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AGAIN p.b x reader



Based on this request âĄ
summary: three weeks after breaking up with paige because of a really small nonsense reason,The both of you can't put aside the tension that have been lingering throughout the party.
warning: suggestive content 18+, alcohol.
bringing the glass of alcohol in your swollen lips, swollen from the fact you have been biting on it, to the point you can taste the metalic taste, so close for blood to draw out.
the glazing blue eyes that has been staring deeply to you across the room, the roaming change of lights fulfilling the atmosphere. and the feeling of your heart beating our of your chest.
you miss her so damn much.
Stealing glances towards your way while her circle of friends are gathered talking, paying no attention to what her friends are saying at all.
at this rate, its like your the only one in this room that mattered, her focus is directed at you.
"your such a fucking bastard!" you screamed at her face, and her tounge made its way to the side of her cheeks poking them
"i told you i wasn't flirting her, how many times are we going to argue over this?" she scoffed, her tone was more nonchalant and more like confident, but you know what you saw, she was smirking at that one girl and looking at her up and down, she was fucking checking her out.
"just stop lying! ugh! you know what? lets just fucking end this. go and fuck that stupid whore your so down with." you stepped back and crossed your arms as you notice paige's jaw is flexing
"are you serious? fuck whatever" she ran her fingers thru her hair and chuckled in disbelief making her way out taking a quick glance at you and back to the door outside
"you gotta be kidding me." she muttured under her breath and after that, the both of you never contacted each other, but its not really suprusing since the both of you are full of pride.
Did you really miss her? because the overwhelming tension between the shared glances says so, the knot deep in your stomach is confirming so.
your heart dropped when she started walking towards you, you really didn't expect this. as the both of you are closer to each other, you can clearly see the color in her cheeks and her eyebrows furrowed.
"hey..." her voice was raspy and quiet, you tilt your head to meet her gaze and she gave you a tired smile
"why are you all alone?" she asked voice gentle, but the akwardness in the air is noticeable
"well...." you played with your pinky finger and looked down humming
. . .
you dont know how the hell you got here. paige was gripping on your hair pressing her body on your kissing you deeply, her teeth grazing on your bottom lip as you moaned
she fiddled with her hotel key and finally inserted the right one, pushing the both of you inside and quickly pushing you to the door her kisses getting rough, this made you slowly push her breathing heavily "paige....sto.. much.." you breath out and she placed both her hands on either side of your cheeks
"im sorry...just missed you so much, fuck..." she leaned down slowly this time her kisses tender and passionate, finally feeling the love in it, then she pulled away to whisper
"did you miss me too baby..?" you nodded breathing heavily "yes...yes..." you felt her nod and placed her lips on the side of your neck her hands massaging your hips gently
she held your hand slowly dragging you to her bed not removing her gaze on you, she layed you down on her bed and got on top of you biting her lip
she moved a strand of your hair and caressed your cheeks
"your so pretty you know? couldn't keep my eyes off you.." she kissed your jaw making you shiver
"paige..." you cried out and wrapped your arms around the back or her neck
"hmmm???" she hummed and kissed your forehead slowly lifting your shirt removing in one swift
"need you..." she sighed amused at you and bit her lip clicking her tounge
"im here baby..." she cooed her fingers rubbing your cunt thru your shorts and you moaned bucking your hips up
you swear you heard her quietly whimper so you opened your eyes to look at her, her cheeks was flushed, eyes half lidded, and mouth slightly open, at this point it looks like shes the one being fucked
"oh my gosh babe....need me that much..?" you took a deep breath frowning
"need you so damn much..." you confessed and she rubbed your bottom lip with her thumb
"yeah? me too babe..m so fucking much.." she leaned down to kiss you again softer than usual, her fingers reaching your waistband pulling them down with ease
"holy fuck- paige..." your hands reach her way to her hair gripping on it and she squirmed softly
her hands massaged your clit thru your panty and you frowned needing more
"want more..." you groaned and pouted and she chuckled
"patience babe." she growled softly her hot breath on your neck
"fuck." she pulled down your panty seeing your soaking wet she cant help but pout
"how have you been dealing with this without me?" your jaw clench getting unpatient
"i fuck myself" you retored brows furrowing and she gently gripped your jaw
"now im here.. you will never do that shit again got it?" she growled and you nodded in respone
"good" she breath out and she started rubbing your clit feeling the wetness and she sighed shaking her head amused
"your this wet?" you whined nodding bucking your hips more and she pushed your hips back down
"let me do the work baby..." you looked at her nodding again and she started sliding her finger inside you slowly making sure to reach very deep her palm pressed to your clit
"holy shit..." you moaned throwing your head back your grip on her hands tighter
she pressed her forehead on yours feeling her hot breath on your face
"i love you so much you know that right...? i need you everyday..." her words are like affirmation that slid in your heart while her fingers work inside you
unable to form a word staying quiet your muffled "yes" followed by a whimper was all she could her but was enough for her.
her pace was gentle, but felt so fucking good.
her kisses would start your cheeks, jaw, corner of your lips, and corner of your eyes and the loop continues
"aww fuck paige..." you moaned again and she curled her fingers inside you her pace starting to get more faster because your thighs are now pressing together, but her right leg stopped you from doing so
"paige please..." you whimpered as you are now so close to reaching your climax and paige is aware of this speeding up her fingers
"yes baby i know" she whispered, starting to slow down her pace when she felt the warm sticky liquid coming out of you
"fuck damn.." she muttured and looked at you while you catch your breath after reaching your climax
she sucked her fingers while you watched a small soft smile creeping on her face
"i love you."
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#lesbian#wlw#wlw smut#paige bueckers#paige bueckers smut#paige bueckers x reader#paige x reader#paige bueckers fanfic#uconn wbb#wbb
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Buddie Drabble just because
idk you guys this one came to me in the shower like two hours ago and here it is:
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Carrying two drinks, typically, is an easy enough task. Carrying two drinks through a crowded club is a slightly more challenging task, but one Buck prides himself on excelling at (because how shitty of a bartender would he have been if he hadnât been able to manage that?). Carrying two drinks once he notices Eddie rolling his hips in time with the bass-heavy beat of the music as sweat drips down his neck, is fucking impossible. Buck walks directly into someone who wasnât even in the way, spilling his drinks all over both of them.
âOh fuck, Iâm so sorry,â he hisses, grabbing napkins from a nearby table and thrusting a handful at the stranger.
âItâs okay,â they laugh, before gesturing to Eddie. âHeâs one hell of a distraction.â
âYeah,â Buck replies, eyes narrowing and a hot flash of jealousy washing over him. âPretty sure heâs not here looking for anything, though.â
âMoving like that? No ring on his finger? Youâre full of shit,â the stranger scoffs. Buck straightens himself up and rolls his shoulders back, forgetting about the sticky liquid soaking into his own shirt. âTwenty bucks says he comes home with me.â
âIâm not taking that bet,â Buck sighs. âHeâs -â
âWhat, you donât think you could get him? You scared itâd crush your little ego?â
âNo, I think youâd be left emotionally devastated as you watch me lead him out the door,â Buck smirks.
âForty bucks,â the moron offers. âAnd you can go shoot your pathetic little shot first.â
âMake it fifty,â Buck counters. âTen seconds to shoot your shot. You go first.â
âYouâre an idiot. Get ready to lose your money and your dignity,â they laugh, weaving through the crowd to approach Eddie. Buck watches as they walk up to Eddie, sliding their hand down his arm. He feels vindicated as Eddie immediately shrugs them off and steps away from them. Buck can see the dickhead trying to whisper in Eddieâs ear and absolutely cackles as Eddie physically pushes them away. Defeated, the loser makes their way back towards Buck scowling.
âGuyâs an asshole,â he complains. âWho the fuck comes to a club and dances like that if they donât want anyone to even fucking talk to them?â
âNormal people? Who the fuck comes to a club and thinks they have the right to touch people without their consent?â Buck all but yells. âSorry not sorry you lost, though. Get that fifty out for me, will you?â
âYeah good luck,â the bitch mocks as Buck weaves through the crowd. Eddie has stepped off the dancefloor and is scanning the crowd, presumably trying to find out where the fuck Buck is with their drinks.
âHey,â Buck shouts to him over the music. âThis place kind of sucks, you want to get out of here?â
âGod yes,â Eddie replies. âIâm starving, letâs swing through a drive-thru?â
âSounds good,â Buck grins as Eddie settles his hand on the small of Buckâs back and starts guiding him to the exit, right past Buckâs new nemesis who is begrudgingly holding the money out.
âHow the fuck -â they huff as Buck snatches the fifty dollar bill out of their hand.
âI was hoping for a little more devastation on your face, but this crisp fifty is going to pay for our Uber back to my place. Good enough for me,â Buck smirks, blowing a kiss to the person he hopes to never see again as Eddie takes his hand and tugs him towards the exit.
âThe fuck was all that about?â Eddie asks.
âOh, they bet me fifty bucks they could get you to go home with them,â Buck tells Eddie as they step into the cool night air. Eddie stops dead in his tracks and levels Buck with an exasperated look.
âBuck, weâre married,â he groans, eyes fond and warm.
âThey didnât know that,â Buck shrugs with a gleeful grin as the tugs the chain holding Eddie's St. Christopher medal and wedding ring out from underneath his shirt, then pulls out his own. âAnd now they've paid for our dinner.â
âYouâre a fucking crazy person,â Eddie snorts, pulling Buck in for an absolutely filthy kiss.
âIâm your fucking crazy person,â Buck murmurs into Eddieâs mouth.
âWouldnât have it any other way,â Eddie sighs, pressing one last kiss to Buckâs lips as they head for the car.
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⢠: NEED TO KNOW â
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ËËË ę° synopsis ęą ËËË the x-ĂŤxø guys wanna see what that cute lil human cooter is really capable of. each of them has their own vibe, their own way of wrecking you, and once theyâve got you⌠thereâs no getting away. đ˝đŤđ so, whoâs it gonna be?
ËËË ę° content ęą ËËË 18+/mdni. 14k+ words (baĂŤkhyun's is the longest i'm so sorry). separate pairings. fem!reader. i'm ngl to u this is just straight up smut for the most part. explicit language. pussydrunk men. degradation. praise. pet names. talking u thru it. dark themes: obsession and possessiveness. brat-taming. powerplay. manhandling. biting. marking. pheromone kink. size kink. choking. spanking. chains. oral. use of their powers hehe (except junmyeon + yixing). p in v. creampies. overstim. aftercare. raw and fuckn ROUGH juseyooo <3
ËËË ę° a/n ęą ËËË âi don't play w my pen. i mean what i write!â ;) omg so i was deep in a doja cat mv binge the other day when this one came on and i was like ??? 𫦠what an insane concept !!! inspired. got to cooking. now here we are <333 anywhoooo, happy monday !!!!!! hope u enjoy this and as always, lmk what u think đđđđđđđđ MWAH! đ

⢠kÄi
âi don't really got no type. i just wanna f*ck all night!â
the bass thrums through your body, a steady pulse that matches the rhythm of your hips as you grind back against him, your ass pressing into the hard line of his cock. kÄi's hands grip your waist, fingers digging into your flesh, his breath warm against the shell of your ear.
âyouâre playing a dangerous game,â he rasps, voice thick with restraint, but you can feel how badly he wants to snap, to take you right here in the middle of the club. you smirk, rolling your hips again, feeling the way he stiffens behind you, a curse slipping past his lips.
âtake me home, then,â you purr, glancing at him over your shoulder.
before you can blink, reality shifts, the thumping bass disappearing as the world blurs and twists. the next thing you know, youâre in a dimly lit penthouse, city lights sprawling beneath you. kaiâs body is already pressing into yours, hands greedy, mouths colliding in a desperate, open mouthed kiss as you claw at each other, tugging at clothes like theyâre offensive barriers.
âiâve been waiting for you all fuckinâ night,â he groans against your lips, teeth grazing over your lower one before sucking it into his mouth. his hands are everywhere, roaming, squeezing, claiming.
âdidnât think iâd be your type,â you tease between kisses, nipping at his bottom lip.
kÄi lets out a dark chuckle, lifting you effortlessly as he carries you deeper into the room, âyou think iâd let just anyone make me this fucking desperate?âÂ
his free hand slides down your stomach, pressing lower, fingers slipping and dragging over the damp heat of your soaked panties. his breath catches, his entire body tensing as his fingers glide through the slick mess between your thighs.
âfuck,â he grits out, his hips rolling forward against you on pure instinct, letting you feel just how hard he already is. âyouâre so wet for me already, baby. so fuckinâ ready.â
you struggle to catch your breath, still lightheaded from his grip, from the way his fingers move against you, teasing, barely touching, driving you insane. your body bucks against his, chasing friction, chasing more, but he just smirks, pulling away, leaving you gasping.
âkÄiââ
âtell me you want me, baby.â his voice darkens, rough with warning, with command.
his fingers press in, slow, teasing, pushing just enough to make you whimper, to make you desperate.
âiâi want you,â you whisper, voice shaky, barely able to form the words past the heat crawling up your throat.
kÄi curses under his breath, his body shuddering, his hand tightening on your throat for just a second, just enough to make your knees weak.
his arm releases you just enough for him to shove you forward, forcing you on to your hands and knees. his hand presses between your shoulder blades, pushing your chest down, forcing you into the mattress, keeping your ass high in the air.
his palm drags over your skin, slow, teasing, over the curve of your ass, down to where youâre already soaked, already throbbing for him.
