#and everything is platonic (I just say ily a lot-)

[lorkai]

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Request: Can you make the brothers and the dateables react to MC that has family issues? I had a really bad family issues and I want a little comfort

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ A/N: This is really delayed but I hope you enjoy this if you're still around, anon. Ily /p and stay strong!

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Warning: family issues, toxic family, very implied usage of force in belphies part, lots of comfort, possible ooc brothers, I proofread this just one time.

You never talk about your parents and/or siblings. So Lucifer doesn't think he has the right to inquire about your life before being selected as an exchange student. But that's not to say that after you and him become close, he doesn't feel curious about your childhood memories or your life in general. He might seem like he doesn't care about these things, but Lucifer would love to know more about you and what you liked as a kid, what you did, your little adventures and such.

Sometimes he imagines younger you running through the halls of your house or singing your favorite song and he smiles fondly at the image he imagined. It's just too cute. But if by chance he finds out or you tell him that you don't have a good relationship with your family and that they were toxic/controlling in some way, know that he will be welcoming you into his family with open arms.

You're a human dear to him and his brothers, so he won't tolerate anyone treating you badly. Still, unbeknownst to you, he's probably going to put a little curse on your family members. A small price for the pain they caused you.

And of course he will comfort you the way you want to be comforted, with sweet words, with tight hugs or just being there to listen to you talk about the situations you went through with your family. And as he comforts you Lucifer thinks about how he longs to ascend to the human world and confront your family, maybe he will when you sleep.

And he will understand perfectly well if you don't want to go home after the exchange program ends. And since you can't stay indefinitely in Devildom, Lucifer (and his brothers who probably snuck in after you two) insist on going with you to the human realm to help you choose a new house to live in, in another state, in another country if you want and he will pay for everything. All for you, MC, so don't hesitate to summon or call him whenever you want company.

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Mammon always asks you to tell him about your childhood, what your family members are like and things like that. He just wants to know more about you since you're someone he loves dearly (platonically or romantically, it's up to you). He might be a little slow and don't realize that you're uncomfortable with his questions or that you're showing signs of growing up in an unstable household, so forgive him for that.

But when you tell him about the bad family relationship you have? He wants to scream about how these humans don't deserve you and that they should rethink their ways and that it's not your fault, but he puts all that aside to give you a big hug and whisper encouragement and praise in your ear. If your family doesn't love you, Mammon wants you to know that he and his family will love you wholeheartedly. They'll love you so much you'll want to run away from them, Mammon can promise you that.

He'll probably work double time to help Lucifer pay for and furnish your new home, that is, if he can't talk you out of leaving Devildom. But don't worry, he's always looking for a reason to visit you in the human world, mostly sending you videos and memes while you're away again to make you laugh. And sometimes sending silly texts at dawn saying how lucky he is to have you around. You're so unique, so genuine and cool, and he loves you and he is always willing to hear you venting about what you went through with your family.

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Levi knows the first signs that something is wrong and he can see it from afar. The avatar of envy has probably already seen this in some form of media, so he doesn't ask you about what your life was like before you came to Devildom or about your family. Instead, Levi focuses on making you have good memories with him and his brothers, hoping that will be enough to give you amazing memories and that his efforts will be enough to make you happy.

Still, if you want to talk to him about your family members or something reminds you of a bad experience with them and you need to vent, Levi will be there to listen to you and will let you hide in his room until you feel better. He won't ask you anything for fear of making you feel worse, but he will definitely hold your hand while some sappy anime is on tv.

Just like Mammon, he'll love that you stay here in Devildom instead of going back to the human world, where you'll be alone. It's much better to stay with him and his brothers, but he will respect your wishes and send you multiple messages every day.

"You're strong, Mc!" Levi tells you every time you tell him about his experiences. And it's the purest of truths, even with all the past diversities you've become a strong and kind person. And he wants you to know it and be proud of it.

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Satan, like Levi, can see how uncomfortable you are when Mammon asks you about your life before Devildom and he deduces that maybe it wasn't a pleasant life, so he always changes the subject so you don't feel pressured to answer. And the neutral look you give him is enough for him to know that maybe his assumptions are correct and that if you familiars weren't downright terrible they weren't good. Honestly Satan tests the waters a bit before asking you questions directly, he doesn't want to trigger any bad memories in you.

A fury quickly rises inside him when you finally tell him everything that happened, but he reminds you that your feelings are valid and that nothing was your fault, leaving you to lay your head on his shoulder as one of his arms wraps around your waist and Satan hums to make you relax. You don't have a good relationship with your family and he can understand you a little, after his birth he also didn't have a good relationship with his brothers but only because of his anger. And Satan is willing to make you create good memories with him and your brothers.

Secretly he, Lucifer and Belphie are plotting something against your family members, just a lesson for them to learn to be more decent humans. And even if they learn that lesson, Satan is still hesitant to let you near them and he doesn't forgive them easily, he prefers you to stay there with him and your brothers who love you very much.

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Contrary to what people might think, Asmo can be quite observant. And although he really wants to know what you were like as a child, see your childhood photos and listen to children's stories, he prioritizes your happiness much more. So he prefers to know the things you like, the things that make you happy so he can comfort you when his brothers go a little overboard with their questions. Asmo also likes to monopolize you a little mainly to do your skincare and paint your nails, this symbolizes that you are a member of his family, after all Asmo paints his brothers nails.

He has an intuition that things are worse than he realizes when you sit in his room after a nightmare and don't communicate with anyone. Ever so affectionate, Asmo hugs you and pulls you into his lap, whispering praise and words of encouragement as you mutters the memories that haunt you to him. Oh honey, you have a terrible family and Asmo is more than happy to welcome you into his family.

If you're not staying in Devildom, Asmo wants to be in charge of decorating your new home. He knows you well enough to know what you like and what you don't, so he's confident that together you'll do a great job. But be careful, he might end up not letting go when it's time to leave, he can't stop himself he loves you so much he could devour you here and now hehe <3

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Beel, oh dear Beel who prioritizes family a lot, doesn't seem to be able to process that some humans are mean to their loved ones on purpose. Maybe they like to see the tears and all the sadness and misery they can create, all the conflicted feelings and mental health impacts you honestly don't know and don't want to know. And while he doesn't question why you don't talk about your family, he also feels curious about your life and relatives.

And his eyes light up at any mention of your childhood, especially if you're telling silly things you did as a kid, he loves listening to you and could listen to you for a million years.

But when do you finally tell him about the terrible relationship you have with your family? My boy here is practically adopting you into his family without consulting anyone, nuh-uh, you're not going back to the human world and keep living with people that bad. At least, not if he can stop it. And believe me, he's more than happy to give Diavolo a piece of his mind once the exchange program is over.

Beel takes you everywhere to have dinner with him and his brothers in order to create good memories that are able to replace the painful memories of your life with those people. He's also the one who suggests you see a psychologist if you feel comfortable with it, after all he loves you and wants you to take care of your mental health, even if you think the situation isn't that bad after all. Again, if you feel comfortable of course, otherwise he can lend you an ear and give you advice for your fears and concerns.

He is much more open with how important you are and he will continue to express it through words and actions if you let him. You are family now and he will treat you with as much care and affection as he treats his brothers.

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Belphie is furious. You're the best human he's ever known, a hardworking, kindhearted human who makes him laugh with your incomparable sarcasm and bad jokes, he could cradle you in a blanket like a burrito and look at you for hours without getting tired. You are precious like that. His suspicions begin when he often notices how you dream of the same people but in different and increasingly violent contexts, and in one of these dreams you scream "Mom, Dad, stop" over and over again. So yes, he knows from the beginning how bad your family is, but he doesn't know how to broach this topic without you freezing in fear.

So he does what he does best. Every night he gives you the best dreams and removes those people from them so you can have a good night's sleep. In return, your family gets the worst dreams of their lives and no matter what doctor they visit or what medicine they take nothing seems able to make these nightmares stop. It's little compared to the pain they caused you. And every morning if the topic of your family comes up, Belphie finds a way to change the subject, usually by making up some story about Mammon.

But if you feel comfortable telling him about your family, he will comfort you as best he can, holding you in his arms and paying attention to every detail. He's not good with advice so he'll be quiet the entire time, muttering occasionally to let you know he still hears you. He can hold your hand if you get too anxious about a specific memory.

Although he wishes it's still not possible for a human to live in Devildom, so he knows you're going to have to go back to the human world at some point and he was the person who had the idea to buy you a house somewhere. The house is big enough for you to live comfortably and he and his brothers can help you with everything you need, it's the least they can do to repay everything you need.

[djpachipikachu]

do graves!leosagi ever get tired of their friends/family labelling them?? like maybe leo’s bros make fun of him for having a “boyfriend” and he gets like rightfully irritated by that ?

its Kinda amusing bc eventually leo’s family at least straight up thinks theyre just really good pals and its like wow ! friendship ! in a more oblivious sense like they just kinda shrug and go oh yeah usagi’s here again whatever

originally mikey was insanely insanely suspicious of usagi and what his relationship was with leo (“hes literally just a friend” “YOU MEAN A BOY-FRIEND. AND U NEVER TOLD US.” “what am i supposed 2 say do i update u guys every time i make a friend” “If I See This Fuckinf Rabbit Sleeping In Your Bed Again I’m Telling Dad” “WE WERE HAVING A SLEEPOVER”) (mikey was mainly shocked bc leo invited a friend to sleepover who they didnt know And leo didnt tell anyone there was an extra mouth to feed for brekkie) but once everything was smoothed over usagi just became another regular, similar to how april is

leo himself tells raph that its a little more than that but only raph rly knows it and hes always had a hunch about them so it didnt change much in how the brotjers saw the two

usagi’s family on the other hand is definitely more “Boyfriend? boyfriend? boyfriend? crush? romance?” kitsune teases usagi about how dramatically romantic it must be to fall for a guy he hated in the beginning and usagi is like . so filled with Eugh. This Is Not Romantic. ick feeling that it causes him to be more in denial at how close he’s gotten with leo (in the beginning at least , later on kitsune still teases him but he’s more at ease with how him and leo are, so he always jusy goes “ew no im not kissing him dates r gross” but over time she toned it down to more “ooh is someone missing a certain kappa?” kinda teasing rather than “whens the wedding/has your first kiss happened yet lmao/etc” kinda teasing)

hana calls leo his boyfriend like all the time and like . usagi doesnt rly correct her bc she’s 8 and he doesnt know how to explain that they “arent Really boyfriends sure they do things that couples would do sometimes but its platonic and well you dont rly know what platonic means uh”

so she gets a pass on all her “IS THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND” comments since usagi is just like “yeagh its leo u wanna say hi”

auntie notices how leo visits a lot and she kinda just is like “okay ur like my kid now. lol.” she thinks they are just best friends bc usagi said they are and who is she to think otherwise, she kinda just absorbs leo (and later on the hamatos) as her own family and doesnt question their relatiomship much

chizu and gen tend to stay out of usagi’s personal business like that But gen did think that leo was a girl for a good while before he was ever introduced to him . and he was like “usagi if you wanna pick up the ladies u need like. do better. than this” “what. What” “like take a shower man” trying to give him flirting/relationship advice without actually knowing leo at all and also assuming usagi is straight

all in all its never really serious if people call them boyfriends or just best friends bc they dont really care to correct anyone it only matters if its like “so did you hit the [insert romantic relationship milestone] phase yet haha” bc that gets tiring to hear constantly

mainly all their family is just like “oh okay” at their relationship since i dont Really want to make the hardships of being aroace or being queer a big point since we already struggle enough with that irl ! a few details here and there about how their unlabelled status confuses some people but generally just a “we’ve seen weirder shit who cares” kinda energy to it

i love rambling . Thank you for the wuestion ily /p

[kairiscorner]

peter b. parker x short grumpy reader please and thank you 🤍

anon ily platonically YES I WILL MAKE THIS, THANK YOU <333

(reblogs are greatly appreciated, it helps get my content out there! if you guys like what you see, please reblog it too <:D)

also for this, i like to think this'd maybe be an alternate earth where everything is the same but peter b is not with mj (or you can think it's a diff mj, spider mj? whatever, it's just you) and he's not married.

so imagine,

summary: peter b was the only person at the spider society who didn't see you as just this grumpy mess of a person, he knew you were going through a lot of things, who wasn't? he was willing to hear you out for whatever it is you were facing, but maybe without you effortlessly carrying a big table as he hears you out and tries to help you.

