#and i know i need it cuz last time i kinda went deeper

[yoitsjay]

Bestie when I tell you your fast and for what Tech got me feelin some kind of way 😳🫣🤤 like girl please the Tech community is T H I R S T Y!!!! Anyway love your work 💕💗💘 if your not doing anything could I request a Crosshair x y/n who is a former Jedi experiencing love for the first time? Hope you have a good day or night 👋🏼

Omg thank you! So nice to hear good feedback on the fics I write 🤭 I absolutely love your idea, so here we go! Hopefully I did ok, this one kind of stumped me

Yeah?... Good

Pairings: Crosshair x gn jedi! Reader

Summary: you had left the order when you realized how corrupt it became. But your past keeps chasing you and now you find yourself feeling things you've never felt before for a certain clone who doesn't even know you were a jedi... or does he?

Warnings: crosshair kinda loves u right away cuz your so awesome. Yoda is your previous master, white lightsaber, crystal cleansing, italics is a flashback

Word count: 2099

“The Jedi had become so corrupt! We used to be peacekeepers! Now all we do is fight in wars and lead good men to their deaths! I will not be a part of an order that partakes in such violence!”

Those were the last words you had said to the jedi council, before leaving. You left your whole life behind, and had to pick up a new life and build it from scraps.

You tried many things, regular jobs in the city, mechanical work, ship maintenance. Eventually you had saved up enough credits to leave Coruscant and you did, and you had hoped you would never return but you had picked up bounty work, as much as you hated it, and it was bringing you back to Coruscant.

The bounty was actually put up by the republic, a call for extra aid. You were to meet a small batch of elite clones, complete a retrieval mission in separatist space, and return to Coruscant. Returning to this dreaded planet, but as long as nobody recognized you, you would be fine.

You were wearing a decent amount of armor, and a helmet that covered your entire head. It had a voice modulator so if you needed to speak your voice would be distorted. But your end goal was to say as little words as possible.

When you arrived in front of the GAR, you noticed several different ships but one really stood out. It was an omicron class attack shuttle but it looked modified. It was interesting since you had never seen a ship like that before when you were a jedi.

You continued analyzing the exterior of the ship, keeping a decent distance as you were still waiting on a pickup or for someone to come greet you.

“Ain’t she pretty?” A voice called out, and you turned your head slightly. You noticed this man was a clone, but with several different cybernetics, and a scomp on his left arm. You nodded, turning away from the ship to face the man, realizing that more people, helmeted and in clone armor, were standing behind him.

This must have been the elite clone squad.

“You must be the bounty-”

“mercenary.” You cut off, your modulator transforming your voice as it spoke, making it deeper, and more crackly. The cyber man nodded, turning to look at his brothers. “This is the rest of clone force 99, our leader is Sergeant Hunter, and beside him are Tech, Crosshair and Wrecker.” He introduced, pointing to each individual as he said their names.

You nodded again. stepping forward to extend your hand. The men had removed their helmets, and you could see their brief surprise before Hunter shook your hand. And then you extended your hand to Crosshair, who stared at you before scoffing.

You rolled your eyes but lowered your hand. “Y- Spectre.” You spoke up, almost using your name instead of your codename, which you had quickly corrected.

You had picked the name specter since as a mercenary or bounty hunter, you tended to disappear in plain sight, and stir chaos without being seen.

It was probably because of the modifications in your armor, you had a device built into your suit that allowed you to camoflauge no matter where you went,so you basically became invisible when you needed too

“Alright Spectre… We’ll brief you on the mission on the Marauder.” Hunter spoke up and you nodded, staying behind for only a few seconds as they walked forward. Crosshair roughly shoulder checked you as he walked past, but you only glared, giving him no satisfaction of seeing a reaction.

The ship was smaller than any ship you’ve been on, but it seemed to hold five people nicely enough. Once the ship lifted off, Echo had informed the council that they picked up the aid. Yoda was on the transmission, and he stared at you, despite not seeing you… like he could sense your presence.

“Sense something familiar I do… trust the operative, i suggest.” Ypda stated, looking back at Echo. “May the force be with you. Echo.” Yoda finished before the transmission ended. A sigh escaped your lips, but was not heard by the others.

Soon everyone was called into the cockpit, and Hunter pulled up a hologram of… your planet?

You were born on an outer rim separatist planet, your family knew how strong with the force you were, so they had smuggled you off world and basically shipped you to Coruscant and to the Jedi temple. You were only a child, but you always remembered where you came from… But at the time you didn’t understand why they just gave you up. Until you saw the war first hand with your master.

Yoda.

Of course he could sense you, even through a damn hologram. And now you were returning home, to a planet under heavy siege.

You clenched your fists, but zoned into the briefing, not knowing that Crosshair was examining you, seeing you tense up, and breathe a little heavier before clenching your hands and calming down.

There was something about you, something that he couldn’t place.

“So our mission is to destroy the droid factories to limit their creation so Yoda’s battalion can swoop in and take Rystone for the republic. Specter, we’ve been told you can camouflage, and you're highly trained in stealth. So you and Crosshair will be a team and will sneak inside the factory to plant charges along the main support columns.” Hunter explained, and you nodded briefly.

He then went on to task the others, and soon you were readying your weapons. You carried a blaster, and a longer vibroblade that wasn't quite a sword, but wasn’t a standard knife either. You also placed several throwing knives on different points of your armor, having mini knife holsters strapped pretty much between every armor plate.

Crosshair watched you while cleaning his rifle. He couldn’t tell if you were male, or female. Not like it mattered he liked both. But the way your aura had been drawing him in, he almost felt bad shoulder checking you earlier.

Almost.

Once you were done you turned to look at him, tilting your head. “Will you take that helmet off?” He asked, and you shook your head. “No.” You replied swiftly, and Crosshair hummed. “You like knives?” He then asked, and you nodded. “Easier to use than a blaster.” You huffed.

In truth you would much rather use lightsabers. But that was a luxury you couldn’t have any longer.

Soon the Marauder landed on Rystone, and you all made your way to the city, splitting up into groups once you breached the wall. Crosshair led the way to the droid factory, and you did your best to ignore the surroundings of your home planet. But it felt like the force was trying to pull you in a specific direction.

You pushed it away, focusing on the mission as a grunt left your lips. Now comes your part in the mission. You grabbed several charges, leaving the rest with crosshair as your armor and weapons camouflaged and blended in with your surroundings.

You ran, slightly crouched, placing a charge and setting it at every column like you were instructed to Crosshair did what he needed too, and eventually you ran into him again. You disabled the camo and followed him up to a safe vantage point.

Crosshair commed Hunter and told him the charges were set before he turned to look at you, crouched and studying the area. “Why’d you become a mercenary?” He drawled out, and you glanced at him before mulling over your answers.

“Money.” You settled, it was a typical answer, not entirely a lie but not a full truth either. And even with the modulator-

“Hey! intruders!” A droid suddenly shouted, breaking you and Crosshair from what you could assume was a conversation. You grabbed a throwing knife, jumping to avoid blaster fire as you twisted in the air, throwing your knife towards the droid, subtly using the force to direct the blade which landed right into the droid's head. But the alarms were already pulled.

You ran towards the other droids,picking up the knife from the dead droid as you started slicing the other ones. Crosshair laid cover fire if you needed it, but the way you were cutting the droids like butter?

He was kind of in awe of your skill.

Until a droid had grabbed you by your neck, its punch knocking your helmet off your head and onto the ground. Crosshair was too occupied shooting at the droids advancing towards him, but you managed to get out of the droid's grip, slicing its wiring with a secret blade on your wrist.

You fell to the ground, gasping for air as you gripped your throat. The explosions then went off and you winced, But Crosshair was by your side and he was gently helping you to your feet. “I’m okay.” You choked out, ignoring the look he gave you. “yeah?... good.” He muttered, keeping his hand on the small of your back just for a moment before he pulled away.

Hunter then came over the coms and told Crosshair and you to meet at the rondevu point. So from there Crosshair led you out of the droid factory, taking out whatever droids remained from the explosions.

You had tried looking for your helmet but it was knocked over the edge when you were fighting that bigger droid. Crosshair had been… admiring? no, but he was definitely staring at you, analyzing your features that had now been revealed to him.

He thought you were gorgeous. You had a few scars littered across your face but he liked that, he prefered people who weren't afraid to take hits and then wore their scars without being ashamed.

Soon you reached the rondevu point, and the other clones’ eyes widened when they saw you without your helmet, but what was most surprising was that Yoda was standing beside them, a smile on his face almost.

“Ah, I had a feeling it was you, I did… Young one.” Yoda spoke up. You glanced around nervously before allowing yourself to one knee. “Master…” You trailed off, but his tiny hand reached out, and rested on yours. He comforted you, with such a simple gesture. “Strong with the force, you still are. Practicing, have you?” He asked, and you chuckled, nodding with a smile.

Hearing this, Crosshair and the rest of the bad batch were flabbergasted. You were once a jedi, let alone Yoda’s padawan?

regardless they didn’t interrupt, just staring, waiting.

Just then, Yoda pulled out your lightsaber, a dual saber which was your preferred stance. But something was wrong…

“So much anger, you had for the council. Your saber, connected to you it was. For years, it fed on your hate.” Today explained, opening the saber to reveal a red Kyber crystal.

“No longer a jedi, perhaps. But a peacekeeper, you are.” He stated, and you used the force to hold the lightsaber. You closed your eyes, and sighed.

The red of your once vibrant blue crystal started fading, as you let go… of all that sadness and frustration that you held. You cleansed the crystal, until it was white. You then closed up the saber, and it landed in your hands.

“Right you were, always… young padawan.”Yoda spoke up, looking around. “Sense something evil, i do. Trust in the force, and in your new friends, yes?” Yoda asked, and you nodded, standing up to your feet before looking at Crosshair, who had a light smirk playing on his face.

“hell yeah! Do we get a jedi?!” Wrecker exclaimed, pumping his fists in the air with a grin. You looked down at Yoda, who chuckled. You spoke up. “Not quite, but if you’ll have me… i would love to stay.” You stated, and Hunter nodded slowly. “With the way Crosshair looks at you like a piece of candy that should be no problem.” He teased his brother, and you smiled, nodding to Yoda.

“Take back your home, we will.” he stated, and walked away. You sighed, staring down at the lightsaber before you ignited it. one blade at a time.

The white blades hummed with emotion, emotion you channeled and let go as needed.

Not a jedi, not anymore… But a protector of the light. A lover, a fighter, a person.

With a family…

and boy did Crosshair ever make your life exciting.

Even as he tried to kill you on Kaller, now that was fun.

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[gay-dorito-dust]

Fic idea by @alathan13 (I kinda tweaked it a little but I hope it still stays faithful to what you originally had in mind.)

If this is shit -which it is- it’s cuz I’ve been recently struggling with writers block and a severe lack of motivation. 🦝🦦

Adam didn’t know what to expect when it came to asking his fellow guardians for advice on how he should go about impressing you -the person he’s been so obviously infatuated, according to his teammates- but it went about as well as any normal team conversation could; contradictions and misunderstandings which over time built up towards a full blown disagreement between the more stubborn headed of the guardians.

Some had suggested that he proved his strength in battle and show you that he was capable of keeping you safe, some suggested that he should just be forthcoming with his feelings and just tell you straight up, whilst others suggested that he should try and find situations where you would be in need of his help but Adam didn’t think that any of them felt like the one he could go through with wholeheartedly.

Due to the lack of a satisfying conclusion, Adam had been left at a complete loss as to figuring out his own way of winning your hand, soon discarded to the back of his mind when he had remembered that he was supposed to be meeting up with very soon at a spot you had originally found, before then kindly offering to sharing it with him when he had accidentally stumbled across it after a particularly stressful mission; With that in mind, Adam left the unsuspecting guardians to continue their squabbling, plan already formulating.

You were waiting for the arrival of your dear friend Adam for a while now and you were beginning that he might’ve forgotten, which was unlikely considering how it seemed that Adam never forgot a single outing you took together to your shared spot, or was called as backup for a last minute mission and wasn’t given the chance to inform you of the change of plans. No matter the reasoning you were about to check up on him and his situation when you found yourself not looking where you were going and having walked into the equivalent of a brick wall, almost stumbling backwards and landing painfully on your ass had you weren’t caught in the strong arms of the very person you were looking for.

‘Adam?’ You said, looking at him and becoming hyperaware of how close you were to one another that it left you feeling heat rush up to greet your cheeks. You already knew Adam was a handsome lad with his golden skin, soft hair along with his bright golden eyes but upon seeing him up close and personal; you soon realised that you had merely caught a brief glimpse of his true beauty. Adam’s skin looked as though they withheld the ethereal glow of a million miniature stars with the way the glimmered and twinkled under any forms of light, no matter if it was florescent neons or natural, Adam looked just as godly as he was intended.

