#and i trust her bc shes actually a rly good friend lmao <3 that was just my dumbass' fault tbh

[lemontongues]

Invite me into your rich inner world pls, I must know the timtam hcs

EVERYONE IS WELCOME INTO MY RICH INNER WORLD, hello, hi!<3

the timtam headcanons…. well. I just think that if dc weren’t COWARDS we could have had like. a really good arc for them where tim decided he wanted to not be such a piece of shit?? bc tam deserves better and bc he doesn’t want this to be the way that he is like bruce when he always insists that he’s not, yknow… like of all the ways to be like batman, "treating romantic interests as resources to be used" is really not the one you wanna emulate, and tim has often been written by misogynists in the past sjfjdk so he already has a not-great track record with girlfriends.... I think it would have been a rly good opportunity to have him clean up his act, especially bc tam is a seriously great character 😭💕

anyway back to the hcs, like. I think if he made an effort to be considerate as they were working together, they could have gradually become friends again? bc the reason she was so upset with him was bc he disregarded her feelings and did something rly hurtful in the name of his vigilante work, so I think if he actually apologized and then made consistent efforts to show he had realized his fuckup and was trying to do better, then it would have been a slow process but she eventually could have forgiven him. and as tam’s trust mended I think her romantic feelings for him would have also come back (we know our girl has No Sense lmao, she got the hots for him literally mid-assassination attempt bc she thinks that shit is sexy :P) and then they could have dated for real….

and as far as those tags specifically, at that point tim would just be like. in so deep lmao, when they started fucking I just think he would be So Happy To Be There yknow 😭 he has a cool smart fun hot girlfriend who wants to have sex with him…. wow…… dreams do come true…..

[heleizition]

u cannot just present me with gold right when i have to go to bed. i have a sleep schedule to keep to! for health! and sanity! and brain! i love them so much. ur ocs. i love twin characters, so many dynamics and all are good. the art is also just -wants to squeeze- affectionately. who were they in their past lives? is josephines 'i failwd to protec' a thing that also happened in past life? bunny person very good. love how expressive the ears can get. also cute. i think i watched the first ep of d.gray man way way back?? or the first few? i have very little memory of it but a vague plan to get back to that sometime. angel love, angel life, angel delight. the concept of god being a baby of a big species of gods is -chefs kiss- love it. sleep tiiiime, sleep well when u do byeeeee

HEHEHEHE >:3 im evil .

i looooove siblings dynamics........... so so much ........... both chronos & nath and then nell & belly weren't even twins at first it just Happened lmao... chronos & nath were almost the same character in two different stories and i couldnt decide who to keep lmao and then belly was supposed to be nell's little sister he ran from after she saw him kill their father (to protect her) (nell is an idiot) but . it jst happened. anyway

SO THEIR PAST LIVES.

The group of oc is composed of many i havent introduced yet but the major ones are here i think except my Bad Guy. so keep in mind the story is cringy and bad lmao but i still like it to this day...

post apocalyptic earth where humans live under domes bc the outside is too toxic + technology evolved so now cyborgs exist + a while back some government doctors & scientists were working in a secret lab to implants animal genes w humans to make hybrids & something about genetic preservation whatever whatever. anyway.

eve is the protagonist. she's the only daughter of head doctor of that hybrid lab. it exploded 20 years ago which cause people inside that specific dome to mutate into hybrids (people woke up to agonizing pain bc their body was breaking and morphing and it wasn't made for that. josephine was one of those people ! she was a wolf hybrid :3)

we follow eve and her then group of friends until for some reasons (<==== guy who does not remember what that plot point was) the dome had to be evacuated. something about a deadly virus ? ofc as always the rich people got away first until the dome got closed off completely <3 . eve meets several people including chronos (human guy, future bf, hes a simp) maria & arthur (yes i will draw them at some point OTL) and they stick together to survive as the inside of the dome is becoming a battleground. doesn't help that part of the reason the dome was closed off so quick was that ~mafia~ (idk how else to call it, its not rly mafia tho oTL) boss stanislas was in here and has always escaped the government's assassination attemps thus far.

SO this virus slowly contaminate everyone but its slow and rots you from inside. terrible deadly soulcrushing. + stanislas is using every means he has to try to control the city & find a way out. except ex cop and also ex girlfriend jo (josephine) is here to basically kill him lol (he broke her trust & her heart and also killed a lot of people and revenge is her whole life). josephine at first is a lone wolf (haha) until she gets very badly injuried and ends up in a small alley where eve & her friends took quarters. they get her inside and find a way to keep her alive. also at this point the group has also met gabriel ! (bunny guy! he has a tragic past and i love him. hes my mary sue) and stephan ! (his not yet boyfriend who also has a tragic past and that jo feels very guilty about). gabriel used to be a test subject in the hybrid lab. he and eve used to know each other :] they are best friends now.

at the same time nath (who was supposed to be dead) shows up like hiiiiiiiiiiiii btw im here (hes one of stan's agent but when he was supposed to die he actually survived and got turned into a cyborg with special modification in his brain which makes him obey. but he did not Forget and he will fight what stan makes him do <3)

SO um after they all meet its basically just. a fight to survive and also moments where they're like. oh we're gonna die here. lets party so hard.

stan also realises he doesn't rly have a way out and dedicates himself to ending his and jo's fight for good this time which also put eve's group in danger since jo . stuck around . there are casualties which is why she feels she failed them..................

anyway . there are more stuff but its rly all over the place soobssss im sowwyyyy

LOOOVE D.gray man . one of my first and favorite manga if u ever get the chance to pick it up for a bit longer to see if u enjoy it ... yeah .....

[alltheglowingeyess]

I've had a day 🤠

[spelviin]

3, 6, 9, 12, 15?

thanks for asking!! answering for my current character, rieta.

3. what is their goal right now? at the moment, finding an impaled vampire so helm will let one of her best/only friends out of the astral plane.

6. which party member do they relate to the most? this is a very recent development, it'd fucking kill her to admit it, but she defs relates most to our evil war cleric morgan, who she just found out has mildly similar religious trauma to her. she also hates his fucking guts bc he had a hand in getting said bestie on the astral plane in the first place, so the hashtag relatability is kind of unfortunate lmao.

9. do they care about their appearance? how much effort do they put into presentation? hmm, i hadn't rly thought about this much before. i don't think she's overly concerned with her appearance, but she does put effort in. she tries to go incognito and uses disguise self a lot when she's travelling alone (which is basically any time i'm not actively using her in a campaign), so her actual appearance on those occasions takes a backseat, if that makes sense.

12. have they ever been in love? indeed she currently is with her previous party's cleric :) but she hasn't actually told her that because she's a useless lesbian (and also knew they'd have to part ways after leaving barovia and figured it'd be kinder and easier to just let her return to her life and her family without bringing up her feelings and risking rejection).

15. do they trust their party? why or why not? depends which one lol. her previous party, absofuckinglutely. they're basically the closest thing she's really ever had to a family, and girl is one hundo percent ride or die for them lmao.

her current party is kind of a mess, though. she came into this campaign after half the party was banished or killed in a massive PVP throwdown, and even before finding out how that all went down she's found the war cleric and his (now ex) bf suuuuper sketchy. our monk/rogue is pretty young, but very capable and an excellent fighter (if not very good at building hot air ballons), so she trusts her well enough, and defs trusts our ranger (mostly by association since she happens to be the twin sister of the cleric rieta's in love with lol). and obviously she would trust lulu the hollyphant with her entire life bc she has done nothing wrong ever and will absolutely not end up betraying the party at any point whatsoever.

[angeltrapz]

ok saw asks!!! bcuz i have Amanda on th brain rn i wd like ur take on her interacting w Lawrence? personally idk how much she knew of his involvement bc she implies in 3 tht Lynn was entirely John's choice, but i also think th idea of her Knowing + deliberately not telling Hoffman is extremely funny. Hoffman cant come 2 th weekly disciple meeting bcuz hes got Cop Business so he misses Lawrence's introduction + Amanda is just like "sure John of course ill tell Mark that we got a new friend :)" and just never does. LOVE that thought

dhgsdkj thank u!!

it Is extremely funny 2 think that she just. knows but refuses to tell Hoffman + THAT'S why Hoffman doesn't know who Lawrence is until he jabs him w the needle + takes off the pig mask lmao omg. just like "oh yeah of course I'll tell Mark we have a new teammate don't worry abt it!" and she Never Does dkjkdsg??

okay but 2 Seriously answer yr question. when I think abt it I always think that like. it wld b pretty hard fr John 2 keep them frm each other given how integral Lawrence's participation is in every game from SAW II onward? 'cause like we know Amanda helps w the kidnapping process + placing them in their traps, which one CLD argue would only mean she wld see them after Lawrence would do his thing but. I feel like she'd be vaguely aware? bc she wld also then have 2 know that he survived his game, given that she helped set it up - we know that she'd AT LEAST know his name.

to elaborate on th idea that only HOFFMAN doesn't know (both bc it's fucking hilarious + actually how I view things happening jdkhfksd), I feel like Amanda + Lawrence's interactions wld be rather limited. in canon, Lawrence becomes a disciple after John "rehabilitates" him or whtever he wants 2 call it, but I feel he'd have to be aware of Amanda, too - both that she is also a disciple + SHE'S th one who helped get him in the bathroom in th first place. as grateful as Lawrence seems to feel toward John + as much as he believes in John's "work," I feel like that wld be smth he'd have to work thru: working side by side w someone who had a direct hand in basically destroying yr life as u knew it. n I feel like Amanda wld know that, n as such she'd want to keep her distance bc she can't predict how this man will act/what he will do, even if he is technically on her side. so like. things wld def be tense btwn them until Lawrence has had some time 2 process his new life + what tht means for him, and until the two of them can have some sort of talk/acknowledgement of that.

though I will say that their roles kind of imply they'd at least see a good bit of each other. Amanda scouts, in a way, helps subdue & bring ppl in, which wld then be brought to Lawrence fr any medical procedures they feel r needed (such as sewing th key behind Michael's eye in II) so it'd definitely be like a "hey did u bring some1?" sort of thing. Mark is muscle of course so like I know he def helped on tht end (I believe Amanda is th one who caught Lawrence in the parking garage but like it wld be SO much funnier if Hoffman was the one crawling around) but IDK if he rly Saw Lawrence bc. Cop Business. so he'd just kinda b like "here u go" n bring ppl to Amanda n then peace out 'cause he's gotta keep tht reputation of Respected Detective. we know he also might've messed w traps themselves as well (like The Rack in III), which wld definitely keep him separate from Lawrence bc Lawrence had No Involvement in designing/setting up traps. tht was strictly a John/Hoffman/Amanda endeavour.

as fr how they'd feel abt each other? it's really dependent on how u view thm as characters. Lawrence, after he becomes a disciple, believes that what John is doing is truly helpful and truly has the capability to change lives; he devotes himself 2 it, shows countless times tht he has complete faith in John + his methods, so much so that John left a tape fr him telling him to look after Jill + to act on his behalf if smth were to happen to her. he calls Lawrence his greatest asset. his trust in John + the Jigsaw legacy is unwavering.

