#and ik it mostly started with taylor

[oncamelliastreet]

i think it’s the cutest thing in the world that our generations way of showing love to one another has become friendship bracelets. what’s that? it’s a simple piece of jewelry that may not be glamorous and shiny, but you put time and effort into making it just so you can give them to other people simply to make them happy? and it’s customized to say something that symbolizes the fandom we’re both in, because though we don’t know eachother or likely have much in common we have a shared love of one small thing and that’s able to connect us? i will protect it with my entire being and take it with me to the grave

[youareinlove]

curly-haired girls who hate getting their hair wet UNITE

[angel-eyes05]

to leave the warmest bed i've ever known

pairing: spiderwoman!reader x miguel o’hara 

summary: after miguel’s fight with miles, you confront him in his office

warnings: this whole thing is basically one big argument there’s SO much angst, implied suicide attempt, HUGE ATSV SPOILERS DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THIS MOVIE, im projecting a little in some parts of this ngl (i cried writing a certain section of this, you'll know it when you read it lmao), mentions and descriptions of blood, gore, and death

word count:  4.1k

notes: i watched the movie yesterday…and miguel is on my mind. but i remember reading this namor x reader fanfic after i watched wakanda forever of a similar idea to this and i loved it so this is HEAVILY inspired by that fic, but just make it miguel. i would link it but ngl that was so long ago and i dont remember the author. if i end up finding it again ill put it here. also, just pretend miguel has been doing this whole spider society thing for a couple of years at least, it just needs to work like that for this ik its probably not canon but just roll with it lmao. and yes the title is a taylor swift lyric im so glad you noticed (im so sorry she's in my brain rn with the eras tour)

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The anger boiled up inside your chest as you stormed your way across the lobby. Hundreds of different Spider-Man variants were scattered across the area, some more injured than the others. It sickened you sometimes. How he had so many people under his grasp and just decided to throw some of them at the walls sometimes, not caring how hard they hit the floor because they were all just ammo to him. How despite his denials of it, that’s probably what your role was to him as well. Nothing more than a bullet in his massive machine gun.

You normally tried not to think about it, how his determination towards his goal sometimes meant lack of care for others. But this time he had just gone too far. You always had a soft spot for Miles, watching closely on him whenever Miguel would let you go though scanners of all the different variants. You admired his struggle, but eventual success to taking up the previous Peter’s mantle, and always hated how Miguel talked about him. You knew there was no way Miles could’ve asked for any of this. For the pressures and struggles of being a Spider-Man, for everything causing such a strained relationship with his parents, for the death of his uncle, and for what will be the eventual death of his father. You definitely didn’t.

Ok lets do this one last time. Eh, whatever, there’s probably gonna be 50 other introductions after this one so it doesn’t really matter.

Being Earth-837’s Spider-Man has never been easy. Especially since you were bit when you were only 13 (another reason you sympathized with Miles and Gwen). Your life had followed the order of canon events to a perfect T, your older brother killed in a fight with a robber only two months after you were bit. You tried to overcome the burden of your powers by trying to live as normal of a teenage life as possible, but it was mostly in vain, having to give up multiple friendships and relationships in fear of those you love getting hurt. This was only elevated when your boyfriend Peter was murdered in the crossfire of an encounter with Doc Ock. You didn’t understand. You couldn’t. What you had done to deserve all of this. All you did was just be in the wrong place at the wrong time. You wonder sometimes what would happen if someone was in the same place you were when you got bit. If someone else went to the closed down area of that museum and ran into that spider. That stupid spider that ruined your life. Those thoughts slowly started to disappear for a bit. For a few years things were easy. Things seemed like they were finally going in your favor.

You were 25 when it happened. The last canon event. Ever since you were a little girl you hated your mother’s job. Losing nights of sleep over if she would come home or not. She always did though. She was good at her job. Too good though. Good enough to get promoted to police captain, which for who you were, was basically sealing her fate. She saved so many people that day. You were too busy fighting Venom to notice how much collateral damage you were causing in the process. Your mother’s job was to evacuate all the citizens away from the fight. She died shielding a child from incoming debris. A noble way to go. But god was it gruesome. You found her after the fight was over, two metal poles impaling her. One through her stomach and one straight through her face, pools of blood growing bigger below her as she was left there, all the paramedics busy trying to save the heavily injured. You froze when you finally recognized her, unable to at first due to how mutilated her face was from the pole. Suddenly, you were transported back to being a six year old, falling asleep outside the door to your mother’s bedroom so you would know exactly when she would come home. Purposefully falling asleep in her arms so that she couldn’t go anywhere.

When you used the key she had given you to get into her apartment that night, and you slept in her room, desperate to intake anything left of her before she was fully gone. You doused yourself in her perfume so it still felt like she was standing right behind you. You had always loved her smell. The smell of vanilla, curl product, and fancy perfume. They were attached to memories you had of her. Trying on her heels when you were a kid to try and be fancy like her. Smelling her hair in the morning before school to comfort you before she left for work. Despite all of this bringing you comfort, all it really did was cause further denial in your heart. That one day you were gonna hear the keys clacking in the keyhole to your apartment one more time. That’s all you really wanted. You would give everything up in a heartbeat just to hear her police scanner go off one last time. But it wasn’t going to. And it was your fault. Deep down you knew it was. You should’ve done a better job controlling the debris. You had always been a messy fighter, but you didn’t know it was going to mean anything until it was too late. 

How you got up to the top of that building is still a blur to you to this day. But next thing you know, you were looking at the New York City skyline from the very top of the Empire State Building. And at the very edge too. You heard some sounds behind you, but you just decided it was the wind howling from how high up you were. You were just so tired. Everything and everyone you loved was cursed all because of you. And with your mother as the most recent victim, you decided you finally had enough. You took a deep breath, eyes overflowed with water, as you set your foot forward.

Your plummet was interrupted by a sudden contact you felt to your forearm. Shock filled your body as you turned around to look at what had stopped your attempt. The blue hand was massive, nearly wrapping back around onto itself as it held onto you for dear life. You finally looked up at face that the hand belonged to. The mask that covered the massive figure was a strange one. Blue with strange red silhouettes for the eyes. It kind of reminded you of…your own costume? That couldn’t be though there was no way. This must be the afterlife or something. You already jumped and that's why you didn’t remember your way up to the top. This was some kind of creature trying to stop you from jumping down to hell below. His breaths were heavy and loud, almost like he was desperate to stop you. This convinced you that this was real, which caused you to try to escape from his grip. He was stronger than you, and was putting up a huge fight. You were slick though. Once you were out of his hand, you closed your eyes and quickly made your jump. Everything flashed before your eyes. Your brother, Peter, your mom. You were hoping to see them soon. This was very quickly interrupted again when you suddenly stopped falling. Something had attached itself to your stomach. You opened your eyes. A web? This web was much different than yours though. It was glowing a bright, neon orange.

The man was holding onto the end of it tightly with both hands. His mask then disappeared to show his face. His was long, matching how big the rest of his body was, defined cheek bones sticking out. Brown wavy hair slicked back with a few loose strands flying out in the wind. The look of desperation on his face stook out most of all. Why did he care so much? He didn’t know you, and you definitely didn’t know him. “Let me pull you up. Please,” he said to you between shaky pants. You stared at him for a bit before nodding. He slowly pulled you up with the string of his web, each move more careful than the last. As soon as your feet were planted safely back on the roof of the building, he wrapped you up in his massive arms. You appreciated the gesture, but you didn’t return it, still very confused about why he was so concerned. He was so big around your body though, you couldn’t help but feel a little comforted, feeling his still shaky breaths against the hairs of your neck. Soon after, he clicked on some buttons on his neon orange watch and led you into a portal.

