#and i have to be the one to be like 'remember that my id has an f on it' and theyre like :0 ....... >:0!!!!
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[ID: A digital comic with a simple drawing style. It consists of long text that is accompanied by small drawings, matching what is said in the text. The text reads as follows: "I've always been a big reader. I was treating earlier and faster than most of my peers my whole childhood. [Three books: one is titled "Magic treehouse" and has the caption "kindergarten", one is titled "Harry Potter" and has the caption "first grade" and the last one is titled "Percy Jackson" and has the caption "third grade".] and my tastes have alwaystended towards the magical. fairytales, myths, and fantasy have been longtime favourites as far back as I can remember.
As I got older, my tastes didn't change all that much. They did expand, to being ok with things like horror, violence (and mild gore), death... As children's tastes tend to do. But I still loved fantasy stories just as much. When I hit eighth grade, however, they noticed a bit of a problem. I was getting a bit old for a lot of the middle-grade fiction books I liked. I thought: "Okay, sure! I've read adult-level books with no problem before, I'll just head for the fantasy section!" I asked a couple of friends for book recommendations, and culture reading except⌠[A drawing of many different scraps from books, all clearly from romantic and/or steamy scenes] ... All of it was just so stuffed with sex and romance. [A drawing of a person shaking their heads in disbelief and saying "ew" while reading the book, with an arrow pointing to them saying, "14 and very aro/ace"]
Needless to say, I did not want to read those books (and haven't to this day.) Thought bubble of the person just described continuing: okay, this is probably just my friend's stuff. I know they like these kinds of things. I'll just look for myself! [A drawing of a person standing in front of a big bookshelf that is labeled "young adult and teen fantasy". There are many different phrases pointing to the box on the shelf. The phrases read: "sex scene on the first page", "sex", "twilight", "romance "' subplot'", viscerally upsetting description of making out", "fade to black sex scene", "no sex but only technically", "sexy elves", essentially a romance really", "insane amounts of kissing".]... you gotta be kidding.
Over the years since then, I've tried to find fantasy stories that I can actually enjoy. [A drawing of a list titled "typically good". The bullet point read: D and D based (sex jokes but party focused), comics, fanfic, older media (pre-90s), MG fiction (last resort)] I've had some success at finding patterns that work for me, but a lot of these categories are very digital. (At least for me.) And because of that, all the time I once spent reading is now on my phone.
I don't really know where this is going, or what the solution is. Most people do like sex and romance, and reading about them. And this is just a thing for making a terrible comic day. I think it's pretty common for aro and/or ace people to feel left out, since so often these are treated as universal ideals. But to anyone feeling that way: I promise you are not alone. Also, allos: get better writing material, seriously. And better friends, since yours are apparently so terrible you can't write deeply meaningful relationships without kissing. (Half joking.) / End ID]
Note: this image description is not fully complete, as I left out some smaller drawings that I couldn't add into the text in a way that makes sense and weren't crucial for understanding. Also, I apologize if this description isn't clear to people who use screen readers but I do not know how to make it any better. If you have any suggestions, tell me please.
My (late) contribution for Make A Terrible Comic Day! I've been going to the library more often lately so this has been coming up a lot, cause I want something to read but have had trouble finding anything that I'm comfortable with.
If anyone has recommendations please please let me know because I am struggling.
#I'm not romance-repulsed but the older I get the more aspec I get apparently because I'm growing more tired of romance ansd sex in books#so this is a mood and a real issue#check out the notes on this post there are so many romance or sex free book suggestions#aromantic#aro#asexual#ace#aspec#boosting aro art#romance free books#sex free books
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im so curious-- how well does DUDrow get on with the other companions? I've only seen your art and going off that I feel like: he gets along with Shadowheart, Gale I think he borderline cant stand, and Wyll/Lae'zel/Karlach I have no idea how he'd feel about them but id love to know!
So, funfact, because I was not familiar with these kinds of games at the time I played BG3, I practically stuck with the same exact party the entire playthrough. I distinctly remember swapping Wyll in for Astarion once at the end of act 2 because I thought he NEEDED to be there to find Mizora, and I replaced Gale with Karlach when I went to kill Gortash. Otherwise... It was pretty much always just DU drow, Shadowheart, Astarion and Gale. I did this because they were the characters I liked most, so I wanted to see all they had to offer.
Anyways, I mention this because it reflects how DU drow related to everyone - which is to say that he didn't. He picked his favorites (two because he liked them, one because he has fireball) and didn't get particularly close to anyone else.
BUT, there were definitely notable dynamics!
Lae'zel: She's dead. He killed her night 3 or something. Before that he thought her annoyingly demanding and over the top. I don't think DU drow even remembers her by the end of the game.
Gale: Just to add to your original observation, Gale and DU drow have a little bit of history. Gale tries, for about half of the campaign, to pursue him romantically. DU drow keeps turning him down and is either misinterpreted or ignored, and by the time Gale does give up on him their relationship has completely soured to the point where they are constantly shooting daggers at each other. (this reflects a romance bug I got in my first run, except I didn't realize it was a bug. Either way I think its more interesting storytelling than the intended experience.)
Wyll: DU drow was profoundly frustrated by Wyll every step of the way. He found him to be incredibly naive and a bit delusional in his pursuit for heroism, and could never relate to Wyll's perspective or choices - the few he made for himself, at least. They definitely had the least in common and DU drow avoided interacting with him most of the time.
Halsin: He didn't care for Halsin much. He was vaguely helpful but by the time they got to the shadow-cursed lands DU drow had the impression he'd only been dragged here to help him clear his conscience, which he didn't appreciate. Also, he couldn't bear to have someone in camp be taller than himself. Halsin was left behind in Act 2.
Jaheira: DU drow fucking loves Jaheira. They bickered and borderline insulted each other and had a great time doing it. He can respect anyone who will call him a monster, threaten to murder him in his sleep, and make light fun at him the next day. It helps that she's hot, also.
Minsc: Weird hamster man. Ocasionally rendered him speechless. Puzzling human being.
Karlach: He didn't get Karlach, but he was often amused by her and curious enough to want to hear what she had to say. There was a similar issue here as Wyll's where he just couldn't relate to her enough to have much to discuss, but Karlach at least had an edge to her that made her far better company. They got along pretty well when the topic wasn't serious, but when it came to the problems she actually faced their perspectives shifted significantly. DU drow thought everything could be fixed, that accepting her own demise was a cowardly thing to do - and as they approached the end, and she asked him if he would stay with her when she died, he thought she was weak. I don't know if he ever discusses it with anyone, but he feels guilty about her death to this day and sees it as personal failure.
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THE Life of Us/Drifting MUSIC VIDEO IS AMAZING đđźđđźđđźđđź
I think one can make an entire essay long post trying to explain what the scenes could mean. Iâm glad that XZ was able to meet and work with a director like LIN who was able to execute this. I can only imagine the creative ideas XZ had for this and to have someone understand his vision and bring it to life is special. Itâs so obvious the time, effort and money spent on this and we got it for free. The entire album is free to listen to. I just. Everything about this drop is such a slap to the antis who said it will be 9 covers and 1 original song but XZ goes bitch hold my beer lemme give all original songs and high quality music videos. oh wait, let me write some of the songs too. let me put in some details in my life there just to make it fun. how about that?!
which leads me to those said details/references that someone has compiled. iâm gonna share it here. đ
P1: the person climbing a ladder in the clouds is something he drew before. Iâm proud of him cause this idea of his has been realized. this reminds me of jack and the beanstalk!
P2: the books are design related. iâd like to think itâs his favorite go-to books!
P4: Knitting yarn! XZ knits!
P5: this is pretty obvious and recurring theme when it comes him - the little prince đš
P6: more of a comparison from when he was designer xz to now. he was wearing something similar.