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saying peter b loved you a whole lot was an understatement, he was practically at your beck and call whenever you needed him. there were times were it was as though he could read your mind, he'd prepare things for you if you needed them, especially without you having to ask. he did whatever you told him to without question, because he knew he'd make you happy if he did it. if it pleased you or made you happy, he'd do it, no questions asked.

but the thing about you was that you kind of, sort of had an attitude problem. you'd snap at anyone who'd get in your way, literally and figuratively. this is why everyone at the spider society flocked to peter b when you'd be around, hoping he'd act like a human (or spider) shield for them, just like that afternoon.

peter was enjoying his round of afternoon coffee by the cafeteria when a bunch of spider people rushed in and hid behind him. peter sighed and smiled as he looked at the spider people behind him. "ya did it again? when i specifically told you guys not to? ah, well, don't say i didn't warn ya." he said with a chuckle as he leaned against his chair, being held up by the frightened bodies of the spider people behind his chair.

he could hear the clangs against the walls outside and the storm of angry footprints as they drew nearer and nearer, signaling these poor spider people's imminent doom. peter laughed aloud. "aren't they just the cutest when they stomp their feet? i tell you, they're so squishable." peter beamed as he gazed at the cafeteria door, counting down the seconds in his head as he waited for you to storm in a 3... 2... 1...

a loud bang reverberated throughout the whole spider society's cafeteria, with a bunch of bystander spider people looking your way as you fumed. your eyebrows knitted together as you huffed and puffed angrily, your nostrils flared up as you gnashed your teeth together, looking for the spider people who provoked you earlier.

"where. are. they." you seethed, to which all the spider people pointed to the small crowd behind peter b, the lot of which were saying their prayers and hoping they'd get out of this one alive.

peter smiled at you and waved with a small blush across his face. "hey love!" he exclaimed, raising his mug at you. "coffee?" he offered, to which you ignored and rushed straight for the spider people behind peter. "you assholes." you muttered through gritted teeth as you practically became a wild beast that ravaged through the forests of unrelenting anger. "you wanna say that shit to me again? huh? what was that about me being a harmless, pretty little pipsqueak brat?" you seethed as you took a table and pulled it up from its bolts that fixed it in place.

you carried the table with ease and threatened to slam it over their heads. "go on, tell me how vulnerable i am again, i dare you, i dare you!" you shouted, and as you did, your voice rang throughout the whole room, causing everyone to shudder as you let your aggression get the best of you.

the spider people apologized to you, saying how they didn't mean it, but when you caught them making fun of your height, complain how easy it was to rile you up--you knew they meant it. every single word of it.

peter got up from the chair and stretched a little. "love..." he said as he extended his hands towards you. "we can talk about this before you cut their heads off." he said, half jokingly because he knew you were capable of it.

you grunted at that because you really, really wanted these guys to have a piece of your mind. you were breathing heavily, you wanted to scream, to get angry, anything! but you couldn't do it in front of peter, never him. it could be anyone else in the world, but you hated showing him this side of yourself, no matter how used to it he was.

"you don't have to get violent anymore, okay? i've got you. i've got you..." he said as he slowly approached you and placed his hands on your shoulders, smiling at you, gradually wrapping you in his embrace. his embrace was always sweet, you never felt like he forced it upon you or was forcing it upon him, you felt genuine, warm love from him every time he touched you. it was, to you, the most cathatic feeling in the world.

you set the table back down, it fell to its side since you kind of threw it rather than placed it down. you felt hot tears stinging the corners of your eyes, you tried blinking them away, but they just kept coming.

you sighed as you eased into his touch. "dammit," you said as you leaned into the crook of his neck. "i'm sorry, it's just... i felt like shit today. my mission went horrible, my teammates talked bad about me--i can barely look at myself right in the mirror without thinking about all the bad things i've been hearing about me." you whispered in a regretful voice into peter's ear as the onlookers of spider people glanced at the two of you and slowly left the cafeteria one by one, the band of spider people gathered behind peter running away quickly so as not to be in the cross hairs of your anger.

"pete, i'm... sorry you had to deal with me. they were just teasing, i shouldn't have given in to their..." you choked out as tears welled up in your eyes. "i just... i've had enough of people thinking they can say whatever they want about me because i'm... because i don't look like much." you said with a slightly irritated tone, more so towards yourself.

"hey, now... you're okay." peter said as he kissed your forehead and rubbed your back. "i know you're trying to be better, i can see that. i know... i know that comments like that can still hurt you. but you don't need to do that anymore, not while i'm here." peter said as he pulled away to look at you, with such softness and care in his eyes.

you may be grumpy, aggressive, and insecure about yourself and your height, but your hot-headedness cools down significantly when peter's with you.

"you're good enough already. and i'm happy you're working on your issues... i'm right here for you if you need me, i'll teach them a thing or two for you. i promise. and no, you are not vulnerable, weak, or a brat. you're better than that, you're strong, independent, and... so much more." he said as he kissed your forehead again.

"i love you, i always will. you're doing great already." he whispered as he held you close. "thank you..." you choked out as you clung on to peter, as he rubbed your back and kissed the top of your head, letting you let out all your frustrations about the day and about everyone else onto him.

you may have been an angry little gremlin, but you were his angry little gremlin, and he'd prove to you time and time again that no matter how bad your grumpiness and anger would get, no matter how insecure you were of your height, he saw you as just right for him and would defend you to the very end.

a/n: TBH I KEPT DELETING AND REDOING THIS, I'M SORRY IF IT SUCKS THIS WAS ONE IDEA OUT OF..... 6 OR SO AAAAA I HOPE IT WAS GOOD THOUGH, SORRY READER SEEMED MORE ANGRY THAN GRUMPY

tags !! @thecoolerdor @miguelswifey04

[ultrone]

Can I please request a yellowjackets fic of platonic Jackie x younger sister reader (sort of like Travis and Javi’s relationship - maybe reader could be friends with Javi too), I don’t really have an idea for a plot though maybe some sort of tension and fight w Jackie but then everything is fixed by the end? And reader is like pretty different from Jackie - in typical sister style. That’s so unspecific I’m so sorry I suck at ideas I just crave big sister Jackie (I feel like she’d be a Nancy wheeler variant) okay ty bye ily

𝗢𝗟𝗗𝗘𝗥 𝗦𝗜𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗝𝗔𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗘 𝗧𝗔𝗬𝗟𝗢𝗥 ┊ 𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗌𝗍 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗒 𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀

cw. just siblings fighting, javi & reader being friends

wc. 1.5k

n/a. tysm for ur request <33 at first i wanted to make her an overprotective sister (so that she was kinda like nancy) but i felt like making her bratty fit better with the storyline lmaooo, i hope it's what you were expecting tho :) if not lmk and maybe i can work on a protective sister blurb or something.

"Uno! Take that!" You exclaimed with enthusiasm, celebrating your third victory in the one-on-one game against Javi.

"This is so unfair," Javi said, rolling his eyes. "Let's play again. We're not leaving until I beat your ass." He spoke with determination.

You were grateful that you had packed your Uno deck in your backpack for the trip. Being stuck in a cabin with a bunch of teenagers and having nothing to do except stare at the rooftop for hours turned out to be more boring than you had anticipated.

Since the crash occurred, you and Javi had grown close. While you shared a few classes at school, you had never spoken to him before. But the shared misfortune of being on this trip as guests brought you together — Javi accompanying his dad, the team coach, and you accompanying your older sister, Jackie Taylor, the team captain. Not to mention that both Travis — Javi’s older brother — and Jackie were being assholes.

The initial weeks were challenging, to say the least. Jackie was being extremely annoying — she still is —, constantly bossing you around and disregarding your feelings. It seemed as though she was too absorbed in her own frustrations, always venting about the unfairness of the situation and the social events she was missing out on, like Rutger's rush week and all the frat parties. You knew Jackie didn't mean any harm, but it still bothered you. Additionally, the age gap with everyone being around three years older than you made you feel like an outcast and useless. Thankfully, you and Javi started getting along. You were assigned similar tasks, such as picking berries or fetching water from the lake, since both of you were younger and unable to handle more demanding activities. Thanks to this, you began spending a lot of time together and eventually became very close friends.

"What are you doing?" Javi asked incredulously, his eyebrows furrowing. "You can't play a +2 card after a +4 card," he pointed out.

You were aware that Javi was right, but decided to push back. "Yes, you can. It's literally stated in the instructions," you replied, attempting to gaslight him.

"No, it's not. You're lying," he insisted, firm in his belief.

"Fine, you got me," you admitted, flashing a playful smirk. "I'll take these four cards just so you don’t start crying," you teased.

“Ha, ha, so funny,” Javi responded with a smile.

Interrupting your playful banter, a voice called out from behind. "Hey, Y/n," Jackie said, grabbing your attention. "Have you seen my red lipstick?"

You let out a sigh as you glanced at your sister. Lately, she had been even more irritating than usual, probably because of the problems she was having with Shauna. Not that you were particularly invested in their drama. But the last thing you wanted was to engage in conversation with her, knowing all too well that it would probably lead to another argument.

"Yeah," you responded casually, briefly glancing away before returning to the game.

"Okay... So, where is it?" Jackie asked, her tone growing slightly impatient.

"I used it to write the S.O.S message on the plane," you replied nonchalantly, as if it were the most obvious thing.

"Wait... What?" Jackie exclaimed, her anger starting to rise. "Why the heck would you do that?”

Rolling your eyes, you replied sarcastically, "Oh, I'm sorry, Jackie. I forgot that packing a sharpie was at the top of our survival essentials checklist in the wilderness."

"You didn't even bother asking me!" she complained, her frustration evident.

"Well, maybe I didn't ask because you're such a self-centred bitch, always whining about missing out on your stupid parties," you retorted, your voice tinged with irritation. "It was the only thing I could find to leave a message for whoever might be searching for us. Stop being such an ass. I mean, you clearly wanna get out of here, dont you? Cooperate a little."