‘I’m sorry,’ Adam started, helping you back to a standing position but not making any effort in pulling away. ‘I was almost late to our regularly scheduled outings because I was…preoccupied with asking my fellow teammates an intimate question…concerning you.’ He finished almost sheepishly as he averted his eyes from yours in an uncharacteristic move of…embarrassment? And were his cheeks a deeper shade of gold, Was Adam perhaps flustered? But most importantly why was it that upon hearing this did you begin to feel an overwhelming amount of warmth dispersing throughout your body; from the tips of your toes to the top of your head, all you could feel was warmth, but it was nice, addicting form of warmth rather then one that made feel as though you were burning from the inside out.

‘Is there any reason why you’d go to them for advice instead of just coming to me?’ You asked with a hint of playfulness. ‘You know they’re too stubborn and hardheaded to come a joint conclusion that they can all agree on? You’d be better off getting advice from literally anyone else.’ You both chuckled, knowing firsthand this to be very much the truth but you couldn’t help but wonder what was about you that Adam needed the guardians help for? Did you come off as intimidating to the golden lad? Or did he not wish to be a burden to you as he paves himself a new road to wander; one where he was in control and what he said goes instead of remaining steadfast in his position as the ever faithful foot soldier. Thankfully you didn’t have to wait long for your answer.

‘The primary reason why I didn’t seek out your advice was because I wanted what I’d do to be a surprise.’ He said vaguely, still looking a little sheepish. It was adorable to see him like this as it just means that there was more sides to Adam that you weren’t privy to yet but hope to in future, should fate be so kind to the both of you. ‘And what kind of surprise would that be mr warlock?’ You said softly, bringing your arms to his shoulders as your fingers fiddled with the golden strands at the back of his neck. ‘I wanted to impress you because as of late I’ve been finding myself indescribably drawn to you, and it wasn’t until recently that I’m informed that what I feel for you was described as feeling such as infatuation, adoration and or in some instances, love.’ Adam admits, making sure to look you in the eyes whilst doing so as though to prove that his words were his truth, which was usually the case with him being rather straightforward with his wording that made him extremely endearing.

You smiled softly as you brought your forehead against his, brushing your nose against his, glad to finally having put your worries out to rest. ‘You never needed to impress me Adam,’ you told him softy, hearing the breath hitch in his throat, ‘you already had me impressed from the start, my golden skinned warrior.’

[seelestia]

YEEE NPNP!! college was nervewracking ngl (still is), at least when i started last year august iirc? but yeah! do you know what major you want? alas i cannot chill as much as i used to smh

heheh fr tho >:3 i think the fontaine arc was really well written and went into more depth (get it? depth? waters? ok i'll stop now) and because of how much lore we were given since it seems to be more complex ngl. as for myself, i'm sticking albedo and lyney under the microscope so i can understand them both better

especially albedo. i'd very much like to pick his brain the same way i wanna pick my boyfriend's- coughs

HEJSJD THE WAY I STARTED SMILING AFTER READING THE HCS,,needed that ngl cuz i've been stressed a lot. but i think bedo would be the kind of person who'd do that and create an artificial flower and then name it after me hehehe

but hey, who's to say wanderer wouldn't leave you a flower someplace where you can find it? just a small and sweet gesture and will very most likely deny it (and fails) when you tease him for it mwehehhe i can be devious too ya know or maybe even ayato leaves you a little present like a bracelet or hair accessory after a long day of work

AND NOO ITS OK I LOVE LISTENING TO UR RAMBLES TOO /gen /pos

actually yea i do have some new vibedo trivia! we've officially become engaged and he was the one who proposed first <3 that and he has a tendency to call me "sweet violet" since its an actual flower as well hehe. and tysm!! i'm honestly just doing my best to stay happy since my irl bedo is like very complementary to my personality if that makes sense? like he tends to wear darker clothing, i tend to wear a lot of pastels kinda thing. and so far, we're doing rlly good! sure there are some challenges we're dealing with now but im doing my best to stay positive ^^

also me being 20 ew. somehow i'm still being referred as old sheesh

ok im done rambling now im passing the mic to u hehe /lh

ah, truly. the price of education = freedom to chill !!! 😔 but alas, life is a ongoing journey with hurdles (and i happen to not be an athlete /j). currently, i have my eyes on a social science major atm! so i can hopefully pursue psychology :3 but my second choice is english bcs i cannot stray from the path of linguistics and literature no matter how much i tried /pos. ALSOSOSO if you don't mind, can you tell me more abt what you do in your course? i did my research on google but i think it cannot compare to someone with the actual experience™ ++ i'm just a curious cat and want to enable your rambles hehe <3 /lh

THE PUN, HELP. i agree, the fontaine quest deffo made some waves when it ended. OH I SEE!!! at first glance, i thought i could find a similarity between albedo and lyney (finding vi's type: a reality show jkjk we all already know it's albedo /hj) but the longer i looked, the more i questioned myself 😭 i do think that both of them are deeper than what people credit them for tho! albedo with his knowledge of khemia.... and lyney with his burdens as the next 'father'..... ooOOooO. some emphasis for now on lyney bcs of the 4.6 trailer that just dropped! DID YOU SEE IT YET VI 👁️ (but dw, i understand if you had no time / busy with college!) { the comment abt picking your bf's brain LMAO would he let you?? oh, truly, love is blind 🤭 /lh }

always happy to provide you with hcs!!! my brain buzzes with possibilities all the time && one of the things i love most abt selfships is analyzing how different personalities come together to form habits / idiosyncrasies / love languages of their own. like how albedo conjures up an artificial flower bcs he is simply reminded of his sweet violet — that is special and unique to you in a way. it's vv beautiful, i think!!

AND HSHDHWHSH. THE HCS??? vi, i cannot convey how much i appreciate you. i haven't indulged in my selfships for some time since i didn't have time to be active - so this made me SOSOSO happy aaaaaa!!! but wanderer definitely has left some flowers for me before bcs who else? i suggested the possibility of another suitor and he knocked me on the head (softly) YOWCHHH but hey, at least he admitted it was him! :3c and 'yato.... aghhhhh this man. he leaves a hairpin out in the open but tells me “not to touch it until he gets home” just so he can put it on me himself. he derives joy from seeing me hold back from snatching that thing up myself. meanie /j

AWWW THAT'S SO CUTE!! you two are the apt presentation of “opposites attract”. and i'm glad! i only have average experience with relationships but i think everyone agrees that a relationship isn't sunshine and rainbows all the time. that's as natural as our having good days and bad days in a week. i think what matters is how you both deal with them - and i believe in you & your bf! you're a good egg and ik your bf is too, so do what you both know is best <3 (forgive me if i sound like a grandma here /j BUT hooray to vi and irl albedo! my new fav couple yesyesyes)

[ishouldreallybeelsewhere]

it's weird that the first Matariki i've ever done anything for is also going to be the last one living at home... i don't know as much about it as i should, because it's never really felt like my culture, even though it is... i need to get more in touch with Māori culture, and i guess more in touch with my place in it

it's always felt very distant, and my parents have always treated my and my brother's Māori heritage as a gateway to scholarships and things, which feels wrong... i just put myself down as nz/european on my uni application which my parents would probably be upset about if they knew...

we went to a few meetings with my iwi a few years ago, but my mum didn't know enough to contribute, and i guess thought they'd be more fun? i don't know... we only went to two meetings then stopped and, for the most part, that's been about it. any time i feel like exploring deeper into the culture, i just think about my parents telling me and my brother to apply for the iwi scholarship, as if we need it.

it's like... those scholarships aren't there just because, they're there to help Māori students who have been disadvantaged cuz of colonisation, not for middle class white kids to get a few grand to help with uni, and applying would be taking opportunities away from people who actually need them

but i don't feel right saying that either, because quantities and percentages don't matter, you can't be more or less Māori, you just are, and you might be a bunch of other things as well, but I feel less Māori because it's always been such a small part of my life, and because I am a middle class white kid...

it's complicated and i feel really conflicted about a lot of it... like i just say i'm english or a bit irish if anyone asks, and since my girlfriend is irish, i've got a direct link, and i'm learning the language (kinda) so it feels a lot closer, even though i'm in Aotearoa and i've literally never been to Ireland...

i guess it's also that, outside of friends from school, the most Te Reo I hear is from my mum, who can't pronounce shit, and everything she says feels so performative, like when she talks about saying a karakia kai for Matariki, she's like 'oh i'll just nick one from work, they've got tons' and it feels like she doesn't care about what the words translate to, or what they represent, just that it looks like she's participating

but then, at the same time, she is Māori, as much as I am, so it is her culture as much as it is mine, but it doesn't feel like it... at all... and i can't exactly talk to her about this, and i feel like a can't talk about it to anyone really, but when i was hanging out with my little cousins, who are the generation after me, they just talked about it so naturally, cuz their school has waiatas (māori songs) and one of them was talking about doing a haka for last year's Matariki celebration, and it's a new thing, a new amazing thing, where more Māori culture is becoming an every day thing, but i feel like i'm already too old, and i go to a stuffy grammar school, where the waiata are changed to be more suitable, removing a lot of the call outs and stuff (my irls know what i'm talking about), not to mention the other cultural problems my school has had...

and we got taught a bit of Te Reo back in primary school, but we were taught by our regular teacher, and Miss Hopkins was great, but she didn't know any more than the kids she was teaching... also we were learning Mandarin and i was already so far behind in that...

back to what this post really started as, we're not really doing anything for Matariki, like, we're not doing any traditional celebrations, we're having dinner... most likely an english roast for that matter

idk

i guess it'll change once i get to uni, probably... I would love to learn Te Reo but at the same time, i don't think i'll stay in this country much past uni so it feels like i'd never even get to speak it... then again, it's not like i'll be speaking much irish gaelic, even if i do end up in ireland...

i just really don't know

[maverey]

I'm gonna over analyze the fuck outta this.

DISCLAIMER - I have not read any of Leigh Bardugo's books. Everything I know about the grishvarse, I know from the show, fanfiction and social media. I also don't know much about MBTI. This analysis will be very fanfiction-y and super subjective. Pls don't yell at me if you don't like it.

NINA

Nina being a disaster with everyone except Kaz makes sense cuz, their character arcs largely revoke around the person they're in love with. Sure they have strong character motivations and moments, but they're story revolves around Matthais and Inej a lot. Plus, their sibling dynamic is adorable and, in another life, I could even see them being love interests.

Nina being a disaster with everyone else makes sense cuz, she goes away to Ravka to be a diplomat or whatever. There's distance between her and the crows now. Its only natural thar they drift apart.

Matthias and Nina being disastrous is probably because he dies. Their relationship ended very abruptly. The love they had was very quick and passionate and complicated and chaotic and they didn't get a chance to talk and sort everything out. Plus matthias dies FOR Nina, to save her. Which is romantic but also tragic, and disastrous :")

MATTHIAS

So Matthias and Nina I've already explained. His 'OK' dynamic with Kaz and Inej are self-explanatory. As for his 'perfect' dynamic with Jesper, that's interesting.

Jesper is a very fun and lovable guy. I could see him bonding with Matthias on a deeper level. He's very good at approaching people, and Matthias could very easily joke around and open up to him. Plus Jesper is Zowa. Now, I assume, Matthias is unaware of the Zowa and that he's only ever known the ravkan grisha. Jesper can teach him about his culture and what being 'Zowa' means. It'll give him an opportunity to broaden his mind and un-learn everything the druskelle had taught him. And by connecting with Jesper, he'll form a good bond with Wylan as well.

JESPER

Jesper and Wylan being perfect is just facts. Jesper with Matthias & Nina I've already explained. Jesper and Kaz is just 'OK' probably because Kaz doesn't really let anyone get close to him, even though he cares very much about all his crows. He's reluctant to get closer to anyone of them, probably because of his own self-loathing and his 'armour' Once he takes it off tho, anything can happen. I'll get into him more in his own section.

Jesper & Inej just being 'Not Bad' feels wrong. Probably because I love them both very much and their deleted scene from S2 was the GOAT imo. But ig their relationship deteriorated cuz Inej went off to fight slavers on the sea and grew distant from them. And as I said before, Jesper is very emotional and wears his heart on his sleeve. We saw how devasted he was when Inej left in that deleted scene. Inej being too busy and not being able to keep in touch, could hurt him very much. And worst part is that it's no one's fault. People just grow apart after a while. There's nothing anyone can do about it :""""""""")

WYLAN

I dont really have much to say about Wylan tbh so, this will be quick imo.

Jesper + Wylan = <333333

Wylan with Nina & Matthias, I've explained.

Wylan with Kaz & Inej being 'OK' makes sense to me cuz, once again. Distance.

Imo he kinda stops looking up to Kaz cuz, he's emotionally distant and there's only so much effort he can put in that relationship. With Inej it's geographical/physical distance. Its just hard to communicate with her on a regular basis.

I'll explain this further in their own sections.

KAZ

Now, this is fun. Cuz here's where I get delusional and start headcanoning.

So, I headcanon that Kaz moves away from Ketterdam and goes back to Lij, eventually.

IMO, some time after ck, kaz ties up all his loose ends, fakes his own death (optional) and goes back to Lij. The ice court heist will be his last heist, he's got all the money he needs to start a new life back in his hometown.

