#and i cant ask her bc i dont really trust her not to say something 🫠
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when i was a kid the idea of like surprise birthday parties was so like. idk i wanted it and it never happened but now its actually like. gonna happen to me but at a really really bad time when i am going to be very stressed and whatever the surprise thing is will probably make it worse so its like. hmm. early birthday gift of being nauseous with anxiety a month in advance
#my brother had good intentions telling me but also like. i have been tearing up all night and when i tried to explain my reservations to him#i just felt stupid so its. mm. this sucks#its also weird bc like. guuuhhgg i had a weird Thing a while ago that was apparently really bad i guess#so it feels like. idk. my mother trying to 'fix' that with this. so i feel like i cant say no to it#(especially bc she doesnt know i kinda know about it)#but its also like. well. when it happens i might really really freak out badly and that would ruin things for everyone. right.#kind of feel like im stuck between a rock and a hard place here bc like i WANT to talk to my mother abt this but also again she doesnt know#that i know and i dont want her to be disappointed that my brother said something to me. even though i dont know what the surprise is#just that there is one planned#also in recent years ive realized i get i suppose anxious when people get me gifts i havent Asked for#so surprises like this arent really my thing anymore. i think when i was a kid i mostly wanted one bc in tv shows theres always a lot#of people there for it and i was a lonely child.#anyway i realize this is something of a stupid thing to complain about#in my defense i feel like a lot of things that should be 'about me'#(however self centered that sounds. it makes me wince to say trust me.)#are made to be more about other people namely my immediate family.#so like my gender isnt about me its about how my mother feels about it. and my birthday isnt about me its about other people celebrating it#again ik ik its a stupid complaint. just saying that because of that *points up* which ive been feeling for nearly 10 years now#its all a bit of a tender bruise. emotionally speaking. for me.#personal
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eieudururururuffggh… it’s definitely along the lines of limerence. u think its fine when ur sitting together, it’s actualized that this is someone you could never be together with, and really he’s not all that glittering attractive in terms of someone you would want to be in a relationship with anyway. but then there’s the twofold dream of living with him, then wandering around a city aimless with the thought resounding “i love you so much please text me back”
i think it’s a sign of needing to reconcile something in myself but i don’t know what. i am left with these feelings that i do not know how to deal with. i desire him so much but he is not present. he never will be. it’s just how he is. i don’t know why he’s worth it in terms of my brain/heart. as i said, there are so many things about him that are extremely unattractive in terms of a relationship. This is a consequence of coming back into his life, but really this was happening anyway, in the past two years. it was so nice to just sit with him and not want for more, except i feel bad drawing him to speak to me but that’s fine
i don’t trust him with anything in the world, i feel that i don’t really know who he is, if he’s even a real person — but also that it’s so simple and he’s much more simple than i think. except it’s just that i don’t know. i can only assume and assume and theorize because he’s never around. i don’t know why i wish to know him specifically. Maybe it’s an ego thing. Maybe it’s an issue.
I had a dream that i think was a sequel to an existing dream but i dont know. It was like. I was adopted by the queen and king of england, they looked over me and raised me for a bit. And eventually i had to go back home to my mother. This dream was the sequel where I come back to see them again and see how every influence I had on their castle and lives and everything was stripped away and muttered about as ill-fashion— “oh, that old thing.” whereas i looked up to them so much, i was devoted and dedicated so much to them. they taught me how to dance, i taught the king jokes, things like so.
upon seeing all the ways i meant nothing to them I proceeded to have a breakdown in the dream, taking it out on them, everyone around me, tearing things down, playing into the ill worth they regarded me with by giving them something to be actually disgusted by.
My ex was there— he was there because he heard it was me, on the news, in the rumors, and came to witness. he was talking to people about me, telling them who i was and who he was, *defending* me. Which was crazy. So fond. but when i really think about it I think he was there because ultimately being the child of the queen of england and then coming back to see i meant nothing felt like what it was like to be in a relationship with him.
Why i am drawn to people i mean nothing to. I dont know. why their validation in my worth means so much. i dont know. why i see my worth through others. i dont know. this is what i need to reconcile in myself but. i don’t know. How. I even feel like its fine most of the time, but then i look up to someone and it all comes back.
I just wish he cared about me enough to come by. But he doesnt and i need to find someone who does. Thats the path i’m trying to take. It’s just sorrowful. What also overtakes me sometimes is that when he’s not there, he claims to be thinking of me. Stalking my twitter. Watching what i’m doing wherever. Songs that make him think about me. Which kind of makes it worse. All of that and it’s still not enough to draw him near. He was right in saying I am someone that needs someone to be there for me and it was hardly a kindness that he let go of me when saying that, especially considering the circumstances, but at least he could admit he was not that person. it’s this wish i have that i need to reconcile. the fact that it exists at all. I wish it could go away, I’ve been trying to make it go away, forcing it to by looking at all the facts and realities, but yet its still here, I don’t know how to change, I need to be strong
#excusze moi long wahwah post#I dont think hes exactly in the wrong or should resent himself . He cant give what he doesnt have#i do wish he would stop making promises he cant keep#i showed this other guy a story i liked and he said he liked it but then said like#these little criticisms. very small and dont mean anything but the fact that they existed#really are bothering me. he cant help his thoughts but theyre just#so silly and not reflective of the work itself but his personal tastes#which is fine. But i dont know. Where is your optimism and trust in others? or something#I just give so many excuses to as why i cant coexist w someone. it’ll be fine. These things dont define the guy as a person#but djjdsjskjxnxjd#honestly the thing that gets me bc ill back away from anyone for any reason but then theres my ex who like. gives me such little effort#almost all of the time and then im like so yearning of him. like lmao what#i wish quelling these behaviors of mine was black and white#i have NO desire EVER to act on these feelings. nor any desire to have them come up in conversation. so i believe things can be fine#whatve...#one day i should ask him what he was telling that other girl about me#that made her say i was insane
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while i wait for them to come i have a story to tell actually
#so when we went to the fiances house in azerbiajan#my aunt kept saying like 'oh all your cutlery is so nice' and like kept talking about the plates they had and stuff#thought nothing of it but a week after we came back every weekend morning there would be clinging and clanging coming from downstairs#turns out she fucking bought like all new kitchen stuff over the course of a month#like EVERYTHING new fancy plates and bowls dessert bowls saucers a teapot a set for coffee and for tea. salt shakers. fucking everything#and there is 12 or more of everything ansd it only comes out when guests are here#and im not being dramatic about this ok we had perfectly FINE stuff for when guests came anyways#i cannot even begin to convey to you how Much stuff this was#like. new matching serving platters. 2 different kinds of cups. new knives forks spoons. 4 sizes of plates.#shes so fucking weird man imagine having that much of an inferiority complex. i could tell when she went there she sensed they were above u#she literally cannot handle it when she thinks someone is better than her in any way so she dropped hundreds potentially thousands on this#ugh and she started saying stuff there like 'oh i think this house is BiGgEr than ours' and just acting weird about it#feel crazy here bro am i the only one who sees through this? her kids are as self absorbed and delusiona as her but idk if my sister gets i#and i cant ask her bc i dont really trust her not to say something 🫠
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Yuma Month Day 26 - Role Swap
god i was excited for this one. it first started off as a joke, but the more i thought about it, the more interesting this swap became. so here's my massive lore dump of changes that'd happen in the story beneath the cut (spoiler warning):
i think, fundamentally, yuma and yakou are very similar characters. they're both very protective and kindhearted, with a strong sense of justice and a penchant for attracting terrible luck. because of this, some things would remain the same, such as the NDA's dynamics with their doormat chief as well amnesia!yakou's massive unpaid intern energy. i think yakou would be pretty similar to how he behaved in the light novel- a bit more optimistic and naive, like yuma. but there are two key differences between them that'd make this a different story, especially in ch 4: yuma has a forte, and yakou is very selfish. so here's some changes:
yakou's wife is his shinigami now, as you can see, while shinigami is yuma's dead wife. i think mrs furio would act cooler than shinigami. she'd still be playful, but she takes her job more seriously. also she hands yakou the solution keys normally without throwing up. they still have to do the dance and mouth sword thing tho. and the other stuff. that's just death god protocol
shinigami (or in this case the unnamed Mrs. Kokohead but i will still be calling her shinigami for convenience sake) was a scientist at amaterasu who studied forensics and thanatology instead of regenerative medicine. this also means that the pill she gives zombie yuma is not going to bring him back, but instead grant the zombie homunculi a peaceful, painless, but permanent death
speaking of zombie yuma, he's the homunculus now! yakou is 100% human and also doesnt have a forte. he's still number one, but instead of having a forte he's just that good at solving mysteries
yes this means makoto looks like yakou now. sorry makotoheads. i think he'd have really long, shaggy hair dyed to be like. idk. black or something. also he's more clean shaven bc stubble with a mask on is a sensory nightmare
yuma still cant cook. he subsists entirely on takeout, meat buns, black coffee, and beer. he's still in a lot of debt and under a lot of stress and his personality is essentially "what if canon number one just gave up"
he doesn't smoke though. he tried once and got into the worst coughing fit
imma say it right now. kurumi is not a love interest. yakou likely disguises himself as a faculty member instead (also i think one of the teachers gets a crush on fem yakou bc i just know she'd be hot)
ANYWAY what about chapter 4? im SO glad you asked! because here's where things get spicy!