Jackie let out a loud huff, her lips pursed and a deep frown etched on her face as she stormed off, making her way towards the cabin. In her haste, she bumped her shoulder harshly into Van, who was heading to the lake. "Hey! Watch out!" Van exclaimed, her voice filled with surprise and annoyance. She followed Jackie's retreating figure with a confused and perplexed expression before turning back to you. You simply shrugged your shoulders, raised your eyebrows, and nonchalantly returned your focus to the game, leaving Van with a sense of bewilderment.

Javi gazed at you in stunned silence, but he didn't utter a word. After all, if someone could understand you it was him, as he had to deal with Travis. Without saying anything about the previous exchange, both of you chose to brush it off and swiftly changed the topic, resuming the game as if nothing had happened.

Three hours had passed since your argument with Jackie. After playing with Javi for about an hour, you decided to lend a hand to Tai with boiling the dirty pads. Once you finished the task, you stayed there for a while, gossiping with her and Van.

“I’m getting kinda cold, I’ll be right back,” you announced, rising from your spot on the ground and making your way towards the cabin to retrieve a hoodie. They nodded in acknowledgment as you left.

You entered the cabin and opened the shared closet, scanning its contents for your favorite hoodie. Once you found it, you slipped it on and turned around, ready to make your exit. However, Jackie stood there, blocking your path to the door.

You tried to walk past her, but Jackie swiftly reached out and grabbed your arm, preventing your escape.“Nope, you’re not leaving. You’re finally gonna tell me what the heck is going on,” she declared, her arms folded and her stance blocking the door knob.

You hesitated for a moment, contemplating your response. "What are you talking about? Nothing's going on," you insisted, trying to downplay the situation.

Jackie pursed her lips, clearly not convinced. "Okay... Liar," she responded, tilting her head slightly.

You made another attempt to leave, but Jackie swiftly blocked your path with her arm. "No! You've been distant and acting weird for weeks. Not to mention how mean you've been towards me," she argued, her frustration evident.

"Well, what did you expect?" you retorted, your voice laced with exasperation. "Huh? The only thing you've done since we got here is complain and do nothing except act like a child. I'm scared and I miss home too, and the fact that my older sister, the person I should be able to rely on the most, is behaving like a brat, doesn't help me at all, okay?" Tears welled up in your eyes as you spoke, the pain evident in your voice. "I just wish you were more like Tai or Van," you expressed, your voice filled with disappointment. "They take better care of me than you do.”

Jackie's expression softened as she listened to your words, her remorse evident on her face. She let out a deep sigh and her shoulders slumped. "I... I didn't realize," she admitted, her voice heavy with regret. "Shit, I'm so sorry, Y/n," she apologized, her words sincere. Without hesitation, she pulled you into a tight hug, holding you close. "I'm really sorry," she whispered, her voice filled with genuine remorse.

Overwhelmed with emotions, you couldn't hold back the tears any longer. "I'm sorry too, for being a bitch," you confessed, your voice filled with regret. "I just wanted my sister back. I'm so scared, Jackie," you admitted.

Jackie gently pulled away from the hug and tenderly wiped away your tears with her fingers. "I'm scared too, but we'll get through this together, okay?" she reassured you, her voice filled with warmth and determination. "Everything will be okay, I promise," she added, a soft smile gracing her lips. A tear escaped from her own eye, reflecting her sincerity. You nodded in response, feeling a renewed sense of hope and comfort in her words.

You embraced Jackie once again, holding onto her tightly. "I love you, Jackie," you whispered, your voice filled with genuine affection. She reciprocated the sentiment, her voice soft and comforting. "I love you too," she replied, her hand gently caressing your hair.

"But, shit, I just lost 10 bucks," you exclaimed, separating from her with a disappointed expression.

Confused, Jackie asked, "What do you mean?" Her fingers continued to caress the sides of your arms.

"Javi and I made a bet about who had the crappiest older sibling," you explained with a mischievous smile. "You apologized before Travis did to him, so now I owe him 10 bucks."

"Oh my god, I can't believe you," Jackie responded, playfully pinching your side. "And don't ever compare me to Travis. I might be a brat, but he seriously needs professional help with his anger issues," she argued.

You burst into laughter. "Yeah, yeah, whatever you say," you replied with a grin, grabbing her by the arm and dragging her outside with you.

[lanaactuallyabanana]

Okayyy, I have a few ideas so Imma have a couple asks come in from me!

So, my idea is some more headcannons with TommyInnit and Female Reader who is Tommy's younger sister (So obviously platonic)! Some ideas are:

Tommy tryna convince a stubborn reader to stream when she doesn't wanna.

Tommy reminding reader about school

Randomly bursting in her room on stream when visiting his childhood home

Stuff like that, feel free to add anything else you think of!!

Thanks darlin, eat, drink lots of water, rest when needed, and take your time! No rush as always!

-Jackieee <3333

HAHAHAHA YES. sibling works are sm fun to writeee !!!! also shoutout to jackie + kenzie (follow them at @catswithroses !!) coming in clutch for me with these asks, y'all are so awesome for that ily both sm /p <3

,❝ yeah i have a sister ❞ ?

tommyinniy x fem!reader (siblings , platonic)

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: .☽ . :☆ﾟ. ───

I. LOVE. SIBLING. WORKS.

okay but tommy would be the funniest (and most annoying /hj) sibling to have in my perspective

def the type of brother to play-fight with you, but OH BOY if anyone else fought with you ...

lets just say you wouldnt hear from them for a bit

but tommy would totally want you either on his stream together or you having your own twitch

he doesnt fully force or pressure you, but he "heavily encourages" you as he calls it

you have your own twitch account and everything, but you dont have a great stream setup like him or any following whatsoever

it took you a while even to get a decent PC

also tommy would totally remind you about school you so right oml

"dude you've missed so much of school."

"aren't you literally a dropout"

"...."

hes def helping you with homework tho

if you ever do a presentation for class he's using those video editing skills to work

oh and if you somehow get pushed to stream

you would probably do it when youre home alone

just having a chill lil quiet talking + gaming stream

and then out of nowhere

"WHATS UP BITCHES YOU MISSED ME??"

"tommy what the hell br-"

he would prob calm down for your stream tho since ur audiences were so different

his chatters + mods would come down to say hello to you as well and support

his fanbase would LOVE YOU

like full on begging you to come on stream if they know youre home

but who doesn't love sibling dynamic y/n??

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: .☽ . :☆ﾟ. ───

short n' sweet lil headcanons for my faves jackie and kenzie @catswithroses !! hope u guys enjoyyy

requests are open!! come and say hi :)

[danikamariewrites]

hi 🩷

i see that you write for both nesta and manon, i was wondering if you could possibly write for mor as well ?

i’ve had this idea of a love triangle between nesta, mor and reader for a while.

i recently found your account and i’m absolutely obsessed with it, your writing, all of it !

do whatever you want with the idea, or don’t. i just thought it won’t hurt to ask.

thank youuu, ily 🫶🏻

Push

Mor x reader

A/n: a little Nesta x reader but more platonic, so I hope you like it.

Thank you anon, I’m glad your here and that you like my fics! Your compliment means the world to me 🥹

Warnings: suggestive

You and Nesta became fast friends once she arrived in the Night Court. Your love language was sharing books, which you and Nesta always did when you hung out. Your shared love of smutty books is what brought you closer together.

Mor, your crush of decades, was also one of your best friends. Unfortunately, the two females didn’t really see eye to eye. At times they competed for your attention and it was very tiring. But you split your time evenly with them.

What kept you back from Mor was Azriel. You weren’t scared of Azriel, you knew he had pining after Mor for years and didn’t want to step on his toes. You also didn’t want to assume Mor liked females as well as males.

Tonight is what pushed you, and Mor. When you, Nesta, and Mor were in the same room you could feel the tension. Nesta knew about your crush on Mor so she kept pushing you to make a move. Nesta would cuddle up to you whenever Mor was within eyesight. She would hug you from behind and kiss you leaving a loud smack on your cheek.

It always made you blush but you knew Nesta liked males. Although you wouldn’t mind getting in bed with her and Cassian. During these little moments you would see Mor get a little jealous. Which gave you a little hope.

You noticed Nesta and Cassian had been sneaking around, and you were happy for them, they were quite cute together. So you had been spending more time with Mor. It was nice, you forgot how much fun you had together.

You, Nesta, and Mor were the last ones left in the living room after a night of drinking. Swirling your wine around in your glass staring at it you held your breath. The silence was quite awkward.

Nesta spoke up first, “Well,” she dragged out in a teasing tone, “I’m going to bed. Y/n, goodnight darling.” When she gets off the couch she swishes her hips, walking over to you on the other couch. She plants a kiss on your head, winking at Mor.

Mor turns red from what you assume is anger. As Nesta leaves she swishes her hips some more, swinging herself on the door frame toward the stairs.

In an instant Mor is striding over to you and plops down next to you so your thighs are touching. You look at her giving her a shy smile, batting your lashes at her. Mor plays with the ends of your hair twirling it around her fingers. She gives you a smirk.

“Hi Mor.” “Hi y/n.” You bite your lip. You’re determined to tease her a little. The wine coursing through you was also egging you on. “Mor, can I tell you something?” Her smirk widened, “of course baby.” You felt your cheeks heat at the pet name. You liked it and wanted Mor to keep calling you baby.

You were just going to come right out and tell her. You wanted the tension to cool down between her and Nesta, and everything to be somewhat normal and happy. “I wanted to say, that I have feelings for you…and I like you a lot.”

Mor’s smirk widens into a grin. She inches closer to you and your breathing picks up, your heart skipping a beat. “Is this ok?” Mor whispers, her lips brushing yours. “Yeah.” She connects her lips with yours. The kiss starts slow and light, quickly turning deep and heated. She grips your jaw with both of her hands

Mor tasted sweet like the wine you had been drinking all night. Her lips pillow soft. You feel your core heating, your panties are soaked as you clench your thighs together. Mor pulls away, another suggestive smirk on her lips.

You look at each other with big, loving eyes, faces only inches away. “Stay with me tonight?” Mor whispers. “And let me take you out tomorrow?” You giggled, “Yes. Can we do breakfast?”

“Oh baby, I think we might be busy.” You giggle and press your lips to hers. Mor smiles into the kiss, winnowing you both up to her room.

tags: @nyotamalfoy @auggiesolovey @bubybubsters @baybay123455 @msiecrane

[arckiaym]

"Viking? Mrx. Sizukie made breakfast." "..." "c'mon... It's eggs, you like those?"

"hey buddy," "go away legundo.." "I can't do that bud."

"did you get any sleep?" "...no" "yeah..uh. yeah, me neither."

"you neither?" "Yeah, I didn't realize how much I'd like. Like I started thinking, like, if I went by myself."

"and like, it was fine. I'm more efficient. I'm faster, I don't need to hunt as much. Honestly I might've already made it, probably. I'd definitely get in liss trouble, that's for sure."

"are you trying to make me feel worse??" "Haha, no, hold on."

"what I'm tryina say, is that I'd never-"

"-ever. Want to."

"hey guys? Everything ok in here? Eggs are getting cold."

