#and i didnt even post the last stuff. shameful

[slavhew]

anatoli my beautiful princess with a disorder welcome back

[enden-k]

Sir...

You can't just drop a new oc, have the tag "the himbo prince" AND NOT TELL US ANYTHING ELSE!?!?!?

Im joking, but if you'd like, please introduce us to this fine gentleman, i promise i won't bite (ok maybe a little)

well, the story hes from is veeeeery crack-turning-serious and goes like this:

the protagonist is a high elf named vindrael, short vin, whos very short and bland looking than the average beautiful tall elf. bc of this he gets overlooked since his birth and developed quite the inferiority complex. to make up for all this, he dedicates his life to the art of summoning and studies hard until he becomes one of the greatest summoners his age

the king of the land notices vins magical powers and intelligence and takes him in to become the court summoner and serve one of his two sons. vin develops a crush on the king (since he noticed and believed in him) and chooses the younger son, prince titus, so he can stay at the court and near the king instead of the older son, prince aris, who travels the lands with his guild and slays monsters. years later, aris and his warriors die in a dungeon and it affects the king and his mental health greatly. he favored his eldest and neglected titus bc titus isnt the smartest and brightest and it brought shame to his father

from then the king changed greatly and years later he sends his remaining son off to "slay a dragon"; giving vin the choice to stay at court or go with him. vin ofc goes with titus bc he still feels extremely guilty over aris death and how it made him feel relieved he didnt choose him back then; he decided he would follow titus everywhere even if it was death, trying to overcome his fears

it then turns out the dungeon they were sent to was a trap meant to kill titus and his warriors, using their lives as an offering to that residing dragon to bring back aris from the dead. the king wasnt aware tho that the dragon king is unable to use his ancient powers bc hes missing a horn and thus cant turn into his true form so titus strikes a deal with the mysterious dragon dude right then and there - to vins horror - to free him if he lets him go and pretend he died in that dungeon. titus wants to grow strong like "a true king" to prove himself and find out what his father is truly up to and stop him bc its clear its smth evil

sorry for the ramble ahhh

anw prince titus is one of the protags. hes extremely strong but very dumb and naive. his father always neglected him bc of that and favored his older brother. he considers vin his best friend and admires him bc hes so smart. when the dragon joins their little group, he immediately trusts him to vins horror and listens to anything he teaches him, even if its naughty or useless stuff hes not aware of (the dragon is a shameless bastard who loves teasing and trolling ppl, esp vin). titus has a pure heart; he is very optimistic, always happy and always believes in the good of ppl despite his dad betraying and sacrificing him. on their journey he matures and becomes wiser from their experiences and everything shows how hes gonna become a truly great king

hes also lit the definition of a himbo. there is nothing going on in his head (sometimes it makes him a bit sad) but his respect and good behavior is out of this world akjbscjk

i cant offer any existing doodles of him other than my old ones from when i drew this comic years ago. the last one i posted is bc i recently started redrawing it for my sister since its her favorite story of mine and i wanted to redraw and make it physical as a christmas gift for her kjabjck i didnt get to make more new sketches of the cast bc i got busy with amygdala weeee

[halforcdad]

i remember begrudgingly getting into ncis: hawaii bc the youtube algorithm would not stop recommending me kate and lucy videos no matter how much i ignored them. i didnt know then that i'd find a pairing and a show that would mean so much to me.

this cancellation is not the first and it won't be the last, but it has left me particularly and extremely heartbroken.

kacy means a lot to me. it's the first ship that's made me feel something in a long time, maybe since high school. ill never forget the genuine excitement, the heartache, the happiness, they made me feel, especially in season 1. ill never forget this show and the ʻOhana i never knew id get so invested in.

i look back in my drafts and i still see posts i never finished about s2 and stuff i had yet to post about s3. i still had so much to say about the show. and they still had so much to give us. its a damn shame that they weren't even given a goodbye season.

was it shitty, corny copaganda at the end of the day? yes. was the writing sometimes rushed and nonsensical? absolutely. did they waste a whole season developing a character that had nothing to do with the core cast? you bet. but the cast and crew didn't deserve such a cruel, untimely cancellation without a chance to say goodbye (especially for shows that include a nasty dude who assaults his costars). the human aspect of it all is painful on its own. the show wasn't perfect at all, but it had heart, it had a good cast and crew, and i know i will miss it terribly.

most of all, i'll miss all the good times i had posting about the show and talking about it with everyone here. it's led me to meet some special people that i'm eternally grateful for and reignited a creative passion in me i haven't felt in a while. I'll always remember kacy and hold them dear in my heart. but I won't be giving up on them any time soon. even after the show ends, ill still be here, going insane over them and all the possibilities we won't get to see. kacy gave me such hope and happiness for the future, and i hope everyone keeps that spark alive.

[gizkasparadise]

final leg of a journey to love thoughts!! (eps 35-40). this got so gd long so under a cut it goes. spoilers, of course:

PLOT STUFF/PACING

pacing for the plot definitely got shredded in the last chunk, which is a damn shame because otherwise i've been finding the pacing pretty much perfect. eps 35-37 in particular felt like they could have been like a 10 episode arc. ep 38, which mostly dealt with wu palace politics, should have been cut or streamlined imo and more time given to the characters we've actually been riding along with the whole story. by the time we get back to the pregnant empress, prince danyang, the first prince whose name i dont even remember, and the prime minister, i do not care about any of them and i think this subplot was simply just trying to fit too much shit into one bag

that said, this show still let the emotional moments hit and breathe and linger. i love the grief for the fallen liudao comrades as we go, as well as the less heavy but still emotionally important moments like yang ying and tongguan bonding over their upbringing. and we got a wedding /;3;/!!! for this show, the relationships and characters matter more than the storyline so im not mad about anything at all

side note: it's so gd millennial to have a story about a bunch of 30 something year olds who want to fake their deaths and retire into obscurity but instead they go and die for a boss they hate

CHARACTER STUFF

this show consistently brought a lot of depth to its side characters (and side side characters!!). i said it in an earlier post, but it bears repeating that even someone like deng hui i didnt expect anything from, but he got such good development and writing that he became a stealth fave. his dying words essentially being "dude, quit fucking around" ? iconic.

i didnt like tongguan as much as everyone else, so im pretty meh about everything regarding him. the attempt to force-wed ruyi was tonally really weird and didnt make sense (i assume there was some cuts made surrounding it). but LOL at him reusing all the outfits and decor immediately for his wedding to yang ying. baby duke, you tacky motherfucker. i ultimately think yang ying deserves better than him, but the good thing is that she knows this, so she'll be able to hold her own and then some entering into this partnership

shisan really was the heart in a lot of ways--the mom to yuanzhou's dad for the liudao. i was not expecting him to break my heart the way he did, but the fact that he held both qian zhao and sun lang as they died and then tried his best to remove yuan lu from harm and saved chu yue and was just very much a nurturer all the way through got me. his character couldve been cheap comic relief but the writing + performance really elevated him into one of the (imo) most memorable wuxia characters. his line wondering who would get to behead his beautiful skull!!! and how his mantra was always that he was going to drink the best wine, see the most beautiful women, and make the best of friends and he dies having lost the ability to see and having just had wine in memory of qian zhao, yuan lu, and sun lang. like. shut up!!

ruyi and yuanzhou were both so great and they're gonna be the drama OTP to beat forever. i loved the gender reversals, that they both were so respectful of each other, and that they also felt very mature in how they handled things and communicated. they were really interesting characters both together and apart and that's always a win-win. they had a schroedinger's ending where it's not super clear if they're alive or dead (i interpreted it as the latter), but what's kind of beautiful is that either option is satisfying to me. if they both died, they're reunited and with their comrades and the story is truly about the journey and the meaningful short connections we have. if they both survived, it's a bookend with the beginning where they each faked their deaths to escape. A+

COSTUMING

i gotta just separately mention the costuming for this show because it was 15/10. the textures, shisan's accessories, the way red became integrated with yuanzhou's wardrobe and blue with ruyi's. the details on the liudao name amulets!! SO GOOD. i love when characters' clothes tell a story on their own

overall i just really loved this drama it is probably my favorite wuxia ive seen so far! it's gonna be in my brain for awhile lol feel free to send fic prompts if you've made it this far :'D

[felipe-v-fanblog]

My Questions:

What is your favorite portrait of Felipe V and why?

