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hey yall, i dont generally do this on here
fuckn, vote blue.
are u queer at all? vote blue or your existance will be illegal
do u have a womb or vagina? vote blue so we keep what agency over it we still have
are you involved with the american school system? vote blue because conservatives are trying to dismantle the department of education.
i can not stress enough how important it is for conservatives to lose this election. any sort of freedom we have as americans will be stripped and we will be expected to thank them for it.
#vote blue#this isnt even about trump really#this is about republicans wanting control#they want total control#and are actively trying to turn our government into a dictatorship#i didnt even add everything theyre trying to do with this prpject 2025#i was reading the wiki about it when i made the post#so if i left out a group of people whos loves will be irrevocably changed by a red president#i apologize
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(random s5 finale musings) tbh I don't think Marinette chose to keep The Secrets⢠from Adrien because Gabriel asked her to. I feel like Marinette keeping secrets like that is so consistent with her character; she hates giving people bad news, she hates rocking the boat, she hates upsetting people, she always chooses to keep any 'controversial' information to herself for as long as she can get away with (examples: bubbler scarf, telling Queen Bee she was benched, confessing to Adrien, warning Chat Noir about Scarabella or Rena Furtive, never told Chat Noir about Chat Blanc, etc) that I just totally believe she would've done it either way. She was even already having nightmares about Adrien hating her for finding out she defeated his father, so I feel like Gabriel's request was moreso giving her a go-ahead than it was a primary deciding factor, yknow?
#ml s5 spoilers#tbh half the time when thinking about it I forget that gabriel asked her to do it at all#because it just feels like such a Marinette⢠thing to do to me lol#to be fair maybe I'm downplaying it? I do think Gabriel's plea struck some emotional chord with her too and helped push her that direction#but again I. totally believe she'd do it either way#and I do strongly believe that her decision is moreso ''I don't want to hurt Adrien'' than it is ''I want to honor Gabriel's final wish''#she loves to avoid verbal/emotional problems and hoooo boy idk a worse verbal/emotion problem than#telling your boyfriend that his entire life is a lie and that he's not entirely human and that he was abused and controlled and puppeteered#all his life and also that his father was a terrorist and that she saw his mom's corpse in the basement#I mean. I don't think I'd have the emotional maturity to break that to someone either and I'm not.... FOURTEEN.... LOL
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when i said i wanted to understand whateverâs going on in ivanâs head, i didnât mean like this đđ
#alnst ivan#alnst till#ivantill#alien stage#ooooh boy turns out ivanâs self esteem is pretty low in terms of love#makes total sense but itâs not what i expected from someone who looked so in control of what he wanted and was willing to pursue from till#he loves humbly which was my first intepretation of him before we even got round 3#itâs changed since then with more (mis)information leaked by vivinos to misdirect our understanding of him#so to get this clear dialogue of his final thoughts is really⌠clarifying#and terribly sad in a way#ivan loves till so much and is entirely aware that he hasnât been the most gentle of suitors#god i have many thoughts about this#ahhh ivan baby your feelings arenât shallow at all
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Something something puppetisms
#something something. dirk and his splinters wanting to be in control. wanting to be puppet masters.#something something dirk and his splinters always ending up being used and puppeteered by others#usually caliborn#something something.#dirk and hal trying to puppet each other but its all for nothing#hrrnh i love yuri#homestuck#dirk strider#lil hal#hal strider#auto responder#autoresponder#caliborn#dirkuu#halcal#dirkhal#theyre all dating. yeah. this is my fave ship#dirkhalcal#dirk x hal x caliborn#art#my art#fanart#digital art#shhh i totally didnt lose steam on caliborns bit. whaaat...
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Wei Wuxian and Narrative Agency â Part Three
For Xiantober Day Five: Past and Present, in which the author gets very unhinged about what parts of the past are shown and how thatâs affected by the present!
(Part One | Part Two | Full version on AO3)
The Power of Agency: Shaping the Narrative
When I've discussed Wei Wuxian's agency previously, Iâve talked about how whatâs shown and omitted tells us about a character, and weâve talked about the character himself. Though this is a niche topic, itâs not necessarily something out of the ordinary to analyse, and we can assume everything up to here has been in some way intentional.
This? Linking structure to a characterâs in-universe preferences?
This is where we get unhinged.
Before I start, letâs quickly establish something which will be important later: although Wei Wuxian is the central character, MDZS isnât strictly from his POV. While omitting events a character doesnât like to dwell on and concealing things the character wishes to hide is common in books with only one narrator, MDZS has multiple narrators which it switches between relatively quickly. This includes Wei Wuxian, but it also includes nearly every major character that appears in the story, and omniscient narrator as well. As a default, this format doesnât lead to this deliberate shaping and omission because of one characterâs preferences, since we have many other sources of information and events â which is what makes Wei Wuxianâs influence over the narrative and structure so interesting. We could have access to a lot more information, and access to it at different times, than we do (and thatâs not an insult, quite the opposite!).
