#and i'll prob edit this a lot this week

[tirfpikachu]

this is controversial as fuck but i mean this is radblr... complex discussions and nuance are our meals of choice, right? right???

if you hate me after this that's okay. i want to say i at least have more experience in jewish spaces and with jewish history than most, though i obvs am not as knowledgeable as a historian who knows jewish history. so my pov is different than someone who has never been in a synagogue, where jewish history is constantly discussed at length. i'm open to people deeply informed about jewish history, and not just from tiktok vids and tumblr posts and articles written by greedy war-hungry journalists sensationalizing it all.

i have seen a jewish world where the gratitude for the land and the desire to have peace between all kinds of folks, all religions and all races and both sexes (on the leftist side anyways) permeates every speech a rabbi would give. jewish ppl were persecuted and enslaved since the beginning of time. pharaos enslaved jewish ppl bc they were seen as a lesser race and not deserving of their own land, so of course they wouldn't want to oppress another group, only their rich greedy men would, and the rich greedy men would feed their civilians lies and try to turn it into a coliseum battle. we are talking about two heavily marginalized groups with different needs. we are talking about a very complex situation, just as complex as the situation between biological women and transfem activists; at least in the eyes of transmasc & detrans women who have seen the issues in both tra communities and radfem communities and have unique perspectives. ppl hate us, duh. we make things more complicated. it's always so easy in war. one side is obviously righteous and deserves the land (even 100+ years after those new ppl settled there, and even if the current people never chose to take over the land, they were just born there and are usually at the mercy of rich privileged men who are a total minority in israel and heavily exploit people both israel and palestine, terrorizing their women and destroying their country with greed). greedy male billionaires are at the hands of most countries. do you really think people of israel wouldn't choose to go back to their og place if they could go back in time? sure. but right now their family has hundreds of years of connection with the land. i don't want them to have to leave or bow down to me or whatever. i want canada-like response to palestinian injustice. i don't wish for what hamas wants and has called for. you may want to look up everything he's actually said.

if you would not support... and i mean truly support, think about it as if it happened for real to you and your loved ones and local community, how chaotic it would get, how much stress and turmoil it would add to your life. if you would not support native americans - i'm saying this as a part mi'kmaw woman who partially lived in a rez in my very impoverished native community and facing the harsh impact of the government not caring abt indigenous peoples, so i know how much better things would be if white ppl had never come. if my female ancestors didn't get assaulted into pregnancy by white men, and became subhuman in the laws of the society. my family wouldn't be full of generational traumas and internalized racism. it would've been fucking amazing. but it didn't happen. and it would've probably made things worse in some way anyway. "winning" at war against white men wouldn't have solved everything either. i would've wanted peace between everyone who has been a resident of the country and has roots there. i am pro-immigrants. i am pro- focusing on the future and not the past. i am into reform and making the rich greedy men in charge alter their laws to respect palestinian victims and their families and truly atone. i want no more injured. any day spent fighting means more injured ppl, right? so wouldn't it be best to end the war? but i know ppl love a good gamble.

i don't want it to happen between indigenous folks and non-indigenous people. bc i care about my white friends and friends of color who aren't native, and if they suddenly lost their homes or citizenships, on top of their usual life stress, it would be heartbreaking for me to watch. i want white ppl to do better, i really do. and i'm white passing so i can only talk so much about that, but i did see it affect my native fam and i know the dynamic. i want white people to do better in a realistic way. i don't want to daydream about a forceful takeover of canada. hell, canada learned from things and inserted SOOOOO much stuff in laws and in schools to redeem themselves or at least prevent further oppression. and while it's not perfect and they can be stingy, to me it's 100% the right path. it's the right way to do things, the path towards international peace. is war the right way to solve this? aren't israel and palestine democratic countries? isn't there activism to be done THERE instead of just going out in the streets and cheering like war cheerleaders at hamas or at least making a snarky remark and brushing it off. are young progressives (it's mostly younger ppl celebrating the war lbr) really having a positive impact on palestinian lives? or are we just adding fuel to the fire? do you still see yourself as anti-war? or is some war rational, healthy, and worth it? you are cheering for a war. you are empowering a group that is trying to force its ways into a country through weapons and taking in hostages. you aren't doing fuckall to stop the situation for palestinians stuck in that hellish war-damaged land. do palestinian civilians deep in the war really want israel to give up the land and cease to be called israel after hundreds of years of history and culture and immigrant families (palestinian included) making lives there and getting attached to israel and feeling pride in it, since it is a country ravaged by more powerful governments overseas for years and years growing more and more corrupt politically? do citizens not want peace first and foremost? don't they just want the war to end? but people are saying "well this side is right and it's okay that they're encouraged to keep fighting! i want it to win :) yaayyyy go team palestine!!!!!" you are empowering people, hamas included, to harm not just israeli people (low on your priority list, i know... weird how in the russian-ukranian war, no one was cheering for the party who's in the right...? bc we knew that it'd just lead to furthering the war leading to more injuries and deaths and tortures, by encouraging either party and framing them as the inherent heroes who should get to win righteously (valkyrie style) like when schoolchildren fight and one side obviously is right but the fight isn't productive so it needs to end BEFORE they can figure out what happened, you can't try to deal with powerful men by making it a debate room. you can only deal with them by removing the weapons. activists should be focused on destroying weapons of war and empowering gaza civilians into doing protests and try to become a rebellion

you need to empower the marginalized to fight their own battles. and those battles are AGAINST THE RICH MEN, NOT THE OTHER CIVILIAN SIDE. YOU GOTTA BE WELCOMING THE OTHER SIDE AS ALLIES BC CLASS IS A HUGE DIVISION AND MOST OF US ARE BROKE UNDER CAPITALISM. THEY WERE ALL CIVILIANS SCREWED OVER BY POWERFUL MEN TOO LIKE THE CIVILIANS OF ALL COUNTRIES, FROM THE AGES OF GREEDY KINGS. WE NEED TO DETHRONE BOTH RICH PALESTINIANS IN POWER AND ISRAELI PEOPLE IN POWER BC OBVIOUSLY THEY KEEP FUCKING UP. most of the ppl in offices are older, and are stuck in old ways and make the country do dumb shit against another country. like with blm, like with #metoo, born this way, etc we had bystandards cheering for those social activist movements and the marginalized people made sure to have a strong message and clear demands, otherwise it was wasted breath and wasted activist energy. once dust settled and the injured were healed and ppl were housed properly, then we would reach out to the other side, do peaceful protests, and try to find realistic compromises. once both sides had time to cool their heads down and prioritize peace above all. gyns... we should be focused on the innocent civilians, especially in gaza, who are fucking struggling. we should pour water on the war flames, not boost the ego of one side, bc listen gang the rich men are in feral mode, they're privileged rich toddlers with too much influence, too stuck in the thrill of battle to notice the ppl hurting and if we keep the war going they'll get dumber and dumber. one side asks the other to stop the war, but the other side says that they're in the right so they need to rekindle the battle and settle the score properly to atone by doing something super drastic and unrealistic, and something that would be economically desastrous and dangerous for women and children especially. and something the other side doesn't fucking want to do bc it's been hundreds of years and their peoples (immigrants included) have settled there and built pride as a jewish people, a people who was heavily oppressed but now gets a life of safety after years and years of slavery and torture and mass killings by antisemites, especially around times of political stress. and ofc gaza has been ravaged with political tensions and greedy rich men for ages. there shouldn't be a war. people should be left to pick up the pieces of their life and rebuild their homes and get proper food and water before any kind of battle to prove their worth was to happen. at the very least there should be rules in the war. but usually one side is too inflammatory and it starts the bickering again. violent bickering btw. men in power during wars are greedy, impulsive toddlers who don't care about casualties. it's not israel that's the threat that needs to be squished down, it's the rich men in charge of BOTH SIDES

please read up on the actual history of israel & palestine. something NUANCED for once, with no bias whatsoever, totally neutral information gathering. if the message you're reading is simple and obvious, then you're probably not reading something nuanced. the world will always complex. more than tiktoks make it sound. radblr is about knowledge gathering and neutral sharing of information, right? so we should be able to have respectful female discussions of current events without bickering or generalizing or demanding for uncompromising forceful actions by a powerful greedy man (do we really trust hamas? do we? a greedy rich dude who has so much to gain by being the King of the war? has anyone done a background check on this guy? what is actually going on in gaza, are influential groups actually treating palestinians well? should they really be empowered or will the war just keep hurting civilians and isn't worth it in the end? is palestinian pain just collateral damage to us?

we should be able to sit down as a community, throw out the term zionist bc so many people are misusing it, cool off our heads as civilians, mostly civilians barely if at all impacted by the war and just watching on like sports commentors. we get caught up in the lore and the storylines too. we get really hyped up wanting Our Side to win. just need one more battle! and THEN we'll win. nope, we can't possibly consider stopping the powerful men battling it out. we can't possibly simply state "i believe in this bc of xyz" and talk it out spock style, like there's a marriage counsellor between the people tras call zionist and palestine activists. we're on the left, people. most of us are marginalized in some way, shape or form. do we really want two marginalized group to dish it out and hurt their civilians? just for an ego boost at finally winning at war? can you even truly win at war?

didn't we use to say that no one wins in war? like oldschool movies? didn't we use to look up to hippies?

hippies would be ashamed of the left.

oldschool anti-war cartoons would be ashamed of leftists.

victims are who matter the most, not the righteousness of men.

also, horrific things are happening to jewish ppl everywhere. antisemitism has always been consistent and terrifying. synagogues get so many fucking threats, even before all this. now it's next level. make sure to be a good ally to ALL marginalized folks. and, ofc, don't forget to call shit out on the jewish side too.

i am anti-war. can you really say the same if you don't want it to end? or you only want it to end "successfully"?

victims matter most.

peace is essential.

minimizing harm is our #1 priority. which means ending the war.

everything else is secondary.

and i know righteousness feels great. i know we want the perfect magnificent revolution. but if you watched a war movie before and listened to the war-stricken civilians... you know how this movie would end. you know how the survivors of the "winning side" feel years after winning. they're full of bitterness. or maybe romanticize it in their minds. but they have deep, haunting regret about the chaos it cost in everyone's lives, and anger at the greedy men in charge. it's why they're so full of ptsd. bc war is hell. fuck the war.

what is it good for? absolutely NOTHING!!! we are pawns being used by powerful countries who want to influence control over their citizens. they often love being at war and are excited at the violent prospect of taking over the other side. war can make them even richer. it can give them foreign women at their mercy. it can give them political power and pawns to play with to make their nation the greatest, of whatever patriarchal bullshit goes through their mind.

so yeah. fuck capitalism. fuck the war. end it first and foremost or palestinians will be more traumatized and tensions between the peoples will escalate year after year endlessly. end the war!!!

who knows though. maybe i'm just a naive feminazi hippie who dreams of peace and love and an end to all wars lol :']

[hoodedjelly]

Sleep walk BTS post!

will go in depth with my process and put better quality drawings in here!