What is Felipe V known for?

Is it true that he lived life thinking he was a frog?

ah thank you for asking about him !! he is my hyperfixation forever and ever <3 always happy to talk about any historical figure anyway

i will make a long-ass post i must confess that i dont know when to shut the fuck up:

FIRST OF ALL i really like the hyacinthe rigaud portraits. specially the last one, which i know one of the copies is at Versailles along with a portrait of his brother le petit Dauphin and his father le grand Dauphin and I believe there is one of Charles, duc de Berry too? which is also his brother. Anyway I am insane about all of them so of course its my favourite. BUT my favourite version of that portrait is this one:

he has a heart ! on his wig. over his forehead. there. i think its funny. This portrait has a lot of version which are too similar to eachother but this one is the only one with that weird thing on his wig. Also this one isnt actually for the public display that is why its on a very low quality its being sold. which is a Shame. Its from his second reign as that was the moment he started using the ponytail.

WHAT is felipe v known for is a eh interesting question as i think everybody knows the upside down portrait of him in Xátiva, near Valencia, which is the autonomous comunity which hates the most Philip V as far as I know ? SO he got a lot of hate during the war of spanish succession (1701-1714, starting approximately when he was 17, as he gets to Spain at 16 - it finished around the end of 1714, the year he marries his second wife, Elisabeth Farnese - also a very interesting character which i know a lot of people love a lot) . So eh the important stuff is that spaniards hated bourbons because Spain hates frenchmen ? for some reason ? but im british so im supposed to hate them too. So anyway after the war of succession which is ! ofc after charles ii death which i know you like a lot :3 i also really love him iiii I will keep talking about philip v as to not change subject. So. eh he was also the grandson of Louis XIV which I know spaniards hated because he was in war with the Habsburgs - its a conflict since Louis XIII s times - and they were very culturally different. In fact Philippe suffered a lot when he came to the spanish court a la Marie Antoinette because it was too different. But its like the contrary of Marie Antoinette, because he was suffering because spanish was boring and he didnt even knew spanish. He also felt pity against the gente de placer because they had different morals in the french court (ofc the activity its bad in itself but i will not state the obvious, yet in the court of louis xiv there are many examples of mentally ill or desfigured people which were supported by the state. ofc the majority of them were part of the royal family but anyway philippe knew he shouldnt make fun of these people - he was rather disturbed by the group). So anyway the habsburg faction was against him but he was rather welcomed to Spain, he himself didnt felt spanish enough to be king - and even had to be reassured of keep being king since very young, years before abdicating.

Clearing that out, because the story about Philippe going to Spain, or his childhood, or his first marriage; are all stuff I would talk on and on about, eh, I will proceed to talk about other stuff he is known for. During his first reign his first prime minister, which was a frenchman that Louis XIV send to fix Spain, did fix Spain; ofc not as good as Charles III would later do it, but did the first steps towards it. He also send to made very important buildings of Spain like el Palacio de la Granja, where he is actually buried along with his second wife Farnese. He is also known for being the first Bourbon king in Spain, may say the first bourbons were Isabel de Francia (first wife of Philip IV - sister of Louis XIII) and Maria Luisa de Orléans (first wife of Charles II - daughter of Philippe d Orleáns, brother of Louis XIV - you probably know the tale about Don Juan José negotiating the marriage ! its a funny story). There is also very peculiar characters during his reign like Don Blas de Lezo or the Cardinal Alberoni (which Philip himself made sure to make cardinal by spamming letters to the pope about making him a cardinal - Philip was very fond of him, and even made him his prime minister and Archobisp of Malagá), there is also Louis-Joseph of Vendôme (Luis José de Borbón, as he is known in Spain), which Philip also gave him his life and made him virrey de Cataluña, heir of the throne in case he did without childs, and marshal of Spain. He has a thing for giving the people he loves everything they ask for and more. Louis-Joseph is one of the most important military figures of the war of succession along with the duke of Berwick and the count of Tessé (marshal of France since Vendôme was exhiled from there. also a funny story. Vendôme was a real weird guy and I dont get to understand why Philippe liked him so much).

I finish the last section of this post. Which is getting big asf. The frog thing. Its very weird for me to see many people which make jokes about that ? I guess people think its funny ? but its not the only think he had issues with ? must say he was melancholic aka disordered since all his life. He was not know for being a normal kid, he was very quiet and shy. I know for a fact that he was bulimic, but he also presented a mood disorder, which has been mainly theorized to be Bipolar II, which I am actually okay with that version as he presented many of these traits - more tentative to depression, known as a hypomaniac state, and more tentative to psychosis. Even with that, psychology is very stained with a mysoginistic and racist history, and the diagnosis of male historical figures with bipolarity is one of them. First because they dont actually diagnose him with Bipolar II thats my own suggestion because spanish historians do their job terribly and dont even try to take it seriously enough to stand what kind of bipolarity are they talking about - they just threw off bipolarity because the mainstream idea of bipolarity is someone who tends to be happy for some moments and then deeply depressed. SO after throwing off my own agenda I will state the facts. He was deeply depressed and then went on a manic state from the sound of music. He employed an italian castrato - the most famous one ! - Farinelli to sing and play music for him, as he rested on the bed, and made him repeat the songs over and over again. He would have loved spotify. And after a lot of repetitions he even sang the songs himself, as these made him very happy. He also made Farinelly his prime minister (this guy seriously had problems with giving everything to the people he loved). He also had a very fucked up sleep schedule, making his ministers met him at the bed of his wife at 2 AM, as he never left these chambers. He had a big fear of dying, normal between Bourbons, and a big religious trauma since his childhood - he had a very severe tutor, which is actually a remarkable figure in the reign of Louis XIV; and even the spaniards were weirded out by how much he used to confess himself with Alberoni. He also had paranoid delusions, which are known to be bizarre, such as the time he thought his clothes were shining weird, and that they had poison, and because of that he started to use his wife s clothes (this is, well, a thing that happened for some reason. He ordered to only let nuns make his clothes for this). He was also hypersexual, and there is not a funny part about it, but I always joke about the fact that he was the first guy to drag a dildo to Spain (fun fact). So thats all. Ah he also thought for some time that his body parts would fall off and that he was a frog. Which the first is Cotard delusion and the other is just a bizzare delusion, as many psychotic delusions are. He liked to watch the gardens a lot, and used to be fascinated by the frogs jumping around it. This was a very small moment of his later years, when he barely left the bed, as he was very depressed. Thats the answer to the question. Now you know a lot about Philip V mental state which may or may not be funny. I think the frog thing was made popular by tiktok? but that was a very small part of his mental disorders. I love him a lot hehe. I personally think he had BPD as he was very fond of the people he loved and had many trust issues, and BPD also can make people more tentative to psychotic disorders and bipolarity. Spaniards tend to lie about the bourbons or exaggerate stuff because the historical records are tainted by habsburg faction, so the majority of my information comes from french people of the time. Feel free to ask questions or dont READ THIS AT ALL this is A BIGASS POST. I can also recommend free pdfs to read about his time blablabla I specially like Liselotte (Elizabeth of the Palatinade) letters and the memoirs of Saint-Simon, even if he talks a bit too badly about Louis-Joseph or le grand Dauphin.

