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whadya mean he didnt tell you he loves you??? his eyes literally went soft when he looked ur way...
#bg3#wyll ravengard#tav#wyll x tav#paladin#baldur's gate 3#voltaical ocs#bishop#wyllll baby you are my ANGEEEEELLLLL#this scene rips my heart out i replayed it a few times to figure out some dialog#AHHHH i just wanna wrap wyll in a blanket and tell him how much i love him ;_;#also its sooo interesting that you need to persuade him to kiss you. i didnt do that in my original playthrough#cause it felt out of character for bishop#but it rlly plays into the headspace wyll is in like he feels so undeserving of love and affection#that hes not even THINKING of having a romantic moment with you#youre the one who has to bring it up#also im so sorry about my shit handwriting i am too lazy to redownload all my fonts onto my new computer and am enjoying lettering by hand#even if its atrocious
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Gaslighter? I hardly know her!
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#jin guangyao#qin su#The parallels to the mulderskully comic were genuine scripting coincidences that I kept in for the irony.#wwx and mulder both have a strong need to show their beloved (investigation) partner the cool thing they just found.#Much to their chagrin and concern.#For as much of a mess the plot gets in The Untamed...one of the things it does probably the best of all adaptions is setting up JGY.#specifically how we spend time getting to know him as a *Regular Guy* around our deuteragonists' age.#I love how he's present in the cloud recess arc! I was rooting for him as a character! The twist villain reveal felt so heartbreaking!#Here in the audio drama (for as much as it does well) we pretty much get 2 scenes tops with this guy before he's villain monologuing.#before this we know him as 1) the guy NMJ yelled at a lot 2) a suspect 3) leader guy Jin Ling was partially raised by.#The elements are there but but not with any particular depth to make him...interesting (in this version).#Sure we get to learn more after the fact but it just falls so flat in comparison B*/#ohhhh noooo the guy we are pretty sure killed a guy is gaslighting his wife and has a secret torture chamber. And he's a politician.#not much of a mystery to it all innit.#Feel free to disagree or bring up differing points btw; I love media analysis convos and this truly is just my opinion.
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N2 au Brucey babe!! He really doesnt change much tbh, it's mostly just an outfit change plus his gropes about his brother would be a bit different in that they're extended to all of them and not just JD, theyre just mostly centered around JD.
Cuz from his side he knew all of his brothers were alive at least Floyd, JD, and Branch. He just couldn't leave Vacay island, at first due to fear, and then he started a family there (first kid was accidental).
He'd heard rumors about JD and the others due to JD traveling all over the place and hed sent put the postcard as a way of extending an olive branch and then nobody showed up :/
Also Bruce's outfit change is purely for me I hate drawing his canon vest lmao
#my art#trolls#dreamworks trolls#trolls 3#trolls bruce#n2 au#trolls au#not the only one au#bruce didnt really need to be changed#but i did want to add a bit to him#when he left the first place he went was vacay island#he only planned to stay for a little bit and then head back#but days turned to weeks which turned to months and then years#eventually he met and fell in love with brandy#they were planning on leaving vacay island together to visit his brothers#brandy had volunteered to essentially be his shield in case bergens showed up#but then bruce jr happened#and then the restaurant happened as a way to support the new family#so bruce felt stuck#so he was like if i cant go there ill bring them here#and sent jd a postcard which got very misinterpreted#so both sides thinks the other just doesnt want to see them#and then 20 years later his brothers do show up but only because they need something#and theyre doing it on behalf of jd who he assumes for like the first 30 sec was too much of a coward to say it himself#then he finds out the details and hes like oh shit okay-#and theyre fine but the anger and salt is still festering#idk if there would be a climatic argument like there was in the film#if anything it would just be them trauma dumping on eachother#i dont think theyd split up though#or what would spark it since jd isnt there to be bossy
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me: finally accepting theres a good chance im autistic and starting to work up the courage to ask my parents to see if i could get a diagnoses but being scared to
my mom: do you ever think you have adhd? if you want to do a screening for add next time your at the doctors you can
me:
