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Slowly starting to accept the fact I am just unlikeable as a person and interaction will never go well for me. My friend of over 7 years slowly drifting away is the final nail in this coffin for me. Just no person can stand me and that is just how its going to be
#and if my personality didnt turn you away#my constant negativity and doubt anyone even tolerates me will do it#people WILL have better friends than me and why hang out with me then anyway?#I have NOTHING to offer
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can’t be in the xmen universe bc people would be like “logan’s so mean to me he’s awful :(“ yeah, to YOU. sucks to suck i guess, i’m the only one he gives a fuck about
#insp by prev post#mean older man types that would actually worship the ground i walk on and therefore would be 100% different with me are my husbands#+ he’s actually so devoted to the person he loves like did you guys tune in to the canon?????????????????????#you think he turned out like that overnight????????????????????#i have mixed feelings about him & jean though like yeah yeah whatever that should be ME#the scene where he cries when he kills her………… did crazy things to me as a kid#📜.scrolls#xmen#wolverine#logan howlett#also i havent seen the xmen origins movie in hot a minute didnt the girl fake her death#i remember hating her#was i just jealous#i am defending his personal space like crazy like he doesnt want to talk to you go away
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DO NOT FUCKING CALL ME CODEPENDENT ON THAT WOMAN NEVER IN A THOUSAND YEARS.
#analiceoriginal.txt#NOW SHES TALKING ABT IT *AT* HER TELL HER TELL HER!!! I CAN BE TRUSTED W THE MICROWAVE!!!#I CAN TURN THE GODAMN MICROWAVE ON!!! ITS JUST PLUGGING IT IN!!!#I CAN TURN...A MICROWAVE ONNNNN!!! *my psychic powers send everything away*#girl stop admitting youre projecting on me.thats weird...you should feel bad abt it.#girl she keeps talking abt her childhood now too like girl whos the center of attention here.whos the patient.i think its the girl whos#HAVING HER SESSION RN.WHO IS NOT YOU.#the reason you didnt have friends is prob your personality ngl.#srry she accidentally turned her wifi off im yapping in the tags to pass time now la la la#i think im gonna draw later i think i deserve that 🩷#oh shes bringing up being ace oh were going there already? like rn? okay lol#like the therapist.damn were just going there rn w my mom here?? okay lol.i wasnt telling her just bc that was too much effort#n she doesnt listen to me.well that actually solves a lot of problems bc shes hearing it from someone she actually listens to! yay yippee#GIRL WDYM YOU PAID ATTENTION TO ME GROWING UP??? SINCE WHEN????? TALKING TO YOU IS TALKING TO A WALL?????????#if you did i would not have spent all day yesterday vent posting nobody was talking to meee liar liar pants on fireeeeee#'he said i was like the daughter he never had' nobodys ever family claimed me before i think i deserve the experience more than you.#trying to explain in every manner possible i cannot hold pens girl why she is NOT listening.girl LISTEN TO ME ON MY DISABILITY!!!#girl can you stop making it sound like im only resistant to your ideas bc i dont like change YOURE NOT LISTENING TO MY PREFERENCES???#THIS IS IGNORING ME THATS WHATS HAPPENING
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I love how you can purposely cater you internet experience to block most politics so you can mentally detox since your media consumption was becoming unhealthy, and still have a whole week of attempting to regain your hope in humanity become completely undone by wanting to eat lunch with your mom (ramble in tags, feel free to ignore; take care of yourselves first <3)
#politics#us politics#tags so people can block this post#it's just so cool and awesome that things work like that#i was genuinely doing so much better#i was engaging with news in a healthier way#i was fixing my focus on what to do moving forward#but then i had the audacity to want to eat lunch with my mother instead of holing up in my room#she turned on fox news and i tuned it out... talking about stuff with them always turns into debates and its mentality exhausting#so i generally just keep my mouth shut unless asked#but then she started commenting on the news out loud#and so being a personable person i did my best to respond#they were talking about mass deportation of ''illegal criminals'' and she asked out loud why they havent sent them away already#so i said “oh well its expensive and there's not always places that are willing to take them”... left my opinion on the sentiment out of it#that was the WRONG thing to say apparently#devolved into a debate where she ultimately said “ok but it was a rhetorical question and i didnt actually want an answer”#how was i supposed to know that????? im the only person in the room??? thats not what rhetorical questions are used for??????