Amanda, however, has been shown several times to act directly against John's beliefs, such as constructing inescapable traps (Kerry) or rigging others' games (Adam). th breakdown she has in III I think showcases the disconnect between her love fr John as a mentor/father figure, and the realization that not only is John entirely hypocritical and doesn't stay true to his own beliefs half th time, he truly has shown no regard fr her safety + has only been using her to further the agenda that was built upon a fragile foundation 2 begin with. u've mentioned this b4 too but John always liked 2 say that if u can anticipate the human mind, then nothing is up 2 chance - which wld mean that he KNEW Xavier might throw Amanda into the Needle Pit to get out of it. he KNEW Daniel was just a fucking kid and was perfectly fine w putting him in very real danger to get back at some1 he felt like needling fr the express purpose of provocation and nothing else. he KNEW Laura, a woman she'd formed a bond w and pretty much swore to protect th minute she woke up and saw her crying in the corner, could begin to seize n choke on her own vomit and die in that house. he knew all of those things, ENCOURAGED the belief that smth was wrong w her because she wasn't "fixed" as he had claimed, and it's so unfortunate that she doesn't realize that sooner (I fully agree that she deserved to lose her shit completely on John. it's what he deserved! it's what SHE deserved!!!) but she still Does before she dies (which, again, I Don't think should've happened. she didn't deserve 2 go out like tht + she deserved so much more of her story being told).

so there's the conflict of beliefs between thm. I think Amanda definitely starts out like Lawrence does, completely devoted + believing every word John says, but thru II we can see that certainty begin to falter n her faith in John is completely shaken by the end. I don't think Lawrence wld Know she felt tht way until after she died, if he ever finds out at all, bc I doubt that's smth she'd want to express. it's not even smth she discusses w John himself until III, in which she's already made up her mind to shoot Lynn as a final act of misguided disobedience. I still think tht Lawrence wld feel fr her in some way, though, bc even b4 he became a disciple he was rather horrified when Sing + Tapp had him sit thru her testimony; his feelings would change on this a lil, bc he'd see it as her rebirth (as she once did too), but I still feel like he'd want 2 like. watch over her a little. not super directly, + not because he felt threatened by her presence or anything like that, but because they're in this together n I'm sure John's told him abt some of the circumstances regarding how she came to be a disciple after her game as well. I feel like he wld definitely be saddened by her passing, bc I feel he'd come 2 respect her at least a bit, but fr him it's like. they have 2 keep moving. John is gone now too, smth I'm sure was probably a pretty huge blow fr Lawrence, and now he has to put his energy into making sure Hoffman stays unaware of him. just in case he has to act on that warning John gave him abt Jill. but he wld still miss Amanda n wld mourn her, to be sure.

I don't think they'd be close or anything like tht. kind of just friendly coworkers who only see each other every once in a while, passing thru the doors of each other's lives with a nod and a wave and maybe a greeting if they're feeling up 2 it. they're not too involved. Amanda can't tell u tht Lawrence's favourite flowers are sunflowers. Lawrence can't tell u tht Amanda's favourite smell is lavender or tht her favourite colour is a deep, almost greyish purple. but they're connected thru John, thru their work, n that still means smth to both of them, at least in some manner. when Amanda dies, Lawrence grieves. Jill pays for her headstone n Lawrence makes sure to bring fresh flowers every once in a while, but he has to hold his head up n keep walking. now tht John's gone, there's work to be done.

and someone's gotta keep an eye on Hoffman.

[seoafin]

if akutami’s involve in the vol 0 movie promotion,, it would probably be deadpool-esque promo for vol 0 movie :

"merry christmas ❤️" ; "a story about love"

crossing my fingers for some ovas for the lightnovel(s)

we'd be lucky if we get 5 seasons, but judging by how sensei wants to end it quickly,, well, 4 is pushing it. i think.

i rly want to see what actually happened in the goodwill event where yuuta won,, and how he left with miguel? it'd be the perfect way to tease shibuya arc (assuming that they'll release the movie before S2)

from the PV itself, i'm guessing it's gonna take 6 months (unlikely) or a year or 2 before the movie comes out,, so same rules apply with season 2, unfortunately. or, they'd release the movie during S2's break ,, or the most plausible one: after S2 (if they plan to include the time-skip and geto’s appearance in season 3 instead)

i wonder,, if they would give a glimpse of toji since playful cloud is in geto’s possesion at that time

i rly wish rika got to grow up and become the feral curbstomping gremlin shaman we all know she would have become,, the more i think of her backstory details the more i feel there’s so much unsaid abt the nature of her and yuuta's relationship

AND ???? (HOPEFULLY) JUJUSANPOS WITH SHOKO?? akutami,, u have 1 job left 😩

*clench fist* u-utashoko content pls

tbrh i feel that it's hard to say sth abt shoko from a canon pov bc we don't see her interactions with them as much, but that gives us room to play!! ,, i think she’s just as nasty in personality as they are (for some reason,, i feel like it’s fight in first sight in their first year, gojou is definitely more of a brat before meeting them) , lol, but in a more dry, cutting way - and it's telling that geto approached her after he defected even though he said he didn't think he could convince her.

i think she's quite clearheaded but very firm in her stance, and i think she would have found gojou and geto dynamic very interesting and entertaining to watch. I imagine in many cases if either of them wanted to talk about the other, they would have gone to her, bc of her familiarity, and bc she's so plainspoken. i think she knows them on a level very few other people do. in a way, she is their witness and observer. i also think it's notable her promoted ability is reverse CT - bc that's just a way of using curse power but it's not an inherited technique in and of itself. this suggests to me that her CT could actually be sth else! since the satosugu dynamics does play into the theme of power in the jjk world, it makes me curious what shoko's ability is and how it would factor into their interactions. In the team, i would wonder if shouko holds herself apart from gojou and geto

@/&/$:&3@ the way i’ll get my hands in any fan works abt shoko 😭 ,, one of my favorite doujin shows shoko’s view as an “outsider” after geto’s death, it’s privated now 💔 but i’m pretty sure it was made by either : AND__re or sin_chin_taisha

iirc the doujin took place in the summer after geto’s death and gojo barged into shoko’s office to visit his grave which confused shoko like “u made a grave for him?? when??” but gojou was “anyways, do u want to come?”— and they went over to geto’s grave and clean it,, all the while shoko had flashback of their student days and her last line was that : “in the end, both of us are a sinner” (referring to how they couldnt stop geto when he spiraled) while the panel shows gojou carefully arranging the flowers + that wistful expression

the last two panels were of stsg visiting a beach together (i assume before HI arc) and it goes like :

gojou : “what if we conquer the world?”

geto : “eh? that’s too much of a hassle”

gojou : “but we can do it anyways, after all, we’re the strongest”

geto : “*laugh* well, you’re not wrong”

gojou kept on talking but when he turn to look at the place geto sat beside him, geto has vanished and all he can see is the vast ocean 😭😭😭😭

also this (though it’s in cn, u can still google translate it) : https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/85662072 ,, this one is abt shoko’s pov starting from their 1st year and what i actually want from akutami 🥴

+ https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/77685037 (the grim/ bittersweet atmosphere + utahime 😩) - 🐱

The movie is going to kill me 😁

I am SO curious about rika like her character profile in the book was fishy as hell 😭

YES!!! if shoko was utilized RIGHT then she could be such an GOOD character. shoko is the only person in the world who knew gojo and geto on that personal level as surface level friends while still being an outsider to their relationship. she has a perspective nobody else in the manga has and yet........and YET!!!! that tentative trust on geto’s end when he approached shoko and how shoko was like “lmao you loser” god.....

that’s such a cool idea omg if shoko’s CT is actually something else and akutami shows us....I’m going to go FERAL. i just want to know more of her outside of stsg you know??? like not just shoko the thirdwheel but more about her family, her friends (whether or not she has civilian friends), etc.

the fanbook didn’t give us SHIT give it to me akutami!!!!!

