#and i'm never proud of myself but i am proud of this

[30somethingautisticteacher]

Cutting out toxic people? 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Thanks for the prompt!

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"No contact? Baby, are you sure?" Tommy asked softly, concern etched on his face.

"Completely sure. I can't do it anymore. I won't let them invalidate you and me and my sexuality. Enough is enough," Buck said, his voice steady despite the pain behind his words.

"I don't want you to feel like I'm pressuring you," Tommy said, reaching for Buck's hand.

"The other day on a phone call, she asked me when I was going to stop playing house with you and find myself a nice girl," Buck said, the words still raw in his throat.

"She said what?" Tommy's voice sharpened with protective anger.

"I will never be good enough for her. I will never be Daniel, and I don't need them in my life," Buck said firmly, squeezing Tommy's hand.

"That is her loss because you are so good. The best person I've ever known," Tommy said, pressing a gentle kiss to Buck's neck. "And I love playing house with you."

"You know, when I would play with Maddie's Barbies, I always made the Ken dolls kiss," Buck said, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively, the playful admission lightening the heavy moment.

"I like that idea," Tommy said, taking Buck's hand and gently pulling him toward their bedroom. But before things could heat up, he stopped in the hallway, placing his hands tenderly on Buck's cheeks.

"I am so proud of you," Tommy said softly, his eyes meeting Buck's with deep sincerity. "Choosing yourself, choosing us - I know how hard that is."

Buck shook his head, leaning into Tommy's touch. "Easiest thing I've ever done," he whispered against Tommy's lips.

[liyuviq]

Can I be honest rn...? Ehe- I just want you to know that I have a big fat crush teenie-tiny admiration 🤏 for Shin for as long as the first time I saw them, which is honestly not that long ACKAIFJDJ BUT‼️‼️ CAN I BEG FOR YOUR BLESSINGS TO DRAW INTERACTIONS BETWEEN SHIN AND MY SONA PSPSPSPSPS, IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE MUTUALLY ROMANTIC, I CAN ACCEPT ONE SIDED TROPES 😭😭💔💜 I JUST REALLY WANT TO INTERACT WITH YOUR SHIN CUZ I LOVE THEIR PERSONALITY (I am literally simping so hard rn, please tell me I ain't the only one because I refuse to believe I'm the only one⁉️⁉️) But fr though, you draw saur GOOOOD that it's making me fall harder for your art and your oc🥰💜🫶✨

Have this very rushed drawing while I was in class earlier -

(p.s. is there a Shin admirers club??? Please inform me asap so I can join 🤩🤩)

u r making me blush???? WJAJIWIIWSKW 🫣🫣

is this what a proud mother feels when her child (shin) is becoming popular 😩😭😭😭

TYSM FOR BOTH THE ART N UR WORDS OUDCHFIUEHCD THEY R SO SWEET 😭💕💕💕 the art is so very adorable look at her flushed expression ☺️ n shin is so cute in ur styleeee. look at them being the shoujo manga love interest with those sparkles and flowers 🌸✨✨

n a shin admirer club??? i don’t even know if there will be enough members (in the first place i never expected people to like my child this much 😩) but who knows maybe u can start it as the president 👀👀

AND OF COURSE I CAN DRAW THEM INTERACTING IM CURIOUS MYSELF TOO ABT THEIR DYNAMICS

okay okay let me set the scene *insert classic shoujo anime bgm*

so wht if ariya was admiring shin from afar, but shin turned around n they met eyes! she panicked and ran right into a wall, then shin approached with worry in their eyes.

“Are you okay?”

ISNCFRIEFNIERFMIER (bro even im fangirling myself 😳😳)

canonically this admiration is gonna be one sided since shin doesn’t rlly care abt love and crushes 😭😭🙏🙏🙏 but IDC LETS BE A LITTLE DELULU

shin stop being so smooth u r gonna break her heart 😭😭😭 i can def see shin as the one who has unintentional rizz with women. to them they aren’t flirting but to others 💞💞

[haunted-carousel-productions]

Lessons for first-time Audiodrama creators I learned making Lavender Evening Fog

Today marks the four year anniversary of the first full episode of @lavender-evening-fog-podcast. If you want to make audiodrama, here are some lessons that I learned along the way, that will make it easier for you. We went into it loving the audiodrama artform but not knowing a lot about it, so please learn from the experience we gained making the show over four seasons.

