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just as you must keep an eye out for antisemitism dogwhistles you must also keep an eye out for the people who will jump at the chance to dismiss anything as antisemitism, when all the pale noses were the same and it's a very common cartoon style.
even taking into account that crooked noses have been acartoon style it's still something with historical connections to antisemitism (including the history of it being a cartoon style itself) and in the context of the cartoon where the characters with them were Jewish, it was something that needed to be pointed out.
#tw antisemitism#context here is there was a political cartoon I saw and added a comment to because I noticed something possibly antisemitic and felt it was#important to say.#there's more to unpack here but i'm not an expert and I don't know if I'm ready to engage in something like this without knowing more first#but uhhhh i will listen to the people who tell me something is antisemitic#and i will educate myself on what they tell me#1:24am trazodone brain has me not able to formulate sentences well. i'm very very sleepy#and since this is an anon ask I have no idea how to tell if this guy is sus or if I'm overreacting.#anyway I'm gonna keep listening to the voices of Jewish people sorry.#very worried if responding to this ask is a bad decision#please let me know if you guys would like this deleted!!!!!!!!!!!
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i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed
#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant#its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things#we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt?#i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an#me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could#feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly#accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore#what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back#with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other??#why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used#to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this??#i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting#for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our#bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us??#im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70#yapping#vent
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Why does this keep happening?
Me: ew kisses?? <-I'm joking, I say that a lot
Someone: Are you aroace????
Me: I'm not aroace
Someone: You sound aroace to me, I think you are actually
Chat, I'm not aroace, I have no problem with aroace as a whole, I have made so many aroace characters, it's my go to for characters at this point. I am not aromantic or asexual, I thought I was for a while, but I am not, telling people their romantic/sexual orientation and insisting is really weird and uncomfortable to hear. It's not your journey, not your self discovery, not your business, don't be like this
#maybe on I'm on the ace spectrum but ultimately it does not matter because I don't care enough to look into it for myself#they're my labels and I choose what to identify with#that is no one else's choice#obviously this applies to any sexuality or gender#don't tell people as if you're deciding for them#it's just rude#I only mention aroace because this has happened to me several times and it makes me uncomfortable#Do not do this to anyone with anything ever#if someone asks you about their own sexuality you can educate them on different ones#BUT ONLY IF THEY ASK YOU
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Why is Amane Momose one of the most misunderstood Milgram characters? Why, I'm glad you asked! In this 3 hour video essay I will
#milgram#amane momose#Okay but in all seriousness there are a few driving factors that I suspect#The stigmatization of cult members and the lack of education and understanding surrounded the topic for starters#I'm not the most educated myself but I'm trying to be more open to learning and understanding#As I become more understanding and educated my appreciation and understanding of Amane grows#This is the majority of what a lot of people have a hard time understanding I THINK#Amane is not stupid for following her faith!! Amane does not spread her doctrine with malicious intent!!#Amane is also incredibly isolated by the cult!! She has not had adequate exposure to other points of view or ways of life!!#This is like one of the defining features of cults!!!#As always I have no understanding of my own thoughts tell me if I secretly make no sense please!