He slowly starts to heal there. Re-connects with his old friends and people he knew from the town. A great example would be something like @unfortunate17 's fic Homeland on ao3. Imo, in oder to take off his armour he must learn to love himself. In Lij, being a flower farmer, renovating his family home, reconnecting with his past is how he does it.

Inej, Jesper & Wylan visit him a lot. Lij is great place for vacationing ig

INEJ

Inej's dynamic with Jesper & Nina I've already explained, so we'll just talk about Kaz, Matthias & Wylan.

Now, my interpretion of inej is vvv different from others. Imo, inej values her freedom far above anything else. It means everything to her. She knows what it's like to have all your freedom, all your choices, all your autonomy, everything, stolen from you.

So, when she gets a chance to leave the city that imprisoned her, she takes it. And never comes back. Ever. No seriously, she's not stepping her foot back into ketterdam, unless it absolutely required.

The barrel ruins people. It took a lot of time, effort and patience for to heal. She's never giving that city a chance to ruin her again. She sends letters to Nina, Kaz, Jesper and Wylan. Visits them in Lij. And that's enough for her. And the boys understand, because ofc they do. Inej is a free spirit. She cannot, must not, be trapped.

That's why her dynamic is just, 'OK' with them, because of the distance. And even though she lives the rest of her days at sea, she's never forgets her crows. And misses them all very much.

AND THATS IT FOLKS!!! I wrote all this on the subway/tube/metro otw home from college, so pls forgive any grammatical mistakes. Hope yall liked it <333

I have some feelings about this site

Because the results are interesting

For one , the Wesper stanning is appreciated

BUT THE NINA SLANDER 😡

SHAME! SHAME!

This is mbti headcanons of mine given the lack of confirmation from Leigh, if you want an explanation for Wylan since he is popularly typed as infp , there is a post of mine where i have a conversation on the comments about it https://www.tumblr.com/lilisouless/692880803349331968/you-guys-think-wylan-is-an-intp-or-isfj

[sparklyraccoon]

for someone who is numb and dissociating 89% of the time,

i sure do have a lot of self hate and general lack of regard for time

[autumnslance]

Hi Aeryn! What advice can you give in creating a backstory before 2.0? I don’t know the story of 1.0 or the lore that well, I want to make a good story for RPing or for writing. Any pointers are welcome!

Knowing the 1.0 lore can be handy, but honestly not too necessary, especially depending on your character. Are they from somewhere outside Eorzea? Then 1.0 really doesn't matter beyond the Calamity and the lore the character learns as the player does through ARR. If from Eorzea, even then a character really only needs the broad strokes (and anything specific to their home region/culture). Everything important from 1.0 is available in current lore info, so we don't need to sweat it too much. Besides, they also retconned/reworked a few details from 1.0 when creating ARR, and in the expacs since then, too. Some of that can be blamed IC on aetheric changes with the Rejoining, I guess, but mostly a decade later it doesn't really matter. The stuff that does matter has been brought up in current stories.

Some lore, some advice (or at least what works for me), some options for resources, below the cut, cuz I got this late at night at well, it's me.

Think of it this way: How many details of local, national, or world events of the last 5 to 10 years do you actually remember in detail without looking it up? It all gets kinda hazy, don't it? Now how much history from your childhood, or before you were born? We remember some major things, a few weird or key details maybe, but overall, for many folks, most of it doesn't stick with us as much as our day to day lives, unless we make it a point to know it.

By necessity, a MMO game world is a compacted version of a setting; it shows some representations of key locations, but that's not nearly all there is (the towns are too small and missing key elements, there's not enough farmland, travel is wonky, etc), and no society, culture, etc is a monolith the way things are shorthanded in game. There's wiggle room to make stuff your own.

And it's not like the legacy game is around for anyone to fact check you by pulling up their quest logs. You can massage lore to fit how you like and what works for the character, all anyone--even 1.0 players!--are going to know or remember anymore are those broad strokes and what info can be found in a few preserved cutscene videos/screenshots, or old 1.0 maps and summaries scattered around the internet.

For Dark, as my first character, I kept her story very open and broad strokes. I knew nothing about the game or lore beyond the intro cinematic and my friends explaining how they incorporated 1.0's failure into the story to rebuild it. So she started with a simple, generic backstory that I filled the gaps in as I went. By the time I rolled C'oretta and Aeryn, I had a better grasp of the lore in general, knew how and where to go digging to see if more details about X thing existed or how Y worked, but still left some things open-ended. No character needs every second of their life, or all details of their family, friends, etc, pre-determined and set in stone before roleplay and/or fic writing starts.

I've also stayed flexible as new things are revealed with new expacs; Thavnair in EW means making some adjustments and changes to Aeryn's backstory, but I left spaces in there on purpose for this eventuality, so not hard to paper over. I made up some things about Aeryn's life in Thavnair to give myself wiggle room if things didn't quite mesh with lore once we got it. Most of the time, no one remembers the details but you, and folks really don't care about minor retcons/reworks, so long as it's not affecting their own characters.

The game itself, along with the short stories on the Lodestone, do a pretty good job of going over most of the lore one would need for RP. If wanting to delve more into the deeper world history, and more info on 1.0, a copy of Encyclopaedia Eorzea vol 1 is handy; they are reprinting those finally, and they can be pre-ordered on either the SE site or Amazon. There's also a PDF copy link floating around somewhere (it's likely in my EE tag actually).

@mirkemenagerie I will always recommend as a compilation of lore sources; game, supplementary material, and some interviews/panels with the devs. The blog info all covers 1.0 as well as 2.0, especially since for ARR the devs did go back and summarize or fill in notes of what came before.

YouTube is a good place to find videos about the original game intros and storylines, though they can be really confusing; the Echo sends the WoL back and forth in people's memories from the "present" (the game's start, before the Calamity), and to the time period of the Battle of Silvertear Skies 10 years before that--the one depicted in the initial 1.0 cinematic between the Empire and the Dragons that led to the creation of Keeper of the Lake and the assumed "death" of Midgardsormr.

The main thing in the 1.0 videos though is 1) it's the only time we ever see Actual Yda, in the Gridania flashbacks (and I'm pretty sure Lyse was a later addition/retcon); 2) Y'shtola's Limsa storyline has to do with losing an artifact to an Ascian possessing an elezen man--which comes back around in the Alexander raid storyline in HW, hence her involvement there; 3) Ul'dah's storyline is how Thancred, Minfilia(Ascilia), and F'lhaminn all met, against the backstory of F'lhaminn & friends and what happened to her lover Niellefresne, that's summarized and resolved in Shadowbringers for the main characters, and in Stormblood Alchemist for the side crew.

4) The WoL doesn't know at first they're bouncing back and forth in time/memories (and that wasn't clearly explained until Bozja's intro story and the solo duty into Cid's memory); the sound effect is different and there's no obvious visions. One moment you're with child Ascilia, the next adult Minfilia, but you don't initially know they're the same person. It's meant to be disorienting, but I don't think it was used very effectively and was merely confusing.

5) Urianger arrived later with Louoisoix as the Calamity story took over eventually, and Urianger let all sorts of wild rumors circulate about himself, and the Garleans created more, as he made himself public enemy #1 to distract the Empire from his comrades' activities. 6) Also, the Scions didn't exist yet; it was Minfilia's The Path of the Twelve, and Louisoix's Circle of Knowing. But that's all in the ARR short stories and current lore info.

Honestly, the current game's gotten pretty good at taking supplementary info from the short stories and lorebook and weaving it into the game itself, if not in MSQ then in various sidequests. I never played 1.0, I just spent time looking up old maps (as 1.0 the cities were different, and it had more regions of the world open...though it was all copy-paste-and-spun tiles...), looking through Sounsyy's lore pages, reading the Lodestone short stories, reading through the lore books, and checking on YouTube for FFXIV 1.0 cutscenes.

So don't sweat it too much; look at what's available, come up with some broad ideas to get the gist down, refine as you go and learn more, and be flexible with new lore/changes, and remember no place is a monolith and there can be exceptions to any and all rules, and your RP char will do just fine even if you don't know every detail.

[familyagrestefanblog]

Analysis of the Family Agreste Portrait

Quarantine strikes again and since the Agreste family portrait has fascinated me for a loooong while now I decided to put my thoughts into words and write another essay x3

The amount of informations we get out if it is amazing and its not only highlighting the absolute TRAGEDY it is that this family is about to face such a horrible fall out, it also hints at the former family dynamic before everything went to hell.

So make yourself comfortable and get something to drink, because we will be here for a while.

Here we go: My analysis of this beauty of a fictional portrait

Let's start with the most obvious one: Hawkmoth.

Its commen knowledge by now that the background makes it seem like Hawkmoth is standing behind the Agreste family like a bad omen waiting for fate to take its course and cause their doom. The portrait is brilliantly designed so the illusion is created that Gabriels body (here in a blue suit closer to Hawkmoths normals dark purple one) overlaps with Hawkmoths and a darker line is connecting the two faces as well, which rest on the same height right beside each other. The very same line grows bigger as it goes further behind Emilie - coloring her entire background - showing us that EMILIE is all Gabriel sees when he becomes Hawkmoth. But notice that Adrien on the other hand can hardly be concidered part of Gabriels “sight” at all.

Its forshadowing 101 and damn beautiful if I may say so. But this isnt what I want to focus on in this post.

I want to elaborate on two other key factors that tell us about the former dynamic of the Agrestes instead and what they tell us about the present and future.

The heart:

This is hitting me on another level because look at the heart these three form with Adrien right in the middle! He was so LOVED. This family may have never been anywhere close to ideal but still, there was LOVE and now he's gonna loose it all.

Adrien already lost his mother which led to his father getting even more distant and cold and now his father is becoming increasingly more abusive as he falls deeper and deeper into villainy. Gabriel was never a good father, the show has already made this clear with episodes like "the bubbler", “the collector” or "Gigantitan" for example but gosh there was hope for their little family! The end scene in "Jackady" portrayed it perfectly and I wrote a whole other post just covering the sigificants of Adriens and Gabriels hug in that episode. Check it out here if you want, it goes hand in hand with this one.

Miraculous is all about love and the completely different ways it can affect us, our behavior and actions. Because love isnt just wonderful, pure and empowering, it also can be twisted, destructive and cause the darkst nightmares. And with this family the writers know how to portray the complex love in an abusive houshold thats destined to go up in flames and they also know how to hint at their troubled past with the family portrait.

But this heart visual tells us even more in connection with the positions of their hands. And with these two key factors, lets start with Gabriel:

His hands convey it so strongly. He loves/d Emilie and Adrien so much and no doubt this love for them was certainly the reason why he started his quest as Hawkmoth. But he is now losing himself more and more in the pleasure of his villainy to the point where he forgets why he's doing it in the first place and becomes a complete monster (of a father). But this turn and spiraling into villainy didn't came out of nowhere - this root already had to be in him to grow like that. And this is also something the portrait indeed hints at as well.

Because Gabriel is the only one of the three who:

1. We see so completely open and without hesitation reach out and hold BOTH his family members.

2. Is visually “cut off” from them as well.

But this doesn't mean he was excluded and the only one who truly cared and loved, it just shows that things were more... complicated...as usual.

This is best explained with Adriens hand placements:

One hand is holding his mothers but the other one is visibly not reaching out for his father. But as we all know, that's not because Adrien doesn't love him. In season 1-3 it is made more than clear that Adrien does not hate his father - he loves him alot and tries to be there for him and be patient because he knows that the loss of his mother brought his father terribly down.

Sure, Adrien gets frustrated and angry with him, literally how could he not?? But Adrien tries his best to reach out to Gabriel so they can bond and come out of this tragedy stronger.

But this loving willingness to forgive his father for the chance of growing a father-son bond with him doesn't change the fact that these two didn't had a bond prior to this. And let's be honest here, does anybody actually think this distance between them was caused by Adrien? I don't think so.

So notice how Adriens hand - not reaching out for his fathers - is the only one in the portrait NOT inside or forming the heart.

When the connection of the hands between the family members symbolise their connection to another, then Adrien keeping the hand for his father away from the display of love is VERY telling. It tells us very directly what this distance did to Adriens side of the relationship. Despite Gabriels hand being right there, Adrien does not meet the gesture. And I cannot believe that he did it out of resentment, nothing in the show indicated such strong negative emotions from past Adrien.

It's much more likely that Adrien not reaching for his fathers hand is meant to show us that Adrien felt that he either CAN'T return the gesture because he fears that it'll end in an unpleasant reaction from Gabriel - that it isn't Adriens "place" to reach out to his busy and distant father like that, like it's demanding something - or Adrien simply didn't took Gabriel laying his hand on his shoulder, in the context of posing for a portrait, as a gesture of love and affection.

The way I interpret the portrait is that prior to Emilies dissappearence Adrien did not exactly try to reach out to his father the same way he did from s1-s3, which, I mean, of course wasn't the case. Not only is it NOT the 13 years olds (or younger) job to form an emotional connection to their absent parent - when that’s the PARENTS job - it also wouldn't be necessarily "needed" for Adrien to do so.

