#and ill wake up at 6 am and be ready for the day and be fine

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

[maaaxx]

I have this ten page paper due in like a week on greek art or something like that and this is both really nice and really awful because on one hand one of my current wips (not fandom related) is heavily inspired by greek things, and on the other hand I dont feel like writing a ten page paper.

[judysxnd]

imagine getting tickets for the renaissance tour with pedro and sarah and then reader (also an actress) finds out their pregnant, but of course that not stoping them. and reader went to the concert like 6 months pregnant and then news are reporting it, fan freaking out

sorry if that was a lot

(that wasn’t a lot don’t worry)

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The tickets for the Renaissance tour dropped and you didn't even hesitate a second to buy them with Pedro. You were not going to miss that, nothing would make you miss going to see Beyoncé, your idol, on tour. If you didn't have a career you would have travelled to the integrity of the tour, but well, you couldn't. But one concert is good enough!

But something happened. Something that could change your future. Two months after buying your tickets for the concert, you fell ill. You got sick for a week. You kept waking up early with nausea, you kept throwing up. You were also very tired, you spent the afternoon on the couch napping. After three days of struggling, you decided to go to the doctor to get checked out.

After the appointment and the blood test, the results came back. You were pregnant. You've been with Pedro for 3 years now so it wasn't too soon on the relationship, but you didn't know if Pedro was ready, well, you didn't even know if you were ready at all. You didn't even wait at the end of the day to tell him. You couldn't handle this on your own, so you drove to his set and waited for him to take a break. Once the news were dropped, Pedro was actually happy about it. He never thought he would ever be a father, and this was the opportunity he was apparently waiting for. So you decided to keep the baby.

But as the months passed by, you realised that you were going to be deeply pregnant once the renaissance concert would arrive. You debated for days, even fought with Pedro because he didn't want you to come, to risk anything while you definitely wanted to go and risk everything. This was your dream, and it would, for sure, be a lot harder to go to a concert once the baby would be born.

So there you were, six months pregnant, walking in the stadium, holding hands with Pedro, Sarah and her friends behind you. Thank god you had a good spot in the front so that you could have some space. And it was the best night of your life. You never regretted once. Being pregnant didn't stop you from having fun. Your legs and back were hurting, but it wasn't that bad, it didn't bother you.

You were able to sing very loud, to dance a little, you laughed with your friends and boyfriend, you took some pictures and videos. But, being a famous actress, nothing stays unseen. Of course, people, fans noticed you were there. But they didn't only notice you, they noticed the huge bump you had. And they had a strong opinion about it. Most of the people were shocked that you were six months pregnant and went through hours of very loud music, standing and singing. It wasn't "healthy" for the baby.

You didn't think much of it when you saw that you were trending on socials because of that, until you were peacefully watching the news and saw your face appear on the screen. There was a polemic because you were six months pregnant and you went to a concert. You couldn't believe it. Your phone was blowing up, and your publicist was among it, trying to call you so that you could fix this mess.

That's how you found yourself making a video that you would publish on Instagram, Twitter, even TikTok in order to explain the situation. You found it very childish, Pedro thought the same thing. You weren't going to apologise, what for? But you still had to say something. It was about yourself after all.

"Hello everyone" you waved at the camera "I'm here, making this video because of something I'm not really sure I understand" you laughed awkwardly "but I think it was because I am currently six months pregnant and I went to a concert and you're not happy about it?" you pretended to think "I don't really have much to say, except that I talked about it with my doctor before, it wasn't something irrational that I just did like that." you started to explain "I made sure it was okay for the baby, and safe for me to go before actually going, I'm not crazy" you said at the camera "Also, I wasn't alone, my boyfriend was here, as well as our friends, so they took good care of me" you smiled, trying to sound serious and not sarcastic. "So, there is no need to make a polemic for this, to spread rumours and all. I am fine, the baby is great, everyone had a good time." you continued, touching your belly "I can also assure you that I will not go to an other concert, but not because you convinced me not to, but only because I will be working instead" you paused "I am pregnant, I am not sick, I can still do things" you shrugged "Anyway, thank you for worrying about me and the baby, but this is none of your business and we are well supported. Bye!" You blew a kiss at the camera of your phone before shutting it off.

Wow, what people can make you do, you thought. But you still sent the video away so that you could finally live peacefully, for a while at least, hoping the video would work. And it did work. Mostly. People apologised as they noticed they crossed a line. But of course there are still haters out there, thinking it was unforgivable. But whatever, a few less fans won't hurt. The good ones are still here supporting you.

[deleteddewewted]

What It’s Like To Date Simon “Ghost” Riley

W/N: I'm using the comics and combining them with the reboot MW2. I recommend reading them to understand some of this, there's SA, Abuse, and many more disturbing subjects. I'm also not going to romanticize abuse here, this is more of Simon lashing out due to fear and it's not excused. We're not going to pull a Colleen Hoover.

W: Child Abuse, Angst, Fluff, Hurt With Comfort, Insinuated sex, Sexual Abuse, Talks of Torture, Mental Illness, Unhealthy Relationships, Disturbed Simon Riley, Friends With Benefits, Eventual Relationship, Eventual Monogomy, Minor Soap/Ghost

He’s scared of himself.

He’s especially terrified of you.

You provide him with a comfort he’s never known outside of his mother's.

He feels like vomiting when you hold his hands in your own or make him dinner instead of letting him eat his MREs.

You don't treat him like a child but you do make him feel safe like his mother once made him feel.

You shushed the voices in his head away as you slipped your hands underneath his balaclava and brushed his hair.

You pressed your body close to his and wrapped your arms around his body so he'd feel as protected as you did.

You were an anchor to him. One he didn't want to be ripped away from.

When he wakes up sweaty and panting, he reaches for you and the knife he keeps under his pillow.

He couldn't save himself in his nightmares but he sure can keep you safe.

He could save you.

You'd kiss his knuckles, because kissing his neck set him on edge, and mumble about how lovely he is.

"You're human Simon, it doesn't matter how damaged you think you are, I still love you just as you love me."

He'd scream at times.

At you and it hurt him when he'd snap out of it.

His words were all bitter and filled with venom but they nearly never phased you unless it was about things you've shared with him that were intimate.

"You're as shit as I am! You're shit! I'm shit! I hate you! You make me feel weak! I wish you'd die!" He was red and tense in the face. His mask was off and on the floor all while he walked out of your shared apartment to fuck off somewhere where his anger could fizzle out.

The apartment had felt cramped and your questions about his day set him off.

He felt like he was suffocating with just how domestic the space felt and how happy you looked while you prepped dinner for the two of you.

Simon met reason at a bar while 6 drinks deep.

He groaned all while paying for his drinks and heading home, piss drunk and feeling numb.

He shouldn't have felt hurt when you disappeared for the night, not when you didn't kiss him awake the next morning.

He had no right to cry while he ate the dinner you had taken the time to wrap it up with plastic and put it in the fridge for him to heat up later.

He cried all night while hugging the shirt you used for bed.

He waited for you to come back, he even called your friends to see if any of them knew where you were. By the end of the week, he had to head back to base and you didn't kiss him goodbye.

While deployed, you sent him a letter.

You didn't mention the way he hurt you nor the ugliness he bought into your life. You just wrote about how you miss his warmth and that you'll have dinner ready for him when he got back.

"So... I'm guessing you guys are a thing?" It all felt awkward, Soap had felt the tension that Ghost had carried into work after his short leave.

All Ghost had done during their deployment was turn on his phone to stare at the home screen.

Your smile was bright and your eyes soft.

You were a sight to behold. Ghost wanted you there with him.

He needed to feel you again.