To begin: weâve established that times such as Wei Wuxianâs time on the streets, his three months in the Burial Mounds and his loss in the Siege arenât shown because Wei Wuxian has little agency there. But thatâs not the only special thing about them. Theyâre also the three most traumatic times in his life, and so moments Wei Wuxian himself either canât remember, or doesnât like to dwell on.
This is why discussing Wei Wuxianâs treatment of tragedy in his life was important. Firstly, it shows he doesnât focus on the tragedy in his life, so the idea that the narrative not focusing on this tragedy relates to his character has merit; secondly, it affirms that this is not a passive trait, but a choice. Therefore, when the narrative omits events due to this aspect of Wei Wuxian, itâs respecting not only a character detail â which would be cool by itself â but also an active decision. One that shapes the story itâs made in.
In other words, its very structure is respecting Wei Wuxianâs agency!
Now, of course there are flashbacks to other moments of his past he probably wouldnât like to dwell on, too. But within the structure, theyâre only shown when Wei Wuxian is thinking about them (or when he has reason to)!
Wei WuXian hadnât woken up yet. His eyes were still tightly shut, yet his hand didnât let go either. He seemed to be dreaming, muttering, â⌠Donât⌠Donât be angryâŚâ Lan WangJi seemed somewhat surprised. His voice was gentle, âI am not angry.â Wei WuXian, â⌠Oh.â Hearing this, as though he finally felt assured, his fingers loosened. Lan WangJi sat beside Wei WuXian for a while. Seeing that he was motionless again, he was about to stand up when Wei WuXian grabbed him with his other hand, hugging his arm and refusing to let go. He shouted, âIâll go with you, quick, take me back to your sect!â Chapter 63, EXR translation
Which, of course, is him dwelling onâŚ
Lan WangJi spoke one word at a time, âGo back to Gusu with me.â Hearing this, both Wei WuXian and Jiang Cheng were surprised. Quickly afterward, Wei WuXian laughed, âGo back to Gusu with you? To the Cloud Recesses? Why go there?â He immediately seemed to realize, âOh. I forgot. Your uncle Lan QiRen hates crooked people like me. Youâre his proudest disciple, so of course youâre the same as him, haha. I refuse.â Chapter 62, EXR translation
âŚthe painful flashback immediately preceding this. The third set of flashbacks (which are also painful) are a similar case. Look at the contex:
He lifted the bottom of his robe, revealing a prosthetic leg made of wood, âThis leg of mine was destroyed by you, that night in the Nightless City (âŚ)â (âŚ) âWei WuXian, I wonât ask you if you remember or not. Both of my parents died by your hands. You owe too many people. You definitely wonât remember them either. But, I, Fang MengChen, will never forget! And never forgive you!â (âŚ) âIn the fight at Qiongqi Path, my son was strangled to death by your dog Wen Ning!â âMy shixiong died by poison, his entire body festering due to your cruel curse!â Chapter 68 (immediately preceding the flashbacks), EXR translation
And Wei Wuxianâs own thoughts and words:
Wei WuXian looked at the cultivators before the Demon-Slaughtering Cave. Their expressions were the absolute same as those of the cultivators from the night of the pledge conference, pouring their wine on the ground as they took the pledge to scatter the ashes of the Wen Sectâs remnants and him. (âŚ) Wei WuXian, âNow itâs time to ask just whom it is that treasures it so much. Itâs like Wen Ning. Back then, some certain sects or so were scared to death of the Ghost General. They said theyâd kill him on the surface, but behind their backs they hid him for over ten years. How strange. Who was the one that said his ashes had been scattered back then?â Chapter 79 (immediately succeeding the flashbacks), EXR translationÂ
Once again, Wei Wuxianâs own thoughts relate to the flashbacks weâve just been shown. And, as I previously mentioned, though all the events which are shown are tragic, theyâre also events which Wei Wuxianâs own choices and actions shaped â which he has this to say about:
âThe things I did, not only do you remember them, I remember them too. You wonât forget them, and theyâll stay even longer in my mind!â Chapter 82, EXR
Admittedly, this applies more to the third set of flashbacks than the second (which is still fitting as the third set was the most recent), as in the second, although he still had agency within and influence over his circumstances, the majority of the pain was caused by othersâ actions (excluding, of course, the Golden Core transfer⌠which is something we know stays for a long time in his mind, albeit with a caveat weâll soon discuss). But itâs still important to note â especially considering that otherwise, focusing on this very painful time in his life wouldnât seem like something very in-character for Wei Wuxian to do.