P7: Life of Us = Life of Pi. Which is explained more in P8. OP mention that the main character Pi said when writing in his diary: "Everything has become chaotic and broken, I can no longer distinguish between daydreams, sleep, and reality.â The movie/book is a story about a young man who survived a shipwreck and drifted on the sea.but the deeper level seems to be a discussion about human nature, animal nature, and divinity. Itâs about the struggle between ego, id, and superego.That tiger may be Pi's heart. What is drifting on the sea, for Pi, is me and "I"; and Pi, It seems to be the epitome of every "us". Finally, Pi told more than one version of the story, and he asked: "Which version do you prefer?" In fact, the choice of the story has always been "me".
"Life of Us/Drifting" sings "What is a dream, what is my greatest fear" "What is a dream, what is what I want most" Itâs a question about your own heart, and only you can give the answer.
P9: that scene in the movie ET
additional ones, his favorite paper plane making an appearance and a similar shot from the animated film castle in the sky.
and i noticed that one take where you can see some vintage things like the telephone, but i realized that xz is almost the same age as me so these are things we grew up using!
iâm sure there are more details here and not to mention the hidden meanings too. but that is what makes this video so fun to watch multiple times! you can discover something new each time! I hope they release some behind the scenes on how this was created and all that. i think there should be a documentary of sorts connected to this album if i remember correctly. so yeah! so much more in store for is when it comes to this album đ
#xiao zhan#xiao zhan big brain đŁď¸đŁď¸đŁď¸đŁď¸#COME ON GIMME A MUSIC VIDEO FOR LIGHTHOUSE PLEASE HAHAHAHAHA#IM SO GREEDY BUT WE ARE ALREADY HERE SO WHY NOT
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kwon as your boyfriend <3
a/n: whoops i broke my rule of only posting once a day lmao but idc this man is too fine to even regret this. if im gna write for ck itâll probs be for only kwon i never really paid attention to the others ngl đđ maybe miguel (UPDATE I MEANT AXEL) too but idk ive seen fics n i think id make him ooc so bear w me lmao
weâre continuing with the overprotective partners squadâ˘, starring bitches and bros and nonbinary hoes (ifykwim ILY) who just. are so down bad for their partners theyâd do anything to keep them safe
this guy is one of the top ranked members đŻ
although it is true, kwon is definitely protective over youâ it depends however, as in, depending on how capable you are to defend yourself. this doesnât only mean physically, verbally too.
if you are into karate and have the skills to pay the bills (another reference lmao), kwon wonât be as protective, as he himself acknowledges your strength and is very proud to let others know you are his partner.
if itâs the other way and you donât do karate, it just increases his protectivenessâ he wonât judge you for it or anything, but will offer to teach you some tricks in case of an âemergencyâ (basically him going to a match and wonât be there with you) so you can defend yourself, though youâd probably have a âguardâ with you lmao (yoon đ)
very touchy, but more in private, and just an arm around your shoulders, back or waist in public. kwon would most likely give you his jacket too, as a sign for anyone not to mess with you
is so gentle with you behind closed doors; like full on holding your hand and pressing a soft kiss, holding your cheek and staring lovingly into your eyes, having you in his arms every time you kiss, heâs a whole different person when it comes to his partner, and obviously has a soft spot for you
teases a lot lmao. say, for example, you get jealous over someone walking over to him and ask for his number, kwon would quickly notice and be so smug with itâ attempts to rile you up and see how long you can remain calm before before doing anything
wonât stop mentioning it too đ âaw, remember when you got jealous~? how cute.â will make it up to you though, by making out âtil you arenât mad anymore doing anything you want
lots of cuddling, kwon feels reassured and relaxed if youâre laying beside himâ either having your head on his chest or on top of him (IN A NON DIRTY WAY STOP đ), anything that includes you being close together = happy kwon
will defend your honor as many times necessary, this guy does not play when it comes to anyone badmouthing you in front of him, he wonât hesitate to kick their ass (literally)
always strives to cause a good impression to you. if youâre present during any of the tournaments heâs attending and such, kwon will be showing off lmao, that smirk on his face when he wins and sends a look your way
the longer you date, the more heâs sure you two will marry, in fact heâll even bet his own life about itâ kwonâs just that sure, he knows you wonât leave him, youâre stuck to him like glue and canât run away đ
âyou can run but canât hide from meâ â kwon
âwanna bet about itâ â you
uhhh what did you do lmao RUN
this man is too fine ugh how does he do it
#cobra kai#kwon jae sung#fluff#hes so hot chat#literally dehydrated rn /hj#kwon x reader#x male reader#x female reader#x gn! reader#giys pls get the references PLS#kwon jae sung x reader#meracyn#âwe love kwonâ we all say in unison
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is this anything? (details/analysis under cut)
(closeups have more extensive ids)
Sam and Evan: need no explanation. Neither of them have confessed to each other but COME ON. whether or not you think they Should be together, there is no way at this point that danielle and brennan are unaware of what their characters are doing which is falling in love. on screen in front of us.
Sam and K: this is where it gets less obvious-- I can't remember exactly why but K in the last episode just felt so down bad to me. Even before last ep, I was starting to see a future where Evan and Sam got together and K was really fond of Sam "totally by proxy" (see K and Evan later).
Evan and Jammer: this one I struggle with if I'm being so honest, so I decided to make them struggle with it too. If you think either of them would ever know what was happening you'd be wrong in my personal opinion.
K and Evan: they're in love. I'm sorry. Not saying they're in a healthy or stable relationship but they are in fact in love. I'm part of the theory that Evan broke up with K and if you've seen his face this season he's dead in the water for them.
Jammer and Sam: he has no idea what's in his brain about Sam. I didn't put an arrow back because I don't know what she feels about him in my head so I didn't even want to make her confused.
Similarly, Jammer and K: I have no read on them. I can however see K being at least platonically into Jammer (they seemed a little too into the Weugan thing). But that's just a thought. A film thought.
That's it! This is all in good fun :) lmk your thoughts if you'd like!
#im actually quite proud of this#long post#dimension 20#misfits and magic#misfits and magic season 2#mismag#mismag 2#sam britain#evan kelmp#k tanaka#whitney jammer#pilot program#the pilot program#pilot polycule#polycule program#danielle radford#brennan lee mulligan#erika ishii#lou wilson#evsam#tanakelmp#alt id
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RippleClan: Moon 75
Yellowpaw, Sandpaw, and Stormpaw are apprenticed to Asterblaze, Spikecrash, and Clammask.
[Image ID: Yellowpaw, Sandpaw, and Stormpaw are apprentices. Sandpaw says, "Do you think Thunderpaw is impressed?" Under Yellowpaw, it says LEVEL UP! YELLOWKIT â YELLOWPAW, NOISY â COLD. Under Sandpaw, it says LEVEL UP! SANDKIT â SANDPAW, SELF-CONSCIOUS â LOYAL. Under Stormpaw, it says LEVEL UP! STORMKIT â STORMPAW, KNOW-IT-ALL â CHARISMATIC.]
(Yellowpaw: 6, female, caretaker apprentice, cold, quick to make peace)
(Sandpaw: 6, male, mediator apprentice, loyal, interested in Clan history)
(Stormpaw: 6, female, caretaker apprentice, charismatic, loves to eat)
Honeybuzz helps the three star-blessed apprentices.
[Image ID: Honeybuzz, Weevilpaw, Wolfpaw, and Anchovypaw watch Estherfern talk with a Dark Forest spirit. Under Honeybuzz, it says + NEW SKILL: GOOD TEACHER.]
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Honeybuzz cupped his paw around one of the many plucked mushrooms that formed the unholy circle. He sniffed at the herbal mixture that sealed the pickings together. A few strands of black and red fur clung to the wet earth that lined the edges of the muddy den. The constant rain of the last four days made the ground slick and sent water dripping from the root-lined ceiling. Anchovypaw, Wolfpaw, and Weevilpaw stood outside the den, heads close together as they peered inside. The rain glued their pelts to their skin.
âAnd youâve known about this for how long, Anchovypaw?â Honeybuzz asked. He absently batted at his wooden necklace, the freshly plucked cicada wing glistening with raindrops. He pointedly sat outside of the circle, mud sinking into his thin fur.