"We're just fuck buddies, nothing more." The term left a sour taste in his mouth because he wanted to be more too.

Fear ate at him as he dreamt of you taking care of him. Your hand on his cock all while you whispered sweet nothings into his ear and your other hand playing with his hair.

He was compliant to your touch and all he could do was whine and moan at your gentle touch.

He wakes up with dry cum in his briefs and tears in his eyes. He misses you.

When he gets back he makes sure to grab your favorite takeout and a bottle of wine.

You look tired when you open the door. The bags under your eyes and the confusion that sets in while you look at his bare face.

"What are you doing here, Simon?" You're not mad. He wanted you to yell at him because he knows he deserves it but you instead just look at him like nothing happened.

"I wanted to fix things. I want to make this work." He can feel his eyes start to water and he hands you his gifts before getting down on his knees and holding onto your legs.

You pat his head and comfort him all while he cries and begs you to take him back.

He's a man eaten by his demons but that wasn’t a real excuse for his cruelty.

He was acting like his father and he wanted to die because of it.

"We can make this work, but only if you get professional help. Because Simon," You lower yourself to the floor and hug him. Your chest pressed against his head, his ear right on top of your heart. "I can't save you from your past. I can't be that person. Not again. Not anymore, but I will always love you."

He nods as he listens to your heartbeat. He promises to do better and he promises to look for help.

So he does.

The therapist is more helpful this time around. She listened to him and his fears of losing you.

He's a little scared though. His thoughts take him to places he wishes he couldn't go to but he has to face the music if wants to get better.

Every session is trying, his eyes dry and swollen from crying and shaking while he recounted the horrors of the past.

You stood there, arms open and a warm meal ready for him to eat every time he got back home.

"Thank you, love." He grew comfortable with kissing you.

No longer teeth on flesh with hickeys left behind but tenderly, loving.

He told you more about his life, his childhood, how much he missed his family, how much he wanted to be normal so he could maybe, someday, have one of his own with you.

"Would you want that with me?" He cried as he continued to eat his meal. He was so grateful for your care even while he choked on his own saliva.

"Oh, Simon. I told you I'll always be here for you and I intend to keep that promise." You helped him clean up.

You made sure to get him into bed dry and with warm clothes before letting him lay on top of you.

Most nights he talks to you about the things his father would do to him. The beatings, the lashings, the mental torment.

"She probably had a family. Maybe had friends looking for her. And she died in a dingy toilet thanks to my dad." His breath hitched as he felt the tears well up again. "I feel like I'm to blame for her passing."

You didn't speak back but instead provided comfort.

He fell asleep with his arms wrapped around you and his face tucked in your neck.

He was home, safe, and loved. He felt nourished, his skin finally fitting over his bones.

He felt human all while he listened to your heartbeat and felt your chest raise and fall as you slipped into slumber.

Ghost was no longer someone who had to hide all the ugly from you, Simon would make sure to set him right if it meant being able to have one more night with you.

Like this, on you, sleeping, and knowing you were his.

[justastraymoa]

ADVENTURES WITH CHEESE EXTENDED EDITION PT 6

My dream job was currently a nightmare. Several sudden changes in upper management prompted a full audit of the system and all our work. It was chaotic and messy. Add on top of that the new management all had their own ideas they wanted to implement. Different ways to make the team “work more efficiently”. Which was causing delays in all the work and unnecessary stress to all the employees.

I had worked no less than 13 hours a day for the last two weeks, even going in on the weekend to make up some work. And I wasn’t the only one. The office was never empty at this point.

I was exhausted and ready to collapse at any second. So, I finished up my current project and packed up to go home. Determined to take tomorrow off no matter what. I wasn’t going to answer any calls or texts or anything at all. I earned this day off with my own blood, sweat, and many, many tears!

When I walked into my room to find my favorite plant destroyed and the dirt from the pot all over my bedroom floor, I was ready to burst into hysterics.

Cheese was laying among the dirt without a care in the world, grooming his paws. Pieces of my precious plant leaves were scattered around him like he had shredded it then rolled around in its corpse.

I sighed and dropped my bag onto the floor. So very done with this week.

I loved my boys dearly, but ill be damned if I let them go back on this grounding! I am done with this bratty behavior from Cheese! He had never messed with my plant before, and I don’t know why he decided today of all days was a good day to break my heart.

I spent years carefully propagating that plant over and over, so it was nice and long and bushy. It took several years to get it as amazing as it had been. It was my pride and joy and I loved to spend time carefully trimming off the dead leaves and making sure it stayed green and healthy.

I even went so far as to kick Cheese out of my room and shut the door. He would run out anyways when I turned on the vacuum to clean up the mess he made, but it still made me feel a little better to let him know just how upset I was with him.

It took 30 minutes to clean up the plant corpse, and I carefully went through the remains to see if there was anything I could use to try and propagate and start the process all over again. I liked bringing a little green into my city life and I am just stubborn enough to be willing to start from scratch to get it again.

Chan came home somewhere near the end of clean up to help before engulfing me in a hug and curling up on my bed with me.

“Go to sleep. You haven’t slept at all this week, and you are exhausted.” he said lowly tucking my head under his chin and rubbing my back.

“I have things I need to get done.” But I did not move to leave his warm embrace, body automatically relaxing under the weight of his arms around me and the sound of his heartbeat and breathing under my ear.

Chan hummed making my head vibrate slightly and eardrum tickle. “It will still be there when you wake up. Sleep.”

With a deep, drawn-out sigh I gave in to his gentle demands. Let someone else take care of me for a few minutes. It felt good, and I was secretly glad that Chan came home early just to make sure I was okay.

I woke up a couple hours later, still in Chans arms as he played on his phone behind my back quietly. I could hear the others chatting and banging around in the front entry as they got in.

With a deep yawn I stretched before curling back up into Chan, not yet ready to be awake. Chan for his part left me be, running my back idly and kissing the top of my head for a few minutes while I woke up.

“You really upset your mother today, Cheese. Why are you being mean to her?” I could hear Lino near my still closed door as he most likely picked Cheese up for his first cuddles of the night. “She grounded you and everything! You have some sucking up to do.” His voice got quieter as he walked away from the door.

“You ready to get up yet? You know they are just going to come in here in a few minutes if you don’t go out.” Chan asked quietly petting my hair. I whined in response.

Chan allowed me to hide for a few minutes more before getting us both up and moving.

I think it was more likely that Cheese was screaming his dislike for the terms of his grounding. He hadn’t had any treats all day and he had been stuck in the house with no special trips or car rides to speak of. He was upset.

But the boys have been respecting my declaration of grounding as far as I was aware. Even if Lino kept giving me dirty looks when Cheese came up to him and started meowing pathetically.

I lasted for the entire day before my anger wore off and the meows and glared started melting my heart and resolve.

“Fine! He’s not grounded anymore! Go crazy!” I snapped finally. Immediately all 4 boys dived for the treat tin we had sitting on the kitchen island making me roll my eyes. They were so whipped for my cat it was crazy,

Cheese spent the rest of the night getting treat after treat and going feral.

Cheese had spent half the night zooming around the apartment keeping me up. Apparently, no one else was bothered by it though. Bin aside, no one had even mentioned it.

But it was no wonder that he was all cuddly and sleepy with Chan now. He wore himself out being hyped up on cat treats!

At least be probably burned all the extra calories those treats had.

Still Chans comment brought a smile to my lips. Cheese has saved me many times over the years. He had been there when I was sad to cuddle me and loved me to cheer me up. He had been there to make me laugh when I wanted to scream. And he was there when I was scared and alone in the big city, away from home and my parents for the first time in my life and at a complete loss at what to do.

