#and it impacts me cognitively and i want to DRAW

[basilpaste]

(shaking at the bars of my enclosure) what do you MEAN im gonna be off my meds for the start of artfight???????

[1whore1gang]

I wanted to try something

NSFW WARNING MDNI!!!!

Soooo I’ve went down the rabbit hole of werewolf!TF141 and honestly I’ve had some ideas pop up, so uh yeah this is what my brain does when it gets on tumblr

Warnings: sex…full blown smut, fingering, p in v, all the warnings y’all,….. i think i used ‘pup’ in here somewhere

MDNI!! NSFW!!

Omega!Reader x Werewolf!141

written as a f!reader

It was like any other day, training with the 141. As the newest addition to this pack, you were pushed hard to be the best. Being one of two Omegas was even tougher, considering the other was your superior.

“Push harder rookie.” Soap’s voice rang out as you pulled yourself off the floor, exhausted and drenched in sweat. “Dig deep, you aren’t goin’ anywhere until you pin me down.”

You want to groan, complain, but you don’t. Instead you brace for impact as the sparing continues. Soap had you beat in just about every category when it came to fighting, this man was HUGE. You couldn’t keep up.

“I’m tapping out!” The words come out quick as Soap backs off.

“Already?” He questions. Soap was one of two members you’ve already met. You haven’t been here very long.

“Yeah, I’m calling it quits.” You push yourself onto your feet, panting. “You can’t expect this out of me on Day 3 can you?”

Soap only laughs, not even a glisten of sweat on him. “You’ll get there pup. Soon enough you’ll be able to take the big dogs down.”

Big dogs?? You think to yourself. There’s guys bigger than Soap here?

Meeting the rest of the team embarrassed you more than you care to admit. This team was graced with two alphas. When you got near the room they were in, every hair stood up on your body, their scent so strong it lingered down the hallway.

Weeks and months go by without a hitch, except for one, but we don’t talk about that…

You were sent on your first mission and it was the night prior when your whole world fell apart. You had just gotten out of the shower when your knees collapsed and your body felt like it was on fire.

“No, no, no…” You had felt sick the last couple of days but chalked it up to something you ate. You felt your skin becoming warm and damp with sweat as it all hit you.

You were in heat

You panicked, the pain engulfing every inch of you, the need for relief taking over your cognitive thinking.

You crawled over to your phone and texted the only person you could trust, the team Beta, Gaz.

Within minutes he was at your door, jumping inside your room to help you dress and get into bed. He was calm, assuring you it was all going to be alright.

That’s when you let out a horrific scream. You covered your mouth immediately, Gaz backing away. “What was that?”

Your eyes were wide. “I don’t know…”

You both froze in time, praying it didn’t draw either of you any unwanted attention. But, unbeknownst to you both, the other 3 men could smell you miles away.

Gaz stayed with you, trying to cool you off and keep you fed and hydrated, it was hours before another man showed up at your door….Soap.

He looked at you with worry, in his pajama pants and shirt. He didn’t even have shoes on…. “What’s going on? Your scent is intoxicating.” He slowly entered your room, approaching you with caution.

Gaz spoke for you, and when he did, Soap asked him to give you and him some space. Soap crawled in behind you, leaning your head against his chest. “Relax for me okay?” Soap was an Omega, just like you, but somehow his presence felt calming. It didn’t dull the ache you felt, but he brought a sense of peace to your mind.

Suddenly, you feel his hands roam down your body to your lounge pants and remove them down to your ankles, lifting your knees to spread your legs. “Do you trust me?”

You could only nod as the cold air of your room hit your bottom half. Soap’s hand took home inbetween your legs, his fingers entering you and filling the emptiness you’ve felt.

A moan left your lips as he moved, your head falling back to rest on his shoulder. Gaz watched on, waiting to be told how he could help.

As good as Soap’s fingers felt, you still felt the searing pain. It wasn’t doing anything to quell your problems. It caused you to question Soap’s methods.

But little did you know, Soap knew exactly what he was doing because it didn’t take long of his fingers in you until the two alphas appeared at your door. The sight before them causing them to become feral, primal even. “Look at that, they smelled us.” Soap smirked.

Looking at Price and Ghost, you couldn’t help but feel a bit exposed, but their presence brought a newfound relief to you.

Price moved first, coming to hover above you against Soap’s chest, his hand brushing your hair down as he spoke softly: “We’re gonna take care of ya.”

Price slowly moved Soap’s hand away, putting his own palm flat against you. His middle finger swiped up, taking in the feeling of you. His eyes closed as he buried himself in the crook of your neck, breathing you in.

Before you knew it, Ghost was now in place of Soap, his hips rutting against your ass, his hands on your chest. You had found yourself sandwiched between the two alphas. You were drinking in every moment.

Price slowly warned you as he moved, slowly letting you adjust to his size, purring in your ear: “That’s it, that’s a good girl.”

Ghost took care of every other area of your body, slowly caressing you in every way. His fingers grazed over your nipples and eventually would travel down to your clit to help you along.

Between both of them, it didn’t take long for you to come undone. Price continued through to his own release, burying himself deep inside you. The feeling was unlike anything.

The sounds you let out as the fiery pain left your body we’re heaven to the men’s ears. Price quickly moved to help clean you up as Ghost covered you with the hoodie he had been wearing. Ghost had marked your sheets with his scent, leaving you surrounded with it.

As soon as you were clean, the alphas left without another word, Gaz quickly coming to your aid with food and water while Soap sat with you, massaging your sides. They kept you company until you had fallen asleep, and they returned to their own rooms.

[equalperson]

being autistic and avoidant

i've noticed that both my avoidant personality and my autistic neurology impact each other greatly. still, even though it's one of the more frequent personality diagnoses alongside autism, i don't really see anyone talk about what being an avoidant autistic is like.

that being said, here are a few ways i notice they interact in my personal experience:

cognitive empathy

a major part of both disabilities are their impacts on cognitive empathy. autism often causes people to avoid assuming others' thoughts and feelings, while avoidants tend to assume these feelings are negative and personal.

before i developed my avoidant personality, i fell into the latter category. people could be blatantly unhappy and i'd just...assume things were fine.

at this point, however, my avoidant perspective-taking has definitely become my main thought process. i always feel like people hate me or what i'm doing or just generally aren't in the mood to deal with me.

i wouldn't say that i "have cognitive empathy" now, but moreso that i'm too focused on avoiding rejection to not be constantly assume the worst.

self-esteem

another part of avoidant personality is the idea that you're socially inept, regardless of evidence. being autistic complicates this since--by definition--all autistic people would be considered "socially inept" by society.

this makes it difficult to know when autistic self-awareness ends and avoidant self-deprecation begins. am i incapable of [social thing] because i'm autistic, or because i simply don't believe i am?

at points, i've questioned my autism due to this. like, maybe i'm just exaggerating; i've seen allistic avoidants mistake it for autism before, as well.

however, others' perspectives and my significant restrictive/repetitive behavior makes it clear that it's not just me.

self-direction

my ability to manage myself is impacted by both my autism and my avoidance.

on the one hand, autism gives me executive dysfunction, autistic inertia, and rituals that are rigid to the point of self-sabotage.

but on the other hand, being avoidant makes me too self-conscious to take care of myself easily, namely considering that i don't live alone, thus am in a constant state of social vigilance.

for example, i've yet to learn how to cook.

one issue is that i've gotten so used to the routine of having food made for me that it's triggering to be suddenly encouraged to change, but another is that i'm afraid of the attention taking any initiative would bring.