Cut the volume you plan to put out in half. And then maybe cut that in half. There are a few ways you can do this-- for example if you are planning on every other week, put out monthly episodes instead. Or maybe rather than doing a 12-episode season, you do a 6-episode season. Or maybe rather than doing 12 half hour episodes, do 12 fifteen minute episodes. One of these ways of reducing may make more sense for your story than the others, but the takeaway is the same--producing an audio drama is a lot of work, and if you have never done it before, it is likely more work than you expect. You can still tell your story, it might just take more time. "But Victoria," you say, "I am already being very pragmatic about this!" I believe you dear reader. When we started LEF we intentionally made the episodes monthly because we knew more frequently would be difficult. Yet the plan was to have two 12-episode seasons that would involve dropping an episode every month for two years without break. About six episodes in we realized that we would burn out if we did it that way. Fortunately, because of how we mapped the story, it was very easy to convert that to four six-episode seasons. This allowed us to take breaks while still having consistency in our release cadence, because that consistency is incredibly important, and it is easiest to sustain over time if you have a handle on the work.

Have as much as possible done before you develop a release schedule. This may be the exception to #1--if you have everything done, by all means, go forward with whatever schedule you like. But it is easier to have a season done and drop episodes than to be working on it up to your release day.

If you can't have everything done before you start thinking about a release schedule, at least have the writing done and polished. Sometimes, you will need to revise pretty heavily. Especially at the beginning when you are getting the voice right. Because writing and getting feedback can take awhile, you want to give time to think about it, try to have your scripts done if nothing else.

If you find yourself relying on some part of your story too heavily, try writing a scenario without it. At the end of Season 1, we introduced the idea of Nick voicing Billy, and by the Season 2 premiere, we felt comfortable recording more interactions (remember, this project started during peak Covid). I was so excited to write for more than just myself, so I wrote a bunch of Billy scenes that didn't move anything forward. Once it was pointed out that this was a problem, I decided to send Billy to a conference. That gave me an opportunity to reframe rather than relying on a narrative crutch. This resulted in the Anna-Georgina is sick episode, which I still think is one of my favorites.

Create frameworks that make writing easier. For example, we wrote the show in little fragments of Anna-Georgina's audiodairies. That made it so much easier to plan (we know we need 8-12ish segments per ep), to write (again, if I wasn't feeling like tacking a particular big of the plot, I could work on another), and to record (The Lucy letters and the long pieces of exposition were always recorded last)

Figure out your tech before you record your first episode. We didn't fully and I'm still kind of embarrassed. Like I'm proud of what we produced starting out, but I wish we (mostly me, Nick always knew what he was doing) had figured it out earlier.

[thedevilinmybrain]

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[scimagic]

What motorcycle do you think would Mr. Puzzles? A Harley-Davidson? A Ducati? A Suzuki?

I honest to god cannot see him as a motorcycle guy fhdsakj I see him more into classic low riders (as seen in Despicable Mr. Puzzles with that dumb car of his), but I'd say he is willing to give them a try-! And then cry about it after the ride FHDSKJA

[alphazed]

Pete and Steph!! They are my favorites (excepting my other favorites) but don't tell anyone

I'm so proud of them and also of myself. it worked out so good ahsvsjs

Onto the next charachters i'm gonna draw

[feyd-meowtha]

A wee snippet from the upcoming MOTA 90s House AU...

“So you’ll try to talk your way into a nightclub underage but you draw the line at drinking? Weirdest jailbait I ever met.” Bucky said, shaking his head in a way that was equally condescending and unbearably attractive.