And lastly, he brought me, Chan, Bin, Lino, and Hyune together.

A/N: Two in one night! Though I feel like this one is kinda short too so yeah. Also, I changed the order this original post was in to fit the storyline a bit better. I hope you don't mind.

Thank you for reading and interacting. Or just reading or just interacting, if that’s your thing. I hope you enjoyed this little Cheese adventure!

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[sgtmickeyslaughter]

Answer the Questions and Tag 5 Fanfic Authors

Thanks for tagging @jrooc

1. How did you get into writing fanfiction?

I’ve always been an avid reader and as a kid I wanted to be a writer so that was the start. I’ve been reading fanfic since i was in highschool, and I’ve had many different barely started fanfics started over the years but last year was the first time I was able to actually finish anything/taken it seriously. I think it just came down to college teaching me the last bit of discipline in my creative practice

2. How many fandoms have you written in?

Just Gallavich, but I’m very confident I will write destiel in my lifetime

3. How many years have you been writing fanfiction?

I published my first fic in September of last year!

4. Do you read or write more fanfiction?

it goes back and forth, when i enter a fandom i read fanfic voraciously but now i think i write a little more, its a balance between you can write the fanfic you want to read and you can read other peoples work to experience ideas you would never think of or just a different take on a familiar topic - both are good. I’m currently slowly going through and re-reading my old fics to get them ready to print and bind and its been a super fun process

5. What is one way you’ve improved as a writer?

I hope i’ve improved a lot overall lol the main thing i always want to do well is portray the environment the way i envision it bc the worlds of my fanfics are rich and beautiful in my head so i just want to get better and better at pulling people into that

6. What’s the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

Not a ton of weird research, a lot of google maps-ing to get a better understanding of the layout of Chicago and understanding how far away states/cities are from one another (i’m american, just a weird bicoastal one)

7. What’s your favorite type of comment to receive on your work?

literally any comment, all of them are amazing and i can’t believe people read what i write and actually like it ?!? beautiful and very novel

8. What’s the most fringe trope/topic you write about?

um - i guess ABO, i was originally going to publish mine all mine anonymously bc it was very cringe inducing and still kind of is but tbh when i read it back i was like- wait this is good, even if it’s weird.

psychopomp is also a weird story, the way i thought/felt about it while writing was deeply weird and all the the themes of death and decay and devotion and consummation as an allegory for love were intended to be dark and just- weird

9. What is the hardest type of story for you to write?

Emotionally introspective fics that also really study the characters are really hard and i dont know why I keep fucking writing them - after finishing the fic im writing now i have to shift to something more plot focused

its really hard for obvious reasons but i also feel like i am an extremely logic driven person with a very particular worldview and all these characters are more emotionally driven than me. so i have to work very hard to not write behaviors from my pov and my decision making but from a studied understanding of the characters - which might be a good thing idk

um also idk if it needs to be said but brevity is not my strong suit, i should probably work on that

10. What is the easiest type?

Fluff, just cuddling and pillow talk baby i love that shit, also idk if i write smut well but it def goes the quickest for me

11. Where do you do your writing? What platform? When?

Pages app on my icloud - I write after work some days, on my lunch break and on the train ride home. Every so often ill wake up early on a weekend and be in the mood to put on my noise canceling headphones and write for hours, but thats not super often

12. What is something you’ve been too nervous/intimidated to write, but would love to write one day?

uhh - we’ll see. my true crime au is def one i want to write but all my ideas for the plot are just too dark rn, so well see if i can get it to lighten up a bit

13. What made you choose your username?

tagging 5 writers: @callivich @mmmichyyy @iansw0rld @energievie @metalheadmickey

[faithhopeloveandtherapy]

The emergency 1yo placement went home to his carers yesterday. He was a delight but I’m very happy to have my child free life back for a while. The first few days of having him, I was not really feeling it, but by day four I was back in the swing of baby life and I’d figured out which groups we could go to to keep ourselves entertained. I took him swimming on Friday which was fun.

Saturday afternoon, H and I and four friends went out for bottomless brunch. We had such fun, drank far too much prosecco and cocktails. I am officially the biggest lightweight of us all, as we all drank the same number of rounds of drinks, yet everyone else was far more functional than me by the end. I came home and fell asleep on the sofa for four hours. Then I had horrible alcohol-induced vertigo a few hours later when I went to bed. And all day today I have not felt at my best and the thought of any more alcohol makes me feel ill. I had such a fun time but I’m not sure it’s really worth it to wipe out my entire weekend! Perhaps I should have just stopped a few Proseccos earlier.

Despite the bleary head, I took myself out for a 6 mile run at lunchtime. My half marathon training has officially started. I’m using a Garmin coach plan and I’m in week 2 now. When I got home I did some yoga for my back. We ate loads of carbs and not a lot else yesterday - bottomless brunch is only bottomless on the drinks, and there never seems quite enough food to soak it all up - so today I decided we need to eat something more balanced and nutritious. I roasted up a mountain of vegetables (carrots, peppers, mushrooms, kale and spinach) and mixed them with couscous and topped it all with a tahini dressing. Such a rainbow feast. I’ve eaten two enormous bowls and feel very satisfied. Hopefully I’ll wake up tomorrow morning with a clear head and fresh motivation ready for the week.

[spiralling-thoughts]

i would love to hear your personal thoughts about sheaf and panlo, it's nice to see someone who also likes them!!

What's this? A chance to get to ramble about my made up backstories for my favourite characters I have come up with a backstory for both panlo and sheaf along with some lore for district 9*crack fingers*

P.s I am not an expert in business so forgive me if some of these are wonky

Panlo grew up in the trading section which is the wealther area of district 9 with his parents and 3 sisters his father ran a grocery shop , panlos parents are both very kind and compassionate people who would give free food for the poor children in 9 and would give without asking for anything in return and they passed these values to their children and taught them how to take on responsibility, when panlo was 10 years old his father got awfully sick and secumed to his illness months later which caused the family to fall on hard times they started struggling to keep their business afloat and struggling to keep food, panlo and his sister torrei are the youngest so they took priority in feeding along with their goats and chickens as they constantly fought to be able to afford feeding them , one time panlo accedinlty overhead his mother and older sisters crying and that's where he learned that stilla his older sister did such a big sacrifice to afford getting food (similar to what tigress had to do) and that broke panlos heart he wanted to be able to help his family no matter what, when he turned 12 he took tessare to be able to get extra food for his family and went around the trading section selling his old childhood toys and other possessions he got some luck and managed to earn a some money not alot but he was happy he managed to earn something eventually they converted the shop from a grocery shop to a tailor shop and started making flour sacks and selling them, stilla got a second job as a teacher and that helped in improving their money situation a little panlo stayed determent in helping his family as best as he can he would often stay up all night making flour sacks he also took on the role of sergeant father for his younger sister torrei and got a second job at a mill , the other children who were working at the mill at first didn't like panlo because he was from the trading section while the rest of them were from the lawns ( my made up version of the seams for district 9 ) similar to how gale didn't like madge however panlo knew how to handle rejection and focused on working hard and was really nice but knew when to put his foot down and helped in whatever way he could eventually two of the kids working in the mill warmed up to him and became his friends one kept disliking him just for the heck of it and the fourth stayed neutral his the type that just want to do his job and earn him living and go home, panlo also treated the miller like he was his grandfather . I imagine him being 17 and when his name was called torrei was so devastated that she held onto him and begged that they take her instead of him and panlo gave her a last hug and a kiss on the forehead and told her that he would never want her to go through any of this . He's a humble and responsible kind young man who puts the need and comfort of others above his own and is ready to help anyone in need whichever way he can

