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Screw you apple for making ur products die so fast when you come out with new stuff
Anyways heres a doodle dump so my blog isnt JUST of me yapping. These are both old new and current😔 (img 7 is scrapped)
Im thinking about changing molly to bee? Maybe? Idk. What i DO know is that shes a baddie bitch now from da city😔goodbye ms. My-Dream-is-to-live-in-the-city and welcome ms. Im-walkin-here!
The misty doodle is if she was a bad bitch with mollys personality😔
Also! Cheddar siblings reveal except easy cheese cause i took a break from that and completely forgot about it till now!
#squish the goober#procreate#was litterally in the middle of drawing playboy stuff for ocs (wh snd bg3/dnd to he specific)#and i FINALLY find a song that goes with the flow of what in doing#then mid stroke#boom#dead#KEEP IN MIND I HAVE ONLY USED MY IPAD A MAX OF 20 MINS TODAY! 20!#and i had it plugged in all night#then dies#ugh#ima be real my ipad dying so quick is a part of me losing motivation to draw more#can i have it plugged in all the time? yeah#but my favorite drawing spot is in a place where theres no other plug but the lamp#>:c#anyways happy mothers day!#rambles#molly moth#welcome home oc#welcome home#doodles#misty gloom
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oh boy !! ! ! ! !!! ! thANK y0u all for the kind words on my last art posts. you all get it and i was/still am so happy about it
as promised, here's some close-ups of the comic for image quality's sake, and other screenshots i rescued from the community whiteboard (and something else)
first up another sketch of mystery gender-ambiguous being. (please send me more name ideas for them if you got one- i like to hear em! (reminder it's the side character that appeared for <10 seconds in AvM Ep. 30))
a few fav scenes
emotional support cwab
they weren't meant for this purpose exactly, but i do have countless "fluffy sticks" loose in my notes and homework sheets from the school years.
papery critter.
even when i wasn't confident in fur or feathers, they helped me practice posing and create some satisfying gradients/flowing poses. (im a sucker for good tail poses) (oh yay! i found a good pic...)
and finally, little sneak peak for you for reading so far ;3
i realized that whiteboardfox is pretty great for my working needs. simple and to the point and all. feels nice with the mouse and the tablet.
so i started hashing out a big project idea just to see if it holds up and
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oh
oh man
it's a little bigger than i expected
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#--/ art#alan becker#animator vs animation#animation vs minecraft#Minecraft bed#ava the dark lord#ava the chosen one#me when the project that obviously wasn't going to be done in one night isn't done in one night: D: !?!?!?!?#kudos to whoever routed the Speedrun actual short because that one is so fun and clean and savvy#clever made up time-savers? includes orange's TNT shield-jump?? nonlethal dragon dispatch??? sweet#ithink you can see where i tried to head with this#turns out that turning up the complexity 98 notches higher makes things trickier to parse hmmmmmm?#in fact i might need some help with this one ;>v>' like a lot.#i had a bit of a story and route set up already i just... wanted to make sure everything was at least kinda there...................#we'll see#the pie joke. i was trying to categorize which foodstuffs chosen should be able to make on the fly. with their flame hands.#ex. cooking meats makes sense because flint and steel works for the same purpose (you can kill a burning animal to get cooked meats)#but baking bread or drying kelp seems way more involved or whatever -> needs a proper furnace environment#HOWEVER... i noticed that Steve can just summon pumpkin pies from his bare hands if he wants to without even a workbench. so. sure! lol.#this is scraping the surface of the minutiae i want to consider#(ALSO KUDOS to everyone who RUNS/works on all-advancements. of course. riding on your shoulders here)#final joke is that chosen didn't know how crazy this undertaking would be to learn#but dark is very literally programmable. so you could maybe just plug some TAS instructions into him and off he goes#or even more open-ended than that just give him the list of advancements + stipulations + the wiki and similar result#it'd get done but. i dont think he'd find that fun at all. prefers to write his own instructions if you see what i mean#i might be forgetting some context. it is rather late you see. please ask me questions about this! ;P#tco aa
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Our power is back on!!!!!😭💖💖🌟🌟
#it was out for 10 days 😭😭😭😭😭#it was caused by hurricane helene that hit the carolinas really bad last week#i live in south carolina not north#but South Carolina especially the upstate (where i live) got hit pretty bad#lots of fallen trees on houses and everybody lost power#nowhere as bad as north carolina but still 😭😭#very intense#i also had a very fun adventure of getting food poisoning a couple days ago😭😭😭😭#so ive been eating nothing but dry cereal and tea since lol#the power came on last night#i immediately cleaned everything haha#the scariest part is how out of the blue all of this was#had no idea it was going to happen#anyway hopefully this week i can get back to it!!!#making more art and stuff#my drawing tablet plugs into the wall and it killed me last week not being able to draw on the computer 😭😭😭#minor problems ik 😭😭#very happy and grateful rn#also gonna take a lot of naps bc im very tired lol
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rapidly realizing i do not in fact like my sister at all.