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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okay maybe I should seriously reconsider my path in life and sell my soul to marketing or journalism instead
#okay venting in the tags you are very welcome to ignore or not respond to it i just need to yell somewhere#i always thought id be an art therapist because well i care about people and want to help them and love art#but everyday i wake up feeling like a fraud and an imposter so like. should i really be doing all that when im not entirely#certain i cpuld handle it??? like i know i haven't gotten the meaty bit of the education towards that yet but like#university costs a disgusting amount of money here and if i pick the wronf thing im likely doomed forever thanks to awful government#i know things could get better like they did after thatcher but honestly im not putting any bets on it considering how the current labour#party is so like if i fuck up here im basically dead#also can i actually do art uni. like could i cope with that. im deeply unethused with art at the moment and honestly will i evwr be#idk#it was jusr a thing i always did but education around it is fucking soul sucking#also the emotional weight of hearing and solving people's problems as a therapist. i would consider myself quite empathetic for the most#part i feel other people's pain quite strongly and obviously as a therapist id be feeling that quite a bit so could i actually cope with it?#ik therapists have therapists but still#i mean im doing work experience at an occupational therapy place so ill just be extra inquisitive about it all to make sure im going#the way i wanna#I'll be fine by the end of a levels ill probably understand what i want in life#if not then gap year to work it out#should probably look at unis for english language too then#sigh#ucas website i may as well marry you#ill be okay im getting in my head about stuff im actually pretty good at art even if there are things i can improve on (like patience lol)#yeah maybe the voice telling me i suck doesnt know shit and should shut up#yeah#shut it nasty voice you're wrong actually!!! im doing just fine and you're being overly critical#they should make a brain that's your friend and not mush that hides the amalgamation of every bad thing ever in its crevices#crevices shoyild be filled with kindness and love.#sex jokes about that#why the fuck is yahoo mail syncing i dont use you you washed up search engine#bue waffling#vent post
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WAITTTTTY YJH PFP AHAH THE ORV BRAINROT IS SETTING IN
congrats!!!!!! i’m vv excited that you like it so far!!!!!! :DDD ….makes me want to bring back my kdj pfp lololol
oh the brainrot set in LOOONGG ago sp.. or at least less then a week ago when I started to read it on Webtoon.... I take every chance I can to read it esp during school 💔💔 I'm nearly on ep 60 in I think 5 or 4 days?? That sounds abt right..
(I'm abt to get very ramble-y here so. a cut off is in place. I wholeheartedly blame you for this ramble sp. take responsibility.)
BUT DUDE I CAN'T GET OVER THE TWISTS AND TURNS OF THIS STORY. THE ACTION. THE CHARACTERS. THE REASONABLE THINGS IN THE PLOT (if that makes sense) AND IT ALL OCCUPIES MY HEAD 24/7/hj....
LIKE KDJ IS SO SMART HELLO?? In my friends words as well — he is a pretty boy. UGHHHHH
I'M LOSING IT OVER ORV.. I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS OBSESSED WITH ANYTHING IN A GOOD LONG WHILE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I NEED TO GET MY HANDS ON THE NOVEL I'M FREAKING OUT
but also to elaborate on how the reasonable things in the plot make sense — WHY EVERYTHING HAPPENS ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE. LIKE HOW KDJ SURVIVES STUFF AND SHIT AND HOW THERE ARE SOME PARTS WHERE IT'S TRICKY BUT IT WORDS OUT AND I. I've gotta cut myself off HELP
And there are some. Silly scenes. But yk. That just happens ig.. they're funny anyways so 😭😭
I hope you're happy that you got me to ramble sp. You silly.
#💭 ͏ ͏͏ ͏: ͏ ͏ ͏ nervo rambles ˑ ִ✷#💬 ͏ ͏͏ ͏: ͏ ͏ ͏ nervo replies ˑ ִ✷#🗨️ ͏ ͏͏ ͏: ͏ ͏ ͏ sp ˑ ִ✷#my irl friend (whose up to date with the Webtoon)#has to deal with my rambles everyday when they first see me#or when I'm reading it in the moment#I'll be like#OMGOMG WHAT'S HAPPENING BRO I'M AJDHBEBFB#I'm already telling other friends they should read it#spreading the word 😈😈#told my childhood friend today and I made them save it so 🙏🙏#they were like#it's nearly 200 episodes 😨😨#and I'm like#ofc!!#that's why I like it 🫶🫶#with many other easily ofc#lore and characters..#attractive characters....#gotta make them read some actual good shit#and EDUCATE THEM#ANYWAYS#UM#I'LL CUT MYSELF OFF HERE#NOT SORRY FOR ANY TYPOS#but I will say that school is stopping me from reading..#It's absolutely tragic 💔💔#they're stopping the binge!!#how could they!!!!
