#and i'm tired of fighting it
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When I try to find the words to express what I want and desire, oftentimes all I find in its place is a deep, guttural, unending scream from the depths of my soul. It reverberates through my mind and body in ways that are wholly indescribable. I feel and know what it is I want and desire, but to express it feels taboo and that scream feels like my soul trying to warn me off to protect itself. Because it has been neglected and starved so long that it can't imagine anything else. It does not feel as if there is a world where what I want and desire are achievable, so it tries to keep me from expressing it and getting hurt again.
#personal#ignore me#I want to pull it out and destroy it#because I know I need to express things if I ever want a chance to have them#but I don't know how#I can express things broadly#but as soon as I try to hone in on something specific#it becomes uproarious and nearly impossible to push through#and I'm tired of fighting it
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"Still too light..."
Whumpril day 1: Hug (clammy)
(Yes I know it's May but I am just happy to finish this thing I started drawing like a year ago lmaooo)
I love Zeff and Sanji's father son relationship so so much. Zeff's poor Eggplant has gotten sick. Steamed himself instead of the actual food...
#my art#one piece#OP#Sanji#Zeff#red leg zeff#black leg sanji#whumprilday1#it's really late but I do what I want#Bre it's March- shhhhhh#hugs#Zeff knew kids were trouble but this one in particular is something else.#watch out he kicks JSJDJJF#Sanji being both touch starved and averse but being too tired here to keep fighting#get cared for idiot#yes I'm on wci arc and sobbing I love them sm aighghgh#Zeff and Sanji I tried to draw thinner than Canon current because uh yknow. trauma rock#Zeff hopes sanji will be too heavy to manhandle lkke this soon...#but for now. SCOOPS
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The fact that the Bad Kids chose to bring Gilear with them on spring break and then have to spend every fight trying to keep him alive is so funny. Absolutely negative value ally. Truly nothing but a liability. I love him so much.
#and so do they! and they are correct!!#i'm watching the pirate fight in hell in ep 15 now and they are trying SO hard to keep gilear alive#i will never get tired of the gag that is gilear's whole existence#fantasy high#dimension 20#gilear faeth#kk talks about stuff#kk watches d20
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SEVERANCE 2x10 | ššæāāļøšØ
#this was just fucking delightful#severance#severance spoilers#severanceedit#myedits#like wtf milchick i love you#i was tempted to fiddle with the timing and let him running away be at full speed but alas it is late and i'm tired#the humour in this show is just so up my alley#i love the idea of milchick being so fucking harried that he literally has to sprint from meeting to meeting like buddy#you had to sprint from the break room back to mdr to do a comedy skit with creepy plastic eagan#and then pop out a full sexy dance number and THEN fight with a vending machine like what a fucking day#are you okay
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good luck, margaret!
#mash#mash 4077#m*a*s*h#margaret houlihan#chappell roan#video#sometimes i make stuff#genuinely how do you guys make fancams this shit is impossible#but i wanted to get this out for lesbian visibility week!#forgot to add a watermark but yk i'm too tired to fight with capcut any longer. i need LUNCH
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You promised to set Jack free. I hope you don't go back on that. Because if I could steal for you, I could steal it back just as easily.
JACK & JOKER | EPISODE 9
#jack and joker#jack and joker the series#jack & joker#jackjoke#yin anan#war wanarat#yinwar#lana.gifs#jack&joker.gifs#genuinely hate this one with my heart but i'm too tired to keep fighting and next ep is in 2 days so#esmetracks#forfive#clairedaring#aejeonghae#rinblr#tusermona#tuseryoo#tuseralexa#tuservic#userrlaura#userbon#uservix#userlinnea#userrain#userkimchi#userspicy#userpharawee#userspring#vishingwell#userelleelle
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My headcanon is that Obi-Wan is actually the one with the highest sex drive in the relationship
Anakin is just like, trying to keep up with that horny old man ready to jump him at all times
#i feel like they're having this conversation and obi-wan's like so what's the best frequency for you to have sex#and anakin's like : idk two times ?#obi-wan visibly delighted : a day ? fantastic#anakin : a month ?? are you crazy we're fighting in a war and i'm not talking about space jetlag every time we travel to another mission#anakin's tired guys#about the war and about his man depriving him from well deserved sleep#he even double checks what's in obi-wan's tea#obikin headcanons#obikin#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi#anakin x obi wan#star wars headcanons#yappy yappy
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#cloisedit#smallvilleedit#dcedit#dctvedit#tvedit#dcfilmblr#televisiongifs#dailyfilmtvgifs#tvarchive#dailyflicks#otpsource#junkfooddaily#userstream#myedit#dc#smallville#clark kent#lois lane#clark x lois#conner kent#this has been sitting in my drafts and I'm tired of fighting with the colouring so.....