#milo.txt#this entire weekend has just proven how opposite we are and how fucking clueless she is.#she called me on thursday night claiming she's the only one who's ever stood up for her and cared for her#and how independent she is#and this entire weekend has proved how far her head is up her ass bc she's so fucking helpless and#dependent on others#somethings she's asked me this weekend#she texted me prior to the trip asking me if i had a charger bc she forgot her phone charger#also asked how to use an address and her phone to get some place (''do i just plug it in or?''#this isn't helplessness this is her just being in her own world but i told our grandparents we would get to their#place around 10am and we showed up 2+ hours late bc my sister didn't realize that when you say 'im going to show up at 10' PEOPLE EXPECT YO#TO BE THERE AROUND 10#we also just got gas and she INSISTED i pay for it#and started BERATING me for what i was doing#'you're doing all wrong why would you get that type of gas that's the wrong one have you never gotten gas before GOD'#and then got mad at ME for being like FINE YOU GET THE GAS#and then she had the audacity to be like 'but you'll still pay for it?'#also also. going back to that call on thursday night she said that she really doesn't like it#when our dad thinks he knows her but doesn't (as in he got her a new sweatshirt as an 'apology' gift#and she was like when have i EVER been materialistic ! when have i EVER cared about having things? NEVER!!#that's such fucking bull.#i have a vivid memory of her DEMANDING my parents to buy her a new pair of jeans#bc my dad had spilled beer on hers and no. washing them would not be sufficient#anyways. getting really pissed.
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every time my dad does anything he has to do it in the most annoying and loudest way possible. and honestly i'm not sure if he means to or he's just really goddamn stupid but it's really really grating. and i'm suffering the werewolf curse rn so i'm ready to die
#motherfucker decides he's going to vacuum and mop the kitchen and dining room.#has to make a lot of noise. has to get out the broken vacuum cleaner and fuck with it for ten minutes before deciding 'oh i will get the on#that does work' like an intelligent person#doesn't know where the cleaning supplies are. jess tells him and he gets the wrong one.#plugged in a fan to dry the floor and somehow it flipped the breaker? he asks where my flashlight is so he can see to flip it back#i tell him it's on the bookshelf. the TOP of the bookshelf. what does he do? rub his filthy bleach hands all over my books#then finally goes 'oh it's right here'. YEAH DUH. i said on top of the bookshelf and Pointed at it. please pleasepl easeeee someone killme#also! last night at 11pm (when i wanted to go to goddamn bed bc i had to get up EARLY so i could take my old dog to his 9am app)#he decided he wanted some food. asked me how long to boil macaroni#when it says so on the box. i tell him.#then he opened the box like fucking wolverine i guess! and had to pour the box into a ziploc bag.#like why are you a 50smth TODDLER?!#how have you lived this long?#is it the alcoholism or smth else? i just GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#anyway sorry for this vent post but i hate having to be alive anyway#but when my Organs are misbehaving and roger is on the loose i really want to run into traffic#lol#diaerie#delete later
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❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-
#glass animals#honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh????#like….. when i say wore out#i cannot describe how much i listened to it#i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number#like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened)#i cannot recall w this#gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke#so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao#(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol)#anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night#driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in#sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who????#had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused#it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song#then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky &#ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work#(i was right & it blew her miiind)#god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok#i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this#highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift#a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them#as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?)#a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever
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my phone is like refusing to charge and it's scaring me a lil bit
#rambles.#it was plugged in all night and nothing#has been plugged on a different charger for 2 hours and still nothing#ever since i dropped it in the toilet a few weeks ago it's been acting up a tad LOL#i've had this bitch for 5 years and she's been steady#i'm really not trying to get another one rn 😭😭
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don't want to declare victory for the war on ants quite yet but i think i did win a battle...
