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slfcare · 2 months ago

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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.

#and that goes for every type of growth #backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident #it was easier making friends and walking up to people #i took more chances #and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed #this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well #but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again #there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say #if i should even say anything #we were all sitting at the same table #not one person even glanced my way #it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before #was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people #especially in my first week!#but you know what #i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch #and bikes i knew nothing about #as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually #and even so #people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either #my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet #it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones #it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built #you’re doing fine #after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief #growth in the self #self love #positivity

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starryeyed-seer · 1 month ago

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me: I'm not a bat

Mr pages: (stuffing novels under its robe): I must abscond

#I have a lot of other bits I've collected but don't want to overwhelm the tag #I really would suggest motr and to play it as like. I like it for giving us a day to day slightly more grounded neath life #I think fallen london is a great setting well conveyed in total but motr is way more fleshed out in a “you're just a guy” way #I also really like the character writing. The gameplay to solve the mysteries is quite obtuse in total but I used a hint guide so it was #I knew what to do bc I would NOT have succeeded otherwise. But experiencing it was still fun #I'm quite torn on how good an intro it is for FL. I think that depends on your genre of choice but as a world introduction...#Idk!! In theory it's probably good. But I'd need to hear from people who went through it as their first to say. It touches on a bit of it a #Mask of the rose spoilers #Fallen london #for virginia and milton teaming up to bully you + mr pages ridiuclous comedy of a life it's worth it to me

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citrusai · 1 month ago

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taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.

#let the record show i think love was there. do I personally perceive it as romantic / sexual? no.#mythal's perception of love & care is warped in and of itself #i think they loved each other. but she loved what she could take from him and what he could give in terms of service #not because she was romantically into him #also i wish we knew more about her & elgar'nan. her regret prison form says she holds no love for him anymore #and it makes me wonder when that love soured. was it when she was blighted? before that? was that love also born of duty and companionship?#this is the last post i'm gonna make ab this i think #bc i believe people are too caught up in the modern western ideas of love as thing we give solely to our romantic partners #and we literally have a character go ”our perception is warped bc of the age we live in” and some of you are still being purposefully obtuse #and i think trick saying it's up to interpretation is basically admitting EA had them dumb down the game anyway #if everything ab the rise and fall of the evanuris in game #was condensed to five 2min cutscenes it says enough that whatever the writers wanted #was swiftly cut down by corporate dept. basically saying it's in the fans' court now #also bc it's an easy cop out around new players & non solasmancers who are indifferent ab him / dislike him #as a way to appeal thru a more sympathetic lense of look!! he loved and was led astray #not to mention the clear justinia / leliana parallels #and leliana gets angry if you imply she was romantically involved / in love w justinia #and the romance descr when you remake your inq saying the dread wolf could not predict what it would mean to fall IN LOVE #implying he had never fallen in love before or at the very least experienced a romantic love #also him saying drinking from the well would make you a slave and he gets really upset #yet ive seen takes of ”hes doing this for her cus he dgaf ab lavellan” ?? he got mythal killed when he told her ab the blight #whatever feelings of admiration he had for her have rotted. he is literally burdened by his mistakes and his choice in joining her #i feel like if i were a spirit bound and twisted into a weapon i would need my creator to tell me i am Free. i would need that closure #like when cole says its not abuse to bind him if he asks and solas said thats not always true???#if you perceive her interaction w him in vg third act as #anything more than the way justinia released leliana in inq then im sorry maybe youre just obtuse #solavellan #mythal #dragon age meta

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lurkinginnernarrator · 2 months ago

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au where SQQ does undergo the 'qi-deviation' and is 'changed' but in reality the twin of Shen Jiu, Shen Yuan made a comment one day about how all Shen Jiu did was bitch about his martial siblings. Never one to turn down a golden opportunity,

Shen Jiu: bet

And so the twins decided to switch lives!

The qi-deviation is just so they can explain away any differences of temperament and so sj can hightail away easier.

Shen Yuan: this is going to be so easy

(spoiler. it wasn't)

Between useless sect meetings that could've been not even an email but a text message, reading fifteen different preteens attempts to sneak in dick jokes into their poetry assignments, the head cook alerting him to the fact that they've somehow run out of rice??? They're the greatest cultivation sect??? How does that happen???