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I just want to clarify that this is a good faith question as I am not Jewish and I donāt have a great grasp on what sources may pass the sniff these on this but. What are the issues with Jewish Voice for Peace? I donāt know a lot about the org.
Thanks for asking! Iām not the best source but I can give you a few outline ideas. TLDR? Huge race faking assholes. Real prices of white washing terrorism shit. Itās actually fun to learn about because they really twist and lie about us and itās a really good opportunity to learn what is and isnāt true. Obviously Jews and Israel isnāt perfect so you often have to check the more plausible claims but even those are usually wildly wrong and exaggerated. Itās tough.
We hate JVP because:
Almost no Jews in it yet they constantly say they represent Jews and token themselves to excuse other hate groupās antisemitism and calls for violence. They are deeply antisemitic and promote misinformation and violence against Jews themselves tho so donāt think they are just a shield. The Jews in it are either totally disconnected from Judaism, both religious and cultural (they promote self conversion to Judaism using a tea cup baptism type thing and various pagan rituals both of which are an ABSOLUTE no go in all forms of Judaism. They donāt publish their membership so itās impossible to know how many actual Jews are in it) or they are this one insane antizionist religious sect that dress like Orthodox Jews but are basically the most fringe racist pieces of shit antizionists alive who think all other Jews arenāt Jewish enough and deserve to be killed with all the non Jews (they are also just racist against non Jews and Jews that arenāt in their sect as well as homophobic I believe.)
They are as much an anti Jewish hate group as something like the black Hebrew Israelites and Jews for Jesus.
Jews have a hard time with fake Jewish organizations because antisemites and philosemites outnumber us by probably 10 to one. And they donāt even try to learn from us they just put a Jew sticker on their Christian or Muslim bs and say all actual jews should be killed for eating babies.
Hereās some screenshots from the article I linked. Iām too tired to copy paste and format it.
They also rewrite and promote interpretations of holidays that are Jewish to ignore Jewish history and beliefs and replace it with Palestinians. They object to Jews praying or speaking in Hebrew as offensive to Arabs, and in general they are some real assholes to Jews. They token themselves as Jews even when they arenāt. āNot in our nameā t shirts that leftist non Jews wear while pretending to be Jewish for the photo opportunity? Thatās partially them.
See this photo? Literally no Jew could have been involved in this. Literally no one who knows how to google the word āPassoverā could have made this. The Hebrew is backward, likeā¦. Itās literally wrong in every way. Not even in an āwe changed it to fit Palestine cultureā itās just stoner bullshit. Just a big ol plate of blood libel and inciting terrorism against real Jews.

Other people have more info. All this is off the top of my head but donāt listen to these fucks unless the info is verified by a Jewish source or you might end up thinking Hebrew is written left to right, bar mitzfas are colonial settler oppression, a bris is cp, and Dino is the real historical language of Jews ⦠who flew down from space just in time to get slightly murdered by a very few fringe groups in 1930s Europe.
#jumblr#antisemitism#leftist antisemitism#please correct me if i'm wrong#Iām unpacking from a move out of nyc#jvp#fuck jvp#Iām so tired.#anyone have the sources? Iām fighting for my life with no internet access and just my phone on data
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the haters are trying to get me to care about canon. they're trying to get me to only fuck with canon. newsflash you stupid bitch if you are in a fandom space you are consuming fanon. i don't CARE that it's canon that bruce wayne has hit his kids in canon. i make my own world where it's common fucking sense that heroes are good people who would not be abusers. "human flaw" this my ass that motherfucker drives a Batmobile and wears a Batsuit and throws around Batarangs. live in a suspended belief and have fun before you dry up and die a sad raisin of a being
#while i'm at it i am so fucking tired of power scaling#āok these two characters in a fightā how about anything else for fucking once#these 2 characters but they both have to talk to each other while waiting for the train because they accidentally initiated conversation#these 2 characters but they find out they're cousins and are like āhow tf did that happenā#these 2 characters but one of them just watched the other trip and fall at Walmart#like yeah sometimes it's annoying when fanon spaces completely misinterpret a character#but sometimes fanon is just more fun or makes MORE SENSE than a canon choice#and i would prefer reading or seeing that#guess what my guy the world is not black and white it has so many colors#open and use the eyeballs in your skull#unless you're like actually blind#then i guess feel every emotion all at once and that would describe a color#erinwantstowrite#dc#batman#robin#canon vs fanon
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AUGH Iād love to see more time looping odile if possible,,,,, how do you think sheād like; ādevolveā over each of the acts as compared to Siffrin over time :O
ok im gonna be honest i did like portrait edits months ago and just never finished them. so here you go
act 3:
act 5:
#some of them are still missing... I'll edit this post if I finish them as well#isat#isat spoilers#odile loops au#day 108#isat odile#i'm too lazy to individually export them in transparent atm...#tell me if yall ever need it#edit: I FORGOT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION#I mean yeah technically the portraits work but I do have Thoughts about this#I just think that throughout the loops odile becomes more. annoyed. and irritated#Like by act 3 fighting isn't really amusing anymore#dying/getting frozen is. ah. welp#But by act 5 she's just speedrunning#Just super irritated. like die already i've got variables to test#act 3 frozen is a momentary rest; the break is nice and she knows she can get back next loop; it's fine. act 5 is ugh seriously#tired. annoyed. unamused. what a waste of time#anyways wait how long has it been since I posted#(sees date of last post) OH. um#sorry guys I've been busy job (internship) hunting#will I post more from now on? No promises <3#Thank you for sticking around nontheless... I appreciate all the stuff yall send in my inbox <3#isat au
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You were just telling me you'd do anything for me. But not this little thing?
