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flautistsandpeonies · 4 years ago

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You ever think about how dirty Jiang Fengmian got done?

You’re a sect heir to what is supposed to be the most “free” sect of all the great sects. Expression, play, and ingenuity are literally built into your teachings, and all of a sudden your father wants to set you up into an arranged marriage.

You meet your perspective betrothed, and you don’t like the way she conducts herself. You tell her and your family multiple times that you don’t think that you two would be an appropriate match for one another. Your betrothed, however, wants to marry you- it doesn’t matter what you think apparently- and her family starts pressuring you into marrying their third daughter. You try to hold out and keep denying, but then your best friends want to get married and travel the world together so you are left all alone to fight an entire sect and your father’s wishes by yourself.

Needless to say, you find yourself getting married to the Violet Spider.

So, Yu Ziyuan moves to Lotus Pier and one of the first things she decides is that she doesn’t like her new home and has an entire pavilion built to cater to her needs and brings a bunch of people from her natal sect sect and barring Jiang from the premises.

There are Jiang disciples that have lived in Lotus Pier long than Yu Ziyuan that can no longer access a part of their home because their new madam forbade them from coming there.

She also decides that she isn’t going to take on your family name. She refuses to take the mantle of Madam Jiang and wants to be called Madam Yu despite the fact that she is the one that wanted the marriage in the first place.

Thirdly, she refuses to take care of the household of the Jiang sect. Instead of doing her duties as the Madam of Lotus Pier she would rather go on night hunts and she’s barely home.

So, now you probably have to not only take care of duties as sect leader, you also have to take care of the household cause your wife is almost never home.

Despite all this, you manage to perform your marital duties and you have your first child together! A baby girl who was born frail and with a weak constitution. You decide to name her Jiang Yanli.

Your wife informs you that since she and Jin GuangShan’s wife Madam Jin were the bestest of friends since childhood and made a promise that their first born children would marry one day, your daughter is now in an arranged marriage with the heir to the Jin sect.

With that, you no longer have a sect heir as men do not marry into the woman’s family. You’ve simply had a child to further the Jin sect rather than your own.

Since that’s done, you end up performing your marital duties again, and three years later you end up with a boy this time! You decide to name him Jiang Cheng.

Life is pretty normal, your wife is still never home, Yanli, while not good in cultivation seems to enjoy cooking, and you get your son three puppies to play with.

Four years later, you get the news that your best friends are now dead from a night-hunt and their little boy, just a few days older than your son is missing.

You spend five years looking for Wei Ying and miraculously find him eating the trashed rinds from people who bought watermelon. You buy him food and clothes and bring him back to Lotus Pier where you find your son playing with his puppies, Princess, Jasmine, and Love.

At the sight of them, Wei Ying starts screaming and crying, he’s shaking and sweating and doesn’t seem to be able to perceive the world around him. You see it’s a panic attack induced by the dogs, so you pick him to get him from the same level as the animals and try to calm him down.

Since you doubt the panic attack will be a one time thing, you decide that the best course of action is to send the dogs away. This devastates your son as he really loved his furry friends, so you decide to replace his animal friends with Wei Ying and set them up in the same room.

All this infuriates your wife, and she starts to accuse you of having an affair with your best friend. She accuses you of not loving your son, of being unfaithful, and having a bastard son from a woman who has been dead for five years.

There is a new normal in life with Wei Ying at Lotus Pier. While Yu Ziyuan still night-hunts alot, when she’s home she’s constantly accuses you of favoring Wei Ying over your own son, and claims that Wei Ying is your bastard. Yu Ziyuan has also taken zidian and whips Wei Ying with the spiritual weapon whenever she wants. Some days you come home late at night and find Wei Ying trapped in your family’s ancestral hall kneeling for hours.

Your wife has taken a spiritual tool that has been passed down the Jiang family for generations and she uses it to whip the child of your two best friends. She traps him in the ancestral hall, without medical attention, for hours, until you let him out late at night.

Your wife constantly tells your son that you don’t love him, that you wish Wei Ying was your legitimate heir, that he will never meet your expectations.She berates your daughter for her hobbies and looks down on her. Wei Ying gets whipped for simple things such as not wearing a shirt on a hot summer’s day.

Life passes on like this. Before you know it, you are sending your son and Wei Ying off to the Cloud recesses for study. Three months later, you are called to the mountain headquarters because your head disciples beat up the Jin heir.

Lan Qiren tells you that Jin ZiXuan disparaged your daughter in front of every eligible male in the cultivation world. You understand being betrothed to someone you don’t love, but Yanli didn’t cause the arrangement and even if Jin ZIXuan didn’t want to marry her didn’t mean he didn’t have to talk down about her to any other boy who you could possibly try to set her with. So, with that, you get Jin GuangShan to recede the arrangement and you take Wei Ying home.

I wonder if you will be able to find your daughter a husband after every heir that studied at the cloud recesses heard about how weak in beauty, smarts, and cultivation she was.

For the next two years, you deal with the new normal and your wife cursing you for ending your daughter engagement.

The Wens host an archery competition and then weeks later demand your heirs and disciples as hostages. They demand an heir so you are forced to send your son. Wei Ying volunteers and your wife accuses you of favoring Wei Ying despite the fact that Jiang Cheng really has no choice in the matter.

One month later, your son and disciples come home from a near death experience with a deformed beast and second Wen heir. You are informed that your head disciple stayed behind so you go to retrieve him and find that he and the second jade of Lan killed a hundreds year old beast.

Wei Ying is suffering from an infection from a brand, arrow wound, and a lack of spiritual power and stays in a coma for an entire week. As soon as he wakes, you congratulate him on this rare feet.

Your son is now saying that Wei Ying should have let the sect heirs to two other major sects die and and you try to make him see why that sort of mind set is wrong.

It probably reminds you of being a teenager and almost dying on a night hunt due to Lan Qiren unchangingly following his sect rules, and the only reason you are currently alive is because your friend CangSe SanRen saved your life.

Your wife bursts in and again accuses you of favoring Wei Ying. She claims that you don’t love your son again because she is his mother. It’s the same old argument and she storms out as angry as she came in.

Days go by and you and your wife are still arguing. It gets so bad that you leave your home to go appeal to the man who ordered your son to be a hostage to give you their swords back. You fail.

You’re going home when you find your son and Wei Ying tied together with zidian on a boat. Your son tells you the Wen sect is attacking and that your wife is fighting the core melting hand. You send the boys away; you tell your son to be well, and tell Wei Ying to look after him.

You go home to fight for you sect.

Your core is melted.

You are killed.

Your home is burned to the group.

All your disciples are killed.

All your treasures all stolen.

YunmengJiang is now the Wen Sect Supervisory Office of Yunmeng.

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thebadgerclan · 4 years ago

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SFW Alphabet: Severus Snape

Requested by Anonymous

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) Severus is quite possibly the most affectionate man to ever live. I HC that his love language is physical touch, so he always has an arm around you, is holding your hand, has you in his lap, in his arms. Severus always wants to have you near him, always wants to be touching you in some way. Kisses on your hand and cheek in public, on your forehead and lips in private. He’ll also give you small gifts: a new quill when you need it, a book you’ve wanted to read, things like that.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) Severus is a loyal friend, regardless of your house or blood status. He’s kind, funny, caring, always willing to help you with anything you need; homework, personal issues, he’s always willing to listen. It starts after you’re partnered up for a potions project and Severus realizes that he has a bit of a rival in that class.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) Cuddles are one of Severus’ favorite things in the world. Your arms are his favorite place, he loves holding you or being held by you. When he holds you, he likes to lay on his back with you tucked into his side with your head resting on his chest, arms around your middle, or spooning you (he’s the big spoon) When you hold him, Severus likes to be on his side, facing you, with his face buried in your chest, arms wound around your middle, keeping you close to him. He also likes being the little spoon (even though he’s tall)

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) Severus does want to settle down with you, he dreams of a cozy little home somewhere with you, where you can just live your lives. He wants to marry you more than anything else in the world, he gets you a ring as soon as possible and pops the question. The war keeps you two from having the wedding you want, but you make an Unbreakable Vow to each other, swearing to always love one another.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) The mere thought of breaking things off with you almost gives him a panic attack, but if he had to do it, he’d likely put up his Occlumency shields. If he didn’t, he would break down and sob through it, unable to get through a single word. He’d be brief and to the point: “Y/N, I’m sorry, but I can’t do this any more. I’m so sorry, love.”

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) Severus is a very committed lover: once he’s yours, he’s yours forever. He never has eyes for anyone but you, you are the only person he will ever love. After about 4 months into the relationship, Severus is thinking about marriage, but he knows it’s too soon. He does start looking at rings at around 7ish months, and about a year or so into the relationship, he asks you to marry him. The ring is simple but beautiful: a silver band with a princess cut diamond, flanked by a few small emeralds

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) Severus is so gentle with you, physically and emotionally. You are one of the very few people that get to see this side of him: he could be raging about something Potter did, but he melts when he’s around you, sweetly taking you into his arms and holding you close. He’s very emotionally available, he treats you with reverence and respect, never taking his anger out on you. He does sometimes get angry, and sometimes, you make him angry, but he will NEVER raise a hand to you, NEVER hurt you. He might shout a little when he’s angry, but he apologizes immediately after. Severus tries to never shout at you, but he’s human, and it happens sometimes, but he never takes his anger out on you

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) Oh yes, Severus Snape LOVES hugs, he hugs you at least 15 times a day. He’ll legitimately get sad if he goes a day without hugging you. Severus will pull you close to him, wrap his arms around your middle, and rest his chin atop your head. If he’s feeling a bit more emotional (sad, angry, frustrated, anxious, etc.), he’ll stoop down and bury his face in your neck, still holding you tight. HIs hugs last for at LEAST 40 seconds, and he’ll pout when you pull away. His hugs are warm and welcoming, making you feel safe and secure

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Severus wasn’t the one to say it first, mainly because he’s afraid you’ll leave him. But when you say it, about 3 months into the relationship, Severus bursts into tears, burning his face in your chest. “I love you,” he repeats over and over again. “I love you, Y/N, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.” After that, he tells you at least 20 times a day.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?) Severus is a fiercely jealous man. When he sees someone checking you out, chatting you up, or heaven forbid, touch you without your permission (and I mean arm, shoulder, hand touches). He sees red, coming to your side immediately and wrapping an arm tight around you. People know how jealous and possessive Severus tends to be, and he doesn’t even have to say anything, all he has to do is glare at the other person and they know they’ve overstepped

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?) All encompassing, all consuming, world changing, that’s what Severus’ kisses are like. He kisses with passion, with love, with devotion, yes, with lust too. Obviously, he loves to kiss you on the lips, and when he does, he pulls you flush to him, kissing you with everything he is, pouring every ounce of his love and adoration into it. You tend to wind your arms around his neck, sometimes threading your fingers through his hair. Severus doesn’t do “pecks”, he either kisses you for 30 seconds straight or not at all. The exception to his is when he kisses your hand around others. He loves to kiss your forehead as well, as he can just bend a little to reach. Severus will kiss your neck too, especially when things are getting steamy. He likes to be kissed in the same places as he likes to kiss you, with the addition of his left forearm, directly over his Mark. It just makes him feel extraordinarily loved

L = Little ones (How are they around children?) The way Severus acts around the students is completely different than how he’d act around his own children. Severus would be a doting, adoring father, loving his children almost as much as he loves you. He would cherish them with everything he is, crying the first few times they cry, sleeping on the floor next to their crib, showing pictures of them to anyone who will look.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) Most mornings are early because Severus has classes, but every morning, Severus wakes you with a kiss on your forehead before the pair of you dress in comfortable silence. Breakfast in the Great Hall is spent with Severus’ hand in yours, pressing kisses to the back of it every so often. After that, he walks you to your classroom, kissing you sweetly before going down to the dungeons

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) Evenings are spent in your shared rooms, in each other’s arms, reading, grading, talking, or just enjoying each other’s company. It doesn’t matter how stressful or bad Severus’ day was, having you in his arms (or being in yours if it was a really bad day) makes everything better. Often, you’ll share a shower or bath (which may or may not lead to sex) before getting into bed and cuddling until you fall asleep

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) It takes Severus a while to be comfortable to truly open up to you, but when he does, it’s an hour and a half of Severus telling you every single detail of his life. You listen to every word, taking his hand when he cries, offering console when he needs it. And when he’s done, when everything’s laid out at your feet, you take him into your arms and soothe him as he cries. “I love you, Severus,” you say stroking his hair. “I love you more than anything in the world.”

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) Once again, how he acts around the students is different from how he acts around you. Around the students, he’s snippy and short, but with you, his patience is endless. He hardly ever snaps at you, and on the rare occasion he does, it’s usually because something else is bothering him. And this is because you, simply put, don’t piss him off

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) Everything. Literally everything. Severus remembers every single thing you tell him, from your favorite shirt to your favorite books. He does not forget, and he uses this to surprise you. You mention you want something for a snack? It’s on the coffee table the next day. You said you liked this book you read 4 years ago? He gets it for you. Severus remembers every little thing you tell him

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?) It’s not a super sentimental memory, it’s not connected to a major event, but it still makes his heart skip a beat. Severus got out of bed at 2 AM to use the bathroom, and when he came back, you were tossing and turning, features twisted into those of discomfort and distress. Severus was concerned, but when he got back into bed and pulled the covers over himself, you wormed into his arms, nuzzling into his chest. At once, you relaxed, face going slack, sighing contentedly. The fact that you not only noticed and missed Severus’ presence while asleep but made your way back into his arms and that soothed you while asleep makes him so happy.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?) Severus is a very protective man, as Voldemort’s servant, he has to be. He hates letting you out if his sight, hates it when he has to leave you when he’s Called, hates the thought of anything hurting you. Severus teaches you defensive and offensive spells, some of them Dark, so you can protect yourself if Severus isn’t there. At the height of the war, Severus also likes for you to send him a patronus every hour or so (even if you’re both in the castle), just so he knows you’re alright, and he’ll do the same for you

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) Severus putsa decent amount of effort into dates,especially at the beginning of the relationship. Nice restaurants, candlelit dinners, champagne,the works. He doesn’t put as much effort as the relationship goes on, but not because he’s slacking; quite the opposite, he just knows that he doesn’t have to “wow” you as much as he felt he had to in the beginning. That being said, Severus goes all out for anniversaries: fancy restaurants, champagne, candles, romantic music. Gifts are much the same: jewelry, books, clothes, things that he knows you’ll love

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) He’s very hard on himself, thinking he’s not good enough, not handsome enough, that you can do better. His self consciousness about his looks, the fact that he sometimes bottles up his feelings. But he’s working on it.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) Not very, he keeps himself presentable and clean, he shaves a few times a week, keeps his hair at his signature shoulder length, but beyond that, he doesn’t do much. Apparently (according to Severus) he looks good enough for you, and that’s enough.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) Absolutely, 1,000,000%. You’re a part of his soul, when he’s apart from you, Severus is half a man, a shell of himself.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) Severus smells like sandalwood, leather, and fresh parchment

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?) He doesn’t like it when people interrupt, him, you, or anyone else. It makes him feel like they don’t care about what he or others have to say is important. In terms of a partner, Severus can’t be with someone who’s not emotionally available. He understands not opening up completely all at once and maybe keeping certain things to yourself, but he needs to feel like he knows you and what you’re feeling as well as being heard and understood himself.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?) Severus is a light sleeper, has trouble falling asleep, and he suffers from nightmares, but when he’s with you, he’s able to sleep 8+ hours and have far less nightmares. They don’t go away completely, but there are waaaaayyy less, maybe 1 or 2 every month.

