#and it's? idk it's odd but it's not? like *I* know how i feel about my sexuality and gender

[luguangssandwich]

I'm rlly tired rn so idk if any of this will make sense but I've done some sleuthing and rewatched the episode, now with the highly likely chance that Cheng Xiaoshi has dived back too. Hear me out:

Xiaoshi definitely did dive, and I think it started from the moment we saw his face in black and white at 4:59 PM:

And I think he stays until the Vivian arc fades out after they ran away (that was at 3:45 AM according to the clock in the room) I think he left as soon as they were safe and before the 12 hour limit passed. After that, he is back to the same, more naive and youthful person (who doesn't know about Lu Guang's powers) we have seen before the above. Everything he does in between those 12 hours is completely in line with his late S1 and S2 behaviour, I found it extremely uncanny and interesting to watch with this in mind!

Other bits that I found particularly interesting was the conversation after he pulled Lu Guang back to the studio. Qiao Ling asks what they should have for dinner and Cheng Xiaoshi suggests hot pot. We know this is his signature food, but I found Qiao Ling's response odd, because in the original Chinese subtitles she asks him if he's sick, because nobody eats hot pot during such a hot day. It felt odd because she made it seem out of character for him?

There's also CXS bossing Lu Guang around - at this point in time they know each other for a very brief amount of time, but the way he asks all these things of him feels like a future timeline in which they've already gotten extremely used and comfortable as partners and living together.

With this in mind, calling him "Guangguang" doesn't feel like it came out of nowhere anymore.

A few other pieces of dialogue I found extremely sus:

Even Lu Guang is surprised by his out of character behaviour at this point (but also vice versa!).

Now, the way he behaves during the date - I wouldn't say it's completely out of character for a future CXS to act out of his own wits. I don't think this guy's been on a single date in his life lol of course he would freak the hell out in such a situation, during previous dives he at least had the safety of possessing someone else. His empathy never fails so he tries to be kind and guide Vivian home, something a future Cheng Xiaoshi would do as well.

But what REALLY tipped me off is that there is no way a non-possessed CXS would've known that LG would know where he is at this moment in time, because he wasn't told until after this scene that he took a photo. I don't think the Vivian arc happened before (and it's possible it was triggered directly by the changed node when CXS dragged LG back to the studio). Cheng Xiaoshi had no idea Lu Guang would ACTUALLY SHOW UP IN PERSON tho (my guy at this point are u actually even surprised?) and probably just thought he'd call the cops, seeing how surprised he was at Lu Guang's appearance.

I'm gonna post the screenshot of Cheng Xiaoshi with golden eyes again because it really baffles my mind.

I don't know if any of this makes sense and I'd love to hear your thoughts!!

[l1ve-l4ugh-lov3craft]

I ALMOST FORGOT TO POST MY 'BARTY WATCHING EVAN IN THE ARENA' CRIVERS THOUGHTS THAT HAVE BEEN SLOW-COOKING

okay hold on let me gather them up again

sooo something somethinggg...at first barty is just watching for regulus yk? cos that's his best friend and he wants to make sure he's okay, or at least if he dies he wants to see it happen to...i dunno...like bring closure? idk

anyway so he's watching and probably more worried for regulus than he'll admit and then the first five minutes in the arena, he watches reg run into (literally) this strange-looking blonde dude who was weirdly beautiful in a way that i know barty did not know what to do with

he probably recognised evan from the little snippets that had been televised of the training era, and at first i think he might have been kinda jealous and suspicious of him? like worried that evan was just using regulus

but then slowwwwwly he started to get more and more intrigued by him as he and reg continued their alliance. it definitely started when it became clear evan wasn't going to sell regulus out to the death eaters or kill him after they did all the stuff to get the weapons at the river

and then they split up and then they end up reuniting and yada yada and maybe barty started to become more and more fascinated by evan rosier. nodding in approval when he did something particularly cool. laughing when he said something funny. just little things

and eventually it might have even been accompanied with the thoughts of 'what if?' what if he had met evan rosier somewhere? would they have been friends?

i don't think barty even really realised how attatched to evan he had somehow become until the spear was in his gut. because why did it hurt so bad to watch him die?? clearly it was vicarious grief because regulus was so clearly hurting, right? but that wasn't it, was it?

i think in the end evan's death could have been very odd for barty. because he had never met this boy in his life, so why did he feel such a weirdly profound sense of loss when he died?

and i don't think it necessarily lasted long, the grief he felt over evan rosier's death, but it was definitely there. and i think that maybe, for a longggg time afterward, he would find himself thinking about a certain set of blue eyes and the boy who used to say no one ever thought to look up

[karinadele]

Corrupt

Megatron x Reader

NSFW | DeadDove

I cant write anymore of this, i had more -even a plot for it, but im cringing every 6 seconds with this. But maybe someone out there wants to read it idk

its tfp megs but his altmode is g1 gun

Warnings: Drugs, Gunplay, Power Dynamics (duh), Megs is fucked up, but ur just as doomed. At least he calls you a good girl? Abrupt ending cause i died, I tried to make it not as painful...