Sheaf is from the lawns and lives in an area next to the fence that surrounds district 9 her family constantly struggles in getting food and her parents work multiple jobs in the fields and grainery just to barely get anything, she has an older sister named graina and when she was 6 she and graina had to become parentfied children as their aunt and uncle were executed and they had to take in their little cousin oats in and raise him as their parents were absent from home for long hours (waking up at dawn and then returning home at late night sometimes they would be absent for days) years later graina got a second job in a grainery processing factory and started getting late too, sheaf started doing gymnastics to keep oats from crying as her doing that has always got a laugh out of him she was once given a fairytale book and sheaf started using her imagination both to make stories to tell to oats and to cope with the cruelty going on around her I see her as being 14 she is described as a little girl she had to mature quickly but is still a child at heart who enjoys stories and getting to have fun with her friends and who sleeps in her mother's lap when she gets the chance and who loves to joke around and do little harmless pranks for her friends and family

Both panlo and sheaf are deeply traumatized from the cruelty they witnessed in district 9 sheaf witnessed her friend getting shot from a sniper because she was eating a corn she was harvesting when she was 10 and often saw people die from starving to death or diseases or due to the peacekeepers,panlo witnessed a woman pleading for her life as she was dragged to get hanged for trying to feed her children when he was 12 he wanted to interfere but one of the adults noticed and stopped him and he watched helplessly as the woman was hanged he then managed to find one of the woman's children and her a bottle of milk, panlo is also terrified of loud noises and he still remembers for when district 9 was bombed and sheaf is terrified of the dark it makes her feel utterly alone and helpless she was terrified in the cattle kart and held onto panlo for dear life while panlo tried his best to comfort her by hugging her and stroking her hair and telling her poems stilla and his mother taught him to help sheaf fall asleep

They knew one another prior to their reaping sheaf and graina were waiting outside when they were little for their parents but it was getting late and windy outside so panlos mother felt sorry for them and let them come into their house and feed them that's when stilla gave sheaf the fairytale book and when their parents came to pick them up panlos mother gave them some milk and eggs for free from and told them that they are always welcomed here from then on every now and then sheaf would come to their shop and she got to know panlo, she even sometimes would bring oats with her and panlo would treat oats like a little brother

Both found the idea of getting a capitol mentor to be completely stupid and they hate Gaius and Androcles guts especially Gaius he made both their blood boil with his stupid prejudiced jokes

That's all that I have... for now 😉

[ohem1111]

just some ramble-y updates

some sims related and some not. non-sims stuff will be below cut off 😎

sims related:

so i DID find my most recent just dessert legacy save so that will start back up soon! i did have some things just about ready to post but decided to hold off in case the save was lost lol obviously i still had a back up from when she was a child so worst comes to worse i could have caught back up but i would have been missing the new sims i made and the new house (that i had already rebuilt once since my cat unplugged my pc mid build)

also i did end up starting to write my own challenge and i feel like i did so much yesterday. i might end up making a discord way off into the future if anyone is interested in giving feedback or anything once it is actually more solid and refined a bit. i think i might wait until the life and death pack comes out because im interested to see what could be included in a specific gen that i have in mind. i might ramble some more about it another day but im really excited about it.

not sims related:

the wild robot movie was so good and i cried like 3 different times, i don’t know why i am so emotionally attached to the story (i do know, im mentally ill LOL) but regardless i recommend it.

like a week or so ago i pulled a muscle in my back/shoulder but on friday i tried lifting again and made it wayyyy worse so ive been in so much pain lately, not fun. i am kinda feeling ok right now though as long as im not moving too much

right now as i am typing this im waiting for a video for work to finish exporting so that i can get on the sims but so far its already taken over 2 hours and it has approximately an hour an a half of export time left which i hope is a lie since i need to wake up early tomorrow. i literally just realized its not even 8pm yet but im already exhausted from waking up at 6 this morning and not going back to bed. i just want to play a little bit of sims today since i haven’t at all.

tomorrow morning my boyfriend is taking me to cvs to pick up meds and out to breakfast as long as i am up early enough to do all of that and get back home before my monday morning work meeting 🫠 there is this small local chain coffee shop where i live that has the best breakfast food. they updated their menu u over the summer and added cinnamon bun pancakes and they are incredible so i’m looking forward to it lol

also complimentary freya picture for reading all of that lol i hope you all are having a good day 💚

[emmy-dekarios-bg3]

WIP Wednesday!

(Thank you @marlowethebard for the tag 💜✨🫶🏻)

Tagging: @alpydk

Sharing a piece of what I’ve been working on. “Heart of the Weave” is a fanfic of Gale Dekarios and Emmy (Tav) who are happily married in Waterdeep. 6 months after their journey has ended, Emmy ends up violently ill and they travel back to Baldur’s Gate to find answers as to why, with their other companions to tag along as well.

Emmy discovers her and Gale are expecting a baby, and from the moment they find out about her pregnancy, evil follows her everywhere they go.

Here is an excerpt of what I’ve been working on (part of Chapter 1, this isn’t the entire chapter):

Anyway, enough about my chaotic background for now. I think about it constantly: the mind flayers, the people killed, the close encounters with death myself, and saving my friends from a catastrophic end. They saved me, too, and I’m forever grateful for them.

I awaken to the sun beaming through the glass windows, being reminded by the Earth that I’m still alive. I made it another day. I’m still not accustomed to being in an actual bed, for all the adventures I had involved sleeping outside, camping with the unknown around us. I’m thankful for being away from all the lurking dangers that thirsted for my death.

“Good morning, my love,” Gale says with the sleepiest voice, his face nuzzled into my neck as he spoons me in bed. I smile, feeling his comfort and warmth against my body in the earliest of mornings. “I hope you slept well.” His warm skin is pressed against mine, and it could honestly put me back to sleep. My eyes try to adjust to the morning light, focusing from the blur as I try to full awaken.

“I’m…starting to,” I murmur, stretching my body as I turn to face him. I stare deep into his dark brown eyes which are heavily defined by his long lashes. I could stare into them all day. “How about you?”

“Oh, definitely the same. I wake up everyday thinking how happy I am, how lucky we are to be here. More importantly, I’m grateful we’re alive.” His hand is on my naked waist, holding me close to him. “Oh, how I wish we could participate in some romantic coitus right about now, but unfortunately, I have to be at the Academy in just a little over an hour. I slept in just a tad later than I anticipated.” I kiss his lips delicately and close my eyes, wishing he wasn’t leaving so soon. He has been doing some heavy research the past few days and coming up with new strategies to help his students learn magic, so having this time together, no matter how long it is, means the world to me.

“I understand completely. Maybe later, then. We are married after all and have all the time in the world.” He chuckles and proceeds to kiss my forehead. His tressym, Tara, flies in the room and nearly scares the daylights out of me. I’ve been living with Gale for a year and I’m still not used to his flying feline, though I absolutely adore her to no end. I never had cats, so it’s an adjustment for me.

“Oh, Professor Gale Dekarios, it’s time for you to get at it!” she says, landing on our bed. “I’m glad you two weren’t in the middle of…well, you know.” Gale and I look at each other, fighting laughter but blushing from mild embarrassment. Only once has Tara intruded on us and it was a moment I’ll never forget. That moment included her staring at us with eyes full of horror, but she didn’t want to turn away. Gale caught her, and she screamed, flying rapidly out of the room at high speeds.

“Yes, yes, Tara. I’m getting out of bed. Now shoo, I’m indecent and I’d rather you not look at me.” Tara flies out of the room, with Gale getting his naked body out of the bed shortly after. I am so thankful and blessed that this is my life now, and all the worries from before have faded away.