[helluvabossrewrite45]

Always sunny anon replying: funny you mentioned Bojack being I believe Viv has said in the past on her twitter that she wants HB to be the next BH yet seems to not understand what makes a show like Bojack work to begin with. (I'll admit I haven't watched Bojack Horseman yet. I've been sleeping on it way to long tbh).

Yeah absolutely. Viv doesnt seem to get that bojack worked in not only in its ability to make people like bojack while not excusing his actions, but also how its structured as 'comedy turned drama'.

(major spoilers for bojack horseman btw, you can just skip to the end/the last paragraph of this post)

Now in bojack's first season, it was a comedy pretty early and stayed that way till later down the season and it continued to grow naturally to a drama (though the comedy is still there of course). Helluva boss though, seems to be all over the place as just after episode 1, episode 2 takes a more serious/dramatic approach when the show is meant to appear at first to be a dark humoured comedy, along with most of the season not even sticking to its original premise, instead focusing more of set ups and stolitz drama that both didnt go much of anywhere (striker might be an exception though i feel like the end with him could be another set up). What wouldve worked is that episode 1 - 4 is entirely on the original premise for helluva boss and the rest would be more serious (with strikers introduction, the agents and stolitz drama) with season 2 continuing the more serious approach. Hell, if their gonna include stolas family drama, why not portray it as comedy at first, then use it later on to portray it more seriously. Like in season 1 of bojack where he and sarah lynn slept with each other, its being treated as comedic. But when he revealed that he slept with her in the interview, its being treated completely seriously and use it to highlight bojacks problem from him with young women and his issues with accountability, episode 2 could portray the cheating as comedic (with stella throwing objects while rambling while stolas dodges them like a dodgeball game with octavia initially being presented as the typical 'lonely stuck in the mud teenager' but we still get hints of her being more than that later down the episode) and while it ends on them leaving the festival in an awkward comedic way, that would used in seeing stars where octavia vents about her family drama, including on how neglectful stolas has become as a father from the festival incident. Im kinda surprised viv didnt consider to use it because it would be a perfect tool for helluva boss to use.

Another reason why bojack worked compared to helluva boss is its characters. While bojack was written well, the rest of the characters (especially women) shine through and we get to see more of who they are overtime. We dont really get much on that with helluva (especially the women), sure we get their backstories though we dont really have much depth if that make sense. Like when we compare todd to moxxie, todd's deal is that he's extremely helpful and he actually have stuff going on for him, its only bojack thats holding him back so when he finally distance himself from bojack, not only is it consistent but its also not repetitive, instead we get to know more about todd, seeing his relationships, discovering his asexuality etc...hell, he even has his own episode where he learn to make time for himself too instead of always helping out everyone. Moxxie has an arc of overcoming his weakness but the thing is, it repeats the same arc that it can get tiring to watch. What would work for him is that he slowly develops him overcoming his weakness instead of it just being repeated (like maybe further snapping at blitzo or confess that he considers quitting) Its a real shame too because him being close to morally good than morally grey or bad (which i predict thats what most of hells beings would be) opens a gate to a lot of possibilities for him as a character like why he took the job, how he met his wife, how he views the world around him etc...but they clearly didnt know what to do with him especially when season 1 wasnt even properly planned (as viv literally admits this on twitter too) so its why he as a character feels stagnant. But a bigger comparison however, has to be the women in the shows. People tend to praise the show for how it writes its women characters, often from diane and princess caroline. They're shown to be as messy and complex as men like bojack in the show though other women characters had their time to shine like hollyhock, kelley, gina, penny, bojack's mother etc...Its clear that bojack writes both men and women well in the show. Helluva boss on the other hand, is quite unbalanced in its writing for men and women. Specifically with the men having more variety and generall knowledge about them than the women. Like millie and loona, despite being major characters, have very little depth especially with millie who wouldnt even be a character if we remove her from moxxie. And even with the other women characters, they dont have much depth either (or at last we dont get to see that depth often like with verosika), they all in some way are in the roles for men characters (octavia and loona being there to establish the good in stolas and blitzo or stella and verosika being there to establish to either be the villain or to show a part of the man's past) Its very clear that viv favours men characters than women as alastor and angel dust having more going on than charlie, the main character herself. I mean, both shows are technically character driven and to be character driven, your gonna have to make sure your characters can equally shine on their own instead of one having more depth than the other.

To put it shortly, i dont think viv really gets why bojack was successful to audiences to begin with and in turn, failed to achieve that success with it being how she structures her show for the 'comedy turned drama' style being all over the place when bojacks was of natural progress and her imbalanced/poorly planned writing of men and women characters where it wasn't an issue in BoJack

[old-stoneface]

ive been really interested in reading fanfic by published authors lately, and recently i found the account where the author naomi novik (who i think is very talented and whose books i have read two of) has posted fic from the late 1990s to literally this year (over 500 fics), and its like . these fics are such perfect examples of their kind. im fascinated by the depth thats added to the characters i recognize, but im also deeply amused by the stereotypical way that characters are mischaracterized, and ive been going thru old livejournal posts from novik as well. my original goal when looking for published authors' fic was to find holly black's old handles so i could look up what she was writing in the late 90s and early oughts but i havent been able to track it down....so disappointing. ive found a few pdfs of c*ssandra cl*re's work too (censored bc shes on tumblr) but since its all hp stuff i have very little interest in it. it is, however, very funny to see the origins of the writing styles that you see in the published work....

the most interesting part of reading novik's fanfic is seeing the care with which she treats female characters, making them way more complex than they are in the source material, which is also very evident in the way she wrote the main characters of original work spinning silver and uprooted. i also found transcripts of the very amusing drama that novik was involved in a while back on a reddit ama, wherein she was asked why, even though her fic is majority m/m slash fic and is mostly explicit, she hasnt written an original story featuring gay men. her main reason was that she typically leaves it up to the interpretation of the readers, letting them draw their own conclusions, but there was some messiness to her phrasing that didnt lend to a favorable reasoning and which garnered her some distrust in fandom spaces. however, this mainly just interested me, and didnt have any negative impact on the way she writes or what she writes about.

this is all to say that im proud of the fact that i was posting fic in 2012 on fanfiction dot net, and where i used to feel a lot of shame about it because of various forces in my life, i now have more respect for this tradition within the last two generations of writers lol ive never been particularly interested in the way that fandoms interact with each other but im deeply fascinated by the way you can analyze people based on what they write and how their voice comes thru ...

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii Omg i havee SOOO much to tell and ask you its both sad and fun stuff, First off i wanna tell you that you are such an amazing person like seriously omggg how do u even exist like you must not be allowed away from heaven. Btw random: i heard u mention abt u in university so hows that going and whats ur majorr???? :)) And now the very very bad stuff: i messed up. not very uncommon you see, but very bad. my cousin whom i rllyyy love shes amazing shes like the andromeda to my sirius. nd my dad's side is very cruel to my mom before i ws born and they also shamed her for having a kid (my sis) that has problems (they refuse to tell me what it is but she has 2 problems idk the first one she has since birth and the second is that she had um.. men parts but when she was around 4/5 we founf out shes.. female? im a minor i rlly dont undersrand how ths works so..yeah. shes 8 now btw this year shes gonna be 9 y/o) basically very cruel people very very bad and so my cousin, whos from my dad's side, she came for like a sleepover thingy and my father commented on my mom's side and how they arent close to me even though they are my basucaly everything.. and in reply, i said how i like them and they are good and i said "my mums side is great... better than father side atlst" and she said "i can hear u yk" and i said that shes a excpetiion but when she wnt home she really felt upset and she had an exam but she stll didnt come to my house (my house is closer to her school so she stays here in exam time so it takes less tme in travelling) so my father cmpletly blamed me and now im so upset idek what to do i dont wanna apologize to her cz she doesnt know that i know that she said shes upset. my father confronted me about it and he got to jknow from my cousins mom so there was no direct contact but basically yeah thats it. i need help in what i should do to fix things again :( but this is the reason that simply talking wouldnt work and its rlly hard :( btw random: how do i start my microfic thing like do i just upoad a micfic or do i post smgthn else first if ykwim? another thing:

