#and i am. already so fed up
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911 fic writers be normal about latino characters challenge (impossible, apparently)
#dipping my toe into fic going through the tag in reverse chronological order#bc iām only in early s3#and i am. already so fed up#and like. iām reading fic explicitly set in s3!!#and iām like okay up to where i am in the show i cannot think of any instances of eddie speaking very much spanish#i think he mightāve used spanish with some spanish speakers they were rescuing at one point???#but other than saying like āabuelaā he. does not regularly use spanish#he doesnāt āslip into itā#but ohhhhh heās gotta use it all the time during sex bc itās just sooooo hot and sexy#like again. if he regularly used spanish in the show that would be one thing but he literally doesnāt#youāre just making this up because heās latino and you want to fetishize that!!!#r.txt
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i'm so fucking over it lol wdym "it sounds like you need to be seen within the next three days" my throat's just slowly swelling shut??? it's not THAT big of a deal can't i put it off for another like several weeks??? i mean its fineeeeee it's not even the breathing tube its the food one!!! i can survive plannyyy of time without eating i'll be fineeeeeee
#hikey#can we tell i'm like not well lmao#yes my esophagus is likely very swollen and inflamed rn and its getting worse so it needs to be addressed before i lose the ability to eat#but likeeeeeee#i already have a doc appointment next week to look at the bump on my ear that's also unfortunately getting worse#shit starts to fall apart in multitudes with me it's never just one struggle at a time fucking hell#it's likely due to my ongoing stomach problems like probably too much acid coming up my throat#whyyyyy is there acid when i was told a year ago i do NOT have reflux?????#no clue !!!!#have my stomach problems been progressively getting worse over the past few weeks too??#yuuuuuppp. back to eating essentially only bread + crackers + apple sauce#probably gonna end up having to go back for another endoscopy to look again#and probably more gross shit i don't wanna deal with like stomach emptying tests and stool samples and a bunch of actual literal shit#i am so fucking fed up and upset like a feeding tube is a serious consideration for me even though i do not think i would be okay with it#like the sensation of the tube and having to keep it clean and sanitary and all that#but like !!!!!#disabled lyfe
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WHY ARE YOU SO EVIL!!! /POS. ATTACKING YOU.
Xemnas and Xigbar for 37 if that number hasn't been done? If it has, how about 74?
no puedo pedirle lo eterno a un simple mortal // ay, todo lo que he hecho por ti.
[ID: a mostly black and white drawing with a purple overlay of xigbar and xemnas shown from the hip up on the left side of the image. the background is black and has some diagonal lines with a bit of transparency on the right side. the shadows are harsh, with only a bit of light falling on their faces.
they stand before each other turned to the audience. xigbar, holds the handle and the middle of No Name before him, head tilted down as he looks to the audience. xemnas stands a full head taller behind xigbar, his left hand held some distance below the bladed tip of No Name, his left eye is covered by his fringe.
xemnas visible eye is painted ochre with a white pupil, while xigbar's eye is white and gold. The eyes on no name's handle and the gazing eye on the blade are a vibrant cyan. the caption reads the spanish lyrics "i can't ask a simple mortal for a forever" and "oh, everything i've done for you." /End ID.]