#saw HUNDREDS of them drinking terro last night and i thought like fifty of them drowned#checked today and. there isn't a Single one in or around the terro#so every single one of those bitches went back to the colony probably!!!#im still absolutely BAFFLED as to why there is a colony in my closet. there is no food in my closet. there is no food in my bedroom.#the only place i eat is the KITCHEN TABLE SO WHAT ARE U LOOKING FOR KIDS#(there was actually a big hole in my window they finally plugged up that was letting water in every time it rained)#(and i REMEMBER seeing this giant ant in my closet when i came home from work on the wall#and going : / i'll get her after i change#and then. she disappeared#that was my first mistake. cause i'm like 95% sure that was the queen)#u would think they would leave if they can't find food#i mean maybe my room does have crumbs i don't claim to be perfect#but i've vaccummed it a bajillion times and literally haven't eaten anything in there in a month at least#maybe two months cause i was out of town#anyways. i hope those bitches are dead.#i feel bad about it cause i hate killing things but they had started crawling on me whenever i was sitting at my desk and. i couldn't deal.#there are giant borax circles all around the legs of my bed and my desk and anything potentially crawlable#it looks like i live in supernatural
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Gencon is very busy...!!!
Ummmmm highlights of the day..!!!
I maybe bought 4 Naruto figurines. Thankfully not individually expensive (though perhaps a little expensive all together...) see I wanted Sasuke but I also wanted Kakashi and I couldn't have Sasuke without Naruto and well it would feel wrong to have the 3 of them without Sakura and so I somehow. Got all 4. Haha. I'll most likely post pics later, whenever I end up opening them. I'm still at the convention center rn lol
(Putting the rest of this under a cut bc it got a little long lol)
I was on the field of the Lucas Oil Stadium, aka the stadium that the Indianapolis Colts play at. I've attended all of One game here (not professional football, it was a high school game lol) so I've felt the size of it, but it's still fucking crazy being on the field. It's so BIG...... and obviously they've got the grass covered rn, but it's still pretty cool!!!
I maaaade dice!!! Pretty precise process it seems, & definitely would require a Lot of work (after the sanding and the painting etc etc). I do still wanna get into it, but if I wanted to spring for stuff like the vacuum chamber or the pressure pot...
Yeah, it'd get expensive. Add in the fact that I don't have a good place to do this away from the cats & it really is not feasible to start rn. But!!! Eventually!!!! I think I'd really enjoy it. I just need a dedicated workshop space where I can spread out without worrying about poisoning my cats lol.
Here's some cool game set stuff I saw in the event hall. This picture is maybe... hm... a fourth of the event hall? And then when you consider that the vender hall (connected to the event hall, though it's closed right now) is maybe 1.5 times as big as the event hall?? Give or take a little...
Aka just imagine booths upon booths upon booths... I'm gonna have to take a pic of it tomorrow. I was there too briefly to think about taking a pic. Honestly I maybe managed to get through like a tenth of the whole vender hall in an hour of wandering. It's fucking huge. And So Many Dice... I bought one set of 14 (I think it was) dice. Aka an extended set. And then I got a random set bag of dice (just a basic 7). And then a d20 with a cat on it. And a dice of LETTERS. Aka I guess a d26 (I totally did not have to double check that there were 26 letters in the alphabet)(I have 702k words written & posted to ao3)(😂😂😂 I'm very tired) but with letters instead of numbers. And it's glow in the dark!!! And I found some hxh buttons, and a mighty nein poster, and uhmmmm. A cute lanyard. And that's all I bought. Which really is such restraint for me. (Omfg I just saw a dragon cosplay)(someone just dressed as a dragon)
OH YEAH I saw a fucking. Persona 5 Ryuji cosplay. Hanging out with the biker lady from Durarara. Featuring the Ryuji holding her scythe hfksbfmd which was such a funny image. I was too shy to ask for a pic but just trust 🙏 i saw this
Anyways yeah the only real big thing I bought is the naruto figurines. I'll show pics later once I got the stuff again (I dropped it all off in the car earlier)
Omfg literally as I've been sitting here (on a bench at the side of a main hallway) someone stopped by and gave me a handmade bracelet !!!
DND's 50th anniversary!!! So cute!!!!
