#and i fall for it every goddamn time

[posititties]

i love my best friend and at the same time i hate him because i feel so guilty for everything that happened the past few days

[phoenixkaptain]

Novel A New Hope Vader is my favourite Vader (so far) because he Is Anakin, he is everything Anakin is set up to be. He is intimidating, he is overwhelming, standing next to him feels like standing next to a black hole, he is-

The biggest little shit in the entire galaxy.

You canNOT convince me that he didn’t say half his lines with a shit-eating smirk. He is awful to be around, he is the worst person to ever exist, he is SO annoying.

And Novel Vader is so Anakin because the book can give us details the movie can’t. The book gives us the author’s choice of wording, the way the author intended the scenes to be, and Vader is such a little shit almost constantly but my FAVOURITE will always be when Tagge talks back to him about the Force, saying it isn’t as powerful or scary as he makes it out to be and Vader just-

“I find,” Vader ventured mildly, “this lack of faith to be disturbing.”

-the WORD CHOICE. The fucking WORDS chosen.

“Ventured”??? “Mildly”??? He is CHOKING this man!!! This man is DYING!! He is being such a little shit right now, this is it. This is the Him, this is Anakin Skywalker right here. He is using unnecessary force and being a bitch about it and there will never be anything that so perfectly encapsulates Anakin Skywalker than this fucking scene in this fucking novel.

On the topic and as a brief aside, the novel is what makes me think that Leia was planned to be Vader’s kid, or at least a narrative mirror to Vader, right from the start. She is also such an Anakin.

“Darth Vader… I should have known. Only you would be so bold— and so stupid.”

She just… also. Encapsulates Anakin. Like. Yeah. Yeah, this is what he could have been. He could have been a terrifying figure that people rallied behind. He is loyal to the death, as is Leia. She spits on Darth Vader while he’s having her dragged away. She mocks him to his face. This is the character that the Anakin Skywalker of future movies mimics. Her passion, her anger, her being a little shit and insisting throughout everything that it WAS a diplomatic vessel and they WERE on a diplomatic mission.

Leia is the first character to face down Vader in this novel and not show fear. She is the first character who refuses to submit in the face of the scariest guy in the galaxy. She continues to refuse to submit. She’s just. A great fucking liar.

Leia puts all her trust, her very life and the sake of the entire rebellion she’s fighting for, in a droid. An astromech droid. She begs for them to take the droid further, not for them to find her. She’s willing to die, and she trusts her death will not be in vain because she trusts a droid.

And that, if nothing else, is all the proof needed that Leia is what Anakin could have been.

[bleaksqueak]

Honestly, I'm really grateful that my brain isn't wired to jump from hyperfixation to hyperfixation. It has its own unique drawbacks, sure, but I've always found it really comforting that I know what to expect from myself.

[pansunset]

not sure what part of “i’m disabled and broke and don’t have any extra money to share” people don’t understand but i’m still getting donation dms.

maybe i should start talking about killing myself in random strangers dms, that strat seems to be working for the guy who messaged me today!

[kim-ruzek]

I've been doing a rewatch of svu and I've been really enjoying it especially 13-17 and it's made me fall back heavily into my in defense of Amanda feels and my rollisi feels hardcore (I've drafted a lot of my Thoughts posts and came up with more fanfics lmao at me ever thinking this could be a casual rewatch) but now I'm conflicted about going forward and ugh I'm being reminded all over again why doing a full rewatch isn't what I'm most successful at.

I'm on s17 (one of my favourite ever seasons) and I'm really loving watching rollisi fall in love all over again and for that reason and the fact I just wanted to watch everything again anyway casually is why I want to continue but man if I haaate s18 and the subsequent impacts that followed which is why I don't generally do a full rewatch which is why I also want to just quit and end on my happy feels.

Of course I could always do what I always do and just do a incomplete rewatch, only watching my Favourite parts which I have the timestamps practically imprinted into my brain but I so desperately didn't want to do that this time. I was multi tasking while watching and having it on as background noise in a lot of ways so the idea was that I'd be able to get through it via that way but my hyperfixation feels have been Activated now which means it's pretty hard for my brain to do that.

I love Amanda so much and I love the later seasons dynamics so much too but boy am I being reminded why I tend to stick to the earlier seasons. Way less mental confliction for me :/

[aran-morinorea]

Annatar’s shit paradigms pls???? Happy Friday !!!

fuck it i really like this actually

Annatar pushes into Celebrimbor's touch and nods, watching him unblinking. Celebrimbor wants to find everything he changed, since he clearly did more than Celebrimbor asked about. He sets a hand in Annatar’s hair and a kiss at the base of his neck. He smells a little different – hot copper rather than iron, perhaps. His jaw is a different shape, just enough that kissing him there is different too. Sliding his thumb over the elegant curve of one ear, Celebrimbor bites down on the soft skin just below the other.

It leaves a mark.

He’s never going to get over that. Annatar is just indulging him, of course, he couldn’t do him any real injury, but on some level that just makes it better. This person – older than the world and more arrogant than any Incarnate king, who moves through life with the strength of a tectonic plate and the fire of a star – will let Celebrimbor mark him, take direction from his teeth, alter his worldly vessel for Celebrimbor’s amusement.

[bromcommie]

god I love snow……would love to see some that doesn’t melt into death trap ice sludge within 48 hours……would love to not have it kill me some day

[danthropologie]

the day that daniel girlies stop putting so much stock in every little thing nate saunders says is the day i'll know peace

[musical-chick-13]

Can someone tell me that it's okay if I didn't do any creative work on this today. Please.

[cator99]

I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care

[khaotungsfirst]

just spent my 1h lunch break sitting in my doctors waiting room just to cancel and go back home cause i need to keep working. i even had a fucking appointment

[mist-the-wannabe-linguist]

Who the hell designed the dragons in House if the Dragon

What the fuck are those wings

[foreststarflaime]

Rebirth? Oh no I think you mean Piano Simulator 7

[asspinkie]

astarion: i can't tell if tav is being avoidant or if i'm just being completely incomprehensible and off putting to talk to.

lae'zel: tchk, it is clearly the latter.

me, trying desperately not to romance him again:

[agnesandhilda]

they should invent a day with enough hours in it for me to get all my tasks done without having to turn into a joyless husk