#so we moved on from the topic#she said something along the lines of “pff and people come in illegally and still want to seek asylum”#so again i speak up#told her (with a quick google search to back it up) that people can either apply for asylum at the border or after entering illegally#as long as its within a year of entering#that was ALSO THE WRONG THING TO SAY#she reiterated that she still wasn't asking and added “im just watching the news; i dont want to google anything”#and im like...#...one; she mentioned in her “thinking out loud” rambles that she's aware that i dont like to talk about this stuff with her#but that this stuff is important to talk about... which i took as a “why won't you talk with me?”#so ouch#but also... whY ARE YOU WATCHING THE NEWS IF YOU DON'T CARE TO VERIFY ANY OF IT#im out of tags to ramble in but I'm still so hurt and mad and i have been reminded how little people care about compassion and factuality
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i think human nature/family of blood is a really good two parter in how it manages to show how full of shit ten is 🫶
#look . i LOVE ten . esp whatevers going on w him in s3 he's horrible and i like that#but just !! martha :(#its so incredibly unfair to martha he doesnt unleash his wrath on the Family he chooses to hide instead and okay yeah fair#and sure u can say the tardis chose the setting and time period for them to hide in but like#did that not filter in to his calculations he went through all that turned himself human put his friendship with martha to the test in#the worst way possible. knowing she wouldn't let herself leave him even if he was Abhorrent towards her (and he was) because#of her duty to the universe and beyond and whatever . to blend in and keep the Family off their tails#and she's put in a demeaning position and degraded and even he doesn't seem to care much for her but she still hangs on#and then in the end its like its all for naught. all that pain and suffering martha went through being the only one w her wits about her#he had the capacity to deal w the threat the whole time he had the ability to dole out a horrible punishment he could definitely#have dealt with them a different way than that too .#and instead in his quest to be the bigger person he ends up putting martha through the horrors and then#does the same with the Family anyway ! i dont think he can ever tell her how harshly he dealt with them#surely this isnt an original thought im just thinking Way too much about blue moon by niki#he Does care more about being good than being good to her specifically !! and its so upsetting theyre so volatile i miss them#its more complicated than that sure but at the same time. it sort of isnt .#anyway martha jones my love my life u deserved at least a billion apologies alongside the thanks like god . whats wrong w him#oh and also he wants to move on without properly talking about it . act as if it never happened#like girl be fucking considerate for ONCE she just went through a personal hell for you !!! how insanely lonely she must of been#i dont believe martha ever let him just brush past it w no acknowledgement like yes i think she definitely didnt want to discuss the#accidental confession but i Do think she would sit him down to finally get him to Accept he cant just take her wherever in the past#if he's not ready to look out for her . its a vital conversation i think they need to have otherwise martha would just walk out there#not even love could make her stay through that its been established already she has the strength to try walk away#and also to try and but through his bullshit and demand answers . and here more than ever she deserves his acknowledgement and he Knows it
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-> on mothers, resentment, and the guilt of needing to be cared for
#web weaving#mother#she gave up her world to give it to me#but i dont deserve this#and now we play house but she wont truly meet my eyes#she could've had a life without me#she gave it up because HE wanted a family#and now im an adult and shes slaving away 40+hr work weeks to continue caring for me#while he fucks off#i just wish i could take care of her#or even just myself#grant her the freedom of living for herself#every day she looks so sad and tired#and it makes me sick#mom i want it to be my turn#please stop shouldering my burdens#i want to be able to be a real capable person and prove you didnt fail#i dont want you to feel like those 20 years were wasted#im so so so so so sorry i left#im sorry i threw away your chance to watch me grow up#and then showed back up on your doorstep as some mangled excuse for an adult#im sorry you cant trust me to remember even the simplest shit to take care of myself#im sorry you had me#you could be so much better than this#i wish i could give back everything ive taken from you#more than anything#i want to take your place#i want to watch you make your way in the world with new fresh eyes#and have friends and go out and do things that make you happy#to have hobbies and interests and free time and energy