Of course, this can all just be explained by good writing. It is best to insert flashbacks when theyâre relevant to the characters and events in the present day! But it is interesting to compare these to the start of the (not painful) Gusu flashbacks, which open this way:
At a later time, Wei WuXian pondered upon the reason why his relationship with Lan WangJi wasnât good. Getting to the root of the matter, everything started when he was fifteen, coming to the GusuLan Sect with Jiang Cheng to study for three months. Chapter 13, EXR
Again, considering the circumstances around which these flashbacks take place â returning to the Cloud Recesses for the first time since the lectures, and meeting Lan Wangji once more â it makes complete sense for Wei Wuxian to be thinking about these events*. So it does fit the pattern of Wei Wuxian dwelling on something, thus leading to the narrative dwelling on it, too (and being shaped by his thoughts)⌠but thereâs another layer to this. Importantly, it is the only flashback where Wei Wuxianâs present thoughts donât lead to this happening, with his thoughts at an unspecified future time leading to it, instead. I like to interpret this as the text saying that, since these events arenât something Wei Wuxian wouldnât focus on in normal circumstances, he can dwell on them at any time. Therefore, theyâre free to come up in the narrative at any time as well, even if heâs not dwelling on them in the present moment!
So, to summarise: Wei Wuxianâs decision not to focus on the painful times in his life directly influences the narrative to not focus on these times. When painful times are brought up and shown to us, itâs in the context of him thinking about them in the present day, and even then, his most painful moments still arenât shown to us. His agency in this regard is still respected by the narrative structure.
This is the main way his agency influences the structure of the narrative, but Iâd like to talk about the revealing and concealing of information, too. For example, I said Iâd talk about the Golden Core transfer â though Wei Wuxian does think about this many times, as evidenced by his internal narration in Chapter 103. But unlike everything weâre shown through the flashbacks, this is something Wei Wuxian is actively trying to hide from others. And the narrative respects this choice (Wei Wuxianâs agency, again), never reveals it even when it would be relevant in the flashbacks, and we find out not through narration, but through a characterâs dialogue!
And to clarify â I know these aspects may not be in the book for this exact reason. Showing flashbacks in relevant moments is good writing, concealing an important plot point you want to do a reveal for is necessary writing, and MXTX has said she didnât want to write about Wei Wuxianâs time in the Burial Mounds, due to not liking to write transformation sequences (and also because it would not be pleasant at all, which likely also applies to Wei Wuxianâs death). That doesnât prevent it from also being intentional â MXTXâs intelligence is shown in many aspects of this book, and thereâs nothing disproving it â but thereâs no proof for either option, so I wonât pretend there is. I bring this up because I know this feels like Iâm overanalysing, as I feel that way as well.
But, whether itâs intentional or not, it exists in the text, and I adore it â so, regardless, itâs something Iâll explore. Because taking this into account⌠We aren't just told about Wei Wuxian having agency, we arenât just shown it in the text, we arenât even just shown it through which parts of his past are shown and hidden in the structure of the text (as I talked about in Part One). The parts of the past that are shown and hidden also have an in-universe reason for being shown and hidden, this reason being the choices he makes! Agency is the ability of a character to influence the story theyâre in, but Wei Wuxianâs agency, as a property of a character who only exists in-universe, shapes the out-of-universe structure as well! Thatâs how weâre shown its importance! How cool is that?
At The End Of The Road: Summary and Final Thoughts
In this essay, weâve covered how important Wei Wuxianâs agency is not only to the events of the plot, but to the structure of the narrative as well. The narrative omits periods in which Wei Wuxian has little or no agency, in favour of showing us periods in which he does, even when important events happened in the former. This indicates that who Wei Wuxian is without agency isnât important enough to be shown to the audience, and therefore that his agency is an integral aspect of his character in MDZS. Weâve discussed how both in-universe and out-of-universe, tragedy does not define him â out-of-universe, the tragic events in Wei Wuxianâs life are used not to build sympathy but rather to show his strength of character and who he still is despite going through them; and in-universe, he chooses not to focus on the negativity and resentment caused by his circumstances or othersâ actions, instead staying true to his moral compass and enjoying his life in the present day. Finally, weâve also explored how this choice is another reason for the omission of certain events from the narrative, resulting in his agency shaping the story in a very literal way â it affects the out-of-universe structure, as well.
Itâs quite fitting, for a story whose essence is about defying a conventional narrative â that of righteous clans rising up and defeating a great evil â and about a character who defies many conventional narratives on his own â that of status defining how skilled you could be, that for a golden core being necessary for cultivation and other paths being unavailable, that of a tragic but complete story of someone killed for staying true to their moral code (instead, that character returns to life and has a happy ending) â to have its own narrative play a role in such an important and interesting way.