Before any of this i was listening to several fiddauthor/ford playlists to hear a song that really got my brain moving. Funny enough i didn't get Sleep walk from one of the 100+ song playlists i was listening to, it was in my oc playlist (thats a mad scientist who would've thought). Originally i wanted to make a fiddauthor animatic (who knows maybe i will), but THIS SONG just caught my brain in a way i couldn't refuse.

So i technically started working on it the late night of September 27, exactly a week ago! which yes yes i hear you all in unison go "WHAT???" to that, and all I have to say to that is.... I have untreated adhd and lots of caffeine in my system! (honestly felt like ford sometimes while workin on that animatic)

Started it off with some notes, then thumbnails. I had my tbob AND J3 open next to me stood up with clips for reference (prob looked a little insane looking back but its fine)

now for the rough animatic! i did this in Adobe animate 2022 (i'll get back to that later) the only thing that really got changed was i wanted to add the diner scene from j3. i realize now that it messed up the timeline i was going for with the animatic but i like to think things are out of order because of the state ford is in, things start to merge together.

After i sat with this rough animatic for a bit, i wasn't sure if i was going to make it in Adobe animate (what i usually do) or make it all in Clip Studio Paint. I wanted this animatic to be way more visually interesting then i usually do, so CSP it is. But! i only have CSP Pro, so i had to draw and export every single new frame from this animatic.

it was a little tedious at first (again never done an animatic like this before) but i got used to it! I edited it all together in CapCut and thats really it!

The missing J3 pages from TBOB spoke to me in a way that im not fully comfortable talking about to my followers. I put a lot of myself in this animatic then i'd want to realize, it's very important to me. The night when i uploaded it i was literally shaking with anxiety (and caffeine-) but the overwhelming support for it is really amazing, thank you so much! if you have any more questions please ask away i love talking about the art process.

Below im going to talk about the code and put HD backgrounds!

thank you for dyemro on here for cracking the code first! now i can talk about my insane little thought process about it

So i never planned to add a code until halfway through with the animatic. i was watching ThatGFFan videos and him talking about gravity falls codes got my brain cooking. i wanted something sweet and simple (i realize with dyemro's post it wasn't as simple as i thought, give me some slack it's my first time). like what you should with making codes you start at the end. And i wanted something that was a nice send off for drawing ford be fucking miserable for 1 minute and 30 seconds.

so i got this. (honestly every time i look at this drawing after finishing the animatic it makes me real emotional)

There are 4 codes in this whole animatic 0:02, 0:15, 0:30, and 0:58

wanted the first one to be REAL noticeable so people can stop and be like "wait... theres stuff in here". people usually think to use the bill symbols, but no! from the description theres a little hint to use the Author symbols

doing that code it leads to: imgu r.com /a/uZa iVfu (and if you know that double line a under a letter means capitalization + im a dumb dumb that used a code image that didn't have a Z so thats just a normal Z)

it makes a LINK! > imgur.com/a/uZaiVfu <

now enough of that boring stuff, heres some HD screenshots and backgrounds of my fav parts

[magpiefngrl]

hey! curious new writer here. which fix of yours were the easiest to write and which were the hardest? in what way?

Hello anon! Thanks for an interesting ask.

OK I'll start with the disclaimer that every fic has its difficulties as well as moments when it flows, but there have definitely been some that poured out of me with great ease than others which were a constant struggle.

The Miseducation of Draco Malfoy, my first drarry, was written at the height of my obsession and it poured out of me. I wrote like a fiend all day and would go to bed at night and reread what I wrote. I breathed that fic day and night for the weeks it took me to write it. It was also the most fun I had writing, prob because I was a complete unknown and there were zero expectations from me. Similarly, The Full Monty, written just after TMODM, was an easy fic to write. I remember I read the prompt and was immediately assaulted by images and started laughing on my own and was like, OK I need to claim this, the fic is writing itself.

Similarly but in a more tortuous way, dirtynumbangelboy poured out of me too. More tortuous because it took me ages to find the right beginning, and by then I was behind with my deadlines and got stressed. Also, I wrote it in a sort of dread of the Erised fest, because it had some amazing writers that year and I was intimidated. I remember my goal was to "at least not embarrass myself" .

But, aside from the doubts and stress, dnab itself flowed like nothing else. There are passages that I really love, even now years later, and they are exactly as they came out the first time. I did very little editing (compared to other works).

With The Boy Who Died I made a fun post on tumblr about a mdzs AU of drarry and then the idea wouldn't let me go so I had to sit and write it. Luckily it was summer and I didn't work and I could spend my days writing it. There were moments I got stumped but it mostly came out easily.

Finally, a lot of my short fics poured out of me in one go and came out almost perfectly formed. The Dare, A Perfectly Normal Reaction, and my MCD The Death You Carry are good examples.

Fics that took ages at first:

so my thing is that I have to find the right opening to begin the story, otherwise I can't proceed. I don't plan; the first scene/chapter is my plan. And sometimes I get stuck for yonks. With The Unquiet Grave I began with a Draco POV, him being a politician and Harry his bodyguard, had an interesting first scene and then---nothing. It's like I hit a wall. Zero words come. When I have this feeling, I know I need to go back and revise. Long story short, it was when I changed the POV to Harry that somehow the whole gothic mood came about and I felt the auspicious click: I got it. That's what the story is. A gothic romance. After that, it was easier.

The same thing happened with Hush, darling. I rewrote a first scene fruitlessly several times until a random bit of inspiration fell into my hands: the visual of a card game. I began with it and I let it guide me and the whole plot/stakes/cast fell into place.

Fics that needed a LOT of work and had to be dragged into existence:

The Gift is the first that comes to mind. First couple of chapters were pretty easy and then I was stumped. Writing it felt like dragging myself up a slope, step by step and also not being happy with anything, so that was fun. :/

The other is 9 ½ Days, which took actual years to finish. In that case the middle part was the hard one. I wrote the beginning fairly easily and the last chapters, the plotty ones, also flowed. But the middle. Zeus almighty. It took me years and I thought and thought and thought about it a lot. Finishing this fic was an immense relief but also a source of pride, especially because I really liked the result, and judging by the comments I get, people seem to love it too.

Thanks for an unusual ask! It was good to ponder about my fics and my writing process. The same issues seem to crop up with my original works too, and it's helpful to remind myself that I got over those issues before and I can get over them again.

[staybabblingbaby]

Janitor AU (Ambush Part) a1 d2

[Caution: These are not full fics, or even full parts of fics for some, these are part of my writing progress archive!]

Concept: Reader is a member of the cleaning staff at JYP. With a decent history of managing to avoid the idols on staff, Reader keeps to themself and keeps their head down. A chance encounter with SKZ in one of the practice rooms may change that...

Word Count: 1,293

Notes: LMAO Just saw that I already posted this and just didn't put it on the ML. RIP. I'm keeping this one instead of the old one <3

I remember spitting this out really fast and then hitting a dead stop and hating everything about it. Not sure what that was about, it's a pretty standard first attempt for me. Not feeling editing notes rn, so just. have at.

This was pretty heavily inspired by a BTS fic on Ao3 that was MUCH smuttier and about a Brat, but I can't remember the name anymore. If it reads as familiar to anyone, will you please tell me what it reminds you of? I'd love to give proper credits.

Original Notes: This is the first one that really looks like the w.i.p it is lol. The beginning is super awkward and I'll probably redo that entirely. This concept is inspired by another fic, but I'll have to hunt it down bc I can't find it rn. I saw that one and went "I want that but without the smut" and so I wrote it lol. This one needs a lot of work, but I probs got frustrated bc it looks like I left off in the middle of sentence lmao.

Warnings: None that I know of?

Masterlist link |

You hum lightly to yourself as you pull your hairband up from where it rested around your neck and push your hair out of your face. You double check that you have the appropriate ‘cleaning in progress’ and ‘wet floor’ signs up and turn to hijack the sound system every practice room was equipped with.

This was the most envied privilege of your assigned areas - you got to blast your music loud and proud as you cleaned instead of hoping your headphones can go loud enough to be heard over your machines without bursting your ear drums. It was envied in your opinion anyways. You wouldn’t trade areas for anything, even if the stink of sweat was overpowering sometimes.

You can’t help your amusement at the thought that there were some fans of the idols you worked for that would adore having to smell their stank every day. It was just an occupational hazard for you, though.