so, lets start with the dead wife. shinigami catches onto huesca's inhumane research and she's just as adamant about bringing the truth to light as she always is. she blows the whistle, so he blows her up. yuma investigates, but they dont let him look any further, yada yada, yuma stews in his misery for five years
yomi sends in the evidence to motivate yuma to kill huesca, and makoto lets it happen because a dead huesca would be convenient. he even introduces the hitman, fully expecting yuma to make use of him
yuma doesnt. in fact, he wants to kill huesca with his own hands. and now that these detectives are here, he can do it and even return alive. the thing is, he doesn't want to put them in danger, so he chooses to do almost everything alone (sound familiar?)
his plan is simple:
ask desuhiko for a peacekeeper uniform. desuhiko trusts him enough to take "i want to investigate kanai ward's ultimate secret by infiltrating their ranks" as an answer. he does, however, let yakou know about this as an offhand comment before the mystery ever begins
hold fubuki's hand. it doesnt really matter how. she'll gladly allow it because she's fubuki. he stores her time powers and heads out the sub. yakou also learns this as an offhand comment played off as a joke (maybe fubuki affectionately comments about how she never expected the chief's hands to be so soft... idk. there has to be some way for yakou to have this as a future clue)
use his peacekeeper status to sneak into amaterasu HQ and demand a functioning ama-pal from that one creepy researcher
use ama-pal + fubuki's borrowed powers to bypass huesca's security. sneak the bot past the hard-of-hearing doctor and press the button to shut off security
this would probably alert huesca, but since the doctor never received a warning, yuma has enough time to rush in and stab him before he realizes what's going on
leave HQ while still in uniform, dispose of the disguise once he's safe, and return to the NDA like nothing happened. success!
soooo.... yakou, on that same day, decides to investigate amaterasu HQ with makoto
all the while, vivia has his suspicions about yuma's actions and keeps an eye on him in spectral mode. he... basically witnessed the whole thing, so he gets up off his ass and decides to follow yakou to the lab because he has a Very Bad Feeling about this
just like canon, he senses the death god and deduces that our protag has been killing off murderers, and so he wants to protect his chief as well as his peace and quiet (his dynamic with yuma would be the same as his dynamic with yakou, since it's entirely believable for yuma to treat vivia with the same kindness yakou did)
yakou tries to speak to huesca, but surprise! security is disabled and he's dead in the lab! no one else at amaterasu liked huesca enough to check on him, so yakou and makoto are the first ones at the scene of the crime. yakou, of course, decides to start investigating this murder
vivia somehow sneaks into the lab (dont ask me how) and confronts yakou, threatening him with his boxcutter and adamantly imploring him to stop pursuing this particular mystery in the same way he did yuma in canon. unfortunately, this attracts attention, and now they're in trouble (maybe even yomi's there to fetch his files). at this point, yakou has enough solution keys, so he panics and goes right into the labyrinth (and maybe others can enter for another reason that isnt coalescence idk)
so... they go in the labyrinth... vivia tries to stop him every step of the way, until the answer is right in front of them
yakou kills yuma with his own hands. there's no stab wounds or toxic gas to leave any doubt. yakou begins to question what good his justice really does. it doesnt even save them from their predicament, just like the other deaths. instead, makoto ex machina comes in to save them, and hands yakou a small black box
when they return to the agency, everyone is heartbroken over their chief, who seemingly died out of nowhere. fubuki tried rewinding time, but to no avail. halara tried everything to wake him up, knowing it's futile. desuhiko stood aside, feeling completely helpless. and yakou and vivia return looking like they just came back from hell
they barely get the chance for a funeral before the knockout gas trap activates... you know the rest
AAAAND SCENE! so that's my extremely long winded lore dump about this au. i thought about it Way Too Much but god it's so interesting to me. i love these characters and swapping them was immensely fun
#rain code#mdarc#raincode#master detectives archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#yakou furio#desuhiko thunderbolt#shinigami#yumagami#kokogami#yakou's wife#rain code spoilers#mdarc spoilers#raincode spoilers
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'Wicked games'
i got this idea bc of a sana edit.. god bless that editor
Smut, and maybe a bit angst??
cw: somno, getting drunk (the reader), kinda toxic sana??, virginity getting taken
not proofread bc i am very lazy rn...
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You've been friends with Sana for a long time now. Its weird how you two are friends, she is so popular, everyone loves her while you arent really popular.
She is always the talk of your college, its like in gossip girl, everyone is talking about her almost 24/7.
People are always wondering with who she is. She never told anybody about having a relationship, not even you know.
But maybe its better that you dont know it.
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You walk out of your literature class, talking with your new friend, momo. She just came here recently and you both grew close so fast.
"Hey, how about we go out today? You know, for dinner" momo asked you while smiling.
"So its a date?" you jokingly say.
"If you want it to be" she smiles, kissing your cheek and walking away to her next class.
The girl watching bites her lip. She cant let that happen.
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"And then she asked me out!!! can you believe that???" you said excitedly, sitting on Sana's bed.
"Im happy for you" Sana said, looking at her book.
"But are you sure she is the right one?" She asks, looking up to you since she is sitting on the floor.
"You know, she is new. What if she already does something with someone else? You cant trust her that easily"
You look at Sana confused,
"Come on Sana!!! Let me have so fun!" you look at the clock,
"Anyways, i gotta go, i need to get ready for my date" you say teasingly, taking your things and leaving sana's apartment.
"Oh trust me. You will have fun..." she mumbles while she watches you from her window.
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"And then she brought me home and she kissed me!!!!" you say, smiling like a little child while sana eats next to you in the cafeteria. Clenching her teeth.
"ill be back." she says, standing up and walking away.
You look after her confused, maybe she just needs to do something..
And she does.
She needs to do something against momo.
She needs to have you.
Since she is so popular, people would do anything for her. She can definetly use that, cant she...?
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You sigh as Sana shows you the pictures of a girl kissing momo.
"i thought she liked me" you say as Sana puts away her phone and caresses your back with her hand.
"I told you, dont trust her so easily.." She said, looking at you.
"Come on, dont be so sad. She isnt worth it." She puts her hand on your thigh.
"I feel so bad" you say, sighing again as you lean back and your back hits the bedframe of sanas bed.
"How about we go out? for drinks?" she says, smiling.
Of course, your innocent you doesnt think about the Consequences.
"Sure!"
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You didnt expect it to escalate so fast.
You and Sana went to the bar just around the corner, both of you wearing short and tight dresses.
You could feel some glances on your body, not knowing sana was always looking at you. Basically eyefucking you.
Oh she is so excited to have you later.
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"I love you sana you're the best friend i always needed" you say drunkily, hugging her as sana orders two shots.
She only drank one, while you had too many drinks.
"Come on, last one and then we go" she says, smiling as she hands you the shot glass.
"Cheers!!!" you drink it, it burns in your throat. You both stand up, walking out of the bar after sana paid, walking home to her apartment because she is so nice to let you sleep over.