#for context im terrified of being the person who sees stuff online and diagnosis themselves and then is wrong#which is why it took me so long to accept im —probably— autistic (bc now i have done research and stuff for it)#and id see adhd things that were relatable but i felt i related more to the autism + self diagnosing both felt weird (for me not in general#but now like. my mom is willing to accept i might have add??#(there was a long talk in between her asking if i ever thought i had it and her saying i could get a screening where we both agreed that#—if i did have it— i didnt have the hyperactive part. hence the add vs adhd thing)#and now that kinda through off my plans because like. what if i do also had adhd. or something#so yeah small crisis woo#i need to actually look i to symptoms and stuff for adhd though#because im not saying anything til i know more about it and if i actually do have a lot of the things#but this also gives me a chance go write about the autism things as well bc i told my mom i would look into the adhd#so now i can hopefully find a way to bring that up#ive mentioned that autism is a spectrum recently which i didnt think she knew before#so progress i guess#wow long rant in the tags whoops#jasper’s posts#moots have some jaz lore i guess
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they are such a wholesome found family guys trust me I'm not being delusional
#squid game#squid game season 2#seong gi hun#hwang in ho#kim junhee#kang dae ho#park jung bae#inhun#(subtle)#me doing art#inho and gihun are mom and dad#junhee is their daughter#jeongbae is the uncle#and daeho the cousin#(yes i know i'm by faaaar not the first person to bring this up)#(but i felt the need to draw them being wholesome together)#also#hello dear squidgame fandom#i am very much open for requests#if anyone would like to suggest things to draw#(/nf)
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guys i think we skipped over the fact that sorvus are having their own mini solo adventure in season 6
#like guys#THE TWO STRONGEST CROWNGUARDS#ALONE BABYSITTING ZYM#so cute#yea anyways i just felt the need to bring that up#go sorvus#tdp sorvus#sorvus#the dragon prince season 6#the dragon prince#tdp spoilers#tdp#tdp s6#tdp s6 spoilers#tdp season 6#tdp soren#tdp corvus#rayllum
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rewatching s1 and in ep2 w*ndigo, dean makes a joke about not bringing provisions into the woods just to pull out a bag of peanut butter m&m’s and stick with me here, it’s why the later seasons’ “goofy dean” loses me
this moment is clearly a joke but if you think about it too much, it also makes some sense; a family size bag of peanut m&m’s is calorie dense and even the high sugar is good to keep you moving which they need on an overnight hunt. it also shows how due to their upbringing, they’ve had to eat lower quality food, things they always had access to that was cheap and also in bulk
what does dean eating ghost pepper jerky then tipping water on himself exist for other than to be a cringy joke? what does smelling old chinese food, testing to see if it's still good then shaking his head with cabbage hanging out his mouth when it isn't serve? it's just to make him look stupid and contrast sam's healthy/clean diet (and superiority but that’s another conversation) which has always existed but it used to be nuanced and natural
we see dean as a child give up the food he wanted to eat so sam could eat it. (“i’m sick of spaghetti-os,” “you’re the one who wanted them,” … “i want lucky charms!” “… there’s only enough for one bowl and i haven’t had any yet!” proceeds to give them to sam, 1x18) we know he hustled and stole food to ensure sam ate. (“so, what’d he take?” “get this- peanut butter and bread.” 9x07)
we also see throughout the early seasons dean teasing sam about his salad or healthy choice while he eats some form of burger or other fast food (or notably, cheerfully eating prison food that sam won’t touch, 2x19). it's typical sibling teasing but it also shows that it isn't new for sam to eat like that and for dean to know he eats like that
sam being picky isn't just a character trait they chose for him, it's a result of how dean raised him; he raised him to like and want healthy food and be food secure enough to reject food he didn't want
but dean eats anything he is given and seeks out unhealthy - cheap, plentiful, filling - food
he is the opposite of picky to the point of it being a consistent bit; they show him multiple times eating when it's socially frowned upon to do so eg. questioning a grieving victim when they're trying to be discreet (1x14, 2x15, 2x18)
a similar moment to the chinese food is in 4x19; dean wakes up in the car while sam brushes his teeth outside and is hungry. sam says there's a sandwich in the backseat, dean smells it and recoils bc it's an old tuna sandwich. the moment is funny on its own but it also exists as a comparison of their lives to adam's; he has a loving mother, goes to school and importantly, a steady stable childhood
it’s a joke with a purpose
it also supports dean's food insecurity; he wakes up and is immediately hungry, enough to complain about it and seek out food before anything else
dean is always hungry bc he never has access to nutritionally rich foods bc he got used to using the money he earned to buy sam's more expensive food. he got used to his cheaper, denser foods and grew up with (and continues to live with) intermittent access to said foods. think of how long it takes to drive from one state to another; how many hours it can take to see another town that offers food, if you arrive at a reasonable enough time for anything to be open. also think how they can’t keep any food beyond what fits in an esky; nothing that needs defrosting, nothing can be heated up. it’s bags and jars and take out for as long as they can trust it