You’re sure being janitorial staff is no one’s dream, regardless of which building you happen to be cleaning. It works for you, though. You wouldn’t say it had been remotely in your life plan to be scrubbing huge mirrors, or airing out the smell of sweat from the JYP practice rooms, but you enjoyed the peace it allowed you.

Two years out of college, with an unrelated degree, in a country you’d never dreamed of moving to, and you still wouldn’t trade it for the world. The twists and turns of life that had lead you here hardly mattered anymore.

Besides, you don’t see the idols as much as you’d assume for someone who cleaned their practice rooms for a living. It was another privilege of yours, if anyone were to ask your opinion. Not that anyone asked you much of anything, aside from your supervisor. Your quiet existence as just another cog that kept everything running smoothly was soothing to you.

You could be loud and take up space outside of work. Not that you really did, but you could if you wanted to. Maybe you should. You were still virtually friendless a year and a half after getting this job. You only really spoke to your coworkers, and barely at that. Your homebody tendencies continue to sabotage your social life.

You had plenty of online friends, it was fine.

You’ve digressed. No idols equals privilege of your area. Right.

You knew several of the newer folks spent a few weeks after their hire giggling to each other when they got to see the idols just casually hanging around and doing their jobs, but you’d avoided them from the start.

At first it was just because you were shy and many idols had a bit of rbf going on. You’d been incredibly intimidated by both their beauty and their success, and your Korean hadn’t been as eloquent as you’d have liked it to be. By the time you’d spoken to enough trainees to relax around the idols, you’d still been unsure with your Korean. And then when you’d gotten that in order it’d been so long you simply felt awkward.

You’d been working in the building for a year and a half and had done a spectacular job at crossing paths with as few idols as possible. You weren’t about to seek them out now. You’d been sought out yourself a time or two, by idols that were close to the trainees you spoke with more frequently. Apparently you’d been labeled “the nice janitor noona with the snacks” and curiosity and food were fabulous motivators.

It didn’t happen frequently. When you’d asked about it, you’d learned that apparently you were being gatekept by the trainees. Ostensibly so they could keep your snacks for themselves, but you liked to believe they just liked you.

You finally get your phone connected to the speakers and start to blast your work playlist. You can’t help doing a little dancey-dance as you begin to sweep, mop, and wax the hardwood floor. What could you say? Your playlist was simply bop after bop.

You’re in the middle of dipping your mop handle low and pretending to sing along to Fall Out Boy when the door creaks open slowly.

You straighten quickly but there’s no way the person at the door didn’t see you goofing around.

“One sec!” You call out quickly, forgetting to speak Korean in your haste. You dash over to the sound system to pause your music, your ears ringing in the silence. When you turn around you’re confronted with the amused eyes of one Lee Know of Stray Kids.

“Ah, Lee Know-ssi!” You bow quickly but politely in greeting. “I’m sorry, this room is being cleaned right now, it’s not available for practice.”

Lee Know gives you a slow nod, looking like he was holding in a laugh.

“I know, I saw the sign,” Lee Know replies, tilting his head at you. You secretly let out a breath of relief at that. For a second there you’d thought you’d forgotten. “I was just curious who was playing music loud enough to hear outside.”

You immediately fluster at that, waving your hands in front of yourself, “Ahhh, I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to disturb!” You gesture at the floor machine sitting pretty in the corner of the room with your supply cart.

“I’ll be waxing the floor in a bit, usually the machine is loud enough to cover it. Hadn’t gotten there yet, though.” You laugh nervously, popping your wrists and fingers just for something to do with your hands.

Lee Know shakes his head, waving your apology aside. “No, you’re good, I got to see something fun out of it.”

You’re sure you flush bright red, and you cant help but bury your head in your hands with a groan. You can hear Lee Know stifle a laugh, but you’re too busy languishing in your humiliation to pay attention to him.

After a moment you peak at him from between your fingers. He still looks like he’s trying very hard not to laugh at you.

“If I bribe you with snacks will you erase this from your memory?” You plead with him. He raises an eyebrow at you and hums consideringly.

“Depends on the snack.” He finally concedes, prompting you to start towards your cart, much more at ease with a potential solution in sight.

“I’ve got a couple kinds,” You start to explain, “Everyone likes to ambush me for them, so I’ve learned to come prepared.”

You hear another huff of laughter from far closer than you were expecting, Lee Know having wandered over while you were distracted with rummaging though your cart. You have to move several things out of the way before you can grab the small basket containing your prize.

You may have gotten used to being ambushed for snacks, but that also meant you’d gotten used to hiding them so that you’d at least get to eat some of them. You swore the trainees could smell when you had their favorites stocked up. Animals, the lot of them.

“Who’s ambushing you?” Lee Know questions with amusement.

“Everyone who knows I have them.” You reply with false despair. “The trainees have a sixth sense for them, I fear.” Lee know snorts at that and you grin at him with equal mirth.

“Ah, yes, as a former trainee, I can confirm that they do.” He tells you somberly. You click your tongue and shake your head.

“I knew it.” you say, “They only love me for my snacks. And here I thought they just liked to talk.” You place a dramatic hand over your heart, acting hurt and betrayed.

Lee Know chuckles at you, but doesn’t respond as he leans in to

[lincolndjarin]

ro's very reasonable 2023 wrap up schedule.

hi lovelies!! (figured out how to do a color gradient, took me weeks, i'm fucking thrilled, expect more of that nonsense in this post lol)

it's mid november and as the year comes to a close i'd like to wrap up a lot of stuff so here's the plan :

NOV 12 : BKS 26 : crucifixion (currently being edited will be out by tonight.)

NOV 12-19 : BKS 27 : the apostate (will be released at some point here, it's gonna be on the shorter side so it shouldn't take too long

NOV 25 : Oh Honey, Chapter Four : painting the roses red (another long chap, gonna need some time to get this one out so at the latest it will be out on the 25th!!)

The First Week of December will be my 1,000 follower celebration, I'm going to be doing a week of Best Kept Secret content leading up to the final BKS chapter !! (this will include the release of my 500 follower celebration whoops)

Best Kept Secret Week :

DEC 1 : BKS 28 : a place for us (the technical final chapter of BKS)

DEC 2 : BKS Q&A (gonna ask for questions at some point here i'll make a post and answer any final questions about bks!!)

DEC 3 : Bound in Beskar - 500 follower celebration (a one off based on the book princess reads in bks)

DEC 4 : BKS what ifs (it's 8 days of stuff they can't all be hits. tbh i needed a day filler and i've got a lot of alternative story lines in bks so fuck it, i'll talk about those here)

DEC 5 : Best Kept Secret Art!! (i commissioned three artists to illustrate some of my favorite scenes bc i'm a sap so i will be posting all of that on this day and i'm so excited for y'all to see it!! they're wonderful artists and they've done wonderful work so far <3)

DEC 6 : Secrets Best Kept - 1,000 follower celebration (a one off where Din Djarin is the new reluctant ruler of Mandalore, a tutor is hired to help him during his early days as a ruler to learn proper etiquette for royalty)

DEC 7 : A love letter to Best Kept Secret. (pretty much just gonna be one last corny post to thank everyone for reading)

DEC 8 : BKS 29 : the best kept secret (epilogue) (corny ass name ik, anyhow, this will be it!! this will be the last main update of best kept secret!!)

DEC 16 : Oh Honey, Chapter Five : a very merry unbirthday (this will be the last chapter of oh honey!! i've always intended for this to be a short form story so it will be wrapped up at the latest by the 16th!!)

DEC 24 : Best Kept Christmas (gonna sneak one last good bye to bks in at the end of the month with a christmas special lol)

and then i will be taking the last week of december to write my next fics! rest!

so yeah lol, my goal is to wrap up all ongoing fics this year but but but if you made it this far (i love you *mwah*) here's some of the fics coming in 2024!! i won't be starting anything new this year but next year i've got big plans >:)

Then & Now (probs gonna change that title) - this will be my main fic for a bit, i've been itching to start this for so so long, f!reader x joel. definitely gonna be more on the angsty side

i'm participating in pmamc 2024 so there will be an Oberyn one off in January!!

Andromeda - this is gonna be my next din x reader !! i don't have much other than the base idea but im gonna keep that a surprise haha

And plenty of other stuff i'll figure out lol

[carmysgirl]

More bimbosyd army please! Does she meet the rest of the bear family? I can only imagine how her first meet with Richie goes

Marriage?!Babies?! I want an entire universe haha

i think it would take a long time for carmen to introduce bimbo sydney to anyone in his family.

-richie (pre-forks edition) met her first but only because he forgot his wallet or something at the restaurant and when he went back to get it he saw carmen and syd on the counter making out!

richie would come in with that smirk on his face like "get a load of this shit! care to explain why youre neckin' some broad on our counters??"

carmen breaks the kiss immediately and turns away from richie while shielding sydney.

"who is that? is that richie?"

carmen nods and pulls his hand from under her shirt. if richie hadn't stopped them they might've even had sex.

richie clears his throat. "well cuz? i'll wait cause i am not fuckin' leavin till i get my answer!"

slowly, carmen turns around. sydney holds her breath while they speak quietly to each other. every so often richie looks at her in confusion and carmen hits him in the shoulder to stop. eventually richie promptly leaves and carmen takes sydney home. she's in for a rude awakening the next night because carmen takes her to the restaurant after being harrassed by everyone to meet her during the day.

-i feel like nat is lowkey chill about it. let's say she's pregnant so she doesn't want any stress and carmen does seem to be a little brighter than usual so she doesn't care.

-fak is following syd around asking her how why she gets her eyeliner so sharp, how she met carmen, if she likes to cook, and does she know claire??