"that was fun" you say, almost falling on the floor while taking off your shoes.
"it really was.." sana smirks, watching you as she leans against the doorframe of her bedroom.
"i feel so hot.." you say, your hand playing with the zipper of your dress that you can hardly reach.
"need some help?" sana asked. There is no difference if she would take it off now or later in bed right?
"yes please.." you slurr, walking to her. She unzips your dress, slowly, while her hot breath hits your bare neck.
You step out of the dress, taking it and putting it on the chair.
"im tired.." you say, jumping on the bed while only wearing your panties. Your cute panties sana absolutely adores..
"Hope you dont mind"
Of course sana wouldnt mind. she is enjoying this more than anyone.
She takes off her dress and sits down on the bed, only wearing a bra and her underwear.
"so tired..." you say, looking at sana as she smiles at you.
"its so hot in here.." you sigh.
"dont worry, it will go away soon." sana whispers, moving a strand of hair away from your face.
Your eyes close, slowly falling asleep.
"You're only mine.." she whispers as she slowly climbs on top of you.
"It worked.." she lets out a chuckle.
She starts kissing your neck, softly. Leaving a trail of wet kisses.
You make it so easy for her to use you...
She moves down, taking one of your nipples in her mouth as she slowly starts to suck on it.
Groping your other breast while she places her knee inbetween your legs, applying pressure on your core with it.
Soft whimpers leaving your mouth as you're asleep. Its the perfect moment for sana.
Its like a dream come true.
She starts to suck on your other nipple, her hand travels down as she rubs the material of your underwear against your clit. Softly and slowly.
She leaves your erected bud, kissing your neck again. Just now she leaves marks..
She needs to show who you belong to, doesnt she?
Taking of your underwear, she kneels down, her tongue circling on your clit.
Your moans get louder, it could make sana cum untouched.
She puts a finger inside of your hole, its so tight around her finger.
"If i would have a cock.. oh god what i would do to you baby..." she whispers as she continues teasing your clit with her tongue. She adds a finger and she slowly starts thrusting in and out of you.
The air gets thicker. Its silent except the sounds of your moans and the wet sounds of your core...
Sana can feel your body arch,
"You're so close to your first orgasm.. how cute...
come on, cum for me. and only me baby" sana says, even though she knows you cant hear her. It turns her on so much..
She curls her fingers inside of you as you climax. Juices flowing out of your hole as she "drinks" them.
Sana looks down and sees how she came too.
She sits down on the bed, kissing your forehead.
"I cant wait to do this again when you're awake.." she whispers, laying down and falling asleep.
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You wake up to the smell of food. You sit upright, leaning against the doorframe. Rubbing your eyes and stretching yourself.
"ugh my head..." you groan. You stand up, noticing that you dont have a shirt on. You take one as you stand infront of the mirror.
"what are these..." you look at the hickeys, being confused why they are there..
"how did you sleep?" sana asks, smiling as she leans against the door.
"what are these sana?" you say, looking at her very confused.
"i have no idea" she answers, shrugging her shoulders.
"dont worry too much, its normal to forget things when you're drunk. Im sure you're gonna remember what happened soon.."
"or maybe in your case you just dont remember..." sana mumbles while smiling.
"what did you say?"
"nothing. come eat" she walks back to the kitchen.
You sigh, putting on the shirt.
Sana has something to do with it. You know it.
#Spotify#wlw#feeling silly#twice imagines#twice smut#twice x reader#girl group smut#twice ff#down bad#chaeyoung x reader#chaeyoung fluff#sana smut#dom sana#somno#i need sana so bad actually#minatozaki sana#sana imagines#twice icons#momo smut#smut
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okay, bc i have seen this argument alot now (and it also seems to be the view point of aonuma himself..) is that "zelda cant do everything link does bc whats the point then"
and i take personal offense on that bc its a stupid argument (in. my. very. personal. opinion.- not judging people for liking it. its a ME thing)
whats the point? its that its her. its still a different character, different in story, background, personality, but i WANT to play zelda and she can do everything link does, why does she have to be so restricted and be bend over backwards to find some new way to make her 'useful' when link gets to do basically everything no questions asked (the only thing thats hers is like .. sealing power and sacrificial maiden, which i find a little underwhelming to say the least), if theres no point to it why are there always modders that model swap link with someone else, and in that case it has even less impact bc its an artificial model swap with no changes to the story (which can and should still be different when its the vanilla game with a different protagonist... its still a different character), clearly theres joy in just the model being a different one- and that isnt even to mention the story possibilities, since, again, its stil a different character
if we ever (never ... i know who we are talking about here) get to play as ganondorf i want to him to be just as versatile and active as link is, if we got a point and click adventure game for him instead bc 'whats the point' id be disappointed too- you can find any sort of excuse/explanation for zelda to be singled out but the fact remains it tracks with how female characters are often treated, and that hits a very sore spot for me
i guess i am unfortunately one of those annoying people that want to see female characters be treated exactly the same as male characters, possibly bc i am myself afab but identify as agender and have a deeply personal dislike for anything 'traditional' feminine bc i cannot and never will be able to truly live as myself in real life, it influences all of my work, my work is as just as much as my opinion on this, very personal
and in line with my point about modding, i see theres joy in just beign able to play as her even if its like this, i get that, i also get it for the creative aspect (though that mechanic worries me even more for the future bc it really seems to be the path now that -freedom = good, linear anything = bad-) it is a different idea and its not like i cant see that value- im not trying be "right" either, just bc i have that opinion doesnt mean i need everyone to agree, its a very personal thing, if you like it good for you! not for me though, and i think both of that is equally valid
i just personally wish she was allowed to be just like link, fight just like him but be different bc its still her and not him in the end- to be physically/playstyle like jsut like him, but you know ... as her, i dont think shed stop being zelda if she could wield a sword just like him
i dont really know how to get my point/feelings across, i dont want to step too much into personal stuff nor spam people with something that ultimately doesnt interest me alot, im just saddened by it really
(EDIT: bc i forgot to add this on here again; this isnt as much of a problem as it might sound like here, just the main topic i wanted to talk about; why im so uninterested in it is MAINLY bc i dont trust them to write anything interesting/care about lore anymore after totk, im always on the more pessimistic side that thinks its most likely worse than id hope and i know even the past games arent perfect or super interestingly written, but now its much more just a general distrust, together with everything like the price ... im just much less hopeful and cant get excited until i see more of it, like im waiting for the game to get out and reveal that its just as much of a mess and money i regret spending- kind of fear)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#person that send an ask about this in just as i was writing this- this isnt about you- i promise you#its soemthing thats been stirring in my mind since yesterday#and seeing so many of those comments- and even aonuma himself say it#just strikes a very very personal sore spot#also to that one commenter on a different post-#no- wanting female characters being allowed to wield a sword is not “badass female character mysogyni” (idk how to spell that rn)#the hollywood badass female character thing is annoying but thats bc-#its a super model woman (bc shes ALLOWED TO BE FEMININE you KNOW) fight people in high heels- bc you can be feminie AND badass-#and then does a cringy one liner 'what you thoguht a FEMALE couldnt kick your teeth in'#which comes with alot more baggage of tropes and hollywood etc etc#i long for the 'women are jsut as capable as men' in a very agender way#why do you think i intentionally design alot of female characters non tradtionally feminie or masculine#again this is a very pseronal thing to me#BUT i do think it IS questionable that its her that isnt allowed to fight with a sword#like i dont think thats much of my personal dislike there- but a valid thing to point out no matter the explanations you can come up with#anyway- i dont hate it- but its not for me- i dont want to talk much about it#i hope you can excuse me not answering the asks i got related to this- id just repeat myself#(i guess i should be glad that its the top down one that gets her as the protagonist-)#(i dont think i want to live through seeing her be animated like the typically girly feminine butt wiggle in your face tehehe)#(the botw/totk cutscnes were enough of that for me PERSONALLY)#i dont know how many times i have to say its my very biased personally personal opinion and no a judging of others#to make it clear that no one has to agree with me and i dont want to be convinced of the other opinions of this
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CAN WE ALSO PLEASE TALK ABOUT THIS SCENE?!?!?!
