#and i also happened into a bunch of other parallels by accident

[eff-plays]

Wish people would stop tagging my BG3+shitpost things with Hira and Astarion as Durge x Astarion. Cuz no I did that myself. The parallels? I made them up in my head. Hira's bloodthirst and lowkey suicidal vibes? I did those all on my own. No canon or Bhaal needed. I'm just spicy like that with my own thoughts and headcanons.

[pachimation]

redrawing my very first chiscara comic/art i ever did for chscr day!!

old comic under the cut!!

lol a bunch of sappy semi serious stuff below bc i cant help but be a bit genuine about this ship today :’3

i cant possibly put into words how important this silly little ship and its community mean to me haha,,,, this comic was made in 2021 but i didnt really get serious about chscr until late 2022 after a bunch of pretty bad interpersonal stuff happened and i needed an outlet,, COINCIDENTALLY a certain someone was announced to be playable around then and i was already thought chscr was Pretty Neat™️ so i ended up diving headfirst into the ship. it also gave me a good excuse to work on more comics too!! i’d done a pretty big zhongven comic earlier that year in the summer, but in terms of lore there was only so much i could have worked with at the moment.

childe and scaramouche have that perfect combination of silliness and angst and violence that could be explored or expanded in so many ways and i love love love seeing other people’s interpretations of their dynamic and relationship. they’re so complex,,,,they’re narrative foils,,,they’re narrative parallels,,,they’re trans allegories,,,they’re flies in the spiderweb of the games lore,,,they’re my stupid little meow meows,,, they’re just two losers i want to see make out,,,

in a nutshell, they’re everything to me. well, i hope i get that kind of sentiment across in my own comics,,,,

and i cant get started on all the people ive met through chiscara or the way that having something i can call “my thing”, as in, the thing that i like and that i will spend a lot of time and effort (and money, but lets not talk about that) to surround myself with because it makes me smile. its stupid to say, but being a nerd about these two stupid guys who have never had a single canon onscreen interaction in some random game has made me a much happier and confident person that i could have ever imagined back in my freshman year of college,,, when i say i dont know who i’d be if i hadnt gotten into chiscara, i really do mean it lol

i’m actually surprised i’m making it to over a full year of regular-ishly making art, especially for the same game and ship! thats never happened before and my art has improved so much over this past year!! more than anything else, i’m happy! i get to be excited talking about these characters with my friends and i love to see art of them pop up on the tl. i make stickers of them and decorate my phonecase with them and have little figures of them in my room that i look at when im up late at night working on schoolwork. sometimes just the thought of finishing a comic or daydreaming about a scenario or seeing what my mutuals are up to are some of the few things getting me through a tough day.

,,,,so believe me when i say, to both childe and scara and to everyone else as obsessed with these pathic losers as i am, thank you! i’m having a lot of fun!!!

(also i just found out tumblrs copy/paste doesnt work on my ipad??? idk if this ends up legible i may or may not have deleted smth by accident and im not in a mood to proofread haha)

[glorious-spoon]

9-1-1 Season 7 Post-Mortem

Mostly because I want to put my thoughts in order. Full disclosure: I'm really not thrilled with a lot of the choices this season made, but I'm also not at the 'fuck this show I hate it now' level either. The primary, overarching issue, IMO, is that they tried to stuff a full season's worth of plot into ten episodes, and the pacing and emotional continuity suffered badly. And also there were some writing choices that were simply deranged (and hopefully would have been reworked had they not been laying down the tracks in front of the speeding train, so to speak).

(Cut for me rambling at length)

So: Bobby and Athena were largely really solidly written. The cruise ship disaster was great: campy and OTT, but in a fun way. Their marital issues and the eventual resolution felt like a natural continuation of issues they've had in the past. Bobby Begins 3.0 was a great episode other than the cartel element, which was some ill-considered racial stereotyping (I've said it before and I'll say it again: you could have had the antagonists in that episode be a bunch of angry locals threatening people for tresspassing on their property, and the whole thing would have been 100% less gross without actually changing much of the plot. Really felt like Tim was cribbing from the similar Lone Star arc, which was also lazy and racist). Amir was a fantastic character, and while I could have done without that last scene of him offering Bobby absolution, I feel like he was generally allowed to be both gracious and rightfully angry. The cop Athena stuff in the finale was... less great, but also to be expected. I would have liked much less of that and much more time spent at Bobby's bedside.

(I'm really sad about the house fire mostly because that was one of my favorite sets, but I do appreciate the poetry of the parallel, with Bobby actually managing to get his wife out this time. Though I do wonder where Harry was that night, lmao.)

Hen was similarly wonderful. I really liked getting to see her wrestle with the responsibility of being captain, and the fallout of the car accident scene. In a vacuum, I actually like Ortiz as a villain - a complicated one, with sympathetic motivations, but still ostentatiously cruel. Were it not for the fact that there are basically NO latine characters other than Eddie who aren't villains this season, it would have been great. ALAS.

Did not love the rescue dog/foster child parallel with Mara. Otherwise really loved getting to see her settle in with the Wilsons, and I'm really glad that we got to see Chim and Maddie take her in instead of leaving her at the group home by the end of the season. Really leaned into the found family element, and Chim taking care of his best friend's child in the same way that Mrs. Lee did for him.

CHIM! Chim my beloved. 'There Goes The Groom' is the one episode that I have basically no issues with at all. The hallucinatory trip through Los Angeles, wrestling with Doug's ghost, was gorgeous. Bringing back Kevin - also gorgeous. I loved that we see the Lees explicitly framed as his real family (and am spitefully glad that his bio dad was nowhere to be found. Fuck that guy.) Kenny continues to be, IMO, the best actor on this show. He killed it. We need so many more Chim-centric episodes, because they're always SO good. He can make both humor and pathos feel so natural and human. Give us more Chim!

And of course on to Buck's bisexual arc, which was... so painfully Buck, lmao. Full disclosure: I have a lot of trouble rewatching 7x04 and 7x05 because the secondhand embarrassment is just too much for me, but objectively it feels very right and in character for him. LOVED the first kiss scene, with his dawning realization of what's about to happen and his softly stunned joy afterward. His coming out scenes with both Maddie and Eddie were lovely and perfectly appropriate to both relationships. I really liked him taking the initiative to reach out to Tommy to apologize and ask for a second chance after he fucked up their first date. Loved Tommy showing up at the hospital after what was clearly a long, miserable shift.

Their date in the finale didn't really land for me mostly because of where it was placed in the episode; if they did something with the two of them after Buck spent the entire day at Bobby's bedside waiting to see if he was going to live, it would have felt a lot more natural to me to have them exhaustedly eating takeout on the couch or something instead of having a formal sit-down date with wine and place settings. Intentionally or not, that made it feel like they're still on Date Behavior with each other and despite some gestures toward emotional vulnerability, they're not quite there yet - as seen by Buck steering the conversation back to flirting and innuendo. My overall feeling on the relationship at this point is that it's cute, but I'm not seeing any real depth of feeling between them yet.

Buck and Eddie on the other hand - look, despite my many MANY issues with Eddie's plot this season, I loved how his relationship with Buck was written. I love the intimacy and familiarity of how they are together, I loved the way Eddie let himself lean on Buck, I loved how Buck is clearly positioned as an integral part of the Diaz family.

Unfortunately, that's really the only thing I loved about Eddie's plot this season. His relationship with Marisol was ultimately pointless; she was never fleshed out enough to feel like a real character, and we never even see the fallout of Eddie's cheating with regard to her; it's all Chris. The Kim stuff strained credulity, and also I never felt like he got any kind of emotional catharsis or resolution through it; he still hasn't really confronted any of his issues about Shannon, about their marriage and how it ended. That whole arc felt really wobbly in terms of tone, as well: using plot elements of a very famous psychological thriller without actually acknowledging any of the creepiness of it. I would have liked it to lean into that more especially with the scene where Kim dresses up as Shannon, an objectively creepy and unhinged thing to do.

The Diaz parents handled the Chris thing in a selfish and opportunistic way that felt both disappointing and inevitable. Hopefully that's going to be a hook for the next season and Eddie actually confronting them, but overall Eddie's plot this season really felt like they just tossed a bunch of balls up in the air and mostly failed to catch them.

Gerrard - look, I'm not that worried about Gerrard. I could have done without him, but ultimately he's going to stick around just long enough to make his inevitable defeat satisfying. At least, that's my hope.

[wildissylupus]

I, for one, would like to see how you'd make Emily into a chatacter both in canon and in Mirrorwatch, both in terms of lore for why she's fighting and her abilities.

In regards to canon I would keep her as a civilian, in the data logs it's very obvious that her character was being set up to be a window into civilian life during the invasion, which is good because we need that connection to the publics reactions. How human and Omnic relations are affected by the Invasion. There is also the obvious of making her and Moira related, add some complexity and knowledge to her character that not a lot of the characters wouldn't have. I would mainly characterize this as a dislike of her aunt but having more complicated feelings about the situation, possibly even make her entire family situation complicated? It would kinda explain her lack of connection outside of Tracer. Speaking of which, I would also have her have connections to other OW members that are not reliant on her being Lena's girlfriend (like her and Genji being friends cause I find their dynamic cute).

Another thing I would do is make her a very artsy person, not only because it opens the door to her character outside of Tracer, but it furthers the parallels between her and Amelie. Speaking of which, I would have history repeat itself here, I would have Emily be kidnapped by Talon at some point, I would have her put up a pretty good fight, and I would have her be rescued before Talon could even try to brainwash her, mainly because Widow wouldn't want someone else to go through that pain.

Also she's an absolute dork and is in a bunch of fandom spaces.