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classic80sand90smovieloves2 · 4 years ago

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Meeting and Dating Douglas Quaid

(Not my gif)(Requested by @slasherscream )

- You met Douglas, or rather, you met Hauser on Mars.

- You and your friends were hanging out in a slightly seedy bar in the more posh area of the slums when he came in. He’s sort of hard to miss and definitely hard to ignore: six foot tall, massive, chiseled, and walking with an intoxicating authoritarian air.

- He was hard to miss but you never thought that you were. Though low and behold, after a few minutes of you sneaking glances at him, you suddenly found his eyes locked on you, holding your gaze for a moment before you took it upon yourself to break the contact.

- Once you’d plucked up enough courage to glance back, you found that he was missing from his previous position at the bar. A surge of disappointment filled you, having lost him in the crowd. Well, it filled you up until you heard a voice call out from behind you.

“Can I buy you a drink?”

- The two of you ended up spending nearly the entire night talking to one another; your friends being more than happy to excuse your absence once they saw who you were with. You hit it off great and before you knew it, you were agreeing to go out with him that following weekend.

- For your first date, the two of you went out to dinner together. It was some beautiful upscale restaurant that the likes of you had never seen before. That was when you first wondered what he did for work, a subject that; when you brought it up, was answered vaguely.

- Your shared your first kiss that same night after he hailed you a Johnny Cab. Both of you leaned in at the same time and shared a quick, soft one as you said goodbye. It was the perfect way to end the night, though things couldn’t remain perfect for long....

- The two of you had been dating for a few months when you finally found out just who he was. It took everything in you not to have a full on panic attack as you spotted the emblem peeking out of his dresser drawer. For some it would mean nothing, but for a resistance member? It meant that you were in deep shit.

- So you kept everything a secret. You liked him, a lot, and he seemed so different from every other bootlicker you’d ever met. If you could just steer him towards the cause then he’d be a major ally. But you had to be careful, everything had to go smoothly. You should have learned by now that things don’t just go smoothly.

- You were at a meeting when shit hit the fan. A raid; something you should have been prepared for. But nothing ever truly prepares you for the reality of the worst case scenario.

- He was there. And he was the only one to turn and see you as you grabbed the hand of one of the resistance members daughters, attempting to make a silent escape.

- You froze as you locked eyes with him, fully expecting him to shoot you as his captain had instructed all of his crewmates to do. But he didn’t. He just watched you as you disappeared through the chaos.

- You had a good few hours to think about what you could say or do to explain yourself. Now seemed as good a time as any to let him know exactly what he was fighting for.

- It was sort of funny. Initially, he thought that you’d just been in the wrong place at the wrong time. Then he thought that you were misinformed, that somebody coerced you into joining the cause.

- When you finally dragged him off to see the aftermath of Cohaagens actions, he was more willing to accept what you were telling him.

- And so, he switched teams. …But we all know how that turned out....

- You’re in for a wild ride when he makes his return. First, you have to deal with the fact that he’s not dead; which is what you were told and believed for weeks. Then, you’ll have to try and get over the fact that he fucked and was “married” to another woman. You certainly give him a pass for everything but whew boy, was all of that a hard pill to swallow.

- Different Pda for different places. He’s usually perfectly fine with it. I mean, depending on the time and place, you could legitimately makeout or full on grab his dick and he wouldn't even be bothered by it.

- Handholding. You’ll usually be the one to reach for his hand first but the minute he notices, he’ll engulf your hand in his.

- Kissing all over his face. It’s the best way to cheer him up.

- He likes all that lovey dovey soft shit that couples do to each other. He’s perfectly happy with you fussing over him and showing him all your affection and attention. He thinks it’s sweet.

- Face caresses, usually before a kiss.

- Lots of kisses. They’re a very important part of your relationship. He absolutely loves them.

- Slow, soft, and loving kisses.

- Making out. Things can turn from innocent pecks to heated French kisses quicker than you thought possible.

- Obviously, you have yourself a grade A beefy boy. He’s incredibly strong and he uses it to his advantage when he’s playfully teasing you.

- Bridal carrying.

- He likes when you hold onto him, whether it’s by grabbing his arm or settling into his side; especially when you’re scared.

- He’s not a huge cuddler while he sleeps but he does like holding you when he’s awake. What’s better than being nestled against strong man tiddies?

- Soft looks. You can tell that he likes you with the way he watches you do things; completely loving and happy that you’re there with him.

- He’s fond of pet names both for you and for him. He tends to call you baby and sweetheart; and other endearingly generic ones.

- Having to get used to calling him Douglas. Thank god that you usually just refer to him as honey.

- Filling him in on all he’s forgotten or missed.

- Comforting him after nightmares. After almost suffocating and mutating beyond belief in a Mars desert, he most likely gets a few bad dreams from time to time.

- Laying side by side and gazing up at Mar’s blue sky.

- Spontaneous kisses. A near death experience and a breath stealing kiss? Baby that’s drama and he’s here for it.

- “Family” photos. How can he not want pictures with you when you look that pretty?

- Hologram tricks. Sometimes it’s just fun to mess with your partner, ya know?

- You trying to jump on or “attack” him always amuses him because what are you gonna do? What are you? Two foot and the equivalent of a bag of grapes in weight. Get the fuck out of here, you adorable bitch.

- Snarky replies and sarcasm.

- Training together. I wouldn’t exactly suggest sparring with each other though.

- Massages. The man works hard and who are you to turn down touching him and his muscles?

- Little gifts. They’re always sweet and thoughtful.

- Eating breakfast together.

- He drinks these sort of protein shakes every morning and you honestly don't know how he stomachs them. You suppose they’re better than just raw eggs but you don’t know by how much.

- Hanging out at the last resort.

- Sitting in his lap.

- Space cruises. You probably went on one for your honey moon.

- Going out to dinner. He likes seeing you get all dressed up and spending a relaxing evening with you.

- He’s more than happy to deal with the more serious aspects of life for the two of you. He’s a politely blunt and intimidating man; he’ll make sure the two of you don’t get swindled.

- He’s sort of a pushover for you. He can hardly ever resist your cute little face. And plus, he’s always looking to make you happy.

- Girls ogle him left and right so try not to be too bothered by it. He thinks its cute when you get jealous but always knows exactly what to say to ease your mind when he notices that it’s really bothering you.

- He doesn’t get jealous very easily but sometimes, he’ll see you with another resistance member; or other close friend, and he’ll get this incessant nagging feeling. It makes him feel silly but he can’t deny that it’s there.

- He’s pretty protective of you even though he knows you can take care of yourself relatively well. You’re always the first person he checks on when shit hits the fan.

- Sometimes when you’re mad, he just won’t be able to take you seriously, usually because you’re angry over something silly and/or because you just look cute when you’re mad. You don’t fight very often but whenever you do, he tries his best to sort things out as quick as he can.

- He certainly isn't against apologizing. If he’s in the wrong then he’s in the wrong and he apologizes; just as he expects you to do when you’re the one who messed up. You can’t have a healthy relationship without compromise and admitting you fucked up from time to time.

- He’s always happy to tell you that he loves you; and boy does he love you. He had his mind erased and he was still subconsciously hung up on you.

- He’s sort of eager to settle down, get married and start a family. He is fully ready to become a dad at the drop of a hat; he genuinely loves kids.

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gale-gentlepenguin · 5 years ago

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ML Fic: Soulmate Survey Part 2

(The idea that started it all)

(Master post)

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Alya could not believe her eyes. But as clear as day on her friend’s phone the facts were present. Marinette had 100% compatibility with Adrien Agreste.

“Girl... that is amazing.” Alya managed to say through her shock.

Marinette couldn't even form words, her face was as bright and red as fire. She felt like she would combust. Sure, she said that Adrien was her soulmate, and sure she has taken a quiz or two where she was matched with Adrien, but THIS?! This was a completely different feeling, it felt real.

Alya managed to pick up her jaw.

“Chloé would have a heart attack if she found out about this.” Alya spoke with a smirk.

That statement brought Marinette crashing back to earth.

“You can NOT tell Chloé! You can't tell anyone!” Marinette exclaimed in panic.

Alya looked at her confused.

“Why not? This is the perfect chance to stick it to that spoiled brat! Not to mention it will help show everyone else that you are a perfect match for Adrien.”

“What would Adrien say? What if he sees me talking about this, using it as some sort of leverage. That is something so Lila like. I can't do that!”

“I think you mean Chloé-like” Alya corrected

“No I didn't. The main point is it wouldn't be right to do that. What if Adrien doesn't take this seriously and seeing someone he considered his friend using it to keep other girls off of him. He would think I am some sort of possessive creeper.” Marinette explained.

Alya considered her friends opinion and was going to tell her that she was overthinking it, but she actually made a fair point, it does seem kind of gross to try doing something like this.

“That is true, not to mention Mr.Model is pretty popular. You mentioning your compatibility might cause his fan club to try and slay you, or get akumatized if you aren't careful.” Alya agreed.

“You mentioned earlier that each list is private, and that no one else can see it unless the person decides to show other. I should ask Adrien what he thinks about the whole thing... Tomorrow!” Marinette answered. “So please don't mention it to anyone, including Nino. At least until I talk to Adrien about it.”

“I promise I will wait for your okay on the matter. But You know you can just message Adrien through the app or just call him.” Alya pointed out with a teasing smile.

“I... I might turn to jelly if I do that now.” Marinette confessed.

Alya sighed with a soft smile. She loved her best friend with all of her quirks.

“Alright, though this might be your only chance to message him at 100% compatibility. The 10 questions from tomorrow might change things, after all, you can only go down from 100%.” Alya pointed out after giving her friend a hug.

“Ill take my chances.” Marinette answered.

Alya grabbed her stuff and decided to head back home. Marinette waved and made sure her friend left before letting everything completely hit her again.

“So perfect compatibility?” a floating ladybug themed creature asked innocently as she floated out of her hiding spot.

“Thats Right Tikki! Adrien! We are 100% compatible. I never thought it was possible, but here it is!” Marinette swooned. “I can picture it all now.”

“We talk at school, Adrien admits that once he saw that we were compatible, he realized he was in love with me the whole time. We start dating, then go steady after university. After which we get married and have three kids....”

“That is quite a reaction from one questionnaire. How do you know its legitimate? You always did say that those magazine quizzes were nothing but junk.” Tikki answered.

“They are Tikki, but this one has a lot more to it then colors determining what model you would date! This is something in depth, it just feels more real. I just know it in my heart that there is something to this.”

Tikki nuzzled Marinette’s face.

“Well I support you. Maybe this was just the thing you needed to go after Adrien. That thing is only a bunch of questions until you act on it.” Tikki encouraged.

“Thanks Tikki. I knew I could count on you.”

The red kwami smiled, Marinette was starting to sound like Chat noir with all the talk of soulmates and fated to be together. Tikki couldn't help but wonder how she would react if she knew she was 100% compatible with Chat noir.

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“Good evening my lady.” Chat noir purred.

He happily approached his red clad partner who was waiting for him on the rooftop of a rather tall building.

“Hello my kitty. How are you doing.” Ladybug answered with a soft smile as she moved closer to her cat partner.

“Quick question bugaboo. Have you heard of an app called Soulmate searcher?” Chat noir cooed as he took Ladybug’s hand in his.

“Why yes Chatton I have. Do you have something to tell me?” She inquired with an alluring smile.

“Why yes. I believe the app has helped me find you. I recently took the quiz and found out that I had 100% compatibility with someone. So of course it must be you.” Chat noir spoke as his head moved closer as if he was going in to kiss her. Until he sees she pulled away. He pauses. She let go of his hand and stepped back, her smile gone.

“My lady?”

“I never got 100% with anyone chat noir.” She took a step away from him.

“W-what?”

“I am sorry my cat prince, but even though I have started to fall for your rugged good looks and your beautiful heart, I can't be with a man that is clearly far more compatible with someone else. I wish you the best, but you broke my heart.

Ladybug seemed so much farther away then she was moments before.

“My lady! No it doesn't mean anything! Wait!” he said as he tripped forward. Ladybug going farther and farther away from him.

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Adrien found himself in the library of his school. He was seeing his close friend Marinette who was crying tears.

“Marinette, I am so sorry.”

Slap!

He hardly felt it, most likely from the pain he already felt seeing her this way.

“Because of that stupid test. Luka turned me down. He said he couldn't be with someone who had more compatibility with another guy, as if me dating him would be cheating me out of a better match! I had spent Months gathering up the courage to ask him out. All of it gone to waste because you just HAD to score higher. If you were my friend, you would have never joined that stupid app.”

“Marinette please don't hate me. I had no idea. I will talk with Luka, I am sure I can...”

“You have done enough. I never want to see you again. I hate you! I wish I never met you!” Marinette stormed off. The blond model felt his heart break at his classmates words. He walked to try and get her, he paused as he noticed an akuma following behind her.

“Marinette! There is an akuma behind you!”

He tried to reach out but his calls were on deaf ears. He tried to run to her but his leg were heavy and he couldn't reach her. It was like he was at a slow fixed speed and Marinette and the akuma were just out of reach.

The bookshelves around him shaking as books began raining down on him.

“Marinette! _______________________________________________________________________

Adrien shot up from his bed. He was sweating. He touched his face and there was no pain. Nightmares... those were not real at all.

He looked around, he heard plagg snoozing like a lawnmower.

“Oh good. it was all a dream.” He spoke to himself in relief. He fell back into his bed. His mind still thinking about his vivid nightmares. He hoped that those stayed nightmares, but he would know for sure tomorrow.

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The next day came quickly. Adrien and Marinette hardly slept. They grabbed their phones and saw that their profile was ready for their first set of new questions.

Adrien answered the first few as he was getting ready in the bathroom.

Marinette answered some of hers as she got her stuff together for school.

Marinette answering questions as she walked to school and Adrien answering as he got out of the car that his bodyguard drives him in. They got to the last questions at the same time.

They stopped moving wherever they were as they waited for their profiles to update.

after a minute, the update finished.

Adrien noticed that Kagami had went up by 2% and was now at 81% compatibility.

Marinette noticed Luka has jumped to 82% after answering.

The two teens scrolled up to the number one spot on the list. Still as clear as yesterday. 100%

“So it didn't change.” They both commented out loud. They looked up from their phones to see the other across from them as they were just about to enter their homeroom class together.

Both teens quickly put their phones in their pockets, now looking right at one another.

“Hi HEY! Hello Adrien.” Marinette stumbled, her face was red and she felt like kicking herself for that greeting.

Adrien smiled nervously, his face also red. It felt so much more real now that he was looking at Marinette face to face.

“H-hey Marinette.” Adrien responded. “Doing something on your phone?”

“Phone? What Phone! I don't phone.” Marinette garbled. She wanted to die.

Adrien felt himself get more nervous. He could tell she was doing the same thing he was, she was answering questions on her phone for Soulmate searcher. Thats why the list updated so quickly and her picture on the list had a small green light on the right corner, which says it was updated.

“So, are you... do you play...” Adrien tried to get the words out. Why was he so suddenly nervous talking to Marinette. It feels like he trying to talk to Ladybug without his mask. He feels naked and vulnerable. “Soulmate searcher?”

Marinette’s eyes went wide.

“Yea, I do. Do you?” Marinette managed to answer without stammering.

“Yea... tried it out yesterday and...”

The morning bell rang, interrupting their conversation.

“Thats the bell, we should get inside before we get...”

Adrien caught her arm.

“Wait. Can I talk to you later? Please?” Adrien asked, his eyes showing a softness that made Marinette ever more so drawn to his emerald eyes.

“Sure Adrien. I love y to! I would love to talk.” Marinette responded, Adrien let go of her arm. He smiled softly. He was relieved that she wasn't mad.