[adellovesrowan]

RSA- I forgot about Adel’s phobia. If it’s any consolation, I’m afraid of most bugs (literally every bug except bees). JT has nosophobia (the fear of disease) so flu season is an absolute nightmare for her. When you mentioned Cherry and Adel’s similarities you said at the end “ they both have a thing for the teachers pet good girl nerds”? 👀 Wait is Cherry wlw as well? Who exactly does she have a thing for? She shares a favorite color (purple) w JT. Also I’d love to hear indo hcs for Dian 🥺

HSHSJS UR SO VALID bugs are scary lmao. and ohhhh poor jt😭 KFHAKJDKSJ i cant say, its a “trust me on this” situation😌 but yes cherrys a wlw !! ohhhh yes purple gang !! KDJKAJF ok ok well some dian hcs thats been in my mind for some time. if dian were a hogwarts student, he would be a gryffindor. shes a fighter and hardly ever gives up. also he curses like a sailor and a lot of times various indo curses make their way in and its rly unnerving when u dont know what they mean JDJKAJD. also dian calling her friends indo terms of endearment🥺 like abang / bang / bung ( brother ), mbak / neng ( sister ), kawan / kawanku ( friend / my friend ), etc. also him wearing batik would be chefs kiss🥺 hdhdhdhhd i love dian thank u

RSA- sometimes Thea gets mistaken for a lobosca-kim since she’s got white hair and pale skin like Chiara plus black eyes. I like to think Chiara is tall so Thea looks like her in that regard as well but no she’s not related to any of them. She also follows the wolf trend of obvious names. Her full name influenced her design since Galatea means “milk white” and in the myth, Galatea was originally a statue. Wait Thea as an art model for Badeea’s classes 🥺 oh my god she’d be so pretty <3

HDHDHSHDH OH I LOVE THAT ! pleaseeee thea is sooo pretty🥺🥺

RSA- the kids tried burying Dian in the sand once. It did not work for obvious reasons. Also what if Mina added violets or cherry blossoms to Cherry’s hair? Idk what Mina’s favorite flower is but her favorite fruit is mangoes bc they’re the first thing she knew how to grow. She grew other stuff before that but it was out of her control and wouldn’t last too long. JT’s favorite flowers are sunflowers so Mina grows them on her mom’s birthday and Mother’s Day. Mina growing plants when she’s bored.

LMAOOOABDJFBA OHMYGOD dumbass children. AAAAAHH HELLO THATS SO CUTE🥺🥺 MANGO BEING MINAS FAV IS SOO CUTE WTF. ohhhh minas so cute she loves jt so much🥺

RSA- I mentioned the former existence of Skyler and the angel au reminded me of her bc she had blue wings. So what if after the lines between demons and angels have been blurred there are kids with more colorful wings. It does make it more dangerous since people would be able to tell that they’re half demon half angel instead of just a fallen angel or demon. Bianca being homeschooled was cut out since her mom already teaches at a school in this au plus there’s not the ch 18 trauma

OHHHHH half demon half angel skyler !! 🥺 and YA so glad ch 18 wasnt actually real🙄😩

RSA- Rowan passing her scarf down to Cherry 🥺. Cherry wearing it every year during the winter and showing it to her friends. Finn absolutely loves it. When did cherry get interested in baking? Baby cherry with her parents 🥺. When Mina was a baby, JT refused to let anyone besides herself and thistle hold Mina for the first few months. Penny, Tonks, and Chiara convinced JT to let them watch Mina so that Mina’s parents could take a break. It was the least they could do for their old roommate.

OOOOO THATS SO CUTE i need to draw that sometime. id say she tried baking when she was around five years old ! with help ofc. HEYDHSHDHHD jt is very protective of baby mina omgg🥺🥺 god bless the hufflepuffs watching over the baby

RSA- I’m glad you like the idea of brown eyed haywoods. I remember I sent in an ask to a different person about picturing Penny with brown eyes and someone reblogged that with an edit of brown eyed Penny. I was going to include a link to that in this ask but that didn’t work. (The edit was by theatricalasshole. He did a great job on it). Also I saw the tags in the last post and I’m so sorry about sending so many asks!! I would say it won’t happen again but I never shut up so that’d be a lie.

YESSSS brown eyed haywoods are beautiful !! and NOOOO DONT WORRY DHDHDHD i dont mind getting lots of asks but its just taking me so long to answer bc i get distracted so easily and i didnt want to keep u waiting😭

RSA- the school in the early years with Rowan as the only teacher and twenty students like those schoolhouses in the olden days. We both know the school gets bigger as more people teach/study there but the small, cozy nature of the early years. Students growing up and some of them teaching at the school when they’re adults. Students and teachers having positive memories of the school after they graduate or retire. Wait Rowan in dark academia aesthetic/ fashion 👀

SCREAMS the early years sounds so good ohh its so cozy. its what they deserve😩 some good safe education. and YEEEEESS WE LOVE TJAT A LOT

RSA- I’m looking through my old asks and I’ve sent over twenty ( it’s more than that the ones that were bunched together were counted as one each) so thanks for listening to all this, it’s totally understandable if you don’t remember something. Hell I have a bad memory too. I do like reading your responses to the different asks they’re v thoughtful. Do you have a favorite character or idea or whatever from this au bc if so I could come up with more hcs about them?

HDHDHHDHSHD thank u for understanding and YAAA SAME. DHSHHS im glad u like my responses lmao i try to engage with everything u said bc theyre all good takes !! well we all KNOW who my fav character is ( its rowan in case it wasnt obvious LMAO ) but i rly like hearing ab whoever u want to talk about !!

RSA- so this is gonna be the last of this specific bunch of asks bc I don’t have that many ideas rn. Mara w bat wings. Chiara has taken in at least two Wolf cubs (borf and Finn) so I feel like she’s the type to take in strays. Dian gets seniority amongst her roommates since she’s older than their parents (he lived between 1956-1970, so he died when he was fourteen). This is a joke but Ebony from my immortal as one of the music teachers. She bonds with Mara bc they’re vampires (half for Mara)

mara w bat wings yes !!! HEUDUEHHS i love that somuch for chiara. OHHH POOR BABY😭 now i have the hc that dian used to be friends with adels mom, cordelia ( shes indonesian ! ofc i had to make adel half indo LMAO ). or maybe dian and delia are related who knows😩 i think itd be funny if they were related bc then adel, an adult now, would see dian, a fourteen year old ghost, and realize hes related to delia and be like bloody hell youre my auncle. SJBDNDHDHJS i just think its rly funny LMAO.

NOOOOOOOOOO WHY IS EBONY HEREE DJFKAKFNND ohmyGODD😭😭 HEHDUDHSHDHJSHRJEJ ohmygdo but anyway. good for mara😌

[ncvxks]

hello here’s my second intro!! let the wine induced mess commence!!

[ CHARLES MELTON / ARETE / EUPHROSYNE / MUSE 29 ] / [ SPENCER NOVAK ] is a [ TWENTY-TWO ] year old [ MUSIC EDUCATION ] major. [ HE ] is known for being [ AMIABLE & CAPTIVATING ] but [ PASSIVE & NAIVE ]. when i think of them, i imagine [ MESSY PILES OF SHEET MUSIC, BUTTON-UPS WITH ROLLED UP SLEEVES, HALF-FINISHED MUGS OF COFFEE ]. and even though they’re a proud HU student now, we all have our roots. theirs run back to them being a [ MHP (AQUA) ] graduate. i asked around and it turns out they [ ARE ] an AOP student. in their interview, they managed to woo the admissions team by [ WRITING HIS OWN INSTRUMENTAL ARRANGEMENT OF CAKE BY THE OCEAN AND SHOWING A VIDEO OF HIM PLAYING EVERY PART ]. i guess that’s all there is to know! unless… [ mels / 28 / cst / she/her ]

BASIC INFO

full name: spencer ryan novak

birth date: october 3rd

pronouns: he/him

hometown: seattle, washington

sexuality: heterosexual (bicurious??)

height: 6′4″

eye color: brown

hair color: dark brown

build: lean

tattoos: none

piercings: none

style: used to just be graphic tees with loser sayings on it, but since being in the spotlight he’s had to up his game. now he’s got nice, tailored button-ups and jeans that show off his ass. it’s like queer eye came and fixed him

favorite color: green

favorite food: everything

zodiac: libra sun, sagittarius moon, libra rising

mbti: enfj

hogwarts house: hufflepuff

enneagram: type 2 wing 3

temperament: sanguine-phlegmatic

alignment: neutral good

RAMBLING MESS OF FACTS

ok so spence is literally the cutest fckin NERD like?????????????

in high school he was a band geek like we’re talkin first chair trumpet (he can play like every instrument tho)

he owned marching band lbr

and stood out on the field bc he’s a fcKIN GIANT

so he started at hatchet u to study music education and become the band director he was always meant to be

then america’s next top model started adding guys and his housemates told him to audition????

so he’s like #YOLO and w o w he made the cut!!!!!!

he wasn’t one of the ppl who started out super strong or super weak he was just kinda in the middle of the pack???

then they did the commercials and he fckin OWNED IT bc he has so much personality and it rly came through there !!!!

so now he’s actually In It and he just kept climbing the ranks but his walk was still kinda bad???

all that marching band training didn’t prepare him for runway lbr

so he didn’t win but the winners always disappear anyway so it’s ok!!!

he was gonna just go back to college and finish his degree but after his exposure on antm he was a hot commodity so he got an agent !!! and started doing small roles in movies and stuff!!

but his heart was still with music so he returned to hatchet u and continued his studies (tho he’s a lil behind now, since he was off being mr hollywood)

ok so that’s his story now a few more things

tyra made him get in shape while on the show bc he was this skinny lanky BITCH and that wasn’t gonna work (she didn’t want him to get too muscular tho bc that’s not gr8 for models)

he’s a big giant teddy bear and just wants ppl to be happy and hates confrontation akjdfhlds

super trusting so he’s easy manipulated prOTECT HIM

wants ppl to stop asking him if he wants to be on top

even tho he seems like an innocent baby he’s not lmao

definitely got some action in hs bc he was the hottest guy in marching band LMAO

seems like a player bc he’s dated a lot of people but he just loves love???? serial monogmaist??? Hopeless Romantic™????????????

probably gets his heart broken a lot but it’s ok bc his soulmate is out there somewhere !!!

seriously stop asking him if he wants to be on top

wants to be friends w everyone

literally he is still friends w every person he’s ever dated and it causes problems w whoever he’s currently dating LMFAO

always eating

IMPORTANT THING: he has diabetes and his Big Memorable Moment™ on antm was him passing out after a late shoot bc his blood sugar got too low

HE JUST WANTED TO PUSH THROUGH SO HE WOULDN’T GET ELIMINATED OK

(it’s still one of the top ten most shocking moments in antm history)

ok wanted connections????

one of the girls he’s dated (he’s only dated girls in the past but is lowkey bicurious) (def has sucked a dick before tho)

friends be his friend!!!!!!!!!!

someone he can talk music w

flirtationship

someone who has an unrequited crush on him

someone he has an unrequited crush on

a bad influence

someone he’s a good influence on

someone he’s the emergency contact of (since he doesn’t drink/do drugs bc it messes w his blood sugar levels) and he’s always going to pick their ass up

he also drives the sober cab on campus so someone who’s one of his regulars???

idk????????? hit the heart and i’ll come at u!!

