#and it'll be your fault

[ofmistnmoons]

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[mattodore]

birthday boy 🎂

[rosegoldarchon]

yeah it's him again. you're going to be seeing a lot of him. sorry. Where do I even start with this guy!!

A lifetime ago, he was human, discordant and malicious and imperfectly perfect. Then, after the Theatre's initial intervention and attitude adjustment, Wonderworld decided to not let go of him just yet. There was still work to be done. Now, Forte is the conductor of the Balan Theatre's symphony orchestra, as well as its head of music composition. The custom tailored heartworld that accompanies each individual visitor to the Theatre is joined by an equally personalised melody, one that is written then faithfully performed behind the scenes by Forte and his band.

he is so very loved and so very developed and so very weird. I made him before even the demo dropped and somehow he's stuck around since like an awful terrible rash 😭

[eggsistential-basket]

thinking about the person i could have been if i tried a little harder to find my own way

[throughpatchesofviolet]

I am suffering from the yearning ... it's so bad, tonight.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

I haven't been involved with coaching for almost 3 months now and somehow I am still getting dragged into the drama.

[greatprotector-if]

— OCS AS LOVE TYPES

tagged by @stephschoices to do this uquiz for some ocs and naturally i chose the 3 stooges <3 thank you very much for the tag i love uquizzes!!

tagging everyone reading this. i can do that right

KALLIAS — love that lasts

love unconditional, love unfailing. you love no matter what happens because you believe in the best – of you, and them. it will hurt and it will fail you, but this love tastes so sweet – you can never believe that it bitters sometimes. the way you choose to love unconditionally is incredible.

GALEN — love that strengthens

you make sure that people know that they are loved, and you give them strength when they need it the most. this is an ability that is rare; the love that you hold speaks wonders of yourself. i hope you're doing alright. isn't it exhausting always being the bigger person?

V — love that calms

this is sweet. i hope you know that you make others feel at ease around you. you're a gem, a blessing, a treasure – and you should know it. it's comfortable loving you. it's a privilege to be around you and to be let into your world.

[majoresca]

Okay, hear me out here...

Makes me think of a scenario with my OC okay?

An O.C. who had become close to Cedric throughout the story, who ends up discovering his plans to take the throne.

They confront each other, and the O.C. gives him an ultimatum, if he doesn't give up on taking the throne, they would leave never to see him again.

Cedric is reluctant saying that he can't go back anymore, since he is so close to achieving it, and that he wouldn't let neither Princess Sofia, nor the O.C. nor anyone else interrupt the dream of of a lifetime to come true. Because after years of humiliation and contempt from others, he deserves his reward, his rightful place on the throne.

But the O.C. asks if everything they went through wasn't important after all? What would happen to the royal family? The royal children? Cedric's family? The kingdom of Enchancia? And him?

If the plan goes wrong, what would become of him?

The O.C. tries to advise him not to do that, because if he fails, he won't be able to go back to the way he was before. And that the worst would happen to him if he stayed on that path.

Cedric is offended and hurt, how dare they also be one of his critics? Who questions and doubts his abilities? That he could fail to such an extent again?

He says that if they really cared about him, they would know what he was capable of, and trust his abilities. And they wouldn't want to convince him to be of being less than he really is.

Only to them, he had never been less in their eyes. But their admiration is not enough to convince him.

They separate, and the O.C. leaves, fulfilling the ultimatum.

[riddlerosehearts]

ever since i saw wicked last month i actually have not stopped thinking about a vilidia wicked au... vil would be glinda, idia would be elphaba, ortho would be nessa and kalim would be fiyero but the whole love triangle plot + elphaba/fiyero ending up together would be removed and kalim would just be the silly third wheel bestie who encourages whatever insane gay thing vil and idia have got going on. like. listen. these lyrics are literally so them:

and also just?? the fact that glinda asks elphaba if the ozdust ball was her first party and she asks if a funeral counts?? i know idia would say the same thing. and vil singing "popular" and giving idia a makeover?? during the song glinda doesn't even hardly do anything, she basically just takes elphaba's hair out of its braid and puts a flower in it and then goes "why, elphaba, look at you, you're beautiful"--so that but with vil and idia?? it's perfect.

[thesandyfreak]

Help my friend just said a friend of his wanna date me wHAT the HELL I'mma supposed to do this mortal vessel is about burst into ten million pieces I've never even held hands my unsocial brain's about to melt out of my head and I forgot how human words work

[lhazaar]

sorry i haven't been online as much lately, one part of it is the maladies and the other part is that yesterday's trans tumblr happenings (i am being vague intentionally to protect the girl involved) were tailor-made to hit me Directly in ptsd triggers

[seleneprince]

Not me coming back from Tcoaal and realizing the potential parallels between the main characters and the akashi siblings (-takeomi).