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wanting 2 finish my education but 2 do so u need 2 have a camera like
hey
thats y i failed in the 1st place
im gonna cry
#ANXIETY I H8 UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU#“u cannot talk u cannot write things down u have 2 b quiet u have 2 b in a private close off space” THIS SOUNDS LIEK TORTURE#i ahve 2 hype myself up 4 this wtf#WTFFFFFFF#spoken like a true scardy cat me WOO#my options r either b perceived or b perceived#WHICH i dont rlly HAVE a problem w/#its jsut THE FACT THAT IN MY HEAD I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING JUDGHED 4 MY SMARTS I H8 ITTTTTTT#next thing yk if im on camera theyre gonna give me a strike 4 sitting “not normal”#this is actualyl awful#u can tell how awful it is in my head bc im rambling about it on tumblr tags 2 distract myself#i want 2 continue my education but @ what cost jesussssssssssssssssssssssssss
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genuinely & seriously WILL block you w/o hesitation if u believe terfs & transphobes hate trans women "because they're men" & not "because they are a kind of woman they're allowed to hate". (&/ the perceived transgression of the feminine with masculine)
transmisoginy is real, it has ruined the lives of women I love, it has led to transfemicide, & harassment campaigns at a level cis men simply DO NOT EXPERIENCE & NEVER WILL.
& beyond that, if you think (or imply) trans women have privilege over others, or male socialization or whatever I honestly think you should kys. or at the very least hand ur local trans woman $1k
#telling me to read the scum manifesto like i didn't go to college FOR WGSS#like the idea of ' cursed chromosomes' isnt a fascist eugenicist idea still used against trans women & intersex ppl to this day#like oh right shit! somehow in my argument 'terfs dont actually hate cis men as much as they say they do' i forgot one of the most#fundamental terf works there is.#educate myself on my history.#y dont u educate urself on the lived experiences of the trans women in ur community#or are you so busy telling trans women they arent accurate arbiters of their life & that they're hysterical...?#almost as if you too view them as a kind of woman ur allowed to demean!#fruitpost#transmisogyny#vent#fruitvent#alsooooo. really trolling the transmisogyny tag just to argue 'no! ur wrong! trans women are actually treated BETTER thancis men.#so are trans men too actually“!#what does this do but serve the terfs & transphobes#sorry. we've actually spent the last thousands of years making life better for cis men.#theyre GOING to view equality as a loss#& im obv not one to say “kill all men” or anything of the like.#but nothing ever gets better unless we focus on the disadvantaged & marginalized.#cis men should not be the focus & if ur arguing they should be u r literally holding us all back & doing their work for them#fruittag
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no really there is a special kind of academic grief when your classes are fascinating, they present interesting challenges, your homework is stimulating, fun to do, and you feel good when you get it done, your classmates are kind and fun and have so much interesting shit to say.
but you're wayyy busy spending your time 50% trying to be the best potted plant your parents have ever owned 50% blasting your brain with endless stimulation lest you start crying and hitting yourself because you had an unpleasant thought.
#ngl it was extremely hard in the first few weeks like socially and regarding the working environment#(2000 students in a building that's Not That Big is awful i wanted to rip my ears off)#but i deeply miss having FUN during exams#listen. is it fun to be at 8am sharp in the exam hall? no.#was it a fun feeling last year to hang the whole trajectory of my life and education on 5 exams? no.#but they were fun i was having a good time i really liked constructing my point throughout the paper#i'm dogshit at it but it doesn't matter the point was that i was having fun and practicing and improving#now i work half an hour out of four being extremely slow at making the worst plan i've ever made in my life#and then the lethargy takes me and i sleep standing straight in my chair the whole three hours that i have left#awful#the whole point of picking a cursus with a lot of classes and a lot of homework was to escape my parents#that since they value academics and my dad went to the same cursus when he was young therefore they'd know it takes a lot of work#that they'd leave me alone and they wouldn't keep feeding into the fucking compulsions or whatever the fuck they are#but NO no again it's clear that no matter how much time i spend with them how much i center my whole life around them and their routine#it's never enough it's never enough to earn myself some peace#their way is the objective Good and Comfortable way to live and deviating from it must mean i'm wicked and sad and i'm failing and them too#no matter how clear i have tried my best to be on the many occasions i've told them THIS IS SOMETHING I DON'T LIKE AND DO FOR YOUR SAKE#i was more independant when i was younger and everybody told me it was wrong it was weird i was just a wittle baby who needed mommy#i didn't earn this independance#now i'm trying my best to please them and comply with what they want. except what they tell me they want they don't want apparently.#and it doesn't earn me any independance either#broadcasting my misery#vent
