#and i ended up passing them up bc i wanted this one

[ilynpilled]

@readorsigh to redeem myself for my answer to ur🔥 ask last time… (there is indeed another aot character that exists to me) whats so interesting about this is that it is not even about just reiner at the core. or i mean it is blatantly bidirectional. eren sought him out bc he became aware of him being his parallel. reiner’s confession and judgement of the self in this scene is the sentence that eren gets. eren frames reiner with a lot of sympathy bc he knows they r the two sides of the same coin now. he wants to frame this as “you had no choice” (be it bc he wanted to save the world or bc he was a product of his circumstances with no agency) to in some sense get that ounce of absolution that part of him desperately craves regarding the future he is about to set into stone. reiner tears that apart when he rejects it and tells the truth and takes full accountability and judges the self. on the deeper level eren is not truly the one passing the judgement here, he is receiving it. eren, above all else, wants to attain his abstraction of freedom. reiner, above all else, wanted to attain his abstraction of heroism which he believes would finally result in his humanization and embracement. this is why the ramsay scene shouldnt have been shocking and i find it honestly inconceivable that ppl didnt grasp this about eren’s main motivation even after the series ended up explicitly and straightforwardly telling them there after foreshadowing it through reiner here. it wasnt about saving paradis for him. it wasnt about saving the world for reiner. it was not selfless. it was about them and the part of themselves and the desires they were a slave to. and reiner’s sentencing of the self in this scene (death: “i am sick of this. of myself. i want to end.”) is ultimately what eren accepts for himself, despite his desire to live, at the very end of the story.

this confession echoes reiner’s “i got them to keep going. i wanted to be a hero. your mother died because of me.” which is a question at the center of much of this conversation and it is something that is meant to embody tragedy and serves essentially as a microcosm of the reality of their actions (that “why did she die?” motif is there in kaya and gabi’s argument too about her mom.) eren repeats the initial claim that is now recontextualized “i was right. i am the same as you” after hearing rei’s words, confronting the truth of what that actually means. and it all works especially well considering that carla died as a result of a choice that eren makes. she dies because reiner and eren kept moving forward to grasp at an abstraction no matter the lives that they trampled beneath their feet in doing so

Eren thought Reiner wanted someone to forgive him, but Reiner wanted someone to judge him

[cassandrarebornanew]

Redacted HC bc I said so

FL Gang

this is so long I’m sorry

Dear knows everyone. They are that one person who can unironically say “oh I know a guy” to almost every situation, no matter how strange. Dear also draws their nightmares. I have a hc (from someone else I just can’t find the op) that they have selective mutism, so instead of trying to tell Lasko / family / friends, they just show them. They don’t have a huge amount of nightmares, but they are really good at drawing. Lasko is learning to dance, and his teacher is (drumroll pls)……… Dear! They can 100% dance, don’t tell me otherwise. Lasko was put forward for a really big modelling gig when he was in uni, but he didn’t go for it. He’s absolutely model quality, he just didn’t have the self confidence for it. Dear’s helping him get past this tho, and he’s thinking of maybe putting himself forward for a few smaller photoshoots. It’s unlikely to happen soon, but Lasko’s warming up to the idea that it doesn’t just have to be a pipe dream.

Huxley hates the stereotype that all Earth elementals are good at keeping plants alive, and that they like having house plants. He loves nature, don’t get me wrong, but he doesn’t like keeping plants inside, it seems wrong to him. Damien used to grip his wrist when he was worried that he would lash out, so he ended up with some pretty severe bruising.

Huxley noticed this and started holding Damien’s hands instead and this means they’ve just gotten into the habit of holding hands all the time, even though Damien’s broken the habit completely. In return, Damien founded a tiny community garden less than 30 seconds away from their house, where Huxley tends to the plants like they are his children.

Gavin is a master at painting his nails. He then transferred those skills into painting Freelancer. They don’t know about it, but he wants to have as many drawings and photos of them as he can. He and Dear have given each other pointers to make their art super accurate.

Freelancer makes amazing cookies. They cannot make anything else, but their cookie baking skills are so incredible they once baked a metric shit ton and sold enough to pay for a new phone. Freelancer and Gavin have a system where they each book one night (from about 7:30) a fortnight and no questions asked, they don’t do anything other than spend time with each other. This could be a date night, where they dress up. Or this could be a relaxed evening, where they wear the nicest of their pyjamas and paint each others nails and do skincare.