TW: Dark themes ahead, including manipulation, gaslighting, dubious consent, incestuous behaviour, sexual innuendos and overall pure toxic energy. Beware.

Both of them being raised by a neglectful and bordeline abusive caretaker (takeomi didn't give a fuck about haruchiyo's wellbeing and he even saw senju as a way to gain more power for himself). Haruchiyo being forced to take care of Senju and act like her pseudo-parent most of the time when takeomi can't be bothered to do so. Both growing closer and very dependent of each other because they have no one else to turn to and takeomi prefers to let haruchiyo handle it. Senju seems to be the favourite, but Takeomi can't stand tears and has little to no patience, so he passes her off to Haruchiyo whenever she gets difficult. It's only when she's "behaving" that Takeomi pays attention to her.

It was Haruchiyo who kissed her scrapped knees and cuts when she hurt herself to "take the pain away". It was up to him to read her bedtime stories when she couldn't sleep, to wipe her nose when it was runny, to stay by her side when she was sick. Takeomi went out of his way to make young Haruchiyo raise Senju so he didn't have to himself. And while he loves his sister more than anything, he also resents her, because he's being forced to sacrifice his childhood for her. There are times, when he's alone with his thoughts, that he wishes she didn't exist. This causes him nightmares.

Imagine them having to share a room because they struggle with money (their parents are clearly nowhere in the picture), so takeomi makes them sleep in the same room for years to save space. Senju sneaking into Haru's bed when she's scared and he always lets her, with complaints and sighs, but they always end up asleep in each other's arms. It becomes their routine, specially when they know Takeomi wouldn't ever listen to their fears or worries, let alone try to reassure them.

"It's okay, Senju. We have each other. That's all we need", he's caressing her hair and she believes him.

Imagine them after the "plane incident", when Haru's mental state begins to deteriorate. As expected, Takeomi doesn't try to comfort him, inmediately blaming him once again, and Senju feels so terribly guilty she cries about it. She eventually confesses Haruchiyo the truth and his resentment grows out of the surface. Their once sweet bond slowly grows into something twisted and toxic, because now he hates her but he still loves her too and can't bring himself to stay apart too long. Senju is very wary of him now but still seeks his presence. He tries to push her away, hurting her in places where Takeomi can't see, only to heal her himself later and comforting her like he's not the one who did it. She doesn't dare to speak up, mainly because she feels she deserves it. Haru encourages those thoughts.

"You see what you made me do, sister? This is your fault. Why do you piss me off?"

"I have these scars because of you. I'm gonna have them forever. You shoud make up for it, don't you think?"

"C'mon here, you crybaby, I'll patch you up. I didn't mean to go that far, okay? Here, let me fix it"

When he's not being a jerk, he becomes that caring and loving older brother Senju knows and craves. Those short moments of peace and safety with him are the reason she doesn't cut off ties completely. She's holding unto the hope that her brother will change.

As time passes, he becomes more and more possessive. He isolates Senju to make sure she only has him to rely on, terrorizing her friends (specially the boys) and anyone that shows interest in her. In return, she's also possessive with him and hates when he hangs out with others because it feels like he's "abandoning her". She throws tantrums and is willing to fight back if it means getting him to pay attention to her. He relents most of the time, because he loves seeing her desperate for him and it reassures him that she'll never leave him. He still has outbursts of jealousy, tho.

"What the fuck were you doing talking to him? You really believed he'll love you, that he'll take you out on dates and that bullshit? Don't make me laugh, only I can love someone as wrecked as you"

"Nobody is gonna treat you better than me. Nobody is gonna know you like I do, ever. You don't need anyone else but me. Why would you want other boys when I'm right here?"

It's not hard for Haru to convince her that it's normal for siblings to cuddle and even shower together. She doesn't know anything else, she has no one to tell her it's wrong. When puberty hits him and he starts to experience certain needs, there's only one female he's close enough to imagine having that sort of intimacy with. In his mind, it makes perfect sense. Senju is the only girl in his life, he knows he can touch her without problem, and besides, she fucking owes him that. After everything he's put up with for her, all the sacrifices he did and the mistreatment he endured from Takeomi, it's only fair that Senju lets him have this, right? He believes he's entitled to her in every form and sense.