I’ve adjusted to Gale working at the Academy, and I love that he enjoys doing what he does. For ages, he’s always wanted to accomplish being a professor and teaching magic to others, and that it will be more recognized. He gets ready and begins to head out the door, but pauses for a moment to give me a kiss. The softness and perfection of his lips is enough to get me to go back to sleep, but I have to tend our garden.

“I hope your day is wonderful,” I tell him, staring into his eyes. He gently brushes my dark curly hair out of my face with his fingertips, smiling at me with contentment. The way he touches me, even after all this time of marriage, feels absolutely incredible. I can’t get enough of him. Stop it, Emmy. You will have time alone with him soon enough, it’s nearly the end of the week.

“And yours as well, my love. I will be back before you know it.” My heart already misses his body and soul as I watch him walk out the door.

{view my entire fanfic here:}:

[jocelynscrazyideas]

can you plz do anything brodie ziemer!! like fluff or something

Minnesota skies ||

Brodie Ziemer x reader

summary: summer time rolls around, Brodie finds a way to sneak you into the boat of stars to star gaze under the moonlight.

warnings: not proof read! Sorry…

a/n: finally a Minnesota man!!! His hometown is 33 mins away from mine!!

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The pink morning sunrise wakes me up, I turn away from the low lights that peak through the white shutters. I see Brodie drooling a little, I laugh and clean him up. I kiss his cheek, leaving a residue of my lip mask that hasn’t evaporated off of my lips.

I tuck Brodie in as I leave the bedroom.

~

Brodie’s parents own this beautiful home in North Oaks. It’s a beautiful house back behind the lush green trees, the lake is so beautifully preserved and the weather is never better.

~

It’s about 6:28 AM, the crisp morning air fills the house, the carpet is freshly washed and vacuumed, the walls are painted, and the windows are so clear I can see the neighbors boat garage from the other side of the lake.

I felt my stomach bend in ways I never imagined. I walk over to the fridge, gathering eggs, orange juice, cheese, whipped cream, and avocados. I turn the stove on and set down a heavy pan from the cupboard from below the sink. I place some room temperature butter on the pan to “lube” up the pan.

I finish making breakfast for not only me, but for the Ziemer’s.

The bagels are ready, whipped cream, eggs and cheese, all stuffed inside the bagels, and the avocados slide around the eggs. Yummy. I turn around to go wake up Brodie, and he’s waiting for me on the top of the stairs.

What a baby. My baby.

"Are you ready for tonight?" I'm guessing Brodie is implying the party we are throwing tonight. He smirks oddly while slowly making his way down the carpeted stairs.

He rubs his abdomen while he bends down for a kiss. I swerve to peck his cheek, and I run my hand through his hair. I push his lips towards mine and he somehow sucks air out of my lungs. I feel him pull away while he smiles. Brodie reaches for the plate sitting behind me on the cold counter-top.

~

After witnessing Brodie inhaling the bagel sandwich, i finish mine and set the leftovers in the microwave. I leave a note on the whiteboard that sits in front of the pantry door, "Breakie in the waver!"

I changed into a small bikini, im hoping ill get a good tan with this cool back design. I notice Brodie having trouble with his sunscreen, i walk over after tying myself up. "Here baby." I apply some cold sunscreen on his muscular back, and he gets mine.

We play in the cold lake, we even decided to get the boat ready for the party tonight. "Happy Fourth my love!" Brodie laughs mysteriously, he cups my ass in his hands, lifting me up. I kick my feet in excitement, then I notice that we're getting pretty close to the edge of the boat.

suddenly,

Water gets up my nose, my hair is drenched, my swimsuit comes undone. Brodie laughs from under the water. He kisses my flared ribs, i feel so young and free.

"Brodie! Hurry! We don't have all day to set up!" Momma Ziemer walks out onto the deck, i watch as Brodie gets out of the water. I tie my swimsuit back up.

I get out as well, i step onto the Star, the boat the Ziemer's got when i became part of the family a year ago today. I replace the white pillows with blue, and red ones. I fluff the white cushions up, and i wash the leather seat for the driver. After setting up decorations, plates, silverware, and snacks I finally place the speaker into a cupholder, we never use this one, we always use the one built into the boat, but just incase i alwasy bring a smaller speaker on.

~

"Baby." Brodie knocks on the bedroom door. "Everyone is here. I just thought you should hurry up on getting ready, i mean you already look so beautiful." He closes the door as he steps closer to me.

He fixes my hair, and kisses the top of my head. I feel this electric spark between us. "Okay, im coming." I wink at him.

"No, I want to walk down with you." He whines, Brodie has this spot on the floor next to my vanity. Almost like a dog bed. Brodie, being the golden retriever he is, he snuggles up next to my foot and lays down on his life size dog bed. Waiting for me as he hums a song.

"Are you upset that i didnt help you set up the Star for the fourth of july party?" He stops. The silence builds up. I feel this warm air brush behind my neck, he can read my mind. "No." I blandly answer back.

"ok." He gets up and moans in my ear, "I. Love. You." He states, and he takes my hand as i stand up.

We walk out of the bedroom and step onto the top of the stairs.

My white ripped jean shorts and my red bikini top holds my excitemnt and thrill.

"I wasnt mad, i was just confused in why you couldnt help me with the boat like you were before you pushed us in the water, but I love you back." I embarrassingly whine. I leave Brodie on the top of the stairs and welcome in the rest of the Ziemer family.

I notice all of the little girls run up to Brodie and ask for some jucie, and the little boys all gather around him to play mini sticks. The pool is filled with play pen balls that are colored white, red and blue. Ballons are tied everywhere. Almost every corner of the house has a song playing, thats also including outside and the boat.

I run down to the dock to go see the other young aduts and teenagers drinking on the boat. "Hey y/n!" They all greet me.

"Who set the Star up? It looks so pretty!" One of Brodie's cousins mention. I smile and sit down in the drivers seat. I take a red plastic cup and pour some cold "water" in it.

I walk back up to the house, a little tipsy. Im not a drinker- infact i hate alcohol. "baby?" Brodie runs up to me. He sets his juice box on the back deck right beside the pool, he held my shoulders to check me out from head to toe.

"Im fine!" i walk away as i leave a kiss on his cheek.

~

After the party, i clean up a bit. The inside of the house looks like before. i make my way to the boat. the stars glimmer over me. Brodie meets me on the floor of the Star. I feel so safe and warm. He cuddles me. I hold onto him, hoping he doesn’t throw us overboard again.