-tina is gushing all over her. she thanks sydney for carmens improved mood the last few months. sydney says they've only been dating the past few weeks. tina also comments that carmens been picking up some weight which means sydney must be feeding him good! she is! she loves feeding him her little pastries and simple dinners!

ill write for more people later in time but these were the main people i immediately thought of!

also they def get married. carmen proposes promptly on their two year anniversary because being with syd has taught him a lot of things but he for sure knows now what he wants.

this might be kinda controversial but i doubt carmen would have kids in the show. but for my AU they have twenty babies!! :)) jk they prob have 1-2

[kirkwall]

tagged by @camelliagwerm <3 tysm harps!! this is probs gonna make me sound like a lunatic tho bc im still in my self-made vampire chronicles prison lmao

tagging whoever is reading this and wants to do it :3

1. the last book I read:

i finished blackwood farm (vampire chronicles #9) like a week ago. idk what to say about this one except that it has the first appearance of the word bisexual which is WILD in a series where at least 90% of the characters are in fact bisexual

2. a book I recommend:

have you heard of our lord and saviour babel by r.f. kuang? now you have. no but seriously it is so fucking good and all the ppl saying it's overrated or gets recommended too often are simply wrong lol

3. a book that I couldn’t put down:

also babel tbh. i vividly remember reading the last 150 pages in one sitting and then looking at my phone for the first time in hours only to find out the queen died in the meantime lmaaooo. 10/10 experience

4. a book that I’ve read twice (or more):

honestly i don't think i have? i went from barely reading at all to wanting to read so many books that i haven't really found the time to re-read anything beyond looking up specific passages. i do wanna re-read babel and iron widow tho

5. a book on my TBR:

way too many 💀 i think once i'm free from my vampire chronicles prison i'll tackle what moves the dead by t. kingfisher next

6. a book I’ve put down:

uhh i think leech by hiron ennes? we read it in the book club and it just didn't really grab my attention long enough but i honestly don't remember if i finished it and forgot or if i never actually finished it. i also have like two books on pause bc i forgot about them but i'll pick them up again at some point i hope lmao

7. a book on my wish list:

the gilda stories by jewelle gomez. among other vampire books bc no offense to miss rice but i need to read some that are not Like That lmao

8. a favourite book from childhood:

i really did not read as much as a kid as i should have tbh. i remember reading a series that my aunt got me called abby lynn by a german author. it was about a girl who got arrested and sent to the penal colony in new south wales in the early 19th century and i remember liking it bc it was a lot darker than i assumed was appropriate for my age lmao. but looking at it with an adult brain the colonialism of it all would probably kill me

9. a book you would give to a friend:

i have actively shoved my copy of babel into multiple ppl's hands already lmao. but i also love recommending this is how you lose the time war by amal el-mohtar and max gladstone

10. a book of poetry or lyrics you own:

oh boy i don't think i do. my copy of edgar allan poe short stories might have some of his poems in it as well? but i'm not sure

11. a nonfiction book you own:

one that i recently enjoyed is otherlands by thomas halliday. i passed most of my biology books on to friends but i still have one on immunology and i have a really cute edition of from so simple a beginning

12. what are you currently reading:

prince lestat (vampire chronicles #10). really sad that this one didn't have a signature lestat cringey my immortal type intro :( the showrunners said s2 is gonna include nods/easter eggs for this book which feels wild given how far ahead it is but i'm really curious to find out!!!

13. what are you planning on reading next:

blood canticle (vampire chronicles #11) 🤡 and only 2 more books after that one and then i'm free (to read other books, not mentally tho)

[marley-manson]

thanks for the tag, @penguinhug!

Current Time: 4:15 pm

Current Activity: looking thru my drafts where I found this uncompleted lol.

Currently Thinking About: Honestly? How the bridge in I'll Make a Man Out of You where all the characters are saying their nervous thoughts ("I'm never gonna catch my breath/say goodbye to those who knew me/why was i fool in school for cutting gym?" etc) is so good because they're all presented as equivalent reasons the characters feel inadequate as "men." So like, Mulan being a woman or afab is right there on the same level as cutting gym class. And none of it actually prevents them from meeting the presented standards and being men.

And just generally I love Mulan's take on gender so so so much lol, no focus-grouped first gay Disney character will ever be as important to me as the way the main theme of Mulan can be summed up as "masculinity and femininity are performances for everyone, and anyone can do either with practice."

Currently Reading: I just finished Skinny Legs and All by Tom Robbins, which was one of my favourite books as a teen. As an adult I'm a lot more critical of some of Robbins' hot takes, but I do still really enjoy the prose.

Currently Watching: Doctor Who I guess lol, gonna be there when the next special drops. And as always Mash here and there.

Currently Listening to: Nothing right now but I did just listen to I'll Make a Man Out of You in the car as you may have guessed lol. Never ceases to slap incredibly hard.

Current Favorite Character: Hawkeye!!

Current WIP: I've got one 30k fic in the beta process right now, planning to post it sometime this week probs depending on how much editing it still needs. The premise is that Hawkeye's joke about Flagg fucking him is the inciting incident for an investigation, in which he ends up spending a week at the Seoul psych ward getting interviewed and hanging out with other gay guys. Basically it's a long gen character study so idk how much attention it's gonna get, but it was a lot of fun to write.

Not tagging anyone right now but if you want to do this just do it and @ me as having tagged you. I'm tagging everyone in spirit.

[manonamora-if]

August Check-In!

July has been a bit more chill? I was kind of forced to slow down cause sickness (and other personal stuff), which made progress rather slow... On the other hand, it was nice to have a bit of a break.... and kind of needed, seeing how my body just didn't want to cooperate... I have honestly not written a thing in about a month (I don't count editing/coding/fixing), so I'm half-looking forward half-dreading getting back to it.

Long post ahead:

Start with what has been done this past week (hella busy).

Some other me and IF-me-related stuff

Some IF events to participate in

What I'm planning this month

A little re-haul of the templates and guides, getting some much needed TLC:

fixing typos/errors (mainly guides),

editing the credits with more resource links,

and some reformatting/re-organising the code (mainly templates).

Update your games with the latest version! Or re-download the guides!

ALSO ALSO, this was still technically last Sunday (late), but the SugarCube Guide has been fixed of its broken links, bad formatting, and explanation errors. But as a bonus, I've found some time to add some extra passages:

The other Engine API

Localization and Translation of a game

Events to trigger code at specific rendering moment.

Some of my older Coding In Twine asks, especially the CSS ones

(Version 1.1.0)

MelS finished checking my comments on the investigation part (still needs to add the missing part), and is processing the ones I left on the exploration side (there are a lot, he's doing his best).

Fixed some minor typos in the French version. BUT most importantly, the code is now available on my GitHub! Also will be shortly on the IFArchive.

Clarence Street, 14 est maintenant disponible en Français!

I've also added the source code to my GitHub, as well as sent them to the IFArchive.

I made some minor fixes in the UI for the title page and the Restart one (issue with text size). The source files are also now available on my GitHub and sent to the IFArchive.

Quick list on other IF-me related stuff:

I've finally started AND finished reviewing the Anti-Romance IF/VN entries. That was 20 new reviews (4 I had already done with the NeoTwinies, 1 was mine :P ). If you are interested, check out @manonamora-if-reviews, they are all there. Otherwise, play the entries! I'll prob go back to finishing replaying the IFComp entries and update those reviews... Or you can submit one for me to play!

@if-confessions closed last Monday - well, the asks box did. You can still read and interact with the posts. Just because I won't be answering for a while doesn't mean the discussions are closed.

Another player has been going through the @neo-twiny-jam entries, and gave me some some lovely reviews on IFDB ! That was a nice surprise!

Some IF Events:

The IntroComp entries are out! While voting is set to start out shortly, you can already check the entries (and maybe think of feedback for the author?). Note: the stories submitted were not complete games. Also I missed the deadline... I didn't have a working WIP...

There is still one month to submit your intent to the IFComp (@ifcomp). If you don't plan on submitting a game, you can already create an account to vote. I'm not participating this year, so you might see some reviews of mine this autumn.

Over at the @neointeractives, the Single Choice Jam will be ending in about 2 weeks. There is still time to add your story to the dozen already available!

If you are looking to make something a bit more NSFW, the Orifice Jam might be for you! There is a bit more than 2 weeks to add something hole-y!

THE PLAN (for August):

This is what I'm aiming to do, probably not what I'll end up achieving.

Play some more IF games. Maybe not 7/day like this week, but a few of them/week to add to my review pile. I'm getting closer to the top of the Reviewer List... I don't think I'll ever be number 1, but I need 137 more IF reviews to get to the front page (as of today - after the IFComp this year, probably will need more...). Also I want to be better at reviewing, so practice... Also I want to bring more attention to the French games...

I'd like to swing at least a jam entry for the SingleChoice. Something either silly, or related to one of my WIPs (toying with that...). Maybe testing a new engine for funsies. I have two weeks to think about it...

In the meantime, I need to fix my website. It's a bunch of games behind, and missing some important links too! Also been toying with having a more Web 1.0 vibe to it...

Maybe try to take one one of the WIPs and add a chapter or something (haven't decided which... the folders have been side-eyeing at my complacency).

Add more pages to the SugarCube Guide.

Code the update for TaTEH (dependent on MelS)

And if I can't write a single world, I can pick from the following pile pr probably not too much brain power needed:

translate Escape Goncharov! into French.

fix the bugs in EDOC + overall the French version to match

fix the bugs of TRNT + find a way to add the missing pieces (mayyyybe translate into French?)

fix the formatting of DOL-OS + translate into English

update LPM with the missing content + translate into English

The rest of the To-Do pile is (not month specific):

Finish The Rye in the Dark City (and maybe translate?)

Finish P-Rix - Space Trucker (and try to translate)

Finish Exquisite Cadaver (translation unlikely, current gameplay too complex to port for French)

Add a chapter to CRWL

Re-working TTTT to its originally planned state (lol, not likety)

Re-working SPS Iron Hammer (samesies)

Emptying my inboxes

Let's see what can be accomplished this month! I would like to check some more boxes of my new year resolutions.