As for MW!Emily I'd keep all of what I just wrote the same, only changing when the accident with Lena happens. After Lena disappears and then reappears as a Talon agent, Emily is devastated. She's also angry, angry that Overwatch didn't try more, angry that they aren't even trying to help her now even though what's happening is their fault. So she steals some Overwatch tech, mainly some of her Aunt Moira's tech. She then goes on the hunt, both for Lena herself and a way to fully help her with her chronal dissociation. I like to think she's more of a neutral force.

Not on Talon or Overwatch's side, sometimes her motivations align more with one side or the other but she's usually on her own. Though as a future plot point I could see her being directed to MW!Junkertown by either MW!Sombra or MW!Cassidy, where she meets MW!Winston and finally gets not only the chronal accelerator (my hc is that MW!Tracer is using a modified chronal anchor, which was a prototype of the chronal accelerator in canon, which also makes MW!Lena's state a lot more unstable) but also that separate chronal accelerator that allows Lena to remain in the present with her being physically separate from her accelerator.

[shootingcookielover]

Introducing: Jay!! My ducktales oc!! (If it wasn't blatantly obvious lmao)

Do you want to know more about them? No? Too bad!

Jay, aka January was the first ever clone F.O.W.L. created. However, due to a lab accident, Jay ended up not only with scrooge's DNA, but also Bradford's. Deeming the clone a "failure", Heron drops the created baby off at an orphanage.

(Bradford becomes enraged when he later learns of this - a child with his and scrooge mcduck's dna?? Just out there??? Has Heron no concept how problematic that could shake out to be???)

Jay spends the first 9 years of their life kinda bouncing from foster home to foster home (kinda developing a bit of a thing abt people seeing them eat. Because of how their beak is a bit weirdly aligned, they can't eat quite the same as most others, and people stare.). But eventually they scrape together enough resources for like, one of those online-dna testing kits that spit out who you're related to.

Turns out their parents are Scrooge McDuck!!! (And some random vulture guy? Weird)

Thus, Jay sets out to become an adventurer like their dad, to meet him one day on their adventures!

Except, first adventure they immediately get trapped in a parallel, kind of very hellish dimension. They get out after three years, but they're pretty traumatized - and pretty much pu off of adventuring forever.

(Though they do find and keep a magic amulet in [hell dimension] that they use to cast spells. Mostly teleportation spells, really.)

Deciding they don't really want to meet a guy who's whole schtick is adventuring, they instead begin their search for dad#2, that vulture guy.

They find out he works for scrooge mcdad (of course he does) but don't judge him too harshly yet. From what they can find online (public libraries for the win!) the guy doesn't really... Do anything. Let alone go on adventures.

So Jay decides to find out where he lives and well, just kinda shows up at his door.

Much surprise is had, it's not quite the family reunion Jay was hoping for but they haven't been kicked out so they count it as a win.

Staying with their dad is pretty great, actually. He even hires a private tutor for homeschooling, since Jay missed 3 years of school and has a lot of catching up to do.

(they definitely hoard food in their room somewhere, just in case. They also have a bug-out bag ready at any given time. Just in case.)

Turns out, Dadford doesn't only also hate adventuring with a passion - he has a whole secret organization to take over the world and stop all adventuring! Forever!

(Jay found a secret stash of files on the computer they use for video games.)

Thus, at the ripe age of 13 they become the youngest FOWL agent ever!

And because they are kind of a big security risk now that they know, they get moved out to live in the outpost at the library of Alexandria instead, together with a bunch of the villains Dadford recruited.

(including Phantom Blot who Jay has an ongoing rivalry with just because they use magic sometimes lol)

(they and the villains play mario kart/party together on sundays)

Eventually, (three years later) season 1 happens and seeing the mcduck family successfully overcome the rift that della's absence left, dadford decides to put one of his better pawns into play.

Through some posturing, magic pyrotechnics and a fake mystical artefact, Jay gets planted into the mcduck family as scrooge's "magic child/clone".

(this happens during the episode "The Depths of Cousin Fethry", while huey and dewey are out meeting their cousin, scrooge, louie and webby go to find an invaluable treasure and return with Jay. Cue scrooge introducing Jay as his kid and Huey and Dewey going "wtf did we miss")

They go along on an adventure or two, mainly because saying "I hate adventuring and I don't want to do it because I was traumatized and hate it" doesn't make sense for someone who was just created from an ancient magic artefact. But after a couple adventures they can finally just put their foot down and stay home. It's chill.

They draw sometimes, do a few commissions.

Scrooge wants to bond with them so they teach him how to play video games and they watch some shows together.

Eventually, the last adventure rolls around.

At the point where Webby pretends to be June and kidnaps... Herself (yknow what part i mean. Probably) Jay comes with the clones, obviously shocking Webby.

But they make it to the library without any particular incident - except Huey getting discovered, obviously.

Jay stays behind to "escort June and Webby". They've very much realized the switcheroo that Webby pulled and use their (thus far mostly benign) magic to switcheroo back.

They nod to June, explaining that they didn't say anything earlier so that Director Dad doesn't get on her case too bad about "failing".

After that, Jay kinda just goes off to hang out a bit. Drink some pep. Chill.

On the way to Webby's cell, she wakes up and takes out June. (Because of course she does. She's Webby.)

Cue the rest of the finale.

Right up until Dadford is fighting McDuck and his fam. Because now, he calls Jay forward, who kinda immobilizes the fam with their magic for a bit.

Dadford throws his employees into the death pit, but oh shock! He picks up to throw Jay in as well.

And he does. He does throw them in.

Luckily, Jay is a master at magical teleportation and nobody realizes they weren't, in fact, erased from existence.

Bla bla bla, scrooge signs the papyrus, "family is the greatest adventure of all", boom the other vilalins show up to defeat dadford once and for all.

But what's this? It's Jay, with a magical barrier, protecting her dad from being turned into a non-sentient vulture!

They teleport themself and Dadford outta there.

At this point they're assuming they got thrown in the pit as a sort of surprise/back up, to make everyone think FOWL was already defeated when they were still there and alive. Yknow, a backup plan.

They live on the street for a bit, but Jay manages to get a job, securing the two of them an aprtment.

Dadford doesn't rlly come out of his room for a while.

Jay gets it; having ur thirty year-long plan derailed like that couldn't be, yknow, pleasant.

At some point, Louie finds them at their job and basically blackmails them into helping him out during adventures. (They kinda hide in his shadow, basically/louie summons them, so when something particularly dangerous happens they can subtly magic it away.)

Dadford eventually emerges from his room and drops the bombshell we all already knew: he very much did intend to kill Jay that day.

Jay is kinda shellshocked. They sort of robotically just return to their routine; go to work.

Louie summons them to deal with an adventure again, and wouldn't u know it? Its an adventure in that hell dimension that Jay got stuck in as a kid.

This, coupled with the revelation that one of their dads tried to kill them, kinda makes them very uncareful. They get revealed to the rest of the family but manage to get everyone out of there.

They reveal that Louie's been blackmailing them and the fact dadford tried to actually kill them sorta spills out in the same, emotionally charged rant and to their surprise scrooge offers to allow them back in the mansion, despite everything.

Jay hesitantly accepts, but mentions that they would like to keep working their current job. This is agreeable to everyone.

Jay returns to their apartment later, under the cover of "going to work" and find dadford packing his things.

They're like, what r u doing? Where would u even go?

And he's like, idk, i'll dip into my grandma's account or smth, its not like u want me here anymore, what with the attempted murder.

And Jay's like, I didn't say that.

Stunned silence.

So anyway, Jay sighs and tells dadford he's allowed to stay at the apartment and that Jay will stay at the manor again.

This is how far ive gotten. If u have any ideas/thoughts/complaints, drop 'em somewhere i can see 'em!

If anyone's even read this far lol.

If u have, have a virtual cookie, you've earned it🍪

[abugeatbugworld]

Falling, Part One

part two

written with my friend @whiteswarmart in mind. this first part is more dot and flik-centric, but don't worry, you'll see more of dim in part two <3

also included a little nod to @little-piojo's headcanon about flik's hands because i just love that 🥺

“So when did you start flying?”

All eyes are on Dot as everyone waits for her to answer Flik’s question. She loves being in the spotlight, especially when her audience is a bunch of performers.

“Well,” she begins, spreading her fingers in a dramatic flourish. “The grasshoppers came to get their food and Hopper wasn’t happy, so me and the Blueberries went to hide in the clubhouse. That’s when I heard two of them talking about the plan to squish my mom, so I decided to go get help. But when I left, I ran into…into…”

Her pause is broken by a muffled cry from P.T. Flea, who hangs from the ceiling in a cocoon of Rosie’s web. Dot swallows, kneading her hands together as she tries to form her jumbled pieces of memory into a coherent story. The room is suddenly too hot and too quiet.

What was the question again? ‘When did you start flying?’

When I had to, or else I would have died.

Flik sees it immediately, the panic Dot can hide from everyone but him. A crease appears in his temple. He crosses through the sea of circus bugs surrounding her, then kneels down so their pupils are parallel and folds her hands into his. She can feel the calluses on his palms, battle scars from late nights in his workshop.

“Dot, what’s wrong?” he whispers, like they’re the only two in this crowded wagon. “What happened?”

What happened?

She remembers running without knowing where she was going or who she was going to. She just knows that she has to tell someone else the words she wasn’t supposed to hear. They’re going to kill my mom.