“Great. Library? His mind flashed to the nightmare he had the night before. “I mean... locker room? Should be abandoned by Lunchtime.”

“O-Okay.” Marinette responded. She opened the door and they both walked into the classroom. Maybe they would be lucky and no one was even talking about that app.

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THERE I FINISHED part 2 (I am so happy you guy brought part 1 of this up so high) I really hope you guys like part 2.

If you want part 3, please let me know. I love hearing feedback and it feeds my impulsive need to write.

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genderless-consul · 4 years ago

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Top 5 glee ships?

Straight to the live wire, huh?

Ok, so:

1): Brittana - The fact that I really struggle to write them doesn’t change the fact that this is the one they got right, and I can still barely believe it to this day. The original joke in Season 1 was so obviously a throwaway lazy gag from a writing staff that consistently wrote women with absolute contempt, but Naya pushing them to take it seriously changed the course of the entire show. Their arc in Season Two is Glee at its absolute best (they even made Gwyneth Paltrow tolerable!), they have some really beautiful moments in Season 3 even if that whole season and Santana’s coming out arc in particular is kind of a disaster, and as much as we love to make fun of Santana’s gay panic in Season 4 (don’t act like it’s not highly relatable) even their break-up is legitimately beautiful - Naya turning Mine into a breakup song with nothing but her voice is the moment that cemented her as the GOAT Glee vocalist in my book (also Hand in My Pocket/I Feel the Earth Move is my second ranked mash-up of all time and I’m so angry the awful Santana/Kurt scene right after overshadowed it). And I have....complicated feelings about A Wedding as an episode (and we’ll get to that) but their part of it is absolutely everything it needed to be. “I would have suffered it all, just for the tiny chance to be standing up here marrying you.”

2): Faberry - No surprises here, except maybe that it’s not number one (canonicity was the tiebreaker, sadly). My favorite thing about Faberry is that there’s a million ways to ship them and all of them are great - obviously I’m more than onboard for an alt-version of Glee where theirs is the slow burn unlikely love story, but I also really love the tragedy you can read into them just from the canon, especially spinning out from the Quinntana one-night stand: that Quinn probably does have feelings for Rachel but either realizes it too late or just buries it out of self-loathing, and by the time she’s comfortable with herself the chance for storybook romance has already passed her by. Like seriously - if they had made that characterization explicit instead of retreating to the laziness of the Biff/Quick disasters in the anniversary episodes, I would have been just as happy with that as a Faberry endgame, both because the latter was always probably impossible given the centrality of Finchel to the show’s core structure and because Sad Flameout Lesbians deserve representation too, goddammit! And of course they’re a gold mine for fanworks, because there are so many “could have been” moments where their story has the chance the take a different direction, the best being their confrontation in Original Song: “you can’t hate me for helping to send you on your way” is the best use of Glee’s existential sadness since the Pilot. Oh, and their one and only duet is a fucking Red/Blue sequence and also one of the best songs on the entire show - enough said.

3): Finchel - My ultimate hot take, at least as someone from the Faberry side of the fandom, is that Finchel is Good, Actually. Keep in mind, I never watched Glee as it was airing, so I never experienced the frustration of Finchel’s inevitability; I knew from the very beginning that they weren’t going to get their happy ending. And as irritating as some of the on-again/off-again drama could be and as choppy as the pacing was at times, it really was one of the few relationships on Glee to be developed with consistent care and effort. I love that they have a genuine friendship and push each other to be the best versions of themselves (however inelegantly) even when they aren’t together, and the dynamic where the guy is the willing sidekick to the female protagonist and knows what they have might only be temporary was really refreshing to see, especially in a high school show. I’ll always be heartbroken that they couldn’t end it the way they were supposed to even if I wouldn’t have liked it, and they’re the reason the final scene of Season 3 makes me sob every time.

4): Tike - The ultimate “THEY DESERVED BETTER” ship. And yes, I know it’s off-brand for me to put two m/f ships on the list, and yes, I know RBI basically had to make Tartie endgame as a courtesy to Kevin and Jenna for sticking it out until the absolute bitter end, but I’m still mad. Tina was always used as a joke, and Mike was never used at all, but when they were together they got the briefest taste of actual storylines, and they were so. goddamn. cute together. Sing! and L O V E aren’t the first Glee duets that most people think of, but they captured the magic of just being straight up in love with someone better than a lot of the more over-the-top numbers from other characters. And look, I don’t actually need my ships to stay together forever on a high school show (or any show), but given that they had the longest run as a continuous couple on the entire show I will never forgive RBI for using them as the one “no”in A Wedding in a disingenuous attempt to pretend they were at all interested in realism and weren’t just throwing bones to the fanbase. Like, I don’t know how to explain this to you, Ryan Murphy, but it’s not subverting expectations to kick the shit out of Tina one more time because THAT’S LITERALLY ALL YOU’VE EVER DONE WITH HER (Sorry, what was I talking about?)

5): Klaine - my ultimate love/hate ship, and the ultimate victim of Glee being consumed by its own hype machine. The initial arc - the staircase, Teenage Dream, Blackbird - was magical even at its corniest, and beats like the GAP Attack and Blame it on the Alcohol were desperately necessary moments of complication that kept Blaine’s character more interesting than “Kurt’s perfect boyfriend” (also, real quick, fuck Ryan Murphy’s biphobia). But the second Blaine transferred in Season 3 it became clear that they didn’t really have a plan for Klaine in the same way they did for Finchel - Blaine gets a different personality every single season, Kurt gets to a completely different place in his life that makes his inability to move on from Blaine really hard to buy, and Blaine as the New Rachel in 4/5 is every bit as insufferable as that conceit implies. Even with all that, though, they kept winning me back, because Darren can sell the hell out of over the top cheese and Chris Colfer is the world’s greatest exasperated Straight Man (thinking especially of Teenage Dream Reprise and that absolutely batshit Beatles proposal, both of which worked for me way more than they should have). I also weirdly like the messiness of late Season 5 Klaine - the episodes aren’t good, but I appreciate their willingness to confront how much of a terrible idea them living together at that stage of their life actually is, and they even managed to win me over to the idea that they would find a way to make it work anyway. But the Karofsky thing in Season 6 was just one reversal too far, and to get them back together again after that in the most contemptuous, smug, “nothing matters so just give the shippers what they want I guess” insincere way possible (I really hate The Hurt Locker, can you tell?) was the last straw for me, to say nothing of how disrespectful it was to Brittana and Klaine to have one couple’s wedding coopted at the last moment by another so that it was no longer about them as characters but about how much Ryan Murphy has done for The Gays. So yeah, Klaine: My favorite canon ship that I wish didn’t actually end up together, at least not the way they did. But they were at their best when Glee was actually relevant and changed a lot of lives as a result, and that timing alone earns them a Top 5 spot.

#Glee #top 5 anything #long post

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seekingthestars · 5 years ago

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sarah watches the untamed: liveblogging adventures, part fifteen episodes 27, 28, + 29

(aka: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIZHUI SHE WATCHED SOME OF YOUR SHOW TO CELEBRATE BUT ONLY PARTS WITHOUT YOU IN IT)

okay well yesterday’s episodes were painful, let’s see if we can survive some more today. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIZHUIIIIIIIIII sweet baby angel, i’m making my way toward seeing you again don’t worry ʕ•ᴥ•ʔง

episode 27:

oh right THIS is where we left off, right, okay, starting with pain

wx looks so tormented, i wanna cry ;;;; and every time they flash to wen ning i wanna cry more ;;;;;;

wangji crying, my heart ACHES ;AAAAAA;

the burial mounds :O

meng yao listing out what wx did and i’m just over here like “YEAH HE DID, CUZ THE JIN CLAN GUYS SUCKED, GOOD JOB WX” oops

i’m glad xichen spoke up a little on behalf of wen ning/wen qing, thank you pretty big brother

i’m sorry this is SO HYPOCRITICAL like “wen qing didn’t stand up and stop ruohan so they’re just as bad!” okay well all y’all stood by while the jin clan used innocent people as live bait and just straight up murdered a bunch of them SO SHUT UP

all of these people at this gathering are making me so mad stop it! they keep being all manipulative-ey and lying and stop! >.<

WANGJI STANDING UP FOR WUXIAN <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

and yay for mianmian (sp??) for standing up for him too! at least two people standing up against these obnoxious old men in some way ;;

the blatant lies about what happened that these people keep spewing make me fjeiowafjawe ANGRY, WEN NING DID NOT FALL OFF A CLIFF, OF COURSE YOUR IDIOT CLAN MEMBERS WOULD SAY THEY DID NOTHING WRONG

DUDE SHE WAS STRAIGHT UP JUST LIKE ‘Y’ALL WACK’ AND QUIT THE JIN CLAN :OOOO

jin clan leader is a jerk and i hate him

yanli’s hair ornament is so prettyyyyy

i know he’s been a jerk but zixuan is so pretty, mr. ‘i’ll protect you for my whole life’ trying to be suave lol

poor jiang cheng looking on like ‘f*** my life, first wx and now this’ XD

wen qing and wuxian banter is SO CUTE, she brought him snacks!!

wuxian interacting with this small child is HEALING MY BROKEN SOUL, THIS IS SO CUTE, this small child is ADORABLE

WUXIAN’S JUST A GIANT BABY

i am 10000% all here for jiang cheng’s majestic cape

oh shoot his fancy whip broke the talisman!!

wx just yelling “DON’T TRAMPLE ON THAT!” anywhere jiang cheng steps is hilarious and adorable XDD

“can he count as a human now?!” jiang cheng noooo stop you’re being mean, he can hear you :(((

episode 28

wx anticipating jc and stopping him when he tries to pull out his sword A+++ very nice

jc did you really just suggest for wx to turn everyone he just saved in to the people who would absolutely just murder them BOY WHY, WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU

jc trying to use his sword and wx blocking it with his bare hand and then jc TRYING TO USE THE WIP ON WEN NING NO

“Just leave me then.” wuxian ;;;;;;;

the single tear from wx really just breaking my heart AGAIN, will it ever be whole again ;;

yuan is SO CUTE omg

yuan coming to cling to wx and give him fruit omg A HEALING PRESENCE, HE IS SO CUTE

wen qing giving jc back the comb ;~~~~~;

WEN NING SPOKE!!!!!

look i can’t explain it, wuxian’s just very attractive

oh no they fight :(

oh NO he sliced wx! :(( oh no no they’re both hurt :((

not gonna lie, a little sad to see jiang cheng throw the cape away, it was so majestic

yanli’s dream made me sad :((((

his little surprised face lol you’ve been caught! also one of the rare times anyone is actually seen legitimately dirty lol

ONE MONTH LATER timeskipping again ladies and gents

wangji is PISSED

YUAN!!! GRABBED WANGJI!!! CUTE!!!!

everyone being like “you must be his dad!!!” and wangji having a mild panic attack XD

wx going “this child is my son!” and wangji having ANOTHER mild panic attack XDD

wj’s little tiny baby smiles when he looks as wx and yuan ;u;

this entire exchange with yuan + wx + wj in town is the CUTEST GOSH DANG THING he bought yuan toys they’re best friends now and i have been HEALED

episode 29 that’s RIGHT we’re still going!

family dinner time!!!

I’M DYING. YUAN ON WANGJI’S LAP. CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE

it took so freaking long to get that screenshot but WORTH IT

YUAN FEEDING WUXIAN

“Silence during meals. You too.” poor wangji gotta parent both these children

oh dang they actually getting married, like i knew it was happening but that was quick :O

wangji grabbing the toys before they rush out the door ;; <3

i can’t keep repeating myself but please know that any interaction between yuan + wj + wx is resulting in many coos and repeated “so cute!!!!”s

WEN NING?!?!?!

wen ning turned into a scary marshmallow

wen ning woke up!!!!!! my marshmallow is BACK!!!!! thank you wangji for being here to help save the day <3

looks comfy heeheehee

i’m so glad wen ning is back, my little angel T______T <3

yuan clinging to wangji’s leg and begging him to stay for dinner MY HEARTTTT

the entire dinner scene PRECIOUS

so it was being so cute and drunk, very-flushed wuxian was being ADORABLE AS ALL HECK but then it got sad again when he just kept repeating that he was useless :(( no buddy you’re not i promise!!!

wangji sitting stoically in the snow is ALSO very aesthetic, that man is just *chefs kiss* perfection

wuxian relaxing back in the cart like a king while wen ning pushes him around is freaking hilarious omg

WEN NING RUNNING SO FAST WHEN CALLED LIKE THE BESTEST LITTLE PUPPY I LOVE HIIIIIIM WHAT A DARLIN gonna squish his cute lil cheeks

#sarah watches the untamed #sarah watches #three whole new episodes tonight!!!!#there were some sad moments there were some VERY healing cute moments #i should stop trying to take so many screenshots lol

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im-fairly-whitty · 6 years ago

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:0 I thought I was the only one who liked Hans! I see so many people hating on him and I always have this quiet "I like him o,o'...."

YOU ARE NOT ALONE FRIEND

He’s really such a sweetheart who was done so dirty by the production crew, it’s so easy to see how badly his character’s arc was manhandled off track and it’s painful.

Not only does he have a love at first sight moment, a lovable animal companion, and a tragic backstory that he’s worked hard to overcome, but he’s actually incredibly capable and kind and thoughtful for the entire movie until he just…isn’t. For literally no reason other than unskilled plot doctoring.

As the youngest of thirteen Hans not only has endured an intense amount of hazing and bullying (pretending your sibling doesn't exist for an hour is normal, pretending they don’t exist for a week is not) but he’s come out on the other side far more socially adept than Anna (who was only ignored by one sibling).

He’s put together, well groomed, well spoken, friendly and kind and courteous. Not to mention that when he arrives in Arendale he is so love-starved that he falls head over heels for Anna in the exact same way that a dozen movie princes have over the years. The difference is that they actually have real chemistry, real political reason to be married (both being the youngest of a dysfunctional royal family) and have shared childhood trauma that put them both in a place of needing someone who literally even sees them and cares about them as a person.

I’m not saying that it was necessarily a good thing for them to try and get married immediately, but it was very believable given their shared trauma and socio-political standing.

Then once Elsa has an anxiety attack and books it for literally no reason, leaving her own court in a panic, it’s Hans that steps up to support Anna in barking down the Duke of Weselton to put him (diplomatically) in his place. He steps into the role of leader flawlessly even though his own experience of leading must have been limited due to his intensely overshadowed upbringing, but he rises to the occasion, organizing welfare and disaster relief efforts and holding down the fort at his pseudo-fiancee’s request.

When he later is in Elsa’s tantrum palace he deliberately tries to keep her safe, trying to talk her down instead of charging her like some of the other diplomats.

If it was really in his character to be the villain then he would have been much more manipulative around Anna during the party, would have pushed much harder against Elsa’s refusal, would have helped whip the crowd into a frenzy at her display like the Duke of Weselton, would have started digging his claws into the kingdom as soon as Anna left him in charge, and certainly would have tried to kill Elsa in her ice palace while she was vulnerable and outnumbered since she was clearly and obstacle in his way.

BUT HE DIDNT.

HE DIDNT DO ANY OF THAT.

If he had done any of that it would have made sense when he suddenly did a 180 to “surprise! I was the bad guy all along muahaha!!” But he didn’t. Not only is he the perfect royal gentlemen around Anna and the court, but he even acts kind and thoughtful and brave when none of the other characters are around.

His villainous reveal when he suddenly spurns Anna is surprising, but the reason it’s so surprising is because it’s not a plot twist, it’s a character break. It’s unexpected because the rest of the story has absolutely nothing to do with or support this sudden catastrophic break in character, meaning that it’s not the magician’s reveal that leaves the viewer gasping with awe.