âOnly a few days,â Anchovypaw admitted. âI didnât want to say anything until I could come back here, but thereâs even more ichor here than there was when I first found the den.â
âYou should have told us sooner,â Weevilpaw huffed with a glare so sharp that, had she had her sisterâs ability, Anchovypaw would have frozen stiff.
âI wasnât going to scare anyone if I didnât have to!â Anchovypaw huffed. A sharp flick of his tail sent a stream of water flying over Weevilpaw and Wolfpawâs backs. âIt could have just been where the beast that killed Weedfoot went to die. I only waited a few days! It took me that long to get away from Halibutdusk!â
âYou didnât do anything wrong,â Honeybuzz promised. He squeezed around the apprentices, squinting as the rain splashed his eyes.
âNow we know someone else has been here,â Wolfpaw pointed out.Â
âWhat is it, Honeybuzz?â Weevilpaw asked. She moved further into the den, eyes locked on the circle.
âYou remember my lessons on channeling StarClan?â Honeybuzz said, shivering. âIt exhausts power StarClan wasnât planning to use, but the immediate and physical communication can justify an absence of subtle signs and assistance.â
âBut we donât use mushrooms,â Weevilpaw said. She poked at a mushroom, making it roll out of its spot. âWe form a circle of cats, not plants.â
âBut do you remember when you met Terracottafoot?â Honeybuzz sighed. âI asked them to tell you about last Harvest Moon, and some of their knowledge of the Dark Forest. Newtstream, their mentor, taught them about channeling Dark Forest spirits using a circle of mushrooms.â
âSomeoneâs summoning Spirits of Shadow,â Wolfpaw gulped.
âWho would be that mouse-brained?â Anchovypaw growled. His claws left gouges in the mud. âWe all remember the Shardling. Who would want to bring something like that back?â Anchovypaw looked like he was going to be sick. Wolfpaw rubbed against Anchovypawâs side. âYou were right, Weevilpaw. I should have destroyed this den as soon as I found it.â
âThen they would have made another one,â Honeybuzz pointed out. âNo, we need to find a trusted warrior to watch this den. They can wait until the culprit visits again. Waspdawn or Puddlewhisper would do well. I trust them.â Weevilpawâs soaked fur prickled. Her eyes widened, locked on something Honeybuzz couldnât see. Her mouth dropped slightly, breath catching.Â
âOut, out!â Weevilpaw hissed, lunging past Wolfpaw. She scrambled into a thick bush, still bursting with summer life. Wolfpaw and Anchovypaw were instantly at her side, following her into the shadows. Honeybuzz stumbled in after them, sharp branches poking his ribs.
âWho did you see?â Anchovypaw whispered just as the shrubbery on the other side of the dark den shifted. Bicolored eyes glimmered through the mid-morning haze.
âEstherfern?â Honeybuzz gasped as the older cleric stepped into full view. Estherfern carried a ball of fur in her jaws, the same red and black colors Honeybuzz found in the strange den. Her fur on her cheeks drooped like heavy leaves. She strolled into the shadows, ignorant to her spies.
âThe Shardling almost killed her kits,â Anchovypaw growled, his rage making the leaves shake. âWhy would she deal with the Dark Forest?â
âKeep listening,â Wolfpaw whispered. âWe might find out.â Estherfern placed the furballs in the center of the circle. Her cool gaze settled on Weevilpawâs disturbed mushroom. Honeybuzz grit his teeth. Estherfern carefully nudged the mushroom back into its original position. She sat in the denâs entrance, back to Honeybuzz and the apprentices.
Estherfern declared, âI call upon the spirit of Hawthornstealer, banished from StarClan for murder in the name of his kits. Despite your sins, your assistance is required. Return to the Clans, if only for a moment. Speak to us.â
âDo you see that?â Anchovypaw whispered, pressing into Weevilpaw. âDo you see that?â Honeybuzz squinted. The circle was still. Suddenly, Weevilpaw gasped. She bit into her paw to muffle her shock. Honeybuzz braced his heart for whatever the star-blessed apprentices saw.
It began as a shift in the mud, like water in a pot at the first stages of boiling. The ground around the fur offering darkened. Black sludge bubbled out of the mud and lapped up the fur balls like medicine. The sound of its formation reminded Honeybuzz of paws trapped in thick gunk, pulling out of the mess with a sucking slurp. It leaked from under the mushrooms and collected in the circleâs center. The ichor pulled itself upward like drops of water falling from the ceiling, perverting the pull of the earth. A subtle red glow illuminated the den.
âItâs finally working,â Estherfern gasped as the ichor took shape. It lifted itself high like a cat arching their back. It clung to the ground at four points that slowly took on the details of paws. A claw-like tail sprouted from its back. The ichor bubbled and bulged into a muzzle. Two glowing red eyes erupted from the spiritâs face. StarClan help them all.
âSo you are Estherfern,â the spirit said. Its voice was as sticky as the mud from which it was born, dissolving into the sound of the tumbling rain.
âHawthornstealer?â Estherfern asked. The spirit blinked slowly, its eyelids like a mudslide.Â
âWhy do you call?â the spirit groaned.
âOilstripe and Lavendertwist told me your story,â Estherfern explained. She inched closer, back still stuck in the rain. âYou killed an elder to ensure more food for your kits in a famine. You would have done anything for them. StarClan doesnât seem to have the power I need. Iâm hoping you can help.â
âExplain.â
âMy kits are sick, and RippleClan can do nothing to help them. One of my daughters is going deaf, the other is half-blind. And now my only son has issues of the head, issues the mediators are simply bandaging, not fixing.â Was she talking about Brightpaw? Spikecrash had asked Honeybuzz and Troutpool about any relaxing herbs the young tom could take before the Gathering, something to ease the panic that overtook him when too many cats surrounded him. It was manageable. There was no need to resort to such extremes.
âYou are searching for a cure.â
âI canât let them struggle like this. How can I fix them?â The spirit stared at Estherfern silently, the rainfall burning into the background of Honeybuzzâs mind. The only sign of un-life in the spirit rested in its long, slow blinking. Even Estherfern, collected as she was, twitched under the spiritâs unending, blank stare.
âIâŚ,â Anchovypaw whispered, âI donât think thatâs the ghost of Hawthornstealer.â
âWhy not?â Wolfpaw whimpered.
âItâs too empty,â Anchovypaw groaned, struggling to find the right word. âWeedfootâs stories said Dark Forest ghosts looked like themselves. Even the Shardling looked a little like Autumnstar, isnât that what Downstar told us? This thing doesnât look like anyone. It looks like a shadow."
âWe may have the power,â the spirit finally coughed through its thick ichor. âWe need help.â
âThatâs what I expected,â Estherfern sighed. âWhat sort of ritual do I need to perform? Is there another spirit I should talk to?â
âYour children were destined to develop these afflictions,â the spirit gurgled. âTheir destinies must be replaced. Replaced with anotherâs.â
âElaborate.âÂ
âThe eyes of the clear sighted.â The spiritâs red eyes shone like a flickering fire. âThe ears of the cautious listener.â Its pointed ears flicked, their first movement since the spiritâs arrival. âThe tongue of the charmed.â Its black teeth peered out from muddy lips. âThree sacrifices. Three kits.â Estherfern stilled. Honeybuzzâs heart sank. Despite her standoffishness, despite her argumentativeness, Estherfern was part of the Clan, her kits were part of the Clan. How could she throw that away to fix what didnât, what couldnât be fixed?
âWeâll stop her before she begins,â Anchovypaw growled, inching a paw out of hiding. StarClan asked for Estherfern. Why would they send for her if she could be swayed like this?
âOffer the deadââ
âNo.â All four hidden cats perked their ears high. Estherfern stood, tail rippling slowly as she stared the spirit down. The spirit, to Honeybuzzâs continued shock, flinched.
âNo?â the spirit spat.