#the heart killers#the heart killers the series#first kanaphan#asianlgbtqdramas#asianlgbtdrama#esmetracks#userrlana#uservix#userspicy#tuserrowan#khaotunq#vishingwell#tusersilence#tuserhidden#userjamiec#*#*thk#can they stop going bowling i'm tired of fighting for my life against this grimy yellow#anyways this is a first expressions appreciation post
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PAGLUIB
way back in like. march?? I took a stab at writing some kind of kabitserye type of story but it was a mess: it kept veering off into murder mystery drama territory because I was reading a lot of murder mystery novels around then and it Wasn't Good because I hadn't tried writing mysteries, let alone murder mysteries, before lmao
I did write a handful of short mystery stories since then, so next year I might take a stab at this idea again now that I'm no longer jumping head first into a genre pool I don't know how to swim in :)
#now for the part where i have to fight off the impulse to write in some b movie horror elements because ive been thinking about#reanimator a lot lately. ehghghh. thank god for the editing process. to wrangle my thoughts into a linear state of creating#anyway i read an article. interview? on the popularity of infidelity dramas in the philippines and it was poetry to me#and i also enjoy the really intense social melodrama in lino brocka's films. specifically the appearance of morality to cover up/justify#ugly behavior. or like. man i'm tired. whatever was going on in murder by tsismis. that's the thing. someday i'll get more into it#and post excerpts from the actual analysis of the film that actually explains the dynamic im talking around here#komiks tag#original tag#also there's some. vague lingering thought about ikaw lamang in here. not in a way that matters#but in a 'the first episode that i saw was not the first episode of the drama itself and it made me go. oh everyone has rotten vibes'#which is not. well. if you saw ikaw lamang then you know the characters. this is not the takeaway from the show. HOWEVER#i did invent a whole different show in my head between that and when the next episode aired. so.#fake ikaw lamang. ikaw lamang if it wasn't even remotely like ikaw lamang. on the topic of ikaw lamang here's a cringe story for you#still following along. BEFORE i had watched the show. i saw a notebook with franco on it but i didn't recognize the character#i just saw jake in a suit and went oh! cool! i will now Buy This!#anyway i still have the notebook lmao
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the vast mistreatment of aro/ace characters in fandom spaces needs to be studied
#watch out there's shipping discourse everywhere#i genuinely don't see this kind of discourse that gets this bad for other queer identities#holy shit#like the way ppl so easily dismiss aro/ace orientations#pisses me off#but trust i WILL be fighting on the front lines for our representation#i'm TIRED of the erasure#aroace#aromantic#asexual#aspec#shipping discourse#fandom#aromanticism#asexuality#aro#ace#lgbtq#queer
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The inherent tension between the eat-the-rich working class self-made grind of being an independent etsy/commission artisan on social media, and the fact that due to the (very fair!) "know the worth of your work" price points in the hundreds of dollars their clients can by definition pretty much only ever be well off people with a lot of disposable income.
Issue is that a lot of them don't seem to realise this, which is evident when they try to guilt fellow poor people (and often those who are in fact a lot worse off) into buying their work, or call them or for not being willing to personally spend at their price point.
#not-terezi-speaks#could probably weave this fact into the commissions against AI discourse too but I'm too tired to pick that fight
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Jetstar cuz I needed to draw smth
Lazy ahh I need to sleep omg
#transformers#jetstar#jetfire#humanization#human starscream#Human jetfire#starscream transformers#idk man#gay robots#Angst Yaoi robots#transformers fanart#fight me#im silly#gay gay homosexual gay#silly art#lazy art#fast art#i'm silly#i'm so tired#i love transformers
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