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#capisnotonfire#PUTS MY HAND TO MY STERNUM AND FALLS TO THE FLOOR ON MY KNEES /affectionate#warning to whoever might open the link; there's a slightly suggestive several 'ay's at the beginning porque shakira it's also bass heavy#OBJECTIVELY THE FUNNIEST SONG THAT COULD'VE COME UP. it's the gift that keeps on giving!!#this specific remix's been on my top list... several years; top five for a couple. i've loved it forever. top radio edits ever.#it's basically about a guy that makes up excuses to hide he's cheating and a gal that's fed up with his bullshit and is like. okay. bye.#i briefly considered going with............ right now i know my heart is yours <- in regards to i'm already half-xehanort#as per usual not ship art but it would be HILARIOUS if it was. it would've been able to go so many incredibly funny tragic ways#nano does reqs#my doods#xigbar kh#xemnas kh#IT TOOK SO LONG. putting this out there because i WILL lose my marbles if i do anything more. it's not as polished as it could.#fret not if you've asked for a req i am still doing 'em this one just. kicked my ass (been busy). i tried a couple of things and failed#THEN the file corrupted like 9 hours in and i wanted to die a little (thank the heavens my drawing app has a#thing to get back corrupted files through their screen recording) but i GIVE UP (affectionate)#Does this make sense thematically? Fuck if i know. i forgot all lore (half serious). it looked cooler in my head (jesting)#anyways. mwah tysm for the ask<3#i love posting at mystifying times (i finish at terrible hours and get excited)#described#74
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itās me again coming to yell at you again Iām sorry
YOUR COLOURING MAKES ME SWOON AND I WILL NOT DIVULGE HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN STARING AT YOUR SET OF SYLUS FOR NUH-UH šš¤© okaybye~
Hiii!!! I'M SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU AND YOUR MESSAGE AGAIN (˶ Ė Ā³Ė)Ėįµ Ė˶)
#ask#can i just say your new caleb layout is so cool!!!! love the sci fi look ššš§”š§”#also i am todays years old when i realised youre snowvee (i may have already queued up a bunch of posts without realising š#how to obtain such speedy and great quality gifmaking skills??? we are getting fed good ( ą“¦ąµą“¦ą“æ ĖįĖ )
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I caught up with jjk and I mean this in the angriest, most disgusted way possible when I say
What the actual fuck has this story become.
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk manga#seriously im at 241 now and#its is absolute dogshit#i was already fed up with all the new characters i didnt care about#but now gege is ruining the characters that were originally built up great?#like really you gonna make a slapstick comedy chap with KENJAKU????#man gege treat your own characters with some respect and dont ruin the tone???#i am really so upset about this#bc this just went from good show that lost its appeal to absolutely actively hatable story progession
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Have been sketching misc things today and decided to color one of the sketches šš©ø
#bloodborne#brador church assassin#laurence the first vicar#bradorence#i *tried* to make laurence's first garb more modest than what was to come but... yeah...#i'll need to maybe reduce the amount of colors at LEAST#otherwise it is JUST 'alternative outfit' and not the more simple/underwhelming one#like i drew his second outfit (with the crown) already#real ones remember how it is like.... not even all that more detailed... so yeah note to self#as for brador i just give him a cool cape to go outside before laurence became a cleric beast#hello girl its 3 AM + i love the trope of a person getting fed up with another's cluelessness and snapping#brador is so less... 'impressive' than people that tend to be in Laurence's surroundings?#but i guess you have to assert yourself if he won't budge past abnormally tall warriors :pensive:
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Itās spring, and I look exceptionally cute in all my springy dresses and for WHAT?
#I go to the office and I go home#If I try to go anywhere my parents have aneurysmsā¦at this point I kind of want to wander Detroit at night just to make them shut up about i#because surely after THAT visiting national parks would be easy to do without them throwing hissy fitsā¦right#They donāt stop me#They just DONāT shut up about how incredibly dangerous visiting the library in an ever so slightly larger city 30 miles away is#Or how careful I need to be if I want to walk downtown to buy myself a smoothie#And itās not like Iām actually being reckless#I am a careful person and I am always armed#But I do get incredibly fed up with their constant nagging#They keep pestering me to get married already and stand in the way of my doing anything that might facilitate my meeting someone#I am always in a state of āall dressed up and no place to goā and itās very frustrating this year specially
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did dsmp have a proper end? it seemed like everyone quit or died, and I never heard anything else about it
technically, yeah? a nuke dropped on them and every character* died and that was pretty much it. I think a bunch of people also got together and killed the ender dragon in a like. non lore-relevant way, but I never watched that.