âlook at you,â he breathes, his voice drenched in hunger, in possession. âyouâre fucking shaking.â
his fingers glide through the slick between your thighs, teasing, never giving you enough.
âso needy. so fuckinâ desperate. arenât âcha, baby?â
his palm cracks down against your ass, sharp, punishing, making you jolt forward with a strangled gasp.
kÄi just smirks, rubbing over the sting, soothing only to tease.
âyou gonna take it like a good girl?â
you nod frantically, breathless, your fingers clenching in the sheets, already wrecked from just his touch.
kÄi groans, low and deep, his head tilting back, his body shaking with restraint. âgoodââcause âm not stoppinâ till you canât walk.â
he doesnât give you another second to prepareâheâs already lining himself up, already dragging the thick head of his cock through your sloppy folds, already pushing inside.
your body tenses, a broken gasp spilling from your lips as he stretches you open, forcing you to take every inch.
kÄi hisses through his teeth, his fingers digging into your hips, holding you still, making sure you feel every inch of him sinking into you.
âthatâs it, baby,â he grits out, voice hoarse, thick with pleasure. âtake it. take all of it.â
his head drops forward, his lips parting around a guttural moan, his chest rising and falling in ragged breaths.
you feel so fucking goodâ he canât think, canât breathe, canât do anything but fuck you.
his hips snap forward, hard, deep, forcing your body up the bed, forcing a sharp, choked-off moan from your throat.
his fingers tighten on your waist, anchoring himself, losing himself, fucking into you with sharp, brutal thrusts.
your moans shatter into something helpless, something completely wrecked.
kÄi feels it all. he feels the way your walls clench, flutter, squeeze him like you never want to let him go. he feels the way your legs tremble beneath him, the way your nails dig into the sheets, the way your moans break into sobbed-out gasps, too much, too good, too deep.
âfuckââ
the groan rips from his throat, deep and ragged, breaking apart as his head drops forward, damp hair falling into his eyes, sweat dripping down his temple, chain swaying against your back with every sharp snap of his hips.
his hands slide down, rough and desperate, gripping your waist, his fingers pressing bruises into your skin, holding you there, pulling you back onto him, making you take every inch, forcing you to feel just how desperate he is.
heâs already too deep, too wrecked, too far gone. his jaw clenches, his breath stuttering, his thighs flexing beneath you as he fights for control, fights to hold himself together, fights the need to cum too fast because you feel too fucking good.
and thenâyou move.
your hips roll, slow and deliberate, fucking yourself onto him, making him feel every single inch, squeezing him tight, dragging him in deeper.
kÄi freezes.
his grip tightens, sharp inhale cutting through the heavy air, his body tensing behind you.
and then he snaps.
his hands fly to your hips, fingers digging in, nails pressing deep, holding you down as he fucks into you with sharp, punishing thrusts, forcing a wrecked sob from your lips.
âholy shitââ his voice is hoarse, ruined, completely unraveling.
his rhythm stumbles, pace turning rougher, harder, deeper. he's fucking you like he needs it, like heâs lost in it, like youâve just pushed him over the edge and now he canât stop.
his fingers slip between your thighs, finding your clit, rubbing slow, teasing circles, the contrast between the rough snap of his hips and the slow, torturous pleasure of his fingers making your body shake.
âgonna make you all fuckinâ mine, baby,â he grits out, hips snapping, faster, deeper, unrelenting.
your body locks up, shatters, pleasure slamming into you so hard your breath cuts off, leaving you gasping, shaking, sobbing his name.
he feels you tightening, pulsing, trembling beneath him, and it ruins him.
his hands fly up, grabbing your shoulders, dragging you back onto him, meeting you thrust for thrust, slamming so deep you swear you can feel him everywhere.
his breath stutters, groan breaking into something raw, something desperate. his forehead presses into the back of your neck, his lips dragging over your sweat-damp skin, panting, shaking, completely fucking wrecked.
his hips roll forward, pressing in deep, grinding so slowly it makes your head spin. you jolt, breath catching, a broken little whimper spilling from your lips as the overwhelming sensation crashes through you.
kÄi groans, his head dropping forward, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear, damp dark green hair sticking to his forehead.
âso sensitive already?â he taunts, voice mocking, playful, so damn smooth it makes your stomach tighten. âbut weâve barely started.â
your breath stutters, body trembling, pleasure crackling through your veins like fire.
âkÄi, sâtoo much!â you gasp, the sound breathless, desperate, wrecked beyond repair.
he grins against your skin, his fingers tightening on your hips, his grip bruising, unrelenting.
and thenâyou try to shift.
just the smallest movement, a desperate attempt to pull away from the overstimulation, from the way heâs pressing so deep, from the way your body is still pulsing around him.
but heâs not having it.
his arm slides around your waist, yanking you back, shoving you down, holding you in place.
âoh, no, baby,â he coos, voice dripping with amusement, with dominance. âwhere do ya think youâre going?â
his free hand trails down your stomach, teasing, fingertips dragging over your trembling thighs before pressing between them, parting them wider.
âyou can keep going.â his voice is low, commanding, drenched in certainty. âyouâre still drippinâ fâmeâfuck, look at you, baby.â
your lashes flutter, eyes hazy, dazed, barely able to focusâbut then he forces you to look.
his hand slips under your chin, tilting your head down, forcing your gaze between your legs, forcing you to see exactly how much of a mess youâve made.
and fuckâheâs right.
your slick coats your thighs, dripping down your skin, pooling onto the sheets beneath you, messy, obscene, proof of just how wrecked you are, proof of how much you love this.
kÄi groans, voice low and wrecked, completely undone.
âshit, babyââ his fingers dig deeper into your skin, his cock twitching inside you at the sight. âshe still wants me, huh?â
his hips pull back, dragging out slow, teasing, before slamming forward again, making you cry out, making your body arch beneath him.
his hands grip your hips, flipping you effortlessly onto your back. your breath stumbles, body shifting, legs instinctively parting as he settles between them, his weight pressing down, his chest hot against yours.
his eyes meet yours, dark and blown-out, filled with something ravenous.
âgonna watch you, baby,â he murmurs, dragging his lips along your jaw, voice molten against your skin. âgonna watch every fucking second while i fill you up.â
his fingers wrap around the backs of your knees, pushing them up, bending you in half, folding you under him until your ankles hook over his shoulders.
mating press.
deep. suffocating. brutal.
his next thrust knocks the breath from your lungs, the angle hitting so perfectly, so mercilessly, that your head tips back, a wrecked moan spilling past your lips.
kai groans, grinding forward, rolling his hips, pressing deeper, chasing the way you tremble beneath him, the way you clench around him.
âfuckââ his voice is wrecked, breathless, completely gone. âya feel that? feel how deep i am, baby?â
his hands grip the backs of your thighs, holding you still, keeping you open, keeping you exactly where he needs you.
his lips drag along your ear, voice rough and commanding.
âgonna fuck my cum so deep inside you, youâll still feel me tomorrow.â he pants, hips snapping forward, grinding deep, making you take it.Â
his words send heat pooling in your stomach, twisting tighter, unbearable, your body teetering on the edge.
âyou gonna cum again, baby?â his tone is mocking, but desperate, hungry, like he wants it just as much as you.
you nod, gasping, shaking, barely able to hold on.
kÄi groans, his hands slipping down to your stomach, pressing down, feeling himself inside you, pushing even deeper.
âthatâs right, baby,â he breathes, his lips brushing against yours, sweat-damp and feverish. âgimme another one.â
your body shudders, pleasure tearing through you like wildfire, your breath catching, back arching, thighs trembling as you break beneath him.
kÄi moans, long and low, feeling every pulsing squeeze of your walls, every desperate tremor of your body, every fucking aftershock of your orgasm rolling through you.
âfuck, babyââ his voice is wrecked, almost hoarse, his breath catching. âgonnaâfuckââ
his hips stutter, slam forward, grind deep, and thenâ
he breaks.
his jaw goes slack, his body locks up, his cock twitches inside you, and then heâs spilling deep, hips jerking through every thick pulse of his release, filling you up, stuffing you full, keeping you there, keeping you under him, keeping himself buried inside you as he groans through the aftershocks.
his forehead drops against yours, damp hair sticking to his skin, his breath uneven, his body trembling.
âholy shit,â he exhales, his voice barely there, soft and wrecked and completely lost.
his hands slide over your thighs, up your sides, up to your face, his fingers tracing over your jaw, soft, slow, reverent.
his lips skim against yours, lazy, claiming, pressing in deeper, messier, letting you feel exactly how wrecked he is.âyouâre mine,â he whispers, voice still shaking. âand iâm not fuckinâ done with you yet.â
⢠chanyeøl
âyour eyes told me, âgirl, come ride me!ââ
he canât move.
his wrists are bound to the headboard, silver chains stretching taut, clinking against metal every time he tugs. every sharp movement makes them rattle, the sound cutting through the thick, heated air, a constant reminder that heâs helpless beneath you. his arms flex with the effort, biceps straining, veins prominent beneath flushed, sweat-damp skin, muscles coiled so tight itâs agonizing. tension rolls through his body in suffocating waves, every nerve set alight, every inch of him aching, burning, starving for more.
and you? youâre fucking killing him.
straddling his lap, hips rolling in slow, torturous circles, your body moving with deliberate cruelty. the drag of your slick heat around his cock is exquisite, unbearable, devastating. you keep it agonizingly slow, a teasing rhythm that drives him insane, that keeps him hanging on the edge but never lets him fall.
he feels everything.
the way your walls clench and flutter every time you shift, the slick warmth of you wrapped so tight around him, the delicious friction that makes his breath stutter and his fingers twitchâexcept he canât touch you.
he can only watch. only feel. only suffer.
his pink hair is damp with sweat, messy strands sticking to his forehead, his cheeks flushed, lips parted around ragged breaths. his chest rises and falls in sharp, uneven motions, every exhale shuddering through him like heâs barely holding it together.
his eyesâheavy-lidded, dark, desperateâstay locked onto you, filled with frustration, hunger, something utterly feral.
you grind down just a little harder, squeeze just a little tighter, let a slow, knowing smirk curl your lipsâ
and chanyeøl groans, head pressing back into the pillows, jaw clenched so tight it aches.
âbaby,â he grits out, voice wrecked, deep, thick with warning. âstop fuckinâ teasinâ me.â
but you only tilt your head, lashes low, lips curling into something playful, something cruel, something that lets him know youâre not stopping anytime soon.
âwhy would i stop?â you murmur, voice sweet, teasing, soaked in mischief.
your fingers trail down his chest, slow, deliberate, nails scraping lightly over the firm planes of muscle, tracing along every dip, every ridge. the moment you reach his abs, you press down just slightly, feeling the way they clench, the way his entire body tightens, the way his breath shudders out of him in something between a groan and a curse.
but youâre not in a hurry.
your nails drag lower, teasing over his stomach, feeling the heat radiating off his skin, feeling every single slight tremor that runs through him.
thenâyou reach for the candle.
the wax is molten, thick and slow-moving, swirling in liquid fire within its glass prison. your fingers curl around it, lifting it carefully, tilting it just enough to let a single droplet gather at the edgeâ
and then it falls.
chanyeøl sucks in a sharp breath, every muscle in his body locking up as the wax splashes against his skin. it sears hot for the barest second before cooling, solidifying into something firm and unyielding, a mark of your control, your dominance, your ownership over him.
his breath stutters, his fingers flex, the chains rattling violently as he fights against them.
but heâs not fighting you.
no, he wants more.
you see it in his eyes, dark and blown-out, see it in the way his lips part, the way his thighs tense beneath you, the way his entire body reacts to the sensation.
so you give it to him.
another drip.
then another.
each one landing lower, dragging down his stomach, tracing the ridges of his muscles, painting a sinful path that has him breathing ragged, has him groaning deep in his chest, has him losing himself completely beneath you.
âyou like that?â you whisper, voice nothing but a breath of air against his sweat-damp skin.
his jaw clenches, his hips bucking up instinctively, seeking more, needing more, but the chains keep him still, keep him bound, keep him at your mercy.
his pink hair is an absolute mess now, wild and untamed, sticking to his forehead in damp strands, his entire body slick with sweat, his skin gleaming beneath the dim candlelight.
and god, he looks fucking ruined.
but not enough.
you drag the candle higher, letting it hover over his chest, watching the way his abs clench, the way his fingers twitch, the way his lips part like heâs about to begâ
but thenâ
the chains snap.
heat surges, an overwhelming wave of raw power bursting from within him, and before you can react, before you can even blink, his wrists are free, silver links falling uselessly to the mattress, charred, burned through like they were never meant to hold him in the first place.
your breath catches.
the candle tumbles from your grip, caught effortlessly by his hand before it can spill another drop.
then his hands are on your hips, a bruising grip of pure desperation as he yanks you down onto him. no hesitation, no warningâjust pure, raw need. his breath is ragged, his chest heaving, his entire body trembling with restraint, with need, with something dark and insatiable.
âya really thought you could tease me like that?â his voice is a growl, low and wrecked, thick with amusement, thick with something more dangerous. âthought you could fuckinâ break me?â
his hips grind against yours, slow, deliberate, making you feel every thick, heavy inch of him pressing against your core, making you tremble, making you whimper, making you realizeâ
youâve lost control.
chanyeøl smirks, lips curving into something dark, something devastating, something that promises youâre not leaving this bed without remembering who he is.