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Some people are very good at talking to a group and creating an environment where all of them feel very welcome and proactively making sure people are included in all aspects of the conversation and then some people talk to a group as if they are trying to keep everyone divided? Like they are using inside jokes that only one person understands or talk in a guarded way that suggests they are everyone's closest confidant but no one else is allowed to know each other. No real point, I'm just thinking about how much I would rather be the first type of person but how much more common I think the second is
#bean talks#this isn't @ anything that is happening now or has happened recently#i was just thinking about a friend I havent talked to in years and how good she was at this kind of thing?#she'd get everyone in a discussion together and yeah maybe there would be something shed bring up that I wouldnt understand#but shed always turn to the people who didnt know and be like 'oh joe played pippin in our high school production btw'#it was just so nice and especially when i was the new friend it really made me feel welcomed and included#plus it just made it easier to talk to the other people because shed just be like#'omg you should tell bren your quantum joke. theyre studying physics and have so-and-so professor right now'#like it just took away so much tension and gave people a starting point#whereas now i feel like i walk into conversations as the person who doesnt know things and isnt allowed to know things#and maybe this is just my perception but i feel like younger people tend to be the worst about this?#like it seems as though younger people want to be viewed as 'in the know' with everyone by keeping others out ?#i'm sure that's not just a older/younger thing#it's probably very different for people who view themselves as more extroverted vs introverted#and just a general maturity level#but yeah idk i was just thinking i wanted to be better about that ahh
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hold on im still too mad at this one fucking guest to take a nap i need to be a hater for a minute
#so when i say hell on earth kinda day i mean HELL ON EARTH kinda day#we had a large bus travel group from slovakia and then some other guests and it was almost a hundred people for breakfast#the bus group all came at the same time they descended onto the buffet like fucking seagulls i swearrrrr#and i divided tasks like i had two helpers with me in the kitchen so one guys job was just to gather dirty dishes + washing + taking clean#ones back out#and the other guy running around the buffet checking whats needed + restockjng the cold food + telling me all the hot stuff that needs#refilling. so i was in the kitchen making all the hot foods on constant rotation + chopping fruits and making smoothies and shit#and like we managed. WE MANAGED. the buffet was never even half empty at any point like yes there was always something that was empty but#dude who cares if the vanilla yoghurt is empty for 5 mins just pick something else.#and everyone was happy with their breakfast and really nice when asking if we have more of this and that etc and then there was one lady#this ONE FUCKINGGGG lady i swear i almost threw hands#she was complaining about everythinggggggggggg#about there not being any more fried eggs (already in the pan. done in 2 mins. but when helper nr2 told her that she said well why did we#run put in the first place) about the bread station being full of crumbs like girl its BREAD. my giy was running up and down the buffet#wiping it off and cleaning as fast as he could but if you allow people to cut their own bread there will be fucking crumbs. the fuck.#then she also didnt like how the butter looked bc OBV people kept using the butter and no matter how many times you go in and make it look#neat again as soon as the next person takes some it will not look picture perfect anymore#like while i was running back and forth restocking stuff with my arms full she TOOK MY ARM and pointed at things and was like#'this looks shit' so does your fucking face but you dont see me getting physical about it#and then when i came out with a big tray of fresh glasses and cups she pointed to where someone had spilled some water at the dispenser and#went 'there is water on the buffet' (far away from any food + literally its just water) and i said 'yes i know' and she goes 'well it doesnt#look very appealing. this is the worst buffet ive ever seen' and i go 'well surely you have seen how busy we are' and she FUCKING GOES#'i dont care. i paid money for this.' and i go 'well that