"oh! Hehe, silly boys.."

"here lemme help. Momma's gotta do everything around here, huh?"

"how y'all aren't cold I'll never know. Hah..hybrids."

Mimirs. Eepy time.

In honor of pig!viking two releasing today I finished this up faster than I intended. The brain rot has me by the THROAT

Ok buckle up I have so much to say, ok

First of all, mrx sizukie, what kind of a name is that? The kind of name when you've been following a neon orange Suzuki down the freeway for like 4 hours. Also I like to imagine that pigs don't have Mr and Mrs but just, everyone uses mx and mrx because I think ? Idk they're not human why would they have human honorifics. I'm not calling ppl who use mx or mrx non human btw, u get what I mean

Second of all, eggs? Yeah, eggs. Baby zombie piglins spawn with chickens sometimes, so. So there ya go, they have chickens, idk man.

Third of all? I let them hug, that's right!! Hug it out you emotionally unavailable pig boys!! Comfort piglin head grab and bonk also both made an appearance, hope ur happy with that. I like to think that whenever piglins go to sleep their body temperature drops so that's why they sleep in piles, and is also why they got a lil blankie :)

Also I didn't talk about the backpack last time but they've got a notebook in there! (It's vikings, it's all his notes on how to be a pig. He's learning the language in there, his handwriting is terrible.)

Also when legs flops on the bed and traps vikings legs? Did anyone else's dad do this when there was a Talk to be had? Just like sit on ur feet so u can't escape? Well mine did so that's what that's about.

I made sure to add a lot of "like" and "yeah" cause if you've ever had a Conversation then u know that those nothing words are EVERYWHERE

But yeah, legs realizes how much he'd miss viking if he wasn't around and is like "aw balls this kid is my brother"

I was drawing the last panel, the shaded one, and I was like, "am I a furry artist?" So, let's all think about that for a sec. I mean like kinda, right?"

Hi @amberstormblade ily /platonic ur writing is my absolute favorite and part two is making my synapses FIRE

[fr-wiwiw]

I miss talking about Gahan. so imma just ramble here instead.

i've been thinking again about who would say I love you first between them. The first time I know Gahan, it's an automatic to think "oh this lovely bratty twink would be the one to say those 3 words first". But then the more i dive into their characters, it would make more sense if Yohan is the one to say those words first.

Here's why, according to me, also warning this is gonna be long:

Yohan never heard those words spoken genuinely to or for him. Perhaps the ones who say it to him would be Isaac (of course), his wife (Cecilia is her canon name for me 😂), and little Elijah. What child wouldn't say I love you or I like you to their favorite person. While on the other hand, Yohan has the most experience in tragic relationships (romantic or platonic or with himself) in regards to feelings. That's why he's the sociopath we all know and love and thirst for. That's why he has a stark and clear difference between genuine ILY or not. He will rarely or perhaps never say those words to anyone unworthy of his true feelings. Elijah will of course have the VIP pass despite their relationship straying away bcs of the things Yohan does to protect his child (yes, Elijah is pretty much his niece & child, you can't take that away from me). His act of service for Elijah speaks greatly how much he loves her, he literally has done and will do everything in his power to protect her or his loved ones (that includes ridiculously pretty and hot headed Bambi that almost stabbed him with tears in those doe eyes).

Now, Gaon I'm sure grew up in a very loving family. He had healthy relationships with his friends and family too I'm sure, before fate decides to take his family and his sanity away from his life. Thankfully he has Soohyun, —no matter how much hatred we have for her, let's be real Gaon survived his days bcs of her too— both he and Yohan are big empathetic too hence why they do what they do albeit unhealthy & reckless most of the times. Remember Gaon also has a lot of fear to control him, the opposite of Yohan who reigns his fear wonderfully that's why people believe in him to do great things, and he does! He's unbeatable and always comes back on top if he's defeated. There's a reason Gaon turns to him too to do dirty things despite his disliking towards this particular decision of Yohan. There's a reason why Yohan is a beacon of light burn so bright and blinding whilst Gaon is the gentle light of hope. But again, Gaon is controlled by fear. He might and possibly fall in love first unknowingly towards Yohan once he does realize it, his first instinct is to hide it ESPECIALLY from Yohan. Why? His empathy is working towards guilt and fear. Now I won't dive into the guilt, it would be hard admittedly, bcs the guilt and fear is woven tightly together, but Gaon knows and is able to connect the dots Yohan doesn't have healthy & great childhood experiences. We know Gaon is great with strays, strays love him, they gravitate close to him. You know why else something or some people might gravitate towards an individual? They either resonate the same bad energy or they resonate positive energy. And what is Gaon? A broken stray with a warm heart. He's in-between. That's why he's confused. That's why Soohyun protects him, so protectively it becomes suffocating in a different way than Yohan's. How many people have approached him with good intentions, wanting to protect him but also ruin him at the same time? He doesn't know this. But he is besties with fear. The traumas he went through is not something a soft hearted person can overcome in a short amount of time. Yohan is built different, as we are all aware. The areas that makes Gaon weak and tumbles are the areas where Yohan will thrive and become much stronger.

So does the opposite thing. If softness and vulnerability makes Gaon strong, it will be Yohan's downfall. The proof is crystal clear the moment he realizes Gaon is his liability the first few episodes.

To me, all this is because they're not familiar with the unfamiliar emotions. Yohan with vulnerability and Gaon with reality. But both roots in the same topic, pain.

I'm sure Yohan has his fair share of vulnerable moments he's aware of but I think he never really has time to sit to mull over and accept it within safe space or reasonable time, he's always racing against time, therefore very little window of chance for him to actually be friends with his vulnerability. It's more like something he needs to protect behind his back while not noticing the innerchild he protects is bleeding behind him. The intention is good but it's not the best way.

Gaon on the other hand. His people pleasing trait is what drives him forward yet at the same time, he forgot that giving yourself too much to people will only hurt him just as much. The amount you give yourself to others is how much pain you will get. He recoils everytime this happens, giving mixed signals to people involved. His father figure (i forgot the bastard's name) experienced this. Gaon is supposed to be an enemy to Yohan but then when he's given the reality he thinks is the truth, he turns his back to the professor and into the sugar daddy's lap willingly (with manipulation involved from Yohan ngl who am I joking).

Now I just remember the professor's name, Min Jungho, you bastard of a skinny leech, kudos to the actor to make me feel angry.

Anyway— See Gaon is familiar with bad things that come with truth in reality. He's skeptical of his own reality while sprinkles positive truths to other's reality. He's so positive about Yohan, the Kang-abyss-Yohan. He even stood up for Yohan, quite literally, when Soohyun and Min Jungho said bad (facts) things about our resident devilish handsome gremlin. Even he defended Yohan when Elijah is so negative to her uncle (dad). There's few times I'm aware where Gaon is positive about his life, his future, that also is accompanied with anxiety in his part. The moment he does embrace what he think as positive, such as kissing Soohyun (sigh), she died.. in his arms no less.

This is why, it makes sense to me if Gaon locks his confession and swallows it down. Even tho his actions speak much, much louder. To me, Yohan would have the biggest probability to confess his feelings first (should the time & conditions align) and if his ego doesn't get in the way. It would help Gaon to open up, albeit with denial at first and Yohan would still be patient with this clumsy Bambi.

This, admittedly is the simple version, imo, of their miscommunication and suppressed feelings. I will tell you, these things I just wrote don't involve much of any variant of things that can make them go sideways or upside down. Such as, if they're faced with a certain problem, will my analysis stay true? What if they're in an alternate universe? Surely somethings will change and certain things will stay, but what? What if Gaon decides to be brave (or stupid and never learn) and confess anyway? What if, it will always lead to "disaster" the moment he's brave enough to take action? Or what if he decides to be brave, in means to throw his feeling away and not look back anymore yet Yohan reciprocates? Will he still be in denial or would he embrace it gladly albeit with fear when the other shoe is gonna drop? When will Yohan die? "Yohan is going to die the moment I confess, idk when, but I want to have a chance with him no matter how little time we have. I don't care anymore". Would he thought of that?

There's a lot of probability that can happen if I take out my feelings from these characters we all love dearly. Hence why we have fanfiction at our disposal for writers, artists, creators, readers, to enjoy whichever alternate or canon we can consume to satisfy our hunger. We need more domestic shit and porn of them if I may be bold— ahem. I am an artist who can draw these but I'm also an enjoyer, feed me pls I beg you. Give me more fuel, I'm greedy for them 🥲 The joy and pain being in a small community hahahah I love it all the same. I love all your edits, your analysis, the gifs, the fanfics, the drabbles, the delulu posts, everything!

I think this is one of the reasons why @amethystina story, Who Holds The Devil, is such a delicious treat for me. In some parts, most parts so far, her portrayals of Gahan's characteristics are similar to what I have in mind. And it's wonderful to see the different perspectives too from her take on their characters, it gives me more insight and more "out of my mind plot". I'm glad either way.

I have a few fanfic wips stored in my phone, 1 of them has this specific scenario where Yohan would be the one who's gonna confess first. And of course I'm making them explore their sexual experiences like a teenager and a deranged man. The perks of me never experienced any of those sexual things myself is that I can fantasize all I want and not get disappointed (yet, hopefully not) by reality lmao. TMI, my apologies.

Will these fics ever go into the light? I hope so, I just haven't invested my time into writing again as I've been investing them into my main hobby & job as an artist. I hope I can go back writing again when I'm able to set separate time for it. I want to share you some hot sexy and angsty love with this GaHan ship. There's always gonna be smut and giggling delivered by me to your screen if not tears and heartbreak like my previous Gahan break up fic ehe.

But anyway, I will stop my rambles here as I have to go back into my art commission. I need to proceed with the sketch revision before I dive into playing Monster Hunter World again

As always, thankyou if the lot of you are reading all this. If not have a great day anyways! 💖

[rebelelegance]

HEYYYY GURLLLLL CONGRATS ON 200! And thanks for the shoutout ily

Request - Long Drive

Morgan Stark x Reader - Tony and Pepper left Y/N to babysit Morgan while they take a vacation, but Morgan breaks into her dad's garage and uses his tech to drive Y/N mad. cute morgan stuff plz i loved juice pops a lot.

Of course you asked for Morgan. Of - fucking - course 😂😂

Pairing: Morgan Stark x platonic! sibling figure! reader (gender not specified)

Warnings: Morgan is a warning of her own because the amount of fluff I write for this girl is a danger to society. Also the reader is an orphan but it is mentioned only once.

When Tony had told you that he and Pepper were going on a 2-day vacation, you'd volunteered to babysit. And when they'd asked you on MULTIPLE occasions if you were sure....well let's just say you should've left this to Laura and Clint.

"MORGAN STARK WHERE ARE YOU?" you hollered. Her tent was empty and so was her room. She couldn't have gone far, and because all the avengers lived on this street, so you weren't worried.

And then it hit you. The garage.

"Oh shit," you muttered, running around to the front of the house and speeding downstairs.

Tony had met you at MIT a few months ago, your brilliance making you stand out in the crowd. When he'd learned that you had no parents, he'd gladly taken you in, saying it would be terrible to see a beautiful mind go to waste.