Freelancer has dyscalculia, and they bond with Huxley because he has dyslexia. They help each other out, no judgement, because they know how crippling it feels to have someone characterise them as stupid because of it. This is why (to me) some of the people [see: f-ing idiots] in the Redactedverse see Huxley as a dumb jock - nonetheless, he passed all his exams with much higher grades than expected. Damien and Dear are the resident cooks. Damien can cook like a chef, and he has an instinct for when the food is about to (or already) burn, which is why he immediately noticed the buns being burned in the second Friendsgiving vid. Dear on the other hand, cooks like it’s for a family - warm food, guilty pleasure food, home food. They are also good at baking, but leave to cookies to Freelancer and the muffins to Huxley (yes he makes muffins). Dear’s specialty is meringues. Their mother taught them the family recipe, and the gang are now hooked on the things.

The entire gang goes to Pride marches together. Dear and Gavin combine their skills to paint everyone’s nails, makeup if they want. They also bust out the face paints and will paint everyone’s respective flag like it’s a mural. Huxley gets his across his chest, Damien spiralling up his right arm, Lasko’s coats his forearms and along his hands and fingers, and Freelancer gets theirs twining around their waist. Dear does their own, and it starts on their eyelids and floats off. Some people say it looks like tears, or humming bird wings. Gavin gets his on his back like a pair of massive wings. Sometimes he makes them stretch out slightly when he knows Freelancer is looking.

Lasko and Damien will get into debates for the fun of it. The others have tried to take part, but the two of them speak so fast you’d think they’re about to break the sound barrier.

Freelancer and Dear are the Dancing Queens (gender neutral lol) of the group, and are never afraid to break out some moves, even in public, much to Damien’s chagrin and Lasko’s embarrassment.

Huxley is the strongest, given that he’s the biggest, and he has the most leverage with those long ass arms. Dear comes second, with Damien then Freelancer and Lasko (in that order) coming in hot behind them. Huxley obviously goes on a lot of hikes + gym. Dear started going to the gym regularly with Damien, but they were already very in shape from frequent hikes and other things; I get lean muscle vibes from them. Freelancer has a really fast metabolism, so they are more than happy to just go on a few runs every now and then. Lasko isn’t the fittest (as we heard in the hiking audio lol) but he’s decided to go on more hikes with Dear, as we heard. Gavin got disqualified from the rankings after he picked up the couch with a single hand - Damien was still on it btw, and he nearly set the thing on fire - and everyone remembered he doesn’t have quite the same limits that the rest of them do. He secretly wanted to get out of the rankings anyway, for reasons unbeknownst to us, so he wasn’t too torn up about it.

Things they are alarmingly good at:

Huxley - photography - he uses those retro Polaroid cameras for the nostalgia feel, and pins the best ones on the wall. The majority of the photos are of Damien let’s be honest

Damien - speed chess - Huxley will sit next to him and watch as he plays and plays and wins every time, and if he doesn’t win, he will play the game back as many times as it takes to see where he went wrong

Gavin - shit posting - he has an account that posts once a month, and it’s the most random stuff, but it goes viral every time. The “then perish” response? That was him

Freelancer - flower … lore? Is that the word? - they know all the symbolism behind each one, and how to make the most meaningful bouquets

Lasko - random fact recall - he, in the middle of a ramble, will drop random ass facts that no one knew about. Dear pays 110% attention (instead of 100% lol) once they noticed, and remembers as many as they can

Dear - fancy writing - they know how to imitate fonts like a computer, and will gladly do so on command. They also have a wicked cursive script, but no one can read it lmao

Let me know if you want me to do any more :)

[myotherblogforrin]

The Meeting - Vampire Rin

Warnings: Swearing, bloodsucking bc vampires, lol. (Rogues - beings created to protect Vampires, but now hunt them & Protected Zones are areas vampires cannot hunt/take blood from humans).

The streets were still wet from the earlier rain, but you barely noticed as darkness continued to fall on the city you called home. You knew the area well, but lately it felt as though you were being watched as you walked home. That thought alone stole all the safety you had wrapped yourself up in for years.

At the corner, you felt the urge to cross the street, but had no reason to. Following that urge, you crossed the street when the light turned, your feet seeming to carry you without any spoken directions.

As you passed a darkened alley, you heard something close to a groan. Hesitating, you turned back to at least check on the person it came from. Knowing this area as well as you did, you knew exactly how to escape an alley, even with a dead end.

Pulling out the taser/flashlight you carried with you, the light landed on a tall, broad shouldered man. Black hair covered his face, but the moment your eyes met his, you knew exactly what he was.

"Nghh. Dammit," the man groaned as he fell against the building sliding to the ground.