IT WAS NOT A KISS SCENE BUT IT WAS AS POWERFUL AS ONE!!!
Their THE KISS scene on season 3 episode 5 (yes i remember exactly dont ask why) it was REALLY powerful because it literally showed us the development between the two characters from them trying to kill one another (mostly Rayla) to saving each other and Callum expressing it such a beautiful way by his speech with "Because she's Rayla" Playing in the background was just TO DIE FOR!!!! it was emotional, romantic, strong! It was everything! It wasnt forced it was just there in the perfect time. I can never stop praising the shows writers enough istg. Even rn im listening to that ost in the background.
I cant lie bc it was adorable seeing these two being all lovey dovey with each other by kissing and hugging etc. But when season 4 begins, their relationship is just not there anymore. Yes there are bits and pieces but they're scattered everywhere. Callum reminiscing about her and their time together gives us half of the answer. Something happened that pulled them apart but what is it?
When he was looking out in the balcony to the sky, their theme was also playing at the background but so soft and so weak that you felt Callums' pain. It was a sad track, it was a tragic track. Raylas' memories were still there but not herself. And it made him so sad that the dude said it was NOT his BIRTHDAY but the ANNIVERSARY OF RAYLAS' LEAVING!!!! THIS BOY CARES ABOUT RAYLA MORE THAN HE CARES ABOUT HIMSELF!!!
From then on the relationship starts to have a second build up. Its like strangers to friends to lovers to strangers to ??? . The only difference of this build up compared to first three seasons is that there is already an established relationship, its just broken. So in a way they start again. Going on adventures, being there for each other in case either of them needs help. Callum doesnt let his feelings for her suppress his hurt which was also caused by her but little by little it starts to heal. It starts to fix.
Here we see Rayla admit to her mistake of going after revenge and leaving the most important thing she has behind (aka Callum obv) . Her admitting this out loud is so great to hear. Because she know she made a mistake and that mistake hurt Callum and she intends to FIX that mistake. She gives him the space he needs while also staying close enough in case he would need her. Just like Soren said "sometimes you need time to work through the weird, and then it'll work out or dont. The heart do what it do or dont what it dont"
And thats exactly what happens! With time the awkwardness becomes less and less and their hearts do the job. Their feelings for each other were never gone in the first place, and when they both finally realise that it just keeps getting better. In the form of saving friends (Zym and Soren) they remember how it felt working together which helps them get closer.
But even tho they act close their words are still apart. They dont admit it. They dont talk about it. They just go along with it. But then Rayla gets caught sneaking Runaans' bow. When Callum orders them to release her even without knowing the reason why, Rayla picks up what he's putting down. He trusts her, he doesnt push her to explain him anything because he knows that she will when she is ready. She sees that there is still a chance to make things just like before maybe even better.
(Also in this scene when they're going to the grand bookery and they cross this path, she says "its an old wound that's healing" I cant help but feel like its a parallel to their relationship. The wound of leaving for two years but now finally working through it. Its just perfect)
So yep after everything she admits it, which is also perfect because she was the one that made a mistake so she does fix it and she does it right.
"Im glad we could be here together, looking at the stars..." She says.
And Callum feeling the same way rests his head on hers. ITS JUST PERFECT AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! THE WAY THAT THEY STILL KEEP TALKING ABOUT STARS AND THIS WHOLE SCENE HAVING AS MUCH POWER AS THEIR KISS SCENE AND DARE I SAY EVEN MORE (i dont know which wins bc i was jumping around screaming when they kissed after Callums' poetic speech LOL it was ROMANTIC ALRIGHT?! 😭😭😭😭 SAME GOES FOR THIS ONE)
And the thing is that it'ss so easy to mess up. They could've gone for a route like "hey im back after two years of absence" "Oh hi its great to see you again" And its not just the characters and their relationships but also the world that you're telling to the audience. It is so easy to get it wrong ESPECIALLY if you are writing Fantasy. With so many kingdoms, dragons, elves and other species with also magic its very very simple to mess up. Im glad that they went this way with the story telling. Its more natural, more enjoyable and it just works perfectly.
ANYWAY IVE BEEN WRITING THIS FOR WAY TOO LONG BUT IF YOU MANAGED TO FINISH READING IT TILL THE END OMG YOU'RE A FUCKING ROCKSTAR IDK I LOVE YOU THANK YOU!!! 😫😫😫💕💕💕💕
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Can u do hcs of Steve and soda being purlys #1 opp (whether u ship stevepop or not )
of course!!!<33
•steve couldnt give less of a fuck WHAT curly and pony r doin he truly does not care, its soda whos dragging him along
•well thats what he WANTS u to think, he does care actually, not as much as soda but enough to be like “wtf is pony doing w curly”
•most of the time when one of em is flirting w the other, soda usually kinda looks over his shoulder and steve KNOWS hes looking at curly bc sodas eyes twitch a lil when hes mad
•when curly does something to rile soda up, steve isnt even upset hes just absolutely ASTONISHED at the it, like either curly has the balls or hes just really stupid and steve thinks its a mix of both (it is)
•sometimes steve and soda would be on a date but they see pony and curly off in the distance and they DONT want to just abandon their date so they r like, trying to focus on their date but they cant help but look over to see what pony and curly are doing
its just like “yea so then me and her-👀,,,yea,, so anyways we hung out”
•when theyre all at a party, steve and soda like to stay close to pony to make sure ponys ok and when curky comes over w like a drink or food or to just whisk pony away, they do NOT budge and pony just has to sneak off to curly while soda and steve r playing card games
•once, soda was looking into his and ponys shared dresser and noticed a shirt that was in there was a shirt curly was wearing literally a few days ago
•he aint even get mad or nothin, he took that shirt and steve and him used it as a sweat and oil rag for that day at the dx (which happened to be the busiest weekday)
•pony noticed but he couldnt say anything bc he wasnt rlly open about his relationship w curly so he would just glance at it frequently, and soda KNEW he was looking at it, he did feel a tad bit bad after that one
•steve was a lil dick and was askin if he was alright bc he was staring at something, what an ass
•when pony comes hime from hanging out w curly, soda cannot STAND the smell of curly at all, not bc he stinks rlly but bc it smells of curly undeniably, and hes just asking pony to take a shower 😭
•steve thinks soda being passionate about anything makes him pretty, so yes, he also finds soda ranting about how much he doesnt like pony near curly being attractive, he just choses to ignore the topic
•sometimes when curly wants to buy pony something (BUY not STEAL hes not completely broke all the time) soda and steve but in like “noooo ILL buy it for him” and curlys going “nono trust me mf I got this” and ponys zoning out just thinking “im getting double the snacks”
•when soda and steve accompany them at the drive in, they sit behind them so when curly tries that ‘yawning to put my hand around u, shit they just slap his arm midair and u just hear a loud ass SMACK and curly trying not to yelp😭
•its fine tho cause curly just puts his hand on ponys thigh and theres essentially nothing soda and steve can do but sit there seething
•steve and soda work at the dx im sure that when they see curlys rust bucket of a car, theyre going “r u SURE u wanna drive in that pony” absolutely dragging that car to hell and back just dissecting all the problems it has while curlys RIGHT there and they steve ends it off w “but hey man fuck it its ur life ig”
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I feel like in tired days I just wanna hug hsr women and then sway side to side. Maybe a sigh or two escaping bc of the utter warmth and love you can feel from them. Makes u wanna melt into a small puddle.
