#and i'm being cynical

[aliusfrater]

i need people to understand that being transgender, being transfeminine, is an entirely different thing than being made fun of for perceivably emasculating things by your older older (brotherisms)

[tippenfunkaport]

You know, it would be amazing if Hollywood learned the right lesson from the success of Nimona. Something like "Hey, maybe don't throw out a nearly done movie as a tax write off" or "people want queer stories" or even "don't be afraid to take some storytelling risks and be original" but you just know they're going to come away with some absolutely batshit takeaway like, "next time delete all the evidence and burn it to the ground so the gays can't make us look bad!"

[paarthursass]

Thinking about Olrox being attracted, specifically, to men with strong codes of honor. Being drawn to the strength of their beliefs, their convictions, their morals. He's too jaded, he's seen too much destruction to hold fast to anything other than his own survival (or so he tells himself) but his lover, Alucard, Mizrak...they all believed in something.

Olrox being drawn to men who have qualities he thinks he lacks. Because whether or not he knows it, they nurture a part of him he thought long dead.

[carlyraejepsans]

One thing I think people forget is that sans probably wouldn’t talk about missing his home and never being able to go back and giving up unless he absolutely felt he had to

with frisk he’s pretty sure that’s the time traveler that could very well end the entire world. He’s trying to reason with em as a someone he’s hoping could be a friend at that point because he’d really rather not have that happen

In geno is IS the end of the world and he’s hoping you’ll realize this is stupid and cruel and reset. It’s not like he’d have this conversation on a random Tuesday with papyrus

yeah agreed, sans goes out of his way to not talk to/with papyrus about their life before the underground. remember the newsletter q&a? (this is more a theory, but judging from their behavior i personally think papyrus is an amnesiac/sans thinks he is, and he's trying to spare him the grief of remembering).

his memories and mementos are stored behind his house for a reason, he's had his realization that he'll never go back already: there's no sense in reopening that wound again if he has an option to avoid the topic.

[agnesandhilda]

literally what I thought while watching the movie

[burr-ell]

The thing is, I could maybe accept a Vaxleth happy ending if the complications of it were materially explored. Show that his sacrifice and the intervening thirty years actually mattered. Show the weight of all the lost time and emotional energy in Percy and Vex's lives and the lives of their children. Show Vax and Keyleth actually having to confront the ways their time apart has changed them, and show how their conflicting duties still impact their relationship. Show that somebody, somewhere, actually lost something.

I love Campaign One. It will always be my favorite, and to me it will always be the best. I love the undercurrent of grief and loss and how it colors the characters' lives, culminating in them losing one of their own with no way for them to get him back. I love Liam's commitment to that decision in Dalen's Closet, Tal'Dorei Reborn, and Vox Machina's appearance in Campaign 3. I'm so disappointed that Keyleth will never have to actually grow beyond her grief and move on, and this is treated as a good thing. They prioritized a people-pleasing "happy ending", the ramifications of which are highly unlikely to ever be explored, over honoring one of the most beautiful and impactful scenes in the entire show. Unless some heavy lifting is done to salvage that, I don't think that's something I can ever move past.

[crow-caller]

Angel radio is 9 years old at this point since publication. I wrote it in 2013, over a decade ago, when I was 16. I think it'd be a really interesting essay/video to reread AR. "I was a teenage author: here's what happened next" but the answer is. It would probably hit a level of depressing real life rumination that would feel both indulgent and too personal. It's kind of hard to talk about being a teenager without it

But also. It's a fascinating subject I wish I was the kind of person to do a large project on— authors and 'failure' and what it is like years later. It's hard to publish a book/be published, and most of the time, it won't become a hot classic everyone recommends. A book is everything to you, but it will likely be forgotten. I know a lot of indie authors who published and then stopped, who published with high hopes and lost those. You just move on, life continues. But the hope you feel when a book comes out is a weighty feeling.

I also wonder a lot about mainstream authors, where this still fully applies. So many authors get one series, one book, and it just doesn't do well enough. And then what? I trawl about the 2010s YA section a lot, and there's so many series that were never finished by authors I've nor heard of, books from the Big 5 that simply didn't become Anything. And then what?

As a writer you need to accept what you have, and be proud, anyway. But the feeling of "this book will change everything, I'm an author! This is it!" Versus the years later "I'm an author. I've published some books. They exist." is.... well, it's something.

[hellonerf]

through it all caname having the same face is pretty crucial to it all. because i'm crazy

under the cut because i'm a little crazy and i don't want to deal with people going why are you so crazy. i was just thinking about how they behave to each other and concern and selfishness. i think i portray them a certain way because i rarely think when i draw but anyways. they still project onto each other to insane degrees and them having the same face doesn't help it at all. in their worst moments they'll see the other as more of a "___ version" of them. it really is like that image with the model of someones model in someones head What okay

i actually think cana is guilty of this a lot but i'm gonna be honest i think about canada's stream of thought more these days because ame is too much of a coping freak to me sometimes. i think he displays a lot of concern and worry for ame but it's not entirely selfless. i don't think he's that selfless. like i think if ame met someone and for whatever reason that other person made ame improve himself and actually be better cana would feel pretty empty about that. well ok i just think they're crazy with each other. it's not even really that he wants to be responsible for him it's just if he, as he is, as his relationship with ame is, turned out to be completely unremarkable to ame he'd like shoot himself or something. no that was a joke i bring up suicide too fast Sorry. sometimes i think his anger with ame is more about himself. not to say he has no reason to want to beat his shit in but more that he himself is also an enabler and not an innocent person it feels reflected back to him 😇 and he crazy hates himself. cana living in his own head and mumbling all his frustrations about himself and other people only to himself is the kind of cause for a tunnel vision self centeredness. when he gets aware of this he starts slamming his head in the wall. it's kind of a feedback loop with being reclusive...