i don't believe i'd be shamed for it, but being avoidant makes any attention feel intimidating to me; it's not purely a fear of criticism, but generally a fear of recognition (which is ironic considering that i'm also a narcissist, making me very attention-seeking, as well).

social skills

not only does being avoidant impact how i think of my social abilities, but also how i utilize them.

being alexithymic, it can be hard to understand even my own motivations in things. at points, i can't tell if i'm being quote/unquote "socially inept" because i can't understand the situation or because i simply don't want to make any moves.

for example, i almost never make eye contact with others. i originally thought of this as part of my autism, but i honestly can't tell if it's that or my avoidant personality.

on the one hand, eye contact is sincerely overwhelming, but on the other, i can easily do it with animals, fictional characters, and my own reflection. i also made eye contact pre-avoidance. maybe i'm simply too afraid of the intimacy, not actually sensory-sensitive to it?

in other situations, it can be a mixture of both autism and avoidance.

for example, i tend to avoid initiating conversations. i don't want to draw attention to myself or risk rejection, but i also genuinely don't know how i'm expected to start a conversation at all.

external perceptions

i've been told that my social anxiety is obvious, but not my autism. if most people knew what avoidant personality was, i assume i'd probably be recognized as outright avoidant very easily.

pretty much everyone considers me withdrawn in some way. i've been called quiet, indecisive, easy (as in "passive"), reserved, and various similar words.

in some cases, this works in my favor. there have been situations where people have treated me even friendlier than they do others because they see me as fragile.

in many other cases, this works against me; people avoid me because i'm too withdrawn for their tastes. this enables my avoidant behavior, as it affirms--and partially caused--my belief that no one could actually want to be around me.

in other cases, people don't see me as anxious, but just emotionally cold. people have sometimes questioned if i hated them or was angry with them due to my behavior. however, this is typically due to explicitly autistic behavior rather than anything avoidant.

apparently, people also see me as somewhat eccentric. my mom described it once as "the many quirks of ian." i'm not fully aware what these quirks are, but they're there.

[incandescentflower]

I want Wandee Goodday to be about mental health.

I've been thinking about Dee mentioning Yak's nightmares and possibly seeking help. I'm not really into Dee trying to force him with an agreement. That kind of stuff doesn't work - mental health treatment is something people choose for themselves. But lots of people take convincing. And we've already seen Dee use leverage to get Yak to take care of himself, so not so surprising that's how they brought it up.

But the conversation finally started to broach what has been missing for me - the story of their mutual losses at young ages and how that can very much impact their fundamental remaining relationships. That kind of loss can be so transformative in how a person relates in significant relationships. It can impact attachment to others, create a pathological fear of loss, increase the level of guilt people carry in their life and even impact their developmental mind set - many people get kind of stuck at certain developmental milestones if they experience trauma at young ages.

(I am saying this as someone who has been trained in cognitive-behavioral trauma therapy as a therapist, but it was quite a while ago and I'm by no means an expert. This is just generalizing. And it definitely doesn't happen to everyone. It just feels like the show might want us to think it is happening for both Dee and Yak.)

The show seems to use these facts about them as short hand for some of their behaviors and choices without doing the work to make it clear and I wish they would delve into them more. I'm worried they are not doing so for drama sake later, but that remains to be seen. It also could be that they are punching above their weight when it comes to their understanding of these issues (yes, pun intended).

This is the first time they are implying that Yak's trauma about his mother's death actually bleeds into other aspects of his life. But that connection is not clearly made. I would have found it interesting if they spent the time to draw a vivid line between Yak's loss of his mother and his fear of loss of Wandee. (as an aside, I would say that would also have helped if they solidified Yak's feelings for Dee earlier so we truly understand the intensity of them. the lack of Yak pov makes it hard to know if his feelings are strong enough to instigate this reaction)

It's also hard to draw this conclusion because Yak is the one who is more willing to react by throwing it away - his fear response seems to be to run. It looks like a "time to get out before I care too much" action with him not acknowledging he already has those feelings. And so then after he breaks it off he feels this intensity of the loss in the form of his jealous feelings about Ter - who is taking Dee away.

He seems to carry a lot of guilt about *something* having to do with his mom's death and equates disappointing Dee with disappointing his mother. But without those details, it leaves us to guess. It isn't clear that Yak is melting down here not just from losing Dee, but over triggering those feelings of loss over his mom again, and possibly the expectation that he will lose everyone.

But that would be the most compelling reason to me.

I think the same actually goes for Dee and his reactions to relationships. We've seen Dee have two trauma flashbacks without any explanation, but it's safe to assume he has his own baggage to deal with. Still, the show is unclear how much it impacts Dee's behavior. Since he has Plakao, a psychiatrist, as his friend it implies that if Dee was truly deeply struggling emotionally, we'd see Kao telling him ad nauseum to go to therapy, not telling him to just take the leap and confess to Yak.

Without Kao saying "Dee, this is more than just indecision"- it seems like the show is saying it isn't a behavior that needs professional help. But if you take it out of the way it is often played for humor, it sure seems like it to me.

If I had a friend who seemed to be struggling so hard with having feelings for someone and had so much fear of those feelings that it was making them a little miserable, and on top of that seemed to not be able to set firm boundaries with someone who had hurt them immensely, so much so that not letting go of that person was more important than how the other person treated them, you bet I'd think they should be talking to someone.

Kao is being played as the voice of reason, but he is very static right now. He's just kinda being the audience stand-in to say GAAAHHH stoppppp. But if I'd had the same conversation with a friend this many times, I'd start to ask - hey, why are you always doing this? why are you always making things complicated?? how is that serving you when you say it isn't?? That is the crux of therapy. Figuring that shit out. It feels like the show wants the character motivation without having to delve into it too seriously.

When Dee says to Yak maybe you should get some help - perhaps he should be putting on the oxygen mask first before he attempts to help anyone else.

And honestly, their mutual trauma being the reason they are having such a fucking hard time working this out would be so, so interesting to me.

I'm just not certain that is what the show wants us to think.

[freakurodani]

top 5 haikyuu moments !! (can be particular scenes or episodes or arcs) :D

OKAY!!! so i had to gather visuals for this one bc i have many feelings about this!! I went for scenes that no matter how many times i watch, they never lose their magic for me, no matter that i know theyre coming, it still takes my breath away and makes me roll around with delight, these most of these i feel like are probably pretty obvious ones, they were meant to be impactful but ough, if they dont tear me up in the best way

SO IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1.

I mean, what can i say??? what IS there to say?? theyve been teammates for a few weeks at this point, but hinata has given all his trust to kageyama and in turn, kageyama promised to use it to its full potential. its also a promise for their rivalry!! like, okay okay okay think about it, with the context we have with Kazuyo, kageyama has *already* decided that hinata is going to be his someone better! he sees it innately and he wants to draw it out of him, and he's, hes trying to be *hinatas* someone better too!! do u understand *shakes you* do u see what i mean!!! i mean, im sure u do, im definitely not the first person to go insane about this and ppl have probably also said it in a way thats smarter than me but just, ough

2.

its,,,, its,,, the acceptance of it all,,, i just think about how *alone* kageyama must have felt after his grandfather passed, we see and know that hes not good at connecting with people. hes bad at communicating and hes sensitive and he's scared of getting complacent. like, the all youth camp arc and atsumu calling him a goody-two-shoes is kageyama struggling with how he is changing, how hes trying to incorporate the influences he's gotten from his betters, and he cherishes it, but he's also felt like the advice he'd been given didn't also mesh with certain parts of himself. or, thats how i read into it, anyway. he tries so *hard* to be what ppl need him to be, and he's *so scared* of being rejected again. and this is hinata (and the rest of karasuno) telling him "HEY! we like you! we think you're smart and you dont have to shoulder connection all on your own! let us help you connect with us in a way where you feel comfy too :)" and then they talk about how they want communication! and it works!! and i just *rips into a pillow with my teeth*

3.