[asillydreamer-on-a-crazyworld]

I think it was a setup and the practicing and I’m gonna teach you was for this moment, everyone’s freaking out but I’m like bring on S3 lmao

LOL WORD!

Same here, anon.Same here. I’m not worried whatsoever for next season or even Brio.

 I think that since the beginning they were not meant to be a functional, healthy ship. And honestly? I don’t care that they are like that. Sue me. It’s good to have some dark tastes too when it comes to ships.

We learned yesterday that he actually just taught her how to shoot, probably LOL. And I understand Rio bc like I was talking about it with some friends here, the guy recognized parts of himself in Beth. They were so much alike. Rio knew Beth was a smart person, that she had it in her to be a king someday, and I believe that was why even with the “I’m giving u the keys to the king” thing he actually didn’t intend to give her shit.

 Not this kind of power or control. Rio knew Beth had the potential to become a boss bitch. He said it himself. He warned her that if she wanted to be the king she HAD to kill the king. And we saw a few times in season one, that she wanted to be. The show gave us all the hints: from how she organized that “book club” in her house, to how she lied to  Ruby and Annie when she said she went back to Canada and told that guy I forgot the name that Detroit was theirs, in episode 10, I think?

But Beth was still learning, still afraid of this dark side of hers, and fighting against it because she wanted to be a “good person”. But Rio showed her she was not 100% good. And so, I think Rio didn’t want to risk giving Beth any proper training at how to be a successful boss bitch bc one day she could bring him down.

She would be good competition if she embraced that dark side of hers. So he just kept playing the game, not letting her turn into a queen piece or a king, just being the pawn there.

And yeah, I do think, looking back at the season, that he used her to get rid of the FBI. Or at least use her in a way that would take the focus off him and on someone else while he tried to come up with something to be done with Turner and the FBI for good.

We all debated to the point of exhaustion about how Rio could have killed Boomer himself and his guys, right? And some of us believed he didn’t want to get his hands dirty and that the feds would quickly trace the murder back to him, and some said he needed to give Beth a lesson, bc of what he said to his son “clean up ur own mess”. I think both are true. He forced Beth to kill Boomer bc he didn’t want to get his hands dirty and avoid the FBI linking another murder to him and he also liked the idea of making her do it bc maybe in his fucked up head, shooting her hubby wasn’t payment enough for getting him in jail. 

back then I agreed that Beth had to take responsibility for Boomer’s mess and I still stand to it, since what she and the girls did only made it worse, but Rio and his guys knew who Boomer was. The idiot was getting paid to keep his mouth shut.

Another murder in Rio’s account wouldn’t have made his record worse. Also, he is doing this for quite some time now, Sure he didn’t have a way to make it look like it wasn’t him? But ok, maybe it was too risky with the heat he was feeling from the feds.

But here I wanna u to notice something: Rio started to push Beth harder here.

Following her around to the point it got creepy. And I’m guilty here bc Like many others I was all like “lol Rio is so fucked up. this guy is really into this weird game with her right?” but honestly, that was the first sign that Rio was not that stable.

Then, we had the Brio sex in the bathroom after she said she was out, and don’t tell me that for Rio was more bc I think for both it was like an itch they needed to scratch or the tension would be too much. But again, Rio forced his hand in his game when he came back again, this time at Boland Motors, to “propose” a partnership to her. Like she rly had any choice, right? RIO WAS THE ONE WHO CAME BACK. NOT BETH.

and she accepted. Then, came the “stay in ur little lane” comment and we were all like “wow, Rio. ok, we get it, maybe he is trying to protect her bc she can mess things up and they both will pay”.

yeah. This is right, but he was also protecting himself here, bc it was a huge investment he was making. Like Manny Montana said, at the end of the day, it’s all about Money. And she found out he did something behind her back even when he said they were partners and yeah his motives might be good for him but WHAT ABOUT HER? After all, he said they were partners and partners don’t hide things from each other. And like Beth said in the car with the girls, if something wrong happened, she was the one going to jail. HA. isn’t that what almost happened? Can you really say Beth was wrong here?

And Rio did nothing to help her with it. Which, ok, fair, she did it to him first. Like he threw at her face in a not very subtle way with his comment in the car back in episode 12.

But again, that was her checkmate to him when he took her out. So again, more proof of how these two are not that sane with this dangerous power play between them.

Next: the body parts he sent her. I agree with a comment Heather made on TT that this was the first sign that Brio would go downhill. Many of us didn’t even care that much and again, GUILTY UR HONOR. That was fucked up but EVERYONE EXCUSED A GUY SENDING A WOMAN BODY PARTS BC HEY, HE IS A CRIMINAL. But WHAT IS WRONG WITH US HERE, DRAGGING A WOMAN DOWN- NO MATTER IF SHE IS WHITE, LIKE HOLY SHIT THIS IS SOME FUCKED UP THING TO DO, SHUT UP- BECAUSE SHE WAS SALTY TO HIM AFTER GOING BACK AND SAYING THAT YEAH, SHE BLOCKED HIS NUMBER AND WANTED OUT? YEAH, IT WAS KILLING HER BUT HE DIDN’T EVEN GIVE HER A CHOICE AGAIN.

I think that if Rio waited just a bit more, she would go back by herself. She was dying to go back to the crime world. And she would eventually, but probably not with him as a boss, but Rio just liked to have her around so much…She entertained him.

But notice… AGAIN SHE DIDN’T LOOK FOR HIM. HE FORCED HER TO GO BACK USING SOMEONE ELSE’S BODY.

AND FINALLY:

Kidnapping her and trying again to force her to shoot Turner this time, bc yeah, I agree with Rio, I don’t believe Turner would leave Beth be, bc his reputation was ruined. He would lose the case he spent so many years, probably, working on.

now one question: He succeeded in kidnapping Turner and hurt him. Why did take him so long to do this?

Why didn’t he kill Turner sooner?

 Again, I think he was waiting for the best moment to do it. Maybe, just like he didn’t want to get his hands dirty with Boomer, he didn’t wanna the same with Turner. Good thing he had Beth there with him now, in the game.Right?

again, he was RIGHT. The man wouldn’t stop chasing her or him by default.

was this his “grand gesture”? in his fucked up mind I think it was. Manny himself said here that Rio is, and I quote: “ a dude that has a screw loose.”.

but I believe he was reaching his breaking point, acting on survival mode. He took his things out of the loft. He kidnapped Beth when I believe if he just called her, she would meet him there ( writers, EXPLAIN THIS!). 

but ok, it was done. But the way he kept pushing her, started to scream at her to just shoot Turner, calling her bitch, advancing on her? He lost it. And so did she. The pressure was building between them since episode 11, I think, and it finally exploded. 

She did what he wanted her to do in S1 but she wasn’t ready yet and I don’t think she was in 2x13. It was just a thing of the moment, not something she planned. She just acted on instinct, survival instinct, just like Rio did I believe, with his actions. U can see on his face he was surprised.

And then he laughed at Turner when he was laying on the floor, bleeding.

Rio set up the grand finale to his game with Turner, even getting that camera on his place to again mess with Beth and honestly, this was all fucked up since the beginning.

he always bet high on his moves in this thing with Beth. They both don’t know much about the other and people can surprise u in bad and good ways.

 I honestly don’t think Rio will be furious with her, not long.  The woman actually had the balls to shoot him, a crimelord, well know in Detroit streets, and she just got three bullets in his chest.

I think he can kind of respect that. But of course, it will be hell for Beth to pay, bc the king will get his crown back. 

Beth is not ready to rule yet anyway. I think we’ll see that in season 3 but one thing I liked that the show let us know: Beth embraced this other side of her bc yeah, she is gonna be a mom still but she will also try to run her own criminal enterprise. She finally believes she can do this. Rio was a daddy and he could right? And I believe she will start with something small, obviously.

However she will struggle, and I wonder if word won’t get out that a mom, a Stepford wife, shoot the great Rio and almost killed him.

I wonder what she is gonna do when she finds out Turner saved Rio’ life in a way, bc I believe he did call 911.

I don’t trust Turner or his apparent truce with Beth.

I do believe Season 3 has a lot of potential. And I can’t wait to see how Beth and Rio will fight over their territory and how these two alphas will find common ground again. I agree that in season 1 Beth was the one who went to Rio and asked to be part of this world he lives in. 

 And I’m not saying she didn’t like it bc she did. but I think season 2 was her really struggling with what she wanted and how she wanted, and Rio didn’t give her any space to breathe bc he kept pushing her to just decide and get done with it.