Senju doesn't think much when he sneaks his hands under her shirt to feel her up, or when he watches her get dressed in creepy silence, or when he makes her sit on his lap. After all, this is what siblings do all the time right? Haruchiyo is just being affectionate in his own way. She's only taken aback when he kisses her for the first time, but she quickly relaxes because "this is what siblings do. We're just practicing, dear sister". Besides, Haru is practically the only male she has contact with (Takeomi is mostly absent and Haru makes sure she doesn't talk to other boys), so when she reaches puberty, she begins to feel sexually attracted to him. Something he notices and enjoys greatly.

"C'mon, aren't you going to let your big bro' touch you? If I don't show you how it's done, how else are you gonna learn? Big brothers do this all the time, y'know? Who better to teach you these things than me?"

"What? You're feeling shy now? I used to change your diapers and bath you for years. I know every part of your body like it's my own. Now get closer, I wanna see you"

"You should be glad to have such a good brother to help you with this. I'm doing this out of my affection for you. Yeah? You like how I'm touching you? Let me hear you then."

Their feelings for each other are messy, twisted and so complex that not even they can fully untangle them. They love each other, that much they know. Haru wants to kill her often, they know it too. Senju wishes he didn't exist, they know that too. But in the end, they also know they need each other more than anything. Not like the air they breathe, more like the smoke of the cigarettes. It's slowly killing them from the inside, but they're addicted to it. They can't exist in a world without the other.

Eventually, his undying devotion for Mikey wins and he runs away, leaving Senju behind. She never forgives him. He never forgets her. Somehow he still manages to be present in her life, if only from afar, but his control has weakened and now Senju is finally free to make friends. To have her own life separated from him. And the more she sees the world without his influence, the more she realizes just how fucked up and how wrong everything he did was. He talks to other people and finds out that kind of behaviour it's, in fact, not normal in siblings. That it's actually considered unnatural and forbidden and so incredibly disgusting. She feels asshamed and embarrassed for it, her perception of Haruchiyo finally changes to realize how he manipulated her all this time. Senju decides it's for the best to cut off contact with him, trying desesperately to bury their sins.

But at this point, he's not letting her go. Ever. It doesn't matter how hard she tries to push him away, he only pulls her back harder. Because despite all the shit that's gone down between them, he still knows her better than anyone and they still have no one else that understands them the way each other do.

And so that's how their relationship goes on through the years, with hatred and regret and love interwined. She's not allowed to move on, but neither does he. They're on opposite sides of the war, but they'll still hold unto each other like their lives depend of it (because they do) with their bloody mouths and bruised knuckles from the brutal fights. Because this wreck of a relationship is all that they have left, as twisted and painful as it is.

They'll pretend there's nothing to it, carrying on with their respective lives away from the other, but eventually, there's always a moment when their hearts beat their brains and they fall into that sick, forbidden dance once again, forgetting about the world and their responsabilities and the tragic childhood they share.

"I told you, didn't I, little sis? Nobody will understand you like I do"

"You're mine to break and care for"

[hella1975]

what do you mean it’s fun until aang pls leave him alone 😭😭😭 you might as well kick a puppy

well you see. and basically. and after that

[gremzon]

I might have OCD actually

[lunasilvis]

1 advice to (too) many people: try to start taking yourselves and life less seriously. really

[distant-screaming]

favourite beverage? top 3 favourite movies? a gmmtv acting pair that you want to see broken up the most? (yes i'm evil 😈 tell me who you're tired of seeing together on screen)

ARCHER MY BELOVED your ask is perfectly timed as always :)

Beverage - hmmm I am a water girlie through and through, I tend to not like fizzy drinks but I do enjoy a good mocktail or juice! (sour is better, always)

Movies - I am not a movie enjoyer as much as shows, but okay let's see, off the top of my head, recent faves:

Ocean's 11

My Neighbour Totoro

....Secrets in the Hot Spring?

GMMTV - you know I don't know why I expect anything from your asks except a ploy to get me cancelled /j sighs okay in terms of pairs I will say like. literally all of them. It's been said before but the pairing system kind of highkey sucks!! That said, you asked Most, so.... joongdunk? jimmysea?? OH NO WAIT I GOT IT gemfourth!! Not that I don't love them together because I do, but Gemini is suuuch a good boykisser I think he'd do SO GOOD with other actors! (I adore Fourth too of course, but Gem is my bias <33) But this question took me like a solid eight minutes to answer because my genuine answer is All Of Them :)

Archer's top hobbies: having correct opinions about shows, trying to get me cancelled, writing