âWhat do you take me for?â Estherfern scoffed. âYou think Iâm so blindly devoted to a cure that you can turn me into a murderer? A sadist for the sake of my children?â
âYou want them cured,â the spirit growled. Its paw lingered at the edge of the circle. âThis is how you cure them.â
âAnd what happens when I do?â Estherfern asked, tilting one ear in a shocking taunt. âI know how your land works, the rules of your afterlife. They will go to StarClan some day and learn what I did for them, if they do not find out in life. They will despise me for what I have done.â
âBut they will be cured.â
âFurthermore, I know the creatures that inhabit your Dark Forest.â Estherfern walked around the circle like a hunter. The spirit never turned its head, face stuck in a sneer. âIt is the home of murderers and scoundrels. I would surely arrive there after my own death were I to kill three innocents for you. You would condemn me to eternity without my children.â
âYouâve already been damned, Estherfern. You brought forth the Skin Nâ Bones that slew your deputy. You are the cause of your Clanâs suffering. Do you believe StarClan will forgive you for that?â A Skin Nâ Bones. Of course. Nothing else would have injured Downstar like that. Nothing else would have devoured Weedfoot alive. Estherfern stopped. The calculated and callous look that always hung in her eyes cracked. Honeybuzz could almost see Estherfernâs soul drop. âWhy give up now? Youâre too far gone. Your children are not. Why summon us if you were not willing to do whatever it took to fix your kits?â
âI will not have them hate me!â Estherfern rounded on the spirit, lips curled tight. âI will not have them curse my name!â She shook her head low. âI will find a different cure for them. I will find another way. I send you back, spirit, back to your dark wanderings, where StarClanâs light does not reach.â Estherfern reached for one of the mushrooms. Her paw breached the circle.
âNo!â The spirit dug its fangs into Estherfernâs paw. Ichor dripped into her fresh wound. She pulled back, ripping more of her skin in the process.Â
âI respect what you did for your kits, Hawthornstealer,â Estherfern hissed, licking her paw. âI realize now, however, that where you could put aside your kitsâ emotions for their futures, I cannot.â
âWe,â the spirit growled, voice dissolving, âare not Hawthornstealer.âÂ
The spiritâs legs melted like snow. Its form dissolved and splashed about in a massive sticky pool. One by one, the mushrooms rolled into the ichor and vanished under the writhing mass as though falling into a great black hole. The ichor bubbled and squirmed as though in a death rattle. It leaked from the confines of the circle and coated the den floor. Estherfern backed up, back paws slipping on the soaked grass.
Weevilpaw raced out of the bush before Honeybuzz could react. She threw her full weight into Estherfernâs side. The two clerics tumbled into the shrubs. In that moment, the ichor exploded. It sprayed the walls of the dirt den and shot into the rain in an endless cascade. More ichor escaped the den than could have possibly made up the spirit in the circle. As it flew into the forest, large clumps tumbled to the side like wayward drops from a massive wave. The glops tumbled and sloshed against the wet ground before launching through the trees and out of sight. More and more of these glops scrambled away until finally, finally, the spray slowed. A long black trail led out of the den, which was now nothing but ichor and goop.Â
Honeybuzz, Anchovypaw, and Wolfpaw crept out of hiding as Weevilpaw got off Estherfern. Mud coated half of her brown pelt. The ichor stunk like rotting flesh and mushrooms.
âHow long have you been there?â Estherfern asked, slow to her paws.
âWolfpaw, you might have to freeze me,â Anchovypaw growled, claws out. âIâm a whiskerâs length from killing her.â
âAnchovypaw, no!â Weevilpaw stood in front of Estherfern, paws skidding. âShe didnât want to hurt anyone. She was trying to help her kits. We canât blame her for that!â
âBut the Dark ForestâŚâ Wolfpaw gulped. With the puff in her fur dissolved in the rain, she seemed half her size.
âIt is full of dead cats, not unlike StarClan,â Estherfern huffed. She stepped around Weevilpaw and faced down the furious crowd. âAll I wanted was a way to cure my kits, something youâve shown you cannot do.â
âEstherfern, you werenât talking to a dead warrior,â Honeybuzz groaned, almost stepping on the ichor trail. âThat was a Herald. Their entire purpose is to trick the living into allowing Spirits of Shadow into the territories.â His gaze lingered on the forest. He could almost hear the half-formed monsters slurping across the grass, taking their true, cursed forms.
âYou heard her!â Weevilpaw huffed. âShe wasnât going to listen to the spirit. She was going to destroy the circle.â
âShe didnât commit murder,â Anchovypaw scoffed. âYou did well, Estherfern. You did the bare minimum.â
âIs it your fault?â Wolfpaw muttered, voice almost lost in the rain. âDid you get Weedfoot killed?â Estherfern stared into the ichor-soaked den.Â
âI didnât know,â she said softly.Â
âShe didnât know, Anchovypaw,â Weevilpaw snapped. âSheâs a good cat!â
âShe didnât care about killing anyone, she cared about what her kits would think,â Anchovypaw growled. âHow can we trust a cleric who doesnât care if you live or die?â
âI trust her,â Weevilpaw huffed, pressing into Estherfern. âEven though sheâs strange.â
âWeevilpaw,â Honeybuzz sighed, jumping over the ichor, âtake Anchovypaw and Wolfpaw and go back to camp. Just go to the medicine den and wait for us.âÂ
âWhat are we going to do with her?â Anchovypaw asked.
âLeave that to me,â Honeybuzz said, shaking his head. âNow go. Stick together, and hurry. Weâll follow you soon.â The apprentices hesitated, all glancing at one another. Weevilpaw was the first to break; she joined Wolfpaw and nudged her onward. The sisters ran toward the coast. Anchovypaw followed, his burning eyes digging into Estherfern as he vanished into the foggy trees.
âIt seems I underestimated the vigor of the Dark Forestâs supernatural entities,â Estherfern hummed, cleaning the mud off her injured paw.
âDo you have any idea what youâve just done?â Honeybuzz hissed softly.
âOf course I do,â Estherfern snapped, curling her lips. âYou love to tell the story of the Rippling Ashes. They ventured into the Dark Forest, they had Newtstreamâs advice. What made my own approach so wicked?â
âBecause itâs dangerous!â Honeybuzz groaned. âBecause channeling Dark Forest souls, even when they want to help, clears a path for Spirits of Shadow, and they donât care about any of us. Theyâre born to hunt. This isnât worth it.â
âIf your kits were sick, wouldnât you do what you could for them?â Estherfern growled with a large thrash of her tail. âYou canât fix them. I thought the Dark Forest could.â
âThey donât need to be fixed!â Honeybuzz yowled, throwing his whole height up to glare down at Estherfern (who, unlike Rapidleaf, would not cower). âThey arenât dying, Estherfern! They can adapt! Iâm sorry I canât cure Thunderkit or stop Brightpawâs anxiety, but theyâll be fine!â As Honeybuzz yowled, the first crack appeared in the sky, striking through the gray clouds. Thunder echoed far overhead. Estherfern stared at the growing storm.
âWhatâs out there now, do you think?â Estherfern sighed.
âDog-cats, forsaken prey, honeybitesâŚâ Honeybuzz muttered, spine itching. âThere may even be monsters we rarely see, ones we donât have names for. We donât want to know everything thatâs out there now.â
âThis is something we can fix,â Estherfern huffed. She marched around Honeybuzz and stood on the roof of the wicked den. Jaw tight as her bit paw moved, Estherfern dug at the soaked grass. Her pelt was more mud than fur. Chunks of earth tumbled into the den. The sopping ground folded in on itself like a wave. Estherfern rolled away as the roof of the den fell and covered the sticky, stinking ichor. Grass stuck to Estherfernâs underside. Honeybuzz hurried to her, helping her away from the crumbled remains of her sins.