(Or, if an image would be preferable:)
Thank you for reading!
(Part One | Part Two | Full version on AO3)
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*This strong relation to the present day circumstances is another reason I love the flashback placement so much (and why I think itâs such a loss both screen adaptions altered it so strongly)!Â
#get ready for tag thoughts because there are a LOT of them#itâs for THIS reason that fanon wwx bothers me so much (didnât want to get negative on the acual post)#bc so often all the changes are changes that woobify him!#self-sacrificial idiot wwx?? only doing things because⌠poor him he has so many internal issues and values himself so little-#-so of course heâd sacrifice everything before thinking of another option? woobifying#(whenever he sacrifices something itâs a deliberate choice to act on his morals because he values his morals so much â and heâs also very-#-capable and DOES often find ways for no people to get hurt!)#wasnât aware that what happened to him at lotus pier was wrong and needs lwj to tell him that for him to have any idea if it?#woobifying (as we see in the lotus seed pod extra he KNOWS itâs unfair)#(he downplays it retroactively in his memory (links into not focusing on the bad things in his life))#(but thatâs the actions themselves that are being downplayed not their fairness!)#he chooses to act! he is defined by acting! not tragedy â all the more impressive in the face of the amount of tragedy thatâs happened#he could SO EASILY have been a woobie but instead heâs the opposite of one: defined BY his agency instead of the absence of it#that doesnât mean heâs not impacted by tragedy or trauma â he is! but itâs not the most important aspect of his character (bc he doesnât le#itâs also something that bothers me about the changes cql made#by making qq path and nightless city the fault of someone else it means he IS someone whoâs more a victim of circumstance than anything els#he had no control over the tragedies of his first life at all#apart from ig his death being controlled by him? because he just leaps off the cliff during the nightless city siege?? but in THAT case itâ#i watched that part recently (iâm getting through it very slowly) and yeah it reaffirmed my love for this aspect of the book even more#despite. having these exact thoughts for two years already#he also dwells on the past events a lot more than book wwx which adds to that version of him BEING defined more by tragedy rather than who#anyway over 7.3k words total (and 400 more in the tags apparently)... it'll be posted to ao3 in its completion this evening!#mdzs meta#my meta#wei wuxian#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#ééçĽĺ¸#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#gdc
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more from the malevolent au :) at one point arceus and tina take over rei and ingo's bodies and it's verrrry cool and fun (but not for them)
[image id: a sketch page showing designs of Arceus and Giratina possessing Rei and Ingo. "Ingo" now has sharp, long sideburns, mimicking Giratina's mask, and six black tendrils stretch from his back. He is colored in with pure black and red. "Rei" is ghostly and otherworldly, with a halo of light behind him and black outlining his body. His lineart is white, and he is not colored in. There are several sketches showing off the before and afters of both of them, as well as a small doodle of them standing next to each other, with text in all caps reading "pov: you are about to be rended from existence". End id]
#art#my art#digital art#pokemon#pokemon art#subway boss ingo#warden ingo#both ??? i guess#for organizations sake#submas#pla rei#arceus#giratina#malevolent au#lemon yemon#SHEHEHEHHE delighted with these#rei's especially came out muchh better than i was expecting#i really wanted to push the idea of divinity being this chillingly offputting thing#and just to be totally clear this is not ingo or rei <3 theyre not in control at all#but they are watching :)!#this happens when they finally confront volo#once hes been erased they go back to normal#rei and ingo when two gods use their bodies to worse-than-kill someone: okay. :thumbsup: <- absolutely shattered
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You're always so on point with your posts. On that note, it made me realize that; Considering the themes of desires in DunMeshi. It's also to say that what you think you want isn't what you actually want.
Like, Marcille thinks she wants the handsome prince from the novels she reads... But what she actually wants is someone maybe more like her father who she admired so much. Kind, virtuous, caring to a fault, a family man. Things she later finds in Chilchuck.
Because as traumatizing as it was to see her mother's spiral after her father's death; Her memories of her father itself are some of the most important to her. And it fits with her pursuit to increase her loved ones' lives, because she does want what her mother and father had.