makes two of us for not caring. we'll get to it when we have the time.' and she#said something else idk what bc i was finished with my task and had SHIT TO DO BC PPL WERE STILL EATING#so i just turned and ran back to the kitchen to keep working#actually i got back to the kitchen and said to guy nr1 'i need to go punch something' and then went out the back and started kicking the#shit out of a pile of paper boxes and THEN i continued working#and then she started TAKING PICTURES of everything she didnt like of the buffet like full offense i hope she gets hit by a bus#like with some people you can just tell they never worked a day in the service industry and no matter what you do theyll keep complaining#anyways :) tag limit. apparently. so its nap time now. honk shoo snork mimimi and so forth <3
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#tw vent#ew yucky vent lmaoo#Love waking up in the morning to my dad#drunk#being accused of things making cry 5 times and hyperventilating when he hells at me for#crying#and saying should be grateful I have a dad#also love how he admitted to me he was shit#i defended him#he told me to stop and he could tell i was lying and that i hate him ( i dont) then later hes said the same thing#(didnt defend him that time) and he got super mad at me for not defending him and called me a bad daughter#he told me he could change if he wanted to but he doesn’t think there's anything to change#he's literally such a narcissistic it's insane#that day was wild#cried 6 times had a panic attack and relapsed after month crazy ass day#what do you mean you could've took me away to Albania without my mother and raised me like a Hitler but you didn’t because you're a good da#he was fine the next day though so idek i feel like i can't complain i feel like such a baby#he's like all you need to raise kids with is love i don't do anything for you guys (me and my brother) i don't know anything about you guys#but i loved you and look how you turned out! (my mother's doing love her shes the best) but also like saying u love me and then yelling at#me and mot caring about my life or putting in effort for me has given me a fucked up idea of what love is#and i also have no idea how to differentiate a good person and a bad person#so thats great lmaoo#i have hope though my mom is amazing a he's not that bad tbh he's gonna give me a really messed up view of trust ik cause i already have it#but it's okay lol I'll fix it all and it'll all be fine I'm still young and optimistic#forgot this also not to shit talk but why are you threatening your daughter if she breaks up you and your girlfriend?? when shes hasn't#done anything to indicate that she wants that in any way? why is it my job to save the relationship you messed up 💀#anyway bye lol peace :3
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looked at old pics of myself at the wrong time and now im crying.,
#i always thot i was just kinda ugly and weird and lame and like. i wasnt. not that it would matter if i was but like. i wasnt i was just. me#in my memories im so mean to myself and then to like look back at who i was at that time is like. so hard like why was i so mean to myself#and why am i still so mean to myself. like who does it benefit to remember myself as awful and annoying and ugly and unlovable#like the only person in my life who thought i was all those things was me. like the only person that hated me that much was ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im fine :)#this was a nice wakeup call i suppose.#also all those old pics i looked so hot im crying actual tears im so mad i could have been getting so much pussy if i wasnt so depressed#idk im just like. trying to be nice to my inner child and my inner teenager is one thing but like. being nice to me early 20s is even harde#i always thought ppl hated me and its like no bitch..... You hated YOURSELF................... anyways im dehydrated#this blog turning 13 sent me into a real spiral ill tell u WHAT.#having spent all my formative years online to then become almost completely offline after getting a job. its drama to say grieving but like#idk it felt like looking at pics of a dead relative. like it looked like me and i could remember taking those pics. but like. thats not me.#GOD. GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#AND ITS ESPECIALLY CRAZY TO LOOK BACK NOW HAVING GAINED ADULT BODY WEIGHT AT PICS OF ME AS A KID WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS FAT. AND I WASNT.#AGAINNNNNNNNNNN NOT THAT IT WOULD MATTER IF I WASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS#but i spent my whole life being treated as FAT without actually being fat. WHICH I AM NOW. and now im the happiest and fattest ive been.#like i actually wasnt a horrible ugly fat freak of nature. i just needed to get away from my mom#i really am rambling at this point. i know i need to Look Within and Figure Out Who I Want To Be and What Kind Of Person I Want To Become#but also i have work#and the answer is some kind of transgender. one of em. thats for sure. but like. im a waitress so like. rain check that convo....#anyways. i am not a bad person. and i wish i didnt spend so much of my life convincing myself i was. but u live and u learn i fucking GUESS