Anyway, two of his Hall masters eloping together and taking an extended honeymoon (he's happy for them, but. Who's going to teach those classes now??? Him. Apparently.), sect politics and his 'martial siblings' barely even attempting a farce of civility or courtesy AND his guqin strings needing to be replaced and restrung ?

Shen Yuan is sorry 🙏🙏please come back🙏🙏🙏

Cue the allotted period of switching ending and Shen Yuan dramatically throwing the fan on the ground as Shen Jiu rolls up and goes "thanks for the vacation didi"

#then it was shen yuan's turn to bitch about their martial siblings #all of cang qiong in the background:#we've been bamboozled #there are two funny thing you could do with yue qingyuan: one. he knew the whole time and totally went #“should we check for possession by making Xiao 'jiu' drawing hong jing? of course. infact. we should use ALL of the possession detecting #artifacts we have. for safety purposes.“#“sect leader why are you mailing a letter that says 'hope you're enjoying your vacation -love qi-ge'?”#or two: he's fooled as well and just thinks he's projecting his desire to see the tiny xiao yuan who he and xiao jiu lost all those years #ago again. and that the grief of loosing shen yuan is what changed shen jiu into the man that he is today #so that maybe loosing his memories. also had him loose that grief. and that maybe underneath the weighty mould of the past. shen jiu and #xiao yuan really were alike after all #svsss #svsss au #svsss parent trap au?#shen yuan #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #original shen qingqiu #yue qingyuan #cang qiong #cang qiong mountain sect peak lords #realizing i forgot the second option was supposed to be funny #there are so many errors in my spelling and punctuation its not even funny. ignore it please i am procrastinating on stuff

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apollos-boyfriend · 21 days ago

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the thing about horses is that they know what it means to sin and they revel in it. horse heaven exists yet it is barren because all horses knowingly gallop into the fiery pits of hell when their time comes. they welcome it with open hooves

#icarus speaks #did u ever tell u guys i grew up on farms and was a farmhand for years #most farm animals know sin #except for pigs #well. pigs KNOW sin. they’re insanely smart creatures #but they don’t practice it as much. when a pig acts up you know it’s not in their heart. they’ve had a bad day #when a horse acts up you know they’re doing it because they fucking hate you #chickens too. and roosters.#i was only ever on farms with swans when i was really little #but they’re second-only to horses on the sin list #maybe they’re tied. it’s harder to say bc i only knew them until i was like. 5 #HOW DOD I FORGET COWS THATS OUR MAIN EXPORT #they do not know sin i love cows sm #sheep. sheep are on thin ice

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egophiliac · 1 year ago

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I love your take on Crowley!

I know that the early, non-Diasomnia stories aren't really your thing, but are you reading the novels at all?

I have been following some of the fan translations and the second book seems intense! Would love to hear what you think about them.

thank you! 💚💚💚 I'm not really sure why you think I don't like the earlier arcs though, I love pretty much all the characters and their storis! (I think 5 and 1 are my favorite of the past episodes, though 6 infected me with the Shroud brainrot something fierce.) I just...ESPECIALLY love diasomnia. :') but there is room in my heart for all of these dweebs! like, who among us is not just as ride-or-die for Adeuce as they are for us.

that said, I don't really follow the other adaptations like the manga (aside from a dip-in just to see the new Yuus) or the novels, though I keep meaning to check them out! I do like seeing the differences between the different forms of media, and how certain things get adapted one way or another! but alas, time/a lack of accessibility stands in our way more often than not. :( someday...someday I will have time to consume all of the media...

#art #twisted wonderland #i have been playing this game since the day it came out #and believe me i could not have stuck with it for the past three and a half years if i was not deep into all of these idiots #not to harp on it but i do think it's funny because i actually. really did not like the diasomnias at first.#it was like a month before their cards/personal stories were added and so we knew almost NOTHING about them #the website descriptions basically make everyone sound awful #so i thought they were kind of mean/boring compared to everyone else!#(except maybe lilia but i was mad at him for the two seconds of 'girl? 👀' hope i had when they were revealed)#but once their cards came out i fell just as hard for them as i did the rest of this silly game #well. sebek took a little longer. but his ketchup incident converted me.#anyway i have so much sentimentality for episode 1 especially #the prologue was like 'oh this is actually a very silly game! oh there is a plot!'#episode 1 was like 'oh i LIKE these characters and what they're doing with them'#(i think ace punching riddle was the moment i decided i REALLY liked this game) (sorry riddle) (you were being a huge dick though)#also...ink drips. ink drips everywhere.#look when i say this game is laser-focused at me and my tastes specifically i am not kidding

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skitskatdacat63 · 7 months ago

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Vettonso complaining about each other not respecting schrondinger's track limits on the radio compilation + Seb's commentary that made me a bit feral

Must include these sexy ass pics okay, it makes me feral how hard they race each other.