Flik’s name has barely crossed her mind when she slams into a leg that wasn’t there before. Dot looks up into the eyes of the monster that has visited her dreams every night since the day she came so close she could feel the hot breath on her face and see his jagged teeth gleaming with spit. And here she is again, feeling the breath and seeing the spit dangling above her, and this time Flik is not here but Hopper isn’t either. There are no fingers wrapped around her middle or spiked nails pressing into her side, anchoring her within reach of those teeth.

So she runs.

The monster makes a grab for her and misses as she darts between the legs blocking her path. Everything after this moment blurs together. She remembers her heart beating loud in her antennae, her breath slicing her chest like cactus needles with every step. She remembers gray and green and a long slide down a blade of grass.

At some point during their chase Dot hurts the monster. She doesn’t know how it happened, but she hears his screams behind her and finds herself feeling a little bit sorry even as she keeps running.

Dot suddenly becomes aware of Flik’s eyes on her as he rubs the smallest of circles into the flesh beneath her knuckles. When did her hands start to shake?

The other bugs are watching her too, unsure how to help something that a joke or magic trick can’t fix. They have never seen middle-of-the-night, post-bad-dream Dot. They have never held her to their chest while she sobs herself back to a sleep that will only wake the nightmares up again.

But Flik has. He knows this Dot well.

“Take your time, Dot,” he murmurs, lifting his finger to catch a tear she hadn’t realized was falling. “Tell me about the monsters.”

She’s stuck at the edge of that cliff, staring down at the fog hiding the cracked riverbed miles below her. It’s the place where she watched Flik sail away on a dandelion, cheering him on even as her heart sank because she knew he would be too far away to fight off the nightmares. It’s the same place she sailed away on her own dandelion, only this was an accident and it almost carried her right into the mouth of a big red monster with wings that worked.

And now she’s here again and a different monster is coming and she’s pumping her wings and pleading with them to work and then her toes leave the ground and maybe just maybe she’s really going to fly this time —

— and then Dot hears the sound she hears every night in her dreams and the monster is here and he’s reaching for her and her foot is slipping and then she’s

falling

falling

falling.

Dot tries to remind herself the monster doesn’t win this time. The fact that she’s here is proof that her story ends in flight.

But right now, all she can remember is the fall.

“It was Thumper,” she finally says, staring down at her toes. Flik’s grip on her hands tightens. “He chased me and pushed me off the cliff.”

There’s a collective gasp from the bugs around them, punctuated by a roar that shakes the cardboard walls. P.T.’s cocoon swings wildly from the ceiling. Everyone turns to see Dim, who until this point has been trailing quietly behind the wagon, stamping his feet and tossing his head with rage.

“Nobody pushes my little sister off a cliff,” he snarls.

Dot giggles at this. She then turns back to Flik, who releases one of her hands so he can cup her cheek in his. The look in his eyes breaks her heart. She leans into his palm and lets another tear fall, hearing the words he doesn’t say.

I’m sorry I wasn’t there to keep you safe.

Dot reaches her own hand out and spreads her fingers across his cheek so they mirror each other. He smiles at this, and she smiles back.

“You can’t save me from all the monsters, Flik,” she says. “And besides…”

She leaps into the air, wings buzzing gloriously behind her as she floats above the proud gazes of her friends.

“This one taught me how to fly.”

Flik laughs for the first time since Dot got here. She’d forgotten how much she loved that sound.

“He sure did,” he says, then reaches his hands towards her. She tumbles safely into his arms and he carries her over to the yellow stick that lines that wall of the wagon, which Manny informed her is something called a “pen-sill” that humans use to write with. They sit down, Dot nestling comfortably into his lap.

The circus bugs seem to sense that this is a private moment. Francis clears his throat and mentions something about checking on a loose wheel. Heimlich rubs his stomach and declares that if he doesn’t find some leaves to eat soon he’s going to faint on the spot. The rest of them come up with various excuses to vacate the wagon, and soon the two ants are the only ones left.

Except for P.T., of course.

It’s quiet for a few minutes. Dot rests her head against Flik’s chest, suddenly aware of how tired she is. They have a long day of traveling ahead if they want to make it back to the anthill by nightfall, and now that their plans are made there isn’t much to do except sleep and wait.

Dot’s eyelids are just starting to flutter when she feels a soft tap on her nose. She looks up to see Flik smiling down at her. “You’re the toughest little seed I’ve ever met, you know that?”

She raises her eyebrows. “Don’t you mean rock?”

He chuckles. “Touché.” 

They turn to look at the pebble she’d found earlier that evening, a reminder to them both that growth comes slowly. Afterwards they’d tried to explain the metaphor to the confused circus bugs, but they were too hung up on the rock to see the bigger picture.

That was okay with Dot. It took her a while, too. And she kind of likes that it’s her and Flik’s secret.

Flik clears his throat and she turns back to him. He jerks his head towards the wagon’s opening, where Dim is still following behind them. The beetle’s eyes are narrowed at the ground and he’s muttering angrily to himself. Rosie is perched on the crown of his head, speaking softly into his antennae and stroking the tip of his nose.

“Maybe you should go talk to him,” Flik murmurs. “Before he decides to turn around and try to take on the whole grasshopper gang himself.”

[demetriandelibinaryboyfriends]

We You were staying in Paris To get away from your parents And I thought, "Wow If I could take this in a shot right now I don't think that we could work this out" Out on the terrace I don't know if it's fair, but I thought "How could I let you fall by yourself While I'm wasted with someone else?"

If we go down, then we go down together They'll say you could do anything They'll say that I was clever If we go down, then we go down together We'll get away with everything Let's show them we are better

We You were staying in Paris To get away from your parents You look so proud Standing there with a frown and a cigarette Posting pictures of yourself on the internet Out on the terrace We You breathe in the air of this small town On our own, cutting class for the thrill of it Getting drunk on the past, we were livin' in

If we go down, then we go down together They'll say you could do anything They'll say that I was clever If we go down, then we go down together We'll get away with everything Let's show them we are better

***

@karatecaulfield pspspsps

Hiiiiii it's me, I'm posting again! ^^; I couldn't help but want to pregame a bit for the August CK femslash event, and I legit just have a bunch of YasMoon moodboards lying around that I haven't had the chance to post yet ^^; I've been meaning to submit this bad boy all summer, since I wanted to do it during the actual S2 period where Yasmine was feasibly still in Paris. Pretty sure she was all the way through July, so...it still works, I think?

This goes with this and this, btw! I always wanted so badly to know what happened between Yas and Moon in S2, and how they ended up making up by the beginning of S3. Like!!! They were on horrible terms when they last interacted in 1x09!!! What happened to make them decide to mend fences!!!

(Well I mean obviously they were gay for each other, yes, but I want to know the specifics of it aksjduifhukb)

I really get so much mileage out of the "Yasmine has the same bikini" scene that it's borderline disgraceful. It's just so wild to me that Moon stalking Yasmine's instragram is the only proof whatsoever we have of Yasmine's existence during S2. Like if you started watching the show at S2, literally your only impression of Yas would be "hot blonde girl who has the same bikini as Hawk's girlfriend (sus) and whose chest we see Hawk's girlfriend ZOOMING IN ON (even more sus)." All you would know of this character is "girl no one else likes but who Moon is simping for." Like excuse me!!!

And from Yasmine's side, it's super gay, too??? Like the fact that she's wearing the same bikini as Moon for a public internet photo doesn't feel like an accident--especially since someone as hyperfemme and rich as Yasmine probably has like. A detailed outfit calendar that doesn't leave any room for slip-ups. So I'd guess it's either out of spite ("hey bitch remember how you sided with the losers and freaks over me??? Now I'm wearing your look better than you") or as a way to guilt-trip Moon ("remember when we got those adorable matching best friend swimsuits??? but then you stabbed me in the back and ruined our friendship and now we're not besties anymore :( But I can still remind you of when we were so you feel bad about it!"). Either way, I definitely think Yasmine wanted Moon to see that photo. Like this is some lesbian mind game shit I'm sorry aksjndhkuygbhy

Even just from this one little bit, it seems to me like Yasmine and Moon just...can't really let each other go, even after they've severed ties and are (presumably) no longer in each other's lives. Moon is creeping around on Yasmine's socials, while Yasmine is most likely intentionally wearing a swimsuit Moon also has to get a rise out of her. (Something something another one to the add to the list of Elimetri parallels lol) Would guess Moon has some lingering guilt about not defending Yasmine after the wedgie situation (like she was horrified--she's the only person not laughing!), while Yasmine has lingering feelings of resentment/betrayal that Moon chose Hawk and co. over her.

Betting they stalked each other's social media all summer long. Like Moon was constantly making fun of Yasmine's fashion choices and trying to convince everyone (and herself) she was So Totally Better Off Without Her and Totally Doesn't Miss Her Or Anything but like...girl. If you roasting Yasmine about having the same bikini as you involves you zooming in on her boobs just to make sure, then idk what to tell you???? (No but I will seriously never be over that O_____O)

And as for Yasmine...we don't have as much to go off of irt what she was doing in France, but The Bathing Suit Incident and her crawling back to Moon literally as soon as school started indicates that she like. Definitely wasn't as done with her "backstabbing" bestie as she told herself she was. I'd bet money she spent that whole summer being jealous as fuck of Eli. Just prowling through his and Moon's insta pictures together like "this stupid blue-haired douchebag, what's he got that I don't??? >:( Fucking karate??? Tattoos??? Lame >:( How dare he steal my secret girlfriend >:( How dare he show her off like arm candy >:( Even though I wouldn't have the guts to openly date her anyways >:( I bet he can't even eat a girl out and smell like roses doing it >:( Can I kill him a little bit >:(" Like I'll bet the girl was fucking SEETHING and I love that for her. (And then he wrecks her science group project because he was mad jelly Demetri was talking to her??? It's a wonder they ever became friends XD) Like I love the idea of Yasmine interacting with this dude all of once and then just hating the shit out of him immediately for stealing her girl, and Eli just??? Has no idea??? Like Yasmine Nolastname is sending enough hatred overseas to boil the ocean into nothing and Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz is none the wiser, busy performing heterosexuality with the girl he has all of zilch in common with and frantically hiding his gay little crush on Demetri XD One-sided rivalry for the ages, AND IF NO ONE WILL WRITE ABOUT IT I WILL

Actually no it's not one-sided it's just that Yasmine thinks they're fighting over Moon and Hawk thinks they're fighting over Demetri aksjdhukghfduy

It's fr like that one Endgame meme tho, because Hawk lowkey forgets who Yasmine is during S2 XD

Yasmine: You took EVERYTHING from me!!! Hawk: I don't even know who you are...