Of course the rest of the team had written it off as his "second nature" to take in kids like you.

Morgan had become like a sister to you, however because of your busy schedule at college and with either Tony or Pepper always around you had never ACTUALLY realized how much of a handful this girl could be.

And there she was, the purple helmet that was a part of Pepper's suit, sitting lopsidedly on her head. Panic rose in your chest as you walked closer to her. "Hey Morgan?" you called out, hand outstretched in front of you. She whipped around to face you, make your heart skip a beat.

She held a fake iron man gloved hand out. At least it wasn't real.

"Hey!" you said, kneeling down in front of her. "This was a big no - no wasn't it?" you asked, pulling the helmet off of her. Her little pouty-face emerged from under, disheveled hair and all. "It was?" she asked, her head tilted to the side.

If she hadn't already been making your last 24 hours hell, you would've actually thought she was innocent. You pursed your lips, setting the helmet onto the table.

And that's when you saw it.

She'd made a complete mess out of everything!

"Morgannn" you groaned, throwing your head back.

"What?" she asked.

You looked back at her, eyebrow raised.

She folded her hands in front of her, turning her body from side-to-side, pouted lips, puppy eyes and all.

You sighed, standing up. You couldn't get mad at THAT face.

"Alright. Let's make a deal?" you asked, looking down at her.

She put a finger on her chin, tapping away in thought.

That girl-

"Okay! What deal?"

"You help me clean up and then we get to watch Mulan before bed."

She stared at you for a minute, before holding up her finger, "And I get a juice pop."

You laughed, "What IS it with you a juice pops?"

She shrugged, "No juice pop, no help," walking away.

"Hey! I never said no!" you replied, grabbing her by her upper arm.

She giggled as you pulled her backwards, turning her around to face you.

You held your hand out, but instead of shaking it, she placed her hands on her hips, head tilted to the side.

"Where's the shorty?" she asked.

You were taken aback. Did she just call you short?

"Shorty?" you asked.

"Yeah you know, to make sure that you stick to your pwomise."

You blinked a few times, the words registering in your mind.

"You mean surety?"

She shrugged, "Whateva."

"If you help me, it's you who won't get in trouble with your dad. That's your surety."

She frowned, looking up at you with her big, brown, doe eyes.

This time you shrugged, hand still outstretched. She placed her hand in yours, and you gave her a quick handshake.

"Now let's get started."

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When Tony and Pepper got home that night, they found something they never thought they'd see.

You were fast asleep on the couch, with Morgan laying on you. The TV was on, the credits of Mulan scrolling on the screen.

"I'm going to go check the garage," Tony whispered, not believing the state of affairs in the house.

And when he did, everything was almost as he left it.

Almost.

Except for a juice pop wrapper stuck in Pepper's suit's helmet.

"I knew it," Tony laughed.

[seobseobs]

who's there

junhan x reader (no prns) • 0.5k

platonic; angst , comfort

[ tw LOTS of self loathing and swearing , not really a happy sha la la ending because it just doesnt work that way , not proofread , im going to be real this is a vent of me struggling w cluster b el oh el ]

back to suite

one thing about you is that you hide . a lot . always at your friends' doorstep and always one step ahead in making plans together , you seem to be there for people . but you would come back from the dates and the misery of your world slaps you in the face .

there is always something wrong . something good is happening ? won't be too long , you know it .

you pride in the fact that your friends could not for their life tell what you are thinking despite bonding for so long . but you also despise the fact that this means you have to be vulnerable . that no one would come to your feet because "you seemed off today ." no one to knock your door simply because they miss you . you have long acknowledged the fact , deeming it your responsibility to tell your worries , but never too deep , never too raging .

but today was one of those days where it hurts way fucking more . hell , it wasn't just today . it was yesterday and the day before that too . your world is crumbling and you still have to muster up a lot of courage to simply get told that you matter ? fuck no .

everything is your job . even making sure your loved ones see through you is your job . you hate it . you hate it . you hate it .

gritting through your teeth to keep your feelings at bay , you walk fast towards your home , not really caring if you bumped into strangers' shoulders at this point . just one more minute and all hell will break loose . just one more minute and you can fucking scream at the mean characters on the screen instead of you . just one more minute and—

"y/n?" , a gentle voice calls out to you .

"what the fuck is it?" , you didn't intend to sound harsh , and the furrowed eyebrows on the person's face makes you want to punch yourself . gaze lowered in utter embarassment , you string out apologies in hopes of not losing another relationship .

he doesn't know , you remind yourself . he doesn't get it , you suck in your breathe to salvage what ounce of face you had left .

"oh just— i thought you'd be up for a cafe hangout with me and jungsu this thursday," hyeongjun finally replies , one hand rubbing the back of his neck . "they just opened and i know you like carrot cake so," he shrugs at the end of the sentence as he explains further .

one beat of silence .

you collect yourself to answer properly whilst still in such a state but before you manage to say anything , he interrupts you . "or you can just hold one finger for yes and two fingers for no." it's not even much but you feel a slight weight off your chest , raising one finger up and the corner of his lips turn upwards as he throws a little fist to the air .

hyeongjun makes his exit known , giving you a small wave after he tells you to have a good day . you copy his actions , eyes staring into the distance hard and long until after his figures disappear .

knock knock .

five more minutes before all hell break loose .

✒ the message that i want to get across is that making someone's day less shittier means so much more than you think. so try even if you won't make their life upside and all cherries and unicorns and make them completely happy. making someone's day less bad is as still as big of an effect as making someone day more good. anw please request me lmao ily mwah mwah

[trashlie]

ILY FP 233

God I CANNOT believe we are 233 episodes in already. It feels like we were JUST at 151 watching Nol walk away from everything and everyone and here we are? 70-some episodes later? SOOOOO close to the fabled time skip? NUTS!!!! Even though at the time I’d always hoped Nol would make his return at the Christmas party, that we wouldn’t go into the time skip without resolution, I didn’t image how any of this would have played out, or what would have come of it. 

I’ve probably said it before, but I’m just.... so amazed at what we’ve gotten out of Nol since the Christmas party arc began. He’s such a difficult character for me to predict and he’s so swaddled in all of the ramifications of his experience, his trauma wraps itself around his neck like some kind of boa constrictor, so frankly, everything that’s been happening the last couple (few?!) months is INSANE to me! 

Let’s dig in! 

Honestly this conversation between Nana and Nol is much needed. Don’t get me wrong - Nol very well knows and understands the ramifications of not only developing, but acting on these feelings. It’s not that he is acting on them that is the problem as much as the fact that Shinae is unaware, the fact that he needs to have a talk with Dieter. It’s such a mess no matter how you look at it with no real easy way out, and that’s without even considering the circumstances right now. Acting on these feelings when he’s about to disappear from her life again (serving time). Did he even intend to talk to her about it? Did he even intend to try suss out her feelings, if it’s reciprocal or not? 

On the one hand he isn’t entirely wrong - there ISN’T a lot he can do at this stage. Like, yeah he can confess his feelings to Shinae, spell it out for her why Dieter is so hurt why he’s acting like that, but tit would unfairly influence her own feelings that she’s yet to have time to process. It would put her in an uncomfortable position she’s not ready to face. He could have tried to talk to Dieter before he found out that he saw it all, but what would that do in the moment? Like Shinae, Dieter needs his own time to process, to try to grapple with and sort out his feelings. He’s bound to be much more volatile if pushed right now. 

That said, I find it interesting that Nol’s eyes were closed when he said he doesn’t know where his phone is and that it’s not easy when he’s stuck in the hospital - which isn’t entirely a lie, but I wonder if it’s more that he knows he’s avoiding the inevitable, the painful and the awkward? That he’s let opportunities slip through his fingers rather than face them? idk. 

I love Nana’s tough love, though. She’s not unnecessarily harsh on Nol, even if the comparison to Rand felt like a low blow, because we know that seems to be a motivator for him. He DOESN’T want to be anything like his father and he certainly doesn’t want to treat Shinae like Rand did Nessa. 

When I first read this episode, initially I was really wary of that frame with Nol’s eyes hidden from us when he says “I would never” because man all Nol DOES is push people away. All he does is decide that he doesn’t deserve what he wants and then deny them any say in their relationship, and it feels so very much like that’s the thought in his mind. That he would never so he’ll never act on it again so he’ll shove it deep down inside so he’ll learn to be platonic. 

But listen Nol, is that even possible? He had to kick her out of his room because he could not be alone with her - because he knew she isn’t drawing boundaries and every time he toes the line she lets him because he knows he loses composure he stops thinking that she’d just look at him like *that* and he’d crumble in front of her. The problem is, he’s already started this conversation. He can’t go back on it. At some point, Shinae is going to figure out what he meant by what he didn’t say - why Dieter would feel hurt, what that moment meant for them, just like he told her to. And then what? Is he gonna play the “I have a girlfriend” card? She knows it means nothing! Is he gonna play the “Dieter likes you” card? But doesn’t Shinae get say in her feelings? 

He still needs a conversation with Dieter, of course. Nol is so unpredictable to me, but I feel like there’s no way he could move forward knowing his feelings without talking to Dieter at some point. I have no doubt Nol feels like he owes him an apology and I have no doubt that Dieter doesn’t actually think Nol betrayed him or anything. But Dieter was the one picking up the pieces of Shinae when Nol made a mess of her. He was the one who found her crying in the rain where Nol left her. He was the one trying to talk her through it - even said out loud that she loves him, knowing he sensed it was a different kind of love than how he loves Nol. He’s the one who knows how hard she’s been trying to reach Nol, how much she is afraid to lose him CANNOT lose him, how much it tore her up. 

I really want to see Nol and Dieter have that conversation. I don’t think Dieter is the type of person who would feel like he has “dibs” on Shinae because he respects her as a person and, y’know, isn’t territorial of her like she’s some kind of possession. But what he CAN lay into Nol about is the way he’s treating her. Nana is right, too - you can’t just push her away and hope all of this will go away. And Nol moreso knows better because he knows about Alyssa now, he knows about Shinae’s trauma, about being cast aside by someone you care about. Even the way she responded to him when he first touched her scar, first brought it up; Shinae has not healed completely from that wound, even if it’s a scar. 

To do what he’s done this night - to return to her and be so honest, to share those moments together when he thought everyone was asleep and then push her away, close her out, box her out again - would be devastating and hugely unfair to her. If his plan is to really leave forever and never come back then whatever, but we know better. 

I will say, though. I really enjoy seeing Nol be really pathetic about this. I am taking GREAT pleasure out of it, sorry not sorry. Especially because Shinae has already suffered tremendously over his ghosting, over the realization that someone who is so precious to her could just throw her away like that. I want this man to AGONIZE. I know he’s trying to tell himself to walk away that he can’t do this to Dieter that Shinae deserves better but I always want him to know he CAN’T that he’s in too deep that he can’t walk away from someone who care about him, someone who worries about him, someone who grants him those moments of serenity and brings him calm in an otherwise tumultuous life. 