It’s bad writing.

After he abandons Anna to freeze to death (which doesn’t make sense either, it would have been much smarter to try and help her and at the very least keep her around to be able to eventually produce legitimate heirs to the throne instead of monologuing for literally no reason) his character is completely different, suddenly becoming a hand rubbing mustache-twirling baddie with no believable build up or motivation that doesn’t feel two dimensional.

All so that the real villain of the movie could be rebranded to a sniffly anxiety-ridden hikikomori who uses gloves as a security blanket and still seems to care about and love her sister for some reason despite having deliberately not even spoken to her at all in over a decade despite living in the same castle.

(I mean seriously, if you think about it the real magic of being a Disney princess is having even a shred of social skills after being trapped in social isolation for the majority of your life.)

TL;DR - Hans was a perfectly lovely character who got backed over by the rebranding semi truck and deserved better, he’s a completely separate character on either side of the “plot twist” scene with no logical character development. He could have been played off as a villain if his character portrayal has been written better but they ended up depriving him even of that, leaving his arc flat and confusing and out of character.

And instead we were given a fairly useless victim of childhood troll abduction who gets one ukelele solo and a new sled in exchange for sassing Anna the whole movie and deciding to marry her after one day, literally hours after lecturing her for being ready to do the same with another man. He doesn’t even do anything in plot, not even managing a true loves kiss, reducing his character potential to Anna’s one-star uber driver up the mountain to her sister’s ice cube condo.

All these characters deserved better arcs and better writing, and there are good things in the movie, but the blatant manhandling of Han’s character is terrible writing that I will be salty about for approximately ever.

#hans #frozen #anna #elsa #kristoff #meta #i have nothing against the characters in story #but from a story telling perspective this movie is a mess

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whenwomenrefuse · 6 years ago

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Almost too late

I met this guy when I was in high school and I liked him from the start. We went our separate ways and both joined separate branches of the military. He became infantry in his branch and I became an MP (military police). He sent me letters when I was deployed but that was kind of the last I’d heard of him. I was still in the military years later, home on leave, when I ran into him again at a bar my younger brother worked at. He was really sweet and hilarious and basically everything I remembered. I found that I still liked him a lot. I found out he had finished his enlistment and was home for good.

We hooked up and eventually started dating long-distance. I traveled back and forth whenever I could on breaks, and he would come to visit me. He was always very sweet and nice except there were times when he would get a little controlling. It started out small, like telling me I shouldn’t post certain pictures or wear certain things. I didn’t see it as an issue because sometimes men just get protective, right? I figured everyone had their issues occasionally and the good seemed to outweigh the bad.

Every time he made me cry (which wasn’t often because the military had taught me to hide these emotions) he would apologize and make up for it somehow, whether it was flowers or a date night or whatever. One time he got angry with me because another guy, one of my platonic friends, messaged me, and he read my phone while I was asleep. He woke me up to angry sex which, at the time, didn’t seem to be such a big deal but he scared me to the point where I started crying when he started grabbing my throat to the point where I couldn’t breathe. When he saw my reaction, he was sweet and went completely 180, as if he had shocked himself. I chose to forgive him

I think I had this idea at the time where I was invincible. I’d been in relationships before, some that ended poorly, but I’d never been physically or mentally abused. I pushed the early warning signs to the side in hopes for a good future with who I thought was the man of my dreams.

We got married and I finished my enlistment, and moved back home to be with him. But I wasn’t sure what I was doing with my life, and in this sort of limbo I was in, all of a sudden, things changed. He became extremely controlling, obsessive, and angry all the time. I wasn’t good enough for him. He would coerce me into having sex with him when I didn’t want to. He would get drunk and say terrible things to me about my family. He gossiped about me to my friends.

All of these things had me in a deep depression. I started having random panic attacks, triggered by nothing I could rationally explain away (I’ve had generalized anxiety for a while but it was usually triggered by stressful events, not out of nowhere like this). I got to the point where I could barely get out of bed and function because I felt so exhausted all the time. I didn’t want to have sex with him. This seemed to make him even angrier. He would constantly tell me how worthless I was and how I deserved this. He told me if I ever cheated on him or left he would kill me and himself. I started to believe him.

I finally got the courage to go stay with my mom. I told him it was just for a few nights so he wouldn’t kill me. But he went on a rampage and after belittling me for an hour to the point of me sobbing uncontrollably while not allowing me to leave (he kept blocking the doors) he finally relented out of nowhere and went 180 again, though with a warning that if I tried to leave, he would bankrupt me and take everything I had. He could afford a good lawyer. I still didn’t have a job and I couldn’t afford this. I only had the last of my deployment money and it was almost gone, and a meager disability check from the VA which is not quite enough to live on, so where would I really go anyway? I believed him. I didn’t leave, and I forgave him once again.

The cycle continued. The next time I tried to leave to stay with my mom, just to get away from it for a while, he racked his .45 and put it to his own head, saying he would kill himself in front of me if I left. I didn’t leave then either because I knew I could not live with myself if he killed himself because of me.

The final straw was after a night of drinking. We went out and partied and came home, bringing one of his friends who couldn’t drive. My husband shouldn’t have driven either but we somehow made it back. When his friend went to bed in the spare room, he started trying to have sex with me. I didn’t want it and I told him so. He started screaming at me (how he didn’t wake his friend up, I don’t know). He grabbed me by the neck and started choking me. I tried to fight back, even hit him to get him off me, but I legitimately thought I was going to die. He told me he was going to kill me and then my mother. He relented for a minute, and told me to get on the bed so he could have sex with me.

In my head, I reasoned that being raped was better than dying, and I complied but I still begged him not to do it, thinking that maybe he would be merciful. He didn’t listen and started having sex with me so I just laid there and prayed it would be over soon. I laid still like a board and after about a minute of him trying, he pushed off me and told me I was useless because I couldn’t even get him off. He resumed trying to choke me though it wasn’t quite hard enough to kill me. I don’t know if he was trying to scare me or what. I didn’t fight back this time because he wasn’t as savage about it this time for whatever reason, and I knew he could fight better than I.

He then told me to get on the bed because he was going to shoot me and kill me. He had guns laying all around the house. I knew he could do it and I was genuinely afraid it was the end for me. I don’t remember what exactly I said, but I think my previous training finally paid off for me, because somehow I convinced him that this wasn’t what he wanted to do, and that he didn’t want to ruin the rest of his life by doing this. I still don’t know how I got so lucky. To this day I don’t know how I managed to survive that night. He could have killed me at any moment and somehow he didn’t.

I finally told him I was leaving (not the same night but within a few months of this last event). I began planning my escape well beforehand but even still, I needed luck on my side to get out of there in one piece. I had handled domestic altercations in the past as an MP, and I knew from my training that the most dangerous time for a woman in an abusive relationship is when she decides to leave. He had told me (jokingly, but with a hint of foreboding) plenty of times that if he killed me, no one would ever find my body. He had killed people before and I didn’t doubt his capability to do so. But I had always considered myself mentally strong and I’d always told myself (especially not after handling a domestic) that I would NEVER put myself in an abusive relationship, yet here I was, trapped by my own fear of this man who had somehow exerted so much control over me. But I was no longer going to be his victim. I had decided that I was getting out, whether it was to safety or to my own death, and I was not going to live out the rest of my life in such a toxic environment.

Somehow, I managed to convince him I wasn’t right for him, that I was bringing him down and that he could be so much happier without me. It took months of throwing this idea at him, only when he was in a good mood. In his defense, he did seem sad that our relationship was so terrible. He had PTSD from being overseas in combat. I think a lot of his violent reactions were because of this. I didn’t hate him, but I needed to get out while I still could. My words slowly got through to him. I don’t know how it worked, I honestly don’t. I knew I was was taking a huge gamble but my strong points have always been my abilities to convince people, to calm a tense situation, and to utilize what the military calls “verbal judo”. I used all of these to my advantage, and slowly the idea of us getting divorced started to sound better to him. He was truly unhappy with me and he started to rationalize this over his obsessiveness (his therapy helped a lot with this too). I told him I wasn’t going to take anything of his (the judge looked at me strangely in court when I said this and even tried to tell me that I was probably entitled to something, considering I wasn’t working due to disability at the time). I did this even knowing I would be living in poverty so he would be more likely to let go. He made lots of money and I didn’t ask for a single cent because I valued my life more than his money.

I moved states away after we finalized the divorce to live with a friend, and cut all ties to my ex husband. I made it out and after seeing all the stories of women who didn’t, I consider myself extremely lucky. I also learned something from this entire ordeal: every woman can be a victim of domestic abuse. I used to think I was strong, both mentally and physically, and completely immune to it because I had seen it so many times firsthand. I never thought it could happen to me. But I was wrong, and I found out the hard way that an abuser is always going to be an abuser and no matter what you do, you can’t change them. Your best bet is to recognize the early warning signs: unhealthy possessiveness/obsession, mood swings, insisting on sex when you have stated you don’t want to, things of that nature. Because by the time you live with someone, it may be too late. It almost was for me.

#yesallwomen #submission #personal #personal story #content warning: violence

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unfolded73 · 5 years ago

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Even the Orchestra in Beautiful (1/1) - schitt’s creek ff

Alexis and Patrick friendship, with a little bit of David x Patrick at the end. Set the day after the events of “Life is a Cabaret.” Rated Gen, 1900 words.

(ao3 link)

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He was humming, an almost-bounce to his step as he let himself into the theater. Patrick Brewer was not a bouncy person as a rule, but right now his life felt like it was going so well that he could barely contain himself. The store was thriving, the man he loved was going to marry him, and opening night of the play had gone fantastically. Most of the customers in the store that afternoon had heard the engagement news and were effusive in their well-wishes for him and David, or told him they had tickets for the play on one of its remaining nights. By now, Patrick’s cheeks ached from smiling so much.

He’d arrived at the theater well before call, planning to do a quick run-through of his lines; the giddy buzzing in his brain was so intense that he was a little bit terrified he’d walk out on stage tonight and forget everything he was supposed to say. He knew the lines, the choreography, the blocking -- it was all in there, but he feared he wouldn’t be able to summon it when the time came. A quiet moment to take some deep breaths and get into character was what he needed.

“Oh my God!” A feminine voice shouted, and Patrick skidded to a halt in the door of the dressing room.

“Alexis!” He tried not to sound too disappointed that anyone had beaten him to the theater. “What are you doing here so early?”

She shrugged, clearly as put out by not being alone as he was, and flopped down at the makeup table. “I needed some extra time to put on my face,” she said, picking up a bottle of foundation and shaking it. Alexis had her skimpy costume for the opening number on already, but the dramatic eye makeup had yet to make an appearance.

“How’s your mom?” he asked, pulling his costume off the rack and stepping behind the dressing screen set up in the room. He hadn’t seen Moira since her meltdown in the motel, the news that her movie had been shelved cutting short his and David’s engagement celebration.

Alexis didn’t answer, but Patrick didn’t really need her to. David and Alexis had been texting while he was at the store that day, so he already knew the histrionics to which Moira had been subjecting her husband and daughter. David was back at the motel even now, taking over babysitting their mother so that Alexis could get away. He suspected that was the true explanation for Alexis escaping to the theater early.

“David said you had a tough day,” Patrick prodded while he pulled his jeans off.

He heard Alexis snort. “Yeah, you could say that.”

“Do you think she’ll be here tonight?” The director didn’t really need to be at the theater once the show was in production, especially since they had Jocelyn to lead them in vocal warm-ups and give them a pep talk. But it would still be weird, Moira not being backstage.

“She hasn’t gotten out of bed all day, so I doubt it.”

He finished getting dressed in silence. The first time Patrick had put on this costume, he’d felt a bit ridiculous. There had been a reason, after all, that he’d auditioned for Cliff and not the Emcee; Patrick felt like a Cliff, not like someone who could pull off this kind of creepy, hyper-sexualized character in a costume that was at least gently suggestive of bondage gear. But Moira Rose (his future mother-in-law! he remembered with a grimace) was not to be argued with, and he let himself get swept up in her whirlwind of compliments. He’d had a lot of doubts between then and now, but those doubts had been largely allayed. David wasn’t embarrassed by his performance at least, which was high praise.

Smiling to himself, Patrick emerged from behind the screen and sat down next to Alexis in front of the lighted mirrors. He watched as she expertly applied thick liner around her eyes, fascinated in the way that watching anyone performing a skill is fascinating.

It was while studying her reflection that he noticed her bloodshot eyes.

“Alexis, are you all right?”

She stopped and shot him a simpering smile. “I’m fine.”

“Because if there’s anything I can do to help--”

“No. Nope! I’m cool… good. I’m good.”

He knew Alexis well enough now to know what it looked like when she was covering up how miserable she felt. He was already starting to feel like a protective older brother to her, as if he and David were already married and she was truly his sister-in-law. But if she didn’t want to talk to him, he couldn’t force it.

Patrick started working on his own makeup, letting the silence between them stretch out and fill the room.

Alexis finally smacked her eyeliner pen down on the table. “It’s just, no matter what I do I’m going to be letting someone down!”

Inclining his head to one side, Patrick met Alexis’ eyes in the mirror and raised an eyebrow.

“If I go on the trip with Ted, then I’m leaving my mom and my family behind like I always used to do when I was a kid. And my family really needs me right now! But if I don’t meet Ted in the Galapagos like we planned, then he’ll think I’m just flaking out on him again.” She flopped her hands around in the air in front of her before picking up a mascara tube. “Either way, I’m irresponsible and unreliable.” Those two words carried the weight of every time Alexis must have heard them said about herself.

“If you want to go, then David and your parents will understand that this trip is important for you and Ted.”

“David will just remind me of all the other times that he had to take care of Mom because I wasn’t around.”

“And if you don’t want to go, then Ted will understand that you feel the need to put your family first right now.”

“Yeah, maybe Ted would understand because he’s the most patient, understanding person on the planet, except that I’ve dumped him before! Twice!”

Patrick winced. “Oh yeah.”

“So if he’s thousands of miles away, living in some tent and eating, I don’t know, goji berries and granola or whatever, and he gets a text from me saying that I’m not coming, is he really going to think logically about my priorities? Or is he just going to assume I bailed on him?”

Ted might think that, Patrick thought, especially since he couldn’t really imagine Alexis in a tent eating goji berries or whatever. Also he wasn’t sure Ted would have access to text messages. Patrick tried to give her a reassuring smile. “Ted loves you. Your family loves you.”

“Ugh!” She leaned close to the mirror and went back to her makeup, apparently unsatisfied with Patrick’s performance as a confidante.

Not for the first time, Patrick felt frustration with Moira that her adult children had to plan their lives around whether they were giving their mother enough attention. While he was sure she was legitimately gutted by what had happened with her movie, he also knew Moira was probably reveling in the focus she was getting from her husband and kids, and she was likely milking it for all it was worth. While Mrs. Rose often showed affection for her family, more now than when Patrick had first gotten to know David, she was still a fundamentally selfish person.

“I think you should go on the trip,” he said finally, focusing on his own eyeliner and pointedly not looking at Alexis.

She didn’t respond at first, which made Patrick think she was still mad at him, but then finally she said in a small voice. “What if I don’t want to go?”

“Then… I think you need to ask yourself why not.”

Alexis reached over and pawed at his arm until he moved the eyeliner away from his face. “Here, let me do that, you’re hopeless,” she said, turning his chair to face her.

“I’m not hopeless,” Patrick grumbled, but he submitted to Alexis anyway, admitting at least to himself that she’d be better at applying his eyeliner than he was.