#speculation nation#not Too much anime stuff. tho i clearly found some stuff. no trigun yet unfortunately 😔#which i already walked thru the artist area (as much as i could)(i was getting a little stressed by how crowded it was)#so idk maybe i missed a booth or smth but it'd definitely be less likely to see elsewhere in the vender's hall#but WHO KNOWS it's a wonderful massive world in there.#im actually sitting outside it rn and staring longingly at the closed doors. tomorrow... i will be able to Actually peruse it more...#and i will quite possibly wear some ear plugs next time bcus i was getting Stressed Out!!! overstimulated!!!!#pulled in a million different directions!!!!! aaaaaaa!!!!#anyways yeah my events are all done for the night. just kinda hanging out now waiting for my sister's game to be done.#gonna collapse into bed as soon as we get back. so i should probably eat some more.#i had an overpriced and underwhelming sandwich. but there is pizza somewhere. maybe i should eat pizza.#i actually... still have the keys lol. from when i dropped the stuff off at the car earlier.#which is weird. I have the ticket to home with me. but i still wait. bc it would be a dick move to leave with them lol#and also. while i Can drive. i do not have my license. so that would be. a bad. idea.#my shoulders Huuuuurt but thankfully i dont have any combat classes tomorrow#hurting shoulders is more just from my bag bc my shoulders fucking suck. but it makes me glad i can rest more tomorrow.#oh yeah i did the sword knife and longsword today. might get bruises from that knife one. it was very focused on parrying#swords. swords. swords. swords. the longsword class made me really want to own a longsword. i dont own one. yet.#i could. i could. i could. sometime. eventually. i want a longsword. i think i technically just own uhmmm um um#a rapier? a machete? a uh. i dont know what that cheap anime convention sword is actually. OH YEA AND CANE SWORD#no longsword though. i really want to own a katana too. someday i'll own both. someday.#real swords are unfortunatelly really expensive. thats why i only have uh. uh. uhhh. oh yeah i do have those 2 swords from mountains trip#i dont really know what those are either. you know i really should know what bladed weapons i own. i dont though.#i own cool swords and knives bc oooh fun pointy things! wheeeeee!!!#i'll study up on it later. lol.#anyways i guess i should go look for more food. i have rambled enough. bye!
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You would never guess he committed several very bad crimes today
#baby santino#the worst one being that he got zoomies so violently today that he did parkour through the house#and kicked one of the pheromone diffusers out of the electrical socket and BROKE the diffuser#he BENT the prongs that plug into the socket 😑 so I had to ORDER A NEW ONE#he has been STEALING at night lately. he plans like full on Océan's 11 capers at night#to knock shit off dressers/desks/counters/the bar#trying to play with him more during the day to get all his energy out but he just loves to do night crimes and violent morning zoomies 😔#cat#cute#a baby!!!!!!
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my friend's charger SUCKS
#on my charger my phone will go from 1% to 50% within an hour#i had my phone plugged in all night and it never got past 62%#like what#funky lil thoughts
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Hey, it’s me, the Interdimensional Gateway girl.
I wanted to post some Darkside content, but Chapter 9 of Gateway is (Unsurprisingly) Not Done, so I did some drawing instead
And instead of drawing actual canon characters, I finally decided to give a visual on our two favourite non-canon family members,
I’m so sorry if you haven’t read Gateway, But you totally should if you haven’t.
#Do I wanna put this in the main tag?#Not really but y'know. I shamelessly plugged the fic already so. Y'know#The Darkside Detective#darkside detective#Darkside Detective oc#I guess???#Also shoutout to Damien 'BalloonDog' Has-No-Last-Name for unintentionally influencing Millie's design#Specifically for her nose and the Hereditary Hair Parting tm#God I hope this reaches it's intended audience#And if it does#I hope the girls met your expectations#if you had any at all#idk#maybe this isn't even a thought that crossed your mind#You aren't getting Frederick though. He gets to stay in your head.#(Because I struggle with drawing men)#That's the secret#...Hey did you make it this far in the tags? Why?#Ah well. Have a good night#Or morning#Whichever
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just woke up its nearly 2am but i gotta listen to taylor swift to confirm something
#gotta wake up 4:30 am to do stuffs (take yearbook pictures with my class)#okay im oversharinf its time ive got antihero in my ears im going to pour some soul out#so my favorite car trips are ones my dad drives around taiwan as we visit places from taichung (hometown) to taipei#the car had a usb of music from his brother and all the songs were like some rock or old pop in chinese and i was like im 12 i dont like#this so i scoured through the contents of the usb and found oh! taylor awift i know her from shake it off let me see whats this#it was the entire 1989 album#and i was in the car my entire family tires rolling through urban and rural-esque areas i took off my glasses (i wanted to see with#my eyes fr like idk i wanted the authenticity of viewing the ‘home’ i never got to seefor the last decade) and im practically blind without#them optical lenses so the entire trip in my memory are changing colors#cool air (it was 25°C out) and taylor swift blasting through the car between the lulls that we’re all content to be in silence stead of#mindless chatting#plug in 1989 and its the most calm you’ll get me. specifically style (i see green trees and feel the breeze through the window’s palm-wide#gap) or all you had to do was stay and i see bubbles of lights floating through the front of the car and big blocks of indisternable#buildings and wide empty intersections parralel to the bursting sprawling walking streets#okay imma go to sleep#good night#thinkingaboutmusic
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Welp, nothing like getting overwhelmed by cleaning because heaven forbid you put one (1) item in the hall so it’s out of the way. We’ve gotta throw a temper tantrum for it because we’re trying to pick fights left and right today.
