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switchytransboy · 1 month ago

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my moms been in the hospital for days, i just got diagnosed with OCD after years of it being misdiagnosed as anxiety, back in therapy, trying to start college the end of this month, and worked during my whole winter break from school at my side job.

i. am. so. tired.

#i just never feel like i can keep up #and i feel so lonely #i wish i had more irl friends #just a better circle of support #people i feel like i can lean on #i’m so tired

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ichigosoju · 8 months ago

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#im so upset that he decided that i did smt wrong again #and then just pulls away and stops talking to me #he's done that several times and its so frustratinf #g*#bc hes the most important person to me hes my fav #but he doesnt care abt meeeee lol he wants to talk to others but not me #anyways so yeah #this entire month.... we have exchanged like 4 messages #bc he didnt like smth on my blog then unfollowed me and now isnt replying :D #and i feel so lonely #yes i talk to others #the issue is .. im fucked up yes but he is the only one im like obssessed with #his messages makes my heart race #otherwise i just feel dead #but the entirety of may.. nada #and june is one year ago since we had out intense couple of months #that i miss bc when he gave me that and showed me my dream #i feel like im dying now when i cant have it anymore bc he stopped liking me #i just hate how he isnt talking to me #bc he is RUINING my mood #all i cant think abt is him and when it is bad between us i feel depressed af all day for weeks #he isnt healthy for me bc i need open and direct communication #and he doesnt give me any of that #i knoooow that he isnt right for me but i want him anyway oops

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theforesteldritch · 2 years ago

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god I am very mentally ill and tired and I don’t let anyone know and it’s killing me

#tw suicide #moth vents #ive been suicidal off and on for months #And I’m struggling to take care of myself and do shit like brush my teeth let alone responsibilities #I can’t get the idea of drowning myself out of my head sometimes #And I’ve been getting bad intrusive thoughts about stuff stabbing through the bridge if my nose #To the point where I can’t look at nose peircings for longer than a glance because I can feel it in the bridge of my nose #I’m paranoid about that too I’m paranoid for no reason that someone or something is going to shove something through the bridge of my nose #I feel so irrational but I feel like I can’t trust myself or anyone around me #And I feel so lonely #I don’t really have friends anymore #I feel like I’m watching myself destroy my life and I don’t even care #I don’t even give a shit because there’s too much and also not enough going on in my thoughts #It drowns out everything and I don’t even understand myself

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schemelin · 2 months ago

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non-verbal "I Hate It In Here" Lone Wanderer just wants her dad back.

#EDIT: I might have used an offensive/misused word when describing LW's speech abilities. I apologize for the inconvenience.#LW is non-verbal! She is able to make sounds and communicate in sign language - therefore she is NOT mute!#drawing characters in a vault suit is actually so fun #listen i never played fallout before i just enjoy reading about these characters and the story in general #fallout #fallout 3 #starbsart #fallout charon #fallout fawkes #lone wanderer #if something feels off or just doesn't make sense storywise it's okay. there's a lot about it i don't know yet #fallout butch deloria

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dreamyblanket · 11 days ago

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Yearning from the nothing dimension [rambling in tags ^^]

#i really couldn't make a version with a bunch of eyes that i was happy with on the bottom part #and then i realized thats fine and not everthing is going to look cool and awsome all the time. kinda emphasizes the space though.#anywho do you ever think about how lonely it must be in the tree or dark side of the moon. like all you can do is watch and wait #imagine falling in love with someone you can only see glimpses of #someone who you just found your mind wandering closer and closer to untill you realize just how happy they make you and how they make #the vast emptiness of a prison feel because your so far from someone whom doesn't even know you exist #Anyway!! had some thoughts about sm I'll probably draw more laterrrrr bc I just cant draw today ^“^#cookie run kingdom x reader #shadow milk x reader #shadow milk cookie x reader #i hope my rambling made sence to someone. im not very good at articulating myself

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lovebunnie · 4 months ago

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“i love being aromantic” i say as i feel my chest cavity rotting from the inside at the unquenchable desire for love in a way that is truly a secret third thing but its not a secret i want to keep it is a secret nobody is willing to listen to and im trapped in a state of isolation of my own making because no matter how much love i have to give it will never be enough. it will never be enough. it will never be enough.