The rest is history. You’re grateful he found you that day. It allowed you to meet so many people, Peter B., Jess, Gwen, Hobie, Ben, Pavitr, Margo. They all related to you and you felt like you could share things with them that you couldn’t do with anyone else. You had grown especially close to Peter and Jess, both of them having been in the game for a long time, just like you. They both knew how you felt, having lost so much and growing so tired after so many years. Peter even named you as Mayday’s godmother when she was born, a gesture that caused you to nearly kill him with your hug. Miguel though was different. He wasn’t nearly as social as the rest of your friends, but you found yourself having much more intimate moments with him (in more ways then one). You eventually found out why Miguel was so concerned for you the day you met. He had taken interest in your abilities early into looking for variants for his little “project”, but refrained from roping you into something so dangerous while you were still in your teens.

Once you were old enough though, he started paying more and more attention, hoping to catch you in a fight and recruit you then. But he was always pulled away with more important duties to attend to. That was until he witnessed your canon event. He had seen it happen so many times before through his scanners. It was going to happen. It had to in order for your universe to not collapse in on itself. But for some reason, yours hurt more than the rest to him. Especially how you coped with it. Seeing you wrap yourself up in her blankets and clothes broke his heart. He knew where this would lead to. That’s why he was there that day. To save you. He had to, or he wouldn’t be able to forgive himself. You got your own watch immediately, along with your own room in the Spider Society headquarters. He stayed close with you for the first month of you being a member of the team. When he wasn’t out on missions, he was with you. You didn’t really know what to label you two as, but whatever was going on, you liked it. And he did too.

That is until Miles came into the picture. Once Miles was bit, all hell broke loose for Miguel. He was always in some alternate dimension catching some Spider-Man villain who got out and rangled them back over here, falling back over to you more beat up and bruised than the last time. You couldn’t imagine how much stress he was under, the fate of the entire multiverse up to him. You had some ways of helping him relieve his stress, but you wish you could convince him that he wasn’t alone in this. But nothing ever got through to him. He had become distant, aloof even. You tried bringing it up to Jess every so often, but she would just brush it off.

“That’s how he’s always been.” Not to you he hasn’t. This week has been hell though. With Spot making it over to Miles, Miguel had been going into rages all week. You had put up with it for now, but that was all about to stop. Watching how harsh he was being on Miles, throwing so many Spider-Men at an innocent boy, risking all of their lives in the process. Disregarding everything Gwen and Peter were feeling and then throwing Gwen back into her broken world with nothing. He had gone too far. No one else was going to stand up to him about it, so you knew it had to be you. Maybe he would listen, maybe he wouldn’t. It didn’t really matter. He just needed to hear it.

“It’s not worth it you know.” The voice snapped you out of your thoughts, stopping you in your tracks. “You know how stubborn he gets over these things,” said Jess, trying to convince you to save your breath. “I don’t care. I have to at least try,” you responded, monotonically. “I just don’t understand how you can follow him so blindly and not see what he’s doing is wrong.” “Because he isn’t wrong. I don’t know about you, but I’m not just gonna stand by and let some kid’s stupid decisions destroy another Earth,” Jess argued. “He’s just trying to save his dad, I can’t understand how that makes him such a bad person,” you said, finally turning around to face her, shocked when she was closer to you than expected.

“You know exactly why. Don’t be so naive, y/n,” she shot back. “You can’t stop me,” you said staring straight into her. She shrugged. “Then I can’t help you.” She began to walk away. You did to, until you heard her say. “You don’t know how much he cares for you.” You turned around to face her again, but her back was still to you, her head tilted ever so slightly to look at you. “If you really do care for the kid, watch what you say to Miguel right now. Cause you might just give him the final push he needs to do what needs to be done.” You didn’t give her a response, and just simply kept walking. You felt Jess’ eyes on your back as you entered the elevator to get up to Miguel’s office.

The elevator ride up felt longer than it should’ve, as you tried to gather all of your thoughts and emotions together so even if he didn’t listen, your words would still stick with him in some way. You didn’t necessarily want to hurt him (though your fists were telling you otherwise), but you did want him to be aware of what he’s done. Once the doors finally opened, all of that work flew out the window as rage took over your body again, seeing Miguel up there looking at the scanners. The fact that he looked just as normal as he always does made you furious. It’s like nothing happened.

“You know, I could hear you coming in from the lobby,” he said, almost stopping you in your tracks. You hated when he did that. Claiming that he knew what your every move was going to be. Like you were under his control or something. “Yeah, well then you must’ve heard me talking to Jess, which means you know exactly what this is about,” you shot back, stopping to where you could see him perched up there. “Why don’t you just save me the conversation about morality and just come up here and kick my ass already. It’ll save both of us time,” he said, not even taking his eyes off the scanners to look down at you. This only added to your fury. “That’s not what I’m here for Miguel, so don’t you dare try to twist my words here. What you did to that kid was fucked up and you know it.” “Oh yeah, then why didn’t you try to do anything to stop me?” he questioned.

“Because I’m not stupid Miguel. I’m not gonna try to take down hundreds of Spider-Men at once.” “Oh, cause you’re so much better than that?” This wasn’t like him at all. That gentle, kind, and caring Miguel you once knew was gone, taken over by some sort of personal vendetta he had against Miles. “Listen, I don’t know what’s going on with you, but this all needs to stop before it gets taken too far. You’re getting into a fight you can’t win. That kid’s strong and so are his allies. And if you go any further into this, I won’t be here to help you.” He stayed still and only turned his head to look at you. “And what makes you think that you’re so important to my plan that it’ll fall apart if you leave? Have you really become that pretentious?”

Your body froze. Have I really? No no no, that’s exactly what he wants. If you begin to doubt yourself now, you’ll stay and nothing will change. You knew you were right. He was trying to crumble you down, but you wouldn’t let that happen. “And you really think that one kid is going to ruin something that you’ve been working for for years? How insecure you’ve become.” “You have no idea what you’re talking about,” he said, turning back away from you. You did the same, wiping off your face in anger. “I hate it when you do tha-,” you said as you turned back around, but were cut off to find Miguel standing there right in front of you. He was close. Too close to your liking, although in any other circumstance you would’ve found this attractive.

He tilted his head up, but his eyes were down staring daggers into yours. You hated how much he tried to make himself seem more superior to you. “You have no idea what you’re talking about,” he repeated, this time slower as if you were a child. “He’s just a kid Miguel,” you said in a low, quiet voice. “An anomaly. And a dangerous one at that.” “God Miguel, all he wants to do is protect his dad, do you know how insane you sound right now?” you said letting out a slight laugh when you finished. You backed away from him a little. “He doesn’t know how much damage he’ll do with this. Saving his father will only prolong the inevitable. His world will be gone within hours if he does this. All I’m trying to do is make him understand,” he tried to explain. “By trying to kill him.” “You always have to exaggerate the situation,” he said palming his face. “But that’s essentially what you’re trying to do isn’t it? Why not snuff out the problem entirely by taking him out!”