âmy turn, baby.â
his grip is brutal, unrelenting, a bruising force of raw hunger and pent-up aggression. his fingers sink into the soft flesh of your hips, digging deep, holding tight, dragging you down with such devastating strength that the air gets knocked from your lungs the moment he slams you onto his cock.
you choke on a gasp, body seizing, nails clawing at his arms, your mind struggling to catch up with the sheer force of himâ
but he doesnât give you time.
doesnât give you room to process the way he stretches you open, the way he fills you so deep you swear you can feel him in your fucking stomach.
he breathes, voice wrecked, thick with relief, with amusement, with something darker. his pink hair is a mess, sweat-damp and wild, strands sticking to his forehead, his cheeks flushed, his lips parted around heavy, uneven breaths.
his hands tighten, nails pressing into your skin, his grip so firm you know youâll feel it tomorrow, know youâll wake up with marks of his desperation painted across your body.
he keeps you there, keeps you pressed against him, keeps you right where he wants you, caging you in with his heat, his size, his overwhelming presence.
his smirk is devastating, nothing but pure sin, sharp edges and dark amusement curving his lips as he tilts his head, as his breath spills hot against your mouth.
âya wanted to ride me?â his voice drips with something dangerous, something mocking, something completely and utterly in control. âthen fucking ride.â
his hips snap up, sharp and unrelenting, the sheer force knocking the breath from your lungs, punching a strangled gasp from your throat, sending your body jolting from the impact. the air leaves you in a shuddering exhale, your moan breaking into something fractured, something wrecked, something high and breathless, barely coherent over the ruthless slap of skin against skin.
your vision blurs at the edges, a hazy, pleasure-drunk mess, the world narrowing to nothing but the overwhelming sensation of himâhis hands on you, his cock buried so fucking deep inside you, his breath against your throat, the sound of his groans rasping against your skin, the desperation coating his every movement.
you try to move, try to match his pace, try to meet the brutal snap of his hips, but he doesnât let youâdoesnât give you room, doesnât give you control. your nails sink into his shoulders, clawing at him, grasping at the sweat-slicked muscle beneath your fingers, searching for something to hold onto, something to ground you. but chanyeøl doesnât give you that either.
he doesnât give you a choice.
his grip tightens, fingers digging in, palms spreading wide across your waist, holding you down, keeping you locked against him, keeping you exactly where he wants you. his thrusts turn ruthless, merciless, slamming up into you so hard you swear you can feel him everywhere, every thick inch stretching you, pressing into every devastating spot that has your body convulsing, your thighs trembling, your stomach tightening.
heâs completely lost now. completely feral. completely gone.
his moan rips through the room, raw and guttural, nothing but pure wreckage, his chest heaving, his body trembling, his muscles flexing beneath your fingers as his rhythm falters for just a secondâjust long enough for him to collect himself, to gather what little restraint he has left.
âthatâs it, baby,â his voice is wrecked, shaking, breaking apart on every syllable, pure desperation dripping from his tongue. âtake itâfuck, take all of it.â
his teeth find your throat, grazing, dragging over the flushed, heated skin, nipping and sucking, leaving bruises in his wake, marking you as his. his lips travel lower, over the curve of your shoulder, along your collarbone, pressing open-mouthed kisses between every sharp, gasping inhale. his breath is hot, uneven, barely controlled, every exhale ghosting over your skin like heâs worshipping the way you fall apart for him.
âgod, you feel so fucking good.â
his voice drops to a whisper, hoarse and trembling, more for himself than for you. his hips grind forward, deep, slow for just a moment, dragging out the sensation, pressing into you so perfectly, pushing against that one spot that makes your back arch, that makes your walls flutter, that makes you gasp out his name like a prayer.
he chucklesâlow, teasing, smugâbut thereâs no steadiness to it, no confidence, just something wrecked, something helpless, something fucking lost in you.
âgonna make you cum all over my cock just like this, baby.â
his pace stutters, sharp, erratic, his control slipping, his own pleasure climbing too fast, too high, too much.
âfuckââ his moan is low, guttural, his head falling back, pink hair damp with sweat, strands sticking to his forehead, clinging to his temples, his entire body gleaming, flushed, overheated.
his hands slide down your waist, palms pressing into your stomach, holding you still, anchoring you to him as he grinds into you, as he feels you squeeze around him, as he feels you unravel.
his voice is a whisper, breathless and ruined.
âyou gonna cum for me?â
your body locks up, muscles tightening, thighs clenching, every nerve in your body winding tighter and tighter, the pleasure swelling inside you, mounting, consuming.
ây-yes!â
your voice breaks, your hands gripping onto him, onto anything, onto whatever will keep you grounded as the pressure twists in your gut, as it builds too high, too fast, too fucking overwhelming.
chanyeøl groans, a low, drawn-out sound, his chest rumbling against yours as he dips his head, lips dragging along your jaw, breath hot against your ear.
his fingers slip between your thighs, sliding against your clit, rubbing in tight, perfect circles, relentless, knowing exactly how to ruin you, knowing exactly how to make you break.
his pace turns frantic, desperate, his thrusts losing rhythm, losing precision, his body trembling as he chases your pleasure, as he chases his own.
âthen cum, babyââ his voice is a command, low and rough, breath catching as he feels your walls pulse around him, as he feels you tense, as he feels you start to fall apart.
and fuckâ you do.
the pleasure slams into you like a shockwave, too much, too strong, so intense your entire body locks up, a choked sob ripping from your throat as you shudder, convulse, lose yourself in the heat, the overwhelming flood of sensation crashing over you in waves.
your nails dig into his back, raking down the sweat-slicked muscle, clutching at him like heâs the only thing tethering you to the earth. your walls tighten, pulse, clench around him in desperate aftershocks, and you swear you can hear the way he chokes on his next breath, the way his body seizes beneath you, the way he completely fucking loses it.
âoh my godââ your voice breaks, barely even words, nothing but breath and sound and wreckage. âso deepâfuck, yeølâfeels so good! feels too fuckinâ goodââ
chanyeøl curses, deep and filthy, a ragged groan ripped straight from his chest, shaking beneath you, trembling, muscles flexing and tightening like heâs on the very edge of ruin.
âjesus fuckinâ christ, babyââ his voice is barely a whisper, barely human, hoarse and guttural, completely wrecked.
his hands are everywhere, gripping your waist, your hips, your thighs, as if he canât decide where he wants to hold you, where he wants to feel you, if he even wants to hold on at all or if he just wants to let go, let himself completely fucking break.
âshitâ" he gasps, voice catching, his hips faltering, losing rhythm, losing control.
he feels everything. every flutter, every squeeze, every pulsing, desperate grip of your gummy walls dragging him deeper, milking him, pulling him under.
his head tilts back, jaw slack, eyes fluttering shut as his entire body locks up and thenâhe shatters.
his moan is long, drawn-out, completely destroyed, something between a groan and a plea, something raw and helpless, something utterly fucking wrecked.
his hips stutter, slam forward one last time, pressing deep, grinding as his cock pulses inside you, as he spills hot and thick, filling you, stuffing you full, making sure you feel it, making sure heâs buried so deep you wonât be able to forget it.
his fingers tighten, gripping you like he never wants to let go, like he wants to stay right here, like heâs trying to mold himself to you, like this is the only thing that makes sense anymore.
his breath stumbles, uneven gasps falling from his lips, his forehead pressing against your shoulder, his entire body trembling beneath yours.
your hands slide up into his hair, fingers threading through damp, pink strands, holding him against you as he tries to catch his breath, as he comes down from the high, as he struggles to even comprehend the wreckage you just left him in.
and thenâhe laughs.
soft, breathless, utterly amused, the sound warm and lazy against your skin, like he canât believe how fucking good that was, like heâs still trying to process it.
his arms wrap around you, dragging you closer, pulling you flush against his chest, keeping you in place, keeping you exactly where he wants you, his lips pressing against your temple, slow, affectionate, completely different from the way he just ruined you.
âdamn,â he chuckles, grinning against your skin, voice still thick with exhaustion, with satisfaction, with something teasing. âshouldâve broken out sooner.â
⢠sehůn
âi heard from a friend of a friend that that dick was a 10/10!â
you donât hesitate.
thereâs no second-guessing, no last-minute doubts gnawing at the edges of your resolve. you know exactly what you want, and tonight, youâre taking it.
your first time? it has to be good. not just goodâworth it. unforgettable. none of that clumsy, awkward, hesitant nonsense. no fumbling hands or uncertain touches. no half-hearted attempts at pleasure. you want something that sets the standard so high, every encounter after this either rises to meet itâ
or crashes and burns in comparison.
so when the rumors started swirlingâwhispers passed from friend to friend, low voices dripping with scandalâyou listened. you heard about sehĹŻn. about the way he ruins girls. about how he fucks like he has something to prove, like he needs to leave a mark, like heâs got a goddamn legacy to uphold. you heard that heâs got a fucking 10/10 between his legs, that he knows exactly how to use it, that he has girls losing their minds over it.
and thatâs when you made up your mind.
which brings you here. now.
and sehĹŻn? heâs unraveling.
âholy fuck, babyââ
his voice is wrecked, raw and hoarse, cracking under the weight of whatever the hell youâre doing to him. his gaze is locked between your bodies, pupils blown wide as he watchesâwatchesâthe way you take him, how your body stretches around every thick, veined inch of him, how your slick heat clings to him like you donât want to let go.
he moves slow. deep. careful.
because fuckâheâs huge.
long, thick, stretching you open inch by inch, filling you up so perfectly, so completely, it knocks the air from your lungs. your thighs tremble, heat pooling deep in your core, every nerve ending alight. your nails dig into his arms, a sharp contrast to the slow, deliberate way he pushes in, making you feel every inch, every vein, every unbearable second of it.
too much. too good. too deep.
âoh my god,â you gasp, back arching, the burn of the stretch sharp and unrelenting, overwhelming in the best possible way. the pain fades into something hotter, something dizzying, something addictive.
above you, sehĹŻn groans, teeth clenched so tight his jaw ticks, hands gripping your waist like a lifeline. his fingers flex against your skin, the tension in his arms evident, every muscle in his body coiled tight as he forces himself to move slowâforces himself to not snap his hips forward, not fuck you deep and raw and desperate.
because he canât. because this is your first time. because fuck, he wants to ruin you, wants to wreck you, wants to make it so good that nothing, no one, will ever compare.
â s-so fuckinâ tight,â he rasps, voice strained, uneven, breaking under the sheer effort it takes to hold back. his head tilts back, throat bobbing as he swallows hard, his fingers digging into your waist. too much. too perfect. too fucking good.
his hands tremble as they slide down, past your ribs, lower, lowerâ
then he presses. right below your navel.
his breath catches.
âholy shit, babyââ
you blink, dazed, breathless, pulse roaring in your ears as you follow his gaze downâ
and fuckâ you see it.
the outline of him. thick and deep, pressing against your stomach, buried so far inside you that you can see the way he stretches you, the way he fills you.
sehĹŻn lets out a wrecked, shuddering breath, his eyes glazed over, his thumb tracing over the bulge like he canât fucking believe it.
âlook at that,â he groans, voice breaking. âfuck, sweetheart. iâm so deep inside you.â
sehĹŻn groans, low and wrecked, something primal flickering behind his eyes, his fingers flexing against your belly, pressing down just slightly, just enough to feel himself inside you, just enough to make his cock twitch, just enough to make you moan, high and broken and absolutely ruined.
âfuck,â you gasp, eyes fluttering shut, body jolting at the pressure, at the weight of him, at the way he just keeps sinking deeper. âso fuckinâ big.â
sehĹŻn lets out a breathless laugh, something between smug and delirious, something completely pussy drunk.
âyeah?â
you nod, eyes hazy, lips parting, your voice softer now, higher, sweeter.
âs'good.â
his breath stutters, his heart pounding, something thick and hot curling in his stomach at the way youâre taking him, at the way youâre looking up at him like heâs the only thing in the world right now.
his fingers press deeper into your belly, his lips dragging along your jaw, his breath shaky.
you let out the softest whimper, legs trembling around his waist, your body clenching down around him, so tight, so wet, so fucking sweet.
and sehĹŻn? heâs fucking losing it.
his body is trembling, sweat rolling down his spine, damp strands of black hair clinging to his forehead, his jaw slack, his eyes dark, unfocused, his grip on your waist so tight itâs almost bruising. his breath stumbles, breaking over the sharp gasps leaving his lips, wrecked, helpless, completely fucking gone.
his grip tightens, fingers pressing deep into your waist, his breath coming in ragged gasps, his body trembling with the effort to hold himself together, to keep his control, to not fucking break. but heâs slippingâyou can feel it in the way his hips stutter, in the way his voice shakes, in the way his nails dig into your skin like heâs trying to keep himself tethered to something real.
âgonna claim you, babyâfuckâgonna ruin you.â
his voice is low, rough, cracking under the weight of his own desperation, thick with need, with something raw, something wild, something completely fucking unhinged.
his hips snap forward, deep, fast, rough, the force of it knocking the breath from your lungs, making your fingers clutch at him, nails biting into his sweat-slicked back.
he groans at the sting, the sound broken, wrecked, so fucking desperate.