Because Emilie at this point was still in the picture so and she was the complete opposite. She was a (or maybe the ONLY) safe, reliable and loving constant of parental attention, affection and care in his life and because of these two HARSH contrasts Adrien learned from very early on to focus mostly completely on her in that regard while kinda blocking his father out.

That most likely wasn't even an active choice whatsoever - Gabriel proofed to be an unreliable resource so Adrien learned to subconciously treat him that way out of self protection. That doesn't mean he had any kind of dislike or malice against his father it just means that he wasn't able or allowed to connect with Gabriel the way he needed. Several episodes show that Gabriel deadass only parented like 15 minutes tops in his life with one of the worst offenders kinda being “Gigantitan” ngl.

So yeah, when I see that the portrait wants to tell me that prior to Emilies loss, Adrien - a 12-13 year old at most - is THIS used to rely solely on the strong bond he has with his mother and not even really reaching out for his fathers love, then I can't help but interpret it in the way that... Well... Gabriel was so distant and emotionally unreliable to Adrien for all his life, that Gabriel simply... wasn't needed by his son. Not at that point of time at least.

And while this may seem weird, because obviously Adrien only now starts to stop craving for his fathers affection and approval (which is btw a horrible, HORRIBLE thing and not something good. A half orphan losing the last remaining hope he had left of having the chance to finally get to form a bond with the only other parent he has left, just to be crushed by disappointment and abandonment all over again until he let's go, is REALLY NOT as much of a good thing people will make it out to be. This is... plain awful) it's actually quite logical.

Adriens hand outside the heart doesn't mean that his father meant nothing to him and therefore refuses to meet and accept his affection (that's literally the complete opposite of what the show shows us), it means that Adriens and Gabriels father-son relationship suffers from a fatal emotional disconnection caused by miscommunication/ a lack of communication.

And this was caused by Gabriel. How? Let me elaborate on that by going a bit far afield (cuz lbh we all have time for this. I’m writing this in quarantine and youre reading this is quarantine, so lets gooooooooooooo).

In "The bubbler" Adrien says that his father "always forgot his birthday", but I cannot agree with this in true honesty. Gabriel is controlling his sons entire life, calls him "the epitome of perfection" and temporarily truly gave up being Hawkmoth for him, he definitely never forgot Adriens birthday.

"The bubbler" even SHOWS us that Adriens perspective of the situation is actually not the truth:

This is Adriens first birthday after Emilies dissappearence and it's incredibly telling how Gabriel handles the planning.

What this entire little sequence tells me is that Gabriel is completely and UTTERLY used to NOT be the one to take care of anything related to Adriens birthday. So Emilie was always the one who did it but somehow - now without her - Gabriel apparently still hasn't even considered changing anything about that nasty non-involvement and just expected Natalie to pick everything up where Emilie left it.

Because let's be real here, knowing Natalie she would NOT have forgotten to get a present if Gabriel truly had told her to. Natalie is never presented to do mistakes like that but Gabriel on the other hand IS definitely presented to us claiming things about himself as ultimate, blameless and true when they simply do not reflect reality. A great example: Gorizilla

You didn’t even speared a minutes of your time for Adrien and he DID try to! Asshat… It's a problem guys. The lack of self awareness Gabriel displays in moments like this is legitimately concerning when you think about how deeply this man is falling right now.

But back to the topic:

Because even if Gabriel didn't even consider doing anything himself for Adriens birthday - not even taking the time to SEE his son (who just recently lost his mother, come on Gabe, really?) - one thing one cannot hold against him: he sure as hell remembered Adriens birthday like any decent parent would and it wasnt portrayed as a this-year-for-the-first-time thing.

And yet Adriens statement still makes complete sense. Because a big, BIG problem with Gabriel is just how much he takes things for granted. He EXPECTS things to be universally known and to never be doubted, just because that's how HE sees them. I will write 10 essays if it's needed to make people understand that Gabriel DOES truly love Adrien, it's just that Gabriel HIMSELF is such a rotten, twisted and toxic person that he cannot see how much his (oppressing) behavior and the way he (doesn't) express his love hurts Adrien and that HE is the one at fault. (for more, once again, read this)

Gabriel LOVES Adrien but he takes the love he feels as such a matter-of-fact that he just completely... forgets to show it.

And when we take Adriens words and look at the Family portrait it unfortunately seems that...

…. Gabriel ALWAYS forgot to show it.

Adriens hand - that should at least be reaching out to his father - is outside of the heart in accepting certainty. Because that's what Gabriels non-presence was for Adrien while growing up: an unreliable and unreachable certainty he had to accept early on as safer to not try to emotionally depend on too much or else he will get hurt.

So yeah, Adrien is the one in the portrait who is very openly not reaching out but only because Gabriel never gave him the needed affection and stability to be able to create that bond.

But let me correct what I said a little earlier: Adrien ALWAYS needed his father. Every kid, especially one in a bad situation like Adrien, does need their parents/friends etc as support system to become independent and confident in a healthy way. And if they don’t have that they WILL crave and look for it!

What Adrien has been doing up to now IS normal for a teenager - humans NEED affection, belonging and safety. What ISNT/SHOULDN’T be normal is Adriens disconnection towards his father in the portrait and just how much Gabriel fails to take care and BE THERE for his son in BOTH TIMES!

Collector:

Bother Christmas:

One thing I like about the show is that it portrays their young main cast with one very important truth: The psyche of a child/teenager of their age will react and adapt so it SURVIVES, even if it results in unfortunate consequences in other relationships and places. Thats the psyches main concern and it'll try to cope with the limited experience and development it has in whatever way necessary to get itself to the next day. A coping mechanism is not there to make you a better person, it ensures your SURVIVAL, everything else is a secondary concern.

So seeing pre-show Adrien not react to Gabriels touch and even feel completely unloved and disconnected from him is no surprise to me. Kids are incredibly observant. They may lack the needed experience and knowledge to truly understand that they deserve better and to stand up for themselves but they are masters in picking up red flags in people and can put this danger into perspective while comparing the different danger levels of their options of people and places to adjust their behavior.

Feast:

Stormy Weather 2:

So the broken connection between father and son we see in the portrait (that Gabriel doesn't even notice but Adrien fully internalized) isn’t there because Adrien “didnt needed” or wanted his father, its because Adrien NEEDED Gabriel so much in his isolated upbringing but Gabriel didn’t LET him need him - so Adrien had to adjust to that accordingly. Big, huge, ENORMOUS difference.

Honestly the most miraculous thing about Miraculous is that Adrien was able to bring up the strength to stay positive and friendly and to forgive Gabriel in hope for a better future. That boys situation is 7 kinds of depressing and traumatizing...

It's just flabbergasting to me how well this portrait shows how basically non-existent their relationship was at that point. And it's horrible to know that this estranged and unformed bond is all Adrien had left after Emilie dissappeared, just alot worse because after Emilie incident Adrien states that his father changed alot for the worse as well.

So to think that all Adrien had left wasn't even this former basically non-existent relationship with his aloof father - who would only barely show his true affection for his son because he's either not around enough to do so or he thinks it "unnecessary to proof his affection" for/to Adrien because he already thinks it so obvious and undoubtable.

Well he thought wrong. And GOSH, it breaks my heart!

So now comparing the "Gabriel" hand from Adrien with the one representing his connections with his mother conveys a pretty harsh contrast.

Because last but not least, let's take a look at Emilies hand placements:

But here is now an interesting difference to Adrien. Whereas we openly see that Adriens side of the Adrien-Gabriel relationship is completely disconnected from the heart/love - showcasing just how badly Adrien has always been neglected by his father - we don't see Emilies hand in her Emilie-Gabriel relationship AT ALL.

Once again just like with Adrien, this doesn't mean she didn't love her husband and that Gabriel was used and fooled by the woman he so utterly adored. It just means that from Emilies point of view things were a bit more complicated. What exactly this is, the portrait is keeping secret from us. We have no way of knowing if and how Emilie is returning her husbands gesture. All we can say is that if she does she is definitely not doing it in such an open and unconflicted way as she does with Adrien.

But since when has anything with this family been this easy?

One thing the portrait makes very clear, Adrien and Emilie had a strong and good bond. Definitely the healthiest because the Adrien-Emilie connection is the only one depicted without any kind of disruption from both sides. Both mother and son are reaching out for the other ones hand creating a whole half of the heart, showcasing their affection for another openly and without any of the implied doubts the other connections display. And honestly? Comparing all the hand placements, the one connecting Adrien and Emilie just comes across as strikingly pure and true (which makes it even worse that it was HER Adrien lost…)

As I said it's a HARSH contrast to the one Adrien shears with Gabriel. This contrast is highlighted even further by the way these three face on another.

Emilie and Adrien are positioned facing another and so are Emilie and Gabriel. Telling us that Emilie was "face-to-face" aka involved with both her husband and son. It is Adrien and Gabriel were this looks wildly different. These two have no way of seeing each other in the eyes the way they stand now/then, further displaying their deeply rooted disconnection. It's portrays perfectly how important Emilie was in this family dynamic, because even though Adrien and Gabriel bearly had a connection at all they at least had Emilie as a link between them, keeping the family together. But then they lost her and where this left both father and son off we know oh too well...

So to collect all the informations we get out if this portrait:

-Adriens and Emilies relationship was the strongest and purest. Both of their hands connect and reach out for another in the heart, showcasing that they had a loving and positive bond.

-Adriens and Gabriels relationship is heavily scarred by a deeply rooted disconnection leaving Adrien feeling unloved and unwanted by his father to the point where Adriens side of their dynamic is outside the heart altogether. Gabriel may love and adore his son just like he loves his wife and never thought he displayed his love for him in a lacking way, but fact is: this love never reached Adrien the way it should have and Adrien is the one in their dynamic who got severely hurt and damaged by it.

-Gabriel was the only one completely unconflicted and happily at peace with the former Family situation. He's reaching out to both his family members with open love and affection in blissful oblivion that neither his wife nor son could return them the same way (to different degrees for different reasons). Gabriel was the ONLY ONE in the Agreste family who didn't saw problems in their lives and thought them all happy, hence why he's so obsessed with changing the past and bringing THIS state of their family back. He was happy and he had everything he needed and loved right with him, of course he wants THIS back. He's not aware that Emilie and ESPECIALLY Adrien did not feel the same about their former situation and that bringing all of them back to this is not the perfect happy ending for their entire family as he thinks.

-Emilie may not have been as unconflicted with Gabriel as he was with her but she is NOT feeling the same disconnection her son feels and isn't depicted with negative feelings towards Gabriel. Her side in the Emilie-Gabriel relationship is neither shown outright positive as with her son or outright bad as Adrien with Gabriel. Her side of their bond is depicted through her unseen hand placement in the unknown area in between.

-Despite their not so unconflicted feelings towards Gabriel - and Gabriel himself being aloof - neither Emilie nor Adrien are actively trying to cut Gabriel out. They aren't flinching away from his touch or exclude him from the heart whatsoever. He's happily included, obviously feeling loved. They may not be 100% happy and Gabriel doesn't notice it, but they aren't denying him his happiness and make him unhappy. Again, he's the only one truly happy here. Something neither Emilie nor Adrien tried to take away from him.

-Emilie and Adrien are facing each other as do Emilie and Gabriel, implying the presence of communication and a bond. Adrien and Gabriel do not face each other, showing their disconnected bond. If they could see each others face Adrien would have been able to see that Gabriels hand is a gesture of genuine affection and Gabriel could see that Adriens expression does not exactly display pure happiness the way he thinks. This also goes for Emilie. Emilie just like her husband is placed BEHIND her son, so even if she is facing him she would not be able to really see just how much Adrien is not satisfied and truly happy with his life at that point (meaning how unhappy being looked up, friendless and at distance with his father actually makes him).

- This fascinating family makes me sad and I like it lol

[imeverywoman420]

I’m sorry I need to say this to someone . Please bare with me.

So I’m 21 and I’m late to the whole relationship/dating stuff. I never had an actual boyfriend or anything. My parents are super religious people and when my mom found out I had a ‘bf’ in middle school her reaction was so bad that it literally traumatized me. In hs all my crushes never liked me and I was too shy/scared to do anything. Entered college and shit closed down, online school, no actual chance of meeting someone. So I never had an actual bf. People started making me feel bad so I download tinder, met someone, and we started to like each other . Something happened were we took a break and since I don’t know how tf to handle relationships emotionally I freaked out and had a breakdown to my bff. He helped me and everything but me and the guy started talking again. I told my bff and he’s like “your so easy and I’m disappointed in u” and it hurt me. I’m like “I’ll be more mature next time something happens” but I just feel dumb and lost cuz I have no idea how any of this works. Everything is just happening so fast. When me and my guy stopped talking I thought it was over forever and gave a BJ for the first time to some random guy and I feel so guilty and messy now. This past week has felt like a year. I wish my life went differently and I had some past experience like normal people when I was younger. I feel like the girl in black swan when she goes crazy goes she’s emotionally and socially stunted and does adult stuff too quickly.

Me too sister…

Like not exactly but yeah ive pretty much been there.

I have never had a serious bf either only one in high school that lasted like 2 months and like. Even then as a 16 year old my lack of romantic experience caused problems in that relationship. Cause he just like. Expected me to know the rules and shit??? Like idk how to rxplain lmao.

