had this idea in my head for MONTHS. ITS ESCAPED NOW!!#my art#sketch#im putting this guy in situations ong frfr#milagro reyes#first time drawing rudy#I hope he doesent look too much like guy fieri. Not that theres anything wrong with looking like guy fieri its just not what I was going fo#blue beetle 2023#mantis blades au#blue beetle bio diagrams
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HAHAHAHAH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THISSS
hear me out, animatic, 3 parter, for 2 of the videos, all to TØP music
“I uncovered minecraft’s greatest secret”- Backslide
“I broke into minecraft’s most secure Prison”- Vignette
Idk if there will be others but when i first listened to the album i literally had visions of them in SAD-ist animation style to the songs.. SO maybe one day this will happen im not making promises bc I AM NOT an animator, and im in school rn soooooo ahhahahaha
#unstableverse#unstable universe#lifesteal smp#parrotx2#wifies#spokeishere#GUYS THE FANDOM IS REAL#I JOINED WHEN THERE WERE 0 FICS AND LIKE A PINTCH OF ART FOR THE UU FANDOM#I COME BACK AFTER LIKE 5-6 MONTHS AND THERES 3 PAGES OF FICS ON AO3#i’m thriving#i had 3 videos to catch up on#i love parrot and wifies friendship sooo much 😭😭#Someone put a gun to my head to actually get me drawing#i feel like i made their designs simple enough that its po#I tried to make parrot NOT look like grian#bc i dislike when artists make him look similar bc it makes me confused#also i kinda love my idea that Wifies is an every man#like he’s 100% a basic bitch in the best way possible#ALSO i’ve seen that it might be cannon THAT HES A CLONE AND THAT HAS ME SOBBING ON THE FLOOR#HES A BITCH WITH A BACKSTORY FRFR#also pls ignore that some of the coloring is messed up this took me MONTHS to finish bc ive had major art block and school 😭#blehh :3#isucatart#Spotify
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MORE pokemon au posting WHAT!!
#coroika#splatoon#splatoonmanga#mask#pokemon#au#mega evolution#ive had this idea in my head for like 3 months#finally did it#pokemon au fans eating today.
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#i dont make comics i have barely made a comic before in my life this is a first ok#ive had this idea in my head for like months and i finally did somethin with it#oughhhhh red son nation rise#also whos excited for season 5 oh my god???#lego monkie kid#lmk#lmk fanart#lego monkey kid fanart#lmk mk#red son lego monkie kid#red son lmk#mk lego monkie kid#mk lmk#mei lmk#mei lego monkie kid#lmk mei#tagging tagging tagging ahh#astersstuff
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THE ELECTRONIC YET PALEOLITHIC GARDEN OF EDEN BEARING FRUIT UNTOUCHED BY OVERGROWN MEGAFAUNA OF FUTURES PAST
#i havent posted this though ive had it for like two months#ive been forming some kind of world thats similar to the planet of the apes in a way where the meegafauna never got killed off#and they kept developing into more intelligent creatures#until their society reaches a standstill one day when the garden of eden is recreated i think#initial idea was like electronic paleolithic megafauna#im still plagued by images of animatronicc wooly mammoth thats being annasumingly harvested for flesh but instead of meat found#its only wires#and the line between animatronic and electronic and living breathing flesh and fauna becomes blurred#because i guess animals as intelligent creatures would have a different approach to creating a society#i really just want to draw sabre tooth tigers and more neanderthals#well this one isnt a sabre tooth tiger but i didnt think of that yet#i would imagine the animals would evolve alongside the tech actually unlike humans#theres a word for where humans are evolutionary wise where we no longer evolve#anyway ive been wanting to make more art about being trans soo idk but ill keep twirling the idea round my head i think#as well as the water tower knight#art#traditional art#charcoal#mixed media#furry#sci fi#oc#oc art
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Inktober Day 1 - Lantern
Prompt list by melosprout on Insta
#WE'RE DOING IT#at least#im gonna try#i havent done inktober in a couple years and i dont think ive ever lasted the whole month#BUT WE'LL SEE#also I am not happy with this#Its one of those things where the sketch is SO GOOD#and the lineart is KILLER#but the rendering is severely lacking#i think its just too gray for my liking#but i had originally rendered this on a desaturated green background so#thats most likely my downfall#and i didnt want to redo it all#so#tweetie with a lantern#you're welcome#he likes getting lost in the woods#also i TRIED FORSHORTENING???#HEAD BIGGER LEGS SMALLER???#NO idea if it worked#ive been looking at it for too long#inktober#inktober 2023#mlp#digital art#art#pony#tweetie#oc
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born 2 yuri, forced 2 shonen
i think they would be a very cute gothfemme4gothfemme couple in a hypothetical death note/one piece crossover special
#i had so much fun doing the law one w the similar background that i finally decided to do this idea ive had in my head for a couple months#perona is so nervous. youd think having a gay adopted brother and gay adopted dad would help prepare her for this scenario but no. rip#misa amane#amane misa#death note#perona#perona one piece#one piece#huppydoodle
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committing atrocities doesn't count if you're a hot bi babygirl <3
[ID: the 'i have done nothing wrong ever' meme where wei wuxian is saying 'i have done nothing wrong, ever, in my life' and lan wangji responds 'i know this, and I love you'. End ID]
#wangxian#wangxian fanart#wangxian meme#the untamed#cql#mdzs#mdzs fanart#wei wuxian#lan wangji#mxtx#mo dao zu shi#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#yes ik this isnt how the story goes. but its funny tho#also totally misssed that guy's head in the foreground lol get ripped whoever u are#this has been living rent free in my brain since. wait i have the exact date i wrote it down as a fanart idea#feb 17 23! a month and more#i did this v quickly and v easily bcs i just had it in me. it brewed. it stewed. mwah#dan draws#edit: ok ive fixed the tiny issues i could see right away and edited the random guy out. goodbye my man
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if i wrote a gangbang what fandom would you want me to write it for
#aristotle.txt#its unfortunate theyre so complicated because its the Number One Thing for me im afraid but its soooo complicated to write ive never#given it a shot#tbh the only fandom i could see myself really doing it for is bnha (tenative) or bllk (confident) because i want to smash several charas#in both series and can figure out a realistic reason one#the thing is if i write one it will be really depraved and horirble hfdjkgjkds#maybe free use..... ive had one idea about bnha floating around in my head for months LMAO but god knows who would be interested
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