“I need to be here to help plan your wedding,” she said with a tiny smile.

“We haven’t even set a date yet. You’ll be back in plenty of time to help plan the wedding.” Patrick was suddenly struck by how different it felt, talking about his wedding with David than it had been when he was engaged to Rachel, when any mention of his eventual wedding sent him spiraling into a near panic attack. Now he was excited. Happy.

“Look at the ceiling,” Alexis murmured, and Patrick let her work in silence for a bit. Finally she said, “I’m afraid. About the trip.”

“I’m sure you can outrun those giant turtles, Alexis, even in high heels.”

“Ha ha,” she said, giving Patrick the same sneer she often gave her brother, and it oddly warmed his heart. “No, I’m afraid that a trip like this is just going to show Ted that I’m not… that we’re not right for each other.”

“How so?”

“Because I’m not good at that stuff! Outdoorsy stuff. Animal stuff. I’m afraid I’m gonna get there and I’m going to do something stupid, or I’ll be unable to hide the fact that I hate it, and Ted is going to decide that I’m not worth it.”

“Alexis, I don’t know who Givenchy is or why it matters. David thinks a double play is a sex thing.”

“Eww.”

He rolled his eyes. “My point is, you can be very different people and still make it work. Ted knows who you are. If he truly loves you, then seeing you roughing it is not going to change that. Neither is a few months of separation, if it comes to that.”

Alexis looked down at her lap. “Thanks, Patrick.”

~*~

“Hey,” he said into the phone. “How’s your mother?”

“Ugh, don’t ask.” David blew out a breath. “I thought you’d be warming up your voice by now.”

“Yeah, Jocelyn is rounding everyone up.” Patrick glanced around at the chaos of the dressing room. “I just wanted to tell you I love you.”

“You didn’t need to call me just to say that.”

“I know. I wanted to.” Patrick stepped out into the hallway. “I wanted to make sure that you knew that I love everything about you, even the stuff that you think makes you difficult. I love that you’re difficult.”

“What brought this on?” David’s voice broke a little bit on the question.

“Nothing,” he said. There was no time to get into Alexis’ issues right now, and it was her story to tell anyway. “Just don’t ever doubt my love for you. Okay?”

“Okay.” David sniffled. “I wish I was there to see you tonight.”

“You don’t need to come to every performance, David; it’s perfectly fine.”

“I know, but I like watching you.”

“Oh, you like watching me,” Patrick said with a grin.

“On stage. But, okay, yes, also in other places.” David exhaled loudly, like he was shaking the conversation off before it got too intimate. Neither of them had the time for that. “Anyway, good luck.”

“It’s ‘break a leg’.”

“Break a leg, honey.”

#schitt's creek #schitt's creek ff #david & alexis #david x patrick #david x patrick ff #my fic

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juminsmysticmc · 6 years ago

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Heya! Soooo... requests are open, huh? Can I request RFA and minor duo's reaction to an MC who is actually the Prime Minister's daughter? You know, one of his legitimate children. I really look forward to it! If you can't do this request, it's okay~

RFA + Minor Duo with a MC who’s the Prime Minister’s daughter

OMG this is such a good Request! I’m really happy to write this! So, I hope you enjoy this Headcanon!

Jumin

The first time you saw the picture of Seven you were surprised how much he looked like your dad, the Prime Minister.

You were pretty amused that the RFA didn’t know your name.

,,Wow, you guys don’t even know the name of the prime minister’s daughter!’’ you joked.

Jumin was pretty amused.

Since he was in love with you and his dad wanted him to marry another woman, this was the perfect change to go against him.

,,I’m sorry love, I hope you don’t feel as if I would use you to get rid of Sarah Choi…’’ he told you and kissed you.

,,Don’t worry, Jumin. I know that you love me….it’s okay!’’

You were indeed curious about Seven but you just ignored that.

,,Mr Prime Minister, I’m happy to meet you personally. I would like to ask you to have Mc as my wife.’’ Jumin asked your dad when they first met, as if it was something normal.

You were really happy that Jumin got along with your family and especially with your dad.

Zen

,,Huh? Wait, you are…really the Mc?!’’ he asked you when you were in front of his door.

Zen was shocked.

He flirted with the Prime Minister’s daughter!

You cold see how scared Zen became.

But you quickly tried to calm him.

,,Don’t worry! My dad won’t find out and he’s so nice, he wouldn’t hurt a fly!’’

Yeah…as if.

But Zen was still scared.

And so the mood was down, after you just met for three seconds.

He was afraid that your dad wouldn’t accept him, just like his own parents.

But thanks to you and your loving hugs, he got better.

Yoosung

,,Seven, aren’t you coming to our party?’’

Yoosung asked Seven after they were on their way to the party location.

,,No.’’ he told him and disappeared.

,,So, you must be Mc!’’ Yoosung said as soon as he saw you.

His eyes were in a bad condition but he could notice right away that you were the most beautiful girl.

,,Yes, that’s me. But, wasn’t Seven with you?’’ you asked him worriedly.

None knew where he was…

That’s why you told Yoosung to go after his friend.

And Yoosung did what you said because he knew, he could trust you.

What he found out made Yoosung shiver in fear.

,,See….I knew I shouldn’t have told you.’’ Seven said to his friend with a sore voice.

,,I will disappear.’’

,,No! Seven…or, Saeyoung! I’m sure that Mc doesn’t know abut it. If we try to talk to her, I’m sure, she can help us somehow….even if she’s his daughter!’’ Yoosung tried to convince him.

Yoosung was puzzled.

He was deeply in love with you but he also loved Seven as a friend….

But luckily he told you guys about it and you made sure to keep Saeyoung save from your own dad and promised him, that you would do everything to protect him and his brother.

,,We are family, after all.’’ you smiled at your brother as you were in Yoosung’s embrace.

Jaehee

,,Mc, would you accept to open a coffee shop with me?’’ she asked you on that very night.

You were unsure what to answer her….

The media couldn’t know about this.

,,Let’s wait, until everyone is gone. I need to tell you something.’’ you answered.

Jaehee was uneasy.

Did she understand you wrong…?

She indeed was a bit at ease when you told her that you were the Prime Minister‘s daughter.

Afterwards she was scared that the two of you couldn’t have a proper relationship and thought about giving you up.

But she quickly decided to not give up and tried her best to confront your dad one day.

Saeyoung

Saeyoung was devastated when he found out.

His heart was broken, the thick tears weren’t going to stop and his hand was still trembling.

He was so afraid that he couldn’t even type properly.

,,What should I do…? What should I do?’’ he cried and yelled.

The panic attack was almost killing him.

He didn’t know if he was angry about the fact that he actually fell in love with his half sister or just scared that your dad would search you and find him and Saeran by doing this.

Well, at that time he didn’t even know that his brother and your half brother kidnapped you…

That’s why he ignored you when he was forced to stay with you in Rika’s apartment.

When the time was good, and you were trying to get his attention he just glared at you.

,,I’m not here because I want to. I dislike you. You’re disgusting. Don’t look after me. I don’t want to talk to you.’’

He tried to reject you and stay strong while he rejected you, his first love….

Saeran

Saeran knew what he was doing when he decided to kidnap you.

,,Don’t worry, Mc. You’re in paradise here. I will protect you. I love you. Stay here, I will free you and make sure you never leave this goddamned place.

You’re my toy now, mine…not his…let’s show him how ugly this world of his can be….stay here, ugly slut and wash yourself, I hate your odor.’’

He thought about the fact that you were his little sister….he should treat you like Saeyoung did, right?

So he would often leave you alone in the dark, not visiting you for a bit and turturing you.

But Saeyoung didn’t do this, Rika brainwashed you, Saeran…

Even through your presence gave him nightmares he tried his best to brainwash you.

he wanted to make you pay for your father’s mistakes….

Jihyun

,,Jihyun…’’ Saeyoung called him after he checked if you were all right.

He was scared to death and Jihyun got worried.

It couldn’t get worser, right?

But little did the blue haired man know that it was worser than he thought.

Jihyun cried for two hours.

He still didn’t know that Saeran got you but as soon as he knew his fear was growing.

He knew that if he couldn’t save you, your father would have saved you.

And by doing that he would have found out about the twin’s whereabout.

With all his strengths he tried to carry on this secret.

The secret about these three siblings.

He tried to stay away from you but it didn’t work.

His love for you was growing and so his fear.

But he and Saeyoung noticed right away when you where together with them healing Jihyun, that you weren’t like your dad.

And if you really loved Jihyun, you would surely stay by his side and carry his secret with him, right….?

MASTERLIST 1MASTERLIST 2

04.09.’18// 18:57 MEST

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assumingdirectctrl · 6 years ago

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Lost Omegele!

You: [ 19 year old Peter. Previously established. Recently Peter broke up with Tony because the tabloids were tearing him apart] Look… I know it’s stupid, but-- I had a bad dream. Are you okay? PP

Stranger: I'm fine. TS It's not stupid. Ask any time. TS

You: Good. I'm glad you're good. PP It's stupid. I'm an adult calling his ex about a bad dream. PP

Stranger: I'm not exactly know for keeping myself safe. Legitimate concern. TS

You: But you are? Keeping yourself safe. PP

Stranger: I'm doing fine, Peter. TS Isn't much need for self sacrificing lately. TS

You: It's not just self sacrifice though. It's... you do a lot to hurt yourself. PP

Stranger: I'm fine. TS I don't have any reason not to be, do i? TS

You: [...] I guess not. PP You've been through more breakups than me. I guess these things would bug you less. PP

Stranger: Yep. TS I'm pretty much immune, these days. No harm, no foul. No skin off my back. TS

You: Wow. PP Awesome. PP

You: Cool. PP

Stranger: Right. Cool. TS And you? You're fine? Happier, now that you're not being harassed. TS

You: You think I'm happier? PP

Stranger: Seemed to be your end goal. TS

Stranger: You're out of the spot light. Away from me. TS

You: Oh you have got to be kidding me. PP You think that?! PP

Stranger: Yes. TS

You: Tony... I didn't want this to keep affecting you. PP

You: They were going after you and your company... PP

Stranger: And I was ignoring it. Stocks weren't dropping, and it wasn't affecting sales. TS

You: They kept coming to me with things they could drop about you. I don't think any of it was true, but I couldn't risk that. PP I hate this, I don't want it. I'm not fucking fine. You're the one that's just swell. PP

Stranger: You could have come to me about that. We'd have worked it out together. TS You think i'm not lying through my teeth? TS

You: I don't know why you would do that. PP Tony I tried and you just... wanted to ignore it. PP

Stranger: Because it didn't matter! Theres nothing anyone could drop that would ruin me. TS

You: What if you were wrong? PP I wasn't worth it. PP

Stranger: Yes. You are. TS To me. TS

You: I shouldn't be. I think that's just that self sabotage again. PP

Stranger: Peter. It's not. TS I don't know how serious you were about us. But I was serious. Even though I knew you were going to break my heart eventually. TS

You: Don't do that. I never, ever wanted to hurt you. I planned on... being there forever. PP

Stranger: Either way. I knew what I was getting into. TS

You: ... Evidently, pain is what you expected out of me. PP I hate this. PP

Stranger: You're young. TS You need to experience life. I was never going to hold you back from that. TS

You: You're being patronizing. PP If you'd asked I would have married you. PP I love you.... PP Enough that I keep dreaming about you relapsing or hurting yourself. PP

Stranger: (Delay) I won't hurt myself. And I haven't touched a drink. TS

You: Good. PP That's what matters to me. PP

Stranger: You don't need to worry about me. TS I'm depressed. Not suicidal. TS

You: I will always worry about you. PP

Stranger: Whether it's patronizing or not, you're young. You'll move on. Worry over someone else. TS

You: You're being super belittling. PP And... it's actually really hurtful. PP

Stranger: This is easier. TS So we can both move on. TS

Stranger: Distance ourselves. TS

You: That's what you want? PP

Stranger: Thats what you asked for. TS When you said we were done. TS

You: Not what I asked. PP

Stranger: What was suppose to be the outcome from all of this, then? TS

You: For your career to survive. PP

Stranger: Peter, my career is fine. It will continue to be fine. TS And even if it wasn't I wouldn't care. I'd much rather have you. TS

You: Except for the part where you are telling me you knew I would leave and it's for the best? PP

Stranger: I didn't say I /knew/. I said it's something i figured I should prepare myself for. And that in the end i'd just be happy for you. Because thats what matters. That you're happy. TS

Stranger: Thats all I want. TS

You: I'm not. PP

Stranger: What will make you happy, then? TS

You: Probably the same thing that's made me happy for the last year. PP

Stranger: So you want to get back together. TS

You: Of course I want that... I just know it'll.... eventually you'll regret me. PP

Stranger: I won't. TS You know, you told me i was being patronizing...TS

Stranger: I won't regret you. TS You're one of the best things to ever happen to me. Even more than Iron Man, i think, TS

You: More than Iron Man? PP I think you're giving me too much credit. PP You always act like I'm going to leave to be with someone else, but... You're the only person I have ever wanted. PP

Stranger: (Delay) Guess i'm just too much of a pessimist. TS

Stranger: Maybe it's because I don't think i'm good enough for you. TS

You: It just hurt... PP

Stranger: I'm sorry. TS

Stranger: I'm sorry about everything, Pete. TS

You: Me too. I'm really sorry. I didn't want to break up, I was just freaked out. PP

Stranger: It's okay. TS Neither of us handled this well. TS

You: How can I fix it? PP

Stranger: If we get back together, we need talk more. TS I need to remind myself that you're not going to leave me, and you need to remember that what everyone else is doing doesn't matter. Don't let them threaten you. TS

You: Is that what you want? Us to get back together? PP

Stranger: I want what you want. TS But. I hate being alone. And you're having nightmares. TS

You: Why is that a but? PP

Stranger: Well. I don't know what you want at this point. TS I haven't been the nicest. TS

You: I want you, you beautiful idiot. PP I want us. PP

Stranger: Beautiful idiot, huh? TS

You: Yes! That is you. PP

Stranger: I love you, you big dork. TS

You: I love you. So fucking much. PP

Stranger: Nobody elses opinion about our relationship matters but ours. TS

You: I'm going to just trust you and... not let other people get in my head about whats best for you. PP I shouldn't have listened to your friends here. I'm sorry. PP

Stranger: ...what friends? TS

You: [...] Pepper. Mostly. PP It's fine. PP

Stranger: What did she say to you, exactly? TS It's not fine. TS

You: Just that... I was ruining your career. That you deserved an adult... a partner. I don't know. PP

Stranger: Wow. TS You are my partner. TS You're in no way the inexperienced kid that most people would see you as. TS

You: I just know I'll never be your partner the way that... I don't know, she could be. PP

Stranger: And why couldn't you? TS Though I have /never/ compared you to Pepper. Thats not how this works. People who compare their current partners to their last partners need to reevaluate their relationships. TS

You: You didn't. She did. PP

Stranger: I'm sorry, Peter. TS I knew...i knew she thought I may be going through some sort of midlife crisis. But i'm not. TS I love you. TS

You: It's okay. It's fine. PP I'm not trying to make waves.PP I love you too. PP

Stranger: Honey. It's not okay that someone /close to me/ has been harassing you over this. TS I'll talk to her. TS

You: Oh god, please don't. I don't want to create any issues. PP

Stranger: Peter. TS I won't let it. Pep and I will always be friends. TS But she can't treat you like this, okay? You don't deserve that. TS

You: Do you know how often I woke up at night just... having panic attacks. Thats why I was always leaving in the middle of the night for patrol. It was so... PP Just what she said, about needing a partner. PP

