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death-despair-and-dinosaurs · 8 months ago

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#im so sad #its my birthday and i really hate my birthday because i dont think living another year is an accomplishment #but its basically one of the only times my friends message me first #but only one of my friends messaged me happy birthday today #and one of them i sent a pic of my birthday dutch bros and they said happy birthday then #but i have 2 friends that ive been friends with for 10+ years #and on their birthdays im up at like 12:01am to tell them happy birthday #and if im not then i tell them as soon as i wake up the next morning #but i havent gotten one single thing from them today #i knew our friendships were crumbling before with how little we talk #and how im always the first to text #but idk i just wish for more i just want to be loved by the people i love #is that too much to ask?#apparently

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peacockrulz · 2 months ago

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Funny stuff happens on twitter sometimes dkslfjsdlkf

#these tags are dedicated to the person who told me to stop hiding headcanon info in the tags #im still doing it LKSDFSDFKLFJ #anyway some exposition for my tumblr fans:#J never sleeps. like ever #if she does “sleep” she usually does it sitting in the drop-pod #a lah inuyasha style LMAO #if that makes sense #she never even slept during Tessa's sleepovers #she'd just lay there letting her mind wander #But it always stressed Tessa out that J never relaxed #so one day she was finally able to convince J to TRY. just once.#the first time J ever slept and the first time she truly let her guard down in that manor #was curled up. as small as she could be. next to Tessa.#J was so scared of being found. of being hurt for stopping just once.#so Tessa sat with her the entire time. So she could feel safe enough to finally rest #J can't sleep because it means she'd have to physically stop #and after so long since she the last time she was allowed to rest #I don't think she knows how any more.#and if she did I doubt she'd let herself stop for even a moment #because stopping means letting it catch up to you #its easier just to keep moving; isn't it?#its easier then facing the fact she'll never lay next to her ever again #or smth idk im not a writer lol #ANYWAY thanks for reading :]#murder drones #serial designation j #serial designation v #uzi doorman #tessa is mentioned but I don't really think it warrants a tags :p #I really should be making text posts if im gonna make tags this friggin long

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unopenablebox · 1 month ago

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ugh this is so pathetic and embarrassing but. it might be helpful to me if people would tag horror movie content with 'horror' or 'horror movie' or 'horror film' or something. because unfortunately seeing a still image of a horror movie monster or body horror scene, or a gif of the guy from saw swinging a bloody hand down to implicitly cut off his offscreen leg or whatever even though onscreen he's just swinging his arm, or even just an overly zippy horror movie poster or overly descriptive sentence about the content of a horror movie, does in fact often cause me to get so stressed out and compulsively miserable that i cry

[ETA: sufficiently non-explicit/non-tone-preserving joke content, like the Thursday the 12th meme that has a picture of jason in the store, is fine. my line is weird and hard to articulate but "does this preserve the tone of the horror movie or is it ridiculous/an obvious joke" is a reasonable way to delineate things i might benefit from tagging vs things that won't bother me.

also like. i made it sound very bad but it's not actually such a huge deal for things that aren't "this is literally a gif of a horror movie" so if you would like to make the question you ask yourself "is this literally a gif of a horror movie" you will already be solving most of my problems]

#text is usually fine UNLESS IT IS ABOUT A HORROR MOVIE. no i don't know why it works this way either #hand drawn art also almost always fine. i just get unwell from. knowing. about film.#ik this is massively inconvenient and i think asking people to tag things for you is a basically useless ritual usually #and i do think it's mostly on me to uh. block the source blogs people are reblogging the gifs from etc.#but unfortunately i am..... worse.... than other people. and now admitting to it in public.#i would like to know what my problem is also. this is a really over the top situation. but it is. the one i have #im also excruciatingly sensitive to other gross-out/bodily fluids/body horror visuals but people i follow don't like those as much.#i used to have intense stress flashbacks about the three-second tumblr ads of the american horror story clown #i could just about manage the first season of hannibal. you may recall i had to stop criminal minds because it gave me intense nightmares #it may not be possible for anyone else to conceptualize how much i suck on this axis

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gobstoppr · 1 year ago

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hey guys am i allowed to say on main that i dont like metadad . am i gonna get beaten up for saying this.

guys i think we all took the term found family too literally and now everythings flattened into a boring nuclear family. guys can we stop. hello . is anybody there