HINATA'S PERFECT RECEIVE!!!!! so the inarizaki match is probably my favorite?? there are so many good moments but *this?* you wanna see me go insane? do you want smth thatll make me tear up? every time!! its just!!! a beautiful culmination of all of hinatas hard work that he's put into during the year! its his change of mindset! its his growth!! he's fallen a level deeper in love with volleyball and ive fallen a level deeper in love with his character

4.

halo around the moon <3 Tsukki's block, his hard work, his character arc and development and everything is just *chefs kiss*. i remember the first time i watched the show, i,, *hated* tsukishima, and i think we definitely arent supposed to like him at first, but GOD does that turn around!! and this moment just feels so *earned* and *epic* and in the end HE STILL ISNT SATISFIED!!!!! he STILL wanted more!!! this point was worth 100 god fucking damn!!

5.

im talking about the inarizaki match again!! but this time with a focus on Tanaka, who kind of struggled with this match! he was in a low place during it, felt stagnated and lame. Tanaka, as a character, i would say is best characterized by his mental fortitude and stability, funny enough. He's wild, but i think part of his visual design lends that as his base (since he's often compared to buddhas/monks). But in this match, we get more depth, we see him falter and struggle! it takes more than just a slap to his cheeks to get better (tho tsukishima does point out that he gets out of his depression pretty fast) but like, tanaka uses meaningful cognition to break his rut, and its also just like, advice that I've seen used for stuff like any kind of creative block as well. The visual during the animation, he's climbing up the stairs, he's slowing down, he's coming face to face with a canyon, a plateau. He sees two options, give in, or push forward and he picks "the cooler" one, and struggles forward, forces himself ahead! and kageyama backs him up too, by not letting him back down, assuring him that his usefulness hasnt reached its end and AUGH I LOVE A TEAM YALL

okay thank u so much for the excuse to ramble about haikyuu moments that mean everything to me <33333

[wonderfullwonderfull]

Science and society: what is the usefulness of knowledge?

(I note that this essay is primarily focused on my experience in the USA)

I've been thinking a lot lately about what impact I will be making in the world with my life. For a long time I had the view that all science is by nature "good" and that any pursuit of new knowledge is worthwhile. While this is a simple and straightforward view of morality and knowledge, it is something that is extremely prevalent among people I work with.

Now I completely understand the inherent desire to feel like you are doing good in the world. Anyone with empathy or even common sense hopes that they do more good in the world than bad. This is an intense desire in me, and due to my sample size of 1 (me) I have to assume that this is true for most others. People want to feel like they are benefiting society and those around them. I want to feel like I am benefiting society and those around me. This desire is strong and will allow people to pursue intense cognitive dissonance in how their career and life choices affect those around them.

In the course of my physics PhD so far, I have encountered many who intend to work for military contractors. There are several motivations given for this, however I believe the primary factor that actually drives so many physicists to military is the wide availability of jobs and the high pay. While I despise class reductionism and the ignorance of intersectionality, I do think class and economics is the driving factor in most of these colleagues decisions. Why spend 18 months searching around the country for a job that will offer 80k when you can go work for the military contractor down the street for 200k tomorrow. These jobs are extremely easy to get with an advanced physics degree, and their availability draws those who can not afford a long job search. The reasoning is straightforward and clear for many: it is the only high paying job available for them.

For many, I can accept this reasoning. I personally will never work for a military contractor (which I will elaborate on), but I can understand the desire for economic stability and the difficulty to reject an offer so prevalent and advertised. However, most, if not all, physicists I met who work with military companies will not use this economic argument as justification. There are instead a few other justifications that I hear. All of them I believe are symptoms of phantasm and cognitive dissonance. I will address them in the order of ascending danger and insidiousness.

First, is the classic neoliberal argument of national security and "the ability to defend ourselves". I will not address this argument. Many more qualified than me have written amazing essays on how the neoliberal idea of defense only perpetuates colonialism and capitalistic exploitation. While this argument is easily discredited by evidence, it is at least straightforward, if not honest.

Second, is the social credibility granted to those who work within the military defence industry. While only the poor proletariat is send to fight directly on the ground risking themselves, all involved in the military benefit by its deification in America. While veterans are ignored economically, the social credibility given to those who assimilate into the American imperialist project gives mobility to those who might otherwise be exploited. While it may be unexpected, a very large number of those working in the military industry are queer, neurodivergent, or otherwise ostracized by society. For many, the false-egalitarianism of the united states military industry gives those with the technical ability, but not the social ability, to climb the ladder of society. Lockheed martin doesn't care if you are a faggot, they just want someone to engineer their bombs. This is an extremely dangerous justification. Clearly, lifting yourself up by endangering others is no true liberation. It is the "liberation" promised by caplitalist society. "Put your boot on whom we tell you to, and we will have you live comfortably" says the Boeing executive, says the capitalist, says the imperialist, says the statist. This dissonance and rejection of empathy, creating a life of comfort at the cost of pain of others. Again, those more read and more impacted have said this in much more well written ways. However the message is clear: there is no queer liberation in America until there is queer liberation in Palestine. There is no acceptance of neurodivergence in America while we use our military to turn away asylum seekers at the border. There is no racial mobility while we use the fruits of our labor to kill the wretched of the earth. This justification is in reality entirely about economics and class. The classic method of elevation in capitalist societies: step hard on those beneath you and you may one day climb just an inch higher.

The final, and I believe most insidious justification I often see and hear is that of the universal good of science and knowledge. I myself used this philosophy for most of my life. While I have never personally done any work for the military industry directly, my justification for going into physics is that basic research helps all. Why worry about imperialism when you publish your research for any to read? Why worry about what your bosses are doing as long as you are advancing humanity's knowledge.

This is easily discredited by many. So much harm has been done to people in the name of "science" and "knowledge". Tuskegee, Nazi "science", eugenics, early anthropology, war chemistry, nuclear bombs. The list goes on and nearly anyone can easily list five failures of science as a guiding philosophy. All knowledge is not equally good, not all knowledge is good. Is the creation of the covid vaccine equivalently useful to humanity as a bioweapon made in a lab? Is the Haber-Bosch process equivalently useful as mustard gas? Is nuclear power equivalently useful as atomic bombs? Are solar panels equivalently useful as crytpocurrency farms? Clearly not. Each of these examples are intimately linked to each other. In all of these cases you can argue that the science discovered in the former will naturally lead to the latter. It is all just knowledge, neither good nor bad.

I find this argument disingenuous. While no physicist went out to discover the strong nuclear force, certainly it was a conscious decision to harness it as a weapon. Science is not a random selection of facts that you pick out of a hat. All science is pursued actively. Every day I go to my lab I make a decision that I am going to try to use magnetic materials as platforms for quantum information. I don't go into some random room with lasers and magnetic resonance machines and magically come out with a computational qubit. Those working for BAE systems do not walk into work and just randomly come out with a design for a missile system. Anyone who works in science knows: pursuing knowledge is an active process. You must envision what you want, and pursue it with vigor. Justification for knowledge is always either given before the science starts, or not given at all. No one accidentally creates a weapons delivery system, then has to decide whether they will publish it. No, this decision was made well before funding was granted.