Stranger: Sweetheart...TS We need to communicate better. I didn't know about /any/ of this. TS God. I'm so sorry. TS You're my partner. Smart as hell, strong, a hero, kind and loving...TS

You: Don't be sorry. You didn't know. PP That's all I wanna be. I want to be the person you can lean on and help you. PP

Stranger: You are. TS Hell. I didn't even want to be sober until being sober meant that I was losing time. Time I could be with you. TS

You: Woah. PP I love so much, Tony. PP Where are you? PP

Stranger: Locked up in my lab. TS Not drinking is hard. Harder alone. Easier to stay down here. TS

You: I'm proud of you... PP

You: You've been really strong. I haven't been as great. PP

Stranger: Oh, staying sober is probably the only thing i've been doing right. TS I think I smell like death. TS Are you okay? TS

You: Sober is the hard thing for you. PP Better now. Just been being reckless. A little worse for wear. PP

Stranger: ...yeah. They televise you when they can. TS Had my heart in my throat about a dozen times, now. TS

You: Sorry. PP I just... was so focused.PP

You: And not thinking about who would worry like I used to. PP

Stranger: It's okay, baby. No more though, yeah? From either of us. TS

You: Can I come over? PP

Stranger: Of course. TS All your access codes still work. TS

You: Yeah? Didn't change them on me? PP Shit, I miss you. PP

Stranger: Nah. Hoped maybe you'd come back. TS I miss you too. TS

You: Wish granted. I'm on my way. PP Don't freak out about the bruises! PP

Stranger: Already freaking out, haven't even seen them yet. TS What bruised you so bad that your /super healing/ didn't heal it? TS

You: Do you actually want the answer to that? PQ

Stranger: Yes. TS

You: Got shoved off a building, ran out of webbing. PP

Stranger: God. TS I love you. TS You're never going to be without updates or weapons ever again. TS

You: Don't want weapons. PP I was updated, it was just a lot fight and the cartridges jammed. PP

Stranger: You know to just let me build you things. Even if you don't use them. TS Makes me feel better. TS

You: But I'm never gonna use a weapon, babe. It's just useless. PP

Stranger: It's not normally weapons. TS I think i'm up to Mark 52 on the Iron Spider suit. TS

You: ...We haven't even been dating since like... 8 suits ago. PP

Stranger: And? TS I didn't stop. TS

You: You... think about other people too much. PP I'm almost there. You gonna let me drag you away from work? PP

Stranger: I think about you /all the time/. TS I will. TS

You: Oh yeah? About me or about how to make my butt look better in my suit? PP Good. PP

Stranger: About you, Pete. TS I only think about your ass on Thursdays. ;) TS You can drag me away anytime. TS

You: Only on Thursdays? PP I'm not sure if I feel flattered that my ass has its own day, or disappointed it's not all the time. PP Coming in now. Ready to pull you away. PP ((Do you want to paragraphs?))

Stranger: It was a joke, Petey-pie. TS Can't wait. TS (Sure! Would you mind starting?)

You: ((No problem!)) Peter punched in his code and smiled as it disengaged the lock on the door. He had his glasses on, hoodie wrapped around him, hood up over his messy dark hair. He pushed it off as he entered the familiar space he hadn't been in in months. How had he gone this long without Tony? He moved as quietly as he possibly good and snuck up behind the other man, taking his time to look him over before his arms wrapped around him quickly. "Hi."

Stranger: Tony was practically vibrating with anticipation. Trying to focus on the work in front of him while he waited for Peter. Hands fiddling, mind reeling, but not really being able to focus on anything. There were a few things he had to fix. Such as the situation with Pepper. But that was for later. For now, Peter was almost here. Tony didn't even hear Peter come into the room until the younger mans arms were around him. He turned around in his chair. Smiling at Peters gorgeous face. "Hi. I missed your face. Look at you."

You: There were dark bags under his eyes, he looked pale and one side of his jaw had an ugly bruise along the edge but he was focused on Tony, on the perfect edges of his face, the large inky, dark pools of his eyes. Peter's fingers moved to cup his jaw as he leaned down to catch his lips immediately. Too much time had been wasted.

Stranger: Tony smiled against Peters mouth. Arms coming to wrap around his neck. He was sure he smelled terrible, and looked even worse. His lab had a shower and a couch bed. But that didn't mean he'd been religiously using either. The only thing he'd really been doing was eating. If only because he knew Peter would want him too.

You: He didn't care, Tony could have smelled like a sewer and he'd still be there, leaning over his sitting form, lips against his as they smiled. This was home, this was where he felt right, where everything came together. "You... need to take a shower." He reached down to catch the front of his shirt, slowly guiding him upwards. "I'll go with you if you want. No funny business even, just wanna be there."

Stranger: Tony let Peter help him onto his feet. Smiling happily. "No funny business, huh? And what if i'd like some funny business?" He asked teasingly. Bumping their noses together softly. Intimately. He'd missed this /so/ much. How close he could feel to Peter. Tony hadn't been lying when he'd said that Peter was his partner. With his big, brilliant mind. His sweet, loving heart. And everything else all wrapped up into Peters gorgeous body.

You: "Do you?" He said with a grin up at him. He felt emotional, shaky almost. He was the person he wanted to be with the most and he was so afraid that it was gone forever. That he had pushed away the best thing that had ever happened to him. His arms drifted to loop around Tony's waist as he started to pull him back toward the shower. "This is where I wanna be, I'm so sorry." He purred against his lips. "I love you." ((Hey I gotta lay down but I would LOVE to continue this. If you don't thats totally fine, and thank you for this but if you do my email is [email protected] or my kik is kanyeerp ))

Stranger: (kik is great. I could send my reply and the log?)

You: ((that's perfect!))

Stranger: (Not finding your username though:( its kanyeerp ?)

#lost omegle chat #lost omegle #omegle #starker #i gave you the wrong kik #I'm so sorry #baby come back #I loved this chat so much #there are three e's in my kik #waaaahhh

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dialux · 7 years ago

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Infinity War Reaction: so, like, spoilers through this whole post.

I think.............................. there’s a lot to be said for the acting. This cast is really good, and though a lot of people had like, three lines (cough SebStan cough) they made those three lines memorable. And the plot itself was so disjointed that the cast must have had a hell of a time weaving the storyline together into something coherent.

I also went in ready for a mess and came out with a more positive impression than I entered, which is not what happened with cacw, the other ensemble cast film, so I’m pleasantly surprised about that. And the movie is... a culmination of the entire mcu, so I wasn’t expecting it to be very character-driven or deep (and imo this is where people are getting irritated with the movie, as well as the fact that marvel chose to dump the movie’s minimal exposition on its villain instead of any one hero)(but unpopular opinion: i’m glad they didn’t have strange ‘’’grow’’’ out of his moral ruthlessness, or wanda declare that she can’t turn her back on the fight, or tony sob about peter’s death- this was a movie about loss that is just... shoved onto you, the disappearance of billions of people in a matter of minutes- and idk I think people changing drastically over that length of time is unlikely, and once you’ve set that aside, imo, the movie didn’t feel as exhausting.)

I think I read two reaction posts right after exiting the theater (@him-e‘s and @subjunctivemood‘s) and it’s kind of funny but I agree and disagree with them on a lot of points, despite each having relatively separate reactions themselves.

Funniest bit was that Clint/Ant-man just......... took a plea deal. I could not stop imagining the poor data entry person who had to process that nightmare of a thing, like, Clint goes “first active, then I brought in a Russian spy who might be brainwashed, then I got married and hid the family, then I retired, then I un-retired and became a fugitive, now I’m.... retired again bc my wife’s mad at me and I miss the kids???” this convo has no room not to be hilarious, I’m forever mad at marvel for cutting it lol

I liked the beginning.

ngl, it was heartbreaking.

also though, the movie starts by someone pleading- “this isn’t a warship, don’t fire- please- don’t fire-” and we see Thanos ignoring that, we see Heimdall on the floor, we see Thor bleeding; there were a lot of ways to establish that Thanos was a villain but none so dramatic as this one

And this movie is if nothing else #iconique

So not exactly a surprise, if you get my meaning

The total message behind the villain’s ideology was screwed up, but the hero’s answers to that? Reminds me of this meta in the asoiaf fandom, tbh: “we don’t trade lives” vs "’Everything,’ Davos said softly.”

It was powerful. I’m still in love with it.

In fact, I’m in love with the entire idea of the movie- where everything hurts, and hurts, and hurts, and nothing you do is enough, where all you can do is keep pushing against the darkness and it’s winning all the damn time and you know you cannot win, you know it’s absolutely impossible- but you rise and you stand and you fight nevertheless.

Yeah, I don’t like Peter, I never have and never will

honestly I couldn’t get through any of the gotg movies

I still haven’t watched either of them because he scrapes on my nerves like nothing else

That said, let me just say that I fucking loathe Peter Quill okay this is me hating him

Pssh Nebula though is gorgeous. Nebula is just. W O W. I might watch specific clips of her and Gamora alone because I have been missing out on that relationship. (SISTERS??? RAISED TO HATE EACH OTHER??? NOW REPAIRING THAT RELATIONSHIP??? I LOVE)

Gamora didn’t deserve to die, but- I think.... I’d have liked it more if Thanos had killed her and realized that it wasn’t love, not in the end, so he gives up something else- I understand why that didn’t work out, because of screen time- but maybe another gem?? Or one of his best lieutenants? Idk that would’ve been a better route, imo.

Relationships what relationships. Who knows who? Who cares about who? What cacw baggage? The only thing the Russos know is that Tony isn’t talking to Steve, and even that isn’t resolved properly, jfc.

I’m glad they piggy-backed off of Ragnarok’s humor, though, using both Banner and Thor to deliver those lines- it was good, and both actors are really good at those punchlines, so.

Though CA’s “I am Steve Rogers” in response to Groot still has me in stitches, that’s one of the best lines in cinematic history

RED SKULL. RED SKULL. RED SKULL.

I’ve never known anything more legitimately weird or jarring.

Was that supposed??? To be a point??? For the next movie???

idk but it looked damn stupid in this one

(Though if the entire point is to bring Steve Rogers to Vormir as a sort of full circle cycle and then Steve jumps into that hole and then he finds out that Gamora isn’t actually dead........ I think I might forgive everything. But only if all of that happens. Not before.)

Re: Strange/Tony, I went in expecting to ship it from multiple friends, but I came out kind of.... lackluster? Idk, I don’t see the chemistry that much- it seems like... they’re both just snappy assholes and used to being the smartest in the room and build off of each other. The Pepper scene in the beginning made my day, lolol.

The deaths could have been better. Ngl, the only deaths that made me feel things were T’Challa and Spiderman. The rest just- happened too fast.

Though Tony’s face (and Steve’s, and Rhodey’s)- oh, yeah, that was good.

Anyone else realize that the majority of the people that are left are the original avengers? Avengers4 will be more similar to the first avengers than either Ultron or this one, mark my words, and hopefully better for it.

I really really hope they put in one thing in the next movie of Tony panicking on Titan because he’s faced the thing he’s been afraid of for years now, he’s faced his biggest fucking fear-

Yeah, they probably won’t have time, yada yada yada, but it’d be damn cool if they gave me another panic attack a la IM3. That was good shit right there.

So, overall- I liked the movie, and the best shot of the entire thing (the five minutes that summed it up) were where all the Avengers come to try to stop him, and it doesn’t work, they’re batted aside like little toy pieces, and they face their darkest fears, Wanda kills Vision-

And it isn’t enough.

Thanos has time, has reality, has everything on his side. Wanda isn’t enough. Vision isn’t enough. Strange and Tony and Spiderman and everyone- they aren’t enough.

14 million possibilities, and only one where they win. But that one is a chance, and they aren’t going to let go of hope while that chance exists. There’s almost no likelihood that they’ll succeed, but goddamn does that mean they’ll give up.

That’s a really good motif for the entire movie.

#avengers #avengers infinity war #avengers infinity war spoilers #anyways #um #i think... i stan a steve and gamora friendship now #this is troubling my life #my writing

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surveys-at-your-service · 7 years ago

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Survey #106

gonna start making the surveys i compile a tad bit shorter.