then they get the bunker which has its own kitchen
dean even describes himself as "nesting" when he decorates his room, something he hasn't had since he was four years old, and he uses said kitchen to cook a burger from scratch that he is proud of. he is food secure for the first time in his life and it shows in how often he cooks for both himself and sam
so these moments where they have him acting goofy regarding food are no longer character driven and only exist as a joke which is why they come across as cringy and out of character compared to similar earlier moments
a lot of my issues with dean's characterisation started when they introduced the bunker. the argument can and is made that the reason these jokes happen is bc he feels safe in the bunker, that bc he now has a home he can relax and unmask but that still doesn't feel sufficient. they crank up these sillier moments for both of them, giving them a sort of playing house comedy vibe of two roommates with completely different personalities but it doesn't feel like an authentic progression. it feels forced; an attempt at humour for humour's sake
food stopped being an informed part of their characters and their trauma and instead became flanderised; sam is the judgy vegetarian health nut and dean is his borderline slovenly carnivore counterpart
#12 yr old dean throwing a bag of veggie chips at sams head and saying ‘dont forget your vegetables’ actually makes me want to scream#sam not knowing or not acknowledging how much dean did for him throughout their childhood kills me#hes always saying how bad it was or later on saying at least john did his best#it wouldve been so much worse if dean was just a little more resentful#its not limited to the later seasons ill fully admit that#it literally became a plot point in s7 with the leviathans infecting the corn syrup and dean complaining about eating ‘rabbit food’#bc hes ‘a warrior’ and needs his ‘road food’ while sam brings him to a farmers market#it comes up in at least two seperate episodes and it started to annoy me then too trust me it already felt ooc#its not just food moments either; i hate the food socks and his robe and playing with the sword too#whenever they decide to make him act stupid to help bolster sams smarts and maturity#something that used to be naturally occurring without tearing dean down bc deans smart too and was literally parentified hes plenty mature#the narrative tries so hard to make dean the dumb fighter and sam the book nerd and its such a disservice to both of them#dean isnt an idiot and not just about hunting; he has a favourite author and an encyclopaedic knowledge of music and movies#hes just as learned about sam when it comes to hunting and the show used to have that; even correcting sam and explaining things to him#and sams had plenty of one on one fight scenes AND fight scenes against dean that are almost always draws#you cant show them with this nuance then act like it never existed#i remember bitch#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#carry on my wayward son#talk meta to me#supernatural#spn#dean winchester#sam winchester#meta#save post#supernatural meta
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With the context that (we’re assuming) the reason the characters in Escape from the Vault are stuck there is because they’re fan favourites, Tom asking if they’re there because they’re gay is hysterical, because honestly… the answer is kind of yes
#also I know it’s been said a million times but I just want to say how much I appreciate the boys being so supportive#like having Snakehips be canonically queer#and André Beetroot too#and Fullsetto#(we already knew that but I don’t want to leave it out)#(I guess we already knew that André was queer too#after the podcast#but I still wanted to bring it up)#I don’t know what my point is really#I’m just really grateful#anyway going back to the point of the post#I know other people have pointed that out too#but I felt the need to make a post about it#so here you go#honestly these tags have been a mess#I’m fucking exhausted#shoot from the hip#sfth#sfth dnd#sfth patreon#Escape from the Vault
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SJ's internal changes (I recall it was the editor in chief, someone really influential) happening JUST at the same time it was announced the epilogue would be 5 chapters (same week) + the ending not bringing up huge plot points (where the other villains are, why theres no actual Himiko corpse and instead we got Ochako's grief over that assumption, what happened to Dabi, what was the All Might vestige, why the bkdk handhold was off screen when its a big deal for them, who is Deku's dad, etc), letting them linger in the air while trying to make an okay ending + that strange two week break because of "schedule conflicts" + choosing to end BNHA under even more pressure even tho its one of the most important manga in SJ + Horikoshi talking about the ending days after the official release and bringing up how grateful he is for being able to work in SJ, as in past tense (like he is grateful he worked here, but isnt happening again; I say this bc I expected him to say something around the lines of "I hope im able to create something good here again soon!", considering we already know he has another manga project, if I remember correctly)
Thinking about it.