This is a fact I have had to deal with in my PhD program. I will state, while accepting I myself may have some cognitive dissonance in this, that graduate students should not be held accountable for the science they do in the lab. Anyone in academia knows that 90% of PhD students do not pick specifically who their funding comes from or what the goals of their research are. These are decided between their primary investigator and the funding agency. I must tell myself this every day, knowing that my funding comes from the department of defence, knowing that my results will be used for technology I vehemently hate. Should I be held accountable that the science I do may be used for illegal spying and surveillance when all I want is to characterize a material? Should the blame that rests with the department of defense be passed onto me? I hope not, but I honestly do not know.

I sit here thinking about this as my close friends from undergrad go off to work in public defence, legal aid, and community-driven nonprofits. For a long time I thought that the pursuit of science was equal in worth to these careers. However it has been made clear to me that science can easily be one of the most harmful careers. So what is to be done? Personally, I am too far along my education to make a meaningful change. I have too much debt and have invested too much time to switch to a more directly impactful career. And I truly love physics. Discovering the nature of reality is a magical feeling that is addicting. Nothing measures with the experience to be the first person ever to learn something. Should I just accept that my own happiness is worth the career? Should I lay down and use my knowledge of semiconductors to build a weapons guidance computer? I still think not, but the way forward is uncertain.

I myself will attempt to, if not do good, at least not perpetuate the bad. While I sincerely thing quantum computing can do massive good for the world, it can clearly do harm as well. I hope I can find a position where I can do good, but at the very least I can avoid doing bad by working for Lockheed.

Science is grey. Much good and happiness has come from the pursuit of knowledge. Much harm has come from it as well. At best we can do what we think is right in the moment and attempt harm reduction in our work. I may not be able to choose who used quantum information science, but I can at least choose not to be the one building a quantum computer for the air force. I can choose to not do the harm that is clear to me. Does this make me a good person? A bad person? No. In addition to me not believing in "good" or "bad" people, science is just science. It is as good as what is done with it. While I can not be able to tell what will be done with my discoveries in 200 years, I can see what will happen in the next five. And I can choose to not work for those who will clearly abuse science for the sake of profit and power.

In closing, I am reminded of Darwin and his theory of natural selection and evolution. While a clearly complex person who has held both despicable racial views, he also created the most widely accepted theory of science in the modern day. The knowledge of evolution has been used to create medicine, and abused to justify eugenics. Can we blame or credit Darwin for this? I say no, the knowledge gained is only as good as it is used, and those who use it must be those who carry the responsibility of their actions. Can Darwin be blamed for the capitalist justification of "Social Darwinism?" Even without Kropotkin's takedown of it in "Mutual Aid", even if social Darwinism became a mainstream view, the responsibility remains only with the fascists who use it. Those who discovered the knowledge nessesary to formulate this argument had nothing to do with how it is used. We can not blame scientists for their discoveries when it is not them who abused them. We can not credit scientists with praise for their discoveries when it wasn't them who used them for good. Darwin did not invent modern eugenics, he did not invent modern medicine. Darwin is not good because of his discoveries, he is not bad because of them either. He is just Darwin.

I hope that, even if my discoveries are abused, that I will still just be me. I have given up on the idea of scientists as a universally good career, as people selfless and honorable. We are just people. Knowledge is just knowledge. It is how we use it that must be judged, and how we justify it that must be analyzed.

I hope this did not come off too verbose and long. In many ways this is me trying to come to terms with the fact my career is not the noble pursuit that I envisioned as a bright-eyed undergrad. I still think science is a worthwhile pursuit and worthy of public support and funding. However, I will no longer excuse the actions of those who ignore their responsibilities in their creations.

[alfgifu]

Fic analysis 39. Rough handling

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/51809101/chapters/130984120

Word count: 7,416

Chapters: 3

First posted: 24th November 2023

Last chapter up: 26th November 2023

Summary: 

Handling would certainly be needed this evening. I could feel the slight tug on the rope at my wrist as I pulled Kip along. His easy ability to keep pace with me made this less than satisfying as an outlet for my – frustration, call it frustration. (Better not to invoke fear, or fury, or any of the wilder emotions that shook and swirled beneath the parts of myself I deemed appropriate for you to acknowledge.) He had endangered himself. Deliberately. (I had no words to express my outraged panic on his behalf.)

Kip knew he was in trouble, of course.

How and why this came about

This was another fic that started as a chat, turned into a livefic for a few friends, and then sprouted out into a doc and AO3 publication of its own.

In this case the line of thought was around the way that Kip would be able to get involved in politics in his position as the emperor’s concubine, and the difference his role would make to the ways he could exercise influence. Accepting a risk to his life, as he does in canon, would be far more visible to his Radiancy and most definitely forbidden.

The other thought that went into this fic was that his Radiancy would struggle to distinguish between his own ‘unacceptable’ desires (for sensation, for multiple partners, to be absorbed into a crowd and no longer set apart, to not be in charge) and Kip’s (Kip would be largely uninterested in sex if it were not now his core competency and most valued asset). His Radiancy is also unable to draw boundaries between real and play punishment. Having slid so far across his own moral event horizon he is, as the tags of another fic say, bad at boundaries.

What worked and what didn’t

One recurring theme of evil!household is that Kip is, for the emperor, an exception to all his usual rules. On some level he sees Kip as an extension of himself and - in most of the fics, through most of the AU - nobody calls him on it. I’m pleased with the quiet moment in this fic where his Radiancy is careful to listen to and respect Ludvic’s preferences at the same time as he is ignoring and overriding Kip’s, which really crystallises the concept.

I’m also pleased with the depiction of sex, with the way the narration loses focus as Kip is losing focus, and with the continuing stark contrast in perspectives between Kip and his Radiancy and those around them.

What I learned from writing it

This fic (and evil!household in general) definitely improved my ability to write erotica. Mostly in a depraved direction, but when I came back to softer sex scenes in future works I think you can see the improvement there too.

I was also getting better at tagging and naming fics, and really enjoying working through the crunchy emotional and moral dynamics that the scenarios threw up, as well as their impact on those involved. Cognitive dissonance fascinates me and so do bad choices and messed-up power dynamics - we all encounter these things and engage in them in our own lives, and this sort of story lets me as an author push that into an extreme that reveals so much about human nature.

One thing I didn’t think much about at the time but have realised through this exercise is how rapidly I dropped all the early e!household fics. A chapter a day between 18th and 26th November 2023 to get this far - I had a backlog, because I hadn’t wanted to post any of them while still uploading Cross your heart. At the time I didn’t think much of it… I had been posting something almost every day for months, and just kept going with whatever was next in the queue. But on reflection it was hardly fair, in contrast to the level of care I took around floating CYH, that I just pinged out this whole raft of content in a separate dubcon-to-noncon AU immediately following that without at least taking a slight break.

Now that I’m writing less and looking over the range of things I have written and posted, I feel like I’m seeing more of the dynamics around how posting impacts on the way people see and interact with the fic. None of this is terrible, but it does make me want to be more intentional about what I’m doing going forward.

[nateoldrin]

i will likely be having major surgery on my 30th birthday next month and i don't know if i'll survive it, and i wanted to leave this message for anyone younger (or my age or older!) who struggles with this. if you suspect that you have PTSD or C-PTSD from medical treatment, please read below. if you don't suspect this but have told someone they're not valid for that, read below.

ok and encouraged to reblog.

i wanted to use this vent drawing for this for extra impact, as this is one of numerous (hundreds) of vent pieces i have pertaining to this issue. tw for types of trauma, abuse and medical trauma.