Manny said Rio liked the girls and especially Beth around and that they made things more interesting. I think he knows his character enjoyed this cat and mouse game he had going on, but even when Rio felt something for beth money, again, was at the forefront of his mind. And with what Manny said about Rio, trying to find a way to understand this man mind takes way more than we thought. Let’s see where we go down from here.

[sodasyrup]

I love,,,,, domestic lava au... You should do more of it. I'd love to know more about reka and monty too!

BWAAA...

Okay as I said it’s an au with kittie (6kuro) so I’m gonna grab the things it said and I said lmao

warning its a LONG disjointed post bc im too tired to make. a good post fdhghdf

lovelypeaches08/28/2019cole and kai would settle down real late like....in their late thirties because they want to keep their children as safe as possible, being elemental masters and having enemies and all

at first wu wants them to fight longer and shit but hes OLD so who cares and theres probably conflict on thatbut kai and cole are old enough to realized they dont have to be controlled

so they get married, symbolically if anything, because they've been dating for probably a little over a decade now and known each other even longer, AND been living together for the same amount of time

theyre the first of the ninja to settle down, and they buy a small house in a village thats maybe an hour away from ninjago city

the tininess of the house is made up for by the largeness of the yard, where cole likes to garden, especially fruits and vegetables

cole works as a stay at home free lance artist, doing stuff like commissions, book covers, comics, etc for moneykai does something that puts his charisma to use, probably something in business that lets him advertise and talk a lot..he could never settle down for a stay at home job or anything, even with all his thrilling ninja stories

they have enough money from donations and awards to thrive off these jobs, and ninjago probably pays them kind of like retirement

cole cooks for kai so he always has a meal ready when hes home, so then kai cooks on the weekend

anyways, they have two kids, about 3 years aparti haven't figured them much out yet, but kai and cole cook and bake with themcoles parenting style is very protective and rather spoils them, while kai lets them do whatever as long as its not immediately dangerousthey balance each other out well, so their kids grow up loved and well rounded

lovelypeaches08/28/2019coles always buying them sweets and treats and Kai pretends to be annoyed but thinks its really cute

the kids go to a small school on the outskirts of ninjago city, and get asked about their parents a LOT. they kind of like the attention but it gets irritating

moving on to the other ninja who also start to settle down,jay doesnt really want kids, so he passes on his powers with ~science~ or something, but only when hes a lot olderhe does engineering at borg industries or something, and he messes around a lot but gets away with it bc hes the blue ninjahes like kai and coles kids Fun Uncle, since he lives in a big apartment in downtown ninjago city, with a bunch of cool techkai and coles family often take elongated road trips therejay thinks hes a cool relative but besides being super lenient hea actually kind of embarrassing lol

nya settles down a bit later than the rest of them, because she wants to live her ninja days to the fullesti could go on about my domestic samurai au but her and pixal have a kid who gets nyas water powersnya is much more eager to train her kid than cole and Kai are (they want to start properly training thwir children when theyre like 16, much to wus disappointment)nya doesn't force anyrhing on her kid but she doesnt protect her kid from the fact they'll have to train sooner or latershes determined on still changing the world, so she's a strong political leader, with innovative ideas who doesnt approve of ninjagos government and wants to change it for the betterShe also lives in downtown, but isn't as fun as jayher kid is younger than kai and coles, but kai and coles kids look up to them because they're very independent and skilled! their mom is also super cool, but not in a silly way. she rocks leather jackets and drives her kid around on a motorcycle

lovelypeaches08/28/2019zane is tricky for me...i like to imagine him sticking with lloyd to being a ninja or whatever, since hes going to be alive a lonnggg timehe also wants to respect wus wishes, so he teaches students and fights alongside lloydhe does so much less however, and finds a lot of time to visit his friends

kai and coles kids are shy around him at first, him being a nindroid whose still a ninja, but hes so much nicer and softer than expectedhe always brings them presenrs and enjoys quality time with them, so he's basically their favorite uncle

now lloyd continues his master training, to become the next master after wu dies. hed be the one to guide the next generation of elemental masters as well as their parents in training thembut don't worry, he gets a break too, since the other ninja help him out. hes much less burdened then wu was in the later years of his lifeok thats all i think

My commentary now

little boy whos like 3 and super wide eyed and excited and loves pink (when he foudn out zane at one point had a pink gi he asked if he could get one too)older girl around 6 whos a big daddys girl and loves to garden with cole and make mud piez

the little girl is the fire em - she had temper issues linked to autismz which they worked through her with early and never thought of it but she has a big passion for gardening they mistook for elemental connection when rly she just LUVS IT

little boy is em of earth - hes a natural born leader and stubborn, wide eyed and excitable. again bc they worked w both their kids about their tempers and such they never realized he was just naturally good at keeping his composure. also a lot like jay keeping morals upnaturally strong but both their kids are and i hc the super strength doesnt come in until peubertyz

shes a bit of a late bloomer with em powers but one day their little boy accidentally makes a pot hole inside the kitchen bc he was excited over zane cookingthey took too good of care of their kids and his true potential was simple bc he was a litol kid which was im going to live my best fcuking life with friends and family *rips a hole in the ground

kai and cole are the gross sappy parents that trade kisses n their kids are like thats DISGUSTING youre DISGUSTINGLY IN LOVE

Kittie pointslovelypeaches08/28/2019YEAYEYAYAYYEYAYAYEoh god the little boy is part scenecorelikenot full on scene but like punk y2kwhich is a part of scenealso at first cole and kai are super concerned being a ninja will be as mentally damaging and ack as it was for them at times, but lloyd and zane are genuinely good mastersbutnot to get sadbutwhen tragedy does happen somehow, since neither Lloyd nor zane can ease that, cole and kai are so good at helping their kids e thatthey help them recover from it without downplaying their kids concerns and feelings amd give good advice and loveand make being elemental masters a lot easier for their kids than it ever was for them

me again.....

they always get so fucking scared thokai custom makes weapons for themarmor too he spends hours upon hours making sure its perfect and even prays over them to keep their kids safe

anyway when kai n cole visit w them (idk if theyr just adopted at their current age or like.... adopted as babies or surrogate or?? idk but) they visit lloyd and kai softly says "Look! its uncle lloyd" and lloyd starts SOBBING hes just fucking bawlinghis eyes out and when kai offers to for lloyd to hold him lloyds just like are you suure arre eyyuuu thherye so smsmm all kaiii are yoruur suureee thheyrey babbeises

nya is hesitant but ends up being a really good aunt, i meanshe took care of kai /j

zane is a fav uncle and hes always making sweets for them jay is. also sorta a fav bc where zane comes jay follows and jay has a sweet tooth and also makes Cool Toys + hey wanna prank your dadsalso im dramatic and likekai and cole sitting down and having a convo about master wubc he was sorta a shitty mentor and they really REALLY dont want their kids going through any self confident issues nor over stressing bc theyr KDISeventually kai and cole talk to master wu and actually has wu face his terrible practice towards kids and wu accepting he was.............................a bad 'parent' in a senseblebleblelelelelelellekai works but cole absolutely watches over any training when wu is there at first but lloyd is the master now and lloyd is like..........................i dont want kids to go through what i went through kai is like i trust you but also i will murder every single one of you in this dojo if you ever hurt my little girlim doing what i do and taking an au and running im sorry ghdghdfhJACK RAMBLES....their son refuses to wear shoes he lieks dirt on his feet they never really think much of it but its actually really comforting for him to feel the earth under his feet and feel stablethey think its just a stim thing maybe? theyr unsurebut! turns out him Element(also a fear of heights)lloyd tries to be a serious master but hes a big ol goof and can easily be manipulated

ironically.......its the lil boy who often is like HEY!!!!!!!!!!! WE GOTTA TRAIN!

kai and cole agree not to tell anyone what theyre thinking of naming their little boy until he arrives so when the day comes kais holding this tiny little boy and holds him out gentlyand lloyd is already EMOTIONAL because this is a BABY and lloyd softly asks his name n cole cuts in like "hes named after a really brave dude, montgomery. but we're thinking monty as a nickname"lloyd, choking up:(hc garmadons first name is montgomery)

the girl is Reka which means sweet in maori (a personal headcanon for cole) and shes their sweetheart

lovelypeaches09/04/2019bhrnrng this is in domestic au but col and kai teachign their kids instrumentscole and reka wud play piano duets togetherand monty doesnt like instruments much but he likes to singlike a LOT he belts out a song for everythinghe just lieks his own voice

burdletutt09/04/2019HNGGG HFHMONTY LOVS BEING LOUD

lovelypeaches09/04/2019YEAAAHhes like the type who makes a song for everythingmonty voice we rr goinggg to the parkkkkk and the grass isss.........GREEENNNNNNN and there are LOOK THERE ARE SQUIRRRELSSSS and a playground and the skyyyyy isssssssssssss...*deep inhale* BLUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE1E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kai and cole: you are literally so talented

jay tries really hard to be the Cool Uncle at firstbut Monty just :^TReka gives him an awkward chucklewhen jay stops being Cool ™ hes goofy and thats when they start giggling and liking him more

[id-rather-be-an-outsider]

tagged by @lucypcvensie uwu thanks for putting up with my weirdo self ily <3

How tall are you? 5′2 

What color and style is your hair? lots of people say my hair’s a light brown, but hair stylists say it’s a dark blonde so I’ll trust their judgement // my hair’s curly

What color are your eyes? blue (with these little flecks of gold right around the irises, you can only see them if you look real close)

Do you wear glasses? I have glasses, don’t necessarily wear them all the time

Do you wear braces? I used to, but I developed root resorption and had to get them off early (spring of 2017) so now none of my teeth toouch except for in the very back :( makes it really hard to eat samiches (yes that’s how I like to spell sandwiches fight me)

What’s your fashion sense? so I don’t count most days as my fashion sense bc I wear athleisure ish allllllll the time out of laziness, but when I do make an effort I have two ends of things bc I’m androgynous. so on a day when I’m feeling more masculine you’re gonna see me in a sporty-type-look (spandex, just barely sagging joggers, a graphic tee, my gold chain and jordans, I usually pull my hair into a ponytail and lay my edges), but on a day when I feel more feminine you’re gonna see me in some tried-and-true type of clothes (cute shirt, leggings, heels, jewelry, makeup did, hair down and [hopefully] acting right), but on a day when I’m feeling in-between I’ll try to experiment or be “edgy” (basically mixing and matching or trying something I saw a celebrity do and thought was cute). regardless of any style I’m in, though, you’re always gonna see me with my nails done, whether that means I got acrylics on or that I painted them myself... just know. that’s how we do. and by we I mean me.