Thinking about how he could let it as it is, or try to pick it up and confirm the things that do matter to his story.
Btw, im not talking about the handhold as a shipper -it was genuinely important for them, as it symbolizes both their new mutual understanding and an acceptance as the new All Might duo thanks to their respective heroisms. It wouldn't be weird to add it in the epilogue, especially considering so many characters hold hands in non romanitc ways, so to choose not to when its arguably the most important one... Idk, it felt really weird as it was the only thing I was sure would get sooner or later.
#grrr talking#I could picture him + his team deciding to not include so many things bc they dont want to waste them so quickly#i dont want to give hope to ppl who dont need it#but it felt weird to end it like that even if I can try to explain it away#the ending wasn't terrible but it skipped huge plot points#and I believe he wanted to explore them much better than 5 chapters#bkdk#dkbk#bakudeku#dekubaku#when he talked about being content with what he has drawn refers to the backstories of the OFA's users#literally in the same phrase he brings it up#plus he generally does that -he doesnt expand into everyone's backstories in the manga even if he knows the whole story#this isnt about making an open ending its about skipping big topics and themes on purpose#he could leave it as it is sure but if he wanted to actually write having more time and pages to work with#he could#again this isnt about backstories or explaining their world -its about themes he decided to skip like Dabi's and Himiko's fate#he directly didnt bring them up#he could have made the todoroki family visit a grave to finish his story but he didnt#he could have made Ochako bring flowers to a place implying thats were Himiko's corpse is but he didnt#he didnt close their stories#he implied spinner's but didnt close theirs#and the handhold it wasn't he secret he wanted to make them hold hands to symbolize the hero duo#so why not showing a small panel of it too instead of implying it?#shippers would eat it up dudebros would still see it as platonic and heroic
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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you
#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what#allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of#the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than#to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do#im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt#take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was#mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their#mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that#explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain#direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in#arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to#engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out#theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive#a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked#picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing#sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example#for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war#is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old#wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for#steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with#especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can#look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never#treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time#but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made#feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them#accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me#yapping#diary
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I sadly had to unsubscribe from Minho's bubble a few months ago because his messages were having a negative impact on me and my own recovery but I have always been too nervous to say much about skz and how damaging the way they talk about dieting and working out is, so I just wanted to say thank you for being so vocal and sensible about these things 🫂
I'm sorry to hear that, but I'm glad you did what was right for your own well being!! I think that's part of the reason why I've been so......... idk, loud? about this?
Becuase I simultaneously do have a lot of sympathy for these guys and the pressures they're put under /but/ (and I do need the record to state that I /do/ have sympathy!!!) but that is one of the most worrying things to me... They have a big, impressionable fanbase- I've complained about this before with lee know, jeongins and felix's bbl messages... like i know theres some people reading these things and taking inspiration from them- i saw someone last week when that live happened saying they wanted to try the "yongbok diet" despite felix saying he nearly fainted doing excessive jogging... so I just personally cant sit idly by and pretend I dont get upset by these things when I do... and that's why i think it is kinda important for fans to comment on these ideas and to say "Hey it's not healthy, it sets a bad precedence, please maybe rethink this." so yeah...