You rushed to him, kneeling down and pulling up your jacket sleeve offering your wrist. This close you noticed his eyes were a beautiful shade of teal, but dulled from hunger.

"Just drink," you commanded looking away.

"You are stupid."

You chuckled bitterly.

"You are starving. So, take what you need or I'm gone."

You looked back at the man realizing his facial features were strong, though his skin was paler than it should be. Even for the undead. Though he glared at your wrist in disgust he slowly took it in both his hands, glancing at you again.

"Do you offer yourself to every starving vampire you meet?"

You held his glare.

"You call me stupid, but do you realize you are in the protected zone? You could be killed if the Rogues find you."

He bit into your wrist, harder than he should have, but he felt you deserved it. You bit your lip, looking away as he drank. He used his tongue to close the wound before releasing you.

"Your name."

You stood up, adjusting your clothes as you did. When he stood, you realized just how tall and intimidating he was once he'd fed.

"Do you have a sponsor or someone to shelter you for the night?"

You couldn't believe you were asking, though you did care. If you could help someone, vampire or otherwise, you would.

Although, the sneer on his handsome face led you to reconsider offering any help. If you wanted to sleep tonight, you'd have to tell your conscience to fuck off.

"Your name."

This vamp was a broken record and honestly you just wanted to get home. You started walking out of the alley, when he appeared in front of you. Damn them and their speed.

"I'm not THAT stupid," you mumbled, not wanting to meet those eyes again.

"I repay my debts. And I won't be indebted to a human."

You sidestepped him, rolling your eyes wondering why he was such a stubborn ass.

"You owe me nothing. And you took barely any blood, so we're good."

"Tell me your name or..."

"Can't a person just do a good deed?"

"No."

You were blown away by this vamp's blunt and shitty attitude. This was your one and only reminder to never help a Vampire again. You were stupid, but only once.

"L/N."

"I'll repay my debt. Soon."

"Sure. Bye."

All you wanted to was to get home, the feeling of being watched still heavy upon you. At least you knew it wasn't the vampire, but you began to wonder how he'd even gotten into the protected zone.

Rin wondered why you had to taste as good as your scent had led him to believe. You were the reason he'd ventured from the safety of his own territory. Rin hadn't been able to ignore the sweet trail you left for him.

Even now it was taking every bit of restraint he had not to follow you home. To claim you. Rin expected that to be an all out war, anyway. It wouldn't matter, you belonged to him and you'd realize it eventually.

[baelavelaryon]

so i've officially gotten the job!!! 🥳🥳 i start NEXT WEEK

[tinylongwing]

@leucrotta Thanks for spotting the error - descriptions for 5 and 7 were of the same photo, somehow, with different text. I don't know how I did that. Tired lmao. Fixed now.

BUT I am so glad you want to see more photos of the countryside! That hike was so special. These won't really capture it as well as I saw it but should hopefully give you a glimpse! It was a bit hazy unfortunately - there was a yellow dust event coinciding with my hiking day (sand blowing over from China due to high atmospheric stuff). All of the below are along the Yamanobe-no-michi trail.

Roadside honor system fruit/veg stand, Tenri. This one is empty but several had fresh fruit or vegetables for way better prices than you'd see in a grocery store, plus the stand that I bought from (which was attended by a lady who ran out of her house to greet me as soon as she saw me by her stand, she wanted to know which country I had come from, it was cute) with a bunch of homemade pickles and daifuku. I was in desperate need of those daifuku man, they were huge, so so good.

Blooming mustard field, Tenri. See what I mean about the haze? Pretty field though.

Somewhere south of Tenri now, looking up the steep trail cobbles at a house next to a bamboo stand.

Village somewhere in Otogicho. Lots and lots of old traditional homes out here in these small villages.

Moated village near Kayoucho. Several of these ancient villages had moats - for protection, as well as for a village water source, and sometimes for growing water-loving crops.

Nenbutsudera cemetery, same place as the buddha with lotus leaf headstones above, but these are more modern grave markers. Seriously I love that the road goes right through this place, it was amazing to explore.

Tomb of Emperor Sujin (Died ~30 BC). This is the first ruler of Japan who we actually have a real name and date for, rather than someone who is mostly mythological. What a tomb, man. There's no way photos can capture the scale of these kofun mounds.

Top of the tomb - yeah there's a whole lake in there, and then more walls, and a whole forest.

The trail as it passes through a small village somewhere north of Miwa. I just love these little narrow streets.

Fallow field north of Miwa with some really impressive older homes behind it.