#space.txt #aromantic #its like something gnawing on my bones!!!#i am who i am but who i am is somebody nobody else wants #and do i want to be wanted?#im trapped in a world that will never give me the dignity to be truly happy by myself #financially and culturally! im doomed by the narrative #i look forward and there will be friendships but they will never be enough i feel like a fucking ALIEN #i need to meet another aroace person irl so bad its so fucking lonely how do people deal with this #1k #all the notes on this.. WE WIL BE OKAY!!!#2k

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wineanddineloseyourmind · 1 month ago

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the transgender urge to curl up like a small fluffy animal against someone you love’s warm body and make little mewling and sighing and whining sounds as they pet you and praise you for having tried so hard to be human until you fall asleep

#it’s one of those days #it’s one of those nights #i’m fine and everything is ok rn. but my brain is kind of not working great #i feel so… limited. like there’s a lot i want to do but my energy and focus just isn’t there #and my emotions are just always lowkey sad and lonely rn #so i’m just desperate for physical affection #but i can’t really get much of that atm #i just want to cuddle for an hour with someone #maybe more #*tired and sad puppy noises*#personal post

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thebrainrotsreal · 3 months ago

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Drew this real quick because I fucking love these two so much ???? Especially Bee. I wish they interacted more so badly. PLEASE.

Also learning how to draw these guys.. slowly.

#IT WILL NEVER NOT BE FUNNY TO ME HOW DELIGHTED B GOT ??? FOR VIOLENCE?#the brainrotsreal's art tag ✧˖°:*♡#like okay you have d17/megatron okay #d17 got consumed by vengeance. iconic of him. you SEE him grow more ruthless/ violent........AND THEN YOU HAVE B 127 #he got knife hands for 0.00937 seconds and immediately KILLED PEOPLE SO EASILY IM SCREAMING SDJKJSDS #did by accident and then did it gleefully. AND SO WELL TOO LIKE ???? bro got that hunger for violence ig. got that delight.#i wish we got to see d17 and b127 interact more cause imagine b got his knife hands early and d17 was like.... alright start stabbing #and b127 is LONELY. mf is deprived of interaction and CLEARLY clingy. i see him telling d17 to stand down so he isn't hurt.#not necessarily because he has the SAME morals as orion/optimus #like look me in my eye. tell me if d17 didn't say something like “needing an ally not a leader” (friendship bait)#AND UR TELLING ME BEE WOULDN'T FOLD AND HELP HIM? HM? HMMMMMMMM?#like i feel like b's morals are mostly match whoever he's around. if he was around d-17 more? WELP? let's assassinate together bestie!#anyways optimus and elita gotta watch b fr cause mf is already an incredible ally on the battle field SDKJKDSS #like just tell him where to go and that place would DESTROYED. NO WITNESSEES LEFT. LIKE HELLO #transformers one my beloved #d 16 #megatron #tf one #tf one megatron #tf one b 127 #b 127 #transformers one fanart #never know how many actual tags to use istg.#imagine being isolated for years and all that shit went down like what is going on in b's brain rn. mf got 3 friends and then lost one #SO QUICKLY

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joneevarts · 2 months ago

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I just want to be happy but rusty quill said no.

Elias' version

Edit: y'all this is Peter Lukas not Martin lmaooo (tho they do look alike, plus I didn't made his white hair strands visible enough so my bad)

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skarsgards-bill · 3 months ago

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BILL SKARSGÅRD as Mateo in Soulmates (2020) - S01E04: Layover

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paintedcrows · 5 months ago

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Some Fords! (and Martin K Blackwood is also there)

#Some Ford wips I'm working on! I'll probably post these all seperately later. I dunno yet. just wanted them out of brain jail #The TMA crossover drawings are inspired by a fic which I cannot find the name of right now BECAUSE AO3 is DOWN????#anyway I got more drawings for it I'll post all together later #also I haven't listened to protocals yet and I need to relisten to the og so I hope I remembered Martin's level of lonely avatarship lmao #Also I just think Ford would be a bit mean to himself. ESPECIALLY his immidiately post Fiddleford leaving self #conflicting thoughts of 'I cant risk changing the timeline' and #'I was a miserable self centered idiot and Im afraid I still am so I need to to put my younger self down to feel better'#Gravity falls #Stanford pines #ford pines #young stanford pines #gf fanart #fanart #fan art #my art #digital art #martin k blackwood #the magnus archives crossover #Edit: the fic was 'earth becomes sky in the most literal fashion'!!

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darkacademiboy · 9 months ago

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simp4vampires · 2 years ago

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Little miss I no longer have a deep friendship in which she can feel comfortable to be emotionally vulnerable or be her truly self without worrying or talk about her day and be her annoying self so when she feels like she wants to die she can only comfort herself with music

#i'm little miss #as I said #it's getting bad again #and I feel so lonely #no matter what I do #I will forever be on my own #I'm a “you're on your own kid” girl

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artsymeeshee · 22 days ago

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