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me core… im literally exhausted all the time no matter how much i sleep and hsr women are sooo comforting in their own ways i’d just be putty in their arms. need black swan especially because she has all the time in the world and knows how to cherish intimate moments like no other so it doesn’t matter how long you’d stay there she wouldn’t get bored, just bask in the warmth she’s feeling and tuck it away in her memory for when she’s away and wants a piece of you ughhh
who are the best huggers do we think… himeko on top! wait its actually a bit hard most of them would be great like natasha raises children and sews teddy bears, a hug from her could cure all my disorders. hime’s canonically super comforting so it’s the two of them at the top but then there’s SWAN who would know just the amount of pressure to put and who’s naturally very easy to trust/talk to as described by people… serval would squeeze you so tight but in a “i love you soooooooo much babe” kind of way so she could also save me. yukong’s a literal mother forget it she might win the top spot bc as a foxian i just know she’s always warm like it would be heaven. and ROBIN? HELLO? this actual sunshineee she’d be happy just hugging for half an hour and she’d rub your back or play with your hair omg im sick
acheron is awkward about it and is the type to weirdly stand still for a minute before she relaxes into the hug but if she’s used to it? omg. im biased bc shes extremely comforting to me but one hug from acheron with her chin over your shoulder or her face in your neck, holding you tight enough that you’re reminded of her immense strength and of how safe u feel with her?…… need that. its the same with jingliu, her and acheron would just be so cute about it. seele would give you 3 to 5 seconds, count them and awkwardly pat your head then immediately slip from your hold. she’s also kinda a “what is this?” “affection” “disgusting. do it again” person to me. bronya’s usually efficient with it like she’ll usually hug you for a few seconds before pulling away but sometimes when you start to pull away bc of how used you are to short hugs she’ll just hold you tighter and shut her eyes for a moment.
jade asks what you’re willing to exchange for a hug and ruins the rest of your life (jk…. but not really😕) she’s somehow superficial about it and its more you hugging her than her hugging you, if that makes sense..? she holds you loosely and chuckles, endeared, but that’s about it. calls you a cutie and tucks your hair back behind your ear when you pull away. topaz will tell you she has exactly 35 seconds to spare so u better make it count and she seems like the type to ruffle your hair or something. (she’s checking her phone behind your back 🤫) firefly is soo down for it she gets all giggly and smiley when you hold her tight and will stay like that for as long as u both can.
best for last…. cant believe im saying this but kafka would be a little like jade except that she not so secretly revels in the attention, it’s hidden behind smugness and confidence but the fact that she lets you hug her for this long speaks for itself. she’s not used to it but she knows how to navigate uncharted waters like a pro (its just a lot of performance) so she never recoils or flinches. like jade, you’re hugging her more than she’s hugging you BUTTT she would play with your hair a little and run her hands down your back until the hug turns rated M😞
i realize u probably dont gaf about all that but my brain started running and i couldnt stop it im sorry hfjfkgjd
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Rediscovering some Good Songs, so now I'm wondering, what are some songs you associate with Beca & Chloe? (Or the other Bellas!) And why?
I HAVE SO MANY SONGS SO THIS IS A GOOD QUESTION (ie i struggled adfgdjhsk) but i still hope yall like:
beca
no diggity (blackstreet) bc obviouslyy
no scrubs (tlc) just the vibee ahh and my lil bisexual girlie will not be with a man if he is not good to her !!!
just the way you are (bruno mars) DUHHHH the eye contact in the pool sigh and the moment where aubrey relinquished control of the pitch pipe and chloe was smug like see bree i told you she's good we will def make it to lincoln center
freedom! '90 (george michael) no explanation needed and bc she is finally getting recognized for her talent ahh but she decided to share it with her family (the bellas!!)
cups (originally by ap carter i think) bc iconic pop culture phenomenon
paint the town red (doja cat) rawr alt badass girlie pp1 beca
poison poison (renee rapp) for @afh48 mostly but yes!! beca is very "you're so fucking annoying" core
before he cheats (carrie underwood) she SLAPPED IN THAT RIFF OFF IM AFRAID- the way she grabbed that guy's jacket oof
chloe
she's v my "pink glitter gel pen" playlist coded i fear and here are some music/songs from it:
pocketful of sunshine (natasha bedingfield) bc she's a sunshine baby even kendrick says so <33
message in a bottle (taylor swift) i just think she's a swiftie and that this song and its fast beat and bubblegum pop is very her
we are never ever getting back together (taylor swift) red era chloe beale stan
love me harder (ariana grande) THAT PART IN PP3 WHEN SHE SINGS "love me harderrr, cuz if you really need me you gotta gotta gotta love me harder, gotta love me harderrr” GETS ME EVERY TIME
i kissed a girl (katy perry) her coming out song
still into you (paramore) she def dances around the bella house to this song
material girl (madonna) and this also pertains to aubrey, this is their friendship song <33
ocean eyes (billie eilish) brittany's eyes are so pretty i cant even begin to describe-
bechloe (the way i had originally just put these songs under beca and chloe separately but they got too many songs that make me think about them together that it should be a different section lmao)
not to be a dramatic (zoe clark) from beca to chloe <33 just LISTEN to the lyrics pls omg it is so angsty and pining
mascara (kylie cantrall) chloe telling beca the message in this song when she breaks up with jesse :((
friends dont (maddie & tae) just listen to it pls yall it's literally friends to lovers of them and fits their vibe perfectly and everytime i listen to it i daydream a whole ass bechloe fic like it's INSANE
not like im in love with you (lew) same thing as above
titanium (david guetta) sigh if i dont include this esp in this fandom i might as well kms/joking teehee
kiss me (sixpence none the richer) soft domestic bechloe <333
toxic (britney spears) again, the trust, the chemistry, the eye contact, the harmonies, the solos in pp3. im feral.
good luck, babe! + casual + red wine supernova (chappell roan)
birds of a feather (billie eilish) ahh i love them and to this song sm "i'll love you till the day i die, till the light leaves my eyes, till the day i dieee"
enchanted + dress + gorgeous + dancing with our hands tied (taylor swift)
stacie
low (flo rida) pp2 riff off cuz shawty had that apple bottom jeans (jeans) boots with the furr (with the fur) the whole club was lookin' at herr
sex with me (rihanna) pretty obvious methinks lmao
s&m (rihanna) no words truly
taste (sabrina carpenter) i headcanon stacie as pan so i just feel like the lyrics of this song can pertain to her if she's ever realizing that her past prospects are fucking each other <33
you problem (cloudy june, emlyn) i feel like she believes karma is a thing and "oh well you kinda asked for it haha" when someone comes to her complaining about drama or something like that if they started it in the first place if that makes sense
breakfast (dove cameron) nom nom her attitude towards men most of the time i think; "he's a hunter" coded
honey, im good (andy grammer) STAUBREY but she would never cheat on aubrey obv but maybe angst at the beginning of their relationship
heart attack (demi lovato) ANOTHER STAUBREY SONG HEHE
confident (demi lovato) goes without saying that stacie is confident in who she is and what she wants and goes for it
aubrey
boyfriend (dove cameron) hmm anyone here for jealous wlw aubrey? bc i am
hit me with your best shot (pat benatar) pp1 riff off :))
classic (mkto) she's just so Classic and i feel like she would love to be wooed traditionally like the whole wine and dine thing and lots of flowers on dates (stacie cough** im looking at you)
what makes you beautiful (one direction) i debated putting this under her or chloe but chloe def knows that she's hot, quoting “yeah im pretty confident about... all this ;))” so aubrey it is!!
hey blondie (dominic fike) girlie just wants to be serenaded fr
pretty girls (renee rapp) a lot of angst in coming to terms with her sexuality unfortunately :((
emily
sit still look pretty (daya) i can NOT listen to this song without thinking of her now i fear
flashlight (jessie j) same reason as above!! legacy is just a baby aaahh
cool kids (echosmith) she just wants to fit in 🐣
most girls (hailee steinfeld) i feel like she admires a lot of girls around her and wants to be like them and obv hailee singing it helps lol
cynthia rose
crazy youngsters (ester dean) that music video!!
starships (nicki minaj) idk i just think ab her when i hear it
amy
we belong (pat benatar) that "hey im soloing here!! whataver!!" part is so funny to me every time haha in pp2
#i dont know jessley that well except for that baby its cold outside song lol#also this took forever im sorry adfghd and i gotta stop before this is becomes a novel length lmao#OH AND ALSO BECA DEF LOVES KESHA AND HAS A LOT OF KESHA SONGS THAT I JUST CANT PICK INDIVIDUALLY FOR HER-#rolo tag#music tag#pitch perfect#bechloe#beca mitchell#chloe beale#barden bellas#staubrey#wenz can talk#stacie conrad#aubrey posen#taylor swift#chappell roan
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heyy hope ur day has been good so far!
could i request a bill x reader hurt/comfort oneshot?