Sipping. I do go over âwhat you think you want vs what you actually want + what you needâ in my (upcoming) Marcille & Chil arc analysis ;) Itâs a part of Dunmeshi that I really like and is super fascinating, Iâd honestly like to make an analysis-post on the topic: all the different threads and characters in canon that reflect that, desires vs wants and themes of idealization in Dunmeshi, but itâs one of those things thatâs just so huge to make. See this is the freaking problem with doing Dunmeshi meta you start talking about the themes or a narrative and everything is so interwoven you get distracted with tangents BUT ITâS ALL COMPELLING AND RELEVANT
I know thatâs something laimar does a lot too, the dad thing, with Marcille in a post-canon comic knitting beside him paralleling her parents and whatnot. I donât know if I fully agree on the angle but thereâs definitely stuff to dig at thereâŚ
Like I know that Iâd like to analyze Marcilleâs succubus more, it comes up in my analysis draft but itâs not the point Iâm trying to make there so I focus on other stuff but⌠I always saw the focus of Marcilleâs succubus as that she sought out an emotional connection most of all, itâs romantic and courtly in nature but more importantly thereâs personality and behavior there and itâs a character she already loves and knows deeply from having read the series, so itâs not like Chil where itâs just a pretty face whose identity doesnât matter. A friend of mine though, @room-surprise, goes with the angle that it shows she isnât ready for a relationship and that the appeal is very self-centered, and I def think compelling points are madeâŚ
Point I was trying to make, the succubus is definitely at the crux of figuring what it is Marcille wants and craves in someone Iâd say, where sheâs emotionally at wether consciously or subconsciously, or how she sees herself being involved in romance at least⌠Itâs true Marcille is enthusiastic about romance, but always someone elseâs, never hers, and she seems unwilling to examine her own relationships with people. She oversteps boundaries either obliviously or carelessly and doesnât like changeâŚ
And then thereâs how complex peopleâs relationship to fiction can be on top of that and graaaaah
Edit in bc I forgot I wanted to mention this like an idiot: OH and I do think the Daltian Clan serves a role in the general tapestry of Dunmeshi as well, sometimes in in depth ways that Room-Surprise will tackle in their research paper way better than me Iâm sure. My understanding of the importance of general Hagreus in a more general narrative sense is that he reinforces the theme of idealization/fantasy vs reality thatâs super present through the manga. Beyond just Marcilleâs arc and his importance to her heâs designed uncannily close to Mithrun, it parallels real elves and their very flawed military system and the broken people it cultivates vs the romanticized elves put on an aesthetic pedestral in novels, especially considering itâs "general" Hareus
To give some previews of the analysis wip: Thus the succubus targets Marcilleâs wish for a perfect knight who could cherish her forevermore, someone safe and known and fantastical, just hers in a way, free to see and construct however she wants because heâs a character to interpret Dungeon Meshi is in part about resisting desires, the irrational cravings, mostly through the character of the demon. I mentioned needs earlier, and to ideals vs wants we also add vs needs, both emotional and physical. And needs alongside wants are what Dungeon Meshi wishes to promote for a healthier person. Dungeon Meshi illustrates very well with the dungeon lords that you can be a slave to your desires. Dunmeshi prones the important of balance for both a healthy body and a healthy mind, and the arc of optimism vs pessimism with Marcille & Chilchuck is one such case <3
Ouuuugh how flawed relationships with flawed people can still be made into somehing good and healthy that make the world brighterâŚ
Weâve gone far from the topic of how her family shaped what she seeks in relationships haha, I think you put it well already though I donât have much to add on that front Edit in 2: SIKE! Iâll add that thereâs an interesting thread in the manga of Marcille maturing and becoming more like her mother, which would be interesting and fun to pair with the fatherhood of Chil. Because Marcille is sometimes a mother figure as well: sheâs the mom friend. I go over it here, and since when I made that post Iâve seen more interesting analysis on the topic too, like noticing she hides behind her motherâs portrait in the nightmare chapter, perhaps the inspiration behind her more mature reserved academic persona she sometimes has. Her parents are def important to her so itâs interesting to see how all the dynamics and her own psychology fit into thatâŚ.