PTSD, and likewise C-PTSD (and DID, though that is not the topic today as interlinked as they are for me) can be caused by an unintended trauma too. people think that all trauma has to happen because harm befell you on purpose or due to a gruesome accident - sexual assault, domestic abuse, repeated beatings, car accident, war, and so on. PTSD usually comes about from a single event (though not always!), while C-PTSD, or Complex PTSD, "by contrast, is more likely to occur when a person experiences multiple or ongoing traumas or when a single trauma lasts for a long time and leads to feelings of captivity."

the examples most often used are to do with purposeful harm, such as abuse or repeated assault, but did you know that doesn't have to always be the case?

PTSD, and C-PTSD, can be developed from prolonged FEELING of being trapped or harmed regardless of the intent of the people who are inflicting the harm, ie

prolonged medical treatment at a young age.

this is a complicated topic, but to put is in very simple ways: a baby doesn't know that it's being cut into (surgeries), harmed (pain), taken away from its parents (observation, life risk, etc) and so on for its own good. a newborn can't tell. you can't explain that to a baby's brain. so to a small brain, this is all perceived as intended and severe harm akin to sexual assault. i have a similar type of response to certain stimuli as people who have trauma that comes from SA. i have been told, numerous times, that my trauma doesn't count because:

1. i don't remember it; my flashbacks are emotional and consist of deep breakdowns with total loss of cognition but no memory of what's harming me so sometimes i can have a sense of doom, or have a flashback without knowing what's going on

2. it wasn't caused by intended harm (such as SA)

i have even thought in the past that i was sexually assaulted due to how similarly i react to SA and medical treatment (i have been groomed and assaulted as well, though not as a baby, so my trauma doesn't stem from there). after years of therapy, my doctor told me that it's because to a child, especially one who can't yet understand complex situations, such as a newborn or baby, an invasion of the body's boundaries and the bodily autonomy is invaded horrifically in both a surgery and a SA, so my body just reacts to it as it is: my bodily autonomy was invaded, i was harmed, i was horrifically "abused", i was never "safe" and my parents "didn't save me". whether those concepts are rooted in reality doesn't ultimately matter, because that's what my brain THINKS. it's a trauma so deep, it can't be uprooted with remembering, understanding, forgiving, etc.

it's a very complex healing process because speaking strictly logically, i have no one to be mad at, no one to blame, and no memories to process - all of my trauma is stored in my body, in my subconscious, in my muscles, in my bones, in my fractured mind. i developed psychosis due to this. people were trying to help me, and though i know that now, my child self never did. it's not something i can go back to explain to him.

when i first started therapy at 18, i didn't even believe my therapist that i was traumatized by my numerous medical treatments. i don't remember this, but allegedly i even got enraged the first few times she suggested it. i have since accepted it and tried to work on it in numerous ways. i'm also not comfortable disclosing what my exact medical condition/medical situation is, but i will say that when you have a chronic health condition, having C-PTSD by it is horrific, because you can never really "escape". i will never be free. if i no longer seek medical treatment for my disability/problem, my condition is terminal, but if i keep seeking treatment then i get re-traumatized each and every time i have to get checked up (or hospitalized). additionally, this has made me mentally incapable of really being independent - i also suffer from other things that this has simply made worse.

i can't really heal because i don't have the time, and growing up i was never given the tools or ability to be angry at my circumstances ("be grateful" "your life was saved" "this was a miracle" "good people helped us" "your surgeon was a genius") so it built up. i could not healthily express anger until my early 20s.

so, if you think that you may have PTSD/C-PTSD from prolonged medical treatment since a young age (in my case, literally since the day i was born until now - 30 years), try and talk about it with a therapist if you can, and know you aren't fake.

trauma doesn't have to be caused by purposeful harm to be trauma.

stay strong. i don't know if there is light at the end of the tunnel for us, but don't give up hope, and know you are real.

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TMF(Dromies) X Genshin Impact

This is up to what you may have been waiting for, or not.

And yes, I wanted to say something, in case anyone has questions, don't worry:

Firstly - This is just a fan work, so 50/50 there is a headcanon to make it easier to understand the character (without this I could not give the Visions with elements)

Secondly - If you don't like something, it's okay! Not everyone needs to like what I draw, and if you have your own vision on this topic, write your own post or art post. People will also be interested in why you think that way. ❤️

Third - I may be wrong, especially in understanding Genshin Impact(because I stopped playing TmT), but there are basic things that explain "why this character has such an element." If you are from TMF and Genshin Impact, I apologize if I made a mistake somewhere. Everyone makes mistakes.

Sorry about that, just so you know if you weren't too worried or upset, okay? Everything is fine, thank you for your understanding ❤️

So, here is the composition itself 👀

I'm not a fashion designer, so I was looking at something like before, as I see it in my head, so, sorry about that, hehehe

And now, let's go to the description of why these elements:

Let's start with Henry:

Why Dendro and Pyro?

These are the two elements that came to mind because Henry also reminded me of Bennett:

“No matter how many times he falls, he still gets up and moves on.”

It’s like about Henry: “No matter how many times Lia rejected Henry, he will still stay."

Ahem... Well, because Pyro - as far as I know and studied, means aspiration, passion in one’s goal or favorite activity. And considering that Henry has a bright personality, it suits him.

But Dendro, I just found that this is “cognition” or “stretches to study”, and for some reason it suits Henry too ( And yes, because Henry has a green palette, and with Dendro, he could raise an army of Lettuces to make his Lettuce kingdom, where he is the Lettuce king >:D) Ahem...

Now to Drew:

Why Electro and Cryo?

Firstly - because of the color combination.

But secondly - Electro, when you adhere to your conservatives\your own views or when they are confused in yourself... Honestly, I'll watch it again. He reminded me of Ei Raiden, for Drew essentially remained in his opinion about the Music Club, and found it difficult to change.

But Krio reveals his coldness, hehehe. And he reminds me of Eula, (and the fighting style suits him🤔), but still, Cryo would suit Jake, because he was at that moment that he could not understand who he was in the end. What is more valuable to him? So about Jake - this is Cryo; even if he likes music, he is not as passionate about it as others (for example, Xinyan).

Liam:

Why Hydro, Geo, Pyro (and possibly Cryo)

Hydro - from what I've learned, these are people who want to be better at what they do, and they're good at what they do. And they... "Calm"? Although it also said that they were the leader in the group, this is what I found out. And I thought Liam was the right fit. Because he is such a confident character who knows what he is bad and good at, and there are no problems with that. (at least for some reason I remember that he was reserved/calm, and not bright and emotional like Henry, heheh. Fire and Water) And he reminds me of Tartaglia, yea.

Geo - I want to understand how they differ from Electro, because it’s also about “they stick to their convictions.”, but rather how to achieve this? It’s like, it seems necessary, and you go and do something for it? That is, when you have a goal - and you go towards it. And for some reason, on reflection, this also suits Liam, that he fulfills his goals (I wonder what goals, hehehe. Stacey's mom? Ahem, just kidding)

But Cryo is with Liam’s inner experiences, and he reminded me of Kaeya in character (Although, if Liam was Pyro, then it’s Cryo and Pyro. Liam and Drew, hehehe, there were even dialogues about this.)

And me:

Why , Electro, Geo, and Pyro?

Well, so far the test tells me that I'm Pyro, hehehe. But yes, my passion is what I almost burn with - drawing, music, creativity.