yeah idk but i think m bisexual and i have a bestfriend shes straight and supports lgbtq+ community but i rlly like her and cz were besties i dont wnanna ruin anything at all and im cool with how we r rn but at the same time i want more ykwim? and.. were like the touchy-feely kinda bestfriends so we hold hands n stuff as a joke nd people ship us and its so asdxdfgkhljhxx idek if i rlly like her as a frnd or i like her as in like like her.. but i also have a crush on a boy but it only lasts for 2 secs but when i see him again i start to thibk i like him again but my other rlly gud friend likes him so is it that i like hm and ignore my feelings js cs my frnd liks him or do i just like him as frnds,, idek were close we play games togheter n stuff but thtas about it..

also have i mentioned how much of an angel you are??? i literally scream and jump off a cliff casually when u reply to my texts <333 ilysm ur such a great person <333

xoxo, sweet potato <33

hi!

Aww you're so sweet! I'm not in university anymore, at least not in the traditional sense: I'm working on my master's degree. It's going.....not terrible lol. I'm majoring in ESL Education (English as a Second Language).

For your first question: I think this is a really good example of how talking through other people isn't the best solution. Do you have any way of getting in contact with your cousin directly? Because things are definitely going to be changed and exaggerated if you are talking through your aunt and dad. Once you talk to her, be truthful. Be sincere and tell her how important she is to you. I'm betting she'll come around.

For microfics: Nope, just go for it! You don't have to do anything beforehand, just start! I can't wait to see what you write!

For the last part: First, are you sure you friend is straight? If she definitely is, then yeah, it might not be worth it to say anything? But I mean, you could always try bringing it up casually. Like "Oh, I think you're really pretty!" and see what happens?

With the guy- I know it sounds cliche, but if your friend likes him, stay away. I've been there. I've seen friendships fall apart. It's not worth it, especially since you're not even sure of your feelings. I know I probably sound like a parent, here, but there was a full-on FEUD I experienced in eighth grade because two people were fighting over a guy and....yeah.

Thank you so much for the compliments, you're so nice!! <3 I hope you have a great day!

[draculagerard]

You know how sometimes I send questions I could easily Google to your inbox because it’s more fun to hear a friend talk about their interests than see what the internet says?

Well anyway today it occurred to me that despite having absorbed a lot of spn knowledge through tumblr osmosis, I know basically nothing about Sam Winchester, one of the main characters of the show. Like I feel like I’ve got a at least a vibe of what Dean is like just from like … seeing memes and Destiel posts and stuff, but I could not describe Sam to you. Which feels like a shame.

So what’s his deal? What’s his personality like? What kind of character arc does he go through? Any Sam Winchester hot takes?

HII yes I would absolutely love to talk about him. so basically to explain his Thing, I need to give a little lore drop (bear with me).

Before he was born, his mother made a deal with a demon to let him in her house in 10 yrs. So when Sam was 6 months old, Azazel came into the Winchesters' home, fed baby Sam his own blood (and then killed Mary). Now, this ritual basically gave Sam psychic powers that he discovers in his early 20s, which is where the show begins.

Now time for an essay. Im sorry you ask me about Sam Winchester and I cannot shut up.

Anyway his whole thing is that he is The Freak and that he feels Unclean. And even before he knew it was the demon blood, he was like there is something inherently wrong and dirty about me and stuff. Theres a quote that kind of puts together all the scenes of him talking about that

"I remember looking at this picture of Sir Galahad [as a little kid] , and, and, and he was kneeling, and— and light streaming over his face, and— I remember… thinking, uh, I could never go on a quest like that. Because I'm not clean. I mean, I w— I was just a little kid. You think… maybe I knew? I mean, deep down, that— I had… demon blood in me, and about the evil of it, and that I'm— wasn't pure?" And then he talked about how something that was slowly killing him was "purifying him".

And no matter what he did or where he went, he didnt fit in. Not in his family, not in any of his schools, and not even when he ran away from home to go to college to live out his "normal life".

Personality wise, he's the kind of guy who always can make other people talk about their own feelings, and he acts all sensitive and kind, but also he's a fucking hypocrite because he never tells anyone how he feels. It's very fun comparing Dean and Sam because Dean is like No i Cannot tell anyone how I feel and then spills his guts and then Sam is like Sharing feelings is healthy :) and then takes every genuine emotion to his grave.

More on his personality: Overall he's pretty like sarcastic and bitchy but in a younger brother kind of way. In the beginning he started off very angry and explosive and always jumped headfirst into problems. As the show went on, though, he just got visibly exhausted and tired of being angry and became the full opposite, where he's the one who never got angry while Dean became the angry one.

Also, veryyy important, he is the Nerd One. Like his catch phrases are "according to the lore" and "so get this", both said while looking at his laptop screen, reading through a bunch of stuff. He's the one who does the research and shit.

Actually wait. youre a tma fan. I can explain him very easily by telling you that he's like if Jon was a SPN character. Yk how Jon starts getting powers and it's a horror thing and he has crises about how much he's human and how much he's a monster. Exactly that. And also yk Jon's guilt thing? Sam has that too. Ofc with the human/monster element, but also you know how Jon blames himself for starting the apocalypse but in reality he was just a pawn who actually set off the last trigger? Sam did that EXACTLY and blames himself too. Also the nerd thing lol.

Sam Winchester hot takes? I have literally so many but none of them will seem hot with my curated tumblr. Like saying that Sam's thing about being impure is literally just a metaphor for being queer. Not intentionally queercoded but wow is it fucking queercoded. Oh actually a hot take is that I love late-seasons Sam as well and will defend him to my GRAVEEE.

I have so much to say but no way can I fit it all on this post soooooo... hope that gave you a basic understanding of him !!!!

[urapunk]

I wanna add stuff that I didnt get to in my last post, so have fun with more Bruna facts!!

Bruna Rodrigues HCs!

(.... Or just normal facts...)

Has an odd fascination with internet mysteries, lost media stuffs, all that. It's juet an odd liking, watching shitty quality videos about stuff thats been lost to time. Has an odd fascination with London After Midnight, the lost movie, not the band.

Kleptomaniac, particularly small things. She will snatch post it notes, pens, pencils, mechanical pencils especially. Will gladly return them, shamefully ofcourse, but she just cant really help it. Also steals chapstick, like, from stores. Not people... Just an odd urge of hers. Cant resist it when she sees an intriguing scent or flavor. You can and will find her slipping those thin little lip balms into her pocket at the Yum Yum Market.

I mentioned she loves Siouxsie and The Banshees last post. Her favorites are Arabian Knights and Spellbound, and often listening to them makes her feel like she needs it injected in her bloodstream. Loves Le Tigre too, most particularly the song Phanta.

Brat. Klept-HOE-maniac. Deserves to be shamed for her crushes often times. When she gossipss with christy she's HONEST. Rookie mistake honestly, but she'll whisper about some of the ugliest guys at bullworth; Like Constantinos for example, and Petey, even once Troy Miller... I personally hate troy. He's fugly.

Skeleton flowers, moonflowers, RAINFLOWERS, ALL OF THEM! She goes insane for flowers, she'd give you her first born for a cute little bouquet of daffodils or red lilies.