He signed and began to walk away while you were talking, bringing up your anger even more. “Yeah, use all the power you’ve accumulated over the years and just take out the small problem! Except this isn’t just a fly on the wall Miguel. This is a child! An innocent boy who didn’t ask for any of this to happen to him, just like how we didn’t. I get it, I’m sorry that this job is stressful, I really am. But that gives you zero right to act the way you are!” You were screaming at him at this point. You didn’t want to. You didn’t want your emotions to get the best of you. But he was being too stubborn. This was the only way you thought you could get to him. You might not have wanted to, but you needed to hurt him now. It was the only way.

“You can’t be so power blind that you refused to accept the fact that there could be a way around Captain Davis’ death. You said we saved Earth’s before, I’m sure we could do it again.” Your anger only kept rising when he kept walking away and didn’t respond. “This is a personal thing isn’t it?” you asked calmly. You knew it was working now when he stopped walking. “Yeah, it it. You won’t let Miles get his happy ending. Because why should he be pardoned of his burden while the rest of us have suffered so much. While you’ve suffered so much.” The answer to your question was confirmed when Miguel stayed silent. “Just because you didn’t get the life you wanted Miguel, doesn’t mean you have the right to stop other people from getting theirs.”

You knew you overstepped the line when Miguel turned around and started walking towards you, fury burning in his crimson eyes. “Yeah, so what! What if that is what this is all about! You should know better than anyone how much this job takes away from you!” he screamed at you, backing you up into a wall. “Why should he get to be let off so easily, while people like you and me have to suffer so much? Don’t try to turn me into the villain here when I know you’re thinking the exact same thing, y/n.” He wasn’t entirely wrong. You had wondered it at some points. “I won’t let you turn this onto me Miguel, this is about you,” you fired back. “Oh no, you’re not getting off that easily. I know you’re thinking it. And you’re right. Why should Miles get let off so easily when you’ve lost so much.” He held your hands in his, trying to connect to you. “And you have mi vida. You’ve had so much taken from you and it’s unfair. Why should he only have lost one person when you’ve had three taken from you. Your brother, Peter, your moth-.”

He was cut off by your hand striking against his face in a harsh blow. “If you’re smart, and I know you are, you’ll keep those three out of them. I won’t let you drag their names through the dirt for something as stupid as this.” You both stood there for a while, both of your eyes looking towards the ground, hoping it would open up to swallow you both as an escape from this god awful conversation. You never wanted it to come to this. In all honesty, you cared for Miguel. You might’ve even loved him, if you were even capable of doing such a thing. You hoped he felt the same way about you, but in a job like this, he always had at least one wall up around you. It just wasn’t worth it anymore. You were too tired to keep trying for something that was most likely going to fall apart in the end. 

“You’re still going after him aren’t you?” you asked, finally breaking the silence. Miguel looked back up at you. “You can’t ask me not to. You know better than anyone why this is so important to me.” He moved his hand up to cup your cheek and kissed your forehead gently. You let it sit there for a minute out of habit before pushing it off your face. “And you must know why I can’t stay anymore then.” His shoulders dropped. “Whatever this thing between us is. It’s over. I can’t stay beside someone who can’t see what he’s doing is wrong.” Miguel’s dropped hand turned into a fist of anger. “Fine,” he spat in your face. “I don’t need someone like you in my way. You’re just a liability to this anyways.” He began to walk away from you back to his scanners. “Just don’t come crying back over to me when your little plan doesn’t work out, cause I won’t help you.” He used his webs to pull himself back up to the platform to keep looking for Miles. You stood there for a second, gathering yourself.

Five years. Out the door just like that. It bewildered you how easily a bond like you two had could be broken all because of one teenager. You began to make your way for the door before you said. “When this is all over…don’t try to find me.” He didn’t respond. Once the elevator doors opened, you rushed inside, desperate to get away from him. So many thoughts rushed through your head as the doors closed and you sunk down back to the lobby to leave. You didn’t have much of a plan. This could end up being a horrible idea. Your gut told you it was the right thing to do though. And that was enough for you. You walked out of the headquarters lobby with a new heart and a new mind, ready to take action for your new plan.

First though, you had to find Gwen.

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a/n: god that took longer than it should've. dw dw i'll do a part 2 if enough people ask for one. im not 100% sure how im gonna do a part 2 cause yk....idk how beyond the spiderverse is gonna go so tbh, we're just gonna make it go the way i want lmao. thanks for reading, ik this was kind of a long one lmao

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[s-rolldown-s-fork]

Ty for the tag UwU

@harmonia-rhythmgamer and @slightlymalevolentq if you guys want lang naman

And to anyone else who wants to join ofc

put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle & let your friends pick their favorite of the first five songs!!

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[duplicitywrites]

Does fandom feel very different to you now than it did pre-2020? This could be a rather myopic viewpoint- I’m in college, so I’m young enough to have never really lived in times where fandom was ridiculed or whatever, but it still felt fringe-like in 2019. I’d go to school and chat about fanfic and fan art with my nerd friends, but fandom did not feel omnipresent in the mainstream- not just fan art or fanfic ( which is still 100% fringe like ) but fandom discussions too. Now swifties get mentioned on the news and crap. Perhaps that’s a bad example since Taylor swift is….Taylor swift, but I feel like a fandom that big and powerful wouldn’t have even formed pre 2020. Swifties certainly existed, but even in 2014, they would not be mentioned in the news.

i'm afraid i can only confirm your viewpoint as myopic because my friends weren't fandom nerds haha. the only other person i knew who read fanfic was this one guy in my year who i think only read what i wrote because he had a crush on me. which, well. not sure if that actually counts 😂

i first started engaging in fandom at large around... 2012? i think? or maybe sooner than that, i don't remember anymore. i used to rp on facebook LMAO but my later fandom experience mostly centers around tumblr and discord.

now that fandom is mainstream it really does feel omnipresent. people as a whole have changed. but to circle back to your other point — swifties have history that relates to this, because taylor used do private fan sessions (screenings)? of her album before release, and i think a majority of those fans were selected from social media, tumblr in particular, because she was active here. you can imagine how that made the parasocial aspect was even worse.

this stuff predated 2020s but it did drive a significant amount of fan behaviour. and ik not every celebrity is taylor swift, but you see a lot of that continues to be replicated because modern fandom is about 🚨 ATTENTION 🚨! so it's quantity over quality, anything that isn't an immediate massive hit gets dismissed, etc. then the stuff that does make the news so to speak gets exploited to death until people are sick of it, which again, you know, takes us back to taylor swift.

things are better when i can just enjoy my little guys in peace. which i do! or try to do. it's difficult because the rest of the world seems to want less and less to operate like that.

all this to say i think fandom can still be close to the way it was. it can still be fringe, with you and your friends in a group hanging out. you just have to block out the noise and really make that space for yourself. then you can still decide how much you want to engage with the rest of it.

