#and everything is out of our control

[the-celestial-bitch]

i think what most people fail to understand is that theres no fucking way that israel intelligence community wouldnt know about the attack that happened. they have spies literally everywhere and theyre frighteningly good at their job, just look at some cases of them stealing data from other countries and you will see. so the most likely scenario in my head is that israeli government decided to let the attack happen, let the people die, bc of the greater good of forcing more oppression onto palestinians and deeming any of the activists as terrorists. now they can say "look its not our fault!!! we're doing this for the security of the country, not just israelis, and our laws and legislations are only to control the terrorism" which is a big fat lie.

people need to understand that when oppression gets too suffocating radical groups are born. this is why there are alt right muslim extremists in europe, bc theyre being actively oppressed. but what they do benefits the government (as in, they can now point at the extremists and claim all muslims/middle easterns are like this). so in the end, theres a high chance that the recent hamas attack will benefit the genocide of the palestinian—a truly ironic tragedy, the acts of which we (the middle easterns) already know from memory.

my heart goes out to all of my palestinian siblings. i hope the nightmarish genocidal machine of israel finally dies, and that you can experience peace in the end 🇵🇸

[akiacia]

the things that come back

[dykedvonte]

That last anon had me doing double take to see if I misread it. You've never babified Curly at any point, in fact I think you honestly have the most realistic take on him based on canon. When I see an analysis from you I know what your saying is based on all the things you've dug through in the game itself and I appreciate that.

I think it’s very much looking a surfer level reasons and not attaching the character’s motivation and internal concerns. What they are known to do in situations and how they think about the simplest things. Like Jimmy not being sentimental about the rope but Curly is and their little bet. How Jimmy hates that the playlist survived but Curly mentions how it’s been around so long cause he thinks it’s perfect.

I try to make it clear Curly has culpability in the situation but I think it’s being misunderstood because people don’t understand that the game is about what Jimmy did, not to the Tulpar and Curly but what he initially did to Anya. It circles back that time and time again yet people are trying to act like Curly could’ve erased it if he beat the shit out of Jimmy after. That’s an act of Jimmy’s character Curly had no effect on and due to his character, it would inevitably lead to him doing something drastic to avoid responsibility.

Me acknowledging that shouldn’t mean I’m babifying Curly because I don’t see it as a plotted act against Anya or Curly not genuinely thinking he’s helping both of them and that he shouldn’t help them both???

[yellowhollyhock]

nah but it's so wild because like. It's almost a normal 'sibling growing up' story, where you understand why the younger ones feel betrayed and abandoned, but it hurts to see their anger or closing off directed at the older sibling who literally just went through a normal developmental stage. But then they both grow a little and it all smooths out even better than it was until a few years down the road you got the second half, where the older sibling feels betrayed by the person they've always seen as a kid becoming their peer and standing more on their own. And it's all understandable and it all hurts and it all smooths over.

Except with tmnt 2007 they're all adults together and Splinter really said 'It's time for Leo to go on a journey of self-discovery, he needs opportunities for further growth and he shouldn't be relying on us anymore. The rest of you should go outside less but I guess you can have jobs if you want.'

like bro they would've been on that journey together, the 'growing up without me' angst was literally unnecessary because they were all growing up. At the same time. Together.

Being the most skilled and obedient student was the only mark of maturity Splinter was willing to recognize when his sons were all becoming adults in front of him and he manufactured a divide that literally did not need to exist

[hermes-helpol]

Sitting outside during a storm, watching, listening; enjoying the rain and the lightning and the thunder and thinking of Lord Zeus.

Thinking about his stories; what I know and how much I know I'm oblivious to. Wondering what I can learn from him. Reminding myself to research him later.

Thanking him for the storm. For every drop, every flash; every rumble.

Thunderstorms are something we have always adored both collectively with my system and together with our family/mother. But this one was truly magical because I got to experience it with Lord Zeus in mind.

I love religion 💜.

[werebutch]

Oversharing 💪

Probably insensitive but if my disabled dad cannot function well enough to heat his own food up in the microwave, take his cup to the sink, throw his trash in the garbage bin, what am i supposed to do? What is HE supposed to do ? And how much of this do i question without being an asshole? And seriously truly what the hell am i supposed to do?