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“Open.” he demanded. Transformed into his gun mode, laying in your hands. The cold metal resting in your palms.

Completely glazed over, washed with a fog of grey, you don’t even know what’s going on anymore. The drugs in your system have messed you up so hard that all of your senses have been dulled to the point you barely know how to breathe. Eyes half rolled up with your mouth hanging open as soft pants come out; your body attempting to stabilize its breathing. The only sounds to your muffled hearing is your desperate whimpers and his commands.

“Be a good girl and take it.”

His orders ring through your ears.

“Be a good girl and take it.”

“Be a good girl and take it.”

That’s right. I’m a good girl. Completely void of any dignity, as you have your legs on your knees, you sit on the berth. With your eyes barely a slit, staring at the Walther P38 in your hands. Nodding at it as you pick it up, safety unlocked, holding onto the grip.

“Keep your eyes open.”

Unaware that you’ve closed them as you diverted all of your attention opening your mouth to hold out your tongue, you force your lids up as much as you can. Just barely open, but enough to be able to see –not that you can make out what’s heads or tails of anything.

It’s all about control. He doesn’t need you to see anything, so long as you obey his directions. But forcing all of your senses online is part of the game, he’s ultimately controlling you.

He got a first hand glimpse of what you can do. Something awoke inside of him when he saw the way you draped your tongue out in front of him. At that moment, he knew. He wanted to feel you, wanted to know what it felt to be wrapped around an organic’s intake, the wet and softness of it? Would it be warm? To see your completely broken submissive face as you take him. His spike is already pressurizing, but that’s not what he wanted. That will come another day. For now, he needed to know what it felt like with your lips sealed around him, tongue twirling around him.

“Good girl. Now put it in.”

The only actions you can do at this rate are simple movements. Fortunately, it’s enough. Placing the bottom of the barrel onto the tip of your tongue as you bring it back. Fear has long escaped you. You know it’s from the drugs, but what are you going to do? Fight them? They’re already in your system.

You hear a muffled groan, taking that as a good sigh, sliding it further in. Gently running the body of your tongue along the bottom of the barrel, thin enough that you can cover the whole surface area with a slight curve.

’Primus, he did not know it would feel this good.’ If he would have known this is what organics felt like, he would have taken you a long time ago. The warm and wet of your tongue colliding with his cold and metal body, clashing into a harmony of pleasure.

“More.” He demanded.

His words rumbled in your mouth, sending vibrations down your throat. His voice was already a deep baritone, but with it muffled by you, it felt even more exhilarating.

Desperate to please him, you begin to slide your tongue up. Slowly rolling it over the barrel, making a loop. Repeating a few times before switching direction, heading the other way.

If he was in his bot mode, he would be clenching his servos and gritting his denta. He may be unable to physically express the emotions, but they’re there. Jolts of shocks run through him as he lets out a low growl. He could almost feel himself shaking, only hoping that you had enough of a grip to hold him well.

A delicate trust between 2 completely different species, a twisted odd of faith as his safety rests in your hands, and your own death being one trigger away. He would hope you would not, you’re too precious for that. Yet the thrill of giving you that choice, –and being the one to be able to take you offline, makes him feel something he’s never felt before. Murdering bots? Originally he felt something. Guilt perhaps? But over time it did not matter anymore. It’s the thin line of trust that you will not do it that excites him. That you’re given the choice in your own palms, but you’d rather choose him.

[inkskinned]

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

[sysig]

You're still standing off to the side. Somehow, center stage has shifted from under your feet without you realizing, and you're standing in the wings, performing to no one.

Starring Role (Patreon)

[dykedvonte]

I dislike takes that Danse would be just as conservative in modernized aus when it's clearly shown his staunch views of things come from his time in the Brotherhood and his deep-rooted desire to belong to something with a greater purpose.

Not to mention lines that show much more open-mindedness that get overlooked for his harsher sentiments when you first meet him. Like the oppurtunity to be a part of something is why Danse fell so far into Brotherhood dogma and it doesn't negate the offense things he does but I feel like it's just lazy to be like "hmmm he'd def be racist" just so it aligns to his BoS beliefs.

[hplonesomeart]

Whoops! Looks like this network is running on an outdated script, needs some immediate changes I’m afraid. But stay tuned during this brief commercial break as things get tidied up, we’ll be back on track in no time!