[musicoftheheart]

following the events in this post ive been listening to a few noah kahan songs (ive been picking and choosing a bit tbh, mostly the ones i recognise the titles of as well as a couple others) and heres what ive got:

(note: some of these opinions are based more on an unreleased wip i have, because some of these songs fit just a bit too well w it)

the view between villages - remus, obviously. this was an opinion i saw a lot on tiktok a while ago, and therefore this was one of the few songs of his id already heard. its so incredibly remus that i cant even try imagining anyone else.

homesick - its giving regulus tbh. i could maybe see sirius, to an extent, but i cant assign it to anyone else wholly but regulus.

northern attitude - sirius. 10000% sirius. i feel like i shouldnt even need to explain it, its just sirius.

stick season - look, okay. i know—i know—people have claimed this for wolfstar. i know. but i just hear regulus. i will explain if need be but its just... its regulus. im sorry but it is.

call your mom - this is one where context from the wip mentioned above would be useful, but spoilers, so all ill say is: sirius to james. the part of the fic im thinking of was originally inspired by forever winter by taylor swift but i actually think call your mom fits what ive written for it so far even better. thats all ill say. (yall know i love giving jamie issues <3)

fear of water - definitely regulus near the start of jegulus. it just makes sense in my head and its all i can think. admittedly, i did decide to listen to this one because my first thought was regulus and the cave because i cant see anything to do with water without thinking of him, but the song itself is 100% early jegulus from reg's pov.

dial drunk - regulus, again. yeah ik i talk about him a lot but ITS REGULUS. and the person hes calling is definitely sirius :( again im kind of relating this to part of the wip above, so maybe i have bias, but this song is regulus. it just is.

i didnt end up listening to many others because i wanted to listen to a pokemon podcast i was part way through yesterday so this is all ive got for rn

[chaserofstars11]

✨Intro Post ✨

me

heeey! i'm lea, (pronounce lee, lee-uh, lay-uh, or wtv idc it's not my real name ;)). I pretty much go by she/her, but all pronouns are ok!!! (so are all gendered terms, including girl/guy) I am bi, and super accepting/open. dms and asks are totally welcome! i live in north carolina (US), so EST. i've just started writing fic on ao3 so link: https://archiveofourown.org/users/chaserofstars11 i'll make a masterlist once i write more i have a gorgeous goldendoodle so there are goldendoodles in the photos <3 (not mine tho :( )

music/books/movies/shows

i love renee rapp, taylor swift, conan gray, queen, paramore, mo schulte, phoebe bridgers, lana del ray, maneskin, yungblud, acdc, honestly basically anything

fav books are: six of crows/grishaverse (leigh bardugo is a goddess i luv all of her creations), age of legends trilogy, little women, lockwood & co, divergent, the hobbit, the book thief, carry on, becky albertalli's books, literally so many more

shows/movies: i love/have watched friends, the office, parks & rec, the good place, ncis (literally my fav), shadow and bone, young royals, heartstopper, good omens, and other stuff

ngl taladega nights is my comfort movie (so james of me, ik) but I also love harold and maude, mean girls, and any cheesy romance movie ever

that was long, so picture break! these are all from pinterest, not mine :)

fandoms/ships

I am mostly just in the marauders and soc fandoms, but also a bit of golden trio and pjo. ( i am so serious when i say fuck jkr. i don’t support her ideals or her work, i am simply talk her characters and making them gay and trans in spite)

I love most marauders ships esp starchaser, rosekiller, pandalily/marylily/pandamarylily, and dorlene (dw, i like wolfstar too) My favorite fics are Art Heist Baby, crimson rivers, anything by damagecontrol, anything by MesserMoon (esp kyd and ohb), anything by maladaptivewriting, anything by Solmussa, and anything by lynxindisguise (PSA i have not read atyd. ik, ik, i'm just not mentally prepared yet. same reason i haven't read choices)

my fav golden trio ships are luna/ginny, harry/draco, and ron/hermione

soc ships are obvi wesper, helnik, and kanej (plus zoyalai ofc)

dni

if ur mean/disrespectful/homophobic/misogynistic/sexist/transphobic/racist/or have anything bad to say/or are creepy

otherwise, i love to interact, have chains, be tagged, or anything. i am kinda new to tumblr tho, so not sure how everything works. I won't interact outside of tumblr or ao3 unless i actually know you

thx for reading <333 i hope you enjoy the weird shit i post :) I might end up posting my art... I dont know if im brave enough. but you can read my writing!

[canines-alter-creation]

AAAAAA Our Friends Have Told Us So Much About You Guys!!!! We Want A New Alter Just To Spice Things Up (Terrible Reason Ik--) But We Do Not Know Where To Start :sob: I Was Thinking Maybe You Could Come Up W/ Something? 7/11 Of Our Alters Are Fem-Aligned, So Do What You Want With That, We're Good With Anything To Help Us!! This Is Not Forced Btw AAAAA I Feel So Happy Finally Getting To See Your Blog

HII!! Welcome to The blog!! I'm+ so glad your friend encouraged you to come here! We+ love doing this job! It's one of Our+ absolute favorites! You mentioned having mostly fem alters, so I+ figured I'd+ shake it up a bit!! I+ hope you like him ^^

As always! Not all alters based on this pack are gonna turn out as designed, but I+ still hope it helps and that you like him! And We+ NEVER judge for why you're coming to Us+ for headmate packs, sometimes the brain needs something new tossed around in it! Enjoy!!

 > Name(s): Starry, Storm, Lightning, Taylor, Eclipse, Saturn, Moon, 

> Pronoun(s): he/star/h☆/th☆y/they/st☆r/night/dark/storm/eve/rain/clouds/☆s

> Age: ageless, possibly due to being angelic or a deity, but very clearly an adult

> Gender: starboy, scribblestargender, princestar, nublunic, dreamthing

> Sexuality: gay or masc attracted, likely to other people who are also immortal entities, may prefer someone with an “opposite” aesthetic 

> Role: insomnia symptom holder, sleep helper, sleep guardian

> Source: brainmade / alterblogic

> Faceclaims:

> Sign-offs: 🌧️, 🌨️, ⛈️, 🌩️, ⭐, 🌃, 🌟, 🌠

> Song theme:

> Front triggers(pos/neg/neu):

+ Night time, especially night time associated with tiredness, needing a good night’s sleep

/ being tired, needing to do his job, significant lack of sleep

- daytime, waking up, early mornings (for work/school/etc)

> Likes/dislikes:

+ Quiet, libraries, dreamcore (especially concepts like the pool rooms, or angelic dreamcore), night time, soft music

- loud noises, heavy metal, day time, bright lights or other harsh environments. 

> Personality: He may be very flirty, calling others love or darling, either in a teasing way or in a more platonic way, isn’t very outgoing but is very sweet. Very protective of those storm considers dear, but may have a tendency to see other’s as lesser than cloud due to them being “a human”. Very physically affectionate, likes to lay on people or be physically touching. Is a bit of a “dad” friend, following others around or insisting to them that they need sleep and to relax. 

> Ways they do their role: May put their foot down so to speak and make the body go to bed, forcibly taking front to get more rest. 

> Inner world occupation or behavior: May frequently take “cat naps” so to speak, and being near front makes the body tired. Likes cozy and soft places, especially places that are quiet and soothing, libraries, comfort rooms, safety places, etc. 

> Possible outerworld behavior: May spend a lot of time sleeping or napping, especially forcing the body to get some rest. May also be very physically affectionate, laying on your friends, or otherwise expressing affection and delight!

[periwinkle-the-11th]

Intro post!

Leave me a message! Decorate my tree!!

i'm Peri!

I spend my time writing, reading, crocheting, embroidering, drawing, sewing, procrastinating my school work, and complaining about everything under the sun.