[silvertsundere]

Silver Talks AniManga (11/06/23)

as usual the * means I don't talk about it under the cut EDIT: ST☆R was late, but to not have to reedit this pic just pretend it has a * too

Anime

Megumin Ep10

we're getting closer and closer now to when megumin joins the party in konosuba, there was a scene in the last episode that coincided with the start of the show and there were a buncha cameos from kazuma, aqua and even darkness in this one. but anyway, the closer it gets the less I care about this show since it's stopping to be a spin off, like I said before it coulda've ended on like ep 5 or 6 and it would've been better than with all these additional eps after that but I'll save most of my bitching for the final ep. only 2 more so not dropping it now obviously

Imas CG: U149 Ep9

another great ep as usual, from the meeting with producer at the start of the ep I figured that they would get a live or something, and that was confirmed, in the form of an original song, at the end. considering we have 3 episodes left but the only girl without and episode is arisu my prediction is that next episode is gonna start with producer telling them about the song, and center on the process of making it and stuff, at the end of the ep they'll learn they'll finally get to do a live concert like they've been wanting too and arisu is gonna get another bout of self doubt. then on episode 11 it'll be her episode and she'll overcome it, for ep12 to be the big finale with the concert

Mashle Ep9

a nice episode, I said next week I had some hope for sakuga in the mash vs razor fight but guess I expected too much.. same old bare minimum animation sadly. was discussing with mega what the next eps are gonna cover and what'd be a good stopping point and things aren't lining up as expected to reach a good stopping point. prob gonna be a split cour announced at the end but we'll see

Pokemon Horizons Ep10

IT'S THE NEMONA EP BABY LET'S GOOOOO good ep anyway, but nemona made it all the better, kitamura eri did a really good job, tho let's not discount nakai kazuya's (zoro) performance tho, he was really good. anyway, this episode felt the most like the old anime, the cast got to a new town, found the gym leader, resolved whatever problem was stopping them from fighting them and fought them. not a bad thing necessarily but I just hope it doesn't become the norm with roy being ash 2

Jigokuraku Ep10

just like I said last week this episode was where they explain tao, not fully yet (with the elements and all that), that'll prob come on the last episode. good ep even if it was mostly exposition I already knew, I was really settling into it when the cliffhanger hit so I guess that means it was very well paced. the way they changed the perspective to between the various groups while they were all explaining the same thing but in different ways was good and helped make the exposition feel more fluid and less like a lecture would feel, ofc it was like that in the manga too but still

Manga

Blooming Love Ch6

cute chap, I figured she'd get to the date in time with grandpa taking over the work but it also went worse than I thought, well "worse" I just expected it to be more on the cute side than comedic. anyway now that we've had the week break I can say that I'm not sure about this series being published every other week. while it's certainly moving at light speed compared to the average romance I'm not sure if the pacing is gonna work with this schedule but we'll see

Dandadan Ch109

well I certainly didn't expect mr shrimp to get a chapter just for himself but it wasn't bad. I know it's basically just buying time to make okarun show up but it did it a lot better than mashle since shrimp has been here since the start of the fight and actively participating in it

Kaiju 8 Ch87

very cool chap, I was hoping to see narumi fight a bit more but it was still good, the final page and the big panel with #1 looked really good and I was surprised by the colour page outta nowhere at the start. I'm assuming the next fight is gonna be hoshina, it's the one that makes the most sense to me but I also just wanna see him fight again

Tokyo Underworld Ch43

??? what? they literally showed the doctor being the impostor before so them trying to make it seem like he isn't now is very weird. I guess they could be like "oh the real impostor is an executioner that can take the appearance of others and they took the dr's" and that's what they're fighting in the basement but...would be still be very weird since there was no hint whatsoever that that could a possibility

Fabricant 100 Ch25

I'm sorry to tell you brother but you ain't got time for that you're gonna get axed. also I was under the impression #100 had left with #1 at the end of the next chap but she was still here in this one, went to check and sure enough she didn't leave in the last chap either, guess it's just bad paneling since it gave both me and mega that impression. but anyway, what's the point of her betraying the good guys by leatting #1 leave when she's gonna stay and fight him again in the future anyway??? very bad writing

Nue's Exorcist Ch5

terrible chap, I don't get what the author is trying to do honestly. it felt really random and disjointed, they just aren't cut out for a weekly serialization at the moment I'm afraid

Kill Blue Ch8

not a bad chap, fujimaki coming up with a way to mix action with the fake dating plot by making it so people will be challenging ogami for duels to try to "win" noren. I thought them showing the pen so much at the start had to have some relevancy later but it happened right away on this chap. anyway, even if it's a bit weird I do like this development, maybe becoming a bit more actiony will help the series

Do Retry Ch6

another good chap, this panel under here was especially impressive, it'd look even better in the magazine because of where the spine division would be, making the effect of the arm suddenly popping out like that even better. the series is doing alright in ratings too (middle of the pack) so prob safe to assume it's gonna escape the U19 club

Witch Watch Ch112

after what happened with them kinda failing to make moi act on his feeling I thought we wouldn't be getting something like this soon but I guess I was wrong. next chap (or most likely the one after) we should be getting nico ACTUALLY confessing to moi. tho considering how recent the moi stuff was there's no way something isn't gonna make it go wrong

Blue Box Ch104

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IT WAS EVEN BETTER THAN I EXPECTED LET'S GOOOOOOO god what an incredibly good chapter, makes one worried it might end soon since IT has finally happen but I really hope not, there's a lot more things on the magazine that could and should end before bb

Spy x Family Ch82

good chap, for once things aren't going swimmingly for twilight. I also really like the final panel since it works either for the yor panel that preceded it or the gunshot in the page before that. I'm gonna assume that yuri did manage to land the shot but he's gonna escape but be wounded, leading yuri to have even more suspicions about him

Cipher Academy Ch27

another good chap as usual, really liked all the jojo references too. also that one page with the girl talking with her text flipped vertically was VERY nisio, reminiscent of the maniwa speaking backwards in katanagatari

Tenmaku Cinema Ch9

you know I actually never expected himeki to take hajime to one of her shoots but it makes total sense, it's kinda like a training arc. another good chap with a p good cliffhanger

Undead Unluck Ch162

when everyone jumped in to fight shen I was worried we were gonna skip the whole tournament and just have the final fight now but seems that's not the case. very good cause I'm a whore for good tournaments so I'm p pogged up for this

Mashle Ch159

good chap, poor I0 is suffering the same fate as diavolo but self inflicted instead. mash interrupting his tragic backstory was very funny too. supposedly next chap is gonna have a colour page for the end of the final fight, leaving a couple more chaps til the finale as predicted.

Sakamoto Days Ch122

p chill chap just setting up the next arc, teasing the future baddies and having the crew travel, a necessary type of chap sometimes. the scene at the end was funny tho

The Elusive Samurai Ch113

what the hell I expected this chap to be kusunoki getting crushed quickly but it was really cool, really showing off just how powerful he actually was before he gets killed off. very good chap

Akane-banashi Ch65

very good chap, considering kaichi got a 91 score I'm expecting hikaru to get like around a 96. like I said before I don't think akane is gonna win this competition so she's either gonna get a 93 just so she can beat kaichi too or around like 87 and have her lose to kaichi too. we'll see tho, I'd love to see her win obviously, especially since she's doing her dad's story of all things but my gut is just telling me that isn't gonna happen

[nathank77]

6/15/24

4:11 a.m Edited/Added to 4:25 a.m

I just got out of the shower. I shaved my face and head, it was giving me anxiety bc I'm going to my dad's Sunday no matter what I do and I had to do it tonight or tomorrow night so I looked okay when I went there...

I still got to figure out if I'm going to the car wash tomorrow or Sunday or putting it off for another week or two.... I don't want to, my decade with beauty is the 21st and I want her to be in tip top shape but it's a source of stress.

I'd like to game tomorrow all day and do the car wash Sunday before Dads. I'd like to count my sleeping pill very soon before bed and get another to last me until Monday but it's already 4 a.m and it's stressful but I cannot imagine, going to my dad's house and counting my sleeping pill after and showering... or counting/setting up my sleeping pill before going to my dad's and driving there. Car wash completely forgotten about. It's just a lot. Idk if I'll do it tonight or tomorrow but I cannot fathom doing it Sunday and I will inevitably shower after my father's bc the kids will be all over me and I'll feel dirty.

I wish my mother wasn't an addict so I could just leave them out and take it when I needed them and I didn't have to count them...

I didn't want to shower today, I wanted to shower tomorrow so I was super clean for dad's house. I prob will have to shower tomorrow... and set up my sleeping pill especially if I keep writing... which will ultimately ruin my game day the sleeping pill set up is extremely stressful. A huge ocd ritual and I have to do it for Monday...

I feel like after last night the hallucinations I detailed in the videos... that taking the smaller half is setting myself up for a bad night and I've had a very hard time falling asleep compared to other nights. Maybe I'll slowly go hyper... maybe I'm just stressed.. idk. It's just harder to fall asleep and I don't need scream hallucinations or hearing the voice repeat my thought in my head. Especially that one. That one makes me want to fucking end it all no regrets. I'm not leaving much behind and I cannot cope with that.

I still don't know what to do about the car wash/a potential game day... if I go to the car wash Saturday it is not a game day. I'll shower when I get home and watch TV all night..

If I don't go to the car wash and either go Sunday before dad's (I'll feel like an asshole especially since I can't afford a card for him) or I don't go to the car wash until another week bc it's pointless to do it Tuesday with the next weekends forecast (also Tuesday is a planned game day and I'm going to take it).