Reader and bill get into a massive fight about something stupid they dont even remember anymore and in the heat of the moment bill says something about readers weight wich they are extremely insecure of (reader is a bit chubby) and both of them are just standing completely shocked about what just happened and the reader starts tearing up so bill tries to hug her and apologise but the reader pushes him away not wanting to be touched and he then realises how he fucked up.
a few days later after the reader avoided him he shows up with puffy eyes and eye bags, holding flowers and apologises saying how he knows that what he did wasnt right and that he cant undo everything but he wants to try and will wait how ever long reader needs to trust him again?
sorry if this is a bit much and its ok if ur not comfortable writing this!
have a great day!
(Yo! Sure I can but so sorry, I'm not good at apologies so I left it at the end like a sorta cliff hanger bc I suck at giving and writing apologies. But anyway, enjoy!)
An Apology Won't Cut It
You didn't even know how the hell this started, and how it ended up here.
It was a small argument, ending up in comments thrown and bickering until yelling ensued and the rest of the band left you both alone.
Yelling in the hotel room you and Bill shared after a concert when you just wanted to sleep away everything.
What you can remember was that Bill got mad at you for 'flirting' with a fan.
Yes, you used to flirt with fans, basically what Tom did, flirting with fans girls and boys alike until you got into a relationship with Bill and that stopped.
You used to enjoy it, but put an end to it once Bill expressed his feelings for you before.
You didn't engage in fan advances, but when you put them off you were scolded by your publicist and told not to and just smile, brush them off and move on.
Of course, you didn't want to be scolded anymore, so you just agreed and tried to keep your distance.
But the fanboy at the signing today would not give in, not taking the hint at your strained smiles and goodbyes but being tugged back into the conversation.
Bill noticed and you could see his attitude change the more and more the boy flirted, and the more you stood there, trying to get away but Bill didn't see that through his annoyance.
Georg had to swoop in and save you from being uncomfortable, and the last thing you wanted was to be arguing with Bill over something you didn't even want.
"This is so goddamn pointless, Bill. I tried!" You yelled, exhausted from the night and fed up as Bill scoffed.
"You didn't try anything. You stood there and let him flirt with you when I stood there like a dumbass!" Bill countered, visibly angry at you.
"Yeah! You stood there and watched him make me uncomfortable! Georg had to come get me." You sighed, running a hand through your hair to try and calm down.
"For all anyone knows is that you were flirting back! Like you always do!" Bill tried to get it across from his spot standing across from you.
"Like I always do?! Don't throw that shit back at me!" You yelled back, pissed at him for bringing up past relationships before you were even together, and something he already knew wasn't true.
"Don't go there because I didn't do anything wrong. I tried to get away, you stood there like an asshole watching me but are still blaming me."
Bill scoffed, muttering a comment under his breath he would soon regret when the room fell silent.
He soon stilled, a cold sweat running through him as he heard what his own mouth muttered through the room.
Bill looked up to see your face, anger, hurt and shock written across your face.
"Really?" You muttered, you scoffed as you gave a small laugh out of bewilderment as Bill stood up in surprise in himself.
"(Name)-" Bill tried before you cut him off.
"You really wanna fucking go there?" You asked, your voice strong but coming out with the same hurt written across your face.
Bill felt guilty eating up in him, the memories of comforting you about your insecurity of your weight in his mind, bringing up your confidence in yourself as he helped you.
Even holding your hand as you told him about the insecurities, remembering how he comforted you and made you feel like the most beautiful being in the world.
Only to see him crush it as the stupid fucking comment about your own weigh and insecurity was used against you in an argument.
By none other than Bill.
"You're an asshole, Bill." You shook your head, trying to blink away the tears.
You were angry at yourself for what happened at the concert, even if you tried your best to make it stop but was still blamed.
"I'm sorry." Bill apologized quickly, walking closer to you and trying to pull you in for a hug, for both of you but his hand was quickly slapped away.
You backed away towards the door of the room, snatching your arm away from your boyfriend, or what Bill feared, ex-boyfriend.
You were a strong person and Bill knew that, you told him many times that even if it was an insecurity, you wouldn't let it be used against you or let yourself feel like shit because of it.
It had been before by previous boyfriends, and you left their asses because of it, and Bill may even now join that list.
"Don't you fucking touch me." You cursed at Bill, the boy's guilt multiplying as he saw you get rid of the tears, replacing them with anger fueled ones.
"Get the fuck out and get a new hotel room. I'm not gonna be around someone who immediately goes to that when arguing." You told Bill, your boyfriend tried to speak up but nothing came out.
"I told you about it, you even comforted me about it." You scoffed, staring through him as Bill frowned.
"(Name), I'm sorry." Bill apologized once more, trying to step closer to you but stopped when you turned on your heel and walked to the door.
"Get your shit and you better be gone when I get back. I'm not crying over your ass."
Bill watched the door open, hearing it slam against the frame and your footsteps leaving down the hall.
Bill stood in his place, cursing at himself for his own stupidity and trying to find a way to fix this but came up empty.
The only thing Bill could do now was sink down into the seat by the bed, looking around at tour abandoned belongings mixed in with his.
He could only hope for a way to fix what he may have fucking ruined over his own stupidity.
#tokio hotel georg#gustav tokio hotel#tokio hotel imagine#tokio hotel x reader#tokio hotel#bill kaulitz imagines#bill kaulitz#bill kaulitz x reader#tom kaulitz
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besties can i just say omg so i went thru ur blog obsessively bc i looove the ideas behind ur headcannons and little snipets of stories. i was wondering what bobby headcannons u guys have. also memory i loove ur writing and roe?? gorgeous fanart oml
AWWWWW THANK YOUU!!! rhis is so sweet 😭🫶🫶 i saw your comment on my fic thank u sm
im gonna be honest, we dont have many bobby hcs (i really wanna change that, i fucking ADORE bobby - and, if its any help, i actually have a fic up ((dont look back in anger)) where he’s a main character!! although its an au, i hope it’ll suffice for now :3)
- bobby is definitely a prankster, but like, hes NOTORIOUS for it. and not in the bad way. he has silly pranks that only mildly inconvenience the person on the receiving end (like the dumping water on lmq and cals heads after races) and he’s Always at the scene of the crime when something silly happens. he just Is the embodiment of silly. and yes i know this is canon for the most part but hes literally just so silly i cant not include it
- hes the youngest of the trio, the baby, even, he’s a december baby, born in 1988 (same year as lightning - cal is an ‘87 baby i believe - so when bobby started racing in 2007 he was still 18) but just at the End, whereas lightning was born in may . despite this he’s still the tallest, and probably the most well built of the three . aka lightning is scrawny and cal is just Average. and when lightning makes fun of him for being a Baby hes like ok well ure literally short as hell. what about that. huh? what can you do about your height? i’ll have a birthday but you dont have a get taller day? huh? and lightnings like. well. okay.
- i feel like he befriended cal first, like, he and lightning “hated” each other but it was less hate and more lightning being incapable of making friends (lmq and cal met at the infield care center after strips crash, so they were friends ever since then) and so cal was just in the middle of this “rivalry” that was in reality like. hey. cal. i think that bobby guy is really cool do u think he’d wanna be my friend. and cals like I DONT KNOW TALK TO HIM? and they talk and theyre like wow i actually thought u hated me (theyre best friends now)
- bobby both has an iconic autograph, but hes also so good with his fans its impossible for anyone to hate him. he has so many iconic pictures and literally everyone he meets praises him for his kindness and blatant silliness . hes just super easy going and generally amazing to be around
- out of all the racers hes probably got the most amusing advertisements as well, he will go ALL IN for whatever octane gain (or his smaller/secondary sponsors) want from him, and its so Genuine it just feels like he LOVES to be there
- he loves taylor swift. AND I KNOW WHAT YOURE GONNA SAY. “ITS STEREOTYPICAL” BUT NO U DONT GET IT.. SHE DOESNT MATCH THE REST OF HIS MUSIC TASTE AT ALL. hes the last person you’d ever expect to listen to her. he says its because they have the same last name so hes obligated to be a fan, but also the day Taylor Swift (album) debuted he bought the dvd and forced the other two to listen to the entire thing multiple times on a road trip and its safe to say that since the day taylor swift has existed, lightning and cal have feared her album release dates.