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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#my dream last night was so mean to me. not bc it sucked but bc it was Good n now i wake up n its not REAL??????#it was so realistic too JDJJDJDJSJS#this is mostly for my benefit to write it down like this but djjdjsjjzms#ppl were at my house. [redacted] included. and we didnt get to sit near each other n he was Upset LOL. so he makes a comment about me like#not wanting to be near him n i was like thats not true !!! so he fuckin... comes near me JDJJDNDNDND and im like oh this is too much n i#like. keep having to back away. bc im just so overwhelmed. not bc i dont wanna be near him#but just the Idea of it... NDJNZNZMZMZ n e way#and hes like SEE???? and im like no !!!! you dont get it !!!! n hes like i have to go n goes to leave. so i chase him outside n like#hes got a ride waiting for him and im like... [redacted]!!!!!!!! and he turns around n hes like. i really gotta go#n i was like but !!! its not true!!! i do wanna be near you. and his rides like... oh i can wait. so [redacted] like tries again n no ones#around so like JJZJZJJZJZZJZ AHHHHHHH i dont squirm away or anything. and hes like.... oh i cant even say it JDJZJSNZZ#hes... holding.... me HIDJEKEKSKSKSKSK and his face is really close n hes like. so this is okay?? and im just like ya.. and i think i say#that i like him??? and like idk JDJZJZJZJZJZ he says it back and THEN I WOKE UP RHRKXDOJJDJZJZM ITS SO MEANNNNN SO MEANNNNN#but actually reading it out. its not really that realistic IDK#im just.... damn. back to reality JDJZJSJSJJSJD#personal
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I once again wish my mother died
Everything would be good suddenly
#if you read this mother.#you have caused enough pain for twenty lifetimes#i told you last year that i didnt hate you. i was indifferent. i am no longer indifferent.#it's one thing to hate me. or whatever. and then claim oh im not transphobic i was Wanting to speak to you always or whatever shit#it's another thing to do the same thing to my brother. who youve always liked more. until now.#you are a broken person unwilling to see past your own shards. there is no healing anymore. you are beyond forgiveness#and i hope every single one of your days is worse than the last until you wither away#and your mean spirited and misguided and simply evil soul creeps miserably into an ever-torturing hell#i hope you get back even a fraction of the pain and misery you have caused others. i hope you suffer. and i hope sincerely that#at last you will realise that you broke those that loved you and turned that love into a poisoned resentment#i curse you. there is no redemption anymore#quip
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12 year old Kiwi would simultaneously be Very Very Disappointed and also Very Proud
#disappointed because I’m 24 still single never had a boy friend no job no degree and dropping out of college soon#but proud because i drew a person and he turned out decently well#ive written a lot of fiction which includes and centers on original characters and i even have a completed 20k words fic#(and while i didnt know fanfiction existed at age 12 i would have loved it. and also just been proud at having written fiction)#i have a car of my very own#i own a nice gaming console (switch) and games for it and my family still has a working wii#12yo Kiwi would have been astounded and very happy to see the 112% completion (or whatever number it is) in botw and just how many korok#seeds i collected#she would have loved to see the 10% exploration i have in every genshin area to date#she would have been happy i have friends even tho 95% of them are online (I love you all so very much here have hugs 🫂🫂)#I’m sure theres way more#anyways my point is i should try and be proud of where i’m at right now#even if its miles away from where i wanted to be st this point in my life#I’m gonna try and do nice and fun things as a gift to 12yo kiwi#maybe that will help reduce the incessant negative voice in my head telling me what a complete failure and letdown and disappointment i am#also i think 12yo kiwi would have had her little mind blown at the existence of weighted blankets#and would have LOVED the loz games/franchise/etc#and also would have laughed to discover that i am still the exact same height as her#(I haven’t grown since like 7th grade. i have been 5’2” for around half my life at this point#anyways i guess what I’m saying is do what makes you happy. make little child you happy.