But here are the last two, because of this:

Heheheh, this is when I didn’t know much about the elements, that is, how they are obtained. I like Electro, Pyro and Geo. Electro - Yae Miko, current, lightning. Pyro is fire itself, although in Avatar you can even make lightning out of fire, hehehe. And I have a view of the world - which I adhere to like a stubborn sheep, hehe

[dsenvs3000w24]

How Nature Inspires Me

I think that the coolest thing about nature is that it improves our mental health and ability. Spending time in nature can improve memory, attention, concentration, impulse inhibition, and mood (Bratman et al., 2012). In children and teenagers specifically, nature can improve self-esteem, stress, resilience, depression, and quality of life too (Tillmann et al., 2018). I find that this idea of nature improving mental health translates really frequently to my own life. Any time I am outside, especially when the weather is nice, I almost instantly feel way better and more energized. I have recently started taking a bit of a longer route on my way to the bus stop in the morning because I get to walk through the park along a river instead of next to a busy street and plaza. I find that just this small amount of time in nature at the start of my day has an overwhelmingly positive effect on my mood and motivation for the rest of the day. I think it is incredibly cool that a 5-minute walk through a park once a day, as part of my normal commute, can have such positive effects for me.

One of my favourite aspects of how nature can boost my mental health is by providing me with a sense of inspiration. Whenever I feel like I am out of ideas for creating art or music, I look for the first opportunity I have to get outside and go for a walk through a local trail. During the spring, I love getting excited over seeing all the leaves starting to emerge, and the first signs of green grass or warmer weather. The spring tends to instil me with a sense of anticipation that makes me feel excited for the upcoming summer and inspires me to start thinking of what types of music I want to write once the semester ends, or what sorts of art I want to draw once it gets warm enough to sit and draw outside. Once the summer and warm weather hits, I generally spend the most amount of time out in nature. Everything in the summer seems so vibrant and alive, and it encourages me to go for long walks or sit in the sun and enjoy the weather and the sense of wellbeing I feel from nature in the summer. This feeling inspires me to want to create as much as I can and fills me with the energy to do that. I find that the summer is generally my most creatively productive time, and most of that is directly fueled by having the opportunity to be in and appreciate nature.

A tree frog enjoying the vibrancy of summer with me.

Once autumn starts, I generally begin slowing down, but I usually get more of a sense of urgency from seeing the weather start to change and the natural landscape start to morph into winter. I still love heading outside during autumn because the new colours of the trees, the abundance of cool mushrooms to find, and the general feeling of nature are really cozy and calming, despite the urgent feeling of constantly needing to be outdoors. Autumn tends to inspire some of my weirder but more relaxed music, and some of my coolest nature-inspired art. While I don’t get outside as much in the winter, I find that when I do, I always feel really fulfilled afterwards and my motivation for the rest of the week is significantly improved. The cold and darkness of winter can be brightened by the stark white snow and incredible views of winter hikes, and the positive feelings imbued by nature can shine even when the sun is barely out.

Works Cited

Bratman, G. N., Hamilton, J. P., & Daily, G. C. (2012). The impacts of nature experience on human cognitive function and mental health. Annals of the New York Academy of Sciences, 1249(1), 118-136.

Cox, D. T., Shanahan, D. F., Hudson, H. L., Plummer, K. E., Siriwardena, G. M., Fuller, R. A., ... & Gaston, K. J. (2017). Doses of neighborhood nature: the benefits for mental health of living with nature. AIBS Bulletin, 67(2), 147-155.

Tillmann, S., Tobin, D., Avison, W., & Gilliland, J. (2018). Mental health benefits of interactions with nature in children and teenagers: A systematic review. J Epidemiol Community Health, 72(10), 958-966.

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Child development through Arts

My Little Artist’s first step to Arts and Crafts

Global Innovation in Arts and Education Practices contributes to child development through creativity, critical thinking, and problem-solving or a Holistic approach. In this Project, we will discuss how Global Innovations and Art practices impact Children Development.

Child development is a vital aspect of growth and this process run from birth to adulthood which is physical, Emotional. cognitive social and behavioural aspects are included.

Every subject plays its role and the mental development of a child. Similarly, Art casts its own spell and positivity on children’s lives in different ways. It creates an opportunity for children to express their feelings and thoughts. I’ve realised that making arts is more valuable rather than the artwork made special when we work together. When we do artwork together, we share our ideas and creativity, and it helps children to be vocal and open about things they think of. It also becomes their masterpiece which can be their memories. Everyone learns from experiences and without experience, we can’t do good artwork.

According to educational theorist David Kolb, experiential learning is a process through which knowledge is created and acquired through concrete experiences, reflective observation, abstract conceptualization, and active experimentation (Kolb, 1984).

When children get busy in with their experiences, they do better in creating, exploring and experimenting by using different materials and creativity.

Through Artistic experiences children learn from their surroundings they explore and express their ideas and perceptions through different art forms and this active construction of meaning enhances their cognitive development. For instance, they use different things which can act as learning mediums, such as clay, paper pulp, textile materials, wood, metal, leather, etc. Children can express themselves creatively and develop their cognitive skills. Engaging in Artistic activities produce a plethora of benefits including cherishing activities which foster creativity, enhance cognitive abilities promoting emotional well-being.

As an art teacher in primary school, I’ve observed children’s way of learning through arts by playing with colors, materials, and shapes, and making crafts is not fun but also great learning through their experiences.

My interest in this subject is to introduce my daughter to different Art forms such as drawing, painting,  printing, recycling, etc I want to encourage her to explore and experiment with different materials. She is creative and has artistic abilities. Through these activities, I’ve given the freedom to Sarah to explore her own ideas. Make choices and express herself as a creative person.

I’m working with my daughter and for me to spend time together sharing her creativity and ideas having conversations, and making her life’s memories through artwork was really important for me.

Background:

Art is a medium of communication and a way of expression. Every individual is built differently in terms of their personality. Children's development is a vital part of growth, it involves physical, social, and emotional aspects from birth to adulthood including every experience of life (Elizabeth, 2011).

Child development is a vital aspect of growth and this process run from birth to adulthood which are physical, emotional, cognitive social, and behavioral aspects. Art can help children to overcome these aspects of life.

[atreef]

The AI Revolution | AI A New Era for Mental Health is an Enhancement

Picture this; You're sitting at your desk, while your tasks are piling up, and procrastination is your uninvited guest. Then, you remember, you have a secret weapon: an artificial intelligence called ChatGPT. Get ready, because today, we're diving deep into six transformative ways that your AI ally, can positively impact your mental health. From pushing back against procrastination to providing coping strategies.

This journey isn't about replacing professional help, but exploring how AI can extend a helping hand.

Just imagine, you're in the middle of a hectic day, feeling mentally exhausted and foggy. The first way artificial intelligence comes to your aid is through cognitive decluttering. In his groundbreaking research, cognitive psychologist George Miller, discovered the concept of "chunking", which means breaking down complex information into bite-sized pieces. Drawing from Miller's findings, ChatGPT helps you declutter your thoughts, making your mental processes more efficient and improving your overall focus.

Now picture those moments when you're overwhelmed with emotions and don't have an outlet to express them. This is where ChatGPT steps in as a non-judgmental listener. Carl Rogers, a pioneer of person-centered therapy, emphasized the therapeutic effect of empathy. In keeping with this, Chat-GPT offers an understanding, bias-free platform for you to unload your thoughts and feelings, thereby reducing your anxiety and stress levels.

And I'm frightened because I kind of feel that they're. Having to be sure it isn't cancer, and that really frightens me terribly...

I think it's when I let that thought come to me,

"Well, maybe it is, and what it it is...?"

-that's when I felt so dreadfully alone.

it is really something like that. Then you just feel so alone.