[lilacs-world]

I feel like I’m chronically not okay but idk if I’m valid enough to label myself as chronically ill. I am able to work 40h a week but with the cost of laying in bed the rest of the day when I’m back home. In the weekends I sleep mostly. My room is a disaster because I never have the energy to tackle the chaos. I wished I was able to walk to work and back but standing for more than 15 min is already exhausting me and I get dizzy and lightheaded. I am constantly in pain, my normal pain level is on good days at a 2 on bad days it’s at a 4 or 5 but maybe I’m too modest about my pain due to fear of admitting I’m not okay. I am always tired even if I sleep usually enough. At times I feel more refreshed with only 4 hours of sleep hell knows why. I am waking up daily at 5:45am to get myself ready for 8am work. I don’t know if I’m ever gonna be a functioning adult. I am scared of the moment I will unmask bcs im masking daily due to Audhd. Plus daily I’m confused because we are often switching and my quality at work at times fluctuating and my TLs wondering wtf bcs we know u know all the processes so wtf. Daily I feel like I know only a specific part of the processes and I have days where I ask so many questions that one of the TLs told me they are growing gray hairs bcs of me asking so much. The doctors in my country are shit when I mentioned suspecting we are a system they said nah it’s just ur anxiety. When I questioned if I have adhd my former psych said nah only kids can have it. My former therapist said yeah after unofficially diagnosing me with it. Autism I suspect that too and I got my confirmation more or less from my bf who’s on the spectrum as well. He got his confirmation he has adhd as well by me noticing lots of adhd things in him and he has now meds whilst me is in this godforsaken country that isn’t taking me seriously. I got my confirmation I have adhd when I took speed and realised for the first time "so this is how neurotypicals experience their life?" I for once had a train of thoughts in order and not a carambolage of luggage’s getting stuck in the baggage claim belt. I sobbed so hard. On good days I am able to remember and memorise lots of shit. But on bad days I barely anything. My body is out of control. I have pcos and it’s ravaging my body. I grow hair on my chin and arms and it’s making me uncomfortable and I developed anxiety about having hair in my face to the point over pluck and over shave it. My period is out of control. I either bleed for 2 months consecutive or I don’t have my period for 6 months. I am anemic due to it. I am such a pale human that I’m constantly being asked if I am okay. Oh yeah not to forget having an autoimmune disease since I am 2 years old. Having to deal with psoriasis break outs each winter where I end up being covered on my legs, arms , ass with skin patches of psoriasis. At times it’s even in my eyebrows and on my scalp. Each winter is a torture for me. I am battling with depression as well. Luckily this last year it wasn’t so overbearing and I felt more human than I used to in the past. Nonetheless my anxiety is ravaging and leaving me crippled daily. I sound ridiculous talking about myself rn bcs in my brain I feel like you aren’t this sick or unwell you are faking this you are a horrible human for saying all this things but I know it’s probably my internal ableism and the internal critical subconsciously developed voices of my surroundings telling me I’m not actually sick and I need to go to work even if sick etc. Sigh. Idk where I wanted to go with this whole post. I know you guys don’t see often a personal post from me or posts from me and more reblogs of stuff I enjoy seeing and stuff I wanna boost and stuff I find important or relatable or stuff that I think might make someone feel better and less anxious or feel seen. I hope this is fine. I hope being more real is helpful. Maybe I should do this rambling on my other blog @unfilteredrealities where I tried to talk about life in a real way , unfiltered. You can even send in your own submissions if u want to.

Anyway thanks for reading my ted talk.

TLDR: I don’t know if I’m actually chronically ill and if I’m valid enough to label myself as that and then I rambled about my life experiences with audhd, did, anxiety, depression, pcos, psoriasis and there are more but I’m exhausted.

[jimiminily]

Hobi is officially discharged from the military! 🥳🎊

It has been 548 days/18 months/1.5 years

(Enlisted: april 18 2023

Discharged: october 17 2024, today!)

I'm HAPPYY that hobi is back seriously 😭😭 waiting till 3AM is always worth it to see them discharge from the military

He worked so hard and amazing im proud of him🥹🥹💜 im happy that nothing can separate him away anymore 🥹💜 I love you so much hobi, welcome back loml 🌸

Jin has planned on a special event for hobi and he'll actually be going to meet him and take him to the filming spot as soon as he's out!

JIN is going out to greet J-Hope who is being discharged around 10 AM KST!

However, the rest of the members except for Jin are all serving in the military, so they will likely not be seen at the site that day.

Remaining members left to discharge:

● Namjoon and Taehyung: 236 days left (june 10, 2025)

● Jungkook and Jimin: 237 days left (june 11, 2025)

● Yoongi: 247 days left (june 21, 2025)

And these are the links to the weverse posts and live from Hobi ♡ (added translations), also a link to BTS picture on twitter (Only jhope is on it)

@BTS_twt today's tweet on twitter/X

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[241017 J-hope Weverse Live: j-day]

🐿 everyone~ jhope is back!

🐿 ive discharged from military. wow i cant believe that this day came

🐿 wow 1 year 6 months.. is such a long time.. and during that time, to fulfill duties as a korean citizen, i was able to live as jung hoseok for these 1 year 6 months, and now i am back as jhope. it feels a bit new

🐿️ I keep saying this but thanks to you, I was able to come back safely.

🐿 i keep saying this, but due to your cheers and wishes, i was able to do well. lets now walk on a flower road. thank you so much. i havent been able to eat yet. i had so many things to do starting when i woke up

🐿 it was such a hectic day and morning aha. and it feels so new. even a week ago, i was like.. im discharging? but i was like oh im getting discharged now. i started thinking of my schedules, and how theres a lot to do

🐿️ Ah English! I'm ready.

🐿️ But realistically everyone, in the military, you can do many things, but you don't have the leisure.

🐿️ I was so physically tired. I would want to study but after working with the soldiers, but as an assistant drill instructor, I had more time I had to work. And to study afterwards? It was hard

🐿 hobi is talking about his experience as an assistant drill instructor and how he would have to wake the other soldiers up in the morning and woke up early and just telling us about how he worked hard while in the military!

🐿 i'm looking at myself in the video right now and you guys might not be able to tell but i gained some weight. i need to work out and lose weight.. (HUUH?!!!! pls he looks goodㅜㅜㅜㅜ what!@?E$~!@)

🐿️ Wow it's been a really long time since I saw "Purple You"!

🐿️ Will this fit? They all wrote me a message one by one.

🐿️ My memories are here. They have pictures too.

🐿️ Whenever we had a march, we would eat together. In the winter it's quite cold and we would eat oden. You can see here. This is how I lived. I might shed tears

🐿️ I'll tell you one more thing. They say that after coming back from the military, that's the only thing you can talk about.

🐿️ It was fun because of these guys. Our age difference was like 10yrs. They were young kids. They were cute and good guys.

🐿 and txt also sent me this! *shows flower bouquet and letter* thank you so much!

🐿️ I received this today, but our TXT kids gave me this. There's a reason they're doing well.

🐿 "hobi hyung thank you so much thank you for protecting our country" aha who is this? oh i think its kai

🐿 ah i cant believe it. im doing this live so that you can look at me. but ill be preparing for my activities and such. ill take off this hat and ill prepare to show you an awesome jhope. thank you so much and i love you

🐿 challenge. thats right in a way this was a challenge. i entered military and trained, and was assigned my role and bunk.. ah i cant forget it.. but did you know? i wrote a diary during the time in the military. i wrote about one thing i regretted. i didnt bring a water bottle

🐿 i heard seokjin hyung wanted to do something once im discharged? oh do it, do anything~

🐿️ "Let's make a time for just us."

🐿️ Absolutely. What we have left for us is time.

🐿️ "Can we hear your signature greeting?"

🐿️ Yes, let's finish with this.

🐿️ I'm your hope. You're my hope. I'm J...!

🐿️ I'll show you many cool and great activities. Thank you for your love and support and attention. Heart! Here is my last heart as a soldier. Bye!

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Once again, welcome back 🥹💜 im happy that he's back healthy and happy🥰💕

[decaffinatedfrog]

In his eyes PT 7

Joel Miller fanfic

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Tlou

Summary: When your sister and her husband died, your left in charge of your niece. What happens when you encounter a man and another teen on a quick supply run?

PT.1 PT.2 PT.3 PT.4 PT.5 PT.6

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It had been a while since you got a good rest. Usually you're the first person to be up and getting things going but your going through a tough moment. A few months ago you injured yourself after running away from clickers at night. It confirmed your suspicion that raiders had been in this town recently but you just weren't sure how close they were to you. The aches on your body were strong enough for you to groan as you stood up, but not loud enough to wake up Sarah, who was curled next to you. You made your way outside to get some air and enjoy the pretty show of stars. Lost in your thoughts, and in the show of stars, you still managed to hear Joel approach you.