What do we even do. Like searching for stuff like self help dating advice gives you nothing. Its just “raise ur standards girl!”

Ok but. What does that even mean. Actionably. And where the hell am i supposed to find this like magical “correct” man

All dating advice for women kinda assumes theres already a guy pursuing you or like. You live in an area where you actually like. See men your age that are at least 6’s on a daily basis. Like its completely non actionable it means nothing and doesnt help anyone. Like oh i need to love myself before i can be in a relationship? Wheres the evidence of that. Literally none. There are so many people more dysfunctional than me uglier than me etc in relationships. Like that is NOT the problem. Theres something deeper.

[bunny-hoodlum]

Asynchronous With You: Ch 5

ship: naruhina

rating: teen (maybe mature later)

tags: Modern Day AU, Foster Siblings, Family, Angst, Unrequited Love, Poor Communication/Noncommunication, Found Family

summary: An awkward journey full of self-denial and missed moments between two foster siblings. Perhaps their love will find the right timing someday.

Neji met them outside the dorm gates. As generous as his dorm-mate Lee was, he couldn't ask him to step out for their sake.

They followed Neji to a nearby linear park that segregated the school grounds from the business park on the other side. It felt like a glass-less greenhouse, with polished granite beneath their feet and a vine-carpeted roof overhead. The benches were slabs of granite, as were the other fixtures, like an orb fountain in the center, with flawless skin of water running over its surface. The full trees muffled the night, with its crickets and distant chugging cars. The gentle, steady trickle contrasted against their footsteps, like two off-tempo drums and hers a mournful castanet.

Now that they were finally here, she was beginning to lose her nerve, she was forgetting what she had to complain about.

All that mattered was that she was healthy, right? All that mattered was that they were actually taking good care of her.

But the last thing she said to her, telling her to go home, saying that at least one of them should be loved by their parents, it began to eat at Hinata.

Could it be that she doesn't have any love to come home to?

Like resonance, her soul trembled and her ribs ached. The heel of her palm pressed against the skin between her wet eyes.

"I've become like them. I messed up."

The bench caught her before she could sink down to the ground.

"What're you talking about?" came Naruto's voice, barely reaching her ears.

"You mean Aunt and Uncle?"

Hinata nodded.

"What??" Naruto smacked his forehead rather hard. "How were you supposed to act?! They knew where you were! Nothing was stopping them from taking you guys back--"

"We don't know that." Hinata argued.

"Bullshit!"

"We don't," Her shoulders lifted, turning rigid. "They could barely take care of the two of us. It would've been the same if they had to take care of two daughters--"

"What about visits? What's so hard about keeping in touch?!"

She stayed silent. It wasn't that she hadn't considered that, it was that it was too upsetting to ruminate on any deeper.

"Ten years, Hinata. They had to have lied to her, right? Raised her believing she was an only child? C'mon, why aren't you angrier about this?!"

She wasn't sure if it was defiance that lifted her chin, but the eyes she chose to meet were Neji's as she implored him join in.

His eyes closed as he released a pensive sigh. "What's she like?"

"Don't change the subject," Naruto snapped. "Hinata needs to vent."

She prodded Neji with her stare. He shook his head.

"Who are you talking about?" Neji punctuated his rhetoric with a sidelong glance, causing Naruto to bristle. "This Hinata?"

"Yeah, this Hinata. Our Hinata. What the fuck, we've shared the same home for ten years! Hinata! You vent! You vented the other month about your-your shirt!" His face reddened as he brought up, perhaps, the worst example he possibly could.

"I was in a weird mood," Hinata said quickly, giving Naruto whiplash.

"A--A 'weird' mood?! What, like you just felt like messing with me kind of 'weird'??"

Hinata lamely shrugged her shoulders before curling in on herself like an armadillo. She could only imagine how exponential his irritation was to increase. She should've answered Neji's question right away instead of trying to convey her complaints to Neji, because now they were getting way off topic. Which was ironic for Naruto, who thought Neji was the one diverting attention away from her pain.

Neji pinched the bridge of his nose. "I don't know what the story is, and I don't think I want to know."

"Good. 'Cuz I don't want to talk about it." Naruto huffed as he crossed his arms.

Silence lapsed around them. Somehow Hinata was rather surprised their arguing managed to fizzle out on its own and so quickly. The past was almost laughable in how different it was from the present.

'That's right. It's always going to be rocky at first, but it takes time to get used to one another.' This was proof that she and Hanabi could grow into sisters no matter how much time had been lost.

"Her name's Hanabi. Her favorite foods are bananas and milk, and she hates the herb mitsuba. She's cheerful, cheeky, and surprisingly athletic. And... I really want to get to know her better." The tears fell swifter and harder on her lap as she re-conjured the heartbroken betrayal she had put on Hanabi's face.

She really hoped it wasn't too late.

Neji joined her side and rubbed her back, while Naruto kept his distance.

Even though he had been given Neji's explicit blessing years before, somehow it didn't feel appropriate for him to console her too.

Looking at them now, it was like those two had never grown apart, not even a centimeter. And they had been communicating with their eyes, he was sure of it. Speaking around him, because he wasn't actually a part of this.

They're what real siblings look like.

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Taking the midnight train back home, Naruto spent the next thirty minutes absorbed in the things that amused him, from sexy two-minute shorts, to prank compilations and this one guy from Kaminari that totally bites at rapping. Absolutely no one, neither he nor his 745k followers know if he's a comedy channel where he's bad on purpose, or if he's just gotten popular for all the wrong reasons, but watching him never fails to inspire a deep gut-laugh from Naruto.

Because he wouldn't be laughing this hard if something was bothering him, especially not a whole host of somethings.

He ignored how arriving at their station didn't feel quite right, how following Hinata didn't feel normal.

He was surprised when she finally started talking to him, yet the weariness her voice instilled was not lost on him.

"Who was the first girl you liked?"

"Hm? Oh, guess that'd be Sakura-chan."

"I see. And how old were you when you knew?"

"Eight, I guess?"

"Eight," The number floated from her mouth in an amazed whisper, "Do you think somebody already likes Hanabi-chan?"

A blond brow perked up. "Is this that protective Onee-san instinct kicking in already?" When she giggled, his heart sank.

"I suppose it is."

And when the silence closed in on him again, he spoke up to keep it going. "Uh, what about you?"

Her steps faltered for a second, then picked up with an exaggerated bounce. "There's someone."

"Still? Like, ongoing?"

"Mmhm."

Naruto blinked rapidly, whiplash striking again. How? How did he not know his sister liked someone? "Since when?"

"Mmmm," She hummed that note a little too long that bordered on mocking him, and he was about to storm on ahead of her, until she said, "Third grade."

"What?!" Ineloquent as that was, he somehow expected her to answer him. He stood there as she traipsed away, waiting until he was finally fed up. "Well, who the fuck is it?!"

"Guess."

He jogged after her. "Kiba?" His mouth soured at the thought.

She crossed her forearms into an 'X', making the buzzer sound in game shows when the contestant got the answer wrong. "Bubuu."

"Shino?" He didn't know what to think about that if it were true. Guess they were both quiet and smart and a little weird. Is that what compatibility looks like?

"Bubuu," she went again.

What other guys was she in contact with?

Shikamaru was a good friend who came over to game sometimes, but he definitely didn't sense anything there. No, no way it could be him. And everyone was pretty sure Sai was asexual.

"Sasuke?" Why not? He was the school heartthrob nine years running. Didn't matter whether Naruto understood the taste of girls or not, they all wanted him. He kinda wishes he noticed sooner now, because he imagining a plain girl like her pining for someone unreachable and he really hates that for her. When she slows to a stop under the streetlamp, he thinks he's finally figured it out, though the truth ended up being really anticlimactic in the end.

She half-turns towards him, her face blank save for the edge of distaste clinging to the corners of her lips and eyes.

"Gross."

He reeled back. "Gross? Whaddya mean gross?" She continued on her way, forcing him to jog after her. "Hey, I can't believe you think he's gross! Are you just being a contrarian?" Her pace picked up faster. "Y'know, like what unpopular girls do when they can't fit in?"And faster. "You really think he's gross?" She was hurrying on ahead and he was trying to catch a glimpse of her face, just a little bit of veracity. "Hinata?!"

They arrived at the steps of their apartment.

"You have until graduation to guess!" She called over her shoulder as she ran ahead, her voice pitching high at the end.

She was upset.

Her footsteps resounded through the corridors like frantic clapping, but he wasn't being congratulated at all.

It was finally apparent to him that he hasn't paid attention to Hinata in a long, long time. That's why Neji was making fun of him.

He took the elevator to their apartment, and when he reached the hole between their bedrooms, he got down on both knees and crouched his spine. They haven't used this in years, he couldn't believe how small they used to be, this hole had to be over three feet from the floor. It was making his back hurt. "Hinata," He bit his tongue with a pause. "What happens if I can't guess by graduation?" Nothing. Just silence. "Hinata? Are you not going to talk to me anymore?"

"Yeah," If a ghost could croak, that's what it sounded like. "If you can't guess by graduation, I'm not going to talk to you anymore."

He palmed the wall as he drew to full height, then stepped away, neither urgency nor insult registering in his chest. He didn't know what was in there. Maybe nothing. He raised his voice a little, just enough so that she could hear.

"I'm going to take this another weird mood of yours, okay? There's no way you really mean that."

Hovering for half a second more, he didn't give her time to respond as he headed for his bed on the opposite side of the room.

Maybe Sakura had the right idea about family. Maybe it's better to just find your own.

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AN: Lel, I totally forgot to add the summary and ratings thing in the last chapter. 😜😅 Hope you liked this one!

[ferg0s]

KNB Characters as Mitski Songs

Warning; kinda sad (also these are my interpretations of the songs lol)

Akashi Seijuro: Me and my Husband

- My interrupting of the song is someone whose existence is only to serve someone, like a wife who acts as her only purpose in life is to serve her husband, and I feel like that really described Akashis personality. He wants to be the best - why? - because that's what's expected from him. His family expects him to be perfect in order to carry on their legacy.

"And at least in this lifetime, We're sticking together, Me and my husband, We're sticking together" - the 'husband', in this situation, is Akashis expectation to be perfect. In this lifetime, he's always going to strive to be perfect - he's never going to stop chasing the idea of perfection throughout his life. Because that's all he knows, that's all his purpose.

"And I am the idiot with the painted face, In the corner, taking up space, But when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved" - He's no one if not striving to be perfect at everything - because that's all he's known in his life and that's all his world is. He has no greater purpose other than being the best tbh. Though he is shown as a leader, in reality, he is just a very devoted follower.

~

Kise Ryouta: Strawberry Blond

- The song, to me, is about admiring someone and hoping to be like them. I've said it once and I'll say it again - but Kise is probably going through the biggest identity crisis of all time. And just the sing-song nature of the song reflects how he feels - he's not jealous of them or anything of a spiteful nature, he looks at them like a child looking up to a superhero - in genuine wholehearted admiration.

"All I need, darling, Is a life in your shape, I picture it, soft, And I ache"-Being the perfect copycat, not even his own thing like Haizaki, he's literally not original at all. He looks up to the other GOM members because of their unique skills because they can claim their achievements as their own. He looks up to them - their uniqueness, their authenticity.

"Oh all I ever wanted was a, Life in your shape, So I follow the white lines, Follow the white lines" - He wants to be like them lol, on a deeper sense to where he can be as confident as them in who he really is. He adores them for being their own individual person, something that he can't be.

~

Kiyoshi Teppei: Last words of a Shooting Star

- ISTG this song can be used as a CIA Torture method. The song is about how things went wrong, and just recounting the last moments while approaching the end (TO ME).

"All of this turbulence wasn't forecasted, Apologies from the intercom" - Kiyoshis leg being injured, it was such a sudden event - not even a natural thing because it happened cuz of Hanamiya, and it came so sudden it literally changed his world - like no one could've seen this happen.

"They'll never know how I'd stared at the dark in that room, With no thoughts, Like a blood-sniffing shark" - I just know Kiyoshi stays up at night, thinking about his injury - his future. He's very enthusiastic about the sport - and he probably would have a career in it - it's sad tho, thinking about him coming home and locking himself in his room and taking off his happy facade and finally letting the gravity of the situation kicked in, that he will never play basketball again or any sport cuz of his injury. He will always have to watch from a distance.

"And you'd say you love me and look in my eyes, But I know through mine you were, Looking in yours" - just the pain Kiyoshi feels when he hears his team talk about advancing further in tournaments - the achievements they achieve - but he'd know that he will never join them. Everyone on the team knows probably. He knows that when they talk about the team moving on they don't include him. He knows he's only a temporary member because he physically can't move on. They can include him in things as much as they want, but in the end, they will carry on without him.

Lowkey crying cuz this one hurts.

All for now, cuz I'm not mentally strong enough to rip apart mfs like this.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Ykow I was rereading the shadowhunter academy and the shadow market (cuz I haven't in a while) and I got sooo sad after Matthew's story because in both we can see him enjoying taking care of others soooo much and just being there for them but now he can't even truly take care of himself. And he hated himself and wasn't close to his family even before the accident and the drinking.