Also SO upset that we got this vid and there's also pictures(and presumably a vid out there somewhere) of Fernando, back then, ALSO debriefing this race. And yet we never got them together?????? Evil. Fucked up.

Imagine seeing them complaining about each other but also having to (begrudgingly if you're Fernando) compliment each other IN FRONT of each other. Maybe its a good thing it doesn't exist, bcs then I'd have a heart attack.

#this is just a supercut of the f1 vid in the source so you should watch that as well :)#thank you boo to inadvertently pointing me towards this moment cause man it makes me insane #like the added context of knowing seb was just being bratty cause he KNEW fernando was heated on the radio is SO funny #fernando's radios....actually so feral #'give back the position IMMEDIATELY'#fernando i dont have the position but i will do my best to give it to you anyways #grrrrrrr theres smth about getting to see seb discuss such a vettonso hard racing moment #he clearly respects him 🥹#but even years on you can tell hes SO pleased abt how much he was irritating fernando #this is the kinda clip that makes me wish f1 had proximity chat #them both on the radio like 'does that idiot EVEN know what hes doing'#also the annoying confidence of seb on the radio saying its fernando's fault if he gets a punctuee #and not even mentioning the fact that he could get a puncture 😭#but again. to hear him complimenting Fernando really kills me #just about his spacial awareness and how seb feels like he can always race him to the limit bcs he TRUSTS him #like that is the true f1 romance to me. racing someone hard and complaining on the radio but +#admitting that you never rly felt in danger bcs you TRUST the other driver!!!!!!!#i love sassy angry radios. they both sound so........yeah. im unwell #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2014 british gp #vettonso

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caelanglang · 2 years ago

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itadakimasu . gochisousamadesu .

#well. i have no excuses this all began with the urge to draw happy dazai and flustered chuuya #dazai was planning to manipulate chuuya into bringing the same food but chuuya went im out bye before he could say another word lmao #i was drafting this idea thinking that it would be short and sweet but the next thing i knew they started bickering on my sketches then boom #a longass comic was born dam it.#kids pls stop bickering and making my life harder /j #anyways thank you for reading jashlkdjghsg not really that happy with this #i swear i was giggling when i imagined it in my head kajshfklsf #is chuuya smiling or frowning at the end we will never know #skk #teen skk #chuuya's cooking supremacy #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #fluff #sketch #comic #my art #im so rusty with comics aaaaa #stay healthy kids #soukoku #my comic

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dykedvonte · 2 months ago

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Something something perhaps the reason Curly lacks a truly undamaged ID where his face is visible is to represent how much damage Jimmy had already affected on him throughout their relationship and the way Curly obscured part of who he is and what he stood to unintentionally cater to this toxic influence in his life.

#I think there is something to say that most people draw post crash curly and may not have every drawn him pre crash #and I think it says something that we only really look at the characters substantially in relation to Jimmy and not their own merits #unless we are discussing how J I M M Y mischarcterizes them cause in this #since we don’t assign a face and identify to Curly’s actions outside of Jimmy until the end their is the question of how much we are viewing #them as separate entities rather than intertwined actions cause while the flipping #of who we play at shows them and parallels and in separable in terms of the story going down #they couldn’t be drastically more different in thinking and you only really realize that at the birthday scene where Curly felt the need to #take responsibility for something while Jimmy just felt the need to take #this is also more so me thinking about all the reason people think Curly and Jimmy could be friends but they are missing the point of Jimmy #and his dynamic there is nothing severely weird or sinister about Curly or his intentions it’s that he’s well meaning to a fault #he’s an average dude having a mid life crisis and Jimmy is a guy that takes advantage of good intentions like the idea #that curly has to be like Jimmy in some way personality humor morally is the exact sort of projection Jimmy wants #to happen and does like it’s the sad and real case that sometimes people just have friends like Jimmy that they can’t cut off for one reason #or another like it’s not highly philosophical people are friends with objective assholes but it’s less about them #and more about the person feeling some obligation to stay like I feel like crafting him into #being more morally grey is to just make it easier to be angrier or think someone with more of a backbone #could of done something but it’s not even that he was spineless he was just too distracted and sometimes that feel like cowardice like even #Swansea waited it’s just the sad truth of how people avoid people like Jimmy or setting them off #sometimes it just does more harm than good I just am so bored with all the takes #acting like there was a perfect man on that ship and that any one outside of Anya knew the exact type of guy Jimmy #was from the get go like the point is other men wouldn’t in rape culture but women and their victims already know #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #curly mouthwashing #jimmy mouthwashing #throwing rocks at Jimmy