ANYWAYS "Paris" by the Chainsmokers is about Moon lowkey pining for Yasmine while she's in France and reminiscing on all the good times they had while they were still best friends and kind of regretting not being in Yas's corner when she needed her. It's true, Moon told me herself! Sorry, I don't make the rules :3

(Btw Moon's Gay Yearning gives me life and I will die on the hill that this Gay Yearning is 1000% mutual and Yasmine is just dumb and super repressed akasdjhliuhfk)

Kinda on the fence about if I HC Yasmine as a cigarette smoker or not. Part of me thinks she'd do it to look "cool" and "edgy" and "counterculture" without...really having to do much else in that department XD But the other part of me thinks she'd violently reject anything that might make her smell questionable, and would just embrace the "cool girl" aesthetics of the whole thing. Like Augustus Waters-style put-a-cigarette-in-your-mouth-but-never-light-it type bullshit XD That seems more her Vibe, since I feel like homegirl would haaaaate the taste of cigs.

Anyways y'all better get ready because this femslash event is gonna get me INSANE about these two >:3 Like I'm gonna probably get super ambitious and start more one-shots than I can feasibly finish and get stressed but best believe I will enjoy EVERY MINUTE of it

As always, pic credits available upon request!

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

answered ask under the cut, but spoilers for (idk a pla fic series that they didn't name and i've never seen), and also me being kind of a bitch. you are warned.

[ Anonymous: That is... really weird that you said that, because that fic series I mentioned *does* have two heroes, as learned by the mc via Vessa, who came after them, but it was still widely known at that point that there had been two. You've said you don't read much pla fic, so I'm pretty sure you've never read the series, which makes that a strange coincidence!

Spoilers for it, since you've said you don't mind those but for anyone who does, but Vessa says that likely the reason for there only being one hero in recent tellings, some 1000 years after the fact, was because the second hero became something of a "villain" afterward. Only she did it to send the other one, who was a faller, home. Arceus had kind of broken the world (on accident, it's implied), and when confronted by the two heroes and the ten soon-to-be nobles, it fixed things and left. But the faller hero had no way back to their own time and place, so the other hero purposefully broke things again. Not as bad as before, but it was still bad. That rift that they opened seems to have caused a bunch of other, much smaller rifts to open and close all over the place, similar to the distortion bubbles but not nearly as dramatic, which people seeking power took advantage of, once they learned they could, seeing as the second hero had done it. Which basically tore things apart and caused everyone to have to flee. Which is why the only things left of it are ruins and the two temples, and the only people are two small settlements with no apparent agriculture. Everyone else died or fled, and people only started coming back to their homeland not like recently-recently, but historically recently. The author goes kind of based on stuff from those Old Verse poems, and the small bits that Vessa gives you, as well as some other things I think, to help with their world building. ]

uh huh yeah the old verses. those things i definitely both know and care about and treat as canon and which are definitely not the most egregious example of me throwing pieces of pla canon into the trash. yep.

i'm ngl this is the main reason i don't like ppl going "oh hey that fic pitch/piece of analysis you just posted was already done somewhere else" cause it's like. well now i can't use this myself without feeling like i'm stealing, or like ppl are gonna assume i'm doing that. especially annoying when it's a bit of analysis/canon extrapolation that i don't even think is hard to come up with in isolation, cause it's not even that other person's Proprietary Idea, that's like original to them, they just happen to be the first/most well known/the one known by the specific person talking to me. like i'm sure this other fic is great and all but like i said in that post, i feel like "two heroes" is just something that's arguably implied, albeit maybe unintentionally, by the existence of more nobles than can fit in a pokemon team, specifically ten, and the ongoing diamond/pearl parallelism.

like i don't think any of my ideas are particularly unique or special, if anything my only distinction is being early to the jump (gestures vaguely at dr analysis), i just would prefer to keep them Mine when i write about them. yanno. it's not like i'm gonna get fined for plagiarism now or anything it's just like, annoying to me. idk the fic sounds fine i guess, i've never read it, and probably will never read it bc it sounds fairly convoluted and like it does too much justification legwork for my tastes, but now i have to have the plot of it hanging over me if i ever write two heroes/ongoing space-time distortion/vessa involvement/etc. the last bit being especially annoying bc i'm literally doing that right now and now it doesn't feel like Mine anymore, because someone else told me about it.

idk i'm just complaining at you i guess, sorry. this just frustrates me is all. i should probably put a disclaimer or warning somewhere but it's not like people read blog descriptions, or even the description of the askbox anymore, since the new blog viewer lets you bypass that now. ugh.

[h0ney-letters]

hi

About me (kinda)

Age: 24

Pronouns: she/her

Main blog: @h0neyfreak

Genre/style: literary fiction, speculative fiction, creative nonfiction, flash fiction, poetry. I would also love to one day write a themed cozy mystery series under a pen name that sounds so fun.

Published?: no, not sure if I want to or if I just want to write for fun. I’ll probably submit things to some journals eventually and maybe self-publish if I ever write anything longer

Other hobbies/interests: knitting, drawing (traditional and digital), painting (oils mostly), ttrpgs (currently DMing a MOTW campaign), and I’m a casual Formula 1 fan

cw tags: I’ll always tag explicit depictions of rape, gore, and violence as “#cw: [subject]”

(Some of my) favorite books:

Madness is Better than Defeat by Ned Beauman

The Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan

Series of Unfortunate Events series by Lemony Snicket

The Giver by Lois Lowry

Piranesi by Susanna Clarke

American Gods by Neil Gaiman

Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky (but only the Constance Garnett translation)

The Letters of Vincent Van Gogh

Who is Maud Dixon? by Alexandra Andrews

Catch-22 by Joseph Heller

Current wips (updated monthly) (current ver. Oct 2023):

Long work 1: Every Reason Why. A novel following a waitress as she gets into an abusive relationship interwoven with anecdotes from her life before her abuser (going back to childhood) building two parallel stories. ~10k words at time of posting.

Long work 2: [untitled] A group of friends meet at summer camp and ~something bad~ happens. Follows them through adulthood as the bad thing unravels/becomes clear. Currently just a vague idea with some bulleted lists and snippets. Has not left the notes app.

Short work 1: What Violence? A short surreal body horror story about a young girl who gets stabbed in the chest with a knife and discovers it does not hurt or bleed the way it should. She searches for someone to bring her to a doctor to give her stitches but struggles to explain what’s going on. Based on a dream I had. ~300 words at the moment.

Short work 2: He Called Me Something Bad. A young girl kills her teenage step brother (or woman kills stepson, still sorting it out) in what appears to be an accident. The social worker/detective interviewing her starts to realize that it was not An Accident. Currently in the notes app/ideas phase. Unclear if it will make it out.

Tag list (mostly for my own reference/benefit)

#ref -> helpful lists, words, resources etc.

#guides -> kind of like ref but more to collect posts about how to write specific rules/identities of characters or settings

#inspo -> quotes, art, snippets, prompts and other things that make me want to write

#wip -> I’m a slut for a good Pinterest board/Spotify playlist/other way to outline ideas without having to sit down and write so that stuff will go here. Along with any snippets

#ocs -> any stuff about my characters. idk how much I’ll use this one because I mostly see people making OC content for genre fiction and it feels weird to make stuff for short stories and kinda disjointed literary fiction. But I also might be a weird little freak (likely) who needs to get over herself (extremely likely)

#tips -> useful info about the writing process, publishing, software, etc

#my work -> anything I write myself. I can’t pick a title to save my life so tagging by title won’t work

#good stuff -> writing by other people that I love and want to come back to and read a bunch because it is good

#review -> book/story/essay reviews. Goodreads stresses me out but I want some way to catalogue what I read now that I’ve graduated and have time for it. Also reviewing stuff helps me figure out what I want my own writing to sound and feel like.