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it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy
#i follow this person cleo abrams on youtube and she's always talking so excitedly about scientists#and their amazing discoveries cool facts and she's so excited and starry eyed and hopeful#she genuinely just wants to educate people and has so much hope that we can make the world a better place#also like idk maybe unrelated but i saw the mv of new romantics and just. wow#say what you will about her but there's no doubt she's made an insane number of people happy SO HAPPY that they're crying#so many tours#idk i want#i wish my life was bigger#i feel so isolated and always just focusing on myself my career my health my enjoyment#what about everything everyone else#i keep trying to be completely okay with being alone i keep telling myself to not need anyone and be 100% independent#find happiness within hobbies interests#but it feels like a losing battle#i don't know i just. miss everyone 😭😭😭😭#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing#i miss my bestfriend i don't know what i did wrong but she won't pick up my call she keeps saying she's busy#i don't want to be clingy because she hates that shit i don't want to drive her away but she's my only friend#i miss my fucking mom she doesn't care if i live or die obviously but i miss just having her presence in the house#and even tho my sister is here she's never fully present always on her laptop working#i wouldn't really say i miss my dad but wow it's been so long since mom and dad stayed together at home it was almost#always miserable but sometimes at the lunch table it was nice#i don't know everything and everyone is moving and changing so fast and i can't breathe under it and it's already september#but this entire year felt like a blur it's like everyone who left took a chunk of my heart with them#and i should be happy because im so close to the exam which will get me out of this house finally be financially independent#like i wanted since i was 11 i could finally start my life#but it all feels so. i don't know the whole future seems black like i can't imagine life past november 2025#how do you imagine happiness if you've never been happy?#and all these feelings are making it so hard to study and studying is so fucking important because if i don't ill be stuck here forever#and i don't want to go thru attempts fail and pass again atleast back then i had a reason first heartbreak‚ not getting to go to college#but what now why now i don't even understand i know objectively i do not have it that bad it's literally better even if i compare to my own
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Guys how do I explain to a 14-year-old kid that saying the n-word is really really bad and it shouldn't be said? I told her the history and showed her articles and sent her videos but she still is like 'oh well i won't say it in any public spaces, just with my friends' THAT'S NOT THE PROBLEM KID IT'S THE FACT THAT YOU'RE NOT BLACK. please send help I'm about at my wit's end.
#I keep telling myself i should be patient with her and explain because she is a kid and we don't have any anti-racism education whatsoever#but like seriously#she is the first person i've explained the history to and she still doesn't get it like what else am i supposed to do???#im not black either obv so if any black person sees this HELP ME PLEASE#kevtalks
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Y'ALL😭... today was my first class in a japanese course i signed up on and for introductions our teacher asked us what had brought us to the course . everyone talked in great detail how they were there for business, travel, industry and culture reasons— so im MORTIFIED because my main motivation for signing up is that my main interest is a japanese RPG Maker horror game from 2010 that im weirdly devoted to
#i talk!!!#yes this is about re:kinder i signed up on a japanese course because of it#the game has scratched my brain to such a level im out here signing up to courses to get every last bit of knowledge on it#I WAS SO EMBARASSED EVERYONE WAS THERE FOR SUCH IMPORTANT AND SERIOUS AND SMART SOUNDING REASONS#i mean my reason is very important naturally it is the most important reason there could ever be BUT THEY WOULDNT BE ABLE TO TELL ...#i ended up saying something about being interested in how advanced the animation industry is in there and wanting to learn from it#which. technically is not a lie i am interested by that BUT IT IS A LIE IN THE SENSE IT IS NOT THE REASON AT ALL WHY IM LEARNING#on another hand this is so funny i would have not believed me if i told myself in the past this is what would happen if i played the game#at a point where i genuinely dont know how my life would be rn without playing the game its so funny#furthering my education because my brain worm told me it would be the only way to better understand my main interest