I KNOW he can do the above things. He’s physically able, he can walk, but he has pain and will sometimes faint bc of blood sugar and stuff. But most of all he says he’s too weak to do that stuff. There was a time after he got out of the hospital + physical therapy where he was able to walk around and do stuff. It was difficult but he could still do things like walk around a grocery store or do dishes. Btw we have a dishwasher — when i say do dishes i mean just simply put them in the fucking dishwasher. Idk. He doesn’t manage his diabetes well at all, so he’s constantly in a state of crisis bc he neglects himself. Anyways. My question is, if he’s too weak to do that stuff anymore by living at home (he works from home, so he’s not even exerting energy by working. He’s on his phone most of the time anyway. Cleaning up after himself is pretty much the only thing i ask of him), why the fuck is he letting himself be that way. If it’s possible for him to not be as disabled as he is, why is he not trying even slightly to make it easier on himself? He hates being this way

He’s told me so many times how one day he’s gonna get more physical therapy done and he’ll be able to hike w us and stuff, which is smth we all like to do together. He’s holding himself back — im not saying this in the dumbass way where will can overcome all disability but i AM saying that there IS a realistic way for him to improve and yes, he is too depressed to do it, but he’s also a grown man who has his family begging for him to get somewhere with this . You don’t think I’m depressed too ? yet I still force myself to do all this because I care about my family. You’re grown. You have to choose at some point. After years and years of this and after so many people support you, i genuinely cannot sympathize with the idea that it’s out of his control anymore

What am i supposed to do? Am i just supposed to accept that he’ll never be able to do anything himself and just let him have that? I’m literally fulfilling the housewife role, physically with tasks, emotionally, and parentally, and it’s disgusting to me. He works from home all he does is sit at home apologizing to me over and over about not doing anything, but still not ACTUALLY being sorry enough to do anything about it. And ofc i say it’s ok bc what am i supposed to do. I’m tired of wrestling myself back and forth thinking im bad for expecting anything of him -> getting fed up with doing everything for him -> thinking im bad again. And yeah maybe one day out of every 2 weeks he’ll have a day where he’ll clean the kitchen or get all the trash up that he throws down by his chair and throw it away. It makes him feel good, it’s great. But as soon as it’s done, he continues not putting in any effort. You are tired from going to fucking Walgreens? From putting the clothes away that i washed dried folded and brought to your room? So you just throw them on the floor and now they’re mixed with the dirty ones so I have to wash everything again, because you can’t remember what’s clean ? And you’ve taught your (now adult! Adult!!!!!) kids to behave in this helpless way as well? Now they think they can scream in my face if i tell them to take the garbage out a second time because they didnt do it the first time i asked ?

If it’s true and you’re tired, then you need physical therapy. Walking to the kitchen should not wind you, your illnesses don’t explain that. It’s simply because you haven’t built your muscles up enough to do that, which I understand because it’s hard, but what the hell. Our insurance will cover it so there’s no reason not to. Also, my dad is known for being lazy even before he became this disabled, so how do I know what to question and what not to? I’ve caught myself being an asshole to him but I’m also tired of him choosing helplessness, it’s so hard. Obviously he is never going to be at full strength, i don’t expect that, i just expect him to pick up after himself and just help me a little. Please

And I don’t even know if my complaints are truly valid (hate that word but ok -__-) bc 1. Could be way worse like years ago and 2. Is it really that big of a deal to clean? Except yes it is and no one understands how disgusting a house can get unless you are in this situation . Detrimental effects on my mental health no matter if i choose to clean or not. So idk. Or the secret third thing which is most likely - I’ve been depressed for so long, houses we’ve had have always been gross + cluttered bc of mental illness in the family, so now as an adult my threshold for what i can stand is very small, bc it’s been built up this whole time with no breaks. So yes it’s bad here, but I feel so stressed bc of the history of it, not just current events... I just feel sooooo trapped lol like this has been going on forever and slowly I’ve regained control so now I solely control the house, which has improved it, but it’s also a huge stressor on me, because the more i take on, the more is expected of me. Like how my dad can’t microwave his own food or pick up his meds at the pharmacy drive thru. LOL

So much oversharing and idgaf if no one reads bc it’s embarrassing and probably pretty dumb like i could be dealing with sooo much worse lol but im so fed up and don’t feel like going to get my journal lol. So yep sorry bout that but GRRAAAAAHH!