Does your mom have nice hair? I guess? Do you prefer really cold water (to drink)? Yes, I'd prefer to not drink warm water. But that's true with any drink. Kiss with your eyes open or closed? Doing that with your eyes open would creep me out. Can you keep a secret? I have literally never told a secret before. Because I respect people trusting me enough to tell me about such things. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them? Meet my best friend and crush ya'll lmao. Has anyone ever told you they couldn’t trust you? I don't think so. Who in your family has the prettiest eyes? Probably my brother. Are you an aggressive driver? Or more passive-aggressive? When I drove, I was far too passive to be safe. Too skittish. What would you consider an unacceptable first date? Uhhh idk. Probably going to his/her house and being home alone with the person. I'd be scared. Would you rather help others, or just help yourself? Help others. Are you the kind of person that’s afraid to cry in public? I don't know anyone who isn't. It's embarrassing. Have you ever been rejected by someone you really liked? More like loved. Have you ever used fake tan? No. Have you ever had a panic attack? Probably around 100 times. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? Yes, because they’re often better than “grown-up” movies. <<< This. Who is one person you wish you would have never met? Rachel. She had no form of positive impact on my life. What was your 1st alcoholic beverage? A lemonade daiquiri, but drinking it was actually an accident. x_x What’s your favorite type of milk? If chocolate milk doesn't count, 2%. Are you laid-back? No, I'm constantly anxious. When at home with nothing to do, do you wear socks? I wear socks as little as I possibly can because I hate them. Is your bed actually a bed? Yeah. Do you prefer other sleeping arrangements rather than the usual bed? Why? No, I prefer a bed. Comfier than pretty much anything else. How often do you shower? Every other day unless I feel dirty for whatever reason. If you were given a plane ticket for free right now to Florida, what part would you go to/what would you do? Orlando for Disney World, obviously. When you get upset, do you prefer to go to friends for support or to be left alone? Do you wallow or do you continue on with life? It reeeaally depends. Would you rather have the ability to speed up time, freeze time, or go back in time? Probably none, honestly... Have you ever had a teacher you got really close with? Many. What chain restaurant (Applebees, Ruby Tuesdays, Outback, etc..) is your favorite? Olive Garden omf Can you actually picture yourself getting married/having kids, or is that something that seems too distant in the future to imagine? I can see myself married, but not with kids. Ever. Would you rather eat all day or exercise all day? Uhhh neither? Eating all day would fuck someone up, and God knows I don't have the endurance to exercise all day, I legitimately would pass out. Do you write? Daily. Have you ever gone to see a movie past 9:00 PM? Pretty sure I did with "Silent Hill: Revelation." Would you rather hold hands or link arms with your significant other? Hold hands. Truth be told, are you more into looks or personalities the most? Personality. A pretty face doesn't mean they've got a pretty personality whatsoever. How is/was your chemistry class in high school? Actually, I never took it. There was an alternative option called physical science. Would you rather eat rice or bread? Depends on the type of rice or bread, but let's just say it's my favorite bread (pumpernickel) versus my favorite rice (pork fried). I'd go with pumpernickel any day of the week. Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before? Not since I was very little with my younger sister. I wouldn't do it as an adult because it's both impractical and claustrophobic, and not to mention it's my personal time to get clean and such. Are you hard to please?  No. When are you at your happiest?  Hm, I dunno. Do you have a waste basket in your car? We have a bag. Have you ever told a friend you thought their parent was hot? God no, even if I did, I wouldn't tell them. Awkward. Have your parents asked you to explain a term and you lied because it was inappropriate? No. If I didn't want to explain the term, I'd just tell them to look it up. Do your parents know you have a Tumblr account? No, but it's not like I'd hide it if they asked. Is there anyone you wish you could apologize to? Who? Maybe... no one's coming to mind now. Typically, do you like being asked a lot of questions? Strictly depends on the questions. Do you put up with more in friendships than in relationships? Yes. I'm way more picky with an s/o. Do you feel better sleeping alone, or with someone else? Alone. When I was with Jason I was sometimes happier sleeping with him, but in general, I find sleeping alone more comfortable. Do you enjoy applying make up, if you wear it? God no, hence why I wear it less than once in a blue moon. Do physical exams make you uncomfortable? Holy fuck yes, don't touch me. Do you like ketchup or mustard better with your corn dogs? I haven't had a corn dog in YEARS. I probably wouldn't put anything on one. Do you like peas? NO. Apparently I loved them as a baby, though. Don't know what the hell happened. Have you ever kissed under water? I think I have? Your ex calls wanting to hang out. What do you say? Don, yes. Any other, no. Have you ever swam while it was raining? Yeah, no harm in that when you're already in water. Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older? THEN WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO WAIT SO LOOOONG Is your hair a lot different from when you were little? Not really, other than the fact I had bangs as a kid. Have you ever gotten stung by a stingray or a jellyfish? No. Do you know how to do laundry? This is extremely embarrassing, but no. My mom has always done all our laundry together and likes to do it herself. But I still need to learn for obvious reasons. When you wash your hands, do you use the cold or hot tap (faucet)? Hot, but our water heats up slow, so. If you had to be straight/gay for a day (whichever you’re currently not!), what celebrity would you most like to take on a date? I'm bi, so. What is the biggest injury you’ve ever sustained and how did you do it? I fell onto the road while running and skinned the actual fuck out of both knees, especially my right. Like to the point there was pus. What is the most unique animal you’ve ever touched? Probably just a reticulated python (pretty sure that's what it was, maybe I'm wrong...). Not all that strange, but. What’s the scariest nightmare you’ve ever had? Describe it in detail. It involved my dad and no, I'm not describing it. Put these in order of your favorite movie genre to least: Horror, action, thriller, adventure, superhero, romance, drama, comedy, musical and dance? Horror, comedy, superhero, adventure, romance, thriller, action, drama, musical and dance. If you had to lose one of the 5 senses, which would you choose and why? Smell, as I think that would affect your life the least. Name all the drugs you have tried: None that weren't prescribed. Name all of the alcoholic beverages you have tried: Only daiquiris and margaritas. Name all the drugs you’d never do: I'd never do any. What is the most alcohol you’ve drank in a night? Four daiquiris on New Year's and it did almost nothing. @_@ I handle alcohol extremely well. I should probably add though that I wasn't drinking with the intent to get drunk, I just drink drinks in general a lot. I'm always thirsty. What do you order from McDonald’s? It alternates between McDoubles and chicken nuggets with usually a small but occasionally medium fry. What do you order from Burger King? I don't like BK. What do you order from Wendy’s? A Baconator like a fatass cries. What do you order from Sonic? A hot dog. I tried a bacon cheeseburger there recently tho and I liked it, so I might get that sometimes. What do you order from Taco Bell? The only two things I like there are the chicken and cheese quesadillas and fiesta potatos. I hate Mexican food. How would you feel if a girl asked your boyfriend/girlfriend out for a drink?  I'm single. I broke up with my ex just today because I'm just too scared of men. It had been almost four months and I was coming no closer to him than I was as his friend. I didn't feel safe opening up to him. It's going to take me a while to be comfortable romantically around a man again. Another reason I broke up with him is because I realized I have a crush on my best friend. Any idea what you want for your next birthday?  A bearded dragon. Name some models you think are hot: I don't know of any models. Not my thing. Have you ever been called a skank/slut because of the way you dress?  No, considering I'm not even somewhat revealing. Where did you lose your virginity, if you have? I haven't. What are your views on getting rid of the penny? Don't care. Have you ever kissed someone underneath mistletoe? Maybe, but I don't think so. Do you have a weak stomach?  Nope. Do you know anybody who has been diagnosed with cancer?  Three people that I know in my family have had cancer. I think I know one other, but probably more, realistically. Have you ever had to take care of an intoxicated person? No, but really, I prolly shoulda the night my friend was so wasted she called her husband to ask if she could get high (her sister's fuckboy was brazen enough to bring his weed to her house) despite her being against drugs. I went the fuck to bed because I was exhausted and had to leave the next morning at 6 AM. @_@ Which website do you spend the most time on?  YouTube Do you read fanfiction? If so, what fandoms?  Believe this shit or not, no. It's usually waaaaaay too smutty. Are you more introverted or extroverted?  If it gives you any idea, you know the popular site where you can take the personality type quiz? I am almost entirely on the introvert spectrum lol. Do you like meatball subs? Nope. Like I'll eat one if it's the only choice, but I don't enjoy them. If you have a sib, do you call him/her “brother” or “sister” sometimes? I only ever call them by their names. Have you ever lived in a mobile home? No. Do you consider dogs inside or outside pets? Both. I support most being inside, but larger breeds should be outside so they can get rid of all that energy. Obviously bring them in in unfavorable weather, though. Do you feel comfortable asking your parents or grandparents for money? NOPE. Scariest driver you’ve ridden with: One of the scariest experiences in my entire life was this time Dad had to pick me and Nicole up from middle school, or maybe I'd just gotten into high school. He was in an awful mood so went WAY over the speed limit, ran red lights, and passed illegally. It was absolutely terrifying. And mind you, the ride home normally took about 25 minutes. Do you know anybody who is afraid of clowns? Lots of people. Do you listen to ASMR? No. The ones with people whispering make me super uncomfortable. Rain storms or a light drizzle? STORMS What snacks do you usually get at the theater? Please, I bring my own shit. Sometimes buy popcorn tho. What’s an underrated video game/ movie/ show you love and think it needs more recognition? UGH "Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs." It's my third-favorite game of all time, but it's pretty criticized for not being what people expected. Would you fill your house with plants if you had a green thumb? No, too much maintenance. Thoughts on freckles? They can be super cute. What band do you never get tired of listening to? Ozzy<3 Like I'm not constantly in the mood for him, but if I listen to a song, I always enjoy it. Do you have anything that belongs to an ex? Yep. Do you put marshmallows in your hot chocolate? No. Does it bother you when dogs lick you? Not usually. What is the best thing you can draw? I think I'm best at meerkats. Are you good at wrapping presents? NOPE I AM THE WORST. Do you put your hair up when you cook? I don't cook. Do you prefer Mountain Dew or Sprite? I don't like Sprite, so. Have you ever encountered a ghost? I feel that I have. Does anybody in your contacts have a heart after their name? No. Who was the villain in the last superhero movie you watched? Hmmm... it has been a LONG time since I've watched a superhero movie. I actually enjoy superhero movies, I just don't see them much. Does your phone have hole for charms? No cries. I have a Pyramid Head phone charm and I wANNA USE IT DAMMIT Who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour? I don't even think we've ever talked that long, but the closest and most recent would probably be Colleen. I never talk on the phone long. Ditched school to do something more fun? No. Do you take compliments well? I appreciate them immensely and even the smallest one will literally brighten my day, but I get very shy about it, especially if you say it to my face. Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby? Yup, fucking hated it. Do you hate it when people smoke around you? Yes. It gives me a headache. I also don't fancy cancer. Have you ever kissed on a boat? No. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go some place? No, but I'll let my Mom know. Would you rather have big or small dogs? I like bigger dogs because they act like they're so smol and are usually babies at heart. Do you trust all of your friends? No. Are you afraid of falling in love? FUCK YES I AM Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize? Yes, but I don't believe he meant it, honestly. I feel he was just trying to appease me. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest/fastest for? Nope, which is for the better. Jim Carrey movie or Adam Sandler movie? Jim Carrey, but I can enjoy both. Favorite music genre? Heavy metal. Do you like your body? I enjoy how resilient it is, particularly as far as bone strength and my immune system, but I don't like it in general at all. Zombies or vampires? Vamps. Do you like mood rings? I don't believe they work. How many stories does your mall have? One. It's an awful mall both in stores and things that happen there. New York City or Paris? I'm pretty sure I'd enjoy Paris more. Ever been skydiving? If no, would you want to? No and no. I'm scared of heights and the idea of the parachute failing is just... no. The idea is thrilling though. Do you order your burgers with only ketchup? No, they also have mustard. Skirts or jeans? I wouldn't wear one, but skirts are super cute. What is your worst relationship quality? I think the fact I'm very distrustful and need a lot of personal space are tied. Are you a fan of cake? I don't always enjoy the frosting, but I love cake itself. Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school? No, I was essentially the teacher's pet ha ha. Didn't try to be, but. Are you a very affectionate person? Verbally, very, almost not at all physically. What is something that makes you very squeamish? Vomit. Do you have any godchildren? AHHHHHH! I have one coming in May!! Ever had to take a sobriety test? No. If your old class was to have a reunion, would you attend it? No. Have you ever abused an animal? Holy fuck no. Have you ever been homeless? Technically, yes, but I lived with my best friend for a month. Did the last book you read have a good ending? No. Well, no as in what happened, but good as in I liked it. Did the last book you read have a character in it that made you mad? She doesn't make me mad, but I hate Jaina. Do you like the color orange? Yeah. Would you ever drive an orange car? Actually, I've known for a long time that if I ever do have a car, I'd prefer a burnt orange one. Do you own a fall wreath? Yeah. What event did you last dress up for? Who went to that event? Uhhh probably Ashley's wedding, so over a year ago. And plenty of people. What is the last illegal thing you did, even the smallest crime? Rode in a car with my friend while she smoked weed because I was too nervous to tell her I didn't want to go with her. I was terrified. Beard or moustache? I don't particularly have an opinion on either, but I'm more likely to like a beard. Have you ever witnessed a birth? I've seen cats give birth many times, and while I'm honestly terrified to because personally I find birth more disgusting than miraculous, I really do want to be in the room with Colleen when she has her baby. I mean c'mon, she's my best friend, and I'm also going to be his/her godmother. I want to be there. Where’s your favorite place to be when you feel depressed? My room. But that's no different than any other time. Would you like to be able to read thoughts? Not really, no. Have you ever been on a farm? Yes. Ashley had a friend who lives on one. Do you have freckles? No. What is the temperature currently in the town you live in? According to my phone, 60. So glad fall's here, and the middle of the night. Have you ever made out on a couch? Yeah. What are you doing on Halloween? I don't know, but I hope I do something. Do you own any Sims games? Which ones? I own most of the animal ones. I used to looove them. Do you know anyone who still doesn’t have a smartphone? My mom. She legit has an ObamaPhone because we're poor. What is your favorite kind of fruit juice? Mango and peach mix. Do you acknowledge your feelings or ignore them? I've always acknowledged them. If you have kids, do you pack lunches or send lunch money? I don't have kids, but if I did, I'd pack lunch for them if they didn't like what was being served that day. Do you have any cousins that you’re jealous of? Why? Robby and Audrey, yes. They're both veeery ambitious, smart, talented, and on paths to great success. Do you hate your last name? Do you want to get married so you can change it? I actually don't like my last name, but I don't want to get married just to change it, that's ridiculous. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Why did you break up? Aaron, and I realized it was merely platonic attraction. Is green your favorite color? I actually don't like green unless it's pastel or mint, and even then, I'm not big on it. Have you ever fallen asleep laying on your boyfriend/girlfriend? One ex, yes. What was the last vacation you went on? The beach with Colleen and her husband last May. Describe your best friend’s hair. Colleen's is short, somewhat curly towards the end, and light brown right now, and Sara's is long and brown. In school, what subjects did you achieve your highest grades in? English Which of the seven deadly sins are you most guilty of? Quite easily sloth. Do you have very strong opinions? Usually, yes. Sometimes I'm totally ambivalent, occasionally on important issues, which honestly bothers me, but I just. Can't always pick a side. Do you believe in reincarnation? No. Have you ever had to give a pet away? Our neighbors called animal control once because they complained about our cats wandering into their yard. The bullshit thing is they never actually confronted us about it, they just called them and they were all taken. I fucking sobbed, especially because this included Aphrodite, one of my favorite cats we've ever had. Have you ever cooked anything other than s’mores over a fire? Yes, hot dogs. They taste amazing like that. Is anybody in your family disabled? I don't think so. If you have Facebook, how many friends do you have on there? I checked, 116. Have you ever worn a corset? No but I totally would if I was smaller because they're fucking hot. What is your favorite pair of earrings? I have these really pretty, hanging earrings that are circular-shaped, the outside being made of black gems and then three chains hanging down inside of it, the center of each having a little black bow. They're super cute; I wore them to I think both of my proms. Do you have health insurance? We're in the process of trying to get it. When was the last time you cleaned your ears via QTip? It's been like a month because I was instructed not to after I got my ears cleaned after wax being literally adhered to my eardrums because I used q-tips so frequently; it pushed it back too far. My mom now uses some kind of tool to clean my ears for me because my ears have always produced waaay too much wax and I don't want to not clean them. Ever lived through a natural disaster? Yes, hurricanes. How many tattoos do you want? Oh my gosh, so many. I want my arms and shoulders essentially covered, I know I want one on the top of my right hand, there's one I want on my hip, I might get one on my foot... I don't think I'll get any on my legs, though. There's few I like that look good there imo. Are you planning to go see a movie anytime soon? I totally wanna see "Happy Death Day." It looks pretty creepy. Which of “greasy, salty, bitter, sweet, spicy, bland” do you react most strongly against? Bitter. When you’re completely exhausted, do you prefer to be around people or not? God, no. I get irritable. Rank Oceans, Forests, Tundra, Deserts, Mountains, Prairies, Lakes with whatever comparator you like. Mountains, deserts, tundras, forests, lakes, prairies, oceans. Abolish human-caused death, or disease-caused death? Hmmm. I think... disease-caused? You can't change diseases, you can educate people. Now, that obviously hasn't worked on many people, but I feel it would be more beneficial. Is it better for things in general to err on the side of too simple, or too complex? Too simple. Do you have any phobias? Pregnancy and childbirth, VOMIT, whale sharks, situationally claustrophobic, mildly afraid of dolls, mannequins, and animatronics. Probably others I'm forgetting. Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret? Kinda. Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”? Eh, I think so. Do you pop your bones or crack your knuckles? Ugh no, the sound is disgusting. Would you rather have an owl or a snake? God, why not both? But I think an owl would be more interesting. Are you a mean drunk? I've never been drunk, but any time I've been tipsy, I've just been giddy. Have you had any major tragedies in your life? The biggest was the breakup; that was absolutely a tragedy. The almost total loss of sanity that followed that was also one. Name the last 10 people in your Facebook inbox. 1.) Don, 2.) Colleen's father-in-law, 3.) Summer, 4.) Colleen, 5.) Sammy, 6.) Miss Tobey, 7.) Everett, 8.) Morgan, 9.) Kieley, 10.) Nicole When was the last time you saw 4? Last weekend, I think it was. Has 2 ever made you cry? No. Where did you meet 3? Pretty sure when Nicole was in kindergarten. True story, it was them who started out as friends, then me and her shifted into being closer. What’s the age difference between yourself and 6? At least 30 years. She's a family friend. How old is 2? I don't know. Have you ever slept in the same bed as 5? No, we've never even met. Is 4 attractive? She's beautiful. Does 3 care about you? Well considering she cried and reminded me how loved I was when she got me to talk about my suicide attempt, I'd think so. She's a sweetheart. Have you ever kissed 10? No. How long have you known 6? Since my senior years of high school. Is 9 younger than you? No. What if you had a one night stand with 8? Nope. What’s the first letter of 7’s last name? H Have you ever met 5’s parents? No. What if 3 told you that he/she liked your ex? She dated Tyler briefly, but she can't stand him anymore. She agreed he got attached far too easily. She brought him up at the party. 1 is coming to your house for dinner, what will you cook for him/her? I don't cook. Has 9 ever cried in front of you? I think she might've teared up while talking to me in Skype once, I'm not sure. Describe your relationship with 2. I don't really have a relationship with him, and I can't pinpoint why, but he actually mildly creeps me out. I don't have a reason, he just does. When was the last time you saw 10? Earlier. What’s 5’s favorite food? I think pizza? Do you know 3’s middle name? Rae Does 6 have long or short hair? Long. Have you ever held hands with 1? Yeah. Does 8 have any piercings or tattoos? I think she has her ears pierced, don't know about tats. If 3 never spoke to you again, how would you feel? That would suck. Have you ever felt jealous of 4? Envious, yes. Which of these 10 people would you say you’re closest to? Colleen. Do you listen to music simply for the melody or for the lyrics? Mostly melody. I can listen to songs with horrible and/or offensive lyrics and still enjoy the song for the melody. What is the most visited website on your Internet window? YouTube. How many windows are in the room you’re in, if there are any? Two. Do you always voice your opinion to random people? NOPE Would you ever consider yourself over-dramatic? I can be. Used to be way worse, though. Do you like to sing? Do you personally think you have a good singing voice? No and no. Even most of the closest people in my life haven't heard me sing What is one word you could never properly pronounce? People will ALWAYS point out how I say "breakfast." I don't know why, but I always put a "t" sound after the "k." I literally can't say it right. ;-; Three of your favorite movies in the world: My first two are Burton's "Alice in Wonderland" and "White Chicks," but I don't have a set third one. Maybe "Troy?" I need to watch that again, I love it. Do you ever get paranoid about who your significant other hangs out with? I'm single. Which one of your guy friends is the best looking? Probs Kyle. We don't really talk anymore after high school, but I still consider him a friend. Which one of your friends is the most brutally honest? Colleen. Which band do you have the most of on your iPod/music player? Ozzy Osbourne. Metallica comes close. What color is your shower curtain? White. Do you like screamo music? No. I want to be able to hear words. What song are you listening to, if any? I am like?? Obsessed with "Cool Patrol" by NSP?? It is so catchy and the music video is like aesthetic as fuck?? Do you like the color purple? Yes, especially pastel shades. Do you have a sensitive gag reflex? You would not fucking believe it. I can barely brush my tongue. If it gives you an idea, dentists have to use those things that go in your cheek when doing x-rays meant for children versus adults. Have you ever had an online argument? I have been socially active on the Internet since I was nine. Take a guess. Are you at risk for any medical issues? Quite a few. Cancer might run in our family, diabetes does, and I found out very recently that I have inactive MRSA, which could become active. Would you try to be a hero in a hostage situation? I'd probably be too terrified to. What flavor [in general] is your favorite? Strawberry Have you ever lied about your sexual past? No. Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex? I apparently have a thing for dark hair. Have you ever stayed up very late talking to the person you like[d]? Yeah. Have your parents ever not approved of someone? You mean of someone I dated? Mom never liked Juan, but we weren't even together for a day, so he doesn't even really count. Have you ever snuggled with someone you weren’t dating? No. What is your best friend’s mom’s name? Cindy and Donna. Who is you BEST friend ever's name? I think the person I've ever been closest to was Megan, but considering most of what I knew about her was a lie, y'know. Maybe Mini, then. What is your favorite Hostess/Little Debbie snack? Omg Twnkies. True story, Mom's nickname for me has been "Twinkie" since childhood (I know, embarrassing, right), so I guess it's fate lol. Do you/your family buy loaf from the bakery or bagged on the shelf? Bagged. White, wheat or other? My favorite's pumpernickel, but of those, wheat. Do you embarrass easily? Almost everything embarrasses me, holy shit. Are you afraid of heights? Yes. Not horribly, but still afraid. What’s the best thing about being your gender? I dunno. And the worst thing? Menstruation is some bullshit. What’s one subject that makes you feel uncomfortable? As far as talking about? I can get uncomfortable with sexual stuff. Not always, really just depends on who I'm with and the subject. When does your driver’s license expire? I don't have a license, but my permit expires in December. Do you like pulp in your orange juice? NONONONONONONONO I CAN'T DRINK IT NO If you could donate to any charity, which would it be? There's one that focuses entirely on suicide prevention, can't remember the name, but totally that one. What’s one old school Nickelodeon show you wish was still on? Stealing the last person's answer, "Drake and Josh." I loved that shit. Does it make you uncomfortable when your parents talk about finding people attractive? If your parents don’t make comments like that, what sort of things can your family members say that do make you feel uncomfortable? No. Are there any subjects that you are interested in so much that you would read whole books or academic journals about them? No. Can you write in cursive? My handwriting is mostly cursive. Where do you like to sit in the movie theater? Pretty near the back and in the middle of the row. Would you rather live in Oz, Neverland, Wonderland, or Middle Earth? Wonderland! Don’t you just love it when guys sing to you? If it's directly at me, I'd feel super awkward. Like how would I react. Ever taken dance lessons? For a good number of years. What is your favorite kind of cookie? Chocolate chip. Can you play the saxophone? No, but I actually wish I'd played that instead of flute in high school. What kind of camera do you have? Nikon D3200 Who is your favorite superhero? I don't have any strong opinions on superheroes, but I guess Batman. Who is your favorite supervillain? She's really a sidekick, but whatever. Harley Quinn's a beb. What is your dream job? Meerkat biologist. I don't pursue it mainly because I don't want to move out of the country. What’s your favorite TV show of all time? "Meerkat Manor." What do you want for Christmas? This year I'm legitimately only asking for one thing, and that's a tattoo. I don't know much about pricing tats, but I'm going to guess it'll be around $150. As I get older, the less things I really want, and there truly isn't many other things I'm like dying to get, and I don't like my parents buying me too much shit anyway.