More Jizo statues - I looked these up after the first post. Jizo was a bodhisattva (person who attained enlightenment but chose not to ascend to nirvana so as to help people on earth) who is now sort of the patron figure of unborn children, children who died very young, as well as travelers - the latter of which is why so many of these pop up along trailsides. The stacked stones are because evidently the unborn children can't achieve enlightenment as they are stuck in limbo, so they instead build stone towers to try and reach nirvana, and Jizo guards them while they do this - and locals will stack stones in an attempt to help. Also I guess the red bibs are protecting Jizo while he protects the children. I'm fascinated.

Omiwa Jinja! The destination, for me (some people continue on past this but man I was tired). This is quite possibly the oldest remaining shrine in Japan, from an era where Shintoism literally worshiped things like mountains. The shrine, on the low slopes of Mt. Miwa, is here for worship of that mountain as a god. It's still very popular today despite being in the middle of absolutely nowhere - lots and lots of locals were there to visit while I passed through. Also it's enormous. Such a great place to end the hike.

Four days ago I left Rota in the hands of my very capable banding technicians, and now am on a much needed vacation in Japan.

I know I owe bird pics, but first here are some Japan photos for those who have been wondering why I've gone dead silent during the new LH single release haha (I'm enjoying it, I'm just on a very different time zone!)

I have an absolutely unreasonable number of photos I could share, but here are several highlights of the first half of my trip:

Southwest tower of Nijo Castle, Kyoto

Todai-ji, Nara

SO MANY DEER, Nara Park, Nara

Isonokami Jingu shrine - one of the oldest shrines in Japan, built around the 2nd or 3rd century AD if not older. The chickens here are believed to be messengers of the gods

Uchiyama Eikyuji ancient temple ruins (1114 AD), Tenri, on the Yamanobe-no-michi (oldest road in Japan, dating back to at least the 700s AD, which connects villages and ancient historical sites, mountains and farmland around the Nara basin)

Winter orchard, Tenri, on the Yamanobe-no-michi. Evidently these are persimmon trees planted on the tomb of an emperor from so long ago that the date of construction has been forgotten (but other similar tombs around here are from the 200-300s)

Nenbutsudera Temple cemetery, Yamanobe-no-michi. The lotus petals are ancient headstones from people whose names are long forgotten.

Just a really cute collection of Buddhist trailside figurines on the Yamanobe-no-michi. Figures like this can be found all over the country, tucked away on trails, inforests, and at the edges of neighborhoods.

Fushimi Inari and its famous thousands of torii gates, Kyoto

Kiyomizu-dera, Kyoto. Overwhelming number of people here so I had to take a photo just to show how nuts it was. Great temple, not so great crowds. I feel bad for the temple attendants. A monk I briefly spoke to had more patience and so much more kindness than some of these unruly crowds deserve.

Ryozen Kannon temple, Kyoto. This is a modern temple built to honor the unknown soldiers who died in WWII. Really gorgeous and moving place.

Goshuin stamp and yatagarasu figurine from Kumano Nyakuoji, Kyoto. Shinto shrine dedicated to the three-legged raven god? Hell yes. I've been collecting goshuin as I go and this is for sure one of my favorites (though I have many favorites).

Kinkaku-ji, Kyoto. I read Mishima's Temple of the Golden Pavilion in high school and have wanted to see it in person ever since, but I didn't think I was going to have time this trip (it's kind of in a weird out of the way place). Managed to find time anyway. 10/10 zero regrets I cried about a building covered in fucking gold leaf. It's so over the top, yes, but shockingly beautiful in person.

I'll possibly do another photo dump later if you guys want to see more but tl;dr there are some tourist hotspots that are ABSOLUTELY worth it (Fushimi Inari, Nara park, Kinkaku-ji) but the most memorable by far was my hike through miles and miles of countryside. If any of you are heading to Japan in the future and are up for a long walk through some of the nation's richest history, kindest people, and most gorgeous landscapes, the Yamanobe-no-michi is worth every single second of the journey.

[theoldkyokodied]

One wedding and three funerals

Background paintings under the cut

[luck-of-the-drawings]

POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.