FAAAAASHIOONN!! Loves halter tops and baggy cargo jeans. No clue why, she just really likes it. Can never have anything plain or boring, it has to be colors that wouldnt fit right normally, like yellow and purple, or blue and brown. She finds a way to make it work, for sure.

Always has themey socks. Her go to with her uniforms are one blue sock and another yellow one. She's silly like that, but also like the poser of silliness. 4th of july? Blue star socks. Shes not even american and she still celebrates, how sweet of her! (She couldnt care less. Fireworks, tanktops, and flashy socks are perfect for her insterest.)

<3

(Songs that make me think of her!! Special mention!!!)

[rontra]

this ask/reply is long so im just putting it together as a textpost help me shark if you're out there

Anonymous asked: hi ok im super super sorry if this is bothering you but ive been meaning to ask it for like 6 months or something . i was introduced to your work via skin game and my brain latched to it ever since i read it. me and some other friends really enjoyed the fic even if it was a short read and i was wondering if youre comfortable sharing chapter 2 either publicly or privately? again im ultra mega sorry if this comes off as creepy or weird or something ive been stressing over it for liek 3 days since i didnt want to bother you :(

either way, love your work so much. your fanart introduced me to both arknights and rwby (though a friend kind of pushed me to actually start watching it lol) and theyre both really great series :) your work is a huge inspiration for me and my friend group and your writing is just insane /pos

(3rd paragraph omitted bc i cant priv reply and im excluding your offsite info even if its under a readme HFDBHJF)

hi shark!! ofc i remember you we are like soldiers side by side in the trenches of takano posting 🫡

so first of all thank you so much for following and enjoying my work 🥰 i'm always happy to help drag people into the arknights/rwby zone HEHEHE i'm glad you enjoy what i make!!! it means a lot to me 😊 thank you!!!

now. THE THING ABOUT skin game ch2. is that it's pretty rough. i had a look at it the last time something prompted me to think about the fic and it's not really presentable (i don't know if i even finished editing it back in ….. 6 years ago… oh god). it also doesn't have all of its art (which might be a blessing in disguise given the art it does have is …. 6 years old… oh god)

getting it to a state i consider readable would take a good chunk of work, which is why i put it off again after looking at it. it's almost 12 thousand words of … uhhh… shall we say… unnnnpolished material. i think i couldn't even share it privately because i would be embarrassed to show someone something so unfinished and janky. not to mention not having all of its art finished. so i got kind of stuck last time and just put it off again bc the amount of work it very obviously needed was like. "Christ OK Not Now" yknow…

it does bolster the spirit when i remember you and your friends. it means a lot to me that you care about it even after so long!!! i just have NO idea when i'm going to get around to editing something of that magnitude @_@ i was really a dummy about chapter lengths back then… HFDBHJGJMK

it's really kind of a shame too becahse chapter 1 and 2 together are sort of the introductory portion for our 2 primary characters. so it feels like only half of the intro is done right now. since ch1 detailed how kyrie ended up at that plaza meeting takano, ch2 would detail how takano ended up there, meeting kyrie. and then we would proceed into the future from there. as a renowned Takano Guy, obviously i was very interested in this, but for various reasons i never finished polishing it and drawing the art…

ch2 also features ikuko so you KNOW its dear to me

overall being like 5-6 yrs old theres a disconnect where i don't feel like ch2 right now is achieving what it should, and i see a lot of concrete problems with concrete solutions, but it's an editing of such Magnitude that it keeps being pushed back in favor of other stuff. oh, ephemeral soul…

some of the art i did get done for it is pretty cute though, like these baby miyos;

so that's pretty good, but i didnt FINISH drawing the art, ARGHH

it is really hard to say. bc when i KNOW there's people out there who remember it and care about it, that does motivate me to return to it. but it has a lot of stuff that needs doing, and is a very old project, so it's unclear to me right now when it would receive the attention it desperately needs before it can be shown to other people... i super can't in clear conscience accept anything like payment/etc for that kind of vague half-promise either, although i appreciate the thought xD

i'm sorry it's such an inconclusive answer, but i am sort of an inconclusive guy when it comes to projects... i jump around a lot as i'm sure you've observed in your time following me 😭 it's important to me to have that freedom, but i do care about SG too, so we just sort of have to see if i can surmount the magnitude of the work i accidentally set up for myself half a decade ago (*turning into stone*)

but it makes me smile when i remember you're out there thinking about this weird little AU. so, thanks. 😌 a soul still burns...

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and then after all that CH3 was going to have more of best girl 🥺.....

WARGH <- BEARER OF THE CURSE

[roman-cup]

You have pretty eyes

Garrance oneshot based on my PDH rewrite I didnt write yet

Posted on ao3 and quotev before, now its here

past garmau and garroth x ivy  mentioned

"You have beautiful eyes." Laurance looked over at Garroth, who clearly does not understand personal space, as he leaned VERY close to Laurance face. He blinked "..Thanks..?" He did not blush because that would be lame and he's a shadow knight hes not lame! Garroth nodded. He moved away and looked back at his work. Laurance stared to see if he would say anything else. He did not. Ok then? Laurance had hetrochromia. One eye blue one green. but, still? Unprompted?? "Uh...??? Elaborate?" "On what?" "Dude??" "Oh. You're eyes are pretty" he shrugged. "Like, the sun is hitting them right now and its pretty" Laurance, for some embarrassing reason. Responded to that by throwing his hand in front of his eyes. Which is stupid, because who cares if he looks at his eyes? Weird compliment aside. Lucky Garroth had just looked away again. -- It was there Junior year of high school and Garroth and Laurance have been dating for 1 year. "You're eyes are pretty" Garroth grinned as he put his head on Laurance shoulder, showing off his braces clearly. Laurance was finally able to get his braces off a few months ago. Maybe he felt bad eating popcorn in front of him, but all in all? Not his fault his boyfriend has to wear braces. Plus Laurance still has to suffer. The dentist said he has to wear a retainer?? Forever?? Garroth, competently unaware of Laurance internal monologue continues to speak "They're all shiny and stuff.." Laurance smiled and held his hand, but held a laugh. "Deja vu" "Whatt..?" Garroth looked up at him "You already told me my eyes were prettyyy" Laurance sung light heartily. Laurance is still not sure if Garroth was trying to flirt with him freshman year, or if he was just, like that. "No I didn't...oh no" Garroth sat up "You remembered that?" "I was supposed to forget?" He laughed. "Yes!" Garroth grabbed his shoulders "oh my irene.." he groaned "That has haunted me..," "Oh and I'm dramatic?" He elbowed him lightly "Come on, its not like I was gonna be upset that my -favorite person- and love of my life likes my eyes' Laurance tried to comfort "You didn't like me freshman year" he corrected, he crossed his arms, and cracked a smile. Still embarrassed. "You don't know that." Neither did Laurance, to be honest. When DID he start to like him? He knows he likes him now, obviously, but he didn't even notice until after GarroTh and Aph had broken up. "Well did you?" Garroth looked at him "If you did I'd feel bad, because I didn't" Laurance thought. Well, Laurance did flirt with him that year, and last year, he was joking thought...right? "Oh yeah I'm heartbroken, and it was so platonic and straight of you to tell me how nice my eyes were by the way" Garroth flushed embarrassed again. "My boyfriend thinks my eyes are pretty~" Laurance sung. To add to his shame. "Oh hush, come it was weird, that I said that!" Laurance shrugged. He definitely thought it was weird when he said it. He still hung out with him after though, so, he got over it. "So like,, why did you say it? I mean I know you said you didn't like me but like,, was that flirtingggg? Orr?" Garroth shrugged. "Who knows. I haven't seen two eye colors much, I figured it was cool" Laurance nodded. He held Garroth hand "Hmm." He hummed again and grinned "My boyfriend thinks my eyes are pretty~" Garroth groaned light-heartily "Oh hush you love me." Laurance laughed "Yeah I do" he laughed a bit.  "What?" "What? I didn't say anything, nope." "Nope don't do that." Laurance stared at him, flustered.