[xminxvs]

well breathe in, he breathed in a parallel breath with ángel. it was lingering between them, he felt something down in his gut which didn't happen very often for ollie since his accident. back in the day, ollie fell in love like once a day it seemed. though ollie did have the tendency to read into things wrongly and this could be one of those times again. his eyes hadn't left ángel as if he was the only person in the room, despite the number of bodies in this place. his eye trained on him and him alone, noticing how his jaw tightened every now and then. as if biting his tongue. ❝ so, you like me to keep this costume, especially for you ? ❞ he lightly baiting him. never was he good at flirting hence why he goes to lakeyn, she'll teach him the ways. but for now, he was on his own. certainly making a fool of himself for being so obvious. but he could blame it on the atmosphere for being so bold for being desperately obvious. ❝ please, try not to burn anything down. we can always play pretend if you like ? ❞

ollie wasn't being as cool as ángel, he was showing his cards and laying them out for the other. fingers curled in the sheer material, easily holding the fabric in a bunch to be able to see him. his own breath caught, ángel is beautiful... to put it in simple terms. he was possibly one of the prettiest people ollie had ever seen. but somehow, he exhaled out normally not a hint of any nerves that had begun to bubble. ❝ i did. ❞ he bit his own tongue from saying it feels like the first time i have seen you. ❝ do i get a prize ? ❞ he teased, seeing how far he can take it without over-stepping. teasingly tapping his cheek, a not so subtle hint. as if the game will draw how far he can go. ❝ it's weird but in a cool way. ❞ he finished the sentence for the other even if that wasn't what the other was thinking, just filling the void for them. as he held the fruit in his hand, his knuckle did lightly stroke over the exposed skin. to comfort.

he stole that moment. before the fabric billowed down, he stole that look on ángel's face for himself. cute. dullness of the textile robbed ollie of any inkling, this angle gave him nothing but shadows though he wasn't mad about it. it gave his features more definition, shadows defined the structure of his jaw and the curve of his lips looked more full. kissable. and at the darting of his tongue, his eyes trained on the tip of his tongue and he found himself tracing his own lips. ❝ gross. slightly enlightening, i guess ? ❞ yet he gave an interested nod for him to keep going on if he liked.

there is a yearning that's simmering for ángel in the pit of his stomach. wonders if this could go further if he plays his cards right. but was he reading into this story further than he should. he also didn't want this to come to an end, he was greedy that way. hence why he let ángel ramble on and on but when he got a quiet on him, ollie raised a curious brow. had he pushed too far ? he smiled softly. ❝ unless you don't want me to kiss you. ❞

something had settled in the breath of space between them. but ángel couldn't be certain what it was. encounters like this were few and far between. much of his days were spent working. or preparing to work. while much of the rest had been spent upon his hobby. on ridding his mind of thoughts that did not need to linger. so this ... whatever it might be ... was new to him. and a voice in the back of his mind urged him to tread carefully. but his eyes had hardly left oliver. as they seemed to catch most of the other's movements in the dim lighting. " it'd be quite the waste to get rid of it , " he mused idly. as if there were no possible space for an underlying meaning. and the words that parted his lips. much like the encounter altogether. did not happen often. ángel didn't often know what to do in this circumstances. other than ramble to the point of swallowing his words back. and maybe that's why he couldn't help the sudden, yet soft, laugh that slipped forth. before his mouth seemingly went dry.

... to get my attention .

had that been what ángel were hinting at ? and if so, had he really been that obvious ? if he recalled correctly ( mostly from those high school drama movies ), wasn't the point to play hard to get ? his lips pressed together. teeth tucked into them. before they rolled together. ángel could do this. he could play it cool. he could seem like his heart wasn't pounding in his ears at the moment. " in case i do burn anything down, you can surprise me with the heroic save . "

surely that had been playing it cool. and ángel had been proud of himself. perhaps could have patted himself on the back. had his attention not boiled down to the fingers that held the fabric of his costume. that lifted it up. a movement that had ángel's breath caught within his throat. held there until oliver's head tilted, until the words had been spoken. and the breath released itself, as his lips curled to match the smile that greeted him. " you found me . " as if it had been some game. the boy hidden beneath the veil. and there was a giddiness as if it truly were. as if he had been impatiently waiting for the moment to happen. " yeah, it's ... " words lost to the autumn breeze. as both words and breath found themselves halted within his throat. caught by the press of knuckles to his bare flesh. a warmth and chill fought for dominance across his flesh. and it was maddening.

lost for a moment. before the fabric of his ' outfit ' had been lowered once more. returned to its place against the flush of his skin. to obscure flesh under the glow of the moon. he could do this, he could play it cool. that is, until his gaze caught the brief movement. how could he not have, when his gaze had hardly wavered ? and perhaps it were contagious. like a cough. for his own lips pressed together. before his tongue moved between them. quick, brief ; until words hard that tongue pressed to his teeth. before the smile nearly split his features in half. " so ... they were definitely all family. in most stories, at least. but i think historians didn't quite like the implications. because persephone was the daughter of zeus. and demeter, who was the sister of zeus. and hades. who wanted to marry persephone so profoundly, was also zeus' brother. you know. so that made him her uncle . "

the words had been only a taste of where ángel's mind could wander. of how much information he could relent to the other. for in his mind, the family tree had been drawn. with its many entangled branches. and he could follow each one. discover where the discrepancies had been. but a part of him still wondered. whether he ought to just keep his lips pressed together. to swallow down those words of otherwise random knowledge. that is ... until oliver explained how he could, if he wanted to, make ángel stop. easily. to silence the rambling from his tongue. and in that moment, he seemed to have already done so. but soon his lips parted, and the soft ... " oh ? " came out of its own accord .

[dylanndr]

Izzy and Edward: did they or didn't they?

I'm assuming we'll find out more about their history in S2, and I'm sure the writers will have some surprises in store for us on that front, but based on the info we have now my read is that they probably did not, or not much.

The title of episode 4, "Discomfort in a Married State," is based on a quote from Stede regarding his arranged heterosexual marriage, but it also applies to Izzy and Edward. I could easily do a whole entire post about the parallels between the two relationships, how this episode structures them as foils, but for this I'll focus on the kind of emotional and sexual dynamic Izzy and Edward have going on.

They aren't literal mates in the "if you know what I mean" sense (and same-sex marriages did happen at sea; I think if they'd had that level of formal arrangement Izzy wouldn't shut up about it), but it's also not an accident that Izzy is the only one with a title besides Captains Blackbeard and Stede. Who's the bosun? Who knows! Is there a coxswain? A quartermaster? Ehn. But there is absolutely a First Mate, and he's not about to let you forget that fact. Given that the language he uses to describe their relationship is entirely framed in professional terms, his job functions as a proxy for marriage.

In that context, Izzy's "my fucking resignation" speech is basically him saying "I want a divorce." Izzy and Edward are completely out of sync, making each other miserable, unable to communicate despite having worked closely together for years. There's little reason to think they've ever been happy around each other, and Edward confirms that later when it slowly dawns on him that Stede makes him happy, like it's something he's never experienced before.

Izzy berates Edward for being "unpleasant," an oddly soft choice of invective given how vicious Izzy can be. Beyond being a li'l bit pot/kettle, it does imply that there was a past where Izzy DID find Edward to be pleasant company. They had fun together of some sort, but it seems like if that fun were of a physically intimate nature, Izzy might have reached for a different adjective there, even if it doesn't fully admit to the sexual undertones. "Cold" or "distant" might have worked in that capacity. But "unpleasant"? Since when is a notorious pirate captain supposed to be pleasant?

In a homosocial environment where you have a bunch of men hooking up with each other for sexual gratification, but where the spectre of internalized homophobia still haunts the proceedings, there's a short list of acceptable ways to get off without it meaning that you're, you know, THAT WAY. Typically, the Approved List includes acts like frottage and mutual masturbation, where the deed can be done without going face to face, and the power dynamic is more or less equal. Anal or oral sex both imply (in this context) that one man is subservient to the other, and as such those acts are typically not approved UNLESS there is an actual power imbalance to back it up: higher ranking older man/lower ranking younger man. Kissing is pretty much never okay because it's perceived to be about romance rather than sex, and romance makes you a namby-pamby ponce. I have a longer post about that dynamic here, but for this post let's consider what we know for a fact about Edward and how it fits into this worldview.

He's unequivocally had sex with other men, including Calico Jack on more than one occasion ("dalliances" plural). Jack and Blackie served together under Hornigold, which suggests they were of more or less equal status, and therefore almost certainly stuck to the frottage/mutual masturbation menu. Not a chance in hell they kissed. In fact, the awkwardness of Edward's kiss with Stede suggests to me he has also been holding in some of that same internalized homophobia that Izzy struggles with: he fucks, but kissing is not something Edward's done enough to be suave about it.

Izzy, meanwhile, is so desperate to kiss someone he almost makes out with Lucius in front of other people before he checks himself. (I'm just going to keep posting this screenshot forever.) Izzy is even more invested in the prescribed homosocial order than Edward is, but if Edward had EVER tried to smooch him, Izzy would fall back on "it's fine because he outranks me" in a motivated reasoning heartbeat. I think it's safe to say they have not had makeouts.

I'm a little agnostic over whether they've ever had sexual contact of any kind, but their dynamic is not one of regular physical intimacy. If they ever did anything, it was most likely a one-off, probably with alcohol involved, very possibly extremely awkward (bonus points for cringe if it was a threesome with Jack), and got relegated to "and then we never spoke of it again" status.

I do think Edward is aware of Izzy's attraction and uses it as leverage to control Izzy without ever fully giving him what he actually wants. We learn later in the series that, when Edward made Izzy First Mate, he demanded loyalty to the Captain above all else, and this professional stipulation functions as a parallel to the obligatory monogamy of a relationship like Stede and Mary's (the difference being, Izzy entered into it by choice and could leave whenever he wants, but elects not to).

Izzy doesn't touch Edward casually ever (I'll get to the cheek caress in a second). His form of familiar intimacy is calling Blackbeard by his real name, an act we know had special meaning once upon a time because Jack also scoffs at other people calling Blackbeard "Ed." And Izzy is clearly not used to being touched casually by Edward, given how he lets out a little gasp at a pat on the back through several layers of clothing. That very minor touch, plus a small bit of praise ("I need you here") is enough to complete Izzy's 180 degree turnabout from "I want a divorce" to "I am so completely in love with you right now I am going to bust out the most heartfelt, genuine smile you're ever going to see on my face." [side note: It was not lost on me that "I said some things I regret last night" is a stereotypical next-day apology for a couple who had a big fight the night before.]