#shut it void#I just want to make space in my room so I can sell stuff finally#just shut the fuck up that I threw some bedding in the hall in a spot you never fucking go#idk what mommy dearest did this time but leave me the fuck out of it#it also being like 95F in my room doesn’t help but hey we had to cut pointless holes in my door!#only for them to get plugged up because all they did was let in light and noise#and dude can’t just listen to the tv at an acceptable level at night
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never letting my laptop die while i’m on tumblr again 👁👄👁
#scariest seven hours Of My Life#basically it was 2 AM and my laptop died so I plugged it in and tried turning it back on and it wouldn’t work and I Freaked Out#(Because my dad could fix it just fine but then he’d want to check this-and-that and see that I’ve been on tumblr dot com because the tab—#was still open)#the charger light on the laptop was blinking and I watched a couple videos telling me to take this-and-that out of the laptop hardware#which i don’t think I was qualified to handle 🥲#but luckily one video said something about if the charging port (the block thing) is cold that probably means it’s broken (which. Yeah)#so I went to Walmart to get a new charger and got one that was “universal” I asked if I could plug it in to try it and they said no#so then I went to Starbucks and opened all my stuff to find I needed a two prong wall adapter thing but I had a three#So I go to a different Walmart and there I get a two prong and the man let’s me plug it in before I buy it (thank you Richard 🙏)#so now I’m back at Starbucks waiting for another store to open to get a birthday gift for my mom#I slept in and off for like 3 hours last night but i’m fine now 🥲#rose.txt
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after more scream-laughing and pleading, thinking he's going to toss her in the shallow end of the lake he finally puts her down and somewhere in the midst of turning around and checking her surroundings her face hardened. that wasn't joe coming to join them, that was... freakin' billy? river's went off, unnoticed the way branches were breaking behind them a second ago and proceeded to go sit by the bed of flowers to pick a few of them. all the life drained from her face because what the hell was he doing here? he never showed up for any birthday's before? he heartlessly never cared at all for his little brother since the day he left five years ago. and what was he wearing? he looked unrecognizable. he's that full of himself, he'd wear something like that to joe's birthday? like he just stepped off a red carpet? it is like a full blown stranger stalking. especially when thinking of her own outfit, a deep purple skirt with a belt, a white tank top and a pair of brown cowboy boots with purple gems decorating them. and then river's... jeans, a green short sleeve that makes his lime green eyes pop, jean jacket and a pair of tan boots underneath his dirt stained jeans. which is way more appropriate for where they live and cuter in her opinion, but billy made her feel out of place with just that alone. billy looked like someone who was letting fame go to his head and it created even less desire to go up and talk to him, even if she waved at him to let him know he wasn't getting by without being spotted.