They hadn't really used the 'i love you' phase. Yes, nicknames like "love" "lovely" "love of my life" where definitely there, but the actual words? Nope. "You love me?" Laurance looked up him. He asked casually, or he tried very hard to, and that what matter right? A for effort? Garroth shrugged. "I dont..know?" He said honesty. "I feel like I do! But I thought I loved Aphmau too." "Oh yeah.." Laurence bit his lip. "But like" Garroth continued "We know that didn't like-" he put his own hands in the air to visually demonstrate and short line "go on for long." "Yeahhh-"

"And there was my relationship with Ivy freshman year,,poor girls still mad at me for it."

"I wouldn't call her a 'poor girl'"

Garroth rolled his eyes. "whatever, my point is- I'm scared."  Laurance looked up "offf-" he looked around like what he was saying was forbidden, and it kinda felt like it was "Saying I love you?" Garroth nodded. Relaxing and putting his head back on Laurance shoulder, Laurance put an arm around him. "I don't want to go on and saying things like that and have it end up being wrong again. I mean me and Aph are still friends thankfully, But-" Laurance just stared at him. He felt he should comment on this this speech, but he didn't want to interrupt. Plus, now he was wondering, did he love Garroth? "But- I don't really want to lose you- an-and! I,, currently would like to date you as long as you let me- but if-" Garroth held his hands up again to vaguely gesture as he spoke " if I say -that- I think it would be worse when you.. no longer want to." Garroth ended awkwardly. Then blushed "I am sorry for the speech, I ruined the moment, didn't I?" He chuckled. Laurance stared at him. Before he shook his head to get rid of his thoughts. He then shook it again. "No way!" He yelled. Then put a hand over his mouth and sighed. "You didn't ruin anything dude, don't worry about that. Plus,, I dunno that was kinda sweet.." "Its sweet that I won't say I love you..?" Garroth looked at Laurance weirdly. "I must have explained it was wrong then" Laurance giggled "No no, but like, I dunno.." he started using a hand to nervously play with his hair. It made it down past his shoulders by now. Geez. "I like knowing you wanna stay with me." "Well..yeah of course I do.." Laurence looked at him smiled and continued "By the wayyy, if that's the case, Then this relationship won't end because I am going to propose the moment I can..". Laurence, despite only being 16, nodded proudly. Fully trusting this statement. This didn't seem to shake Garroth, who is also 16, for long. He stared at him a moment before laughing "Oh please, I'll beat you too it." "Oh yeah?" "Yes!" "We will see..." "Well-!"Garroth looked ready to say something, then stopped himself. Laurence bit his lip nervously, did he cross a line somehow. Was marriage to much? "Well..what?" "Nothing,,nothing" Laurance frowned. "YOU..ok? Sorry I- oh my irene" he groaned " you just talked about not wanting to bring up 'I love yours and I bring up marriage, fuck-.sorry" he facepalmed. "What no no it was sweet!" Garroth looked at him "I'm not upset, I just paused because-" "Causeee?'" "I figured.. I could beat you too it if I do it -now- "You're ...proposing now..?" Laurance stated blanking. Yeah, he said it, but, seriously, they were 16. "Well no not that but.. I figured. We could get promise rings?" "Ohhhh- so like, a promise to stay together." "Yeah! When we are older,, well we will see..but- oh fuck that would be going to far again-" Garroth put his hands over his face. "See? Even I can't stop myself from going to far!" "I mean- we don't have to..butt.. I won't mind." Garroth looked up over his hands "Really?" Laurance nodded "yeah, really" he stared to grin. Laurance had no idea WHEN he started to like Garroth really, and maybe love was still a strong word, but Laurance knew he wanted Garroth to be in his life. Which, whenever Laurance thought of a future he though marriage. So? Why not? Garroth sat up and smiled "OK! I'll buy us rings! Oh wanna help or a surprise." "Surprise me!" "Ok!" Garroth seems to have calmed down. That was good. "Oh and by the way." Laurence started. "What?" "Back to the whole, love thing.. how about this.. we can say,, I love you,, if you want, but not in super serious way, yet yeah?" "Hmm yeah. Ok then. Should I say it now." "I'll say it back if you do." "Ok."Garroth took a breath "Laurance I love you,," he closed his eyes for a second, like he expected everything to crash right now, when it didn't he added" anndd your eyes are still shiny." he grinned.  "Pf-" laurance laughed "Well I love you too...anndd I love your eyes too." "Oh yeah?" "Yeah!" Garroth laughed, he kissed Laurance cheek "I think we are dorks" "Oh you are. I'm cool though" laurance nudged him "its ok though, your adorable" "Hmp,, okk Mr. Long bright orange hair." "You LIKED my hair" "Not relevant" "Also-" Laurance gestured to his hair, his brown roots growing out but the bottom half was definitely orange, just slightly faded. Still bright though "its STILL orange, dickhead" "So..I win?" "No, your a dork" "Damn it" Laurance grabbed his hand once again "Hey." "Hn?" "I love you" Garroth sighed "I love you too." 

[the-cunt-of-montecristo]

the croatian anon here - it honestly kinda surprises me italians are bigoted against croats. i thought its just your prime minister. i didnt know its also the opinion of people. 😅

tho whenever they come as tourists they insist on speaking italian for some reason, but i always thought its them not knowing english. or is it because of seeing dalmatia/istria still as parts of italy?

as for rijeka i actually remember the actual document fabrication to make it into an italian city.

I don't know if bigoted is the right word. There's definitely xenophobia towards eastern european countries, as I was saying in my other post, there are tiers of citizenship and privilege within Europe. There isn't a homogenous attitude towards Istria and Dalmatia, that I'm aware of at least, it's mostly something that comes up in right wing environments.

I guess my perception of the Istrian situation is skewed because of my family, because after WWII and the mess that followed my family had to pick up and run and spent several years in refugee camps, and they always felt like the stuff they went through before and after leaving Rijeka was just kind of forgotten. With a general lack of context awareness, it's easy to just blame the whole situation on "yugoslavia stole our land", especially because (and it shames me incredibly to say it) my great-grandfather was chugging the fascist propaganda.

The specific talking point of getting Istria and Dalmatia back is very fascist, especially considering how and when they were last past of Italian territory... Curiously the fascists don't have the same attitude towards other territories that have been at various points Italian soil and that now belong to "better" european countries, like France. Or at least I haven't seen them talking about them.

The language thing I think is a mix of entitlement and genuine lack of English skills. I know that the expectation to be understood when speaking Italian doesn't apply equally to all touristic destinations, but it's even a common joke in Italy that we in general suck at English. English teaching is overall pretty poor in Italy, although I don't think it's our exclusive issue in the area. I guess that since our countries are neighbour it's easy to expect tourist sector workers to just know our language?

I'm not an expert on any of these things so I could be wrong. This is just from my experience.

Also, as much as the shit that pours out of our prime minister's mouth sounds insane, like 30% of my country voted for her. So as much as it shames me to say it, I suppose 30% of the country agrees with at least most of her shit.