I think that’s the thing that’s so wonderful about seeing him this miserable, too - we are so very often locked out of Nol’s mind, it’s often so difficult to understand what he’s thinking about, what’s going on in there, but we can at least tell how torn up he is. How there’s a miserable part of him that doesn’t want Shinae to figure it out, how much he loathes that he resembles his father in this way. It’s not like he set out to fall for Shinae, it just happened, it’s something that has been blooming all along in the background, the seeds were planted and tended to in all of their moments together - all of those times she disarmed him and he let her in, gave her a little taste of who he really is. Falling for her was the last thing he wanted. And yet.

And yet. 

Even though Nol is denying it at every opportunity, it’s still an indirect admission. His concern when asking Nana if she told her - we know what he means. He tells her there’s nothing going on but also states he’s trying. His attempts to deny it are futile when he keeps betraying his lies with the truth lol. 

But look, I can’t help but love how sulky and miserable he is. He made this bed now he’s gotta lie in it. 

But really, Nana is much needed at this time, because Nol’s typical moves won’t make anything better. She knows him better than that, and knows that both Shinae and Dieter deserve better. He’s not allowed to play with her feelings and then run away; he owes her a conversation, the truth, an apology. Ignoring it won’t solve anything, and pushing her away won’t fix anything, Nana gets it. Nana speaks on behalf of us. 

But Nana is also right. Shinae and Dieter aren’t the only ones affected by what’s happening here.

What a fantastic segue to Alyssa lol 

Alyssa, my messy problematic fave ;~; Alyssa my misguided lost little lamb ;~; 

I know most people hate Alyssa but I am not most people and listen, I am BIG TIME worried and scared for her.

BIG. TIME. 

We’ve known the connection between Yui and Gun Kim is close and we even know that Gun has contacts with several media conglomerates but I don’t think we really knew just HOW close he was, holy shit!!!! I cannot even begin to describe the DREAD and fear that filled me to see him show up like this. Especially like this ;~; 

Seeing Alyssa hiding in the bathroom on the toilet gave me immediate worry but fortunately it doesn’t seem like anything had happened; she’s just taken refuge in the bathroom, her shirt was thrown up on by her boyfriend who seems to have sent her a cryptic message and hasn’t responded to her since. My guess is that maybe when Kousuke punched him and he fell, a message got sent...? Maybe while people were gathering his barely conscious bloodied body and moving him into Yujing’s car? Idk! The point is: she’s worried. 

The way she’s sat on the toilet resembles the way she hid herself in her blanket at home that day Shinae visited her, a day where she was also very worried that someone was upset with her. I’m not saying I don’t think Alyssa is genuinely worried about Nol, but she does get very anxious when she thinks people are mad at her, and she knows Nol has every right to be mad at her. What she said was cruel, even if she meant it in the moment, and Alyssa absolutely cannNOT lose Nol - she needs him, not just for her career, but probably also for her protection. He’s one of the only friends she has at this time, even if she doesn’t treat him that way. And I think knowing that Rand left the party gave her some kind of indication that something is afoot, even if she doesn’t know what. 

Let’s not forget that Alyssa witnessed him jumping off a balcony into the pool below. And now this weird message? Now all these messages he’s not responding to? Rand has left? What’s going on? 

And she doesn’t even time to worry about him because Gun Kim is at the bathroom door, ushering her along, they have another schedule to make. What time is it? Are we aligned with Nol’s time? Did they stay the night at that hotel? They’re still there, at the setting of the Christmas party, not at their dorm or anything like that. They still have last night’s costumes, off to their next schedule. How long has it been? Did she sleep at all?! 

Something that really stands out is the expression on Alyssa’s face when Gun is calling in, asking if she needs any help. Maybe that expression is just because she can hear her groupmates talking about her, perfectly willing to leave her behind, but with what we know about Gun.... you can’t blame me for thinking that she, too, knows a thing or two about that man and would prefer anything but. 

One of the girls says something about how she’s always doing weird shit back at the dorm. How weird are we talking? Are we talking curling up in a ball and hiding in her blanket when she feels like things are falling apart? Are we talking coping methods for trying to deal with the plaguing feeling of knowing she’s so disliked, that nothing she does can make up for it? Or are we talking.... even weirder? Is it connected to whoever Alyssa is always on the phone with? 

The more I think about her, the more I worry for Alyssa. Truly, fearfully worry. 

Alyssa’s group is called GL4SS and the panels of her getting ready are glass shards - really on the nose there. It harkens back to that moment Shinae visited her house, where she so quickly pulled herself together like she wasn’t really moping at all, back at her violin as if nothing was amiss, nothing to see. Shinae thought it was so weird but look at how practiced it is. In a matter of minutes she pulls herself together, puts her face on - her mask, her facade, her persona - and steps back out like a good girl. 

One of my friends pointed out how very much Alyssa donning her make up was so much like Nol doing Shinae’s make up at the formal. Nol was directly helping and protecting Shinae both in putting the make up on her and taking care of her throughout the evening, and he wasn’t the only one. When she was in danger, Nol, Kousuke, and Meg came together to search for her. 

But no one is doing Alyssa’s make up.

No one is there to protect her, to defend her. 

She’s alone when she comes out of the bathroom and finds Gun Kim waiting for her, her groupmates having already left to go to their next schedule alone. 

Thinking about it from that perspective makes it feel so much worse. There is no one to protect Alyssa, to keep her safe. It is just her and an actual shark, an actual literal monster, who is to take her - alone - to her next schedule. Everything about her body language has me SCREAMING - she looks so uncomfortable, trying to shrink in on herself, arms tightly at her sides, everything about her posture screaming uncomfortable. 

But it’s the things he SAYS. That weird “joke” that isn’t funny. That pointed dig about not wanting to give them another reason to dislike her. Danger alarms are going off, this man should NOT be anywhere in her vicinity, let alone be alone with her. 

Here’s something to consider about Alyssa. 

No matter what she does, her groupmates are never going to like her - no matter how skilled she is, no matter how hard she works, because they know how she got here. They know she’s got connections to the group’s sponsors! They know Yui handed her this. They probably trained for years, worked so hard to beat out other trainees, sacrificed so much for this and Alyssa just came prancing in. 

No matter what she does, what she contributes, it will always be invalidated by how she got here. 

And despite this, she seems to be the face of the group. She’s so popular that people are already calling her overrated. She’s already been doing CFs/endorsements. She has been granted things the other girls haven’t. Not only was she invited to the ultra exclusive Kim formal, but Yui pulled strings so that she (and only she) could attend. She’s chummy with Kousuke and Nol - and we know Sumin knows/assumes she’s dating him because she pointedly mentioned how Alyssa is always on the phone. 

Her groupmates are (rightfully) jealous and she has no friends in them. The one thing she’s wanted is to belong. To be a part of something. But even in something like this, where you would expect to belong, where you work 24/7 with your groupmates, live with them, spend all of your time with them, she still doesn’t belong because of how she got there. 

Fans will never be her friend and will only ever conditionally love her. 

Who does she have? Who can she turn to? 

Yeah she has Meg, but is she going to open up about her loneliness, about what she struggles with? What if Meg takes it as a slap to the face? Alyssa isn’t dumb and she isn’t blind - I think she must know that Meg feels some kind of inadequacy measured against Alyssa, the successful daughter, the famous daughter, the one who will be bringing home money while she tries to finally finish university for once. 

And Yui and Gun Kim know this. By circumstances alone Alyssa was already isolated, has no one in her corner, no friends outside of the group, no friend in her group. And what can she do to combat that? Who can she turn to? 

I wonder if those dating rumors are going to come up soon. If everything that transpired this night/day are to set us up for the coming time skip - will Nol and Alyssa still be together? If we’re setting up for the timeskip, I think we’re about to see a major shift. 

Remember when I said that dating Nol affords Alyssa some kind of protection? While she can’t publicly say she is dating, she can at least thwart some advances privately, those who know of her relationship - like the Kims. (Though, let’s be real, has that ever stopped them? Ugh.) I think that while yes Alyssa has hung on to her relationship with Nol because she wants to keep Yui’s favor.... I think Alyssa benefits in a way Nol is very unaware of right now, and that’s why she is so desperate to keep in with him. 

But if those dating rumors come up? If she has to publicly renounce their relationship, because she’s being forced to, because not doing so will ruin her career, because not doing so will find an awful punishment for her? Then what?

I think it sets up a couple things. Firstly, I think that could be the final blow for Nol. Much like he’s wiped his hands of Kousuke, perhaps he would do so of Alyssa, because who wants to continue to play pretend that they’re dating when she has to publicly renounce their relationship? He’s tried to help her, he tried to save her, and from his perspective, it never did anything, so why waste his energy on something futile? Just like he realized reaching Kousuke was futile, maybe he’ll feel the same of Alyssa, wipe his hands of her once and for all.

But if that comes to pass, then it means Alyssa is so truly alone, so isolated, caught completely in a trap that it’s too late to turn back from, and I don’t think she’s going to be given the opportunity to escape. I’m really worried that we’re about to see Alyssa realize how very trapped she is and that this is what’s going to carry us into the future.

;___________________;

I am so SO terrified for her. ;__________;  

[laylakeating]

idk if you still stan hsmtmts but i gotta ask this: is it just me or is ej just not a very engaging and watchable love interest? like both ejnini and portwell are excruciating watches as ships compared to rini and rina. whenever ricky told the girls he loved them i believed it. you could see it in his eyes and feel it in his words and tone of voice. when ej expressed his feelings or talks about the girls it feels like a lifeless joke. yeah like yeah ily nini :)) gina’s… so great :)))) i like her a lot :)))) i don’t believe a word he says, it feels like he’s been through this before (and he has) and he’s just gonna repeat the things he did from one girl onto the next. the calling both girls a star, word for word. the uplifting them from ricky turmoil. it’s so fake and lifeless and copycat-ish.

and like yeah rini are kinda boring, but they at least had a story, and some chemistry. rina as well obvi. what the hell did portwell have 😭 mf asked a normal bare minimum question to his hurting friend one minute and was staring at her the next yet people have the audacity and the 3 depleted brain cells to say “rina is so forced it came out of nowhere and it makes no sense 🤓” the call is coming from inside the house 😭

like he should have had just a minor love interest and had the majority of his story be about finding who he wants to be instead of wasting his time trying to uplift and inspire and chase brokehearted girls.

i will alwaysssss stan hsmtmts have no doubt !!! and i'm always happy to talk abt it :D

i have to be SOOO real with you i actually like ej as a character shjshjs (shocking i know) and while i do find portwell to be like. terrible. i like ejnini and find them to be fairly engaging !! (but that might just be bc i think they're hilarious who knows)

as for rini. hmm. i kind of do genuinely hate them lmaoooo i have actually only ever watched their love confession once and it scarred me for life i wish i was joking. i also think they have negative chemistry and while i enjoy what their relationship does for their specific character arcs (ricky's more than nini's) for what it is i find it extremely trite and boring !! conceptually it's fine and it works but i think they had a lot of trouble translating that to screen and i found it reallyyyyyyy difficult to root for them in any capacity (now that i'm thinking abt it a lot of the issues i have with rini the relationship are the same issues i have with nini the character)

i do think all the relationships had sufficient (??) build up but i definitely agree with finding portwell's lacking 😭 it kind of took a sharp turn mid s2 to being a romantic dynamic instead of a platonic one and i think that could've played out a little bit more smoothly !!!

unfortunately the most interesting parts of ej (everything outside of his love life lmaoooo) are the parts that are ignored bc ultimately he was written to be a love interest !! rip. elton john i still love you 🫶

[vvindication]

8, 17, and 20 annnyyy ocs for the suffering asks

ily ghost thank u for sending me oc asks (platonic) 💖💕💞 im gonna answer for multiple bc I CANNOT be stopped

8. Do they feel glee at the sight of blood? this is such an pointedly edgy question and I love it for that. do any of my ocs ??? generally no, but circumstantially yes

this doesnt fit with my planned Disco OCs answers because I can easily say no for them off the top of my head without much thought, but I do think my Cyberpunk man Vance gets some sort of fucked up thrill from drawing blood when fighting with knives in close combat. the smell makes him sick for trauma reasons (best friend died horribly) but he's a vengeful & impulsive adrenaline junkie, ofc he likes getting into risky fights and making his enemies bleed

funny thing is he almost always feels guilty about hurting people anyway. hes just very good at hiding it under a sarcastic veneer <3

17. What little regrets do they have? ohhhh okay this ones gonna be more difficult for me. I always think about the big hard-hitting stuff (as seen below . um) lets see ...