#text #it was kinda charming at first but it feels like everytime i try to look at the mk tag its always the same shit . guys. guys.#we can do so much more w/ their dynamics than just dad and son ugh its so . ughhh.#every since i realized i was like . really really aroace. ive started to grow a bit of a distaste for shipping culture #this is relavant i swear. iwanna talk about metadede #like ok in fandoms right. theres often #the enforcement of specific roles onto characters for a simplified understanding of them for memes and drawing ideas #we want gay rep but we dont quite have it canonically so we make our queer headcanons seem more legit #by giving a char a same sex partner. ok easy we did it. gay people are real now #and we get awesome art and its wonderful bc people are wonderful #but its like . the relationships themselves feel flat a lot of the times.#metadede never seems to be about dedede. its about mk having a boyfriend. bc we need him to date someone.#and im not like . mad at anyone about this. i participated in it back in the day. but like.#ok so. gay hcs are the most popular in most fandom things bc its easy; hot; and sweet #but things like aro or ace hcs? its just. they. how can you depict that in a single framed drawing of a char?so theres none at all.#its not even that i actively hc chars aroace its jsut this is my world view; how i default to reading chars #maybe this rant in the tags is unrelated after all.#but idk. ive got lots of thoughts about things.#anyways as ceo of meta knigth im right about everything #i can talk more about metadad stuff specifically if people want

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galactaknightyaoi · 24 days ago

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making a fankid but shaking my head the entire time so people know i'm against the societal belief that everyone's goal and only purpose in life should be to have kids and form a family

#i snapped and made a rock kandi fankid #she was meant to be a one off design to cheer me up and give me something to do #but i made her too cute. now im attached #her name is lacey :) princess lacey at that #idk what im going to do to be able to fit her in my thing. rock kandi or just a kirby kid in general was Never meant to be a thing #that guy's an adult in my oc timeline. and he does fuck all all day as he always has. it's a part of his bit that he's not anyone important #outside of being the hero of popstar of course. he's not a knight or a king/prince. he's not even an adventurer. he likes his planet #and wouldn't want to be too far from it so the idea of being an explorer doesn't appeal to him.#at the end of every adventure he always returns to popstar because popstar's his home #he likes just being a normal guy who just saves the world from time to time. he likes fishing and eating and sleeping #and making friends and juggling children. it's just what he does all day. he loves it.#he's always been happy with simplicity and living in the moment no matter how boring that moment is #and i fear that this would accidentally lent itself to a like. kind of a deadbeat dad?? or take away too much of his carefree bum-ness #technically this is ribbon's and fluff's spawn since kirby can't have kids. so maybe i'll just make the world's first kirbyless rock kandi #whatever you'd call that. Fluffbon?#they all live in different places so i always figured it'd be kind of impossible for it too work out in the long run??#or it wouldn't be That serious. not serious enough for a lacey #which is why i didn't make it canon to my AU and shit and only enjoy it at a distance slash in like a vacuum #so I don't knowww i don't knowww but i'll figure it out i guess #text post

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rogdona · 5 months ago

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#not finihing this btw but like #still bouncing around the idea of a dating sim thanks to that cosme fanart im still obsessed w so i came up w these.. might keep em idk #weve got the MC still dont have much ab her bc i focused on the others tbh #and shes the inspiration of an abstract artist whod rather die than admit her fave drawings are based on some pretty outfits she saw MC wea #and the way she makes her feel; then shes also the muse of a self appointed poet who yet cant bring herself to write how MCs hair shines li #e the moon and the stars cling onto her coat; and last but not least we have a wannabe musician who just got her first instrument and cant #quite play it let alone make her own music and she wont say it but even tho the lyrics of the songs she practices w never quite match she #always thinks of MC. will i ever make a game ab this? hell no dont have the patience #art #my art #also based the uniforms onthe ones i used to wear... this is a latam school so like. most likely no clubs just quirky kids #DAMN THATS A LOT OF TEXT

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tubbytarchia · 7 months ago

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Points at my pinned message. There's a message there in bold. I'm sorry I don't clarify that I'm talking about CHARACTERS ONLY in posts that I don't maintag. I presume if you're on my blog to see these posts at all, you would already know as much. CHARACTERS please... just characters.... I've acknowledged that CC Jimmy is not bothered by the bullying many times. I'm very aware... I'm talking about characters......................

#Im gonna put more explanation points around that bold message in my pinned or something. Do people gloss over it #first thing you see... If you click on my profile at all does that not pop out enough.. How does this keep happening #If I turn it into a fire text gif I think people would also gloss over and assume it says “REBLOG MY ART” or something lol #the reputation of flaming gif text is tarnished #In response to the anon who left a long ask #I appreciate that you were letting me know very kindly and politely! But I literally don't know how more clear I can make it #that I only talk about characters. If I make text posts that are maintagged I almost always clarify I'm talking about characters #if they touch into anything potentially touchy or easily misunderstood #I'm not gonna put that clarification on every post ever... taps at the sign in my pinned message again #blabber #sorry anon dont take this rudely at all please. This is a thing that keeps happening and I'm just a bit tired haha #I know you mean well anon so thank you I appreciate you man