[lou-blooms-bitch]

thought and ramble

okay so if i don’t say this somewhere ill go crazy but i noticed that there’s kind of the same patterns and feelings happening to me recently now and then i’ve been seeing things about a sickness spreading recently and then the christmas/new years era of 2019-2020 i was getting nosebleeds and was weirdly sick then that’s happening now from christmas/new years i’ve been weirdly sick going from 2024-2025 and i’ve just been feeling so SOO fucking weird recently like that something is gonna happen and it’s just freaky

ben just sent me a reel and then said mb not for u right after ohhhgymmyyygiooddf leave me alone brooo like i really don’t know why he hasn’t blocked me yet i can’t fuckin deal

either way… when you take into consideration the worlds situations right now it’s just like hmm fucking odd.. like palestine and israel, trump re-elected, some fuckin sickness going around, like shit is just going a bit wrong and people on tiktok too are like bringing 2020 back ???? don’t think it’s gonna last long at all but like lowkey it could cuz bro seriously people are dressing in the 2020 gear and all the cosplays and filters like no shame in posting which fair fucks i wouldn’t be able to so i can’t say shit ykwim

but whatevs i just think the way the world is going now is just a bit off and not concerning but like lowkey concerning

i feel like it’s just me seeing patterns but like being crazy about it

the loudest firework ever just went off outside my window 😭😭😭😭 scared the fuck out of me omg anyways

but like it would just be so fucking crazy if another lockdown happens idk if i would enjoy it too much if im being honest cuz like im going 18 next year ykwim but if we went into lockdown and i didnt need to do anything i think i would actually be able to sort my life out and like become normal i suppose

i miss lockdown

but yeah it would be funny if that happened again obvs not the bad parts but just looking at the positives n shit

anyways aside from that tho.. the way the world is looking right now is so …scary ??? idk like israel keeps attacking places i think they attacked syria most recently and then lebanon before (???) i could for sure be wrong im a fucking idiot pls have mercy. but anyways they keep attacking places and then now trumps president AND ELON MUSK OOMMMFFGGGGG elons trumps little fucking bestie now like jesus christ can’t wait to see how that turns out

AND THEN omg a cybertruck blew up outside trump hotel in las vegas on new year’s day and then i think the capitol, and something else were struck by lighting on new year’s eve.. i think that’s crazy lol like i seen someone say people used to take that shit as a sign from god back in the day and now it’s just stuck with me cuz that’s just so true

anyways ramble i think that’s so funny whatever.. elon is trumps little bestie and honestly i feel like they’re just gonna fall out with each other and have a little bitchoff on twitter. i keep sneezing. it’s really annoying me.

whatever, i don’t think the worlds gonna be too okay next year. the far right shit is rising and people are dumb enough to let it keep rising. i feel like a lot of people are too trying-to-be-the-best-on-the-moral-compass kinda thing when it comes to shitty people and stuff

like nazis feel safe enough just proudly saying they’re nazis ??? what happened to killing them ?! what happened to punching racists ?!! what happened !!? now in fairness i can’t and won’t do any of that shit either cuz fella i’m a weak little fuck i’d get myself killed but like if you’re able to why don’t you ??

and especially in america cuz like yeah it is probs true that their right is bigger than the left but even still like hear me out why aren’t good people just shooting bad people ??? you say kill all nazis but then why are nazis PROUDLY saying they’re nazis ?? KILL THEM !!! STOP LETTING THEM FEEL SAFE AND PROUD !!?!?? and yeah you’ll have to deal with fuckin murder charges and shit that’s fair but if you’re crazy enough you’ll do it ygm

whatever complete ramble i have nothing better to do

2025 will be a good year to me, maybe the world might be fucked up but next new years i wanna be able to look back on the year and say i enjoyed it

[novemberdevils]

I btw was in a pub abd there was this song that made me immediately think of those two stupid boys and the scene of me trying to Shazam it and it not working and having to ask the bartender was Something but anyways it’s apparently called something to feel by Dixon Dallas LIKE you grab me by the throat Nothing I can't handle, it's just a little choke HELLO?! This is jack coded.

And onto ROUND THREE!!! Suzuka my beloved and my beloathed for always making me soaking wet from the rain, buy anyways jack wanting to talk about what happens but is afraid be then it would mean that he was admitting to himself and another person that this has happened and it threw me off and im thinking about it a lot and I hate it, the way I laughed at this posting a couple captionless pictures on his Instagram story as proof of life. Because it’s the truest thing ever or it’s the grainiest pic as a way of proof of life, the max reference to nico’s instagram being over-professional I see you and I hate you, And it’s extra ridiculous, because Jack doesn’t even follow Nico on Instagram. I will imagine that they were following each other but something happened and jack unfollowed him on the plane back home-The funniest thing out of the lestappen Lore-.

I ADORE luke and jack’s relationship it’s so siblings coded but I LOVE how you captured it because it such a weird dynamic that all three have been racing but one ended up retiring, the other is in feeder series and the last is leading a championship; so yeah you killed again like how are you killing every little thing? Your mind is something else, ah the Ferrari challenges that makes everyone believe that they are besties who hang out every single hour is also here; at least it gave us some iconic memes so that is appreciated, do you also feel weird when fans act like the drivers are best friends or is it just me? Like sure they could be friendly but I don’t believe that they are best friends. 

Jack my love when you cannot stop thinking about a person you must feel something for him? -genuinely have never been in love so who am I to judge jack at least he is getting something-, the press conference couch is a beloved part of the week for me because you get the randomest pairings and the stupidest questions, also my hate for McLaren still stands because I Will Not Be Happy For Jamie-Oscar please get out of there so I can be happy when you win-, HE SAID THAT ‘CAUSE HE’S JACK HUGHES. Both of those idiots are embarrassing but on a different spectrum it’s amazing.

OMG NICO VISITING JACK!!! But he has the excuse of jack forgetting his cap so now we think if nico would have ever came and visited him if he didnt have something that clearly belonged to jack? I actually think not-I will go in detail when I reach ch3 wait for it because I Have Thoughts-, “I think someone should tell the media that you’re a cunt,” Nico says I genuinely forgot about this and I have choked on my tea while I was reading nico really have No Shame, nico is so fucking hot my god why is he this hot??? Nico raises an eyebrow, then smiles, huffs out a laugh. “Of course you did.” Like I myself do not need to be flirted with it’s only jack but he is so hot that I can blame jack for being a mess because I will be worse than him, NINNNNNIIIIIIICOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STOP BEING HOT!!!!!! Also stopping a bit from me being horny for nico, the difference between them one who cares way too much but the other not enough and both of them using that as a way to hurt the other is something to think about and overthink really, AND THEY KISSED AGAIN!!!!!! The whole kissing scene made me think about stuff that I fear if I said online me AND you would be arrested so lets just say that I put my hot tea down and opened my AC because it was getting too hot in my apartment. 

COULD JACK HUGHES REALLY BE FERRARI’S NEXT WORLD CHAMPION? Yes next question, oh the article made me a bit mad to this a bonus point for authenticity; ? BUT IT APPEARS HUGHES ONLY WON THE FIRST RACE OF THE SEASON BECAUSE THE RED BULL DRIVER PICKED UP DAMAGE EARLY ON, I hate hate these types of articles fucking loathe them; one won because the other fucked up is such a weird way to phrase it jack didnt win simply because nico picked damage and no one can prove that of nico didnt pick damage he wouldve won because guess what? He Did pick up damage that was HIS fault so.

Ferrari locking jack and carlos together to get them to get along us fucking hilarious such an unserious team I love then, jack and me both flinching when someone mentions rb is iconic behaviour from us, but carlos really decided to suddenly ask it huh? How long do we think he was thinking about it?, Sainz is out next year if he can’t do something to save himself. Ah well at least fic!carlos doesnt have to worry so he has something to look forward to,  “You are just in and out of the Red Bull hospitality for fun?” Yes he is having fun with kissing nico but you dont want to know that, “being teammates with Nico is just like being teammates with you.” I need to have a conversation with him because he is the only one who can tell us abou how both of them are as teammates and im willing to pay you a lot of money to have it done.

Ok I will be ending this comment right here and leave quali and race day hopefully for tomorrow, btw I forgot if I mentioned this but I was listening to your playlist while reading and commenting and my god the experience it provides makes EVEN better that it was which I thought was impossible but yeah you have wrote quite literally the perfect fic with the perfect playlist.