Vincent regrets not being able to identify unclaimed deceased. does that count as little? actually compared to everything else he's got going on, yeah, im counting that. he regrets plenty of social interactions, not being comforting enough for distraught civilians, not being supportive enough for fellow officers drudging through the same soul-sucking work he is. he always wishes he could do MORE to help others, but hes just one neurotic little man surviving day to day in a war-torn city, in a barely functioning police force

I know for sure theres shit im not thinking of with my other beloveds but now im super stuck thinking about codependency cause I wrote that answer first. oops. codependency ..........

20. Are they codependent? Do they have abandonment issues? YOUVE ACTIVATED MY TRAP CARD !!!!! this is one of the fun new characterizations im leaning into hard for Mr. Travart and his very apparent relationship problems. hes been abandoned A Lot (both by choice and by tragedy) and it fucks with him so much. he wants to be loved so bad that when he finds an ounce of it he'll give his soul for it. yaaaaay codependency !!! 🎉💖🎉

this is a big reason he falls for Arcelis so hard when flirted with. he wants to think somebody actually wants him for who he is, even if he is a corrupt politician blatantly manipulating him, and it (obviously) gets him into a fuckton of trouble.

basic history behind this is he and his mom were abandoned by his father before he was even born, his mom died as a teenager, the uncle who took him in literally only did so as a favor to his sister who'd died and treats him like shit. I think part of him thinks he has to Make Up For Something because people keep leaving and he wonders why HE hasnt been a victim of circumstance yet. why does he have to stay and suffer?? not even to mention Arcelis breaking up with him and Joakim dying for him ...

he doesnt unlearn this by the time he gets involved with Harry OR Kim. thats a point I particularly want to make. he isnt magically fixed by these relationships and would sacrifice his own life for them in a heartbeat whether they appreciate it or not. something something ... life without them would be more painful than dying. at least he wouldnt have to face more loss that way

... can you tell Ive been writing some heavy shit lately. hehe ^_^

[mel-loly]

MELLL YOU ARE LITERALY THE BEST!! so sad that you had a bad day :((( you always deserve the best you are amazing even if you dont see that!! and i will always tell you how amazing you are even if you dont agree, im lucky yo have someone like you in my life/someone like you wanting to be with me and im super happy everytime you talk to me!!

answearing you question i am ok im just having a bit of a headache but i will be fine <3 ily!!!

I- I......I'm literally crying right now, and I'm REALLY not joking....My day really was pretty bad, I just didn't want to say that because I didn't want to worry you or something, the only thing I want rn and that I promised myself is to see you happy, to see you well, so- I... I just.. I love you so much, Mike, I love you so much that I think 30 or 40 minutes have gone by thanking God for having you here, being so kind and loving to me, and everything went in its time.. It may have taken a while, and that I have suffered because I really always loved you, but it was worth it, and I'm glad it was like this and not in a hurry, because of that we are now here, together! It may be platonically, but if you saw how happy I feel to be with you even in a different way, you would know too how happy I am to have received this ask after a very difficult day...

Thank you so much for everything, Mike, not only for sending me this ask of affection and love, but also for everything, for being who you are, for being faithful, for always being with me at any time, for being sincere and respectful to me also too.. Thank you a lot, for everything, I love you, Mike, and I love you for real, I don't love you for the way you treat me, but for who you are, for who you showed yourself to be and still show yourself to be someone more special than anything in my life, because you are amazing, someone who has always made me happy with everything you do, not EVERYTHING but you understand what I mean, right?? Lol- at least I'm sure that now I'm with the right person, and even with the person I always wanted to be with! Without lying- my dream was this, being with you, so.. Yeah, I'm super happy to be with you, and now I'm even happier to receive your affection so loved and kind, that I always love to receive, in a difficult day! Like- as I always say and God always knows I'm right, "you always make my days better". Anyways- thank you so much for everything Mike, you are amazing, with a big heart and very kind, I hope I can repay you all that affection when you need it too/or not need and want anyways! I know it won't be AS good as yours but I will always do my best to see you happy, I love you a lot, my special kind silly💛

Oh, I hope that in all this time it took me to answer you it has already improved a little, if not- I will pray for you! I hope everything goes well! ily a lot more!!! <3333

[uncouth-the-fifth]

I LOVE UR SPN REWRITE SO MUCH!!

i literally love love love the platonic love between dean n reader n the love between sam n reader n i love how u show the love through small domestic moments that transcend time. everyone thinks love is big gestures but love is hidden in small moments n u encapsulated that perfectly. i also love how u put reader thru so much shit n she’s so layered. she’s my fav spn girl reader EVER. just wanted to say i love the way u write a lot, the way u write characters n love and everything

THANKS UUUU. and oh my god you GET IT. you UNDERSTAND!!

i think it's safe to say that spn leans really heavily on those big "I'm sacrificing the whole world for you" moments that all the little things sort of get lost? at least from my pov. a part of it too is how sam and dean are raised to be all surly and macho, where one "ily" is too much, so i LIVE to sprinkle in those little good bits. if they're not the type to say out loud how much they care about each other, then of course I'm going to write dean throwing blankets on sam when he's cold!!! and sam caring to remember the movies dean likes!!! it's more special that way!!! reader falls in line with this too, which just makes the writing feel so much juicier to me.

speaking of her, omg. i was a bit worried that she's got toooo much packed on top of her, since she's supposed to be a mostly blank slate that people can project onto obvi, so that is so relieving and sweet to hear!! tbh her being psychic and fancy is completely a result of 14yo me on wattpad growing my individuality complex, but hey, at least it's entertaining.

i think it's so awesome just how many ppl have gone out and rewritten spn (i also think that it's deeply hilarious considering just how rewritable it is), so I'm so flattered that you like mine!! have a great day broski <3

[katherine-mcnamara]

hey! it's been a hot minute lmao but i return! i was wondering, is there someone i can find more info about your muses? -rph server person

Hi there!!! and also Happy Hannukah or Merry Christmas eve or just Happy holidays if you celebrate you amazing kind person! 💕💕💕💕

I haven't rped outside of jcink really  so sadly there is not! I did put a couple of my faves personalities under the cut however from their bios. so IDK if that helps sorry i am so difficult ily

Tw’s for cass and ronans bios I think. And some of these are long bc..... I love them. I have like 70ish chars so ADLFASLDLF rip  and i mainly play in fantasy/powers type genre so there will be mentions of that.

Cassia -  Katherine McNamara

Cassia was taught from a very young age to hate herself and everything different about her. that she was wrong, a monster, and that she would only bring death and pain in her wake. something she still believes to this day, it’s not something you just simply decide to stop believing when everyone you’ve ever loved died as a result of something you couldn’t stop. she has failed to protect everyone, and that, in her mind, just proves her father right in that regard. she has a lot of self loathing and self hatred.

But she is not her father. and she refuses to be associated with him. she doesn’t believe in his work either. she is very pro supes. she’s pro a lot of things that she was ‘made’ with the intention of eradicating and being used against. and while she’s not a people person, while the very thought terrifies her, she has no problem standing up and being in the way when it counts.

She’s a selfless person with an extremely altruistic nature. she sees nothing wrong in hurting in the place of others. especially those more deserving of living and of being pain free. that isn’t limited to people she knows either. she would put her life in danger for a perfect stranger without even thinking twice about it. the nature to protect others, is very prominent in her. no matter how much she tries to play it off or act like its the same as anyone else would do.

She cares about people, and while she can’t really say it, she can definitely show it and she does in both subtle and not subtle ways. she doesn’t let anyone she cares about not know it, whether that’s through touch, looks, concern, or just constantly checking on them. or even just using a softer voice with them, or listening to them more than she would a normal person. she’ll never walk away from anyone she loves. and make no mistake she does know what love is. and she is one of the people who loves deeply and without remorse over it. both platonic and romantic. she rarely makes the distinction because to her they are both equally as important to her. one isn’t less than the other.

Part of her resistance to let the words be out there, to really throw her cards on the table, to even consider a relationship, or anything else of permanence, is that she has a huge fear of abandonment. of being left again, of not being enough. she’s suffered so many losses, so many setbacks, messed up so many things, and hurt people, that she doesn’t think she ever can be good enough for any of that. never mind deserve it.

She’s been broken and remade in the name of one man’s mad vengeance quest, and then broken again through even more tragedy and loss. but she clawed herself back up and rebuilt herself. she’s made of iron and steel. that’s the one thing people forget when they set out to break someone. to strip them down to nothing for their own purpose. they forget that the person knows what it’s like to be at rock bottom. to have nothing, they know what it’s like to go through the worst in life, and survive. and that’s cassia at her core. she’s a survivor. she will walk through hell and come out of the other side. no matter what you throw at her, no matter what you do to her, she’ll survive, she’ll push herself back up from the ground. because she’s endured worse and survived. so she knows she can. and god help anyone who pushes her to that extreme.

She’s not hard to get along with or speak to, she’s a good person at her core, and as much as social situations make her uncomfortable, she won’t be rude about it, unless the other person is too. she tries her best and that’s all she can do. but if people start unnecessary drama, she’s out, she’s gone, she will climb out the window if she has to. that sets her anxiety right off and she doesn’t know how to deal with that. and she doesn’t think she should have to anyway. she has social anxiety, so she's not the best at making friends. but she does try to keep the friends she has. even if she can’t really handle a lot of attention.

Cass has a penchant for trouble. she has a sarcastic sense of humour which doesn't help and she will make jokes to ease situations, or just because she thinks it’s funny. even if it might not be the best time or place. her mischievous probably doesn't win her any points either. another thing that probably doesn't win her any favours with some people is that she won't hesitate to call someone out on their bullshit.