Heres my pronoun page!

I post all my writing and various creations over on @pericreatesstuff and my ao3 is Peri_Writes

Sidenote: Guess who's officially a college student!!!! Finals season is murdering me brutally.

my writing blog is mostly unedited snippets, and my ao3 is either fully plotted and finished beta'd works... or smth i thought up at 3am wrote in one sitting and only proofread once.

I'm in way way way to many fandoms so heres an incomplete list:

Keep It Steady Podcast

Juno Steel (i just started season 4 no spoilers PLS )

pjo/hoo (I haven't read toa yet but its on my list)

kotlc

Kaleidotrope Podcast

Voltron (ik, i'm judging me too.)

bridge to terabithea

Atla

Daylight Shooting Star (if you know dss I am begging you to be my friend I have literally never met anyone else who's read it)

Marauders

Sk8 the infinity

Ohshc

The Sky Fall Trilogy by shannon messenger (once again if you've read it (and liked it) I am begging you to be my friend its so so underrated)

The Lost Books: Scroll of Kings (SO SO SO UNDERRATED)

I listen to way to much music way to often, heres some artists/bands i like: Set it off, pierce the veil, taylor swift, Fin (steffan argus), conan gray, PEGGY, olivia rodrigo, alec benjamin, one direction, Natalie jane, sadie jean, my chemical romance, fall out boy, NF, MARINA, Maren Morris, girl in red, melanie martinez, Avril Lavigne, Madonna, Ke$ha, little mix, Queen, Billy joel, Zara Larsson, Maisie Peters, Lauren spencer smith, ABBA, Jorge Rivera-Herrans, Sam Hunt, and literally so many more

and my tags:

#peri personal - just about everything not fandom related/interactions w people/my life

#peri complains - self explanatory really

#music rambles - rambling about music, mostly when new songs/albums come out

#allis adventures - various stuff about my sourdough! her full name is Allison Breadorthy and she is ALIVE

#baking Breadorthy - actually baking her ^

#peri crafts - self explanatory

#my memes - crappy memes i make, mostly reblogged from my writing blog

#writing related - self explanatory but its mostly me complaining about my fics, plot holes i find, and polls bc i'm indecisive

#friends <3 - my actual conversation style interaction with my mutuals

#lena and tim - my self indulgent au where Lena Luthor adopts Tim Drake after his parents die, the fic is being plotted currently. THE FIC IS CANCELED!!! LEX IS LENA'S BROTHER! LENA IS KON'S AUNT!! THE PLANNED TIMKON IS LEGAL INCEST! (why does this keep happening??? TvT)

#bravery points game - I've started playing a points game with my anxiety, where every time I do something that scares me/my anxiety told me would end in disaster I get a point! It's stupid but it's motivating, I'm being brave! (Even tho it's terrifying) I don't really have a points goal but I wanna try to get to 100 before the end of the year!

Thats all for now!! I'll probably update this once i realize i forgot smth tho

[my-castles-crumbling]

Swiftie Anon

Hi guys! I got an ask from an anon that might be triggering so I'm copy-pasting it here so I can put a 'read more' button. I'm naming them Swiftie Anon because they said Taylor really helped them.

TW: SH, SI

Hi Cas, hope you’re ok, because I sure as hell am not. Trigger warning, like mentions of self harm and stuff like that I think.

I’m a seventh grader and recently I’ve been thinking about killing myself a lot more than I usually do. During the pandemic I was in 3rd grade and I kinda realized how much life sucked, but when I went back to school in 5th grade, I realized that this hadn’t occurred to anyone else. I kind of brushed it off bc I’ve always been sort of a pessimist but then I sixth grade I started having suicidal thoughts, I think. I just felt really done with everything, I didn’t want to draw or read or write, and my parents were pissed all the time, it felt like my friends were bored of me (I have abandonment issues from all my friends in elementary school leaving me) (I think)and I thought it would just be easier to not exist anymore, it wasn’t that good. I discovered Taylor, the angel that she is, she just felt…like a friend, like she was right there, you know, and I’ve been mostly okay-ish since. But school fucking sucks and in 7th grade I had to do a presentation in front of my class and I started crying and hyperventilating, I couldn’t even stand up. I think I have anxiety idk. I’ve always been shy, and I’ve hyperventilated before when my parents were yelling at me about stuff and my arms started bleeding because I was digging my nails into them. My parents found out at conferences and I got grounded. my brother knows bc he walked in on me crying and hyperventilating once but he’s leaving for college next year and idk how the fuck I’ll stay together without him. My younger sister and I are really close, but I don’t want to drag her in onto this stuff. And ik once I get to high school it’ll be even worse bc high school sounds horrible and I might be all alone again bc I might not go to the same high school as my friends

I haven’t said a word about this to anyone voluntarily and I know I can’t tell my parents. I always lie on those surveys you get at the doctor, and my parents are always saying I should have a more positive outlook on life and try to be happier and it makes me so pissed bc I am trying as hard as I can to be happening but nothing fucking works.

idk what do with myself anymore, a teacher mentioned college today and I almost broke down sobbing bc I don’t think I’ll let myself live that long. It’s just…really hard and everyday feels like years. Should I tell someone? I’m not as bad as I was in 6th grade, but I know I should be getting help somehow. But I suck at asking for things and I can’t trust any adults.

sorry for the rant, I just need some advice. And a virtual, pat on the head or something, idk.

---

Hi hon!

First, (with your permission), I'm like to give you a virtual hug, because it sounds like you're dealing with a lot <3

I'm gonna be really real with you right now: You need to ask for some help. You have a lot going on, and some really heavy feelings, and you don't deserve to be dealing with them at ALL, let alone by yourself.

You're young, and you have SO MUCH life left to enjoy, and suffering through it like this isn't fair. So I'm going to share something about myself with you, okay?

When I was younger, I was very depressed. I was in a bad relationship and I felt very trapped, and I got to a point similar to you.

One day, I got so overwhelmed that I sort of realized that I either needed to ask for help or I would end up making a really bad decision. So, I asked for help.

Again, I'm going to be real: It was SUPER scary. I had to see a lot of doctors and I cried a lot. But after a lot of work, I was able to get better, and now, years later, I am in a (different) healthy relationship, and I have a job and a pet, and I'm here talking to you.

I know this sounds stupid because it's like some feel-good story and right now I'm sure you feel less than great. But I say this because you NEED to ask for help, even if it is difficult. Because there are real things past this feeling. A future job, a future relationship (if you want), a future pet, future kids (if you want). They're all very real and achievable and this feeling is temporary, even thought it feels so permanent right now.

So I'm going to give you some options, since it seems like you don't want to talk to your parents:

Talk to a doctor. Doctors are trained to help you, and they have a lot of resources.

Talk to a trusted teacher. Teachers can sometimes be amazing resources as well, and a lot of them want to listen when you ask to talk.

Talk to a different adult (aunt, uncle, coach, someone!) that you feel close to that will help.

Call/text/message a hotline. Here is an example of a hotline you can talk to via messaging, text, or phone, depending on what you prefer.

But you need to ask for help, because you DESERVE to be happy and living your best life.

It would make me super happy if you message/inboxed me an update, whether you're doing better, worse, or the same! I'm so proud of you for reaching out and I'm cheering you on!