i'm too assed to string into words what i think their deal with what they desire from one another is. i actually think they want similar things but if not a lack of communication then the way they'd want it is too different from each other to work. caname can never work guys it's so over. i have to yandere kill everyone else on their behalf to force them together it's so over. like i think cana thinks ame is a psycho unreliable arrogant asshole and ame thinks cana is a stupid lying coward bitch with no spine but they're also bffs and also the same person(wrong)(this is why everything is wrong) and they want the other to Understaaand them. in the true way. in the True way 🌤️ ame is like ohhh i'm eternally alone ohhhhh this fucking sucks and this spineless fag i call my brother is my last hope 😭😭😭(exaggeration) and he still doesn't know anything. ohhh you don't know anything about about This worlddd this world we're in....(attempts suicide for the 1000th time) and cana is like all my relationships are pointless and nobody likes each other including me. and there's my brother who doesn't care about anything but himself and mindlessly causes harm to everything. what do i even do😭😭😭 i'm tired. i think at random cana will be like No OMG this is horrible i can make this not horrible(yes?maybe?) which is like the context for that drawing where he hugs ame and doesn't let go when he yells and pushes him i think. you genuinely have to rip their skins off to get them anywhere. wow. KILL YOURSELF CANAME 😭😭😭😭😭

they're too cringe aware that's why they will never even kiss. that won't stop me from drawing them kissing and getting married because i don't care i like to play with dolls. caname is good. caname is a net positive. caname is actually so sweet and encouraging and super nice to each other and i'm a maniac

[galaxyseclipse]

is a total of three days of screaminktober missed worth it for this?

eh, idk, but I got this done, and it's not like anyone's holding me super accountable for that anyway

plus the funnier ending that I got to work/really wanted to post too

he put a lot of effort into those puns, dude, the least you can do is not call them bad

[pyrepostings]

Conditioned whumpee, whose caretaker is trying to convince xem it's ok to take off the collar now that whumper's gone.

Whumpee decides, in xeir head, that xey could explain to whumper if xey are recaptured that xey downgraded xeir collar because whumper wasn't there to give orders. See, xey still wore a collar, it's just made out of leather instead of gold. See, xey didn't think for a moment xey could be free.

And this way, Caretaker can be satisfied about aer "progress" in the meantime.

[tearsonmarz]

Not going to lie, whenever I watched Smalletho in their double life series, it very much was just a "this is the circumstance" for Etho. And Joel would play into the joke of I love my soulmate, so much that I made a t-shirt with his face on it. But to me it was never a great life series ship, especially in comparison to Ethubs angst and Bdubs pining. (when it first came out ofc)

But through Limited life and Secret Life, and now Hermitcraft s10, the ship has thrived. What once was a pairing through circumstance, turned into a true ship, and now a mockery of what once was as seen through rose coloured glasses. Where Joel who once was "obsessed with Etho", turned into Etho "obsessed with Joel."

Honestly, this post has no other purpose than to put these thoughts into words. Especially since Etho is being such a silly lil guy these days, and only he truly knows what goes on in his brain. The stark contrast just keeps me thinking about them.

[bunabi]

Hi Bunabi, pls ignore if this is too ranty

Dragon age has had me in a chokehold for 10+ yrs at this point, but the representation and racial dynamics in this series is bothering me. The Dalish and elves in general are just so painfully whyte. I guess it is more comfortable for white ppl to relate to oppressed whites rather than actual POC… My lavellan is dark-skinned, but she looks out of place among elves like Sera, Solas and Abelas. Even most Dalish npc are white. I am getting tired of the worship of European aesthetics in media, not only in terms of beauty standards, but also in fashion, architecture and art. Do you feel like Dragon Age is eurocentric?

I agree about the diversity of NPCs but I don't think the fashion & environments are strictly European worship, we've just been stuck in Fantasy France & England for three straight games.

And as far as whiteness helping players relate to them: no. 😭

Considering how fans talk about the Dalish in the wake of DAI, how they're treated ingame, how many Lavellans ditch their clan and culture in fanon, and everything that's been added to their lore post-DA2, it aint helping lol.

[cobra-creampuff]

i do love that everyone is visibly shocked and grieving when buffy dies, sobbing, crying, stumbling, etc, but spike fucking collapses

[mymarifae]

really dreading mizu5 tbh. yes the writing around mizuki has generally been really well done and it feels thoughtful and intentional, but it'd be a very easy and very instantaneous thing. to just throw four years worth of build-up in the fucking garbage. or maybe nothing of substance will get confirmed at all because they decided they like making money. maybe it'll just be bad and this is all a waste of time and no one's going to be happy. maybe i should obtain a grenade launcher and play with it

[crimsonservbot]

Starting to get followers from that last post I made about Icarus and boy howdy, lemme just tell you all right now: I do not think about Icarus most days, I am a niche internet micro-celebrity VA who has had this blog for a long time. I just started actually posting recently because I finally got on HRT last August and so I'm a real person now who thinks instead of a grub that just squirms through sludge for no reason it can comprehend. You understand, yes?

[kosmic-kalamity]

more doodles based off of an au idea i doodled here (words r typed out under the cut)

i just might be getting attached to this idea,,,,,,

clay

- he/she

- had returned to branch only a few days before the escape from the tree; the two got separated, and he believes branch to be gone

- [she] went grey for a few years, but recovered over time with viva's help

- seen as the weird hermit troll due to no longer singing + living on the edge of the village

viva

- she/they

- poppy was lost in the escape from the tree, and king peppy never recovered; she had to step up as queen earlier on [in life]

- is constantly on the verge of going grey, but keeps it together for her people

- the snack pack, instead of being their friends, are just cooper's friends; cooper is like a [little brother] to them