…..that was a long winded way of saying I’ve finished making some Mr. Puzzles fanart and I like how it looks :3

Bonus content section wahooo here’s the art without the dialogue included

By the way incase anyone is curious what the jumbled words scattered around are talking about- it’s song lyrics to Still Waiting by Jazz Emu. Was one of the inspirations to make Puzzle’s art since the whole thing is about getting immersed into watching television to an unhealthy extent that it pushes your loved ones away :)) seemed fitting

Also here’s a close up shot of just his face, taken by my wonderful phone camera which (for whatever reason) automatically puts a darker filter on it! Plus added pixel patterns from the screen itself kinda adding to the whole glitchy wave ambiance. Feel free to do whatever with it just please credit me somewhere and we all good 👍

[coquelicoq]

good morning can i show you guys the christmas card my little sister wrote me in french (she does not know any french)

joyeux Noël, j'espère que vous comprenez ce que je dis compte tenu de la fiabilité de Google Translate. Jespère qu'à l'avenir nous voir plus de deux fois par an. Je ne sais pas vraiment quoi dire d'autre, alors joyeux Noël et j'espère que papa t'a offert. Profitez également des autres choses que je mets sur la carte au lieu de vous ècrire un essai complet.

and then she wrote me a little crossword and a "connect the language to its way of saying 'merry christmas'" game 😭

[telesodalite]

I need to be weirder about the scavengers and cannibalism...

[agirlinthegalaxy]

It's been rolling around in my brain the last few days for some reason, but I still hate the family backstory reveals for Sophie and Eliot. I've seen some of the meta for it, but quite frankly, it still makes no sense. If it had been something actually thought of and intentional in the original, I think it could have been so fascinating. I mean, Sophie's willing abandonment of Astrid to contrast with Nate's loss of Sam or Eliot's adoption in contrast with Hardison's and Parker's? Could have been excellent! But they came out of nowhere in Redemption and don't work with these characters.

Sophie was still actively using the fucking alias that she met Astrid under! She met with someone from her past on the show! Like. Quite frankly, that one is unequivocally bullshit that they made up and threw in and pretended could fit with the established canon. (And I'm sorry, but the idea of Sophie abandoning Astrid and never telling Nate about her just... So much of Nate's trauma was rooted in the loss of Sam, and I think that introducing this element after he's gone and unable to respond to it taints Sophie and Nate's relationship in a way bc I'm not exactly sure how Nate would've responded to learning about this but I think that it's something he'd have needed to know. I don't know how to fully express my thoughts on that but yeah.)

As for Eliot, I don't like the adoption aspect literally at all. The way that he would interact with his family and the memory of his family would be different, and I think that it's flat out ridiculous to think that he'd have never mentioned it to the team in the original show, especially when dealing with the kid cases. (I also dislike the biracial adoption as its own element because if Eliot was actually raised by Black parents in the... idk what 80s/90s? That just. doesn't feel congruent with how they write Eliot interacting with PoC, not necessarily in a bad way, but babe, he's written like a white southern man raised in a specific kind of culture that does not jell with that. It also makes Eliot look... really bad that he was apparently raised with the knowledge of how fucked up the military was and his parents' history and made the choices that he did.) Like the show may not have explicitly stated it but the implication of that relationship was vastly fucking different throughout the original show.

Just. These were not backstories that were congruent with their depiction and characters in the original show, and they're also just moves that I don't particularly like or find interesting directions for those characters. There's also something to be said about how it was apparently unacceptable for a woman to not have kids or someone not reconciling with their biological family when that was something that the original show handled a lot better. Out of all the directions to take Sophie and Eliot's stories, that's just not really one that I think was a good idea.

[jam-packed]

thank god im not a journalist cus the amount of eye contact would kill me

[kabukeo]

tonight's little doodles

[sweet-milky-tea705]

Idk why i never feel like im allowed to think about my future. Probs a little depression thing but idk.

[driftingballoons]

I hope you don't mind me asking two thing back to back, but for the reverse unpopular opinion ask game.

What piece of PMD lore/story just doesn't sit right / doesn't make sense with you?

Not at all! Love getting asks, thank you! :3

The one piece of lore that’s always bothered me a bit is how they handle humans in the series. Imo it’s just a little confusing and odd. Now for the positive! By leaving it vague, it really hands over the lore to the fans—how do humans live in this world? Are they common, or are you one of/the only one left? Do they tend to live side by side with pokemon, or are they more separate than in the main series? Where did Hero come from? What happened to their family? Etc etc. Plus, in Explorers, the idea of there being humans around, but you not seeing ANY in the Dark Future really adds to the oppressive and heavy nature. It helps show it’s such a harsh world that only the most feral of pokemon can truly thrive. 

[you-will-return]

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(I keep telling myself that I won't post it and then I don't and then I feel annoyed with myself but I tell myself that I shouldn't post it and then I don't and-)

[lesbian-rook]

Ok as someone who has struggled with various eating disorders for around a decade now (trying to ignore a relapse the day i'm writing this) it is fucking wild to me how much FNAF got right??? with Glamrock Chica. I am going to assume it was unintentional but it's so fucking weird that they just gave the robot an eating disorder, is she haunted by someone who has one? is this a consequence of FNAF's old mild undertones of misogyny? or did someone in the dev room just go "well fuck, what do we do with Chica?" and someone just piped up and said "what if we gave her bulimia?"

I am absolutely fascinated by this choice and even more fascinated that I felt more of a kinship with her than I ever have with a character in a PSA or a book or Very Special Episode™ despite the fact that I would never recommend her as "good rep"