[goddogcomplex]

Music: How To Listen

alright, you little goobers, its time to talk about music. what about it, you ask, in your tinny little voices. worry not, shark babies, i will tell you what. as an experienced music listener myself, i can understand that many of you babies are lost and confused. and its alright, okay? its easy to get lost in a world where taylor swift exists alongside as rammstein.

so, you're wondering--how do i get cool points through my music? firstly, dont do that. to get cool points, you ought not to seek cool points. but here are my music recs. probably none of these are underground and are actually pretty popular, but i do not accept bitter shark babies, only the sweet, joyful ones.

tldr: music recs for you desperate shark babies

p.s: I've added the link to all albums/artists at the bottom(mostly on spotify)

Radiohead: First, let me clarify, I am a girl. I've heard sooo many people make jokes about Ooh, Radiohead is for loser incel men. NO. radiohead is for all genders of incels. now, Radiohead's great. love them, make stickers of them. but what songs should you start out with? Ok, personally, I love everything. e v e r y t h i n g. but, I understand you may not be able to reach my levels of obsession and insanity. thats okay! it's not healthy! now, I recommend listening to them album-wise. start with either 'The Bends' or 'In Rainbows'. 'ok computer' is a solid choice too, but I would save it for later in your obsession. Have fun, my little shark babies, you will be sad. (Ik these are really basic and vague choices but these are recs for people seeking to get into new music)

Big Thief: Alright, chances are, many of you have heard them. If you have, gold star. ⭐. If you haven't, but you desperately crave the validation of me, a stranger and your shark mother, go listen to them. Right now, I love them. Again, they are a little bit slower and a little sadder. So, if that's not your thing, wait until later on the list, alright? If you're only starting to listen to them, I recommend going with one of their more popular albums--'Masterpiece'. They also have a single, 'Vampire Empire', which makes me go feral every time it plays. If you like the, keep exploring their discography, and come collect your gold star.

Le Tigre: Woah, nelly, this band. (who even is Nelly?) Okay, so Le Tigre has this wild ability of just filling me with a slight manicness, iykwim? I will bet 20 cents that you have heard Deceptacon(I'm broke), although you might not know the name. With them, just go to their profile on Spotify, play it on shuffle, and sacrifice your soul to the gods. Have fun, Pookie!

A Tribe Called Quest: As someone who listens to very little hip-hop, I have been told by my more cultured friends that this is hip-hop. I love it. So much. An album of theirs I adore is 'The Low End Theory' which has one of my favourite songs ever, 'Jazz We Got'

The Departures: Okay, these guys are genuinely unknown to the world. Like, they have some 5k listeners. I love them. They have a couple of albums, and you absolutely should go listen. They're kind of chaotic and messy and twirly, but in the best ways possible. Listen to the album 'Yes No Maybe' first, because it is the genuine love of my life. They also released an album this year, 'Hourglass' which is also seriously good. Like, really good.

my bloody valentine: NOW HEAR ME OUT. I understand that their name sounds like its a bunch of emo vampires who are really just middle schoolers with fake teeth on. So there's a genre of music called shoegaze(similar to Cocteau Twins if you know them) which is really just soft, kind of ethereal music where you can't really decipher the words. I will be making another post on just shoegaze, but their album 'loveless' is an excellent place to start. it's just great. go listen.

John Coltrane: Now, the only way to describe John Coltrane is a prayer through jazz. Like, it's a totally spiritual experience. Again, will be doing a little post on jazz, but John Coltrane is iconic. 'A Love Supreme' is a great place to start, I also like 'Ascension' Genuinely iconic, will alter your brain chemistry. Go, shark babes, listen.

Bikini Hill: If you liked Le Tigre's 'Deceptacon', you will love their 'Pussy Whipped'. Very similar vibe, I've been told its called riot girl, which sounds iconic. Anyways, seriously vibey music, go listen right this second.

The Newfound Interest in Connecticut: Y'all, midwest emo is my jam! I mean, whiny little voices in my ear, hell yeah! Okay, so Is specifically mentioned this band for their album 'Tell Me About The Long Dark Path Home', which is simply edible. Yeah, these guys like their long ass names. But anyways, go listen!!!

Minor Threat: These guys are punk. Listen to their album 'First Two Seven Inches'. it's a great place to start. If you like them, I will find some time to make a punk rec post too, but to be honest I need to explore the genre more. So y'all have fun now!

Okay, ten bands, guys. All iconic, if you ask me. Like I said, I'm going to be making a bunch more of these. Please, please, please, please, please send me recommendations, tell me what to write about, show me some love. accept me, good people, please. ANWYAYS, BYE BYE! MWAH! HAVE FUN!

LINKS:

'In Rainbows' by Radiohead:

'Masterpiece' by Big Thief(2023 remaster):

'Le Tigre' by Le Tigre:

'The Low End Theory' by A Tribe Called Quest:

'Yes No Maybe' by The Departures:

'loveless' by my bloody valentine:

'A Love Supreme' by John Coltrane:

'Pussy Whipped' by Bikini Hill:

'Tell Me About the Long Dark Path Home' by Newfound Interest in Connecticut:

'First Two Seven Inches' by Minor Threat:

[pardonmydelays]

what did you post about before watching hamilton and entering the world of lmm? (apart from taylor swift) (yes ik this is a lot of tyler now but still)

great question! a little bit of poppy lore for you, anon!

ok, so i actually joined tumblr in 2019 and yes, it was because of taylor (to be precise, it was because of this post, i saw a screenshot of it somewhere on instagram and it made me laugh so hard i decided to create an account), but not because she was active here back then, mostly because i never felt comfortable enough on any other social media platform and i was looking for a place to actually be online and talk to people, not just lurk. i remember i was also posting a lot about bastille, imagine dragons, lorde, once upon a time (tv series), it was a little bit of everything, honestly. and also a lot of memes. and it was chaos for such a long time, i wasn't even using tags back then so i don't think i would be able to find those posts now. then i changed my content completely in 2023 and i started posting about lmm/musical theatre in general and i believe i met most of my online friends during that time. then again i changed my entire personality in may when clancy came out.

i think the only sign of me being a clikkie was maybe one or two random twenty one pilots posts i reblogged back in 2022 after my concert. like i said before, i was never really loud about them online, i guess only 2-3 people actually knew i loved their music.

[ronnie-wood]

1, 5 and 8 for the rolling stones asks :)

how did you get into the rolling stones?

when i FIRST started listening to them seriously i was already into a bunch of classic rock bands so it was mostly because - c'mon, they're the rolling stones. i might as well see what the hype is all about. but it was ALSO out of spite lol i was SICK of hearing about the beatles and i thought brian jones had a better wardrobe than all of them LMAO. i will not stand for paul mccartney simps when mick jagger and charlie watts are RIGHT THERE. /hj (cue hatemail from overzealous beatles stans)

5. favourite albums?

THEIR SATANIC MAJESTIES REQUEST IS ONE OF THEIR BEST ALBUMS AND I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL. it's wonderfully experimental and strange and i wish they did more of that sound but ik the reception to it wasn't very good. :( iirc even peter gabriel liked TSMR.