As for the choke scene? Edward releases the hold once it becomes clear Izzy is getting off on it. I won't say Edward would have known about Izzy's masochistic preferences if ever they'd had a regular sexual relationship, because nothing of what we know about their life together up to this point suggests they are particularly good at responding to what the other person genuinely enjoys. But they'd both have been steeped in a culture where fighting is foreplay, so Izzy's reaction also shouldn't come as a huge surprise (and, in fact, Edward doesn't seem especially surprised).

"You construct intricate rituals which allow you to touch the skin of other men," to quote Barbara Kruger.

Of the people Edward has canonically gotten it on with or wants to, there's a lot of rough but lighthearted physical contact. Mutual roughhousing with Jack, getting Stede to stab him with a sword for funsies. Bad news for Izzy that Edward doesn't appear to engage in that same behavior with him, only resorting to physical violence out of anger.

That one attempt at a caress on the cheek is the only time Izzy escalates physical contact with Edward, and it's probably fair to say he pushed as hard as he did leading up to it because he wanted Edward to start a physical fight (check how Izzy's face falls when Edward backs off). The fact that they don't otherwise fight each other casually (no sparring, no bro-style shoulder punches, no coconuts chucked at each other's heads), suggests to me this isn't a regular part of their lives or an understood intimate dynamic between them.

The way Izzy reacts to Blackbeard going full dom on him also seems to imply this hasn't happened before, especially taken in context with the choke. If Blackbeard had made a habit of these sorts of scenes with Izzy, it seems even less likely he'd punch or choke Izzy to punish him. But it has finally dawned on Blackbeard that he can manipulate Izzy with the promise of intimate pain, a tool he likely would have used before now if they'd already had that kind of relationship.

So yeah, I'm not really seeing a strong case for prior sexual intimacy to any meaningful extent, and while I do think Edward loves Izzy after a fashion, it's not romantic and has its own toxic possessive components.

[evanjinx]

alternative universe buddie fics recs :)

note: the links weren't working the first time i wrote the post but i edited and they're okay now!! if it still isn't working for you is probably because you're trying to open from a reblog from before i edit it, so try open directly from the original post on my profile.

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It was the last day of 2016 and two lost souls found themselves in a quiet dive bar, as the loud noises of the city celebrating New Year’s Eve buzzed around them. Most people chose loud, flashy bars with DJs and entrance fees and promises of champagne for New Year’s Eve. But both occupants of the dive bar preferred the quiet. They both didn’t need the added chaos when everything around them already felt chaotic. --- Or, Buck and Eddie meet on New Year's Eve, 2016, a meeting that sets of a series of events that changes the trajectory of both of their lives.

I Didn't Know I Was Lonely 'Till I Saw Your Face by @hmslusitania [complete | general audiences | 10.4k words]

After the ladder truck and the blood clot and the tsunami, Bobby makes Buck go to therapy before he does something stupid (like sue the city). Buck's not totally comfortable being alone with a therapist, but fortunately he makes a friend and ally who's willing to help him out - Eddie Diaz from the 136 who's just been caught in an illegal fight club. OR Total strangers Buck and Eddie go to couple's therapy together to get out of the therapy requirements their captains have placed on them.

i want your midnights by allyasavedtheday [complete | teen and up audiences | 36.3k words]

In which Eddie decides to rent out his spare room to help with mortgage repayments right around the time Buck decides to move out of Abby's place after some not so gentle prodding from Maddie. It's a coincidence. Or serendipity. Or maybe just really good timing.

i wanna be know (by you) by @starlightbuck [complete | general audiences | 12.5k words]

“I didn’t mean to do it.” Hen glances down at Eddie’s phone then back up at him in disbelief.

“How do you ‘not mean’ to download a bunch of dating apps but still have them on your phone?”

Or  In which Eddie delves into the intimidating world of online dating.

if i got locked away (would you still love me the same?) by @firefighterhan [complete | general audiences | 3.7k words]

Buck gets accidentally thrown in jail after meddling in a fight outside of a grocery store. There, he meets an unexpected guest, famous music artist Eddie Diaz, who is being suspiciously quiet about how he ended up here in the first place.

if only in my dreams by @buttercupbuck [complete | general audiences | 5.4k words]

Years before Eddie joins the 118, Buck meets him at an airport bar on Christmas day.

in a week by @buttercupbuck [complete | explicit | 78.9k]

in which Eddie joins the U.S. Forest Service and in the meadows of California, finds the things he thought he lost and the things he thought he'd never have.

It Started With A Bang And A Hostage Situation by JayJay__884 [complete | general audiences | 6.6k words]

Buck goes to the store one late night to buy food because of Maddie's pregnancy cravings. Whilst at the store, Buck accidentally gets caught in the middle of a robbery and gets knocked out. After waking up in the backroom, Buck finds himself as a hostage with a handsome and caring stranger.

Leading with the Left by @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels [complete | explicit | 84.7k]

When Buck said he was a "bartender" in "South America" what he actually meant was "stripper" in "Mexico." And when Eddie said, "What's your problem?" what he actually meant was, "Is this about the time you gave me a lap dance?" In other words, there's a few things the 118 doesn't know about Buck. Or Eddie. Or Buck and Eddie's relationship.

Lift me up by @captain--sif [complete | teen and up audiences | 5.5k words]

Buck gets stuck in his apartment building's broken elevator with his good-looking neighbor from the sixth floor.

Love and Bullets Both Shatter Hearts (But Only One Can Put You Back Together) by @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels [complete | explicit | 11.2k words]

Agent [Redacted] Diaz is the best at what he does. Usually. But lately there's this real pain in the ass* who's been ruining his missions: Code Name "Buck."

*stupidly handsome and annoyingly talented rival spy

Mr. Buckley's After Hours Detention by aresaphrodites [complete | mature | 11.4k words]

It’s not like Eddie Diaz planned on this. Really, there was no scenario in his mind where he would ever be bringing his son’s teacher a freaking goody basket to class; a homemade goody basket, no less. Then again, Christopher has never had a teacher quite like Evan Buckley.

MukbangsWithBuck by @reallysmartladymariecurie [complete | teen and up audiences | 19.3k words]

After growing tired of eating alone in his loft, Buck decides to start a YouTube channel where he records himself eating dinner and telling stories about crazy things his team has encountered on calls. He eventually gains a substantial fanbase, and he is led to the channel of another LA firefighter who uploads informational videos and also casual vlogs with his ten-year-old son. It isn't long before the two start a friendship through messages, both of them secretly hoping it will turn into something more. Or, Eddie and Buck are both firefighters/YouTubers and they end up falling in love.

Objects in the Mirror by SevenSoulmates [complete | explicit | 139.1k words]

The voice had always been around, Eddie remembers it, like a stream of consciousness that babbled incoherently to the point where Eddie just tuned it out.  But then the voice started speaking directly to him. Conversing like he was a whole person standing right in front of him. Like he could see what was happening around Eddie. Eddie shook his head. No one was talking to him, and Eddie most certainly was not talking back. He wouldn’t talk to the boy in his head ever again. There was no boy in his head. 

Passive Aggressive Flirting by @starlingbite [complete | general audiences | 4.5k words]

Buck and Eddie have never met. They both work at the 118 but just on different shifts. That's all about to change when Buck finds a sticky note message, signed E.

String of hearts... by @reallysmartladymariecurie [complete | teen and up audiences | 11.1k words]

“Now. Eddie is this incredible presence. He’s funny and smoking hot, and he has a son who sounds wonderful. And he’s serious and vulnerable at times. But so enjoyable to be around, every single second that he’s there. And how can I put myself out there when the expectation is so high? When the thing I might lose is so beautiful?”

In which Buck owns a plant shop in LA, and Eddie becomes his new favorite customer. Pining ensues.

check out my post of buddie fics with dad!buck

[thehallstara]

will be posting these all individually but!! @blaseballzinejam is today and i submitted to a total of 12?? zines???? something wild like that and i wanted to round them up! what a beautiful and busy month!!!

first off, my two solo zines!!! celestial cartography is a zine about the parallels between edric tosser, morrow doyle, val games, and pedro davids!! and then the burn with me b-sides is my very hefty baby (45 pages!)– 6 different 12x100s about betsy trombone, york silk, nerd pacheco, nic mora, cedric gonzalez, and spears taylor!

square roots is a short and sweet little zine i wrote with my bestie @tigerquoii about betsy trombone, jessica telephone, mickey woods, and bright zimmerman having a chat at the end of the world and it honestly might be my favourite thing i made the whole jam.

wip amnesty is the last zine i personally organized, and it’s pretty much what it says on the tin! bunch of wips people made, including myself.

one minute to midnight is a very fun exquisite corpse done with some friends (put together by @waveridden!) about the dale and it’s such a fun read!!

speaking of hayden, also ended up in two pieces in their season one zine (the good old days) by accident lol??? shoutout to @glassgob for using my texts for a tosser cousin moment and @lokrow for collabing with me on a tylandry piece!!!

lights, camera, action is such a special little zine about fics and the love for each other’s work organized by @fourteenfifteen that made me cry several times and i’m very glad i got to be a part of it and honoured to have my work mentioned too.

did a tiny little thing for zine of zines, a cute little zine about zines that never happened!

did a little collage entry for dasy’s alt take zine letters from the rumour mill and made a golem mordecai kingbird smile

did a little little wedding invite for to the hall and back!!!

radio immateria by @charaznablescanontoyota honestly probably has my favourite thing besides my solo stuff?? getting to do something about bright and haruta was so fun and i had a blast putting it all together.

and finally last but certainly not least, i did three different piece’s for blink and hayden’s speedjam, the end, about s24!!!! there’s 113 pages in here, and i managed to do a collage of a bunch of ways i’ve described s24, a ficlet about ex ffs scattered across the map, and a silly little one off about haruta byrd!!

i’ve helped run my fair share of blaseball events, but this truly has to be one of my favourites and i couldn’t be more thrilled with how everything turned out and how much fun folks had!!!