Now while a lot of people are pissed because of Paris I think that this was the best option. And I don't think that when it comes to time that it was the worst or even bad either. Tho of course when they learn what they missed they will be angry with themselves and feel super guilty. Even so:

Even if we want them there to help look for Lucie neither is really in the right state right now and probably would slow them down. Cordelia is doubting herself soooo much right now and would think Lucie's disappearance was somehow her fault and would dissappear into herself. Same for Matthew and especially after almost losing his brother.

And of course we would feel sad for James and we want all the miscommunication to end but he literally JUST learned about this. He has to have time to really comprehend exactly what has been happening. Beyond this he HAS to be by himself for a bit. He has been under the bracelet's influence for 4 YEARS. He has to figure himself out again and that just won't really happen if he jumps straight into marriage and probably both Matthew and James feeling the bond differently in such a close proximity ( when Jace was under Sebastian's control Alec felt the bond differently BUT he felt his life-force still and when parabatai are close the connectionis stronger)

Now why I think that it's a GOOD thing that they went to Paris. Matthew truly does love taking care of people. He may not be in the best condition right now but while we think that Cordelia is gonna be there to help him I think that the reverse will happen. Matthew was introduced for the first time as mother hen fairchild or the caretaker of the group. He KNOWS how to take care of people. We also see that his love for Cordelia is actually real and when he sees that she is not doing good he will help her. And I think that THAT may be his wake up call. Seeing a person he loves in so much pain and he "the caretaker" can't sober enough to help.

I'm not saying he will sober up for her but sober up for ACTUALLY doing what he enjoys doing. Helping people.

As for Cordelia she is strong and will find a way to both detach from Lilith and have a happy ever after with James. With the help of her friends

I love, love, love this.

It's such a clearly written explanation that makes so sense.

Tbh, I was so pissed when I read that scene. But now months after reading it, I'm like...It kinda makes sense?

I think that is also an important factor. The last couple of chapters they happened so quickly - and while as you very clearly explained there are deeper factors at play and these influences make a lot of sense - there is also the fact that all of this was just spur of the moment. Them going to Paris. James chasing after them. Will trying to save Lucie. They are all just in the moment trying to do what feels right then and there.

Honestly, who we are to judge?

And you are 100% right about Matthew. He is such a care taker. And even though he might have feelings for cordelia and even IF something happens in Paris, I don't think he ever intended to take her to Paris for himself. He just wanted to help her. I agree.

I really hope things get settled for all of them soon. They are just jumping from one thing to another. They really need to take a moment and think. But poor bebes can't catch a break :(

[fiddlepickdouglas]

Viva Las Vegas, Pt. 15 - Net Zero Change

Summary: Sunset Curve Alive AU, Willex, what’s the truth?, 2.9k

@trevor-wilson-covington​ is the bestie who makes these lovely edits, we stan supportive friends

WARNINGS: death mention, swearing

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14

Alex, Reggie, Flynn and Kyle all sat at a table inside the record store while Willie took care of closing procedures, currently sweeping up around them. Flynn sipped on her soda, eyeing everyone else with a mix of piqued interest and uncertainty.

“I can let you guys stay and talk for about another half hour, but then I’ve gotta kick you out,” Kyle told the three at the table.

“Thanks,” Alex said. “We really appreciate you being so understanding.”

“Not at all,” Kyle said casually. “And Willie’s in the clear, so long as he never pulls a stunt like that again.”

“Thanks for covering for me, man,” Willie said repentantly at Kyle’s rightfully miffed tone.

“I also covered the cost for that jacket, so you owe me for that.”

Alex looked at him, still unable to wrap what had just happened around his head. Climbing somewhere high and screaming felt like an ideal thing to do right then. He wasn’t angry - at least, he didn’t think so - but he still felt like a bottle of Coke that someone had just shaken and dropped a Mento into. His punching bag was already being worn down enough, but since he didn’t have his drums at home it had been a lifesaver recently.

There was Willie, right in front of him, like a miracle. He was so wonderfully unaware of everything, and there was no doubt he hadn’t forgotten Alex. It brought a strange sense of euphoria that battled everything else that had kept his mind dark for so long. He’d used to imagine running into Willie, even for a while after Caleb said he was gone, and thought he’d be the one to catch Willie off guard and rush toward him with joy. Mostly, he’d wanted to knock Willie off his board as slight payback for that one time, but also because it would’ve been satisfying to surprise him for once.

Kyle had gotten up from the table and joined Willie in closing up the store.

“So, you guys all know each other, huh?” he asked.

“Yeah!” Flynn exclaimed. “And I’d like to think that it’s all thanks to me,” she added smugly.

“How so?” Reggie asked in curiosity.

“I helped Willie get into Julie’s concert in Vegas,” she said. “And I’m the reason you two stuck around here.”

Alex looked at her in surprise. Without Flynn, he imagined going with Willie to the Stratosphere or anything else that night wouldn’t have happened. He owed her a serious favor; he wasn’t going to forget that.

“Are you sure you don’t have, like, magic powers or something?” Reggie asked.

Flynn only smiled and quietly sipped her soda again, keeping the mystique for herself.

As Willie disappeared into the kitchen to clean there, Alex looked at Reggie.

“So, do you have as many questions as I do?” he asked.

“Yeah, man,” Reggie said, peeking back toward the kitchen door. “I mean, does Caleb not know?”

“For someone out of the loop,” Flynn butted in. “What’s going on?”

Alex shifted uncomfortably in his seat and took in a deep breath. “So you know how we got signed?”

Flynn nodded. “Uh huh. And congratulations, by the way.”

Alex merely shrugged in acknowledgement.

“Well, the guy who owns the label used to be Willie’s caretaker.”

“Oh, I didn’t know that,” Reggie muttered. Alex suddenly felt a little guilty for missing that detail when talking with the guys.

“Yeah, sorry I forgot to mention it,” he apologized. “Anyway, the day that we signed on, Caleb personally told me that Willie had died in a fire.”

Flynn stared in disbelief.

“Wow,” she said. “That’s fishy.”

“No kidding,” Reggie commented. “But why would he do that? Caleb’s been nothing but good to us.”

“You guys should be careful. He was Willie’s guardian? If his story is that far off, I’d watch out.”

Peering over toward the kitchen, Alex couldn’t get a view of Willie at all. He was dying to hear his side of things.

“I guess we’ll have to see. Flynn, how are you getting home?”

“Oh, I was just gonna take the bus.”

“With your equipment?” he said, already worried. It was a lot for her to be lugging around, whether she could carry it alone or not. “Flynn, let us get you a taxi.”

She looked at him, and he expected her to protest and say she could handle herself. To his surprise, she simply huffed.

“You’re right. It’s getting late.”

“Yeah, and one of us could go with you to make sure you get home safe.”

“I’ll go,” Reggie volunteered. He glanced at Alex and it was clear he was giving him an opportunity.

“Thanks Reggie,” Flynn said. “You guys have gotta keep me updated with everything going on, though. I smell drama. A lot of it.” She finished the last few gulps of her soda and stood up to grab her gear.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, man,” Reggie murmured to Alex, patting him as he rose to help her out.

“See you.”

As he watched them make their way outside, Alex sighed.

“So, Vegas, huh?” Kyle said as he reentered the room, making him jump.

“Uh, yeah,” Alex replied warily. This guy seemed fairly nice, but he could never be too careful about how much he told strangers. He watched him dust the shelves, trying to relax in his seat.

“Willie doesn’t talk about it much, so I’m kinda surprised he had such a reaction tonight. I got the idea he hated the place.”

Puzzled, Alex didn’t respond immediately. He wondered what could’ve happened.

“Well, I’m sure he has his reasons. But when I met him we had a pretty good time.”

“Hmm,” was all that Kyle said as he looked into space thoughtfully before moving on to locking things up.

Alex realized then that he was the only customer left in the store and he’d simply let his friends leave him. His head was certainly not on straight. The time was nearly midnight, and the options of transportation and his experiences with them only dialed up his anxiety. Busses were just weird because everyone could watch him, taxis were expensive and he’d given most of his cash to Reggie, and the chances of having Bobby pick him up were very low.

“Hey,” Willie was standing over him, skateboard in hand. Alex looked up, startled once again, but the feeling of Willie’s hand on his shoulder softened it.

“Hey.”

“Where did Reggie go?”

“Oh,” Alex started. “He’s making sure Flynn gets home safe.”

Nodding, Willie glanced outside.

“What about you?”

Alex rose with a sigh.

“I’ll figure something out.”

They left the store and slowly walked to the corner. Willie still gripped his board as he gazed up at the red hand on the opposite side of the street.

“Do you...wanna walk with me to my place?” he asked Alex. “‘Cuz you look like you want to talk. Then we can find you a way home.”

Sticking his tongue in his cheek, Alex eyed him thoughtfully. It was almost like they hadn’t just spent four months apart - Willie could read him like a book.

“Yeah, that sounds good.”

Unfortunately, that made him stuff his hands deeper into the pockets of his jacket. He’d let himself take Willie’s hand before and have high hopes because he’d let himself ignore reality back then. Even when the guy who he admittedly still had a crush on was back from the dead, Alex didn’t want to tempt fate again. As they both crossed the street, he felt himself hunch inward just as he had earlier with Reggie.

“So, I’m guessing it’s a little weird to see me, since you thought I was a goner and everything,” Willie started nervously.

“Dead,” Alex said, looking at him seriously. “You were dead.”

Willie slowed his pace and sucked in a breath.

“Yeah.”

For a few yards they didn’t speak. Something ate at Alex’s insides, and he couldn’t put a finger on it. Change had always been his worst enemy, but this was a good change. Willie was alive, then he was dead, and now he was back. It should’ve been like net zero change, cancelled out like math. He should be fine about this, right? Why was he not fine?

“Alex, are you...are you mad?” Willie dared to ask.

He paused in his tracks, arms slacking against his sides. Looking over at Willie, then down at the sidewalk again, he nodded.

“Yeah, actually.” Immediately the eating feeling worsened. “I don’t know why that is, but you’re right. I am kinda mad.”

Willie furrowed his brow, but remained quiet for a minute as they continued walking.

“Are you mad at me?” he wondered aloud, finally.

“Maybe?” Alex said, feeling the temperature in his veins rise the more he went on. “That sounds silly, I know, because it wasn’t you who lied to me and put me through absolute agony for weeks on end. You were just the person I thought was dead and so every time I thought about you, it hurt. I don’t even know why it hurt so much. It’s not supposed to hurt when you’re still practically a stranger to me. All I know is that we kind of liked each other and then I thought I’d never find out anything else. I mean, we only knew each other for one day. One fucking day. That was it!”

Alex saw Wilie flinch at the unexpected use of language. A little too late, he realized he should’ve been more gentle. While it was true that he needed to finally release more than just self-pity, it wasn’t worth making Willie miserable for it.

“Wow,” Willie murmured. It already sounded more wounded than Alex could bear.

“That was harsh; I shouldn’t have blown up like that.”

He looked over at Willie to be sure he hadn’t done too much damage already.

“I can’t imagine how awful that was,” Willie said simply.

The pressure that had heated up his veins rapidly began to cool down as Alex realized he was handling this all wrong. He’d momentarily lost control and already saw its potential for harm.

“It’s not you I’m mad at. It’s Caleb.”

“That makes two of us,” Willie told him. “You want to know what really happened?”

“I want to know everything.”

They continued walking along as Willie seemed to try summing up the past few months properly in his mind.

“I don’t know exactly where to start,” he said.

“Well, why don’t you start where we left off?” Alex suggested. It was only fitting that one of them was walking the other home, just like they’d been doing the last time they’d seen each other. There was a funny sense of poetry to it.

“Okay,” Willie began. “I guess what really started it was when we were up on the Stratosphere, remember?”

“Uh huh.”

“I told you that I have amnesia because I had a memory come back.”

“Right, about your dad.”

“You remember this really well,” Willie commented. Alex bowed his head, feeling his lip curl the tiniest bit. “Anyway, I started drawing the things I remembered. And I mean, I drew every detail I could. Even though back then it was just the one about my dad and then the first time that I ran away from Caleb - ”

“Wait, what?” Alex blurted.

Willie cocked his head to the side as he tried to keep the narrative easy to follow.

“Oh yeah that was weird, I had this dream where everything was backwards and it happened like every night and it took me forever to figure out that it was a memory. Anyway, the reason I have amnesia right now? I was trying to run from Caleb because he was a total a-hole and then I got hit in the head!”

Alex looked at his casual expression with mild horror.

“That’s a lot to process,” he said slowly.

“Yeah, I guess he was putting on a face after that, because he didn’t really get nasty until right before I left him for good.”

By the time Willie finished dishing everything to Alex, they had been standing by his front door for a solid ten minutes. Alex could only stand there and let everything turn over in his mind like a taffy pull. Moreover, a pit of dread was forming in his stomach at the same time as a spark of joy grew in his chest.

“So...Harrison Ford?” he said.

Willie smiled. “Much cooler than Han Solo.”