âWe can,â Honeybuzz gulped. âWe can fix this.â
(Honeybuzz: 23, male, cleric, daring, skilled toolsmith, good teacher)
(Anchovypaw: 10, male, warrior apprentice, playful, curious about StarClan)
(Weevilpaw: 10, female, cleric apprentice, adventurous, curious about StarClan)
(Wolfpaw: 10, female, codekeeper apprentice, thoughtful, curious about StarClan, confident with words)
(Estherfern: 109, female, cleric, bloodthirsty, great mediator, prophecy seeker)
Sandpaw and Spikecrash arrange time for Estherfern to see the kits she worked so hard to âfixâ.
[Image ID: Estherfern faces Thunderpaw, Wolverinepaw, and Brightpaw.]
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Estherfern didnât belong at such a lively celebration. The sumptuous food, the well-rehearsed performances⌠Harvest Moon was as grand as RippleClan claimed it to be. Every Clan gathered as the sunrise poked through the trees, preparing their stews and games and performances. But it was a holiday to drive off Spirits of Shadow. What good would it do to have their herald nestled in the safety of the firelight?
âSpirits of Shadow hate charms,â Troutpool explained as she tucked a catâs wood-carved face into the boughs of a low-hanging pine. âAshClan spends a lot of time carving these trinkets, and all that care under StarClanâs protections makes them especially useful in warding off danger.â All the clerics roamed the edgeâs of the great clearing with baskets of charms and other concoctions to protect the five Clans. Estherfern carried RippleClanâs heavy basket as Honeybuzz, Troutpool, and Weevilpaw prepared the defenses to Troutpoolâs instruction.
âHow many do we have to place?â Weevilpaw asked, shoving a charm as far into a bush as she could reach.
âWeâre covering this entire corner,â Troutpool explained. âWe donât want to leave any openings for spirits.â Estherfern nearly broke the charm in her jaws with how tightly she grit her teeth. She quickly passed it to Honeybuzz.
âEstherfern!â Two figures slipped through the massive crowd. Spikecrash and Sandpaw walked side by side, mentor and apprentice in sync. Sandpawâs gaze wandered throughout the clearing, taking in the sights of all five Clans for the first time.
âYou want to speak to me?â Estherfern asked. While her tone made her question sound casual, the brown priestess hid her surprise deep. She didnât talk to many cats outside of the medicine den. Why would two of the Clanâs mediators want her? Did they know the real reason why Honeybuzz reported a surge of spirits in the Clan? The reason it was too dangerous to leave camp alone? Why all five Clans, not just RippleClan, now had a newfound fear for their lives? Had Honeybuzz not lied for her, Estherfern would have told the truth and accepted the consequences, yet why he kept it secret, Estherfern didnât know She glanced at Honeybuzz, but the young gold and white cleric focused on his charms.
âIâm hoping we can borrow you,â Spikecrash explained. âTroutpool, do you still need Estherfernâs help?â
âWeâre just placing our wards at the moment,â Troutpool explained, reaching into Estherfernâs basket. âWe could finish without her if you really need her.â Estherfern carefully slipped the basket off her neck.
âThank you, Troutpool,â Spikecrash sighed. She flicked her tail for Estherfern to follow. It seemed no one cared if Estherfern actually wanted to speak with Spikecrash, but who was she to refuse? She trailed after Spikecrash and Sandpaw, heading over to the ovens. Clammask and Stormpaw worked with Drumtooth and Thunderpaw, laughing over an unheard joke as they tended the fire under a massive pot of stew.
âI hope this isnât too much of an invasion of privacy,â Spikecrash began, her scarred flank lifted high in a long stretch. âHoneybuzz and Weevilpaw spoke with me a few days ago and said you were having some difficulties with your kits.â Estherfern narrowed her eyes.
âIf weâre going to discuss my kits,â she sighed, âmaybe you could tell me why no one told me about Brightpawâs meetings with you?â
âSo you do know about that,â Spikecrash sighed. âBrightpaw is an apprentice now, Estherfern. We arenât pressured to tell you anything he didnât want you to know.âÂ
âIf heâs sick, I want to help him,â Estherfern huffed.
âWhy do you think he didnât want you to know?â Sandpaw scoffed. âLook how you acted with Wolverinepaw and Thunderpaw.â Oh if only he knew just what Estherfern had done for them. What the Dark Forest wanted her to do.
âIâve only ever tried to help them overcome their own limitations,â Estherfern said, her sharp stare ricocheting off Sandpaw and muting his confident words.
âThatâs why we wanted to show you a few things,â Spikecrash explained. She waved a paw toward the oven where Thunderpaw and the other RippleClan cats gathered.
âThe only goal of tonight is to have a better stew than WheatClan,â Drumtooth explained, shooting a friendly sneer at WheatClanâs oven and their large pot. He licked the surface of the stew and smacked his jaws. âItâs good, but itâs missing something.â Thunderpaw copied her mentor. Her face squirmed, thinking hard. She then made a strange motion with her paws; balancing on her back legs, she brought her paws close to her mouth and wiggled them as they moved away.
âI know this one,â Stormpaw chirped, completely focused on Thunderpaw. âIf the wiggles are the sea⌠seaweed! Thatâs seaweed!â
âYes!â Thunderpaw squealed. The two young apprentices cheered and giggled at their success, bunting one another
âAshClan borrowed our basket of seaweed,â Clammask explained, nudging Thunderpaw. âGrab some for us.â
âGrab seaweed,â Thunderpaw laughed. She quickly swiped the air like she was dragging a mouse out of hiding, then made the âseaweedâ motion again. Stormpaw mimicked the dragging motion as Thunderpaw hurried to AshClanâs oven.
âWhy is Stormpaw learning Clan-sign?â Estherfern asked her mediator companions.
âBecause Thunderpawâs teaching her,â Sandpaw chirped. âWhenever Thunderpaw gets back from her sign lessons with Mummichogleap, she practices with us apprentices. Most of us are learning a few words so Thunderpaw isnât left out.â
âAnd you want to learn?âÂ
âThunderpaw makes it fun!â
âYou canât expect the whole Clan to learn this second language.â
âNo one does.â Spikecrash touched her tail to Estherfernâs shoulder.. âBut there are cats who want to make the effort. They can translate for those who donât know. It puts pressure off Thunderpaw. She can miss what someone said, but sheâll have friends and family who can let her know.â Thunderpaw trotted back to the oven with a few long strips of seaweed. Clammask tore the seaweed into stew-sized chunks, showing the apprentices how to curl their paws just right. Thunderpaw seemed⌠happy.
âNow if youâll follow us over hereâŚâ Sandpaw purred, strolling around the Leaderâs Stone. Estherfern followed, tail a bit higher than before.
Brightpaw, Ravenpaw, and Vervainpaw sat with a gaggle of apprentices from the other Clans. They lounged about, chatting and laughing. Brightpaw nodded along to an apprenticeâs story, his flank stretched out like frog legs. Ravenpaw relaxed on top of him, oohing and awing over the tale.
âI donât know what your birth place thought of disorders of the mind,â Spikecrash whispered, brushing against Estherfern once more, âbut like most disabilities, you can learn to live with them. There was a great gathering of warriors and codekeepers here at the new moon, do you remember? Brightpaw managed to befriend these apprentices during the visit. They invited their friends and littermates to chat today, and Brightpaw is happy to spend time with them. His mind is likely lying to him right now, but he knows ways to manage that. He could overcome his anxiety naturally some day, but thatâs a minor part of who he is.â
âI know that,â Estherfern huffed. âHe loves to play with Rabbitjoyâs paint supplies. Heâs sensitive, and loves his sisters with all his heart. Iâve only ever wanted to help those traits shine.â
âThatâs not how Brightpaw sees it,â Sandpaw scoffed under his breath. The comment hollowed out Estherfernâs chest. Before she could respond, two brown blurs shot past the Leaderâs Stone with a horde of apprentices and young warriors at their tails. Wolverinepaw and Yarrowpaw led the crowd to an open spot within the festivities. They studied their followers like leader and deputy, the sunrise framing their profiles.