I could chose to stay home Saturday and skip showering and just do the sleeping pill and then just throw on deodorant and body spray before dad's on Sunday. It's not a bad plan. However the sleeping pill is a real day ruiner..

Anyways instead of writing about it I guess I'm going to smoke a cigarette and then decide if I'm doing it tomorrow and think about if I'm doing the car wash tomorrow or Sunday.

Idk but at least I shaved my face and head and got that out of the way. It was really stressing me out. To wait until Tuesday to game feels like wayyy too long tbh.

So yea idk. I decided I'll proceed on the Walmart purchase but not yet, I'll put off the gym bc the attic is super close to being complete and I love what I did with the closet and I love knowing where my stuff is. The project is like 2/4th of the way done. I don't want to stop now..it'll take me a month or so since I can't afford a lot of storage bins and I deserve the new blanket and the spare queen pillow top mattress cover. It acts as a spare sheet if I spill something. I'm not joking I spill tea on my bed like once a week and sit in a wet spot. I deserve better but yea..

Imma go and I'll update this later.

[diah-the-demon]

yeah the vibe is different </3 it now feels less like a personal chat and more like a personal chat in a public space but what else can we do when tumblr keeps being homophobic TT-TT

yeah I hope so too!! I'll bring it up to her soon as we still have Sci-fi cons which we regularly attend bcs I think that'd be cool!

and aaaw that sounds adorable!! The Sci-Fi cons that I visit always have lots of kids that age running around with their plastik lightsabers and usually clone wars masks of Anakin and Obi Wan and it's the cutest thing to watch them run around and play out their ideas

yeah she probably won't ksjdlsk it's just that we're both so used of someone bitching at us for buying even the most necessary shit so we gotta get used to that no longer happening slkjdlsk I'll probably bring it up to her soon, maybe tomorrow after uni! Hell I can even pay for it myself, I still have a lot of unused money from the past few cons since I barely bought smth aside from postcards / small prints

ksjdslk you're going to have the sickest bookshelf if that works out! and I hope it does skdjsl But yeah that sounds like a solid idea as to where to put them!!

ooh I think with the shows coming out there should definitely be a spike on tutorials for them!! Though I highly doubt there weren't some to begin with with Star Wars being such a huge franchise!! (and yeah I think that could probably be a solid start!!)

Yeah that's also always what I have noticed (it's probably also one of the most comfortable options ngl skldjsk) I think attaching them is going to be the most tricky part but I bet there are tricks to do so very easily!

yeah it feels way more out in the open, like speaking into a microphone instead of like just a casual conversation sat at a table in the corner of the room.. we could switch to discord or insta dms if we want it less open but idk, feels weird when its not on tumblr

ooo that sounds like fun! i need to try going to a sci-fi con, i know they have some in edinburgh occasionally throughout the year so il see if i can maybe go there eventually

it was!! it was so fucking fun, i remember around that age me and my sister would have lightsaber duels occasionally, too bad the sabers were bad quality so i accidently broke mine when i hit it too hard </3 thankfully it was after halloween so i still had the saber for halloween, just imagine like an 8 or 9 year old with a darth vader mask and red lightsaber walking down a dimly lit street dsjdsslkdj

i remember when i went trick or treating later that day i used my vader helmet (well its more like a mask tbh, its only the front half of vaders helmet lol) as a bucket to keep my sweets and candy in dlskjdslkjds

thats fair i cant rlly blame you or her, it will probably take a long time to get over that (i know the feeling cause my mother is like that sometimes, its so fucking annoying. she does it less to me now cause i have my own money but still)

i hope it goes well when you talk to her about it!! i doubt she wont let you buy it but wishing it goes well anyways!! if you dont do it tomorrow tho do keep in mind the sale is i think only lasting 1 more week? (or until everything sells out) so dont leave it too long slksjdlskd

IK ITS GONNA BE SO COOL, id say my bookshelf is already pretty cool because ive got 2 shelfs of books (one is mostly manga and star wars books, other is recipe books and other misc books) i could put them in 1 shelf but ive done it that way so theres space on the shelf next to the books, so i can put the helmets next to the books!! thinking about it now i can prob get 2 on the bookshelf and then the other 2 could go ontop of it maybe, idk il figure that out when i get them dsjlkds

Edit: heres a pic of said book shelf, forgot to mention the (fake) plant that hangs infront of my manga!!! skdjd Ignore the basket on the second shelf of books btw thats just where i keep my socks rn lmao (and random clothes in the shelf below too sldjslskssjk, im working on it so ignore that)

Anyways i could totally fit a helmet or 2 in here, one where the origami book is and one where the basket is, then the rest can go ontop of the bookcase idk lol

oh yeah its def gonna be trending, i saw one for storm trooper armour a few months ago, not mandalorian but tbh they are close (i mean storm trooper armour was based on the clones armour which was based on mandalorian so it is connected lmao) even if there isnt im pretty sure i could probably figure it out on my own if i had to

i think the way il have to attach it is maybe velcro? cause pins could fall out and if i try to put it back on it will be in a slightly different area probably, so what im thinking is having small velcro patches put onto the body suit and some on the armour pieces!! probably wont work out how it is in my head when i finally do it but i can atleast have ideas until then lol

[abcdosaka]

the life update 2.0

the unformatted stream of consciousness edition

i started working on monday. it's alright, been connecting with ppl, not being overly shy but i'm still adjusting to actually working 8 hours straight bc i've been doing legit nothing for 5 months straight. the people at my workplace are nice enough especially the ladies like there's one who i was lowkey scared of bc she kinda has a rbf and just looks so girlboss and professional but i messaged her and we talked and she's actually really nice :) anyway i've had enough work experience being the new guy and onboarding online that i'm not as scared as i would've been + i already know people at this company so i can kinda show my worth from the start

i got my period on friday and i was fucked up yesterday and today from cramps/headache so i got barely anything done so i need to do some work tmr cry T_T i need to remember work is not school i can't just procrastinate everything and i should actually work during and only during work hours. i give myself a pass though bc friday was just awful. also i was supposed to learn python before i started working but i didn't but idk feel like i can wing it there. i already know r and i learned java in highschool so it might actually be a breeze not to toot my own horn but i'm like pretty smart so

it feels like my pms (except its not really pre- more like first/second day of period) symptoms are getting worse the older i get. sometimes the symptoms are okay but more of them are just awful than not. i get really nasty headaches and intense fatigue for one, really bad cramps, joint pain and lower back pain, sometimes my boobs swell up and are really tender (compared to the normal level of tender), i'm either very irritable or sad, i feel like i can't eat and i'm bloated or gassy, i'm like constipated but i also need to shit all the time. like i cannot focus with these conditions. i couldn't this week bc its legit my first week lmao but i might start taking sick days for really bad periods. also maybe bc i took a walk before i started work but my allergies were REALLY bad all day

idk if it's my body aging (which is crazy bc i'm not even 23) or if it's bc i don't exercise as much as i should but idk i still do, like yes i do sit on my ass a LOT but i use the exercise bike a couple times a week and i lift a little bit (not as much as i used to). i haven't been able to go swimming in a while bc i think i had a uti (i didn't bother going to the doctor bc i've gotten 2 in like the last year and i hate taking antibiotics so i was like man lets just wait this out) and now i'm on my period. but other than that i swim pretty frequently.

the only issue w me is i'm a homebody but thats just bc i have almost no friends in my city lmao. esp since n has moved. (i kinda wanna call her but idk our in person chats are always so much better than calls like slight tangent but i can never hear her on the phone lmao)

honestly not mad at it like. did we only talk to each other out of circumstance? i think it's just a fact of life that most of our friends are borne from necessity at work school etc but once that ends only a few of them, maybe 1 or 2, will really stick around. but still like most ppl from uni i just don't think i'll ever talk to again and i wonder if that should matter to me or not. ngl sometimes the loneliness hits me but i don't think i've really lost my social skills in fact i think i've gotten a lot better compared to this time last year like sept 2022 - april 2023 was just a downward spiral for my social skills everything was so hard and my anxiety was prob the worst it had ever been and i wasn't very forgiving of myself. maybe bc i spend a lot of time at home but also i just don't really have a hard time talking to randos on games or in shops or whatever now. idk maybe i give less of a shit now or maybe my solitude is making my ego rise like it tends to.

i heard that was a thing, like if you spend too much time alone your sense of self becomes insanely inflated or deflated there is no middle ground. kinda facts like people are weird

but anyways i feel, for the most part, pretty chill these days. i think i could stand up for myself better now vs in the past. i texted sp again to say like "we should make plans" but i set up the last plan and like i drove her home last time too and we met at this kinda lame plaza bc she had an errand nearby so if she doesn't start the convo this time then i legit can't be arsed like i'll never talk to her again bc i'm gonna return the same effort i get. in fairness she told me that work is really exhausting for her and her commute is ridiculous like she lives by fucking farmland and has to take public transit everywhere bc she doesn't have a car. but we've never been close and i don't think our sense of humour or what we're interested in is all that similar so i get why she's not feelin it honestly me neither. no hard feelings but i will drop her tho.

holy shit this post is loooonggg. i'm not even done writing about shit but i think thats it for the life stuff so i'll make a new one

[ouralcohol]

In Your Eyes Ch. 1 - At the café

pairing: tasm!peter parker x og character

tags: filler, angsty things, some minuscule fluff (if you squint your eyeballs), mentions of dementia, so if you aren't comfortable with any of these don't read.

summary: Maite was working on a typical day of the week when she finally comes face to face with Peter Parker

Author's note: again didn't edit as much, but I have a lot of muse so here is chapter 1. let me know what you think. both characters are of age, so far is PG, will probs go up to pg 13 maybe R, depending on language idk yet.. just go with it xD

Maite had a scholarship to Empire State University. She had worked her ass off to get in there. There was no way that she was going to jeopardize her future because of one class. Unfortunately, something had come up the day that she was supposed to meet Peter, so she didn't end up going. Peter noticed as well.