Some people also did their own endings separate from the nuke stuff, and the few that I watched were really good, I liked them. That part was people who actually got along well/were friends making something cool together, separate from. some others. The recent resurgence was just two guys impromptu logging on years later and roleplaying a bit for fun. Pretty much doing something nice with it instead of 'and then they all died. the end'
#I could go into detail about why I didn't like the nuke bullshit but eh.#let's just say it had a character apologizing to their abuser/killer/torturer/whatnot#who also turned out to be an actual dick to him irl but that's later information so uhhh#on top of it being stupid and unsatisfying it's also. bad#also I'm pretty sure people so fucking fed up with dream by that point already anyway. I never cared much for him or was on twitter so idk#this is making it sound like I generally wasn't that invested or that it wasn't that good which it honestly was#except all the bad parts. as per usual. but I am still a dsmp liker at heart it did a lot for me at the time#faksyan answers stuff#faksyan talks dsmp#wild that I'm making a tag for this but. who knows what might happen
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#vent#vent post#cw negative#Sevenās Public Diary#wish i wasnāt so fucking worthless and useless and stupid and selfish and mean#i am just so goddamn sick of my own bullshit. but i never change#iām so tired of being weighed down by my 56492 mental illnesses. i donāt like being like this#my sleep schedule is so fucked up again and im tired of this constant cycle#this constant fight and endless effort to stay on a goddamn routine#all i want for christmas is a goddamn consistent sleep schedule#i hate sleeping through the day and being up all night but itās like my body was fucking built for that or something#i donāt like it!! i want to be an early bird who goes to bed at 8pm and wakes up before the sun rises!!! but im the exact opposite!!!!!!!#i wish i just didnāt need to sleep at all. that would be the ideal. so many problems would be solved.#no i Really wish i just had the ability to fall asleep and wake up whenever i actually Want To instead of my body calling the shots#fell asleep at 9 this morning and im so mad that i didnāt get up when i was woken up at 11#a 2hr nap wouldāve been fine and i wouldāve made it through the rest of the day and been able to fucking sleep again tonight#but noOOooOoOo i had to give in to the allure of my warm cozy bed and fall back asleep for 9 more goddamn hours#now once again im too awake and rested to be able to go back to sleep. but once morning rolls around im gonna be exhausted again#and iāll either give in and attempt to take a ānapā and itāll turn into a 12hr sleep again#or iāll have to like. walk laps around the fucking house just to keep myself awake through the day#and iāll be super irritable as a result and make everyone around me miserable too#but everyone is already beyond fed up with my issues and behavior. rightly so i guess. so i lose either way#god there was so much stuff i was gonna/supposed to do today#i donāt know how much longer theyāre gonna put up with me being such a deadbeat#you think thatād like. motivate me to get my shit together or something but no. iām addicted to being unconscious i guess#sleep feels so fucking good. until i wake up. which is funny bc itās all nightmares and stress dreams anyway. why do i even enjoy sleeping#i guess bc for the first few hours after waking up i experience some modicum of relief from my other mental illnessesā symptoms#like a soft reset.#and itās the Only thing that gets rid of my migraines so god forbid i get one of those bc then i Have to sleep regardless of the time of day#anyways! :) thatās enough whining for one vent post. time to go do something productive
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Damn Johan went from snarky stray cat to golden retriever.
Please I need to see more of that! That was so good!
#lord of heroes#that side story really just made me ship them more#like the bickering?#amd always coming back to each other?#Lord's 'I need you'???#Johan being so sad when he heard that Lord probably left already???#and Lord staying anyway because they managed to sneak out to see this menace to society so might as well stay#in hopes that he actually shows up again#this is so good#would have loved it to be more angsty but I was fed anyway#so I am happy#more of this pls CG
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matthew patel + gideon graves nation how are we doing right now oh my god
#scott pilgrim takes off#ive just woke up and am already on episode 6#oh my god???? I did not expect this at all but i love it so much#we are getting FED!!!!!! we are actually winning#my pathetic blorbosā¦..#gideon (cough) gordon my beloved pathetic girlfriend
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okay so obviously the whole point of ESTD is that ice is unhappy because he cannot accept that he loves maverick because he must serve his country and at the end he realizes how stupid that is when maverick dies!! butā¦do you think that your ice and maverick could have ever been happy had maverick forced ice to talk about it earlier on? do you see any potential for them to live their lives not publicly but also not as a complete secret? a world where slider would have known ice was happy and seen what caused that (his love for maverick)?
maverick, venice Italy, 2002: um i š„ŗšš»šš» love you actually
ice: š³š¤Æš ok! I love you too letās make this work!
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ice, 2002: ok i think we should follow caroles orders and pull Bradleyās papers from the academy and also i am leaving you to get my second star because my career still comes first sry
maverick: i know we literally just codified our relationship but uh you suck i am breaking up with you forever fuck you
(relationship ends .)