âWeâve got until after sunhigh to prepare!â Wolverinepaw cheered.Â
âAre we going to let some dusty old bones beat us?â Yarrowpaw cried.
âNo!â the young crowd yowled joyfully, already shoving and jumping over each other.
âLetâs show them what the new generation can do!â Wolverinepaw called. Her followers cheered, yowling to the high branches. They scattered throughout the clearing and split into sparring groups. They steadied their stances and wiggled their flanks. With sheathed paws, the youth of the Clans launched into training, trading blows and careful bites. Slushpaw lingered near the edge of the training grounds, cheering the others on.
âSlushpaw!â Sandpaw yowled to the older mediator apprentice. âWhat are they doing?â
âWell,â Slushpaw laughed, trotting up to Sandpaw, Spikecrash, and Estherfern, âYarrowpaw and Wolverinepaw were arguing with Darkkick and another old warrior about what was a better trait in a fight; youth or experience. Suddenly all these other cats started joining in, and now the senior warriors are going to have a big mock-battle with the apprentices, plus some warriors who havenât attended a Harvest Moon before.â
âAnd Wolverinepawâs participating in this?â Estherfern huffed. She searched for her daughter in the crowd. She found Wolverinepaw rolling about with Yarrowpaw in the middle of the mess. Yarrowpaw shoved Wolverinepawâs head into the dirt. Wolverinepaw snapped her jaw around Yarrowpawâs leg and pulled her onto her shoulder. Yarrowpaw laughed as Wolverinepaw took her place on top of the older apprentice.
"She's as capable as any apprentice her age," Spikecrash assured Estherfern.
"She seemed so insecure during her ceremonyâŚ" Estherfern muttered.
"Wolverinepaw?" Spikecrash chuckled. "I don't think so. From what I've heard, she thinks she's strong enough to take on an actual wolverine."
"She didn't choose a role in time, though," Estherfern pointed out.
"Because she wanted to do everything!" Slushpaw laughed. "I talked with her right up to her ceremony. She had a new role in mind every day!" Oh. Had Wolverinepaw's sight not come up at all? Surely her decaying vision would make it hard for her to fight. Yet she kept up with Yarrowpaw, tumbling across the clearing with abandon. Had Estherfern's kits always been so sure of themselves? Surely they wanted cures. How else could they survive in a world that showed no mercy to the weak? In the cat-minded human's den, if you couldn't match up to the others, you wouldn't eat. Three of Estherfern's brilliant kits would have died in that awful place. ExceptâŚthey weren't there anymore, were they?
"Can I guess what's been going on?" Spikecrash asked. "You've been so focused on a cure in their future, you've ignored how they are in the present. When's the last time you talked to them about something, anything but their health? Have you talked to Foampaw or Boughpaw at all?" Estherfern glanced from one kit to another. Their faces glowed with holiday glee. Did they ever glow around Estherfern anymore? When was the last time she shared a meal with them?
"Spikecrash," Estherfern muttered, her pride burning her words, "I need you to teach me something."
A short time later, Estherfern approached Thunderpaw and the RippleClan stew. The bounties of the ocean danced in the broth, specially prepared for that oh so exciting celebration. Thunderpaw stared eagerly into the stew while Stormpaw and their mentors talked with other caretakers. She spotted her mother and her eyes grew big and calm, mimicking Estherfern's eternally serene expression. Estherfern's heart did not carry that serenity as she approached her bold daughter.
"Do you needâŚ" Estherfern said hesitantly. She awkwardly sat on her hind legs. She held out one paw, pads down, and angled the other on top of it, claws out. Thunderpaw's eyes sparkled at the sign.
"Help," she whispered as Estherfern quickly returned to a natural position. Thunderpaw made the sign with ease, quickly hopping from her hind legs and back. She ogled Estherfern, her thoughts not caught up to reality.
"I want to spend time with you," Estherfern explained. It felt like someone carved her pelt off, leaving her exposed. "I want to share your stew with you and your littermates." Thunderpaw blinked slowly. It took her so long to reply, Estherfern was about to repeat herself, just in case her pounding heart muffled her words.
"Do you want to learn the sign for littermates while the stew finishes cooking?" Thunderpaw gulped. The tip of her tail twitched wildly as her earlier joy bloomed across her face once more.
"If it means time with you," Estherfern sighed.
(Estherfern: 109, female, cleric, bloodthirsty, great mediator, prophecy seeker)
(Troutpool: 36, female, cleric, insecure, ghost sense)
(Weevilpaw: 10, female, cleric apprentice, adventurous, curious about StarClan)
(Honeybuzz: 23, male, cleric, daring, skilled toolsmith, good teacher)
(Spikecrash: 50, female, mediator, wise, good speaker, lore keeper)
(Sandpaw: 6, male, mediator apprentice, loyal, interested in Clan history)
(Drumtooth: 23, trans male, caretaker, loyal, great hunter, clever)
(Thunderpaw: 7, female, caretaker apprentice,
(Stormpaw: 6, female, caretaker apprentice, charismatic, loves to eat)
(Clammask: 69, female, caretaker, righteous, lore master, good teacher)
(Brightpaw: 7, male, warrior apprentice, lonesome, lover of art)
(Wolverinepaw: 7, female, warrior apprentice, compassionate, always asking questions)
(Yarrowpaw: 10, female, warrior apprentice, thoughtful, stares at fire)
(Slushpaw: 11, female, mediator apprentice, wise, quick witted, bats at string)
#clangen#warrior cats#rippleclan#warriors#rippleclan story#yellowkit#yellowpaw#sandkit#sandpaw#stormkit#stormpaw#estherfern#honeybuzz#anchovypaw#weevilpaw#wolfpaw#spikecrash#troutpool#drumtooth#thunderpaw#wolverinepaw#brightpaw#clammask#yarrowpaw#slushpaw#spirits of shadow
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pick your battles
#my art#my stuff#art#comic#original art#pride 2024#pride month#trans allegory..... or not even allegory. just trans .... ^_^#i technically cannot come out yet but i don't think the people who i need to not see this stalk my tumblr#i know they stalk everything else like my twitter and my instagram but this might be safe#so fuck it we yap. this is a comic about picking your battles#this is a comic about how for almost a year now everyone at home in singapore has been crying about my sore throat#my terrible fucked up voice. my you know. etc#i came out as not cis and using they/them pronouns in 2015 when i was 14#but no one ever used my pronouns. none of my classmates or friends even up until i left for college in 2020#from 2020 onwards every year i wrote an angry vulnreable essay about how much it hurts that they dont remember#and people would dm me apologizing on their hands and knees and commending my bravery#and then forget about it all over again. id ont mean 'they misgender me and then catch it and apologize and correct themselves'#i mean they dont even get that far#and so you might ask yourself: why have you kept them around all this time?#and i would have to explain that by pure bad luck i grew up in the most conservative close minded community#that all of my ex classmates that stayed in singapore are cishet and upper middle class and chinese singaporean#that i Am the trans person. that they were able to ignore me for a decade partially because there was no one else#so this is a comic about how there is dignity and grace in staying in the closet sometimes#about how not everyone deserves to see you at your happiest. about how some people can go fuck themselves#you know your truth and THATS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS!!! YEAH!!! i love you
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hi been noodling with designs for block guys have some sandy boys
#mcyt#grian#goodtimeswithscar#gtwscar#scar goodtimes#desert duo#3rd life#third life#trafficblr#what are. the fandom tags (ekplodes)#dragon doodles#id in alt#remembered I wanted to let myself post more messy things here so here's! design passes I got carried away with#rly liked the idea of scar's palette being dark colors and green and grian's pale color's and red but scar's a red life and grian's a green#complimentary character design when I remember to do you my beloved <3#scar's wheelchair is powered and has treads + a front stabilizing wheel for sand purposes (also I referenced minecart wheels hence. cube)#not something I have much practice in but AM wanting to experiment more with wheelchair designs had lots of fun with this one :]#meant to be making these for a bigger piece but I'm actually procrastinating rn so Not saving these for then I Aim to stop procrastinating
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chapter 163 page 1
#beastars#melon beastars#beastars melon#melon#chapter 163#omg hi guys hiiiiiiii its me im back#told you id be back this winter. and its kinda sorta supposed to be winter right now#hm i missed a whole chunk of background i needed to make transparent here. oh well! its not like i said these were gunna be good#anyway my year has been CRAZY like literally just one thing after another#i spent a week in a crisis center about it all lol#like wow. thats so hashtag normalcore#anyway remember everyone we have to survive#be weird be queer and most importantly stay alive