[a-la-sante-du-progres]

Enjolras: no, not enough interested in sex to try weird sh1t and not enough interested in himself as a person. He would do it only if his "clone" was actually the spirit of France who is taking a human form and that happens to be himself. But also I'm thinking there are some parallels between him and Narcissus in the brick, they're both unnaturally beautiful guys with blond curls unable to fall in love with another person + Grantaire compares himself to Echo who was in love with Narcissus... Narcissus would definitely fuck his own clone so 🤔 . It's still a no if the answer is based on Enjolras' personality but also it could be a surprise.

Grantaire: yes, I believe he hates his own guts but he is a hedonist and also likes to try new things.

Courfeyrac: the easiest YES of the bunch, he loves sex and he finds himself charming

Combeferre: yes for science

Joly: yes for science and for pleasure, especially if other people too are involved

Bossuet: I mean he would try but the attempts would be interrupted by crazy accidents, so no

Jehan: yes to explore his own spiritual nature in a sexual way

Bahorel: I think he would try to fight his clone to determine who is stronger, it could lead to sex or it could not

Feuilly: no, he wouldn't even think about it

Gavroche: no, he's a child

Fanon Les Amis members:

Eponine: yes, she would seize the occasion to finally see herself cherished and respected

Marius: no, he would think it's weird

Cosette: yes out of curiosity

very serious question for les mis tumblr:

would enjolras fuck his clone?

would R????

would the rest of the abc????????????

i need answers. pls debate

[chainofclovers]

Ted Lasso 2x8 thoughts

I am so lucky that the creators of Ted Lasso decided to make this entire show specifically for me. #blessed

If last week felt like a bit of breathing room (albeit tense, poignant, character-progressing breathing room) with distinct narrative lines, this week’s episode was a chaotic yet tightly-written swirl of pain and hope and sadness! No neat subject headers for this one, y’all. Just my brain and heart in the inadequate form of a bulleted list. It is the medium available to me at this time.

I am going to remember the moment when Ted calls Sharon and tells her his father killed himself for the rest of my life.

(I could say a bunch of stuff about his face and what he says and how he tries to hide his tears from Beard right after and how insanely much I adore this character and ahhhhhhhh but I’m just going to leave that scene there in our collective memories.)

Jamie. JAMIE. Higgins has given some great advice about love on this show, but his musings about his up-and-down relationship with his own father were not helpful in the context of Jamie’s dad, who is an abusive piece of shit. I really adore that all of the main AFC Richmond staff members are realistically a bit hit-or-miss with their advice and life philosophies (some are mostly miss this season, of course).

And I am completely in awe of the moment when Jamie punches his father. The way he just stands there after Beard kicks his dad out of the locker room. The way you can hear a pin drop. And Roy—Roy who is learning in so many areas of his life about his influence on people, learning that the things he needs aren’t necessarily the same as the things other people need—is the one to cross the room and hug him. Hold him, really, with the tenderness Ted used when he hugged Rebecca outside the gala in 1x4. God.

I’ve thought a lot about how s1 was about giving people a soft place to land. There’s always an angel there when you need one. There’s always an opportunity to be kind. If you look for someone, you find them. If you look for the good in someone, you find the good. And as everyone works through their individual journeys in s2, that can’t always be the case anymore. But there are still so many moments of angels on this show, and it’s not about chance and serendipity and fate [not that it was about that in s1] but about the effort it takes to become someone who can be there for someone else. Or who can be there for yourself. I’m so proud of Jamie for physically fighting back against his father. I’m so proud of Roy for being the one who recognized what Jamie needed.

I have every feeling in the world about how Ted is almost totally frozen both times (s1 and s2) he witnesses Jamie’s father abusing him. In s1, he was still there for Jamie after, and I have every reason to believe he’ll be there for Jamie after this incident as well, but that frozen stance HURTS. He’s in so deep with his pain about his own father that it’s like he physically cannot snap out of it to act in the moment. It seems entirely outside of his control, and it breaks my heart, because Ted wants so badly to be a good father, a good coach, a good friend, a good partner, a good patient. He’s there for people in all kinds of ways, even in his current less-than-capable state. He takes care of Sharon post-concussion and even gets her a new bike! During the disastrous match at Wembley his coaching is ineffectual and everything is chaos but he’s the last one standing on the pitch! But this really awful thing keeps happening to Jamie and Ted is just…frozen in the face of it. Like one of those nightmares where you’re running in place.

The frozen-in-place nightmare also kind of applies to the way the total separation between Ted and Rebecca feels, too. I have never for a moment doubted the writers’ intentions in setting these characters up as soulmates on parallel journeys, and I’m actually really digging (on a story level) how disconnected they are right now. It is IMPRESSIVE that their absence in each other’s lives feels like such a glaring loss, one we cannot forget even as there are so many other things happening onscreen. It is 100% not just shipper goggles making me process information about Ted while thinking about Rebecca and information about Rebecca while thinking about Ted. I know there are a lot of really angry and frustrated people in the fandom right now (both T/R shippers and T/R antis and non-shipping fans who don’t get why s2 is different from s1) and while I understand being frustrated by choices characters make, and frustrated by the feelings the show makes us feel that we just want to feel more of or less of, I continue to agree with pretty much every narrative choice happening right now.

Agreeing with the narrative like this?! This is such a unique experience for me as a viewer—to feel like I’m on a ride that is at once absolutely wild and incredibly sensible and well-crafted, and to feel simultaneously completely invested and anticipatory and speculative but also totally willing to trust where it goes. I long for Ted and Beard to really talk. I long for Ted and Rebecca to stop missing each other. I long for Roy to have a serious conversation with Ted about what’s happening with him. I long for Keeley to find a vocation, something that drives her beyond her projects. I long for so many things! But I wouldn’t long for them if this show was less good. If the show was less good, I wouldn’t have a wish list a mile long because I wouldn’t be so attuned to the details and potential lurking in every scene. THIS IS SUCH A GOOD SHOW, I CANNOT HANDLE IT, I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

(To that end, a great deal of the Ted Lasso tag and so many Twitter reactions reactions to the show feel super stressful right now and I am kind of just trying not to look?! I love this fandom so much because of the amazing conversations that happen and because of brilliant fic and because there are some awesome people I never would have encountered were it not for this show. That little bubble is wonderful and I’d stay in this fandom no matter what in order to keep experiencing those things. But fans’ catastrophic reactions to every little thing that happens, every little choice a character makes that isn’t the “perfect” choice? The takeaway that the writers—on this show of all shows—wake up in the morning ready for another day of torturing shippers rather than another day of writing a beautiful story they genuinely want to write? I do not enjoy those parts at all. I would like to opt out of those parts. I’m having such a magical experience watching this show and talking about this show and listening about this show and writing about this show with a variety of people who feel all kinds of ways. I truly wish I could somehow transfer the energy of this experience onto all the people who are hating it right now. I don’t mind at all that people are having vastly different reactions to this show and are sharing their honest feelings, including the really angry ones (I can appreciate something and disagree with it!), and I get that sometimes the language of fannish reactions is intentionally, ironically hyperbolic. But there feels like this very serious trend of people legitimately thinking writers on this show are targeting shippers and have lost respect for their characters, and I just feel like an alien from another planet when I see that stuff. I guess I just feel like people make art because they want their art to be visible to other people and to themselves, but that doesn’t typically involve specifically catering to or torturing a subset of that audience?)

I am more fascinated by Sharon Fieldstone than ever before. I have been running through every single action with her and Ted so many times. The confirmation that she’s living in club-provided housing (that could not look more different from Ted’s club-provided flat). Ted clearly noticing the many bottles. Sharon’s face while she tries to casually recycle them. (Sharon could legitimately have a more problematic relationship with alcohol than Ted does, and I find that extremely interesting and am very curious to find out what happens there.) Sharon leaving him voice notes while she’s concussed, probably because she’d been thinking about him shortly before the accident. The way Ted calls her and does all the funny voices and it’s not frustrating like all the times he uses his silliness and allusions to deflect during their prior conversations because this time, those behaviors are just a part of him showing care for another person. The way they stretch each other, and Ted is still wrong about the things he’s been wrong about, but they both grow all the same.

While it is pretty much impossible for me to imagine that this show would include an actual romantic relationship between Ted and Sharon (it would be beyond unethical even if they could write it well, and Sharon in particular is so professional and committed to her work, and it would erase so much of the powerful message about the importance of seeking therapy from a professional who is not your friend or partner, and I would totally hate it), watching this episode was the first moment I had this queasy little feeling that it’s possible that Ted could end up developing really complicated feelings about Sharon since, at this point, he’s been honest with her about things he’s hardly spoken about before and you can really form an attachment to people you feel safe with in a new way. (I mean, I’m sure Michelle knows what happened with Ted’s father, but I’m not even certain if Beard does.) He’s so broken right now, and Sharon is such a great person and so different from anyone else in his life (even though Rebecca is also different, and Beard is also different, and Roy is also different, and so on), that I could see things getting really fuzzy for him. I continue to have faith in the way the storylines on this show are handled. I’m just. Putting this here.