Full name? I won’t share my last name, but Eden Amaris (fun fact: amaris can be pronounced two ways!) Is my first and middle

When were you born? December 18, 1999

Where are you from and where do you live now? was born in Federal Way, WA but I consider myself to be from Tacoma, WA as I’ve spent all of my most important years there (early childhood + hs + uni). I now live in Tacoma.

What school do you go to? University of Washington

What kind of student are you? a fucking mess I’m quiet at first, but once I’m comfortable I’m rly talkative and answer so many questions that my teachers will literally stop calling on me unless if there’s no one else lmaooo, I’ve also had several classmates and teachers tell me I should be a teacher and surprise, surprise, I do want to be a teacher for some time

Do you like school? f-f-f-FUCK YEA I LIKE SCHOOL how is that even a question??? to take it down a couple notches, yes, I love school, whether it’s for sports or for learning, I’m always excited to come to school everyday wow what a frickin nerd amirite, frickin loser

Favorite subject? depends on my professor. at this point, I highkey hate all of my classes rn bc I don’t feel like I’m learning anything. that miiight also have something to do with depression and anxiety though so idk what to tell ya man

Favorite tv shows? not a super TV person, but I’m a thot for Steven Universe

Favorite movie? I love tf out of movies, my all time would have to be Dawn of the Planet of the Apes (I just pretend that WftPotA didn’t happen atm bc I hate sm of what happened in it), but in the last few days I’ve watched War Horse (I cried like a bitch lemme tell ya), Secretariat (didn’t cry like a bitch but got teary-eyed) and 42 (I did cry at certain parts but it’s kinda uplifting so ya know, wasn’t super sad) and they were all lovely so if you haven’t seen them yet, go watch them! They’re all free on Netflix

Favorite book? When I was little it was this book called Junket (that thing is older than my grandparents, good lordte), I think some of my favorites rn tho are Heartless by Marissa Meyer and Tales from the Perilous Realm by J.R.R. Tolkien

Favorite past time? a couple months ago you would’ve thought it was crying from how much I did that, but tbh it’s probably drawing, writing, reading, watching movies, listening to music, sewing, spending time/going on adventures with my friends and helping my friends with their lives. I KNOW THAT’S EVERYTHING BUT I CAN’T HELP IT REEEE my most favorite past time atm is helping my friend Charlie clean and organize his room and designing things for his business, also spending time with my favorite little niecey-poo in the WHOLE WORLD OMGOODNESS HERE IS A PICTURE OF HER BEAUTIFUL SELF I LOVE HER SM SHE IS THE SWEETEST MOST CUTEST AND FUNNIEST AND SMARTEST WITTO GIRL EVER AND I LOVE HER <3

Do you have regrets? boy oh boy, do I: taking so long to forgive my abuser (thx for destroying my childhood @ my biological father), procrastinating, not having enough self-love/worth/confidence, being complacent with so many of the friends I used to have, focusing so much on socializing in hs rather than my sports and my schoolwork, being so afraid to just be myself bc I knew most people don’t want to be friends with a weirdo, the list goes on, all I can do now is move past it though so... ohwell.

Dream job? oh SIS get ready for this: sooo I want to own my own business, known as LEAD Revitalization (L for Love, E for Equity, A for Advocacy, D for Diplomacy - these are the core values of my business), which aims to help revitalize underdeveloped and underserved ethnic communities in the US and around the world and fight against gentrification through implementing art of all mediums in or near historic locations in that community that is representative of the demographic living there (so if the area is a primarily black neighborhood, you’re gonna see art depicting black history and culture, and if the area is primarily Asian you’d see Asian history and culture). I won’t get too into it just bc that would make this post way too long, but if anyone’s interested or wants to hear more you can bml ;) like literally bc I’m passionate af about it so I will talk your head off for days on end if given the chance

Would you ever like to be married? yes

Would you like kids? yes

How many? two or three of my own (I’m hoping for a girl and a boy) just so I can have the experience of having kids, but once they’re grown and out of the house I would like to adopt more if I have the resources to. my cousin’s adopted, so like, idk. I think that if you can adopt a kid, you should, bc there’s so many of them just stuck in the foster system and that’s complete bs

Do you like shopping? yes but I usually don’t like getting myself things (unless if we’re talking groceries or something I actually need), I love to buy things for other ppl tho if I can

What countries have you visited? canada for like 3 days technically, I just went to Mt. Whistler for spring snowboarding (that shit hurted) with my aunt bc she paid for the whole thing and my passport

Scariest nightmare you have ever had? TRIGGER WARNING: DOMESTIC AND SEXUAL VIOLENCE - I had a nightmare awhile ago that this guy I used to be involved with raped me, I also used to have recurring nightmares after I stopped going to my biological father’s house for visitation where he would come searching for me trying to kill me and my older brother (he’s tried to kill me 3+ times sooo... it makes sense). so like. fun.

Any enemies? S A T A N and myself, or.... my brain, I guess. idk.

Self-doubt? you betcha

Any significant other? kinda? I’m currently fwb with my ex and still have feelings for him (oopsies), we split bc he was going through shit and needed to figure himself out, I’ve been close to him for a phat minute so I’m not really trippin about it. I also have crushes on other people, but nothing’s presented itself as something worth pursuing yet so. yakno.

Do you believe in miracles? lmao I would fuckin hope so, the very fact that I’m alive rn is a gd miracle so yea

How are you? I am so-so. If we’re just talking about today, I’m prolly fine, but if we’re talking long term, I’ve been going through it. I’m just trying to figure myself out atm, and it’s rough, but I’ll probably get there. My friends think I will, at least.

i tag: @crookedly-rainy @secretpatrolpiespy hi I don’t have any other friends on Tumblr so I tagged my friends from Amino Y E E T

[valianc]

❧ he was like the sun, burning with courage and light ❧

❝ Your body told me in a dream it’s never been afraid of anything. ❞ TOM MADEN? No, that’s actually JAMES SIRIUS POTTER. Only NINETEEN years old, this GRYFFINDOR alumni works as a CHASER FOR THE MONTROSE MAGPIES and is sided with THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX. HE identifies as a CIS MAN and is a HALF-BLOOD who is known to be IMPULSIVE, EMOTIONAL, and QUIXOTIC but also COURAGEOUS, STEADFAST, and COMPASSIONATE. { JANE, TWENTY-TWO, NZT, SHE/HER } [ james is a donor-conceived child ]

james is, without a doubt, the most thoroughly decent of my lot

eldest of the three potters!! fuck yeah!! sibs 4 life!! potter kids against the world!!

lily is the fire, the inferno, blazing and burning and raging ; al is the guiding light, the lighthouse, looking out for all the ships in the night ; and james is the sun, golden and warm, trying to be steady in his light

(sort of telling, i suppose, about gryffindors that the two lions are the types of light that can burn you — one in a scorching moment, one from being too close for too long)

(or maybe that’s just james thinking — three people he loved, all gone in one night)

grief tw, parental death tw, death tw // harry died. minerva died. kingsley died. in one fell swoop. his father is dead, and all james can think is — he let him down. his father has always survived, has always fought for what mattered, has always taken care of james—had, he reminds himself, had—and when it came to it, james couldn’t protect him. maybe if james had been something better and braver and more important, like an auror, or something, anything, anything but what he is, maybe he could have saved him. ( and sometimes james wishes desperately that he was better—not to be the best or anything, but just to be good enough to save them for once. ) the world has always wanted pieces of them, these children of war heroes, even if the war wasn’t really a war, even if his father stopped it before it could be — his father was still a hero, and it mattered, being the chosen one’s children, even if it shouldn’t have. and james has always walked that line, not naturally responsible, but something steady in his chest, with light in his laugh and teasing smirks and cheeky quips and a playful disposition, but that sense — in the quiet moments between breaths, or when the night is cold and they’re the last few people awake under the light of the moon and stars — of looking out for his siblings, his family. it’s like: there is a difference between being responsible for and looking out for someone, and james has always felt the latter, but never has it been a heavy weight to bear until now. it is not responsibility burning at him, not really, because he trusts his loved ones to take care of themselves, he trusts them with everything, but that sense he should be doing more pulls at him. looking out for them has always come naturally, easy as breathing, and part of that was always in the assurance of his parents’ presence, of everyone’s presence — what couldn’t they do, as a family? what could possibly make the world spin fast enough that he couldn’t keep his balance? but the world is different now. it is missing its pillars. and for the first time, james isn’t sure how to look out for them. it’s not that he doesn’t trust them, because that hasn’t changed. it’s just that the world is an unfamiliar place now, one that took away three of the pillars that held up his sky, and he’s scared he won’t be able to bear the weight without their help.  end grief tw, parental death tw, death tw //

oof that was a bunch

james used to be a gryffindor, captain & chaser / member of the art club, herbology club and comc club, but he was chronic for missing some meetings of all of them on occasion bc of quidditch duties and some detentions (he mostly made it, though, especially art club)

current resident of the fulham flat, along with fred weasley, arabella mcgonagall, quinn lacey, sage brown-patil and maddie macmillan-bones (?)