Like that aspect and the fan aspect are the most awkward to bring up, it's easy to be mad at the company (we should be. especially right now with what Han said. and also for the other issues like telling them what they can and cant do, etc.) but the flipside is like... I also think these guys should be more aware of their words and tread more carefully, I have no doubt that they have perfectly good intentions but that doesn't negate that some of this stuff can be doing harm... Idk it's a difficult topic... Like i didnt mention it in my post but in that very live Han made a joke about lee knows stomach being chubby and like. it was a joke but. lee know didnt laugh and i didnt think it was funny, but it /was/ a joke... yet its still that thing of like....... maybe dont? I especially worry for the korean fans bc they hear this stuff directly, no translations, no filter and we all know that korean beauty standards are already so harsh, especially on young girls... i dread to think how many of them will diet before the next fanmeet/fansign/concert whatever bc they hear their idols talking like this and Yes it's not on skz what fans do, I understand that, but we all know people do take inspo from their favourite celebrities, it happens. So wishing for a little more... care in how they talk isn't a wrong, i don't think. tldr: Div1 should get fucked. i wish skz would treat themselves kinder and take care of their health and happiness foremost, not what fans or the company thinks looks good, but also should be a little more responsible in how they talk. Fans should stop pressuring idols to meet ridiculous beauty stands just becuase those standards have become the norm.
Anyway sending good vibes your way!! wait this got long again I'm putting it under a read more.
#I actually just kinda said the same thing in a dm#like I totally understand why people dont want to talk about it bc it is a sensitive topic and theres always this issue where people#might think you're being mean to the idols or you're saying they're bad or something#and like that is NEVER what I'm doing- I believe in nuance#butn yeah#I have said absolutely everything i need/want to say on the topic so I think this will be the last i bring it up#unless something else egregious happens#like i really dont want to be a party pooper ruining everyones fun#im ostensibly here to have fun! but yeah in this instance i felt the need to say so#same with feeling the need to say about staff and the weird vibes they've been imbuing of late#but yeah!#i'll put this to rest for now#ask#tw ed#tw disordered eating#negativity#tell me if u want me to add any other tags ...#i cant tell if this is legible lol forgive me
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my capacity to see a bad fandom take and just blithely say 'okay! I disagree' internally and move on because it's not my responsibility or concern that someone else thinks that has leveled up so tremendously over the years. I haven't quite escaped the pit of misery yet but I think I'm getting there
#the ability to say to oneself 'it's okay if you don't agree with me'#(and possibly adding a quiet bitchy 'I can't force you to be right' at the end if you're annoyed enough lol)#at seeing a bad take without ever internalizing it any deeper than that... indispensible.#if someone is really unpleasantly vitriolic or reactive about it I'll just block and move on. and never think about them again#a gift for me and for them I'm sure! but as long as people are being civil I'm getting pretty good at just going 'alright.#I think you're wrong but it's your prerogative to think that. away from me preferably but still'#when I was younger I always felt like a more negative take must be more valid/see something I didn't but over time (and a lot of therapy)#that kneejerk self-doubt is a lot easier to get through. sometimes. people are wrong! to me and my experience. and that's alright#if nothing else understand your own limitations in ever changing someone's mind for them and let it go lol#when I feel the real badfeels at a shitty take now I know it's just because I'm tired and threadbare and need to sleep haha#sometimes mental health progress is sooooo... boring and low-key but also brings so much relief#like doing admin work up here. *sees something so dumb I feel dizzy* file that shit under 'not my problem' and move on chief
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YOUR TRANS LIGHT ART MAKES ME CRY ITS SO CUTE HOW DARE YOU WAAAHH😭😭😭😭😭 anywho 😋 opinions on trans L au 😖?
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AN: yes.
(as much as i love mischaracterizing them atrociously i really need to crack down on their personalities some more for better accuracy...)