My dad is not evil my family is not evil. They are depressed. Not evil thats unrealistic and cartoonish and i think if ur response to this is to say smth like that i understand but u may want to evaluate ur life and relationships. My family is depressed. I’m depressed. Thanks for trying to validate my experience but it makes me feel strange when people view my family as cartoon villains when literally everything is nuanced and I’m sure that from their perspectives, what they’re doing is rational. Humans ok lol but i am very frustrated

[naamahdarling]

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[girlivealwaysbean]

i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[kasumingo]

I have a hypothesis that having something to watch and look forward to every week (or at least in a regular time intervals) is more significant and beneficial to people's mental health more than one could think

It's both important because of the enrichment factor, but also from the perspective of having something positive to look forward to every week at a set time, guaranteed to appear no matter of what happened in your life, the state of your mood and where are you currently in life

As well as being delivered in manageable doses, not causing overwhelm, not taking up enough time to be disorderly to your schedule

I feel it's especially important to neurodivergent people, but also being a net positive in neurotypicals as well

It's generally a comforting presence that makes us feel a little bit more in control in the face of everything else that might be going on at the while

I feel like entertainment is generally more significant to our lives than it's often regarded as

We need to unwind in a controlled way on a regular basis

[fadewalking]

Bellara lowkey pissing me off with all this feeling guilty bs

[shallowseeker]

Eileen: "Sam. I can't...do this. I'm not...built for this."

Look, I don't care what ANYONE says. Sam’s son Dean (Spencer Borgeson) looks a STUPID LOT like Eileen Leahy (Shosannah Stern), and no writers or actors are ever going to change my mind that it wasn't cast that way on purpose.

Like, seriously, did they use magic copy-pasta to remake her scrunchy smile and uberdark doe-eyes?!

///

So, what happened? I'll tell ya what happened. Sam kept hunting for a little while, but he and Eileen had an unplanned pregnancy and she and Sam got out...for a little while. Until Eileen had a lone-wolf-hunter freakout and left. Sam's the one who stayed. And it was easier to let Dean think she was dead.

Dean drives the little red muscle car (THE red 1971 Plymouth Valiant) she left behind, "to feel closer to her."

So, you see... Sam becomes Ellen, Dean Jr. becomes Jo.

Except Bill (Eileen) is fucking alive, and Dean Jr. swears he'll never speak to Sam again when he finds out.

"Because you hid all this from me, dad! You didn't give me my own choice!"

There's all these people that know Dean's name and know so many details about his life (a Jody Mills, a Donna Hanscum, etc etc.), but he doesn't know them, and he feels lied to.

His grandparents were killed in a plane crash, or so he thought, and Dad said uncle Dean died in a construction accident (something about rebar).

They all look so normal in their family photos that Dean soon learns Sam has carefully doctored to "sell" the lie even more convincingly.

Dean Jr. doesn't know hunting or angels or about Castiel or Jack.

Sam doesn't want him to throw it all away, because what about college?! Sam would have killed to finish college! He's trying to protect him. It's not manipulation. It's love.

But Dean starts hunting with Eileen.

He starts using “Leahy” and his middle name (Mason?) instead.

And Sam's dying inside over it.

He is. He goes out to the garage, slips into the impala's front seat, and he sobs.

(Actually, I totally dig this. I'd watch it.)

[mynameishedgehog]

hey yall, i dont generally do this on here

fuckn, vote blue.

are u queer at all? vote blue or your existance will be illegal

do u have a womb or vagina? vote blue so we keep what agency over it we still have

are you involved with the american school system? vote blue because conservatives are trying to dismantle the department of education.

i can not stress enough how important it is for conservatives to lose this election. any sort of freedom we have as americans will be stripped and we will be expected to thank them for it.

[letsrevince]

girl hold me, leftists are being wrong about signalis because of its east german aesthetics online again (and being INCREDIBLY racist about germans whilst at it) 😭

[doctorweebmd]

accidentally* brainstormed a very complete outline for chapters 4-8 for eih, which should theoretically take us through Part 1. which is. you know. a godsend or whatever.

*accidentally meaning i was just eating delicious pancakes and the thoughts happened. usually its me crying screaming and shitting myself in front of an empty word document where ideas manifest. this is notably much more pleasant.

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

very tired of not being allowed to have Certain Characteristics