(In saying that, though, I also wanna make it really clear that I don’t just automatically assume anytime a new female character is introduced that they’re going to end up becoming a romantic complication. Like, Phoebe is allowed to have a teacher who is an attractive woman and AFC Richmond is allowed to have a sports psychologist who is an attractive woman and Keeley is allowed to talk to Jamie Tartt without it threatening what she has with Roy and all these people can exist as human beings without the introduction of romantic drama.)

Isaac gives every player one haircut per season, OH MY GOD. The JOY during the haircut scene. YES.

KEELEY AND REBECCA. Their text thread. The affirming video call right before Rebecca goes into the restaurant. The way Keeley sits all snuggled up against Rebecca in her office.

I was pretty thoroughly spoiled for the Sam and Rebecca plot through 2x8, and I was bracing for something far more problematic and tortured than what happens in this episode. The words I would use to describe their scenes: awkward, cute, cringy, and understandable. There are a million reasons why this relationship isn’t sustainable, but I felt completely understanding of both their choices here. This show has a lot of thesis statements, but I keep going back to the idea from 2x1 that there are people who enter your life to help you get to the next point, and I think it’s entirely possible that Sam and Rebecca will mutually be that for each other.

I find comparisons between Rupert and Rebecca super upsetting. There are absolutely meaningful things to say about the irony of ending up in a situation with an uncomfortable resemblance to certain taboo elements of an ex’s situation. But that ex is abusive and manipulative and cruel and Rebecca has exhibited NONE of those behaviors, and it makes me really sad to think that people feel that the writers on this show have betrayed Rebecca in giving her this storyline.

As always, I reserve the right to keep blathering about this show. I’ve had a headache for a couple of days, but my head is also so full of 2x8 thoughts that I couldn’t keep them in even if the circumstances for writing this were not ideal. I kind of hate that I’ve included frustrated fandom thoughts within the analysis of what I felt was an absolutely gorgeous, complicated, heartbreaking, near-perfect episode of television, but if ya can’t be a little dramatic on your own tumblr while you’re feeling raw and under the weather, where can ya?

[funtimebunnyblog]

Sureynot is back at it again with some fun requests 😂🤩🥰 Please enjoy!

The Pillarmen with an s/o who's an adrenaline junkie...

(Under the cut for length...)

Kars:

• Kars seriously disapproves of this hobby of yours.

• Mostly because when he met you he was under the impression that you were smarter than to even attempt half of the things you do for "fun".

• Once he found out that your idea of a good time was riding a bike down a rocky mountain at full speed or dangling from the edge of a cliff from a rope like a spider, he was sure you were crazy.

• Perhaps Humans really have regressed after all...

• Just because he could vault himself off a cliff without a care in the world or thought of bodily harm doesn't mean that you, a fragile little Human, should as well.

• If you insist that you're fine because of all the precautions you take when going out to do something risky, it does little to ease him.

• Initially, he tries to forbid you from going out and doing such dangerous things but you offered for him to come along anytime and supervise; which he ended up accepting.

• He'll admit that he feels a little better when he's at least with you just in case anything happens.

• "Isn't this great?" You laugh, peering back to glance at your mate (whom you were strapped to) as you dangled from the base of the cliff by your abs. "Just look at that view!"

• Kars couldn't be bothered to even try to enjoy the sunset scene far, far below when he was laying parallel in the air like this.

• If you wanted to watch the sunset, why not just stand upright ON the cliff?

• "When do we get to the fun part?" He sighed, his underlying bitterness only making you laugh. "This IS the fun part!"

• Should you happen to hurt yourself on any of your solo excursions you can at least always count on him to patch you up when you get Home.

• Showing up with a few scrapes and bruises here and there doesn't bother him very much but if you ever end up breaking a bone, prepare for a scolding of a lifetime.

• He will not let you do anything even close to risky until you are fully healed and from that moment on he makes it clear that he's accompanying you on ALL of your trips and supervising the scene.

• It's kind of funny, in a way he has fallen right into your trap; spending more quality time with you rather than staying cooped up in his office doing work all the time.

Esidisi:

• It takes Esidisi as a surprise when he finds out about your little hobbies.

• He never realized that doing such risky, heart palpatiating stunts was considered enjoyable to some Humans.

• His curiosity piqued, you'll find yourself dragging him along to one of your most favourite activities so he can watch and maybe try his hand at it.

• You've created a monster.

• An adrenaline pumped, 7ft tall, inhuman, older than dirt monster.

• He LOVES this sport. The sights, heights, the high-speed action, the spine tingling, the rushing going to his head; HE LOVES IT.

• It all puts a much hotter fire burning in his blood.

• Soon, he starts dragging YOU along to watch HIM do extremely risky activities and stunts.

• Like watching him bungee jump off the tallest building in the country while chugging 2 energy drinks at the same time as he records the whole thing for YouTube.

• Despite his newfound love for the most extreme of extreme, he's also content to just spend some time doing simpler risky activities like white-water rafting or rock climbing with you.

• If he ever gets injured (no matter how bad) it doesn't bother him in the slightest of course.

• However, if you get seriously hurt on the other hand, it sends all kinds of alarm bells off for him.

• He thinks that maybe he's to blame and that he's been a bad influence on you and your mortality.

• "IT'S MY FAULT!!! IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!" Esidisi sobbed loud enough that his voice rang off the Hospital walls. Endless rivulets of hot tears left your shirt absolutely soaked where he clung to you like a limplet in the bed.

• You could only sigh, your gaze peering past the dense curls of the floof of his hair blocking your vision to your propped up leg and the clean white cast that had just been put on it.

• "Esidisi, this is NOT your fault." You told him, hands instinctively going to rub his back as the tears kept coming and coming. "I should've checked the tire on my bike before driving it down that hillside, it was just an accident. It's just a broken leg."

• (*bike crash* Fred voice: MY LEG!!!)

• Thankfully, his tears ebb when you tell him that he can sign your cast.

• He might even offer to take you across the world to sight see and do some more thrilling activities to make up for it when you're all healed if you're up for the adventure.

Wamuu:

• All of this started when Wamuu noticed that you had a bunch of strange gear in storage.

• When he asked you why you needed so many helmets and ropes and knee and elbow pads, you happily indulged him about your adrenaline seeking hobbies and how you liked to jump off cliffs.

• You definitely have some more explaining to do.

• Admittedly it takes Wamuu a good few minutes to wrap his head around it all.

• "So... you do all of these dangerous things... for a thrill?" He questioned, eyebrows knitted together. "To prove yourself?"

• As you nodded, grinning hugely, he realizes that he shares a similar trait by fighting worthy opponents in the arena.

• The most brutal, sweat inducing, heart pounding fights gave him great tenacity and you experienced the very same when climbing somewhere high or going fast.

• He wants to try this with you.

• Next thing he knows he's all geared up with a helmet and a harness and a rope, standing at the bottom of a HUGE Rockwall.

• "First one to the top wins," was all you said before starting to climb as fast as you could with the Warrior right behind you, a fierce gleam in his eye and a fang revealing grin.

• Though keeping mindful of your safety, he likes to challenge you and both of you find yourselves often pushing each other's limits.

• Who could climb the fastest? Row the fastest? Bike the fastest? Set up camp the fastest?

• If you happen to hurt yourself while playing your thrill little games together he's always prepared and will most definitely put a bandage on you when needed.

• Even Wamuu knows that the Hello Kitty ones heal the best.

• If you're ever unfortunate enough to do yourself enough damage to break something, that care shown for you doesn't change.

• In fact, he commends you for being so strong and will praise you even more when you talk about jumping right back into it when you're properly healed again.

• He won't let you go anywhere until that day comes though, no matter how up to the challenge you think you are.

• All in all, your determination and your fiery spirit is what makes him absolutely adore you afterall.

Santana:

• Like many things he faces, Santana is quite indifferent to heart-stopping stunts.

• It was no surprise really, he was an apex lifeform; there was nothing that could do him harm and he had faced many dangerous things in his life alone so there wasn't much that got his heart pounding.

• However his curiosity is piqued when he learns that you deliberately partook in risky activities just for the fun of it all.

• Be prepared for many questions as to what exactly you enjoyed doing and the benefit of doing it for you.

• If you should ask him to accompany you on an activity, he won't say no but he prefers to observe you rather than partake himself.

• He views every outing with you as a learning experience.

• He gets to learn all about the activity, its History and any gear you happen to bring along and then watch the ins and outs of it all first hand as you and maybe a few other Humans do it.

• He finds it interesting that Humans would take such risks when they are already the most fragile and flawed race in existence.

• He wasn't sure whether it was carelessness or maybe just plain not realizing your own mortality.

• If you happen to coax him into actually gearing up and doing an activity with you, don't expect any major reaction on his part when you get there.

• Whether it's skydiving, rock-climbing, white water rafting, poking a sleeping bear with a stick, you name it; you can't quite piece together what's going on in that head of his.

• He just looks almost bored the entirety of the time.

• "YEAHHHHH!!!" You squealed with glee, the air whistling in your ears as wind all around you whipped and whirled, plummeting straight from the sky.

• Santana was dead silent, arms folded and practically glaring at the ground where it sat miles upon miles away below you both.

• The only thing he was looking forward to after the parachute chord was pulled and his feet was on solid ground again was going to grab a bite to eat...

• However, while the activity doesn't, any injuries you happen to sustain from doing them spark a reaction in Santana.

• He doesn't like seeing you hurt, no matter how minor it is.

• That being said, the chances of you getting seriously hurt are very, very low with Santana always on watch while you're off having fun.

• If he has to, he'll throw himself under you and let his body go to rubber to give you a soft landing and prevent you from breaking something.

• All in all, he doesn't really mind your extreme hobbies. You alone give him a thrill by teaching him much new things.