- hes the burnout king. every race he wins he will do a burnout down the frontstretch in front of the grandstands that will take his tires down to the RIMS. the tire marbles are INSANE
THIS IS ALL I HAVE IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY 😭😭 i wish i had more and i WILL eventually make more trust me on that.. but thank you so much for the ask and i hope u liked them :3
#cars 2006#cars fandom#lightning mcqueen#pixar cars#cars headcanons#memory’s headcanons#cars 3 (2017)#bobby swift#cal weathers#i adore bobby with my whole heart i fear#my favourite little guy#like when are we gonna admit he may be the silliest of them all#hes THE life of the party every time
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this is all for the writer ask!!! :3 hope it's not too much >_<" answer the ones you're comfortable answering and don't force yourself to answer all of them if you don't want to! <3
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EHEHEHEHEHHE NEVER TOO MUCH THANK U SMMMMMM 🌵 ⇢ share the link to a playlist you love
i dont really listen to premade playlists, so ill link mine >:333 this is a playlist i made for a roadtrip to berlin, including all the songs i was listening to at the time, and ive since been adding new ones actively, so it's literally just a huge list of everything i love :D 🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love
first of all gonna plug my besties ofc @levi-dayne writes sick ass fics for death note @uriekukistan writes amazing itafushi angst (and not only :33) SENDING BOTH OF THEM SMOOCHES GO READ THEIR STUFF! and a fic that id read recently and LOVEDDD was all about love by fullvoid (@casgore on here :3) the yuuji characterisation broke my heart - it was a gutwrenchingly real way of depicting mental illness, and i loved seeing how different he acted around people vs alone. and it was super cool seeing a healed megumi helping yuuji rather than the other way around!!! HIGHLY RECOMMEND!!!!
🌻 ⇢ tag someone you appreciate but don't talk to on a regular basis FIRST OF ALL U!!!!!! i love the mutual interactions THANK U FOR BEING HERE!!!! @alonelystargazer is very sweet and i interact with her pretty regularly i feel :3 THANK U FOR INTERACTING WINNIE!!!!<3 cant think of anymore rn but if i do i WILL edit this post TRUST 🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings
megumi likes penne but yuuji hates it so they always disagree over pasta shape if theyre making it for dinner. yuuji always wins bc his favourite is spaghetti and obviously everyone likes spaghetti so megumi doesnt bother fighting him on it 📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app?
HEHEHEHEH nervous. lets see "what kinda gay shit goes on around here when im not around" LMAO the choso x todo wip in action. what a quote thank u past me. you'll find out the context once i post it sjdhfgsjhfks
🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?
hmmmmm from random shit i think like. 1980s window designs in england lmaooo
🥐 ⇢ name one internet reference that will always make you laugh
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���️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?
ARRGRHRG ANY COMMENT. i get so excited u cant even imagine. i sometimes type 'AO3' in my gmail just to delude myself that i got a comment and get that little pang of joy seeing the notif 😭 my favvvv must be ones that quote certain lines tho bc then im like HEY!!!! I WROTE THAT!!!! U LIKED THAT??? DUDE UR NOT GONNA BELIEVE THIS I WROTE IT
🦋 ⇢ share something that has been on your heart and mind lately
i feel like an everpresent topic ive had on my mind especially often for the last year is kindness. there's a multitude of things i could say, whether that's bashing people for lacking it, or get all teary over how beautiful it is (which!! it is!!!) but i think what ive recently discovered is that it's my only constant :3 when everything else goes wrong, that's all i have, and im really happy it's second nature to me (altho im still actively working on making myself better!!!!)
yeah, maybe everything sucks right now, but i know i can make someone else's day better :3 and often it makes things a little more okay to me too
🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them
RAHHGHG BESTIES. question for the bestiessss
@levi-dayne is so dear to my heart!!! such a sweet and kind person, who truly and deeply cares about others!!!! makes music, writes well AND ALSO DRAWS??!!! amazing and super talented person with super high ambitions too!!! SO SLAYFUL. what did i do to deserve such a slayful friend<333
@uriekukistan is one of the most naturally talented ppl i know!!!!! they write amazing fics, can DANCE super well, and took up drawing like 3 seconds ago and are already churning out really cool stuff on a fucking TOUCHPAD. ON THEIR LAPTOP. gofundme for rin graphic art kit when?? also ofc. a really good friend and very kind person :3333 <333
ILYSM BESTIESSSS
🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?
from a writing style perspective: first person and tense switches
from a content perspective: anything fucked up like noncon or incest....how tf are they often not tagged like??? or putting that at the bottom of the warnings list 😭 oh yea im far more concerned about swearing and underage drinking......
something im picky abt that sometimes annoys me enough to click off but i feel like it's just a weird personal preference is the overuse of alternatives to a characters name. so using "the brunette" like 5 times. just say his name!!!!! it's ok!!!!!
RAHHHHHH i usually reread my answers before i post but not this time. adios fuckers i dont remember what bullshit i wrote here but ur left with the consequences. if u wanna deal with even more of my terrible takes ASK ME STUFF
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Hunter coming out to Luz as bi
OKAY here i am like over 6 months later LMAO
like whattt? im not dead?? i know, i know. my deepest apologies
i have already written him coming out in flapjacks with syrup so if you want more go read that too not to self promote agskgjjghh (i will be updating that soon just saying 👀)
but here’s some headcanons!
lemme see, theres so many ways for this to go. lets entertain just a couple tho lol
scenario #1
its july and luz is getting/making pride merch for everyone bc shes trying to make it a thing on the isles. at least a little holiday. perhaps a parade? itll be fun!
and she realizes she has no clue what hunters deal is. is he straight? aroace, maybe. that guy is married to his work.
shes trying to keep this pride thing a surprise so she asks him nonchalantly like “hey broooo i was just wondering. whats your sexuality. a friend wanted to know.”
and he bluescreens
“uh. i— i dont know, actually.”
he never really thought about it. hes always been too busy being attracted to them books lmao
he has to get back to her in two business days at least 😂😂😂
he basically spends those days spacing out and scaring his classmates by intensely staring at them.
hunter discovers that he generally feels the same about any gender. and he didnt really have a preference when imagining his future having a wife, husband, or partner. as long as they made him happy
and everyone was really pretty. hexside had quite a lot of cute witches and demons
but honestly, he still didn’t really find himself wanting to start a relationship with any of them (gee wonder why)
he chalks it up to the fact that he’s focusing on his studies and apprenticeship right now and has no time for romance
besides, if he had a partner, he’d have even less time to spend with luz his friends
he finds luz up in a tree behind the owl house, nose in a book. shes so focused on the story that she doesn’t even hear him approach
“LUZ!”
“WHA—“
she was so startled she fell put of the tree. hunter tried to catch her he really did but they both wound up crashing down to the ground in a heap
oof
luz shoved him off her, laughing “first you give me a heart attack and now you try to crush me? i thought we were friends now, hunter!”
“sorry, sorry,” he wheezed as he rolled over in the soft grass
luz went and retrieved her book from where she accidentally threw it, “so what did you need me for?”
“oh, i just wanted to tell you i think i figured out my sexuality now, like you asked,”
“thats okay. i didnt mean to presure you so you dont have t—”
he sat up, “im bisexual,”
liz gasped “OH SWEET, twinsies!”
she got matching bandanas for them. cowboy vibes lol
luz did successfully get the annual pride parade set up in the isles. hard to say no to her shes a force of nature and also kinda a celebrity now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
scenario #2
luz has just assumed he’s gay
bc they often talk about guys they think are cute. like if theyre at the mall food court (without the hexsquad) and see any hot guys they are thoroughly checking them out and giggling like school girls
its not something she can do with amity (obviously), vee or willow. plus, she trusts that hunter isnt about to go squealing to her girlfriend about her attraction to men she has no plans on pursuing
its a good bonding activity, okay. if you cant thirst over cute guys with your bestie are they really your bestie
alas, because of this, luz never reads too much into the moments they have together. hunter let a hug linger a little too long? he lets her eat off his fork? puts his arm around her on the couch? just friendly behavior. its not like he likes her or anything. bc hes gay right
anyway. theyre like, at a chinese restaurant picking up takeout for the gang and the cashier is just adorable. miss teen connecticut. the cutest girl ever. they both stutter their words and awkwardly fumble around while picking up this order. hunter almost dropped the food and luz signed her name as Liz Noda on the receipt
they get out of there and start laughing once they reach the car
“guess its bi disaster hour am i right?” hunter joked
luz laughed but then it hit her
“wait. you like girls?”
hunter looked at her confused, “yeah?”