âgonna fuck you so deep, so good, youâll never want anyone elseâ"
his words hit like fire, heat spreading through you, searing, melting, consuming.
because you donât. you donât want anyone else. no one could ever fuck you like this. no one could ever make you feel like this. no one but him.
âgonna make this pretty pussy take the shape of my cockââ
his words are filth, pure sin, dripping from his lips like a promise, like a vow, like an unshakable truth.
your body reacts instantly, your walls clenching, pulsing, gripping him tighter, your legs wrapping around him, holding him closer, keeping him exactly where you need him, exactly where he belongs.
your practically breathless, wrecked, high and needy, gasping, pleading, your fingers dragging down the flexing muscles in his back, leaving scratches, leaving marks, claiming him the same way heâs claiming you.
because if oh sehĹŻnâs the only dick youâll ever have for the rest of your lifeâ
you donât fucking care.
as long as you can cum like this, as long as he fucks you like this, as long as he keeps filling you, stretching you, ruining you, making sure no one else can ever have you.
no one could ever compare.
you dig your nails in harder, dragging them over his skin, feeling the way his entire body tenses, the way his cock twitches inside you, the way he moans against your throat, high and broken and completely undone.
his forehead falls against yours, his breath mingling with yours, hot, heavy, wrecked.
âgonna cum,â he pants, voice barely above a whisper, his hands gripping your hips, pulling you down onto him, making you take all of him, every inch, every thick, perfect inch stretching you, filling you, ruining you. âfuck, baby, gimme one moreââ
you let out a choked sob, every thrust sending fire through your veins, sending pleasure rippling through your body, tightening, twisting, coiling too tight, too much, too goodâ
âsehĹŻn! fuckââ
his grip tightens, his fingers sliding down between your bodies, rubbing messy, fast circles over your clit, his voice a rough command against your lips.
âyeah, pretty, that's itâfuckin' cum for meââ
your body locks up, pleasure crashing over you, white-hot, mind-numbing, overwhelming. your walls flutter, clench, pulse around him, and sehĹŻn completely fucking breaks.
âoh, fuckââ
his moan is wrecked, completely shattered, his hips slamming forward, pressing so fucking deep you swear you feel him everywhere, his cock throbbing inside you, hot and thick, filling you up, stuffing you full, making sure you take every last drop.
his body shudders, fingers gripping your waist like heâs afraid youâll disappear, like heâs trying to keep you here, like he needs this, like he needs you.
his forehead rests against yours, his breath heavy, uneven, his voice barely a whisper.
âshit, babyânever felt anything like thisââ
his voice is wrecked, breathless, torn straight from his chest like he canât believe what just happened, like heâs trying to catch up, trying to process the way you just ruined him.
you smirk, slow and lazy, lips parted, chest rising and falling in uneven waves. bliss coats your skin, warm and slick against his, the aftershocks still pulsing through you, still making your legs weak, your body hum.
you let out a breathless laugh, the sound light, teasing, laced with exhaustion. âwas this your first time or mine?â
sehĹŻn huffs out a rough laugh, but thereâs no real bite to it, just something wild and wrecked in the way his arms tighten around you, his grip unrelenting, like heâs afraid youâll slip away if he lets go for even a second.
his lips find your temple, then your cheek, then your jawâsoft but firm, slow but desperate, like heâs mapping you out, memorizing the way you taste, the way you feel under his hands, against his skin.
ânah, baby,â he murmurs, voice nothing but gravel, nothing but heat against your pulse. âmore like this is my last first time with anyoneââ
his fingers press deeper into your hips, like heâs making sure you hear him, feel him, understand exactly what he means. his lips brush yours, breath warm, gaze dark, possessive.
â'cus this pussy is mine for life.â
⢠kyßngsoo
âspank me, slap me, choke me, bite me!â
it all started as a joke. just harmless fun.
itâs friday night and you and your girls had gone to the ĂŤxø bar, a place whispered about in certain circlesâwhere the drinks were stronger, the air was heavier, and the men who owned it⌠well, no one really knew what they were. just that they were different. powerful. something more.
so, of course, after a few drinks, the conversation had taken a turn.
âi bet theyâre fucking insane in bed,â one of your friends giggled, stirring her drink lazily. âimagine the things they could do to you.â
you had laughed, tipsy and unbothered, the warmth of alcohol making you bolder. âi dunno. some of them look like they could ruin you. like, completely wreck your shit.â
âwhich one do you think would fuck the best?â someone else teased, nudging you playfully.
your gaze had driftedâjust for a secondâto him. kyĂźngsoo. the one with the sharp eyes and the ridiculous shoulders, sitting in the corner nursing his drink like he didnât have a single care in the world.
âthat one,â you had murmured, half to yourself. âhe looks like he wouldnât stop until you were a fucking mess.â
you didnât know then that he could hear you.
but he did.
and now? now youâre here, in his bed, screaming his name like a prayer.
kyĂźngsoo has you folded, ass high in the air, face buried in the mattress as he pounds into you like heâs trying to break you apart and put you back together again. his grip on your hips is brutal, fingers digging in like he wants to leave bruises, like he wants you to remember this every time you see yourself in the mirror.
âthis how you imagined it, baby?â his voice is rough, teasing, so fucking cocky. âwhen you were giggling with your little friendsâwondering how iâd fuck you?â
you try to answer, but all that comes out is a choked moan, your back arching as he lands a sharp smack to your ass.
âanswer me.â
you barely manage to stutter out, âitâs e-even b-better!â before heâs yanking you up, one thick arm wrapping around your neck in a headlock.
his strength is inhuman, his body unrelenting, his cock hitting that spot inside you over and over like heâs got something to prove. and maybe he does. maybe he wants you to know that no one else could ever fuck you like this.
his hand slides up, fingers wrapping around your throat, squeezing just enough to make your head spin, to make your body throb around him.
âfuck, youâre so tight,â he groans, voice rough against your ear. âpretty little pussy taking me so well. just like i knew it fuckinâ would.â
youâre gone, completely wrecked, every thought in your head wiped clean except for him. his strength, his power, the way heâs fucking you like he owns you.
the moment you start throwing it back, meeting him stroke for stroke, something in kyĂźngsoo snaps.
his powerâhis inhuman strengthâwas something he had always kept under control. always measured, always careful. but not now.
now?
he grabs you, one arm looping around your waist, lifting you clean off the bed like you weigh nothing, like youâre just a doll for him to use. you barely have time to gasp before heâs slamming you back down onto his cock, impaling you so deep you see stars.
âfuckââ your breath hitches, nails digging into his wrist as he manhandles you with ease, bouncing you on his cock like youâre just a toy for his pleasure.
âthis what you wanted, doll?â his voice is dark, ragged, dangerous. âyou wanna fuck me back? wanna take it like a big girl?â
his grip tightens, fingers digging into your skin hard enough to bruise, and then heâs fucking up into you, his strength making it so you donât have to move at allâjust take it, just let him use you.
your moans are broken, breathless, your body limp in his grasp, barely able to handle the sheer force of his thrusts.
âtoo much?â kyĂźngsoo's voice is thick with amusement, a dark tease laced with mockery. his free hand cracks against your ass, the sharp sting making you jolt in his grip. he feels the way you shudder, the way your walls flutter around him. weak. trembling. desperate.
his lips brush your ear, his teeth grazing the shell as he purrs, ânahâyou can take it. you were talkinâ all that shit in the bar, werenât you?â another slap lands, harder this time, and you whimper. âso take it.â
kyĂźngsooâs grip tightens on your hips, holding you steady as he fucks into you, his full strength unleashed. the bedframe creaks, the entire thing rocking under the sheer force of his thrusts, his cock slamming into you like heâs trying to fuck you through the mattress.Â
and he is.
your fingers scramble for purchase, clawing at the sheets, moans spilling from your lips in helpless little cries.
âw-want you so bad, âsoo! hahâcanât get enough!â your voice is almost slurred, pleasure consuming you, your body begging for him.
he lets out a deep, primal groan, his whole body shuddering, and thenâ
he grabs you.
one hand wrenches your wrists behind your back, pinning them effortlessly, holding you captive with his sheer strength. his other hand? it wraps around your throat, squeezing, controlling your every breath, forcing you to stay exactly where he wants you. his hips snap forward, unrelenting, each stroke making the bed shake, making you sob with pleasure.
âhuh? whatâs wrong?â his tone is pure mockery, amusement curling around the edges of his words as he watches you fall apart. âthought you wanted to keep up? but look at youââ
he lets go of your wrists just to shove you down, flattening you into the mattress, his weight crushing you in the best way.
âcanât even move anymore, can you?â
heâs right. you canât. youâre wrecked, nothing but a quivering mess, your body his to use.
his thrusts grow sloppier, harder, inhumanly deep, and thenâ
he roars, his grip on your throat tightening, his cock pulsing as he spills into you, filling you up so deep you swear you can feel it everywhere.
and the worst part?
you still want more.
⢠suhø
âi just wanna know if you can fuck on me better!â
the bass from the club inside pulses through the walls of the dimly lit parking lot, but in hereâinside the tight, fogged-up space of suhøâs carâthereâs only the sound of your breathy moans and the wet, filthy slap of skin on skin.
you donât even remember how you got here, how the casual, half-serious conversation over drinks turned into you being splayed out beneath him, your dress hiked up around your waist, his hands gripping your thighs like heâs afraid youâll disappear.
but you remember what he said.
âi can fuck you better.â
you had scoffed. rolled your eyes. told him every guy says that.
and yetâfifteen minutes later, youâre gasping for air, body trembling from the second orgasm heâs wrung out of you with nothing but precise, calculated thrusts that are too damn good. you hate car sex. always found it uncomfortable, never got off, never felt like it was worth the trouble.
but now?
now youâre draped over the center console, one knee propped up against the window, his fingers sinking into your flesh as he fucks into you so good, so deep, you swear youâre about to shatter. your body is still pulsing from the last climax, but you feel another one creeping up fast, winding tight in your gut, making your thighs tremble as suhø leans down, lips brushing over the shell of your ear.
âyou have no idea how fucking long iâve wanted you like this,â his fingers slide down to press against your swollen clit, rubbing in slow, deliberate circles. you jolt, a sharp gasp ripping from your throat as pleasure ripples through you.
âsuhøâfuckââ
âhated every time you brought that fucking loser to my fucking bar.â his voice is low, rough, strained with the effort of holding back, âknowing he couldnât make you feel this wayâknowing it shouldâve been me. shouldâve always been me.â
you let out a breathless laugh, barely coherent. âif i knew you were gonna fuck me like this, i wouldâve left him a long time ago.â
suhø groans against your skin, teeth scraping lightly against your jaw before he pulls back just enough to look at you, his eyes dark with something dangerous.
âyeah?â his hips slow, rolling into you deep enough to make you gasp. âthen why the fuck did you waste so much time on him?â
âdunno,â you tease, even as your breath stutters. âbad decisions, i guess.â
âdamn right,â he grunts, hand sliding down between your bodies, fingers pressing against your clit. âgood thing iâm fixing that now.â
your back arches as you keen his name, body responding to him in ways it never has for anyone else.
âyou feel it, donât you?â he murmurs, âyouâre close again. i can feel you squeezing me.â
and you areâyouâre right there, teetering on the edge, but you need something more.
with a desperate push, you press against his chest, flipping him over, straddling his lap. his head tips back against the headrest, hands automatically falling to your hips as you sink down onto him, nails digging into his shoulders.
âgodââ he groans, voice tight, âlook at you. fucking perfect.â
you roll your hips, slow at first, watching the way his jaw tenses, his fingers flexing against your skin. but then something inside you snaps, and you move faster, chasing that peak, riding him until the pleasure becomes unbearable.
âthatâs it, baby,â he grits out, meeting your rhythm with sharp thrusts, âshow me how bad you need itââ
you sob his name, and thenâfuckâ
it crashes over you like a tidal wave. your body locks up, pleasure consuming you as you squirt all over him, the wet, messy sound of it echoing in the car. suhø groans deep in his chest, a rough, guttural sound as his grip tightens, his cock twitching inside you before he thrusts up one last time, spilling deep inside you with a shaky, âfuckâyesââ
the only sound left is your panting breaths, the creak of the car as it rocks gently back and forth. the windows are completely fogged, the air thick with heat and sweat and sex.
suhø exhales heavily, hands roaming up your sides, fingers tracing gentle patterns against your skin as he presses a soft kiss to your temple.
âdump him,â he murmurs against your hair, âget with me instead.â
you hum, still catching your breath. âmmm, thatâs a tempting offer.â
suhø scoffs, his grip tightening on your waist. âtempting? baby, i just made you cum three times. whatâs there to think about?â
you smirk, trailing your fingers along his collarbone. âtrue. maybe i need more convincing.â
his jaw clenches, eyes darkening as he flips you back onto the seat in one swift motion, spreading your thighs apart again.
âoh, iâll fucking convince you.â
his fingers dip between your legs, already teasing, already coaxing another moan from your lips.