She finds it almost impossible to trust people. it would probably be easier to win the lottery than it would be to earn her undoubting trust. she'll always have that thought in the back of her mind that it's a trick, that she's going to end up betrayed all over again. though she's not intentionally cruel, she's actually quite shy. but after her father all but tortured her, she finds it hard to accept kindness, her lashing out with words, and sometimes physically is just her way of trying to protect herself. it's an unhealthy way to think but she knows no different

Though while she's bad with trusting people, she does build up affection for people in her life and she’s naturally softer with them both emotionally and humour wise, without noticing. her loyalty can be earned, if you can put up with her. and to those people she's extremely protective of. there isn't anything that she wouldn't do for them. legal and very much illegal wise. she would legitimately die for those she cared for. and while she can't trust other people, she does help people if she can. whether that be with giving them a roof over their head for a few nights or hurting someone who has hurt them. she's a giving person deep down. and she knows what it's like to suffer, and she doesn't want anyone else to have to.

She doesn't really advertise she's a hacker to unknown people. she has circles she travels in that get her steady business, and if she feels like it she can hack into a huge business and siphon off some cash without them ever being able to trace it back to her. though she's only done that twice before, and neither was for her own benefit. it was for the benefit of people who needed and deserved much more than money from the companies that had fucked them over.

She was always a bit of a computer genius and hacks into anything no real questions asked, for money. it's not her dream job, but it lets her feel like she has control. control that she'd been missing all her life. and that’s a huge thing for her, to have control for once, it’s why she can freak out if she loses control of a situation. she never learned that not being in control isn’t always a bad thing.

She'd assist wanted criminals much more than she'd help the police. it's not morally correct but she's gotta pay her bills somehow. and it comes with the added benefit that she has contacts in very dangerous places that she could call on to help her out and they gladly would. because she’s helped them in the past, and she despises the police a lot more than they do. she has the trust of a lot of dangerous criminals, and vice versa.

Nobody's perfect and i can see people not liking her at all. she's insubordinate, reckless, impulsive, sarcastic. all that fun stuff that makes her not the most easiest person in the world to like. she might be a pacifist to some degree, in the regard that she doesn’t want to hurt or kill anyone, and she probably couldn’t take any more blood on her hands, but if she has to step on a few toes, or break the law. it's worth it to her to protect those she loves.

Cassia never attended any sort of school or college, she never had a mainstream education. though she was taught the basics in the program she was confined to. but there was something about that, that, when she was able to, she taught herself more than she needed to know. it was like she was trying to make up for things she had lost by proving to herself that she could hide scars and faults and damage under intelligence. and she is intelligent, she has a big iq, and she studies things for fun, even to this day.

People could say that cassia has a high pain tolerance, but, with her, it's not that she doesn't feel pain, or cry out after a point. it's that she's just used to pain and torture. it's true that she'd most likely have more of a reaction to emotional pain than physical pain, something that she was trained to be used to. she could get injured and not even notice she was bleeding. because it's something she was so used to that it doesn't even register in her mind to check on herself. it just happens. she's also stitched herself up more than once.

Cassia has trouble with doing nothing. she can’t really stay still, she always has to be doing something, always has to be on top of things and stimulating her brain. she gets restless super easy and part of it is that she’s not good at thinking things through. she acts on impulse. she doesn’t wait she leaps into things head first with no safety net. which is both a blessing and a curse. she’s always been impulsive.

She has a heavy heart, and she feels things intensely, especially negative things like guilt and remorse. she will forever carry the guilt of things she’s done and caused, of the people she couldn’t save. she’s hard on herself and she doesn’t let herself forgive herself. she doesn’t seek out forgiveness either. doesn’t think she deserves it or ever will.

She's the type of person to face her fears head on when challenged with them. deep down she knows the only way to overcome something is to stand and face it. she spent years running from her problems, from everything she fears and it only ends in disaster. people get hurt, she gets hurt. but sometimes she forgets that she's just a human being, that she can hurt and feel and fail. that she can feel fear and have things she's scared of losing. just like she has things she's scared of.

Her own emotions are often strangled and pushed to the back burner, in aid of helping someone else, or in aid of not feeling them and their effects. she hasn't cried in several years for example. and she knows she struggles with putting herself first, with dealing with her own emotions. but she's a master at compartmentalising and acting like nothing is ever wrong or gets to her

.On the fear front, she hates being in small, cramped spaces. she loathes elevators, refuses to even get in them. it's a fear dating back to where she lived most of her life in the labs. the cages, the tests. the confinement. forcing her into a situation like that is a guaranteed breaking point. she also has a fear of birds.

Lunara - Hande Ercel

despite being sick since she was a baby, lunara has a very lively and playful spirit. she often finds ways around her illness to do things she wants to. and even as a child never let it really control her. her vivid imagination only growing stronger as she got older rather than dampening

due to being sheltered all of her life, because of her parents beliefs and who they were, she can come across as a bit naive and like she lives in an entirely different world to the one she's actually in. often having to be snapped out of her daydreams, something she used to cope when she was isolated by her parents with nobody to talk to.

this has led to her not being very good with strangers, she's extremely shy and often trips over herself and her words when she meets new people. however she is extremely kind to everyone she meets. friend or stranger. she finds it hard to hold things against people or to not see the good in others. her patience is unmatched.

she believes in herself just as much as she believes in others, she knows her value so to speak. she tries to be as independent as possible, a need striving from her years of being suffocated and sheltered by her parents. to be a burden is the last thing she ever wants to be. despite this she does falter sometimes, and will seek reassurance from those she trusts.

loyalty and bravery run deep in her core. she'd never betray anyone she cared about, no matter what bad things befell her for it, and she would go to the ends of the earths for her loved ones. even when she's scared she can find the courage to push through and be brave. for herself and others.

lunara is an extremely affectionate and caring person. she is in love with the mere concept of romance and love and believes in soulmates. though, she believes there can be more than one. in her own words, a soul is a very large and magnificent thing. people have so much love in them and she believes that loving someone or multiple someone's is just part of nature and doesn't detract from any other feelings or relationships.

Shiloh - Steven Yeun

Shiloh has a way with animals, he can communicate with them, though his strongest bond, and link is to nola. electus realised early on they could get him to tame their animals and keep them under control. which, usually he does without question, because he doesn’t trust them not to hurt the animals given how distressed his own was when he first saw her again.

He has a better grip on english than he did 90 years ago when he first landed in superno, but that doesn’t mean that he still doesn’t use the fact that it’s not his first language to his advantage. if he doesn’t want to talk to someone or is trying to get around something he’s being told to do by the higher ups he defaults to acting like he can’t understand them/his english isn’t as good.

Though he understands almost perfectly. he’s very resistant to actually speaking of his own accord. that is, unless he has something worthwhile to say. he’s more than happy to go days, even weeks sometimes without talking, until someone strikes up a conversation with him or asks him something. he’s never been one to place himself into things just for the sake of it.

he tries to see the good in everything, and the good with being stuck here is his family, the troupe, and he looks out for them the same way they do him. in any way he can.

He enjoys the simple things in life and doesn’t take them for granted. he’s very calm and relaxed and has a happy go lucky attitude that he tries to cheer others up with. they’re all dealing with their own personal hells and demons, shiloh has picked that much up. he doesn’t want to be someone who only adds to it.

He’s a friend to anyone who needs one, though he doesn’t jive with anyone who is being awful for awful’s sake. and there’s only so much stupid he can stand before he shakes his head and walks away. real connections mean a lot to him and he values the people he has in his life. any troupe member can come to him for anything and he'll make the extra effort he wouldn't normally with them. because the troupe is his family just as much as his animals are.

Romance is whatever really. he’s not going to fall into bed with anyone who bats their eyelashes at him but he does like the comfort of sharing something intimate with someone when there’s a level of care and love between them. aka i don’t even know my dudes, he likes who he likes and i’m not gonna get in his way if it happens.

Ronan - Dominic Sherwood

he ended up flunking in school. he'd always struggled in school, always struggled in general understanding things. but lord he tried. he tried so hard at everything he put his hand to.

He became reliant on his humor and his sarcasm to get him through each day. making a joke out of yourself is easy when you've been made to believe that you're the worst person on the planet and make your family's life hell. 

he soon learned the only good thing about himself was his looks and used those to his full advantage. he even stars in adult movies when his labouring work dries up. though he gets so out of his mind at the time he couldn't tell you the first thing about them.

He's not the type to give you the shirt off his back, mainly because he likes being alive too you know. but he's not going to leave someone to die and be an asshole either. not unless someone deserves it. basically don't fuck with his brother and you'll be golden. he might be the youngest of the two but he's always been the more protective of the two and the strongest. his brother means the world to him and he'd take a bullet for him any day of the week.

He has a strong moral compass, if he's against something then there's no budging him on it. he doesn't give a shit if someone else wants to do it, he ain't your mother. as long as you don't expect him to follow suit. not unless he wants to.

If he's helping you, it doesn't necessarily mean he likes you. don't expect something from him, and you won't be disappointed. it's not that he doesn't like connections. or isn't a rather friendly person when someone isn't trying to hurt him. but they're all trapped in the city, and given his past. you're going to have to excuse him if he runs a mile if someone tries to cling to him or force emotion down his throat. him caring about anyone, unless he knew them before would be a slow process. most people are going to give up long before he starts to feel anything for them.

Humour is his comfort of choice. he has a kind of cheesy, self depreciating humor that's mixed with sarcasm that he leans on like a crutch when he's uncomfortable or stressed. it was a coping mechanism he learned early on in his life and it's served him well.

You can try to get him worked up, but one thing he's learned in his life, is to internalise his feelings and not to give away what he's feeling. you'd have to push him a hell of a lot to get an emotional response from him, and even then it wouldn't be a positive one. let him warm to you gradually, don't try to push him. not unless you want to be met with extreme aggression. i guess he's a bit like marmite. he doesn't go out of his way to start things either. but he'll definitely finish them.

Flirting is like breathing to him, he does it automatically without thinking. 99% of the time he doesn't even mean it. it's just his nature and what he's done to survive. he's gotten by on his looks and his charm for so long it kind of blended in to his personality. he can be warm and loving and soft however. but it would take a miracle to get through to the deeper sides of him.

Ceren - Cemre Baysel

born into a prominent coven of witches descended directly from a royal bloodline. all of the hazan children were destined for great things as foretold before each of their births. the twins were no exception. before ceren and her brother’s birth it was said that they would be the ones to end centuries long feuds. a grand prophecy for the youngest children of the bloodline who were expected to not have much powers, if any at all.

coming from such a prominent family all the hazan kids had their lives pretty much set out for them before they could even walk or talk, and the twins were no exception. though they were both a handful in their own way. much to their parents and nanny’s chagrin.

bubbly and inquisitive, ceren was more of a handful than expected. she wasn’t a trouble maker per say, but she was one who was always getting into stuff and sometimes that meant trouble. she was a dreamer and curious, wanted to know the hows and whys of everything.

she frustrated her parents to no end. especially when she clearly didn’t share their same views on other species. no matter how much they tried to scare her or terrify her of others. she just got more curious. they almost lost their minds when she befriended a vampire and when trying to scare her over what vampires did to fae didn’t work she was banned from seeing them.

she trusts easily and wants to see the best in everyone. due to years at the hands of her abusive and controlling parents, she's not very knowledgeable in the world or in reading people's intentions. she also doesn't have much self esteem and blames herself for everything. but she tries her best. and in the end just wants a simple life full of affection and love