“I still can’t believe you were literally planning to skate your way here. Even I would’ve ruled that out after a minute.”

Lifting a hand defensively, Willie opened his mouth but couldn’t find words.

“I - I will never live that down,” he chuckled.

Alex chuckled in turn. “No.”

For a moment he just looked at Willie. It was the first time that night where his vision wasn’t clouded with questions or overwrought with mixed emotions. This time, it was just as he’d seen him that first moment when they’d sat across from each other at the diner. That was ages ago, but it didn’t seem to have dimmed or faded one bit in Alex’s memory. Here, he was just Willie. It was so nice to see that again.

“What made you come to LA?” he asked. He shuffled his feet awkwardly. 

“You did.” Willie looked right into his eyes as he said it.

The words were plain and honest. Something swelled in Alex’s chest as he heard them. If anyone else had said that - the guys, Julie, even his sister Abby - he would’ve doubted it a little. That was the awful thing with his anxiety is that it immediately twisted everyone’s words into betrayal. Not Willie’s, though.

“Why me?”

Willie got thoughtful, eyes unfocused for a moment.

“I don’t know. I’d do anything for you,” he said, gazing back up at Alex again.

Alex shifted his weight.

“Because I helped you start regaining memories, right?”

It made sense that if he’d been in that position, the person who’d been with him in those moments would mean a great deal to him, too.

“No,” Willie said. “Just ‘cuz. I still like you.”

Alex blinked and his mind emptied of all thought - a feat he’d never imagined occurring. Soon he found himself caught looking into those brown eyes, and instead of wanting to throw in a line, he wished he could plant himself there and spread roots. If it were up to him, he had no desire to go back home and he would just stay happy where he was.

It took a while to realize that he’d slowly begun to lean forward, lips parted as he gazed down at Willie’s mouth. Their noses were just barely not touching, and they hung in the balance waiting for the other to cross that threshold. Willie looked vaguely hypnotized, if not a little indecisive. His thoughts finally caught up to his actions, and once Alex saw what he was doing he turned away.

Dammit, how could you mess that up, Alex? he berated himself. He was already so out of focus and not thinking about the consequences of his actions; he couldn’t go around treating Willie like something else to dump his turmoil upon. Clearing his throat, he straightened his posture. Willie nervously ran a hand through his hair, visibly confused.

“So....” Alex began awkwardly. “You have your own place?”

Willie nodded, not looking him in the eyes anymore.

“Yeah, it’s kinda nice,” he said plainly. “You’ll have to check it out one of these days. You could see Sheldon, too.”

“Yes,” Alex said quickly. “Yes, I would totally be down to come see you and Sheldon. That would be great.”

He hated that the natural cadence in his voice was so sarcastic sometimes. Right now, it didn’t sound genuine at all and he desperately wanted to convey how much he meant every word.

“Bet you’re sort of busy with the band and school and all, though,” Willie said, clearly a little despondent. Alex really wanted to go back and fix the moment they’d had before. He wasn’t making it any better.

“Well, I’m free all next Saturday. You’re not working, are you?”

“I can arrange things with Kyle to get covered. I’m usually on his good side and he doesn’t stay mad for long, so I’m not worried.”

“That’s good.” A pause. “So it’s okay if I come on Saturday?”

“Sure, sure,” Willie rushed to say. “I’m totally down for that. Uh...I just remembered that we’ve gotta get you back home. Did you know how you were gonna do that?”

“Uh yeah, I was gonna just catch the bus,” Alex said, entirely impromptu. After embarrassing himself so badly with Willie, he could override any fears about using public transportation. All he wanted to do was lift his hood over his head and pull the strings so it closed over his face.

“Got it,” Willie replied.

“But I’ll be excited to see you next Saturday,” Alex added. He saw Willie’s eyes light up a little and it made him smile in relief as he began stepping away from Willie’s door. Biting his lip in his usual cute manner, Willie nodded at him.

“See you then.”

Alex exhaled in excitement as he made his way up the steps to the street, barely able to take his eyes off Willie. Only when he couldn’t see him anymore did he force himself to turn away.

[dirtybtssnaps]

So this is my first time requesting and I'm not sure if ur still open for requests but I was wondering if i I could have one with taehyung or jimin with bbw reader and breeding + size like she thinks he cant dom her cuz she's bigger and he basically shows her and put her in her place but not roughly more soft but a lot of dirty talk pls 🥺 ps I'm officially obsessed with ur blog

Pretty Lingerie

Genre: Lovely smut

Trigger warning: Mentions of being bullied about your weight and calling yourself fat

Pairing: Dom! Maknaeline and Sub Plushy Reader

Poisons: Lingerie, Corruption, Humiliation, Body praising, Oral (Female Receiving), Fingering, Rough sex, Dirty Talk, Kisses and Hickeys, Multiple orgasms, Voyeurism

Word count: 1,780+

"I'll leave it right here if you change your mind." Jimin said before leaving the packet on the table before leaving the bedroom, it's been over two hours, and you're still wrapped in your blanket looking over at it. It was lingerie you never really liked wearing it, you've always been really insecure about your weight since you were young from being teased by it, and the thought of wearing it just made you feel more insecure about it. But jimin has been always been really nice to you, always putting your needs first and not pushing any boundaries. "Just do it for him." You exhaled, "It'll make him happy and he's such a nice guy, just get over your insecure for him." You said to yourself.

You took off your oversized shirt and then your panties and bra then grabbed the packet and opened it, with a little work you manage to get everything on since he liked when clothes were kinda small on you and you had to tie the strings by yourself. You cautiously looked in the full-length mirror, it looked really nice on you and the color looked nice against your skin, and the ruffles, stocking, and leash. You smiled at yourself before walking out of the bed and into the living, then your face nearly dropped, taehyung, jimin, and Jungkook were sitting on the couch together playing a video game and they turned their heads to you.

Jimin opened his mouth to say something, but you walked away from them and went back to the bedroom. The door slammed followed by you locking it then you laid on the bed, you were mortified, guys always had something to say about your body Taehyung and Jungkook were probably thinking about how bad you looked in the lingerie and calling you fat and jimin probably joining in. You got up from your bed and pressed your ear up against the door, you only hear whispers but your name and lingerie were being brought up over and over again. They stopped talking and you heard footsteps coming towards the bedroom door, then the doorknob jigged a little followed by a few knocks on the door.

"I get it okay? I'm fat and I shouldn't wear stuff like this please… just go away and I'll change." You said tears building up in your eyes then rolling down your cheeks, you heard a few more whisperers. "You looked really pretty in your lingerie." Said a deep voice, blood rushed to your cheeks knowing that was taehyung's voice. "Can we see more of you." Said a lighter voice it was jungkook, you blushed a little more then unlocked the door and you took a few steps away from the door. The door opened and all three of them walked in and you felt their eyes on you, your arms wrapped around your body hiding it.

They walked closer to you and you took a few steps back, They walked closer and closer to you until your back was pressing up against a cold wall, all three of them walked in front of you towering over you. You looked up at them and they were just looking down at you they're gazes going from each part of your body, you suddenly felt hands touching and groping your body. You felt the strings of your bra and panties being loosened, then both of them fell on to the floor. “Which of us do you want first?" Taehyung asked, “She’s always told me that she’s too chubby for me to dominate all by myself, so I think she’d just love for all three of us to do what we want.” Said Jimin smiling at you.

You felt a few tingles going up your spine as they spoke about you, you've never really thought that one guy would like you but all three of them do. "Can she really take all three of us at once?" Jungkook asked interrupting your thoughts, "Maybe we should just have sex with her one by one?" Taehyung asked. "Do both of you like me?" You asked making all three of them return their attention to you, "Why wouldn't we?" Jungkook asked, "You've always been so nice to us, and you've always looked so nice in whatever you wear". Said Taehyung, " "Remember when she was wearing that sundress?" Jungkook asked, "Even Yoongi hyung wanted to see her in it again." Taehyung answered. "She's even prettier without anything on." Said Jimin

He looked at you and you pressed your arms against your chest a little harder, Jimin leaned close to you and lightly grabbed your arms and putting them to your sides. You kept your arms to your sides as they started touching you again, jimin got down on his knees in front of you then taehyung lightly grabbed your thigh and spreading it open for him. Jimin looked up at you as his tongue lightly ran up against your pussy, his tongue continued sliding up against your pussy occasionally stopping to flick his tongue up against your clit. You started moaning as your hands went into his hair, he lightly grabbed your thighs as his pace quicken.

You felt your face getting redder and hotter from embarrassment as Taehyung and Jungkook started kissing and groping your body, Jimin's tongue focused on your clit making you moan louder. His fingers slid his fingers deep inside your pussy then started thrusting his fingers inside you, taehyung opened your thigh a little more for him then lightly kissed your neck. "Are you gonna cum?" Jungkook asked looking at you, Jimin's fingers started thrusting faster inside your pussy until you moaned out and came. You started breathing heavily as you recovered from your climax, jimin slid his fingers out of your pussy then stood up.

You watched all three of them took their clothes off, Jimin and Taehyung walked over to the bed and sat down on it. Jungkook walked over to you and kissed your lips deeply, he started feeling up the chubbier parts of your body. He grabbed your hand and turned you around then grabbed your hips then moaned feeling his cock thrust deep inside you. Jungkook grabbed your hips then started thrusting inside you, you started moaning as the soft slaps echoed the bedroom. Jungkook smirked and moved his hands up to your stomach and lightly grabbed it. "You have such a cute stomach." Jungkook whispered into your ear, one of his hands moved down to your pussy and slowly started rubbing your clit.

Jungkook started thrusting faster and rougher inside your pussy as he kissed your neck, you looked over and seen Taehyung and Jimin watching you have sex. You quickly looked away then jungkook thrust his cock deeper inside your pussy, jungkook started rubbing your clit a little faster. You moaned out as you came and jungkook stopped his movement then smiled at you, "You're so sensitive." Said jungkook before readjusting his grip on you. Jungkook started thrusting again not caring that you just came, "Fuck." Said Jungkook as he felt himself getting closer to cumming then continued thrusting until he moaned and came deep inside your pussy.

Taehyung lightly grabbed your hand and guided you onto the floor then to the side of the bed, he got on his on knees behind you then thrust his cock deep inside you. Taehyung slowly started thrusting inside you his place slowly increasing, He slid two of his fingers inside his mouth then slid his hand in between your thighs and slowly started rubbing your clit. Your moans got louder as you gripped the bedsheets, he leaned over you and started kissing the back of your neck, his thrust getting harder and faster making you moan louder. "You're warm and tight does a sweet girl like your loved to get fucked that much." Taehyung whispered against your neck, he lightly kissed and sucked on your neck leaving a few marks, before sitting back up and gently pushing your face into the mattress.

You turned your head to its side and started moaning again, he started rubbing your clit faster making you squirm a little until you moaned out as you. Taehyung lightly kissed the top of your head then readjusted himself then slowly started thrusting again, moans started spilling out of your mouth. Taehyung started thrusting faster again feeling himself getting closer to his orgasm, he lightly kissed your back and you grabbed the bedsheets as you felt yourself getting close to cumming again. Taehyung continued kissing and leaving light hickeys on your back, you moaned out again as came then taehyung came deep inside you. Both of you started breathing heavily then he slowly slid his cock out of your pussy, taehyung lightly kissed the top of your head again then sat on the side of the bed.

Jimin smiled at you as he helped you on to the bed with him, "You can last more time right? You've been such a good girl for daddy's friends, why don't you come help me out now?" Jimin asked lightly whipping the sweat off your forehead, then kissed your lips deeply. He laid you down on the bed and got on top of you sliding his cock deep inside you as you wrapped your arms around him, Jimin pinned your thighs up against you then giving you a deep kiss, you kissed him back until he slowly started thrusting into you each thrust making you moan. You felt the bed sinking on each side of you, You opened your eyes a little and seen Taehyung and Jungkook looking down at you. You closed your eyes again as your cheeks started to burn from embarrassment, Jimin's moved his hands one on the bed to keep up and his other hand going down to your pussy his fingertips rubbing your clit.

Taehyung and Jungkook lightly pinned your legs up against the bed as jimin thrusts got rougher and faster making the bed squeak. Jimin kissed your lips deeply as you kissed him back, he lightly broke the kiss and kissed down your neck. "You're gonna cum again aren't you? Go ahead you'll be done right after I cum." Said Jimin, he started rubbing your sensitive clit faster making you squirm and moan. Your back arched as you came then Jimin leaned down and kissed your lips deeply, he continued thrusting until he thrust his cock deep inside you as he came. Jimin got off you as Taehyung and Jungkook let your legs go, Jimin grabbed your hand helped you up then off the bed. "Let's all go wash up" said Jimin then all of you went into the bathroom together.

[wrestlingchick2021]

His Pet

NSFW!!

Pac x Reader

Pac pov

Dark, Dynamite, Hotel, sleep. A repetitive vicious cycle I was dying to break. The Lucha Brothers seem to have there lives all figured, wives and children, a home, and seemingly picture perfect lives, while I was busy chasing a girl who wanted nothing to do with me. Until, one night on dynamite, she was desperate and in need of a partner. I watched her hazel eyes dart around frantically looking for someone.