âi can take care of you,â he whispers, gaze locked onto yours. âjust leave him.â
⢠baÍkhyun
âbaby come throw the pipe. gotta know what itâs like!â
your breathing is a trembling mess, uneven gasps breaking apart into soft, choked-off moans, and baĂŤkhyun hears every single bit of it. itâs like your body is singing for him, and heâs so fucking tuned in, so hyperaware, so ruined by the way you fall apart beneath him. he feels the way your chest rises and falls in shallow, needy pants, the way your fingers claw at the sheets like youâre trying to ground yourself, the way your thighs tremble as they lock tighter around his waist. but nothingânothingâcompares to the way your gummy walls flutter and clench around him, gripping him like you never want to let him go. and fuckâhe groans, deep and guttural, head dropping forward, fingers digging into your waist so hard they might bruise.
heâs never felt anything like this. itâs not inexperience. heâs had more than his fair share of bodies under him, pretty little things crying for him, scratching down his back as he made them come undone. but this? you? itâs too much. too hot, too tight, too good, dragging him under and drowning him in sensation so intense it turns his nerves raw. every squeeze, every slick pull of your body around him, every little pulse of your walls milking him for moreâhe feels it too clearly, too sharp, like his body was made for this, for you, for the unbearable pleasure of sinking into you and losing himself completely.
his head tilts back, silver chain catching the dim light, the delicate links shifting with every brutal roll of his hips. his breath is ragged, his body shaking, white hair clinging to his damp forehead as he fights to keep controlâfights not to let you drag him under completely. but heâs losing. fuck, heâs losing. the way you take him, the way your heat tightens, flexes, pulls him in deeper like you were made to keep him buried insideâitâs breaking him down, reducing him to nothing but the sharp, desperate need to fuck you harder, to chase the feeling of you unraveling beneath him, for him, because of him.
his head tilts back, throat exposed, taut with restraint, jaw clenched so tight it feels like it might snap. the delicate chains draped across his face glint under the dim light, shifting with every sharp breath, every tremor of pleasure rolling through him, the cool metal a stark contrast against his burning skin. heâs holding on by a thread, barely keeping himself together, but fuckâyou're making it impossible.
you're so tight around him, so fucking warm, gripping him like you donât want to let him go, like youâre trying to pull him deeper, ruin him completely. every slick drag of your walls around his cock sends a fresh surge of heat rushing up his spine, settling low in his gut, twisting tighter, hotter, more unbearable by the second. his fingers dig into your hips, possessive, brutal, leaving behind a promise in the shape of bruises. he wants you to feel this, wants you aching tomorrow, wants you to remember who fucked you like this, who made you come apart.
his breath stutters, his grip tightening like itâs the only thing keeping him tethered to reality. âoh, baby,â he groans, voice wrecked, hoarse, barely more than a breathless rasp. âya have no fuckinâ idea what youâre doing to me.â
but you do.
you know exactly what youâre doing.
your lips part in a slow, smug little smirk, body arching beneath him, rolling up into his thrusts, forcing a deep, guttural hiss from his throat. you feel the way he shudders, the way his breath catches, the way his muscles tense under your fingertips as you drag your nails up his arms, over the solid planes of his shoulders, teasing, testing, pushing.
âthought you were supposed to be stronger than this,â you murmur, voice silky-smooth, laced with cruel amusement, a challenge dressed up in honey. your fingers slip into his hair, tugging just enough to make his breath hitch, just enough to feel the way his cock twitches inside you.
baĂŤkhyun tenses, exhales sharply through his nose.
âat least thatâs what you were telling me at the bar earlier,â you continue, tone drenched in mock innocence, pretending you donât feel the way his grip tightens, the way his jaw flexes. âor was that all bullshit to get me in bed?â
his eyes flickerâsharp, burning, dangerous. the silver chains draped across his face catch the light as he tilts his head, lips curling into something dark, something feral.
âoh, you wanna play it like that?â
his voice is low, dripping with promise, amusement laced with something sharper, something darker. he watches you, eyes scanning your face, the way your lips part, the way your lashes flutter, the way your body responds to the power humming beneath his skin.
and thenâhe moves.
he pulls out completely.
your breath catches, a whimper slipping past your lips before you can stop it, your walls clenching around nothing, aching, empty, desperate.
but he doesnât give you time to complain.
before you can even suck in another breath, he slams back in.
deep. brutal. unrelenting.
the force of it sends a sharp cry tumbling from your lips, your back arching off the bed, fingers twisting in the sheets, legs trembling where they wrap around his waist.
he grins.
âyeah, that's what i fuckinâ thought,â he murmurs, pressing forward, completely caging you in, silver chain dangling between you, cold against your overheated skin.
his hips snap forward again, tearing another sharp, gasping moan from your throat, and he drinks it in, revels in it, watches the way your face twists, the way your body shudders beneath him.
âso cocky a second ago,â he muses, mocking, smug, devastating. âbut look at you now.â
his voice is smooth, controlled, the kind of control that makes your stomach tighten, makes your breath catch, makes your body tremble beneath his.
âwhat happened, sweetheart?â his lips graze the shell of your ear, voice taunting, teasing, all teeth and arrogance. âthought you wanted me to fuck you like this.â
he rolls his hips deeper, sharper, filling you so perfectly you can barely breathe, barely think, barely do anything but moan his name.
âyou talk all that shit,â baĂŤkhyun continues, mocking, devastatingly smug, âbut the moment i fuck you like this, you're just a trembling, moaning mess beneath me.â
he sinks in, slow and steady, letting you feel every inch, every ridge, every unrelenting stretch of him. he presses deeper, so deep you can barely breathe, until his hips are flush against yours, buried to the hilt, seated inside you so perfectly it almost hurts. and thenâhe stops.
a sharp inhale drags through his teeth, his muscles locking up, his body trembling as he forces himself to stay still. itâs too much. he should be moving, should be fucking into you the way he knows you want him to, the way youâre already arching beneath him, fingers digging into his arms, nails scratching at his skin like youâre begging him to give you more. but he canât. not yet.
his head tilts back, throat exposed, silver face chain shifting with the movement, glinting in the dim light as his jaw clenches. his breath stutters out of him, shaky and uneven, barely holding on. his fingers twitch where they grip your hips, nails pressing deep enough to bruise, deep enough to remind himself that heâs still here, still grounded, still barely keeping himself together.
but fuckâ heâs never felt like this before.
his senses are too sharp, too dialed in, too focused on you, on how fucking perfect you feel wrapped around him. he hears everythingâthe sound of your breath hitching, the erratic pounding of your heartbeat against your ribs, the slick, obscene noises of your bodies pressed together, the soft, shaky moan that catches in your throat when you shift beneath him.
he feels everything.
your walls flex around him, tight and pulsing, gripping him like you donât want him to leave, like you want to pull him even deeper, keep him buried inside you forever. youâre so warm, so wet, so utterly wrapped around him, molding to him in a way that makes his vision blur, makes his entire body coil with the unbearable need to move, to fuck, to completely ruin you.
but thenâyou move first.itâs the smallest shift, just a slow, deliberate roll of your hips, just enough to make him feel it.
and baĂŤkhyun nearly fucking breaks.
his jaw slacks, lips parting around a choked-off groan, hips jerking forward before he can stop himself, chasing the way you squeeze around him, the way you shudder beneath him, the way youâre already so fucking desperate. his hands fly to your waist, gripping tight, like heâs holding on for dear life, like heâs trying to keep himself from losing every last thread of control.
âoh, fuck, baby,â he gasps, voice wrecked, raw, disbelieving.
his hands glide over your body, slow and reverent, mapping every curve, every soft expanse of skin, memorizing the way you feel beneath him. his fingertips trace over the tremble in your thighs, the slight arch of your spine, the way your stomach tenses when his hands dip lower, gripping your hips, pressing you deeper into the mattress.
his cock twitches inside you, so hyperaware, so overstimulated, so fucking deep that every little flutter of your walls makes his entire body tense. itâs too much, too good, too perfect. the heat of your body is suffocating, intoxicating, addicting, pulling him in, swallowing him whole, leaving him so close to the edge he doesnât know if heâll be able to hold back much longer.
his head dips forward, silver chains swaying, brushing against your flushed skin, cold metal against heat. his lips part against your shoulder, panting, breathless, and for the first time, he realizesâ
he might not last much longer.
âbaĂŤk.â
his name leaves your lips on a breathy sigh, and the moment it hits his ears, his eyes snap openâsharp, glowing, flickering with hunger.
he looks wrecked.
his silver chain glints under the dim light, swaying with every shaky inhale, white hair damp and sticking to his forehead, jaw tight as he stares down at you. thereâs something dark behind his gaze, something borderline desperate, something completely unhinged.
and you canât help itâyou smirk.
âyouâre enjoying this, arenât you?â you whisper, voice thick with amusement, rolling your hips up just enough to test him, just enough to feel the way he shudders, the way his cock twitches inside you, so fucking sensitive.
his breath catches, jaw clenching harder, fingers twitching against your hips like heâs fighting the urge to pin you down, to snap, to completely ruin you.
âso cute when you're pussydrunk,â you murmur, letting the words sink into his skin, letting them wrap around him like a noose.
baĂŤkhyun growls low, deep, and dangerous.
his hand shoots up, wrapping around your throat, forcing your chin up, tilting your face until your gaze is locked with his. his grip is firm, unrelenting, not choking, just controlling, just enough to remind you whoâs in charge.
âyou think thatâs funny?â his breath is hot against your lips, ragged and uneven, shaky from restraint. his fingers press in just enough to steal a gasp from you, just enough to let you know he could take away even more if he wanted.
and thenâhe snaps.
his hips slam forward, brutal, punishing, unforgiving.
your back arches off the bed, a strangled moan ripped from your throat, high and broken, your body trembling beneath the force of him.
baĂŤkhyun laughs, breathless and mocking, his grip tightening, his lips brushing against your ear, amusement curling at the edges of his voice.
ânot so cocky now, are you, sweetheart?â
his words hit like fire, scorching through your veins, sending heat rolling through your body, pooling low in your stomach, twisting tighter, hotter, unbearable. his voice is thick with mockery, dominance, control, but you can hear the way it falters at the edges, the way his breath stutters, ragged and uneven.
you bite your lip, fighting a moan, refusing to give in completely. instead, you force your eyes up to his, your smirk lazy, taunting, but not quite as steady as before.
âwho said i wasnât?â you rasp, voice breaking on the last word as his next thrust steals the breath from your lungs.
baĂŤkhyun growls, low and dangerous.
you feel it vibrate through his chest, through the press of his body against yours, through the way his fingers dig into your waist, bruising, possessive, desperate.
âyouâre fuckinâ shaking,â he breathes, amusement curling at the edges of his words. âdonât think i donât feel it, baby. your bodyâs givinâ ya away.â
he slows his pace suddenly, rolling his hips deep, deliberate, pressing into you so perfectly that your head tips back, a broken moan spilling from your lips before you can stop it.
your walls clench around him in response, whimpering, shaking, unraveling beneath his touch, beneath his pace, beneath the raw desperation in his movements.
and he feels it all.
he feels the way you pulse around him, the way your body trembles, the way you lose yourself beneath him, and it only makes him rougher, only makes him fuck you harder, deeper, sharper, until all you can do is take it.
your fingers scramble against his shoulders, against his back, nails dragging down his skin, searching for something to hold onto, searching for anything to keep you from completely falling apart.
âb-baĂŤkââ you gasp, breathless, nearly gone.
he grins, breath hitching, but his eyes glow with something darker.
âwhatâs that, sweetheart?â he taunts, mocking, knowing. âwerenât you just giving me attitude a second ago?â
you bite back another moan, refusing to give him the satisfaction. instead, you roll your hips up again, tightening around him, watching as his lips part, as his breath stumblesâjust slightly.
he curses under his breath, a sharp exhale hissing through his teeth.
âoh, you littleââ
his grip tightensâon your hips, on your throat, everywhere, because he canât get close enough, canât get enough, canât fucking stand the way you feel so perfect around him and yet itâs still not enough.
his lips drag along your ear, his voice breathless, shaky, desperate.
âi feel everything,â he whispers, voice raw, shaking with it. âyou think you can hide it from me? think you can still play this little game when i can feel this perfect fucking pussy clenching around me?â
your body shudders.
âfuckââ you breathe, finally breaking.
and baĂŤkhyun laughs, low, dark, triumphant.
your moans turn helpless, breathless, uncontrollable.
youâre closeâso fucking close, and he knows it.
his fingers slide down, find your clit, start circling, pressing, teasing.
you jerk, tense, writhe beneath him, gasping his name, hands clawing at his back, at the sheets, at anything that can ground you.
âcum for me, my pretty girl,â his voice is pure wreckage, pure desperation. âlemme feel it, lemme feel this sweet pussy squeeze me so fuckinâ tightâfuckfuckfuck, just like that.â
his hips snap forwardâdeep, grinding, ruthless.
and thenâyou break.
the pleasure hits like a shockwave, rolling through you, drowning you in heat and static and white-hot euphoria, leaving you gasping, shaking, body clenching around him in waves.
and baĂŤkhyun feels every single bit of it.
it ruins him.