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canon edizzy dynamic btw
#i feel like someoneâs made this joke before but i canât rlly remember#i know thereâs fanart that puts ed in the girl wojack's spot which is a tragic misunderstanding of the edizzy sauce#but like this version of the joke i feel like has been made before. it MUST have been right???#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd meme#edward teach#ed teach#edward teach born on a beach#izzy hands#dizzy izzy#israel hands#blackhands#sc#edit#j#mine#og#sorry abt the ID on this one i did my best
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valentines day pkmn wip ^_^
#im gonna put them on their own canvases and write a little abt their design insp and ideas#i had a lot of ideas but decided to go with the ones i felt worked strongest. although id love to go back to the ones that#didnt make the cut and see if i can rework them.. its a little hard to remember things that correspond to valentines day...!!!!#i wanted to do wedding dress gardevoir.. pearl necklace onix... romantic candle chandelure... heart balloon drifloon....#cherubird was supposed to be delibird but i found it hard to work around the santa theme without making it hard to recognize#so i decided to make it a new pokemon (fakemon?) entirely ^_^ based on seraphim doves and love letters#klefki is based on the pont de arcs bridge in france known for its lovelocks!! it collects charms like halves of best friend necklaces#lockets and lost wedding rings.. sawsbuck is based on tree carvings with lovers names and sakura branches#roserade is based on flower bouquets. i like how its design came out!! the body is supposed to look like a waistcoat#lopunny based on playboy bunnies. the fur on its wrists is supposed to resemble the cuffs. torso has the one piece suit#and their legs have the thigh high stockings. frogadier is based on romantic bubble baths with flower petals#tangela is based on curly old telephone wires that you twirl between your fingers when calling your lover kicking your feet in the air#decidueye has to be my fav though with the cupid theme. also used barn owls bc of the heart shaped face#i cant wait to finish these!!!! i can see these going on my portfolio for sure#my art#myart#pokemon#pokemon design#valentines day#wip#doodles
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Another OC gift because it's another buddy's bday! And I like to draw gift art. And birthdays are such valid reasons to pester people to let me draw their children.
#gift art#fun fact i forgot it was her birthday until i scrolled around trying to figure out who to draw#and was like lemme look up fictional birthdays i guess#and then i saw it was gunter of the fates fame's birthday and i stopped in my tracks because i remember having#a very important birthday discussion about someone having the same birthday as him and so im like hold on whomst was it#and i looked in my discord messages and looked at peoples bios and notes ive taken#cause i like to use the notes to add a bday and then i was like whomst would i even talk to about fe bdays#and i found who it was and so i wished her a happy bday and said tell me who to draw show me a child of yours#and she did and said its ok if she wasnt who id want to draw#and im like meg my dear she has freckles and has purple hair and is super cute why would i not#and then we both info dumped about ocs while i drew this one and it was fun#i love ocs so much you guys i dont know if that comes across at all i love seeing ocs and hearing about ocs#and i love talking about ocs even if im shy about posting mine a lot of the time bc its probably cringe#but man i love ocs ..................... crying............. i love being able to draw others ocs.........
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Had the extremely upsetting experience of a mutual of like 6 years going off on me for occasionally making posts about supporting Harris because apparently that makes me a g n cide denier who refuses to learn and grow, with all of my views just being assumed not even from what I've told them I believe or what I've posted before, but just because I DON'T post particularly the kind of things they THINK I should be. When I pointed out how much they were just completely assuming about stuff I'd never talked to them about, I was told it doesn't matter what I do in real life or "care" about if I simply disagree with their conclusion and vote for her anyway. Like they were absolutely not sorry for the level of maliciousness they not just assumed of my character, but for some reason thought appropriate to bring directly to me before unfollowing me. No apology whatsoever for how discomforting or upsetting that might be and certainly no acknowledgment that I could disagree with them and still be a good person. I just got another even longer rant about how they fundamentally can't fuck with me because of this one thing, no matter WHAT else I do in my real life (which I pointed out that they do not know), and how I'm directly supporting fascism.
Like seriously what is it about Tumblr that makes people think they know someone based off of occasional posts? There were just such DEEP assumptions they were making of me and going off of very little or absolutely nothing. Around the time I first became mutuals with that person I used to express my personality and beliefs and talk about what was going on in my life a lot more openly, but I've significantly scaled back on doing that in many ways for many reasons. One of my major ones is privacy and the way I've had strangers outside my followers and following circles just find random things I say and dogpile me for it. I was fundamentally changed after some T Fs did that to me like 3 years ago. I also just didn't have many conversations w that person anymore (I message people in general on here like 10x less than I did circa 2018-2019, which I'm somewhat sorry about!). My point is to say I think this person felt comfortable assuming that they knew me, especially who I am in 2024 at the age of 25, much better than they actually did.
One of the specific things they accused me of was being afraid of learning and growing (because I don't perform social media activism on here like they think I should). Like AFRAID to take criticism. When again I've never received criticism from them or had to respond to any criticism on here before as pertaining to my views on... well, absolutely any of the issues they accused me of not caring about. They essentially treated it as if the only thing in the world I cared about was the US election and characterized me as the most out-of-touch liberal they could possibly imagine, because I'm not "pushing" Kamala Harris to be better (Oh?? Should I do that on here?? Does she read my blog??).
And most hypocritically what they said was that I only *sometimes* *vaguely* post pro-Harris things (I often post like 5 or fewer things in a day though?). But here's the kicker. "Because I know I'll get shit for it. And rightfully so."
Really????? Not a single person, anon or not, in my messages or in a tagged post or anything, has ever given me shit before for saying who I'm voting for. I'm actually NOT afraid of "getting shit" for that opinion, I just don't start fights with people who are anti-voting. And why should I??? I genuinely don't believe in trying to change the minds of strangers on the internet about that sort of thing. I'm just not confrontational about it; that is so not the same thing as being "afraid of getting shit." I'm not posting ENOUGH about my support for Harris, therefore I'm afraid. But therefore they can also make all these assumptions about me being their strawman for an ignorant Harris supporter.
I'm afraid of getting shit but I still post anyway? But if I weren't afraid of getting shit I'd be posting a lot more?? This is ALL based on their assumptions of what my blog *should* look like, based on what I really and truly believe. My level of posting every now and then is an accurate gauge of my feelings on complex, sensitive, global issues. Because I'm voting for the Democratic presidential candidate and I'm ok sharing pretty much just that little glimpse of myself.
I really don't think that person knows just how inappropriate and insulting that is to just say all of that to me. Like they really know what's going on in my head. Their first message began and ended with like "I'm sorry I love you I just can't take it anymore" but they clearly weren't sorry enough to try and be more respectful to me, and they didn't love me enough not to default to extremely ungenerous assumptions and attacking me based off of those instead of any actual words I've said that they take issue with.
Online radicalization is real and it's not necessarily bad because your political views can start to fall well out of the contemporary Overton window. The way you find it appropriate to treat people whose views, however common, seem to fundamentally misalign with yours... that does matter. You can't just assume the worst of everyone and then act on that in how you approach them as individuals. And then be shocked that you don't stay friends with them. You can't be confrontational with someone about an issue you've never had an honest conversation about, and then expect them to take your bad faith in them as reasonable well-meaning criticism.