"We're leaving tomorrow morning" he quietly said standing next to you. Your heart clenched at those words you knew were coming, but it felt nice to have someone there. The silence was loud, it was hurting you. "I've got some things you can take" was all you said before both of you walked back down.

Joel was double checking his pack when you walked over to him with the pack you made him. "Here" you said as you gave them to him. "It's a bit hard for us to carry all these things, I think you guys can make better use for it" you continued to explain.

"Thank you" he quietly mumbled. He graciously took the packs from you, making room in their backpacks to carry. Sitting next to him, you felt comfortable. No tension, no urge, just calm. "What's next for you?" he asked, breaking the silence. "I honestly do not know. I've been to a town over, found a place near a lake but I'm still a bit hurt and wont be able to travel far " you explained, playing with your fingers.

Joel's' mind instantly ran to the thought of him kicking you off of Ellie and hurting you. "How about you guys?" you asked back. He then told you about his brother in Wyoming and how they planned to get there. Joel thought about asking you to join them but he didn't even know where he was going to go exactly or what was next.

"Thank you for letting me rest. I've been scouting for the last couple weeks. Found raiders and clickers, both times I got hurt. I can't express how thankful I am for you guys sparing my life" you said quietly.

Watching you crawl to Sarah was one of the most horrific things he's seen in all his years. It hit too close to home. Is that what Tommy saw as he crawled to his Sarah? The cries you let out were worse than hearing someone get hurt.

Joel stayed quiet. He wasn't sure how to respond.

You said your good nights and fell asleep..

Next morning.

You stood at the doorway with Sarah, watching Joel and Ellie getting ready to walk away. Your heart felt a little empty, but it was for the best. Missing the touch of humanity. From the corner of your eye, you could see Sarah being fidgety, but she' probably feeling the same right now.

"Ellie invited us to go with them y/n' "Sarah, I don't think that's a good idea. "

"I hate it here. I hate this life we carry. Its unfair to me, all we do is sit in one place and then leave when we get too comfortable. If you don't want to go, ill go. Everyone we love died because you couldn't keep them safe. I don't want to be the next one to die because of you!" you gasped in horror of the words that came out of her mouth. Where did all of these words full of hatred come from? Your throat started to burn but you wouldn't let the tears fall. Joel looked away but Ellie watched it all unfold in front of her.

"don't you dare mention them to me. I have done nothing but kept you safe for all these years. Do you need me to remind you of what happened a couple days ago? You couldn't even run. You're not going and that's final!" you yelled back "You're not my mom. You don't get to make these choices for me anymore. How are you going to keep me alive with your bad knee and back? that's right, you wont. " said Sarah as she ran to get her stuff. You looked at Joel and Ellie.

Joel was scolding Ellie for inviting Sarah with them, but in a second Sarah was already next to them. She looked back at you with anger in her eyes but you didn't know what to do. "I won't be here if you come back, Sarah" you yelled to her as she walked away. It was all you could say. You were too hurt to say anything else.

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A/N Hi everyone, thank you for reading! New chapter will be up 05-12-2023

[arduadastra]

An unhinged recap of TLOU EP3

Honestly read at your own peril, I cried a lot in this one

*spoilers ahead*

So right off the bat I played TLOU with my partner very soon after it came out, and then again.....and again......(and again) a few more times so I thought I was ready for this. I was ready for grissly asshole bill needing to go find Frank because he's only gone and got himself in some shit and yeah joel and ellie come along I know where a battery is but oh no Frank got bit?! and have a cry but did we get that? No. Do i wish we did? Absolutely not.

But i am kinda bummed we didnt get pedro pascal caught upside down shooting at zombies because of Frank's trap....thats one of my all time favourite scenes

ANYWAY

The whole set up to Bill and who he is, is done so well and with comedy too. It's meant to be ridiculous in a way that someone like bill, a prepper and lets be real we all know one, who 9/10 is called crazy is now the smart one and we see him living his best solo life in his mini town

5. Years pass im thinking huh, that isnt too long, we arent up to present day yet and then i see my boy frank in a hole and im thinking OH YEAHHHH we get some BACKSTORY

6. "there is no girl" "i know" - why did this make me laugh yet cry in the same breath? its so bloody unfair people can grow up without knowing what it is to love and be loved simply because some assholes out there made it 'not the norm' and considering how bill grew up, im sure that didnt help either.

7. "have you done this before?" "no"

8. Young joel in that sunshine? eating with that fork on a fancy plate with pedro's non grey hair and looking clean as frick? this was for the pedro simps and i APPROVE

8.5 MY BOYS JUST WANNA GROW STRAWBERRIES OK

9. the raiders hit, im thinking SHIT here we go, this is when theyre gonna kill frank and joel and ellie will show up and bill will be an asshole and joel will think nothing of it and ill be screaming at my tv and all will be right in the wor- wait what BILL GOT HIT?!

10. oh he's fine

11. Frank isn't though

12. This is where im prepping myself right? I KNEW since i started this episode that he would die, he died in the game and he's gotta die here but im not liking this.

13. Bill stop naming Frank's pills fun names im literally crying

14. Frank: "This is my last day" Me:

15. I dont need to write the speech he made because honestly if i did i'll just cry again and im writing this on my laptop and i really cant afford a new one but you all know that made you cry too

16. THEY. GOT. MARRIED. ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?! ARE YOU?! BECAUSE THIS SUCCEEDED MAN YOU DID IT - WELL DONE

17. Now here i am, tears streaming down my face when you lose something you cannot replace Frank has drunk the wine, im a puddle and then Bill.....this mother fricker....downs his glass and im thinking wait a miniute here....this isnt what happened in the game

18. "objectively.....that is very romantic"

19. ........ *frank castle voice* wait wait wait wait wait WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT

20. my ass is in denial right, im like nah ok bill is gonna wake up and that'll be horrifying and heartbreaking because now hes forced to live on without the love of his life and joel and ellie arrive and his door is locked and i knew this aint the way it's gonna be

21. the letter. I need say nothing more.

22. So after ALL THAT, all the sobbing and crying and pact and 'we left a window open' they're just gonna throw at me some joel and ellie bonding in the car? theyre gonna give me the game quotes of 'what you say goes' ????????????????

TLDR: EP3 was beautiful and heartwarming and then soul sucking all at once. While i didnt get my refirdgerator scene i got something so much more and I loved them for that. Now im just hoping ellie found those magasines because best BELIEVE thats another of my all time favourite scenes from the game

[wannabemasterofwindintraining]

In loving memory

Chapter 2/?

(This is a story about the events of Clay's death from the perspective of Aaron)

"Say, where's Clay?"

This would've been an easy question a few hours ago

Clay? He's right here fine and well

But right now

"He... he couldn't make it your majesty, he sends his apologies"

A few hours ago Clay completely turned to stone

The others are still trying to process, it which is understandable, after all to them, this came out of nowhere

To them, Clay was fine one day and suddenly he vanished

But that's why he told me beforehand, so I could comfort them in a time like this

Easier said than done tho

Back at the rolling fortress was the lifeless statue of Clay

Everyone was in varying degrees of shock and disbelief, the atmosphere is heavy

"He- he was- he was my hero"

"He was a hero to us all, Robin"

Macy is going through the same pain as Robin, yet here she is comforting him

She has always been there when others needed her, whether in combat or in personal issues

Maybe I should try saying something too

"I..."

But what would I even say

"I just can't believe it"

I guess words were never my strong suit

"How will we ever carry on without him?"