“oh…” she trails off,
and hunter starts the car and drives off, not even giving the conversation a second thought
meanwhile luz is dead silent in the passenger seat like
she be rethinking everything agsjfjjhh
OKAY SECRET 3RD SCENARIO!
tboy!luz au :3
okay so luz is scared bc he’s finally worked out his gender. he’s a guy.
its what pushes him to break up with amity. its amicable at least
and so as luz moves on with his life, and starts falling for hunter, he’s scared hunter wont like him now bc he’s trans
and once hunter finds out about that, he’s putting a stop to it fast. like:
“dude. im bi. i dont care if youre a boy or a girl. youre luz. and i like luz.”
and they live happily ever after the end agajdjjg
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As Mugetsu and Gengetsu connoisseur, what is your opinion on their design in Lost Word(Touhou-themed gacha game)?
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head in hands
WHY is it that every now and then i get an ask about lost word (a game i am somewhat vocal about my distaste for) So. ive already answered that question: here. Since that statement however! they revealed the twins physically. and i am actually kind of relieved with what was put out bc a vast majority of the younger roster does NOT give a good image of this game. I REALLY appreciate that they don't do whatever the hell they do with the windows characters (which is why you still CANNOT make me play this game even if you paid me to) their designs are faithful to the original and they went with a 90s Yumekawaii-adjacent vibe for them (their cute devil arrange sounds EERILY like something from Sailor moon S and onward) WHICH is my approach too so its nice to see that there is confirmation in some kind of way that this path is a very much valid one to walk for them! AND THEY PAINT THEM AS PLAYFUL LITTLE PROTECTORS which yknow! IS MY VIBE TOO after researching their dialog and their inspos extensively. I really appreciate that they made them somewhat sprite accurate and i appreciate that they didnt go for a more "modernized" look for them, and that the "devil" in them refers to a more playful, impish whimsy rather than the "MORE BLOOD AND SOULS FOR THE BLOOD GOD MORE SKULLS TO HARVEST" that ive been seeing for both of them ever since i set foot in the touhou fandom (which isnt their vibe at all :loud incorrect buzzer:)(i am SO tired get me OUT OF HERE) But hey. YOU STILL CANT MAKE ME PLAY LOST WORD. one W, no matter how massive, cannot erase their ocean of Ls. and id really appreciate not having any more questions on Lost word o(-< can we do that? thank you. HOWEVER. You know where id like these two to appear tho? You know which game made by staff other than ZUN has caught my eye in their authenticity of what makes touhou special? You know which staff has been implementing pc98 characters gradually with an even deeper understanding and an equal treatment to all characters? That's right!! MYSTIAS. IZAKAYA. Like. Their Yumeko? She's SPLENDID and i WILL hire her. Their Mima? CROWD APPLAUSE. Their Ellen? ADORABLE i want to see her visit 20 times a day. THAT is where you'll see me wishing for the twins actively bc i know they'll be in good hands and i will sleep on both ears. Which is NOT the case with LW bc any minute they could make the twins say the most out of pocket shit, and their ENTIRE reputation will pay the price, and by association: so will i. that'll be more work for me to repair. SO LETS NOT HAVE THAT HAPPEN SHALL WE. i am staring daggers at you LW staff DO NOT fuck this up.
oh yeah also dont roll for them its not worth it trust me i got over my gacha addiction that i was afflicted by in my high school years (ex-love live fan.... :pensive:) and it took tooth, nail, and scary financial situations to snap me out of it DO NOT feed the gambling addiction it only gets worse. love you.
#seriously please stop asking me about lost word#also please dont treat lost word's story as gospel because they are EXTREMELY wrong for some other characters.#i dont like talking about this gaaaaaaaaaaaaame aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
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I hate the fact that i need to divert a bit from my usual content, guys. But i have no choice but to do this😭 its the best i can do in this situation as a teenager who is scared for war. This post is a clearer explanation of the theories I mentioned in my previous post .
(i will provide translation for certain sentences)
(red italic highlight means user in tiktok)
Purple text means my comment
Translation:
Jeo; What if she(Alice Guo)'s being used as a distraction of the [Chinese] government to the [Filipino] people so that it would not be obvious that they are doing something in private? (Ur not sure)
Bat mo natanong; The fact that that when the issue about Alice Guo started, China suddenly became active [and aggressive towards our navy] ☠️☠️☠️
misskonasiya: while the [Philippine] government is busy bc of Alice Guo's case, china is already preparing☠️
Kai: it makes sense, since after the case of Alice Guo, China became aggressive too
Translation:
R (replying to destenee_.) : maybe the secret agreement with china was true. Based from his [prev Pres. Duterte] statement that was shown on tv "that's just water" lmao
Translation:
angel; and i dont know why but it seems like there's a connection [Of this WPS situation] to Inday Sara[current vice pres.]'s resignation[resigning from a position in DepEd or Department of Education]
[(user); connecting the dots fr]
Angel (replying to user); i also read somewhere that there's lots of chinese [people] in Cataduanes😭😭 [Cataduanes is an island province located in Luzon]
destenee_. ; its also suspicious that the news went crazy about inday Sara spending millions [of pesos] in 11 days, like??? And her[VP Sara] suddenly resigning smells fishy, its like she's stepping away from the government to wash—
destenee_. : —herself once war starts or whatever happens, she could easily say "i dont have anything to do with that" bcuz what if after [prev. Pres] Duterte stepped out of the government, he warned Sara that smth will happen then and there, this and that—
Translation:
miss jaii ; the sole reason why the Duterte family wants to separate Mindanao from Luzon and Visayas is bcoz Duterte and Chinese president [Xi Jinping] had a secret gentleman's agreement that the Philippines will be given to China
miss jaii ; but the Mindanao island will be separated because they[Duterte family] wants to build their own [country]
Translation
(user) : what if Duterte called the chinese pres to ask help in a way of causing harassment to the west philippine sea so that Marcos [our surrent president] will feel pressured in the situation and then he will resign, prompting for sara + (cont. in my own words and understanding; to take over the position of president)
Translation:
"wps can be yours[china] but you're only mine[referring to a gf or bf or crush]"
I appreciate the possessiveness, but youre so petty bcuz u dont even have a label on that person (hayup ka kase)
Translations:
"just give the WPS [to china]"
"that sea is more important than our lives[?]" (This is said/read in a more insulting/harsh way)
"what if you just give it[wps] up"
"[theyre] thinking about the sea more than the million lives on line]
"give it[wps] up"
Source: tiktok user @ysabel.777
If you dont trust this source as much as i do, then go ahead and check out the tag #west philippine sea and/or #atin ang west philippine sea. Users out there certainly explains the situation best than i do.
Or if you want, you can do your own research about this situation.
Do note that these are SIMPLY THEORIES. Theories that possibly connect the dots of the chain of events happening here😭 I really cant believe that im living the day I post shit about wps. China has just been much more aggressive towards us, i cant keep silent about this especially that i have a platform to post to. This is my voice, and im screaming whatever the hell i can to make y'all aware of this situation.
#Amin ang West Philippine Sea‼️🇵🇭🇵🇭
#atin ang west philippine sea#west philippine sea#the philippines#filipino#spread awareness#p.s. my head still hurts but idc#i just founf the tiktok post and i had the urge to post this to update about the prev post i did#im so upset about the fact that i need to post about this when all of my planned content was just bullshitting memes and art#mostly art but u get it#please be aware of this situation at least give it a little bit of attention#im doing this bc if what i fear is going to happen well obviously I'll fell silent#and if i did fell silent then these posts will be the reason why#but hopefully in the name of God. war will NEVER happen#🙏🙏🙏🙏 amen
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