he is... too trusting

lmao

or like

he’s always trusted easily, and he’s not breaking the habit as quickly as he ought to in war time (plot op to fuck him up, ig // especially if you wanna make ezekiel gamp and kill two birds w one stone and be part of the ICONIQUE™ sibling duo w gemma gamp, pls @ ariull for more)

a lowkey chaotic, but good-natured

dog person extraordinaire (lily gave him a puppy for getting signed to a pro tam and he loves him w his whole heart. name is tbd but options in the flat have included: james 3, fred 3, pup, florida man, sir scooby doo the smartest, and james 2 until it was pointed out that james is actually already the second so it would be the third)

the flat has two goldfish named frozzle and grozzle

very big on fair play w quidditch

has flown over to charles in the middle of a match to angrily call him out on his players endangering people before

he’s signed with the montrose magpies and plays chaser — he did have interest from the appleby arrows and the caerphilly catapults, but the magpies are based in scotland and make it easier for him to just drop in on hogsmeade weekends

he visits hogwarts sometimes solely to see hagrid, and remembers to catch up with his family too

his favourite quidditch players are his mother, viktor krum and lucinda talkalot

the only potter kid you could reasonably accuse of being a romantic smh

also he and al are tall (esp al) and lily is tiny lmao

james is the friend who will thwart your drunken attempts at running across the road screaming FREEDOMMMMM

however, also the anti-mom friend who just says whatever the fuck he’s thinking when drunk, which can lead to impulsive ideas and unexpected directions and a lot of headaches for ara, who is trying her best to keep the flat alive, goddammit james, fred come back here, quinn oh my gOD, sage, please don’t teach any of them to pick locks—

needs to get better at believing or expecting the worst in people lmao

if you could mix his trustingness with lily’s lack of trust/suspicious nature, you might get a person well-equipped for life

things roll off him pretty easily in general, and he takes life with a lot of ease, but when something hurts his feelings, you can see it

just not great at hiding his emotions in general, tbh

me @ him always: u dumb fuck

actually rly good at transfiguration, could have one day been a prof in another life

v likely to eventually be a healer, either following a quidditch injury or something else

thank god quinn made him study well for his NEWTs huh

we stan a ravenclaw who breaks into gryffindor common room during study season

kinda feels like he should quit quidditch, like what is he doing still playing, he feels like it’s selfish and wrong of him, but roxanne has been yelling @ him to keep on track!!

ok i’mma stop here bc he’s a disaster sag and things will just keep rambling on if i don’t

4:23 am jane strikes again!!

[carcinized]

hello tobeloved it has been too long since i have sent you a long ramble-y ask so i have decided to simply pop in here and see what happens :) am tired and the brain is a little slow so maybe i will write uou an essay or maybe it will just be a little hi ily :)

how was uour day :0 today was. not great for me sadly but it is okay bc after this week i have april break thank god and my family may do a little easter/holi celebration this weekend which! yay! i love holi :) colors n fun n stuff

OH MY GOD WAIT could we make a version of that on the (web) osmp. where everyone just throws dye at each other. cuz canonically i was gonna have moss be a Blue Enthusiast as a tribute to ghostbur so like.,,, what if-

i rly like this idea time to go drop it in the discord eheh

yeah. holi good :) and also that means we will hopefully watch one of my favorite movies bc there is a rather iconic scene of them celebrating holi :) idek why i like the movie so much and i actually disagree with some of it (though maybe that's the aromantic part of me speaking? hsjfhgjbj) but. yea. yeh jawani hai diwani :D good movie :D makes me v happy

mmmmmmmmmmmsleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy...,,, should probably sleep now but. do not want to >:0

my friend talked to another friend abt stuff today im proud of them <3 now i just have to get them to fix their relationship with their parents and/or trust their therapist enough for me to give the job to the professionals :') its okay tho we're vibing

old best friend sent me a google form that was like "how well do you know my childhood" n i forgot some things or just didn't know some thing abt her and she was like "wow you did even worse than [her current best friend]" and that kinda hurt a bit? idk??

i have a blue beanie and i wore it to a movie night at my friend's house the other day and it made me happy cuz it was like nice n felt comfortable and then my friend stole it and i was even happier. love them sm fr <3

mmmmm look we have a lovely little essay :D i am sleepy but i hope u are doing well and i will talk to uou soon beloved :D

oh also here 🌷 is for u <3

gn beloved ily a lot and am v happy uou are my friend

once my friend asked me who my top 5 best friends were and i was like "you, [other irl friend], uhhh- my friend allyster, and my friend turquoise" and that was a bit of a moment. i need a better irl social life ahah but also uou are a good friend and ily :D <3

(slight nsfw warning asghdfj)

my other friend was talking to us abt stuff with her girlfriend and she was like "okay so here's the thing. how do you know if you're a virgin if you're a lesbian? cuz for straight people it's just that you put a dick inside a pussy but you cant put a pussy inside a pussy" and then my other friend was like "pussyception" and i was lowkey dying and also a bit flustered. so. that happened o///o

mmm fun little anecdote. yea. not sure if youre uncomfy w stuff like that if so sorry ! efbfgjfjgdj

mr cellophane from chicago,,,,, legit gonna cry its so. ewrhrwjefjgwjehf <////3

yea okay. that's all i think. gn beloved i hope tomorrow is good and so is the rest of the week and i am sending uou a warm hug <3

HIII THIS TOOK ME A SEC TO ANSWER SORRY!!! but yeah it has been :O welcome back to my inbox i spose :]]

its been a long day but not the worst, kind of exhausted rn but i'll survive. and YOU GET AN APRIL BREAK HELLO???? that sounds so nice wtf O-o. but yeah some holidays this weekend!! my family only does easter but from what i know of holi it is SOOOO COOL!!! colors :]

OOOOH IF YOU ORGANIZE THAT I'LL FIX MY MOD FOLDER AND ACTUALLY SIGN ON LMAO THAT SOUNDS SO FUN!!! i doubt i'll have much time this weekend (booked w family on saturday and sunday) but i have no school on friday so :eyes: though i think me and my mom are gonna watch jesus christ superstar sometime this week for easter so,, i dunno BUT I WILL TRY TO MAKE IT IF YOU DO o7

i watched a trailer of the movie and it seems super cool!!!! it looks like such a funky little 2000s movie, i think i can tell from the description of the movie why your aromanticism might disagree w some of it tho </3 in any case i hope you get to watch it and that you enjoy :D

THATS SO GOOD OMG!!!! im so happy about that good on your friend!! and yeah, baby steps though, hopefully they get there soon. thats rlly good news though im so glad to hear it <33

aw damn </3 thats such a shitty thing to comment on tho like.. idk man. its a low blow tho try not to take it too close to heart ig, its not a competition + why did she send it to you anyway + thats rude + youre literally an amazing friend and you pick up on tiny things i dont even realize im saying + fuck her + ratio

awww that sounds so nice :] beanies and friends and movie nights!!! :D

a little essay i much enjoyed it!!!! we should vc again sometime for sure, i miss hanging out w you :] thank you for the flower here is one for you 🌻 :D <33

I COME BEFORE SKYY??? HVJHBDJBJD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH IM NEVER LETTING HER FORGET THIS (kidding kidding KIDDING. in all seriousness though AWWW :(( i love you sm king youre so cool <33)

HELLO???? thats so funny omg 😭😭 (and youre all good i think sex is funny im like a 12 year old)

MR CELLOPHANE :(( that song is so :(((

it is tomorrow now (or the day after?) this took me a hot second to respond to sorry, but hello i hope youre well, goodnight probably its later there IDK anyways love you bestie <33 always good to hear from you <33

[chickenfetus]

Hey! so I've been crushing on this girl for about 3 years, and I really wanna tell her I like her and ask her out but I'm terrified of damaging/ losing our 10 years of friendship :-( others have asked if we are dating because we are so close and she always denies it and makes it clear that we are just platonic friends. However, 5 months ago she messaged someone and told them that she liked me :o (She's also openly Bi) should I ask her out and risk losing everything or keep my feelings to myself?

HELloO!!! sorry im replying so late i was busy with schoolwork :^( also im really sorry if im replying Too late jhfghdggdhg 

just a disclaimer: i dont know how good/useful my advice will be because ive had positive experiences when i confessed to my crushes so it might differ !! 

more under cut!!

first of all, i think youre amazing?? the fact that youve had a crush on her for THREE years is ??? wrow u  r braver than any us marine and i think its sweet youve liked her for so long!! also!! its cool that you guys have been friends for TEN?? years???? and i can see why youre worried about confessing!!

i think the reason she denies it when ppl ask is bc well. its not true so its not like she can say Yeah We’re Dating dhhdjdh BUt it might also be for your sake?? mayhaps she doesnt want to make you uncomfortable bc she doesnt know how you feel!! so id say dont take to heart too much!

now for the most important part: confessing. i know its fuCKing scary to confess to someone, because you dont know how the other person will react but i believe that confessing is better than not doing anything at all 

for me, im someone whos confessed to almost all of my crushes, for girls, i make sure theyre not straight before confessing because GOD KNOWS how confessing to a straight  girl will end up lmao... frankly speaking none of my crushes actually liked me back long enough for us 2 start dating, and even if they did im afraid of relationships so nothing ever happened 

HOWEVER im still good friends with the two girls ive confessed to, and i think as someone who knows you very well, your friend won’t like. ghost you because thatd be terrible. of course i’d understand creating some distance for a short period of time if you confess but i doubt she’d stop talking to you forever, seeing as youve been friends for ten years!! 

its also a big plus that shes openly bi!!!! i dont rly know how she’ll react for sure, but despite that i’d say give it a shot! maybe confess first, before asking her out. see how she reacts first! i think anybody would be flattered that somebody likes them! !!! i wont touch on the her telling someone she likes you part because i dont know how reliable that information is.,, 

another thing -- dont get your hopes up. i know that part might’ve  given you some encouragement but remember, its been 5 months dont go confessing because you KNOW she likes you back, confess because you WANT her to know about your feelings. dont expect a relationship right after confessing, because how you react to her response matters!! naturally its okay to feel down bc she doesnt like u back but DONT say “i thought you liked me!” because thats placing expectations on your friend and it might make her feel guilty if you react really badly

though i trust that you know why you’re confessing to her !! i know you want to ask her out but let’s save that for after she’s responded and as much as possible try to hold the conversation in real life so you can observe her body language (but dont get too overly conscious of it!) 

go in with an open mind, and believe in her. she wouldn’t let this ruin your friendship and if she rejects you, own it. if she rejects you, give up on her, you spent three years pining for her, now you can move on after like. getting that closure?? 