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butchnavi · 20 days ago

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i miss stupid rafaela

#why is exam season always missing the worst people alive who probably havent thought of me in months hours #and i have been banned from texting her but i want to scream so i will do what she'd caricature of me and be immature #and scream about it here #you were supposed to be my sister i genuinely loved you like one what is wrong with you why do i still love you deep down #whatever.#btw i've known about your new blog since basically the day after you made it. im just choosing to try to have some self respect for once in #my life and not contact you because you dont want me to #i guess a part of me will always love you. because i take sisterhood seriously and cant just unlearn that i saw you that way #even if ive mostly moved on #the relapses still fucking suck #but yeah. that part will always hope we can reconnect some day. i know its pathetic but i guess that's me #when i tell someone i will always love them i mean it with my whole heart. ik if you asked id forgive you in a heartbeat #but i also kind of hate you now. and i dont think about you most days. but every so often the universe will remind me of how deeply i loved #you and that sucks #you're pretty much the grudge by olivia rodrigo to me #not the first person i associate with that song but it does describe how i feel about you a little too well #rafaela 🎶#blatantposting

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morgenlich · 2 months ago

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fascinating to see both the far right and the far left blame jews/israel for hurricanes but for different reasons. it's like convergent evolution of antisemitism

#usually (not always) ime there's more overlap lmao #anyway the right wing is saying it's bc of chemtrails/cloud seeding #and the left is saying it's bc israel alone has used so many bombs over the past few decades that they're mostly responsible for #climate change. if you were wondering the reasons.#it's funny my first night back on tumblr i was checking who all had followed me while i was gone #(wasn't many ppl #want to check for spam accounts and such)#and one person had reblogged a post. and the op you won't be shocked to hear had a stalin pfp #anyway soviet propaganda poster aesthetic vibes of hands grabbing a globe with the text smth like #'how will the earth survive if israel keeps bombing it'#which bad enough on its own obviously #but i've seen. a couple other things now directly blaming israel for helene and milton #criticising israel not inherently antisemitic but Holy Shit do some of you people love to use israel as an excuse to reinvent the protocols #antisemitism

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tytonnidaie · 7 months ago

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i love to read meta of knives as an abuser and nod my head thoughtfully at all great points and then once the post ends i go back to considering him as my darling son who never did anything wrong ever

#let him out your honour yeah he did it all but i dont care #he had some points #so what he and his twin brother fell into and perpetuated the cycle of abuse that hurts each other #they broke out of it at the end. that has to count #“we cant go back. we cant be those brothers again. so ill kill you if you kill me. why didnt you kill me. WHY DID YOU SAVE ME”#and then at the end he did the thing vash tried to save him from anyway (disappearing forever and ever and ever and ever and )#sorry. lots of thoughts abt these tragic siblings #forever thinking about how vash threw the first stone between them #like that fuckssssss me up #i know tristamp changed that #but to me its always. knives loving him thru violence bc its the only way that makes sense. only for vash to use it on him #so of course knives lashed out. imagine realising the thing u use to protect ur brother can hurt you back just as bad #imagine killing a town of people that hurt your brother only for him to shoot you #and then you cut his arm off #not taking any critique at this time. im fully aware of the text. im just choosing to love him anyway :)#this is also why i find swap fic sooooo compelling. where vash is the dangerous one and knives is his victim #oooo u are two sides of the same coin. you could have been each other if only a few things went differently #but you could never be The Same

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megumi-fm · 7 months ago

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#the secret to making friends is to let yourself annoy them #this is a joke but im also being completely serious #all my life I've been too apprehensive to make the first move because im always afraid of being bothersome #but looking back at the friendships through the past 4years at uni... im so lucky that a lot of people didn't worry about bothering me #and decided to come up and initiate conversation anyway #and also. whenever anyone has 'bothered me' by asking about me or wanting to know more... I have only felt loved and special...#so i guess what im trying to say is that #cringe culture is dead and theres nothing cool about prioritizing how you appear over the potential of a real bond #and I was born to be persistent and curious #so yeah. now that my graduate program will start in a couple months and there are opportunities to get acquainted with my classmates #I reach out to people with no attempt to hide my enthusiasm in getting to know them.#I double/triple text a lot and annoy them (affectionate) like i do my bffs and its incredible how 9/10 reciprocate that energy so quick #and despite the cultural differences and minor mistranslations/miscommunications we still manage to find common interests to discuss about #and it's like '!!!!!!! we're besties now'#yeah sure sometimes people might get a bit uncomfy and by the second message if i feel like I'm disturbing them I back off #but i won't know that until i reach out in the first place. so all in all this has worked really well for me and i love itttt #megumi in the tags

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lae-zels · 8 months ago

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i realize how little i have in common with my peers simply because im not constantly on tik tok/instagram/facebook 👴