âshitââm gonna cum, baby. fuckâgonna fill ya up, make a fuckinâ mess of you. ya want that? yeah? want me so deep youâll still feel me next week?â
his thrusts grow erratic, rhythm crumbling as the pleasure coils tighter, hotter, winding through every nerve in his body like a live wire. he's barely holding on, teetering on the edge, lost in the unbearable heat of you, the way your gummy walls flutter and grip him, milking him, pulling him deeper into the abyss.
he's gone. completely, utterly gone.
his fingers tighten on your hips, bruising, anchoring himself as his body locks up, shuddering. the tension snaps like a live circuit, raw electricity bursting in his veins as his climax rips through himâviolent, devastating, white-hot and all-consuming.
and thenâ
the world goes dark.
a deep, shuddering groan wrenches from his throat, his entire body seizing, electricity sparking through his nerves, his power surging beyond control. the lightbulbs overhead flicker, pulsing onceâtwiceâbefore exploding in a cascade of shattered glass. outside, the entire city plunges into sudden, absolute blackness. streetlights sputter and die. neon signs fizzle out. buildings blink into nothing, their towering silhouettes vanishing into the void.
but baĂŤkhyun doesnât notice. doesnât care.
heâs buried so deep inside you, cumming so hard, spilling into you in thick, pulsing waves, filling you until thereâs nothing left of him, until heâs shaking, panting, forehead pressing into your shoulder, chest rising and falling in ragged gasps.
his body trembles against yours, completely wrung out, completely spent, every last drop of his energy drained, sucked from him the moment he lost himself in you.
his breath is uneven, sharp and shallow, his fingers twitching against your waist as he triesâfailsâto regain control, to piece himself back together.
but he canât.
youâve ruined him.
you feel the weight of him, the heavy press of his body, the way his heart hammers against yours, erratic and frantic. heâs never felt like this before. never been unraveled like this. never lost himself so completely that he took the entire fucking city down with him.
thenâhe exhales a breathless, disbelieving laugh.
âholy fuck.â his voice is hoarse, wrecked beyond belief, thick with something almost delirious, something that borders on awe. âdid i justââ
you swallow, dazed, body still trembling beneath him, still reeling from the way he just ruined you.
âyou⌠turned off the whole fucking city,â you breathe.
baĂŤkhyun blinks.
then, slowly, a smirk curls at his lips.
âshit,â he mutters, breath still uneven. âguess i really was seeing the light.â
you groan, smacking his arm weakly, too exhausted to do anything else, and he chuckles, low and satisfied, lips pressing against your temple in something almost tender.
ââm serious,â he murmurs, voice thick with exhaustion, but thereâs something smug underneath it, something cocky, something dangerous. âmightâve just fucked the whole grid offline.â
you huff, shaking your head, but you canât stop the way your lips twitch, amusement curling at the edges of your spent smile.
âso what now?â you mumble, voice still hoarse, fingers trailing mindlessly over his damp back.
baĂŤkhyun hums, shifting slightly, his arms wrapping around you, keeping you against him, as if heâs afraid youâll slip away.
âdunno,â he sighs, pressing a lazy kiss to your collarbone. âmaybe i should do it again. see if i can take out the whole damn country next time.â
you laugh, smacking his shoulder, and he grins, shifting just enough to bury his face in the crook of your neck, his breath warm against your skin.
outside, the city remains dark, silent, caught in the aftermath of his power slipping, of his control completely unraveling.
outside, the city remains shrouded in darkness, silent, caught in the aftermath of his power slippingâhis control unraveling at the seams.
but insideâ
inside, baĂŤkhyun is still glowing.
it lingers on his skin, a faint golden shimmer caught in the sweat-slick dip of his collarbones, in the silver glint of his chain, in the sharp, flickering brightness behind his half-lidded eyes. remnants of power, of pleasure, of something raw and all-consuming.
you watch him, gaze tracing the aftershocks still rippling through his bodyâthe way his chest rises and falls in uneven breaths, the way his muscles still twitch beneath flushed skin, the way he looks so utterly wrecked, so completely goneâyet somehow still devastatingly beautiful.
his fingers ghost over your stomach, over your ribs, over the marks he left behindâabsentminded, reverent, like heâs memorizing the proof of his presence on your skin.
then, with a slow, breathless chuckle, he exhales, âdidnât think iâd ever lose it like that over a girl.â his lips brush against your temple, voice thick, almost disbelieving. âa human one at that.â
you blink up at him, still hazy, still catching your breath. âoh? so whatâyou usually short-circuit cities over celestial beings?â
baĂŤkhyun grins, lazy and wrecked, fingers tracing idle patterns against your hip. ânever short-circuited anything over anyone.â he tilts his head, voice dropping lower, rougher. âguess youâre different.â
your breath stutters, but you mask it with a slow, smug smirk. âmust be pretty humbling.â
he huffs a laugh, shaking his head, white hair damp against his forehead. âmore like terrifying.â his fingers tighten against your waist, like heâs grounding himself. âwhat the hell are you doing to me?â
you hum, dragging your nails up his back, slow and teasing. âdunno.â your lips graze his jaw. âbut i think you like it.â
his breath shudders, his grip flexing, his body still wound tight despite everything. his gaze flickersâsomething dark, something unspoken, something that burns like an eclipse.
âyeah,â he mutters, pressing a lingering kiss against your throat, voice dripping with something dangerously close to devotion.
âi really fucking do.â
outside, the city will wake up again. the lights will return, people will move on, life will resume like nothing happened.
but in this room, in this bed, wrapped in baĂŤkhyunâs armsâ
the world still belongs to him.
⢠xiōmin
âtell me what's your kink. gimme the dick!â
it starts with a single ice cube gliding along your skin.
âcold?â xiĹŤmin murmurs, watching you flinch as the frozen edge drags down the curve of your stomach. his fingers, warm in contrast, follow right behind, soothing the goosebumps rising in its wake.
ây-yeah,â you admit, breath hitching, but you donât pull away. the contrast between heat and ice sends a shiver through you, but underneath the initial shock, thereâs something elseâsomething thrilling.
xiĹŤmin smirks. âgood.â
he presses the melting ice against your collarbone, tracing the delicate line, the cold bite making you gasp. your hands twitch at your sides, not knowing whether to push him away or pull him closer. he notices, of course. his gaze darkens, flicking up to meet yours.
ârelax. just feel.â
you nod, swallowing hard.
then he gets bolder.
the ice trails lower, circling a peaked nipple, and the sharp chill makes your back arch instantly. âohââ your moan cuts off as his lips replace the ice, tongue lapping at the sensitive skin warmed by his mouth. the contrast is intoxicating, a push and pull between fire and frost, and it makes your head spin.
âso sensitive,â he muses, rolling the ice between his fingers before pressing it to the inside of your thigh, drawing slow, teasing patterns. you can barely handle it, hips shifting desperately as the cold sears pleasure straight to your core.
âxiĹŤ, please,â you whimper, barely recognizing your own voice. you werenât expecting to react this intensely, but your body is on fire, every nerve ending hyperaware. the ice is melting fast now, water trickling down your skin, and his lips chase the droplets, tongue laving up the trails left behind.
he smirks as he shifts lower, spreading your thighs apart. the remaining ice cube in his fingers drags over the most sensitive part of you, the freezing contrast against your heat making you cry out. your body jolts at the intensity, legs trembling as he watches you come undone under his touch.
âfuck, youâre dripping for me already,â he groans, pushing the ice deeper between your folds, rolling it over your clit, and you swear your vision goes white. your fingers clutch the sheets, desperate and overwhelmed, a wreck beneath him.
âpleaseâoh my godââ you choke out, hips twitching involuntarily as he circles the ice around your entrance, teasing. your body is thrumming, nerves sizzling from the unbearable pleasure.
when the ice finally melts, he replaces it with his mouth, lips wrapping around your swollen, oversensitive bud as he moans against you, the vibrations making you arch off the bed. his tongue is hot, relentless, flicking and sucking until youâre seeing stars, legs trembling on either side of his head.
âmore,â you beg, voice wrecked, breathless.
his fingers slip inside, stretching you open as his mouth works you over, lapping at you like heâs starving. your release crashes over you so hard your entire body locks up, toes curling as you cry out his name, drowning in pleasure.
he doesnât stop.
he keeps going, drawing every last wave out of you, overstimulating you until youâre shuddering, begging him to slow down. finally, he pulls away, his lips and chin glistening, eyes dark and hungry as he looks up at you.
he shifts over you, the weight of his body pressing you into the mattress, and his cock presses against your entrance, teasing, testing. he kisses you, slow and deep, before whispering, âready?â
nervous, but desperate, you nod. âyes.â
he pushes in, slow and careful, letting you adjust to the stretch. the fullness steals your breath, but the burn melts into pleasure quickly, your body molding to him like you were made for this.
âfuck, you feel so good,â he groans, voice strained as he fights to go slow, to let you savor the sensation.
but soon, your fingers claw at his back, your hips rising to meet his. âmove. please.â
he doesn't need to be told twice.
he starts slow, deep, but the moment he hears you moanâreally moanâhe loses himself. his pace quickens, his thrusts turning desperate, his name spilling from your lips like a prayer.
âso tight, so perfect,â he grits out, watching your face contort with pleasure. âyou love this, donât you?â
âyesâyes, oh my godââ
he slips a hand between your bodies, circling your swollen clit, determined to push you over the edge again, and again, and again. the pleasure is fucking overwhelming, everything too much and not enough at the same time, and when you finally cum, itâs with a cry that echoes through the room.
xiĹŤmin follows moments later, burying himself deep inside you with a guttural groan, his body shuddering as he spills into you.
for a moment, all that fills the room is the sound of heavy breathing, the lingering tremors of pleasure humming through both of you. he presses a soft kiss to your forehead, a contrast to the intensity of what just happened.
âtold ya you'd like it,â he murmurs against your skin, smug and satisfied.
with what little strength you have left, you manage a breathless laugh. âi loved it.â
his smirk returns, darker this time. âgood. because next time, iâm making you beg for it.â
⢠läy Â
âeat it like i need an apron on! eat it âtil i need to change my thong!â
läy starts slow. agonizingly slow.
his lips are soft as they graze over the inside of your thighs, planting open-mouthed kisses along your sensitive skin, tongue darting out to taste the warmth of your body. his breath is hot, heavy, teasing. he knows what you want, knows how badly you need him between your legs, but he takes his time.
âyouâre already so wet,â he murmurs, nosing against your clothed core, his voice rough with something dark, something hungry. âi havenât even touched you properly yet.â
his fingers ghost over your hips, gripping just tight enough to make you squirm, just firm enough to let you know you arenât going anywhere. then, finally, he leans in and drags his tongue up the center of your lace-covered slit, slow and deliberate.
a whimper leaves your lips. your hips lift off the bed, seeking more friction, but läyâs hands are there to press you back down.
âbe patient,â he chides, but his voice is thick with need.
he presses his mouth against you fully this time, lips sealing over the damp fabric, tongue working slow circles over your clit through the lace. the friction of itâthe way the fabric catches just slightly, the heat of his mouth dampening it furtherâmakes you arch against him, your fingers threading into his hair, pulling him closer.
âone,â you breathe, already trembling.
his laugh is dark, warm, reverberating against your core. âone already?â he teases, licking at you again, this time with more pressure, more intent.
your answer is a broken moan.
he flattens his tongue and drags it up your slit again, the lace sticking wetly to your folds, your arousal soaking through as he laps at you like heâs savoring every drop. his fingers dig into your thighs as he holds you still, his mouth working you over until your vision blurs, pleasure cresting through your body.
âtwo,â you choke out, and läy hums approvingly, his tongue flicking over your clit just right, sending another jolt of pleasure straight through you.
your legs shake as he keeps going, undeterred by your gasping breaths, your restless hips. his hands tighten around your thighs, pushing them wider as he angles himself deeper. then, with slow, deliberate precision, he tilts his head and uses his tongue to push the lace aside, baring you to him completely.
âfuck,â he breathes.
his eyes flick up to yours, and the heat in his gaze makes your stomach flip, makes your breath catch in your throat.
âso pretty,â he murmurs before dipping his head back down.
this time, there's nothing between you. no fabric, no barrierâjust his mouth, hot and wet, sealing over your cunt like he wants to drown in you.
his tongue slides deep, licking into you before dragging up to flick over your clit again. his nose presses against you, his lips closing around your swollen bud, sucking gently, then harder, and your hands clutch at the sheets, at his hair, at anything you can grab onto as he devours you.
âthree,â you gasp, your body already teetering on the edge again.
he doesnât slow. doesnât stop. his fingers slide through your slick folds before pressing into you, curling against that sweet spot inside you, the one that makes you cry out his name. he works you open with practiced ease, fucking you with his fingers as his tongue works over your clit, coaxing you into another mind-numbing release.
âfour,â you sob, thighs shaking around his head, but he only groans in response, the sound vibrating against your clit, making you tremble even harder.
he doesnât give you time to recover. doesnât let up. his fingers press deeper, his tongue moving faster, and before you know it, your body is seizing up again, another orgasm crashing through you so hard that you canât even form words, canât even count.
âfive,â you whisper, barely audible.
and then, finally, he pulls back, his lips and chin glistening with your slick, his eyes dark with something insatiable.
youâre still catching your breath when he shifts onto his knees, hands moving to his belt, unbuckling it with slow, deliberate movements. your heart stutters as he unbuttons his pants, dragging the zipper down, freeing himself from the confines of his clothes.
his cock is hard, flushed, dripping, and he wraps a hand around the base, stroking himself once, twice, as he looks down at you with a smirk that sends a fresh wave of arousal pooling between your thighs.
âokay,â he says, positioning himself between your legs, rubbing the thick head of his cock over your oversensitive clit.Â
and then he sinks into you, slow and deep, and you swear you see stars.