Cool, experienced, old enough to be here - Bucky was everything that Gale was not and it made him so mad that he wanted to kiss him and never stop. He appreciated that this was not the normal reaction to someone pissing you off but he also understood that this was anything but a normal day and allowed the thought to stand.

“Stop calling me that,” Gale huffed, deciding that bratty was the way to go with this guy. That worked for him. The whole coquettish looking up through your lashes always sounded like bullshit anyway.

“I told you I'm eighteen and you can’t even be that much older. You’re what, like, 25 tops?”

Bucky just laughed and tapped his nose, which could have one of two meanings but Gale was pretty sure which one it was this time.

“A lady never tells,” said Bucky before turning his attention to the shot of tequila sitting untouched on the counter, a slice of lime balanced across the top and a packet of salt sticking to the bar mat next to it.

“Hand.” Bucky said. It wasn’t an instruction and it also wasn’t quite a request but Gale did as he was told, dropping his hand into Bucky’s broad palm. What happened next was something that Gale would be replaying in his head for the rest of his life.

Quick as a flash, Bucky’s tongue darted out of his mouth and he licked a long stripe along the back of Gale’s hand. Gale watched bug-eyed as he ripped the salt open with his teeth, pouring it onto Gale’s wet skin before chasing it with another lap of his tongue. After that he downed the shot and presumably sucked on the slice of lime. Gale honestly couldn’t be sure because his brain had left his head and was currently oozing out of his ears onto the sticky linoleum floor.

“Fuck, I love tequila,” Bucky said, shaking his head as he savoured the burn and relinquished control of Gale’s still wet and now salty hand. Gale resisted the urge to lick the remains of the salt off himself, taste the saliva that shone purple and blue under the disco lights. He fought the temptation, allowing his hand to fall onto the bar where it tingled hot and cold.

There was a loud snort from the other side of the bar as the blonde bartender ducked down behind the glass wash in an attempt to hide his giggles. Bucky spun to face him, looking pissed as Gale’s faculties finally returned to him.

“It ain’t the first time you’ve done that is it?” Gale said, eliciting another snort from the bartender.

“Fuck’s sake, Hambone,” Bucky said, gesturing with his hands, “just because you got no game don’t mean you gotta go and ruin it for the rest of us.”

Then he turned back to Gale.

“Would you believe me if I said it was?”

��No.” Gale said flatly, mind still on the drying spit on the back of his hand. He sipped at his coke. It was fizzy and sweet and it gave him something do do with his hands and his mouth, other than all the things that his overstimulated brain was suggesting.

“You caught me, nothin’ gets past you does it?” Bucky said with a grin, “None of em were as pretty as you though.”

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Coming soon to feyd_meowtha on ao3!

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

[dogboner]

personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

[uncanny-tranny]

You're allowed to be proud of yourself for achieving things that are not seen as achievements or are seen as "just the norm."

Sometimes, the achievement is reaching where others have always been, and it isn't about being normal, but about the things you have done to achieve a goal. You can celebrate and be proud no matter how "small" a feat it is

[mortellanarts]

The passage of time was sooo normal and kind to me this year guys qwq

[pardonmydelays]

the funniest thing that always happens to me is that every time we have a customer who doesn't speak polish and they ask me if i speak english i'm like "no, i don't think i do" only to realize a few minutes later that i do, in fact, speak english

[crystallinearts]

chapter 50 of chosen. has been posted!

[alicornze7]

how much detail do u want?

Y E S

Gangle being a theater kid with the overly complicated non-practical costumes that she’d wear on set

[jasminesilk]

Kitty and her beloved cat Charmmy have finally settled into their new cozy cottage home in Henford-on-Bagley! Just before it started snowing, too.

[spaceratprodigy]

🎉 [ Art from 2022-2023 ] 🎉

Happy Birthday to my most favorite person in the world, the love of my life 🖤

I still can't believe this'll make our 10th year of being best friends and even more I can't believe we get to celebrate our 8th anniversary this summer 💖💕

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