Also I will excuse you for being a rb fan even though Ferrari is obviously the superior team, also the fighting because you support different teams is so fucking real in my friend group there are three of us who actually gather every single week to watch every thing even if it was an awful time start it doesnt matter but the thing is I support Ferrari-A Shock I know who couldve guessed- one support mrec and the last support rb; you can imagine the fighting that happens-21 season was STRESSFUL- but the only thing that bonds us is our hatred for McLaren, ferrari team orders sideplot goes crazy. It goes crazy even irl it’s insane, home race curse is real YOU KNEW YOU FUCKING KNEW AND WERE LAUGHING AT ME I HATE YOU. 

and i was (and still am) lowkey worried about the article portions bc like. Oh no please dont worry you have killed it, I read a lot of articles because it’s has stuff to do with with my job and it genuinely feels like a real life journalist writing it rather than an author pretending to be a journalist writing it, zegras being a McLaren driver makes me hate him and not want to support him but he is TREVOR, why did you have to give McLaren relevance I hate them, also imola STILL not being done is so funny to me like imola know her biggest fan would be reading so she decided to not be finished love that.

okay i listened to the song and it is SO not the style of music i usually listen to but it is very jack-coded... "we talk a lot but i don't think you really know me" hello. this is about to be a jumpscare on the inertia playlist which is thus far mostly like alternative music lmao

yeah i have very non-subtly max-coded nico in this fic lmao. he cannot be fucked to run his own instagram. and who knowsss i think it is funny to have them Not be following each other on instagram but also jack is an insta-stalker and their primary method of messaging communication is instagram. my bad. creates some distance

i am always stressed writing sibling relationships like even if i am Not an only child i always feel like i'm doing it wrong. but i am having fun writing both jack and quinn's and jack and luke's dynamics, so i am glad you like the jack/luke scenes... i am always stressed about them... ferrari challenges create delusion and honestly i am here for it. jack and carlos are TOTALLY best friends what are you talking about... just do not watch any of the races where they start fighting each other via their race engineers... then the illusion is shattered... and i am with you on that. like some of the drivers definitely are friends/friendly with each other but they all have people they're better friends with who aren't on the grid. and then when they say that everyone gets mad at them lmao i think recently lando said something about liking max and being his friend but not best friend or whatever icr his exact words but i know i saw some tweets from people who were like "how dare he" which like. who cares

jack totally feels something for nico but even if he were to figure it out he would deny it. currently he is busy being ignorant to his own feelings (seriously thinks their nonsense can be both no strings attached and effectively ignored entirely) so he's busy. press conference couch goes crazy. i will forever be making them all say crazy shit on the press conference couch. nico loves to make a jack hughes remark. he's evil

chekhov's forgotten ferrari cap. the thought of nico dragging that ferrari cap around for the week between those two races is amusing to me like how ridiculous did he feel the whole time he was doing that... the world may never know. no shame for nico! more on that in ch3 lmao he doesn't have the time or space for that he just opens his mouth and says words. cunty jack hughes for the win though. and my favorite dynamic! caring too much vs not caring enough!

infuriating articles are unfortunately here to stay. because of course jack would be reading all the infuriating articles and letting them infiltrate his brain, which he absolutely should not being doing but that man is a puddle of bad decisions. and i do agree that winning after the (even just presumed) biggest competitor picks up damage doesn't mean that the driver didn't earn their win, but i keep giving voices to the world's most obnoxious reporters lmao. jack is always doomscrolling

ferrari is putting jack and carlos in a 'get along shirt.' go sit in the back of the car until you work this out, you fools, we do not have TIME for your nonsense. sainz loves to open his mouth tbh, at least the way i'm writing him. in my head he lowkey wants jack to go away because then maybe he would be more important to ferrari (because as it is he knows everyone prefers jack, even if they don't say it) so i feel like he was thinking about it for like. ever. because he's like PLEASE GO TO RB AND GET OUT OF MY FACE but jack would never. he is just an idiot who kept going to the red bull hospitality to be gay. and i consistenly forget i made carlos say that MY BAD maybe i will elaborate on that. mwahahaha

and i'm glad you like the playlist!! i love making playlists for longer fics even if no one listens to them lmao it brings me joy. and it is ever-changing i am like constantly adding and removing songs from it -- for the most part everything on there is there for some defendable reason (idk how easy it is to tell like who between jack and nico i attach to each song, or if it's just their dynamic in general) but i will admit that like COFFIN by PLVTINUM is mostly just there because i'm obsessed with that song. and i found it via the smart shuffle feature on this playlist lmao so it still lives there. my bad

yeah i live in an apartment with 3 other people and i'm outnumbered on ferrari 2-1 then our other roommate doesn't really care for f1 and pretends to root for mercedes out of spite (because at least the other 3 of us agree that we DON'T like merc lmao). we're the same with hockey in that all 4 of us main different teams, but that only really becomes an issue if any of those teams play each other. shoutout to my devils-leafs-penguins-kraken household

and yay thank you for the validation on my article sections! icr if i mentioned this already but when i was initially like Concepting this fic in my brain there was NONE of that, no twitter stuff either really, like it was going to be a more Normal fic, then i wrote the winners/losers article after testing and i was like damn it this is gonna be a thing now. and alas. here we are. but i think we have established that my initial thoughts on this fic have all blown up in my face (re: word count goal of 70k) but when does that not happen

unfortunately i am (sometimes) a mclaren liker... they definitely have their moments of Evil -- the issue is i tend to like their drivers, so by proxy i like the team. then the team does something evil and i remember why i do not like them. like i love oscar piastri can they stop FUCKING HIM OVER. whatever. and indycar-wise i like o'ward but i also like malukas who they ALSO fucked over but i do like. lundgaard. i think i have driver-blinders on when it comes to mclaren tbh... fuck you zak brown. and i made trevor indy mclaren because i made jamie f1 mclaren and i wanted them to be pseudo-teammates <- sorry if i'm repeating myself but i'm pretty sure i said that in someone's dms and not in a public tumblr post. Anyways

yeah imola still isn't done yet. i'm on the last scene though... i just had a bit of Not Writing bc i'm having papa's freezeria deluxe problems LMAO

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hello, what does critblr mean? /genq

im going to take this at face value and assume you asked this for an actual genuine reason even though i dont really know why you asked Me in particular also since i didnt see like any discussion about this on my dash today... tldr its like the leak/doxxed info part of leaktwt and the insanely overcritical part of r/dwt2 combined a little but unlike those places they have shooters and defenders on here for some fucking reason. theres definitely more to it than that that people do which i personally dont agree with or condone but here's a good post explaining how to spot someone who is a "part" of it.

also, just to add on a little on how to sus someone out, blank blogs with following on that clearly have people from there are generally red flags. talking about knowing more private/exclusive info about ccs isnt generally suspicious on its own especially if you only know it unwillingly (like last names photos or addresses etc) but it invites a lot of weird shit into your space (and others' space! no one here exists in a vacuum) to brag or even post about it so i dont recommend putting that shit in your fics or fic recs, or talking about it at length/posting if you get asks about things the majority of the general public does not know about for example. AGAIN im reiterating that knowing this stuff on its own doesnt inherently make someone a part of it or even makes them a bad person, but publicly posting about it INVITES and has the possibility to invite unsavory stuff to the whole community. no shame in not knowing but be mindful if someone tells you someone is a part of that, take it seriously, and try not to interact with anyone who openly says they are and the people they interact with generally (would also recommend blocking as well). as a final note although i could say a lot more i normally also wouldnt answer this but i do think it's important to discuss as a psa especially for newer folks just to be cautious and understand that there's freaks here too sadly