OF COURSE if its requited then thatd be fantastic, and ill be happy for you!!! i wish you all the best, and hope all turns out in your favour! (be it she returns your feelings or the outcome of your friendship) 

if the friendship does get ruined, it wont be on you because its not like you can help who you fall for, and i think you’re once again, super brave for considering confessing!! 

tldr; dont keep your feelings to yourself, tell her! no matter what happens, it wont be as bad as you think!! have faith in yourself and her, in the event something doesn’t work out, don’t forget how you tried!! no regrets okay anon?? i love you and you’re amazing! if youve already confessed and asked her out, tell me how it went! 

ALSO if you would like more opinions on what to do,, you can ask my friend falen but shes on s/h so she might take some time to respond and idk how often she gets on tumblr nowadays but i have another friend chloe who could be of help too!! 

ALL THE BEST ANON!! you can do it! 

[valcntinv]

hellooooo i’m moose (she/her, cst) !! this is my lil bae valentina (or megara if u nasty) but there’s more info about her under the cut !! i wanna plot w all of u so HMU or just LIKE THIS and i’ll come to you !! u can also find her pinterest here bc i’m an extra bitch.

( cindy kimberly; 21; she/her ) – is that [MEGARA]? no, that’s [VALENTINA RIVERA]! the residents remember them as being [INDEPENDENT && AUDACIOUS] and we wonder if they are still [RETICENT && CYNICAL] when things get rough. when they dream about home, they remember [LILAC SKIES, A COOL SUMMER BREEZE, PERFECT EYELINER, and TEARS SHED ON SLEEPLESS NIGHTS]. hopefully their happily ever after is coming soon! 

sO she’s lived in town her whole life and absolutely hates it??? like.....idK all she wants is just to travel and experience new things and live her life and she feels like she’s just stuck in this small town and it’s driving her up the wall

she fully believes that there’s nothing like Here for her u know ???? she’s made for more she just hasn’t rly had the opportunity to leave bc she’s a broke ass bitch!!!!!

for her entire life she’s always had to rely on herself. her dad was never in the picture and her mom wasn’t exactly the greatest parent around?? they never had a lot of money and what little money they did had, valentina’s mom would rather spend on her next score. it wasn’t rare for leni to find her passed out on the couch when she got ready to leave for school or being woken up in the middle of the night when her mom came stumbling home with some random guy

she learned pretty early on how to take care of herself and it’s been that way ever since. she got emancipated when she was seventeen and has been living on her own in this shitty little apartment ever since. 

she’s currently working 3 jobs rn to get by. she’s got a waitressing gig at momma’s diner, she works as a maid, and she also works as a phone sex operator. u can probably guess which one she doesn’t like to talk about

personality wise she is v cynical and just like....generally distrusting of p much everybody ??? but men in particular. she isn’t exactly easy to get along with all the time but if ur her friend she is insanely loyal and she would deadass do anything for u

she’s very bitter and feels like the world is always against her but at the same time she’s like....determined to Fight ??? like everything may be shitty and the world might always kick her when she’s down but that’s not gonna stop her from getting back up on her feet u know??

she’s never been one for relationships bc she doesn’t really like opening up to people like that but she did just get out of a pretty big relationship fairly recently. ( this is for sure a wc!!!!!!!!) she was very in Love with this boy and they dated for a v long time and she was sure they would be together forever bc what they had felt so real and perfect. she literally would have done anything!!!!! he ended up getting arrested and she used every single penny she had & got into business w some sketchy people just to bail him out & afterwards she found out that he had been cheating on her and her entire world just like crumbled????

it basically killed her and she’s been ever more bitter than usual ever since. she’s totally convinced at this point that the whole idea of love is total bullshit and she doesn’t believe in it and any time she comes close to getting feelings she’s like YEET and runs the other way at full speed

& now she owes a lot of money to the wrong ppl so its like..........yikes

she is....hella proud and will not accept help from anybody ever for any reason at all. she avoids talking about her problems altogether and also u will never catch her talking about her feelings. she just bottles everything up and cries alone in bed at like 3am

get offended when ppl try to help her bc she doesn’t want to seem weak 

she’s always tired from work but....always down to party LMAO like....she’s definitely always out at the bar or a club or at some party drinking until her liver gives out and getting high

definitely a sass queen. she always has a lot to say and...........she has no filter so u best believe she’s gna say it no matter what

kind of intimidating, not very approachable, a lil mysterious, but always out here lookin lik a snack

guys probably tell her to smile more and say shit like oh a pretty girl like u shouldn’t be smoking, or such a pretty girl shouldn’t swear so much and shit like that and she’s always just............two middle fingers up fuck u

literally does not care at ALL what other ppl think about her and she’s just....doin her thing

she is v flirtatious and will....literally flirt w anybody just bc she can u know ??? my bi queen

idk what else to say rly so imma just go on abt some wcs now

a best friend!!! the one person in the world she rly trusts with everything and is actually comfortable opening up to?? prob a friend since childhood since she’d have to know them for a v long time

the ex-boyfriend that fucked her over

some party friends!!! she prob doesnt open up to them abt anything but they still go out and have a good time together

some co-workers!!!!!!

a drug dealer maybe???

some fwb for sure!!! she probably has a lot bc she is..........a no feelings kinda gal

literally....anything tbH

[thejgatsbykid]

Valentine's Day questions 1-10

1: do you have a crush at the moment?

yes i do !!!!

2: have you ever been deeply in love?

god that’s such a question. like, every time ur in love u think it’s as in love as you’ve ever been until u love someone more, u know? so like, yeah, i have! but if i loved someone now the way i loved, like, my first boyfriend, i wouldn’t consider it the deepest love I’ve ever loved. the heart always has capacity to love more. but like short answer yes!

3: longest relationship you’ve ever been in?

like all at once would probably be my first relationship we dated for like seven months? but then i dated another guy on-again-off-again for like a year, give or take a couple months, cumulatively, from when i was 16 to like. i hooked up w/ him this summer lol (it was a mistake!) 

4: have you ever changed for someone?

Yea in good ways and bad ways! the only change u should ever change for someone whomst u love is a change to make yourself Better, but for yourself. did that make sense? don’t change bc they think there’s something wrong w/ you. change bc u wanna be ur Best You for someone u love.

5: how is your relationship with your ex?

I’m not on speaking terms w/ any man I’ve ever dated, for various reasons (toxic, exhausting, weird sex stuff, i broke his heart into teensy little pieces but he was a douchebag anyway so i’m not terribly burnt up over it). I still talk to one of my exes pretty regularly and introduced them to my friend and now they’re besties so that’s great, and I don’t talk to my most recent ex much bc it’s still lowkey fresh and idk whether she needs space or not (i’m also just fucking terrible at keeping up friendships and it’s kind of awkward to like. reach out. i was the breaker-up so the ball’s in her court either way). tumblr user vicious-rhythm (i’m not tagging her but she’s probably gonna see this anyway) is my best friend in the world and i would die for her.

6: have you ever been cheated on?

Not as far as I’m aware? I’ve had partners sleep w/ other people while we were together but that was in the context of a consensual and agreed  upon open arrangement so it doesn’t count

7: have you ever cheated?

Nope. I have moved on Very Very Fast from people (ie, within an hour) but it was 1) high school 2) someone I should have dumped. a while before i did.

8: would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?

ugh idk i mean… it kind of depends? like again i am comfortable w/ open arrangements as long as it’s agreed-upon so if that would mitigate it then i guess, but i feel like being well known for cheating just shows a lack of regard for one’s partner that would be exposed in other aspects of the relationship. so ultimately the problem wouldn’t be whether they had a history of fucking other people but whether they had a history of devaluing their relationships and being disrespectful of their partners’ needs and boundaries.

9: what’s the most important part of a relationship?

love, binch!!!! but actually like… it’s so corny but i couldn’t be w/ someone i couldn’t also be friends with. and that’s such the bare minimum lol but like… nothing exhausts me more thoroughly than the idea of trying to Do Love w/ someone you feel like you have to impress or whatever. i gotta be respected and liked as the weird weird man i am first and foremost, not least bc i already have so much anxiety surrounding personal relationships that like. i want a partner to be someone who’s On My Side, someone i know i trust wholeheartedly when i’m twisted up over other shit. i can’t feel like i’m second guessing whether someone Like-Likes me (even tho i almost definitely am, bc i’m anxiety boy, but it can’t be the kind of second guessing where i wouldn’t be able to ask them and trust their response)

10: do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

Serious relationships i LOVE love and i’m just an intense person in general i wouldn’t rly know how to do a casual thing lmao