Imagine you've got a big dream, a goal that seems too far away. Guided by Edwin Locke's Goal-Setting Theory, which emphasizes the motivational role of high goals and feedback, Chat-GPT helps you break down those big dreams into manageable steps. Like a diligent digital companion, it keeps you accountable, focused, and on track toward reaching your milestones.

Think about those tasks you've been putting off, falling into the trap of procrastination. Joseph Ferrari's research reveals that structured environments significantly reduce procrastination. Here, AI shines as a task manager, creating an organized environment that curbs your inclination to postpone tasks.

And then there's the aspiration to learn, to grow. In her research, Stanford psychologist Carol Dweck highlighted the concept of a "growth mindset," a belief that abilities can be developed. With its expansive knowledge base, Chat-GPT is your perfect companion for this continuous learning journey. Whether it's learning a new language or understanding quantum physics, AI is always ready to guide you.

Finally, when it comes to making choices, we often fall prey to cognitive biases. Nobel Laureate in Economics, Daniel Kahneman, emphasizes the pitfalls of these biases in decision-making.

We need that positive illusion in order to achieve something.

The balance between illusion and realism and how much optimism you want and how much realism you want. That is a major issue. But to be aware of the error. That, I think, is unquestionably worthwhile.

As an AI, Chat-GPT can provide an unbiased perspective, helping you make more informed and rational decisions.

Chat-GPT stands as a transformative AI tool, reshaping how we navigate our mental well-being, all backed by solid research and a deep understanding of human psychology. So, get ready to embrace this digital revolution and take a significant step towards better mental health with artificial intelligence!

We need more of an understanding of human nature because the only real danger that exists is man himself. He is the great danger. And we are pitifully unaware of it. We know nothing of man. Far too little. This should be studied because we are the origin of all coming evil.

TRUST, JOIN, BECOME ONE

[snowberry-crostata]

Double Speak OC Tag Game

@late-nite-scholar tagged me in this, thank you! I’m going to do the two Skyrim OC’s that I’m actively writing stories for, Gytha (Dragonborn) and Maja (Thieves Guild).

I have no idea who has or hasn't been tagged already, so feel free to jump in!

1. What do they say they want? (i.e., what are the desires they put out into the world and have no trouble admitting)

Gytha - To be left alone! Forget all this prophecy and hero-worship. When all this is over she wants to build a cabin out in the woods of Falkreath and wait until people can't remember what the Dragonborn looks like anymore.

Maja - To be rich! Maja is fundamentally selfish- she has to be, it's how she's survived. She wants to have enough money that she'll never have to worry about where her next meal comes from or where she'll lay her head at night.

2. What do they think they want? (i.e., what are the desires they keep hidden and only admit to their closest loved ones)

Gytha - A friend (or more than one). She’s spent the couple of years mostly on her own after a very transient childhood, and the one person who was a constant in her life has passed away. She’s terribly lonely, so making connections with people here in Skyrim is important to her. She’s worried that people seeing her as The Dragonborn will interfere with her ability to build genuine relationships, which is one reason she keeps her identity on the down-low.

Maja - Hmm, we haven't gotten to this part of the story yet, but one thing Maja really doesn't want is for her father to be happy, even if he has worked to improve himself. She's definitely of the "bad things happen to bad people" mindset (even though she's a thief - there's a little cognitive dissonance going on there), and it irks her that he's finding peace and stability in his life when she doesn't have those things in hers.

3. What do they actually want? (i.e., what is something they subconsciously need, but either do not realize or cannot admit it)

Gytha - To make a difference. She knows that the power of the dragonblood comes with a great deal of respect and political clout, but she’s very reluctant to draw on that. One of the main conflicts throughout Gytha’s arc is her coming to terms with the idea that what she thought she wanted out of her life and the impact she could have on the world are two very different trajectories.

Maja - What she's really seeking is stability and familial connection, though she currently has no way to articulate that.

[scrutinyoftheself]

Self-Objectification and Disordered Eating: Food for Thought from a Trans Perspective

            In the seventh grade, back when I was a girl, my mother asked if I wanted anything specific from the grocery store. I asked for green tea, for the first time in my entire life. “It looks like it would be good,” I pressed, and hoped my claim would be validated by my enjoyment of black tea. She looked at me with narrowed eyes.

           I wanted green tea because I saw a post on Tumblr that said it would reduce bloating, especially if paired with fasting. Posting a reflection about this part of my life on the same website that held my greatest sickness is a rewarding, full-circle moment. I drank the green tea and later “lived” with anorexia for five years. It ate more of my brain than I ate meals. Shortly after recovering, I came out as transgender and nonbinary.

           Disordered eating plagues many, and it does not creep into your life from the shadows. Oftentimes, it stems from self-objectification. The term itself is fairly self-explanatory: individuals, especially women, are inclined to perceive themselves as not people, but objects. Those who engage in self-objectification frequently witness what are referred to as “sexually objectifying experiences” by Schaefer and Thompson in their 2017 metanalysis, “Self-objectification and disordered eating.” Metanalyses synthesize the findings of numerous studies on a particular topic to draw new conclusions and identity potential future research opportunities.

Objectifying experiences identified in the article include catcalling, inappropriate comments, and consuming media that “highlight the feminine form as an object of pleasure,” (Schaefer and Thompson, 2017). The idea that sexually objectifying experiences, and their societal normalcy, lead to scrutiny of the self and later disordered eating is named objectification theory.

           The aforementioned meta-analysis further breaks down self-objectification, drawing attention to self-surveillance. This term refers to the “cognitive and behavioral manifestation” of self-objectification, where a person turns their eyes onto themselves in increased self-consciousness, driven by objectifying messages (Schaefer and Thompson, 2017). This consequence of self-objectification ran my eating disorder, and I am not alone. After analyzing 53 cross-sectional studies, Schaefer and Thompson found that self-surveillance was more predictive of disordered eating than merely perceiving oneself in an objectifying way. This ties in to a more general, but reaffirming finding that there is significant relationship between self-objectification and disordered eating.

           Reading this metanalysis on the other side of the disordered eating world, and now as a nonbinary trans person, made it evident that the self-objectifying and self-surveilling girl I once was, and presumed dead, is still living— just focusing on other things. Her eyes, once burning a hole between my legs begging for a thigh gap, now tries to shave down my hips. Her hands no longer reach for my collarbones, instead my chest. Do my glasses make me look feminine? Will this man across the street see me as something to desire, or one of the bros? If I lost weight, would I look more androgynous?

           I think that if gender dysphoria and self-objectification met, they would be friends. They both cannot stop imagining how I look through the eyes of others. They both want more from me, and always remain unsatisfied. There is always something to fix, but no manual on how to fix it. Perhaps gender dysphoria is self-objectification in a trench coat. We simply do not know, yet.

           Transgender and nonbinary people deserve to learn more about how self-objectification impacts them. This metanalysis only assessed the impacts of objectification theory from a binary perspective: their sample included studies with “all males, all females, or both genders,” (Schaefer and Thompson, 2017). You and I understand that both doesn’t cut it. However, there is hope. Objectification theory initially only focused on women and was later expanded to include men. This shows that the theory can evolve as the need presents itself.