I'm afraid of criticism??? I'm afraid of criticism. No I'm not. This person and I have never had an issue before where they criticized me and I got harshly defensive. It was ALL projection. The entire tone of their messages was as if all their anti-voting posts recently were somehow in communication with the occasional go-vote-for-Harris posts that I make. That's not a conversation. I don't post for your satisfaction. I don't post in "response" to my mutuals I disagree with. I just post what's on my mind, sometimes, about some things. I really again can't stress enough how baffled I am by this
#tales from diana#long post#this is not really a post about voting this is a post about online etiquette#i also remember that this person at one point when we were teenagers had a crush on me#so they might have somewhat idealized me or maybe just had respect for the good times#good conversations we had over the years etc#i still held them in regard even though some of their anti-voting posts i took serious issue w#again i really don't care to argue w ppl against voting bc really i mainly only disagree w that one conclusion#the systemic critiques that were made in those posts i don't think make them bad ppl#i sympathize w why someone might think that way#i just cannot pretend that i think nothing changes if we have dt as president again#i can't act as if im not anxious at the state of the world we're in where we're seriously at risk of that#i don't have that same level of concern about harris. i don't. i don't think theyre the same#i think they diverge in so many meaningful ways but im usually not writing detailed long thoughtful posts about it#do i have to??? for TUMBLR?? id rather not...#but i don't wish to be confronted as if these are nuances i MUST not hold in my opinion#can't stress enough they were basically calling me a g n cide denier like that's just a cool ok thing to do#i have literally never made a post about ppl not voting for harris bc of the war in gaza#i specifically haven't not because im 'afraid' but bc i don't believe in comparing those 2 things#there was gonna be a presidential election this year anyway and there does not have to be this war#if u think dems aren't doing well enough on the war for u to vote for them. i can't argue w u#but i was always going to vote anyway#again im afraid of getting shit?? ONLY this person has EVER given me shit until now#im not pushing harris enough? how tf do u know that? bc im not reblogging ill-informed posts from ppl like u?#im not PUSHING this woman running for president enough bc im not writing critical posts she and her advisers will never see#about how im threatening to withhold my vote from them. something id never honestly do considering the opposition#they kept stressing to me to about how they weren't a trump supporter when *i* never said as much to them#i do agree that not voting for harris 'supports' trump in that it benefits him overall#but i don't attack ppl who just aren't voting in that way. ok?#damn i hate being on the defensive like this
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Art I did during my break but don't wanna post on main but you know what. I like Levi and Richard (and Arienne the redhead).
Basically, Levi and Richard go to school together, Richard decides to go by the name Richard and the only person to without question go along with "I'm a boy now" is Levi who calls him Dick. And then gets into fist fights with boys that don't call him Richard. So Richard falls pretty much in love in school then his parents divorce and he moves away.
Many years later (10+) Richard meets Levi again and it's very much nothing grand. Levi overhears Richard introducing himself to someone and is like "lmao Dick? You work here now? Sucks to be you" and Richard is immediately 'I love him so much I hate myself for how easily I give up all dignity for him' but yeah. They work in different departments so Levi does more behind the scenes stuff while Richard talks to clients and is very social.
And their coworkers in both departments love Richard because he's such a nice guy and Levi's department hates Levi a lot cause he's an asshole. (then stuff happens that would require a tw blah blah blah) So after a month of Levi not being at work he returns and Richard immediately goes over to the department to check on him and he's just. Incredibly mellow. No cussing and no cockiness and worst of all, he's being called Richard which is very much not correct from Levi. So he points it out that no one else calls him Dick and if he had a problem with it he would have said something by now so hey, maybe don't suddenly change the entire friendship on your own. (So Levi texts him later to say "sorry for being a dick, Dick" and Richard is v happy and content with that turn out)
Richard is honestly tragically created out of spite for the fact I saw a name IRL and I know that the state that I live in would in fact NOT have someone that intentionally funny and trans so I have to make my own funny trans guy to fill the void.
#a redemption arc from the sidelines#look im sorry but the guy who my mom and i voted for as one of our constables cannot be as genuinely funny as he is in my head#the guy has ruined my life with his billboard election thing and the fact my mom even REMEMBERS the billboard for his campaign?#yeah it was obnoxiously yellow and red and also he uses his nickname on the campaign#which youd think is fine or cringe normally but when you look at it and realize his firstname nickname lastname all have slang meanings#id like to point out though that not only did he have the funniest campaign billboard but no one even ran against him it was just him#i actually made a trans oc because the funniest name ive ever seen irl inspired me#theres a lot of trauma and cute interactions between levi and richard in my head but i dont think everyone cares#but i think its very funny that i told someone extensive stories from my thoughts about them#and she would go thats so cute WAIT NO HOLD ON OUCH#and then i told someone else haha so i have been telling someone stuff about my ocs and its been whiplash to her C:#and told oh its probably fine she's probably enjoying hearing it#so i said an example and it was oh thats cute followed by (lying down emote)#fwiw i dont actually know what their job is i just want them at the same company but different areas of expertise#thats literally all i got im sorry
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i havent really paid attention to the sword and blade fandom interpretations and i didnt know that a common thing people did was make blade a woman so they could no homo ship m/f sword/blade. thatâs insane to me because i thought most of us agreed that those two were having insane gay sex on the side while meta knight was teaching fumu how to hide poison in her cooking well enough to bypass detection before it gets to the top
#like. did people do that bc blade has a feminine voice in the og?#ignoring how i dont like to take that as gender confirmation these days- sword also has a feminine voice?#cant say its the ponytail either bc there are multiple male characters with ponytails in this show#anyways ive never known them to be anything other than lesbians in recent years so its wild to me#mk would have gay sex too if he could. but sadly he cant anymore. because of the war#i only remembered people doing that for metagala tbh#âŚ.. is this a safe space. can i confess i was one of those people#LISTEN in my defense it was less for shipping and ââno homoââ and more because i wanted more girls in kirby#if you asked me about it today id call them butch4butch#echoed voice
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I do think a good chunk of the 'cringey atheist' stereotype did come from the fact that, especially americans, regardless of their actual religious status are just casually christian and refer to things through a religious filter and that isn't seen for how overwhelming/obnoxious/frustrating it is. Its absense, such as when writing a story and things like "oh god" or other casual references are remove or replaced, is seen as notable the same way people find the cast being all women or queer being 'abnormal'.
And I think more people, especially here on tumblr, should take a moment from ragging on some kid being "cringey" saying god doesn't exist or making atheist jump around like dancing monkeys to establish they're one of the good respectful ones before they ever even begin to talk about their own thoughts, and examine why so much content just inserts god into a conversation that had nothing to do with religion like it's the expected norm, the same way they examine the invasiveness of casual heteronormativity.
#this is just cause an ex christian youtuber i otherwise like refers to any extreme emotional experience as a 'religious experience'#as if everyone can agree on it being so#and theres more than a few posts on here that make me wonder why#so many people are incapable of making something 'poetic' or 'great' without invoking religious imagery#even where it had no relevance#atheism#anyways#ive seen uncomfortably similar treatment that aces in particular have received for pointing out amatonormativity in a post#its rare these days though because atheists have long since been thuroughly shamed in american society as being edgy#which like wooow a christian nation that shames every other religion in some way found a way to shame nonreligious too? shocking#actually i get kinda annoyed when i think about it its one of those propaganda that people casually buy into#without examining it at all#youll see atheists acting like dancing monkeys trying to establish theyre not cringe guys its okay#just to talk about how they feel and think#i remember being a young adult and when someone started talking to me with the assumption of god being in the picture#and id get an eye roll like i was being childish not going along with it nevermind they inserted god into the convo in the first place#without question or comment#and i know it wasnt forceful the same way some ex religious folks can get a bit zealous the same way they were about religion#which theres something to eb said for that zealousness being acceptable when christian but not when atheist or another religion#but ive never gone through such a phase my family has been atheist for several generations now and we were taught to respect beliefs#anyways sorry idk why this is on my brain this afternoon i think i saw a post or smth and it reminded me of that youtuber
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