But yeah I think what she (thinks she) wants out of romance has a lot of layers, both conscious and subconscious⌠I havenât gone into the bigger picture of how fiction affects her relationships here but itâs the central topic of my Marcille & Chil arc analysis so. She idealizes the trope of the prince charming and finds it attractive but is that what she would actually latch onto⌠Is it fully superficial, is it more about herself than it is about her potential partner... Is it mainly because she wants to get validation, from being special that she typically gets from high academic performance⌠We do see she can be rather insecure and worried about othersâ perspective of her, that they think sheâs not useful or capable enough, especially in the mandrake chapter⌠Unconditional love perhaps
What is your emotional landscape Marcille. How emotionally intelligent are you. I donât think she knows what she wants romantically. I think she has a job so she donât really care about that rn Iâm just not sure if we can figure out what she ~actually~ wants on her behalf that might be too many levels of interpretation but idk idk, thinking on it still
#Ask#marchil#Spoilers#Dungeon meshi manga spoilers#As an aroace obviously obsessed with shipping. Me đ¤ Marcille very possibly being uncomfortable at the thought of being in a relationship#Considering her fear of loss + loss of control at categorizing her relationships and the Falin bath scene analysis yk the one#How she pushes herself to think of Falin as a kid still bc itâs more digestible and less scary. Bc change and aging and vulnerability#Like she could totally be super on board to get into a romance at a snap of fingers buuut thereâs enough material where also could be not#The post ended up not being very marchil but yeah⌠in the end i ship it bc i think chil is both what she wants and needs in a lover#Itâs ok even if they donât do much pda sheâll just romanticize that it makes it more special#Marcille donato#Meta#Btw big recommend the youtube video essay on OFMD season 2 by The Sin Squad⌠Makes me think about Marcille v much
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SCOGUE-âTemberâ (2024)
Day â4â: đ
#shenanigans#scogue#x men evolution#otp: sensory deprivation#rogue x scott#scott x rogue#xmen evolution#rogue x cyclops#my art#scott x anna marie#anna marie x scott summers#anna marie x scott#cyclops x anna marie#cyclops x rogue#cyclops#x men#xmen#rogue#rogue anna marie#anna marie x cyclops#anna marie rogue#scott summers#anyone else remember when this totally happened in canon? no? just me? okay đ#wip art#wip sketch#either this is one of rogueâs daydreams before/after joining the xmen#when mesmero was controlling her#look if she kissed remy to get his powers and not the rest of the brotherhood/acolytes#she totally could have kissed scott too while nabbing the rest of the xmenâs powers!#mostly I just wanted to see them smooch đ
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God⌠Sundayâs desire for control stemming from his fear of losing what he loves is like⌠gutting.
Look at what he did, look at the lengths he went to, looks at the lengths he was WILLING to go to if we didnât stop him. And all of it was in good faith. ALL of it was to protect.
Do you guys get it?? He feels that deeply, he loves that deeplyâ so gravely that he was prepared to sacrifice himself to create a world where no one would ever know suffering or pain again. A world where he would become the âstrongâ and protect the âweakâ.
A world where he has control. Because under his control, no fledglings would ever learn what it feels like to plummet. He will become the metaphorical and literal cage that protects it.
#ramble#he was literally gonna die on the cross#the greatest flaw in his philosophy is his GREAT lack of faith in humanity#he doesnât believe that they can survive/find true happiness on their own#he thinks that theyâll only hurt themselves or get hurt without guidance#he doesnât think they know whatâs good for them#heâs pessimistic in that way#thinking⌠if he had complete and total control then he could have prevented the disaster that took his mother#if he had complete and total control then that bullet that almost took Robin never would have touched her at all#obsessed with control because he wants the power to keep Penacony safe#Iâm on the floor
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20/10 stars little guy
#me (scrounging undetected autist whose ideal fashion sense is ''if i have to be seen at all: shrouded'') seeing encanto the other month.....#and on top of it all i LOVE slice of life. encanto being so focused on What It's About that there's so much of that + character / dynamic#also part of what i loved abt pixar luca. ppl like ''simple story but not a problem :)'' like YEAH thank god it's Also so slice of lifey#2021 what a year lol. though again i only Just saw encanto....tfw Studio Creative Control backs off a bit more than usual: Joy & Wonders#anyway i knew going in bruno wasn't an antagonist (fine if he was though b/c slay & b/c scapegoats can do whatever they want)#knew i'd love him b/c again Scapegoat shows up & i'm the Amazing Showstopping Totally Unique Never The Same gif on loop#but what a delight even beyond those expectations lol. love again how Focused the movie is on What It's About & Thee Points it makes#the Characters / Dynamics & the Metaphor & the plot stays right with all of that. the focus & importance re: thee scapegoats....#& bruno being disabled like whole layer of Yay Yay Yay spamming. that even when He's Back we're reminded he's not ''normal now'' or w/e#(i.e. presenting that as The Good Ending for the disabled outcast. vs just being embraced as part of the group again & accepted As He Is)#meanwhile was like hmm chat is there queercoding do we think? like is he queer: Yes. but is there coding? hmm#sure isn't cishet coded though. but i was also having the thought like fellas is it gay to [higher tenor tessitura or w/e] lol#made me go ''do i know this voice? ok do i know this name / face / actor? (i have never seen anything ever / bad w/names/faces/voices)''#indeed was like yeah haven't seen this; heard of this; seen it once ages ago no way i remember more than like 0.6 details#then from ''ohh haha I'm A Mammal That Cares....yeah i hear that'' to ''omg CHI-CHI RODRIGUEZ???? ;;0;;'' waaah fantastic revelation lmao#also the way Literal Future Seer ability was externalized to make it more wrangleable for plot is so impressive & fun & excellent#got a lot of [i like this thing i saw a lot] i got to say....guess i can do that w/the sideblog i made for one drawing i made last night#encanto 2021#bruno madrigal#also the way bruno is so Nervous + Hiding / Bold + Big Personality like yes ha ha ha Yes....tamped down as ''too much'' experience#also the [stuttering stumbling muttering mumbling] line: i fr nigh wept upon going back over a moment like what am i hearing here?#& realizing the answer was: it's bruno quietly stuttering a moment during this one line (& then (& then (& then)) i saw you) ;;;mm;;;#hang onnn....the first scapegoat who's driven off being Disabled is so real so ;m; that again they're like so he got Weirder; Okay ;;m;;#that we get jorge thumbs up nobody having an Aside to be like [ugh; this guy] or Anything. augh always have too much to say for 30 tags#fabric drape there sure not accurate but i was like okay if i try to really reference that i'm not getting this done tonight
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What if I exploded into blood and gore and viscera just real quick and then reconstituted like nothing happened and then everyone can get back to what they're doing. I just feel it would be fun to do.