The need is here once again. A review compiled by the Trevor Project, a nonprofit organization which attempts to prevent suicide in queer youth, synthesized research that found trans and nonbinary youth (assigned female at birth) had the highest rates of eating disorder diagnosis compared to other young people (The Trevor Project, 2022). Specifically, these results were compared to cisgender girls and boys as well as trans-nonbinary youth assigned male at birth. This raises an alarm: the allegedly most impacted population is not receiving the attention it needs in academia. Most published studies are binary and only assess biological sex, which ignores an entire population of people plagued by disordered eating. Researching and applying objectification theory to transgender and nonbinary people, as well as investigating the possible role of gender dysphoria, could save lives. I know better understanding myself saved mine.

References 

Eating disorders among LGBTQ youth. The Trevor Project. (2022, February 22). Retrieved March 24, 2023, from https://www.thetrevorproject.org/research-briefs/eating-disorders-among-lgbtq-youth-feb-2022/

Schaefer, L. M., & Thompson, J. K. (2018). Self-objectification and disordered eating: A meta-analysis. International Journal of Eating Disorders, 51(6), 483–502. https://doi.org/10.1002/eat.22854

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FMP - contextual research / psychology of escapism 

In order to get a better understanding of my subject I did some more general research on the psychology of escapism. Anything that draws our attention away from reality can be considered a form of escapism. This can include creating (or even looking at art), listening to music, or simply watching tv or scrolling on our phones. In some cases it can also include substance abuse, which can potentially become dangerous. Escapism can have a productive aspect which relates to imagination and creativity but it can also have a darker aspect that relates to procrastination, anxiety and avoidance. For many people creative escapism can work as a medium to reduce their stress by the process of creating but it can also have a negative impact on others when it gets to the point t of detaching them from reality. When escapism relates to creativity and creating art though, it can be very beneficial for the individual because through the creative process one gets to make decisions and this helps improve the cognitive function of the brain, when it comes to learning from mistakes, problem solving and focusing.

I would place my personal experience on the first kind (creative escapism) because it never had an impact in my life and because it helped me deal with situations I was facing. This is the kind of escapism I want to promote through the outcomes from my project. I want to convey a message that through an imaginary character one can find strength and solace within themselves.

links:

https://www.eou.edu/voice/2022/02/28/escape-your-stress-through-art/

https://practicebusiness.co.uk/escapism-is-it-good-for-your-mental-health

https://terraskills.com/the-psychology-of-escapism-a-coping-technique-or-a-sinking-ship/

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Explanation Why You Should Date A Latina Lifetime Mate

Explanation Why You Should Date A Latina Lifetime Mate

Dating a Latina will provide you with that feeling of being in a telenovela. Unfortunately this is amongst the most frequent complaints we get from our readers, where they really feel they do not seem to be a precedence for his or her boyfriend or husband. They always appear to have some excuse as to why they cannot spend some quality time with you like they used to.

Latinas have to be taught “balance and discipline? ” Keep your bizarre fetishes and sexual colonialism to your self please. I really feel sorry for any Latina who would date you- you clearly don’t even see them as full human beings. If you deal with your Latina lady, she’s going to make certain that nobody can care for you want she does. She will love you immensely, passionately, and actively.

Latina Women Must Really Feel Needed, In Order That They Subconsciously Let A Man Really Feel Needed

I understood why he pronounced my name like he did. I let him get away with saying everyone;s names with an Italian accent. Sounds like you’re Woke and I can let you know this, Latinas don’t like Soy Boys as a end result of those pretend males can’t handle an actual woman so return to your feminists. Honestly before I learn your reply I thought to myself, they weren’t actually stereotypes a lot as the reality. This is a gross article that reduces Latina ladies and folks to stereotypes.

I looked at him and asked him why he never informed me he may communicate Spanish. He told me he couldn’t however he spoke Italian, so he could work out Spanish. I figured out where the funny words came from, he was attempting to make Spanish words out of Italian words.

Speak partial or fluent Spanish to indicate off your dedication to her culture and family. Show your family love and compassion no matter their flaws. Always maintain her guessing with different acts of love to keep that particular spark brighter than ever. Latinas need to see you wanting fresh, confident, and sexy! Shower with cleaning soap, trim your beard, brush your enamel, work out day by day, and wear clear clothes.

That’s a no go… por lo menos en la mayoría de las familias . Things are progressively altering, however generally, that’s how they work. It’s not as scary because it may appear, though!

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Show her your gentle aspect with creativity and love. With one of the best meal of her life and show her you’re a worthy cooking companion. What if you should fend off your enemies in the street?

Central and Southern American immigrants in the United States get used to speaking English whereas their native language is both Spanish or Portuguese. Although their English will not be good and they converse it with accents, that has a profound impact on their brain. Moreover, it develops cognitive abilities and may stop dementia at old age.

On That Note, Folks Will Assume She’s Not Educated Or Expert

So, on this article I’m actually going to disclose eight secrets and techniques in your relationship with that Mexican sweetie to be simply excellent. Latinas are hopeless romantics who want a prince charming to be more than just handsome. Show your love via acts of kindness such as hidden notes or surprise travel plans. Write her a track from pure inspiration with any musical instrument.

Nevertheless, Latinas don't give a care about how individuals look down on them. They wouldn't want to be the rest even when it was potential. They take so much ardour and pride in who they are.

Also, if you want to know more about Latinas family, pals, and group then you should hang around with them during Hispanic holidays. Somehow, these holidays give Latinas the proper excuse to celebration. I think there are a lot of factors that influence as people, and I don’t suppose it’s honest to swipe everybody underneath an umbrella. How/why/if that is true for many Latinas, I wouldn’t know, but this has been true with most that I’ve met. Latinas enterprise have grown very well just lately. Their opening companies price is nearly six occasions higher than any other group.

I don’t know what that other man is speaking about but one factor you should know is kind of all Latina ladies won’t put up with a cheater. Latinos are very passionate… significantly the ladies. This can lead to a tradition of paradox extremes– a Latina ladies is both ridiculously fit, or struggling with obesity. They need to talk (in case you couldn’t inform with all my writing and expressing myself by way of trend and dance HAHA). Anyways, this need empowers our relationships. Correlated to how hard we love and to our confidence, Latina women like to indicate the world how fantastic you might be.

Once someone turns into pals with a Latina, their lives will not be the same anymore. They are by no means gonna remorse a factor to have ever recognized a Latina in their whole lives. We had to stop at my home to pick up something before we went to a convention and a dinner. While he was ready for me, my mom supplied him one thing to eat. I cringed, but as a substitute, out of his mouth coame this lilting, charming reply with a zeta and a few humorous words. Mama understood and brought him somewhat bit and a cup of espresso.

Latinas Get To Visit Different Countries All The Time

Latin’s love to absorb your facial response, and if you break down crying every meal, your Latina lady wouldn’t be too impressed. Powerful – Latina Power 👊🏽👊🏼👊🏿👊🏻👊🏾 from the boardroom, classroom to the home, Latinas are ensuring their voices are heard. Latinas are having a serious breakthrough and we refuse to call it a second. Having influence over huge latin american dating app purchase decisions at residence to influencing media, policies and developments, Latinas have major poder and it is being noticed. There are lots Latinas women that Latinas are proud of. They present the others that everyone has the potential to alter the world.

Somehow, it in all probability has ready them to confront unhealthy instances with a lesser sense of unreliability. Don't matter how hard life is, they face it wholeheartedly. Latinas make pals so much simpler shows in the truth that Latinas are the world's most pleasant people. They usually have a tendency to befriend individuals outside of Latin ethnicity than different teams. It isn't exhausting for Latinas to get together with new folks.

What if she breaks her ankle within the mountains and must be carried? What if she’s impressed by another man who works out in the gym? Those are 18 Reasons Why You Should Date a Latina you want to know. Get your self a Latina and you can see your life becomes more price dwelling for.