#you guys have literally gotten this entire wip scene fed to you over the last two months so i can prove my point ahead of time i am so sry#when you get to this scene on ao3 itās gonna be two pages of āman ive already read this ā¹ļøā#so sorry for the spoilers guys#but i have a Point To Prove.#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#icemav#asks#edts notes#also i answered a similar question to this last month & i said then that i donāt think mav couldāve said it and had ice stay until he died#i think if you search up āfuck you navy firstā on my blog it should come up#boy wouldnāt it be nice to have a masterpost i could reference at times like these#no one told me putting together a master post would be so much fucking work#actually just search the word āexorbitantā lmao itās the first result#at the time of drafting this i am slightly buzzed and spent five minutes trying to make the pointing emojis white#someone else asked a similar question months ago⦠my answer is: āsometimes if you talk about how momentarily upset u r in a relationship#you end up breaking up lolā
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you donāt have to post this but i just want you to know i totally relate i rbed an ask game post today and got no asks :/ it sucks even if itās just a silly little tumblr game
Yeahhhhh :(( I'm glad I'm not alone, anon. This made me feel a bit better, so thank you <3
#I feel pretty lonely in general atm#and it's not fun when you try to make an attempt to get out of your shell and it just. Doesn't do anything.#I already feel weirdly desperate for attention when I reblog those#like it's one of those things that still make me feel weird for some reason#And it doesn't help when you feel like you don't get acknowledged#again im probably being super whiney rn but#i feel like im having trouble attracting interest? is that bad to say? idk :/#i just wanna talk about anything and i just have trouble finding ways to get people to engage ig#thats not to blame anyone at all. i just dont know how to get that :')#its just a weird thing to kinda feel like youre losing your footing like this#ughhhh sry i sound so insecure#but idk. i wanna talk about art and such. or get peoples opinions or questions.#but I just dont even want to reblog them bcs it makes me feel emptier than not reblogging#and you see other people's blogs and theyre getting a lot of asks and idk what to do in that situation#they deserve those asks and im very glad for them but like. am i doing smth wrong :/#my constant insecurity is that im being annoying. and unfortunately things like this just make me feel like people are fed up w me ig#SORRY AGAIN. its my blog i can complain ik that. but still. am i being whiney idk#catie.asks.
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the thing (well, one thing anyway) about chronic pain is how you'll have a day or half a day or even just a few hours that'll get you so close to just fucking wanting to end it all right then and there because you're just so tired of being in pain and it feeling like it'll never end and never get better, and your brain feels like it's on fire and you can't remember the last time you felt even just okay, much less fine or good.
and logically you know it'll probably be alright again in time, but the effort it takes to just make it through that moment is so exhausting that it just leaves you drained.
and it's not like you want to die, you just want the pain and misery to stop, and sometimes it feels like it never will. like you're just stuck on that endlessly-looping train track through hell with no stops to get off, and nothing will help you feel even minutely better at all.
#anyway. it's been a day so far and I have not been coping well today#just more migraine madness with a mean dizziness kick to it as has happened more and more often lately#and I didn't know if I'd be able to keep my pain meds down or if I would even be able to make it to lying down in time#nor how long I could lie down for before my neck would make it all worse again#I'm better now obviously but it was touch and go and it's not been the first time I've pondered if it's at all worth it#the taking meds every day to make sure I don't end up spiralling out of control from some mood episode#the taking more meds to try and keep my migraine in check when it seems as though it's just been getting worse#and like the meds are less and less effective (when I know I have zero alternatives bc of the meds I'm already on)#and I just get so tired. and fed up with it all. and I want to be hopeful and optimistic#but what am I doing it all for you know? is all this agony worth the few good days and moments#and logically I know the answer is yes. there is a lot more good in all those days than I can recall right now#but it's so hard to remember when I can barely open my eyes. barely get up. barely walk without being in pain#so I guess I just needed to get that out. no need to worry I'm not stupid and I'm far too stubborn to give up#I just wish the world would stop and quiet down for a bit so I could have a break. an actual one for once#a day in the life of..#about this gal
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