"hidy, stranger." the brunette promptly turns, skirt spinning with the movement before walking over to where river sat in the bed of flowers. the irony of him being a true stranger as she placed river's hat back on top of his head, sitting down in front of him while he looked over to see who she was talking to. "who is that?" he questioned in a quiet voice, green hues flickering back on lucy gray. "that's you know who." lucy gray softly replied back and then river slowly nodded since he didn't want to show too much emotion, deciding he'll bring him up later and then she changes the subject to asking what he's doing with the flowers in his hands to he replies with 'making one of those flower crown things you make all the time' which has her softly laughing, smiling affectionately as her hands reach over to reposition his fingers for him and direct him how to thread the stems together.
standing outside the barn, leaning against the nearby fence, billy sticks his hands into the pockets of his dress pants and contemplates for a moment. he’s returned to his hometown after being gone for five long years (no phone calls, no stopping by for holidays, not even a postcard) and a very arrogant part of him has been hoping, expecting everything to remain the same as it was on the day he packed up his bags and left. frozen in time. instead the opposite has happened — everyone’s moved on, carried on without him. he’s struck by a deep sense of alienation and even a hint of regret (like he shouldn’t have come here at all), finally realizing that there’s no way he’ll be able to simply pick up right where he left off. the places are familiar, but the faces have changed and many hold a personal grudge against him. after all, the whole town knows that joe’s been living at mrs. baird’s, his stepfather’s still drinking heavily and spending his weekly paychecks at the brothel two towns over, and people don’t like billy’s selfish attitude one bit. not many can sympathize with him, figuring he should have at least come visit once in a blue moon, and so there’s really no one at the birthday party with whom he could just spark up a fun conversation. his own brother doesn’t want to talk to him, so what does he expect from virtual strangers?
and then, suddenly and seemingly out of nowhere, just as he’s about to climb into his range rover, a familiar sound draws his attention. lucy gray. he’d recognize this laugh anywhere. it sends a chill down his spine. they must have missed each other at the party. he glances toward the nearby trees, thinking he knows exactly where the sweet sound is coming from — their spot. part of him is dreading the moment he lays eyes on her, but then a different part feels a strange kind of pulling. enchanted, he moves toward the forest, the deep, blue lake hidden just past the tree line, the old cabin where they’d hide from rain and thunderstorms. his glittery dress pants and elegant shoes weren’t necessarily made for long walks through woods, but he doesn’t really care, he just wants to say hello. look at her again, talk to her, see what she’s up to these days. he’s halfway through, stepping over brambles and blackberry bushes, cursing quietly as they scratch the fabric of his pants. it ends up ripping, both his pants and the vines give way at the same time, and makes him miss new york… the white tank top that he’s wearing is great, lets his skin breathe in this sweltering heat, but also leaves his arms completely exposed to bug bites and tree branches. he hates this place. hates the judgmental people. doesn’t really hate his ungrateful little brother but… ugh. fuck them all. he’s just going to say hi to lucy gray and be on his merry way. they don’t want him here anyway.
he manages to make it through the woods, finding the dirt path that leads up to the cabin only to realize… is that a male voice that he’s hearing? it’s not billy taupe, but it sounds strangely familiar while also being so completely foreign. he must have met this man before, but — it hits him like a freight train. pale blue eyes flickering down, finding the old dock and the lonely boat, and… lucy gray with another man. jealousy pricks his heart against all rationality, deep down knowing that she’s no longer his girl, hasn’t been his in five years. besides, he’s not in love with her. why would he care if she’s replaced him, too? still, he feels an overwhelming sense of loss. it’s like going back to virginia. the sight of her so carefree, with someone else taking his place, brings a sharp, bitter sting of sadness while simultaneously filling him with rage. is he so easily replaceable? really? it’s their spot. their secret place. and this man… he’s nothing like billy taupe. he’s just like… what the fuck? there’s so many places that they could go to. why would she take him to their spot?
#joe: ur so mean to me and for what#and >:) oh it was too good for her to not notice him dnksdk she had to bc she couldnt miss his outfit that makes her#think hes even more full of himself#'f all of them' HES SO MEAN#and YES !!!!! I HAVE TO GET THIS LAPTOP THERE TO THE COMPUTER SHOP BC OUR LAPTOPS ARE FR TWINNING#AND THIS SHIT- IM TIRED OF IT NOT BEING ABLE TO HANDLE NOT BEING PLUGGED UP#APPLE ONCE AGAIN BEING A DIRTY B**** its crazy how we both need our batteries replaced#i wonder how long it takes for them to do it???? UGH AND IT GIVES ME ANXIETY BC IM AFRAID THEY'LL TEAR MY LAPTOP UP#like. they wont. but i just have irrational anxiety and ughhh it needs to fr go tho or it might end up tearing it up worse in the long run#its been like this for 2 yrs??? now? holy crap#been on charge since 3am last night#its now 12pm and shit it just on 51%#thats so baddd
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