âfuck,â läy groans, forehead pressing against yours, his hands gripping your thighs as he bottoms out. âangel⌠youâreââ his words cut off into a sharp exhale, his jaw clenching as he struggles to hold himself together.
youâre gripping him so tight, wrapped around him so perfectly, your walls pulsing, clinging onto him like you never want to let go. and fuck, heâs barely keeping it together.
âläyâ, you whimper, rolling your hips up, desperate to feel more, to push him deeper.
his hands tighten on you instinctively, his fingers digging into your flesh like he's trying to ground himself, like he's trying not to lose himself completely in the heat of you.
âyou're so fucking tight,â he mutters, his voice rough, wrecked. âi canâtâfuck, i canâtââ
but you donât let him finish.
your hands reach up, fingers curling around the back of his neck, tugging him closer until your lips brush against his, your breath mingling with his.
âdonât hold back,â you whisper, eyes locking onto his, and something in him snaps.
his control slips. his hips jerk forward, burying himself as deep as he can go, and a choked moan spills from his lips at the way you squeeze around him.
âbaby,â he groans, and you swear you can feel his cock twitch inside you, the way his body trembles with the effort of keeping himself from coming too soon.
but you want him to.
you want to push him past the edge, to make him lose himself in you the way he just made you fall apart over and over again.
so you move.
you plant your feet against the bed and lift your hips, fucking yourself up onto him, dragging him deeper, meeting every one of his thrusts with desperate, rolling movements that make his breath hitch and his arms shake.
âfuckâfuck, angelââ he gasps, and his hands fly to your waist, trying to slow you down, trying to hold on, but you donât let him.
you pull him closer, your grip on his neck tightening, your lips brushing against his ear as you whisper, âcum for me, baby. give it to me.â
his groan is guttural, a deep, broken sound as his hips snap forward, movements turning erratic, frantic, desperate.
âfuckâi'mââ he chokes out, his head dropping to your shoulder as he buries himself as deep as he can go, hips pressing flush against yours as he spills into you, white-hot pleasure crashing over him in waves.
he moans your name, his hands gripping you like a lifeline as he grinds into you, making sure every last drop is buried deep inside.
your fingers tangle into his damp hair, your lips pressing soft, slow kisses against his temple as his breathing evens out, as he slowly comes down from the high of it all.
âyou okay?â you murmur, still holding him close.
he lifts his head, and his gaze is soft, warm, so full of something tender that it makes your chest ache.
âyeah,â he breathes, a lazy smile curling at the edges of his lips. âi just⌠think i fell completely fucking in love with you.â
your heart stutters.
âyeah?â you tease, your fingers tracing circles against the nape of his neck. âthat good, huh?â
his laugh is quiet, sweet, and he presses a lingering kiss to your lips before murmuring against them, âitâs always that good with you.â

ŕŹ(ŕŠËáľË)ŕŠ* masterlist ° ᥣđŠ .Â
#will most likely b doing another one of these but to bed chem by sabrina carpenter lol#hc#exo smut#baekhyun smut#kyungsoo smut#jongin smut#chanyeol smut#junmyeon smut#minseok smut#yixing smut#exo x reader#baekhyun x reader#chanyeol x reader#yixing x reader#jongin x reader#kai x reader#kai smut#lay smut#lay x reader#minseok x reader#xiumin x reader#xiumin smut#junmyeon x reader#suho x reader#suho smut#kyungsoo x reader#d.o. x reader#d.o. smut#Íxø#lisawrites
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I just read all of your works and I loved soooooo much!!!!!!! you're so talented <3
I'm definitely gonna re-read some, but can I ask if you have some autors recommendations?
I hope you're having a good day/night!
thank u so much for your kind words, dear anon, thankful u went thru all of the dilf library 𫶠welcome to town, citizen! hope you enjoy the rest of your stay :) you're free to get ur residency (follow me hehe)
SO unfortunately, i don't read as much as i used to because of the whole writing stuff, but have some recs i fished from my main blog (the one i created before creating this side; have owned it since 2016 or something) @onlythehobi which i use as a sorts of fic library đ but it's very messy and goes from bts, to logan to pedro-- you can see when i switched from pedro to hugh and then when my pedro obssesion hit again HELP featuring lots of bts sprinkled in the middle
JOEL MILLER
wants and needs by @strang3lov3
this was so well-written and so sexy. read it yesterday and it altered my brain chemistry thighs clasped hard in public and now i'm the 1 with that problem ijbol
that funny feeling by @bluebeary-jay
touch love deprived soft flustered miller? SIGN ME. THE FUCK. IN
the consequences of us by @josephquinnswhore
raw, next question. possesive old ass dbf joel miller go RAHHH
father figure by @gutsby
yes, sign me for that old man dick. UM, and the tags? u know you're abt to be in for a rideeeeee ALL HAIL PREMATURE EYACULATION
my burning sun will someday rise by @littlcdarlin
just as a i said, i need to be euthanized after i read it. actually, nothing sexier than dbf!joel with u on hornyvacays
an overture of indulgence by @wintrwinchestr
dk if this is up your alley, but if you're a big pedro⢠widow like me, this works to soothe the wound a bit
i'm empty without you, so come grow within me by @chronically-ghosted
angst so good, the certified angst whore (me), was too stunned to speak. never been more jealous of such a talented writer, all their fics are just *chef kiss*
make it stick by @gutsby
YES YES PLSPLSPLS GIMME MORE OF THEM their dynamic is so good, i've never wanted old man dick so BAD
snowed in by @v4nillau
pls support my oomfie's sexy ass piece. bring back fun spin the bottle games! while it snowed in with ur dad's hot older best friend
FRANKIE MORALES
the boyfriend act by @capuccinodoll
this series is ruining my life /hj. i love it SO MUCH you guys have no idea i'm literally #1 tba fan GET AWAY likelikelike their dynamic might tire u up a bit BUT it's so complex u need more of it. also, add fake dating to the mix? BEST TROPE (gotta write that up someday). i was already SAT
sweet as by @ak-vintage
babysitting and eating fruit had never been this sexy. anyone named frankie morales need a babysitter for the summer? i katniss-volunteer myself
plea by @javier-pena
real men yearn and watch u touch yourself to them frankie's body description here is so good i want to lick him like an ice cream lollipop melting under the hot summer sun
grocery shopping by @berryispunk
I LOVE PUBLIC SEX wait who said that
nut vid with the sound on by @syd-djarin
what the title says. just read it. you'll thank me later
DIETER BRAVO
you can never keep a soul by @chronically-ghosted
i have such a soft spot for dieter and this balanced between angst, fluff, comedy and sex like REAL GOOD sex. just,,,, tell me where i can get a faux uncle as sexy and messy as our chaotic king and then u can hmu
AND anything by @beefrobeefcal really. their peĂąa and grandpa!joel fics... GO AND READ THEM
done hehehehehhehehe. i promise u, dilf-docs fangirls over stuff too. hope this helps!
#dilftown#asks#anon#joel miller#joel miller x reader#frankie morales#frankie morales x reader#pedro pascal#pedro pascal x reader#fic recs
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Holaaa ml, a su-hyeok aouad request bc I barely see any of him đ¤đ.
I donât think su-hyeok would honestly ever be a subđ.. so softiedom!su-hyeok x shysubfem!reader.
Where the reader and su-hyeok has been together for quite a while and soon the reader decides she wants su-hyeok to be her first so over the weekend when he comes to her house she finds courage and asked him/ talked to him about it he was shocked yet agreed and he guides her and is very gentle with her and then the end is aftercare basically fluff?
missionary, gentle fucking , praising & just cute fluff at the end basically?
I hope this makes senseđ.
it doessa
First time
warnings: smut, softdom!suhyeok x Shy!sub!virgin!reader, Gentle fucking, experienced!suhyeok
You and Su hyeok never gotten farther than making out, for some reason you always stopped him before he took off your clothes or begin touching him, he knew you were a virgin and understood if you wanted to go slow with the relationship but at the same time he was a bit impatient wanting to feel your pussy wrapped around his cock
You guys usually hang out at each other houses or at school and today yall were gonna hang out at your house, so after school you guys walked together simply talking and laughing
Once you got to the house you went to the room and just laid there together but for some reason all day you wanted to go further into the relationship, you looked at him as he was on his scrolling thru social media, you waited for a moment and sat up
âSu hyeokâ you said to get hi attention, âHm?â he said without taking his eyes off the screen, you frowned a bit âSu hyeok..â you said again as he finally turned off his phone and looked at you âYes?â he said back
âSo you know how weâve been dating for awhile? well i think im ready.â you said simply and straightforward, he stared at you in confusion, âReady? ready for what?â he said, you stared at him a bit dumbfounded âUmm?? ready to have sex??â you said again, he widen his eyes and sat up âFor realz?â he said quickly, you nodded, âYea for real, so? what do you umm say? my parents are out of town so..â you said
He quickly nodded âYea- yea of courseâ he said, âSo where do we start?â you said, âJust lay back iâll umm, guide you and stuff just tell me if you feel uncomfortableâ he said to you, you nodded and settled back into the pillows, he hovered ontop of you a bit
âIâm gonna..take off your shirt firstâ he said slightly raising your shirt to make sure you approve and also giving you time to protest, but you didnât, once it was clear you didnât mind he raised it up even more and over your head, tossing it somewhere else, âCan i take off your bra or do you wanna keep that on?â he asked, âYou can take it offâ you said to him, he was quick to reach behind you and snap it off and took the strings of your bra pulling them off, he tossed your bra as well
He stood a bit back admiring your chest a bit, as he blinked multiple times getting used to the sight, finally his hands went to your uniform skirt, he looked up at you really quickly than back down, sliding your skirt off, once your skirt was off he used his hands to slide them between your legs into your inner thighs slightly spreading them to get more access, he than slid off your panties slowly so youâll feel comfortable
Once you were naked he was quick to discard all his clothes as well, and once so he settled between your legs spreading them a bit more, âAre you sure about this?â he asked you, âYea iâm sure..just be gentle okay?â you told him, he nodded
He gently grabbed on his cock and slid in between your folds just to buy a bit time for no reason, you let out a shaky breath as you felt his tip finally setting above your entrance, he looked at you and made eye contact with you as he slowly pushed in, he paused once he felt his tip was in, âYou okay..? does it hurt?â he asked in a bit of concern, âYea iâm fine. Just stings a bit just hold on..â you told him needing a bit of time for the pain to fade, he understood completely and stayed in that position
You stayed like that for a few seconds âItâs better now..well it doesnât hurt no moreâ you told him, he nodded as he slowly pushed more of his cock inside, once his full cock was in he paused again searching your face for any discomfort once there was any he slowly begin thrusting, his cock was hitting your spot nice and slow as soft moans fell out, âYour doing good baby donât worry.â he told you to give you reassurance
He continued fucking you slow and soft..actually he wasnât even fucking you, he was making love to you, placing soft kisses on your neck and saying soft loving things, âYou feel so good baby, your doing so good..â he told you as his hand went to yours holding it, he continued thrusting in and out of you, the sounds of lovemaking filled your room, âCan i..speed up?â he asked you, you nodded
His actions were quick as he settled a bit and begin going faster, not too fast just a nice and fast pace, your moans grew louder as you felt his lips all over your cheeks and neck, your hands still interlocked with his as he even let out soft moans as well, you felt a knot in your tummy, your body warning you that you were on edge and about to finish, he continues thrusting into your g spot over and over again
âSu hyeok~..i think im gonna.. gonna cum!~â you said as you suddenly felt an intense feeling all over your body feeling your body shudder as you came all over his cock, he continued thrusting thru your orgasm as he finally stopped staring down at you with nothing but love, he gave you a small smile as he pulled out, not long after he wrapped his hand around his cock and stroked himself to make himself cum on your tummy instead of inside and risking a baby on your first time
You watched him as he panted softly and not long after he came on your body, after he quickly kissed you, âYou did so good baby, i love you so much oh my god..â he told you, you smiled softly as you gave him a kiss back, he quickly helped you clean up and even made you food, a perfect first time.
#all of us are dead#all of us are dead fluff#all of us are dead smut#all of us are dead x reader#aouad imagines#aouad smut#aouad x reader#aouad su hyeok#lee su hyeok#su hyeok#su hyeok x reader#su hyeok smut
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HEY GUYS REMEMBER WHEN CHLOE WANTED MAX TO BE THE LAST THING SHE EVER SAW BEFORE DYING. BTW GUYS. REMEMBER WHEN CHLOE SAID âiâm never leaving youâ AND âthatâs okay we will, foreverâ AND âMax, iâll always be with youâ. GUYS GUYS GUYS HOLD ON REMEMBER WHEN CHLOE SPENT YEARS TALKING TO MAX IN HER DIARY BECAUSE SHE COULDNâT LET HER GO GUYS. AND WHEN SHE TOOK MAX BACK IN A HEARTBEAT BECAUSE SHE MISSED HER TOO MUCH. OH AND BTW REMEMBER HOW THEY WERE CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS AND GREW UP TOGETHER AND FELL IN LOVE AND ARE NOT LINKED ONLY BY A âtrauma bondâ. DO WE REMEMBER THAT. COLLECTIVELY.