I also REALLY like let it bleed and sticky fingers. Sway has a vicegrip on my mind rn. I also like to daydream about a 70s themed Journey to the West whenever i listen to Monkey Man. (yeah i'm chinese lmao)

8. favourite era?

ok musically, mick taylor era because im BASIC but also charlie had long hair during part of that era and i live for it

visually though? brian era. brian's wardrobe is basicallly the reason i was interested in the band lol. charlie also had long hair in part of it and it's great.

(charlie looks constantly DONE in these pics though hhahhhaaahah)

[conanssummerchild]

when you get this, put 5 songs you actually listen to, then publish. send this ask to 10 of your favourite followers. (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) ~

aw thank u for chosing me :DD i actually mostly only listen to taylor swift (unoriginal ik 😔) but i can dig a little deeper

ok ik i said id dig but timt is my fav ts song of all time so i had to start w/ it lol its very good and relatable also if u search long pond studios on yt taylor explains what its abt soso well i love her

this song is so mf good its ab like growing up and stuff idk how to explain it but listen to it trust me i love indie-ish music and literally anything by the aubreys scratches the itch (honourable mention to 'in the ground' also by the aubreys)

conan gray �� it took some hard thinking to pick a conan song but this is my fav on kid krow and it means so much to me idk i just love it. conan is the kinda music i listen to when im feeling melancholy (the aubreys too) cause i love taylor but i want smth more depressing sometimes lol (also yes this song is very byler sue me + the first verse i always think of madwheeler)

yes smalltown boy made the list 😔 i dont think this one needs much explanation i got introduced to it from mikes playlist (mikes bassment beats) and i relate bc he is so me

i really like the trees triology but trees II is my fav one (maybe j bc i grow attatched to songs ik how to play on guitar idk) this dudes style is kinda more like heavy idk how to explain it it just gets me feeling a certain kinda way (!! the first and second trees songs contain the f slur so if u dont wanna hear that dont listen !!)

anyway now yk i have questionable music taste but oh well. i love music i wouldve put a million other songs tbh anyway thx for the ask <33 :D

[thecardiganunderthebed]

from your pinned post<3

6, 9, 16, 24, 25, 34, 37, 52, 57, 61, 62, 63, 68, 69, 70<3

okokaokay, this is gonna be a long post huh

okay so first, i wanna die at an old age but doing something fun, like i want my grandkids to be able to say "oh our grandma? yeah she died at 86 while bungee jumping in the Maldives" or some shit

YES i bite my nails, its out of anxiety and also the only way i can stop is if i put nail polish on, but school's abt to start and they dont allow nail polish idk what I'm gonna do aha :')

i feel ready in this moment, idk i have things to do, i can do them, lessgoo mfs, yes thts how feel :)))

my best subjects are language and literature (ib students unite lmao), history and bio

yes i do miss ppl frm my past, dead or alive, its mostly me best friend from Bangalore, she was like my other half, genuinely we were platonic soulmates, idt ill find someone like her again <3 (i dont contact her much cause its like we never talk but if we meet in person ik we'll just pretend we have been seeing each other fr the past 6 years every day or sm shit)

my last dream.......i can't remember ehe <33

as our lord and saviour (taylor swift) once said, "You don't have to forgive and you don't have to forget to move on." and i live by that but overall its easier to just forget.

yes i do belive everything happens for a reason, it might be for good or for ill but everything happens because of something in the past or the future, i understand people who dont belive this but its just abt my personal values :]

yes i do belive in true love, hopeless romantic who? me bitch. me.

only in some circumstances i think its okay fr a person to call me baby, there's a time and place it think

a lot of things make me happy that's a whole 'nother post bestie <3 (u make me happy tho <333)

no i would not change my name :D

the last person i had a deep convo with was one of my best friends, she knows who she is ayyy

i belive there are multiple types of soulmates yes (again 'nother post fr 'nother day :)))

yes i would die fr some ppl

the longest ask i got yet, tysm fr askin and making my day better <333

[wolfstardaughter-jj]

Like fathers, like daughter

Summary: You're the daughter of the infamous Sirius Black and Remus Lupin. During your 3rd year at Hogwarts, your family finally reunites and none of you plan on separating any time soon.

Warnings: curse words

Song: Last time by Taylor Swift ft. Gary Lightbody

Word Count: 2.3k ik...it's long

A/n: Got the idea from @wolfstar-jegulus-shipper , and in truth, Harry really does need a happy childhood so here you go:)

Your fathers, Remus Lupin and Sirius Black were mostly seen as the outcasts of society. One being a werewolf and the other being a convicted murderer.

But that's not how you saw them. You saw them as the greatest people in the world who did everything in their power to stay alive and fight for what they believed in. And what they believed in was love.

You were only one when Sirius was taken away to Azkaban and when Remus lost you.

Saying you had a messy family History was an understatement.

But luckily for you, you had your aunt Andromeda and your cousin Tonks.

They took you in and took care of you. Stayed by your side and became your new family.

They also managed to let Remus visit and see you. Making sure to check in on you frequently. Your only wish was that you would get to be in the same house as him without having to go back to live with your relatives.

At some point Tonks introduced you to one of her closest friends, Charlie Weasley. You meet the Weasley Family and they become your 2nd family.

Your closest friend being Ron, you two were two peas in a pod. You would find every excuse to visit the Weasley's Burrow just to spend time together.

Eventually you two started your 1st year at Hogwarts after Tonks and Charlie graduated. You started the year with your best friend and you were happy.

You meet the famous Harry Potter and befriend him along with Hermione Granger.

You recognized Harry's last name not because of his title being "the boy who lived" but because of aunt Andy's stories of your fathers' adventures with a boy named James Potter.

Let's just say that your first two years at Hogwarts were the most chaotic years of your life. Emphasis on chaotic.

Through those years, you only grew closer to the three, especially Harry. He had grown to become your family, your brother.

Being Y/n Lupin-Black had its cons and pros. The cons being that some people would think that you were more like your imprisoned father.

In truth you were, you were confident, courageous and most of all, had a knack for pranking. But you were also like your lycanthropic father. You were intelligent, resourceful, and most of all, in love with books.

You made it your goal to prove all those people wrong. That you were more than what they saw you to be.

During your 3rd year, Remus steps into Hogwarts for the first time in years as not a student but a teacher. And not just that but he finally got to see you without the law having to interfere with your interactions. Meaning you got to see each other everyday and you cherished it completely.

Aside from having your father by your side, your other father managed to escape from Azkaban. It was like the universe was trying to push your family back together and you made sure to take advantage of it.

Which leads us to the moment where three of the friends had to witness their friend being dragged into a hole by a Black dog.

"NO! RON!"

You stood up as quickly as you could and attempted to jump down but the Willow suddenly came back to life and knocked you back.

You landed on your back with a loud thud. You winced at hard impact from the ground.

You stood up once more and realized that passing through this may be harder than you expected.

By some miracle you three eventually made it through with a few scratches and twigs stuck in your hairs but you made it through regardless.

"Where do you think this leads to?" Hermione asked.

"I have a hunch." You mutter.

As you expected, the tunnel led to the "most haunted house in London". In truth, it was the home to your father's full moon transformations during his time at Hogwarts.

You three climbed up the rickety flight of stairs that led to a whimpering Ron who was sitting on a moldy mattress that laid on the ground.

You ran towards him with haste, knowing full well that he was injured. The door surprisingly swung close causing all of you to turn around. There stood the man you've been waiting to see for 12 years.

"Papa…" you were speechless. You never thought that you would get to see him after all these years.