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i'm so serious when i say that school makes me wanna rip my flesh off
#feeling murderous rage#i hate devoting every minute of my day to doing these stupid math questions (and i actually used to like math!!!)#i wanna go out for like a walk or something rn but it's late and i still have so much to finish. like i've been working on hw for 4 hours#like i miss having time to myself#it's like everytime i think of school i break down... what a fucked up education system#i don't want to go back to school tomorrow... literally want to throw up#it's so stressful i hate it so much#all i do is get home. eat something. do hw for like 4 hours. sob for like 15 minutes. stare at the wall. and sleep. how miserable is that#and i just wanna punch someone rn. wish i could tell my teachers that assingning so much hw everyday only makes me wanna kick them#trapped in a simulation where all i can do is try my best to finish all my hw. and still not be able to complete it!!!#i just wanna be a teenage girl doing stuff that isn't school related.... is that too much to ask for#gonna sob soon bye ✌️#personal
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childhood was spent thinking i’d go to hell and men would not love me if i swore so now to heal from that i am swearing as much as i fucking can until i come to my own fucking conclusion about how i feel regarding the usage of such crude vocabulary
#it needs to be my own decision and understanding that i do not want to swear#not because other people Told Me it’s not ladylike or im going to go to hell if i do it#if i end up deciding hey you know what i really dont like swearing then Boom i actually have a reason other than guilt and shame#because i will have been able to feel something Other than guilt and shame when swearing. if that makes sense#like instead of being consumed by guilt and shame every time i swear or think about swearing#i am able to come to it without bias and understand for myself (without guilt and shame) why it is wrong or harmful#(or rather IF it is wrong or harmful. ive not comr to my conclusion yet but you can see i still have preconceived notions about it)#and who knows maybe men wont love me after all and i will be unloved by God if i swear#then so be it because ive never known a single thing in my life without someone else telling me#i just want to figure it out and understand for myself without someone holding my hand because im too stupid to come to my own conclusion#my parents put me in a classical school so i could learn to think critically but then have removed every chance for me to think critically#because they are afraid i will make the wrong decision (even though supposedly i have learned critical thinking™)#and they didnt do that intentionally of course. and this sounds resentful but i truly dont mean it that way#i LOVE my parents and the fact that they wanted to put money into giving us good education rather than just nice possessions#they have wonderful hearts and the best of intentions. but no parent is perfect and every single one will affect their kids in some way#whether they meant to or not. or maybe they did something with good intention without realizing the harmful outcome#every day i realize that individuation is an actual thing and its not just a montage in a disney movie#froegis meep tag
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#im in so much fuckin pain i cant move ugh#like. typing this is excruciating#but i cant just stare at the wall or im gonna lose it eventually ugh#my pain is getring progressively worse these days and the last 2 months have been hell#doctors r worried this might be my new normal for the time being#which. uh#SUCKS#bc i cannot stand or walk for more than 5 mins#and i need a walker w me bc my cane isnt enough#and most days i am trapped in bed (or on the couch if i can make it there) unable to take care of myself#bc everything hurts and i feel like i'm being tortured#oh and my lordosis & the related pain is now at a level that might need serious medical intervention#my migraines r out of control#my joint problems r also way worse#and u kno what ? i would like to die now#thanks#truly and genuinely#im so done#i cant keep going this way#my doctor has no idea what to do#and the pain clinic im a patient of refuses to help further unless i sign up for their ridiculous pain education program#which is 8 weeks long with mandatory in-person weekly attendance (i do not live near it & cant afford transportation)#where they tell u all the ways ur pain is ur own fault and give u unrealistic and ridiculous advice abt exercise and lifestyle changes#that u Cannot do bc of said disabilites and pain#jfc#our healthcare system is broken and nobody cares if i live or die or suffer#AND im stuck dealing w my mother complaining abt my existence nonstop bc she resents me for the things i cannot do independently#so u kno what ya i am done. im so done. i give up#catch me rotting in this bed forever until i die. thats the only option being given to me
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