#'och! a proccess has occurred!'#this post đ¤ my I want to be eaten by an alligator post đ¤ my I want castiel to hit me in the head with a hammer (gone sexual) post#I don't know what they say about my psyche but I know they're all connected. maybe it just says quite simply masochism lmao#it's not to be in pain it's to have an overwhelming sensory experience#where I am not in control and nobody would expect me to be#and I'm totally fine afterwards#anyway. back to my definitely completely unrelated large project that is all my responsibility and is 99% computer based#cawis creates#am I perhaps underestimated đ¤đ¤đ¤#maybe I should try an exercise class or something
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Imagine you're Mr. Wu and your weird gay daughter runs away in tears after destroying some unespecified object while yelling about you ruining her life. Because you told her you'd be moving to another state. This is the last time you see your daughter in half a year, and when she comes back, she comes back... wrong. She's wearing a light leather armor, a fur-lined cape, and a green flower crown. She has two long scars, one alongside her spine and the other along her chest, the tissue around them covered in burn scars. Doctors say she shouldn't have survived. Doctors say she didn't. Yet she's right here, in front of you, hospital gown clinging to her small, fragile, trembling frame. She fidgets with her hands. Getting her to stay still has always been difficult, but now it seems impossible. She won't let go of her phone. She's always texting her two friends. When you take it away, she gets anxious. You always knew those damn phones cause kids to act weird, but your kid having a panic attack seems too extreme, even for her. Then again, she's always been odd. Nowadays, she wakes up crying and screaming almost every night, and you realize she's been stealing her phone from your bedside drawer every night to text her friends, returning it before you wake up. You catch her once and decide to give her that damn phone back. It's the only thing that calms her down, as if she were a baby with a pacifier. She spends her last weeks in LA clinging to her friends, having sleepovers and playing her weird board games with them. Everytime they drop her back at her house, there's an excessive amount of hugs and tears. But the moments when they call her, or when she leaves to meet with them, or when they show up at their door to pick her up... those are the only moments in which you see her happy. One of her friends, the rude and disobedient one, came back with a big scar on her face. She's been acting a lot nicer, though. The other one too. She acts a great deal more adult now. You doesn't know what happened or where your daughter went. She won't tell you. But you can tell this friendship is the only thing keeping her afloat right now. Maybe you know, deep down, that no one else would understand.