#life is strange#lis#max caulfield#chloe price#pricefield#feeling like being mad today sorry#itâs just. you just donât get them.#âmax and chloe share a trauma bondâ actually they didnât bond over their trauma. btw#like theyâre each otherâs first ever friend#first ever best friend#first ever LOVE. (arguably)#like YES. it would make sense if they had only gotten close because they went thru the same trauma together#BUT THATâS NOT WHAT HAPPENED.#and i need ppl to stop acting like it is#like how can you look at their relationship and not understand how DEEP it goes and just reduces it to#âtheyâre traumatized so it makes sense that theyâd grow apart also chloe was a bad friendâ#like just stop. you do not get it. gnawing at the bars of my enclosure.#ANYWAY IâM RAMBLING#life is strange double exposure spoilers
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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.
#my dc posting#dc#batfamily#batman#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging#but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3#also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found#out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam#i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical#and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc#controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t#hem#instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they#should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay#like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good#or funny#like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl#eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like#90% of the fandom's content đ
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ummmmmmm guys this dungeons looking a little dark here..........................ummmm..... hello??? guys??
#quirinahdraws#darkest dungeon#darkest dungeon 2#IVE BEEN IN THE TRENCHES SO I NEED 2 POST MY EARLY APRIL DRAWINGS FROM WHEN I WAS (am) PLAYING THIS GAME TERMINALLY....#try to guess my favorite character (very difficult impossible /j)#notable moments include reynauld and dismas kicking the bucket in my first year to which i thought after the latter. ok at least theyre#together in death or watever. anyways i got a beyond the grave a week later with both of them and i could only revive one of them and my#first thought was wow! this would make great angst fodder! i should make a comic (and then i didnt)#but dismas is dead so i can never get the achievement but he basically carried me thru vvulf bc i didnt have any legend lvl frontliners and#i didnt know u could just sacrifice a hero to retreat. or that you had to destroy the bomb barrel HAHAHAHAH but we defeated vvulf SOMEHOW#sketchdump#digital#dd plague doctor#dd jester#dd shieldbreaker#dd arbalest#dd abomination#SORRY FOR YAOIFYING BIGBY THAT BADLY IDK WHAT HAPPENED...ETTO.......#my favorite builds are damage over time <3 number one blight buddy supporter#but marked for death r also my pookies....i just find marked builds a little awkward to use imo. but bh is like my blorbo#i find it funny drawing any of the charas bc i feel like i always draw characters a little too cutesy/colorful but its shrimpresting
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sneeg talking about vod watchers watching these twohickey vods without music or anything to focus on (like music) really made me realize how insane i am for watching this shit (like the two 11 hour vods of CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK DING CLICK CLICK CLICK DING) without playing any of my own music in the background or speeding it up to 2x or some shit .
#real vod watchers will listen to sneeg sing along to songs they cant fucking hear#/nsrs#only thing i consistently skip is the pee breaks n shit#and yeah i sometimes just . watch these . without doing anything else (like drawing for example) other than Watching Vod#i hate the recycling bottles part like holy fuck man STOP ACCIDENTALLY THROWING THE EMPTY BOTTLES INTO THE WATER BOTTLE STACK FUCCCCKKKKKK#and my god its so so boring like please#at least i can watch exp bar go up when heâs upstairs with the brewing stands#but in the recycling part i just have to wait until its over .#watch streamer man fuck up and throw a turtle helmet into the piles of bottles#cry#wait even more because for SOME REASON I HAVENT THOUGHT OF JUST SKIPPING THRU THOSE PARTS . FUCK#why am i even watching this#also if you saw my previous post similar to this one uh no you didnt ? Lol#at least the clicking doesnt drive me insane (am one of the ppl who like the clicks :3)#all i get to hear is the fuck ass allays giggling weirdly or whatever#why do they sound like that . they sound creepy . but only like a little bit idk#god please just reach alchemy lvl 100 (ng 2) PLEASE#i like when he do the turtle master potions#exp bar go up yaaayyyy#counting the seconds for when this is over . yaaayyyyy#1500 exp yaaayyyyyyyy#anyway i guess ill go fuck myself#âfeel bad for the vod watchersâ says sneeg . Fuck You says i (who is watching the vod)#trsmp#trsmp vodblogging#sneegsnag#tr!sneegsnag#trsmp sneegsnag#the realm sneeg#kristiliyaps
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it is beyond infuriating how anne rice seems to insist on marius being a positive force in anyone's life ever. like she can't fully commit to exploring the fact he groomed armand and has repeatedly taken away his consent for what marius thinks is best (take the end of TVA as an example) and just kind of flatly puts it in the narrative. there's not really much interest in how these horrific events make marius come across as the worst because EVERYONE loves him. for gods sake, lestat learns from armand exactly what marius did to him in TVL and then proceeds to go find marius and be super friendly to him in the same fucking book. even armand and pandora, two of the people who have MORE than enough right to hate him, do not. it doesnt feel like shes trying to explore the toxicity of the abusive dynamic he traps them in, it just is there. and like yeah ofc the toxic vampire romance series but i think that this should be handled with more care. and it is not ever really framed in a way that she is interested in exploring how marius should easily be one of the most horrific characters in this series because it kind of feels like sa/rape/grooming/other things of that sort are just put there to further plot and not to really get the respect that they deserve in a medium.
#twist rambles#vc posting#grooming mention#for blocklist sorry im on my im really mad about this fucking series soapbox again#to be fucking honest she treats slavery similar. like its just THERE and the characters doing it dont really feel bad about it (much like m#rius doesnt seem to.. feel much if any remorse for arm.and) and it is just like... ok heres another bad thing with no examination. this isn#a super coherent post but i went a bit forward to see how b&g was handling the arm.and stuff and oh my god. oh im so mad. like i just... i#wish so badly that arma.nds abuse was taken seriously other than haha its sooo quirky that mari.us is in a position of power over him and#provides housing money sex comfort etc for him and is abusing him but hes sooo happy with himmmm. like he fucking sold him into sex slavery#and we are supposed to root for him#ask to tag#sorry this is just. its a very triggering part of the books but its something that i kind of keep returning to to mull over because it is#handled really badly. like i think she was trying to go for a lo.lita vibe (iirc she did actually mention nabok.ov as an inspiration) but#didnt really care enough to examine WHY that is an interesting take on the subject matter. not even to get into pan.doras stuff bc its just#really bad but at least he waited until she was an adult i suppose. like i will give anne one thing that she has characters and (poorly han#led) writing that makes you really think and analyze. which i think is where i enjoy media that is like... this kind of sucks at points but#u can tell the authors viewpoints soo transparently. and u can examine it thru this. like i think thats why i find the gr.ell run of GA int#resting too bc u can telll that man is a libertarian and doesnt respect women. and then claims to do so. its interesting to me. anyways#did u guys know she defended bill clin.ton when the monica stuff came out and victim blamed her. just a funny coincidence.#sorry for the really long tag rant but i am sooo fed up with how she treats this topic forever and ever. bc its been this way forever.#anyways back to reading had to get that out. lmk if u need me to tag this bc its a lot of tws :)
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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need 2 find myself again in 2025 . tbhwu

#depression has hollowed me out in2 a shell of my former self#and i thmk i need 2 grit my teeth and just get over It whatever It is#recognizing its no easy task but also knowing i cant keep on like this#and allowing myself to spiral into misery thereby preventing any possible change or growth#sigh âŚ. sogh .. i want 2 be a person again . picture friends circa 2008 outlining me in chalk. i want 2 know theres something there#how u ask (me asking myself)#idk but one way or anotjer . and not in that new yrs resolution fallacy way#anyways . anyways z . crazy how a week off from work will leave u feeling real again#i gotta get out of there . step 1đđđ#its especially hard when everyone arnd you is objectively doing better. partners finances purpose . >staring in2 the camera 1000 yd stare#u get thru the beast of being a teenager like thank god thats over and then b4 you even catch ur breath#your mid 20s are casting a shadow over u like some menacing thing and u have to gulp and say hes right behind me isnt he#i think people often like to give the advice that youll figure it out but it leaves me feeling so disquieted#bc its like sure im sure i will ive made it this far i can do what i need to get by when the moment matters#but it does nothing to assauge the immediate anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and lack of direction yk#goddmanit assuage i spelled it wrong everyone point and laugh#bc its like what if i dont and i mean that in a very like . existential & not material way . idk what im saying but i think thats the advice#i hate most . not sure if u have felt or do feel the same . -__- like yes oersonal experience sure whatever happens will happen and you will#simply adjust but will i ever feel like its something i want to experience/endure .#whatever anyways x2. im journalling i think that helps me the best rn . and its the one thing thats allowed me hope and i think#having that time to examine and mull over and deconstruct is rly helpful tbh. and i would like to think#over the long term i can repair my creativity and cultivate a new outlet that doesnt leave me feeling empty if i cant draw as i used to#yaar#i feel like i dont write for very long tho thats the one thing that kinda blows#two pages maybe and ive only addressed two maybe three points if im being generous lol i get so bored with the actual motion#when my mind moves 10x as fast . and idc for audio logs either ykwim.#ohh tumblr how i love u . tag system like no other
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#hot take that doesnt feel that 'hot' if ur kid is going thru one of the most traumatic experiences of their lives#and having to do it TOTALLY alone despite it not at all being a one person job#but thats just circumstance and how the cookie crumbled#and then you offer to come pick them up and drive them home for a week of help and relaxation once the experience is over since that's#all you can offer at the time#its. kinda a fucked up move to then back out when the time comes for said promised r&r#esp when u dont seem to understand [or maybe worse yet you Do but don't care] that ur child CLUNG to and FANTASIZED abt the relief that was#on the horizon for WEEKS of HELL. like 'just a little longer and then I will finally have some help.'#'just a little longer and then I can rest'#'just a few more days and then I can lay low and recoup some expenses and have meals I don't have to solely cook whilst also rehabbing a#sick dog and trying to maintain a home whilst also working full time'#only to get to 'the day' and get a 'its not going to work out after all sorry....we are just so Busy prepping for our travel abroad next#month you know? it would be too Stressful to have a third person in the house'#YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME ABT STRESS RIGHT NOW????? BE SO FOR REAL----#like if u werent free fine. u dont owe me shit im grown. BUT2 PROMISE IT AND REAFFIRM IT TIME AFTER TIME AND THEN BACK OUT IN THE 11TH HOUR#SERIOUSLY???#I love them but this. fucking Hurts. and I had to pretend it Didnt so as to not make a scene
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thinking about cinderlion kits and how hollytufts reaction to flywhisker and snaptooth leaving to become kittypets was to aggressively call them traitors
#i speaku#rotating these six guys in my brain#i know i said i wish cinderlion had way smaller litters and i still feel the same way now but i can still think about them#w a dynamic of having drifted apart due to the shit theyve been going thru as well as the distance bet the two litters bc of age and stuff#nd spotfur feeling so ostracized from her fam bc of 'gestures at everything'#im ngl the first lotter really genuinely are kinda just there đ#litter*#i wonder if you couldbe just made them be one singular cat and it wouldve worked better#thats an interesting dynamic i think... a one kitten litter being excited over the prospect of having siblings when cinder n lion announce#the news and getting devastated when two of the second litter decide to leave#maybe they n spotfur couldve beeb close once but the hypothetical only child just xouldnt get rid of those feelings of betrayal and anger#that their sibs left just grew very distant bc of that#i like sibling dynamics have i mentioned that yet
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i feel shy talking here when i dont have anything worth sharing but i cant help feeling like ive said things in the tags that could be brought up in court
#im joking#i think i just get embarrassed saying smth that most ppl can see out in the open. its like when prey animals are grazing in a pasture#and then they hear a twig snap yk. im like that. but talking in the tags is more comfortable because it just feels more.. hidden?? quiet???#its kind of like how i prefer responding thru asks than DMs.. idk if it has something to do with space or less pressure#i also use these as an excuse to ramble a little abt recent events so. ive worked a little bit on shuffle and prestos backstories ^_^#i was thinking abt giving them a shared past where they knew each other as kids and forgot but i also though hmm.. idk if it would drive th#story i want bc i think itd be better if they bonded over similar experiences instead of the fact that they knew each other before. i get#that reconnecting and reconciling your idea of someone now and then is a good concept but id have to think abt it.. i dont want it to feel#like they owe each other to be friends again just bc they were as kids. ive experienced that a lot and all it did was make me feel guilty#so i think id want to write it as u can be friends with someone who had similar experiences and make u wish you knew each other then#i also know theyd hate each other but idk HOW. i suck at writing conflict so idk if theyd try to make each other eat glass and why#idk if itll ever come up but id also like to see if theres a way i could rationalize why they have animal ears.. normally i say aliens#but ive had an idea for a species and background for that too. although its very abstract and it probably has a lot of holes#smth abt peoples souls attaching themselves to smth they identify with.. although i dont know to what extent like if it can#be called a sona or if it can even be smth mythical like a unicorn or god itself.. its very weird rn#yapping#oc talk
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at the end of the day despite having a sibling, the vast majority of sentiments on this site about siblingship in both fiction and real life are deeply unrelatable to me and I study them like a bug
#mainly the sort of sentiments around ''you wanna kill your sibling but you love them anyways'' which i often just can't divorce#from the thinly veiled abusive behaviors that were encouraged in us as kids#but also the deep connection that one is supposedly supposed to gain from going thru family hardships together or something#I feel like there's no immutable blood bond that can get over the hurdle of just never really having connected as people#''immutable blood bond'' in quotes btw. that shit isn't real
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