[hana-bobo-finch]

erm…..posting about an OC via a rushed shitpost was not on my 2025 bingo card!! 😂😂😂😂😂😂get it??? 😂😂😂because his name is bingo??(GETS SHOT)

these are all things he has done or has attempted to do so consider this the full intro post for that freak for now. he’s still too undercooked to fully introduce but damn I love him

[cloudcountry]

🎃 -- halloween . . . terror is trending !

the witch of ramshackle, the guardian of diasomnia's longs...auburn.

this card is an sr. (vignette 1) (vignette 2)

summon: i wish malleus and lilia would have though to ask me if they could use my residency as their halloween set-up...

groovification: did you see diasomnia's set-up!? i can't believe they built all of that so fast!

set to home screen: let's go see everyone else's displays! i know they put lots of effort into them.

home transition 1: grim no, you can't eat that--! ugh, thank you for reigning him in. he doesn't know when to stop sometimes.

home transition 2: you know, i thought it would be kind of hard to take this seriously since it's a bunch of teenage boys, but they actually pulled this off.

home transition 3: i saved up some money and bought some candy for my friends. i put extra in some of the bags...hey, don't guess who those bags are for!

home after login: i'm not good with horror! these boys get way too rowdy during this season...i need to have a girl's night with on my own to recharge...

home transition (groovy): which display was the scariest..? give me some time to think it over!

tap home 1: you know...this purple is kinda cool! i think it looks good on me, hehe.

tap home 2: you want me to take your picture? oh, of course! what kind of angle do you want?

tap home 3: your costume is so cute! it really clicks with your dorm's theme, ehehe.

tap home 4: i don't know how our housewardens do it...they're kind of amazing. i think i would get overwhelmed with all of this. eh!? what do you mean i'm technically a housewarden too!?

tap home 5: if you want to find me tonight, don't look into the library. i've avoiding idia shroud like the plague.

tap home (groovy): those degenerates who only care about their magicam accounts have gotten on my last nerve...don't tell anyone i said this but i hope malleus zaps them.

[azulashengrottospiano]

🎃 -- halloween . . . terror is trending !

the witch of ramshackle, the guardian of diasomnia's longs...auburn.

this card is an sr. (vignette 1) (vignette 2)

summon: i wish malleus and lilia would have though to ask me if they could use my residency as their halloween set-up...

groovification: did you see diasomnia's set-up!? i can't believe they built all of that so fast!

set to home screen: let's go see everyone else's displays! i know they put lots of effort into them.

home transition 1: grim no, you can't eat that--! ugh, thank you for reigning him in. he doesn't know when to stop sometimes.

home transition 2: you know, i thought it would be kind of hard to take this seriously since it's a bunch of teenage boys, but they actually pulled this off.

home transition 3: i saved up some money and bought some candy for my friends. i put extra in some of the bags...hey, don't guess who those bags are for!

home after login: i'm not good with horror! these boys get way too rowdy during this season...i need to have a girl's night with on my own to recharge...

home transition (groovy): which display was the scariest..? give me some time to think it over!

tap home 1: you know...this purple is kinda cool! i think it looks good on me, hehe.

tap home 2: you want me to take your picture? oh, of course! what kind of angle do you want?

tap home 3: your costume is so cute! it really clicks with your dorm's theme, ehehe.

tap home 4: i don't know how our housewardens do it...they're kind of amazing. i think i would get overwhelmed with all of this. eh!? what do you mean i'm technically a housewarden too!?

tap home 5: if you want to find me tonight, don't look into the library. i've avoiding idia shroud like the plague.

tap home (groovy): those degenerates who only care about their magicam accounts have gotten on my last nerve...don't tell anyone i said this but i hope malleus zaps them.

duo magic: malleus, we have to protect ramshackle! || i assume that mean you're giving me permission, yes?

[ladywaterfall]

Can we agree on a shared clothing size system. I ordered a bikini bottom on eBay (cause I found the top here but the bottom was sold out, uncommon size bra girlies know how hard it is to find a bikini that fits AND in a color you like) and it was marked as a size 10 and since the store was in the UK I thought that must mean it was a UK size 10. So off I go converting to EU sizes and yes UK 10 is a EU 38/M so great my size!!

But it arrived today and NO it was apparently a AU 10 which is NOT a EU medium but a EU small! I got this shipped all the way here for it to be too small bc size conversions needs way more research than I thought! Can we have a shared clothing size numbering system please!

[slashersweethearts]

honestly gotta say one of my favorite things abt yvieliv is the way the way the insanely overt flirting/tension between the two of them (the former being like entirely yvie @ liv) goes practically entirely unnoticed by the whole rest of the group bc like. it does not register as anything noteworthy as far as yvie is concerned. like ofc she's calling liv babygirl and making other much fruitier comments. she talks to all of her friends in a way that borderline if not outright would constitute harassment 😭 so that could literally mean nothing!

[connormoving]

its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF

[flowerakatsuka]

one of these days i need to sit down and write out the lore i've thought up for kuroba's youkai au bc i went a lil wild with it.

[asinglesock]

just realized my fatal flaw and the great struggle of possibly the rest of my life. while watching a cdrama.

[medium5]

The meower