#first i just dont get 80% of the references bc i simply dont engage with them/im not curious enough about them #second new people or those that i know cant go 15 minutes without scrolling on their phone or texting #the few friends who would let me stay at their house would always sit on their phone the entire evening not really engaging with me #or trying to engage with me by showing me something they found on their phone.... girl-#i broke up with my last partner bc they were chronically online and wouldnt go to sleep without at least 1 hour of phone time in bed #im mainly complaining about the bed time phone usage thing bc it used to drive me crazy as an insomniac #and considering how many people do it just makes me completely disinterested in sharing a bedroom with other people #i am old so that must be it tho #i barely use my phone that thing can last 4 days on one battery charge (it's a good battery but still) despite my occasional yt usage #i like in person talking and i just think people lost touch with their social side the last few years :(#and it's hard for me to feel like im having an engaging conversation with someone if they're constantly checking their phone #it makes me feel really lowly of myself it hits my self-esteem hard bc this behavior shows me im too boring to have their attention #even tho they were the one to invite me over/go out with me... bro.#personal #delete later

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brechtian · 1 year ago

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this thesis literally better meet her standards this time it has everything it's formalist with a dash of deconstruction it incorporates my research into the occult i can fold in a quick comparison to the end of her favorite woolf novel (dalloway) it even includes my original (REJECTED !) idea of exploring bernard and authorship as divine creativity. if she says no to it literally don't know what i'll do

#my first proposal was to focus on bernard as the character most closely intertwined with the cut narrator from the waves and the language/#subjects of the interludes but she didnt like it bc she said author as god was overdone and i was too smart for that. sigh which is fine.#the thesis im proposing is going to be about how a) the waves central tension/conflict surrounds the characters striving towards a spiritua #oneness and univocity that feels distinctly both occult and deleuzean and how the form forces the characters apart from each other and the #action while also forcing distance between the reader and the text (a series of unconventional not-quite-soliloquies directed at no one. ch #racters who are always talking but can never speak to each other) and the ending merges characters and forms to create an essential oneness #that is distinctly creative in nature (see deleuze and pure immanence)#yes a lot of these ideas have been remarked upon separately by scholars but they havent quite been married in this way . i think its really #solid

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months ago

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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junkissed · 20 days ago

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hi!! your recent rb of late night talking put it on my dash and i really really really just have to double down and say that it's some of the best minghao writing i've ever read, if not the absolute best. thank you so much for putting it out into the world and i wish for you nothing but the best (´ ∀ ` *)

EEEK i'm so so happy you liked it !!! i am definitely not an angst writer so stuff like that almost always gets banished to my docs for me to brood about later but reading the reblogs always makes me feel better i'm so glad ppl can relate to it :(

#[💌] — asks #[💬] — kae #actually not glad bc if ppl are relating to my own insecurities then thats really sad ndhjnfhdjn #but if everybody has the same insecurities then maybe the world is a kinder place than we all think #ANYWAY im so stupid omfg user xinganhao.... user ylangelegy... user kwondotcom... ive connected the dots #meeting a celebrity rn omg i havent had a minute yet to dig into ur fics but i LOVE your smaus #i am the same stickler for dialogue (both when i read and write) AND YOU DO IT SO WELL #no shade at all to other writers but u usually get the feeling they just write smaus in the style how they personally text #and i never get that feeling w urs #i havent reblogged them all but i think ive literally read every single one of ur smaus theyre always at the top of my tumblr and-#-im like omg a meal i need to consume this NOW #dialogue is always the first part i write and then i write the surrounding bits and then i go back and edit the dialogue again #bc if my dialogue sounds funky in my head then it ruins the whole fic for me dnhdnsj #yapping so bad rn i sound like an overexcited chihuahua ANYWAY im so glad you liked it thank you for reblogging!!! 🥺#[🎙️] — feedback

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sizzleissues · 25 days ago

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I went to go ask him for help with getting a job. Decided against it, surely I could do the application quiz on my own. Failed. Don’t know how I answered wrong. Realised I do kinda need his info but I still panic and feel sick when I text him because I don’t know how he’ll respond so that won’t be happening.

#Like I want him to text me first so then I know the vibe?#Because texting him first I always seem to get the vibe wrong #last time he helped me with something I thought it meant we were okay again #So I texted him casually #Turns out we weren’t okay and it had purely been a help and no more #And he brought up how he was annoyed with my texting him randomly a while after it #BUT LIKE DUDE IM AUTISTIC IF YOU DONT TELL ME I WONT KNOW #He kept not telling me where he’s at and I kept getting it wrong #I had to fucking say ‘no more talk then?’ When he was the one who wanted that #I had to set his boundary for him because I knew he wasn’t going to do it #And I wouldn’t be sure until then #I found out he wasn’t in love with me anymore from some else #The guy hasn’t had the guts to actually say it to me - even over text

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