"Oh! Pac there you are. I had a question for you." She said as she approached me and the Lucha Brothers; something no one ever did. I looked at her like she was crazy.

"What do you need darling? We're busy right now." I said, my accent extra prominent on the word darling.

"Um, well, I kinda need a partner for my match against Kingston and Bunny. I kinda forgot I didn't have one." She said quickly.

"I see and what do I get in return?" I questioned to nervous girl.

"Anything you want. I promise." She said her voice softened.

I looked to the Lucha Brothers, Pentagon had no interest in her unlike his brother Fenix who was nodding slowly. "I'll do it but you just keep your word." I told her.

She clapped happily. "Great! So I'll see you in the ring I guess." As she turned to walk away I couldn't help but watch her ass as she bounded off toward catering. I look over at Fenix and he had a stupid look on his face and playfully rolled my eyes. Of course I liked her but more importantly I have her promise that I can do what ever I like to her once the match is over.

-Time Skip cuz lazy writing-

As the ref raised our hands over our heads, I looked over at her and she had the biggest smile on her face. Of course we won but it must have felt extra good for because she had a hard time winning on her own. Once we climbed out of the ring, we made our way backstage where I told her to come to my locker room. She looked confused but nodded anyway and followed behind me like an obedient puppy dog.

Once we reached my locker room I spotted Fenix with a piece of cloth in hand. The girl looked me and stopped in her tracks. She was confused.

I looked back at her. "Don't worry darling, he's leaving and soon it'll just be us." She looked unsure. I motioned for her to come over and she hesitantly did so. I took the fabric from Fenix and he walked away smirking as he went.

"Trust me?" I asked her and she nodded. I gently tied the piece of fabric around her head and led her into the locker room, locking the door behind us so we wouldn't be disrupted. I walked her over the couch and sat her down.

"Now darling, I need to know, do you absolutely trust me?" I asked once more.

"Yes Pac, I trust you. Fully." She said with such certainty.

"Good girl." I said and pet her head gently. I reached down to gently take her top off without her seeing what I have planned for her. She got immediate goosebumps as I ran my hand across the top of her back. She turned her head towards me and I smirked, although she couldn't see me.

"I want you to take off the bottoms to your gear darling." I said lowly. She nodded and with a little difficulty cuz they were tight she managed to get them off and tossed them aside. I instructed her to sit back down and she did. Now, she was in nothing but her thong and bralette.

I couldn't help but get hard as she sat there completely submissive to me and only me. This was my chance to take over and make her finally love me. I walked over to the table that Fenix had so thought fully put together in record time for me and saw an assortment of toys to play with. I picked up a short riding crop with a pink end and walked back over to her and gently grasped her arm. She gasped but soon calmed down.

I led her over to a chair and made her sit in it. The chair already had pre-tied ropes thanks to Fenix. He knew I would have my way with her.

"I know this may be weird but you'll love it. Trust me." I whispered in her ear to which she nodded. I tied the ropes around her wrists and ankles tight but not tight enough for her lose circulation in her body. I ran the crop down her body and she shivered. She was gonna like it. I spread her legs and gently tapped her pussy with it. She gasped and moaned softly.

"Shh, pet. You'll be alright. Trust me remember?" I whispered in her ear. She nodded slowly. I stepped away from her just a moment and grabbed a pink, light weight collar and moved back behind her. I pet her head once more and undid the buckle on the collar. I first gently laid in over her shoulder and smirked to myself. My cock was getting harder by the second and I didn't know how much longer I could restrain myself from going fuck crazy. I removed my ring trunks, letting my erection spring free. I then grabbed the collar off her shoulder and buckled it around her neck.

She gulped and began to speak. "Pac, sir, please fuck me."

"That what you want my pet? You want master to fuck your tight little cunt?" I hissed, my accent getting deeper.

"Yes p... Master. Yes master. Please?" She begged softly. She had begun go call me Pac but changed her mind. 'Good girl.' I thought to myself.

"Oh I'll fuck ya alright." I reached down and untied her then made her go to her hands and knees on the floor so I could get the best view of her ass. I chuckled and knelt down behind her and grave her ass a gentle slap, the crop from earlier abandoned on the chair. She moaned and turned her blind eyes towards me.

"Please?" She begged.

"Tsk tsk, darling. You'll get what you want. Be patient, yeah?" I told her dominantly. She nodded. "I'll be back in a moment alright." And with that her turned her head back to the way it was before. I walked back over to the table looking for my desired object. The matching leash to her collar. I grabbed that along with a small bottle of lube, not we were gonna need it but just in case. I went back over to her and she gone down to her elbows and her ass was perked upright. I bent down and smacked her ass hard drawing a loud moan out of her throat.

"Give me your head." I growled and she got back up to her hands and knew so I could connect the leash to her collar. I pushed back down so her ass was up again and slapped it again. To which came her moan again.

"Oh, you like being spanked? Huh? Dirty little fucking whore?" I growled at her. She whimpered and nodded slowly.

I stood up and walked back over to the table and chuckled. I knew what she wanted and she was gonna get it. I grabbed a paddle and walked back over to her. Kneeling down, with paddle in hand, and gently ran it over her ass and she shivered.

"Pac please... No teasing." She begged.

I gripped a handful of her hair and pulled her towards my chest. "Stupid silly little girl. Your mine, I'll tease you if I want to."

"But, if you tease me, your only making yourself suffer more." She whimpered. Although she was right, she still needed to be patient. I released her hair and she fell back to the ground. I began to rub the head of my cock against her clothed pussy. She moaned softly and that wasn't enough for me so I ripped her panties off her body and finally plunged deep inside her. She gasped and moaned loudly, like a siren with her song.

"Do that again, love." I told her.

"Yes master. I will." She said loudly so I could hear her.

"Good girl." I muttered and pulled out then reentered her right pussy. She moaned like a porn star. It was music to my ears. I grabbed the paddle off the floor and smacked the left side of her ass and that made her sing her sweet song once again. I chuckled and made my thrusts an even pace to make us both last longer. I repeated the slap on her ass three more times and all three times brought me close to cumming inside her tight cunt. I tossed the paddle to the floor, unable to control myself, I pulled her up once last time, wrapping the leash around my fist and thrusted into her deeper. I hit her G-spot which caused her to squeal. My pace quickened as did her squealing.

I didn't take long before her and I had cum simultaneously. I held her close to me. I didn't want this to be a one time thing.

"Darling, will you be mine?" I asked her.

"Yes Pac, I will be yours. Forever." She said as she panted heavily. I turned her head towards me and kissed her deeply. Something I wanted to do since I met her all those years ago.

"Pac, I think I like being treated as your pet. I think we should head back to the hotel and continue this little escapade." She suggested. I nodded in agreement and that's what we did. We made our was back to the hotel and because our sex drives were so high, we barely made it to the car before we were at it again. We went all night long before we were both running out of stamina and decided to sleep it off until we woke up the next morning and went at it again.

A/N: I may have gone a bit over board with this one. Oops, sorry not sorry lol!!!

[captainshazamerica]

The redhood nightwing fight scenes look like they're gonna be dope af like thats all I'm thinking about how awesome the fight scenes are (hopefully) gonna be (I'm already finding it difficult to see this jason as redhood cuz he's like literally a child but I dunno what age he redhooded in the comics so??)

I had no idea tim was even gonna be in it !?! Can I please get some kind of recognition from the batboys that they actually view each other as brothers and family! 😢

Someone needs to kill the joker It'd be kinda interesting if old bruce killed joker and it'd be nice if that was the last thing he did as batman buuuttt then again it'd be a nice touch if dick killed joker for jason, it would personally be disappointing if joker was just let live not gonna lie i really want bruce to kill him and that be the reason he gives up being batman because he failed to protect jason and then he broke his no killing thing so he just hangs up the cape

we are getting FEAR TOXIN yassssss cue awesome nightmare ish fearscapes (no idea if that's an actual word but that's what I call when you get to see everyone's fear hallucination)

Kory I love you, I do ship dickkory however I feel like she's too good for dick and should marry me instead lol I wanna see how donna is still alive? and I know there's people who are like ughh hank dawn go away already but I really freakin like hank and dawn as characters even though their suits are ridiculous did they break up last season I can't remember? Hank needs a break poor man someone give him a blanket and a hug and let him sit the fuck down everybody leave hank alone

That line where babs is like don't try be your father and dick is like excuse me what you saying there Commissioner Gordon, that will never not be funny 😅😅😅

I ain't in love with this show it has so much potential it could be so lit but I do like it anndd they got suits now whoop!

Wait is this my previous Titans anon? (The one where we ranted about Jason, or the one thinking they hadn’t seen S2 but went to watch it and realized they had? Or are you the same person? xD )And if so are you the same one who asked for the comic and fic recs? Just wondering in terms of if I’m talking to one person or not hahaha

But ahh I got so excited when I saw I got an ask about this 😍

Omg the nightwing red hood fight already got me so stressed lol. It looks great but ahh angst! But I think Jason is like 19ish in most versions when he comes back? Though tbh I forgot what age Jason is in this , I’ll have to see when i rewatch it soon. Curran, the actor, is actually 23, he just looks super young/short. He got pretty buff though. But yeah, that is an unfortunate thing wi the them rushing it already but also, I’d rather have it like this than if they were gonna spread it out through the seasons then it gets cancelled or something (poor Gotham s5, RIP). I think he was the PERFECT robin jason Todd though. Like I love his acting and portrayal of Jason(“Titans are back bitches!” classic Jason), he just is young looking and short. Gosh I still wanna know if they are going with the Lazarus pit for Jason or not! But like that also begs the question of whether they are doing a time skip cause normally Jason is dead for like 2-3ish years, but it doesn’t look like it from the trailer.

And yes, I’ve been looking forwards to Tim!!! While the trailer didn’t show it, the actor was on set a lot over these last couple of months (I’ve been keeping up with their instagrams xD) and seemed super close with the cast! I can’t believe the first look we got if Tim was him nearly crying, though that look already won me over, I love him and he is my son now. But RIGHT! That’s all I want, is the bat bros platonic love, gosh dang it😭 that’s all we want DC😭

BRO! OLD MAN BRUCE KILLING JOKER WOULD BE FREAKING PERFECT. Dang it! Now I’m gonna be so disappointed if that doesn’t happen 🤣gosh it would be perfect, and normally I would be like it’s Bruce, they would never do that, BUT, this show does that kind of “edgy” stuff anyway so if it’s ever gonna happen(without the Batman who Laughs plot line happening(which would make a perfect dc animated movie btw)), it would happen in this show, especially with what was shown in the trailer with him giving Batman up. Man, now my hopes are up for that xD though I wouldn’t mind if Dick killed him. I would be shocked though if they had the balls to actually kill off joker though, dc seems to refuse to do that :/

Omg I squealed at the scarecrow part omg. Dr freaking Crane is a big reason I spiraled down this entire fandom tbh. Like literally a year ago I got obsessed with him for some reason and that led into the Bat hole where I am currently WAY deeper than I ever would have thought 😂 and while I’m not hyper fixated on him anymore, I still love him so much and is my 2nd fav rogue, and it mainly started with Jonathan 🥺 we barely even see his face and I am already in love with the casting, the voice is perfect. And I LOVE when villains have to help the heroes, that is like one of my fav tropes ever omg, I was really hoping they were gonna do that to him. I hope he is in it for more than one episode tho. And oh lordy, like those poor Titans need even more trauma in their lives and now fear gas is in the equation. Oh no, I bet poor Gar is gonna get hit cause they just love to torture that poor boy. And tbh I hope the fearscapes(perfect word for it) will be better than most of the Gotham ones, those seemed a tad cheesy tbh

Lmao about you and kory😂 she is too good for him, but also, this Dick needs someone who can kick his ass and get his head out of his martyr butt 😂 tho tbh, I’m still not fully sold on Dickkory, Like I don’t hate it but I don’t LOVE it in many versions, like they can be cute but no strong feelings, the Original Teen Titans cartoon is like the only exception, I def ship those 2

Omg I low key forgot Donna “died”😂🤦🏻‍♀️ I feel like I knew it wouldn’t last so it didn’t have a big impact on me lol. Like I had/have a feel raven is gonna bring her back. I wanna know what happened to Rose/Joey! Like are they not gonna be in it at all? Especially with Jason going off the deep end?!

Lmao, hawk and dove’s suits😂 I think they did break up, I’ve only seen the series once through tbh, planning to rewatch before S3 tho(and try to force my mom to watch it tho she is convinced everything DC is too dark for her lmao), yeah, I don’t mind them, like I don’t want the focus on them but like they deserve to be happy/need a break, omg yes! That boy needs to be wrapped in a blanket and given a break, that grumpy boy is TIRED. Let him rest!

Lmao! That babs line is so great😂

I’m just so excited for all this live action Batfam content, considering the live action movies NEVER give us Batfam 😭(we aren’t talking about the 80’s/90’s live action robin lmao)

Also so sorry this was so long 🤣🤦🏻‍♀️