"You didn't show," Peter told her while they were leaving the lecture hall.

Maite averted her eyes from him and began to walk out of the building, "Yeah. I know. I had. Stuff." There was a tone of apprehension. She wasn't lying. He had chosen a time that didn't work for her.

"Stuff?" He asked.

"Yeah you know, things. Obligations. Sometimes things interfere with what you want or need to do.. you know?" She queried him.

Boy did he know. He knew better than anyone.

"Yeah, I know what you mean.." He trailed off.

Maite didn't mean to not go. She was about to set foot in the building, but then she got a text message from her mother telling her that it was getting bad again. That she needed Maite's help. Maite being Maite dropped everything that she was doing and went to her rescue. That's the kind of person that she was though. She always wanted to help others. When it came to her family, well she was a thousand times protective. So you could imagine how she felt whenever she received that text message. Peter would have to wait. The brunette could have easily gone inside the building and explained it to him, but she didn't. People shouldn't have expectations; it only led to disappointment.

She turned to look at him, "Surprised you don't have your earbuds in." Maite didn't mean to blurt it out. It just happened.

There was a smile tugging at his lips while taking a stride with her.

"Listen. I'm sorry about not showing up. Are you still willing to help me? I can't manage to fail this class..." Maite said while peering over at him beneath her eyelashes.

"See that's the problem right there. You probably already know all of this material anyway, you're just too stressed. You're too tense, Maite." The pronunciation of her name caught her off guard. Peter had said it with very good enunciation. He knew her name?

"You know my name?" Her surprise was audible in her tone which almost caused her to do a double-take. Almost.

Peter stopped walking as he reached out for her wrist causing her to turn around and look at him, " I don't know if you've noticed but we've shared the past four classes. There aren't that many survivors in the Biochemistry major... plus you work at my hangout spot with my friends."

What?

For someone as smart as she was, she was dense sometimes, "I mean. I guess? I thought people just, you know, chose not to take certain classes because of the professors." She replied, brown eyes looking up at his own. Were they always that big and doe-eyed?

"Wrong. People come to realize they can't handle it." Peter shot back with a low sigh.

Never mind the fact that he was still holding her wrist. The skin-to-skin contact sent electricity up her arm. Maite could feel it from the tips of her toes to the hair at the back of her neck. Peter looked down at her face trying to decipher what was going on in that head of hers. How had she not noticed that they shared multiple classes? "Yes. I'll help you." He said in the end.

A soft smile crept up to her face at his final answer. "So do you just have everything memorized since you don't take any notes or anything?" Her hand went to her side, already missing the contact with him, but not wanting to showcase anything by it.

"Maybe I'm just really smart. Like really smart." There was that smugness again.

"Oh. Whatever." She said while letting out a laugh. "When do you want to get together again?" Maite inquired.

"How about you tell me when and I'll see if I can squeeze it in," Peter said politely.

"I can't go to the library. What about at the café? I usually work the afternoon shift, but afterward, it's kind of quiet. You know." Maite said casually. Then she had an idea. The young woman took out her cellphone and handed it to Peter, "This is probably easiest."

He grabbed the phone from her. Maite couldn't help but notice that he was tall. Taller than her by a couple of inches at least. He quickly typed in his phone number and handed it back to Maite. "I'll call you. save it." She pressed the call on her end. After a couple of rings, she hung up.

Maite started walking again, "Tomorrow at the Coffee Bean after I get off work." She told him and he nodded. Peter waved at her as he turned to walk the other way, "See you then."

Hopefully, she won't have any sudden obligations after work.

The truth of the matter was that she didn't have time for anything. She didn't have time for friends, she didn't have time for extracurricular activities, she didn't have time to even breathe. Not with everything that she had going on in school and at home. Maite's schedule was tight, but maybe adding in a tutoring session wouldn't be so horrible.

~

The leaves were turning brown signaling the start of fall weather. It was one of her favorite seasons here in New York. Fall was always nice to see around her neighborhood since it was littered with trees. The color of the leaves made the atmosphere feel cozy. Maite was a sucker for cardigans and cold weather. It only reminded her of warm hugs and fireplaces.

"I'm going to be late tonight." She announced towards her mother while she grabbed her backpack. Maite had managed to have one class today and the rest of the day was free. This meant that she was able to go home before her shift at the Coffee Bean began. She always went back to make sure that her mother was doing okay with her dad. They didn't have the necessary means for Maite to be able to live in the dorms or have an apartment. However, the young woman didn't mind as she enjoyed living at home. Her parents didn't pry. She was always there to help them in any way that she could.

Things with her dad were a bit.. complicated.

"Okay. Just be careful." Her mother told her with a solemn expression on her face.

This was the way it always went through. Her mother had a look on her face that screamed at Maite to stay. She could not handle being at home alone with her father. Her father was going on a downward spiral. He had dementia. Today was a good day for him. Some days were harder than others of course, but Maite and her mother were doing their best. It took a toll on her poor mother, and Maite tried to be strong for everybody. That's why she wanted to be a Biochemistry major. She was a junior in all senior classes.. she was highly intelligent. This led her to believe that she was going to be able to provide for her parents once she graduated.

"Don't worry. If you need anything you know you can call. Dad will just go to sleep for the night. It was a good day today." Maite softly told her mother while giving her a peck on the cheek.

"I sure hope you're right. I don't need him waking up in the middle of the night screaming again.." Her mother retorted.

The college student let out a slow sigh. Sometimes it was hard to be positive when all her mother did was give back remarks. Maite gave her mother a soft smile while walking out the door. Her brown eyes looked at the ground while walking towards her destination on the subway system. It was the easiest and fastest form of traveling for her.

Once Maite arrived at the coffee shop, she put on her apron and tied her hair back in a low ponytail. The place seemed dead for a Wednesday. "We haven't had any customers today.. kinda glad since yesterday was packed," Chloe mentioned to Maite.

The college student nodded, smiling at her co-worker. Chloe was someone that Maite considered a friend even if they just worked together. Chloe knew all about Maite's busy schedule, so she never attempted to hang out with the brunette outside of work. She was a little older than Maite, probably in her mid-twenties. She was an aspiring artist, so the coffee shop job was a side gig until she was able to land on her feet with her paintings.

One, two, three, four, five hours passed by at the pace of a snail. It was nice that there had been decent music playing. Now, Maite could only focus on the fact that Peter was going to walk through the door at any moment. Her shift was almost over and she had texted him what time that was at. One of her other co-workers, Tom, popped his head up from under the shelves that he was cleaning, "Spider-Man's been sighted near here! Oh, Chloe can we go see if he's here? Pretty please?!" He shouted with excitement towards their manager.

"Spider-Man here? Hell yeah! You coming, Maite?" She queried towards the brunette.

Spider-Man was someone that she had always admired. He was always trying to stop the bad guys. People just misunderstood his intentions sometimes, "Na, you guys go ahead, I gotta finish cleaning up here.." Maite stated while shrugging her shoulders. When would she ever get a chance to see the Spider again? Probably never.

Upon her saying that everyone from the shop scrambled to go outside leaving her alone. Her eyes looked over at everyone outside, everyone had their phone out to catch a glimpse of the masked superhero. They were all looking up at the sky towards the buildings. Maite shook her head and smiled to herself. He had a lot of fans and it amused her.

The ding to the door could be heard, "Just missed him. Did you see how fast he was swinging?" One customer said and Maite could not help but overhear. "We saw him go around and away to the other buildings. That counts for something." The customer's friend said slapping him on the shoulder.

The customers that had walked back inside went back to their respective places. Maite was continuing to clean the shelves when another ding could be heard again. Probably customers leaving. "Once you're done cleaning that, you can finish for the day, Maite," Chloe mentioned towards her. Maite nodded towards the general manager. "But you know you're closing up. it's only like thirty minutes left anyway. You're okay with that right?" Maite nodded again, Chloe gave her the keys to the coffee shop.

Once the shelves were spotless, she stood up and wiped her hands on her apron. She scanned the area and noticed that Peter was standing behind the counter. His hair was sticking to his forehead, a lot more disheveled than usual. Maite noted that he was breathing a little heavier than normal. Did he run here or something? "Afraid you weren't going to get here on time?" She asked him. Maite stifled a laugh.

The blush that crept on his cheeks did not go unnoticed, but Maite made no mention of it.

"Something like that," Peter responded with a soft smile.

"Your usual order?" She asked.

"No coffee, just the muffin."

Maite got what he requested, "It's on the house. Also, I get off in about thirty minutes."

"Cool, I'll just go sit at my regular spot." He announced, grabbing the muffin in one hand and his skateboard in the other.

This was more how she pictured him being. Alone with his thoughts. Maite had never seen him with a group of friends before, not that he looked out of place, just that it was different. She couldn't put her finger on it. It's not that he was awkward.. okay, maybe a little bit, it was something else.

Maite adverted her eyes as Tom began to take his apron off, Chloe had left already leaving both of them to man the counter. "Do you think he'll swing by here again? If ever maybe?"

"I don't know, Tom. Why don't we put out a sign that offers Spider-Man the world's best coffee and see if he'll fall for it." Maite let out a giggle.

"Hey, that's not a bad idea... oh. What's Parker doing here?" He raised an eyebrow towards Maite.

"Is that his last name? He's helping me study... You know I can't manage to fail this stupid class." The brunette responded. At this sudden revelation, Maite couldn't help but be the one blushing now. "It's nothing...how could it be something when I just found out his name like three days ago?" She said defensively.