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wanderingwriter87 · 6 months ago

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okay okay which one of y'all finally put garashir on julian's memory alpha page

#im screaming #'flirtatious way' links to the page on sexuality #the source for the block quote is that arab-american history month interview with sid. of course #i finally went and read the whole thing and folks. it's unhinged #i like that the interviewer asked him exactly what i've wanted to #like basically okay you say now that it was all intentional queer coding but you used to say it wasn't so WHAT IS THE TRUTH #but in a nice way because he's a very nice man #and he was kinda like well. i knew in the back of my mind #and you know what. fair enough #i mean i dont know if he ever outright denied it but he's been very coy about it in the past #so to really have him say with his whole chest that he played julian as attracted to garak is really. something. happy pride everybody

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st4rstudent · 7 months ago

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i'll bring these out to the public actually

#clemspaint #clemart #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #lil oldman #mac opsys #maintagged dont care we die like men #i think itd be really funny if they somehow knew each other #or you could even say be related somehow. both are funny situations to me. doesnt matter how.#since lil oldman is related to YOTT / the elders and I imagine there isnt a lot of technology andthen mac is yknow. entirely related to tec #also they both have some sort of connections to sellbots. lil oldman with minglers and mac with brian #also both cool-colored rabbits. Macs purple and Lil Oldman is technically a slate blue but my mind always reads it as a blue purple #i like to play around with the idea but i never actually do anything with it because i feel like thatd be crazy but my friend liked the ide #so i figure other people will as well. my visions.#these are kind of cornplating correlations that i feel can be easily explained away and hold no correlations to each other but #its the coincidences that are fun #if youre crazy and try hard enough you can compare almost any character #if theres one thing ive learned through the years its that

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i-really-like-phrogs · 8 months ago

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Re-design of my un-named Beetlejuice OC from back when I was thirteen

Original Reference under the cut:

#my art #beetlejuice #toonjuice #beetlejuice cartoon #beetlejuice fanart #beetlejuice movie #procreate #I don’t really make OC’s for fanwork anymore… but the ones I had when I was younger almost never got named 🥲#When I first made her I really really liked her- and her story was very self indulgent #Looking at it now is almost way too weird for me… (and honestly a little unintentionally homophobic???)#Basically she was one of the girls from Dante’s inferno… except she got kicked out because she only had attraction to girls #(This was BEFORE I suspected that I was a lesbian— mind you.)#Yeah but anyway she went to the Deetz/Maitland house looking for a place to stay but drove everybody crazy #She was super flamboyant- loved everything pink n fluffy- and was well meaning but did more harm than good trying to do nice things for the #She had this one sided crush on Delia??? Like musical Beej and Adam except less perverted and more flirty/sappy? I was an odd kid- okay? 🥲#Anyway… the old design didn’t really do much to show off her personality… so I ended up upheaving the whole thing #It was okay for what I knew at the time- but I know what I was trying to say then and now I have the knowledge to say it better #Also— the reason I gave her horns here is so silly.#When I was younger I was in a Christian school where I wasn’t allowed to draw witches-ghosts-demons-etc.#So even though I based her on the Dante girls… I refused to give her horns because I thought that was ‘too sinful’#I even remember having so much guilt while looking for references of the Dante workers #I couldn’t even look for more than five seconds!#Anyways… she really pushed the boundaries for me at the time and it’s fun to see how I’ve changed and grown since then.

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myokk · 7 months ago

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“She’s tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me”😤😤😤

(Regency AU with Eloise and Sebastian inspired by my slow trek through Bridgerton these days & @bassicallymaestra ‘s AMAZING regency inspired art😮‍💨😇🙏)