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i told the last of my friends who didn't yet know today about the guy ive been writing extremely angsty personal posts about for the last month, who came to me yesterday with his fake ass apology, and all of them were really supportive. it felt a hell of a lot better than just telling him off myself (in fact i actually hated that part. who said getting stuff off your chest feels good? not if your fucking afraid of the person you're saying it all to.) anyway i love my friends so much
#if it weren't for them i wouldn't know that i deserve better than him#tales from diana#i am not the problem i am not the problem i am not the problem#a number of them could see it coming which. im not surprised. he always embarrassed me in front of them#for a long time i was worried he was a ticking timebomb. like he was going to say something to offend somebody really badly#and i was gonna have to be there to clean up the mess. to confront him or make excuses or be his apologist#im glad i didnt. im glad the person he first burnt was me. im glad i mitigated some of the damage he couldve done to my other friends#the only friends i told before today i told bc i was worried hed start manipulating them and turning them against me#but only some of them were susceptible to that. some of them he straight up didnt care about at all#he's such a cold indifferent person if you don't immediately give him attention. he's a fucking baby#one of my best friends who he was by far the most rude and indifferent towards was like 'yeah no i never liked him'#'he dominated conversations and it always felt like he was leaving me out of things'#because he was always!!! fucking!!! tearing my attention away from her every time i tried to make her feel included!!!#she's really sensitive and shy and he didn't care at all about earning her favor or regard#he just thinks he's innately owed it by everybody. even though he's a huge jerk#im just so glad he's not going to be a problem anymore. i hate him i hate him i hate him
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ive been kinda hyunabrained lately
#sorry to the bllkheads for the alnst posting . I love vivinos#Anyways hyuna is sooo interesting to me#shes the antithesis to every other competitor. She values freedom and self love above all else#as opposed to the rest of the cast#who turn to 'loving' each other as a way of coping within the system that deprives them of such 'love'#Ofc there are aliens that might treat humans better (like shine with mizi) but#In the end love between two people cant be compared to the love one feels for their pet#The humans in alnst dont even know what love is. Not at all!#but it is a cage for them. its what makes them throw their lives away for the sake of the person they love (sua and ivan)#or you have till. whose vision of freedom is different from what it means for hyuna#he still rebels of course. but when he is given a chance to possibly escape he doesnt take it#meanwhile hyuna is the opposite!#shes already lost her brother. And while whatever happened between her and luka still very much haunts her#she doesnt share the direct obsessiveness that the others have#The reveal that her plan wasnt to rescue the contestants but to make alnst as a whole collapse is so good#And entirely sensical#Because rushing into an arena filled with enemies to save people who might not even be mentally ready to leave what theyve known#their entire lives is obviously a stupid plan that leaves them at a disadvantage#this opposes her to mizi. who did escape physically yet still doesnt think twice before rushing in to save her childhood friend#who stands in as a link to the past. to better days where she didnt have a clue about the cruelty of their world#Now shes lost that too#ok maybe ill leave it to an eventual mizipost. Back to my beautiful queen#yet despite cherishing what shes gained she still rushes in after mizi while injured!#she cares for her so much she makes an irrational decision that fucks over what remained of their plan#Which ends with her going back to the prison from which she tried to escape for good#Also her stats being so high (higher than lukas iirc?) ties so well into her role as a freedom fighter#she could have dominated alnst if she stayed#but she didnt want the cheap fame that would do nothing but make her cage look just a bit prettier#Very much off topic but the lightning in the final round made her look#Even more beautiful than usual
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