And then you decide to move anyway because fuck her amirite
#amphibia#marcy wu#my posts#so like what if marcy moving away was a proper tragedy#what if things were WORSE for her#what if *smashes marcy with a ROCK*#i realized that.#despite my parents being shitty (just found out literaly today my mom had doctors give me the wrong treatment because she assumed my body#would react the same way as hers. instead of doing what literally every doctor told her to do. now i need to get it fixed)#they still asked me how I felt about moving away to a different province when in like. 8.#like. oh right. this is something parents generally ask their kids about. instead of uprooting their entire lives out of nowhere.#marcy's situation is complicated in a narrative sense because#in order for her arc to work her departure must be dictated by morally neutral forces outside of her control#but her parents' decision seems very shitty with the context we're given. you COULD give context that justified their actions#i.e have them explain that they really do need this if they want marcy to go to college or some shit like that#but then it stops being Marcy vs. Forces of Nature#and it becomes Marcy vs. Her Dad (and she has to accept he's right in this one)#the show is clearly for a Marcy vs. Forces of Nature conflict (in this case it's the inevitability of change)#and in order to keep the antagonistic force abstract you CAN'T have her dad be a proper character#BUT. as a consequence -> Marcy has to give into the ''#the ''natural order'' which would be accepting her parents' power over her as natural and inevitable#it's not even like... accepting her parents are right or anything. just that their o#that their complete control of the situation and marcy's total powerlessness is natural and inevitable#and that's tragic! from a more watsonian Ăąerspective#perspective* : Marcy is sent back to her shitty parents and she just needs to learn how to deal with it away from her support system#the solution imo would have been to change the motivation behind her family moving away so that it's outside her parents' control too#it really has to be completely inevitable. i can't think of an alternative reason but it's just what it#it's what would fix this problem imo#it's a simple fix really
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boychild of destiny
#kingdom hearts#kh#kingdom hearts dark road#khdr#xehanort#young xehanort#player kh#casts beam of transgenderification on your tragic villain#aka xehanort goes to scala and learns about gender roles. what do you mean not everyone is like my parent what do you mean by Boy#when you grow up in total isolation and your only context is secondhand memories -#- from someone who doesnt really ascribe to that stuff to begin with#and then you meet other people for the first time and realize that they see you a certain way that you have no control over#and you don't even know if it's what you want or not. you didn't know you had to choose#playernort may be gone but genderfluid xehanort is forever. FOREVER#also not to be the 'loki was genderfluid' guy but--- (i am taken out by a sniper)#my art#kh art
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Prompt:
Swallowing âSukunaâsâ finger is a great way of omitting the fact thatâ well, strictly speaking⌠there is no Sukuna. Thereâs only Yuji. And, sure, heâs still getting the hang of this whole reincarnation thing, and heâs definitely happy heâs getting his powers back, but⌠dang it, his reincarnation his making him all soft and mushy inside! And at the rate those sorcerers are going, theyâll all be dead within the next two years if he doesnât do something about it!
Now heâs just gotta figure out how to make everyone believe he is not, in fact, the King of Curses, and simply his unfortunate and totally gullible vesselâŚ
#yes this blog is also a place to dump all my JJK fic prompts#what if: Yuji was simply Sukunaâs reincarnation#evil incarnate wanted to try something different and be nice#it backfires and heâs forced to work with sorcerers#yuji âI regret everythingâ Itadori#yuji very reluctantly starts caring about those idiot sorcerer#oh boy theyâre gonna get themselves killed so hard if he doesnât intervene#what- oh! no no I totally got Sukuna under control haha yeah heâs all tame and nice#Satoru âI wanna talk to Sukunaâ Gojo#Yuji glaring and channeling all his acting skills and memories of his past life and going the dramatic route of slicking his hair back#âYOU WANTED TO TALK WEAKLING!?â#Gojo: âŚ.?#yuji: ⌠too much?#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#ryomen sukuna#sukuna#yuji itadori#prompts#prompt#jjk prompt#jjk fanfic#fanfic#ideas
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âwhite mourning.â
#ââA white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.ââ#jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesnât make for a good practice#judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you donât see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice.#sheâs polite yes but she doesnât care as much as jean cares for harry#he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harryâs as#he put up with du boisâ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back.#he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb.#planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasnât the who started the whole fiasco#you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen#his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but#jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control#i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation.#but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse.#i relate to âjv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late#my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone.#kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon#disco elysium#de fanart#jean vicquemare#disco elysium fanart#jean heron vicquemare#jean posting#illustration#de#artists on tumblr#I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!!#i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings#my little maiu maiu#cryptiduni#my art
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Telltale Bruce Wayne is so good. He is a good boy, he's Alfred's son, he is a bit awkward with people sometimes, he cares about his friends, he's full of hope for Gotham and its people. He's rich but was raised by the help and IT SHOWS, and his intelligence is from being raised by Alfred. He stays dramatically under the rain where his parent died when he is sad, he doesn't let corrupted politicians or mob boss threaten him or tell him what to do, he wants mental ill people to be treated better and doesn't punch first people who are clearly mentally unstable, he's invested in Gotham even without the cape on. (This Bruce will adopt a ton of children and be good to them. Good dad right here, will get them therapy and not be mean to them)
And he looks like a wet cat behind a screen door, pleading for the human to open it. Understandable that the local cat lady fell for him.
#batman#bruce wayne#telltale batman#dc comics#my ramblings#I LOVE HIM#he's so babygirl#âsay hi bruceâ Bruce: âHi Bruceâ#10/10 good boy#and he is Alfred's boy#like they totally act as father and son all the time#he wants to bring fear to the criminals but hope to the people#it's about controlling the rage and not letting it take over you and the mission#he was mean to Alfred under the influence of a drug and IMMEDIATELY apologizes#and the (spoiler) revelation that his parents were bad people because rich folks are always bad people especially in Gotham???#Spectacular#âThey were billionaires you cannot be this rich by being a good personâ jzodbeoxbdkfv
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