#death note#light yagami#yagami light#transmasc light#l lawliet#transmasc l lawliet#in all honesty im currently more focused on transmasc light considering how theres already an amazing amount of transmasc L#i felt that light needed his turn of gender dysphoria every now and then#not to say L is safe either... experimenting with pronouns by acting out a persona that just so happens to be male#i hc L would lie every time someone brings up the idea of him being born a girl
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putting Charater through your own mental health issues will never not be Good. putting mapicc through my brain and making him actually receive the comfort I crave and having it Actually help. thats good shit
#he has depression and doesnt like telling people#its been so long though. he isnt suprised anymore when zam knows#an ask to meet at zams base which he assumes will be him needing to speak to him#he was hesitant to go.#but it turns into him beling allowed to sit an the floor#hearing the water still trapped in the prismarine bricks#zam gets him what he needs. something interesting to drink. not water and no caffeine. often orange juice#things that dont hold reminders of everyhting he needs to do#brand new blankets and clothes. sometimes mapicc will bring things from minute or spoke since theyre oversized#its so usual now that zam wont ask what he needs. he picks up on the small tells of needing quiet or distractions. contact or alone time#he almost never wants to be alone though.#after hours of laying there together#zam will pull out something thats easy to do without sitting up or needing a desk#this time its needle felting. not something mapicc would try on his own. but over the years hes gotten quite good making small comforts#it helps.#rambles#cat posting#devotion posting
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(this is tagged for it as well, but putting it here: the below involves some non-graphic mention/discussion of suicide in relation to episode 3x78)
I think it's important to keep in mind, regarding the most recent episode, that while Ashton's behavior was extremely dangerous and reckless, it was not suicidal in intent. Ashton thought it would work. They thought that they would fix things, and they ignored all the smart people warning them against it because it would imply a lot of negative things about their parents. That doesn't mean it wasn't an action taken out of a certain lack of self-regard (Ashton's realization of this is what drives much of his conversations in the first half of the episode); but it's much more akin to an accidental overdose, or a drunk/reckless driving, or other dangerous choices. It feels very true to the idea of punk that Taliesin is going for, in which dying young is always very much a possibility, even perhaps an expectation; but not necessarily a goal. Ashton did not expect taking the shard to result in their death, and is incredibly shaken specifically because it did.
With that in mind I think the party's reactions seem very real and very understandable. The fact is, when someone does something very risky and nearly dies (or even is briefly clinically dead, using real-world terms) but ultimately survives it's extremely normal for one of the emotional responses to be anger that they put themselves in such danger. It is not, perhaps, rational, but most emotions aren't. It hurts a lot when someone one is close to does something that harmful to themselves. I don't judge the other members of Bells Hells for expressing those feelings. Frankly, them not expressing similar feelings in the past might very well be why Ashton made the decisions he did: the party lacking trust and walking on eggshells around each other is why he didn't confide in them, and why they fell apart so completely here.
I think it's relevant that Chetney tells Fearne, after stating he likes Ashton, that either she or Ashton can talk to him if they "want out", and he pretty heavily implies that this indicates not just leaving Bells Hells, but suicide, and that he has considered the latter in the past. It's clear that initially Chetney considers that a possible reason for Ashton's actions. He then gives Ashton the "You should leave" speech only after everyone present has been talking at dinner, after Ashton has indicated that he will help find Laudna. It only comes out after Ashton's emotional state is made more clear to him: it's pretty bad, but not actively at risk of self-harm (and indeed, desperately trying to avoid it and to change).
Finally, it's worth considering how important anger is to Ashton. Obviously I don't think having Imogen, FCG, and Chetney yell at them feels good. I also think it's going to feel better than apathy, and more honest than any other option. I don't think a forced gentleness would be better; in fact it might be worse, with them taking a break because clearly Ashton is having a hard time and needs to recover (shades of how Marisha mentioned Laudna feeling like a burden following her resurrection), rather than "we are clearly all in disarray and all have been not dealing with a lot of emotions, and this could have been any of us, and we should all regroup." I mentioned before that ultimately what's important is, angry as they are, Bells Hells undeniably stayed, and FCG and Imogen at least made it clear early on that they would, even if they were angry. Ashton was abandoned in the past by people who weren't even angry, is the thing. I don't think they cared enough to be.
#tw suicide#let me know if you need other tags.#critical role spoilers#critical role#ashton greymoore#truly the flat out stated similarities between ashton and fcg and some people's responses have been. unfortunately enlightening.#some who claimed FCG was going to sacrifice themselves/destroy others in the grand disc and were pretty vile about a hypothetical#are quick to paint ashton in a light so sympathetic it demands no one else feel any emotions#Ashton even states his shittiness about the changebringer was bc he thought this would lead FCG to do...exactly what he did with the titans#really it brings us back to a core question: is it action or is it intent. the answer is both but action matters more.#but also. much more bluntly. some of you have never either fucked up real bad or had a friend do so huh.#this felt extremely true to life; that's really it in the end.
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#this is such an old picture posted on rob's instagram from like 2019 but i felt like i needed to share it with sunnyblr because like 😭😭#they were so silly for that#i've literally never posted about sunny on here before but like i had to bring this up#always sunny#iasip#it's always sunny in philadelphia#it's always sunny#macdennis#macden#iasip season 14#sunnyblr#it's always sunny in philly
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