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I wish you would write a fic where... Aaron is the one figuring out that Rebecca has ben lying (about how much is up to you)

I hope this is what you were thinking…

Whatever Made YouWhat You Are – I Blame You

Her evil words had twisted insideAaron all the way back to the Mill, and the wound of Robert’s betrayal wasreopened, fresh and bleeding.

Aaron knew she was wrong aboutthem. Knew that the only person Robert had ever been true with was him. Yet,still her words picked him apart, slipping under his skin. They pulled onthreads of doubt, that had been woven back when he was the one sneaking aroundwith someone else’s husband.

Fate, karma, or just dumb luck,whatever had brought him here, wouldn’t be changed. Robert had got Aaronthrough some of the darkest times of his life and every step taken had beensupported and surrounded with love.

And still her words itched andtingled.

He tried to shake them off witheach step closer to home and each step away from the horror that was herpresence.

He knew one thing without adoubt. Rebecca was a liar. She might not realise it, but she was definitelylying to Aaron and if she wasn’t aware, then she was lying to herself as well.

Because she could swear it tillshe ran out of sound to utter the words, but she wanted Robert and she wantedAaron out of the way. Of this he had no doubt.

Resolve strengthened his will,one thing in this mess was clearer than it ever had been. Robert Sugden lovedhim and Aaron would not question it again.

Every step, a tattoo of factsthat swirled inside his head – Robert saying he didn’t remember what happened,Robert passing out, Rebecca being so sure that her baby was Robert’s even whenshe’d been letting Ross chase and catch her all around the village.

He needed more fact and lessfiction, the only problem was he wasn’t going to get it from her and he fearedthat Robert didn’t actually know.

Slamming into the Mill, Aaronfound Robert sitting on the couch, his head in his hands. He looked up at thefury of sound Aaron made with his arrival.

“Aaron!” he said coming to hisfeet.

Aaron held up his hand to silenceRobert and watched as all hope drained from his face.

“Nothing’s changed Robert, I justwant to ask you some questions about that night,” Aaron pressed.

“Aaron, no…I can’t…I don’t wantto. We’ve already been over this. What difference does any of it make now? Icheated. I fucked up. I hurt you, hurt us. I can’t fix it or go back and undoit,” Robert argued, sitting back down on the couch.

“Did you?” Aaron asked not sosure anymore, little things that both Robert and Rebecca had both said chippingaway at what Aaron thought he knew. “Are you sure?”

“Aaron? What?” Robert dragged ahand down his face, he looked up at Aaron and said, “You know I did. Ithappened. I’m sorry, god, I’m so sorry.”

“Did you though? Do you actuallyremember because you said you passed out? Vic said something about a whole bottleof Whisky. I know you’re good Robert, but even you’re not that good. This isn’twishful thinking on my part, this is a legitimate question. Do you actuallyremember having…?” Aaron swallowed and cleared his throat before continuing,the words sticking in his mouth now. “What’s the last thing you remember beforeyou passed out?”

The look on Robert’s face wouldhaunt Aaron later, he felt it in his chest when Robert opened and shut hismouth a few times.

“I remember talking to her. Iremember convincing her I wanted her and I remember thinking when she acceptedit, how easy it was. How uncomplicated she was. I remember kissing her andfeeling like I was dying because she wasn’t complicated and because she wasn’tyou. I remember taking our clothes off and then I remember waking up alone, butit happened Aaron. Just because I was too drunk to remember it doesn’t meananything,” Robert’s voice broke and something shifted inside of Aaron’s chest,a piece of anger moving to make space for the pity and horror that warred toreplace it.

“Robert, either she’s lying andnothing happened or you passed out and she fucked you without you beingconscious for it. Either way, you need to know. I need to know,” Aaron argued.

“What if I don’t want to know?”Robert asked, his voice low and broken.

“Fuck! Robert, I’m sorry. You’reright it doesn’t matter. If you don’t want to know we don’t need to know. Butthis isn’t black and white anymore, you get that right? This baby, if there iseven a baby, it might not be yours Robert,” Aarons said, just realising whathe’d suggested to Robert.

Robert wrapped his arms aroundhimself and rocked gently, “She told me it was mine. That we didn’t useprotection. I went and got tested after Aaron. I didn’t want to risk you.”

Aaron crossed to where hishusband was coming apart in front of him and curled his body around Robert’s.He shuddered in Aaron’s arms, clinging.

Aaron hated that he’d done thisto Robert bought up something that might have been better buried. His ownexperience ate at him. Would he rather have slept through the act of his fatherviolating him never to know any better? His shudders added to Robert’s, just atthought of it. It some ways it might be worse, the never knowing. Alwayswondering if you were going mad to be thinking it. God, he hoped Robert had just passed out andshe left but now the theory was out there, Aaron didn’t know how to get the catback in the bag, so to speak. He didn’t know how they could ever know whatreally happened.

She wasn’t just going to come outand tell them, was she?

Was this punishment then? Did shewant to hurt Robert or was this about getting Aaron out of the way? Was shetrying to clear a path to his husband? Strip him of his family? Of Aaron? Didshe think that would work?

She didn’t know Robert very wellif she did. Nor him.

“I’m sorry,” Aaron said pressingkisses on Robert’s face. “I’m here. I’m sorry.”

“She…why would she lie? No, I didit. I made her,” Robert said his face pressed tight in against Aaron’s neck.

“Oh, Robert. I don’t think youdid,” Aaron whispered, unsure whether he should let it go or not, hating thatRobert might be punishing himself for something that was maybe done to him.

“I wanted it. I wanted to hurtyou. I would have…I would have…” Robert’s breath hitched and caught, then therewas nothing and Aaron knew how that felt. How bereft it was to be strugglingagainst nothing but yourself and your fears. A panic attack.

“Breathe Robert, just breathe.I’ve got you. I’m not letting go no matter what, okay? I got you,” Aaron knewhis words were so inadequate.

Deep billowing gusts of airpunched themselves out of Robert’s chest and Aaron felt each one as if he wasdragging them out one by one.

Robert pushed at Aaron, forcinghim back and away, he got up off the couch and started pacing back and forthacross the living room, broken bursts of air still fighting their way out ofRobert with each step he took.

“Why? If she’s lying, why?Because of last time?” Robert seemed to be asking himself rather than Aaron. Itwas like he forgot Aaron was even there.

“What happened last time? Did yousee a scan? Or a test? Anything?” Aaron asked starting to get a sick feeling ofretrograde déjà vu.

“What?” Robert asked, stopping tolook at Aaron.

“Last time did you have any proofof the baby or the abortion for that matter?” Aaron repeated.

“I…no she told me and I freaked,it was going to wreck everything. I told her to get rid of it. Told her a linethat it wasn’t the right time for us,” Robert laughs, a hollow sound, thatshatters like glass at the end. “Aren’t you proud of the man you married?”

“Robert, I beat the crap out ofPaddy because I couldn’t stand to hear him mention the word gay near me. Weboth have skeletons and some we even share. I don’t need to know everythingabout back then because that isn’t my husband. My husband, is the kind of manwho looks after two kids who aren’t his while his husband is prison, he’s thekind of guy who can’t sleep in our bed without me, and who holds me whennightmares threaten to tear me apart, that’s my husband.” Aaron held his handout to Robert.

Robert looked at Aaron’soutstretched hand for a moment before place his own in it. Aaron gave him alittle tug pulling Robert back into his orbit again, feeling more groundedstraight away.

“I have no way of provinganything, Robert, but I think she might have been lying back then, to force youto choose her. I can’t help but think she might be trying to do the same thinghere. I think she was expecting you not to tell me, for me to find out on myown, to make you leave me. But she underestimated us, Robert. If death, bulletsand my mum couldn’t separate us, make us stop loving one another, she never hada chance. It will always be you for me, Robert. Always,” Aaron said strokinghis finger over Robert’s wedding ring. “My heart might be battered and bruisedbut it beats strong for you.”

Robert shook his head and hisforehead wrinkled in a frown. “I’m never going to deserve you, Aaron.”

“God you’re an idiot! I fuckinglove you, there is no ‘deserve’, just what we need. And I need you Robert JacobSugden. I need you Mr Dingle,” Aaron vowed pressing their lips together.

“And what are we going to doabout Rebecca?” Robert asked, breaking their kiss, nuzzling into the side ofAaron’s face, their hands still entangled.

“What we should have done in thefirst place, we ask for a DNA test and watch to see if she unravels,” Aaronsupplied, hoping it would be enough to see her fall apart.

“And if it’s mine? If you’rewrong?” Robert couldn’t help but pick.

“The we need to decide what wewant to do as a family,” Aaron said, tilting Robert’s face towards him and fittinghis mouth over Robert’s again.

There was so much being said withtheir lips even though no words were passed, promises and forgiveness, asecond, third and fourth chance, and comfort and reassurance that this, themtogether was real and now.

Panting Robert pressed each wordinto Aaron’s lips, “Can we go up to bed? I want to hold you… I want you to holdme.”

Aaron felt another layer peel offhis husband, this softer side, he revelled in it, it was more than he’d everhoped for and all that he could need. It wasn’t something he ever thought toget from cocky Robert Sugden, but his husband had scars that needed tending too.It was about time they started, because Robert couldn’t always be the strongone and Aaron loved his husband, he wanted him happy and healthy and arounduntil he was at least eighty and even then, Aaron wasn’t sure it would beenough time. He wasn’t sure they’d ever get enough and that was where Rebeccahad gone wrong.

Because Aaron would never give upon Robert and he would always see the good that no one else did because Robertlet him inside, he let him see.

#robron #robert sugden #aaron dingle #emmerdale #robron fanfic #look ma i wrote something #zo'e did fic #post 26.05.2017 episode #Anonymous #title from I Blame You by 10 Years #thanks matty i don't know why you put up with me for real

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