There he stood, all scuffed up in his Azkaban uniform. Covered in tattoos and smudges of dirt all over his clothes and body. His hair looked like he hadn't brushed in years. You guessed that's what Prison does to you for 12 years.

But you knew deep down that his heart couldn't have changed. No amount of time could change your father's heart into something it isn't.

You couldn't move or say anything, you were still processing it all. He too seemed speechless, looking into your eyes as if he was trying to find the words to say after 12 years of not seeing each other.

But the glint in his eyes said all that needed to be said.

You ran to him and pulled him into a hug. He hugged you with so much warmth, so much love. The love you've been waiting to feel for such a long time.

The trio witnessed a father and daughter finally reunite after years of being apart. They knew your thoughts and opinions on your father and believed you. Even without any proof on the matter, you kew your father was not what everyone said he was.

"My little wolf's all grown up." He whispered into your hair. His voice broke as he spoke, as if he was about to cry.

As you pulled away, you saw the tears that began to form in his eyes.

"You're here." You were starting to cry yourself. You still couldn't believe it.

He's here, he's really here.

"I am, little wolf. And I promise I won't ever leave you again, I won't let it ever happen again." He assured you.

Suddenly the door swung open to reveal your father, Remus. For a moment he stood there, trying to process what he was seeing. He honestly felt like he was dreaming.

Maybe it was the full moon closing in that night or the fact that he finally got to see his husband after 12 years of being apart. It was probably both but he didn't care, all he cared about was that Sirius was here, and he was okay.

The two slowly approached the other in caution, as if they were expecting the other to suddenly disappear.

Once they were finally facing each other, the two grinned happily.

“Looking rather ragged aren’t we?” Remus smirked. “Finally, the flesh reflects th madness within.”

Sirius chuckled lightly, “Well, you’d know all about the madness, wouldn’t you Remus?”

Remus shared a similar chuckle as he tackled Sirius into a tight hug. The two hugged for a moment but once they pulled apart, they pulled each other into a kiss.

The four teenagers stood there with somewhat shocked grins on their faces.

The two pulled away with blissful grins as they rested against each other's foreheads.

The two exchanged heartful whispers as they enjoyed the moment. Soon they pulled away and they focused back on the task at hand.

"I found him, Remus. I found Peter!" Sirius exclaimed.

"Yes, I know, Sirius. I know." Remus assured.

Harry walked up. He knew about the unfortunate demise of Peter Pettigrew. He wondered why would they bring up a dead man in the midst of their reunion.

"What do you mean 'I found Peter'? Isn't he dead?" Harry asked.

He held faith in Sirius and Remus because he trusted Y/n. And in his eyes, anyone Y/n trusts is someone he can trust too.

Remus and Sirius exchanged hesitant looks. How were they to explain to the boy that the true culprit of his parent's fate was the rat that sat on his red headed friend's lap.

Eventually the truth just began to spout out from Sirius's lips. Sirius had wanted to tell Harry so much of the truth that it ate at him for 12 years and now he finally got to do it.

And now everything was clear. The truth was finally brought into the light and it was blinding.

Now the only thing they had to deal with was the rodent that was practically shaking for its life.

But before they could even get their hands on him, the door flung open. This time revealing a very amused Snape.

Every fiber in his being has been wanting Sirius to be captured back into the Ministry's clutches so they could perform the infamous Dementors' kiss. And now, he had the honour of turning him in.

He had taken Sirius's wand from him, cornering Remus with his own. "Oh who knew revenge would be so sweet."

"Ah Severus, you still play with that chemistry set of yours?" Sirius teased as he walked back.

Remus insisted that he stop but Sirius didn't listen.

"No, Remus, I've got to know." Sirius replied as he turned to him.

Snape let out a scoff, "You two argue like an old married couple."

"Well, they technically are married." You added with a light shrug.

Snape sent you a harsh glare before facing the two adults once again. "It's quite satisfying that I will be the one handing you over to the Dementors."

"As if I'd let you do that." You spoke under your breath as you shot the stupify spell at your professor.

Everyone sent you shocked looks at the fact you had just stupefied your teacher across the room.

"What? You expect that I just stand here and let him take my dad after I just got him back? Who do you think I am?" You questioned as you were suddenly pulled into a hug from Sirius who was grinning, proud of his daughter's actions.

Eventually they were reminded of their specific predicament when Scabbers- or should I say Pettigrew, started to squirm in Ron's grasp.

They had transfigured him back into his human form. And let's just say no one enjoyed his presence.

"Oh Y/n, look how much you've grown!"

You cringed at the man as he began to come towards you.

"You wouldn't let them kill me would you? You were always nice to me as a rat." He pleaded.

"If it were up to me, I'd rather feed you to that Acromantula in the Forbidden forest." You stated as you shoved him back.

Sirius and Remus faced Harry as they pointed their wands at Peter.

"It's up to you, Harry." Sirius pointed out.

Harry was at a crossroads. Somewhere in him wanted to bring Peter to justice by killing but he knew that it would not clear Sirius's name if he was dead. So he knew the best thing was to let Peter get sent to Azkaban or get the Dementors's kiss.

"The dementors can have him."

And with that, all the colors left Pettigrew's face. Knowing a fate worse than death was upon him.

You pointed your wand at the man and casted the petrificus totalus spell to prevent him from getting away. You've got to be prepared at all times.

As you all walked down the tunnel that lead you back to the Whomping Willow, You were lost in conversation.

As Sirius told Harry that he was more than welcomed to stay with you guys after everything was over, you stopped in your tracks as you remembered the events that would occur that very night.

"Dad," You called out.

Both your fathers hummed in reply as they froze in their spots.

You turned to Remus with a worried look on your face. "Did you take your Wolfsbane potion?"

The look of realization settled on Remus's face as he remembered that he did take his potion but he had forgotten about the full moon because of all of the commotion.

"I did but you guys need go back to the castle. I'll go back to the shack." Remus said as he pushed through the group.

"But dad-"

A hand rested on your shoulder, you turned to see Sirius who had a comforting smile, "Don't worry, I'll be with him. You take your friend to the Hospital wing and Pettigrew to Dumbledore or McGonagall. Alright?"

You nodded as you watched the two run back towards the shack. They didn't want Remus to transform while they were still in the tunnel, that was the last thing they wanted.

"We'll see you in the morning!" Sirius yelled out.

"Stay safe please!" You yelled back.

"We promise we will!" Remus yelled in reply.

The four of you, along with petrified Peter, managed to get out and head back to the castle.

When McGonagall found all of you covered in dirt and scratches, she wondered what on Earth did you four managed to get caught up in again. That was until she saw Pettigrew and all the pieces fell into place.

All four of you explained the predicament and with Peter present. It was solid evidence that your father was innocent.

The next morning. Sirius returned with an exhausted Remus. Luckily, neither of them were harmed during Remus's most recent transformation.

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As promised, Harry did go to live with the Lupin-Blacks and he was happier than ever. He had finally found a place, other than Hogwarts and the Burrow, to call home and permanent family that loved him at an unmeasurable amount.

He had two amazing parents to look after him, along with you as his God sister. He couldn't ask for anything more because in truth, this was what he wanted all along. A loving family.

You were more than happy to finally be reunited with both your fathers. And though there was still many difficulties in the future. You were glad you had both them and brother by side to keep you afloat.