Sometimes she had a knack for putting her foot in her mouth. This was one of those sometimes.

"I didn't ask. He's always hanging out with Harry. Harry is trouble." Tom said.

Maite only shrugged her shoulders. "You know I mostly keep to myself. I'll be okay." She was trying to convince herself more than her friend.

"Well. Have fun.. or not. I don't care. See you in two days." Tom wiggled his eyebrows.

Tom turned the knob on the door and waved goodbye. Maite walked behind him to lock the door and turn the sign around to signal that the coffee shop was now closed. She walked back behind the counter, took off her apron, and placed it on the hook next to the door that was the manager's office.

Maite then turned off the soft music that had been playing throughout the day, grabbed her backpack, and went to sit in front of Peter Parker. He had been looking through his camera while having that one single earbud in his ear once again.

"Spider-Man was seen around here?" He asked while still looking at his camera. He was fiddling with something.

"So they say. They said that he swung around for a couple of minutes." Maite stated while taking her book out.

"You didn't go out there?" He looked over at Maite.

"No, I had to finish cleaning."

"Not a big fan of Spider-Man?"

"I'm a fan. He always seems to be doing some type of good.." Maite shrugged her shoulders, "Probably missed my chance to see him, though. I'm sure he's quite busy keeping the streets free of crime." She waved it off as if nothing.

Well. She didn't want to be disappointed in the end, it was better off that way.

Maite looked at him, "What about you? Are you a fan of Spider-Man?" She asked him genuinely interested.

"He seems pretty okay. I know him."

Maite's face looked stunned, "You know Spider-Man? What other skeletons do you have in your closet, Peter?"

Peter averted his eyes from her with a silly smile plastered on his face. "More than you'd have I'm sure, but let's not get into that. Now. Biochemistry."

Maite groaned, running her hands all over her face, "I hate this class."

They had a test coming up in about a week. The hands-on in the lab she could do like the back of her hand; it was the lecture portion that was killing her buzz, all that memorization that they had to do. She had run out of helpful acronyms that she could use.

"Okay, but the class doesn't hate you, plus you have me as a study partner now."

"No. You don't understand. It's a little hopeless. I'm going to fail."

"You just need to stop getting anxious about it. You passed all the other classes, didn't you? Why is this one the one that's getting you sidetracked?"

"If I fail this course then I lose the scholarship.. and that.. just can't happen. It's stress added."

"I'm on a scholarship too, so I understand, but you shouldn't let money get in the way of brilliance."

"You think I'm brilliant?" Maite's mouth was agape.

"I mean you're a junior in senior classes.. some would say a genius, but you know, that's going a little overboard." Peter gave her a cheesy smile.

"Jerk." Maite scoffed.

Her stomach fluttered at the sudden compliment from him, "So I know you've probably passed everything.. but how do you not freak out during exams?"

His eyebrows raised at the question while rubbing his hand under his chin, "I look at it as a game. The paper can't beat me.. they're just questions about science.. Nothing different about any other test."

Maite looked at his face. "I didn't know that you had friends. You're always by yourself." She pointed out, her tone much softer than before.

"Harry's my roommate.. he's my best friend actually. One of them." Peter shrugged, still not taking his eyes off Maite. Peter did not mention the girl that was here the other day. Her big brown eyes bored into his wondering what else she should say... her brain was getting hazy from this stare-down.

"Remind me again why you decided to help me?" She felt shy while her cheeks flushed all of a sudden. Maite looked down at her book while placing her teeth on top of her bottom lip, giving it a little nip. "That was stupid, don't answer that." She said.

"I told you. You look like you just needed help... everyone needs help sometimes." Peter said in a much softer tone.

Her eyes looked up at him and no longer was she looking at a man with a complacent expression, but rather someone who seemed very kind. He ran his hand through his hair while finally breaking eye contact. Maite wondered what he was thinking since his features had lessened.. his jaw was very defined. Peter Parker had very nice features. With the way that his jaw was so chiseled and the apples of his cheekbones were just right on him, to the contours of his nose.. she needed to look away, but it was hard. Maite cleared her throat.

"Well. Thank you. I appreciate it." The brunette concluded.

"We haven't even studied yet. How do you know I'm going to be a good teacher?" He asked now looking at her again.

"You're really smart? Smarter than me... and I'm pretty brilliant apparently." She shot back his words at her. "You think Spider-Man gets help?"

She posed the question not expecting an answer, "He's more of a solo guy if I remember." Peter answered.

"Didn't you just say that everyone needs help sometimes? Don't you think he would appreciate it? That just sounds so lonely. I can't imagine what it would be like to be him." A sigh escaped her lips thinking about what Spider-Man must be going through in some scenario.

"He's a lone wolf. He doesn't mind." Peter said.

There was an expression on his face that Maite could not put into words.. it was.. it was something, "Still.. everyone gets lonely. I hope whoever he is is surrounded by at least someone who loves him dearly. I can't imagine on a bad day."

"We should really get to studying now." Peter Parker stated closing the subject.

There was a finality to his tone that made her wonder exactly how close Peter was with Spider-Man. She didn't press it as her fingers opened the Biochemistry book that was in front of her.

This class was going to be the death of her, but maybe, just maybe with the help of Peter Parker, she would be able to pass it.

a/n: let me know what you think! reblog if you want, i'll allow that. don't steal my work though!

[sonder-paradise]

Wedding Time!! 💐

My beautiful bride:

Ria ( @kittydripuwu )

Our wonderful bridesmaids:

Kiyo ( @kiyokoxd )

El ( @sugurus-princess )

Rown ( @missrown )

Kat ( @pompompurin1028 )

Star ( @starglow-xx )

Green ( @greenshirtimagines )

Jade ( @jadegreenimmortality )

Akari ( @todorokichills )

The spectacular Maid of Honor:

Minnie ( @shadyteacup )

Our chaotic Priest:

Seph ( @cross-crye ) and their wife Chiro ( @ch1kash1 )

Our amazing Flowergirl:

Pauline ( @paradise-creator )

The drunkard at the after-party:

Honey ( @alittlesimp )

The talented Musician/Bridesmaid:

Req ( @requiem626k )

Our sweet Ring-bearer:

@thedecayofangelhoe

[If you'd like to be a part of the wedding slide on into my inbox ;D]

Where:

Prob on Tumblr :')

When:

Whenever I drag my ass back online and Ria does too-

What:

You can prob just send congrats to both of your inboxes but I expect Chuuya to be gift wrapped at least once. Ria will accept a neatly wrapped Dazai.

Seph, you just pop into my inbox and pour holy water all over the place. I think that will work.

I'd like to write a special thank you to my Followers for keeping up with my stupid antics and terrible, desperate simping. I don't know why you follow me. But I love you all regardless. (especially you in the back @shakespearesdrugdealer and @rirk-ke I see your notifications all the time <3)

I'd also like to thank all my moots. I still don't know what made you follow me back but hi welcome to my madness. I love you all! I wish you all the best because I will be haunting you will AUs until my tumblr days are over. Which will be subsequently never.

I'd also like to say a special thanks to my beautiful bride, Ria, for without her, honestly there would be no wedding. I was desperate for a wife, you said "I'll marry you" and now here we are. You and I have been through a lot in the past couple of weeks(?) we've been mutuals. But you became my Chuuya edit dealer and I screamed over all the hot ass music he showed up with. We decided on group therapy when we took kinnie quizzes. I feel concerned that you got Fyodor... But please don't kill me to achieve your perfect world and we'll be okay. So, here we are today, about to be married. ily wifey <3

[nacaratgames]

Hello there~ Not an ask(i think?), just wanted to let you know i enjoyed the game a lot! Played my first round yet though!need like ten more?lol

I enjoyed it very much! Dunno yet if i am making the right choices though haha wanted to romance our resident fox(total cutie!)but i don't know if that would be alright?poor baby!that two faced son of a bitch!now i don't wanna like make it worse?and i was flirty before(someone kill me pleaseee)now with that insight i feel like a creep tho(flinch) also he loves Vicky~ poor guy!

Vicky! i love her okay?like she is so weird?!i find her so endearing.. i want so bad to know how she felt before yk??like i choose to give her bamboo!!!lmao??!!how did that make her fall??!lol not gonna lie that part?super cute?!!i loved it a lot!wanna give her the others gifts to see what happens but probs gonna keep the bamboo grove as hc, i found it so cute~

I imagine the literal god of Origins going like: "Seriously?this one?they gave you grass for the love of..." lmao and Vicky all composture(?) "Yes" and the spirit mountain just chilling there..

Loved all the characters btw~ pretty dang worried about Dahua tho!she gonna be alright?!🥺

Qin is a sweety sassy lovely girl and i love her to bits~

Tysm for sharing~ 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 gotta replay rn!

Hi there~

Thanks for writing me! So glad you enjoyed the game and want to give it more runs. I'm all about that replay value~

(Spoiler) Last week, I made some edits to Chapter 7 that makes the relationship between A'Li and the False Mountain Spirit more ambiguous. The Spirit is intended to be a sympathetic villain. The original version did not leave open that possibility. (Spoiler End)

I'm glad you love Victoria, I'm surprised how many people like her. She would be glad you find her endearing too, I'm sure--she has been working on that for a few thousand years.

I won't pretend to understand the End of the Universe, but I can think of a few ways to interpret why Victoria selects your gifts. The other mountains give her gifts that are rare in the world, but abundant on their lands. You offer her what is precious and irreplaceable to you. Also, bamboo dies after it blooms. Maybe that appeals since she is an embodiment of death?

Yup, that's Victoria, deadpan to the end.

I just posted the end of the Panda Spirit arc, playable here. Tell me what happens to Dahua in your playthrough (and if anything in the world breaks. I'll fix that.)