Axl is the heart of the team

He always said that we're like family to him

I can't imagine what he feels like after losing a member of that family

"He was the knights' knight... who'll lead us now?"

Lance is our knight in shining armour, literally

Being a Richmond, he's very egotistical, but he could humble himself when it got too far

He clashed heads with Clay the most but even after all their bickering, he is the first to come to Clay's aid when he needs it

"Why don't you all get some rest, you've been through a lot today"

Merlock is right, those monsters aren't gonna slow down any time soon, we need to be ready for them

The others are hesitant but eventually, they all head to their rooms one by one, maybe we can talk in the morning after everyone clears their heads

Me, Merlock and Clay are the only ones left

Man, I'm starting to get a heavy feeling in my chest

"Aaron, aren't you going to your room as well? You must be tired"

"I'm fine I'm fine, I just... I want to spend some time with clay"

"Alright"

"..."

"..."

"Alone"

"Oh of course"

Merlock zaps away

Now, it's just me and Clay

Or whatever is left of him

He was frozen mid-swing, maybe about to hit another monster

Did he even notice his illness consuming him? Maybe he did, but fought on till his last breath, just like a true hero would

I wonder what his last thoughts were

Did he think about us? did he have any regrets? did he live a fulfilling life? All questions only he knows the answers to

"Clay... i-"

Oh no, the feelings are starting to hit

"I miss you"

I can feel the tears running down my face

"I know it's only been a few hours, but I already miss you so much"

My legs give up as I fall to the ground

"I thought I had more time to prepare, I thought I'd get a hang on this leader thing before you're gone, but I was wrong"

It's getting hard to see from all the tears

"Clay, I can't do this"

I hope no one sees me like this

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Who knew crying takes that much energy

Usually, clay wakes us all at 6 for team training but look at me, it's 12 and I'm still in bed

I can't bring myself to get up, my body feels so heavy, I can barely move

I'd rather go back to sleep but Jestro and his monsters are still out and about and they're definitely going to take advantage of our loss

I gather all the strength I have and pull myself up

I push away all the books on the bed and kick away the other books thrown on the ground

I can't bear to look at them anymore and it's not just cause I hate reading

These books remind me of my failure

Clay is already dead and I haven't finished any of them

He shouldn't have trusted me

As soon as I leave my room I am greeted by Lance, looks like he decided to finally get out of bed too

"Hey, goodmor- well, good afternoon"

"Hey, Lance"

His focus shifts to my room but I close the door before he sees anything

Why am I still hiding it from him? This shouldn't be a secret anymore, right?

But it still feels like I've got something to hide

"I thought you didn't like reading?"

Damn it, he saw everything

"Yeah, I don't"

"Then what are all those books in your room?"

"Um.... they're not mine!"

He's not gonna buy it I need to think of something else quick

"What are you two doing?"

Thankfully, Axl is here to save me

"I was just passing by and I noticed that Aaron-"

I cover his mouth before he says another word

I don't want Axl asking questions too, but now I need to tell him something

"We were uh.. talking about the weather!"

Kill me

"Well, I'm heading to the main room, move out of the way"

Axl shoves us aside

"I'm going with you"

I run after him

"Hey! Get back here you didn't answer my question!"

In the main room, Ava is tracking down forbidden power, or she's trying to, to no success

I can hear the others talk but it all sounds like mumbling to me

I just look at Clay and I'm reminded of last night, once again I'm thankful that no one saw me

Well, Clay did

If he could talk he'd be lecturing me right now for all the crying I did last night

He'd say "hold yourself together, Aaron, knights don't hold themselves back by worrying about their capabilities, a true knight would face danger head-on without hesitation" or something like that

And you know what? Imaginary Clay is right!

It's my duty to lead the team now and I know it's not going to be an easy job but Clay trusts me, the real Clay

"You're right Macy"

I can do this

For Clay

"It's time your new leader stepped up"

I take a deep breath and-

"YES! Ah! I so deserve it, I mean look at me!"

...

Pfft

Somehow hearing Lance right now makes all my worries go away

Even if I'm not a good leader, these guys are amazing knights, I know they can do anything, with or without Clay

"Ehm- come forward, brave knight!"

I take a deep breath and step forward

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I didn't expect to get my first mission as a leader so soon

Just a few seconds ago, Merlock was telling the team about me being the new leader, and right now me and Macy just dropped by the king's castle to defend it from upcoming attacks

Macy is knocking monsters left and right with her new dragon add-on, which is the coolest thing I've ever seen

...What am I doing in charge?

No time for that! the kingdom is in danger

Before I could do anything, I hear an explosion above us, I look up to see that giant cloud once again and he's attacking Merlock's tower

"Knights, we have to stop that cloud, if he destroys Merlock's core memory we lose everything!"

I don't need Ava to tell me to stop him, I'm already on my way to Merlock's tower

Wait, what is Robin doing here? It's way too dangerous for him

"Robin, you need to get out of here, go!"

I help him get up and make sure he got away safely

"Merlock, I need the craziest combo nexo power you've got to deal with that cloud"

"Not now, Aaron, I'm a bit busy right now"

That stupid cloud is trying to attack Merlock but luckily I'm here to shield him

"Merlock, I need that combo nexo power, now"

"It is far too dangerous, Aaron, you must leave this place"

He wants me to leave??

"Hey! you choose me for this, I'm the leader this is my decision, you said it yourself 'the sky is the limit' and now is the time to prove it"

Merlock is thinking about it, sure take your time it's not like an evil cloud is trying to attack you right now, I can handle it no problem

"Prepare for a nexo scan!"

I can hear the peeping of the scan

"Merlock it's now or never, I need something daring and dangerous with some spice on top"

I raise my shield in the air for the scan, my armour is now glowing with nexo power

I hop on my shield and fly up to the cloud

As soon as I get in the air I hear an explosion behind me

It's Merlock, that cloud hit him

Great, now I lost two of my friends in one week

I can't let this evil cloud get away with this

"Aaron, what're you gonna do?"

"Hit that crazed cloud from the inside, maybe that'll shrink him back down a size"

"It's too dangerous"

"Don't sweat it, Macy, I've got this"

The inside of the cloud wasn't as I expected

Aren't clouds usually air? what are all those faces?

This is totally weird

Focus! I've got a mission to do

"Now, you're gonna have to deal with me!"

I start shooting all around, I don't know what I'm hitting but it's damaging him and that's what matters

If I don't get rid of him now, who knows how many more people could die

I have to destroy this cloud, even if it kills me!

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Unfortunately for these monsters, It's not gonna be that easy to get rid of me

Attacking that cloud from the inside worked, somehow and everyone is safe now

Man, I don't know why I was worrying so much about being a leader, it wasn't as bad as I expected, we defeat Jestro and his monsters like always

Also, Melock is still alive! I don't know how he keeps doing this but this man is unkillable, I wish I could be that cool someday

Also also, the king threw us a big party and invited everyone in the kingdom

Well, the party wasn't all that fun, the king expected Clay to be there and we had to hide his... "condition" from everyone

But it's alright! no one found out, well the king did but that's ok he's chill with it! as chill as he can be at least

Those last few weeks were crazy, first the whole leader thing then clay dies and then a huge cloud attacks the kingdom! we really need a break after all of this, I'm gonna lay in bed and not get up for a week, and I'm definitely not going to touch another book ever again

Why were books my first thought anyways? I could've just looked up a guide on the Internet, it's certainly easier than reading

My break will have to wait tho cause me and the others are moving statue Clay to the top of the fortress

We thought it was a great way to honour him, if he could talk right now he'd totally agree

Sadly stone statues can't talk but imagine how cool It'd be if he could

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